,VOLUME #b1 ,*APT] #ee 

#aicaaica 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,TEXT 3 

  

,PHOTO BY HTTP3_/_/UND]CLASSRIS+4NET_/1,C,C ,B,Y-,S,A ,LIC5SE ,LIV+ ,MY ,LIFE 

BY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,VOLUME TWO 

,NEW ,YORK3 ,ALFR$ ,A ,KNOPF ,9C41#a#i#c#a4 

,*APT] #ee 

,ONE IS C]TA9 TO BE DISAPPO9T$ 9 ,AM]ICAN REPORT]S1 YET NEV] 9 ! ,LONDON WEA!R DUR+ AUTUMN OR W9T]4 ,IT WAS FOGGY & DRIZZL+ :5 ,I >RIV$ 9 ,SEPTEMB]1 & IT DID NOT LET UP UNTIL ,MAY4 ,UNLIKE MY VISIT 9 #a#i1 :5 ,I LIV$ 9 A BASEM5T1 MY QU>T]S ?IS TIME W]E ON ! HEI<TS3 A B$ROOM ON ! ?IRD FLOOR 9 ! H\SE ( MY OLD FRI5D ,DORIS ,ZHOOK4 ,I EV5 HAD ! LUXURY ( A GAS-/OVE1 :I* ,I KEPT GO+ ALL DAY4 ,! MON/] FOG MOCK$ MY FUTILE ATTEMPTS TO KEEP ! *ILL \T ( MY OLD BONES1 EV5 :5 ,I TRI$ TO SNAT* A LITTLE *E] FROM AN OCCASIONAL RAY ( SUNLI<T4 ,DORIS & ! O!R COMRADES 9SI/$ ?AT IT WAS 0NOT REALLY COLD40 ,AM]ICAN /EAM-HEAT$ AP>TM5TS HAD SPOIL$ ME = ! 0MILD ,BRITI% CLIMATE10 !Y SAID4 ,!Y W\LD NOT HAVE !IR HOMES C5TRALLY HEAT$ IF !Y C\LD4 ,FIRE-PLACES W]E 0MORE S5SIBLE1 MORE HEAL?FUL1 & PLEASANT]40 ,I TOLD MY FRI5DS ?AT ,I HAD BE5 AWAY FROM ,AM]ICA FIVE YE>S & HAD =GOTT5 ITS MAT]IAL BLESS+S4 ,I HAD BE5 9 ,>*ANGEL :5 ! TEMP]ATURE WAS FIFTY BEL[ Z]O & ,I HAD NOT FELT SO *ILLY4 ,POETIC FANCY1 !Y TEAS$4 ,IF ! DAMP MAKES ONE MIS]ABLE1 IT PRODUCES GOOD COMPLEXIONS1 RI* FOLIAGE1 & ! /R5G? ( ! ,BRITI% ,EMPIRE4 ,DELICATE SK9S1 ! LUSCI\S GRE5 LAWNS & MEAD[S1 >E DUE TO ! WEA!R1 & ! NE$ TO ESCAPE FROM HIS [N CLIMATE HAS MADE ! ,5GLI%MAN =EMO/ AMONG GLOBE-TROTT]S & COLONIZ]S4 

,I SOON REALIZ$ ?AT PHYSICAL H&ICAPS W\LD BE ! LEA/ ( MY DIFFICULTIES4 ,! AN>*I/S ( ,LONDON W]E MY FRI5DS ( MANY YE>S1 SOLICIT\S & WILL+ TO ASSI/ 9 ANY?+ ,I WANT$ TO DO4 ,!Y W]E ! REMNANT ( ! OLD GU>D ( ! PRE-W> GR\PS1 9CLUD+ ,JOHN ,TURN]1 ,DORIS ,ZHOOK1 H] BRO!R ,WILLIAM ,WESS1 ,TOM ,KEELL1 & ,WILLIAM ,C4 ,[51 A =M] C[ORK] ( M9E 9 ,AM]ICA4 ,BUT !Y W]E DIVID$ AMONG !MSELVES4 ,TOM ,KEELL1 ! PUBLI%] ( ,FRE$OM1 & ,[51 ITS $ITOR1 HAD KEPT ! PAP] ALIVE 9 SPITE ( ALL VICISSITUDES4 ,BUT !RE WAS NO REAL MOVEM5T 9 ,LONDON OR 9 ! PROV9CES1 ,I SOON LE>N$4 ,COM+ AS ,I DID FROM ! SEE?+ AN>*I/ ACTIVITIES 9 ,B]L91 ! SITUATION 9 ,5GL& WAS DEPRESS+4 ,! G5]AL POLITICAL CONDITIONS W]E WORSE ?AN ,I HAD ANTICIPAT$4 ,! W> HAD CREAT$ GREAT] HAVOC ) TRADITIONAL ,BRITI% LIB]ALISM & ! RI<T ( ASYLUM ?AN IT HAD 9 O!R L&S4 ,GETT+ 9TO ! C\NTRY WAS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT = ANYONE ( ADVANC$ SOCIAL IDEAS4 ,MORE DIFFICULT TO REMA9 IF ONE 5GAG$ 9 SOCIO-POLITICAL PROPAG&A4 ,! ,LABOR ,GOV]NM5T WAS EXPELL+ PEOPLE ON AS SLI<T PRETEXTS AS HAD ! ,TORIES BE=E4 ,MY COMRADES ?\<T IT EXTRAORD9>Y ?AT ,I %\LD HAVE BE5 GRANT$ A VISA1 & EXPRESS$ D\BT ?AT ,I W\LD BE ALL[$ TO REMA9 LONG IF ,I BECAME POLITICALLY ACTIVE4 ,! ANTI-ALI5 LAWS HAD ALMO/ DE/ROY$ ! ,YIDDI% AN>*I/ MOVEM5T1 AS EV]YONE ACTIVE 9 ! ,EA/ ,5D FE>$ EXPULSION AT ANY TIME4 ,! DISRUPTION 9 RADICAL RANKS BR\<T AB\T BY ! NEF>I\S ME?ODS ( ,MOSC[ S]V$ TO /R5G!N ! H&S ( REACTION4 ,9 =M] DAYS ! LIB]AL & RADICAL GR\PS US$ TO TAKE A COMMON /& AGA9/ EV]Y 5CROA*M5T ON POLITICAL FRE$OM & 9 OPPOSITION TO ECONOMIC 9JU/ICE4 ,N[ !Y W]E ALL AT EA* O!R'S ?ROATS OV] ! QUE/ION ( ,RUSSIA4 

,! OLD] REBELS W]E DISILLUSION$ BY ! COLLAPSE ( ! ,REVOLUTION4 ,! Y\NG] G5]ATION1 AS F> AS IT WAS AT ALL 9T]E/$ 9 IDEAS 7:I* WAS LITTLE 5\<71 WAS C>RI$ AWAY BY ! ,BOL%EVIK GLAM\R4 ,COMMUNI/ 9TRIGUE & D5UNCIATION W]E DO+ ! RE/ TO WID5 ! *ASM4 

,IT WAS A DI%E>T5+ PICTURE4 ,BUT ,I WAS 9 ,5GL& & ,I DID NOT PROPOSE TO RUN AWAY1 NOT)/&+ ! ODDS AGA9/ ME4 ,MY COMRADES AGRE$ ?AT MY NAME & KN[L$GE ( ,RUSSIAN CONDITIONS MI<T RALLY ! RADICAL & ,LABOR FACTIONS TO ! SUPPORT ( ! POLITICAL VICTIMS ( ! DICTATOR%IP4 ,!Y W]E C]TA9 ?AT MY PRES5CE 9 ,5GL& W\LD BE A /IMULUS TO \R [N COMRADES4 ,I DID NOT FEEL SANGU9E AB\T ! SITUATION4 ,I DID NOT KN[ H[ TO REA* ! ,BRITI% PEOPLE1 & ! ONLY SUGGE/ION ,I C\LD MAKE WAS A D9N] AT SOME RE/AURANT AS MY DEBUT BE=E ! ,LONDON LIB]AL PUBLIC4 ,MY COMRADES W]E ELAT$ OV] ! IDEA1 & SET TO WORK4 

,MY NOTE TO ,REBECCA ,WE/ BR\<T A K9D ( REPLY & AN 9VITATION TO LUN*4 ,I WAS PLEASANTLY SURPRIS$ TO F9D H] ANY?+ BUT ,5GLI% 9 H] MANN]4 ,BUT = H] SPEE* ,I %\LD HAVE ?\<T H] AN ,ORI5TAL1 %E WAS SO VIVACI\S1 EAG]1 *>M+1 DIRECT4 ,H] FRI5DL9ESS1 ! COZ9ESS ( H] ROOM1 ! HOT TEA1 W]E GRATEFUL AFT] A LONG1 COLD RIDE 9 ! DRAB AUTUMN AFT]NOON4 ,%E HAD NOT READ MY WRIT+S1 %E FRANKLY ADMITT$1 BUT %E KNEW 5\< AB\T ME TO ADD H] WELCOME TO ?AT ( ! O!RS & %E W\LD BE HAPPY TO SPEAK AT ! D9N]4 ,%E W\LD ALSO >RANGE AN EV5+ TO HAVE H] FRI5DS MEET ME4 ,I WAS NOT TO HESITATE TO CALL ON H] = ANY?+ ,I MI<T NE$4 ,I LEFT MY HO/ESS ) ! COM=T+ FEEL+ ?AT ,I HAD F\ND A FRI5D1 AN OASIS 9 ! DES]T ,LONDON SEEM$ TO ME4 

,! DAY ( ! D9N] BEGAN 9 D>KNESS & 5D$ 9 A D[NP\R4 ,I W5T TO ! RE/AURANT ) A S9K+ HE>T4 ,DORIS TRI$ TO REASSURE ME ?AT NO ONE 9 ,5GL& M9D$ ! WEA!R2 ,I WAS KN[N & W\LD DRAW A CR[D4 0,SCOTL& ,Y>D1 ! NEWSPAP]S1 & P]HAPS A FEW P]SONS ACQUA9T$ ) ,AM]ICAN LIB]AL ?\<T10 ,I RETORT$4 ,!RE WAS NO USE TO DECEIVE \RSELVES2 ,I %\LD NOT SET ,5GL& AFIRE4 0,AN 9CURABLE PESSIMI/10 MY FRI5D LAU<$2 %E C\LD NOT UND]/& H[ ,I HAD KEPT UP ! /RUGGLE = SO MANY YE>S4 ,POOR ,DORIS NE>LY COLLAPS$ :5 WE REA*$ ! HOTEL4 ,!RE WASN'T A BAK]'S DOZ5 PRES5T AT SEV5 O'CLOCK4 ,BUT AT EI<T %E WALK$ ON AIR2 TWO HUNDR$ & FIFTY PEOPLE HAD CR[D$ 9TO ! D9+-ROOM1 & ADDITIONAL TABLES HAD TO BE LAID = GUE/S :O CONT9U$ TO COME1 EV5 AFT] ! SPEE*ES HAD BEGUN4 ,I WAS PR(\NDLY MOV$ ?AT SO MANY %\LD V5TURE \T ON SU* A NI<T TO WELCOME ME4 

,! SPIRIT ( ! EV5+1 ! MESSAGES ( GREET+ FROM ,HAVELOCK ,ELLIS1 ,$W>D ,C>P5T]1 ,H4 ,G4 ,WELLS1 ,LADY ,W>WICK1 ,ISRAEL ,ZANGWILL1 & ,H5RY ,SALT1 & ! BEAUTIFUL TRIBUTES PAID TO MY PA/ EF=TS BY ,COLONEL ,JOSIAH ,C4 ,W$GWOOD1 \R *AIRMAN1 BY ,REBECCA ,WE/1 & BY ,B]TR& ,RUSSELL COMPLETELY SWEPT ME (F MY FEET4 ,SURELY ! HOSPITALITY & G5]OSITY %[N POLITICAL REFUGEES 9 ,5GL&1 (T5 DESCRIB$ TO ME BY ,PET] ,KROPOTK91 W]E NOT DEAD4 ,I %\LD AT LA/ F9D MY SPH]E ( ACTION4 ,) A FEEL+ ( GRATITUDE ,I BEGAN MY ADDRESS ON ! PURPOSE ( MY COM+ TO ,5GL& & ! ?+S ,I WANT$ TO DO4 ,I HAVE R>ELY HAD A MORE ATT5TIVE AUDI5CE UNTIL ,I M5TION$ ,RUSSIA4 ,%IFT+ ( *AIRS1 TURN+ ( NECKS1 & DISAPPROVAL ON ! FACES BE=E ME W]E ! FIR/ 9DICATIONS ?AT ALL WAS NOT GO+ TO BE SO H>MONI\S AS IT SEEM$ AT FIR/4 ,I W5T ON ) MY SPEE*4 ,IT WAS IMPORTANT ?AT ! MA9 REASON = MY PRES5CE 9 ,5GL& %\LD BE CLE> TO EV]YONE4 ,I REM9D$ MY HE>]S ( ! ,RUSSIAN ,REVOLUTION ( #aie & ! HORRORS ?AT FOLL[$ IT4 ,IT WAS MY ILLU/RI\S COMRADE ,PET] ,KROPOTK91 !N LIV+ 9 ,5GL&1 :O HAD >\S$ ! CONSCI5CE ( ! RADICAL & LIB]AL WORLD TO PROTE/ AGA9/ ! FRI<TFUL P]SECUTION ( POLITICALS4 ,HIS 0,J'ACCUSE60 WAS TAK5 UP 9 ! ,H\SE ( ,COMMONS1 & IT SUCCE$$ 9 *ECK+ ! AUTOCRACY4 0,Y\ WILL BE %OCK$ TO LE>N ?AT A SIMIL> SITUATION EXI/S 9 ,RUSSIA TODAY10 ,I SAID4 0,! NEW RUL]S >E CONT9U+ ! OLD T]ROR4 ,ALAS6 ,!RE IS NO ,KROPOTK9 TO 9DICT !M AT ! B> ( HUMANITY40 ,I DID NOT FEEL1 ,I CONT9U$1 ! EQUAL ( MY GREAT TEA*] 9 BRA9 OR P]SONALITY1 BUT ,I WAS DET]M9$ TO DO ALL ,I C\LD TO MAKE KN[N ! FE>FUL /ATE ( AFFAIRS 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,) :ATEV] ABILITY & VOICE ,I POSSESS$ ,I W\LD CRY \T MY 0,J'ACCUSE60 AGA9/ ! ,SOVIET AUTOCRACY RESPONSIBLE = POLITICAL P]SECUTION1 EXECUTIONS1 & SAVAGE BRUTALITY4 

,! APPLAUSE WAS 9T]RUPT$ BY L\D PROTE/S4 ,SOME D9]S JUMP$ TO !IR FEET & DEM&$ ! FLOOR4 ,!Y NEV] W\LD HAVE BELIEV$1 !Y SAID1 ?AT ! >*-REBEL ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN W\LD ALLY H]SELF ) ! ,TORIES AGA9/ ! ,WORK]S' ,REPUBLIC4 ,!Y W\LD NOT HAVE BROK5 BREAD ) ME HAD !Y KN[N ?AT ,I HAD GONE BACK ON MY REVOLUTION>Y PA/4 ,IT WAS GR[+ LATE4 ,! EV5+ MEANT TOO MU* TO ME TO HAVE IT 5D 9 A R[4 ,WE W]E PLANN+ A MEET+ 9 ,QUE5'S ,HALL1 ,I 9=M$ ! AUDI5CE1 & !RE WE ALL %\LD HAVE OPPORTUNITY TO DISCUSS ! MATT] 9 DETAIL4 

,! REPORTS ( ! D9N] 9 ! ,LONDON DAILY PRESS W]E COPI\S & FAIR4 ,ONLY ! ,H]ALD WAS EVASIVE AB\T MY TALK1 ?\< IT PR9T$ A %ORT P>AGRAPH AB\T ! O!R SPEE*ES4 ,I WAS 9=M$ ?AT ITS $ITORS1 ,GEORGE ,LANSBURY & ,HAMILTON ,FIFE1 W]E 9DIGNANT AT MY 0BREA* ( FAI?40 ,!Y HAD ADD$ !IR NAMES TO ?AT ( ,GEORGE ,SLOCOMBE1 :O HAD ASSUR$ ! ,HOME ,(FICE ?AT MY SOLE PURPOSE 9 COM+ TO ,5GL& WAS TO DO RESE>* WORK 9 ! ,BRITI% ,MUSEUM4 ,I EXPLA9$ TO MY FRI5DS ?AT ,MR4 ,SLOCOMBE WAS ! MAN ?R\< :OM ,FRANK ,H>RIS HAD GOT P]MISSION = ME TO 5T] ,5GL&4 ,NEI!R ,H>RIS NOR ,I HAD AU?ORIZ$ HIM TO MAKE ANY PL$GES ON MY BEHALF4 ,AS TO ! G5TLEM5 ( ! ,H]ALD1 !IR %>E 9 HELP+ SECURE A VISA = ME WAS NEWS TO ME4 ,I DID NOT KN[ ,MR4 ,FIFE4 ,MR4 ,LANSBURY ,I HAD MET 9 ,RUSSIA1 & FROM :AT ,I KNEW ( HIS ATTITUDE TO ! ,COMMUNI/ ,/ATE IT W\LD HAVE NEV] OCCURR$ TO ME TO ASK FAVORS ( HIM4 ,BUT ,I C\LD UND]/& ,MR4 ,LANSBURY'S *AGR9 OV] MY 9T5D$ CAMPAIGN TO %$ LI<T ON ! ,RUSSIAN SITUATION4 ,! AU?OR ( ! /ATEM5T ?AT ! TEA*+S ( ,JESUS HAD BE5 REALIZ$ 9 ,RUSSIA C\LD NOT AF=D TO BE MADE RIDICUL\S4 

,MY CONVICTION ?AT GOV]NM5TAL SC5E-%IFT+ DOES NOT ALT] ! ECONOMIC SITUATION ( ! MASSES HAD NOT *ANG$4 ,! ,SOCIALI/S 9 P[]1 9CLUD+ ?OSE ( ,GREAT ,BRITA91 HAD /R5G!N$ MY ATTITUDE ON ! QUE/ION ( ! ,/ATE4 ,NO:]E HAD !Y HELP$ TO IMPROVE ! LIFE ( ! WORK]4 ,I WAS C]TA9 ?AT ,MR4 ,MAC,DONALD W\LD DO NO MORE DUR+ HIS SECOND T]M ?AN HE HAD 9 HIS FIR/4 ,BUT !RE WAS ONE MATT] ( UTMO/ IMPORTANCE ?AT ! ,LABOR ,GOV]NM5T C\LD ACCOMPLI%3 RECOGNITION ( ! ,SOVIET ,GOV]NM5T4 ,I WAS VITALLY 9T]E/$ 9 ?AT1 BECAUSE ,I KNEW IT W\LD REMOVE ! HALO ( M>TYRDOM FROM ! BR[ ( ! ,COMMUNI/ ,/ATE4 ,! 9T]NATIONAL PROLET>IAT W\LD !N REALIZE ?AT ! ,SOVIET ,GOV]NM5T WAS ( ! SAME CLAY AS ! O!RS4 ,I !RE=E DECID$ NOT TO TALK AB\T ,RUSSIA DUR+ ! CAMPAIGN4 

,N[ IT WAS OV] & MY SPEE*ES C\LD NOT AFFECT ! FATE ( ! ,9DEP5D5T ,LABOR ,P>TY4 ,IT WAS ITS [N 9COMPET5CE 9 DEAL+ ) ! POV]TY & DI/RESS ( ! C\NTRY :ILE /ILL 9 (FICE ?AT DEFEAT$ IT4 ,I FELT FREE TO WRITE = ,! ,TIMES & ! ,LONDON ,DAILY ,NEWS ! >TICLES !Y HAD REQUE/$4 ,IT WAS NOT ONLY ?AT ,I HAD F9ANCIALLY REA*$ BOTTOM1 BUT MA9LY BECAUSE WE NE$$ FUNDS = \R MASS MEET+ 9 ,QUE5'S ,HALL4 ,! ,BRITI% AN>*I/S W]E TOO POOR TO CONTRIBUTE MORE ?AN A FEW %ILL+S1 & SO F> NO ONE ( MEANS HAD VOLUNTE]$ TO AID4 ,I WAS GLAD TO E>N =TY P\NDS & AT ! SAME TIME SPEAK TO A WID] PUBLIC4 

,[+ TO ! ELECTIONS & ! APPROA*+ HOLIDAYS1 \R MEET+ HAD TO BE PO/PON$ TILL ,JANU>Y4 ,MY FRI5DS 9SI/$ ?AT ! BACK+ ( A NUM]\S COMMITTEE WAS 9DISP5SABLE TO ! MORAL SUCCESS ( \R UND]TAK+4 ,I *AF$ AT ! DELAY & RES5T$ ! IDEA ( A COMMITTEE4 ,I TOLD MY FRI5DS ( ! L>GE BIR?-CONTROL MEET+S MY C[ORK] ,B5 ,REITMAN HAD MANAG$ ) JU/ A FEW COMRADES TO ASSI/ HIM2 ! BIG DEMON/RATIONS ,SA%A HAD ORGANIZ$ & \R ANTIW> PROTE/S4 ,WE HAD HAD NO PROM95T SUPPORT4 ,:Y WAS IT NECESS>Y 9 ,LONDON8 ,9 ,AM]ICA ,SA%A & ,I W]E WELL KN[N1 BUT IT WAS DIFF]5T 9 ,5GL&1 MY FRI5DS REPLI$4 ,H]E PEOPLE MOV$ 9 A H]D1 AT ! DIRECTION ( !IR %EPH]D1 & ?IS APPLI$ ALIKE TO P>TY ORGANIZATIONS1 SOCIETIES1 & CLUBS4 ,WE MU/ HAVE BACK+ TO REA* ! PUBLIC E>4 ,!Y AGRE$ ) :AT ,REBECCA ,WE/ HAD TOLD ME AB\T FREE-LANCE LECTURE WORK4 0,IT IS NOT DONE 9 ,5GL&10 %E HAD SAID4 ,LONDON AUDI5CES PAID ADMISSION TO LECTURES ONLY = *>ITABLE PURPOSES4 

,9 MY PUBLIC C>E] ,I HAD BE5 AFFILIAT$ ) GR\PS ONLY TEMPOR>ILY4 ,I WORK$ = !M1 NOT ) !M4 ,:ATEV] VALUE MY ACTIVITIES HAD 9 ,AM]ICA WAS DUE TO MY FREE-LANC+ & 9DEP5D5T POSITION4 ,MY ,LONDON FRI5DS URG$ ?AT MY FIR/ L>GE PUBLIC APPE>ANCE MU/ HAVE ! PROP] SUPPORT4 ,! D9N] HAD ALREADY CALL$ ATT5TION TO MY PRES5CE 9 ,LONDON & TO MY PURPOSE4 ,! MEET+ W\LD PAVE MY WAY = FUR!R EF=TS4 ,AFT] ALL1 !Y KNEW BE/ H[ TO REA* ! ,BRITI% PUBLIC1 & ,I WAS WILL+ TO FOLL[ !IR ADVICE4 

,= TWO WEEKS ,I BOMB>D$ ) LETT]S EV]Y NAME ON ! LI/ ( ! PROSPECTIVE COMMITTEE1 BUT ! RESPONSE WAS NEGLIGIBLE4 ,MO/ ( !M DID NOT EV5 REPLY4 ,O!RS GAVE EVASIVE REASONS :Y !Y C\LD NOT S]VE4 ,MR4 ,ZANGWILL WROTE ?AT1 [+ TO POOR HEAL?1 HE HAD GIV5 UP ALL PUBLIC P>TICIPATION2 BESIDES1 HE DID NOT BELIEVE ?AT A COMMITTEE ( KN[N ,LABOR PEOPLE W\LD DO ME ! SLI<TE/ GOOD4 ,I MI<T APPROA* ! ,SOCIETY = ,DEMOCRATIC ,CONTROL1 ( :I* BO? HE & ,B]TR& ,RUSSELL W]E MEMB]S4 ,HE C\LD SUGGE/ NO?+ MORE4 ,HE WAS SORRY ,I HAD HAD TO GO TO ,RUSSIA TO F9D \T :AT HE HAD KN[N ALL ALONG3 ?AT ! ,MOSC[ DICTATOR%IP WAS TYRANNY4 

,HAVELOCK ,ELLIS S5T A K9DLY NOTE4 ,:ILE HE WAS C]TA9 ( ! S9C]ITY ( MY MOTIVES1 HE FE>$ MY CRITICISM ( ,RUSSIA W\LD GIVE COM=T TO ! REACTION>IES4 ,!Y HAD NEV] PROTE/$ AGA9/ ! CZ>I/ AUTOCRACY & HE HAD NO PATI5CE ) !IR OPPOSITION TO ,BOL%EVISM1 :I* WAS ONLY 09V]T$ CZ>ISM40 ,AT ANY RATE HE DID NOT LIKE COMMITTEE FUNCTIONS4 

,! V5]ABLE ,MRS4 ,COBD5-,S&]SON1 AN OLD FRI5D ( ! ,KROPOTK9S1 :O HAD COOP]AT$ ) !M AGA9/ ! POLITICAL P]SECUTIONS ( ! CZ>I/ REGIME1 ,LADY ,W>WICK1 ,B]TR& ,RUSSELL1 & ,PR(ESSOR ,H>OLD ,LASKI 9VIT$ ME TO COME TO !M = A TALK4 

,TWO P]SONS CONS5T$ TO BE ON \R COMMITTEE )\T ANY RES]VATIONS3 ,REBECCA ,WE/ & ,COLONEL ,JOSIAH ,W$GWOOD4 ,$W>D ,C>P5T] WROTE ?AT BECAUSE ( AGE HE C\LD NOT V5TURE \T 9 ! EV5+1 BUT HE WAS READY TO BACK MY EF=TS1 :I*1 HE WAS CONFID5T1 /OOD = FRE$OM & JU/ICE4 

,REBECCA ,WE/ HAD ALREADY GIV5 ME CONSID]ABLE HELP4 ,AT H] HOME ,I HAD MET H] COLLEAGUES ON ! FEM9I/ PUBLICATION ,TIME & ,TIDE --- ,LADY ,RHONNDA1 ,MRS4 ,>*DALE1 & ,REBECCA'S SI/]1 ,DR4 ,LETITIA ,FAIRFIELD1 AS WELL AS A NUMB] ( O!RS 9T]E/$ 9 ! WOM5 POLITICALS 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,MY CIRCLE ( ACQUA9TANCE KEPT 5L>G+1 & 9VITATIONS TO LUN*EONS1 TEAS1 & D9N]S BEGAN TO P\R 94 ,EV]YONE WAS MO/ HOSPITABLE1 ATT5TIVE1 & CORDIAL --- ALL V]Y PLEASANT IF ,I HAD COME TO ,5GL& = SOCIAL 5T]TA9M5T ONLY4 ,BUT ,I HAD COME = A PURPOSE4 ,I WANT$ TO >\SE ! S5SIBILITIES ( FAIR-M9D$ ,5GLI%M5 TO ! PURGATORY ( ,RUSSIA1 TO /IR !M TO A CONC]T$ PROTE/ AGA9/ ! HORRORS P>AD+ AS ,SOCIALISM & ,REVOLUTION4 ,IT WAS NOT ?AT MY HO/S & !IR FRI5DS W]E NOT 9T]E/$ OR ?AT !Y QUE/ION$ ! FACTS ,I PRES5T$4 ,IT WAS !IR REMOT5ESS FROM ! ,RUSSIAN REALITY1 !IR LUKEW>MNESS TO CONDITIONS !Y C\LD NOT VISUALIZE & H5CE DID NOT FEEL4 

,! ,LABOR LEAD]S W]E CALL\S4 ,9 ! WORDS ( A ,BRITI% ,SOCIALI/1 0,IT W\LD SPELL POLITICAL DISA/] TO MY P>TY TO DECL>E TO ITS CON/ITU5TS ?AT ! ,BOL%EVIKS HAD SLA9 ! ,REVOLUTION40 ,MR4 ,CLIF=D ,ALL51 SECRET>Y ( ! ,9DEP5D5T ,LABOR ,P>TY1 DECL>$ ?AT 0,EMMA ,GOLDMAN IS AN OLD-TIME ,*RI/IAN1 /ILL BELIEV+ 9 ! ,TRU? & SPEAK+ IT \T40 ,! MO/ IMPORTANT ISSUE WAS TRADE ) ,RUSSIA1 HE ASS]T$4 ,I HAD MET ,MR4 ,ALL5 9 ,PETROGRAD1 9 #a#i#b1 :5 HE HAD COME ) ! ,BRITI% ,LABOR ,MISSION1 = :I* ,SA%A HAD ACT$ AS 9T]PRET] 9 ,MOSC[4 ,BO? ( US HAD BE5 IMPRESS$ BY ,ALL5'S 9DEP5D5T & IDEALI/IC P]SONALITY4 ,IT WAS SOME:AT ( A %OCK TO DISCOV] ?AT 9 HIS (FICIAL CAPACITY HE W\LD ALL[ CONSID]ATIONS ( BUS9ESS TO LOOM HI<] ?AN HUMAN VALUES4 ,I ADMITT$ ?AT ,I WAS NOT A %OPKEEP]1 BUT ,I BELIEV$ 5\< 9 LIB]TY TO LET HIS P>TY BE ONE4 ,YET ,I FAIL$ TO SEE ! CONNECTION BETWE5 0TRADE ) ,RUSSIA0 & ACQUIESC5CE 9 ! CRIM9AL DO+S ( ! ,*EKA4 ,5GL& HAD TRAD$ ) ! ,ROMANOVS1 BUT LIB]TY-LOV+ ,5GLI%M5 HAD (T5 PROTE/$ AGA9/ ! HORRORS ( ! CZ>S1 NOT M]ELY BY WORDS1 BUT BY DE$S4 ,:Y %\LD IT BE DIFF]5T N[8 ,HAD ! ,BRITI% S5SE ( JU/ICE & HUMANITY BE5 %ELL-%OCK$ ?AT !Y C\LD REMA9 DEAF TO ! DESP]ATE CRY ( ?\S&S 9 ,SOVIET DUNGEONS8 ,DID ,I MEAN TO COMP>E ! RULE ( ! ,CZ> ) ?AT ( ! ,BOL%EVIKI8 ,POLITICALLY !IR REGIME WAS WORSE1 ,I TOLD MY HE>]S1 ITS TYRANNY MORE IRRESPONSIBLE & ,DRACONIC4 ,! ,SOVIET ,GOV]NM5T WAS PROLET>IAN1 AFT] ALL1 & ITS ULTIMATE AIM SOCIALISM1 ,MR4 ,ALL5 EXPO/ULAT$4 ,HE DID NOT APPROVE ( ALL ! ME?ODS ( ! DICTATOR%IP1 BUT NEI!R HE NOR HIS P>TY C\LD AF=D TO JO9 A CAMPAIGN AGA9/ IT4 ,MO/ ( ! O!RS %>$ HIS VIEW4 

,AMONG ! SCORES ( PEOPLE ,I MET1 V]Y FEW %[$ SU* K9DLY CONC]N AS ,LADY ,W>WICK4 ,I HAD EXP]I5C$ SO MANY SETBACKS & DISAPPO9TM5TS ?AT ,I CLUNG TO ! HOPE ?AT H] 9T]E/ 9 ,RUSSIA WAS VITAL & ?AT %E C\LD BE DEP5D$ ON TO 9DUCE H] COMRADES TO JO9 \R COMMITTEE1 OR AT LEA/ DO SO H]SELF4 ,BUT PRES5TLY ,LADY ,W>WICK 9=M$ ME ?AT IT W\LD BE NECESS>Y TO PO/PONE ! CONF]5CE >RANG$ TO MEET AT H] H\SE BECAUSE %E HAD BE5 REQUE/$ BY ! ,LABOR M5 TO AWAIT ! RETURN FROM ,RUSSIA ( ! ,BRITI% ,TRADE ,UNION ,DELEGATION4 ,%E SEEM$ TO BE V]Y MU* AFRAID ?AT ANY MOVE ON H] P>T MI<T BR+ BACK ! ,CZ>4 ,APP>5TLY %E CONT9U$ 9 ?AT FE>1 = ,I NEV] HE>D FROM H] AGA94 

,:5 ,I FIR/ CALL$ ON ,PR(ESSOR ,H>OLD ,LASKI1 HE EXPRESS$ ! OP9ION ?AT ,I \<T TO TAKE SOME COM=T 9 ! V9DICATION AN>*ISM HAD RECEIV$ BY ! ,BOL%EVIKI4 ,I AGRE$1 ADD+ ?AT NOT ONLY !IR REGIME1 BUT !IR /EPBRO!RS AS WELL1 ! ,SOCIALI/S 9 P[] 9 O!R C\NTRIES1 HAD DEMON/RAT$ ! FAILURE ( ! ,M>XIAN ,/ATE BETT] ?AN ANY AN>*I/ >GUM5T4 ,LIV+ PRO( WAS ALWAYS MORE CONV9C+ ?AN !ORY4 ,NATURALLY ,I DID NOT REGRET ! ,SOCIALI/ FAILURE1 BUT ,I C\LD NOT REJOICE 9 IT 9 ! FACE ( ! ,RUSSIAN TRAG$Y4 ,IF ,I C\LD AT LEA/ >\SE ! LABOR & RADICAL ELEM5TS6 ,SO F> ,I HAD MADE NO PROGRESS4 ,\TSIDE ( ,REBECCA ,WE/ & ,COLONEL ,W$GWOOD ,I HAD F\ND NO ONE :O REALLY C>$ AB\T ! WOE ( ,RUSSIA4 ,9 ,AM]ICA ,I HAD NEV] MET SU* LACK ( RESPONSE TO ANY APPEAL4 ,LASKI ?\<T ,I W\LD F9D EV5 ! MO/ RADICAL ELEM5TS RELUCTANT TO OPPOSE ! ,BOL%EVIKI4 ,!Y W]E TOO 5?USIA/IC AB\T ! ,REVOLUTION TO DRAW L9ES ( DEM>CATION4 ,9 TIME ,I MI<T 9T]E/ ! LABOR RANKS4 ,HE W\LD DO HIS BE/ TO AID ME2 HE W\LD 9VITE HIS FRI5DS = ! NEXT ,SUNDAY AFT]NOON TO HE> MY /ORY4 ,ONCE MORE HOPE SPRANG FROM :AT SEEM$ A HOPELESS & FUTILE QUE/4 

,IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE = ME TO SPEAK DISPASSIONATELY AB\T ,RUSSIA1 BUT ON ?IS OCCASION ,I S\<T TO SUPPRESS ALL P]SONAL FEEL+4 ,I SPOKE 9 A CONV]SATIONAL TONE & AS OBJECTIVELY AS ,I C\LD4 ,AT ! CONCLUSION ( MY TALK MO/ ( MY QUE/ION]S DEM&$ :E!R ,I C\LD PO9T \T 0ANY POLITICAL GR\P MORE LIB]AL ?AN ! ,BOL%EVIKI1 MORE EFFICI5T = E/ABLI%+ A DEMOCRATIC GOV]NM5T %\LD ! ,SOVIET REGIME BE OV]?R[N40 ,I REPLI$ ?AT ,I DID NOT WANT ! ,COMMUNI/ ,/ATE OV]?R[N1 NOR W\LD ,I AID ANY GR\P ?AT ATTEMPT$ SU* A C\P4 ,FUNDAM5TAL *ANGES W]E NOT MADE BY P>TIES1 BUT BY ! AWAK5$ CONSCI\SNESS ( ! MASSES4 ,?AT HAD HAPP5$ 9 ,M>* & ,OCTOB] #aiag & W\LD HAPP5 AGA91 ?\< PROBABLY NOT 9 ! NE> FUTURE4 ,! DICTATOR%IP HAD DISCR$IT$ ALL SOCIAL IDEALS1 & ! PEOPLE W]E EXHAU/$ BY YE>S ( CIVIL /RIFE4 ,IT W\LD REQUIRE A LONG TIME TO REK9DLE !IR REVOLUTION>Y FIRE4 ,I WAS NOT 9T]E/$ 9 A *ANGE ( RUL]S 9 ,RUSSIA1 BUT ,I WAS VITALLY CONC]N$ 9 ! PLI<T ( ! POLITICAL VICTIMS ( ! ,KREML9 AUTOCRATS4 ,I BELIEV$ ?AT /RONG RADICAL OP9ION 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES & ,EUROPE W\LD AFFECT ! ,SOVIET GOV]NM5T AS IT HAD ?AT ( ! ,ROMANOVS4 ,IT MI<T HELP TO CURB !IR DESPOTISM1 /OP P]SECUTION = M]E OP9ION1 CONVICTIONS )\T TRIAL1 & :OLESALE EXECUTIONS 9 ! CELL>S ( ! ,*EKA4 ,W]E NOT !SE SIMPLE HUMAN DEM&S WOR? TRY+ =8 0,YES1 BUT IT MI<T LEAD TO ! RETURN ( AUTOCRACY40 

,! SAME EVASIONS & OBJECTIONS1 ! SAME FA9!>T$NESS1 ,I CAME ACROSS 9 EV]Y GR\P ,I ADDRESS$4 ,IT WAS APPALL+4 ,AT LA/ REALIZ+ ! FUTILITY ( MY EF=TS1 ,I RESOLV$ NOT TO WA/E MORE TIME ON ! ELITE1 ! ,LABOR POLITICIANS1 OR ! LADIES DABBL+ 9 SOCIALISM4 ,AN>*I/S HAD ALWAYS C>RI$ ON !IR WORK )\T SO-CALL$ RESPECTABLE BACK+ & !Y W\LD HAVE TO DO SO N[4 ,BETT] SMALL MEET+S UND] \R [N AUSPICES & )\T OBLIGATION TO ANYONE ?AN ! SUPPORT ( ! B\RGEOIS WORLD4 ,! DOZ5 MEMB]S ( \R LITTLE GR\P AGRE$ TO GO AHEAD 9 ANY WAY ,I %\LD SUGGE/1 & !Y PROCUR$ ,S\? ,PLACE ,9/ITUTE = \R MEET+4 ,!Y REM9D$ ME ?AT MANY A BRAVE VOICE HAD PLEAD$ FROM ?AT PLAT=M = FRE$OM & JU/ICE4 ,I RECOLLECT$ ?AT ,I HAD SPOK5 !RE 9 #a#i1 DUR+ ! ,BO] ,W>1 UND] ! *AIRMAN%IP ( ,TOM ,MANN4 ,MANY SC5ES HAD BE5 %IFT$ S9CE4 ,MANN WAS 9 ! BOSOM ( ! NEW *AUR* & ,I WAS /ILL PROSCRIB$ BY BO? SIDES1 ! CAPITALI/ & ! ,COMMUNI/4 

,PR(ESSOR ,LASKI NOTIFI$ ME ?AT HIS FRI5DS W]E ( ! OP9ION ?AT ! ,I4,L4,P4 %\LD AB/A9 FROM ATTACK+ ,SOVIET ,RUSSIA4 ,HE ADD$ ?AT ,B]TR& ,RUSSELL1 ?\< HE DISLIK$ ! ,SOVIET ME?ODS1 D\BT$ ! ADVISABILITY ( MY PROPAG&A4 ,O!RS W]E CONV9C$ ?AT ,I WAS MORE ANXI\S TO ATTACK ! ,BOL%EVIKI ?AN TO OBTA9 R$RESS = ! POLITICALS2 !Y W\LD NOT SUPPORT SU* AN \TSPOK5 OPPON5T ( ,RUSSIA4 ,SOME HELD ?AT ACTION MU/ COME FROM ! ,TRADE ,UNION ,DELEGATION & NOT FROM NON-,5GLI% S\RCES4 ,PR(ESSOR ,LASKI CONCLUD$ BY /AT+ ?AT ! ,LABOR LEAD]S W\LD DO NO?+ ?AT MI<T 9VOLVE !M 9 A CONTROV]SY ) ! ,SOVIETS4 ,ON ! :OLE HE AGRE$ ) ,B]TR& ,RUSSELL ?AT A CAMPAIGN 9 BEHALF ( ! POLITICALS MU/ NOT BE UND] ANTI-,BOL%EVIK AUSPICES 0SU* AS Y\RS40 

,B]TR& ,RUSSELL'S /& WAS A DISAPPO9TM5T TO ME4 ,I HAD SE5 HIM & TALK$ ) HIM AT L5G?4 ,:ILE HE HAD NOT PROMIS$ TO ACT ON ! PROPOS$ COMMITTEE1 SAY+ HE W\LD HAVE TO ?9K ! MATT] OV]1 HE HAD %[N NO 9DICATION ?AT HE DID NOT C>E TO AFFILIATE HIMSELF ) AN AV[$ AN>*I/4 ,IT WAS RA!R DISC\RAG+ TO F9D ! BRILLIANT CRITIC ( ! ,/ATE1 ! MAN :OSE SPIRITUAL ATTITUDE WAS AN>*I/IC1 FI<T %Y ( COOP]ATION ) AN AN>*I/4 ,& ,LASKI1 TOO1 ! BOLD EXPON5T ( 9DIVIDUALISM6 

,! ,TRADE ,UNION ,DELEGATION RETURN$ FROM ,RUSSIA ON FIRE ) ! WOND]S !Y HAD SE5 --- RA!R1 HAD BE5 %[N6 ,!Y WAX$ 5?USIA/IC 9 ! ,DAILY ,H]ALD & AT MEET+S AB\T ! SPL5DID ,SOVIET A*IEVEM5TS4 ,!Y HAD SP5T ALL ( SIX WEEKS 9 ,RUSSIA2 C\LD ONE SPEAK ) GREAT] KN[L$GE & AU?ORITY8 

,IF ,I FAIL$ TO >\SE ! ,BRITI%]S1 ,I SUCCE$$ 9 IMPRESS+ A FEW ,AM]ICANS 9 ,5GL&1 MO/ ( !M ,RHODES S*OL>S1 :O 9VIT$ ME TO ADDRESS !M4 ,MY VISIT TO ,OX=D WAS QUITE AN EV5T1 NOT ONLY ON ACC\NT ( ! SPL5DID MEET+ ! BOYS HAD >RANG$ 9 SPITE ( ! OPPOSITION FROM ! 0,COOLIDGE GANG10 BUT ALSO BECAUSE ( ! HOSPITALITY & G5]\S AID GIV5 ME BY ,PR(ESSOR ,S4 ,E4 ,MORISON1 ( ! ,AM]ICAN ,HI/ORY ,DEP>TM5T1 & BY ! DOZ5 Y\NG *APS1 ! MO/ ?\<TFUL & WIDE-AWAKE ( ! GR\P1 :O BECAME MY >D5T FRI5DS4 ,?IS AT LEA/ ,I HAD GA9$ AFT] F\R MON?S ( EF=T4 ,! G5U9E 9T]E/ & ! S9C]E DESIRE TO HELP ( SU* NEW FRI5DS AS ,DAVID ,SOSKICE1 ! WELL-KN[N ,RUSSIAN REVOLUTIONI/ & ONE-TIME $ITOR ( ,FREE ,RUSSIA1 ( ,MRS4 ,SOSKICE1 ! WRIT] & SI/] ( ,=D ,MADOX ,=D1 AS WELL AS !IR TWO VIVID BOYS1 WAS A MO/ SATISFY+ RECOMP5SE4 

,?ANKS TO ! FAI?FUL & 5]GETIC WORK ( MY COMRADES1 AMONG !M ,DORIS ,ZHOOK1 ,WILLIAM ,WESS1 ,A4 ,SUGG1 ,TOM ,KEELL1 & ,WILLIAM ,C4 ,[51 \R ,S\? ,PLACE ,9/ITUTE MEET+ WAS CR[D$1 NOT)/&+ ! D[NP\R & ! ADMISSION *>G$4 ,! TACT ( \R *AIRMAN1 ,COLONEL ,JOSIAH ,W$GEWOOD1 MY ,AM]ICAN /UD5T FRI5DS1 SOME 0REAL0 PROLET>IANS TO KEEP ORD]1 & MY USUAL SANG-FROID ON ! PLAT=M SAV$ ! SITUATION4 

,WE HAD REASON TO REJOICE OV] \R SUCCESS4 ,)\T BACK+1 EI!R MORAL OR F9ANCIAL1 WE COV]$ ! EXP5SES ( \R MEET+ & HAD SOME SURPLUS LEFT TO S5D TO ! ,B]L9 ,FUND = POLITICAL PRISON]S4 ,) ,TOM ,SWEETLOVE AS TREASUR]1 & ,A4 ,SUGG1 AS SECRET>Y1 ! COMMITTEE WAS LAUN*$ AS A P]MAN5T BODY = SY/EMATIC ACTIVITY4 ,?\< NUM]ICALLY SMALL1 IT HAD AMBITI\S AIMS3 A S]IES ( LECTURES ON ,RUSSIA1 ! CIRCULATION ( ! ,BULLET9 ( ! ,JO9T ,COMMITTEE = ! ,DEF5SE ( ! ,IMPRISON$ ,REVOLUTIONI/S 9 ,RUSSIA1 PUBLI%$ 9 ! ,5GLI% LANGUAGE 9 ,B]L9 UND] ,SA%A'S $ITOR%IP1 & ! RAIS+ ( FUNDS4 ,! ,BULLET9 CONTA9$ ACCURATE 9=MATION & DATA ON POLITICAL P]SECUTION1 AS WELL AS LETT]S FROM ! 9C>C]AT$ & EXIL$ :I* ,SA%A & O!R MEMB]S ( ! ,JO9T ,COMMITTEE W]E RECEIV+ SUB ROSA FROM ,RUSSIA4 

,\R MA9 TR\BLE WAS ?AT ,I F\ND MYSELF BETWE5 TWO FIRES4 ,I HAD NO HOPE ( A HE>+ BY ! ,9DEP5D5T ,LABOR ,P>TY OR 9 ! TRADE UNIONS2 NEI!R W\LD ,I SPEAK UND] ! AUSPICES ( ! ,TORIES4 ,FROM ! LATT] ,I RECEIV$ A NUMB] ( 9VITATIONS TO LECTURE ON ,RUSSIA1 BUT ,I HAD TO DECL9E BECAUSE ,I LE>N$ ?AT !Y W]E EXCLUSIVE ,CONS]VATIVE CLUBS4 ,ANO!R CAME FROM ! ,WOMAN'S ,GUILD ( ! ,EMPIRE 9 ,PAISLEY4 ,I 9QUIR$ AB\T ITS POLITICAL *>ACT] & WAS 9=M$ ?AT IT /OOD = 0,GOD1 ,K+1 & ,C\NTRY40 ,I WROTE TO ! ,GUILD ?AT AS AN AN>*I/ ,I REPUDIAT$ SOCIAL >RANGEM5TS :I* RAIS$ SOME TO ! ?RONE & CONDEMN$ O!RS TO PAUP]ISM4 ,I DID NOT DISCRIM9ATE AGA9/ ANY AUDI5CE1 :ATEV] ITS SOCIAL1 POLITICAL1 OR RELIGI\S BELIEFS2 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES ,I HAD LECTUR$ BE=E ! MO/ DIV]SIFI$ CR[DS --- LONG%OREM5 & MILLIONAIRES1 POOR WORK+ & PR(ESSIONAL WOM52 9 HALLS BEH9D SALOONS & 9 DRAW+-ROOMS1 9 M9ES HUNDR$S ( FEET BEL[ ! GR\ND1 FROM PULPITS & SOAP-BOXES4 ,FROM \R [N PLAT=M ,I %\LD BE WILL+ TO TREAT ! SUBJECT ( ,RUSSIA1 NO MATT] :O CAME TO HE> ME4 ,ON ANY O!R TOPIC ,I %\LD BE WILL+ TO TALK 9 ! ,H\SE ( ,LORDS1 9 ,W9DSOR ,CA/LE1 OR BE=E ! ,CONS]VATIVE ,P>TY4 ,BUT NOT ON ,RUSSIA4 

,I D\BT$ ?AT \R COMMITTEE C\LD SUCCE$ ) 9DEP5D5T MEET+S 9 REA*+ ! G5]AL PUBLIC4 ,! MEMB]S W]E NOT DISMAY$4 ,!Y W\LD EXP]IM5T ) ,5GLI% LECTURES1 & ! ,>BEIT] ,FREUND GR\P VOLUNTE]$ TO ORGANIZE ,YIDDI% MEET+S 9 ! ,EA/ ,5D4 ,?US 5C\RAG$1 ,I />T$ MY WEEKLY R\NDS FROM ONE 5D ( ,LONDON TO ! O!R1 9 RA91 SLEET1 FOG1 & *ILL1 = ?REE MON?S4 ,NOT EV5 9 MY PIONE] DAYS 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES HAD ,I F\ND IT QUITE SO BITT] TO BREAK NEW GR\ND AS ,I DID 9 ?IS V5TURE4 ,! RESULT WAS H>DLY WOR? ! EF=T1 ?\< ! COMMITTEE 9SI/$ ?AT IT WAS4 ,EXP5SES W]E COV]$1 SOME MONEY WAS ADD$ TO ! ,POLITICAL ,PRISON]S' ,FUND1 & CONDITIONS UND] ! ,COMMUNI/ ,/ATE W]E MADE KN[N TO HUNDR$S ( PEOPLE4 

,MY T\R ?R\< ! NOR? ( ,5GL& & S\? ,WALES WAS LITTLE TO BOA/ (4 ,! ,WEL% PEOPLE W]E IMPRESSIONABLE & EASILY >\S$1 BUT NOT ALWAYS DEP5DABLE1 ,JOHN ,TURN] HAD ONCE TOLD ME4 ,AFT] ! ,5GLI% ICICLES ,I HAD TRI$ TO MELT1 ,I WELCOM$ ! ,WEL% CR[DS & !IR 5?USIASM4 ,! DIFFICULTY WAS NOT ! 9DIFF]5CE ( ! WORK]S1 BUT !IR DREADFUL POV]TY4 ,MANY HAD BE5 UNEMPLOY$ = A LONG TIME1 & ?OSE :O W]E =TUNATE 5\< TO HAVE JOBS E>N$ ! B>E/ PITTANCE4 ,! AMAZ+ ?+ WAS ?AT PEOPLE LIV+ 9 SU* BLEAKNESS %\LD COME TO MEET+S AT ALL2 IT SEEM$ EXTRAORD9>Y ?AT !Y C\LD MU/] UP 5\< SYMPA?Y 9 !IR SUFF]+ BRO!RS 9 F>-AWAY ,RUSSIA4 ,! PALE1 P9*$ FACES ( !SE TOIL]S MADE ME PA9FULLY AW>E ( MY [N POSITION4 ,LIKE ALL MISSION>IES ,I WAS APPEAL+ = 0*>ITY = ,*9A0 :5 HELP WAS SO DESP]ATELY NE$$ AT HOME4 ,IF ,I C\LD AT LEA/ 5T] !IR LIVES1 %>E 9 !IR /RUGGLES1 %[ !M ?AT AN>*ISM ALONE HAS ! KEY ?AT CAN TRANS=M SOCIETY & SECURE !IR WELL-BE+1 MY BEGG+ W\LD HAVE SOME JU/IFICATION4 

,ALREADY 9 ,LONDON AFT] MY FIR/ LECTURES ,I HAD BEGUN TO *AFE UND] MY COMPULSORY SIL5CE ON ! FRI<TFUL ECONOMIC CONDITIONS 9 ,5GL&4 ,! SOCIAL WRONGS 9 ,GREAT ,BRITA9 C\LD ( C\RSE 9 NO WAY JU/IFY SIMIL> EVILS 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,NOR DID ,I FEEL IT JU/ TO TALK AB\T ! DICTATOR%IP & IGNORE ! SITUATION CLOSE AT H&4 ,?IS FEEL+ WAS CON/ANTLY 9CREAS+ & ADD+ TO MY 9N] /RUGGLE4 ,I C\LD NOT GO ON MU* LONG] ) MY ANTI-,SOVIET ACTIVITIES )\T VOIC+ MY /& ON ! G5]AL SOCIAL QUE/ION4 ,?AT OPPORTUNITY D5I$ ME 9 ,5GL&1 AS 9DE$ EV]Y:]E ELSE1 ,I %\LD HAVE TO /OP DISCUSS+ ! ,BOL%EVIK ,/ATE4 ,I C\LD NOT CLOSE MY EYES TO ! FACT ?AT ,I [$ MY ASYLUM TO MY ATTITUDE ON ,RUSSIA --- A D\BTFUL & UNCOM=TABLE HOSPITALITY1 :I* ,I C\LD NOT ACCEPT 9DEF9ITELY4 ,MY COMRADES URG$ ME TO REMA9 = MY WORK4 ,I HAD NO REASON TO FEEL ?AT ,I MU/ NOT APPEAL = ! IMPRISON$ REVOLUTIONI/S 9 ,RUSSIA BECAUSE ,I C\LD NOT TAKE P>T 9 ! SOCIAL /RUGGLE 9 ,5GL&1 !Y >GU$4 ,I WAS ! FIR/ AN>*I/ RETURN$ FROM ! ,SOVIET C\NTRY TO EXPLA9 9 ,GREAT ,BRITA9 ! RELATION ( ! ,BOL%EVIKI TO ! ,REVOLUTION2 SU* KN[L$GE WAS VITAL EV]Y:]E1 BUT NO:]E MORE SO ?AN 9 ,5GL&1 :]E MANY ( ! LABOR LEAD]S W]E EMISS>IES ( ,MOSC[4 ,?IS APPLI$ P>TICUL>LY TO S\? ,WALES1 :]E C]TA9 (FICIALS ( ! ,M9]S' ,F$]ATION W]E ESP\S+ ! MIRACLE ( ! ,COMMUNI/ ,/ATE4 ,! SIMPLE TRU/ & FAI? ( MY COMRADES WAS DEEPLY T\*+4 ,PROLET>IAN FROM 9FANCY1 !IR LIVES B>R5 ( BEAUTY & JOY1 !Y CLUNG TO !IR IDEAL AS ! SOLE HOPE ( A NEW & FREE WORLD4 ,TYPICAL ( !M WAS ,JAMES ,COLTON1 :O AT ! AGE ( SIXTY-FIVE WAS /ILL COMPELL$ TO SLAVE 9 ! M9ES = HIS DAILY BREAD4 ,HE HAD GIV5 ! GREAT] P>T ( HIS LIFE TO ACTIVE S]VICE 9 \R RANKS1 & ) MU* PRIDE HE TOLD ME ?AT1 LIKE MYSELF1 HE HAD BECOME AN AN>*I/ AS A RESULT ( ! JUDICIAL MURD] ( \R ,*ICAGO M>TYRS4 ,) NO *ANCE = AN $UCATION1 HE HAD PICK$ UP MU* KN[L$GE & A CLE> UND]/&+ ( SOCIAL PROBLEMS4 ,HE DEVOT$ HIS NATIVE ABILITY AS A SPEAK] TO ! CAUSE & HE CONTRIBUT$ TO ! PROPAGATION ( AN>*ISM FROM HIS MEAG] E>N+S4 ,! COMRADES 9 HIS GR\P1 Y\NG] M5 ) FAMILIES TO SUPPORT1 W]E C>RI$ ALONG BY 0,JIMMY'S0 5]GY & 9SPIR$ BY HIS LOVE & CONSECRATION TO ! IDEAL4 

,! ,TRADE ,UNION ,REPORT ON ,RUSSIA1 SIGN$ BY ALL ! DELEGATES1 9CLUD+ ,JOHN ,TURN]1 PROV$ A COMPLETE :ITEWA% ( ! ,SOVIET REGIME4 ,! GR\ND IT COV]$ W\LD HAVE REQUIR$ SEV]AL YE>S' /UDY1 EXT5SIVE TRAVEL1 & A LONG /AY 9 ! C\NTRY4 ,! ,LABOR DELEGATES HAD BE5 9 ,RUSSIA SIX WEEKS1 MORE ?AN A WEEK ( :I* WAS SP5T 9 TRA9S1 AS ,JOHN TOLD ME4 ,OBVI\SLY !IR REPORT C\LD NOT REPRES5T ! P]SONAL KN[L$GE & OBS]VATION ( ITS AU?ORS4 ,AS A MATT] ( FACT1 IT WAS A COMPILATION ( ! DOCUM5TS SPECIALLY PREP>$ = !M BY ! AU?ORITIES4 ,9ASMU* AS MO/ ( ! DELEGATES HAD BE5 PRO-,SOVIET BE=E COM+ TO ,RUSSIA1 IT WAS QUITE NATURAL ?AT !Y %\LD SWALL[ ! :OLE ,BOL%EVIK BAIT4 ,!IR 9T]PRET]S1 ONE ( !M A NAVAL ATTA*E ( ! ,BRITI% ,EMBASSY 9 ! CZ>I/ DAYS1 ANO!R 9 ! DIPLOMATIC S]VICE = A LONG TIME1 W]E PA/ MA/]S 9 MU/]+ (FICIAL DATA TO GOOD EFFECT4 ,!Y HAD W9K$ AT ! OLD AUTOCRACY 9 ! 9T]E/S ( !IR ,GOV]NM5T1 & N[1 AS ADH]5TS ( ! ,I4,L4,P41 !Y HAD ALSO TO DO CONSID]ABLE W9K+4 ,?AT WAS !IR PR(ESSION & ,I HAD NO QU>REL ) !M4 ,BUT ,I WAS %OCK$ TO SEE ,JOHN ,TURN] SIGN ! REPORT4 ,! MORE SO BECAUSE HIS >TICLE 9 ,=EIGN ,AFFAIRS1 ! 9T]VIEW HE GAVE TO A REPRES5TATIVE ( ! ,NEW ,YORK ,=W>D1 AS WELL AS HIS TALK AT \R MEET+1 FLATLY CONTRADICT$ ! PEANS ( ! REPORT4 ,I WROTE HIM FRANKLY H[ HE HAD DISAPPO9T$ ME & ! O!R COMRADES4 ,HE REPLI$ 9 ALMO/ ! ID5TICAL PHRASE ,LANSBURY HAD US$ TO ,SA%A 9 #a#i#b3 HE C\LD %[ ME 0ANY NUMB] ( POOR1 DE/ITUTE & />V$ 9 ,LONDON40 ,I FAIL$ TO SEE ! CONNECTION BETWE5 ! MIS]Y 9 ,5GL& & ! /ATEM5T 9 ! REPORT ?AT ! ,RUSSIAN TOIL]S1 ?\< POLITICALLY B\ND1 W]E ECONOMICALLY FREE & CONT5T$4 ,TURN] & HIS CO-DELEGATES KNEW ?AT ?IS WAS NO MORE TRUE REG>D+ ! MASSES 9 ,RUSSIA ?AN 9 REF]5CE TO ! ,BRITI% WORK]S4 

,IT WAS IMP]ATIVE TO UNMASK ! DECEPTION4 ,I SUGGE/$ TO \R COMMITTEE A REPLY & ,I WAS 9/RUCT$ TO PREP>E IT1 ) ! HELP ( ,DORIS ,ZHOOK4 ,! BRO*URE WE ISSU$ COMP>$ ! /ATEM5TS 9 ! REPORT ) QUOTATIONS FROM ! ,SOVIET PRESS DUR+ ! VISIT ( ! ,BRITI% DELEGATES4 ,IT CONTA9$ NO COMM5TS :ATEV]1 AS WE W]E WILL+ TO LET ! ,BOL%EVIKI !MSELVES DISPROVE ! EXTRAVAGANT CLAIMS ( ! REPORT4 ,! ,COMMUNI/S IMM$IATELY *>G$ US ) US+ MAT]IAL FROM ! =G$ ,IZVE/IA & ,PRAVDA1 ALLEG$LY PUBLI%$ BY C\NT]-REVOLUTIONI/S ABROAD4 ,IT WAS ABSURDLY SILLY1 BUT IT WAS SAD TO SEE EV5 SO GOOD AN 9SURG5T AS ,COLONEL ,JOSIAH ,W$GWOOD *ANGE FRONT4 ,HE WROTE ME ?AT HE W\LD TAKE NO RESPONSIBILITY = ! PAMPHLET & REQUE/$ ?AT HIS NAME BE TAK5 (F ! COMMITTEE4 ,W$GWOOD1 LIKE MO/ ( ! O!RS1 9CLUD+ EV5 MY COMRADE ,JOHN ,TURN]1 MOV$ 9 A GROOVE & LACK$ ! 9DEP5D5CE TO /& \T AGA9/ ! ,COMMUNI/ ROOT]S4 

,! ONE EXCEPTION 9 !SE RANKS WAS ,REBECCA ,WE/1 :O DID NOT P]MIT H] AFFILIATIONS TO 9FLU5CE H] ATTITUDE OR CURTAIL H] FRE$OM ( ACTION4 ,?\< EXTREMELY OCCUPI$ ) H] [N WORK1 %E NEV]!LESS F\ND TIME TO 9T]E/ H] FRI5DS 9 MY EF=TS1 TO PUT ME 9 T\* ) A LIT]>Y AG5T :O MI<T PLACE ,MY ,DISILLUSIONM5T 9 ,RUSSIA ) A ,BRITI% PUBLI%]1 TO WRITE A PREFACE = IT1 & TO PRESIDE AT ONE ( MY LECTURES4 ,BUT1 !N1 ,REBECCA ,WE/ IS AN >TI/1 NOT A POLITICIAN4 

,MR4 ,C4 ,W4 ,DANIEL WAS ANO!R UNFETT]$ SPIRIT2 A PUBLI%]1 HE DID NOT CONSID] TRADE ! ALL-EMBRAC+ ISSUE ( LIFE4 ,HE C>$ MORE = ! IDEAS & LIT]>Y QUALITY ( WORKS HE WAS ISSU+ ?AN = ! MONEY !Y MI<T BR+ HIM4 ,WAS HE1 TOO1 AN OLD-FA%ION$ ,*RI/IAN TO PREF] TRU? TO BUS9ESS1 ,I 9QUIR$1 ADD+ ?AT ,I WAS *>G$ ) ?AT (F5SE4 ,I ADMITT$ ?AT IT WAS NAIVE ( ME TO EXPECT MORE FROM ! ,I4,L4,P4 ?AN FROM ANY O!R POLITICAL P>TY4 ,I HAD ALWAYS KN[N ?AT1 LIKE ! BEA/S1 !Y NEV] *ANGE !IR NATURES1 H[EV] MU* !Y MAY %$ !IR SK9S4 ,ALAS1 ONE GR[S OLD] BUT NOT WIS] OR ,I %\LD NOT HAVE BE5 SO %OCK$ TO F9D RADICALS >GUE ! LIFE & DEA? ( ?\S&S 9 T]MS ( COMM]CE4 ,ON CLOS] ACQUA9TANCE ,MR4 ,DANIEL DID NOT PROVE WIS] ?AN ,I1 EV5 IF Y\NG]4 ,HE UND]TOOK TO PUBLI% A ,BRITI% $ITION ( ,MY ,DISILLUSIONM5T 9 ,RUSSIA1 FULLY AW>E ?AT ?\< IT MI<T SECURE GLORY FROM PO/]ITY IT C\LD NOT BR+ HIM MU* TRADE4 ,MY BOOK HAD ALREADY APPE>$ 9 COMPLETE =M 9 A ,SW$I% $ITION1 BUT IT DID NOT MEAN SO MU* TO ME AS TO SEE MY WORK1 SO ATROCI\SLY BUNGL$ 9 ,AM]ICA1 9 ONE VOLUME 9 ,5GL&1 ) A PREFACE BY ,REBECCA ,WE/4 

,MY ,DISILLUSIONM5T1 ! >TICLES 9 ! ,NEW ,YORK ,WORLD1 REPR9T$ & CIRCULAT$ BY ! ,LONDON ,FRE$OM1 MY CONTRIBUTIONS TO ! ,WE/M9/] ,GAZETTE & ! ,WEEKLY ,NEWS1 BESIDES ?OSE ?AT HAD APPE>$ 9 ! ,LONDON ,TIMES & BE5 SYNDICAT$ 9 ! PROV9CES1 ! >TICLE 9 ! ,DAILY ,NEWS1 &1 F9ALLY1 \R BRO*URE REFUT+ ! FICTION ( ! TRADE-UNION DELEGATES CONTA9$ A WEAL? ( 9=MATION ACCESSIBLE TO ALL BUT ! WILLFULLY BL9D4 

,SA%A HAD ALSO NOT BE5 IDLE2 HIS ,! ,BOL%EVIK ,MY? N[ APPE>$1 PUBLI%$ 9 ,NEW ,YORK BY ,BONI & ,LIV]I<T4 ,BUT ! LATT] HAD ELIM9AT$ ! CONCLUD+ & MO/ VITAL *APT] AS BE+ AN 0ANTICLIMAX40 ,!REUPON ,SA%A ISSU$ IT AS A BRO*URE UND] ?AT V]Y TITLE & CIRCULAT$ IT AT HIS [N EXP5SE4 ,%EETS ( ! BOOK HAD BE5 IMPORT$ TO ,5GL& & ! VOLUME SOLD AT A PROHIBITIVE PRICE )\T ! AU?OR'S KN[L$GE OR CONS5T1 & )\T HIS RECEIV+ A C5T ( ROYALTIES4 ,! REVIEWS W]E SPL5DID1 ! CRITICS AGREE+ ?AT ,! ,BOL%EVIK ,MY? WAS A CONV9C+ & MOV+ WORK ( FIR/-RATE LIT]>Y M]IT4 ,9 ADDITION ,SA%A HAD GA!R$ A WEAL? ( DATA & DOCUM5TS AB\T POLITICAL P]SECUTION UND] ! ,SOVIET DICTATOR%IP4 ,HE SECUR$ ! /ORIES & AFFIDAVITS ( NUM]\S POLITICALS :O HAD ESCAP$ OR BE5 DEPORT$ FROM ,RUSSIA4 ,ADD$ TO SIMIL> MATT] COLLECT$ BY ,H5RY ,G4 ,ALSB]G & ,ISAAC ,DON ,LEV9E1 ! :OLE CON/ITUT$ A COLLECTIVE 9DICTM5T ( ,BOL%EVIK T]ROR OV]P[]+ 9 ITS EFFECT4 ,ON ! /R5G? ( IT ,ALSB]G & ,LEV9E PROCUR$ LETT]S ( PROTE/ AGA9/ ! ,MOSC[ DESPOTISM BY M5 & WOM5 ( 9T]NATIONAL FAME1 & ! 5TIRE MAT]IAL WAS PUBLI%$ 9 ,NEW ,YORK BY ! ,9T]NATIONAL ,COMMITTEE = ,POLITICAL ,PRISON]S 9 A VOLUME 5TITL$ ,LETT]S FROM ,RUSSIAN ,PRISONS4 

,WE KEPT \R PL$GE TO \R SUFF]+ COMRADES 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,WE MADE KN[N !IR CAUSE AS WELL AS ?AT ( ALL O!R P]SECUT$ REVOLUTIONI/S4 ,WE DEMON/RAT$ ! ABYSS BETWE5 ! ,BOL%EVIKI & 0,OCTOB]40 ,WE W\LD CONT9UE TO DO SO1 ,SA%A ?R\< ! ,BULLET9 ( ! ,JO9T ,COMMITTEE = ! ,DEF5SE ( ,POLITICAL ,PRISON]S1 & ,I :5EV] & :]EV] ! OPPORTUNITY PRES5T$ ITSELF4 ,N[ WAS ! TIME = ME TO TURN TO O!R MATT]S4 ,AFT] EI<T MON?S' ABSORPTION 9 ! ,RUSSIAN SITUATION ,I FELT JU/IFI$ 9 SEEK+ DIFF]5T SUBJECTS = EXPRESSION4 ,?IS WAS ESPECIALLY IMP]ATIVE BECAUSE ,I C\LD NOT GO ON 9DEF9ITELY ACCEPT+ SUPPORT FROM MY FAMILY & ,AM]ICAN FRI5DS4 ,I %\LD NOT HAVE BE5 ABLE TO KEEP GO+ BUT = SU* DE> & DEVOT$ FRI5DS AS ,/EW>T ,K]R1 = 9/ANCE1 :O NEV] ALL[$ A MON? TO PASS )\T A GIFT4 ,N[ ?AT ,I MI<T BECOME SELF-SUPPORT+ BY MEANS ( LECTURES ON ! DRAMA1 ,I DECID$ TO DISCONT9UE MY ,RUSSIAN WORK1 AT LEA/ = A :ILE4 

,%ORTLY AFT] MY >RIVAL 9 ,5GL& ,FITZI HAD APPO9T$ ME H] REPRES5TATIVE = ! ,PROV9CET[N ,PLAYH\SE1 TO :I* %E HAD ALREADY GIV5 YE>S ( LABOR & LOVE4 ,MY CR$5TIALS AF=D$ ME FREE ACCESS TO SOME ( ! !AT]S1 YET :AT ,I SAW DID NOT :ET MY APPETITE = FUR!R EXPLORATION ( ! ,LONDON /AGE4 ,5GLI% FRI5DS SPOKE HI<LY ( ! ,BIRM+HAM ,REP]TORY ,!AT]1 ! ONLY \T/&+ GR\P ( >TI/IC M]IT4 ,IT HAD GR[N \T ( AMATEUR BEG9N+S1 !Y 9=M$ ME1 & IT [$ ITS FIR/ />T & SPL5DID DEVELOPM5T TO ! SKILL & G5]OSITY ( ITS F\ND]1 ,B>RY ,V4 ,JACKSON4 ,MY EXP]I5CE ) ,BRITI% 9TELLECTUAL HOSPITALITY HAD MADE ME SOME:AT SKEPTICAL4 ,OPPORTUNITY TO JUDGE = MYSELF CAME :5 ! ,BIRM+HAM ,REP]TORY ,COMPANY OP5$ 9 ,LONDON ) ,%AW'S ,CES> & ,CLEOPATRA1 & ,I MADE HA/E TO PRES5T MY CR$5TIALS AS ,FITZI'S ,EUROPEAN AMBASSADOR4 ,AT NO !AT] 9 ! ,BRITI% METROPOLIS HAD ,I BE5 RECEIV$ ) GREAT] C\RTESY4 ,! P]=MANCE PROV$ TO BE A REVELATION4 ,SU* SETT+S1 ATMOSPH]E1 & 5SEMBLE ACT+ ,I HAD NOT SE5 S9CE ! ,/ANISLAVSKY ,/UDIO DAYS1 & EV5 !RE ! SC5]Y DID NOT COMP>E ) ?IS FEA/ = ! EYES4 ,C$RIC ,H>DWICKE'S ,CES> SURPASS$ ?AT ( ,=BES-,ROB]TSON1 :OM ,I HAD SE5 9 ,NEW ,YORK4 ,HE SUCCE$$ 9 MAK+ ! OLD ,ROMAN 9T5SELY HUMAN1 ) 5\< WIT TO LAU< AT HIMSELF4 ,MISS ,GW5 ,FFRANGCON-,DAVIES AS ,CLEOPATRA WAS AN EXQUISITE CREATURE4 ,= ! FIR/ TIME 9 ,5GL& ,I WAS ABLE TO BANI% ! GLOOM ! TRAVAIL ( EI<T MON?S HAD SETTL$ ON MY SPIRIT4 

,NE>] ACQUA9TANCE ) ,B>RY ,JACKSON1 ,WALT] ,PEACOCK1 ,BA*E ,MAT!WS 7,MR4 ,JACKSON'S DIRECTOR71 & SEV]AL O!R MEMB]S ( ! COMPANY SAV$ ME FROM JUDG+ ! NATURE ( A :OLE PEOPLE BY ! BITT] EXP]I5CES ,I HAD ) SOME GR\PS4 ,!Y KNEW ,I WAS A /RANG] /RUGGL+ TO GA9 A FOO?OLD 9 !IR C\NTRY1 & ?AT WAS REASON 5\< = !M TO (F] !IR HELP4 ,! POSSIBILITY ( LOS+ VOTES OR SUPPORT & DISAGREEM5T ) MY VIEWS ON SOCIAL SUBJECTS DID NOT AFFECT !M4 ,!Y W]E 9T]E/$ 9 ! HUMAN1 9 A FELL[-CREATURE ADRIFT 9 AN ALI5 L&4 ,!Y MADE ME WELCOME AT !IR !AT]S & PUT ME 9 T\* ) CIRCLES ?AT C\LD 5ABLE ME TO E/ABLI% MYSELF BY MEANS ( LECTURES ON ! DRAMA4 

,MR4 ,PEACOCK 9TRODUC$ ME TO A NUMB] ( PEOPLE1 AMONG !M ,GE(FREY ,:ITWOR?1 ! ,HONORABLE ,SECRET>Y ( ! ,BRITI% ,DRAMA ,LEAGUE4 ,MR4 ,MAT!WS 9T]E/$ ! SECRET>Y ( ! ,BIRM+HAM ,PLAYGO]S 9 MY WORK1 :I* SOON BR\<T ME AN 5GAGEM5T FROM ?AT SOCIETY2 & ,B>RY ,JACKSON1 ONE ( ! BUSIE/ M5 9 ,LONDON1 ALWAYS F\ND TIME = ME :5 ,I NE$$ HIS K9DLY AID4 ,MR4 ,:ITWOR? G5]\SLY TURN$ HIS 5TIRE (FICE OV] TO MY WORK2 ! ASSI/ANT SECRET>Y ( ! LEAGUE1 ! LIBR>Y1 & ! LI/ ( AFFILIAT$ SOCIETIES W]E PUT AT MY DISPOSAL4 ,MR4 ,:ITWOR? ALSO 9VIT$ ME TO SPEAK AT ! CONF]5CE ( ! ,DRAMA ,LEAGUE1 :I* WAS TO TAKE PLACE 9 ,BIRM+HAM4 

,9 ! LOVELY ,REP]TORY ,!AT] ,I LECTUR$ ON ! ,RUSSIAN !AT]1 DISCUSS+ ! /UDIOS1 ! ,KAM]NY1 & ,MEY]HOLD4 ,! ATMOSPH]E WAS FREE FROM /RIFE OR RANCOR1 ! AUDI5CES W]E RECEPTIVE1 ! QUE/IONS KE5 & 9TELLIG5T4 ,9T]MISSION BR\<T EV]YONE TOGE!R 9 EASY SOCIABILITY ?AT WAS MO/ 5C\RAG+ TO ME4 

,TOO LATE ,I LE>N$ ?AT 9 ,5GL& IT IS CU/OM>Y = CLUBS & SOCIETIES TO >RANGE !IR LECTURE C\RSES SIX MON?S 9 ADVANCE4 ,/ILL1 ,I SUCCE$$ 9 SECUR+ SEV5 5GAGEM5TS = ! E>LY AUTUMN FROM ! ,PLAYGO]S 9 ,MAN*E/]1 ,LIV]POOL1 ,BIRK5HEAD1 ,BA?1 & ,BRI/OL4 ,9 ! LA/ CITY A S]IES WAS ALSO BE+ PLANN$ BY \R [N PEOPLE4 ,! ,DRAMA ,/UDY ,CIRCLE ,I HAD ORGANIZ$ 9 ,LONDON WAS PLANN+ SEV]AL LECTURES ON ! ORIG9 & DEVELOPM5T ( ! ,RUSSIAN DRAMA1 & ! AN>*I/S 9 ! ,EA/ ,5D ( ,LONDON ASK$ = ! SAME C\RSE 9 ,YIDDI%4 ,I C\LD LOOK =W>D TO A BUSY TIME DO+ WORK ,I HAD ALWAYS LOV$4 

,DUR+ MY E>LY DAYS 9 ,5GL&1 :5 EV]Y?+ SEEM$ BLEAKE/1 ,/ELLA HAD WRITT5 ME ?AT ,LONDON WAS A COLD BEAUTY ?AT REQUIR$ MU* WOO+ BE=E REVEAL+ H] *>MS4 0,:O C>ES TO WOO A COLD BEAUTY80 ,I REPLI$4 ,N[ ,I HAD BE5 PAY+ C\RT TO H] = N9E MON?S4 ,C\LD IT BE ?AT ,I WAS BEG9N+ TO T\* H] HE>T8 

,LONDON WAS REALLY BEAUTIFUL N[ 9 ITS PR(USION ( GRE5 & ABUNDANCE ( FL[]S & SUN1 AS IF IT W\LD NEV] WE> M\RN+ OR WEEP TORR5TS AGA94 ,ONE BEGRUDG$ EV]Y MOM5T 9DOORS1 KN[+ H[ %ORT-LIV$ ! GLORY WAS4 ,BUT SIX H\RS EV]Y DAY WAS ! V]Y LEA/ ,I NE$$ TO COPE ) ! HI/ORIC TREASURES ,I DISCOV]$ 9 ! ,BRITI% ,MUSEUM ON ! ,RUSSIAN !AT] & DRAMA4 ,?IS 9/ITUTION HAD BE5 ONE ( MY OBJECTIVES 9 COM+ TO ,5GL&1 BUT IT WAS ONLY N[ ?AT ,I HAD ! TIME1 ! 9T]E/1 & ! NE$ = AVAIL+ MYSELF ( ALL IT (F]$4 ,! LONG] ,I WORK$ 9 ! MUSEUM1 ! MORE 9=MATION ,I UNE>!D ON /AGE >RANGEM5T1 OLD PLAYS1 SC5]Y1 & CO/UMES4 ,?IS L$ TO WID] FIELDS1 EMBRAC+ ! POLITICAL & SOCIAL BACKGR\NDS ( ! DRAMATI/S ( DIFF]5T P]IODS1 & !IR CORRESPOND5CE ?AT REFLECT$ !IR FEEL+S & REACTION TO ,RUSSIAN LIFE4 ,IT WAS A FASC9AT+ /UDY & SO ABSORB+ AS TO MAKE ME =GET ! CLOS+-H\R4 ,ONE ?+ BECAME PLA9 FROM ! />T4 ,I C\LD NOT HOPE TO COV] EV5 A FRACTION ( ! MAT]IAL 9 SIX LECTURES1 OR 9 A DOZ54 ,AN 5TIRE VOLUME W\LD BE REQUIR$4 ,PR(ESSOR ,WI5]1 ,PET] ,KROPOTK91 & O!RS HAD WRITT5 SU* WORKS ON ,RUSSIAN LIT]ATURE4 ,IT OCCURR$ TO ME ?AT MY DRAMA S]IES MI<T S]VE AS AN 9TRODUCTION TO A L>G] BOOK TO BE WRITT5 AT SOME LAT] DATE4 

,MY MEET+S ) ,HAVELOCK ,ELLIS & ,$W>D ,C>P5T] /OOD \T AS ! FULFILLM5T ( A WI% *]I%$ = A QU>T] ( A C5TURY4 ,NOT ?AT ,I LE>N$ TO KN[ !M BETT] ?R\< \R FLEET+ P]SONAL CONTACT ?AN ,I HAD ?R\< !IR WORKS4 ,I SAW ,ELLIS = A B>E HALF-H\R 9 HIS ,LONDON AP>TM5T & WE W]E BO? RA!R TONGUE-TI$4 ,BUT IF ,I HAD LIV$ NE> HIM = YE>S1 ,I %\LD NOT HAVE REALIZ$ BETT] ! ON5ESS ( ! MAN ) HIS LIFE'S LABORS1 SO EXPRESSIVE ( HIS UNIQUE P]SONALITY & L(TY VISION WAS EV]Y L9E ?AT HAD SPOK5 TO ME \T ( ! PAGES ( HIS LIB]AT+ WORK4 

,MY VISIT ) ,$W>D ,C>P5T] LA/$ ! GREAT] P>T ( AN AFT]NOON 9 HIS MODE/ COTTAGE AT ,GUILD=D4 ,HE WAS NE>LY EI<TY1 FRAIL & FEEBLE4 ,ALONGSIDE ( HIS DAPP] COMPANION1 :OM EV]YBODY ADDRESS$ AS ,GEORGE1 HIS CLO!S LOOK$ %ABBY4 ,BUT !RE WAS DI/9CTION 9 HIS C>RIAGE1 & GRACE 9 EV]Y GE/URE4 ,DE> ,$W>D HAD LITTLE *ANCE TO BE HE>D1 = IT WAS ,GEORGE :O DID MO/ ( ! TALK+ AB\T ! WORK 0,$W>D & ,I0 HAD WRITT5 :ILE !Y W]E 9 ,SPA91 & ! BOOK 0WE'RE PLANN+ ?IS SUMM]40 ,PATI5T & =BE>+ WAS ,$W>D T[>DS ! CONCEIT ( SMALL PEOPLE1 VIEW+ IT ) ! WISDOM ( ! SAGE4 

,I ATTEMPT$ TO TELL HIM H[ MU* HIS BOOKS HAD MEANT TO ME --- ,T[>DS ,DEMOCRACY1 ,ANGEL ,W+S1 ,WALT ,:ITMAN4 ,HE /OPP$ ME1 G5TLY PUTT+ HIS H& OV] M9E4 ,9/EAD ,I %\LD RA!R TELL HIM AB\T ,ALEX&] ,B]KMAN1 HE SAID4 ,HE HAD READ HIS ,PRISON ,MEMOIRS1 0A PR(\ND /UDY ( MAN'S 9HUMANITY & PRISON PSY*OLOGY1 & ( HIS [N M>TYRDOM1 PORTRAY$ ) EXTRAORD9>Y SIMPLICITY40 ,HE HAD ALWAYS WANT$ TO KN[ 0,SA%A0 & 0! ,GIRL0 9 ! BOOK4 

,HAVELOCK ,ELLIS & ,$W>D ,C>P5T]6 ,MY SUMM] WAS 9DE$ 5RI*$ BY !SE TWO GR& SEIGNEURS ( 9TELLECT & HE>T4 

,IT BR\<T ALSO O!R 9T]E/+ EV5TS \TSIDE ( MY RESE>* WORK4 ,FITZI >RIV$ = A BRIEF VISIT1 & ?R\< H] ,I CAME TO KN[ ,PAUL & ,ESSIE ,ROBESON1 AS WELL AS SEV]AL ( ,FITZI'S ASSOCIATES 9 ! ,PROV9CET[N ,PLAYH\SE4 ,!Y HAD COME TO ,LONDON TO PUT ON ,! ,EMP]OR ,JONES ) ,PAUL ,ROBESON4 ,ESSIE WAS A DELI<TFUL P]SON1 & ,PAUL FASC9AT$ EV]YONE4 ,I FIR/ HE>D ,ROBESON S+ A GR\P ( SPIRITUALS AT A P>TY GIV5 BY MY ,AM]ICAN FRI5D ,E/ELLE ,HEALY4 ,NO?+ ,I HAD BE5 TOLD AB\T HIS S++ ADEQUATELY EXPRESS$ ! MOV+ QUALITY ( HIS VOICE4 ,PAUL WAS ALSO A LOVABLE P]SONALITY1 5TIRELY FREE FROM ! SELF-IMPORTANCE ( ! /> & AS NATURAL AS A *ILD4 ,HE NEV] REFUS$ TO S+1 NO MATT] H[ SMALL ! CIRCLE1 IF ! COMPANY WAS CONG5IAL4 ,! ,ROBESONS LIK$ MY COOK+1 ESPECIALLY MY C(FEE1 & SO WE EX*ANG$ COMPLIM5TS4 ,I W\LD PREP>E D9N] = A *OS5 FEW OR >RANGE A P>TY ( MY ,5GLI% FRI5DS TO MEET ! ,ROBESONS1 & ,PAUL W\LD HOLD EV]YONE SPELLB\ND BY HIS GLORI\S VOICE4 

,! SUMM] WAS RI*1 ! RI*E/ 9 YE>S4 ,N[ ?AT ! SUNNY DAYS W]E DRAW+ TO AN 5D1 MY FRI5DS W]E DEP>T+4 ,WORK ,I LOV$ LAY BE=E ME & ,I /ILL HAD A /\T HE>T4 ,BUT BY ,DECEMB] !RE WAS LITTLE LEFT ( IT OR ANY?+ ELSE TO HELP FACE ! ,LONDON W9T]4 ,MY V5TURE 9TO ! ,PLAYGO]S' SOCIETIES WAS QUITE SATISFACTORY4 ,GRATIFY+ ALSO W]E ! ,LIV]POOL & ,BIRK5HEAD ORGANIZATIONS1 BECAUSE ( !IR MIX$ MEMB]%IP4 ,! O!RS W]E PURELY MIDDLE-CLASS1 ) NO VITAL 9T]E/ 9 ! DRAMA & NO FEEL+ = ITS SOCIAL & $UCATIONAL VALUE4 ,NEV]!LESS ! EXP]I5CE PROV$ ?AT ,I C\LD E/ABLI% MYSELF ) ! ,PLAYGO]S IF ,I C\LD HOLD \T LONG 5\< TO BECOME BETT] KN[N 9 ,5GL&1 = A YE> OR TWO4 ,I HAD NO MEANS = IT1 NOR ! 9CL9ATION TO BECOME AN ADJUNCT4 

,! 9DEP5D5T LECTURES 9 ,LONDON & ,BRI/OL AGA9 DEMON/RAT$ ! TRU? ( ! ,BRITI% SAY+ ?AT 0IT ISN'T DONE 9 ,5GL&40 ,! ,LONDON FAILURE WAS P>TICUL>LY DISAPPO9T+ BECAUSE ! WORK HAD />T$ ) EV]Y PROMISE ( SUCCESS4 ,KEATS' ,H\SE1 QUA9TLY BEAUTIFUL & P]MEAT$ BY ! G5IUS & SPIRIT ( ,5GL&'S GREAT POET1 WAS \R MEET+-PLACE2 ,CLAIRE ,F[L] ,%ONE1 \R SECRET>Y1 A SKILLFUL ORGANIZ] & PRODIGI\S WORK]1 WIDELY KN[N 9 LABOR & TRADE-UNION RANKS1 ) A DOZ5 FRI5DS TO ASSI/ H]4 ,A REVIEW ( MY DRAMA WORK BY ,REBECCA ,WE/ & ,FRANK ,H>RIS CIRCULAT$ 9 ?\S&S ( COPIES2 ,B>RY ,JACKSON1 ,GE(FREY ,:ITWOR?1 ,A4 ,E4 ,FILM]1 & O!RS1 NO /RANG]S 9 ! WORLD ( ! DRAMA1 W]E ANN\NC$ AS *AIRM54 ,YET ! ATT5DANCE WAS SMALL & ! RECEIPTS B>ELY COV]$ ! EXP5SES4 ,TRUE1 ! AUDI5CES W]E ( A HI< 9TELLECTUAL ORD]4 ,?AT & ! JOY ( COLLECT+ MY MAT]IAL W]E ! ONLY SATISFACTION ,I GA9$ FROM NE>LY SIX MON?S' EF=T4 

,I SP5T ?REE WEEKS 9 ,BRI/OL ) SIMIL> RESULTS4 ,MY SECOND ATTEMPT TO TAKE ROOT 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,K+DOM HAD ?US ALSO GONE BY ! BO>D4 ,! FOGS & WET REMA9$ FAI?FUL & W&]$ ?R\< MY SY/EM AT !IR [N SWEET WILL4 ,I WAS LAID UP ) *ILLS & FEV] :5 AN 9VITATION CAME FROM MY DE> FRI5DS ,FRANK & ,NELLIE ,H>RIS TO VISIT !M 9 ,NICE4 

,9 ,JUNE ,I HAD M>RI$ ! OLD REBEL ,JAMES ,COLTON4 ,BRITI% N[1 ,I DID AS MO/ NATIVES DO :O CAN SCRAPE UP 5\< TO ESCAPE !IR C\NTRY'S CLIMATE4 ,! ,AM]ICAN ,M]CURY HAD S5T ME A *ECK = MY SKET* ON ,JOHANN ,MO/1 SO ,I WAS ABLE TO PAY MY F>E TO ! S\? ( ,FRANCE4 ,! ,H>RISES W]E M>VEL\S HO/S1 SP>+ NO PA9S TO SURR\ND ME ) C>E & HELP RE/ORE MY HEAL? & *E]4 ,I HAD SP5T MANY 9T]E/+ H\RS ) ,FRANK BE=E1 BUT NEV] 5\< TO SEE MORE ?AN ! >TI/1 ! MAN ( ! WORLD1 ! 9T]E/+ CAUSEUR4 ,9 ! 9TIMACY ( HIS HOME ,I WAS ABLE TO P5ETRATE B5EA? :AT EV]YONE CONSID]$ ,FRANK'S EGOTISM & CONCEIT4 ,I F\ND ?AT MY HO/ KNEW HIMSELF MU* BETT] ?AN ANYONE ELSE DID4 ,HE KNEW ! HUMAN1 ALL TOO HUMAN 9 HIS MAKE-UP4 ,HE HAD HIS GNAW+ D\BTS :E!R HE WAS 9DE$ ! SUPREME >TI/ HE PROCLAIM$ HIMSELF1 :E!R HIS WORKS W\LD LIVE & HE BE GIV5 AN IMMORTAL NI*E4 ,FRANK WAS NOT DECEIV$ AB\T HIS [N FOIBLES1 H[EV] BL9D HE MI<T BE TO ?OSE ( HIS FRI5DS OR MI/AK5 9 ?OSE HE LOOK$ UPON AS 5EMIES4 ,FRANK ,H>RIS1 :5 HE TURN$ HIMSELF 9SIDE \T1 F> FROM LESS5+ MY AFFECTION1 BR\<T HIMSELF NE>] TO ME4 ,WE HAD FEW IDEAS 9 COMMON1 ESPECIALLY ON SOCIAL PROBLEMS4 ,WE F\<T (T51 BUT ALWAYS 9 ! BE/ ( FEEL+1 = WE KNEW ?AT NO MATT] H[ F> AP>T WE MI<T DRIFT1 \R FRI5D%IP W\LD NOT WEAK54 

,MY MEET+ ) ,NELLIE ,H>RIS 9 ,P>IS ! YE> BE=E HAD %[N ME LITTLE ( H] P]SONALITY1 EXCEPT = H] OBVI\S LOVEL9ESS & *>M4 ,DUR+ MY VISIT ALL H] R>E & EXQUISITE QUALITIES UNFOLD$ LIKE A FL[] BE=E ME4 ,I HAD MET WIVES ( CREATIVE M5 ON PREVI\S OCCASIONS4 ,I HAD SE5 !IR BITT]NESS TO !IR HUSB&S' FRI5DS1 !IR JEAL\SY ( FEMALE ADMIR]S1 & WELL ,I KNEW H[ OV]BE>+ & CATTI% MY SEX CAN BE TO ! WIVES ( !IR IDOLS4 ,MY SYMPA?IES W]E (T5 ) ! WIVES1 = IT SEEM$ M>TYRDOM 5\< TO BE ! SP\SE ( AN >TI/4 ,I %\LD HAVE ?\<T NO LESS ( ,NELLIE HAD ,I F\ND H] UNG5]\S TO ! ADMIR]S ( ,FRANK4 ,BUT ,NELLIE WAS AN ANGEL1 A L>GE & LOV+ SPIRIT1 9CAPABLE ( H>%NESS1 & NO M]E REFLECTION ( H] FAM\S HUSB&1 BUT AN 9DIVIDUAL 9 H] [N RI<T1 A KE5 OBS]V] ( PEOPLE & AFFAIRS1 A BETT] JUDGE ( HUMAN NATURE ?AN DE> OLD ,FRANK1 & MORE PATI5T & UND]/&+4 

,I WAS LOA! TO LEAVE MY GOOD FRI5DS1 BUT NECESS>Y RESE>* 9 ! ,BIBLIO!QUE ,NATIONALE CALL$ ME BACK TO ,P>IS BE=E RETURN+ TO ,5GL&4 ,I /ILL HAD SOME 5GAGEM5TS TO FILL ) ! ,PLAYGO]S' SOCIETIES 9 ,LIV]POOL ON ! LITTLE-!AT] MOVEM5T 9 ,AM]ICA4 ,I HAD ADDRESS$ !M BE=E ON ! WORKS ( ,EUG5E ,O',NEILL1 & A WOMAN REPORT] HAD REVIEW$ MY 0S5SITIVE H&S & GOLD COLOR$ L9+ ( ! OP]A CLOAK1 RA!R />TL+ 9 AN AN>*I/10 BUT ! ,PLAYGO]S MU/ HAVE LIK$ MY TALKS1 BECAUSE !Y 9VIT$ ME AGA94 ,I HAD ALSO CONS5T$ TO DELIV] ANO!R C\RSE ( LECTURES ON ,CONT95TAL & ,AM]ICAN PLAYS 9 A POPUL> HALL1 ) ONE-%ILL+ ADMISSION4 ,MY COMRADES W]E SURE IT W\LD BR+ A CR[D1 BUT ON ! APPO9T$ DAY !RE W]E NO CR[DS4 ,/R9DB]G1 ! ,G]MAN EXPRESSIONI/S1 ,EUG5E ,O',NEILL1 & ,SUSAN ,GLASPELL DID NOT 9T]E/ ! ,BRITI% PUBLIC :5 PRES5T$ )\T ! SEAL ( AN ORGANIZATION OR P>TY4 0,IT ISN'T DONE 9 ,5GL&40 ,I WAS COMPELL$ TO REALIZE ?AT A MU* LONG] P]IOD ?AN ,I HAD ?\<T W\LD BE NECESS>Y TO BREAK ?R\< ! WALL ( :AT 0ISN'T DONE40 ,FIVE YE>S1 P]HAPS1 IF NOT MORE4 ,BUT ,I DID NOT HAVE MANY MORE YE>S TO ?R[ AB\T4 ,MEAN:ILE ,I WAS FAC$ ) ! PROBLEM ( MAK+ 5DS MEET4 ,NOT TILL MY DEPORTATION HAD ,I EV] GIV5 A ?\<T TO ?IS QUE/ION2 ,I HAD FELT ?AT AS LONG AS ,I C\LD USE MY VOICE & P51 ,I C\LD EASILY E>N MY LIV+4 ,S9CE !N ,I HAD BE5 HAUNT$ BY ! SPECT] ( DEP5D5CE1 & IT GREW AFT] MY T\R ( S\? ,WALES & ! PROV9CES4 ,I W\LD RA!R TAKE A JOB AS A COOK OR H\SEKEEP] ?AN GET MY LIV+ FROM MY ACTIVITIES AMONG ! UND]PAID M9]S & COTTON-MILL WORK]S4 ,I C\LD NOT ALL[ !M TO DEFRAY MY RAILROAD F>ES1 LET ALONE ! EXP5SES ( MY LECTURES4 ,! DRAMA MEET+S NOT PAY+ = !MSELVES1 ,I SAW NO WAY ( CONT9U+ MY WORK 9 ,5GL&4 

,A FRI5D HAD ONCE SAID JOK+LY ?AT ,I WAS LIKE A CAT2 0DROP H] \T ( A SIX?-/ORY W9D[ & %E'LL L& ON H] PAWS40 ,AFT] ! LA/ FAILURE ,I FELT AS IF ,I HAD 9DE$ BE5 ?R[N FROM ! TOP ( ! ,WOOLWOR? ,BUILD+4 ,TWO ?+S BR\<T ME ON MY PAWS AGA94 ,ONE WAS MY PLAN ( A VOLUME ON 0,! ,ORIG9 & ,DEVELOPM5T ( ! ,RUSSIAN ,DRAMA02 ! O!R1 A T\R ?R\< ,CANADA4 ,! AN>*I/S !RE HAD 9VIT$ ME TO COME1 & A ,NEW ,YORK COMRADE PROMIS$ TO RAISE MY EXP5SES4 ,I W\LD GO TO SOME LITTLE PLACE 9 ,FRANCE & DEVOTE ! SUMM] TO WRIT+ & W\LD LEAVE = ,CANADA 9 ! FALL4 ,! TWO V5TURES1 ,I HOP$1 MI<T SECURE ME = A YE> OR TWO TO LIVE & BE ACTIVE 9 ,5GL&4 ,I MADE SURE ( MY GO+ TO ,CANADA BY IMM$IATELY RES]V+ MY PASSAGE4 

,! 9C5TIVE TO DEVOTE ! NEXT F\R MON?S TO WRIT+ HAD COME FROM ,C4 ,W4 ,DANIEL1 MY PATRON PUBLI%]4 ,HE HAD TAK5 ! KE5E/ 9T]E/ 9 MY LECTURES ON ! ,RUSSIAN DRAMATI/S1 HAD S5T A /5OGRAPH] TO TAKE !M V]BATIM1 & HELD \T ! HOPE ( ISSU+ MY BOOK 9 ! NOT TOO DI/ANT FUTURE4 ,BESIDES ,MY ,DISILLUSIONM5T HE HAD ALSO PUBLI%$ AN ,5GLI% $ITION ( ,ALEX&] ,B]KMAN'S ,PRISON ,MEMOIRS ( AN ,AN>*I/1 = :I* ,$W>D ,C>P5T] HAD WRITT5 A PREFACE1 & HE HAD IMPORT$ %EETS ( ,LETT]S FROM ,RUSSIAN ,PRISONS1 NEI!R ( :I* UND]TAK+S ADD$ MU* TO HIS C(F]S4 ,BUT IT 9 NO WAY DISC\RAG$ HIM FROM WANT+ TO TRY HIS LUCK AGA94 

,I WAS AB\T TO LEAVE ,LONDON :5 ! G5]AL /RIKE WAS DECL>$4 ,I C\LD NOT ?9K ( RUNN+ AWAY FROM AN EV5T ( SU* OV]:ELM+ IMPORTANCE4 ,WORK]S & HELP]S W\LD BE NE$$ & ,I MU/ REMA9 & (F] MY S]VICES4 ,JOHN ,TURN] WAS ! MO/ LIKELY MAN TO GET ME 9 T\* ) ! PEOPLE 9 *>GE ( ! /RIKE4 ,I EXPLA9$ TO HIM ?AT ,I WAS WILL+ TO DO ANY K9D ( WORK TO AID ! GREAT /RUGGLE3 LOOK AFT] ! RELIEF ( ! /RIK]S' FAMILIES1 ORGANIZE ! C>E ( !IR *ILDR51 OR TAKE *>GE ( FE$+-/ATIONS4 ,I WANT$ TO HELP ! RANK & FILE4 ,JOHN WAS DELI<T$4 ,IT W\LD DISPEL ! PREJUDICE MY ANTI-,SOVIET /& HAD CREAT$ 9 TRADE-UNION CIRCLES & W\LD DEMON/RATE ?AT AN>*I/S NOT M]ELY !ORIZ$1 BUT W]E CAPABLE ( PRACTICAL WORK & W]E READY = ANY EM]G5CY4 ,HE W\LD TAKE MY MESSAGE TO ! /RIKE COMMITTEE & PUT !M 9 DIRECT T\* ) ME4 ,I WAIT$ = TWO DAYS1 BUT NO WORD CAME EI!R FROM TRADE-UNION HEADQU>T]S OR FROM ,JOHN4 ,ON ! ?IRD DAY ,I AGA9 MADE ! LONG TRIP ON FOOT TO SEE ,JOHN & TO 9QUIRE AB\T ! MATT]4 ,HE HAD BE5 TOLD ?AT ALL HELP 9 ! /RIKE SITUATION WAS DRAWN FROM TRADE-UNION RANKS1 & ?AT NO \TSIDE AID WAS NE$$4 ,! EXCUSE WAS FLIMSY2 CLE>LY ! LEAD]S FE>$ IT W\LD LEAK \T ?AT ! AN>*I/ ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN HAD SOME CONNECTION ) ! G5]AL /RIKE4 ,JOHN WAS LOA! TO ADMIT MY 9T]PRETATION1 NOR C\LD HE D5Y ?AT ,I MI<T BE RI<T4 ,IT WAS ! OLD /ORY3 ! C5TRALIZ$ MA*9]Y 9 EV]Y WALK ( ,BRITI% LIFE LEFT NO ROOM = 9DIVIDUAL 9ITIATIVE4 ,IT WAS TORTURE TO REMA9 NEUTRAL :]E ! L9E BETWE5 MA/]S & M5 WAS SO %>PLY DRAWN1 OR TO /& BY IDLY :ILE ! LEAD]S W]E MAK+ ONE BLUND] AFT] ANO!R2 NOR W\LD ,I LEAVE BY RAIL OR %IP MANN$ BY /RIKE-BREAK]S4 ,I F\ND SOME RELIEF 9 BE+ \T ON ! /REETS M+L+ ) ! M5 & GETT+ !IR REACTIONS4 ,!IR SPIRIT ( SOLID>ITY WAS WOND]FUL1 !IR =TITUDE GREAT1 !IR DISREG>D ( ! H>D%IPS ! /RIKE HAD ALREADY IMPOS$ ADMIRABLE4 ,NO LESS EXTRAORD9>Y WAS !IR GOOD HUMOR & SELF-CONTROL 9 ! FACE ( PROVOCATION FROM ! 5EMY3 >MOR$ C>S RATTL+ ALONG ! /REETS1 TAUNTS & RIDICULE FROM ! Y\NG BULLIES 9 *>GE1 & ! AFFRONTS ( ! WEAL?Y 9 !IR LUXURI\S AUTOMOBILES4 ,A FEW 5C\NT]S HAD TAK5 PLACE1 BUT ON ! :OLE ! /RIK]S C>RI$ !MSELVES ) PRIDE & DIGNITY1 CONFID5T ( ! JU/ICE ( !IR CAUSE4 ,IT WAS 9SPIR+1 BUT IT ALSO 9CREAS$ MY MIS]Y AT MY [N HELPLESSNESS4 ,ON ! T5? DAY ( ! /RIKE1 !RE /ILL BE+ NO SIGN ( A SETTLEM5T1 ,I DECID$ TO LEAVE ,5GL& BY AIRPLANE4 

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