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,! 5TRANCE HALL TO ! LITTLE AP>TM5T ?AT SECRETLY H\SES ,KYIV'S 9FO%OP IS FULL ( %OES1 & EA* %OE RELEASES A PUDDLE ( BLACK WAT] AS ! MUDDY SN[ FILL+ ITS TREADS BEG9S TO MELT4  ,! PEOPLE :O HAVE COME TO ! PRES5TATION DEP>T 9 GR\PS BACK 9TO ?AT SN[Y WORLD1 & ! %OES DISAPPE>1 BUT ! PUDDLES GR[ & CONJO94  ,I FILL A BUCKET ) WAT] & PU% A MOP SIDE TO SIDE4  ,! FEA!RWEI<T KITT5 !Y'VE ADOPT$ ATTACKS ! MOP ) ZEAL4  ,YEVA1 ! DEM&+ TWO-YE>-OLD DAU<T] ( ,VLA/A1 :O HAS ALSO /AY$ TO CLEAN UP1 9SI/S ON TAK+ OV]1 & ( C\RSE %E DOES IT ALL WRONG1 FROM ! P]SPECTIVE ( ONE :O WANTS TO CLEAN ! FLOOR 9 A REASONABLE AM\NT ( TIME4  ,& BE=E H]1 ,I WAS DO+ IT ALL WRONG1 FROM ! P]SPECTIVE ( ONE :O HAS NO TIME = BOR+ REPETITION & NE$S TO SEE :AT 9T]E/+ =MS ?IS MESS ( MUD & WAT] CAN TAKE4  ,I DO MY BE/ TO EXPLA9 TO H] ,PROP] ,ME?ODS ( ,MOPP+ ,V]Y ,MUDDY ,FLOORS &1 P]HAPS AMUS$ BY MY /RANGE ACC5T & *ILDI% VOCABUL>Y1 %E HUMORS ME1 ?\< SOON GOES ON TO PURSUITS MORE P]MISSIVE ( ! LAYMAN'S CREATIVITY4  ,HA HA6  ,! ,IVORY ,T[] ( ,PR(ESSIONALISM IS ONCE AGA9 DEF5D$ FROM AN 9SUFFICI5TLY OBSEQUI\S APPR5TICE6 

,AS ! FLOOR SL[LY TURNS :ITE ,I ?9K AB\T ! PRES5TATION -- 0,NONVIOL5CE OR A ,DIV]SITY ( ,TACTICS80  ,SOME TIME AFT] >RIV+ 9 ,KYIV !Y 9VIT$ ME TO GIVE A TALK AT !IR 9FO%OP & ( ! FEW ,I (F]$ ?IS WAS ! TOPIC ?AT 9T]E/$ !M ! MO/4  ,I HAD DONE SOME?+ SIMIL> 9 ,B]L9 & ,GRON+51 & 9 ! ,U,S BE=E ,I LEFT1 ON ! BASIS ( A BOOK ,I WROTE CRITICIZ+ NONVIOL5CE4 ,EV]Y TIME HAD BE5 MU* ! SAME BECAUSE ,I C\LD DRAW ON A COMMON H]ITAGE ( (FICIAL HI/ORY1 9T]L9K$ MOVEM5TS1 & CULTURE4  ,BUT H]E ON ! O!R SIDE ( ! OLD ,IRON ,CURTA9 ,I C\LDN'T JU/ DROP ! NAME ( ,M>T9 ,LU!R ,K+ OR ! BUZZPHRASE 0DIV]SITY ( TACTICS0 & EXPECT !M TO KN[ :AT ,I WAS TALK+ AB\T4  ,SO ,I PLANN$ = A TALK ) LESS HI/ORICAL REF]5CE1 MORE ANALYSIS ( ! PHILOSOPHICAL & PRACTICAL WEAKNESSES ( NONVIOL5CE1 USEFUL FRAMEWORKS = AN EFFECTIVE DIV]SITY ( TACTICS1 & SO =?4  ,A LOT ( PEOPLE CAME & ,&REY1 ! TRANSLATOR1 DID A GOOD JOB & GOT HELP FROM ,5GLI%-FLU5T AUDI5CE MEMB]S1 BUT ,I FELT LIKE !RE WAS A FAILURE TO COMMUNICATE4  ,PEOPLE HAD ASK$ A NUMB] ( QUE/IONS ?AT SEEM$ TO MISS ! PO9T & SUGGE/$ ! QUE/ION]S ?\<T ,I HAD MY HEAD 9 A BURLAP SACK4 

,AFT]W>DS ,I REALIZ$ ?AT ! LACK ( A COMMON HI/ORY HAD CREAT$ A MU* WID] GULF ?AN ,I WAS IMAG9+4 ,NONVIOL5CE WASN'T EV5 A CONCEPT 9 ,RUSSIAN -- ! TRANSLATION WAS 0NOT-VIOL5T ME?ODS40  ,& H]E ,I WAS REFUS+ TO DEF9E VIOL5CE BECAUSE ! DI*OTOMY IS C\NT]PRODUCTIVE1 ?9K+ ,I'M TALK+ AB\T A PHILOSOPHY & PRACTICE :5 ?R\< ! TRANSLATOR ,I'M ACTUALLY CRITICIZ+ AN ILL-DEF9$ SET ( ACTIONS & ADVOCAT+ 9/EAD ANO!R ILL-DEF9$ SET ( ACTIONS4 ,! ,SOVIET ,UNION HAD SO DE/ROY$ SOCIAL MOVEM5TS1 & SU* MOVEM5TS W]E ESPECIALLY SL[ TO REEM]GE 9 ,UKRA9A = SOME REASON1 ?AT APP>5TLY ! CONV]SATIONS AB\T NONVIOL5CE & MILITANCY AS PHILOSOPHIES & PRACTICE HAD NEV] TAK5 PLACE -- TO A C]TA9 EXT5T !Y W]E /ILL LOOK+ = TACTICS1 RA!R ?AN ! ANALYSIS ?AT B9DS !M TOGE!R4 

,DAMN ,I FELT /UPID444 

,SR$A1 #g ,FEVRAL' 

,TODAY ,I LE>N$ ?AT NATIVES ( ,KYIV >E REPUT$ TO SPEAK AN ESPECIALLY FA/ & CONVOLUT$ V]SION ( ,RUSSIAN1 SO N[ ,I DON'T FEEL SO BAD AB\T MY L5G?Y TRIBULATIONS ) ! LANGUAGE4  ,9 ANY CASE1 ,RUSSIAN HAS AN EXTREMELY COMPLICAT$ & FICKLE GRAMM>1 :I* MAKES IT ALL ! MORE GRATIFY+ AS IT HALT+LY BEG9S TO FL[ FROM MY [N M\?4  ,BUT ALL ! TIMES FRI5DS BACK HOME -- OR1 AHEM1 $ITORS -- HAVE TOLD ME MY S5T5CES >E TOO LONG & COMPLICAT$ COME BACK TO ME & MAKE ME WANT TO LIVE 9 ,KYIV -- OR = ?AT MATT] ,B]L91 ,G]MAN BE+ SIMIL> 9 ?IS RESPECT -- :]E F\R DEP5D5T CLAUSES 9 ONE S5T5CE IS NO?+ TO WRITE HOME AB\T4 

,:AT'S MORE1 TO SPEAK ,RUSSIAN Y\ NE$ A COMP>ATIVELY HUGE OP]ATIVE VOCABUL>Y BECAUSE !IR WORDS >E SO SPECIFIC1 :]EAS WE T5D TO GET BY ) JU/ A FEW /OCK V]BS ?AT EA* C>RY A BA?TUB FULL ( MEAN+S4  ,= EXAMPLE 9 A DETAIL$ ,RUSSIAN-,5GLI% DICTION>Y ! WORD 0GO0 WILL TAKE UP ?REE :OLE PAGES BECAUSE EA* ( \R V>I\S MEAN+S REQUIRES A DI/9CT ,RUSSIAN V]B4  ,ANYH[ ?IS EV5+ ,I WAS HANG+ \T ) ,KATYA1 ,&REY1 ,VLA/A1 & AN AN>*I/ VISIT+ FROM ,SLOVAKIA4  ,IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT :5 ,SLAVS GET TOGE!R !Y LIKE TO COMP>E NOTES ON ACC5TS & IDIOM2 ( C\RSE ! BE/ ?+ TO DO IS TRADE JOKES & LE>N =EIGN CURSE WORDS & TONGUE-TWI/]S -- SKOROGOVORKA -- & AMID ALL \R POLYGLOTTON\S P]AMBULATIONS ,I REALIZ$1 MID-S5T5CE 7,I ?9K ! S5T5CE WAS3 0,IT'S LIKE ONE ( ?OSE JOKES ?AT EV]YBODY KN[S1 LIKE 0:Y DID ! *ICK5 --007 ?AT !SE PEOPLE HAD NEV] HE>D ! JOKE3 :Y DID ! *ICK5 CROSS ! ROAD8  ,H]E ,I WAS1 NI< ON QU>T] ( A C5TURY OLD1 AB\T TO TELL PEOPLE MY [N AGE = !IR V]Y FIR/ TIME :Y ! *ICK5 CROSS$ ! ROAD4  ,! GODFA!R ( ALL ,5GLI%-LANGUAGE JOKES6  ,IT WAS SO EXCIT+1 ,I HAD TO GET UP & DO A LITTLE DANCE FIR/4  ,& ! BE/ ?+8  ,BECAUSE WE REALLY DON'T KN[1 9 ! C\RT ( WORLD OP9ION1 :E!R ?AT JOKE IS FUNNY OR NOT1 TO US IT'S MORE AN EXAMPLE ( A JOKE1 A S5T5CE ?AT SIGNIFIES A JOKE RA!R ?AN A JOKE 9 ITSELF1 WE'VE ALREADY HE>D ! PUN*L9E 9 UT]O444 ,SO ! BE/ ?+8  ,!Y LAU<$6  ,SUB/ANTIALLY6  7,MAYBE IT WAS MY DANCE87  ,SWEET6 ,N'E/-CE PAS8 

,VTORNIK1 #ac ,FEVRAL' 

,MY MOM HAS HAD TO GO BACK TO ! ,/ATES = BACK SURG]Y4  ,?IS YE> %E GETS TO RETIRE FROM H] HAT$ JOB1 BUT %E HAS NOT ESCAP$ SOON 5\<4  ,TOO MANY /RESSFUL H\RS BEH9D A DESK HAVE RU9$ H] SP9E4  ,BUT IT SEEMS AS ?\< H] LIFE WILL ONLY BEG9 AFT] RETIREM5T4  ,%E'S LIKE A SMALL *ILD1 9 ! BE/ POSSIBLE S5SE1 PLANN+ \T :AT %E WANTS TO DO ) H] LIFE1 ?\< ON ! BAD DAYS %E WOND]S IF ! YE>S ( WORK HAVE /OL5 H] HEAL? BE=E SETT+ H] FREE4  ,IT'S FUNNY3 H] PASSIONS W]E LANGUAGES & TRAVEL+1 SO %E />T$ ?IS C>E] ?9K+ IT W\LD LET H] BE :O %E WANT$ TO BE4  ,H] P>5TS1 9 !IR TIME1 HAD ESCAP$ G5]ATIONS ( POV]TY 9 ! ,S\? BY BECOM+ A C>E] (FIC] 9 ! MILIT>Y & ! ATT5DANT H\SEWIFE4  ,& MY LITTLE BRO!R1 N[1 IS BE+ VIGOR\SLY PREP>$ = A SIMIL> COMPROMISE4  ,HE'S LIV+ ) MY MO!R ?IS YE>1 ATT5D+ AN 9T]NATIONAL S*OOL & TRY+ DESP]ATELY TO GRADUATE4  ,JOHN IS A NATURAL G5IUS ) A CAM]A & ) ANY MUSICAL 9/RUM5T HE PICKS UP1 BUT ! BUREAUCRATIC DEM&S ( HI< S*OOL LEAVE HIM LITTLE 5]GY TO DEVELOP !SE TAL5TS3 HE HAS TO LE>N *EMI/RY EQUATIONS HE MI<T NEV] USE AGA9 9 HIS LIFE1 HE HAS TO COMPLETE HOMEWORK ASSIGNM5TS ?AT MAY OR MAY NOT BE HELPFUL = HIM1 & HIS [N P>TICUL> NE$S & IDIOSYNCRASIES >E CONSID]$ IRRELEVANT 9 ?IS PROCESS4  ,EV]Y DAY HE COMES HOME ,I SEE !Y'VE BEAT5 A LITTLE MORE ( ?AT VITAL SP>K \T ( HIM4 

,S*OOL IS ! PRISON = ! SUBMISSIVE1 LIKE PRISON IS ! S*OOL = ! DEFIANT4  ,! SUCCESSFUL /UD5TS ADOPT ! *ALL5GES ?AT >E PUT BE=E !M AS !IR [N4  ,!Y WILL DO WELL1 VALU+ !MSELVES BAS$ ON !IR P]=MANCE 9 :ATEV] C>E] IS PLAC$ BE=E !M -- ?IS *OICE ALSO !Y WILL ADOPT AS !IR [N4  ,! O!R /UD5TS1 AT LEA/1 WILL BE TRA9$ TO ACCEPT ! IMPOSITION ( EXT]NAL CRIT]IA4  ,! MO/ IMPORTANT LESSON WE LE>N 9 S*OOL1 ! ONE S+LE FACT ?AT )\T EXCEPTION WILL FOLL[ US ?R\<\T \R 5TIRE LIVES1 NO MATT] :AT JOB OR ECONOMIC ROLE WE 5D UP 91 IS ! COMPULSION ( ADH]+ TO >RANGEM5TS WE HAD NO P>T 9 MAK+4  ,! ULTIMATE ANSW] TO EV]Y *ILD'S CURI\S QUE/ION+ IS ! SIMPLE1 AU?ORITATIVE 0,BECAUSE40 ,NO MATT] :E!R ! QUE/ION REG>DS ! COLOR ( ! SKY OR :Y !Y HAVE TO GO TO B$ OR DO !IR HOMEWORK4  ,! CONCLUSION ( ADUL?OOD'S LOGIC1 ?AT WE >E NO MORE FREE TO *ANGE \R SOCIETY ?AN WE >E TO *ANGE ! WAY LI<T REFRACTS ?R\< ! ATMOSPH]E PRODUC+ ! COLOR BLUE1 IS ?AT WE >E1 SIMPLY1 NOT FREE4 

,SUBBOTA1 #ag ,FEVRAL' 

,A L[-HANG+ SUNLI<T SLIDES ?R\< ! W9D[ & PA9TS ! WALL A HUE ( YELL[ AS ?ICK AS BUTT]1 C>VES \T %AD[S DI/9CT & BLACK AS IRON1 & ALREADY FADES TO MEMORY & SECOND-GUESS+ -- NO1 SURELY 0?ICK AS BUTT]0 & 0BLACK AS IRON0 >E CLUMSILY OV]DONE EV5 = SU* LI<T1 ,I ?9K TO MYSELF1 SCRAT*+ MY HEAD1 =GETT+ ALREADY H[ IT LOOK$4  ,! SUN SETS BEH9D ! HILL ( ! ,BAIKOVA CEMET]Y :]E ! CR[S 9 !IR HUNDR$S SP5D ALL DAY 9 A TREETOP *ORUS1 A S+LE ORGANISM ( A ?\S& BEAKS & A MILLION MIDNI<T FEA!RS ?AT ANY M9UTE N[ ON SOME TWILIT CUE WILL TAKE TO ! SKY1 AS IT DOES EV]Y EV5+ 9 A GREAT :EEL+ :IRLPOOL RITUAL ?AT FLOODS T[>DS MY W9D[ & ROLLS OV] ! BUILD+1 DISAPPE>+1 9 A /IRR+ SORT ( DEA?4  ,TOMORR[ ,I LEAVE ,KYIV = PO9TS S\? & WE/4 

,!SE LA/ WEEKS H]E W9T] HAS TANTALIZ$ CRUELLY4  ,I CAME TO ,UKRA9A HOP+ = ! /RONGE/ W9T] ( MY LIFE1 BUT IT DIDN'T >RIVE UNTIL LATE ,JANU>Y1 TWO WEEKS ( NE> SOLID SN[ & TEMP]ATURES RA!R TAMELY APPROA*+ -- #a1 ! MID-TE5S 9 ,FAHR5HEIT4  ,!N A LITTLE BIT ( TEAS+1 A FEW DAYS ( ?AW1 A FEW DAYS ( SN[1 EA* TIME LEAV+ ME TO WORRY ?AT A GOOD HONE/ W9T] W\LD BECOME A BYGONE EXP]I5CE1 REC$+ IRREVOCABLY 9TO SOME MY?OLOGIZ$ ,CALV9 & ,HOBBES PA/4 

,& B5EA? ?IS BITT] NO/ALGIA1 ,I'VE BE5 TY+ UP ALL MY LOOSE 5DS AS HAPHAZ>DLY AS MI<T BE EXPECT$ = SOMEONE :O NEV] GOT ! ,BOY ,SC\TS BADGE = KNOTSMAN%IP1 QUICKLY F9I%+1 OR GETT+ JU/ A LITTLE FUR!R ALONG1 PAMPHLETS1 /5CILS1 GR\P DISCUSSIONS1 >TICLES1 TRANSLATIONS1 & O!R COLLABORATIONS ) ! AN>*I/S ,I'VE MET & BEFRI5D$ !SE PA/ MON?S4 

,SOON 5\< ,I'M (F1 HOP+ ?AT ,ODESSA IS AS BEAUTIFUL AS ,I'VE HE>D1 ?AT ,MOLDOVA WILL LET ME ?R\< !IR WEE C\NTRY )\T A VISA SO ,I CAN MEET MY CONTACTS 9 ,ROMANIA AS S*$UL$1 ?AT DI/RACTIONS SU* AS !SE WILL MASK ! SADNESS ( LEAV+ ?IS PLACE BEH9D1 & ( GO+ ALONE ONCE MORE 9TO A FUTURE ?AT /AYS BLANK BECAUSE NO EXPECTATIONS C\LD POSSIBLY DESCRIBE IT4 

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