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,NEV]!LESS1 ! FACT ?AT ?AT SUMM] ,I DEVELOP$ A PASSION = MUSIC CAUS$ ME TO BECOME BETT] FRI5DS ) ! LADIES ( \R H\SEHOLD ?AN ,I HAD BE5 = YE>S4 ,9 ! SPR+1 A Y\NG FELL[ CAME TO SEE US1 >M$ ) A LETT] ( 9TRODUCTION1 :O1 AS SOON AS EV] HE 5T]$ ! DRAW+-ROOM1 FIX$ HIS EYES UPON ! PIANO1 & KEPT GRADUALLY $G+ HIS *AIR CLOS] TO IT AS HE TALK$ TO ,MIMI & ,KAT5KA4 ,AFT] DISC\RS+ A:ILE ( ! WEA!R & ! AM5ITIES ( C\NTRY LIFE1 HE SKILLFULLY DIRECT$ ! CONV]SATION TO PIANO-TUN]S1 MUSIC1 & PIANOS G5]ALLY1 & 5D$ BY SAY+ ?AT HE HIMSELF PLAY$--& 9 TRU? HE DID SIT D[N & P]=M ?REE WALTZES1 ) ,MIMI1 ,LUBOT%KA1 & ,KAT5KA GR\P$ AB\T ! 9/RUM5T1 & WAT*+ HIM AS HE DID SO4 ,HE NEV] CAME TO SEE US AGA91 BUT HIS PLAY+1 & HIS ATTITUDE :5 AT ! PIANO1 & ! WAY 9 :I* HE KEPT %AK+ HIS LONG HAIR1 &1 MO/ ( ALL1 ! MANN] 9 :I* HE WAS ABLE TO EXECUTE OCTAVES ) HIS LEFT H& AS HE FIR/ ( ALL PLAY$ !M RAPIDLY ) HIS ?UMB & LITTLE F+]1 & !N SL[LY CLOS$ ?OSE MEMB]S1 & !N PLAY$ ! OCTAVES AFRE%1 MADE A GREAT IMPRESSION UPON ME4 ,?IS GRACEFUL GE/URE ( HIS1 TOGE!R ) HIS EASY POSE & HIS %AK+ ( HAIR & SUCCESSFUL W9N+ ( ! LADIES' APPLAUSE BY HIS TAL5T1 5D$ BY FIR+ ME TO TAKE UP ! PIANO4 ,CONV9C$ ?AT ,I POSSESS$ BO? TAL5T & A PASSION = MUSIC1 ,I SET MYSELF TO LE>N1 &1 9 DO+ SO1 ACT$ JU/ AS MILLIONS ( ! MALE--/ILL MORE1 ( ! FEMALE--SEX HAVE DONE :O TRY TO TEA* !MSELVES )\T A SKILL$ 9/RUCTOR1 )\T ANY REAL TURN = ! >T1 OR )\T ! SMALLE/ UND]/&+ EI!R ( :AT ! >T CAN GIVE OR ( :AT \<T TO BE DONE TO OBTA9 ?AT GIFT4 ,= ME MUSIC 7OR RA!R1 PIANO-PLAY+7 WAS SIMPLY A MEANS ( W9N+ ! LADIES' GOOD GRACES ?R\< !IR S5SIBILITY4 ,) ! HELP ( ,KAT5KA ,I FIR/ LE>N$ ! NOTES 79CID5TALLY BREAK+ SEV]AL ( !M ) MY CLUMSY F+]S71 & !N--?AT IS TO SAY1 AFT] TWO MON?S ( H>D WORK1 SUPPLEM5T$ BY CEASELESS TWIDDL+ ( MY REBELLI\S F+]S ON MY KNEES AFT] LUN*EON1 & ON ! PILL[ :5 9 B$--W5T ON TO 0PIECES10 :I* ,I PLAY$ 7SO ,KAT5KA ASSUR$ ME7 ) 0S\L0 70AVEC AME071 BUT ALTOGE!R REG>DLESS ( TIME4 

,MY RANGE ( PIECES WAS ! USUAL ONE--WALTZES1 GALOPS1 0ROMANCES10 0>RANGEM5TS10 ET CET]A2 ALL ( !M ( ! CLASS ( DELI<TFUL COMPOSITIONS ( :I* ANY ONE ) A LITTLE HEAL?Y TA/E C\LD PO9T \T A SELECTION AMONG ! BETT] CLASS WORKS CONTA9$ 9 ANY VOLUME ( MUSIC & SAY1 0,!SE >E :AT Y\ \<T ,N,O,T TO PLAY1 SEE+ ?AT ANY?+ WORSE1 LESS TA/EFUL1 & MORE SILLY HAS NEV] YET BE5 9CLUD$ 9 ANY COLLECTION ( MUSIC10--BUT :I* 7PROBABLY = ?AT V]Y REASON7 >E TO BE F\ND ON ! PIANO ( EV]Y ,RUSSIAN LADY4 ,TRUE1 WE ALSO POSSESS$ AN UN=TUNATE VOLUME :I* CONTA9$ ,BEE?OV5'S 0,SONATE ,PA!TIQUE0 & ! ,C M9OR ,SONATA 7A VOLUME LAM$ = LIFE BY ! LADIES--MORE ESPECIALLY BY ,LUBOT%KA1 :O US$ TO DISC\RSE MUSIC FROM IT 9 MEMORY ( ,MAMA71 AS WELL AS C]TA9 O!R GOOD PIECES :I* H] TEA*] 9 ,MOSC[ HAD GIV5 H]2 BUT AMONG ?AT COLLECTION !RE W]E LIKEWISE COMPOSITIONS ( ! TEA*]'S [N1 9 ! %APE ( CLUMSY M>*ES & GALOPS--& !SE TOO ,LUBOT%KA US$ TO PLAY6 ,KAT5KA & ,I C>$ NO?+ = S]I\S WORKS1 BUT PREF]R$1 ABOVE ALL ?+S1 0,LE ,F\0 & 0,! ,NI<T+ALE0--! LATT] ( :I* ,KAT5KA W\LD PLAY UNTIL H] F+]S ALMO/ BECAME 9VISIBLE1 & :I* ,I TOO WAS BEG9N+ TO EXECUTE ) MU* VIGOR & SOME CONT9UITY4 ,I HAD ADOPT$ ! GE/URES ( ! Y\NG MAN ( :OM ,I HAVE SPOK51 & FREQU5TLY REGRETT$ ?AT !RE W]E NO /RANG]S PRES5T TO SEE ME PLAY4 ,SOON1 H[EV]1 ,I BEGAN TO REALIZE ?AT ,LISZT & ,KALKBR5N] W]E BEYOND ME1 & ?AT ,I %\LD NEV] OV]TAKE ,KAT5KA4 ,ACCORD+LY1 IMAG9+ ?AT CLASSICAL MUSIC WAS EASI] 7AS WELL AS1 P>TLY1 = ! SAKE ( ORIG9ALITY71 ,I SUDD5LY CAME TO ! CONCLUSION ?AT ,I LOV$ AB/RUSE ,G]MAN MUSIC4 ,I BEGAN TO GO 9TO RAPTURES :5EV] ,LUBOT%KA PLAY$ ! 0,SONATE ,PA!TIQUE10 & AL?\< 7IF ! TRU? BE TOLD7 ?AT WORK HAD = YE>S DRIV5 ME TO ! V]GE ( DI/RACTION1 ,I SET MYSELF TO PLAY ,BEE?OV51 & TO TALK ( HIM AS 0,BEE?OV540 ,YET ?R\< ALL ?IS *OPP+ & *ANG+ & PRET5SE 7AS ,I N[ CONCEIVE7 !RE MAY HAVE RUN 9 ME A C]TA9 VE9 ( TAL5T1 S9CE MUSIC SOMETIMES AFFECT$ ME EV5 TO TE>S1 & ?+S :I* P>TICUL>LY PLEAS$ ME ,I C\LD /RUM ON ! PIANO AFT]W>DS 79 A C]TA9 FA%ION7 )\T ! SCORE2 SO ?AT1 HAD ANY ONE TAU<T ME AT ?AT P]IOD TO LOOK UPON MUSIC AS AN 5D1 A GRACE1 9 ITSELF1 & NOT M]ELY AS A MEANS = PLEAS+ WOM5FOLK ) ! VELOCITY & PSEUDO-S5TIM5T ( ONE'S PLAY+1 ,I MI<T POSSIBLY HAVE BECOME A PASSABLE MUSICIAN4 

,! READ+ ( ,FR5* NOVELS 7( :I* ,WOLODA HAD BR\<T A L>GE /ORE ) HIM FROM ,MOSC[7 WAS ANO!R ( MY AMUSEM5TS ?AT SUMM]4 ,AT ?AT P]IOD ,MONTE ,CRI/O & ,TA9E'S WORKS HAD JU/ APPE>$1 :ILE ,I ALSO REVEL$ 9 /ORIES BY ,SUE1 ,DUMAS1 & ,PAUL DE ,KOCK4 ,EV5 !IR MO/ UNNATURAL P]SONAGES & EV5TS W]E = ME AS REAL AS ACTUALITY1 & NOT ONLY WAS ,I 9CAPABLE ( SUSPECT+ AN AU?OR ( LY+1 BUT1 9 MY EYES1 !RE EXI/$ NO AU?OR AT ALL4 ,?AT IS TO SAY1 ! V>I\S P]SONAGES & EV5TS ( A BOOK P>AD$ !MSELVES BE=E ME ON ! PR9T$ PAGE AS P]SONAGES & EV5TS ?AT W]E ALIVE & REAL2 & AL?\< ,I HAD NEV] 9 MY LIFE MET SU* *>ACT]S AS ,I !RE READ AB\T1 ,I NEV] = A SECOND D\BT$ ?AT ,I %\LD ONE DAY DO SO4 ,I DISCOV]$ 9 MYSELF ALL ! PASSIONS DESCRIB$ 9 EV]Y NOVEL1 AS WELL AS A LIK5ESS TO ALL ! *>ACT]S--H]OES & VILLA9S IMP>TIALLY--:O FIGUR$ !RE91 JU/ AS A SUSPICI\S MAN F9DS 9 HIMSELF ! SIGNS ( EV]Y POSSIBLE DISEASE :5 READ+ A BOOK ON M$IC9E4 ,I TOOK PLEASURE BO? 9 ! CUNN+ DESIGNS1 ! GL[+ S5TIM5TS1 ! TUMULTU\S EV5TS1 & ! *>ACT]-DRAW+ ( !SE WORKS4 ,A GOOD MAN WAS ( ! GOODNESS1 A BAD MAN ( ! BADNESS1 POSSIBLE ONLY TO ! IMAG9ATION ( E>LY Y\?4 ,LIKEWISE ,I F\ND GREAT PLEASURE 9 ! FACT ?AT IT WAS ALL WRITT5 9 ,FR5*1 & ?AT ,I C\LD LAY TO HE>T ! F9E WORDS :I* ! F9E H]OES SPOKE1 & RECALL !M = USE SOME DAY :5 5GAG$ 9 SOME NOBLE DE$4 ,:AT QUANTITIES ( ,FR5* PHRASES ,I CULL$ FROM ?OSE BOOKS = ,KOLPIK(F'S B5EFIT IF ,I %\LD EV] MEET HIM AGA91 AS WELL AS = ,H,],S1 :5 AT L5G? ,I %\LD F9D H] & REVEAL TO H] MY LOVE6 ,= !M BO? ,I PREP>$ SPEE*ES :I* %\LD OV]COME !M AS SOON AS SPOK56 ,UPON NOVELS1 TOO1 ,I F\ND$ NEW IDEALS ( ! MORAL QUALITIES :I* ,I WI%$ TO ATTA94 ,FIR/ ( ALL1 ,I WI%$ TO BE ,N,O,B,L,E 9 ALL MY DE$S & CONDUCT 7,I USE ! ,FR5* WORD NOBLE 9/EAD ( ! ,RUSSIAN WORD BLAGORODNI = ! REASON ?AT ! =M] HAS A DIFF]5T MEAN+ TO ! LATT]--AS ! ,G]MANS WELL UND]/OOD :5 !Y ADOPT$ NOBLE AS NOBEL & DIFF]5TIAT$ IT FROM EHRLI*72 NEXT1 TO BE /R5U\S2 & LA/LY1 TO BE :AT ,I WAS ALREADY 9CL9$ TO BE1 NAMELY1 COMME IL FAUT4 ,I EV5 TRI$ TO APPROXIMATE MY APPE>ANCE & BE>+ TO ?AT ( ! H]OES :O POSSESS$ !SE QUALITIES4 ,9 P>TICUL> ,I REMEMB] H[ 9 ONE ( ! HUNDR$ OR SO NOVELS :I* ,I READ ?AT SUMM] !RE WAS A V]Y /R5U\S H]O ) HEAVY EYEBR[S1 & ?AT ,I SO GREATLY WI%$ TO RESEMBLE HIM 7,I FELT ?AT ,I DID SO ALREADY FROM A MORAL PO9T ( VIEW7 ?AT ONE DAY1 :5 LOOK+ AT MY EYEBR[S 9 ! GLASS1 ,I CONCEIV$ ! IDEA ( CLIPP+ !M1 9 ORD] TO MAKE !M GR[ BU%I]4 ,UN=TUNATELY1 AFT] ,I HAD />T$ TO DO SO1 ,I HAPP5$ TO CLIP ONE SPOT RA!R %ORT] ?AN ! RE/1 & SO HAD TO LEVEL D[N ! RE/ TO IT-) ! RESULT ?AT1 TO MY HORROR1 ,I BEHELD MYSELF EYEBR[-LESS1 & ANY?+ BUT PRES5TABLE4 ,H[EV]1 ,I COM=T$ MYSELF ) ! REFLECTION ?AT MY EYEBR[S W\LD SOON SPR\T AGA9 AS BU%Y AS MY H]O'S1 & WAS ONLY P]PLEX$ TO ?9K H[ ,I C\LD EXPLA9 ! CIRCUM/ANCE TO ! H\SEHOLD :5 !Y NEXT P]CEIV$ MY EYEBR[-LESS CONDITION4 ,ACCORD+LY ,I BORR[$ SOME GUNP[D] FROM ,WOLODA1 RUBB$ IT ON MY TEMPLES1 & SET IT ALI<T4 ,! P[D] DID NOT FIRE PROP]LY1 BUT ,I SUCCE$$ 9 S+E+ MYSELF SUFFICI5TLY TO AV]T ALL SUSPICION ( MY PRANKS4 ,&1 9DE$1 AFT]W>DS1 :5 ,I HAD =GOTT5 ALL AB\T MY H]O1 MY EYEBR[S GREW AGA91 & MU* ?ICK] ?AN !Y HAD BE5 BE=E4 

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