,P>T #b1 ,*APT] #ai ,MEMORY-,GUE/S #aiabaiab ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,ALEX&] ,B]KMAN ,TEXT 3 ,(T5 ! *APLA9 PAUSES AT MY DOOR1 & SPEAKS WORDS ( 5C\RAGEM5T4 ,I FEEL DEEPLY MOV$ BY HIS SYMPA?Y1 BUT MY REVOLUTION>Y TRADITIONS =BID ! EXPRESSION ( MY EMOTIONS3 A COG 9 ! MA*9]Y ( OPPRESSION1 HE MIY1 & OCCASIONALLY ALSO P]MIT ME AN EXTRA %EET ( WRIT+ PAP]4 ,CORRESPOND5CE ) ! ,GIRL & ! ,TW91 & ! 9FREQU5T EX*ANGE ( NOTES ) MY COMRADES1 >E ! ONLY L9KS ?AT /ILL B9D ME TO ! LIV+4 ,I FEEL WE>Y & LIFE WORN1 9DIFF]5T TO ! TRIVIAL 9CID5TS ( EXI/5CE ?AT SEEM TO HOLD SU* EXCIT+ 9T]E/ = ! O!R 9MATES4 0,OLD ,SAMMY10 ! RANGEMAN1 GR[N N]V\S ) ! APPROA* ( LIB]TY1 9V5TS A HUNDR$ OPPORTUNITIES TO UNBURD5 HIS HE>T4 ,ALL DAY LONG HE LIMPS FROM CELL TO CELL1 PRET5D+ TO SCRUB ! DOORSILLS OR DU/ ! B>S1 MEAN:ILE *ATT]+ VOLUBLY TO ! SOLIT>IES4 ,LI/LESSLY ,I SUFF] ! (T-REPEAT$ RECITAL ( ! 0NEWS10 ELABORATELY DISCUSS$ & COMM5T$ UPON ) IMPASSION$ E>NE/NESS4 ,HE 9T]RUPTS HIS ANA!MAS UPON ! 0ROTT5 FOOD0 & ! 0?IEV+ MURD]]S10 TO LAUN* 9TO 5?USIA/IC DETAILS ( ! MEAL HE WILL 5JOY ON ! DAY ( RELEASE1 ! IMPRISON$ FRI5DS HE WILL REMEMB] ) T[ELS & H&K]*IEFS4 ,BUT HE GR[S P5SIVE AT ! M5TION ( ! FOLKS AT HOME3 ! 0OLD WOMAN0 DI$ ( A BROK5 HE>T1 ! BOYS HAVE NOT WRITT5 A L9E 9 ?REE YE>S4 ,HE FE>S !Y HAVE SOLD ! LITTLE F>MH\SE1 & FL[N TO ! CITY4 ,BUT ! JOY ( COM+ FRE$OM DRIVES AWAY ! SAD ?\DS CUT HIM D[N4 ,& LA/ WEEK HE WAS PRES5T :5 ! PHYSICIAN TRI$ TO REVIVE 0! LITTLE DAGO10 & IF ! DOCTOR HAD ONLY RETURN$ QUICK] FROM ! !AT]1 POOR ,JOE MIASS+ HAS =C$ ! DISCONT9UATION ( ! ,BLOSSOMS4 ,! ECC5TRIC ,W>D5 SEEMS TO HAVE CONCEIV$ A GREAT FE> ( AN ,AN>*I/ CONSPIRACY3 SPECIAL ORD]S HAVE BE5 ISSU$1 PLAC+ ! TRIO UND] EXTRAORD9>Y SURVEILLANCE4 ,SUSPECT+ \R CL&E/9E CORRESPOND5CE1 YET UNABLE TO TRACE IT1 ! AU?ORITIES HAVE DECID$ TO SEP>ATE US 9 A MANN] EXCLUD+ ALL POSSIBILITY ( COMMUNICATION4 ,APP>5TLY ,I AM TO BE CONT9U$ 9 ! SOLIT>Y 9DEF9ITELY1 :ILE ,NOLD IS LOCAT$ 9 ! ,S\? ,W+1 & ,BAU] REMOV$ TO ! FUR!/ CELL ON AN UPP] GALL]Y 9 ! ,NOR? ,BLOCK4 ,! PRECI\S MAGAZ9E IS SUSP5D$1 & ONLY ! D>+ ( ! FAI?FUL 0,HORSE?IEF 0 5ABLES US TO EX*ANGE AN OCCASIONAL NOTE4 ,AMID ! FANTA/IC %APES CA/ BY ! DIM C&LE LITS1 DEVOT+ F\R H\RS EA* TO EX]CISE1 ,5GLI%1 & READ+1 ! REMA9+ TWO H\RS OCCUPI$ ) MEALS & 0CLEAN+ UP40 ,SURR\ND$ BY GRAMM>S & DICTION>IES1 BORR[$ FROM ! ,*APLA91 ,I ABSORB MYSELF 9 A S5T5CE ( ,%AKESPE>E1 DISSECT+ EA* WORD1 /UDY+ ORIG9 & D]IVATION1 ANALYZ+ PREFIX & SUFFIX4 ,I F9D MOM5TS ( EXQUISITE PLEASURE 9 TRAC+ SOME SIMPLE EXPRESSION ?R\< ALL ! VICISSITUDES ( ITS EXI/5CE1 TO ITS ,LAT9 OR ,GREEK S\RCE4 ,9 ! HI/ORY ( ! CORRESPOND+ EPO*1 ,I SEEK ! PEOPLE'S JOYS & TRAG$IES1 CONTEMPOR>Y ) ! =TUNES ( ! WORD4 ,PHILOLOGY1 ) ! BACKGR\ND ( HI/ORY1 LEADS ME 9TO ! PA/URES ( MY?OLOGY & COMP>ATIVE RELIGION1 ?R\< ! MAZES ( METAPHYSICS & W>R+ PHILOSOPHIES1 TO RATIONALISM & EVOLUTION>Y SCI5CE4 ,OBLIVI\S ( MY 5VIRONM5T1 ,I WALK ) ! DISCIPLES ( ,SOCRATES1 FLEE ,A!NS ) ! P]SECUT$ ,DIAGORAS1 0! ,A!I/10 & LI/5 9 EC/ASY TO ! SWEET-VOIC$ LUTE ( ,>ION2 OR ) ,SUETONIUS #a PASS 9 REVIEW ! ,TWELVE ,CAES>S1 & WEEP ) ! HO/AGES SWELL+ ! TRIUMPH ( ! ,ET]NAL ,CITY4 ,BUT ON ! V]Y ?RE%OLD ( ,CLEOPATRA'S B\DOIR1 AB\T TO 5T] ) ! 9TREPID ,M>K ,ANTONY1 ,I AM MET BY ?REE GIANT SLAVES ) ! COMM&3 0,A #g1 H&S UP6 ,/EP \T TO BE SE>*$60 ,= DAYS MY 5FEEBL$ N]VES QUIV] ) ! %OCK4 ,) DIFFICULTY ,I =CE MYSELF TO PICK UP ! ?READ ( MY LIFE AMID ! SPIRITS ( ! PA/4 ,! PLACID WAT]S HAVE BE5 DI/URB$1 & ALL ! MIASMA ( ! QUAGMIRE SEE!S T[>D ! SURFACE1 & FILLS MY CUP ) ! BITT]NESS ( DEA?4 ,! RELEASE ( 0,OLD ,SAMMY0 /IRS ME TO ! V]Y DEP?S4 ,MANY PRISON]S HAVE COME & GONE DUR+ MY /AY2 ) SOME ,I M]ELY T\*$ H&S AS !Y PASS$ 9 ! D>KNESS & DISAPPE>$1 LEAV+ NO TRACE 9 MY EXI/5CE4 ,BUT ! OLD RANGEMAN1 ) HIS SMIL+ EYES & F]VID OPTIMISM1 HAS GR[N DE> TO ME4 ,HE %>$ ) ME HIS HOPES & FE>S1 DIVID$ HIS EXTRA SLICE ( CORNBREAD1 & /ROVE TO *E] ME 9 HIS [N HOMELY MANN]4 ,I MISS HIS G5IAL PRES5CE4 ,SOME?+ HAS GONE \T ( MY LIFE ) HIM1 LEAV+ A VOID1 SADD5+1 GNAW+4 ,9 ?\M$ CIRCLE ?AT HOLDS ! PROMISE ( LIFE & JOY & LIB]TY4 ,LIKE A HORRIBLE NIE ! SOMB] WALLS FADE AWAY1 & ONLY A D>K %AD[ VIBRATES 9 MY MEMORY1 LIKE A HIDD5 M5ACE1 FA9T1 YET EV]-PRES5T & T]RIBLE4 ,! SUN GL[S BRILLIANT 9 ! HEAV5S1 %ELL-LIKE WAVELETS FLOAT UPON ! AZURE1 & SWEET ODORS >E EV]Y:]E AB\T ME4 ,ALL ! LONG+ ( MY S\L WELLS UP ) VIOL5T PASSION1 & 9 A SUDD5 TRANSPORT ( JOY ,I FL+ MYSELF UPON ! E>?1 & WEEP & KISS IT 9 PRAY]FUL BLISS4444 ,! C&LE SPUTT]S1 HISSES1 & DIES4 ,I SIT 9 ! D>K4 ,SIL5TLY LIFTS ! VEIL ( TIME4 ,! LITTLE ,NEW ,YORK FLAT RISES BE=E ME4 ,! ,GIRL IS RETURN+ HOME1 ! ROSES ( Y\? GR[N PALLID AMID ! %AD[S ( DEA?4 ,ONLY H] EYES GL[ FIRM] & DEEP]1 A LOOK ( *ALL5GE 9 H] SADD5$ FACE4 ,AS ON AN OP5 PAGE1 ,I READ ! SUFF]+ ( H] PRISON EXP]I5CE1 ! %>P] L9ES ( /EADFA/ PURPOSE4444 ,! JOYS & SORR[S ( \R MUTUAL PA/ UNFOLD BE=E ME1 & AGA9 ,I LIVE 9 ! OLD SURR\ND+S4 ,! MEMORABLE SC5E ( \R FIR/ MEET+1 9 ! LITTLE CAFE AT ,SA*S'1 PROJECTS CLE>LY4 ,! ROOM IS *ILLY 9 ! ,NOVEMB] DUSK1 AS ,I RETURN FROM WORK & SECURE MY ACCU/OM$ PLACE4 ,ONE BY ONE ! OLD HABITUES DROP 91 & PRES5TLY ,I AM 9 A HEAT$ DISCUSSION ) TWO ,RUSSIAN REFUGEES AT ! TABLE OPPOSITE4 ,! DOOR OP5S1 & A Y\NG WOMAN 5T]S4 ,WELL-KNIT1 ) ! RUDDY VIGOR ( Y\?1 %E DIFFUSES AN ATMOSPH]E ( /R5G? & VITALITY4 ,I WOND] :O ! NEWCOM] MAY BE4 ,TWO YE>S 9 ! MOVEM5T HAVE FAMILI>IZ$ ME ) ! P]SONNEL ( ! REVOLUTION>Y CIRCLES ( ! METROPOLIS4 ,?IS GIRL IS EVID5TLY A /RANG]2 ,I AM QUITE SURE ,I HAVE NEV] MET H] AT \R GA!R+S4 ,I MOTION TO ! PASS+ PROPRIETOR4 ,HE SMILES1 ANTICIPAT+ MY QUE/ION4 0,Y\ WANT TO KN[ :O ! Y\NG LADY IS80 HE :ISP]S2 0,I'LL SEE1 ,I'LL SEE40,SOMEH[ ,I F9D MYSELF AT H] TABLE4 ,)\T CON/RA9T1 WE SOON CONV]SE LIKE OLD ACQUA9TANCES1 & ,I LE>N ?AT %E LEFT H] HOME 9 ,RO*E/] TO ESCAPE ! /IFL+ PROV9CIAL ATMOSPH]E4 ,%E IS A DRESSMAK]1 & HOPES TO F9D WORK 9 ,NEW ,YORK4 ,I LIKE H] SIMPLE1 FRANK CONFID5CE2 ! 0COMRADE0 ON H] LIPS ?RILLS ME4 ,%E IS ONE ( US1 !N4 ,) A S5SE ( PRIDE 9 ! MOVEM5T1 ,I 5L>GE UPON ! ACTIVITIES ( \R CIRCLE4 ,!RE >E IMPORTANT MEET+S %E \M IS CONDUCT+ A C\RSE 9 SOCIOLOGY2 ,S*ULTZE IS GIV+ SPL5DID LECTURES4 0,HAVE Y\ HE>D ,MO/80 ,I ASK SUDD5LY4 0,NO8 ,Y\ MU/ HE> \R ,GR& ,OLD ,MAN4 ,HE SPEAKS TO-MORR[2 WILL Y\ COME ) ME80-,EAG]LY ,I LOOK =W>D TO ! NEXT EV5+1 & HA/5 TO ! CAFE4 ,IT IS FRO/Y \TDOORS AS ,I WALK ! N>R[1 D>K /REETS 9 ANIMAT$ DISCUSSION ) 0,COMRADE ,RO*E/]40 ,! ANCI5T SIDEWALKS >E UNEV5 & CRACK$1 9 SPOTS CRU/$ ) FIL?4 ,AS WE CROSS ,DELANCEY ,/REET1 ! GIRL SLIPS & ALMO/ FALLS1 :5 ,I CAT* H] 9 MY >MS JU/ 9 TIME TO PREV5T H] HEAD /RIK+ ! CURB/ONE4 0,Y\ HAVE SAV$ MY LIFE10 %E SMILES AT ME1 H] EYES DANC+ VIVACI\SLY4444 ,) GREAT PRIDE ,I 9TRODUCE MY NEW FRI5D TO ! 9TELIG5TZIA ( ! ,Y ,RUSSIA IS MIRROR$ 9 \R CIRCLES2 EV]Y %ADE ( TEMP]AM5TAL ,NIHILISM & POLITICAL VIEW IS H>BOR$ !RE4 ,I SEE ,H>TMAN1 SURR\ND$ BY ! HALO ( CONSPIRATIVE MY/]Y2 AT HIS SIDE IS ! VELIKORUSSIAN1 ) FL[+ BE>D & P[]FUL FRAME1 ( ! OLD] G5]ATION ( ! N>ODOVOILTZY2 & !RE IS ,S*EWITS*1 BIG & BROAD ( FEATURE1 ! TYPICAL DVORYAN9 :O HAS CA/ 9 HIS LOT ) ! PROLET>IAT4 ,! L9E ( CONT5D+ FAI?S IS NOT DRAWN %>PLY 9 ! COLONY3 ,CAHAN IS AMONG US1 /5TORIAN ( VOICE & BRI/L+ ) AGGRESSIVE VITALITY2 ,SOLOT>(F1 HIS PALE /UD5T FACE PECULI>LY LUM9\S2 ,MILL]1 POETICALLY ELOQU5T1 & HIS /RANGELY-NAM$ BRO!R ,BR&ES1 LOOK+ CONSUMPTIVE FROM HIS EXP]I5CE 9 ! ,ODESSA PRISON4 ,TIMM]MANN & ,ALC9IK(F1 ,R9KE & ,WE9/E9-ALL >E UNIT$ 9 5?USIASM = ! COMMON CAUSE4 ,TYPES FROM ,TURG5EV & ,*]NI%EVSKI1 FROM ,DO/OYEVSKI & ,NEKRASSOV1 M+LE 9 ! SEEM+ CONFUSION ( REALITY1 9DIVIDUALIZ$ ) V>Y+ %ADE & LIE 9 ! COLONY1 ! SPLA%$ QUIV]S ( ! SIMM]+ WAT]S ( ,CZ>DOM4 ,%APES 9 ! MAK+1 /ILL BE+ KNEAD$ 9 ! MOLD ( OLD TRADITION & NEW 5VIRONM5T4 ,:O KN[S :AT %ALL BE ! AMALGAM1 SOME DAY TO BE RECA/ BY ! MA/] H& ( A NEW ,TURG5EV8 444 ,(T5 ! SOLIT>Y H\RS >E ILLUM9AT$ BY SC5ES ( ! PA/4 ,) 9F9ITE DETAIL ,I LIVE AGA9 ?R\< ! YE>S ( ! 9SPIR+ FRI5D%IP ?AT HELD ! ,GIRL1 ! ,TW91 & MYSELF 9 ! CLOSE/ BONDS ( REVOLUTION>Y ASPIRATION & P]SONAL 9TIMACY4 ,H[ FULL ( 9T]E/ & RI* PROMISE WAS LIFE 9 ?OSE DAYS1 SO F> AWAY1 :5 AFT] ! H\RS ( HUMILIAT+ DRUDG]Y 9 ! FACTORY ,I W\LD HA/5 TO ! LITTLE ROOM 9 ,SUFFOLK ,/REET6 ,SMALL & N>R[1 ) ITS DIM9UTIVE TABLE & SOLIT>Y *AIR1 ! CAGE-LIKE B$ROOM W\LD BE TRANSFIGUR$ 9TO ! SANCTIFI$ *AMB] ( FATE1 HOLD+ ! BALANCE ( ! WORLD'S WEAL4 ,ONLY TWO C\LD SIT ON ! LITTLE COT1 ! ?IRD ON ! RICKETY *AIR4 ,& IF SOMEBODY ELSE CALL$1 WE W\LD /& >\ND ! ROOM1 FILL+ ! AIR ) ! GL[+ HOPE ( \R Y\NG HE>TS1 9 ! FIRM CONSCI\SNESS ?AT WE W]E HA/5+ ! /EPS ( PROGRESS1 ADVANC+ ! GLORI\S ,DAWN4 ,! MEMORY ( ! LIFE 0\TSIDE0 9T5SIFIES ! MIS]Y ( ! SOLIT>Y4 ,I BROOD OV] ! USELESSNESS ( MY SUFF]+4 ,MY MISSION 9 LIFE T]M9AT$ ) ! ,ATT5TAT4 ,:AT GOOD CAN MY CONT9U$ SURVIVAL DO8 ,MY PROPAG&I/IC VALUE AS A LIV+ EXAMPLE ( CLASS 9JU/ICE & POLITICAL P]SECUTION IS NOT ( SUFFICI5T IMPORTANCE TO IMPOSE UPON ME ! DUTY ( EXI/5CE4 ,& EV5 IF IT W]E1 ! ALMO/ ?REE YE>S ( MY IMPRISONM5T HAVE S]V$ ! PURPOSE4 ,ESCAPE IS \T ( CONSID]ATION1 SO LONG AS ,I REMA9 CON/ANTLY UND] LOCK & KEY1 ! SUBJECT ( SPECIAL SURVEILLANCE4 ,COMMUNICATION ) ,NOLD & ,BAU]1 TOO1 IS DAILY GR[+ MORE DIFFICULT4 ,MY HEAL? IS FA/ FAIL+2 #a AM B>ELY ABLE TO WALK4 ,:AT IS ! USE ( ALL ?IS MIS]Y & TORTURE8 ,:AT IS ! USE8 444 ,9 SU* MOM5TS1 ,I /& ON ! BR9K ( ET]NITY4 ,IS IT %E] APA?Y & LANGUOR ?AT HOLD ! WEAK ?READ ( LIFE1 OR NATURE'S LAW & ! 9H]5T SPIRIT ( RESI/ANCE8 ,W]E ,I NOT 9 ! 5EMY'S P[]1 ,I %\LD UNHESITAT+LY CROSS ! B>RI]4 ,BUT AS A PIONE] ( ! ,CAUSE1 ,I MU/ LIVE & /RUGGLE4 ,YET LIFE )\T ACTIVITY OR 9T]E/ IS T]RIFY+4444 ,I LONG = SYMPA?Y & AFFECTION4 ,) AN A*+ HE>T ,I REMEMB] MY COMRADES & FRI5DS1 & ! ,GIRL4 ,MORE & MORE MY M9D DWELLS UPON T5D] MEMORIES4 ,I WAKE AT NIN+ FILLS ME = ! WOM5 ,I HAVE KN[N1 AS !Y PASS 9 MY M9D'S EYE FROM ! TIME ( MY E>LY Y\? TO ! LA/ KISS ( FEM99E LIPS4 ,) A ?RILL ,I RECALL EA* BRIT BEATS TUMULTU\SLY AS ,I MEET LITTLE ,NADYA1 ON ! WAY TO S*OOL1 PRET5D+ ,I DO NOT SEE H]4 ,I TURN >\ND TO ADMIRE ! GOLD5 LOCKS FLOAT+ 9 ! BREEZE1 :5 ,I SURPRISE H] /EAL?ILY WAT*+ ME4 ,I ADORE H] SECRETLY1 BUT PR\DLY DECL9E MY *UM'S (F] TO 9TRODUCE ME4 ,H[ FOOLI% ( ME6 ,BUT ,I KN[ NO TIMID %R9K+ AS ,I WAIT1 ON A COLD W9T] EV5+1 = \R NEID2 & H[ UNC]EMONI\SLY ,I EMBRACE H]6 ,%E IS NOT A B>I%NYA2 ,I NE$ NOT MASK MY FEEL+S4 ,& %E IS SO PRIMITIVE2 %E ACCUSES ME ( KN[+ ?+S 0NOT FIT = A BOY0 ( MY AGE4 ,BUT %E KISSES ME AGA91 & PASSION WAKES AT ! C>ESS ( ! L>GE1 CO>SE H&4444 ,MY ,ELDRIDGE ,/REET PLATONIC SWEE!>T /&S BE=E ME1 & ,I T+LE ) EV]Y S5SUAL EMOTION ( MY FIR/ YE>S 9 ,NEW ,YORK4444 ,\T ( ! ,NEW ,HAV5 DAYS RISES ! IMAGE ( ,LUBA1 SWEEP+ ME ) UNUTT]ABLE LONG+ = ! UNATTA9$4 ,& AGA9 ,I LIVE ?R\< ! EXP]I5CES ( ! PA/1 PASSIONATELY VISUALIZ+ EV]Y DETAIL ) IMAGES ?AT FLATT] MY ]OTIC PALATE & WEAVE EXQUISITE ALLUREM5T AB\T ! URGE ( SEX4 7,S\RCE3 ,B]KMAN1 ,ALEX&] 7#a#i#a#b7 ,PRISON ,MEMOIRS ( AN ,AN>*I/1 ,MO!R ,E>? ,PRESS47 ,FROM 3 ,AN>*Y ,>*IVES4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,NOVEMB] #c1 #aiaa 3 ,P>T #b1 ,*APT] #ai -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,FEBRU>Y #c1 #bag 3 ,P>T #b1 ,*APT] #ai -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/