,FROM ,ID5TITY TO ,9DIVIDUALI/3 ,A ,NIHILI/'S ,P]SONAL ,HI/ORY 9 ,LEFTISM 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,BABA ,YAGA 

,TEXT 3 

,NOTE3 ,9 ?IS PIECE1 ,I WILL BE US+ ''LEFTISM' & 'ID5TITY POLITICS' MORE OR LESS 9T]*ANGEABLY1 DUE TO !IR (T5 HEAVY OV]LAP4 

,I GREW UP 9 A LIB]AL H\SEHOLD TO LIB]AL P>5TS1 & ,I HAD ALWAYS HAD A PREOCCUPATION 7SOME MI<T SAY AN OBSESSION7 ) JU/ICE4 ,FROM A Y\NG AGE1 ,I W\LD RAGE AGA9/ ! 9JU/ICES COMMITT$ AGA9/ ! TREES FELL$ BEH9D \R H\SE1 ! MICE KILL$ 9 ! SNAP TRAPS1 ! 9SECTS CAU<T BY ! GLUE PAP]1 ! DE] %OT BY ! HUNT]S4 0,IT'S NOT FAIR60 WAS A MANTRA (T SCREAM$ FROM MY T9Y M\?1 & AS ,I GREW1 IT H>DLY *ANG$4 

,9 HI< S*OOL1 ,I BECAME ACQUA9T$ ) AN IDEOLOGY EAG] TO EXPLOIT MY 5?USIASM = JU/ICE4 ,I LE>N$ ?AT ! :OLE WORLD WAS UNFAIR - EV5 MORE SO ?AN ,I HAD REALIZ$ ON MY [N4 ,SAME SEX M>RIAGE1 REPRODUCTIVE RI<TS1 & BODILY AUTONOMY BECAME MY FIR/ 9T]E/S - PR$ICTABLY1 S9CE ,I DISCOV]$ ,I WAS A QUE] BISEXUAL & !SE ?+S QUICKLY BECAME RELEVANT TO ME 9 ONE WAY OR ANO!R4 ,?R\< !SE1 ?\<1 ,I DISCOV]$ MORE4 ,! POLICE %OOT+ 9 ,F]GUSON ( ,MIKE ,BR[N 9TRODUC$ ME TO ! IDEA ?AT RACISM WAS ALIVE & WELL1 & LE>N+ ?IS WAS AN ANGRY %OCK TO MY %ELT]$ LITTLE :ITE LIFE4 ,I C\LDN'T SCREAM MY WILL 9TO BE+ ANYMORE1 & ,I WANT$ TO KN[ :AT TO DO4 

',LI/5'1 RESPOND$ ! ,ACTIVI/S 7CAPITAL ,A - !Y PRES5T$ !MSELVES AS ,! ,ONLY ,AU?ORITY74 ',LI/5 & DO AS WE SAY4' 

,I LE>N$ ALL ! ,CORRECT ,LANGUAGE & ! ,CORRECT ,ACTIONS1 SO ,I W\LD NOT BE ,PROBLEMATIC4 ,I CR+$ & SUCK$ ?R\< MY TEE? AT ALL ! ,PROBLEMATIC ,PEOPLE 9 MY T9Y RURAL T[N1 & 7,I'M SURE7 A LOT ( PEOPLE GOT V]Y SICK ( ME4 ,I LE>N$ TO BE PURE 9 ?\<T1 WORD1 & ACTION1 SO ?AT ,I W\LD NOT RISK ! IRE ( ! ,ACTIVI/S4 ,!RE >E C]TA9 ?+S ?AT MU/ NEV] BE SAID1 C]TA9 QUE/IONS ?AT MU/ NEV] BE ASK$4 ,NEV] QUE/ION ! ,PEOPLE ( ,COLOR4 

,MY EXPOSURE TO ! ,ACTIVI/S WAS PURELY ONL9E1 PRIM>ILY ?R\< ,FACEBOOK1 BUT AFT] MY FIR/ ALT]CATION1 7:]E ,I FAIL$ TO RECOGNIZE A LAT9X QUE] ON SI<T & WAS R\NDLY %\T$ D[N BY ! :OLE GR\P7 ,I BECAME MU* QUIET]4 ,I LI/5$ )\T SPEAK+ - AS :ITE PEOPLE W]E SUPPOS$ TO DO4 ,I DIDN'T REALIZE UNTIL MU* LAT] H[ MU* ANXIETY BEGAN TO BUILD 9 ME :5EV] ,I 5T]$ !SE SPACES1 FE>+ ?AT ANY MIS/EP W\LD RESULT 9 MY ADMONI%M5T & POT5TIALLY1 MY EXPULSION4 

,/ILL1 ,I WAS UNWILL+ TO LEAVE ! ,LEFT BEH9D4 ,IF ?IS WAS JU/ICE1 !N ,I MU/ SUBMIT MYSELF1 H[EV] UNCOM=TABLY1 TO ! GREAT] GOOD4 

,NEV] M9D MY QUE/IONS4 ,/UFF !M D[N DEEP4 

,I WOND]$ H[ IT WAS ?AT :ITE PEOPLE W]E SIMULTANE\SLY SUPPOS$ TO '%UT UP & LI/5'1 'MAKE SPACE = ,P,O,C'1 'DON'T SPEAK = ,P,O,C'1 BUT ALSO 'PUT Y\RSELVES ON ! FRONT L9ES'1 'CALL \T PROBLEMATIC SPEE* 9 :ITE PEOPLE'4 

,I QUE/ION$ H[1 EXACTLY1 ,I WAS SUPPOS$ TO AVOID SPEAK+ OV] ,P,O,C & ALWAYS '/AY 9 MY LANE' :5 ,P,O,C ,I KNEW P]SONALLY W]E TELL+ ME ?AT !Y ?\<T ! TALK+ PO9TS ,I GOT FROM ! ,ACTIVI/S W]E BULL%IT4 

,I /RESS$ OV] WE>+ 'CULTURAL' JEWELRY & CLO?+ ?AT ,I HAD PUR*AS$ FROM PEOPLE ( ?AT CULTURE1 KN[+ ! P>TY L9E 9/RUCT$ US TO SUPPORT ,P,O,C >TISANS1 BUT ALSO KN[+ ?AT IF ,I WORE !SE ITEMS1 ,I W\LD BE SUBJECT TO ! SAME SCRUT9Y AS SOMEONE :O HAD PUR*AS$ !M FROM A TR5DY DEP>TM5T /ORE4 

,I SELF-FLAGELLAT$ OV] PA/ TRANSGRESSIONS SU* AS HAV+ DREADLOCKS1 )\T EV] REALLY UND]/&+ :AT ,I HAD DONE WRONG BESIDES DO+ SOME?+ ,I WAS =BIDD5 FROM DO+4 

,BUT ,I NEV] D>$ TO ASK ANYONE ELSE - LEA/ NOT ! ,ACTIVI/S4 

,I W\LD LIKE TO TELL Y\ ?AT MY DIVORCE FROM ! ,LEFT WAS SELF-DRIV54 ,I W\LD LIKE TO TELL Y\ ?AT ,I RECOGNIZ$ ! OPPRESSIVE DYNAMICS ALL BY MYSELF4 ,BUT UNTIL ,I MET O!RS :O W]E QUE/ION+ ! ,LEFT AS WELL1 ,I ASSUM$ ?AT ! ONLY C\NT]-FACTION WAS ! ,RI<T1 & ,I HAD GR[N UP SURR\ND$ BY 5\< ( ! ,RI<T TO KN[ ,I WASN'T 9T]E/$ 9 !IR BR&4 ,I SAW NO JU/ICE !RE1 NO WORLD IMPROVEM5T4 

,! FIR/ TIME ,I MET A PO/-LEFTI/1 7OR IF WE'RE BE+ HONE/1 ! ?IRD OR F\R? TIME - ! CONDITION+ RUNS DEEP7 ,I F9ALLY FELT FREE TO ASK ! QUE/IONS ,I HAD BURI$4 ,I FELT FREE TO POKE HOLES :]E ,I HAD C>EFULLY PRES]V$ ! DELICATE FRAMEWORK BE=E4 ,BUT ?IS WAS NOT 5\< TO TOPPLE EV]Y?+ - OH NO4 ,I /ILL HELD ON TO ! SKELETON ( JU/ICE4 

',SURELY !Y MEAN WELL1' ,I REASON$4 ',SURELY ?IS IS AN OV]GR[N OV]-EXT5SION ( A FUNDAM5TALLY GOOD & JU/ FRAMEWORK4' 

,& AS IF CALL$ BY FATE1 ,I BEGAN TO MEET PEOPLE :O HAD BE5 'CALL$ \T'2 PEOPLE :O HAD MADE TRANSGRESSIONS SO EGREGI\S ?AT !Y HAD BE5 BANI%$ FROM ! CIRCLES ( ! ,LEFT4 ,!SE TRANSGRESSIONS RANG$ FROM ACCUSATIONS ( PHYSICAL ABUSE TO VAGUE ALLEGATIONS ( BE+ MANIPULATIVE 7TYPICALLY )\T ANY SPECIFIC 9CID5TS CIT$1 BUT ) FULL EXPECTATION ?AT ,! ,COMMUNITY SUPPORT ! VICTIM )\T QUE/ION74 

,AL?\< EA* UNIQUE1 !SE CASES HAD COMMON ?READS ?AT RAN ?R\< !M4 

,AS IS CU/OM>Y 9 ! ,LEFT1 MO/ BEGAN ) A M$IATION & AN ACC\NTABILITY PROCESS - :]E A ?IRD P>TY W\LD MEET ) ! ACCUS$ & ! ACCUS] & !ORETICALLY1 HELP !M TO REA* AN AGREEM5T AB\T H[ ! ACCUS$ W\LD ATONE = !IR BEHAVIOR & IMPROVE !MSELVES SO !Y W\LD NOT REPEAT IT4 ,MANY ( ! FOLKS ,I MET EI!R MET !SE GOALS OR W]E ON !IR WAY TO MEET+ !M4 ,USUALLY1 MEET+ !SE GOALS WAS ! CONDITION = AVOID+ A CALL-\T4 

,H[EV]1 ! ACCUS]S :O HAD SEEM+LY FELT P[]LESS 9 !IR 9T]ACTIONS ) ! ACCUS$1 N[ F\ND ?AT !Y HAD ALL ! P[]4 ,!Y CONTROLL$ :AT ACTIONS ! ACCUS$ MU/ TAKE4 ,!Y CONTROLL$ ! ACCUS$'S PLACE 9 ! SOCIAL HI]>*Y1 & (T51 ! ACCUS$'S PHYSICAL SAFETY 9 ! WORLD4 

,?IS SC5>IO1 :I* 9 !ORY WAS /]ILE & COMPLETELY JU/1 BECAME A TOOL = REV5GE4 ,REG>DLESS ( :E!R ! CONDITIONS ( ! ACC\NTABILITY PROCESS W]E MET1 ! CALL-\T CAME4 ,& AS ! CALL-\T SPREAD1 ACROSS ! 9T]NET & ACROSS ! 'COMMUNITY'1 IT BECAME SOCIAL SUICIDE TO ASSOCIATE ) ! ACCUS$4 ,BE+ AN 'APOLOGI/' IS NE>LY ON P> ) BE+ AN ABUS]4 

,! ACCUS$ BECAME A P>IAH4 ,NO DEF5SE1 APOLOGY1 OR SELF-IMPROVEM5T IS GOOD 5\< :5 Y\ >E M>K$ = LIFE4 

,I BEGAN TO WOND] :]E ! RE/ORATION WAS 9 ?IS 'RE/ORATIVE JU/ICE'4 

,& IF WE'RE HONE/1 ?IS IS :]E ! T[] ,I HAD BUILT = MYSELF F9ALLY FELL4 ,I HAD LABOR$ SO LONG UND] ! BELIEF ?AT WE W]E ALL WORK+ SELFLESSLY1 TIRELESSLY1 T[>DS JU/ICE = ALL4 ,:5 ! VEIL WAS LIFT$1 IT BECAME CLE> TO ME ?AT ! LEFT WAS 9FE/$ ) WOLVES 9 %EEPS' CLO?+1 MANIPULAT+ ! GOOD WILL & EF=TS ( E>NE/1 WELL-MEAN+ PEOPLE4 

,OR1 MAYBE WE W]E ALL A LITTLE WOLFI% - AL?\< ,I HAD FANCI$ MYSELF A PURE1 E>NE/ P]SON1 ,I C\LD NOT D5Y MY EF=TS TO LORD MY 'WOKE' TRIVIA OV] 'NON-WOKE' FRI5DS4 ,I HAD NOT SET ! DOGS ON ANYONE MYSELF BY ISSU+ ANY /ATEM5TS1 BUT ,I HAD HELP$ TO %>E & PUBLICIZE !M4 ,I HAD NOT WRITT5 ANY ,EV]YDAY ,FEM9ISM >TICLES ON :Y ALL Y\R LANGUAGE & ACTIONS >E RACI/_/SEXI/_/OPPRESSIVE1 BUT ,I HAD READ !M1 %>$ !M1 & ACTIVELY POLIC$ ! PEOPLE >\ND ME4 

,I JU/ WASN'T 9T]E/$ 9 IT ANYMORE4 ,I WASN'T 9T]E/$ 9 HELP+ TO CREATE A SOCIETY ( UNQUE/IONABLE RIGID SOCIAL MORES4 ,I WASN'T 9T]E/$ 9 SIL5TLY TALLY+ EA* 'PROBLEMATIC' MIS/EP ( EV]Y 9DIVIDUAL >\ND ME - OR QUIETLY POLIC+ MY [N SPEE* 9 CON/ANT FE> ?AT SOMEONE WAS DO+ ! SAME TO ME4 ,& ,I WASN'T 9T]E/$ 9 P]PETUAT+ ! SOCIALLY ASSIGN$ ID5TITIES ?AT F$ ! HI]>*IES ,I WANT$ SO BADLY TO TE> D[N4 

,UNLE>N+ ! SET ( BEHAVIORS ?AT MAKE UP ID5TITY POLITICS WAS A LOT LESS AB\T DECID+ ,I DIDN'T C>E AB\T HURT+ PEOPLE 7AS ,I SUSPECT A LOT ( LEFTI/S MI<T ASSUME7 & A LOT MORE AB\T LI/5+ TO :AT 9DIVIDUALS WANT$ = !MSELVES4 ,ID5TITY POLITICS HAD TAU<T ME ?AT ANY GIV5 SOCIAL 9T]ACTION CAME ) A LI/ ( RULES - & ANY TRANSGRESSION OR MI/AKE C\LD BE POT5TIALLY V]Y S]I\S4 ,= ME1 !SE RULES BECAME V]Y ISOLAT+4 ,I AVOID$ 9T]ACTIONS ) PEOPLE = FE> ( H>M+ !M OR (F5D+ !M4 

,:5 ,I BEGAN %$D+ !SE BEHAVIORS1 ,I BECAME MORE OP5 & COM=TABLE ) ! PEOPLE >\ND ME4 ,RA!R ?AN ADH]+ TO !SE /RICT RULES1 WE FELT FREE TO COMMUNICATE \R 9DIVIDUAL DESIRES4 ,I C\LD TELL MY FRI5DS ?AT !Y C\LD T\* ME FREELY1 )\T FEEL+ OBLIGAT$ TO ASK ME EA* TIME4 ,I C\LD ASSURE !M ?AT IF ,I DIDN'T WANT TO BE T\*$ AT A P>TICUL> TIME OR 9 A P>TICUL> WAY1 ,I W\LD COMMUNICATE ?AT TO !M4 

,MY ',P,O,C' FRI5DS C\LD TELL ME :AT WORDS & ACTIONS !Y W]E P]SONALLY COM=TABLE )1 RA!R ?AN FEEL+ COMPELL$ TO UPHOLD SOME SORT ( COMMUNITY RULES OR MORALS4 

,MY FRI5DS ( ALL DIFF]5T SOCIALLY CON/RUCT$ ID5TITIES - BY RACE1 G5D]1 SEX1 ETC - C\LD BEHAVE AS !Y WI%$1 )\T BE+ CONC]N$ ?AT !Y W]E FULFILL+ /]EOTYPES OR BETRAY+ !IR ID5TITIES4 

,IT'S F> FROM UTOPIAN1 BUT AS LEFTISM CONT9UES TO DEMON/RATE1 UTOPIA IS IMPOSSIBLE )\T AU?ORIT>IANISM4 

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