,! ,W> ,OV] ,MY ,LIFE ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,ANONYM\S ,TEXT 3 ,! BATT]Y FEELS COLD AGA9/ MY F+]TOPS4 ,I /OP GRUBB+ AB\T 9 ! DESK DRAW]4 ,SL[LY ! FILT] ( ! CIG>ETTE PA/ES ITSELF ONTO MY LIPS4 ,! ?READ ( /EEL WOOL FROM ! WORK%OP IS DILIG5TLY PREP>$ ) ! EYES & ! FIT = ! BATT]Y4 ,SOLEMNY ,I CON/RUCT ! SMOLD]+ GE>4 ,FIR/ AT ! POSITIVE POLE4 ,IMPORTANT ?AT ! SMOLD]+ PO9T1 ! EYE1 IS PROP]4 ,& SO ! O!R 5D FOLL[S AT ! NEGATIVE POLE4 ,! SMOLD]+ APPE>S QUICKLY4 ,HURRI$LY ! TOBACCO FILL$ M\? ( ! CIG>ETTE MEETS ! GL[+ EYE4 ,PUFF4 ,PUFF4 ,! CIG>ETTE IS LITT54 ,! SMELL ( BURN$ METAL1 BATT]Y ACID & TOBACCO SMOKE4 ,IT IS PA/ LOCKUP4 ,I'M REALLY NOT ! SMOK] TYPE1 ,I'M DO+ ! SNUFF BUT !N AGA9 ! =BIDD5 SMOK+ RITUAL444 ,A H]ETIC RITUAL4 ,A SPIT 9 ! FACE ( ! CORRECTIONAL 9/ITUTION444A MANIFE/ATION ( A F]V5T NE$ )9 ME1 TO REFUSE ?AT UNI=M ?AT !Y >E TRY+ TO IMPOSE ON ME4 ,IT RAISES ! LIFE QUALITY444 ,I LIETTE ?AT ,I SLOPPILY ROLL$ MYSELF4 ,I /& 9 FRONT ( ! H\SE :]E ,I LIVE 9 AN ,EUROPEAN METROPOLE4 ,A CA?OLIC *UR* FACES ME 9 DEFIANCE FROM ! OPPOSITE SIDE ( ! /REET4 ,! CIG>ETTE NO LONG] RAISES ! LIFE QUALITY1 IT IS N[ AS MU* A P>T ( MY EV]YDAY LIFE AS WAS ! /RIP-SE>*ES 9 PRISON4 ,I CAN NEV] SPEAK = ANYONE ELSE )\T COMITT+ A MO/ HORRIFIC CRIME TO MYSELF1 ,I CAN ALWAYS ONLY SPEAK FROM MY [N EXP]I5CES1 MY CONTRADICT+ 9T]E/S & DESIRES4 ,! PRISON ?AT ,I WAS DEFY+ :5 ,I WAS LIETTE ) A BATT]Y & A PIECE ( /EEL WOOL1 IS ! SAME PRISON ?AT ,I DEFY :5 ,I TODAY *OOSE TO ACT = MYSELF1 = MY LIB]ATION & TO BE ABLE TO LIVE TOGE!R ) O!R FREE 9DIVIDUALS4 ,?IS IS NOT A PRISON ) A GIV5 NAME OR A SPECIFIC PLACE TO F9D = CONFRONTATION4 ,IT IS A PRISON ?AT ,I SEE US ALL LIV+ 94 ,! %APES IT TAKES >E SO MANY & ITS GUISES >E SO DIFF]5T BUT :AT !Y ALL HAVE 9 COMMON IS ?AT !Y >E SUB/ANTIALIZ$ AS SOON AS Y\ TRY TO APPROA* ! SPONTANE\S1 ! WORDLESS1 ! IMM$IATE1 ! UNM$IAT$ - ?AT1 :I* IS Y\R LIFE4 ,!RE >E MANY DIFF]5T NAMES = ?IS PRISON - %AME1 JU/IFICATION1 OBLIGATION1 DUTY1 OB$I5CE - ?AT ALL >E D]IV+ FROM ! SAME S\RCE1 :I* IS1 TO BE RUL$ BY SOMEONE ELSE'S 9T]E/S4 ,! PRISON WALLS MO/ SIMPLE TO AIM ONES >S5AL AT1 >E ( C\RSE ! ONES RID PAP] WORK1 ADM9I/RATE \R LIFE CIRCUM/ANCES4 ,BUT :AT IS !N A DEMOLI%$ WALL :5 Y\ LAT] F9ANCE ITS RECON/RUCTION ) ! TAXES Y\ PAY FROM ! WORK Y\ HAVE BE5 MORE OR LESS IMPOS$ TO DO8 ,:51 AFT] ALL1 !RE IS YET ANO!R WALL & YET ANO!R /ILL444BEH9D ! FIR/ ONE8 ,ATTACK IS A SPL5DID ACT BUT IS SO EASILY 9/ITUTIONALIZ$ 9TO BECOM+ YET ANO!R UNREFLECT$ P>T ( ONES ADM9I/RAT$ EV]YDAY LIFE'S CON/ITUTION4 ,! ATTACK IS 9DE$ AN ACT ( SELF-DEF5SE :5 IT IS AIM$ FROM A SLAVE TO A RUL] BUT H[ LONG >E WE GONNA ACT LIKE SLAVES1 H[ LONG >E WE GONNA DEF5D \RSELVES8 ,H[ LONG >E WE GONNA LET \R IDEAS - \R PASSIONS & WILLS - GIVE 9 TO ! FE> ( REALLY BECOM+ A ?REAT TO ! RUL+ 9T]E/S8 ,:5 DO WE QUIT \R ROLES AS SUBMITT$ & />T ACT+ ) ! SELF-CONFID5CE ( ONE :O LACKS ( MA/]S8 ,:5 DO WE /OP BELIEV+ 9 *ANGE & />T TO DE/ROY ! F\NDATION ( ?IS PRISON1 ?AT SURR\NDS US ALL FROM FIR/ BREA? TO ! LA/8 ,WE CAN ONLY BE RUL$ SO F> AS WE ALL[ \RSELVES TO BE4 ,IT MID TO DIS>M4 ,ULTIMATELY3 ,! ONE :O RA!R *OOSES TO DIE ?AN TO B[ BE=E A MA/]1 IS 9 NO WAY BETT] OR WORSE ?AN ANY O!R 9DIVIDUAL - DISGU/+ MORALI/ VALUES DON'T BELONG H]E - BUT :AT WE CAN SAY IS ?AT IT DIES AS ITSELF4 ,IT *OOSES TO DIE ( & = ITSELF1 = ITS WILL TO LIVE COMPLETELY 9 ACCORDANCE TO ITS [N PASSIONS1 NE$S & DESIRES4 ,IT *OOSES TO DIE RA!R ?AN TO S]VE SOMEONE ELSE'S 9T]E/S4 ,MO/ PEOPLE CONT9UE1 H[EV]1 B>ELY LIV+1 TO KILL !MSELVES = SOMEONE ELSE'S 9T]E/S4 ,FEW >E ( C\RSE ! ONES :O WI% TO DIE BUT1 CONFRONT$ ) ! POSSIBILITY TO REALLY LIVE1 WILL !Y DE> TO TAKE ! *ANCE8 ,:AT DOES IT REALLY MEAN TO LIVE 9 CON/ANT HO/ILITY ) ! EXI/5T1 ) ! /ATE1 ) ! 9T]E/S ?AT TRIES TO RULE ME8 ,PUT ASIDE ! RA!R EXCIT+ TA/E IT GIVES AS ! WORDS ROLL \T ( ! M\?1 IT IS ( C\RSE SOME?+ ?AT RECIEVES A NEW ANSW] EV]Y TIME A COMRADE ASKS H]SELF ?AT QUE/ION4 ,= ME1 ?IS MEANS TO NEV] BECOME COM=TABLE 9 ! CIRCUM/ANCES ?AT ! RUL]S CREATE = US - CIRCUM/ANCES !Y CREATE 9 AN ILLUSORY EX*ANGE = \R SUBMISSION4 ,I 5JOY LIFE AS MU* AS ,I CAN BUT ,I NEV] S9K SO F> 9TO ! S(A1 ?AT ,I CAN'T GET UP AGA94 ,?IS MEANS ?AT MY EV]YDAY LIFE DOES NOT ONLY CONSI/ ( PURE SURVIVAL1 OR TO 0TAKE C>E ( MYSELF0 ACCORD+ TO ! LATE/ FA%ION1 OR TO A*IEVE SOME?+ ?AT DOES NOT CORRESPOND ) MY PASSIONS1 DREAMS1 NE$S & WI%ES1 MAY !Y BE SOCIAL OR SOCIETAL EXPECTATIONS OR OBLIGATIONS4 ,= ME ?IS MEANS A CON/ANT CONFLICTUALITY ) MY CURR5T EXI/5CE1 :I* IS TO SAY1 ) ! 9T]E/S ?AT TRY TO RULE MY LIFE4 ,?IS MEANS ! ACTIVE SE>* = ! MAT]IALIZATION ( MY ANTI-AU?ORIT>IAN RAGE & OPPORTUNITIES = CONFRONTATION ) ALL ! /RUCTURES ?AT MA9TA9 ?IS SOCIETY4 ,?IS MEANS TO NEV] COMPROMISE ) !SE /RUCTURES4 ,TO NEV] FALL = ! PROMISES ( *ANGE1ACCOMMODATION1 NEGOTIATION OR IMPROVEM5T4 ,= MY BASIC SURVIVAL ,I DO ( C\RSE NE$ TO MAKE PRACTICAL COMPROMISES BUT TO MIX !M UP ) ! PLACE ?AT :AT MY HE>T DESIRES HAS1 ?AT MY PASSIONS & IDEAS HAS1 IS JU/ ONE BIG SELF-DELUSION4 ,TO MIX !M UP MEANS 9 ?IS CASE TO H& OV] TO ! ,/ATE MY >MS1 9 ONE SELF-LOA?+ WEAPONS AMNE/Y4 ,TO PUT ! GLOVES ON ! %ELF & BE PLEAS$ ) ! EXI/5CE ?IS SOCIETY (F]S ME4 ,?IS MEANS TO NOT FE$ MYSELF ) ! LIE ?AT ,I CAN LIVE A LIFE ON MY [N T]MS )9 ?IS SOCIETY4 ,TO NEV] COMPROMISE MEANS TO NEV] /OP FIK+ LOT ! HACKS' C>S >E REFLECT+ ! SUN 9 !IR %9Y PA9T4 ,! AIR ABOVE ! ASPHALT IS RIPPL+4 ,IT SMELLS ( FRE%LY M[$ LAWN & ELD]4 ,MY CLO!S >E SO LA/ ,FALL'S FA%ION & WAY TO W>M4 ,! SWEAT IS PU%+ ?R\< ! EYELIDS4 ,!Y SAY ?AT IF Y\ TURN >\ND1 Y\ WILL COME BACK4 ,I TURN >\ND 9 DEFIANCE1 SMILE & REA* \T A LONG F+]4 ,I ?9K A BIT AB\T ! TIME ?AT HAS PASS$4 ,A TE> APPE>S 9 MY EYE BUT SOON DISAPPE>S 9TO ! SWEAT4 ,! SMILE EXP&S4 ,I TURN BACK AGA91 LET GO ( :AT ,I HAVE 9 MY H&S & C>T:EEL OV] ! BAK+- HOT ASPHALT4 ,SOON MY RIDE >RIVES ) L\D MUSIC ?R\< ! D[NROLL$ W9D[S444 ,CON/ANTLY 5RI*$ ( EXP]I5CES 9 ! /RUGGLE AGA9/ ! EXI/5T1 FROM ONE PRISON TO ANO!R1 ,I ?R[ MYSELF ) A FI OV] MY LIFE6 ,FROM 3 ,!,AN>*I/,LIBR>Y4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,JANU>Y #c#a1 #bba 3 ,! ,W> ,OV] ,MY ,LIFE -- ,ADD$4 ,JANU>Y #g1 #bbb 3 ,! ,W> ,OV] ,MY ,LIFE -- ,UPDAT$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/