,*APT] #i #agihagih ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,M>Y ,WOLL/ONECRAFT ,TEXT 3 0,I RESUME MY P5 TO FLY FROM ?\RI$2 & WE HA/5$ TO ,LONDON4 ,I HAD PURPOS$ TAK+ ONE ( MY SI/]S ) ME2 = A /RONG MOTIVE = M>RY+1 WAS ! DESIRE ( HAV+ A HOME AT :I* ,I C\LD RECEIVE !M1 N[ !IR [N GREW SO UNCOM=TABLE1 AS NOT TO DES]VE ! *E]+ APPELLATION4 ,AN OBJECTION WAS MADE TO H] ACCOMPANY+ ME1 ?AT APPE>$ PLAUSIBLE2 & ,I RELUCTANTLY ACQUIESC$4 ,I WAS H[EV] WILL+LY ALL[$ TO TAKE ) ME ,MOLLY1 POOR ,PEGGY'S DAUE IDEAS COMMONLY ASSOCIAT$ 9 ! C\NTRY2 &1 AS BLOOM+ AS ,MAY1 %E BADE ADIEU TO ,PEGGY ) WEEP+ EYES4 ,I DID NOT EV5 FEEL HURT AT ! REFUSAL 9 RELATION TO MY SI/]1 TILL HE>+ :AT MY UNCLE HAD DONE = ME1 ,I HAD ! SIMPLICITY TO REQUE/1 SPEAK+ ) W>M? ( !IR SITUATION1 ?AT HE W\LD GIVE !M A ?\S& P\NDS A-PIECE1 :I* SEEM$ TO ME BUT JU/ICE4 ,HE ASK$ ME1 GIV+ ME A KISS1 ',IF ,I HAD LO/ MY S5SES8' ,I />T$ BACK1 AS IF ,I HAD F\ND A WASP 9 A ROSE-BU%4 ,I EXPO/ULAT$4 ,HE SNE]$3 & ! DEMON ( DISCORD 5T]$ \R P>ADISE1 TO POISON ) HIS PE/IF]\S BREA? EV]Y OP5+ JOY4 0,I HAD SOMETIMES OBS]V$ DEFECTS 9 MY HUSB&'S UND]/&+2 BUT1 L$ A/RAY BY A PREVAIL+ OP9ION1 ?AT GOODNESS ( DISPOSITION IS ( ! FIR/ IMPORTANCE 9 ! RELATIVE SITUATIONS ( LIFE1 9 PROPORTION AS ,I P]CEIV$ ! N>R[NESS ( HIS UND]/&+1 FANCY 5L>G$ ! B\ND>Y ( HIS HE>T4 ,FATAL ]ROR6 ,H[ QUICKLY IS ! SO MU* VAUNT$ MILK9ESS ( NATURE TURN$ 9TO GALL1 BY AN 9T]C\RSE ) ! WORLD1 IF MORE G5]\S JUICES DO NOT SU/A9 ! VITAL S\RCE ( VIRTUE6 0,ONE TRAIT 9 MY *>ACT] WAS EXTREME CR$ULITY2 BUT1 :5 MY EYES W]E ONCE OP5$1 ,I SAW BUT TOO CLE>LY ALL ,I HAD BE=E OV]LOOK$4 ,MY HUSB& WAS SUNK 9 MY E/EEM2 /ILL !RE >E Y\?FUL EMOTIONS1 :I*1 = A :ILE1 FILL UP ! *ASM ( LOVE & FRI5D%IP4 ,BESIDES1 IT REQUIR$ SOME TIME TO 5ABLE ME TO SEE HIS :OLE *>ACT] 9 A JU/ LIK ( VIRTUE 9 HIMSELF1 HE BEGAN TO IMAG9E ?AT IT NO :]E EXI/$4 0,DO NOT LET ME LEAD Y\ A/RAY1 MY *ILD1 ,I DO NOT MEAN TO ASS]T1 ?AT ANY HUMAN BE+ IS 5TIRELY 9CAPABLE ( FEEL+ ! G5]\S EMOTIONS1 :I* >E ! F\NDATION ( EV]Y TRUE PR9CIPLE ( VIRTUE2 BUT !Y >E FREQU5TLY1 ,I FE>1 SO FEEBLE1 ?AT1 LIKE ! 9FLAMMABLE QUALITY :I* MORE OR LESS LURKS 9 ALL BODIES1 !Y (T5 LIE = EV] DORMANT2 ! CIRCUM/ANCES NEV] OCCURR+1 NECESS>Y TO CALL !M 9TO ACTION4 0,I DISCOV]$ H[EV] BY *ANCE1 ?AT1 9 CONSEQU5CE ( SOME LOSSES 9 TRADE1 ! NATURAL EFFECT ( HIS GAMBL+ DESIRE TO />T SUDD5LY 9TO RI*ES1 ! FIVE ?\S& P\NDS GIV5 ME BY MY UNCLE1 HAD BE5 PAID V]Y OPPORTUNELY4 ,?IS DISCOV]Y1 /RANGE AS Y\ MAY ?9K ! ASS]TION1 GAVE ME PLEASURE2 MY HUSB&'S EMB>RASSM5TS 5DE>$ HIM TO ME4 ,I WAS GLAD TO F9D AN EXCUSE = HIS CONDUCT TO MY SI/]S1 & MY M9D BECAME CALM]4 0,MY UNCLE 9TRODUC$ ME TO SOME LIT]>Y SOCIETY2 & ! !AT]S W]E A NEV]-FAIL+ S\RCE ( AMUSEM5T TO ME4 ,MY DELIILY REPEAT$ AFT] H]1 9 ! SAME TONE1 & ) A LONG-DRAWN SI<1 ',HE>TS LIKE \R'S W]E PAIR'D--NOT MAT*'D4' 0,!SE W]E1 AT FIR/1 SPONTANE\S EMOTIONS1 ?\<1 BECOM+ ACQUA9T$ ) M5 ( WIT & POLI%$ MANN]S1 ,I C\LD NOT SOMETIMES HELP REGRETT+ MY E>LY M>RIAGE2 & ?AT1 9 MY HA/E TO ESCAPE FROM A TEMPOR>Y DEP5D5CE1 & EXP& MY NEWLY FL$G$ W+S1 9 AN UNKN[N SKY1 ,I HAD BE5 CAUD = ME1 MADE SEV]AL MON?S GLIDE AWAY4 ,YET1 NOT =GETT+ ! SITUATION ( MY SI/]S1 :O W]E /ILL V]Y Y\NG1 ,I PREVAIL$ ON MY UNCLE TO SETTLE A ?\S& P\NDS ON EA*2 & TO PLACE !M 9 A S*OOL NE> T[N1 :]E ,I C\LD FREQU5TLY VISIT1 AS WELL AS HAVE !M AT HOME ) ME4 0,I N[ TRI$ TO IMPROVE MY HUSB&'S TA/E1 BUT WE HAD FEW SUBJECTS 9 COMMON2 9DE$ HE SOON APPE>$ TO HAVE LITTLE RELI% = MY SOCIETY1 UNLESS HE WAS H9T+ TO ME ! USE HE C\LD MAKE ( MY UNCLE'S WEAL?4 ,:5 WE HAD COMPANY1 ,I WAS DISGU/$ BY AN O/5TATI\S DISPLAY ( RI*ES1 & ,I HAVE (T5 QUITT$ ! ROOM1 TO AVOID LI/5+ TO EXAGG]AT$ TALES ( MONEY OBTA9$ BY LUCKY HITS4 0,) ALL MY ATT5TION & AFFECTIONATE 9T]E/1 ,I P]CEIV$ ?AT ,I C\LD NOT BECOME ! FRI5D OR CONFID5T ( MY HUSB&4 ,EV]Y ?+ ,I LE>N$ RELATIVE TO HIS AFFAIRS ,I GA!R$ UP BY ACCID5T2 & ,I VA9LY 5DEAVOR$ TO E/ABLI%1 AT \R FIRE-SIDE1 ?AT SOCIAL CONV]SE1 :I* (T5 R5D]S PEOPLE ( DIFF]5T *>ACT]S DE> TO EA* O!R4 ,RETURN+ FROM ! !AT]1 OR ANY AMUS+ P>TY1 ,I FREQU5TLY BEGAN TO RELATE :AT ,I HAD SE5 & HIMS ( Y\? W]E VANI%+ ) ITS VIVACITY4 0,I GIVE Y\ ONE VIEW ( ! SUBJECT2 BUT !SE EXP]IM5TS & ALT]ATIONS TOOK UP ! SPACE ( FIVE YE>S2 DUR+ :I* P]IOD1 ,I HAD MO/ RELUCTANTLY EXTORT$ SEV]AL SUMS FROM MY UNCLE1 TO SAVE MY HUSB&1 TO USE HIS [N WORDS1 FROM DE/RUCTION4 ,AT FIR/ IT WAS TO PREV5T BILLS BE+ NOT$1 TO ! 9JURY ( HIS CR$IT2 !N TO BAIL HIM2 & AFT]W>DS TO PREV5T AN EXECUTION FROM 5T]+ ! H\SE4 ,I BEGAN AT LA/ TO CONCLUDE1 ?AT HE W\LD HAVE MADE MORE EX]TIONS ( HIS [N TO EXTRICATE HIMSELF1 HAD HE NOT RELI$ ON M9E1 CRUEL AS WAS ! TASK HE IMPOS$ ON ME2 & ,I FIRMLY DET]M9$ ?AT ,I W\LD MAKE USE ( NO MORE PRETEXTS4 0,FROM ! MOM5T ,I PRON\NC$ ?IS DET]M9ATION1 9DIFF]5CE ON HIS P>T WAS *ANG$ 9TO RUD5ESS1 OR SOME?+ WORSE4 0,HE N[ SELDOM D9$ AT HOME1 & CONT9UALLY RETURN$ AT A LATE H\R1 DRUNK1 TO B$4 ,I RETIR$ TO ANO!R AP>TM5T2 ,I WAS GLAD1 ,I [N1 TO ESCAPE FROM HIS2 = P]SONAL 9TIMACY )\T AFFECTION1 SEEM$1 TO ME ! MO/ DEGRAD+1 AS WELL AS ! MO/ PA9FUL /ATE 9 :I* A WOMAN ( ANY TA/E1 NOT TO SPEAK ( ! PECULI> DELICACY ( FO/]$ S5SIBILITY1 C\LD BE PLAC$4 ,BUT MY HUSB&'S FONDNESS = WOM5 WAS ( ! GROSSE/ K9D1 & IMAG9ATION WAS SO :OLLY \T ( ! QUE/ION1 AS TO R5D] HIS 9DULG5CES ( ?IS SORT 5TIRELY PROMISCU\S1 & ( ! MO/ BRUTAL NATURE4 ,MY HEAL? SUFF]$1 BE=E MY HE>T WAS 5TIRELY E/RANG$ BY ! LOA?SOME 9=MATION2 C\LD ,I !N HAVE RETURN$ TO HIS SULLI$ >MS1 BUT AS A VICTIM TO ! PREJUDICES ( MANK9D1 :O HAVE MADE WOM5 ! PROP]TY ( !IR HUSB&S8 ,I DISCOV]$ EV51 BY HIS CONV]SATION1 :5 9TOXICAT$ ?AT HIS FAVORITES W]E WANTONS ( ! L[E/ CLASS1 :O C\LD BY !IR VULG>1 9DEC5T MIR?1 :I* HE CALL$ NATURE1 R\SE HIS SLUGGI% SPIRITS4 ,M]ETRICI\S ORNAM5TS & MANN]S W]E NECESS>Y TO ATTRACT HIS ATT5TION4 ,HE SELDOM LOOK$ TWICE AT A MODE/ WOMAN1 & SAT SIL5T 9 !IR COMPANY2 & ! *>MS ( Y\? & BEAUTY HAD NOT ! SLICASMS LEVEL$ AT !M1 BY M5 :O DO NOT ALL[ !M TO HAVE M9DS1 BECAUSE M9D W\LD BE AN IMP$IM5T TO GROSS 5JOYM5T4 ,M5 :O >E 9F]IOR TO !IR FELL[ M51 >E ALWAYS MO/ ANXI\S TO E/ABLI% !IR SUP]IORITY OV] WOM54 ,BUT :]E >E !SE REFLECTIONS LEAD+ ME8 0,WOM5 :O HAVE LO/ !IR HUSB&'S AFFECTION1 >E JU/LY REPROV$ = NEGLECT+ !IR P]SONS1 & NOT TAK+ ! SAME PA9S TO KEEP1 AS TO GA9 A HE>T2 BUT :O ?9KS ( GIV+ ! SAME ADVICE TO M51 ?\< WOM5 >E CONT9UALLY /IGMATIZ$ = BE+ ATTA*$ TO FOPS2 & FROM ! NATURE ( !IR $UCATION1 >E MORE SUSCEPTIBLE ( DISGU/8 ,YET :Y A WOMAN %\LD BE EXPECT$ TO 5DURE A SLOV51 ) MORE PATI5CE ?AN A MAN1 & MAGNANIM\SLY TO GOV]N H]SELF1 ,I CANNOT CONCEIVE2 UNLESS IT BE SUPPOS$ >ROGANT 9 H] TO LOOK = RESPECT AS WELL AS A MA9T5ANCE4 ,IT IS NOT EASY TO BE PLEAS$1 BECAUSE1 AFT] PROMIS+ TO LOVE1 9 DIFF]5T CIRCUM/ANCES1 WE >E TOLD ?AT IT IS \R DUTY4 ,I CANNOT1 ,I AM SURE 7?\<1 :5 ATT5D+ ! SICK1 ,I NEV] FELT DISGU/7 =GET MY [N S5SATIONS1 :5 RIS+ ) HEAL? & SPIRIT1 & AFT] SC5T+ ! SWEET MORN+1 ,I HAVE MET MY HUSB& AT ! BREAKFA/ TABLE4 ,! ACTIVE ATT5TION ,I HAD BE5 GIV+ TO DOME/IC REGULATIONS1 :I* W]E G5]ALLY SETTL$ BE=E HE ROSE1 OR A WALK1 GAVE A GL[ TO MY C\NT5ANCE1 ?AT CONTRA/$ ) HIS SQUALLID APPE>ANCE4 ,! SQUEAMI%NESS ( /OMA* ALONE1 PRODUC$ BY ! LA/ NIM-*AIR1 9 A DIRTY P[D]+ G[N1 SOIL$ L951 UNG>T]$ /OCK+S1 & TANGL$ HAIR1 YAWN+ & /RET*+ HIMSELF4 ,! NEWSPAP] WAS IMM$IATELY CALL$ =1 IF NOT BR\D1 FROM :I* HE W\LD SC>CELY LIFT HIS EYES :ILE ,I P\R$ \T ! TEA1 EXCEPT+ TO ASK = SOME BR&Y TO PUT 9TO IT1 OR TO DECL>E ?AT HE C\LD NOT EAT4 ,9 ANSW] TO ANY QUE/ION1 9 HIS BE/ HUMOR1 IT WAS A DRAWL+ ',:AT DO Y\ SAY1 *ILD8' ,BUT IF ,I DEM&$ MONEY = ! H\SE EXP5CES1 :I* ,I PUT (F TILL ! LA/ MOM5T1 HIS CU/OM>Y REPLY1 (T5 PREFAC$ ) AN OA?1 WAS1 ',DO Y\ ?9K ME1 MADAM1 MADE ( MONEY8'--,! BUT*]1 ! BAK]1 MU/ WAIT2 &1 :AT WAS WORSE1 ,I WAS (T5 OBLIG$ TO WITNESS HIS SURLY DISMISSION ( TRADESM51 :O W]E 9 WANT ( !IR MONEY1 & :OM ,I SOMETIMES PAID ) ! PRES5TS MY UNCLE GAVE ME = MY [N USE4 0,AT ?IS JUNCTURE MY FA!R'S MI/RESS1 BY T]RIFY+ HIS CONSCI5CE1 PREVAIL$ ON HIM TO M>RY H]2 HE WAS ALREADY BECOME A ME?ODI/2 & MY BRO!R1 :O N[ PRACTIC$ = HIMSELF1 HAD DISCOV]$ A FLAW 9 ! SETTLEM5T MADE ON MY MO!R'S *ILDR51 :I* SET IT ASIDE1 & HE ALL[$ MY FA!R1 :OSE DI/RESS MADE HIM SUBMIT TO ANY ?+1 A TI! ( HIS [N1 OR RA!R \R =TUNE4 0,MY SI/]S HAD LEFT S*OOL1 BUT W]E UNABLE TO 5DURE HOME1 :I* MY FA!R'S WIFE R5D]$ AS DISAGREEABLE AS POSSIBLE1 TO GET RID ( GIRLS :OM %E REG>D$ AS SPIES ON H] CONDUCT4 ,!Y W]E ACCOMPLI%$1 YET Y\ CAN 7MAY Y\ NEV] BE R$UC$ TO ! SAME DE/ITUTE /ATE67 SC>CELY CONCEIVE ! TR\BLE ,I HAD TO PLACE !M 9 ! SITUATION ( GOV]NESSES1 ! ONLY ONE 9 :I* EV5 A WELL-$UCAT$ WOMAN1 ) MORE ?AN ORD9>Y TAL5TS1 CAN /RUGGLE = A SUBSI/5CE2 & EV5 ?IS IS A DEP5D5CE NEXT TO M5IAL4 ,IS IT !N SURPRIS+1 ?AT SO MANY =LORN WOM51 ) HUMAN PASSIONS & FEEL+S1 TAKE REFUGE 9 9FAMY8 ,ALONE 9 L>GE MANSIONS1 ,I SAY ALONE1 BECAUSE !Y HAD NO COMPANIONS ) :OM !Y C\LD CONV]SE ON EQUAL T]MS1 OR FROM :OM !Y C\LD EXPECT ! 5DE>M5TS ( AFFECTION1 !Y GREW MELAN*OLY1 & ! S\ND ( JOY MADE !M SAD2 & ! Y\NGE/1 HAV+ A MORE DELICATE FRAME1 FELL 9TO A DECL9E4 ,IT WAS ) GREAT DIFFICULTY ?AT ,I1 :O N[ ALMO/ SUPPORT$ ! H\SE BY LOANS FROM MY UNCLE1 C\LD PREVAIL ON ! MA/] ( IT1 TO ALL[ H] A ROOM TO DIE 94 ,I WAT*$ H] SICK B$ = SOME MON?S1 & !N CLOS$ H] EYES1 G5TLE SPIRIT6 = EV]4 ,%E WAS PRETTY1 ) V]Y 5GAG+ MANN]S2 YET HAD NEV] AN OPPORTUNITY TO M>RY1 EXCEPT+ TO A V]Y OLD MAN4 ,%E HAD ABILITIES SUFFICI5T TO HAVE %ONE 9 ANY PR(ESSION1 HAD !RE BE5 ANY PR(ESSIONS = WOM51 ?\< %E %RUNK AT ! NAME ( MILL9] OR MANTUA-MAK] AS DEGRAD+ TO A G5TLEWOMAN4 ,I W\LD NOT T]M ?IS FEEL+ FALSE PRIDE TO ANY ONE BUT Y\1 MY *ILD1 :OM ,I FONDLY HOPE TO SEE 7YES2 ,I WILL 9DULGE ! HOPE = A MOM5T67 POSSESS$ ( ?AT 5]GY ( *>ACT] :I* GIVES DIGNITY TO ANY /ATION2 & ) ?AT CLE>1 FIRM SPIRIT ?AT WILL 5ABLE Y\ TO *OOSE A SITUATION = Y\RSELF1 OR SUBMIT TO BE CLASS$ 9 ! L[E/1 IF IT BE ! ONLY ONE 9 :I* Y\ CAN BE ! MI/RESS ( Y\R [N ACTIONS4 0,SOON AFT] ! DEA? ( MY SI/]1 AN 9CID5T OCCURR$1 TO PROVE TO ME ?AT ! HE>T ( A LIB]T9E IS DEAD TO NATURAL AFFECTION2 & TO CONV9CE ME1 ?AT ! BE+ :O HAS APPE>$ ALL T5D]NESS1 TO GRATIFY A SELFI% PASSION1 IS AS REG>DLESS ( ! 9NOC5T FRUIT ( IT1 AS ( ! OBJECT1 :5 ! FIT IS OV]4 ,I HAD CASUALLY OBS]V$ AN OLD1 MEANLOOK+ WOMAN1 :O CALL$ ON MY HUSB& EV]Y TWO OR ?REE MON?S TO RECEIVE SOME MONEY4 ,ONE DAY 5T]+ ! PASSAGE ( HIS LITTLE C\NT+-H\SE1 AS %E WAS GO+ \T1 ,I HE>D H] SAY1 ',! *ILD IS V]Y WEAK2 %E CANNOT LIVE LONG1 %E WILL SOON DIE \T ( Y\R WAY1 SO Y\ NE$ NOT GRUDGE H] A LITTLE PHYSIC4' 0',SO MU* ! BETT]1' HE REPLI$1' & PRAY M9D Y\R [N BUS9ESS1 GOOD WOMAN4' 0,I WAS /RUCK BY HIS UNFEEL+1 9HUMAN TONE ( VOICE1 & DREW BACK1 DET]M9$ :5 ! WOMAN CAME AGA91 TO TRY TO SPEAK TO H]1 NOT \T ( CURIOSITY1 ,I HAD HE>D 5\<1 BUT ) ! HOPE ( BE+ USEFUL TO A POOR1 \TCA/ GIRL4 0,A MON? OR TWO ELAPS$ BE=E ,I SAW ?IS WOMAN AGA92 & !N %E HAD A *ILD 9 H] H& ?AT TOTT]$ ALONG1 SC>CELY ABLE TO SU/A9 H] [N WEILOR4 ,%E HESITAT$1 YET OBEY$4 ,I ASSUR$ H] ?AT ,I %\LD NOT M5TION TO MY HUSB& 7! WORD SEEM$ TO WEI< ON MY RESPIRATION71 ?AT ,I HAD SE5 H]1 OR HIS *ILD4 ,! WOMAN />$ AT ME ) A/ONI%M5T2 & ,I TURN$ MY EYES ON ! SQUALID OBJECT . ,%E C\LD H>DLY SUPPORT H]SELF1 H] COMPLEXION WAS SALL[1 & H] EYES 9FLAM$1 ) AN 9DESCRIBABLE LOOK ( CUNN+1 MIX$ ) ! WR9KLES PRODUC$ BY ! PEEVI%NESS ( PA94 0,POOR *ILD6' ,I EXCLAIM$4 ',AH6 Y\ MAY WELL SAY POOR *ILD1' REPLI$ ! WOMAN4 ',I BR\T TO LOOK AT H]1 & NOT GET SOME ADVICE4 ,I DO NOT KN[ :AT !Y DES]VE :O NURS$ H]4 ,:Y1 H] LEGS B5T UND] H] LIKE A B[ :5 %E CAME TO ME1 & %E HAS NEV] BE5 WELL S9CE2 BUT1 IF !Y W]E NO BETT] PAID ?AN ,I AM1 IT IS NOT TO BE WOND]$ AT1 SURE 5\<4' 0,ON FUR!R 9QUIRY ,I WAS 9=M$1 ?AT ?IS MIS]ABLE SPECTACLE WAS ! DAURIAGE HE S5T H] AWAY1 H] SITUATION BE+ TOO VISIBLE4 ,AFT] H] DELIV]Y1 %E WAS ?R[N ON ! T[N2 & DI$ 9 AN HOSPITAL )9 ! YE>4 ,! BABE WAS S5T TO A P>I%-NURSE1 & AFT]W>DS TO ?IS WOMAN1 :O DID NOT SEEM MU* BETT]2 BUT :AT WAS TO BE EXPECT$ FROM SU* A CLOSE B>GA98 ,%E WAS ONLY PAID ?REE %ILL+S A WEEK = BO>D & WA%+4 0,! WOMAN BEGG$ ME TO GIVE H] SOME OLD CLO!S = ! *ILD1 ASSUR+ ME1 ?AT %E WAS ALMO/ AFRAID TO ASK MA/] = MONEY TO BUY EV5 A PAIR ( %OES4 0,I GREW SICK AT HE>T4 ,&1 FE>+ ,MR4 ,V5ABLES MI ,FROM 3 ,GUT5B]G4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,NOVEMB] #c1 #agig 3 ,*APT] #i -- ,PUBLICATION4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/