,BOOK #a1 ,*APT] #af #ahhiahhi ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TRANSLATOR 3 ,B5JAM9 ,R4 ,TUCK] ,TEXT 3 0,! *ILDR5 CAME RAPIDLY1 ONE AFT] ANO!R1 & !RE HAPP5$ :AT HAPP5S 9 \R SOCIETY ) *ILDR5 & DOCTORS4 ,YES1 *ILDR51 MAT]NAL LOVE1 IT IS A PA9FUL ?+4 ,*ILDR51 TO A WOMAN ( \R SOCIETY1 >E NOT A JOY1 A PRIDE1 NOR A FULFILLM5T ( H] VOCATION1 BUT A CAUSE ( FE>1 ANXIETY1 & 9T]M9ABLE SUFF]+1 TORTURE4 ,WOM5 SAY IT1 !Y ?9K IT1 & !Y FEEL IT TOO4 ,*ILDR5 TO !M >E REALLY A TORTURE1 NOT BECAUSE !Y DO NOT WI% TO GIVE BIR? TO !M1 NURSE !M1 & C>E = !M 7WOM5 ) A /RONG MAT]NAL 9/9CT--& SU* WAS MY WIFE-->E READY TO DO ?AT71 BUT BECAUSE ! *ILDR5 MAY FALL SICK & DIE4 ,!Y DO NOT WI% TO GIVE BIR? TO !M1 & !N NOT LOVE !M2 & :5 !Y LOVE1 !Y DO NOT WI% TO FEEL FE> = ! *ILD'S HEAL? & LIFE4 ,?AT IS :Y !Y DO NOT WI% TO NURSE !M4 ',IF ,I NURSE IT1' !Y SAY1 ',I %ALL BECOME TOO FOND ( IT4' ,ONE W\LD ?9K ?AT !Y PREF]R$ 9DIA-RUBB] *ILDR51 :I* C\LD NEI!R BE SICK NOR DIE1 & C\LD ALWAYS BE REPAIR$4 ,:AT AN 5TANGLEM5T 9 ! BRA9S ( !SE POOR WOM56 ,:Y SU* ABOM9ATIONS TO AVOID PREGNANCY1 & TO AVOID ! LOVE ( ! LITTLE ONES8 0,LOVE1 ! MO/ JOY\S CONDITION ( ! S\L1 IS REPRES5T$ AS A DANG]4 ,& :Y8 ,BECAUSE1 :5 A MAN DOES NOT LIVE AS A MAN1 HE IS WORSE ?AN A BEA/4 ,A WOMAN CANNOT LOOK UPON A *ILD O!RWISE ?AN AS A PLEASURE4 ,IT IS TRUE ?AT IT IS PA9FUL TO GIVE BIR? TO IT1 BUT :AT LITTLE H&S6 4 4 4 ,OH1 ! LITTLE H&S6 ,OH1 ! LITTLE FEET6 ,OH1 ITS SMILE6 ,OH1 ITS LITTLE BODY6 ,OH1 ITS PRATTLE6 ,OH1 ITS HICC\<6 ,9 A WORD1 IT IS A FEEL+ ( ANIMAL1 S5SUAL MAT]NITY4 ,BUT AS = ANY IDEA AS TO ! MY/]I\S SIGNIFICANCE ( ! APPE>ANCE ( A NEW HUMAN BE+ TO REPLACE US1 !RE IS SC>CELY A SIGN ( IT4 0,NO?+ ( IT APPE>S 9 ALL ?AT IS SAID & DONE4 ,NO ONE HAS ANY FAI? N[ 9 A BAPTISM ( ! *ILD1 & YET ?AT WAS NO?+ BUT A REM9D] ( ! HUMAN SIGNIFICANCE ( ! NEWBORN BABE4 0,!Y HAVE REJECT$ ALL ?AT1 BUT !Y HAVE NOT REPLAC$ IT1 & !RE REMA9 ONLY ! DRESSES1 ! LACES1 ! LITTLE H&S1 ! LITTLE FEET1 & :ATEV] EXI/S 9 ! ANIMAL4 ,BUT ! ANIMAL HAS NEI!R IMAG9ATION1 NOR =ESIE = IT1 :AT DOCTOR TO CALL1 :]E TO GO8 ,IF IT DIES1 !RE WILL BE NO MORE LITTLE H&S OR LITTLE FEET1 & !N :AT IS ! USE ( ! SUFF]+S 5DUR$8 ,! C[ DOES NOT ASK ALL ?AT1 & ?IS IS :Y *ILDR5 >E A S\RCE ( MIS]Y4 ,! C[ HAS NO IMAG9ATION1 & = ?AT REASON CANNOT ?9K H[ IT MIY TO ACT1 9 Y\R OP9ION1 9 ORD] TO TREAT *ILDR5 HUMANLY80 ,I ASK$4 0,H[8 ,:Y1 LOVE !M HUMANLY40 0,WELL1 DO NOT MO!RS LOVE !IR *ILDR580 0,!Y DO NOT LOVE !M HUMANLY1 OR V]Y SELDOM DO1 & ?AT IS :Y !Y DO NOT LOVE !M EV5 AS DOGS4 ,M>K ?IS1 A H51 A GOOSE1 A WOLF1 WILL ALWAYS REMA9 TO WOMAN 9ACCESSIBLE IDEALS ( ANIMAL LOVE4 ,IT IS A R>E ?+ = A WOMAN TO ?R[ H]SELF1 AT ! P]IL ( H] LIFE1 UPON AN ELEPHANT TO SNAT* H] *ILD AWAY1 :]EAS A H5 OR A SP>R[ WILL NOT FAIL TO FLY AT A DOG & SACRIFICE ITSELF UTT]LY = ITS *ILDR54 ,OBS]VE ?IS1 ALSO4 ,WOMAN HAS ! P[] TO LIMIT H] PHYSICAL LOVE = H] *ILDR51 :I* AN ANIMAL CANNOT DO4 ,DOES ?AT MEAN ?AT1 BECAUSE ( ?IS1 WOMAN IS 9F]IOR TO ! ANIMAL8 ,NO4 ,%E IS SUP]IOR 7& EV5 TO SAY SUP]IOR IS UNJU/1 %E IS NOT SUP]IOR1 %E IS DIFF]5T71 BUT %E HAS O!R DUTIES1 HUMAN DUTIES4 ,%E CAN RE/RA9 H]SELF 9 ! MATT] ( ANIMAL LOVE1 & TRANSF] H] LOVE TO ! S\L ( ! *ILD4 ,?AT IS :AT WOMAN'S ROLE %\LD BE1 & ?AT IS PRECISELY :AT WE DO NOT SEE 9 \R SOCIETY4 ,WE READ ( ! H]OIC ACTS ( MO!RS :O SACRIFICE !IR *ILDR5 9 ! NAME ( A SUP]IOR IDEA1 & !SE ?+S SEEM TO US LIKE TALES ( ! ANCI5T WORLD1 :I* DO NOT CONC]N US4 ,& YET ,I BELIEVE ?AT1 IF ! MO!R HAS NOT SOME IDEAL1 9 ! NAME ( :I* %E CAN SACRIFICE ! ANIMAL FEEL+1 & IF ?IS =CE F9DS NO EMPLOYM5T1 %E WILL TRANSF] IT TO *IM]ICAL ATTEMPTS TO PHYSICALLY PRES]VE H] *ILD1 AID$ 9 ?IS TASK BY ! DOCTOR1 & %E WILL SUFF] AS %E DOES SUFF]4 0,SO IT WAS ) MY WIFE4 ,:E!R !RE WAS ONE *ILD OR FIVE1 ! FEEL+ REMA9$ ! SAME4 ,9 FACT1 IT WAS A LITTLE BETT] :5 !RE HAD BE5 FIVE4 ,LIFE WAS ALWAYS POISON$ ) FE> = ! *ILDR51 NOT ONLY FROM !IR REAL OR IMAG9>Y DISEASES1 BUT EV5 BY !IR SIMPLE PRES5CE4 ,= MY P>T1 AT LEA/1 ?R\<\T MY CONJUGAL LIFE1 ALL MY 9T]E/S & ALL MY HAPP9ESS DEP5D$ UPON ! HEAL? ( MY *ILDR51 !IR CONDITION1 !IR /UDIES4 ,*ILDR51 IT IS NE$LESS TO SAY1 >E A S]I\S CONSID]ATION2 BUT ALL \5TS CAN NO LONG] LIVE4 ,REGUL> LIFE DOES NOT EXI/ = !M4 ,! :OLE LIFE ( ! FAMILY HANGS BY A HAIR4 ,:AT A T]RIBLE ?+ IT IS TO SUDD5LY RECEIVE ! NEWS ?AT LITTLE ,BASILE IS VOMIT+1 OR ?AT ,LISE HAS A CRAMP 9 ! /OMA*6 ,IMM$IATELY Y\ AB&ON EV]Y?+1 Y\ =GET EV]Y?+1 EV]Y?+ BECOMES NO?+4 ,! ESS5TIAL ?+ IS ! DOCTOR1 ! 5EMA1 ! TEMP]ATURE4 ,Y\ CANNOT BEG9 A CONV]SATION BUT LITTLE ,PI]RE COMES RUNN+ 9 ) AN ANXI\S AIR TO ASK IF HE MAY EAT AN APPLE1 OR :AT JACKET HE %ALL PUT ON1 OR ELSE IT IS ! S]VANT :O 5T]S ) A SCREAM+ BABY4 0,REGUL>1 /EADY FAMILY LIFE DOES NOT EXI/4 ,:]E Y\ LIVE1 & CONSEQU5TLY :AT Y\ DO1 DEP5DS UPON ! HEAL? ( ! LITTLE ONES1 ! HEAL? ( ! LITTLE ONES DEP5DS UPON NOBODY1 &1 ?ANKS TO ! DOCTORS1 :O PRET5D TO AID HEAL?1 Y\R 5TIRE LIFE IS DI/URB$4 ,IT IS A P]PETUAL P]IL4 ,SC>CELY DO WE BELIEVE \RSELVES \T ( IT :5 A NEW DANG] COMES3 MORE ATTEMPTS TO SAVE4 ,ALWAYS ! SITUATION ( SAILORS ON A F\ND]+ VESSEL4 ,SOMETIMES IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ?IS WAS DONE ON PURPOSE1 ?AT MY WIFE FEIGN$ ANXIETY 9 ORD] TO CONQU] ME1 S9CE ?AT SOLV$ ! QUE/ION SO SIMPLY = H] B5EFIT4 ,IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ALL ?AT %E DID AT ?OSE TIMES WAS DONE = ITS EFFECT UPON ME1 BUT N[ ,I SEE ?AT %E H]SELF1 MY WIFE1 SUFF]$ & WAS TORTUR$ ON ACC\NT ( ! LITTLE ONES1 !IR HEAL?1 & !IR DISEASES4 0,A TORTURE TO BO? ( US1 BUT TO H] ! *ILDR5 W]E ALSO A MEANS ( =GETT+ H]SELF1 LIKE AN 9TOXICATION4 ,I (T5 NOTIC$1 :5 %E WAS V]Y SAD1 ?AT %E WAS RELIEV$1 :5 A *ILD FELL SICK1 AT BE+ ABLE TO TAKE REFUGE 9 ?IS 9TOXICATION4 ,IT WAS 9VOLUNT>Y 9TOXICATION1 BECAUSE AS YET !RE WAS NO?+ ELSE4 ,ON EV]Y SIDE WE HE>D ?AT ,MRS4 ,SO-&-SO HAD LO/ *ILDR51 ?AT ,DR4 ,SO-&-SO HAD SAV$ ! *ILD ( ,MRS4 ,SO-&-SO1 & ?AT 9 A C]TA9 FAMILY ALL HAD MOV$ FROM ! H\SE 9 :I* !Y W]E LIV+1 & !REBY SAV$ ! LITTLE ONES4 ,& ! DOCTORS1 ) A S]I\S AIR1 CONFIRM$ ?IS1 SU/A9+ MY WIFE 9 H] OP9IONS4 ,%E WAS NOT PRONE TO FE>1 BUT ! DOCTOR DROPP$ SOME WORD1 LIKE CORRUPTION ( ! BLOOD1 SC>LAT9A1 OR ELSE--HEAV5 HELP US--DIPH!RIA1 & (F %E W5T4 0,IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE = IT TO BE O!RWISE4 ,WOM5 9 ! OLD DAYS HAD ! BELIEF ?AT ',GOD HAS GIV51 ,GOD HAS TAK5 AWAY1' ?AT ! S\L ( ! LITTLE ANGEL IS GO+ TO HEAV51 & ?AT IT IS BETT] TO DIE 9NOC5T ?AN TO DIE 9 S94 ,IF ! WOM5 ( TO-DAY HAD SOME?+ LIKE ?IS FAI?1 !Y C\LD 5DURE MORE PEACEFULLY ! SICKNESS ( !IR *ILDR54 ,BUT ( ALL ?AT !RE DOES NOT REMA9 EV5 A TRACE4 ,& YET IT IS NECESS>Y TO BELIEVE 9 SOME?+2 CONSEQU5TLY !Y /UPIDLY BELIEVE 9 M$IC9E1 & NOT EV5 9 M$IC9E1 BUT 9 ! DOCTOR4 ,ONE BELIEVES 9 ,X1 ANO!R 9 ,Z1 &1 LIKE ALL BELIEV]S1 !Y DO NOT SEE ! IDIOCY ( !IR BELIEFS4 ,!Y BELIEVE QUIA ABSURDUM1 BECAUSE1 9 REALITY1 IF !Y DID NOT BELIEVE 9 A /UPID WAY1 !Y W\LD SEE ! VANITY ( ALL ?AT !SE BRIG&S PRESCRIBE = !M4 ,SC>LAT9A IS A CONTAGI\S DISEASE2 SO1 :5 ONE LIVES 9 A L>GE CITY1 HALF ! FAMILY HAS TO MOVE AWAY FROM ITS RESID5CE 7WE DID IT TWICE71 & YET EV]Y MAN 9 ! CITY IS A C5T] ?R\< :I* PASS 9NUM]ABLE DIAMET]S1 C>RY+ ?READS ( ALL SORTS ( CONTAGIONS4 ,!RE IS NO OB/ACLE3 ! BAK]1 ! TAILOR1 ! COA*MAN1 ! LAUNDRESSES4 0,& ,I W\LD UND]TAKE1 = EV]Y MAN :O MOVES ON ACC\NT ( CONTAGION1 TO F9D 9 HIS NEW DWELL+-PLACE ANO!R CONTAGION SIMIL>1 IF NOT ! SAME4 0,BUT ?AT IS NOT ALL4 ,EV]Y ONE KN[S RI* PEOPLE :O1 AFT] A CASE ( DIPH!RIA1 DE/ROY EV]Y?+ 9 !IR RESID5CES1 & !N FALL SICK 9 H\SES NEWLY BUILT & FURNI%$4 ,EV]Y ONE KN[S1 LIKEWISE1 NUMB]S ( M5 :O COME 9 CONTACT ) SICK PEOPLE & DO NOT GET 9FECT$4 ,\R ANXIETIES >E DUE TO ! PEOPLE :O CIRCULATE TALL /ORIES4 ,ONE WOMAN SAYS ?AT %E HAS AN EXCELL5T DOCTOR4 ',P>DON ME1' ANSW]S ! O!R1 'HE KILL$ SU* A ONE1' OR SU* A ONE4 ,& VISE V]SA4 ,BR+ H] ANO!R1 :O KN[S NO MORE1 :O LE>N$ FROM ! SAME BOOKS1 :O TREATS ACCORD+ TO ! SAME =MULAS1 BUT :O GOES AB\T 9 A C>RIAGE1 & ASKS A HUNDR$ RUBLES A VISIT1 & %E WILL HAVE FAI? 9 HIM4 0,IT ALL LIES 9 ! FACT ?AT \R WOM5 >E SAVAGES4 ,!Y HAVE NO BELIEF 9 ,GOD1 BUT SOME ( !M BELIEVE 9 ! EVIL EYE1 & ! O!RS 9 DOCTORS :O *>GE HI< FEES4 ,IF !Y HAD FAI? !Y W\LD KN[ ?AT SC>LAT9A1 DIPH!RIA1 ETC41 >E NOT SO T]RIBLE1 S9CE !Y CANNOT DI/URB ?AT :I* MAN CAN & %\LD LOVE1--! S\L4 ,!RE CAN RESULT FROM !M ONLY ?AT :I* NONE ( US CAN AVOID1--DISEASE & DEA?4 ,)\T FAI? 9 ,GOD1 !Y LOVE ONLY PHYSICALLY1 & ALL !IR 5]GY IS CONC5TRAT$ UPON ! PRES]VATION ( LIFE1 :I* CANNOT BE PRES]V$1 & :I* ! DOCTORS PROMISE ! FOOLS ( BO? SEXES TO SAVE4 ,& FROM ?AT TIME !RE IS NO?+ TO BE DONE2 ! DOCTORS MU/ BE SUMMON$4 0,?US ! PRES5CE ( ! *ILDR5 NOT ONLY DID NOT IMPROVE \R RELATIONS AS HUSB& & WIFE1 BUT1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 DISUNIT$ US4 ,! *ILDR5 BECAME AN ADDITIONAL CAUSE ( DISPUTE1 & ! L>G] !Y GREW1 ! MORE !Y BECAME AN 9/RUM5T ( /RUGGLE4 0,ONE W\LD HAVE SAID ?AT WE US$ !M AS WEAPONS ) :I* TO COMBAT EA* O!R4 ,EA* ( US HAD HIS FAVORITE4 ,I MADE USE ( LITTLE ,BASILE 7! ELDE/71 %E ( ,LISE4 ,FUR!R1 :5 ! *ILDR5 REA*$ AN AGE :]E !IR *>ACT]S BEGAN TO BE DEF9$1 !Y BECAME ALLIES1 :I* WE DREW EA* 9 HIS OR H] [N DIRECTION4 ,!Y SUFF]$ HORRIBLY FROM ?IS1 ! POOR ?+S1 BUT WE1 9 \R P]PETUAL HUBBUB1 W]E NOT CLE>HEAD$ 5\< TO ?9K ( !M4 ,! LITTLE GIRL WAS DEVOT$ TO ME1 BUT ! ELDE/ BOY1 :O RESEMBL$ MY WIFE1 HIS FAVORITE1 (T5 9SPIR$ ME ) DISLIKE40 ,FROM 3 ,GUT5B]G4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,NOVEMB] #c1 #ahhh 3 ,BOOK #a1 ,*APT] #af -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,FEBRU>Y #a#f1 #bag 3 ,BOOK #a1 ,*APT] #af -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/