#ahii #aiagaiag ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TRANSLATOR 3 ,ROSE ,/RUNSKY ,TEXT 3 #ahii .<#b#f#i.> ,JAN4 #b4 ,YASNAYA ,POLYANA4 ,! LA/ TIME ,I WROTE IT WAS ,NOVEMB] #b#e1 :I* MEANS A MON? & A WEEK4 ,I MADE 5TRIES 9 ,YASNAYA ,POLYANA1 !N ,I WAS 9 ,MOSC[1 :]E ,I DID NOT MAKE ONE 5TRY4 ,AT ! 5D ( ,NOVEMB] ,I W5T TO ,PIROGOVO4 ,I RETURN$ ON ! FIR/ & S9CE ?AT TIME HAVE NOT BE5 QUITE WELL--! SMALL ( MY BACK A*$ & /ILL A*ES1 & LATELY ,I HAVE HAD SOME?+ LIKE BILI\S FEV]4 ,IT IS ! SECOND DAY ?AT ,I AM BETT]4 ,ALL ?IS TIME ,I HAVE BE5 OCCUPI$ EXCLUSIVELY ) ,RESURRECTION4.<#c#g#d.> ,I HAVE HAD SOME COMMUNICATIONS AB\T ! ,DUKHOBORS1.<#c#g#e.> AN 9NUM]ABLE PILE ( LETT]S4 ,KOLE*KA ,GAY IS ) ME1 ) :OM IT IS A RE/ TO BE4444 ,I AM CALM 9 ! FA%ION ( AN OLD MAN4 ,& ?AT IS ALL4 ,!RE IS QUITE A LOT TO WRITE \T4 ,I AM GO+ TO WRITE IT \T ON ! PAGES ,I SKIPP$4 ,LATELY ,I FEEL AS IF MY 9T]E/ 9 ,RESURRECTION HAS WEAK5$1 & ,I JOY\SLY FEEL O!R1 MORE IMPORTANT1 9T]E/S1 9 ! UND]/&+ ( LIFE & DEA?4 ,MU* SEEMS CLE>4 ,MADE AN 5TRY1 ! #bND ( ,JANU>Y4 ,TO-DAY1 ,FEB4 #b#a4 ,MOSC[4 ,MORE ?AN SIX WEEKS ?AT ,I HAVE MADE NO 5TRIES4.<#b#g.> ,AM ALL ! TIME 9 ,MOSC[4 ,AT FIR/ ,RESURRECTION W5T WELL1 !N ,I COOL$ (F 5TIRELY4.<#c#g#f.> ,I WROTE A LETT] TO ! NONCOMMISSION$ (FIC].<#c#g#g.> & TO ! ,SW$I% PAP]S4.<#c#g#h.> ,= AB\T ?REE DAYS ,I HAVE AGA9 TAK5 UP ,RESURRECTION4 ,AM ADVANC+4 ,/UD5TS' /RIKE4 ,!Y >E TRY+ TO DRAG ME 9 ALL ! TIME4.<#c#g#i.> ,I AM C\NSEL+ !M TO HOLD !MSELVES PASSIVELY1 BUT ,I DO NOT FEEL LIKE WRIT+ LETT]S TO !M4 444 ,AS TO ME--MY BACK IS BETT]4 ,!RE IS LIV+ ) US1 AN 9T]E/+ & LIVE ,FR5*MAN1 ,S9ET1--! FIR/ RELIGI\S ,FR5*MAN4.<#c#h.> ,!RE IS V]Y MU* ?AT ,I \ BUT MO/ ( ! TIME AM CALM4 ,NEGLECT$ CORRESPOND5CE4 ,!Y CONT9UE S5D+ MONEY = ! FAM9E-/RICK51 BUT ,I CAN.<#b#g#a.> DO NO?+ ELSE BUT S5D IT TO !M ?R\< ! PO/4.<#c#h#b.> ,KOLI*KA IS ) ME HELP+ ME 9 ! WORK4 444 ,I CONT9UE TO WRITE \T FROM MY NOTE-BOOK3 #a#d7 ,NE>+ ! PLACE ( DE/9ATION1 ONE ?9KS MORE & MORE (T5 ( ?AT PLACE TO :I* ONE IS NE>+4 ,?US ALSO :ILE NE>+ DEA?1 ! *ANGE ( DE/9ATION4 #a#e7 ,ONLY ALWAYS TO REMEMB] ?AT !RE IS NO O!R MEAN+ 9 LIFE1 NO O!R WAY ( F9D+ ! JOY ( LIFE1 BUT ?R\< FULFILL+ ,HIS WILL4 ,& H[ PEACEFULLY & JOY\SLY ONE C\LD LIVE6 #a#f7 ,9 TIME ( ILLNESS1 TO FULFILL ,HIS WILL BY PREP>+ ONESELF = ! GO+ OV] 9TO ANO!R =M4 #a#g7 ,IT SEEMS TO US ?AT ! REAL LABOR IS ! LABOR ON SOME?+ EXT]NAL3 TO MAKE1 TO COLLECT SOME?+2 PROP]TY1 H\SES1 CATTLE1 FRUIT2 BUT TO LABOR ON ONE'S [N S\L--?AT IS JU/ FANTASY4 ,& YET EV]Y O!R LABOR EXCEPT ON ONE'S [N S\L1 ! 5L>G+ ( ! HABITS ( GOOD1 EV]Y O!R LABOR IS A BAGATELLE4 #a#h7 ,!Y DO NOT OBEY ,GOD1 BUT ADORE ,HIM4 ,IT IS BETT] NOT TO ADORE1 BUT TO OBEY4 #a#i7 ,NO MATT] :AT ! WORK Y\ >E DO+1 BE ALWAYS READY TO DROP IT4 ,& PLAN IT1 SO AS TO BE ABLE TO LEAVE IT4 #b7 ,! MA*9E 444 IS A T]RIBLE MA*9E4.<#b#g#b.> ,IF WE W\LD HAVE CLE>LY UND]/OOD ITS DANG]1 WE W\LD NEV] HAVE P]MITT$ IT TO BE =M$4 #b#a7 ,IT SEEMS /RANGE & IMMORAL ?AT A WRIT]1 AN >TI/1 SEE+ ! SUFF]+ ( PEOPLE1 SYMPA?IZES LESS ?AN HE OBS]VES1 9 ORD] TO REPRODUCE ?IS SUFF]+4 ,BUT ?AT IS NOT IMMORAL4 ,! SUFF]+ ( ONE P]SONALITY IS AN 9SIGNIFICANT ?+ 9 COMP>ISON ) ?AT SPIRITUAL EFFECT1 IF IT IS A GOOD ONE1 :I* A WORK ( >T WILL PRODUCE4 #b#b7 ,HUMANITY1 IT IS AN 5ORM\S ANIMAL :O SEEKS & CANNOT F9D :AT IT NE$S4 ,V]Y SL[LY1 S5SATIONS CALL =? EMOTIONS1 & EMOTIONS >E TRANSMITT$ TO ! BRA9 & ! BRA9 CALLS =? ACTS4 ,! ACTIVITY ( ! LIB]ALS1 ,SOCIALI/S1 REVOLUTION>IES1 >E ATTEMPTS TO GALVANIZE1 TO COMPEL ! ANIMAL TO ACT BY >\S+ ITS MOTOR N]VES & MUSCLES4 ,BUT !RE IS ONE ORGAN :I* DOES EV]Y?+ :5 IT IS NOT IMPAIR$2 9 ! ANIMAL IT IS ! BRA91 9 ! PEOPLE1 RELIGION4 #b#c7 ,I AM DEPRESS$ & ,I ASK ,GOD TO HELP ME4 ,BUT MY WORK IS TO S]VE ,GOD & NOT ?AT ,HE %\LD S]VE ME4 #b#d7 ,AN 9DIVIDUAL1 P]SONAL LIFE IS AN ILLUSION4 ,!RE IS NO SU* LIFE2 !RE IS ONLY FUNCTION1 A TOOL1 = SOME?+4 #b#e7 444 IS VE/IGIAL1 HAV+ NO APPLICATION1 LIKE ! APP5DIX4 #b#f7 ,WE COMPLA9 AT \R DEPRESS$ SPIRITS1 BUT.<#b#g#c.> !Y >E NECESS>Y4 ,MAN CANNOT /AY ON ?AT HEILIAM5T1 ON H[ TO KEEP ! PEASANTS FROM RUNN+ TO ! CITIES4 ,BUT ! SOLUTION ( ALL PROBLEMS IS ONE & NO ONE RECOGNIZES IT & IT DOES NOT EV5 SEEM TO BE ( 9T]E/ TO !M4 ,BUT ! SOLUTION IS ONE1 CLE> & UND\BT$3 444 ,! SALVATION IS ONE3 ! DE/RUCTION ( FALSE TEA*+4 #b#h7 ,! DIFF]5CE BETWE5 PEOPLE3 ,N ?9KS AB\T DEA?1 & ?AT DOES NOT LEAD HIM F>!R ?AN ! QUE/ION ( H[ & TO :OM HE %\LD LEAVE HIS MONEY1 :]E & H[ BE BURI$4 ,& ,PASCAL ALSO ?9KS AB\T DEA?4 #b#i7 444 #c7 ,!RE IS NO FUTURE4 ,IT IS MADE BY US4 #c#a7 ,! 9F9ITY ( TIME & SPACE IS NOT A SIGN ( ! GREATNESS ( ! HUMAN M9D1 BUT ON ! CONTR>Y1 IT IS A SIGN ( ITS 9COMPLET5ESS1 ( ITS 9EVITABLE FALSITY4 .<#b#g#d.> #c#b7 ,WE ?9K ( ! FUTURE1 WE BUILD IT2 BUT NO?+ FUTURE IS IMPORTANT1 BECAUSE ! IMPORTANT ?+ IS TO DO ! CREATIVE WORK ( LOVE1 :I* CAN BE DONE UND] EV]Y POSSIBLE CONDITION2 & !RE=E IT IS ALTOGE!R 9DIFF]5T1 :AT ! FUTURE WILL BE4 #c#c7 ,WE GET ANGRY AT CIRCUM/ANCES1 >E PA9$1 WI% TO *ANGE !M1 BUT ALL POSSIBLE CIRCUM/ANCES >E NO?+ ELSE ?AN 9DICATIONS AS TO H[ TO ACT 9 DIFF]5T SPH]ES4 ,IF Y\ >E 9 NE$1 Y\ MU/ WORK1 IF 9 PRISON--?9K1 & IF 9 WEAL?1 FREE Y\RSELF 444 ETC4 ,IT IS JU/ LIKE A HORSE GETT+ ANGRY ) ! ROAD ON :I* HE IS BE+ L$4 #c#d7 ,! PRESS--?AT IS A LIE3 ) A V5GEANCE4.<#c#h#c.> #c#e7 ,EV]Y?+ IS DIVID$4 ,ONLY ,GOD UNITES US1 LIV+ 9 EV]Y?+4 ,?AT IS :Y ,HE IS LOVE4 #c#f7 ,! CONCEPTION ( ,GOD TO A RELIGI\S MAN1 IS CONT9U\SLY DE/ROY$ & BE+ REPLAC$ BY A NEW1 HI<] CONCEPTION4 #c#g7 444--IS NOT ONLY ! LOSS ( LABOR1 ( LIVES1 BUT ! LOSS ( ! GOOD4 #c#h7 ,) MANY PEOPLE IT IS POSSIBLE TO LIVE ONLY :5 Y\ TREAT !M AS Y\ W\LD A HORSE3 NOT TO TAKE !M 9TO CONSID]ATION1 NOT REPROA*+ !M1 NOT SUGGE/+1 BUT ONLY F9D+ A MODUS VIV5DI4 ,IT IS AB\T !M3 0,NOT TO CA/ PE>LS0.<#b#g#e.> 444 ,IT IS T]RIBLE1 BUT )\T ?IS RULE1 IT W\LD BE WORSE4 #c#i7 ,IS IT POSSIBLE TO IMAG9E TO ONESELF A ,SOCIALI/ WORK+-MAN ) FAI? 9 ! ,IV]SK ,ICON8 ,!N1 FIR/ ( ALL1 !RE MU/ BE A RELIGI\S EMANCIPATION4 #d7 ,WE >E ALL AGRE$ ?AT ONLY HE IS FREE :O HAS OV]COME PASSION1 & YET KN[+ ?IS1 WE S]I\SLY TR\BLE \RSELVES ) ! FREE+ ( PEOPLE :O >E FULL ( PASSIONS4 #d#a7 ,A RATIONAL CONVICTION CAN NEV] BE COMPLETE4 ,A FULL CONVICTION CAN ONLY BE IRRATIONAL1 ESPECIALLY ) WOM54 #d#b7 ,ANSW] GOOD = EVIL & Y\ DE/ROY 9 AN EVIL MAN ALL PLEASURE :I* HE RECEIVES FROM EVIL4 #d#c7 ,GOD IS LOVE4 ,WE KN[ ,GOD ONLY 9 LOVE1 :I* UNITES EV]Y?+4 ,Y\ KN[ ,GOD 9 Y\RSELF ?R\< ! /RIV+ T[>DS ?IS UNION4 #d#d7 ,ONE CONT9UALLY ?9KS ?AT ! GOOD WILL BE GOOD = HIM4 ,BUT ! GOOD IS1 OR IT IS NOT--IT IS NOT SOME?+ ?AT WILL BE4 #d#e7 ,! IMPORTANT ?+ LIES 9 ?\E ! BEG9N+ ( EV]Y?+4 ,& ?\ ,TO-DAY ,JULY #d?4 ,Y4 ,P4 ,ALL ?IS TIME ,I HAVE BE5 ILL ) MY USUAL /OMA* SICKNESS4 ,! WORK :I* ABSORB$ ME V]Y MU*1 HAS /OPP$4 ,*RI/ AS A MY?2.<#c#h#d.> & ,K5WOR?Y'S BOOK1 A RATIONAL EXPOSITION ( ! LIFE ( ,*RI/4 ,! FIR/ IS BETT]4 ,!RE IS NE$ ( A PHILOSOPHY ( MORAL ECONOMY1 I4E41 ( RELIGI\S TRU?4 ,!RE IS SU* A ?+4 ,I HAVE HAD MANY GOOD ?\+ DEA?4 ,I ?9K (T5 ) PA9 ( BRO!R ,S4 ,I HAVE NOT$ D[N ! #d?3 #a7 ,! GOV]NM5T DE/ROYS FAI?1 BUT FAI? IS NECESS>Y4 ,SOME VIOLAT+ !MSELVES BELIEVE 9 ! MIRACUL\S1 9 ! ABSURD2 O!RS 9 SCI5CE4 ,BUT 9 :I*8 ,9 ! CONTEMPOR>Y4 ,BUT 9 ! CONTEMPOR>Y1 !RE IS #i#i_/#a ( LIE & ]ROR4 ,9 EV]Y CONTEMPOR>Y SCI5CE !RE >E LIES4 ,TRU? REVEAL$ BY ,GOD IS ( C\RSE ! RIS 9 ?IS LIFE2 IT IS ! DE/RUCTION ( ?AT GLASS ?R\< :I* ,I LOOK$ & A *ANGE TO ANO!R4 #c7 ,$UCAT$ PEOPLE US+ !IR $UCATION NOT.<#b#g#g.> = ! 5LIE LIKE WORK]S US+ !IR /R5G? NOT = SU/A9+ LIFE BUT = DE/ROY+ IT4 ,!SE >E ! 9TELLECTUAL ,PUGA*EVS1 ,/5KA ,RAZ9S1 ONLY A ?\S& TIMES MORE DANG]\S4 ,JULY #e4 ,Y4 ,P4 ,IF ,I LIVE4 ,TO-DAY ,SEPTEMB] #b#h4 ,Y4 ,P4 ,HAVE WORK$ ALL ! TIME ON ,RESURRECTION2 N[ ,I HAVE /UMBL$ ON ! ?IRD P>T4 ,IT IS LONG S9CE ,I HAVE MADE NO PROGRESS4 444 ,I HAVE WR\Y2 ?AT IT IS UND] !SE CONDITIONS ONE \E H]E ,ILYA1 ,SONYA.<#c#h#e.> ) ! *ILDR51 ,&RU%A ) HIS WIFE1 ,MA%A ) H] HUSB&4 ,I AM ?9K+ MORE & MORE (T5 AB\T ! PHILOSOPHIC DEF9ITION ( SPACE & TIME4 ,TO-DAY1 IF ,I HAVE TIME1 ,I AM GO+ TO WRITE IT \T4 ,I READ AN 9T]E/+ BOOK AB\T ,*RI/ NEV] HAV+ BE51 ?AT IT WAS A MY?4.<#c#h#f.> ,! PROBABILITIES ?AT IT IS RIE AS MANY = IT1 AS !RE >E AGA9/4 ,YE/]DAY ) ! HELP ( ,MA%A ,I ANSW]$ ALL ! LETT]S2 MANY REMA9$ UNANSW]$4 ,I AM /ILL ILL2 R>ELY A DAY )\T PA94 ,I AM DISSATISFI$.<#b#g#h.> ) MYSELF1 ALSO MORALLY4 ,I HAVE LET MYSELF GO V]Y MU*--,I DO NOT WORK PHYSICALLY & ,I AM OCCUPI$ ) MYSELF1 ) MY HEAL?4 ,H[ DIFFICULT IT IS TO BE> SICKNESS RESIGN$LY1 TO GO UNTO DEA? )\T RESI/ANCE--& ONE MU/4 ,I HAVE BE5 ?9K+ DUR+ ?IS TIME3 #a7 ,WOM5 DEM&+ = !MSELVES ! WORK ( MAN & ! SAME FRE$OM1 MO/LY DEM& = !MSELVES UNCONSCI\SLY ! FRE$OM = LIC5SE1 & AS A RESULT GO D[N MU* L[] ?AN ! FAMILY1 ?\< AIM+ TO /& HI<] ?AN IT4 #b7 ,:AT IS ?IS MEMORY :I* MAKES FROM ME ONE BE+1 FROM *ILDHOOD UNTO DEA?8 ,:AT IS ?IS FACULTY CONNECT+ SEP>ATE BE+S 9 TIME1 9TO ONE8 ,ONE \ PLANTS1 BUT = ANIMALS1 HUMAN PEOPLE4 ,!RE >E SO MANY ( !M4 ,CULTURE1 CIVILIZATION1 IS NO?+ ELSE ?AN ! RU9 ( !SE BEAUTIES & ! REPLAC+ !M 444 ) :AT8 ,! SALOON1 ! !AT] 444 #d7 ,!Y REPROA* Y\ ) MALICE1 DEBAU*]Y1 LIES1 !FTS1 BR+ PRO(1 ETC4 ,:AT IS TO BE DONE8 ,ANSW] ! QUE/ION ) ,:AT TIME IS IT8 ,>E Y\ GO+ TO TAKE A SWIM8 ,HAVE Y\ SE5 ,N ,N1 ETC4 ,?AT IS ! BE/ & ONLY MEANS ( BE>+ !SE ACCUSATIONS & EV5 CLE>+ !M UP4 #e7 ,! DE>E/ ?+ ON E>? IS ! GOOD RELATION BETWE5 PEOPLE2 BUT ! E/ABLI%M5T ( !SE RELATIONS IS NOT ! RESULT ( CONV]SATION--ON ! CONTR>Y1 !Y BECOME SPOIL$ BY CONV]SATION4 ,SPEAK AS LITTLE AS POSSIBLE1 & ESPECIALLY ) ?OSE PEOPLE ) :OM Y\ WANT TO BE 9 GOOD RELATION4 #f7 ,9 EAT+1 ,I DE/ROY ! LIMITS BETWE5 MYSELF & O!R BE+S2 CREAT+ *ILDR51 ,I DO ALMO/ ! SAME ?+4 ,! RESULTS ( ! DE/RUCTION ( MAT]IAL LIMITS >E VISIBLE2 ! RESULTS ( ! DE/RUCTION ( ! SPIRITUAL LIMITS & ! UNION RESULT+ FROM ?IS >E 9VISIBLE1 ONLY BECAUSE !Y >E BROAD]4 #g7 0,PEOPLE >E DIVID$ 7DIVID$ FROM O!R BE+S71 & ?IS APPE>S TO !M AS SPACE4 ,! FACT ?AT !Y >E 9SEP>ABLE 9 ESS5CE APPE>S TO !M AS TIME40 ,?AT IS ! WAY ,I HAVE NOT$.<#b#h.> IT4 ,SPACE DIVIDES1 TIME UNITES4 ,BUT ?IS IS UNTRUE4 ,BO? TIME & SPACE >E DIVID]S & !Y =M ! IMPOSSIBILITY ( REALIZ+ UNITY4 7,UNCLE>1 BUT ,I UND]/&4 ,I WILL MAKE IT CLE> LAT]47 #h7 ,BRO!RHOOD IS NATURAL1 PROP] TO PEOPLE4 ,NON-BRO!RHOOD1 DIVISIONS1 >E C>EFULLY NURTUR$4 #i7 ,SOMETIMES ONE FEELS LIKE COMPLA9+ *ILDI%LY TO SOME ONE 7TO ,GOD71 TO BEG = HELP4 ,IS ?IS FEEL+ GOOD8 ,IT IS NOT GOOD3 IT IS A WEAKNESS1 A LACK ( FAI?4 ,?AT :I* MORE ?AN ANY?+ RESEMBLES FAI?--! BESEE*+ PRAY]1 IS 9 TRU? A LACK ( FAI?--A LACK ( FAI? ?AT !RE IS NO EVIL1 ?AT !RE IS NO?+ TO ASK =1 ?AT IF ?+S >E GO+ BADLY ) Y\1 !N IT ONLY DEMON/RATES ?AT Y\ \E PEOPLE :O ABSOLUTELY NEV] UND]/& ?IS1 NOT KN[+ ANY O!R K9D ( LIFE BESIDES ! WORLDLY1 = PEOPLE4 ,I KN[ ?IS /ATE1 BUT CANNOT JU/ N[ CALL IT UP 9 MYSELF1 BUT ONLY REMEMB] IT4 #a#a7 ,EV]Y?+ :I* LIVES )\T CONSCI\SNESS1.<#b#h#a.> AS ,I LIVE :5 ,I SLEEP1 AS ,I LIV$ 9 ! WOMB ( MY MO!R1 LIVES NOT MAT]IALLY1 I4E41 NOT KN[+ MATT]1 BUT LIVES4 ,BUT LIFE IS SOME?+ SPIRITUAL4 ,5DEAVOR+ TO REMEMB] MY /ATE BE=E CONSCI\SNESS1 ON ! ?RE%OLD ( CONSCI\SNESS1 ,I KN[ ONLY ! FEEL+ ( DEPRESSION1 SATISFACTION1 PLEASURE1 SUFF]+1 BUT !RE IS NO CONCEPTION ( MY BODY OR ( ANO!R'S4 ,! CONCEPTION ( BODY 7MATT]7 MANIFE/S ITSELF ONLY :5 CONSCI\SNESS IS MANIFE/$4 ,! CONCEPTION ( BODY MANIFE/S ITSELF ONLY1 BECAUSE CONSCI\SNESS GIVES UND]/&+ ( ! PRES5CE 9 ONE'S SELF ( ! BASIS ( EV]Y?+ 7SPIRITUAL74 ,& AT ! SAME TIME1 AS ,I KN[ ?AT ,I AM ! BASIS ( EV]Y?+1 ,I KN[ ALSO ?AT ,I AM NOT ! :OLE BASIS1 BUT A P>T ( IT4 ,& IT IS ?IS BE+ A P>T ( A :OLE1 !SE LIMITS SEP>AT+ ME FROM ! :OLE1 ,I KN[ ?R\< MY BODY3 ?R\< MY [N BODY & ! BODIES SURR\ND+ ME4 #a#b7 ,IF Y\ DESIRE SOME?+1 IF Y\ >E AFRAID ( SOME?+1 ?AT MEANS ?AT Y\ DO NOT BELIEVE 9 ?AT ,GOD ( LOVE :I* IS 9 Y\4 ,IF Y\ HAD BELIEV$ 9 ,HIM1 !N Y\ C\LD NOT HAVE WANT$ ANY?+ OR HAVE BE5 AFRAID1 BECAUSE ALL DESIRES ( ?AT ,GOD :I* LIVES 9 Y\ >E BE+ ALWAYS FULFILL$1 BECAUSE ,GOD IS ALL-P[]FUL2 & Y\ W\LD NEV] HAVE BE5 AFRAID1 BECAUSE = ,GOD !RE IS NO?+ T]RIBLE4 #a#c7 ,NOT TO ?9K ?AT Y\ KN[ 9 :AT !.<#b#h#b.> WILL ( ,GOD REALLY LIES1 BUT TO BE HUMBLE2 & !N Y\ WILL BE LOV+4 ,& ! WILL ( ,GOD 9 RELATION TO Y\1 LIES ONLY 9 ?IS4 #a#d7 ,PEOPLE CONV9C+ O!RS ?AT REASON CANNOT BE ! GUIDE ( LIFE >E ?OSE 9 :OM REASON IS SO P]V]T$1 ?AT !Y CLE>LY SEE ?AT !Y HAVE BE5 L$ 9TO A SWAMP4 #a#e7 ,! ONLY 9/ANCE :]E A MAN CAN & \ATION ( ONE'S SELF = WORK1 A SPIRITUAL FOOD4 #a#f7 ,N[ ,I AM AN ORD9>Y MAN1 ,L4 ,N4 7,TOL/OY71 & ANIMAL1 & N[ ,I AM ! MESS5G] ( ,GOD4 ,I AM ALL ! TIME ! SAME MAN1 BUT N[ ,I AM ! PUBLIC & N[ ,I AM ! JUDGE HIMSELF ) ! *A91 FULFILL+ ! HIDS1 WOM51 RACES1 >E ALLUR+ BECAUSE !Y HAVE BE5 ?\ =BIDD5 !M4 ,>TIFICIAL PLAY IS CORRUPT+4 ,!Y >E NE$$ = ! BLASE1 BUT ! SIMPLE WORK+ PEOPLE NE$ ! V]Y SIMPLE/ PLAYS )\T PREP>ATION4 #a#i7 ,ONLY !N WILL Y\ PRODUCE TRUE LOVE1 :5 Y\ WILL RESI/ (F5SE1 OV]COME (F5SE ) LOVE1 WILL LOVE Y\R 5EMY4 #b7 ,!Y DESIRE1 !Y >E EXCIT$1 !Y SUFF] ONLY = TRIFLES OR = BAD ?+S4 ,! GOOD ?+S >E ACCOMPLI%$ )\T EXCITEM5T4 ,IT IS FROM ?IS ?AT ! WORD HE>T MEANS MALICE4 7,S]DIT1 TO GET ANGRY1 TO PUT 9TO A PASSION1 COMES FROM S]TSE1 ! HE>T4--,TRANSLATOR'S NOTE47 ,TO-DAY ,OCT4 #b4 ,Y4 ,P4 ,I AM /ILL ILL1--,I AM NOT SUFF]+1 BUT ,I FEEL ?REAT5$ CON/ANTLY4 ,MORALLY ,I AM BETT]--,I REMEMB] ,GOD 9 MYSELF MORE (T51 & DEA?4 ,IT SEEMS TO ME ,I HAVE COME \T ( ! DIFFICULT PLACE 9 ,RESURRECTION4444 ,KOLI*KA W5T AWAY4 ,SONYA >RIV$--%E IS ILL4 ,I AM CONT9U+ TO WRITE \T FROM ! NOTEBOOKS3 #a7 ,I HAVE MADE ?IS NOTE3 ,SPACE COMES FROM ! CONSCI\SNESS ( LIMITS1 FROM ! CONSCI\SNESS ( ONE'S [N SEP>AT5ESS2 ,I AM ONE1 & ! WORLD IS ANO!R4 ,& 9 ! WORLD >E SIMIL> BE+S ) LIMITS3 #b1 #c1 #d1 444 TO 9F9ITY4 ,!SE BE+S CAN F9D PLACE ONLY 9 SPACE4.<#b#h#d.> ,FROM ! CONSCI\SNESS ( LIMITS COMES ALSO TIME4 ,I HAVE ?\AT5ESS1 ! NON-ALL-COMPREH5SIV5ESS ( \R SELVES1 IS EXPRESS$ 9 RECOGNIZ+ A P>T ( MOV+ MATT] AS \RSELVES4 ,! P>T ( MATT] :I* WE RECOGNIZE AS \RSELVES GIVES US AN UND]/&+ ( SPACE2 ?AT P>T ( MOTION :I* WE RECOGNIZE AS \RSELVES GIVES US A CONCEPTION ( TIME4 ,OR1 9 O!R WORDS3 ,WE CANNOT IMAG9E A P>T ( MATT] 9 ANY O!R WAY ?AN 9 SPACE4 ,TO IMAG9E A P>T ( MOTION1 WE CANNOT 9 ANY O!R WAY ?AN 9 TIME4 ,SPACE COMES FROM ! IMPOSSIBILITY ( IMAG9+ TWO OR MANY OBJECTS BEYOND TIME4 ,TIME COMES FROM ! IMPOSSIBILITY ( IMAG9+ TWO1 MANY OBJECTS BEYOND SPACE4 ,SPACE IS ! POSSIBILITY ( REPRES5T+ TO ONE'S SELF TWO1 MANY OBJECTS AT ONE & ! SAME TIME4 ,TIME IS ! POSSIBILITY ( REPRES5T+ TO ONE'S SELF TWO1 MANY OBJECTS1 9 ONE & ! SAME SPACE 7ONE GOES \T1 ! O!R 5T]S74 ,DIVISIONS CANNOT BE 9 ONE SPACE1 )\T TIME4 ,IF !RE W]E NO TIME 7MOTION7 ALL OBJECTS 9 SPACE W\LD BE UNMOV+ & !Y W\LD =M NOT MANY OBJECTS1 BUT ONE SPACE1 UNDIVID$ & FILL$ ) MATT]4 ,IF !RE W]E NO SPACE1 !RE C\LD BE NO MOTION & \R 0SELF0 W\LD NOT BE SEP>AT$ BY ANY?+ FROM ALL ! RE/4 ,MY BODY UND]/OOD BY ME AS MY 0SELF10 &.<#b#h#e.> UND]/&+ ALL ! RE/1 IS ?AT P>T ( MATT] :I* MOVES = A DEF9ITE TIME & OCCUPIES A DEF9ITE SPACE4 7,NOT GOOD1 UNCLE>1 P]HAPS EV5 UNTRUE47 #b7 ,AN>*Y DOES NOT MEAN ! ABS5CE ( 9/ITUTIONS1 BUT ONLY ! ABS5CE ( ?OSE 9/ITUTIONS TO :I* PEOPLE >E COMPELL$ TO SUBMIT BY =CE1 BUT ?OSE 9/ITUTIONS TO :I* PEOPLE SUBMIT !MSELVES VOLUNT>ILY1 RATIONALLY4 ,IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT O!RWISE !RE CANNOT BE E/ABLI%$ & \ATELY BUT 9 SOCIETY & IF EV]Y ONE SUFF]$ FROM ! S9 ( EA* ONE1 !N EV]Y ONE W\LD HAVE TO RESI/ IT4 #d7 ,CONSCI5CE IS ! MEMORY ( SOCIETY ASSIMILAT$ BY SEP>ATE 9DIVIDUALS4 #e7 ,9 OLD AGE Y\ EXP]I5CE ! SAME ?+ AS ON A J\RNEY4 ,AT FIR/ Y\R ?\E ON ?AT PLACE FROM :I* Y\ >E GO+1 !N ON ! J\RNEY ITSELF1 & !N ON ! PLACE TO :I* Y\ >E GO+4 ,I EXP]I5CE ?IS MORE & MORE (T51 ?9K+ ( DEA?4 #f7 ,IT IS TRUE ?AT A GREAT S9 MI FROM HUMAN JUDGM5T4 ,SU* A S9 LEADS ONE AWAY FROM ! REALM ( HUMAN JUDGM5T1 FROM VANITY1 :I* MA/]S MAN & HIDES FROM HIM HIS RELATION TO ,GOD4.<#c#h#g.> #g7 ,! PHYSICAL GR[? IS ONLY A PREP>ATION ( MAT]IAL = SPIRITUAL WORK1 ! S]VICE TO ,GOD & MAN :I* BEG9S ) ! WI!R+ ( ! BODY4 ,TO-DAY ,OCT4 #a#c4 ,Y4 ,P4 ,I AM /ILL NOT FULLY WELL4 ,IT IS AS IT \DS A FIX$ GOAL4 ,RESURRECTION ADVANCES POORLY4 ,HAVE S5T AWAY F\R *APT]S1 ,I ?9K NOT PASSABLE BY ! C5SOR1 BUT AT LEA/ ,I ?9K ,I HAVE SETTL$ ON ONE PO9T1 & ?AT ,I WON'T MAKE ANY MORE GREAT IMPORTANT *ANGES4 ,I DO NOT CEASE ?9K+ ( BRO!R ,S]GEI1 BUT BECAUSE ( ! WEA!R & ILL HEAL? ,I CANNOT MAKE UP MY M9D TO GO4444 ,SONYA WAS 9 ,MOSC[ & IS GO+ AGA9 TO-DAY4 ,TO-DAY ,I HAD A K9D ( 9TELLECTUAL IDL5ESS1 NOT ONLY TO-DAY1 BUT ALL !SE LATT] DAYS4 ,= ,RESURRECTION ,I HAVE ?\AT5ESS :I* APPE>S TO US AS MATT] 9 SPACE & MOVEM5T 9 TIME1 ,I AM ?9K+ MORE & MORE (T5 & MORE & MORE CLE>LY4 ,I HAVE ALSO RECEIV$ ,WE/RUP'S PAMPHLETS FROM ,AM]ICA AB\T ! MONEY1.<#c#h#h.> :I* /RUCK ME BY.<#b#h#g.> EXPLA9+ EV]Y?+ ?AT WAS UNCLE> 9 F9ANCIAL QUE/IONS & R$UC+ EV]Y?+ AS IT \E BR\RIAGE GIVES HAPP9ESS4 ,SEX ATTRACTION 9DUCES TO M>RIAGE & IT TAKES ! =M ( A PROMISE1 A HOPE1 = HAPP9ESS1 :I* IS SUPPORT$ BY PUBLIC OP9ION & LIT]ATURE2 BUT M>RIAGE IS NOT HAPP9ESS1 BUT ALWAYS SUFF]+1 :I* MAN PAYS = ! SATISFACTION ( HIS SEX DESIRE4 ,SUFF]+ 9 ! =M ( LACK ( FRE$OM1 SLAV]Y1 OV]-SATIETY1 DISGU/ ( ALL K9DS ( SPIRITUAL & PHYSICAL DEFECTS ( ! MATE :I* ONE HAS TO BE>2 MALICI\SNESS1 /UPIDITY1 FALSITY1 VANITY1 DRUNK5NESS1 LAZ9ESS1 MIS]L9ESS1 GRE$ & CORRUPTION--ALL DEFECTS :I* >E ESPECIALLY DIFFICULT TO BE> :5 NOT 9 ONESELF BUT 9 ANO!R P]SON1 & FROM :I* ONE SUFF]S AS IF !Y W]E ONE'S [N2 & ! SAME ) PHYSICAL DEFECTS3 UGL9ESS1 UNCLEANL9ESS1 /5*1 SORES1 9SANITY1 ETC41 :I* >E EV5 MORE DIFFICULT TO BE> :5 NOT 9 ONESELF4 ,ALL ?IS1 OR AT LEA/ SOME?+ ( ?IS1 WILL ALWAYS BE & TO BE> !M WILL BE DIFFICULT = EV]Y ONE4 ,BUT ?AT :I* \E1 SATISFACTION1.<#b#h#h.> AID1 ALL !SE ?+S >E TAK5 AS A MATT] ( C\RSE2 :ILE ALL DEFECTS AS IF !Y W]E NOT A MATT] ( C\RSE1 & ! MORE ONE EXPECT$ HAPP9ESS FROM M>RIAGE ! MORE ONE SUFF]S4 ,! PR9CIPAL CAUSE ( ?IS SUFF]+1 IS ?AT ONE EXPECTS ?AT :I* DOES NOT HAPP51 & DOES NOT EXPECT ?AT :I* ALWAYS HAPP5S4 ,& !RE=E ESCAPE FROM ?IS SUFF]+ IS ONLY BY NOT EXPECT+ JOYS1 BUT BY EXPECT+ ! BAD1 BE+ PREP>$ TO BE> !M4 ,IF Y\ EXPECT ALL ?AT :I* IS DESCRIB$ 9 ! BEG9N+ ( 0,! ,?\S& & ,ONE ,NIE SO (T5 UNHAPPY1 ESPECIALLY ! RI* ONES8 ,9/EAD ( RECOGNIZ+ ONESELF 9 ! CONDITION ( A SLAVE :O HAS TO LABOR = HIMSELF & = O!RS1 & TO LABOR 9 ! WAY ?AT ! MA/] WI%ES1 PEOPLE IMAG9E ?AT EV]Y K9D ( PLEASURE AWAITS !M1 ?AT !IR :OLE WORK LIES 9 5JOY+ !M4 ,H[ NOT BE UNHAPPY UND].<#b#h#i.> ?IS CIRCUM/ANCE8 ,!N EV]Y?+3 WORK & OB/ACLES & ILLNESSES--! NECESS>Y CONDITIONS ( LIFE--APPE> AS UNEXPECT$1 T]RIBLE CALAMITIES4 ,! POOR1 !RE=E1 >E LESS (T5 UNHAPPY3 !Y KN[ BE=EH& ?AT BE=E !M LIE LABOR1 /RUGGLE1 OB/ACLES1 & !RE=E !Y APPRECIATE EV]Y?+ :I* GIVES !M JOY4 ,BUT ! RI*1 EXPECT+ ONLY JOYS1 SEE A CALAMITY 9 EV]Y OB/ACLE1 & DO NOT NOTICE & DO NOT APPRECIATE ?OSE GOODS :I* !Y >E 5JOY+4 0,BLESS$ BE ! POOR1 = !Y %ALL BE COM=T$2 ! HUNGRY1 = !Y %ALL BE F$2 & WOE UNTO YE1 ! RI*40 ,OCT4 #a#d4 ,Y4 ,P4 ,IF ,I LIVE4 ,OCT4 #b#g4 ,Y4 ,P4 ,WE >E LIV+ ALONE3 444 ,OLGA1.<#c#h#i.> ,&RU%A1 ,JULIE.<#c#i.> & ,&REI ,DMITRIEVI*4.<#c#i#a.> ,EV]Y?+ IS ALL RIE MORE ILL DAYS ?AN HEAL?Y ONES & !RE=E ,I WRITE LITTLE4 ,S5T (F #ai *APT]S1.<#c#i#b.> V]Y MU* UNF9I%$4 ,I AM WORK+ ON ! 5D4 ,I HAVE ?\DS ! S]VICE ( ,GOD4 ,9.<#b#i.> ?IS ONE ?+ 7BUT IT IS AN 5ORM\S ?+71 HE IS FREE3 HE CAN PULL OR BE DRIV54 #b7 444 ( ! WORK]S1 PRO/ITUTION & MANY O!R ?+S1 ALL ?IS IS A NECESS>Y1 9EVITABLE CONSEQU5CE & CONDITION ( ! PAGAN ORD] ( LIFE 9 :I* WE LIVE1 & TO *ANGE EI!R ONE OR MANY ( !SE1 IS IMPOSSIBLE4 ,:AT IS TO BE DONE8 ,*ANGE ! V]Y ORD] ( ?IS LIFE1 ?AT ON :I* IT /&S4 ,H[8 ,BY ?IS1 9 ! FIR/ PLACE1 BY NOT TAK+ P>T 9 ?IS ORD]1 9 ?AT :I* SUPPORTS IT 444 ETC4 ,&1 SECOND1 TO DO ?AT 9 :I* MAN ALONE IS ABSOLUTELY FREE3 TO *ANGE SELFI%NESS 9 HIS S\L & EV]Y?+ :I* FL[S FROM IT3 MALICE1 GRE$1 VIOL5CE1 & EV]Y?+ ELSE BY LOVE & BY ALL ?AT :I* FL[S FROM IT3 REASONABL5ESS1 HUMILITY1 K9DNESS & ! RE/4 ,IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO TURN BACK ! :EEL ( A MA*9E BY =CE1--!Y >E ALL B\ND TOGE!R ) COGS & O!R :EELS--BUT TO LET ! /EAM GO :I* WILL MOVE !M OR NOT LET IT GO IS EASY2 ?US IT IS T]RIBLY DIFFICULT TO *ANGE ! V]Y \T] CONDITIONS ( LIFE1 BUT TO BE GOOD OR BAD IS EASY4 ,BUT ?IS BE+ GOOD OR EVIL *ANGES ALL ! \T] CONDITIONS ( LIFE4 #c7 ,\R LIFE IS ! FREE+ ( ! 5CLOS$--! EXPANSION ( ! LIMITS 9 :I* ! ILLIMITABLE PR9CIPLE ACTS4 ,?IS EXPANSION ( ! LIMITS APPE>S TO US AS MATT] 9 MOTION4 ,! LIMIT ( EXPANSION 9 SPACE APPE>S TO US AS MATT]4 ,?AT.<#b#i#a.> P>T ( MATT] :I* WE RECOGNIZE AS \RSELVES WE CALL \R BODY2 ! O!R P>T WE CALL ! WORLD4 ,! LIMIT ( EXPANSION 9 TIME WE CALL MOTION4 ,?AT P>T ( MOTION :I* WE RECOGNIZE AS \RSELVES WE CALL \R LIFE2 ! O!R P>T WE CALL ! LIFE ( ! WORLD4 ,ALL ( LIFE IS ! EXPANSION ( !SE LIMITS1 ! BE+ FRE$ FROM !M4 7,ALL UNCLE>1 9EXACT47 ,NOV4 #b4 ,MOSC[4 ,MU* ,I HAVE NOT WRITT5 \T4 ,I AM 9 ,MOSC[4444 ,= #g YE>S ,I HAVE BE5 L[]+ & L[]+ MY OP9ION ( WOM5 & /ILL IT HAS TO BE L[]$ MORE & MORE4 ,! WOMAN QUE/ION6 ,H[ CAN !RE NOT BE A WOMAN QUE/ION8 ,ONLY NOT 9 ?IS1 H[ WOM5 %\LD BEG9 TO DIRECT LIFE1 BUT 9 ?IS1 H[ !Y %\LD /OP RU9+ IT4 ,ALL MORN+ ,I HAVE NOT BE5 WRIT+ & HAVE BE5 ?9K+ TWO ?+S3 #a7 ,WE SPEAK ( ! 5D ( LIFE--AL?\< IT IS TRUE1 NOT ! ONE :I* WE UND]/&1 BUT ! ONE :I* W\LD BE UND]/OOD BY ! HID1 ! PURPOSE IS LOOK+ =W>D1 BUT ! CAUSE1 ! CONCEPTION ( ! CAUSE 7& !RE=E ( AN 5D7 APPE>S ONLY !N :5 !RE IS TIME1 I4E41 A BE+ IS LIMIT$ 9 HIS CONCEPTIONS BY TIME4 ,& !RE=E = ,GOD1.<#b#i#b.> & = MAN LIV+ A ,GODLY LIFE1 !RE IS NO PURPOSE4 ,!RE IS LIFE 9 :I* CONSCI\SNESS GR[S 78.<#c#i#c.>7 & ?AT IS ALL4 #b7 ,A DROP FUS+ ) A GREAT DROP1 A POOL1 CEASES TO BE & BEG9S TO BE4 ,TO-DAY ,DECEMB] #a#h4 ,MOSC[4 ,ALMO/ A MON? ,I HAVE NOT WRITT54 ,HAVE BE5 SEV]ELY ILL4.<#c#i#d.> ,HAD ACUTE PA9 = ONE DAY1 !N A RESPITE1 & WEAKNESS4 ,& DEA? BECAME MORE ?AN NATURAL1 ALMO/ DESIRABLE4 ,& SO IT HAS REMA9$ N[1 :5 ,I AM GETT+ WELL--?AT IS A NEW1 JOY\S /EP4 ,F9I%$ ,RESURRECTION4 ,NOT GOOD1 UNCORRECT$1 HURRI$2 BUT IT HAS FALL5 FROM ME & ,I AM NO LONG] 9T]E/$4 ,S]EZHA IS H]E1 ,MA%A & H] HUSB&1 ,M>IA ,ALEX&ROVNA4 ,I AM ALL RI BUT ,I HAVE NO DESIRE = ANY?+ V]Y MU*1 AM RE/+4 ,WROTE LETT]S4 ,I AM ATTEMPT+ TO WRITE \T MY NOTES3 #a7 7,TRIFLES7 AB\T MANY-VOIC$ MUSIC4 ,IT IS NECESS>Y ?AT ! VOICE SAY SOME?+1 BUT H]E !RE >E MANY VOICES & EA* ONE SAYS NO?+4 #b7 ,ONE ( ! PR9CIPAL CAUSES ( EVIL 9 \R LIFE IS ! FAI? CULTIVAT$ 9 \R ,*RI/IAN WORLD1 ! FAI? 9 ! CRUDE ,HEBREW P]SONAL ,GOD1 :5 ! PR9CIPAL SIGN 7IF ONE CAN EXPRESS IT SO7 (.<#b#i#c.> ,GOD IS ?AT HE IS NOT LIMIT$1 BY ANY?+1 CONSEQU5TLY NOT P]SONAL4 #c7 ,ONE %\LD CONQU] DEA?--NOT DEA?1 BUT ! FE> ( DEA? COM+ FROM A LACK ( UND]/&+ ( LIFE4 ,IF ONLY Y\ UND]/& LIFE & ITS NECESS>ILY GOOD PURPOSE--DEA?--!N Y\ CEASE TO FE> IT1 TO RESI/ IT4 ,& :5 Y\ CEASE TO FE> IT1 Y\ CEASE TO S]VE Y\RSELF1 A MORTAL1 & Y\ WILL S]VE AN IMMORTAL3 ,GOD1 FROM :OM Y\ CAME & TO :OM Y\ >E GO+4 #d7 ,MATT] IS EV]Y?+ :I* IS ACCESSIBLE TO \R S5SES4 ,SCI5CE =CES US TO SUPPOSE MATT] 9ACCESSIBLE TO \R S5SES4 ,9 ?IS REALM1 !RE CAN BE BE+S COMPOS$ ( ?AT MATT] & P]CEIV+ IT1 MATT] 9ACCESSIBLE TO \R S5SES4 ,I DO NOT ?9K ?AT !RE >E SU* BE+S2 ,I ONLY ?9K ?AT \R MATT] & \R S5SES P]CEIV+ IT1 >E ONLY ONE ( 9NUM]ABLE.<#c#i#f.> POSSIBILITIES ( LIFE4 #e7 0,I AM A SLAVE1 ,I AM A WORM1 ,I AM A ,CZ>1 ,I AM A ,GOD40.<#c#i#g.> ,SLAVE & WORM TRUE1 BUT ,CZ> & ,GOD UNTRUE4 ,IT IS 9 VA9 ?AT PEOPLE ATTRIBUTE A SPECIAL SIGNIFICANCE & GREATNESS TO HIS REASON4 ,! LIMITS ( HUMAN REASON >E V]Y N>R[ & >E SE5 AT ONCE4 ,!SE LIMITS >E ! 9F9ITY ( SPACE & TIME4 ,MAN SEES ! F9AL ANSW]S TO ! QUE/IONS HE ASKS HIMSELF1 REC$E & REC$E 9 TIME & ALSO 9 SPACE1 & 9 BO? !SE REALMS4 #f7 ,I READ AB\T ,5GLEH>DT'S BOOK3 ,EVOLUTION1 ! ,PROGRESS ( ,CRUELTY4.<#c#i#h.> ,I ?9K ?AT H]E.<#b#i#d.> !RE IS A GREAT DEAL ( TRU?4 ,CRUELTY HAS 9CREAS$ MA9LY BECAUSE DIVISION ( LABOR HAS BE5 BR\E DO+ ! SAME WORK1 AS AGRICULTURAL LABOR]S1 !N NATURALLY !RE W\LD BE E/ABLI%$ BETWE5 US AN EX*ANGE ( S]VICE1 A MUTUAL AID1 BUT BETWE5 ! %EPH]D & ! FACTORY-WEAV]1 !RE CAN BE NO COMMUNION4 7,?IS SEEMS UNTRUE2 ,I %ALL ?9K IT OV]47 #g7 ,:AT W\LD ,GOD'S ATTITUDE BE T[>DS PRAY]1 IF !RE W]E SU* A ,GOD TO :OM ONE C\LD PRAY8 ,JU/ ! SAME AS W\LD BE ! ATTITUDE ( ! [N] ( A H\SE :]E WAT] HAD BE5 9TRODUC$ & TO :OM ! 9HABITANTS W\LD COME TO ASK = WAT]4 ,! WAT] HAS BE5 9TRODUC$4 ,Y\ HAVE ONLY TO TURN ! TAP4 ,9 ! SAME WAY EV]Y?+ HAS BE5 PREP>$ = M5 :I* IS NECESS>Y TO !M1 & ,GOD IS NOT AT FAULT ?AT 9/EAD ( MAK+ USE ( ! CLEAN WAT] :I* WAS !RE1 SOME ( ! T5ANTS C>RY WAT] FROM A /AGNANT POND1 O!RS FALL 9TO DESPAIR FROM LACK ( WAT] & BEG = ?AT :I* HAD BE5 GIV5 !M 9 SU* ABUNDANCE4 .<#b#i#e.> #h7 444 #i7 ,ONE CAN BY P]SONAL EXP]I5CE V]IFY ! TRU?1 ?AT ,GOD1 A P>T ( ,:OM IS MY [N SELF1 IS LOVE1 & BY ! EXP]IM5TAL WAY CONV9CE ONE'S SELF ( ?IS TRU?4 ,AS SOON AS LOVE IS VIOLAT$1 LIFE 5DS4 ,!RE IS NO DESIRE TO DO ANY?+1 EV]Y?+ IS DEPRESS+1 & ON ! CONTR>Y1 AS SOON AS LOVE IS RE/OR$1 AS SOON AS Y\ HAVE MADE PEACE ) ?OSE :OM Y\ QU>REL$1 =GIV51 RECEIV$ =GIV5ESS--!N Y\ WI% TO LIVE1 TO ACT1 EV]Y?+ SEEMS EASY & POSSIBLE4 #a7 ,IT W\LD BE GOOD TO EXPRESS EV5 9 APPROXIMATE NUMB]S & !N GRAPHICALLY1 ?AT QUANTITY ( LABOR1 ( WORK+ DAYS1 :I* RI* PEOPLE USE UP 9 !IR LIVES4 ,APPROXIMATELY MORE OR LESS1 ?IS C\LD BE EXPRESS$ BY MONEY4 ,IF ,I SP5D #a RUBLES A DAY1 ?AT MEANS ?AT #b M5 >E WORK+ CON/ANTLY = ME4 7,UNCLE>1 NOT :AT ,I WANT TO SAY47 #a#a7 ,!Y G5]ALLY SAY3 0,?AT IS V]Y DEEP1 & !RE=E NOT TO BE FULLY UND]/OOD40 ,?IS IS UNTRUE4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y4 ,EV]Y?+ ?AT IS DEEP IS CLE> TO TRANSP>5CY4 ,JU/ AS WAT] IS MURKY ON TOP1 BUT ! DEEP] IT IS1 ! MORE TRANSP>5T4 #a#b7 ,ONE SMALL P>T ( PEOPLE1 AB\T #b P] C5T41 IS 9SANE BY ITSELF1 POSSESS$ BY A MANIA ( EGOISM1 :I* REA*ES TO ! PO9T ( CONC5TRATION ( ALL SPIRITUAL /R5G?S ON ONESELF2 ANO!R1.<#b#i#f.> ! GREAT] P>T1 ALMO/ #h P] C5T41 IS HYPNOTIZ$ BY ! SCI5TIFIC1 BY ! >TI/IC 444 & PR9CIPALLY 444 HYPNOTISM1 & ALSO DOES NOT MAKE USE ( ITS REASON4 ,!RE=E PROGRESS 9 ! WORLD IS ALWAYS ATTA9$ BY ! 9SANE POSSESS$ BY ! SAME K9D ( 9SANITY BY :I* ! MAJORITY IS POSSESS$4 #a#c7 ,I EXP]I5CE ! FEEL+ ( PEACE1 ( SATISFACTION1 :5 ,I AM ILL1 :5 !RE TAKES PLACE 9 ME ! DE/RUCTION ( ! LIMITS ( MY P]SONALITY4 ,AS SOON AS ,I GET WELL ,I EXP]I5CE ! OPPOSITE3 RE/LESSNESS1 DISSATISFACTION4 ,>E !SE NOT OBVI\S SIGNS ?AT ! DE/RUCTION ( ! LIMITS ( P]SONALITY 9 ?IS WORLD1 IS ! 5TRANCE ( LIFE 9TO NEW LIMITS8 ,I HAVE F9I%$4 ,DECEMB] #a#i4 ,MOSC[4 ,IF ,I LIVE4 ,TO-DAY ,DECEMB] #b4 ,MOSC[4 ,MY HEAL? IS NOT GOOD4 ,MY SPIRITUAL CONDITION IS GOOD1 READY = DEA?4 ,9 ! EV5+S !RE >E MANY PEOPLE4 ,I TIRE4 ,9 NUMB] #e#a1.<#c#i#i.> ,RESURRECTION DID NOT APPE> & ,I WAS SORRY4 ,?IS IS BAD4 ,I ?\ ,P]HAPS ,I %ALL WRITE IT \T4 .<#b#i#g.> ,FROM 3 ,GUT5B]G4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,NOVEMB] #c1 #aiaf 3 #ahii -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,FEBRU>Y #a#i1 #bag 3 #ahii -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/