,P>T #b1 ,*APT] #d ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,ALB]T ,CAMUS ,TEXT 3 ,I,V ,I,T IS ALWAYS 9T]E/+1 EV5 9 ! PRISON]'S DOCK1 TO HE> ONESELF BE+ TALK$ AB\T4 ,& C]TA9LY 9 ! SPEE*ES ( MY LAWY] & ! PROSECUT+ C\NSEL A GREAT DEAL WAS SAID AB\T ME2 MORE1 9 FACT1 AB\T ME P]SONALLY ?AN AB\T MY CRIME4 ,REALLY !RE WASN'T ANY V]Y GREAT DIFF]5CE BETWE5 ! TWO SPEE*ES4 ,C\NSEL = ! DEF5SE RAIS$ HIS >MS TO HEAV5 & PLEAD$ GUILTY1 BUT ) EXT5UAT+ CIRCUM/ANCES4 ,! ,PROSECUTOR MADE SIMIL> GE/URES2 HE AGRE$ ?AT ,I WAS GUILTY1 BUT D5I$ EXT5UAT+ CIRCUM/ANCES4 ,ONE ?+ AB\T ?IS PHASE ( ! TRIAL WAS RA!R IRKSOME4 ,QUITE (T51 9T]E/$ AS ,I WAS 9 :AT !Y HAD TO SAY1 ,I WAS TEMPT$ TO PUT 9 A WORD1 MYSELF4 ,BUT MY LAWY] HAD ADVIS$ ME NOT TO4 0,Y\ WON'T DO Y\R CASE ANY GOOD BY TALK+10 HE HAD W>N$ ME4 ,9 FACT1 !RE SEEM$ TO BE A CONSPIRACY TO EXCLUDE ME FROM ! PROCE$+S2 ,I WASN'T TO HAVE ANY SAY & MY FATE WAS TO BE DECID$ \T ( H&4 ,IT WAS QUITE AN EF=T AT TIMES = ME TO REFRA9 FROM CUTT+ !M ALL %ORT1 & SAY+3 0,BUT1 DAMN IT ALL1 :O'S ON TRIAL 9 ?IS C\RT1 ,I'D LIKE TO KN[8 ,IT'S A S]I\S MATT] = A MAN1 BE+ ACCUS$ ( MURD]4 ,& ,I'VE SOME?+ REALLY IMPORTANT TO TELL Y\40 ,H[EV]1 ON SECOND ?\+ ONESELF TALK$ AB\T LOSES ITS 9T]E/ V]Y SOON4 ,! ,PROSECUTOR'S SPEE*1 ESPECIALLY1 BEGAN TO BORE ME BE=E HE WAS HALFWAY ?R\< IT4 ,! ONLY ?+S ?AT REALLY CAUE AS CLE> AS DAYLIK WORK+S ( A CRIM9AL M5TALITY40 ,HE BEGAN BY SUMM+ UP ! FACTS1 FROM MY MO!R'S DEA? ONW>D4 ,HE /RESS$ MY HE>TLESSNESS1 MY 9ABILITY TO /ATE ,MO!R'S AGE1 MY VISIT TO ! SWIMM+ POOL :]E ,I MET ,M>IE1 \R MAT9EE AT ! PICTURES :]E A ,F]N&EL FILM WAS %[+1 & F9ALLY MY RETURN ) ,M>IE TO MY ROOMS4 ,I DIDN'T QUITE FOLL[ HIS REM>KS AT FIR/1 AS HE KEPT ON M5TION+ 0! PRISON]'S MI/RESS10 :]EAS = ME %E WAS JU/ 0,M>IE40 ,!N HE CAME TO ! SUBJECT ( ,RAYMOND4 ,IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT HIS WAY ( TREAT+ ! FACTS %[$ A C]TA9 %REWDNESS4 ,ALL HE SAID S\ND$ QUITE PLAUSIBLE4 ,I'D WRITT5 ! LETT] 9 COLLUSION ) ,RAYMOND SO AS TO 5TICE HIS MI/RESS TO HIS ROOM & SUBJECT H] TO ILL-TREATM5T BY A MAN 0( MORE ?AN DUBI\S REPUTATION40 ,!N1 ON ! BEA*1 ,I'D PROVOK$ A BRAWL ) ,RAYMOND'S 5EMIES1 9 ! C\RSE ( :I* ,RAYMOND WAS W\ND$4 ,I'D ASK$ HIM = HIS REVOLV] & GONE BACK BY MYSELF ) ! 9T5TION ( US+ IT4 ,!N ,I'D %OT ! ,>AB4 ,AFT] ! FIR/ %OT ,I WAIT$4 ,!N1 0TO BE C]TA9 ( MAK+ A GOOD JOB ( IT10 ,I FIR$ F\R MORE %OTS DELIB]ATELY1 PO9T-BLANK1 & 9 COLD BLOOD1 AT MY VICTIM4 0,?AT IS MY CASE10 HE SAID4 0,I HAVE DESCRIB$ TO Y\ ! S]IES ( EV5TS :I* L$ ?IS MAN TO KILL ! DECEAS$1 FULLY AW>E ( :AT HE WAS DO+4 ,I EMPHASIZE ?IS PO9T4 ,WE >E NOT CONC]N$ ) AN ACT ( HOMICIDE COMMITT$ ON A SUDD5 IMPULSE :I* MIE :AT HE WAS DO+40 ,I NOTIC$ ?AT HE LAID /RESS ON MY 09TELLIG5CE40 ,IT PUZZL$ ME RA!R :Y :AT W\LD C\NT AS A GOOD PO9T 9 AN ORD9>Y P]SON %\LD BE US$ AGA9/ AN ACCUS$ MAN AS AN OV]:ELM+ PRO( ( HIS GUILT4 ,:ILE ?9K+ ?IS OV]1 ,I MISS$ :AT HE SAID NEXT1 UNTIL ,I HE>D HIM EXCLAIM 9DIGNANTLY3 0,& HAS HE UTT]$ A WORD ( REGRET = HIS MO/ ODI\S CRIME8 ,NOT ONE WORD1 G5TLEM54 ,NOT ONCE 9 ! C\RSE ( !SE PROCE$+S DID ?IS MAN %[ ! LEA/ CONTRITION40 ,TURN+ T[>D ! DOCK1 HE PO9T$ A F+] AT ME1 & W5T ON 9 ! SAME /RA94 ,I REALLY C\LDN'T UND]/& :Y HE H>P$ ON ?IS PO9T SO MU*4 ,( C\RSE1 ,I HAD TO [N ?AT HE WAS RI TOO MU* ABSORB$ 9 ! PRES5T MOM5T1 OR ! IMM$IATE FUTURE1 TO ?9K BACK4 ,( C\RSE1 9 ! POSITION 9TO :I* ,I HAD BE5 =C$1 !RE WAS NO QUE/ION ( MY SPEAK+ TO ANYONE 9 ?AT TONE4 ,I HADN'T ! RID MY MO!R1 REPEAT+ :AT HE HAD SAID 9 ! C\RSE ( ! HE>+4 ,BUT HE SPOKE AT MU* GREAT] L5G? ( MY CRIME -- AT SU* L5G?1 9DE$1 ?AT ,I LO/ ! ?READ & WAS CONSCI\S ONLY ( ! /EADILY 9CREAS+ HEAT4 ,A MOM5T CAME :5 ! ,PROSECUTOR PAUS$ &1 AFT] A %ORT SIL5CE1 SAID 9 A L[1 VIBRANT VOICE3 0,?IS SAME C\RT1 G5TLEM51 WILL BE CALL$ ON TO TRY TOMORR[ ?AT MO/ ODI\S ( CRIMES1 ! MURD] ( A FA!R BY HIS SON40 ,TO HIS M9D1 SU* A CRIME WAS ALMO/ UNIMAG9ABLE4 ,BUT1 HE V5TUR$ TO HOPE1 JU/ICE W\LD BE MET$ \T )\T PALT]+4 ,& YET1 HE MADE BOLD TO SAY1 ! HORROR ?AT EV5 ! CRIME ( P>RICIDE 9SPIR$ 9 HIM PAL$ BESIDE ! LOA?+ 9SPIR$ BY MY CALL\SNESS4 0,?IS MAN1 :O IS MORALLY GUILTY ( HIS MO!R'S DEA?1 IS NO LESS UNFIT TO HAVE A PLACE 9 ! COMMUNITY ?AN ?AT O!R MAN :O DID TO DEA? ! FA!R ?AT BEGAT HIM4 ,&1 9DE$1 ! ONE CRIME L$ ON TO ! O!R2 ! FIR/ ( !SE TWO CRIM9ALS1 ! MAN 9 ! DOCK1 SET A PREC$5T1 IF ,I MAY PUT IT SO1 & AU?ORIZ$ ! SECOND CRIME4 ,YES1 G5TLEM51 ,I AM CONV9C$0 -- H]E HE RAIS$ HIS VOICE A TONE -- 0?AT Y\ WILL NOT F9D ,I AM EXAGG]AT+ ! CASE AGA9/ ! PRISON] :5 ,I SAY ?AT HE IS ALSO GUILTY ( ! MURD] TO BE TRI$ TOMORR[ 9 ?IS C\RT4 ,& ,I LOOK TO Y\ = A V]DICT ACCORD+LY40 ,! ,PROSECUTOR PAUS$ AGA91 TO WIPE ! SWEAT (F HIS FACE4 ,HE !N EXPLA9$ ?AT HIS DUTY WAS A PA9FUL ONE1 BUT HE W\LD DO IT )\T FL9*+4 0,?IS MAN HAS1 ,I REPEAT1 NO PLACE 9 A COMMUNITY :OSE BASIC PR9CIPLES HE FL\TS )\T COMPUNCTION4 ,NOR1 HE>TLESS AS HE IS1 HAS HE ANY CLAIM TO M]CY4 ,I ASK Y\ TO IMPOSE ! EXTREME P5ALTY ( ! LAW2 & ,I ASK IT )\T A QUALM4 ,9 ! C\RSE ( A LONG C>E]1 9 :I* IT HAS (T5 BE5 MY DUTY TO ASK = A CAPITAL S5T5CE1 NEV] HAVE ,I FELT ?AT PA9FUL DUTY WEI< SO LITTLE ON MY M9D AS 9 ! PRES5T CASE4 ,9 DEM&+ A V]DICT ( MURD] )\T EXT5UAT+ CIRCUM/ANCES1 ,I AM FOLL[+ NOT ONLY ! DICTATES ( MY CONSCI5CE & A SACR$ OBLIGATION1 BUT ALSO ?OSE ( ! NATURAL & RIK ( HUMAN FEEL+40 ,:5 ! ,PROSECUTOR SAT D[N !RE WAS A LONGI% SIL5CE4 ,P]SONALLY ,I WAS QUITE OV]COME BY ! HEAT & MY AMAZEM5T AT :AT ,I HAD BE5 HE>+4 ,! PRESID+ JUDGE GAVE A %ORT C\<1 & ASK$ ME 9 A V]Y L[ TONE IF ,I HAD ANY?+ TO SAY4 ,I ROSE1 & AS ,I FELT 9 ! MOOD TO SPEAK1 ,I SAID ! FIR/ ?+ ?AT CROSS$ MY M9D3 ?AT ,I'D HAD NO 9T5TION ( KILL+ ! ,>AB4 ,! ,JUDGE REPLI$ ?AT ?IS /ATEM5T W\LD BE TAK5 9TO CONSID]ATION BY ! C\RT4 ,MEAN:ILE HE W\LD BE GLAD TO HE>1 BE=E MY C\NSEL ADDRESS$ ! C\RT1 :AT W]E ! MOTIVES ( MY CRIME4 ,SO F>1 HE MU/ ADMIT1 HE HADN'T FULLY UND]/OOD ! GR\NDS ( MY DEF5SE4 ,I TRI$ TO EXPLA9 ?AT IT WAS BECAUSE ( ! SUN1 BUT ,I SPOKE TOO QUICKLY & RAN MY WORDS 9TO EA* O!R4 ,I WAS ONLY TOO CONSCI\S ?AT IT S\ND$ NONS5SICAL1 &1 9 FACT1 ,I HE>D PEOPLE TITT]+4 ,MY LAWY] %RUGG$ HIS %\LD]S4 ,!N HE WAS DIRECT$ TO ADDRESS ! C\RT1 9 HIS TURN4 ,BUT ALL HE DID WAS TO PO9T \T ! LAT5ESS ( ! H\R & TO ASK = AN ADJ\RNM5T TILL ! FOLL[+ AFT]NOON4 ,TO ?IS ! JUDGE AGRE$4 ,:5 ,I WAS BR\S2 IT WAS :5 ,I HE>D HIM SAY+3 0,IT IS TRUE ,I KILL$ A MAN40 ,HE W5T ON 9 ! SAME /RA91 SAY+ 0,I0 :5 HE REF]R$ TO ME4 ,IT SEEM$ SO QUE] ?AT ,I B5T T[>D ! POLICEMAN ON MY RIDLY MATT]$2 ,I ALREADY FELT WORLDS AWAY FROM ?IS C\RTROOM & ITS T$I\S 0PROCE$+S40 ,MY LAWY]1 9 ANY CASE1 /RUCK ME AS FEEBLE TO ! PO9T ( BE+ RIDICUL\S4 ,HE HURRI$ ?R\< HIS PLEA ( PROVOCATION1 & !N HE1 TOO1 />T$ 9 AB\T MY S\L4 ,BUT ,I HAD AN IMPRESSION ?AT HE HAD MU* LESS TAL5T ?AN ! ,PROSECUTOR4 0,I1 TOO10 HE SAID1 0HAVE CLOSELY /UDI$ ?IS MAN'S S\L2 BUT1 UNLIKE MY LE>N$ FRI5D = ! PROSECUTION1 ,I HAVE F\ND SOME?+ !RE4 ,9DE$1 ,I MAY SAY ?AT ,I HAVE READ ! PRISON]'S M9D LIKE AN OP5 BOOK40 ,:AT HE HAD READ !RE WAS ?AT ,I WAS AN EXCELL5T Y\NG FELL[1 A /EADY1 CONSCI5TI\S WORK] :O DID HIS BE/ BY HIS EMPLOY]2 ?AT ,I WAS POPUL> ) EV]YONE & SYMPA!TIC 9 O!RS' TR\BLES4 ,ACCORD+ TO HIM ,I WAS A DUTIFUL SON1 :O HAD SUPPORT$ HIS MO!R AS LONG AS HE WAS ABLE4 ,AFT] ANXI\S CONSID]ATION ,I HAD REA*$ ! CONCLUSION ?AT1 BY 5T]+ A HOME1 ! OLD LADY W\LD HAVE COM=TS ?AT MY MEANS DIDN'T P]MIT ME TO PROVIDE = H]4 0,I AM A/\ND$1 G5TLEM510 HE ADD$1 0BY ! ATTITUDE TAK5 UP BY MY LE>N$ FRI5D 9 REF]R+ TO ?IS ,HOME4 ,SURELY IF PRO( BE NE$$ ( ! EXCELL5CE ( SU* 9/ITUTIONS1 WE NE$ ONLY REMEMB] ?AT !Y >E PROMOT$ & F9ANC$ BY A GOV]NM5T DEP>TM5T40 ,I NOTIC$ ?AT HE MADE NO REF]5CE TO ! FUN]AL1 & ?IS SEEM$ TO ME A S]I\S OMISSION4 ,BUT1 :AT ) HIS LONG-W9D$NESS1 ! 5DLESS DAYS & H\RS !Y HAD BE5 DISCUSS+ MY 0S\L10 & ! RE/ ( IT1 ,I F\ND ?AT MY M9D HAD GONE BLURR$2 EV]Y?+ WAS DISSOLV+ 9TO A GRAYI%1 WAT]Y HAZE4 ,ONLY ONE 9CID5T /&S \T2 T[>D ! 5D1 :ILE MY C\NSEL RAMBL$ ON1 ,I HE>D ! T9 TRUMPET ( AN ICE-CREAM V5DOR 9 ! /REET1 A SMALL1 %RILL S\ND CUTT+ ACROSS ! FL[ ( WORDS4 ,& !N A RU% ( MEMORIES W5T ?R\< MY M9D -- MEMORIES ( A LIFE :I* WAS M9E NO LONG] & HAD ONCE PROVID$ ME ) ! SURE/1 HUMBLE/ PLEASURES3 W>M SMELLS ( SUMM]1 MY FAVORITE /REETS1 ! SKY AT EV5+1 ,M>IE'S DRESSES & H] LAU<4 ,! FUTILITY ( :AT WAS HAPP5+ H]E SEEM$ TO TAKE ME BY ! ?ROAT1 ,I FELT LIKE VOMIT+1 & ,I HAD ONLY ONE IDEA3 TO GET IT OV]1 TO GO BACK TO MY CELL1 & SLEEP 444 & SLEEP4 ,DIMLY ,I HE>D MY C\NSEL MAK+ HIS LA/ APPEAL4 0,G5TLEM5 ( ! JURY1 SURELY Y\ WILL NOT S5D TO HIS DEA? A DEC5T1 H>D- WORK+ Y\NG MAN1 BECAUSE = ONE TRAGIC MOM5T HE LO/ HIS SELF-CONTROL8 ,IS HE NOT SUFFICI5TLY PUNI%$ BY ! LIFELONG REMORSE ?AT IS TO BE HIS LOT8 ,I CONFID5TLY AWAIT Y\R V]DICT1 ! ONLY V]DICT POSSIBLE -- ?AT ( HOMICIDE ) EXT5UAT+ CIRCUM/ANCES40 ,! C\RT ROSE1 & ! LAWY] SAT D[N1 LOOK+ ?OR\D ONE ( !M SAY4 ,ANO!R LAWY] EV5 CALL$ ME TO WITNESS3 0,F9E1 WASN'T IT80 ,I AGRE$1 BUT 9S9C]ELY2 ,I WAS F> TOO TIR$ TO JUDGE IF IT HAD BE5 0F9E0 OR O!RWISE4 ,MEAN:ILE ! DAY WAS 5D+ & ! HEAT BECOM+ LESS 9T5SE4 ,BY SOME VAGUE S\NDS ?AT REA*$ ME FROM ! /REET ,I KNEW ?AT ! COOL ( ! EV5+ HAD SET 94 ,WE ALL SAT ON1 WAIT+4 ,& :AT WE ALL W]E WAIT+ = REALLY CONC]N$ NOBODY BUT ME4 ,I LOOK$ R\ND ! C\RTROOM4 ,IT WAS EXACTLY AS IT HAD BE5 ON ! FIR/ DAY4 ,I MET ! EYES ( ! J\RNALI/ 9 GRAY & ! ROBOT WOMAN4 ,?IS REM9D$ ME ?AT NOT ONCE DUR+ ! :OLE HE>+ HAD ,I TRI$ TO CAT* ,M>IE'S EYE4 ,IT WASN'T ?AT ,I'D =GOTT5 H]2 ONLY ,I WAS TOO PREOCCUPI$4 ,I SAW H] N[1 SEAT$ BETWE5 ,CELE/E & ,RAYMOND4 ,%E GAVE ME A LITTLE WAVE ( H] H&1 AS IF TO SAY1 0,AT LA/60 ,%E WAS SMIL+1 BUT ,I C\LD TELL ?AT %E WAS RA!R ANXI\S4 ,BUT MY HE>T SEEM$ TURN$ TO /ONE1 & ,I C\LDN'T EV5 RETURN H] SMILE4 ,! JUDGES CAME BACK TO !IR SEATS4 ,SOMEONE READ \T TO ! JURY1 V]Y RAPIDLY1 A /R+ ( QUE/IONS4 ,I CAUS' IMPRISONM5T OR TRANSPORTATION4 ,I ASK$ HIM :AT W]E ! *ANCES ( GETT+ ! S5T5CE QUA%$4 ,HE SAID !RE WAS NO *ANCE ( ?AT4 ,HE HAD NOT RAIS$ ANY PO9T ( LAW1 AS ?IS WAS APT TO PREJUDICE ! JURY4 ,& IT WAS DIFFICULT TO GET A JUDGM5T QUA%$ EXCEPT ON TE*NICAL GR\NDS4 ,I SAW HIS PO9T1 & AGRE$4 ,LOOK+ AT ! MATT] DISPASSIONATELY1 ,I %>$ HIS VIEW4 ,O!RWISE !RE W\LD BE NO 5D TO LITIGATION4 0,9 ANY CASE10 ! LAWY] SAID1 0Y\ CAN APPEAL 9 ! ORD9>Y WAY4 ,BUT ,I'M CONV9C$ ! V]DICT WILL BE FAVORABLE40 ,WE WAIT$ = QUITE A :ILE1 A GOOD ?REE QU>T]S ( AN H\R1 ,I %\LD SAY4 ,!N A BELL RANG4 ,MY LAWY] LEFT ME1 SAY+3 0,! =EMAN ( ! JURY WILL READ \T ! ANSW]S4 ,Y\ WILL BE CALL$ ON AFT] ?AT TO HE> ! JUDGM5T40 ,SOME DOORS BANG$4 ,I HE>D PEOPLE HURRY+ D[N FLI BY OR DI/ANT4 ,!N ,I HE>D A VOICE DRON+ AWAY 9 ! C\RTROOM4 ,:5 ! BELL RANG AGA9 & ,I /EPP$ BACK 9TO ! DOCK1 ! SIL5CE ( ! C\RTROOM CLOS$ 9 R\ND ME1 & ) ! SIL5CE CAME A QUE] S5SATION :5 ,I NOTIC$ ?AT1 = !4 FIR/ TIME1 ! Y\NG J\RNALI/ KEPT HIS EYES AV]T$4 ,I DIDN'T LOOK 9 ,M>IE'S DIRECTION4 ,9 FACT1 ,I HAD NO TIME TO LOOK1 AS ! PRESID+ JUDGE HAD ALREADY />T$ PRON\NC+ A RIGM>OLE TO ! EFFECT ?AT 09 ! NAME ( ! ,FR5* PEOPLE0 ,I WAS TO BE DECAPITAT$ 9 SOME PUBLIC PLACE4 ,IT SEEM$ TO ME !N ?AT ,I C\LD 9T]PRET ! LOOK ON ! FACES ( ?OSE PRES5T2 IT WAS ONE ( ALMO/ RESPECTFUL SYMPA?Y4 ,! POLICEM51 TOO1 H&L$ ME V]Y G5TLY4 ,! LAWY] PLAC$ HIS H& ON MY WRI/4 ,I HAD /OPP$ ?9K+ ALTOGE!R4 ,I HE>D ! ,JUDGE'S VOICE ASK+ IF ,I HAD ANY?+ MORE TO SAY4 ,AFT] ?9K+ = A MOM5T1 ,I ANSW]$1 0,NO40 ,!N ! POLICEM5 L$ ME \T4 ,FROM 3 ,!,AN>*I/,LIBR>Y4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,JANU>Y #b#e1 #bba 3 ,P>T #b1 ,*APT] #d -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/