,! ,H&ICAPP$--,BY ,ONE ( ,!M 

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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,R&OLPH ,B\RNE 

,TAGS 3 WORLD ( Y\?1 DE=M$ MAN1 P]SONAL APPE>ANCE1 WORLD1 DE=M$1 PEOPLE1 SOCIAL1 S5SITIV5ESS1 Y\?1 JU/4 

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,PHOTO BY BALAJI %ANK> V5KATA*>I1,C,C ,B,Y-,N,C ,LIC5SE ,IT W\LD NOT P]HAPS BE ?\<T1 ORD9>ILY1 ?AT ! MAN :OM PHYSICAL DISABILITIES HAVE MADE SO HELPLESS ?AT HE IS UNABLE TO MOVE >\ND AMONG HIS FELL[S CAN BE> HIS LOT MORE HAPPILY1 EV5 ?\< HE SUFF] PA91 & FACE LIFE ) A MORE *E]FUL & CONT5T$ SPIRIT1 ?AN CAN ! MAN :OSE DE=MITIES >E M]ELY 5\< TO M>K HIM \T FROM ! RE/ ( HIS FELL[S )\T PREV5T+ HIM FROM 5T]+ ) !M 9TO MO/ ( !IR COMMON AFFAIRS & EXP]I5CES4 ,BUT ! FACT IS ?AT ! =M]'S V]Y HELPLESSNESS MAKES HIM CONT5T TO RE/ & NOT TO /RIVE4 ,I KN[ A Y\NG MAN SO HELPLESSLY DE=M$ ?AT HE HAS TO BE C>RI$ AB\T1 :O IS HAPPY 9 READ+ A LITTLE1 PLAY+ *ESS1 TAK+ A C\RSE OR TWO 9 COLLEGE1 & ALL ) ! SUNNIE/ GOODWILL 9 ! WORLD1 & A HAPP9ESS ?AT SEEMS /RANGE & UNACC\NTABLE TO MY RE/LESSNESS4 ,HE DOES NOT CRY = ! MOON4 

,:5 ONE1 H[EV]1 IS 9 FULL POSSESSION ( HIS FACULTIES1 & CAN MOVE AB\T FREELY1 BE>+ SIMPLY A CROOK$ BACK & AN UNSI<TLY FACE1 HE IS P]=CE DRAWN 9TO ALL ! CURR5TS ( LIFE4 ,P>TICUL>LY IF HE HAS HIS [N WAY 9 ! WORLD TO MAKE1 HIS ROAD IS APT TO BE H>D & RUGG$1 & HE WILL P5ETRATE TO AN UNUSUAL DEP? 9 HIS 9T]PRETATION BO? ( ! WORLD'S ATTITUDE T[>D SU* MIS=TUNES1 & ( ! ATTITUDE T[>D ! WORLD :I* SU* MIS=TUNES T5D TO CULTIVATE 9 M5 LIKE HIM4 ,= HE HAS ALL ! BATTLES ( A /RONG] MAN TO FI<T1 & HE IS AT A D\BLE DISADVANTAGE 9 FI<T+ !M4 ,HE HAS CON/ANTLY ) HIM ! S5SE ( BE+ OBLIG$ TO MAKE EXTRA EF=TS TO OV]COME ! BAD IMPRESSION ( HIS PHYSICAL DEFECTS1 & HE IS HAUNT$ ) A CON/ANT FEEL+ ( WEAKNESS & L[ VITALITY :I* MAKES EF=T MORE DIFFICULT & R5D]S HIM EASILY FA9!>T$ & DISC\RAG$ BY FAILURE4 ,HE IS NEV] CONFID5T ( HIMSELF1 BECAUSE HE HAS GR[N UP 9 AN ATMOSPH]E :]E NOBODY HAS BE5 V]Y CONFID5T ( HIM2 & YET HIS 5VIRONM5T & CIRCUM/ANCES CALL \T ALL SORTS ( AMBITIONS & 5]GIES 9 HIM :I*1 FROM ! NATURE ( HIS CASE1 >E B\ND TO BE IMM$IATELY ?W>T$4 ,?IS ATTITUDE IS LIKELY TO KEEP HIM AT A G5]ALLY L[ LEVEL ( ACCOMPLI%M5T UNLESS HE HAVE AN UNUSUALLY /RONG WILL1 & A /RONG WILL IS P]HAPS ! LA/ ?+ TO DEVELOP UND] SU* CIRCUM/ANCES4 

,?AT VAGUE S5SE ( PHYSICAL UNCOM=TABL5ESS :I* IS ) HIM NE>LY EV]Y M9UTE ( HIS WAK+ DAY S]VES1 TOO1 TO MAKE /EADY APPLICATION = H\RS TO ANY P>TICUL> K9D ( WORK MU* MORE IRKSOME ?AN IT IS EV5 TO ! LAZY MAN4 ,NO ONE BUT ! DE=M$ MAN CAN REALIZE JU/ :AT ! M]E FACT ( SITT+ A FOOT L[] ?AN ! NORMAL MEANS 9 DISCOM=T & ANNOYANCE4 ,= ONE CANNOT C>RY ONE'S SPECIAL *AIR EV]Y:]E1 TO !AT] & LIBR>Y & TRA9 & S*OOLROOM4 ,?IS S\NDS TRIVIAL1 ,I KN[1 BUT ,I M5TION IT BECAUSE IT FURNI%ES A REAL1 EV5 ?\< USUALLY DIM1 0BACKGR\ND ( CONSCI\SNESS0 :I* ONE HAD TO RECKON ) DUR+ ALL ONE'S SOLID WORK OR 5JOYM5T4 ,! ?+S ?AT ! WORLD DEEMS H>DE/ = ! DE=M$ MAN TO BE> >E P]HAPS REALLY ! EASIE/ ( ALL4 ,I CAN TRU?FULLY SAY1 = 9/ANCE1 ?AT ,I HAVE NEV] SUFF]$ SO MU* AS A PANG FROM ! 9T]E/$ COMM5TS ON MY P]SONAL APPE>ANCE MADE BY UR*9S 9 ! /REET1 NOR FROM ! CURI\S LOOKS ( PEOPLE 9 ! /REET & PUBLIC PLACES4 ,TO IGNORE ?IS VULG> CURIOSITY IS ! SIMPLE/ & EASIE/ ?+ 9 ! WORLD4 ,IT DOES NOT WORRY ME 9 ! LEA/ TO APPE> ON A PLAT=M IF ,I HAVE ANY?+ TO SAY & !RE IS ANYBODY TO LI/54 ,:AT ONE DOES GET S5SITIVE TO IS RA!R ! 9EVITABLE WAY ?AT PEOPLE1 ACQUA9TANCES & /RANG]S ALIKE1 HAVE ( DISC\NT+ 9 ADVANCE :AT ONE DOES OR SAYS4 

,! DE=M$ MAN IS ALWAYS CONSCI\S ?AT ! WORLD DOES NOT EXPECT V]Y MU* FROM HIM4 ,& IT TAKES HIM A LONG TIME TO SEE 9 ?IS A *ALL5GE 9/EAD ( A FIRM PRESS+ D[N TO A L[ LEVEL ( ACCOMPLI%M5T4 ,AS A RESULT1 HE DOES NOT EXPECT V]Y MU* ( HIMSELF2 HE IS TIMID 9 APPROA*+ PEOPLE1 & DI/RU/FUL ( HIS ABILITY TO P]SUADE & CONV9CE4 ,HE BECOMES EXTRAORD9>ILY S5SITIVE TO O!R PEOPLE'S FIR/ IMPRESSIONS ( HIM4 ,?OSE :O >E TO BE HIS FRI5DS HE KN[S 9/ANTLY1 & FUR!R ACQUA9TANCE ADDS LITTLE TO ! 9TIMACY & W>M FRI5D%IP ?AT HE AT ONCE FEELS = !M4 ,ON ! O!R H&1 ?OSE :O DO NOT RESPOND TO HIM IMM$IATELY CANNOT BY ANY EF=T EI!R ON HIS P>T OR !IRS OV]COME ?AT FIR/ ALI5ATION4 

,?IS S5SITIV5ESS HAS BO? ITS GOOD & BAD SIDES4 ,IT MAKES FRI5D%IP ?AT MO/ PRECI\S ?+ 9 ! WORLD TO HIM1 & HE F9DS ?AT HE >RIVES AT A MU* RI*] & WID] 9TIMACY ) HIS FRI5DS ?AN DO ORD9>Y M5 ) !IR LI<T1 SURFACE FRI5D%IPS1 BAS$ ON GOOD FELL[%IP OR ! CONV5I5CE ( ! MOM5T4 ,BUT ON ! O!R H& ?IS S5SITIV5ESS ABSOLUTELY UNFITS HIM = BUS9ESS & ! PRACTICE ( A PR(ESSION1 :]E ONE MU/ BE 0ALL ?+S TO ALL M510 & ! PR(ESSIONAL MANN] IS 9DISP5SABLE TO SUCCESS4 ,= H]E1 :]E HE HAS TO MEET A CON/ANT /REAM ( M5 ( ALL SORTS & CONDITIONS1 HIS S5SITIV5ESS TO !SE FIR/ IMPRESSIONS WILL MAKE HIS CASE HOPELESS4 ,EXCEPT ) ?OSE FEW :O BY SOME SECRET SYMPA?Y WILL SEEM TO RESPOND1 HIS DE=MITY WILL /& LIKE A HUGE B>RI] BETWE5 HIS P]SONALITY & O!R M5'S4 ,! MAGICAL GOOD =TUNE ( ATTRACTIVE P]SONAL APPE>ANCE MAKES ITS WAY ALMO/ )\T EF=T 9 ! WORLD1 BREAK+ D[N ALL SORTS ( WALLS ( DISAPPROVAL & LACK ( 9T]E/4 ,EV5 ! HOMELY P]SON CAN ATTRACT BY P]SONAL *>M4 ,BUT DE=MITY CANNOT EV5 BE *>M+4 

,! DOORS ( ! DE=M$ MAN >E ALWAYS LOCK$1 & ! KEY IS ON ! \TSIDE4 

,! DOORS ( ! DE=M$ MAN >E ALWAYS LOCK$1 & ! KEY IS ON ! \TSIDE4 ,HE MAY HAVE TREASURES ( *>M 9SIDE1 BUT !Y WILL NEV] BE REVEAL$ UNLESS ! P]SON \TSIDE COOP]ATES ) HIM 9 UNLOCK+ ! DOOR4 ,A FRI5D BECOMES1 TO A MU* GREAT] DEGREE ?AN ) ! ORD9>Y MAN1 ! 9DISP5SABLE MEANS ( DISCOV]+ ONE'S [N P]SONALITY4 ,ONE ONLY EXI/S1 SO TO SPEAK1 ) FRI5DS4 ,IT IS EASY TO SEE H[ HOPELESSLY SU* A S5SITIV5ESS 9CAPACITATES A MAN = BUS9ESS1 PR(ESSIONAL1 OR SOCIAL LIFE1 :]E ! HA/Y & SUP]FICIAL IMPRESSION IS EV]Y?+1 & DISA/] IS ! FATE ( ! MAN :O HAS NOT ALL ! TREASURES ( HIS P]SONALITY 9 ! FRONT W9D[1 :]E !Y CAN BE READILY 9SPECT$ & APPRAIS$4 

,IT ?US TAKES ! DE=M$ MAN A LONG TIME TO GET ADJU/$ TO HIS WORLD4 ,*ILDHOOD IS P]HAPS ! H>DE/ TIME ( ALL4 ,AS A *ILD HE IS A /RANGE CREATURE 9 A /RANGE L&4 ,IT WAS MY [N FATE TO BE JU/ /RONG 5\< TO PLAY AB\T ) ! O!R BOYS1 & ATTEMPT ALL !IR GAMES & 0/UNTS0 )\T BE+ /RONG 5\< ACTUALLY TO SUCCE$ 9 ANY ( !M4 ,IT NEV] US$ TO OCCUR TO ME ?AT MY FAILURES & LACK ( SKILL W]E DUE TO CIRCUM/ANCES BEYOND MY CONTROL1 BUT ,I W\LD ALWAYS IMPUTE !M1 9 CONSEQU5CE ( MY RIGID ,CALV9I/IC BR++-UP1 ,I SUPPOSE1 TO SOME MORAL WEAKNESS ( MY [N4 ,I SUFF]$ TORTURES 9 TRY+ TO LE>N TO SKATE1 TO CLIMB TREES1 TO PLAY BALL1 TO CON=M 9 G5]AL TO ! WAYS ( ! WORLD4 ,I NEV] RESIGN$ MYSELF TO ! 9EVITABLE1 BUT OV]EX]T$ MYSELF CON/ANTLY 9 A GRIM DET]M9ATION TO SUCCE$4 ,I WAS GOOD AT MY LESSONS1 & ?R\< TIMIDITY RA!R ?AN PRIGGI%NESS1 ,I HOPE1 A V]Y WELL-BEHAV$ BOY AT S*OOL2 ,I WAS DEVOT$1 TOO1 TO MUSIC1 & LE>N$ TO PLAY ! PIANO PRETTY WELL4 ,BUT ,I DESPIS$ MY REPUTATION = EXCELL5CE 9 !SE ?+S1 & 9/EAD ( ADAPT+ MYSELF PHILOSOPHICALLY TO ! SITUATION1 ,I /ROVE 7& HAVE BE5 /RIV+ EV] S9CE7 TO DO ! ?+S ,I C\LD NOT4 

,AS ,I LOOK BACK N[ IT SEEMS P]FECTLY NATURAL ?AT ,I %\LD HAVE FOLL[$ ! /&>DS ( ! CR[D1 & LOA!D MY HI< M>KS 9 LESSONS & DEPORTM5T1 & ! CONC]TS TO :I* ,I WAS S5T BY MY AUNT1 & ! EXHIBITIONS ( MY MUSICAL SKILL ?AT ,I HAD TO GIVE BE=E ADMIR+ LADIES4 ,:E!R OR NOT SU* AN EXP]I5CE IS TYPICAL ( H&ICAPP$ *ILDR51 !RE IS TRAG$Y !RE = ?OSE SITUAT$ AS ,I WAS4 ,= HAD ,I BE5 A LITTLE WEAK] PHYSICALLY1 ,I %\LD HAVE BE5 ?R[N BACK ON READ+ OMNIVOR\SLY & CULTIVAT+ MY MUSIC1 ) SOME POSSIBLE RESULTS2 :ILE IF ,I HAD BE5 A LITTLE /RONG]1 ,I C\LD HAVE P>TICIPAT$ 9 ! PLAY ON AN EQUAL FOOT+ ) ! RE/4 ,AS IT WAS1 ,I SIMPLY TANTALIZ$ MYSELF1 & GREW UP ) A DEEP5+ S5SE ( FAILURE1 & A LACK ( PRIDE 9 :AT ,I REALLY EXCELL$ AT4 

,:5 ! WORLD BECOME ONE ( DANCES & P>TIES & SOCIAL EV5+S & BOY-&-GIRL ATTA*M5TS - ! WORLD ( Y\? - ,I WAS TO F9D MYSELF /ILL LESS ADAPT$ TO IT4 ,& ?IS WAS ! H>D] TO BE> BECAUSE ,I WAS NATURALLY SOCIABLE1 & ALL !SE ?+S APPEAL$ TREM5D\SLY TO ME4 ,?IS WORLD ( ADMIRATION & GAIETY & SMILES & FAVORS & QUICK 9T]E/ & COMPANION%IP1 H[EV]1 IS ONLY = ! WELL-BEGOTT5 & ! DEBONAIR4 ,IT WAS NOT ?R\< ANY CRUELTY OR DISLIKE1 ,I ?9K1 ?AT ,I WAS REFUS$ ADMITTANCE2 9DE$ !Y W]E ALWAYS V]Y K9D AB\T 9VIT+ ME4 ,BUT IT WAS MORE AS IF A RAGG$ UR*9 HAD BE5 ASK$ TO COME & LOOK ?R\< ! W9D[ AT ! LI<T & W>M? ( A GLITT]+ P>TY2 ,I WAS TRULY 9 ! WORLD1 BUT NOT ( ! WORLD4 ,9DE$ !RE W]E TIMES :5 ONE W\LD ALMO/ PREF] CONSCI\S CRUELTY TO ?IS SIL5T1 UNCONSCI\S1 G5TLE OBLIVION4 ,& ?IS IS ! TRAG$Y1 ,I SUPPOSE1 NOT ONLY ( ! DE=M$1 BUT ( ALL ! ILL-FAVOR$ & UNATTRACTIVE TO A GREAT] OR LESS DEGREE4 ,! WORLD ( Y\? IS A WORLD ( SO MANY CONV5TIONS1 & ! ABNORMAL 9 ANY DIRECTION IS SO GL>+LY & HIDE\SLY ABNORMAL4 

,AL?\< IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO UND]/& ?IS1 & ,I CONT9UE TO ATTRIBUTE MY FAILURE MO/LY TO MY [N *>ACT]1 TRY+ H>D TO COMP5SATE = MY PHYSICAL DEFICI5CIES BY SKILL & CLEV]NESS1 ,I SUFF]$ COMP>ATIVELY FEW PANGS1 & GOT MU* BETT] ADJU/$ TO ?IS WORLD ?AN TO ! O!R1 ,= ,I WAS OLD]1 & ,I HAD ACQUIR$ A LIVELY 9T]E/ 9 ALL ! SOCIAL POLITICS2 ,I W\LD GET SO 9T]E/$ 9 WAT*+ H[ PEOPLE BEHAV$1 & 9 SIZ+ !M UP1 ?AT ONLY AT R>E 9T]VALS W\LD ,I REMEMB] ?AT ,I WAS REALLY HAV+ NO H& 9 ! GAME4 ,?IS 9T]E/ JU/ 9 ! WAYS PEOPLE >E HUMAN HAS BECOME MORE & MORE A POSITIVE ADVANTAGE 9 MY LIFE1 & HAS KEPT SWEET MANY A SITUATION ?AT MI<T EASILY HAVE CO/ ME A PANG4 ,NOT ?AT A P]SON ) MY DISABILITIES %\LD BE A SORT ( DETECTIVE1 EVIL-M9D$LY US+ HIS SOCIAL OPPORTUNITIES = SPY+ \T & ANALYZ+ HIS FRI5DS' FOIBLES1 BUT ?AT1 IF HE DOES ACQUIRE AN 9T]E/ 9 PEOPLE QUITE AP>T FROM !IR RELATION TO HIM1 HE MAY GO 9TO SOCIETY ) AN EASY CONSCI5CE & A C]TA9TY ?AT HE WILL BE 5T]TA9$ & POSSIBLY 5T]TA9+1 EV5 ?\< HE CUTS A POOR 5\< SOCIAL FIGURE4 ,HE MU/ SIMPLY NOT EXPECT TOO MU*4 

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