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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TRANSLATOR 3 ,CON/ANCE ,CL>A ,G>NETT 

,TEXT 3 

,!SE D\BTS FRETT$ & H>ASS$ HIM1 GR[+ WEAK] OR /RONG] FROM TIME TO TIME1 BUT NEV] LEAV+ HIM4 ,HE READ & ?\<T1 & ! MORE HE READ & ! MORE HE ?\<T1 ! FUR!R HE FELT FROM ! AIM HE WAS PURSU+4 

,( LATE 9 ,MOSC[ & 9 ! C\NTRY1 S9CE HE HAD BECOME CONV9C$ ?AT HE W\LD F9D NO SOLUTION 9 ! MAT]IALI/S1 HE HAD READ & RE-READ ?OR\<LY ,PLATO1 ,SP9OZA1 ,KANT1 ,S*ELL+1 ,HEGEL1 & ,S*OP5HAU]1 ! PHILOSOPH]S :O GAVE A NON-MAT]IALI/IC EXPLANATION ( LIFE4 

,!IR IDEAS SEEM$ TO HIM FRUITFUL :5 HE WAS READ+ OR WAS HIMSELF SEEK+ >GUM5TS TO REFUTE O!R !ORIES1 ESPECIALLY ?OSE ( ! MAT]IALI/S2 BUT AS SOON AS HE BEGAN TO READ OR S\<T = HIMSELF A SOLUTION ( PROBLEMS1 ! SAME ?+ ALWAYS HAPP5$4 ,AS LONG AS HE FOLL[$ ! FIX$ DEF9ITION ( OBSCURE WORDS SU* AS SPIRIT1 WILL1 FRE$OM1 ESS5CE1 PURPOSELY LETT+ HIMSELF GO 9TO ! SN>E ( WORDS ! PHILOSOPH]S SET = HIM1 HE SEEM$ TO COMPREH5D SOME?+4 ,BUT HE HAD ONLY TO =GET ! >TIFICIAL TRA9 ( REASON+1 & TO TURN FROM LIFE ITSELF TO :AT HAD SATISFI$ HIM :ILE ?9K+ 9 ACCORDANCE ) ! FIX$ DEF9ITIONS1 & ALL ?IS >TIFICIAL $IFICE FELL TO PIECES AT ONCE LIKE A H\SE ( C>DS1 & IT BECAME CLE> ?AT ! $IFICE HAD BE5 BUILT UP \T ( ?OSE TRANSPOS$ WORDS1 AP>T FROM ANY?+ 9 LIFE MORE IMPORTANT ?AN REASON4 

,AT ONE TIME1 READ+ ,S*OP5HAU]1 HE PUT 9 PLACE ( HIS WILL ! WORD LOVE1 & = A C\PLE ( DAYS ?IS NEW PHILOSOPHY *>M$ HIM1 TILL HE REMOV$ A LITTLE AWAY FROM IT4 ,BUT !N1 :5 HE TURN$ FROM LIFE ITSELF TO GLANCE AT IT AGA91 IT FELL AWAY TOO1 & PROV$ TO BE ! SAME MUSL9 G>M5T ) NO W>M? 9 IT4 

,HIS BRO!R ,S]GEY ,IVANOVIT* ADVIS$ HIM TO READ ! !OLOGICAL WORKS ( ,HOMIAKOV4 ,LEV9 READ ! SECOND VOLUME ( ,HOMIAKOV'S WORKS1 & 9 SPITE ( ! ELEGANT1 EPIGRAMMATIC1 >GUM5TATIVE /YLE :I* AT FIR/ REPELL$ HIM1 HE WAS IMPRESS$ BY ! DOCTR9E ( ! *UR* HE F\ND 9 !M4 ,HE WAS /RUCK AT FIR/ BY ! IDEA ?AT ! APPREH5SION ( DIV9E TRU?S HAD NOT BE5 V\*SAF$ TO MAN1 BUT TO A CORPORATION ( M5 B\ND TOGE!R BY LOVE--TO ! *UR*4 ,:AT DELI<T$ HIM WAS ! ?\<T H[ MU* EASI] IT WAS TO BELIEVE 9 A /ILL EXI/+ LIV+ *UR*1 EMBRAC+ ALL ! BELIEFS ( M51 & HAV+ ,GOD AT ITS HEAD1 & !RE=E HOLY & 9FALLIBLE1 & FROM IT TO ACCEPT ! FAI? 9 ,GOD1 9 ! CREATION1 ! FALL1 ! R$EMPTION1 ?AN TO BEG9 ) ,GOD1 A MY/]I\S1 F>-AWAY ,GOD1 ! CREATION1 ETC4 ,BUT AFT]W>DS1 ON READ+ A ,CA?OLIC WRIT]'S HI/ORY ( ! *UR*1 & !N A ,GREEK OR?ODOX WRIT]'S HI/ORY ( ! *UR*1 & SEE+ ?AT ! TWO *UR*ES1 9 !IR V]Y CONCEPTION 9FALLIBLE1 EA* D5Y ! AU?ORITY ( ! O!R1 ,HOMIAKOV'S DOCTR9E ( ! *UR* LO/ ALL ITS *>M = HIM1 & ?IS $IFICE CRUMBL$ 9TO DU/ LIKE ! PHILOSOPH]S' $IFICES4 

,ALL ?AT SPR+ HE WAS NOT HIMSELF1 & W5T ?R\< FE>FUL MOM5TS ( HORROR4 

0,)\T KN[+ :AT ,I AM & :Y ,I AM H]E1 LIFE'S IMPOSSIBLE2 & ?AT ,I CAN'T KN[1 & SO ,I CAN'T LIVE10 ,LEV9 SAID TO HIMSELF4 

0,9 9F9ITE TIME1 9 9F9ITE MATT]1 9 9F9ITE SPACE1 IS =M$ A BUBBLE-ORGANISM1 & ?AT BUBBLE LA/S A :ILE & BUR/S1 & ?AT BUBBLE IS ,ME40 

,IT WAS AN AGONIZ+ ]ROR1 BUT IT WAS ! SOLE LOGICAL RESULT ( AGES ( HUMAN ?\<T 9 ?AT DIRECTION4 

,?IS WAS ! ULTIMATE BELIEF ON :I* ALL ! SY/EMS ELABORAT$ BY HUMAN ?\<T 9 ALMO/ ALL !IR RAMIFICATIONS RE/$4 ,IT WAS ! PREVAL5T CONVICTION1 & ( ALL O!R EXPLANATIONS ,LEV9 HAD UNCONSCI\SLY1 NOT KN[+ :5 OR H[1 *OS5 IT1 AS ANYWAY ! CLE>E/1 & MADE IT HIS [N4 

,BUT IT WAS NOT M]ELY A FALSEHOOD1 IT WAS ! CRUEL JE] ( SOME WICK$ P[]1 SOME EVIL1 HATEFUL P[]1 TO :OM ONE C\LD NOT SUBMIT4 

,HE MU/ ESCAPE FROM ?IS P[]4 ,& ! MEANS ( ESCAPE EV]Y MAN HAD 9 HIS [N H&S4 ,HE HAD BUT TO CUT %ORT ?IS DEP5D5CE ON EVIL4 ,& !RE WAS ONE MEANS--DEA?4 

,& ,LEV91 A HAPPY FA!R & HUSB&1 9 P]FECT HEAL?1 WAS SEV]AL TIMES SO NE> SUICIDE ?AT HE HID ! CORD ?AT HE MI<T NOT BE TEMPT$ TO HANG HIMSELF1 & WAS AFRAID TO GO \T ) HIS GUN = FE> ( %OOT+ HIMSELF4 

,BUT ,LEV9 DID NOT %OOT HIMSELF1 & DID NOT HANG HIMSELF2 HE W5T ON LIV+4 

,FROM 3 ,GUT5B]G4ORG4 

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