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,DIMITRI 

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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TEXT 3 

,:5 WE RETURN$ TO ! H\SE FROM \R /ROLL1 ,V>5IKA DECL9$ TO S+ AS %E USUALLY DID 9 ! EV5+S1 & ,I WAS CONCEIT$ 5\< TO ATTRIBUTE ?IS TO MY DO+1 9 ! BELIEF ?AT ITS REASON LAY 9 :AT ,I HAD SAID ON ! BRIDGE4 ,! ,NE*LUD(FS NEV] HAD SUPP]1 & W5T TO B$ E>LY1 :ILE TO-NI<T1 S9CE ,DIMITRI HAD ! TOO?A*E 7AS ,SOPHIA ,IVANOVNA HAD =ETOLD71 HE DEP>T$ ) ME TO HIS ROOM EV5 E>LI] ?AN USUAL4 ,FEEL+ ?AT ,I HAD DONE ALL ?AT WAS REQUIR$ ( ME BY MY BLUE COLL> & GILT BUTTONS1 & ?AT EV]Y ONE WAS V]Y PLEAS$ ) ME1 ,I WAS 9 A GRATIFI$1 COMPLAC5T MOOD1 :ILE ,DIMITRI1 ON ! O!R H&1 WAS R5D]$ BY HIS QU>REL ) HIS SI/] & ! TOO?A*E BO? TACITURN & GLOOMY4 ,HE SAT D[N AT ! TABLE1 GOT \T A C\PLE ( NOTEBOOKS--A DI>Y & ! COPY-BOOK 9 :I* IT WAS HIS CU/OM EV]Y EV5+ TO 9SCRIBE ! TASKS P]=M$ BY OR AWAIT+ HIM--&1 CONT9UALLY FR[N+ & T\*+ HIS *EEK ) HIS H&1 CONT9U$ WRIT+ = A :ILE4 

0,OH1 ,D,O LEAVE ME ALONE60 HE CRI$ TO ! MAID :OM ,SOPHIA ,IVANOVNA S5T TO ASK HIM :E!R HIS TEE? W]E /ILL HURT+ HIM1 & :E!R HE W\LD NOT LIKE TO HAVE A P\LTICE MADE4 ,!N1 SAY+ ?AT MY B$ W\LD SOON BE READY = ME & ?AT HE W\LD BE BACK PRES5TLY1 HE DEP>T$ TO ,LUBOV ,S]GIEVNA'S ROOM4 

0,:AT A PITY ?AT ,V>5IKA IS NOT GOOD-LOOK+ &1 9 G5]AL1 ,SONET*KA60 ,I REFLECT$ :5 ,I F\ND MYSELF ALONE4 0,H[ NICE IT W\LD BE IF1 AFT] ,I HAVE LEFT ! ,UNIV]SITY1 ,I C\LD GO TO H] & (F] H] MY H&6 ,I W\LD SAY TO H]1 ',PR9CESS1 ?\< NO LONG] Y\NG1 & !RE=E UNABLE TO LOVE PASSIONATELY1 ,I WILL *]I% Y\ AS A DE> SI/]4 ,& Y\1' ,I W\LD CONT9UE TO H] MO!R1 ',I GREATLY RESPECT2 & Y\1 ,SOPHIA ,IVANOVNA1 ,I VALUE HI<LY4 ,!RE=E SAY TO ME1 ,V>5IKA 7S9CE ,I ASK Y\ TO BE MY WIFE71 JU/ ! SIMPLE & DIRECT WORD ,Y,E,S4' ,& %E W\LD GIVE ME H] H&1 & ,I %\LD PRESS IT1 & SAY1 ',M9E IS A LOVE :I* DEP5DS NOT UPON WORDS1 BUT UPON DE$S4' ,& SUPPOSE10 NEXT CAME 9TO MY HEAD1 0?AT ,DIMITRI %\LD SUDD5LY FALL 9 LOVE ) ,LUBOT%KA 7AS ,LUBOT%KA HAS ALREADY DONE ) HIM71 & %\LD DESIRE TO M>RY H]8 ,!N EI!R ONE OR ! O!R ( US W\LD HAVE TO RESIGN ALL ?\<T ( M>RIAGE4 ,WELL1 IT W\LD BE SPL5DID1 = 9 ?AT CASE ,I %\LD ACT ?US4 ,AS SOON AS ,I HAD NOTIC$ H[ ?+S W]E1 ,I %\LD MAKE NO REM>K1 BUT GO TO ,DIMITRI & SAY1 ',IT IS NO USE1 MY FRI5D1 = Y\ & ,I TO CONCEAL \R FEEL+S FROM ONE ANO!R4 ,Y\ KN[ ?AT MY LOVE = Y\R SI/] WILL T]M9ATE ONLY ) MY LIFE4 ,YET ,I KN[ ALL2 & ?\< Y\ HAVE DEPRIV$ ME ( ALL HOPE1 & HAVE R5D]$ ME AN UNHAPPY MAN1 SO ?AT ,NICOLAS ,IRT5IEFF WILL HAVE TO BEWAIL HIS MIS]Y = ! RE/ ( HIS EXI/5CE1 YET DO Y\ TAKE MY SI/]1' & ,I %\LD LAY HIS H& 9 ,LUBOT%KA'S4 ,!N HE W\LD SAY TO ME1 ',NO1 NOT = ALL ! WORLD6' & ,I %\LD REPLY1 ',PR9CE ,NE*LUD(F1 IT IS 9 VA9 = Y\ TO ATTEMPT TO \TDO ME 9 NOBILITY4 ,NOT 9 ! :OLE WORLD DOES !RE EXI/ A MORE MAGNANIM\S BE+ ?AN ,NICOLAS ,IRT5IEFF4' ,!N ,I %\LD SALUTE HIM & DEP>T4 ,9 TE>S ,DIMITRI & ,LUBOT%KA W\LD PURSUE ME1 & 5TREAT ME TO ACCEPT !IR SACRIFICE1 & ,I %\LD CONS5T TO DO SO1 &1 P]HAPS1 BE HAPPY EV] AFT]W>DS--IF ONLY ,I W]E 9 LOVE ) ,V>5IKA40 ,!SE FANCIES TICKL$ MY IMAG9ATION SO PLEASANTLY ?AT ,I FELT AS ?\< ,I %\LD LIKE TO COMMUNICATE !M TO MY FRI5D2 YET1 DESPITE \R MUTUAL V[ ( FRANKNESS1 ,I ALSO FELT AS ?\< ,I HAD NOT ! PHYSICAL 5]GY TO DO SO4 

,DIMITRI RETURN$ FROM ,LUBOV ,S]GIEVNA'S ROOM ) SOME TOO?A*E CAPSULES :I* %E HAD GIV5 HIM1 YET 9 EV5 GREAT] PA91 & !RE=E 9 EV5 GREAT] DEPRESSION1 ?AN BE=E4 ,EVID5TLY NO B$ROOM HAD YET BE5 PREP>$ = ME1 = PRES5TLY ! BOY :O ACT$ AS ,DIMITRI'S VALET >RIV$ TO ASK HIM :]E ,I WAS TO SLEEP4 

0,OH1 GO TO ! DEVIL60 CRI$ ,DIMITRI1 /AMP+ HIS FOOT4 0,VASIKA1 ,VASIKA1 ,VASIKA60 HE W5T ON1 ! 9/ANT ?AT ! BOY HAD LEFT ! ROOM1 ) A GRADUAL RAIS+ ( HIS VOICE AT EA* REPETITION4 0,VASIKA1 LAY ME \T A B$ ON ! FLOOR40 

0,NO1 LET ,M,E SLEEP ON ! FLOOR10 ,I OBJECT$4 

0,WELL1 IT IS ALL ONE4 ,LIE ANY:]E Y\ LIKE10 CONT9U$ ,DIMITRI 9 ! SAME ANGRY TONE4 0,VASIKA1 :Y DON'T Y\ GO & DO :AT ,I TELL Y\80 

,EVID5TLY ,VASIKA DID NOT UND]/& :AT WAS DEM&$ ( HIM1 = HE REMA9$ :]E HE WAS4 

0,:AT IS ! MATT] ) Y\8 ,GO & LAY ! B$1 ,VASIKA1 ,I TELL Y\60 %\T$ ,DIMITRI1 SUDD5LY BUR/+ 9TO A SORT ( FR5ZY2 YET ,VASIKA /ILL DID NOT UND]/&1 BUT1 BLU%+ HOTLY1 /OOD MOTIONLESS4 

0,SO Y\ >E DET]M9$ TO DRIVE ME MAD1 >E Y\80--& LEAP+ FROM HIS *AIR & RU%+ UPON ! BOY1 ,DIMITRI /RUCK HIM ON ! HEAD ) ! :OLE WEI<T ( HIS FI/1 UNTIL ! BOY RU%$ HEADLONG FROM ! ROOM4 ,HALT+ 9 ! DOORWAY1 ,DIMITRI GLANC$ AT ME1 & ! EXPRESSION ( FURY & PA9 :I* HAD SAT = A MOM5T ON HIS C\NT5ANCE SUDD5LY GAVE PLACE TO SU* A BOYI%1 K9DLY1 AFFECTIONATE1 YET A%AM$1 EXPRESSION ?AT ,I FELT SORRY = HIM1 & RECONSID]$ MY 9T5TION ( LEAV+ HIM TO HIMSELF4 ,HE SAID NO?+1 BUT = A LONG TIME PAC$ ! ROOM 9 SIL5CE1 OCCASIONALLY GLANC+ AT ME ) ! SAME DEPRECATORY EXPRESSION AS BE=E4 ,!N HE TOOK HIS NOTEBOOK FROM ! TABLE1 WROTE SOME?+ 9 IT1 TOOK (F HIS JACKET & FOLD$ IT C>EFULLY1 &1 /EPP+ 9TO ! CORN] :]E ! ICON HUNG1 KNELT D[N & BEGAN TO SAY HIS PRAY]S1 ) HIS L>GE :ITE H&S FOLD$ UPON HIS BREA/4 ,SO LONG DID HE PRAY ?AT ,VASIKA HAD TIME TO BR+ A MATTRESS & SPREAD IT1 UND] MY :ISP]$ DIRECTIONS1 ON ! FLOOR4 ,9DE$1 ,I HAD UNDRESS$ & LAID MYSELF D[N UPON ! MATTRESS BE=E ,DIMITRI HAD F9I%$4 ,AS ,I CONTEMPLAT$ HIS SLI<TLY R\ND$ BACK & ! SOLES ( HIS FEET 7:I* SOMEH[ SEEM$ TO /ICK \T 9 MY DIRECTION 9 A SORT ( REP5TANT FA%ION :5EV] HE MADE HIS OBEISANCES71 ,I FELT ?AT ,I LIK$ HIM MORE ?AN EV]1 & DEBAT$ )9 MYSELF :E!R OR NOT ,I %\LD TELL HIM ALL ,I HAD BE5 FANCY+ CONC]N+ \R RESPECTIVE SI/]S4 ,:5 HE HAD F9I%$ HIS PRAY]S1 HE LAY D[N UPON ! B$ NE> ME1 &1 PROPP+ HIMSELF UPON HIS ELB[1 LOOK$ AT ME 9 SIL5CE1 ) A K9DLY1 YET ABA%$1 EXPRESSION4 ,EVID5TLY HE F\ND IT DIFFICULT TO DO ?IS1 YET MEANT ?US TO PUNI% HIMSELF4 ,!N ,I SMIL$ & RETURN$ HIS GAZE1 & HE SMIL$ BACK AT ME4 

0,:Y DO Y\ NOT TELL ME ?AT MY CONDUCT HAS BE5 ABOM9ABLE80 HE SAID4 0,Y\ HAVE BE5 ?9K+ SO1 HAVE Y\ NOT80 

0,YES10 ,I REPLI$2 & AL?\< IT WAS SOME?+ QUITE DIFF]5T :I* HAD BE5 9 MY M9D1 IT N[ SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ?AT WAS :AT ,I HAD BE5 ?9K+4 0,YES1 IT WAS NOT RI<T ( Y\1 NOR %\LD ,I HAVE EXPECT$ IT ( Y\40 ,IT PLEAS$ ME P>TICUL>LY AT ?AT MOM5T TO CALL HIM BY ! FAMILI> SECOND P]SON S+UL>4 0,BUT H[ >E Y\R TEE? N[80 ,I ADD$4 

0,OH1 MU* BETT]4 ,NICOL9KA1 MY FRI5D10 HE W5T ON1 & SO FEEL+LY ?AT IT S\ND$ AS ?\< TE>S W]E /&+ 9 HIS EYES1 0,I KN[ & FEEL ?AT ,I AM BAD1 BUT ,GOD SEES H[ ,I TRY TO BE BETT]1 & H[ ,I 5TREAT ,HIM TO MAKE ME SO4 ,YET :AT AM ,I TO DO ) SU* AN UN=TUNATE1 HORRIBLE NATURE AS M9E8 ,:AT AM ,I TO DO ) IT8 ,I TRY TO KEEP MYSELF 9 H& & TO RULE MYSELF1 BUT SUDD5LY IT BECOMES IMPOSSIBLE = ME TO DO SO--AT ALL EV5TS1 IMPOSSIBLE = ME TO DO SO UNAID$4 ,I NE$ ! HELP & SUPPORT ( SOME ONE4 ,N[1 !RE IS ,LUBOV ,S]GIEVNA2 ,%,E UND]/&S ME1 & C\LD HELP ME 9 ?IS1 & ,I KN[ BY MY NOTEBOOK ?AT ,I HAVE GREATLY IMPROV$ 9 ?IS RESPECT DUR+ ! PA/ YE>4 ,AH1 MY DE> ,NICOL9KA0--HE SPOKE ) ! MO/ UNUSUAL & UNWONT$ T5D]NESS1 & 9 A TONE :I* HAD GR[N CALM] N[ ?AT HE HAD MADE HIS CONFESSION--0H[ MU* ! 9FLU5CE ( A WOMAN LIKE ,LUBOV C\LD DO = ME6 ,?9K H[ GOOD IT W\LD BE = ME IF ,I C\LD HAVE A FRI5D LIKE H] TO LIVE ) :5 ,I HAVE BECOME 9DEP5D5T6 ,) H] ,I %\LD BE ANO!R MAN40 

,& UPON ?AT ,DIMITRI BEGAN TO UNFOLD TO ME HIS PLANS = M>RIAGE1 = A LIFE 9 ! C\NTRY1 & = CONT9UAL SELF-DISCIPL9E4 

0,YES1 ,I WILL LIVE 9 ! C\NTRY10 HE SAID1 0& Y\ %ALL COME TO SEE ME :5 Y\ HAVE M>RI$ ,SONET*KA4 ,\R *ILDR5 %ALL PLAY TOGE!R4 ,ALL ?IS MAY SEEM TO Y\ /UPID & RIDICUL\S1 YET IT MAY V]Y WELL COME TO PASS40 

0,YES1 IT V]Y WELL MAY0 ,I REPLI$ ) A SMILE1 YET ?9K+ H[ MU* NIC] IT W\LD BE IF ,I M>RI$ HIS SI/]4 

0,I TELL Y\ :AT10 HE W5T ON PRES5TLY2 0Y\ ONLY IMAG9E Y\RSELF TO BE 9 LOVE ) ,SONET*KA1 :]EAS ,I CAN SEE ?AT IT IS ALL RUBBI%1 & ?AT Y\ DO NOT REALLY KN[ :AT LOVE MEANS40 

,I DID NOT PROTE/1 =1 9 TRU?1 ,I ALMO/ AGRE$ ) HIM1 & = A :ILE WE LAY )\T SPEAK+4 

0,PROBABLY Y\ HAVE NOTIC$ ?AT ,I HAVE BE5 9 MY OLD BAD HUMOR TODAY1 & HAVE HAD A NA/Y QU>REL ) ,V>IA80 HE RESUM$4 0,I FELT BAD AB\T IT AFT]W>DS--MORE P>TICUL>LY S9CE IT OCCURR$ 9 Y\R PRES5CE4 ,AL?\< %E ?9KS WRONGLY ON SOME SUBJECTS1 %E IS A SPL5DID GIRL & V]Y GOOD1 AS Y\ WILL SOON RECOGNIZE40 

,HIS QUICK TRANSITION FROM M5TION ( MY LOVE AFFAIRS TO PRAISE ( HIS SI/] PLEAS$ ME EXTREMELY1 & MADE ME BLU%1 BUT ,I NEV]!LESS SAID NO?+ MORE AB\T HIS SI/]1 & WE W5T ON TALK+ ( O!R ?+S4 

,?US WE *ATT]$ UNTIL ! COCKS HAD CR[$ TWICE4 ,9 FACT1 ! PALE DAWN WAS ALREADY LOOK+ 9 AT ! W9D[ :5 AT LA/ ,DIMITRI LAY D[N UPON HIS B$ & PUT \T ! C&LE4 

0,WELL1 N[ = SLEEP10 HE SAID4 

0,YES10 ,I REPLI$1 0BUT--0 

0,BUT :AT80 

0,N[ NICE IT IS TO BE ALIVE 9 ! DAYLI<T60 

0,YES1 IT ,I,S A SPL5DID ?+60 HE REPLI$ 9 A VOICE :I*1 EV5 9 ! D>KNESS1 5ABL$ ME TO SEE ! EXPRESSION ( HIS *E]FUL1 K9DLY EYES & BOYI% SMILE4 

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