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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

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,ON ! SAME EV5+ ?AT ,I RETURN$ FROM ,LIAP9'S H\SE1 ,I IMP>T$ MY IMPRESSIONS TO A FRI5D3 & HE1 A RESID5T ( ! T[N1 BEGAN TO EXPLA9 TO ME1 NOT )\T A C]TA9 SATISFACTION1 ?AT ?IS WAS ! MO/ NATURAL /ATE ( ?+S 9 A T[N2 ?AT IT WAS ONLY [+ TO MY PROV9CIALISM ?AT ,I F\ND ANY?+ REM>KABLE 9 IT2 & ?AT IT HAD ALWAYS BE51 & ALWAYS W\LD BE SO1 SU* BE+ ONE ( ! 9EVITABLE CONDITIONS ( CIVILIZATION4 ,9 ,LONDON IT WAS YET WORSE1 ETC41 ETC41 !RE=E !RE C\LD BE NO?+ WRONG AB\T IT1 & !RE WAS NO?+ TO BE DI/URB$ OR TR\BL$ AB\T4 

,I BEGAN TO >GUE ) MY FRI5D1 BUT ) SU* W>M? & SO ANGRILY1 ?AT MY WIFE RU%$ 9 FROM ! ADJO9+ ROOM TO ASK :AT HAD HAPP5$4 ,IT APPE>$ ?AT1 )\T BE+ AW>E ( IT1 ,I HAD %\T$ \T 9 AN AGONIZ$ VOICE1 GE/ICULAT+ WILDLY1 0,WE %\LD NOT GO ON LIV+ 9 ?IS WAY6 WE MU/ NOT LIVE SO6 WE HAVE NO RI<T60 ,I WAS REBUK$ = MY UNNECESS>Y EXCITEM5T2 ,I WAS TOLD ?AT ,I C\LD NOT TALK QUIETLY UPON ANY QUE/ION1 ?AT ,I WAS IRRITABLE2 & IT WAS PO9T$ \T TO ME ?AT ! EXI/5CE ( SU* MIS]Y AS ,I HAD WITNESS$ WAS 9 NO WAY A REASON = EMBITT]+ ! LIFE ( MY HOME-CIRCLE4 

,I FELT ?AT ?IS WAS P]FECTLY JU/1 & HELD MY TONGUE2 BUT 9 ! DEP? ( MY S\L ,I KNEW ?AT ,I WAS RI<T1 & ,I C\LD NOT QUIET MY CONSCI5CE4 

,! T[N LIFE1 :I* HAD PREVI\SLY SEEM$ ALI5 & /RANGE TO ME1 N[ BECAME SO HATEFUL ?AT ALL ! 9DULG5CIES  
  ( A LUXURI\S EXI/5CE1 9 :I* ,I HAD =M]LY DELI<T$1 BEGAN TO TORM5T ME4 

,H[EV] MU* ,I TRI$ TO F9D SOME K9D ( EXCUSE = MY MODE ( LIFE1 ,I C\LD NOT CONTEMPLATE )\T IRRITATION EI!R MY [N OR O!R PEOPLE'S DRAW+-ROOMS1 NOR A CLEAN1 RI*LY S]V$ D9N]-TABLE1 NOR A C>RIAGE ) WELL-F$ COA*MAN & HORSES1 NOR ! %OPS1 !AT]S1 & 5T]TA9M5TS4 ,I C\LD NOT HELP SEE+1 9 CONTRA/ TO ALL ?IS1 ?OSE HUNGRY1 %IV]+1 & DEGRAD$ 9HABITANTS ( ! NI<T-LODG+-H\SE4 ,I C\LD NEV] FREE MYSELF FROM ! ?\<T ?AT !SE CONDITIONS W]E 9SEP>ABLE--?AT ! ONE PROCE$$ FROM ! O!R4 ,I REMEMB] ?AT ! S5SE ( CULPABILITY :I* ,I HAD FELT FROM ! FIR/ MOM5T NEV] LEFT ME2 BUT ) ?IS FEEL+ ANO!R SOON M+L$1 :I* LESS5$ ! FIR/4 

,:5 ,I TALK$ TO MY 9TIMATE FRI5DS & ACQUA9TANCES AB\T MY IMPRESSIONS 9 ,LIAP9'S H\SE1 !Y ALL ANSW]$ 9 ! SAME WAY1 & EXPRESS$ BESIDES !IR APPRECIATION ( MY K9DNESS & T5D]-HE>T$NESS1 & GAVE ME TO UND]/& ?AT ! SI<T HAD IMPRESS$ ME SO BECAUSE ,I1 ,LEO ,TOL/OY1 WAS K9DHE>T$ & GOOD4 ,& ,I WILL+LY ALL[$ MYSELF TO BELIEVE ?IS4 

,! NATURAL CONSEQU5CE ( ?IS WAS1 ?AT ! FIR/ KE5 S5SE ( SELF-REPROA* & %AME BECAME BLUNT$1 & WAS REPLAC$ BY A S5SE ( SATISFACTION AT MY [N VIRTUE1 & A DESIRE TO MAKE IT KN[N TO O!RS4 0,IT IS1 9 TRU?10 ,I SAID TO MYSELF1 0PROBABLY NOT MY CONNECTION ) A LUXURI\S LIFE :I* IS AT FAULT1 BUT ! UNAVOIDABLE CIRCUM/ANCES ( EXI/5CE4 ,!RE=E A *ANGE 9 MY P>TICUL> LIFE W\LD NOT ALT] ! EVIL ,I HAD SE540 

,9 *ANG+ MY [N LIFE1 ,I ?\<T1 ,I %\LD ONLY R5D] MYSELF & ?OSE NE>E/ & DE>E/ TO ME MIS]ABLE1 :IL/ ! O!R MIS]Y W\LD REMA92 !RE=E MY OBJECT %\LD BE1 NOT TO ALT] MY [N WAY ( LIV+1 AS ,I HAD AT FIR/ IMAG9$1 BUT TO TRY AS MU* AS WAS 9 MY P[] TO AMELIORATE ! POSITION ( ?OSE UN=TUNATE ONES :O HAD EXCIT$ MY COMPASSION4 ,! :OLE MATT]1 ,I REASON$1 LIES 9 ! FACT ?AT ,I1 BE+ AN EXTREMELY K9D & GOOD MAN1 WI% TO DO GOOD TO MY FELL[-M54 

,SO ,I BEGAN TO >RANGE A PLAN ( PHILAN?ROPIC ACTIVITY 9 :I* ,I MI<T EXHIBIT ALL MY VIRTUES4 ,I MU/1 H[EV]1 REM>K H]E1 ?AT1 :ILE PLANN+ ?IS *>ITABLE EF=T1 9 ! DEP? ( MY HE>T ,I FELT ?AT ,I WAS NOT DO+ ! RI<T ?+2 BUT1 AS TOO (T5 HAPP5S1 REASON & IMAG9ATION /IFL$ ! VOICE ( CONSCI5CE4 

,AB\T ?IS TIME ! C5SUS WAS BE+ TAK51 & ?IS SEEM$ TO ME A GOOD OPPORTUNITY = 9/ITUT+ ?AT *>ITABLE ORGANIZATION 9 :I* ,I WANT$ TO %9E4 

 ,I WAS ACQUA9T$ ) MANY PHILAN?ROPIC 9/ITUTIONS & SOCIETIES ALREADY EXI/+ 9 ,MOSC[1 BUT ALL !IR ACTIVITY SEEM$ TO ME BO? 9SIGNIFICANT & WRONGLY DIRECT$ 9 COMP>ISON ) :AT ,I MYSELF WI%$ TO DO4 

,?IS WAS :AT ,I 9V5T$ TO EXCITE SYMPA?Y AMONG ! RI* = ! POOR3 ,I BEGAN TO COLLECT MONEY1 & TO 5LI/ M5 :O WI%$ TO HELP 9 ! WORK1 & :O W\LD1 9 COMPANY ) ! C5SUS (FIC]S1 VISIT ALL ! NE/S ( PAUP]ISM1 5T]+ 9TO RELATIONS ) ! POOR1 F9D+ \T ! DETAILS ( !IR NE$S1 AID+ !M ) MONEY & WORK1 S5D+ !M \T ( ,MOSC[1 PLAC+ !IR *ILDR5 9 S*OOLS1 & !IR OLD M5 & WOM5 9 HOMES & H\SES ( REFUGE4 

,I ?\<T1 MOREOV]1 ?AT FROM ?OSE :O UND]TOOK ?IS WORK A P]MAN5T SOCIETY C\LD BE =M$1 :I*1 BY DIVID+ BETWE5 ITS MEMB]S ! V>I\S DI/RICTS ( ,MOSC[1 C\LD TAKE C>E ?AT NEW CASES ( WANT & MIS]Y %\LD BE AV]T$1 & SO BY DEGREES PAUP]ISM MI<T BE /IFL$ AT ITS V]Y BEG9N+1 NOT SO MU* BY CURE1 AS BY PREV5TION4 

,ALREADY ,I SAW 9 ! FUTURE ! 5TIRE DISAPPE>ANCE ( BEGG+ & POV]TY1 ,I HAV+ BE5 ! MEANS ( ITS ACCOMPLI%M5T4 ,!N WE :O W]E RI* C\LD GO ON LIV+ 9 ALL \R LUXURY AS BE=E1 DWELL+ 9 F9E H\SES1 EAT+ D9N]S ( FIVE C\RSES1 DRIV+ 9 \R C>RIAGES TO !AT]S & 5T]TA9M5TS1 NO LONG] BE+ H>ASS$ BY SU* SI<TS AS ,I HAD WITNESS$ AT ,LIAP9'S H\SE4 

,HAV+ 9V5T$ ?IS PLAN1 ,I WROTE AN >TICLE AB\T IT2 &1 BE=E EV5 GIV+ IT TO ! PR9T]S1 ,I W5T TO ?OSE ACQUA9TANCES FROM :OM ,I HOP$ TO OBTA9 COOP]ATION1 & EXP\ND$ TO ALL :OM ,I VISIT$ ?AT DAY 7*IEFLY ! RI*7 ! IDEAS ,I AFT]W>DS PUBLI%$ 9 MY >TICLE4 

,I PROPOS$ TO PR(IT BY ! C5SUS 9 ORD] TO /UDY ! /ATE ( PAUP]ISM 9 ,MOSC[1 & TO HELP EXT]M9ATE IT BY P]SONAL EF=T & MONEY1 AFT] :I* WE MI<T ALL ) A QUIET CONSCI5CE 5JOY \R USUAL PLEASURES4 ,EV]YONE LI/5$ TO ME ATT5TIVELY & S]I\SLY2 BUT1 9 EV]Y CASE1 ,I REM>K$ ?AT ! MOM5T MY HE>]S CAME TO UND]/& :AT ,I WAS DRIV+ AT1 !Y SEEM$ TO BECOME UNCOM=TABLE & SOME:AT EMB>RASS$4 ,IT WAS PR9CIPALLY1 ,I FEEL SURE1 ON MY [N ACC\NT2 BECAUSE !Y CONSID]$ ALL ?AT ,I SAID TO BE FOLLY4 ,IT SEEM$ AS ?\< SOME \TSIDE MOTIVE COMPELL$ MY LI/5]S TO AGREE = ! MOM5T ) MY FOOLI%NESS4--0,OH1 YES6 ,C]TA9LY4 ,IT W\LD BE DELI<TFUL10 !Y SAID3 0( C\RSE IT IS IMPOSSIBLE NOT TO SYMPA?IZE ) Y\4 ,Y\R IDEA IS SPL5DID4 ,I MYSELF HAVE HAD ! SAME2 BUT 444 PEOPLE H]E >E SO 9DIFF]5T1 ?AT  
  IT IS H>DLY REASONABLE TO EXPECT A GREAT SUCCESS4 ,H[EV]1 AS F> AS ,I AM CONC]N$1 ,I AM1 ( C\RSE1 READY TO %>E 9 ! 5T]PRISE40 

,SIMIL> ANSW]S ,I RECEIV$ FROM ALL4 ,!Y CONS5T$1 AS IT APPE>$ TO ME1 NOT BECAUSE !Y W]E P]SUAD$ BY MY >GUM5TS1 NOR YET 9 COMPLIANCE ) !IR [N DESIRE1 BUT BECAUSE ( SOME EXT]IOR REASON :I* R5D]$ IT IMPOSSIBLE = !M TO REFUSE4 

,I REM>K$ ?IS P>TLY BECAUSE NONE ( ?OSE :O PROMIS$ ME !IR HELP 9 ! =M ( MONEY1 DEF9$ ! SUM !Y MEANT TO GIVE2 SO ?AT ,I HAD TO NAME ! AM\NT BY ASK+1 0,MAY ,I C\NT UPON Y\ = TW5TY-FIVE1 OR ONE HUNDR$1 OR TWO HUNDR$1 OR ?REE HUNDR$1 RUBLES80 ,& NOT ONE ( !M PAID ! MONEY4 ,I DRAW ATT5TION TO ?IS FACT1 BECAUSE1 :5 PEOPLE >E GO+ TO PAY = :AT !Y >E ANXI\S TO HAVE1 !Y >E G5]ALLY 9 HA/E TO GIVE IT4 ,IF IT IS TO SECURE A BOX TO SEE ,S>AH ,B]NH>DT1 ! MONEY IS IMM$IATELY PRODUC$2 H]E1 H[EV]1 ( ALL :O AGRE$ TO GIVE1 & EXPRESS$ !IR SYMPA?Y1 NOT ONE PRODUC$ ! AM\NT1 BUT M]ELY SIL5TLY ACQUIESC$ 9 ! SUM ,I HAPP5$ TO NAME4 

,9 ! LA/ H\SE ,I VISIT$ ?AT DAY !RE WAS A L>GE P>TY4 ,! MI/RESS ( ! H\SE HAD = SOME YE>S BE5 EMPLOY$ 9 WORKS ( *>ITY4 ,SEV]AL C>RIAGES W]E WAIT+ AT ! DOOR4 ,FOOTM5 9 EXP5SIVE LIV]IES W]E SEAT$ 9 ! HALL4 ,9 ! SPACI\S DRAW+-ROOM1 LADIES1 OLD & Y\NG1 WE>+ RI* DRESSES & ORNAM5TS1 W]E TALK+ TO SOME Y\NG M51 & DRESS+ UP SMALL DOLLS1 9T5D$ = A LOTT]Y 9 AID ( ! POOR4 

,! SI<T ( ?IS DRAW+-ROOM & ( ! PEOPLE ASSEMBL$ !RE /RUCK ME V]Y PA9FULLY4 ,= NOT ONLY WAS !IR PROP]TY WOR? SEV]AL MILLION RUBLES2 NOT ONLY W\LD ! 9T]E/ ON ! CAPITAL SP5T H]E ON DRESSES1 LACES1 BRONZES1 JEWELS1 C>RIAGES1 HORSES1 LIV]IES1 FOOTM51 EXCE$ A HUNDR$ TIMES ! VALUE ( !SE LADIES' WORK1--BUT EV5 ! EXP5SES CAUS$ BY ?IS V]Y P>TY ( LADIES & G5TLEM51 ! GLOVES1 ! L951 C&LES1 TEA1 SUG>1 CAKES1 ALL ?IS REPRES5T$ A SUM A HUNDR$ TIMES GREAT] ?AN ! VALUE ( ! WORK DONE4 

,I SAW ALL ?IS1 & !RE=E MI<T HAVE UND]/OOD ?AT H]E1 AT ALL EV5TS1 ,I %\LD NOT F9D SYMPA?Y ) MY PLAN1 BUT ,I HAD COME 9 ORD] TO GIVE A PROPOSAL1 &1 H[EV] PA9FUL IT WAS1 ,I SAID :AT ,I WI%$ TO SAY1 REPEAT+ ALMO/ ! WORDS ( MY >TICLE4 

,ONE LADY PRES5T (F]$ ME SOME MONEY1 ADD+ ?AT1 [+ TO H] S5SIBILITIES1 %E DID NOT FEEL /RONG 5\< TO VISIT ! POOR H]SELF1 BUT ?AT %E W\LD GIVE HELP  
  9 ?IS =M4 ,H[ MU* MONEY1 & :5 %E W\LD GIVE IT1 %E DID NOT SAY4 ,ANO!R LADY & A Y\NG MAN (F]$ !IR S]VICES 9 VISIT+ ! POOR1 BUT ,I DID NOT PR(IT BY !IR (F]4 ,! PR9CIPAL P]SON ,I ADDRESS$ TOLD ME ?AT IT W\LD BE IMPOSSIBLE TO DO MU*1 BECAUSE ! MEANS W]E NOT =?COM+4 ,! MEANS W]E SC>CE1 BECAUSE ALL ! RI* M5 9 ,MOSC[ :O W]E KN[N & C\LD BE C\NT$ UPON HAD ALREADY GIV5 ALL IT WAS POSSIBLE TO GET FROM !M1 !IR *>ITIES HAD ALREADY BE5 REW>D$ ) TITLES1 M$ALS1 & O!R DI/9CTIONS1--:I* WAS ! ONLY EFFECTUAL WAY TO 5SURE SUCCESS 9 ! COLLECTION ( MONEY2 & TO OBTA9 NEW HONORS FROM ! AU?ORITIES WAS V]Y DIFFICULT4 

,:5 ,I RETURN$ HOME ,I W5T TO B$1 NOT ONLY ) A PRES5TIM5T ?AT NO?+ W\LD RESULT FROM MY IDEA1 BUT ALSO ) ! %AMEFUL CONSCI\SNESS ( HAV+ BE5 DO+ SOME?+ VILE & CONTEMPTIBLE ! :OLE DAY4 ,H[EV]1 ,I DID NOT DESI/4 

,FIR/1 ! WORK HAD BE5 BEGUN1 & FALSE %AME PREV5T$ MY GIV+ IT UP2 SECOND1 NOT ONLY ! SUCCESS ( ! 5T]PRISE ITSELF1 BUT EV5 MY P>T 9 IT1 AF=D$ ME ! POSSIBILITY ( CONT9U+ TO LIVE 9 MY USUAL WAY2 :]EAS ! FAILURE ( ?IS 5T]PRISE W\LD HAVE PUT ME UND] ! CON/RA9T ( GIV+ UP MY PRES5T MODE ( LIFE & ( SEEK+ ANO!R4 ,( ?IS1 ,I WAS UNCONSCI\SLY AFRAID2 & !RE=E ,I REFUS$ TO LI/5 TO MY 9N] VOICE1 & CONT9U$ :AT ,I HAD BEGUN4 

,HAV+ S5T MY >TICLE TO BE PR9T$1 ,I READ A PRO(-COPY AT A C5SUS-MEET+ 9 ! T[N HALL1 HESITAT+LY1 & BLU%+ TILL MY *EEKS BURN$ AGA94 ,I FELT V]Y UNCOM=TABLE1 & ,I SAW ?AT ALL MY HE>]S W]E EQUALLY UNCOM=TABLE4 

,ON MY QUE/ION1 :E!R ! MANAG]S ( ! C5SUS W\LD ACCEPT MY PROPOSAL ?AT !Y %\LD REMA9 AT !IR PO/S 9 ORD] TO =M A L9K BETWE5 SOCIETY & ?OSE 9 NE$1 AN AWKW>D SIL5CE 5SU$4 

,!N TWO ( ?OSE PRES5T MADE SPEE*ES1 :I* SEEM$ TO M5D ! AWKW>DNESS ( MY SUGGE/IONS4 ,SYMPA?Y = ME WAS EXPRESS$ ALONG ) !IR G5]AL APPROBATION1 BUT !Y PO9T$ \T ! IMPRACTICABILITY ( MY S*EME4 ,EV]YONE IMM$IATELY SEEM$ MORE AT EASE2 BUT AFT]W>DS1 /ILL WI%+ TO SUCCE$1 ,I ASK$ EA* DI/RICT MANAG] SEP>ATELY1 :E!R DUR+ ! C5SUS HE WAS WILL+ TO 9VE/IGATE ! NE$S ( ! POOR & AFT]W>DS REMA9 AT HIS PO/ 9 ORD] TO =M ?IS L9K BETWE5 ! POOR & ! RI*1 ALL W]E AGA9 CONF\ND$2 IT SEEM$ AS ?\< !IR LOOKS SAID1 0,:Y1 WE HAVE LI/5$ TO Y\R SILLY  
  PROPOSITION \T ( P]SONAL REG>D = Y\2 BUT H]E Y\ COME ) IT AGA960 ,?IS WAS ! EXPRESSION ( !IR FACES1 BUT 9 WORDS !Y TOLD ME ?AT !Y CONS5T$2 & TWO ( !M1 SEP>ATELY1 BUT AS ?\< !Y HAD AGRE$ TOGE!R1 SAID 9 ! SAME WORDS1 0,WE REG>D IT AS \R MORAL DUTY TO DO SO40 ,! SAME IMPRESSION WAS PRODUC$ BY MY WORDS UPON ! /UD5TS :O HAD VOLUNTE]$ TO ACT AS CL]KS DUR+ ! C5SUS1 :5 ,I TOLD !M ?AT !Y MI<T ACCOMPLI% A *>ITABLE WORK BESIDES !IR SCI5TIFIC PURSUITS4 

,:5 WE TALK$ ! MATT] OV] ,I NOTIC$ ?AT !Y W]E %Y ( LOOK+ ME /RAI<T 9 ! FACE1 AS ONE (T5 HESITATES TO LOOK 9TO ! FACE ( A GOOD-NATUR$ MAN :O IS TALK+ NONS5SE4 ,! SAME IMPRESSION WAS PRODUC$ UPON ! $ITOR ( ! PAP] :5 ,I H&$ MY >TICLE TO HIM2 ALSO UPON MY SON1 MY WIFE1 & V>I\S O!R PEOPLE4 ,EV]Y ONE SEEM$ EMB>RASS$1 BUT ALL F\ND IT NECESS>Y TO APPROVE ( ! IDEA ITSELF2 & ALL1 IMM$IATELY AFT] ?IS APPROBATION1 BEGAN TO EXPRESS !IR D\BTS AS TO ! SUCCESS ( ! PLAN1 &1 = SOME REASON OR O!R1 ALL )\T EXCEPTION TOOK TO CONDEMN+ ! 9DIFF]5CE & COLDNESS ( SOCIETY & ( ! WORLD1 ?\< !Y EVID5TLY EXCLUD$ !MSELVES4 

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