,*APT] #b #ahfcahfc ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TEXT 3 ',I'M FOND ( !M1 V]Y FOND6 444 ,FIR/-RATE FELL[S6 444 ,F9E6' HE KEPT REPEAT+1 & FELT READY TO CRY4 ,BUT :Y HE WANT$ TO CRY1 :O W]E ! FIR/-RATE FELL[S HE WAS SO FOND (--WAS MORE ?AN HE QUITE KNEW4 ,N[ & !N HE LOOK$ R\ND AT SOME H\SE & WOND]$ :Y IT WAS SO CURI\SLY BUILT2 SOMETIMES HE BEGAN WOND]+ :Y ! PO/-BOY & ,VANYU%A1 :O W]E SO DIFF]5T FROM HIMSELF1 SAT SO NE>1 & TOGE!R ) HIM W]E BE+ J]K$ AB\T & SWAY$ BY ! TUGS ! SIDE-HORSES GAVE AT ! FROZ5 TRACES1 & AGA9 HE REPEAT$3 ',FIR/ RATE 444 V]Y FOND6' & ONCE HE EV5 SAID3 ',& H[ IT SEIZES ONE 444 EXCELL5T6' & WOND]$ :AT MADE HIM SAY IT4 ',DE> ME1 AM ,I DRUNK8' HE ASK$ HIMSELF4 ,HE HAD HAD A C\PLE ( BOTTLES ( W9E1 BUT IT WAS NOT ! W9E ALONE ?AT WAS HAV+ ?IS EFFECT ON ,OL594 ,HE REMEMB]$ ALL ! WORDS ( FRI5D%IP HE>TILY1 BA%FULLY1 SPONTANE\SLY 7AS HE BELIEV$7 ADDRESS$ TO HIM ON HIS DEP>TURE4 ,HE REMEMB]$ ! CLASP ( H&S1 GLANCES1 ! MOM5TS ( SIL5CE1 & ! S\ND ( A VOICE SAY+1 ',GOOD-BYE1 ,MITYA6' :5 HE WAS ALREADY 9 ! SL$GE4 ,HE REMEMB]$ HIS [N DELIB]ATE FRANKNESS4 ,& ALL ?IS HAD A T\*+ SIGNIFICANCE = HIM4 ,NOT ONLY FRI5DS & RELATIVES1 NOT ONLY PEOPLE :O HAD BE5 9DIFF]5T TO HIM1 BUT EV5 ?OSE :O DID NOT LIKE HIM1 SEEM$ TO HAVE AGRE$ TO BECOME FOND] ( HIM1 OR TO =GIVE HIM1 BE=E HIS DEP>TURE1 AS PEOPLE DO BE=E CONFESSION OR DEA?4 ',P]HAPS ,I %ALL NOT RETURN FROM ! ,CAUCASUS1' HE ?\T ?AT HE C\LD NOT REPRESS ! MEAN+LESS WORDS ?AT SEEM$ TO RISE ( !MSELVES TO HIS LIPS2 NOR WAS IT LOVE = A WOMAN 7HE HAD NEV] YET BE5 9 LOVE7 ?AT HAD BR\M Y\NG LOVE = ALL ?AT WAS GOOD 9 HIS [N S\L 7& AT ?AT MOM5T IT SEEM$ TO HIM ?AT !RE WAS NO?+ BUT GOOD 9 IT7--COMPELL$ HIM TO WEEP & TO MUTT] 9COH]5T WORDS4 ,OL59 WAS A Y\? :O HAD NEV] COMPLET$ HIS UNIV]SITY C\RSE1 NEV] S]V$ ANY:]E 7HAV+ ONLY A NOM9AL PO/ 9 SOME GOV]NM5T (FICE OR O!R71 :O HAD SQU&]$ HALF HIS =TUNE & HAD REA*$ ! AGE ( TW5TY-F\R )\T HAV+ DONE ANY?+ OR EV5 *OS5 A C>E]4 ,HE WAS :AT 9 ,MOSC[ SOCIETY IS T]M$ UN JEUNE HOMME4 ,AT ! AGE ( EI5TS AT AN E>LY AGE C\LD BE4 ,NEI!R PHYSICAL NOR MORAL FETT]S ( ANY K9D EXI/$ = HIM2 HE C\LD DO AS HE LIK$1 LACK+ NO?+ & B\ND BY NO?+4 ,NEI!R RELATIVES1 NOR FA!RL&1 NOR RELIGION1 NOR WANTS1 EXI/$ = HIM4 ,HE BELIEV$ 9 NO?+ & ADMITT$ NO?+4 ,BUT AL?\< HE BELIEV$ 9 NO?+ HE WAS NOT A MOROSE OR BLASE Y\NG MAN1 NOR SELF-OP9IONAT$1 BUT ON ! CONTR>Y CONT9UALLY LET HIMSELF BE C>RI$ AWAY4 ,HE HAD COME TO ! CONCLUSION ?AT !RE IS NO SU* ?+ AS LOVE1 YET HIS HE>T ALWAYS OV]FL[$ 9 ! PRES5CE ( ANY Y\NG & ATTRACTIVE WOMAN4 ,HE HAD LONG BE5 AW>E ?AT HONORS & POSITION W]E NONS5SE1 YET 9VOLUNT>ILY HE FELT PLEAS$ :5 AT A BALL ,PR9CE ,S]GIUS CAME UP & SPOKE TO HIM AFFABLY4 ,BUT HE YIELD$ TO HIS IMPULSES ONLY 9 SO F> AS !Y DID NOT LIMIT HIS FRE$OM4 ,AS SOON AS HE HAD YIELD$ TO ANY 9FLU5CE & BECAME CONSCI\S ( ITS LEAD+ ON TO LABOR & /RUGGLE1 HE 9/9CTIVELY HA/5$ TO FREE HIMSELF FROM ! FEEL+ OR ACTIVITY 9TO :I* HE WAS BE+ DRAWN & TO REGA9 HIS FRE$OM4 ,9 ?IS WAY HE EXP]IM5T$ ) SOCIETY-LIFE1 ! CIVIL S]VICE1 F>M+1 MUSIC--TO :I* AT ONE TIME HE 9T5D$ TO DEVOTE HIS LIFE--& EV5 ) ! LOVE ( WOM5 9 :I* HE DID NOT BELIEVE4 ,HE M$ITAT$ ON ! USE TO :I* HE %\LD DEVOTE ?AT P[] ( Y\? :I* IS GRANT$ TO MAN ONLY ONCE 9 A LIFETIME3 ?AT =CE :I* GIVES A MAN ! P[] ( MAK+ HIMSELF1 OR EV5--AS IT SEEM$ TO HIM--( MAK+ ! UNIV]SE1 9TO ANY?+ HE WI%ES3 %\LD IT BE TO >T1 TO SCI5CE1 TO LOVE ( WOMAN1 OR TO PRACTICAL ACTIVITIES8 ,IT IS TRUE ?AT SOME PEOPLE >E DEVOID ( ?IS IMPULSE1 & ON 5T]+ LIFE AT ONCE PLACE !IR NECKS UND] ! FIR/ YOKE ?AT (F]S ITSELF & HONE/LY LABOR UND] IT = ! RE/ ( !IR LIVES4 ,BUT ,OL59 WAS TOO /RONGLY CONSCI\S ( ! PRES5CE ( ?AT ALL-P[]FUL ,GOD ( ,Y\?--( ?AT CAPACITY TO BE 5TIRELY TRANS=M$ 9TO AN ASPIRATION OR IDEA--! CAPACITY TO WI% & TO DO--TO ?R[ ONESELF HEADLONG 9TO A BOTTOMLESS ABYSS )\T KN[+ :Y OR :]E=E4 ,HE BORE ?IS CONSCI\SNESS )9 HIMSELF1 WAS PR\D ( IT &1 )\T KN[+ IT1 WAS HAPPY 9 ?AT CONSCI\SNESS4 ,UP TO ?AT TIME HE HAD LOV$ ONLY HIMSELF1 & C\LD NOT HELP LOV+ HIMSELF1 = HE EXPECT$ NO?+ BUT GOOD ( HIMSELF & HAD NOT YET HAD TIME TO BE DISILLUSION$4 ,ON LEAV+ ,MOSC[ HE WAS 9 ?AT HAPPY /ATE ( M9D 9 :I* A Y\NG MAN1 CONSCI\S ( PA/ MI/AKES1 SUDD5LY SAYS TO HIMSELF1 ',?AT WAS NOT ! REAL ?+4' ,ALL ?AT HAD GONE BE=E WAS ACCID5TAL & UNIMPORTANT4 ,TILL !N HE HAD NOT REALLY TRI$ TO LIVE1 BUT N[ ) HIS DEP>TURE FROM ,MOSC[ A NEW LIFE WAS BEG9N+--A LIFE 9 :I* !RE W\LD BE NO MI/AKES1 NO REMORSE1 & C]TA9LY NO?+ BUT HAPP9ESS4 ,IT IS ALWAYS ! CASE ON A LONG J\RNEY ?AT TILL ! FIR/ TWO OR ?REE /AGES HAVE BE5 PASS$ IMAG9ATION CONT9UES TO DWELL ON ! PLACE LEFT BEH9D1 BUT ) ! FIR/ MORN+ ON ! ROAD IT LEAPS TO ! 5D ( ! J\RNEY & !RE BEG9S BUILD+ CA/LES 9 ! AIR4 ,SO IT HAPP5$ TO ,OL594 ,AFT] LEAV+ ! T[N BEH9D1 HE GAZ$ AT ! SN[Y FIELDS & FELT GLAD TO BE ALONE 9 !IR MID/4 ,WRAPP+ HIMSELF 9 HIS FUR COAT1 HE LAY AT ! BOTTOM ( ! SL$GE1 BECAME TRANQUIL1 & FELL 9TO A DOZE4 ,! P>T+ ) HIS FRI5DS HAD T\*$ HIM DEEPLY1 & MEMORIES ( ?AT LA/ W9T] SP5T 9 ,MOSC[ & IMAGES ( ! PA/1 M+L$ ) VAGUE ?\T ( H] PRETTY DELICATE FACE4 ,HE RECALL$ !IR CONV]SATIONS ?AT DRAGG$ ON LIKE ! GAME 9 :I* ONE PASSES ON A /ICK :I* ONE KEEPS ALIDNESS & RE/RA9T & HIS CONT9UAL FEEL+ ( REBELLION AT ALL ?AT CONV5TIONALITY4 ,SOME VOICE HAD ALWAYS :ISP]$3 0,?AT'S NOT IT1 ?AT'S NOT IT10 & SO IT HAD PROV$4 ,!N HE REMEMB]$ A BALL & ! MAZURKA HE DANC$ ) ! BEAUTIFUL ,D----4 0,H[ MU* 9 LOVE ,I WAS ?AT NI%AL1 ?AT %E LOV$ ! />S1 WAS NOT ,I,T EI!R40 ,& N[ HIS F>M+ & WORK 9 ! C\NTRY RECURR$ TO HIS M9D1 & 9 ?OSE RECOLLECTIONS ALSO !RE WAS NO?+ TO DWELL ON ) PLEASURE4 0,WILL !Y TALK LONG ( MY DEP>TURE80 CAME 9TO HIS HEAD2 BUT :O 0!Y0 W]E HE DID NOT QUITE KN[4 ,NEXT CAME A ?\1 & ! LOOK ( P]PLEXITY & RESIGNATION :I* HAD APPE>$ ON ! TAILOR'S FACE4 ',OH1 MY ,GOD1 MY ,GOD6' HE REPEAT$1 W9C+ & TRY+ TO DRIVE AWAY ! 9TOL]ABLE ?\EWELL SUPP]4 ',YES1 HAD ,I M>RI$ H] ,I %\LD NOT N[ BE [+ ANY?+1 & AS IT IS ,I AM 9 DEBT TO ,VASILYEV4' ,!N HE REMEMB]$ ! LA/ NI'S ECONOMIZ+ & !Y WILL ALL BE PAID1 & ! DEVIL TAKE !M6'444 ,BUT DESPITE ?IS ASSURANCE HE AGA9 BEGAN CALCULAT+ HIS \T/&+ DEBTS1 !IR DATES1 & :5 HE C\LD HOPE TO PAY !M (F4 ',& ,I [E SOME?+ TO ,MORELL AS WELL AS TO ,*EVALI]1' ?\GE A DEBT4 ,IT WAS AT A C>\SEL AT ! GYPSIES >RANG$ BY SOME FELL[S FROM ,PET]SBURG3 ,SA%KA ,B---1 AN AIDE-DE-CAMP TO ! ,CZ>1 ,PR9CE ,D---1 & ?AT POMP\S OLD----4 ',H[ IS IT ?OSE G5TLEM5 >E SO SELF-SATISFI$8' ?\E ON ! ,EMP]OR'S /AFF8 ,:Y1 IT'S AWFUL :AT FOOLS & SC\NDRELS !Y CONSID] O!R PEOPLE TO BE6 ,BUT ,I %[$ !M ?AT ,I AT ANY RATE1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 DO NOT AT ALL WANT !IR 9TIMACY4 ,ALL ! SAME1 ,I FANCY ,&REW1 ! /EW>D1 W\LD BE AMAZ$ TO KN[ ?AT ,I AM ON FAMILI> T]MS ) A MAN LIKE ,SA%KA ,B---1 A COLONEL & AN AIDE-DE-CAMP TO ! ,CZ>6 ,YES1 & NO ONE DRANK MORE ?AN ,I DID ?AT EV5+1 & ,I TAURANG$ ?AT HE GREW QUITE *E]FUL & ! LONG J\RNEY BE=E HIM SEEM$ AN EXT5D$ PLEASURE-TRIP4 ,ALL ?AT MORN+ & NOON HE WAS DEEP 9 CALCULATIONS ( H[ MANY V]/S HE HAD TRAVEL$1 H[ MANY REMA9$ TO ! NEXT /AGE1 H[ MANY TO ! NEXT T[N1 TO ! PLACE :]E HE W\LD D9E1 TO ! PLACE :]E HE W\LD DR9K TEA1 & TO ,/AVROPOL1 & :AT FRACTION ( ! :OLE J\RNEY WAS ALREADY ACCOMPLI%$4 ,HE ALSO CALCULAT$ H[ MU* MONEY HE HAD ) HIM1 H[ MU* W\LD BE LEFT OV]1 H[ MU* W\LD PAY (F ALL HIS DEBTS1 & :AT PROPORTION ( HIS 9COME HE W\LD SP5D EA* MON?4 ,T[>DS EV5+1 AFT] TEA1 HE CALCULAT$ ?AT TO ,/AVROPOL !RE /ILL REMA9$ SEV5-ELEV5?S ( ! :OLE J\RNEY1 ?AT HIS DEBTS W\LD REQUIRE SEV5 MON?S' ECONOMY & ONE-EI ,MOSC[ FIGURES ALWAYS APPE>$ ON ! SC5E4 ,SA%KA ,B---FIT 9 ! CONQU]OR'S TRIUMPH4 ,AMID ALL ?IS HE REMEMB]$ HIS =M] HUMILIATIONS1 WEAKNESSES1 & MI/AKES1 & ! RECOLLECTION WAS NOT DISAGREEABLE4 ,IT WAS CLE> ?AT !RE AMONG ! M\NTA9S1 WAT]FALLS1 FAIR ,CIRCASSIANS1 & DANG]S1 SU* MI/AKES C\LD NOT RECUR4 ,HAV+ ONCE MADE FULL CONFESSION TO HIMSELF !RE WAS AN 5D ( IT ALL4 ,ONE O!R VISION1 ! SWEETE/ ( !M ALL1 M+L$ ) ! Y\NG MAN'S EV]Y ?\$ TO HIS IMAG9ATION AS A ,CIRCASSIAN SLAVE1 A F9E FIGURE ) A LONG PLAIT ( HAIR & DEEP SUBMISSIVE EYES4 ,HE PICTUR$ A LONELY HUT 9 ! M\NTA9S1 & ON ! ?RE%OLD %E /&S AWAIT+ HIM :51 TIR$ & COV]$ ) DU/1 BLOOD1 & FAME1 HE RETURNS TO H]4 ,HE IS CONSCI\S ( H] KISSES1 H] %\LD]S1 H] SWEET VOICE1 & H] SUBMISSIV5ESS4 ,%E IS 5*ANT+1 BUT UN$UCAT$1 WILD1 & R\<4 ,9 ! LONG W9T] EV5+S HE BEG9S H] $UCATION4 ,%E IS CLEV] & GIFT$ & QUICKLY ACQUIRES ALL ! KN[L$GE ESS5TIAL4 ,:Y NOT8 ,%E CAN QUITE EASILY LE>N =EIGN LANGUAGES1 READ ! ,FR5* MA/]PIECES & UND]/& !M3 ,NOT] ,DAME DE ,P>IS1 = 9/ANCE1 IS SURE TO PLEASE H]4 ,%E CAN ALSO SPEAK ,FR5*4 ,9 A DRAW+-ROOM %E CAN %[ MORE 9NATE DIGNITY ?AN A LADY ( ! HI*+ = ! 'NONS5SE' HE HAD REL9QUI%$1 & AGA9 FAIR ,CIRCASSIANS1 GLORY1 & HIS RETURN TO ,RUSSIA ) AN APPO9TM5T AS AIDE-DE-CAMP & A LOVELY WIFE ROSE BE=E HIS IMAG9ATION4 ',BUT !RE'S NO SU* ?+ AS LOVE1' SAID HE TO HIMSELF4 ',FAME IS ALL RUBBI%4 ,BUT ! SIX HUNDR$ & SEV5TY-EICELY CONSCI\S1 HE *ANGES 9TO ANO!R SL$GE AT ! NEXT /AGE & CONT9UES HIS J\RNEY4 ,NEXT MORN+ EV]Y?+ GOES ON JU/ ! SAME3 ! SAME K9D ( PO/-/ATIONS & TEA-DR9K+1 ! SAME MOV+ HORSES' CRUPP]S1 ! SAME %ORT TALKS ) ,VANYU%A1 ! SAME VAGUE DREAMS & DR[S9ESS1 & ! SAME TIR$1 HEAL?Y1 Y\?FUL SLEEP AT NI