,EPILOGUE #a1 ,*APT] #ae 

#ahfiahfi 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TEXT 3 

,! CONV]SATION AT SUPP] WAS NOT AB\T POLITICS OR SOCIETIES1 BUT TURN$ 
 ON ! SUBJECT ,NI*OLAS LIK$ BE/--RECOLLECTIONS ( #a#h#a#b4 ,D5ISOV 
 />T$ !SE & ,PI]RE WAS P>TICUL>LY AGREEABLE & AMUS+ AB\T 
 !M4 ,! FAMILY SEP>AT$ ON ! MO/ FRI5DLY T]MS4 

,AFT] SUPP] ,NI*OLAS1 HAV+ UNDRESS$ 9 HIS /UDY & GIV5 
 9/RUCTIONS TO ! /EW>D :O HAD BE5 WAIT+ = HIM1 W5T TO ! 
 B$ROOM 9 HIS DRESS+ G[N1 :]E HE F\ND HIS WIFE /ILL AT H] TABLE1 
 WRIT+4 

0,:AT >E Y\ WRIT+1 ,M>Y80 ,NI*OLAS ASK$4 

,C\NTESS ,M>Y BLU%$4 ,%E WAS AFRAID ?AT :AT %E WAS WRIT+ W\LD NOT 
 BE UND]/OOD OR APPROV$ BY H] HUSB&4 

,%E HAD WANT$ TO CONCEAL :AT %E WAS WRIT+ FROM HIM1 BUT AT ! SAME 
 TIME WAS GLAD HE HAD SURPRIS$ H] AT IT & ?AT %E W\LD N[ HAVE TO 
 TELL HIM4 

0,A DI>Y1 ,NI*OLAS10 %E REPLI$1 H&+ HIM A BLUE EX]CISE BOOK FILL$ 
 ) H] FIRM1 BOLD WRIT+4 

0,A DI>Y80 ,NI*OLAS REPEAT$ ) A %ADE ( IRONY1 & HE TOOK UP ! 
 BOOK4 

,IT WAS 9 ,FR5*4 

,DECEMB] #d4 ,TODAY :5 ,&RU%A 7H] ELDE/ BOY7 WOKE UP HE DID NOT WI% 
 TO DRESS & ,MADEMOISELLE ,L\ISE S5T = ME4 ,HE WAS NAU<TY & 
 OB/9ATE4 ,I TRI$ ?REATS1 BUT HE ONLY GREW ANGRI]4 ,!N ,I TOOK ! 
 MATT] 9 H&3 ,I LEFT HIM ALONE & BEGAN ) NURSE'S HELP TO GET ! 
 O!R *ILDR5 UP1 TELL+ HIM ?AT ,I DID NOT LOVE HIM4 ,= A LONG TIME HE 
 WAS SIL5T1 AS IF A/ONI%$1 !N HE JUMP$ \T ( B$1 RAN TO ME 9 HIS 
 %IRT1 & SOBB$ SO ?AT ,I C\LD NOT CALM HIM = A LONG TIME4 ,IT WAS 
 PLA9 ?AT :AT TR\BL$ HIM MO/ WAS ?AT HE HAD GRIEV$ ME4 ,AFT]W>DS 
 9 ! EV5+ :5 ,I GAVE HIM HIS TICKET1 HE AGA9 BEGAN CRY+ PITE\SLY 
 & KISS+ ME4 ,ONE CAN DO ANY?+ ) HIM BY T5D]NESS4 

0,:AT IS A 'TICKET'80 ,NI*OLAS 9QUIR$4 

0,I HAVE BEGUN GIV+ ! ELD] ONES M>KS EV]Y EV5+1 %[+ H[ !Y 
 HAVE BEHAV$40 

,NI*OLAS LOOK$ 9TO ! RADIANT EYES ?AT W]E GAZ+ AT HIM1 & 
 CONT9U$ TO TURN OV] ! PAGES & READ4 ,9 ! DI>Y WAS SET D[N 
 EV]Y?+ 9 ! *ILDR5'S LIVES ?AT SEEM$ NOTEWOR?Y TO !IR MO!R 
 AS %[+ !IR *>ACT]S OR SUGGE/+ G5]AL REFLECTIONS ON 
 $UCATIONAL ME?ODS4 ,!Y W]E = ! MO/ P>T QUITE 9SIGNIFICANT 
 TRIFLES1 BUT DID NOT SEEM SO TO ! MO!R OR TO ! FA!R EI!R1 N[ 
 ?AT HE READ ?IS DI>Y AB\T HIS *ILDR5 = ! FIR/ TIME4 

,UND] ! DATE 0#e0 WAS 5T]$3 

,MITYA WAS NAU<TY AT TABLE4 ,PAPA SAID HE WAS TO HAVE NO PUDD+4 ,HE HAD 
 NONE1 BUT LOOK$ SO UNHAPPILY & GRE$ILY AT ! O!RS :ILE !Y W]E 
 EAT+6 ,I ?9K ?AT PUNI%M5T BY DEPRIV+ *ILDR5 ( SWEETS ONLY 
 DEVELOPS !IR GRE$9ESS4 ,MU/ TELL ,NI*OLAS ?IS4 

,NI*OLAS PUT D[N ! BOOK & LOOK$ AT HIS WIFE4 ,! RADIANT EYES GAZ$ 
 AT HIM QUE/ION+LY3 W\LD HE APPROVE OR DISAPPROVE ( H] DI>Y8 ,!RE 
 C\LD BE NO D\BT NOT ONLY ( HIS APPROVAL BUT ALSO ( HIS ADMIRATION = 
 HIS WIFE4 

,P]HAPS IT NE$ NOT BE DONE SO P$ANTICALLY1 ?\<T ,NI*OLAS1 OR EV5 
 DONE AT ALL1 BUT ?IS UNTIR+1 CONT9UAL SPIRITUAL EF=T ( :I* ! 
 SOLE AIM WAS ! *ILDR5'S MORAL WELF>E DELI<T$ HIM4 ,HAD ,NI*OLAS BE5 
 ABLE TO ANALYZE HIS FEEL+S HE W\LD HAVE F\ND ?AT HIS /EADY1 T5D]1 
 & PR\D LOVE ( HIS WIFE RE/$ ON HIS FEEL+ ( WOND] AT H] 
 SPIRITUALITY & AT ! L(TY MORAL WORLD1 ALMO/ BEYOND HIS REA*1 9 
 :I* %E HAD H] BE+4 

,HE WAS PR\D ( H] 9TELLIG5CE & GOODNESS1 RECOGNIZ$ HIS [N 
 9SIGNIFICANCE BESIDE H] 9 ! SPIRITUAL WORLD1 & REJOIC$ ALL ! 
 MORE ?AT %E ) SU* A S\L NOT ONLY BELONG$ TO HIM BUT WAS P>T ( 
 HIMSELF4 

0,I QUITE1 QUITE APPROVE1 MY DE>E/60 SAID HE ) A SIGNIFICANT LOOK1 & 
 AFT] A %ORT PAUSE HE ADD$3 0,& ,I BEHAV$ BADLY TODAY4 ,Y\ W]5'T 9 
 ! /UDY4 ,WE BEGAN DISPUT+--,PI]RE & ,I--& ,I LO/ MY 
 TEMP]4 ,BUT HE IS IMPOSSIBLE3 SU* A *ILD6 ,I DON'T KN[ :AT W\LD BECOME 
 ( HIM IF ,NATA%A DIDN'T KEEP HIM 9 H&4444 ,HAVE Y\ ANY IDEA :Y HE 
 W5T TO ,PET]SBURG8 ,!Y HAVE =M$4440 

0,YES1 ,I KN[10 SAID ,C\NTESS ,M>Y4 0,NATA%A TOLD ME40 

0,WELL1 !N1 Y\ KN[10 ,NI*OLAS W5T ON1 GR[+ HOT AT ! M]E 
 RECOLLECTION ( !IR DISCUSSION1 0HE WANT$ TO CONV9CE ME ?AT IT IS 
 EV]Y HONE/ MAN'S DUTY TO GO AGA9/ ! GOV]NM5T1 & ?AT ! OA? ( 
 ALLEGIANCE & DUTY444 ,I AM SORRY Y\ W]5'T !RE4 ,!Y ALL FELL ON ME--,D5ISOV 
 & ,NATA%A444 ,NATA%A IS ABSURD4 ,H[ %E RULES OV] HIM6 ,& YET !RE 
 NE$ ONLY BE A DISCUSSION & %E HAS NO WORDS ( H] [N BUT ONLY REPEATS 
 HIS SAY+S4440 ADD$ ,NI*OLAS1 YIELD+ TO ?AT IRRESI/IBLE 9CL9ATION 
 :I* TEMPTS US TO JUDGE ?OSE NE>E/ & DE>E/ TO US4 ,HE =GOT ?AT 
 :AT HE WAS SAY+ AB\T ,NATA%A C\LD HAVE BE5 APPLI$ WORD = WORD TO 
 HIMSELF 9 RELATION TO HIS WIFE4 

0,YES1 ,I HAVE NOTIC$ ?AT10 SAID ,C\NTESS ,M>Y4 

0,:5 ,I TOLD HIM ?AT DUTY & ! OA? W]E ABOVE EV]Y?+1 HE />T$ 
 PROV+ GOODNESS KN[S :AT6 ,A PITY Y\ W]E NOT !RE--:AT W\LD 
 Y\ HAVE SAID80 

0,AS ,I SEE IT Y\ W]E QUITE RI<T1 & ,I TOLD ,NATA%A SO4 ,PI]RE SAYS 
 EV]YBODY IS SUFF]+1 TORTUR$1 & BE+ CORRUPT$1 & ?AT IT IS \R 
 DUTY TO HELP \R NEI<BOR4 ,( C\RSE HE IS RI<T !RE10 SAID ,C\NTESS 
 ,M>Y1 0BUT HE =GETS ?AT WE HAVE O!R DUTIES NE>] TO US1 DUTIES 
 9DICAT$ TO US BY ,GOD ,HIMSELF1 & ?AT ?\< WE MI<T EXPOSE \RSELVES 
 TO RISKS WE MU/ NOT RISK \R *ILDR540 

0,YES1 ?AT'S IT6 ,?AT'S JU/ :AT ,I SAID TO HIM10 PUT 9 ,NI*OLAS1 :O 
 FANCI$ HE REALLY HAD SAID IT4 0,BUT !Y 9SI/$ ON !IR [N VIEW3 LOVE 
 ( ONE'S NEI<BOR & ,*RI/IANITY--& ALL ?IS 9 ! PRES5CE ( 
 Y\NG ,NI*OLAS1 :O HAD GONE 9TO MY /UDY & BROKE ALL MY ?+S40 

0,AH1 ,NI*OLAS1 DO Y\ KN[ ,I AM (T5 TR\BL$ AB\T LITTLE ,NI*OLAS10 
 SAID ,C\NTESS ,M>Y4 0,HE IS SU* AN EXCEPTIONAL BOY4 ,I AM AFRAID ,I NEGLECT 
 HIM 9 FAVOR ( MY [N3 WE ALL HAVE *ILDR5 & RELATIONS :ILE HE HAS NO 
 ONE4 ,HE IS CON/ANTLY ALONE ) HIS ?\<TS40 

0,WELL1 ,I DON'T ?9K Y\ NE$ REPROA* Y\RSELF ON HIS ACC\NT4 ,ALL ?AT 
 ! FONDE/ MO!R C\LD DO = H] SON Y\ HAVE DONE & >E DO+ = 
 HIM1 & ( C\RSE ,I AM GLAD ( IT4 ,HE IS A F9E LAD1 A F9E LAD6 ,?IS 
 EV5+ HE LI/5$ TO ,PI]RE 9 A SORT ( TRANCE1 & FANCY--AS WE 
 W]E GO+ 9 TO SUPP] ,I LOOK$ & HE HAD BROK5 EV]Y?+ ON MY TABLE 
 TO BITS1 & HE TOLD ME ( IT HIMSELF AT ONCE6 ,I NEV] KNEW HIM TO TELL AN 
 UNTRU?4 ,A F9E LAD1 A F9E LAD60 REPEAT$ ,NI*OLAS1 :O AT HE>T WAS NOT 
 FOND ( ,NI*OLAS ,BOLKONSKI BUT WAS ALWAYS ANXI\S TO RECOGNIZE ?AT HE WAS 
 A F9E LAD4 

0,/ILL1 ,I AM NOT ! SAME AS HIS [N MO!R10 SAID ,C\NTESS ,M>Y4 0,I FEEL 
 ,I AM NOT ! SAME & IT TR\BLES ME4 ,A WOND]FUL BOY1 BUT ,I AM DREADFULLY 
 AFRAID = HIM4 ,IT W\LD BE GOOD = HIM TO HAVE COMPANIONS40 

0,WELL IT WON'T BE = LONG4 ,NEXT SUMM] ,I'LL TAKE HIM TO ,PET]SBURG10 SAID 
 ,NI*OLAS4 0,YES1 ,PI]RE ALWAYS WAS A DREAM] & ALWAYS WILL BE10 HE 
 CONT9U$1 RETURN+ TO ! TALK 9 ! /UDY :I* HAD EVID5TLY 
 DI/URB$ HIM4 0,WELL1 :AT BUS9ESS IS IT ( M9E :AT GOES ON !RE--:E!R 
 ,>AK*EEV IS BAD1 & ALL ?AT8 ,:AT BUS9ESS WAS IT ( M9E :5 ,I 
 M>RI$ & WAS SO DEEP 9 DEBT ?AT ,I WAS ?REAT5$ ) PRISON1 & HAD 
 A MO!R :O C\LD NOT SEE OR UND]/& IT8 ,& !N !RE >E Y\ & 
 ! *ILDR5 & \R AFFAIRS4 ,IS IT = MY [N PLEASURE ?AT ,I AM AT ! 
 F>M OR 9 ! (FICE FROM MORN+ TO NI<T8 ,NO1 BUT ,I KN[ ,I MU/ WORK TO 
 COM=T MY MO!R1 TO REPAY Y\1 & NOT TO LEAVE ! *ILDR5 SU* 
 BEGG>S AS ,I WAS40 

,C\NTESS ,M>Y WANT$ TO TELL HIM ?AT MAN DOES NOT LIVE BY BREAD ALONE & 
 ?AT HE ATTA*$ TOO MU* IMPORTANCE TO !SE MATT]S4 ,BUT %E KNEW %E 
 MU/ NOT SAY ?IS & ?AT IT W\LD BE USELESS TO DO SO4 ,%E ONLY TOOK HIS 
 H& & KISS$ IT4 ,HE TOOK ?IS AS A SIGN ( APPROVAL & A CONFIRMATION 
 ( HIS ?\<TS1 & AFT] A FEW M9UTES' REFLECTION CONT9U$ TO ?9K 
 AL\D4 

0,Y\ KN[1 ,M>Y1 TODAY ,ELIAS ,MITR(ANY*0 7?IS WAS HIS OV]SE]7 
 0CAME BACK FROM ! ,TAMBOV E/ATE & TOLD ME !Y >E ALREADY 
 (F]+ EI<TY ?\S& RUBLES = ! =E/40 

,& ) AN EAG] FACE ,NI*OLAS BEGAN TO SPEAK ( ! POSSIBILITY ( 
 REPUR*AS+ ,OTRADNOE BE=E LONG1 & ADD$3 0,ANO!R T5 YE>S ( LIFE 
 & ,I %ALL LEAVE ! *ILDR5444 9 AN EXCELL5T POSITION40 

,C\NTESS ,M>Y LI/5$ TO H] HUSB& & UND]/OOD ALL ?AT HE TOLD H]4 
 ,%E KNEW ?AT :5 HE ?\<T AL\D 9 ?IS WAY HE W\LD SOMETIMES ASK H] 
 :AT HE HAD BE5 SAY+1 & BE VEX$ IF HE NOTIC$ ?AT %E HAD BE5 
 ?9K+ AB\T SOME?+ ELSE4 ,BUT %E HAD TO =CE H]SELF TO ATT5D1 = 
 :AT HE WAS SAY+ DID NOT 9T]E/ H] AT ALL4 ,%E LOOK$ AT HIM & DID 
 NOT ?9K1 BUT FELT1 AB\T SOME?+ DIFF]5T4 ,%E FELT A SUBMISSIVE 
 T5D] LOVE = ?IS MAN :O W\LD NEV] UND]/& ALL ?AT %E 
 UND]/OOD1 & ?IS SEEM$ TO MAKE H] LOVE = HIM /ILL /RONG] & 
 ADD$ A T\* ( PASSIONATE T5D]NESS4 ,BESIDES ?IS FEEL+ :I* 
 ABSORB$ H] ALTOGE!R & H9D]$ H] FROM FOLL[+ ! DETAILS ( H] 
 HUSB&'S PLANS1 ?\<TS ?AT HAD NO CONNECTION ) :AT HE WAS SAY+ 
 FLITT$ ?R\< H] M9D4 ,%E ?\<T ( H] NEPHEW4 ,H] HUSB&'S ACC\NT 
 ( ! BOY'S AGITATION :ILE ,PI]RE WAS SPEAK+ /RUCK H] =CIBLY1 & 
 V>I\S TRAITS ( HIS G5TLE1 S5SITIVE *>ACT] RECURR$ TO H] M9D2 
 & :ILE ?9K+ ( H] NEPHEW %E ?\<T ALSO ( H] [N *ILDR54 ,%E 
 DID NOT COMP>E !M ) HIM1 BUT COMP>$ H] FEEL+ = !M ) H] 
 FEEL+ = HIM1 & FELT ) REGRET ?AT !RE WAS SOME?+ LACK+ 9 
 H] FEEL+ = Y\NG ,NI*OLAS4 

,SOMETIMES IT SEEM$ TO H] ?AT ?IS DIFF]5CE >OSE FROM ! DIFF]5CE 
 9 !IR AGES1 BUT %E FELT H]SELF TO BLAME T[>D HIM & PROMIS$ 9 
 H] HE>T TO DO BETT] & TO ACCOMPLI% ! IMPOSSIBLE--9 ?IS LIFE 
 TO LOVE H] HUSB&1 H] *ILDR51 LITTLE ,NI*OLAS1 & ALL H] NEI<BORS1 
 AS ,*RI/ LOV$ MANK9D4 ,C\NTESS ,M>Y'S S\L ALWAYS /ROVE T[>D ! 
 9F9ITE1 ! ET]NAL1 & ! ABSOLUTE1 & C\LD !RE=E NEV] BE AT 
 PEACE4 ,A /]N EXPRESSION ( ! L(TY1 SECRET SUFF]+ ( A S\L 
 BURD5$ BY ! BODY APPE>$ ON H] FACE4 ,NI*OLAS GAZ$ AT H]4 0,O ,GOD6 
 ,:AT WILL BECOME ( US IF %E DIES1 AS ,I ALWAYS FE> :5 H] FACE IS LIKE 
 ?AT80 ?\<T HE1 & PLAC+ HIMSELF BE=E ! ICON HE BEGAN TO SAY HIS 
 EV5+ PRAY]S4 

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