,*APT] #bd ,LOVE #ahegaheg ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TEXT 3 ,SOPHIA ,IVANOVNA1 AS ,I AFT]W>DS CAME TO KN[ H]1 WAS ONE ( ?OSE R>E1 Y\NG-OLD WOM5 :O >E BORN = FAMILY LIFE1 BUT TO :OM ?AT HAPP9ESS HAS BE5 D5I$ BY FATE4 ,CONSEQU5TLY ALL ?AT /ORE ( !IR LOVE :I* %\LD HAVE BE5 P\R$ \T UPON A HUSB& & *ILDR5 BECOMES P5T UP 9 !IR HE>TS1 UNTIL !Y SUDD5LY DECIDE TO LET IT OV]FL[ UPON A FEW *OS5 9DIVIDUALS4 ,YET SO 9EXHAU/IBLE IS ?AT /ORE ( OLD MAIDS' LOVE ?AT1 DESPITE ! NUMB] ( 9DIVIDUALS SO SELECT$1 !RE /ILL REMA9S AN ABUNDANT SURPLUS ( AFFECTION :I* !Y LAVI% UPON ALL BY :OM !Y >E SURR\ND$--UPON ALL1 GOOD OR BAD1 :OM !Y MAY *ANCE TO MEET 9 !IR DAILY LIFE4 ,( LOVE !RE >E ?REE K9DS--LOVE ( BEAUTY1 ! LOVE :I* D5IES ITSELF1 & PRACTICAL LOVE4 ,( ! DESIRE ( A Y\NG MAN = A Y\NG WOMAN1 AS WELL AS ( ! REV]SE 9/ANCE1 ,I AM NOT N[ SPEAK+1 = ( SU* T5DRESSES ,I AM W>Y1 SEE+ ?AT ,I HAVE BE5 TOO UNHAPPY 9 MY LIFE TO HAVE BE5 ABLE EV] TO SEE 9 SU* AFFECTION A S+LE SP>K ( TRU?1 BUT RA!R A LY+ PRET5SE 9 :I* S5SUALITY1 CONNUBIAL RELATIONS1 MONEY1 & ! WI% TO B9D H&S OR TO UNLOOSE !M HAVE R5D]$ FEEL+ SU* A COMPLEX AFFAIR AS TO DEFY ANALYSIS4 ,RA!R AM ,I SPEAK+ ( ?AT LOVE = A HUMAN BE+ :I*1 ACCORD+ TO ! SPIRITUAL /R5G? ( ITS POSSESSOR1 CONC5TRATES ITSELF EI!R UPON A S+LE 9DIVIDUAL1 UPON A FEW1 OR UPON MANY--( LOVE = A MO!R1 A FA!R1 A BRO!R1 LITTLE *ILDR51 A FRI5D1 A COMPATRIOT--( LOVE1 9 %ORT1 = ONE'S NEI AS IT >\SES 9 !M ?AT PLEASURABLE S5SATION ( :I* ! CONSCI\SNESS & ! EXPRESSION SOO!S ! S5SES4 ,!Y *ANGE ! OBJECT ( !IR LOVE FREQU5TLY1 S9CE !IR PR9CIPAL AIM CONSI/S 9 5SUR+ ?AT ! VOLUPTU\S FEEL+ ( !IR ADORATION %ALL BE CON/ANTLY TITILLAT$4 ,TO PRES]VE 9 !MSELVES ?IS S5SU\S CONDITION1 !Y TALK UNCEAS+LY1 & 9 ! MO/ ELEGANT T]MS1 ON ! SUBJECT ( ! LOVE :I* !Y FEEL1 NOT ONLY = ITS IMM$IATE OBJECT1 BUT ALSO = OBJECTS UPON :I* IT DOES NOT T\* AT ALL4 ,?IS C\NTRY ( \RS CONTA9S MANY SU* 9DIVIDUALS--9DIVIDUALS ( ?AT WELL-KN[N CLASS :O1 CULTIVAT+ 0! BEAUTIFUL10 NOT ONLY DISC\RSE ( !IR CULT TO ALL & SUNDRY1 BUT SPEAK ( IT PREEM95TLY 9 ,F,R,5,*4 ,IT MAY SEEM A /RANGE & RIDICUL\S ?+ TO SAY1 BUT ,I AM CONV9C$ ?AT AMONG US WE HAVE HAD 9 ! PA/1 & /ILL HAVE1 A L>GE SECTION ( SOCIETY--NOTABLY WOM5--:OSE LOVE = !IR FRI5DS1 HUSB&S1 OR *ILDR5 W\LD EXPIRE TOMORR[ IF !Y W]E DEB>R$ FROM DILAT+ UPON IT 9 ! TONGUE ( ,FRANCE6 ,LOVE ( ! SECOND K9D--R5UNCIATORY LOVE--CONSI/S 9 A YE>N+ TO UND]GO SELF-SACRIFICE = ! OBJECT BELOV$1 REG>DLESS ( ANY CONSID]ATION :E!R SU* SELF-SACRIFICE WILL B5EFIT OR 9JURE ! OBJECT 9 QUE/ION4 0,!RE IS NO EVIL :I* ,I W\LD NOT 5DURE TO %[ BO? ! WORLD & HIM OR H] :OM ,I ADORE MY DEVOTION40 ,!RE WE HAVE ! =MULA ( ?IS K9D ( LOVE4 ,PEOPLE :O ?US LOVE NEV] LOOK = RECIPROCITY ( AFFECTION1 S9CE IT IS A F9] ?+ TO SACRIFICE Y\RSELF = ONE :O DOES NOT COMPREH5D Y\4 ,ALSO1 !Y >E ALWAYS PA9FULLY EAG] TO EXAGG]ATE ! M]ITS ( !IR SACRIFICE2 USUALLY CON/ANT 9 !IR LOVE1 = ! REASON ?AT !Y W\LD F9D IT H>D TO =EGO ! KUDOS ( ! DEPRIVATIONS :I* !Y 5DURE = ! OBJECT BELOV$2 ALWAYS READY TO DIE1 TO PROVE TO HIM OR TO H] ! 5TIRETY ( !IR DEVOTION2 BUT SP>+ ( SU* SMALL DAILY PRO(S ( !IR LOVE AS CALL = NO SPECIAL EF=T ( SELF-IMMOLATION4 ,!Y DO NOT MU* C>E :E!R Y\ EAT WELL1 SLEEP WELL1 KEEP Y\R SPIRITS UP1 OR 5JOY GOOD HEAL?1 NOR DO !Y EV] DO ANY?+ TO OBTA9 = Y\ ?OSE BLESS+S IF !Y HAVE IT 9 !IR P[]2 BUT1 %\LD Y\ BE CONFRONT+ A BULLET1 OR HAVE FALL5 9TO ! WAT]1 OR /& 9 DANG] ( BE+ BURNT1 OR HAVE HAD Y\R HE>T BROK5 9 A LOVE AFFAIR--WELL1 = ALL !SE ?+S !Y >E PREP>$ IF ! OCCASION %\LD >ISE4 ,MOREOV]1 PEOPLE ADDICT$ TO LOVE ( SU* A SELF-SACRIFIC+ ORD] >E 9V>IABLY PR\D ( !IR LOVE1 EXACT+1 JEAL\S1 DI/RU/FUL1 &--/RANGE TO TELL--ANXI\S ?AT ! OBJECT ( !IR ADORATION %\LD 9CUR P]ILS 7SO ?AT !Y MAY SAVE IT FROM CALAMITY1 & CONSOLE IT !REAFT]7 & EV5 BE VICI\S 7SO ?AT !Y MAY PURGE IT ( ITS VICE74 ,SUPPOSE1 N[1 ?AT Y\ >E LIV+ 9 ! C\NTRY ) A WIFE :O LOVES Y\ 9 ?IS SELF-SACRIFIC+ MANN]4 ,Y\ MAY BE HEAL?Y & CONT5T$1 & HAVE OCCUPATIONS :I* 9T]E/ Y\1 :ILE1 ON ! O!R H&1 Y\R WIFE MAY BE TOO WEAK TO SUP]9T5D ! H\SEHOLD WORK 7:I*1 9 CONSEQU5CE1 WILL BE LEFT TO ! S]VANTS71 OR TO LOOK AFT] ! *ILDR5 7:O1 9 CONSEQU5CE1 WILL BE LEFT TO ! NURSES71 OR TO PUT H] HE>T 9TO ANY WORK :ATSOEV]3 & ALL BECAUSE %E LOVES NOBODY & NO?+ BUT Y\RSELF4 ,%E MAY BE PAT5TLY ILL1 YET %E WILL SAY NOT A WORD TO Y\ AB\T IT1 = FE> ( DI/RESS+ Y\4 ,%E MAY BE PAT5TLY 5NUYEE1 YET = Y\R SAKE %E WILL BE PREP>$ TO BE SO = ! RE/ ( H] LIFE4 ,%E MAY BE PAT5TLY DEPRESS$ BECAUSE Y\ /ICK SO P]SI/5TLY TO Y\R OCCUPATIONS 7:E!R SPORT1 BOOKS1 F>M+1 /ATE S]VICE1 OR ANY?+ ELSE7 & SEE CLE>LY ?AT !Y >E DO+ Y\ H>M2 YET1 = ALL ?AT1 %E WILL KEEP SIL5CE1 & SUFF] IT TO BE SO4 ,YET1 %\LD Y\ BUT FALL SICK--&1 DESPITE H] [N AILM5TS & Y\R PRAY]S ?AT %E WILL NOT DI/RESS H]SELF 9 VA91 Y\R LOV+ WIFE WILL REMA9 SITT+ 9SEP>ABLY BY Y\R B$SIDE4 ,EV]Y MOM5T Y\ WILL FEEL H] SYMPA!TIC GAZE RE/+ UPON Y\ &1 AS IT W]E1 SAY+3 0,!RE6 ,I TOLD Y\ SO1 BUT IT IS ALL ONE TO ME1 & ,I %ALL NOT LEAVE Y\40 ,9 ! MORN+ Y\ MAYBE A LITTLE BETT]1 & MOVE 9TO ANO!R ROOM4 ,! ROOM1 H[EV]1 WILL BE 9SUFFICI5TLY W>M$ OR SET 9 ORD]2 ! S\P :I* ALONE Y\ FEEL Y\ C\LD EAT WILL NOT HAVE BE5 COOK$2 NOR WILL ANY M$IC9E HAVE BE5 S5T =4 ,YET1 ?\< WORN \T ) NID Y\ ) AN EXPRESSION ( SYMPA?Y1 TO WALK AB\T ON TIPTOE1 & TO :ISP] UNACCU/OM$ & OBSCURE ORD]S TO ! S]VANTS4 ,Y\ MAY WI% TO BE READ TO--& Y\R LOV+ WIFE WILL TELL Y\ ) A SI< ?AT %E FEELS SURE Y\ WILL BE UNABLE TO HE> H] READ+1 & ONLY GR[ ANGRY AT H] AWKW>DNESS 9 DO+ IT2 :]E=E Y\ HAD BETT] NOT BE READ TO AT ALL4 ,Y\ MAY WI% TO WALK AB\T ! ROOM--& %E WILL TELL Y\ ?AT IT W\LD BE F> BETT] = Y\ NOT TO DO SO4 ,Y\ MAY WI% TO TALK ) SOME FRI5DS :O HAVE CALL$--& %E WILL TELL Y\ ?AT TALK+ IS NOT GOOD = Y\4 ,AT NIS1 & TO :OM Y\ >E ATTA*$1 & :O W\LD T5D Y\ WELL & TO Y\R SATISFACTION DUR+ ! NIY = HIS S]VICES2 YET Y\R WIFE WILL NOT SUFF] HIM TO WAIT UPON Y\4 ,NO2 EV]Y?+ %E MU/ DO H]SELF ) H] WEAK1 UNACCU/OM$ F+]S 7( :I* Y\ FOLL[ ! MOVEM5TS ) SUPPRESS$ IRRITATION AS ?OSE PALE MEMB]S DO !IR BE/ TO UNCORK A M$IC9E BOTTLE1 TO SNUFF A C&LE1 TO P\R \T PHYSIC1 OR TO T\* Y\ 9 A SQUEAMI% SORT ( WAY74 ,IF Y\ >E AN IMPATI5T1 HA/Y SORT ( MAN1 & BEG ( H] TO LEAVE ! ROOM1 Y\ WILL HE> BY ! VEX$1 DI/RESS$ S\NDS :I* COME FROM H] ?AT %E IS HUMBLY SOBB+ & WEEP+ BEH9D ! DOOR1 & :ISP]+ FOOLI%NESS ( SOME K9D TO ! S]VANT4 ,F9ALLY IF Y\ DO NOT DIE1 Y\R LOV+ WIFE--:O HAS NOT SLEPT DUR+ ! :OLE ?REE WEEKS ( Y\R ILLNESS 7A FACT ( :I* %E WILL CON/ANTLY REM9D Y\7--WILL FALL ILL 9 H] TURN1 WA/E AWAY1 SUFF] MU*1 & BECOME EV5 MORE 9CAPABLE ( ANY USEFUL PURSUIT ?AN %E WAS BE=E2 :ILE BY ! TIME ?AT Y\ HAVE REGA9$ Y\R NORMAL /ATE ( HEAL? %E WILL EXPRESS TO Y\ H] SELF-SACRIFIC+ AFFECTION ONLY BY %$D+ >\ND Y\ A K9D ( B5IGNANT DULLNESS :I* 9VOLUNT>ILY COMMUNICATES ITSELF BO? TO Y\RSELF & TO EV]Y ONE ELSE 9 Y\R VIC9ITY4 ,! ?IRD K9D ( LOVE--PRACTICAL LOVE--CONSI/S ( A YE>N+ TO SATISFY EV]Y NE$1 EV]Y DESIRE1 EV]Y CAPRICE1 NAY1 EV]Y VICE1 ( ! BE+ BELOV$4 ,PEOPLE :O LOVE ?US ALWAYS LOVE !IR LIFE LONG1 S9CE1 ! MORE !Y LOVE1 ! MORE !Y GET TO KN[ ! OBJECT BELOV$1 & ! EASI] !Y F9D ! TASK ( LOV+ IT--?AT IS TO SAY1 ( SATISFY+ ITS DESIRES4 ,!IR LOVE SELDOM F9DS EXPRESSION 9 WORDS1 BUT IF IT DOES SO1 IT EXPRESSES ITSELF NEI!R ) ASSURANCE NOR BEAUTY1 BUT RA!R 9 A %AMEFAC$1 AWKW>D MANN]1 S9CE PEOPLE ( ?IS K9D 9V>IABLY HAVE MISGIV+S ?AT !Y >E LOV+ UNWOR?ILY4 ,PEOPLE ( ?IS K9D LOVE EV5 ! FAULTS ( !IR ADOR$ ONE1 = ! REASON ?AT ?OSE FAULTS AF=D !M ! P[] ( CON/ANTLY SATISFY+ NEW DESIRES4 ,!Y LOOK = !IR AFFECTION TO BE RETURN$1 & EV5 DECEIVE !MSELVES 9TO BELIEV+ ?AT IT IS RETURN$1 & >E HAPPY ACCORD+LY3 YET 9 ! REV]SE CASE !Y WILL /ILL CONT9UE TO DESIRE HAPP9ESS = !IR BELOV$ ONE1 & TRY BY EV]Y MEANS 9 !IR P[]--:E!R MORAL OR MAT]IAL1 GREAT OR SMALL--TO PROVIDE IT4 ,SU* PRACTICAL LOVE IT WAS--LOVE = H] NEPHEW1 = H] NIECE1 = H] SI/]1 = ,LUBOV ,S]GIEVNA1 & EV5 = MYSELF1 BECAUSE ,I LOV$ ,DIMITRI--?AT %ONE 9 ! EYES1 AS WELL AS 9 ! EV]Y WORD & MOVEM5T1 ( ,SOPHIA ,IVANOVNA4 ,ONLY LONG AFT]W>DS DID ,I LE>N TO VALUE H] AT H] TRUE WOR?4 ,YET EV5 N[ ! QUE/ION OCCURR$ TO ME3 0,:AT HAS MADE ,DIMITRI--:O ?R\<\T HAS TRI$ TO UND]/& LOVE DIFF]5TLY TO O!R Y\NG FELL[S1 & HAS ALWAYS HAD BE=E HIS EYES ! G5TLE1 LOV+ ,SOPHIA ,IVANOVNA--SUDD5LY FALL SO DEEPLY 9 LOVE ) ! 9COMPREH5SIBLE ,LUBOV ,S]GIEVNA1 & DECL>E ?AT 9 HIS AUNT HE CAN ONLY F9D GOOD ,Q,U,A,L,I,T,I,E,S8 ,V]ILY IT IS A TRUE SAY+ ?AT 'A PROPHET HA? NO HONOR 9 HIS [N C\NTRY4' ,ONE ( TWO ?+S3 EI!R EV]Y MAN HAS 9 HIM MORE ( BAD ?AN ( GOOD1 OR EV]Y MAN IS MORE RECEPTIVE TO BAD ?AN TO GOOD4 ,LUBOV ,S]GIEVNA HE HAS NOT KN[N = LONG1 :]EAS HIS AUNT'S LOVE HE HAS KN[N S9CE ! DAY ( HIS BIR?40 ,FROM 3 ,GUT5B]G4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,NOVEMB] #c1 #ahef 3 ,*APT] #bd -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,JUNE #d1 #bba 3 ,*APT] #bd -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/