,P>T #b1 ,*APT] #dh ,LA/ ,DAYS #aiabaiab ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,ALEX&] ,B]KMAN ,TEXT 3 ,ON ! ,HOME/RET*1 ,SUB ,ROSA ,APRIL #a#e1 #a#i#e4 ,MY ,DE> ,GIRL3 ,! LA/ SPR+ IS H]E1 & A SONG IS 9 MY HE>T4 ,ONLY ?REE MORE MON?S1 & ,I %ALL HAVE SETTL$ ACC\NTS ) ,FA!R ,P5N4 ,!RE IS ! YE> 9 ! WORKH\SE1 ( C\RSE1 & ?AT PRISON1 ,I AM TOLD1 IS EV5 A WORSE HELL ?AN ?IS ONE4 ,BUT ,I FEEL /RONG ) ! SUFF]+ ?AT IS PA/1 & P]HAPS EV5 MORE SO ) ! WOND]FUL JEWEL ,I HAVE F\ND4 ,! MAN ,I M5TION$ 9 =M] LETT]S HAS PROV$ A MO/ BEAUTIFUL S\L & S9C]E FRI5D4 ,9 EV]Y POSSIBLE WAY HE HAS BE5 TRY+ TO MAKE MY EXI/5CE MORE 5DURABLE4 ,) :AT LITTLE HE MAY1 HE SAYS1 HE WANTS TO MAKE AM5DS = ! 9JU/ICE & BRUTALITY ( SOCIETY4 ,HE IS A ,SOCIALI/1 ) A BROAD \TLOOK UPON LIFE4 ,\R L5G?Y DISCUSSIONS 7P] NOTES7 AF=D ME MANY MOM5TS ( PLEASURE & JOY4 ,IT IS *IEFLY TO HIS EX]TIONS ?AT ,I %ALL [E MY COMMUTATION TIME4 ,! S5TIM5T ( ! ,9SPECTORS WAS NOT FAVORABLE4 ,I BELIEVE IT WAS 9T5D$ TO DEPRIVE ME ( TWO YE>S' GOOD TIME4 ,?9K :AT IT W\LD MEAN TO US6 ,BUT MY FRI5D -- MY DE> ,*UM1 AS ,I AFFECTIONATELY CALL HIM HAS QUIETLY BUT P]SI/5TLY BE5 AT WORK1 ) ! RESULT ?AT ! ,9SPECTORS HAVE 0SE5 ! LIELY REALIZE ?AT ,I AM SOON TO LEAVE ?IS PLACE4 ,! ANXIETY & RE/LESSNESS ( ! LA/ MON? W\LD BE ALMO/ UNBE>ABLE1 BUT = ! SOO?+ PRES5CE ( MY DEVOT$ FRI5D4 ,I HOPE SOME DAY Y\ WILL MEET HIM1 -- P]HAPS EV5 SOON1 = HE IS NOT ( ! QUALITY ?AT CAN LONG REMA9 A HELPLESS WITNESS ( ! TORTURE ( M54 ,HE WANTS TO WORK 9 ! BROAD] FIELD1 :]E HE MAY JO9 H&S ) ?OSE :O /RIVE TO RECON/RUCT ! CONDITIONS ?AT >E BULW>K$ ) PRISON B>S4 ,BUT :ILE NECESSITY =CES HIM TO REMA9 H]E1 HIS *>ACT] IS 9 EVID5CE4 ,HE DEVOTES HIS TIME & MEANS TO LIRY ALIVE1 9 ! HOPE ( A P>DON4 ,Y\ WILL BE SADD5$ TO HE> ?AT ! ,BO>D REFUS$ TO RELEASE HIM1 ON ! GR\ND ?AT HE WAS NOT 0SUFFICI5TLY ILL40 ,! POOR BOY1 :O HAD NEV] BE5 \T ( SID S9CE HE WAS A *ILD ( T51 DI$ A WEEK AFT] ! P>DON WAS REFUS$4 ,BUT ?\< MY ,*UM C\LD NOT GIVE FRE$OM TO ,H>RY1 HE WAS 9/RUM5TAL 9 SAV+ ANO!R Y\NG LIFE FROM ! H&S ( ! HANGMAN4 ,IT WAS ! CASE ( Y\NG ,PAUL1 TYPICAL ( PRISON AS ! NURS]Y ( CRIME4 ,! Y\? WAS =C$ TO WORK ALONGSIDE ( A MAN :O P]SECUT$ & ABUS$ HIM BECAUSE HE RES5T$ IMPROP] ADVANCES4 ,REPEAT$LY ,PAUL BEGG$ ! ,W>D5 TO TRANSF] HIM TO ANO!R DEP>TM5T BUT HIS APPEALS W]E IGNOR$4 ,! TWO PRISON]S WORK$ 9 ! BAK]Y4 ,E>LY ONE MORN+1 LEFT ALONE1 ! MAN ATTEMPT$ TO VIOLATE ! BOY4 ,9 ! /RUGGLE ?AT FOLL[$ ! =M] WAS KILL$4 ,! PRISON MANAGEM5T WAS DET]M9$ TO HANG ! LAD1 09 ! 9T]E/S ( DISCIPL9E40 ,! (FIC]S OP5LY AV[$ !Y W\LD 0FIX HIS CLOCK40 ,P]MISSION = A COLLECTION TO 5GAGE AN ATTORNEY = ,PAUL1 WAS REFUS$4 ,PRISON]S :O SPOKE 9 HIS BEHALF W]E SEV]ELY PUNI%$2 ! BOY WAS COMPLETELY ISOLAT$ PREP>ATORY TO HIS TRIAL4 ,HE /OOD ABSOLUTELY HELPLESS1 ALONE4 ,BUT ! DE> ,*UM CAME TO ! RESCUE ( ,PAUL4 ,! WORK HAD TO BE DONE SECRETLY1 & IT WAS A MO/ DIFFICULT TASK TO SECURE WITNESSES = ! DEF5SE AMONG ! PRISON]S T]RORIZ$ BY ! GU>DS4 ,BUT ,*UM ?REW HIMSELF 9TO ! WORK ) HE>T & S\L4 ,DAY & NI ! /RA94 ,BESIDES M9I/]+ TO MY PHYSICAL COM=TS1 HE G5]\SLY SUPPLIES ME ) BOOKS & PUBLICATIONS4 ,IT HELPS TO :ILE AWAY ! LEAD5-HEEL$ DAYS1 & KEEPS ME ABREA/ ( ! WORLD'S WORK4 ,! ,*UM IS 5?USIA/IC OV] ! GR[+ /R5G? ( ,SOCIALISM1 & WE (T5 DISCUSS ! SUBJECT ) MU* VIGOR4 ,IT APPE>S TO ME1 H[EV]1 ?AT ! ,SOCIALI/ ANXIETY = SUCCESS IS BY DEGREES P]V]T+ ESS5TIAL PR9CIPLES4 ,IT IS ) MU* SORR[ ,I HAVE LE>N$ ?AT POLITICAL ACTIVITY1 =M]LY VIEW$ M]ELY AS A MEANS ( SPREAD+ ,SOCIALI/ IDEAS1 HAS GRADUALLY BECOME AN 5D 9 ITSELF4 ,/RA9+ = POLITICAL P[] WEAK5S ! FIB]S ( *>ACT] & IDEALS4 ,DAILY CONTACT ) AU?ORITY HAS /R5G!N$ MY CONVICTION ?AT CONTROL ( ! GOV]NM5TAL P[] IS AN ILLUSORY REM$Y = SOCIAL EVILS4 ,9EVITABLE CONSEQU5CES ( FALSE CONCEPTIONS >E NOT TO BE LEGISLAT$ \T ( EXI/5CE4 ,IT IS NOT M]ELY ! CONDITIONS1 BUT ! FUNDAM5TAL IDEAS ( PRES5T CIVILIZATION1 ?AT >E TO BE TRANSVALU$1 TO GIVE PLACE TO NEW SOCIAL & 9DIVIDUAL RELATIONS4 ,! EMANCIPATION ( LABOR IS ! NECESS>Y FIR/ /EP ALONG ! ROAD ( A REG5]AT$ HUMANITY2 BUT EV5 ?AT CAN BE ACCOMPLI%$ ONLY ?R\< ! AWAK5$ CONSCI\SNESS ( ! TOIL]S1 ACT+ ON !IR [N 9ITIATIVE & /R5G?4 ,ON !SE & O!R PO9TS ,*UM DIFF]S ) ME1 BUT HIS 9T5SE FRI5D%IP KN[S NO 9TELLECTUAL DI/9CTIONS4 ,HE IS TO VISIT Y\ DUR+ HIS ,AUGU/ VACATION4 ,I KN[ Y\ WILL MAKE HIM FEEL MY GRATITUDE1 = ,I CAN NEV] REPAY HIS B\NDLESS DEVOTION4 ,SA%A4 ,DE>E/ ,*UM3 ,IT SEEM$ AS IF ALL ASPIRATION & HOPE SUDD5LY W5T \T ( MY LIFE :5 Y\ DISAPPE>$ SO MY/]I\SLY4 ,I WAS TORM5T$ BY ! FE> ( SOME DISA/]4 ,Y\R RETURN HAS FILL$ ME ) JOY1 & ,I AM HAPPY TO KN[ ?AT Y\ HE>D & RESPOND$ UNHESITAT+LY TO ! CALL ( A SACR$ CAUSE4 ,I GREATLY 5VY Y\R ACTIVITY 9 ! ,P4 CIRCLE4 ,! REVOLUTION 9 ,RUSSIA HAS /IRR$ ME TO ! V]Y DEP?S4 ,! GIANT IS AWAK5+1 ! MUTE GIANT ?AT HAS SUFF]$ SO PATI5TLY1 VOIC+ HIS MIS]Y & AGONY ONLY 9 ! ANGUI%-LAD5 SONG & ON ! PAGES ( HIS ,GORKYS4 ,DE> FRI5D1 Y\ REMEMB] \R DISCUSSION REG>D+ ,PLEHVE4 ,I MAY HAVE BE5 9 ]ROR :5 ,I EXPRESS$ ! VIEW ?AT ! EXECUTION ( ! MON/]1 5C\RAG+ SIGN ( 9DIVIDUAL REVOLUTION>Y ACTIVITY AS IT WAS1 C\LD NOT BE REG>D$ AS A MANIFE/ATION ( SOCIAL AWAK5+4 ,BUT ! PRES5T UPRIS+ UND\BT$LY PO9TS TO WIDESPREAD REBELLION P]MEAT+ ,RUSSIAN LIFE4 ,YET IT W\LD PROBABLY BE TOO OPTIMI/IC TO HOPE = A V]Y RADICAL *ANGE4 ,I HAVE BE5 ABS5T FROM MY NATIVE L& = MANY YE>S2 BUT 9 MY Y\? ,I WAS CLOSE TO ! LIFE & ?\GE1 HEAVY BODIES MOVE SL[LY4 ,! PROLET>IAT ( ! CITIES HAS SURELY BECOME IMPREGNAT$ ) REVOLUTION>Y IDEAS1 BUT ! VITAL ELEM5T ( ,RUSSIA IS ! AGR>IAN POPULATION4 ,I FE>1 MOREOV]1 ?AT ! DOM9ANT REACTION IS /ILL V]Y /RONG1 ?\< IT HAS NO D\BT BE5 SOME:AT WEAK5$ BY ! DISCONT5T MANIFE/+ 9 ! >MY &1 ESPECIALLY1 9 ! NAVY4 ,) ALL MY HE>T ,I HOPE ?AT ! REVOLUTION WILL BE SUCCESSFUL ,P]HAPS A CON/ITUTION IS ! MO/ WE CAN EXPECT4 ,BUT :ATEV] ! RESULT1 ! B>E FACT ( A REVOLUTION 9 LONGSUFF]+ ,RUSSIA IS A TREM5D\S 9SPIRATION4 ,I %\LD BE ! HAPPIE/ ( M5 TO JO9 9 ! GLORI\S /RUGGLE4 ,LONG LIVE ! ,REVOLUTION6 ,A4 ,DE> ,*UM3 ,?ANKS = Y\R K9D (F]4 ,BUT ,I AM ABSOLUTELY OPPOS$ TO HAV+ ANY /EPS TAK5 TO ELIM9ATE ! WORKH\SE S5T5CE4 ,I HAVE S]V$ !SE MANY YE>S & L %ALL SURVIVE ONE MORE4 ,I WILL ASK NO FAVORS ( ! 5EMY4 ,!Y WILL EV5 TWI/ !IR [N LAW TO DEPRIVE ME ( FIVE MON?S' GOOD TIME1 TO :I* ,I AM 5TITL$ ON ! LA/ YE>4 ,I UND]/& ?AT ,I %ALL BE ALL[$ ONLY TWO MON?S (F ON ! PREPO/]\S GR\ND ?AT ! WORKH\SE T]M CON/ITUTES ! FIR/ YE> ( A NEW S5T5CE6 ,BUT ,I DO NOT WI% Y\ TO TR\BLE AB\T ! MATT]4 ,Y\ HAVE MORE IMPORTANT WORK TO DO4 ,GIVE ALL Y\R 5]GIES TO ! GOOD CAUSE4 ,PREP>E ! FIELD = ! MISSION ( ,T*AIKOVSKY & ,BABU%KA1 & ,I %ALL BE ) Y\ 9 SPIRIT :5 Y\ EMBRACE \R BRAVE COMRADES ( ! ,RUSSIAN ,REVOLUTION1 :OSE DE> NAMES W]E A HALL[$ TREASURE ( MY Y\?4 ,MAY SUCCESS REW>D ! EF=TS ( \R BRO!RS 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,A4 ,*UM3 ,JU/ GOT WORD FROM ! ,DEPUTY ?AT MY PAP]S >E SIGN$4 ,I DIDN'T WI% TO CAUSE Y\ ANXIETY1 BUT ,I WAS APPREH5SIVE ( SOME HIT*4 ,BUT IT'S POSITIVE & SETTL$ N[1 ,I GO \T ON ! #a#i?4 ,JU/ ONE MORE WEEK6 ,?IS IS ! HAPPIE/ DAY 9 ?IRTE5 YE>S4 ,%AKE1 ,COMRADE4 ,A4 ,DE>E/ ,*UM3 ,MY H& TREMBLES AS ,I WRITE ?IS LA/ GOOD-BYE4 ,I'LL BE GONE 9 AN H\R4 ,MY HE>T IS TOO FULL = WORDS4 ,PLEASE S5D 5CLOS$ NOTES TO MY FRI5DS1 & EMBRACE !M ALL AS ,I EMBRACE Y\ N[4 ,I %ALL LIVE 9 ! HOPE ( MEET+ Y\ ALL NEXT YE>4 ,GOOD-BYE1 DE>1 DEVOT$ FRI5D4 ,) MY :OLE HE>T1 ,Y\R ,COMRADE & ,*UM4 ,A4 ,DE>E/ ,GIRL3 ,IT'S ,W$NESDAY MORN+1 ! #a#i?1 AT LA/6 ,GEH /ILL] ME9ES ,H]Z5S ,S*LAG ,UND S*LIES/ EU* A,ILE ME9E ALT5 ,WUND51 ,D5N DIESES I/ ME9 LETZT] ,TAG ,UND DIES S9D SE9E LETZT5 ,/UND54 ,MY LA/ ?\E ( Y\1 MY DE>1 DE> ,SONYA1 ! ,IMMUTABLE6 ,SA%A4 7,S\RCE3 ,B]KMAN1 ,ALEX&] 7#a#i#a#b7 ,PRISON ,MEMOIRS ( AN ,AN>*I/1 ,MO!R ,E>? ,PRESS47 ,FROM 3 ,AN>*Y ,>*IVES4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,NOVEMB] #c1 #aiaa 3 ,P>T #b1 ,*APT] #dh -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,FEBRU>Y #c1 #bag 3 ,P>T #b1 ,*APT] #dh -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/