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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

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,AS REG>DS ?OSE WORLDLY DELI<TS TO :I* ,I HAD 9T5D$1 ON 5T]+ ! ,UNIV]SITY1 TO SURR5D] MYSELF 9 IMITATION ( MY BRO!R1 ,I UND]W5T A COMPLETE DISILLUSIONM5T ?AT W9T]4 ,WOLODA DANC$ A GREAT DEAL1 & ,PAPA ALSO W5T TO BALLS ) HIS Y\NG WIFE1 BUT ,I APPE>$ TO BE ?\<T EI!R TOO Y\NG OR UNFITT$ = SU* DELI<TS1 & NO ONE 9VIT$ ME TO ! H\SES :]E BALLS W]E BE+ GIV54 ,YET1 9 SPITE ( MY V[ ( FRANKNESS ) ,DIMITRI1 ,I NEV] TOLD HIM 7NOR ANY ONE ELSE7 H[ MU* ,I %\LD HAVE LIK$ TO GO TO ?OSE DANCES1 & H[ ,I FELT HURT AT BE+ =GOTT5 & 7APP>5TLY7 TAK5 = ! PHILOSOPH] ?AT ,I PRET5D$ TO BE4 

,NEV]!LESS1 A RECEPTION WAS TO BE GIV5 ?AT W9T] AT ! ,PR9CESS ,KORNAK(F'S1 & TO IT %E S5T US P]SONAL 9VITATIONS--TO MYSELF AMONG ! RE/6 ,CONSEQU5TLY1 ,I WAS TO ATT5D MY FIR/ BALL4 ,BE=E />T+1 ,WOLODA CAME 9TO MY ROOM TO SEE H[ ,I WAS DRESS+ MYSELF--AN ACT ON HIS P>T :I* GREATLY SURPRIS$ ME & TOOK ME ABACK4 ,9 MY OP9ION 7IT MU/ BE UND]/OOD7 SOLICITUDE AB\T ONE'S DRESS WAS A %AMEFUL ?+1 & %\LD BE KEPT UND]1 BUT HE SEEM$ TO ?9K IT A ?+ SO NATURAL & NECESS>Y ?AT HE SAID \TRI<T ?AT HE WAS AFRAID ,I %\LD BE PUT \T ( C\NT5ANCE ON ?AT SCORE4 ,ACCORD+LY1 HE BID ME DON MY PAT5T LEA!R BOOTS1 & WAS HORRIFI$ TO F9D ?AT ,I WANT$ TO PUT ON GLOVES ( PEAU DE *AMOIS4 ,NEXT1 HE ADJU/$ MY WAT*-*A9 9 A P>TICUL> MANN]1 & C>RI$ ME (F TO A HAIRDRESS]'S NE> ! ,KUZNETSKI ,BRIDGE TO HAVE MY LOCKS COIFFUR$4 ,?AT DONE1 HE )DREW TO A LITTLE DI/ANCE & SURVEY$ ME4 

0,YES1 HE LOOKS RI<T 5\< N[0 SAID HE TO ! HAIRDRESS]4 0,ONLY--C\LDN'T Y\ SMOO? ?OSE TUFTS ( HIS 9 FRONT A LITTLE80 ,YET1 = ALL ?AT ,MONSIEUR ,*>LES TREAT$ MY =ELOCKS ) ONE ESS5CE & ANO!R1 !Y P]SI/$ 9 RIS+ UP AGA9 :5 EV] ,I PUT ON MY HAT4 ,9 FACT1 MY CURL$ & TONSUR$ FIGURE SEEM$ TO ME TO LOOK F> WORSE ?AN IT HAD DONE BE=E4 ,MY ONLY HOPE ( SALVATION LAY 9 AN AFFECTATION ( UNTID9ESS4 ,ONLY 9 ?AT GUISE W\LD MY EXT]IOR RESEMBLE ANY?+ AT ALL4 ,WOLODA1 APP>5TLY1 WAS ( ! SAME OP9ION1 = HE BEGG$ ME TO UNDO ! CURLS1 & :5 ,I HAD DONE SO & /ILL LOOK$ UNPRES5TABLE1 HE CEAS$ TO REG>D ME AT ALL1 BUT ?R\<\T ! DRIVE TO ! ,KORNAK(FS REMA9$ SIL5T & DEPRESS$4 

,NEV]!LESS1 ,I 5T]$ ! ,KORNAK(FS' MANSION BOLDLY 5\<1 & IT WAS ONLY :5 ! ,PR9CESS HAD 9VIT$ ME TO DANCE1 & ,I1 = SOME REASON OR ANO!R 7?\< ,I HAD DRIV5 !RE ) NO O!R ?\<T 9 MY HEAD ?AN TO DANCE WELL71 HAD REPLI$ ?AT ,I NEV] 9DULG$ 9 ?AT PA/IME1 ?AT ,I BEGAN TO BLU%1 &1 LEFT SOLIT>Y AMONG A CR[D ( /RANG]S1 BECAME PLUNG$ 9 MY USUAL 9SUP]ABLE & EV]-GR[+ %YNESS4 ,9 FACT1 ,I REMA9$ SIL5T ON ?AT SPOT ALMO/ ! :OLE EV5+6 

,NEV]!LESS1 :ILE A WALTZ WAS 9 PROGRESS1 ONE ( ! Y\NG PR9CESSES CAME TO ME & ASK$ ME1 ) ! SORT ( (FICIAL K9DNESS COMMON TO ALL H] FAMILY1 :Y ,I WAS NOT DANC+4 ,I CAN REMEMB] BLU%+ HOTLY AT ! QUE/ION1 BUT AT ! SAME TIME FEEL+--= ALL MY EF=TS TO PREV5T IT--A SELF-SATISFI$ SMILE /EAL OV] MY FACE AS ,I BEGAN TALK+1 9 ! MO/ 9FLAT$ & LONG-W9D$ ,FR5*1 SU* RUBBI% AS EV5 N[1 AFT] DOZ5S ( YE>S1 IT %AMES ME TO RECALL4 ,IT MU/ HAVE BE5 ! EFFECT ( ! MUSIC1 :I*1 :ILE EXCIT+ MY N]V\S S5SIBILITY1 DR[N$ 7AS ,I SUPPOS$7 ! LESS 9TELLIGIBLE PORTION ( MY UTT]ANCES4 ,ANYH[1 ,I W5T ON SPEAK+ ( ! EXALT$ COMPANY PRES5T1 & ( ! FUTILITY ( M5 & WOM51 UNTIL ,I HAD GOT MYSELF 9TO SU* A TANGLE ?AT ,I WAS =C$ TO /OP %ORT 9 ! MIDDLE ( A WORD ( A S5T5CE :I* ,I F\ND MYSELF P[]LESS TO CONCLUDE4 

,EV5 ! WORLDLY-M9D$ Y\NG ,PR9CESS WAS %OCK$ BY MY CONDUCT1 & GAZ$ AT ME 9 REPROA*2 :]EAT ,I BUR/ \T LAU<+4 ,AT ?IS CRITICAL MOM5T1 ,WOLODA1 :O HAD REM>K$ ?AT ,I WAS CONV]S+ ) GREAT ANIMATION1 & PROBABLY WAS CURI\S TO KN[ :AT EXCUSES ,I WAS MAK+ = NOT DANC+1 APPROA*$ US ) ,DUBK(F4 ,SEE+1 H[EV]1 MY SMIL+ FACE & ! ,PR9CESS'S FRI<T5$ MI51 AS WELL AS OV]HE>+ ! APPALL+ RUBBI% ) :I* ,I CONCLUD$ MY SPEE*1 HE TURN$ R$ 9 ! FACE1 & :EEL$ R\ND AGA94 ,! ,PR9CESS ALSO ROSE & LEFT ME4 ,I CONT9U$ TO SMILE1 BUT 9 SU* A /ATE ( AGONY FROM ! CONSCI\SNESS ( MY /UPIDITY ?AT ,I FELT READY TO S9K 9TO ! FLOOR4 ,LIKEWISE ,I FELT ?AT1 COME :AT MI<T1 ,I MU/ MOVE AB\T & SAY SOME?+1 9 ORD] TO EFFECT A *ANGE 9 MY POSITION4 ,ACCORD+LY ,I APPROA*$ ,DUBK(F1 & ASK$ HIM IF HE HAD DANC$ MANY WALTZES ) H] ?AT NI<T4 ,?IS ,I FEIGN$ TO SAY 9 A GAY & JE/+ MANN]1 YET 9 REALITY ,I WAS IMPLOR+ HELP ( ! V]Y ,DUBK(F TO :OM ,I HAD CRI$ 0,HOLD Y\R TONGUE60 ON ! NI<T ( ! MATRICULATION D9N]4 ,BY WAY ( ANSW]1 HE MADE AS ?\< HE HAD NOT HE>D ME1 & TURN$ AWAY4 ,NEXT1 ,I APPROA*$ ,WOLODA1 & SAID ) AN EF=T & 9 A SIMIL> TONE ( ASSUM$ GAIETY3 0,HULLO1 ,WOLODA6 ,>E Y\ PLAY$ \T YET80 ,HE M]ELY LOOK$ AT ME AS MU* AS TO SAY1 0,Y\ W\LDN'T SPEAK TO ME LIKE ?AT IF WE W]E ALONE10 & LEFT ME )\T A WORD1 9 ! EVID5T FE> ?AT ,I MI<T CONT9UE TO ATTA* MYSELF TO HIS P]SON4 

0,MY ,GOD6 ,EV5 MY [N BRO!R DES]TS ME60 ,I ?\<T TO MYSELF4 

,YET SOMEH[ ,I HAD NOT ! C\RAGE TO DEP>T1 BUT REMA9$ /&+ :]E ,I WAS UNTIL ! V]Y 5D ( ! EV5+4 ,AT L5G?1 :5 EV]Y ONE WAS LEAV+ ! ROOM & CR[D+ 9TO ! HALL1 & A FOOTMAN SLIPP$ MY GREATCOAT ON TO MY %\LD]S 9 SU* A WAY AS TO TILT UP MY CAP1 ,I GAVE A DRE>Y1 HALF-LA*RYMOSE SMILE1 & REM>K$ TO NO ONE 9 P>TICUL>3 0,COMME C'E/ GRACIEUX60 

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