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,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

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,AFFAIRES DU COEUR EX]CIS$ ME GREATLY ?AT W9T]4 ,9 FACT1 ,I FELL 9 LOVE ?REE TIMES4 ,! FIR/ TIME1 ,I BECAME PASSIONATELY 5AMOR$ ( A BUXOM LADY :OM ,I US$ TO SEE RID+ AT ,FREITAG'S RID+-S*OOL2 ) ! RESULT ?AT EV]Y DAY :5 %E WAS TAK+ A LESSON !RE 7?AT IS TO SAY1 EV]Y ,TUESDAY & ,FRIDAY7 ,I US$ TO GO TO GAZE AT H]1 BUT ALWAYS 9 SU* A /ATE ( TREPIDATION LE/ ,I %\LD BE SE5 ?AT ,I /OOD A LONG WAY (F1 & BOLT$ DIRECTLY ,I ?\<T H] LIKELY TO APPROA* ! SPOT :]E ,I WAS /&+4 ,LIKEWISE1 ,I US$ TO TURN R\ND SO PRECIPITATELY :5EV] %E APPE>$ TO BE GLANC+ 9 MY DIRECTION ?AT ,I NEV] SAW H] FACE WELL1 & TO ?IS DAY DO NOT KN[ :E!R %E WAS REALLY BEAUTIFUL OR NOT4 

,DUBK(F1 :O WAS ACQUA9T$ ) H]1 SURPRIS$ ME ONE DAY 9 ! RID+-S*OOL1 :]E ,I WAS LURK+ CONCEAL$ BEH9D ! LADY'S GROOMS & ! FUR WRAPS :I* !Y W]E HOLD+1 &1 HAV+ HE>D FROM ,DIMITRI ( MY 9FATUATION1 FRI<T5$ ME SO T]RIBLY BY PROPOS+ TO 9TRODUCE ME TO ! ,AMAZON ?AT ,I FL$ 9CONT95TLY FROM ! S*OOL1 & WAS PREV5T$ BY ! M]E ?\<T ?AT POSSIBLY HE HAD TOLD H] AB\T ME FROM EV] 5T]+ ! PLACE AGA91 OR EV5 FROM HID+ BEH9D H] GROOMS1 LE/ ,I %\LD 5C\NT] H]4 

,:5EV] ,I FELL 9 LOVE ) LADIES :OM ,I DID NOT KN[1 & ESPECIALLY M>RI$ WOM51 ,I EXP]I5C$ A %YNESS A ?\S& TIMES GREAT] ?AN ,I HAD EV] FELT ) ,SONET*KA4 ,I DREAD$ BEYOND MEASURE ?AT MY DIV9ITY %\LD LE>N ( MY PASSION1 OR EV5 ( MY EXI/5CE1 S9CE ,I FELT SURE ?AT1 ONCE %E HAD DONE SO1 %E W\LD BE SO T]RIBLY (F5D$ ?AT ,I %\LD NEV] BE =GIV5 = MY PRESUMPTION4 ,& 9DE$1 IF ! ,AMAZON REF]R$ TO ABOVE HAD EV] COME TO KN[ H[ ,I US$ TO /& BEH9D ! GROOMS & DREAM ( SEIZ+ H] & C>RY+ H] (F TO SOME C\NTRY SPOT--IF %E HAD EV] COME TO KN[ H[ ,I %\LD HAVE LIV$ ) H] !RE1 & H[ ,I %\LD HAVE TREAT$ H]1 IT IS PROBABLE ?AT %E W\LD HAVE HAD V]Y GOOD CAUSE = 9DIGNATION6 ,BUT ,I ALWAYS FELT ?AT1 ONCE ,I GOT TO KN[ H]1 %E W\LD /RAI<TWAY DIV9E !SE ?\<TS1 & CONSID] H]SELF 9SULT$ BY MY ACQUA9TANCE4 

,AS MY SECOND AFFAIRE DU COEUR1 ,I1 7= ! ?IRD TIME7 FELL 9 LOVE ) ,SONET*KA :5 ,I SAW H] AT H] SI/]'S4 ,MY SECOND PASSION = H] HAD LONG S9CE COME TO AN 5D1 BUT ,I BECAME 5AMOR$ ( H] ?IS ?IRD TIME ?R\< ,LUBOT%KA S5D+ ME A COPY-BOOK 9 :I* ,SONET*KA HAD COPI$ SOME EXTRACTS FROM ,L]MONT(F'S ,! ,DEMON1 ) C]TA9 ( ! MORE SUBTLY AMOR\S PASSAGES UND]L9$ 9 R$ 9K & M>K$ ) PRESS$ FL[]S4 ,REMEMB]+ H[ ,WOLODA HAD BE5 WONT TO KISS HIS 9AMORATA'S PURSE LA/ YE>1 ,I ESSAY$ TO DO ! SAME ?+ N[2 & REALLY1 :5 ALONE 9 MY ROOM 9 ! EV5+S & 5GAG$ 9 DREAM+ AS ,I LOOK$ AT A FL[] OR OCCASIONALLY PRESS$ IT TO MY LIPS1 ,I W\LD FEEL A C]TA9 PLEASANTLY LA*RYMOSE MOOD /EAL OV] ME1 & REMA9 G5U9ELY 9 LOVE 7OR SUPPOSE MYSELF TO BE SO7 = AT LEA/ SEV]AL DAYS4 

,F9ALLY1 MY ?IRD AFFAIRE DU COEUR ?AT W9T] WAS CONNECT$ ) ! LADY ) :OM ,WOLODA WAS 9 LOVE1 & :O US$ OCCASIONALLY TO VISIT AT \R H\SE4 ,YET1 9 ?IS DAMSEL1 AS ,I N[ REMEMB]1 !RE WAS NOT A S+LE BEAUTIFUL FEATURE TO BE F\ND--OR1 AT ALL EV5TS1 NONE ( ?OSE :I* USUALLY PLEAS$ ME4 ,%E WAS ! DAU<T] ( A WELL-KN[N ,MOSC[ LADY ( LI<T & LEAD+1 &1 PETITE & SL5D]1 WORE LONG FLAX5 CURLS AFT] ! ,5GLI% FA%ION1 & C\LD BOA/ ( A TRANSP>5T PR(ILE4 ,EV]Y ONE SAID ?AT %E WAS EV5 CLEV]] & MORE LE>N$ ?AN H] MO!R1 BUT ,I WAS NEV] 9 A POSITION TO JUDGE ( ?AT1 S9CE1 OV]COME ) CRAV5 BA%FULNESS AT ! M]E ?\<T ( H] 9TELLECT & ACCOMPLI%M5TS1 ,I NEV] SPOKE TO H] ALONE BUT ONCE1 & !N ) UNACC\NTABLE TREPIDATION4 ,WOLODA'S 5?USIASM1 H[EV] 7= ! PRES5CE ( AN AUDI5CE NEV] PREV5T$ HIM FROM GIV+ V5T TO HIS RAPTURE71 COMMUNICAT$ ITSELF TO ME SO /RONGLY ?AT ,I ALSO BECAME 5AMOR$ ( ! LADY4 ,YET1 CONSCI\S ?AT HE W\LD NOT BE PLEAS$ TO KN[ ?AT TWO BRO!RS W]E 9 LOVE ) ! SAME GIRL1 ,I NEV] TOLD HIM ( MY CONDITION4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 ,I TOOK SPECIAL DELI<T 9 ! ?\<T ?AT \R MUTUAL LOVE = H] WAS SO PURE ?AT1 ?\< ITS OBJECT WAS1 9 BO? CASES1 ! SAME *>M+ BE+1 WE REMA9$ FRI5DS & READY1 IF EV] ! OCCASION %\LD >ISE1 TO SACRIFICE \RSELVES = ONE ANO!R4 ,YET ,I HAVE AN IDEA ?AT1 AS REG>DS SELF-SACRIFICE1 HE DID NOT QUITE %>E MY VIEWS1 = HE WAS SO PASSIONATELY 9 LOVE ) ! LADY ?AT ONCE HE WAS = GIV+ A MEMB] ( ! DIPLOMATIC CORPS1 :O WAS SAID TO BE GO+ TO M>RY H]1 A SLAP 9 ! FACE & A *ALL5GE TO A DUEL2 BUT1 = MY P>T1 ,I W\LD GLADLY HAVE SACRIFIC$ MY FEEL+S = HIS SAKE1 SEE+ ?AT ! FACT ?AT ! ONLY REM>K ,I HAD EV] ADDRESS$ TO H] HAD BE5 ON ! SUBJECT ( ! DIGNITY ( CLASSICAL MUSIC1 & ?AT MY PASSION1 = ALL MY EF=TS TO KEEP IT ALIVE1 EXPIR$ ! FOLL[+ WEEK1 W\LD HAVE R5D]$ IT ! MORE EASY = ME TO DO SO4 

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