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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TRANSLATOR 3 ,ROSE ,/RUNSKY 

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,I CONT9UE.<#a.>.<,A.> ,OCTOB] #b#h4 ,YASNAYA ,POLYANA4 

,HAVE BE5 ?9K+3 

,HAVE BE5 ?9K+ ONE ?+3 ?AT ?IS LIFE :I* WE SEE >\ND US IS A MOVEM5T ( MATT] ACCORD+ TO FIX$1 WELL-KN[N LAWS2 BUT ?AT 9 US WE FEEL ! PRES5CE ( AN ALTOGE!R DIFF]5T LAW1 HAV+ NO?+ 9 COMMON ) ! O!RS & REQUIR+ FROM US ! FULFILLM5T ( ITS DEM&S4 ,IT CAN BE SAID ?AT WE SEE & RECOGNIZE ALL ! O!R LAWS ONLY BECAUSE WE HAVE 9 US ?IS LAW4 ,IF WE DID NOT RECOGNIZE ?IS LAW1 WE W\LD NOT RECOGNIZE ! O!RS4 

,?IS LAW IS DIFF]5T FROM ALL ! RE/1 PR9CIPALLY 9 ?IS1 ?AT ?OSE O!R LAWS >E \TSIDE ( US & =CES US TO OBEY !M2 BUT ?IS LAW IS 9 US--& MORE ?AN 9 US2 IT IS \R V]Y SELVES & !RE=E IT DOES NOT =CE US :5 WE OBEY IT1 BUT ON ! CONTR>Y FREES US1 BECAUSE 9 FOLL[+ IT WE BECOME \RSELVES4 ,& = ?IS REASON WE >E DRAWN TO FULFILL ?IS LAW & WE SOON] OR LAT] WILL 9EVITABLY FULFILL IT4 ,9 ?IS !N CONSI/S ! FRE$OM ( ! WILL4 ,?IS FRE$OM CONSI/S 9 ?IS1 ?AT WE %\LD RECOGNIZE ?AT :I* IS--NAMELY ?AT ?IS 9N] LAW IS \RSELVES4 

,?IS 9N] LAW IS :AT WE CALL REASON1 CONSCI5CE1 LOVE1 ! GOOD1 ,GOD4 ,!SE WORDS HAVE DIFF]5T MEAN+S1 BUT ALL FROM DIFF]5T ANGLES MEAN ONE & ! SAME ?+4 ,9 \R UND]/&+ ( ?IS 9N] LAW1 ! SON ( ,GOD1 CONSI/S 9DE$ ! ESS5CE ( ! ,*RI/IAN DOCTR9E4 

,! WORLD CAN BE LOOK$ UPON 9 ?IS WAY3 A WORLD EXI/S GOV]N$ BY C]TA91 WELL-KN[N LAWS1 & )9 ?IS WORLD >E BE+S SUBJECT TO ! SAME LAWS1 BUT :O AT ! SAME TIME BE> 9 !MSELVES ANO!R LAW NOT 9 ACCORD ) ! =M] LAWS ( ! WORLD1 A HI<] LAW1 & ?IS LAW MU/ 9EVITABLY TRIUMPH )9 !SE BE+S & DEFEAT ! L[] LAW4 ,& 9 ?IS /RUGGLE & 9 ! GRADUAL VICTORY ( ! HI<] LAW OV] ! L[]1 9 ?IS ONLY IS LIFE = MAN & ! :OLE WORLD4 

,OCT4 #b#i4 ,YASNAYA ,POLYANA4 ,IF ,I LIVE4.<#b.> 

.<,A.> ,!SE SUP]IOR FIGURES REF] TO ! $ITOR'S NOTES :I* BEG9 ON PAGE #b#i#i4 

,NOV4 #e4  
,Y4 ,P4 

,I HAVE SKIPP$ #f DAYS4 ,IT SEEMS TO ME1 ,I ?\<T LITTLE DUR+ ?IS TIME3 ,I WROTE A LITTLE1 *OPP$ WOOD & WAS 9DISPOS$--BUT LIV$ ?R\< MU*4 ,I LIV$ ?R\< MU*1 BECAUSE 9 FULFILL+ A PROMISE TO ,S4.<#c.>1 ,I READ ?R\< ALL MY J\RNALS = ! PA/ SEV5 YE>S4 

,IT SEEMS TO ME1 ,I AM APPROA*+ A SIMPLE & CLE> EXPRESSION ( ?AT BY :I* ,I LIVE4 ,H[ GOOD ?AT ,I DIDN'T F9I% ! ,CATE*ISM6.<#d.> ,I ?9K ,I %ALL WRITE IT DIFF]5TLY & BETT]1 IF ! ,FA!R WI%ES IT4 ,I UND]/& :Y IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY IT QUICKLY4 ,IF IT C\LD BE SAID ALL AT ONCE1 BY :AT !N W\LD WE LIVE 9 ! REALM ( ?\<T8 ,IT WILL NEV] BE GIV5 ME TO GO F>!R ?AN ?IS TASK4 

,I JU/ TOOK A WALK & UND]/OOD CLE>LY :Y ,I CAN'T MAKE  
,RESURRECTION GO BETT]3 IT WAS BEGUN FALSELY4 ,I UND]/OOD ?IS 9 ?9K+ OV] AGA9 ! /ORY3 ,:O IS ,RI<T8.<#e.> 7AB\T *ILDR574 ,I UND]/OOD ?AT ONE MU/ BEG9 ) ! LIFE ( ! PEASANTS1 ?AT !Y >E ! SUBJECT1 !Y >E POSITIVE1 BUT ?AT ! O!R ?+ IS %AD[1 ! O!R ?+ IS NEGATIVE4 ,& ,I UND]/OOD ! SAME ?+ AB\T ,RESURRECTION4 ,ONE MU/ BEG9 ) H]4.<#f.> ,I WANT TO BEG9 IMM$IATELY4 

,DUR+ ?IS TIME !RE W]E LETT]S3 FROM ,K5WOR?Y1.<#g.> A BEAUTIFUL ONE FROM ,%K>VAN1.<#h.> & FROM A ,DUKHOBOR 9 ,TIFLIS4.<#i.> 

,HAVE WRITT5 TO NO ONE = A LONG TIME4 ,G5]AL 9DISPOSITION & NO 5]GY4 ,! /AGE MANAG] & ! DECORATOR.<#a.> W]E H]E1 /UD5TS FROM ,KH>KOV AGA9/ :OM ,I ?9K ,I DID NOT S91 ,IVAN ,IVANOVI* ,BO*K>EV1.<#a#a.> ,KOLA%A4.<#a#b.>444 

,NOV4 #f4 ,Y4 ,P4 ,IF ,I LIVE4 

,NOVEMB] #g4 ,Y4 ,P4 

,I WROTE A LITTLE !SE TWO DAYS ON ! NEW ,RESURRECTION4 ,MY CONSCI5CE HURTS :5 ,I REMEMB] H[ TRIVIALLY ,I BEGAN IT4 ,SO F>1 ,I REJOICE :5 ,I ?9K ( ! WORK AS ,I AM BEG9N+ IT4 

,I *OPP$ A LITTLE4 ,I W5T TO ,OVSIANNIKOVO1 HAD A GOOD TALK ) ,M>IA ,ALEX&ROVNA.<#a#c.> & ,IVAN ,IVANOVI*4.<#a#d.> ,WALTZ'S ASSI/ANT WAS H]E & A ,FR5*MAN ) A POEM4444 

,NOVEMB] #h1 #i4 ,Y4 ,P4 

,HAVE WRITT5 LITTLE ON ,RESURRECTION4 ,I WAS NOT DISAPPO9T$1 BUT ,I WAS WEAK4 

,YE/]DAY ,DUNAEV.<#a#e.> CAME4 ,*OPP$ MU* YE/]DAY1 OV]TIR$ MYSELF4 ,TO-DAY ,I WALK$4 ,I W5T TO ,CON/ANT9E ,BIELI'S4.<#a#f.> ,HE IS V]Y MU* TO BE PITI$4 ,!N ,I WALK$ 9 ! VILLAGE4 ,IT IS GOOD ) !M1 BUT ) US IT IS %AMEFUL4 ,WROTE LETT]S4 ,WROTE TO ,BAZH5OV.<#a#g.> & ?REE O!RS4 ,?\<T3 

#a7 ,! CONFIRMATION ( ! FACT1 ?AT REASON LIB]ATES ! LAT5T LOVE 9 MAN = JU/ICE IS ! PROV]B1 0,COMPR5DRE C'E/ T\T P>DON]40 ,IF Y\ =GIVE A MAN1 Y\ WILL LOVE HIM4 ,TO =GIVE MEANS TO CEASE TO CONDEMN & TO HATE4 

#b7 ,IF A MAN BELIEVES SOME?+ AT ! WORD ( ANO!R1 HE WILL LOSE HIS BELIEF 9 ?AT :I* HE W\LD HAVE 9EVITABLY BELIEV$ 91 HAD HE NOT TRU/$ ! O!R ONE4 ,HE :O BELIEVES 9 444 ETC41 CEASES TO BELIEVE 9 REASON4 ,!Y EV5 SAY /RAI<T \T1 ONE \<T NOT TO BELIEVE 9 REASON4 

#c7 444 

,A V]Y 9T]E/+ LETT] FROM ,HOLL&1 AB\T :AT A Y\? IS TO DO :O IS CALL$ TO MILIT>Y S]VICE1 :5 HE IS ! SOLE SUPPORT] ( HIS MO!R4.<#a#h.> 

,NOVEMB] #a4 ,Y4 ,P4 

,SLEPT ) DIFFICULTY4 ,WEAKNESS BO? PHYSICAL & 9TELLECTUAL &--= :I* ,I AM AT FAULT--ALSO MORAL4 ,RODE HORSEBACK4 ,PO%A.<#a#i.> >RIV$4444 ,A WOND]FUL ,FR5* PAMPHLET AB\T W>4.<#b.> ,YES1 #b YE>S >E NE$$ = ?AT ?\<T TO BECOME A G5]AL ONE4 ,MY HEAD A*ES & SEEMS TO CRACKLE & RUMBLE4 ,FA!R1 HELP ME :5 ,I AM MO/ WEAK ?AT ,I MAY NOT FALL MORALLY4 ,IT IS POSSIBLE4 

,NOV4 #a#a4 ,Y4 ,P4 ,IF ,I LIVE4 

,I WRITE & ?9K3 IT IS POSSIBLE ?AT ,I WON'T BE4 ,EV]Y DAY ,I MAKE ATTEMPTS1 & ,I GET MORE ACCU/OM$ TO IT4 

,TO-DAY ,NOVEMB] #a#e4 

,I HAVE BE5 SO WEAK ALL ! TIME ,I C\LD WRITE NO?+ EXCEPT A FEW LETT]S4 ,A LETT] TO ,%K>VAN4 ,!RE HAVE BE5 H]E1 ,DUNAIEV1 ,PO%A1 ,M>IA ,VASILIEVNA4.<#b#a.> ,!Y LEFT YE/]DAY4 ,YE/]DAY ALSO ,I W5T TO SEE ,M>IA ,ALEX&ROVNA2 %E IS ILL4 ,TO-DAY ,AUNT ,TANYA.<#b#b.> & ,SONYA CAME4 

,I DIDN'T SLEEP AT NI<T & !RE=E DIDN'T WORK4 ,BUT ,I WROTE ON ! GIRL ,KONEFSKY.<#b#c.> & A LITTLE 9 MY J\RNAL4 ,I AM READ+  
,S*OP5HAU]'S.<#b#d.> 0,APHORISMS40 ,V]Y GOOD4 ,ONLY PUT 0,! S]VICE ( ,GOD0 9/EAD ( 0,! RECOGNITION ( ! VANITY ( LIFE10 & WE AGREE4 

,N[ #b O'CLOCK1 ,I %ALL WRITE \T LAT] :AT ,I HAVE NOT$ D[N4.<#b#e.> 

,DECEMB] #g4 ,MOSC[4 

,ALMO/ A MON? S9CE ,I HAVE MADE ANY 5TRIES4 ,DUR+ ?IS TIME WE MOV$ TO ,MOSC[4 ,! WEAKNESS HAS PASS$ A LITTLE1 & ,I AM WORK+ E>NE/LY1 ?\< ) LITTLE SUCCESS1 ON ! ,DECL>ATION ( ,FAI?4.<#b#f.> ,YE/]DAY ,I WROTE A LITTLE >TICLE ON :IPP+4.<#b#g.> ,I LAY D[N TO SLEEP 9 ! DAY & HAD JU/ DOZ$ (F--,I FELT AS IF SOME ONE J]K$ ME2 ,I GOT UP1 BEGAN TO ?9K AB\T :IPP+1 & WROTE IT \T4 

,DUR+ ?IS TIME1 ,I W5T TO ! !AT].<#b#h.> = ! REHE>SALS ( ! ,P[] ( ,D>KNESS4 ,>T1 BEG9N+ AS A GAME1 HAS CONT9U$ TO BE ! TOY ( ADULTS4 ,?IS IS ALSO PROV$ BY MUSIC1 ( :I* ,I HAVE HE>D MU*4 ,IT IS 9EFFECTUAL4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 IT DETRACTS :5 !RE IS ASCRIB$ TO IT ! UNSUITABLE MEAN+ :I* IS ASCRIB$ TO IT4 ,REALISM1 MOREOV]1 WEAK5S ITS SIGNIFICANCE 444 

,N4 REFUS$ TO S]VE 9 ! MILIT>Y4 ,I CALL$ ON HIM4.<#b#i.> ,PHILOSOPHOV.<#c.> DI$4444 ,WROTE SEV]AL WOR?LESS LETT]S4 

,I HAVE ?\<T DUR+ ?IS TIME MU*--9 MEAN+4 ,MU* ( IT ,I C\LD NOT UND]/& & HAVE =GOTT54 

#a7 ,I HAVE (T5 WANT$ TO SUFF]1 WANT$ P]SECUTION4 ,?AT MEANS ?AT ,I WAS LAZY & DIDN'T WANT TO WORK1 SO ?AT O!RS %\LD WORK = ME1 TORTUR+ ME1 & ,I %\LD ONLY SUFF]4 

#b7 ,IT IS T]RIBLE1 ! P]V]SIONS 444 ( ! M9D TO :I* M5 EXPOSE *ILDR5 = !IR [N PURPOSES DUR+ ! TIME ( !IR $UCATION4 ,! RULE ( CONSCI\S MAT]IALISM IS ONLY EXPLA9$ BY ?IS4 ,! *ILD IS 9/ILL$ ) SU* NONS5SE ?AT AFT]W>DS ! MAT]IALI/IC1 LIMIT$1 FALSE CONCEPTION1 :I* IS NOT DEVELOP$ TO ! CONCLUSIONS :I* W\LD %[ ITS FALSITY1 APPE>S LIKE AN 5ORM\S CONQUE/ ( ! 9TELLECT4 

#c7 ,I MADE A NOTE1 0,VIOL5CE FREES10 & IT WAS SOME?+ V]Y CLE> & IMPORTANT1 & N[ ,I DON'T REMEMB] :AT IT WAS AT ALL4 

,I HAVE REMEMB]$4 ,DECEMB] #b#c4 ,VIOL5CE IS A TEMPTATION BECAUSE IT FREES US FROM ! /RA9 ( ATT5TION1 FROM ! WORK ( REASON+3 ONE MU/ LABOR TO UNDO A KNOT2 TO CUT IT1 IS %ORT]4 

#d7 ,A USUAL P]V]SION ( REASON1 :I* IS MADE ?R\< A VIOL5TLY 5=C$ FAI?1 IS TO MAKE M5 SATISFI$ EI!R ) IDOLATRY OR ) MAT]IALISM1 :I* AT BOTTOM IS ONE & ! SAME ?+4 ,FAI? 9 ! REALITY ( \R CONCEPTIONS IS FAI? 9 AN IDOL1 & ! CONSEQU5CES >E ! SAME2 ONE MU/ BR+ SACRIFICES TO IT4 

#e7 ,I CAN IMAG9E CONSCI\SNESS TRANSF]R$ TO ! LIFE ( ! SPIRIT TO SU* A DEGREE ?AT ! SUFF]+S ( ! BODY W\LD BE MET GLADLY4 

#f7 ,A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN SMILES1 & WE ?9K ?AT BECAUSE %E SMILES %E SAYS SOME?+ GOOD & TRUE :5 %E SMILES4 ,BUT (T5 ! SMILE SEASONS SOME?+ 5TIRELY F\L4 

#g7 ,$UCATION4 ,IT IS WOR? :ILE OCCUPY+ ONESELF ) $UCATION1 9 ORD] TO F9D \T ALL ONE'S %ORTCOM+S4 ,SEE+ !M1 Y\ WILL BEG9 TO CORRECT !M4 ,BUT TO CORRECT ONESELF IS 9DE$ ! BE/ ME?OD ( $UCATION = ONE'S *ILDR5 & = O!RS' & = GR[N-UP PEOPLE4 

,JU/ N[ ,I READ A LETT] FROM ,%K>VAN.<#c#a.> ?AT M$ICAL HELP DOES NOT APPE> TO HIM LIKE A BOON1 ?AT ! L5G!N+ ( MANY EMPTY LIVES = MANY HUNDR$ YE>S IS MU* LESS IMPORTANT TO HIM ?AN ! WEAKE/ BL[+1 AS HE WRITES1 7A PUFF7 ON ! SP>K ( DIV9E LOVE 9 ! HE>T ( ANO!R4 ,H]E !N 9 ?IS BL[+1 LIES ! :OLE >T ( $UCATION4 ,BUT TO K9DLE IT 9 O!RS1 ONE MU/ K9DLE IT 9 ONESELF4 

#h7 ,TO LOVE MEANS TO DESIRE ?AT :I* ! BELOV$ OBJECT DESIRES4 ,! OBJECTS ( LOVE DESIRE OPPOS+ ?+S1 & !RE=E1 WE CAN ONLY LOVE ?AT :I* DESIRES ONE & ! SAME ?+4 ,BUT ?AT :I* DESIRES ONE & ! SAME ?+ IS ,GOD4 

#i7 ,MAN BEG9N+ TO LIVE1 LOVES ONLY HIMSELF1 & SEP>ATES HIMSELF FROM O!R BE+S 9 ?AT HE CON/ANTLY LOVES ?AT :I* ALONE CON/ITUTES HIS BE+4 ,BUT AS SOON AS HE RECOGNIZES HIMSELF AS A SEP>ATE BE+1 HE RECOGNIZES ALSO HIS [N LOVE1 & HE IS NO LONG] CONT5T ) ?IS LOVE = HIMSELF & HE BEG9S TO LOVE O!R BE+S4 ,& ! MORE HE LIVES A CONSCI\S LIFE1 ! GREAT] & GREAT] NUMB] ( BE+S HE WILL BEG9 TO LOVE1 ?\< NOT ) SU* A /ABLE & UNCEAS+ LOVE AS ?AT ) :I* HE LOVES HIMSELF1 BUT NEV]!LESS1 9 SU* A WAY ?AT HE WI%ES GOOD TO EV]Y?+ HE LOVES1 & HE REJOICES AT ?IS GOOD1 & SUFF]S AT ! EVIL :I* TRIES ! BELOV$ BE+S1 & HE UNITES 9TO ONE ALL ?AT HE LOVES4 

,AS LIFE IS LOVE1 :Y NOT SUPPOSE ?AT MY 0SELF10 ?AT :I* ,I CONSID] TO BE MYSELF & LOVE ) A SPECIAL LOVE1 IS P]HAPS ! UNION ,I MADE 9 A =M] LIFE ( ?+S :I* ,I LOV$1 JU/ AS ,I AM MAK+ A UNION ( ?+S N[4 ,! O!R HAS ALREADY TAK5 PLACE & ?IS ONE IS TAK+ PLACE4 

,LIFE IS ! 5L>GEM5T ( LOVE1 ! WID5+ ( ITS BORD]S1 & ?IS WID5+ IS GO+ ON 9 V>I\S LIVES4 ,9 ! PRES5T LIFE1 ?IS WID5+ APPE>S TO ME 9 ! =M ( LOVE4 ,?IS WID5+ IS NECESS>Y = MY 9N] LIFE & IT IS ALSO NECESS>Y = ! LIFE ( ?IS WORLD4 ,BUT MY LIFE CAN MANIFE/ ITSELF NOT ONLY 9 ?IS =M4 ,IT MANIFE/S ITSELF 9 AN 9NUM]ABLE QUANTITY ( =MS4 ,ONLY ?IS ONE IS APP>5T TO ME4 

,BUT 9 ! MEANTIME1 ! MOVEM5T ( LIFE UND]/OOD BY ME 9 ?IS WORLD1 ?R\< ! 5L>GEM5T ( LOVE 9 MYSELF & ?R\< ! UNION ( BE+S ?R\< LOVE1 PRODUCES AT ! SAME TIME O!R EFFECTS1 ONE OR MANY1 UNSE5 BY ME4 ,AS = 9/ANCE1 ,I PUT TOGE!R #h TOY CUBES TO MAKE A PICTURE ON ONE SIDE ( !M1 NOT SEE+ ! O!R SIDES ( ! CON/RUCT$ CUBES1 BUT ON ! O!R SIDES >E BE+ =M$ PICTURES JU/ AS REGUL>1 ?\< UNSE5 BY ME4 

7,ALL ?IS WAS V]Y CLE> :5 IT CAME 9TO MY HEAD1 & N[ ,I HAVE =GOTT5 EV]Y?+ & ! RESULT IS NONS5SE47 

#a7 ,I HAVE ?\<T MU* AB\T ,GOD1 AB\T ! ESS5CE ( MY LIFE1 & IT SEEM$ ,I ONLY D\BT$ ONE & ! O!R & BELIEV$ 9 MY [N CONCLUSIONS2 & !N1 ONE TIME1 NOT LONG AGO1 ,I SIMPLY HAD ! DESIRE TO LEAN UPON MY FAI? 9 ,GOD & 9 ! 9DE/RUCTIBILITY ( MY S\L1 & TO MY A/ONI%M5T ,I FELT SO FIRM & CALM A CONFID5CE1 AS ,I HAVE NEV] FELT BE=E4 ,SO ?AT ALL MY D\BTS & SCRUT9IS+S HAVE EVID5TLY1 NOT ONLY NOT WEAK5$ MY FAI?1 BUT HAVE /R5G!N$ IT TO AN 5ORM\S DEGREE4 

#a#a7 ,REASON IS NOT GIV5 ?AT WE %\LD RECOGNIZE :AT WE \<T TO LOVE2 ?IS IT WON'T DISCLOSE2 BUT ONLY = ?IS3 TO %[ :AT WE \<T NOT TO LOVE4 

#a#b7 ,AS 9 EA* PIECE ( H&IWORK1 ! PR9CIPAL >T LIES NOT 9 ! REGUL> MAK+ ( C]TA9 ?+S ANEW1 BUT 9 ! EV] BETT]+ ( ! 9EVITABLE FAULTS ( A WRONG & RU9$ WORK1 SO EV5 9 ! BUS9ESS ( LIFE1 ! PR9CIPAL WISDOM IS NOT H[ TO BEG9 TO ACT & H[ TO LEAD LIFE CORRECTLY1 BUT H[ TO BETT] FAULTS1 H[ TO LIB]ATE ONESELF FROM ]RORS & S$UCTIONS4 

#a#c7 ,HAPP9ESS IS ! SATISFACTION ( ! REQUIREM5TS ( A MAN'S BE+ LIV+ FROM BIR? TO DEA? 9 ?IS WORLD ONLY2 BUT ! GOOD IS ! SATISFACTION ( ! REQUIREM5TS ( ! ET]NAL ESS5CE LIV+ 9 MAN4 

#a#d7 ,! ESS5CE ( ! TEA*+S ( ,*RI/ CONSI/S 9 ?IS1 ?AT MAN \<T TO KN[ :O HE IS2 ?AT HE %\LD UND]/&1 LIKE A BIRD :I* DOES NOT USE ITS W+S & RUNS ON ! L&1 ?AT HE IS NOT A MORTAL ANIMAL1 DEP5D5T ON ! CONDITIONS ( ! WORLD1 BUT LIKE A BIRD :I* HAS UND]/OOD ?AT IT HAS W+S & HAS FAI? 9 !M1 HE %\LD UND]/& ?AT HE HIMSELF WAS NEV] BORN & NEV] DI$ & ALWAYS IS1 & PASSES ?R\< ?IS WORLD 9 ONE ( ! 9NUM]ABLE =MS ( LIFE TO FULFILL ! WILL ( ,HIM :O S5T HIM 9TO ?IS LIFE4 

,DEC4 #h4 ,MOSC[4 ,IF ,I LIVE4 

,MAS*A.<#c#b.> IS ) ,ILIA1.<#c#c.> A LOV+ LETT] FROM H] TO-DAY4 

,TO-DAY ,DECEMB] #b#c4 ,MOSC[4 

,IT IS LONG S9CE ,I HAVE MADE AN 5TRY4 ,ON ! #c?1 ! ,*]TKOVS.<#c#d.> CAME4 ,IT IS TWO DAYS S9CE ,K5WOR?Y >RIV$4 ,HE IS V]Y PLEASANT4444 

,HAVE CONT9U$ TO WRITE ! ,DECL>ATION--AM PROGRESS+4 ,(F & ON1 ,I ?9K \T ! DRAMA1.<#c#e.> & YE/]DAY ,I RAV$ AB\T IT ALL NI<T4 ,I AM NOT WELL2 A BAD COLD 9 ! HEAD1 9FLU5ZA4 ,BECAUSE ( ! LETT] TO ! ,5GLI%MAN1 ,I BEGAN ALSO A LETT] ON ! COLLISION BETWE5 ,5GL& & ,AM]ICA4.<#c#f.> 

,HAVE BE5 ?9K+ DUR+ ?IS TIME3 

#a7 ,I HAVE BE5 ?9K+ ESPECIALLY CLE>LY ( ?AT :I* ,I HAVE ALREADY SAID MANY TIMES2 ?AT ALL ! EVIL 9 ! WORLD COMES ONLY FROM ?IS1 ?AT PEOPLE LOOK UPON !MSELVES1 UPON !IR [N P]SONALITY1 AS A WOR?Y OBJECT ( !IR CONSCI\S LIFE--UPON !MSELVES OR UPON A GR\P ( P]SONALITIES1 IT IS ALL ! SAME4 

,AS LONG AS A MAN LIVES = HIMSELF UNCONSCI\SLY1 HE DOES NO H>M4 ,IF !RE IS A /RUGGLE1 !N ! /RUGGLE IS AN UNCONSCI\S ONE :I* IS 5D$ AT ONCE :5 ! /RUGGLE ) SURR\ND+S IS 5D$2 MAN ADJU/S HIMSELF TO IT OR HE GOES UND]1 & ?IS /RUGGLE IS NEI!R CRUEL NOR IS IT AN EVIL ONE4 ,! /RUGGLE BEG9S TO BE CRUEL ONLY :5 MAN DIRECTS HIS CONSCI\SNESS UPON IT1 PREP>ES IT1 /R5G!NS & MULTIPLIES ITS 5]GY T5FOLD & HUNDR$FOLD4 

,AS ,PASCAL SAYS3 !RE >E ?REE K9DS ( PEOPLE2 ONE K9D KN[ NO?+ & SIT QUIETLY1 & JU/ AS QUIET >E ?OSE :O KN[2 BUT !RE >E A MIDDLE K9D :O DON'T KN[ BUT BELIEVE !Y DO2 FROM !M COMES ALL ! EVIL 9 ! WORLD4 ,!Y >E ! PEOPLE 9 :OM CONSCI\SNESS HAS AWAK5$1 BUT !Y DON'T KN[ H[ TO USE IT4 

#b7 ,! :OLE ?+ LIES 9 ?IS--?AT Y\ %\LD ALWAYS REMEMB] :O Y\ >E4 ,!RE IS NO SITUATION SO DIFFICULT1 FROM :I* ! WAY \T W\LD NOT IMM$IATELY (F] ITSELF1 IF Y\ ONLY W\LD REMEMB] ?AT Y\ >E NOT A TEMPOR>Y1 MAT]IAL MANIFE/ATION1 BUT AN ET]NAL OMNIPRES5T BE+4 0,I AM ! RESURRECTION & ! LIFE3 HE ?AT BELIEVE? 9 ME %ALL NEV] DIE1 & ?\< HE W]E DEAD YET %ALL HE LIVE4 ,BELIEVE/ ?\ ?IS80 

,I WALK$ ON ! /REET4 ,A WRET*$ BEGG> APPROA*$ ME4 ,I =GOT :O ,I WAS & PASS$ BY4 ,& !N SUDD5LY ,I REMEMB]$1 & JU/ AS NATURALLY AS ! HUNGRY BEG9 TO EAT & ! TIR$ ,I TURN$ BACK & H&$ HIM SOME?+4 ,IT IS ! SAME ) ! TEMPTATION TO QU>REL1 TO 9SULT1 TO BE VA94 

#c7 ,ONE CAN NOT VOLUNT>ILY CEASE TO REMA9 AWAKE1 I4 E4 TO FALL ASLEEP4 ,JU/ AS LITTLE CAN ONE VOLUNT>ILY CEASE TO LIVE4 ,LIFE IS MORE IMPORTANT ?AN ! WILL1 ?AN DESIRE4 7,UNCLE>47 

#d7 ,RECEIVE ) ?ANKFULNESS ! 5JOYM5TS ( ! FLE%--ALL ?AT Y\ MEET ON ! WAY1 IF !Y >E NOT S9FUL--9 %ORT1 IF !Y DO NOT GO AGA9/ Y\R CONSCI\SNESS1 IF !Y DO NOT MAKE IT SUFF]4 ,BUT USE ! EF=TS ( Y\R WILL1 Y\R LIB]TY1 ONLY TO S]VE ,GOD4 

,I JU/ WROTE A LETT] TO ,CROSBY4.<#c#g.> ,HE IS WORK+ 9 ,AM]ICA4 

,DEC4 #b#d4 ,MOSC[4 ,IF ,I LIVE4 

,YE/]DAY ,I RECEIV$ ! 0,OP5 ,LETT]0 ( ,SPIELHAG51 ! ,SOCIALI/1 :I* APPE>$ 9 ! NEWSPAP]S ) REG>D TO ,DROZH94.<#c#h.> 

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