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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

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,?IS FEEL+ ( COMPASSION = PEOPLE1 & ( DISGU/ ) MYSELF1 :I* ,I HAD EXP]I5C$ 9 ! ,LYAP9SKY H\SE1 ,I EXP]I5C$ NO LONG]4  ,I WAS COMPLETELY ABSORB$ 9 ! DESIRE TO C>RY \T ! S*EME :I* ,I HAD CONCOCT$1--TO DO GOOD TO ?OSE PEOPLE :OM ,I %\LD MEET H]E4  ,&1 /RANGE TO SAY1 IT W\LD APPE>1 ?AT1 TO DO GOOD--TO GIVE MONEY TO ! NE$Y--IS A V]Y GOOD DE$1 & ONE ?AT %\LD DISPOSE ME TO LOVE = ! PEOPLE1 BUT IT TURN$ \T ! REV]SE3 ?IS ACT PRODUC$ 9 ME ILL-WILL & AN 9CL9ATION TO CONDEMN PEOPLE4  ,BUT DUR+ \R FIR/ EV5+ T\R1 A SC5E OCCURR$ EXACTLY LIKE ?AT 9 ! ,LYAP9SKY H\SE1 & IT CALL$ =? A :OLLY DIFF]5T S5TIM5T4 

,IT BEGAN BY MY F9D+ 9 ONE SET ( AP>TM5TS AN UN=TUNATE 9DIVIDUAL1 ( PRECISELY ! SORT :O REQUIRE IMM$IATE AID4  ,I F\ND A HUNGRY WOMAN :O HAD HAD NO?+ TO EAT = TWO DAYS4 

,IT CAME AB\T ?US3 9 ONE V]Y L>GE & ALMO/ EMPTY NI<T-LODG+1 ,I ASK$ AN OLD WOMAN :E!R !RE W]E MANY POOR PEOPLE :O HAD NO?+ TO EAT8  ,! OLD WOMAN REFLECT$1 & !N TOLD ME ( TWO2 & !N1 AS ?\< %E HAD JU/ RECOLLECT$1 0,:Y1 H]E IS ONE ( !M10 SAID %E1 GLANC+ AT ONE ( ! OCCUPI$ BUNKS4  0,I ?9K ?AT WOMAN HAS HAD NO FOOD40 

0,REALLY8  ,:O IS %E80 

0,%E WAS A DISSOLUTE WOMAN3 NO ONE WANTS ANY ?+ TO DO ) H] N[1 SO %E HAS NO WAY ( GETT+ ANY ?+4  ,! L&LADY HAS HAD COMPASSION ON H]1 BUT N[ %E MEANS TO TURN H] \T 4 4 4 ,AGAFYA1 HEY !RE1 ,AGAFYA60 CRI$ ! WOMAN4 

,WE APPROA*$1 & SOME?+ ROSE UP 9 ! BUNK4  ,IT WAS A WOMAN HAGG>D & DI%EVEL$1 :OSE HAIR WAS HALF GRAY1 & :O WAS AS ?9 AS A SKELETON1 DRESS$ 9 A RAGG$ & DIRTY *EMISE1 & ) P>TICUL>LY BRILLIANT & />+ EYES4  ,%E LOOK$ PA/ US ) H] />+ EYES1 CLUT*$ AT H] JACKET ) ONE ?9 H&1 9 ORD] TO COV] H] BONY BREA/ :I* WAS DISCLOS$ BY H] TATT]$ *EMISE1 & OPPRESS$1 %E CRI$1 0,:AT IS IT8 :AT IS IT80  ,I ASK$ H] AB\T H] MEANS ( LIVELIHOOD4  ,= A LONG TIME %E DID NOT UND]/&1 & SAID1 0,I DON'T KN[ MYSELF2 !Y P]SECUTE ME40  ,I ASK$ H]1--IT PUTS ME TO %AME1 MY H& REFUSES TO WRITE IT1--,I ASK$ H] :E!R IT WAS TRUE ?AT %E HAD NO?+ TO EAT8  ,%E ANSW]$ 9 ! SAME HURRI$1 FEV]I% TONE1 />+ AT ME ! :ILE1--0,NO1 ,I HAD NO?+ YE/]DAY1 & ,I HAVE HAD NO?+ TO-DAY40 

,! SI<T ( ?IS WOMAN T\*$ ME1 BUT NOT AT ALL AS HAD BE5 ! CASE 9 ! ,LYAP9SKY H\SE2 !RE1 MY PITY = !SE PEOPLE MADE ME 9/ANTLY FEEL A%AM$ ( MYSELF3 BUT H]E1 ,I REJOIC$ BECAUSE ,I HAD AT LA/ F\ND :AT ,I HAD BE5 SEEK+1--A HUNGRY P]SON4 

,I GAVE H] A RUBLE1 & ,I RECOLLECT BE+ V]Y GLAD ?AT O!RS SAW IT4  ,! OLD WOMAN1 ON SEE+ ?IS1 IMM$IATELY BEGG$ MONEY ( ME ALSO4  ,IT AF=D$ ME SU* PLEASURE TO GIVE1 ?AT1 )\T F9D+ \T :E!R IT WAS NECESS>Y TO GIVE OR NOT1 ,I GAVE SOME?+ TO ! OLD WOMAN TOO4  ,! OLD WOMAN ACCOMPANI$ ME TO ! DOOR1 & ! PEOPLE /&+ 9 ! CORRIDOR HE>D H] BLESS+ ME4  ,PROBABLY ! QUE/IONS :I* ,I HAD PUT ) REG>D TO POV]TY1 HAD >\S$ EXPECTATION1 & SEV]AL P]SONS FOLL[$ US4  ,9 ! CORRIDOR ALSO1 !Y BEGAN TO ASK ME = MONEY4  ,AMONG ?OSE :O BEGG$ W]E SOME DRUNK5 M51 :O >\S$ AN UNPLEASANT FEEL+ 9 ME2 BUT1 HAV+ ONCE GIV5 TO ! OLD WOMAN1 ,I HAD NO MI<T TO REFUSE !SE PEOPLE1 & ,I BEGAN TO GIVE4  ,AS LONG AS ,I CONT9U$ TO GIVE1 PEOPLE KEPT COM+ UP2 & EXCITEM5T RAN ?R\< ALL ! LODG+S4  ,PEOPLE MADE !M APPE>ANCE ON ! /AIRS & GALL]IES1 & FOLL[$ ME4  ,AS ,I EM]G$ 9TO ! C\RT-Y>D1 A LITTLE BOY RAN SWIFTLY D[N ONE ( ! /AIRCASES ?RU/+ ! PEOPLE ASIDE4  ,HE DID NOT SEE ME1 & EXCLAIM$ HA/ILY3 0,HE GAVE ,AGA%KA A RUBLE60  ,:5 HE REA*$ ! GR\ND1 ! BOY JO9$ ! CR[D :I* WAS FOLL[+ ME4  ,I W5T \T 9TO ! /REET3 V>I\S DESCRIPTIONS ( PEOPLE FOLL[$ ME1 & ASK$ = MONEY4  ,I DI/RIBUT$ ALL MY SMALL *ANGE1 & 5T]$ AN OP5 %OP ) ! REQUE/ ?AT ! %OPKEEP] W\LD *ANGE A T5-RUBLE BILL = ME4  ,& !N ! SAME ?+ HAPP5$ AS AT ! ,LYAP9SKY H\SE4  ,A T]RIBLE CONFUSION 5SU$4  ,OLD WOM51 NOBLEM51 PEASANTS1 & *ILDR5 CR[D$ 9TO ! %OP ) \T/RET*$ H&S2 ,I GAVE1 & 9T]ROGAT$ SOME ( !M AS TO !IR LIVES1 & TOOK NOTES4  ,! %OPKEEP]1 TURN+ UP ! FURR$ PO9TS ( ! COLL> ( HIS COAT1 SAT LIKE A /UFF$ CREATURE1 GLANC+ AT ! CR[D OCCASIONALLY1 & !N FIX+ HIS EYES BEYOND !M AGA94  ,HE EVID5TLY1 LIKE EV]Y ONE ELSE1 FELT ?AT ?IS WAS FOOLI%1 BUT HE C\LD NOT SAY SO4 

,! POV]TY & BEGG>Y 9 ! ,LYAP9SKY H\SE HAD HORRIFI$ ME1 & ,I FELT MYSELF GUILTY ( IT2 ,I FELT ! DESIRE & ! POSSIBILITY ( IMPROVEM5T4  ,BUT N[1 PRECISELY ! SAME SC5E PRODUC$ ON ME AN 5TIRELY DIFF]5T EFFECT2 ,I EXP]I5C$1 9 ! FIR/ PLACE1 A MALEVOL5T FEEL+ T[>DS MANY ( ?OSE :O W]E BESIEG+ ME2 & 9 ! SECOND PLACE1 UNEAS9ESS AS TO :AT ! %OPKEEP]S & PORT]S W\LD ?9K ( ME4 

,ON MY RETURN HOME ?AT DAY1 ,I WAS TR\BL$ 9 MY S\L4  ,I FELT ?AT :AT ,I HAD DONE WAS FOOLI% & IMMORAL4  ,BUT1 AS IS ALWAYS ! RESULT ( 9W>D CONFUSION1 ,I TALK$ A GREAT DEAL AB\T ! PLAN :I* ,I HAD UND]TAK51 AS ?\< ,I 5T]TA9$ NOT ! SLI<TE/ D\BT ( MY SUCCESS4 

,ON ! FOLL[+ DAY1 ,I W5T TO SU* ( ! PEOPLE :OM ,I HAD 9SCRIB$ ON MY LI/1 AS SEEM$ TO ME ! MO/ WRET*$ ( ALL1 & ?OSE :O1 AS IT SEEM$ TO ME1 W\LD BE ! EASIE/ TO HELP4  ,AS ,I HAVE ALREADY SAID1 ,I DID NOT HELP ANY ( !SE PEOPLE4  ,IT PROV$ TO BE MORE DIFFICULT TO HELP !M ?AN ,I HAD ?\<T4  ,& EI!R BECAUSE ,I DID NOT KN[ H[1 OR BECAUSE IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE1 ,I M]ELY IMITAT$ !SE PEOPLE1 & DID NOT HELP ANY ONE4  ,I VISIT$ ! ,RZHAN(F H\SE SEV]AL TIMES BE=E ! F9AL T\R1 & ON EV]Y OCCASION ! V]Y SAME ?+ OCCURR$3 ,I WAS BESET BY A ?RONG ( BEGG>S 9 :OSE MASS ,I WAS COMPLETELY LO/4  ,I FELT ! IMPOSSIBILITY ( DO+ ANY ?+1 BECAUSE !RE W]E TOO MANY ( !M1 & BECAUSE ,I FELT ILL-DISPOS$ T[>DS !M BECAUSE !RE W]E SO MANY ( !M2 & 9 ADDITION TO ?IS1 EA* ONE SEP>ATELY DID NOT 9CL9E ME 9 HIS FAVOR4  ,I WAS CONSCI\S ?AT EV]Y ONE ( !M WAS TELL+ ME AN UNTRU?1 OR LESS ?AN ! :OLE TRU?1 & ?AT HE SAW 9 ME M]ELY A PURSE FROM :I* MONEY MI<T BE DRAWN4  ,& IT V]Y FREQU5TLY SEEM$ TO ME1 ?AT ! V]Y MONEY :I* !Y SQUEEZ$ \T ( ME1 R5D]$ !IR CONDITION WORSE 9/EAD ( IMPROV+ IT4  ,! (T5] ,I W5T TO ?AT H\SE1 ! MORE ,I 5T]$ 9TO 9T]C\RSE ) ! PEOPLE !RE1 ! MORE APP>5T BECAME TO ME ! IMPOSSIBILITY ( DO+ ANY ?+2 BUT /ILL ,I DID NOT GIVE UP ANY S*EME UNTIL ! LA/ NI<T T\R4 

,! REMEMBRANCE ( ?AT LA/ T\R IS P>TICUL>LY MORTIFY+ TO ME4  ,ON O!R OCCASIONS ,I HAD GONE ?I!R ALONE1 BUT TW5TY ( US W5T !RE ON ?IS OCCASION4  ,AT SEV5 O'CLOCK1 ALL :O WI%$ TO TAKE P>T 9 ?IS F9AL NI<T R\ND1 BEGAN TO ASSEMBLE AT MY H\SE4  ,NE>LY ALL ( !M W]E /RANG]S TO ME1--/UD5TS1 ONE (FIC]1 & TWO ( MY SOCIETY ACQUA9TANCES1 :O1 UTT]+ ! USUAL1 0,C'E/ TRES 9T]ESSANT60 HAD ASK$ ME TO 9CLUDE !M 9 ! NUMB] ( ! C5SUS-TAK]S4 

,MY WORLDLY ACQUA9TANCES HAD DRESS$ UP ESPECIALLY = ?IS1 9 SOME SORT ( HUNT+-JACKET1 & TALL1 TRAVEL+ BOOTS1 9 A CO/UME 9 :I* !Y RODE & W5T HUNT+1 & :I*1 9 !IR OP9ION1 WAS APPROPRIATE = AN EXCURSION TO A NI<T-LODG+-H\SE4  ,!Y TOOK ) !M SPECIAL NOTE-BOOKS & REM>KABLE P5CILS4  ,!Y W]E 9 ?AT PECULI>LY EXCIT$ /ATE ( M9D 9 :I* M5 SET (F ON A HUNT1 TO A DUEL1 OR TO ! W>S4  ,! MO/ APP>5T ?+ AB\T !M WAS !IR FOLLY & ! FALS5ESS ( \R POSITION1 BUT ALL ! RE/ ( US W]E 9 ! SAME FALSE POSITION4  ,BE=E WE SET \T1 WE HELD A CONSULTATION1 AFT] ! FA%ION ( A C\NCIL ( W>1 AS TO H[ WE %\LD BEG91 H[ DIVIDE \R P>TY1 & SO ON4 

,?IS CONSULTATION WAS EXACTLY SU* AS TAKES PLACE 9 C\NCILS1 ASSEMBLAGES1 COMMITTEES2 ?AT IS TO SAY1 EA* P]SON SPOKE1 NOT BECAUSE HE HAD ANY ?+ TO SAY OR TO ASK1 BUT BECAUSE EA* ONE CUDGEL$ HIS BRA9 = SOME?+ ?AT HE C\LD SAY1 SO ?AT HE MI<T NOT FALL %ORT ( ! RE/4  ,BUT1 AMONG ALL !SE DISCUSSIONS1 NO ONE ALLUD$ TO ?AT B5EFIC5CE ( :I* ,I HAD SO (T5 SPOK5 TO !M ALL4  ,MORTIFY+ AS ?IS WAS TO ME1 ,I FELT ?AT IT WAS 9DISP5SABLE ?AT ,I %\LD ONCE MORE REM9D !M ( B5EVOL5CE1 ?AT IS1 ( ! PO9T1 ?AT WE W]E TO OBS]VE & TAKE NOTES ( ALL ?OSE 9 DE/ITUTE CIRCUM/ANCES :OM WE %\LD 5C\NT] 9 ! C\RSE ( \R R\NDS4  ,I HAD ALWAYS FELT A%AM$ TO SPEAK ( ?IS2 BUT N[1 9 ! MID/ ( ALL \R EXCIT$ PREP>ATIONS = \R EXP$ITION1 ,I C\LD H>DLY UTT] ! WORDS4  ,ALL LI/5$ TO ME1 AS IT SEEM$ TO ME1 ) SORR[1 &1 AT ! SAME TIME1 ALL AGRE$ 9 WORDS2 BUT IT WAS EVID5T ?AT !Y ALL KNEW ?AT IT WAS FOLLY1 & ?AT NO?+ W\LD COME ( IT1 & ALL IMM$IATELY BEGAN AGA9 TO TALK AB\T SOME?+ ELSE4  ,?IS W5T ON UNTIL ! TIME >RIV$ = US TO SET \T1 & WE />T$4 

,WE REA*$ ! TAV]N1 R\S$ ! WAIT]S1 & BEGAN TO SORT \R PAP]S4  ,:5 WE W]E 9=M$ ?AT ! PEOPLE HAD HE>D AB\T ?IS R\ND1 & W]E LEAV+ !IR QU>T]S1 WE ASK$ ! L&LORD TO LOCK ! GATES2 & WE W5T \RSELVES 9TO ! Y>D TO REASON ) ! FLEE+ PEOPLE1 ASSUR+ !M ?AT NO ONE W\LD DEM& !IR TICKETS4  ,I REMEMB] ! /RANGE & PA9FUL IMPRESSION PRODUC$ ON ME BY !SE AL>M$ NI<T-LODG]S3 RAGG$1 HALF-DRESS$1 !Y ALL SEEM$ TALL TO ME BY ! LI<T ( ! LANT]N & ! GLOOM ( ! C\RT-Y>D4  ,FRI<T5$ & T]RIFY+ 9 !IR AL>M1 !Y /OOD 9 A GR\P >\ND ! F\L-SMELL+ \T-H\SE1 & LI/5$ TO \R ASSURANCES1 BUT !Y DID NOT BELIEVE US1 & W]E EVID5TLY PREP>$ = ANY ?+1 LIKE HUNT$ WILD BEA/S1 PROVID$ ONLY ?AT !Y C\LD ESCAPE FROM US4  ,G5TLEM5 9 DIV]SE %APES--AS POLICEM51 BO? CITY & RURAL1 & AS EXAM9+ JUDGES1 & JUDGES--HUNT !M ALL !IR LIVES1 9 T[N & C\NTRY1 ON ! HI<WAY & 9 ! /REETS1 & 9 ! TAV]NS1 & 9 NI<T-LODG+ H\SES2 & N[1 ALL ( A SUDD51 !SE G5TLEM5 HAD COME & LOCK$ ! GATES1 M]ELY 9 ORD] TO C\NT !M3 IT WAS AS DIFFICULT = !M TO BELIEVE ?IS1 AS = H>ES TO BELIEVE ?AT DOGS HAVE COME1 NOT TO *ASE BUT TO C\NT !M4  ,BUT ! GATES W]E LOCK$1 & ! />TL$ LODG]S RETURN$3 & WE1 BREAK+ UP 9TO GR\PS1 5T]$ ALSO4  ,) ME W]E ! TWO SOCIETY M5 & TWO /UD5TS4  ,9 FRONT ( US1 9 ! D>K1 W5T ,VANYA1 9 HIS COAT & :ITE TR\S]S1 ) A LANT]N1 & WE FOLL[$4  ,WE W5T TO QU>T]S ) :I* ,I WAS FAMILI>4  ,I KNEW ALL ! E/ABLI%M5TS1 & SOME ( ! PEOPLE2 BUT ! MAJORITY ( ! PEOPLE W]E NEW1 & ! SPECTACLE WAS NEW1 & MORE DREADFUL ?AN ! ONE :I* ,I HAD WITNESS$ 9 ! ,LYAP9SKY H\SE4  ,ALL ! LODG+S W]E FULL1 ALL ! BUNKS W]E OCCUPI$1 NOT BY ONE P]SON ONLY1 BUT (T5 BY TWO4  ,! SI<T WAS T]RIBLE 9 ?AT N>R[ SPACE 9TO :I* ! PEOPLE W]E HUDDL$1 & M5 & WOM5 W]E MIX$ TOGE!R4  ,ALL ! WOM5 :O W]E NOT DEAD DRUNK SLEPT ) M52 & WOM5 ) TWO *ILDR5 DID ! SAME4  ,! SI<T WAS T]RIBLE1 ON ACC\NT ( ! POV]TY1 DIRT1 RAGS1 & T]ROR ( ! PEOPLE4  ,& IT WAS *IEFLY DREADFUL ON ACC\NT ( ! VA/ NUMB]S ( PEOPLE :O W]E 9 ?IS SITUATION4  ,ONE LODG+1 & !N A SECOND LIKE IT1 & A ?IRD1 & A T5?1 & A TW5TIE?1 & /ILL !RE WAS NO 5D TO !M4  ,& EV]Y:]E !RE WAS ! SAME F\L ODOR1 ! SAME CLOSE ATMOSPH]E1 ! SAME CR[D+1 ! SAME M+L+ ( ! SEXES1 ! SAME M5 & WOM5 9TOXICAT$ TO /UPIDITY1 & ! SAME T]ROR1 SUBMISSION & GUILT ON ALL FACES2 & AGA9 ,I WAS OV]:ELM$ ) %AME & PA91 AS 9 ! ,LYAP9SKY H\SE1 & ,I UND]/OOD ?AT :AT ,I HAD UND]TAK5 WAS ABOM9ABLE & FOOLI% & !RE=E IMPRACTICABLE4  ,& ,I NO LONG] TOOK NOTES ( ANYBODY1 & ,I ASK$ NO QUE/IONS1 KN[+ ?AT NO?+ W\LD COME ( ?IS4 

,I WAS DEEPLY PA9$4  ,9 ! ,LYAP9SKY H\SE ,I HAD BE5 LIKE A MAN :O HAS SE5 A FE>FUL W\ND1 BY *ANCE1 ON ! BODY ( ANO!R MAN4  ,HE IS SORRY = ! O!R MAN1 HE IS A%AM$ ?AT HE HAS NOT PITI$ ! MAN BE=E1 & HE CAN /ILL RISE TO ! SUCCOR ( ! SUFF]]4  ,BUT N[ ,I WAS LIKE A PHYSICIAN1 :O HAS COME ) HIS M$IC9E TO ! SICK MAN1 HAS UNCOV]$ HIS SORE1 & EXAM9$ IT1 & :O MU/ CONFESS TO HIMSELF ?AT EV]Y ?+ ?AT HE HAS DONE HAS BE5 9 VA91 & ?AT HIS REM$Y IS GOOD = NO?+4 

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