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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,ALB]T ,CAMUS 

,TEXT 3 

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,I',M ,E,M,B,>,A,S,S,$ TO BE 9 B$ :5 Y\ >RIVE4 ,IT'S NO?+1 JU/ A LITTLE FEV] ?AT ,I'M 
TREAT+ ) G94 ,I'M ACCU/OM$ TO !SE ATTACKS4 ,MAL>IA1 ,I ?9K1 ?AT ,I CAU<T AT ! TIME ,I WAS 
POPE4 ,NO1 ,I'M ONLY HALF JOK+4 ,I KN[ :AT Y\'RE ?9K+3 IT'S V]Y H>D TO DIS5TANGLE ! TRUE 
FROM ! FALSE 9 :AT ,I'M SAY+4 ,I ADMIT Y\ >E RI<T4 ,I MYSELF 444 ,Y\ SEE1 A P]SON ,I KNEW US$ TO 
DIVIDE HUMAN BE+S 9TO ?REE CATEGORIES3 ?OSE :O PREF] HAV+ NO?+ TO HIDE RA!R ?AN 
BE+ OBLIG$ TO LIE1 ?OSE :O PREF] LY+ TO HAV+ NO?+ TO HIDE1 & F9ALLY ?OSE :O LIKE 
BO? LY+ & ! HIDD54 ,I'LL LET Y\ *OOSE ! PIGEONHOLE ?AT SUITS ME4 

,BUT :AT DO ,I C>E8 ,DON'T LIES EV5TUALLY LEAD TO ! TRU?8 ,& DON'T ALL MY /ORIES1 TRUE OR FALSE1 
T5D T[>D ! SAME CONCLUSION8 ,DON'T !Y ALL HAVE ! SAME MEAN+8 ,SO :AT DOES IT MATT] 
:E!R !Y >E TRUE OR FALSE IF1 9 BO? CASES1 !Y >E SIGNIFICANT ( :AT ,I HAVE BE5 & ( :AT ,I 
AM8 ,SOMETIMES IT IS EASI] TO SEE CLE>LY 9TO ! LI> ?AN 9TO ! MAN :O TELLS ! TRU?4 

,TRU?1 LIKE LI<T1 BL9DS4 ,FALSEHOOD1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 IS A BEAUTIFUL TWILI<T ?AT 5HANCES EV]Y OBJECT4 

,WELL1 MAKE ( IT :AT Y\ WILL1 BUT ,I WAS NAM$ POPE 9 A PRISON CAMP4 ,SIT D[N1 PLEASE4 ,Y\ >E 
EXAM9+ ?IS ROOM4 ,BA]1 TO BE SURE1 BUT CLEAN4 ,A ,V]ME]1 )\T FURNITURE OR COPP] POTS4 

,)\T BOOKS EI!R1 = ,I GAVE UP READ+ SOME TIME AGO4 ,AT ONE TIME1 MY H\SE WAS FULL ( HALF- 
READ BOOKS4 ,?AT'S JU/ AS DISGU/+ AS ?OSE PEOPLE :O CUT A PIECE (F A FOIE GRAS & HAVE ! RE/ 
?R[N \T4 ,ANYWAY1 ,I HAVE CEAS$ TO LIKE ANY?+ BUT CONFESSIONS1 & AU?ORS ( CONFESSIONS 
WRITE ESPECIALLY TO AVOID CONFESS+1 TO TELL NO?+ ( :AT !Y KN[4 ,:5 !Y CLAIM TO GET TO ! 
PA9FUL ADMISSIONS1 Y\ HAVE TO WAT* \T1 = !Y >E AB\T TO DRESS ! CORPSE4 ,BELIEVE ME1 ,I 
KN[ :AT ,I'M TALK+ AB\T4 ,SO ,I PUT A /OP TO IT4 ,NO MORE BOOKS1 NO MORE USELESS OBJECTS EI!R2 
! B>E NECESSITIES1 CLEAN & POLI%$ LIKE A C(F94 ,BESIDES1 !SE ,DUT* B$S1 SO H>D & ) 
!IR IMMACULATE %EETS--ONE DIES 9 !M AS IF ALREADY WRAPP$ 9 A %R\D1 EMBALM$ 9 PURITY4 

,Y\ >E CURI\S TO KN[ MY PONTIFICAL ADV5TURES8 ,NO?+ \T ( ! ORD9>Y1 Y\ KN[4 

,%ALL ,I HAVE ! /R5G? TO TELL Y\ ( !M8 ,YES1 ! FEV] IS GO+ D[N4 ,IT WAS ALL SO LONG AGO4 ,IT 
WAS 9 ,AFRICA :]E1 ?ANKS TO A C]TA9 ,ROMMEL1 W> WAS RAG+4 ,I WASN'T 9VOLV$ 9 IT--NO1 DON'T 
WORRY4 ,I HAD ALREADY DODG$ ! ONE 9 ,EUROPE4 ,MOBILIZ$ ( C\RSE1 BUT ,I NEV] SAW ACTION4 ,9 A 
WAY1 ,I REGRET IT4 ,MAYBE ?AT W\LD HAVE *ANG$ MANY ?+S8 ,! ,FR5* >MY DIDN'T NE$ ME ON 
! FRONT2 IT M]ELY ASK$ ME TO TAKE P>T 9 ! RETREAT4 ,A LITTLE LAT] ,I GOT BACK TO ,P>IS1 & ! 
,G]MANS4 ,I WAS TEMPT$ BY ! ,RESI/ANCE1 AB\T :I* PEOPLE W]E BEG9N+ TO TALK JU/ AB\T ! 
TIME ,I DISCOV]$ ?AT ,I WAS PATRIOTIC4 ,Y\ >E SMIL+8 ,Y\ >E WRONG4 ,I MADE MY DISCOV]Y ON A 
SUBWAY PLAT=M1 AT ! ,*ATELET /ATION4 ,A DOG HAD /RAY$ 9TO ! LABYR9? ( PASSAGEWAYS4 ,BIG1 
WIRY-HAIR$1 ONE E> COCK$1 EYES LAU<+1 HE WAS CAVORT+ & SNIFF+ ! PASS+ LEGS4 ,I HAVE A 
V]Y OLD & V]Y FAI?FUL ATTA*M5T = DOGS4 ,I LIKE !M BECAUSE !Y ALWAYS =GIVE4 ,I CALL$ ?IS 
ONE1 :O HESITAT$1 OBVI\SLY WON OV]1 WAGG+ HIS TAIL 5?USIA/ICALLY A FEW Y>DS AHEAD ( ME4 

,JU/ !N1 A Y\NG ,G]MAN SOLDI]1 :O WAS WALK+ BRISKLY1 PASS$ ME4 ,HAV+ REA*$ ! 
DOG1 HE C>ESS$ ! %AGGY HEAD4 ,)\T HESITAT+1 ! ANIMAL FELL 9 /EP ) ! SAME 
5?USIASM & DISAPPE>$ ) HIM4 ,FROM ! RES5TM5T & ! SORT ( RAGE ,I FELT AGA9/ ! 
,G]MAN SOLDI]1 IT WAS DE> TO ME ?AT MY REACTION WAS PATRIOTIC4 ,IF ! DOG HAD FOLL[$ A ,FR5* 
CIVILIAN1 ,I'D NOT EV5 HAVE ?\<T ( IT4 ,BUT1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 ,I IMAG9$ ?AT FRI5DLY DOG AS ! 
MASCOT ( A ,G]MAN REGIM5T & ?AT MADE ME FLY 9TO A RAGE4 ,H5CE ! TE/ WAS CONV9C+4 

,I REA*$ ! ,S\!RN ,ZONE ) ! 9T5TION ( F9D+ \T AB\T ! ,RESI/ANCE4 ,BUT ONCE 
!RE & HAV+ F\ND \T1 ,I HESITAT$4 ,! UND] TAK+ /RUCK ME AS A LITTLE MAD &1 9 A WORD1 
ROMANTIC4 ,I ?9K ESPECIALLY ?AT UND]GR\ND ACTION SUIT$ NEI!R MY TEMP]AM5T NOR MY 
PREF]5CE = EXPOS$ HEI<TS4 ,IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ,I WAS BE+ ASK$ TO DO SOME WEAV+ 9 A 
CELL>1 = DAYS & NI<TS ON 5D1 UNTIL SOME BRUTES %\LD COME TO HAUL ME FROM HID+1 UNDO MY WEAV+1 & !N DRAG ME TO ANO!R CELL> TO BEAT ME TO DEA?4 ,I ADMIR$ ?OSE :O 9DULG$ 9 SU* H]OISM ( ! DEP?S1 BUT C\LDN'T IMITATE !M4 

 ,SO ,I CROSS$ OV] TO ,NOR? ,AFRICA ) ! VAGUE 9T5TION ( GETT+ TO ,LONDON4 ,BUT 9 
,AFRICA ! SITUATION WAS NOT CLE>2 ! OPPOS+ P>TIES SEEM$ TO BE EQUALLY RI<T & ,I /OOD ALO(4 

,I CAN SEE FROM Y\R MANN] ?AT ,I AM SKIPP+ RA!R FA/1 9 Y\R OP9ION1 OV] !SE DETAILS :I* 
HAVE A C]TA9 SIGNIFICANCE4 ,WELL1 LET'S SAY ?AT1 HAV+ JUDG$ Y\ AT Y\R TRUE VALUE1 ,I AM SKIPP+ 
OV] !M SO ?AT Y\ WILL NOTICE !M ! BETT]4 ,9 ANY CASE1 ,I EV5TUALLY REA*$ ,TUNISIA1 :]E A 
FOND FRI5D GAVE ME WORK4 ,?AT FRI5D WAS A V]Y 9TELLIG5T WOMAN :O WAS 9VOLV$ 9 ! 
MOVIES4 ,I FOLL[$ H] TO ,TUNIS & DIDN'T DISCOV] H] REAL BUS9ESS UNTIL ! DAYS FOLL[+ ! 
,ALLI$ L&+ 9 ,ALG]IA4 ,%E WAS >RE/$ ?AT DAY BY ! ,G]MANS & ,I1 TOO1 BUT )\T HAV+ 
9T5D$ IT4 ,I DON'T KN[ :AT BECAME ( H]4 ,AS = ME1 NO H>M WAS DONE ME & ,I REALIZ$1 AFT] 
CONSID]ABLE ANGUI%1 ?AT IT WAS *IEFLY AS A SECURITY MEASURE4 ,I WAS 9T]N$ NE> ,TRIPOLI 9 A CAMP 
:]E WE SUFF]$ FROM ?IR/ & DE/ITUTION MORE ?AN FROM BRUTALITY4 ,I'LL NOT DESCRIBE IT TO Y\4 

,WE *ILDR5 ( ! MID-C5TURY DON'T NE$ A DIAGRAM TO IMAG9E SU* PLACES4 ,A HUNDR$ & FIFTY 
YE>S AGO1 PEOPLE BECAME S5TIM5TAL AB\T LAKES & =E/S4 ,TODAY WE HAVE ! LYRICISM ( 
! PRISON CELL4 ,H5CE1 ,I'LL LEAVE IT TO Y\4 ,Y\ NE$ ADD BUT A FEW DETAILS3 ! HEAT1 ! V]TICAL SUN1 
! FLIES1 ! S&1 ! LACK ( WAT]4 

,!RE WAS A Y\NG ,FR5*MAN ) ME :O HAD FAI?4 ,YES1 IT'S DECID$LY A FAIRY TALE6 ,! ,DU 
,GUESCL9 TYPE1 IF Y\ WILL4 ,HE HAD CROSS$ OV] FROM ,FRANCE 9TO ,SPA9 TO GO & FI<T4 ,! ,CA?OLIC 
G5]AL HAD 9T]N$ HIM1 & HAV+ SE5 ?AT 9 ! ,FRANCO CAMPS ! *ICK-PEAS W]E1 IF ,I MAY SAY 
SO1 BLESS$ BY ,ROME1 HE HAD DEVELOP$ A PR(\ND MELAN*OLY4 ,NEI!R ! SKY ( ,AFRICA1 :]E HE 
HAD NEXT L&$1 NOR ! LEISURES ( ! CAMP HAD DI/RACT$ HIM FROM ?AT MELAN*OLY4 ,BUT HIS 
REFLECTIONS1 & ! SUN1 TOO1 HAD SOME:AT UNH+$ HIM4 ,ONE DAY :51 UND] A T5T ?AT SEEM$ 
TO DRIP MOLT5 LEAD1 ! T5 OR SO ( US W]E PANT+ AMONG ! FLIES1 HE REPEAT$ HIS DIATRIBES 
AGA9/ ! ,ROMAN1 AS HE CALL$ HIM4 ,HE LOOK$ AT US ) A WILD />E1 HIS FACE UN%AV5 = DAYS4 

,BA] TO ! WAI/ & COV]$ ) SWEAT1 HE DRUMM$ ) HIS H&S ON ! VISIBLE KEYBO>D ( HIS 
RIBS4 ,HE DECL>$ TO US ! NE$ = A NEW POPE :O %\LD LIVE AMONG ! WRET*$ 9/EAD 
( PRAY+ ON A ?RONE1 & ! SOON] ! BETT]4 ,HE />$ ) WILD EYES AS HE %OOK HIS HEAD4 

0,YES10 HE REPEAT$1 0AS SOON AS POSSIBLE60 ,!N HE CALM$ D[N SUDD5LY & 9 A DULL VOICE SAID 
?AT WE MU/ *OOSE HIM AMONG US1 PICK A COMPLETE MAN ) HIS VICES & VIRTUES & SWE> 
ALLEGIANCE TO HIM1 ON ! SOLE CONDITION ?AT HE %\LD AGREE TO KEEP ALIVE1 9 HIMSELF & 9 O!RS1 
! COMMUNITY ( \R SUFF]+S4 0,:O AMONG US10 HE ASK$1 0HAS ! MO/ FAIL+S80 ,AS A JOKE1 ,I 
RAIS$ MY H& & WAS ! ONLY ONE TO DO SO4 0,O4,K41 ,JEAN-,BAPTI/E WILL DO40 ,NO1 HE DIDN'T SAY JU/ 
?AT BECAUSE ,I HAD ANO!R NAME !N4 ,HE DECL>$ AT LEA/ ?AT NOM9AT+ ONESELF AS ,I HAD DONE 
PRESUPPOS$ ALSO ! GREATE/ VIRTUE & PROPOS$ ELECT+ ME4 ,! O!RS AGRE$1 9 FUN1 BUT ) A 
TRACE ( S]I\SNESS ALL ! SAME4 ,! TRU? IS ?AT ,DU ,GUESCL9 HAD IMPRESS$ US4 ,IT SEEMS TO ME 
?AT EV5 ,I WAS NOT ALTOGE!R LAU<+4 ,TO BEG9 )1 ,I CONSID]$ ?AT MY LITTLE PROPHET WAS RI<T2 
& !N ) ! SUN1 ! EXHAU/+ LABOR1 ! /RUGGLE = WAT]1 WE W]E NOT UP TO SNUFF4 ,9 ANY 
CASE1 ,I EX]CIS$ MY PONTIFICATE = SEV]AL WEEKS1 ) 9CREAS+ S]I\SNESS4 
 ,( :AT DID IT CONSI/8 ,WELL1 ,I WAS SOME?+ LIKE A GR\P LEAD] OR ! SECRET>Y ( A CELL4 

,! O!RS1 9 ANY CASE1 & EV5 ?OSE :O LACK$ FAI?1 GOT 9TO ! HABIT ( OBEY+ ME4 ,DU 
,GUESCL9 WAS SUFF]+2 ,I ADM9I/]$ HIS SUFF]+4 ,I DISCOV]$ !N ?AT IT WAS NOT SO EASY AS ,I 
?\<T TO BE A POPE1 & ,I REMEMB]$ ?IS JU/ YE/]DAY AFT] HAV+ GIV5 Y\ SU* A SCORNFUL 
SPEE* ON JUDGES1 \R BRO!RS4 ,! BIG PROBLEM 9 ! CAMP WAS ! WAT] ALLOTM5T4 ,O!R 
GR\PS1 POLITICAL OR SECT>IAN1 HAD =M$1 & EA* PRISON] FAVOR$ HIS COMRADES4 ,I WAS 
CONSEQU5TLY L$ TO FAVOR M9E1 & ?IS WAS A LITTLE CONCESSION TO BEG9 )4 ,EV5 AMONG US1 ,I 
C\LD NOT MA9TA9 COMPLETE EQUALITY4 ,ACCORD+ TO MY COMRADES' CONDITION1 OR ! WORK !Y HAD 
TO DO1 ,I GAVE AN ADVANTAGE TO ?IS OR ?AT ONE4 ,SU* DI/9CTIONS >E F>-REA*+1 Y\ CAN TAKE MY 
WORD = IT4 ,BUT DECID$LY ,I AM TIR$ & NO LONG] WANT TO ?9K ( ?AT P]IOD4 ,LET'S JU/ SAY ?AT ,I 
CLOS$ ! CIRCLE ! DAY ,I DRANK ! WAT] ( A DY+ COMRADE4 ,NO1 NO1 IT WASN'T ,DU ,GUESCL92 HE 
WAS ALREADY DEAD1 ,I BELIEVE1 = HE /9T$ HIMSELF TOO MU*4 ,BESIDES1 HAD HE BE5 !RE1 \T ( LOVE 
= HIM ,I'D HAVE RESI/$ LONG]1 = ,I LOV$ HIM--YES1 ,I LOV$ HIM1 OR SO IT SEEMS TO ME4 ,BUT ,I 
DRANK ! WAT]1 ?AT'S C]TA91 :ILE CONV9C+ MYSELF ?AT ! O!RS NE$$ ME MORE ?AN ?IS 
FELL[ :O WAS GO+ TO DIE ANYWAY & ?AT ,I HAD A DUTY TO KEEP MYSELF ALIVE = !M4 ,?US1 *]1 
EMPIRES & *UR*ES >E BORN UND] ! SUN ( DEA?4 ,& 9 ORD] TO CORRECT SOME:AT :AT ,I 
SAID YE/]DAY1 ,I AM GO+ TO TELL Y\ ! GREAT IDEA ?AT HAS COME TO ME :ILE TELL+ ALL ?IS1 
:I*--,I'M NOT SURE N[--,I MAY HAVE LIV$ OR ONLY DREAM$4 ,MY GREAT IDEA IS ?AT ONE MU/ 
=GIVE ! POPE4 ,TO BEG9 )1 HE NE$S IT MORE ?AN ANYONE ELSE4 ,SECONDLY1 ?AT'S ! ONLY WAY TO 
SET ONESELF ABOVE HIM 444 

,DID Y\ CLOSE ! DOOR ?OR\<LY8 ,YES8 ,MAKE SURE1 PLEASE4 ,=GIVE ME1 ,I HAVE ! BOLT COMPLEX4 

,ON ! PO9T ( GO+ TO SLEEP1 ,I CAN NEV] REMEMB] :E!R OR NOT ,I PU%$ ! BOLT4 ,& EV]Y 
NI<T ,I MU/ GET UP TO V]IFY4 ,ONE CAN BE SURE ( NO?+1 AS ,I'VE TOLD Y\4 ,DON'T ?9K ?AT ?IS 
WORRY AB\T ! BOLT IS ! REACTION ( A FRI<T5$ POSSESSOR4 ,=M]LY ,I DIDN'T LOCK MY AP>TM5T 
OR MY C>4 ,I DIDN'T LOCK UP MY MONEY2 ,I DIDN'T CL+ TO :AT ,I [N$4 ,TO TELL ! TRU?1 ,I WAS A LITTLE 
 A%AM$ TO [N ANY?+4 ,DIDN'T ,I OCCASIONALLY1 9 MY SOCIAL REM>KS1 EXCLAIM ) CONVICTION3 

0,PROP]TY1 G5TLEM51 IS MURD]60 ,NOT BE+ SUFFICI5TLY BIG-HE>T$ TO %>E MY WEAL? ) A 
DES]V+ POOR MAN1 ,I LEFT IT AT ! DISPOSAL ( POSSIBLE ?IEVES1 HOP+ ?US TO CORRECT 9JU/ICE BY 
*ANCE4 ,TODAY1 MOREOV]1 ,I POSSESS NO?+4 ,H5CE ,I AM NOT WORRI$ AB\T MY SAFETY1 BUT AB\T 
MYSELF & MY PRES5CE ( M9D ,I AM ALSO EAG] TO BLOCK ! DOOR ( ! CLOS$ LITTLE UNIV]SE ( 
:I* ,I AM ! K+1 ! POPE1 & ! JUDGE4 

,BY ! WAY1 WILL Y\ PLEASE OP5 ?AT CUPBO>D8 ,YES1 LOOK AT ?AT PA9T+4 ,DON'T Y\ RECOGNIZE 
IT8 ,IT IS 0,! ,JU/ ,JUDGES40 ,?AT DOESN'T MAKE Y\ JUMP8 ,CAN IT BE ?AT Y\R CULTURE HAS GAPS8 ,YET IF 
Y\ READ ! PAP]S1 Y\ W\LD RECALL ! !FT 9 #aicd M ! ,/4 ,BAVON ,CA!DRAL ( ,<5T1 ( ONE 
( ! PANELS ( ! FAM\S VAN ,EYCK ALT>PIECE1 0,! ,ADORATION ( ! ,LAMB40 ,?AT PANEL WAS 
CALL$ 0,! ,JU/ ,JUDGES40 ,IT REPRES5T$ JUDGES ON HORSEBACK COM+ TO ADORE ! SACR$ ANIMAL4 ,IT 
WAS REPLAC$ BY AN EXCELL5T COPY1 = ! ORIG9AL WAS NEV] F\ND4 ,WELL1 H]E IT IS4 ,NO1 ,I HAD 
NO?+ TO DO ) IT4 ,A FREQU5T] ( ,MEXICO ,CITY --Y\ HAD A GLIMPSE ( HIM ! O!R 
EV5+--SOLD IT TO ! APE = A BOTTLE1 ONE DRUNK5 EV5+4 ,I FIR/ ADVIS$ \R FRI5D TO HANG IT 9 
A PLACE ( HONOR1 & = A LONG TIME1 :ILE !Y W]E BE+ LOOK$ = ?R\<\T ! WORLD1 \R 
DEV\T JUDGES SAT 5?RON$ AT ,MEXICO ,CITY ABOVE ! DRUNKS & PIMPS4 ,!N ! APE1 AT MY 
REQUE/1 PUT IT 9 CU/ODY H]E4 ,HE BALK$ A LITTLE AT DO+ SO1 BUT HE GOT A FRI<T :5 ,I EXPLA9$ ! 
MATT] TO HIM4 ,S9CE !N1 !SE E/IMABLE MAGI/RATES =M MY SOLE COMPANY4 ,AT ,MEXICO ,CITY1 ABOVE 
! B>1 Y\ SAW :AT A VOID !Y LEFT4 

,:Y ,I DID NOT RETURN ! PANEL8 ,AH6 ,AH6 ,Y\ HAVE A POLICEMAN'S REFLEX1 Y\ DO6 ,WELL1 ,I'LL ANSW] 
Y\ AS ,I W\LD ! /ATE'S ATTORNEY1 IF IT C\LD EV] OCCUR TO ANYONE ?AT ?IS PA9T+ HAD W\ND UP 
9 MY ROOM4 ,FIR/1 BECAUSE IT BELONGS NOT TO ME BUT TO ! PROPRIETOR ( ,MEXICO ,CITY1 :O DES]VES IT 
AS MU* AS ! ,>*BI%OP ( ,<5T4 ,SECONDLY1 BECAUSE AMONG ALL ?OSE :O FILE BY 0,! 
,ADORATION4 ( ! ,LAMB0 NO ONE C\LD DI/+UI% ! COPY FROM ! ORIG9AL & H5CE NO ONE IS 
WRONG$ BY MY MISCONDUCT4 ,?IRDLY1 BECAUSE 9 ?IS WAY ,I DOM9ATE4 ,FALSE JUDGES >E HELD UP TO ! 
WORLD'S ADMIRATION & ,I ALONE KN[ ! TRUE ONES4 ,F\R?1 BECAUSE ,I ?US HAVE A *ANCE ( 
BE+ S5T TO PRISON--AN ATTRACTIVE IDEA 9 A WAY4 ,FIF?1 BECAUSE ?OSE JUDGES >E ON !IR WAY TO 
MEET ! ,LAMB1 BECAUSE !RE IS NO MORE LAMB OR 9NOC5CE1 & BECAUSE ! CLEV] RASCAL :O /OLE 
! PANEL WAS AN 9/RUM5T ( ! UNKN[N JU/ICE ?AT ONE \<T NOT TO ?W>T4 ,F9ALLY1 BECAUSE 
?IS WAY EV]Y?+ IS 9 H>MONY4 ,JU/ICE BE+ DEF9ITIVELY SEP>AT$ FROM 9NOC5CE--! LATT] ON 
! CROSS & ! =M] 9 ! CUPBO>D--,I HAVE ! WAY CLE> TO WORK ACCORD+ TO MY 
CONVICTIONS4 ,) A CLE> CONSCI5CE ,I CAN PRACTICE ! DIFFICULT PR(ESSION ( JUDGE-P5IT5T1 9 :I* ,I HAVE SET MYSELF UP AFT] SO MANY BLI<T$ HOPES & CONTRADICTIONS2 & N[ IT IS TIME1 S9CE Y\ >E LEAV+1 = ME TO TELL Y\ :AT IT IS4 

,ALL[ ME FIR/ TO SIT UP SO ,I CAN BREA! MORE EASILY4 ,OH1 H[ WEAK ,I AM6 ,LOCK UP MY JUDGES1 
PLEASE4 ,AS = ! PR(ESSION ( JUDGE-P5IT5T1 ,I AM PRACTIC+ IT AT PRES5T4 ,ORD9>ILY1 MY (FICES 
>E AT ,MEXICO ,CITY4 ,BUT REAL VOCATIONS >E C>RI$ BEYOND ! PLACE ( WORK4 ,EV5 9 B$1 EV5 ) 
 A FEV]1 ,I AM FUNCTION+4 ,BESIDES1 ONE DOESN'T PRACTICE ?IS PR(ESSION1 ONE BREA!S IT 
CON/ANTLY4 ,DON'T GET ! IDEA ?AT ,I HAVE TALK$ TO Y\ AT SU* L5G? = FIVE DAYS JU/ = ! FUN ( 
IT4 ,NO1 ,I US$ TO TALK ?R\< MY HAT QUITE 5\< 9 ! PA/4 ,N[ MY WORDS HAVE A PURPOSE4 ,!Y 
HAVE ! PURPOSE1 OBVI\SLY1 ( SIL5C+ ! LAU<T]1 ( AVOID+ JUDGM5T P]SONALLY1 ?\< !RE 
IS APP>5TLY NO ESCAPE4 ,IS NOT ! GREAT ?+ ?AT /&S 9 ! WAY ( \R ESCAP+ IT ! FACT ?AT 
WE >E ! FIR/ TO CONDEMN \RSELVES8 ,!RE=E IT IS ESS5TIAL TO BEG9 BY EXT5D+ ! CONDEMNATION TO ALL1 )\T DI/9CTION1 9 ORD] TO ?9 IT \T AT ! />T4 

,NO EXCUSES EV]1 = ANYONE2 ?AT'S MY PR9CIPLE AT ! \TSET4 ,I D5Y ! GOOD 9T5TION1 ! 
RESPECTABLE MI/AKE1 ! 9DISCRETION1 ! EXT5UAT+ CIRCUM/ANCE4 ,) ME !RE IS NO GIV+ ( 
ABSOLUTION OR BLESS+4 ,EV]Y?+ IS SIMPLY TOTT$ UP1 & !N3 0,IT COMES TO SO MU*4 ,Y\ >E AN 
EVILDO]1 A SATYR1 A CONG5ITAL LI>1 A HOMOSEXUAL1 AN >TI/1 ETC40 ,JU/ LIKE ?AT4 ,JU/ AS FLATLY4 ,9 PHILOSOPHY AS 9 POLITICS1 ,I AM = ANY !ORY ?AT REFUSES TO GRANT MAN 9NOC5CE & = ANY 
PRACTICE ?AT TREATS HIM AS GUILTY4 ,Y\ SEE 9 ME1 TRES *]1 AN 5LI<T5$ ADVOCATE ( SLAV]Y4 

,)\T SLAV]Y1 AS A MATT] ( FACT1 !RE IS NO DEF9ITIVE SOLUTION4 ,I V]Y SOON REALIZ$ ?AT4 ,ONCE 
UPON A TIME1 ,I WAS ALWAYS TALK+ ( FRE$OM4 ,AT BREAKFA/ ,I US$ TO SPREAD IT ON MY TOA/1 ,I US$ TO 
*EW IT ALL DAY LONG1 & 9 COMPANY MY BREA? WAS DELI<TFULLY R$OL5T ( FRE$OM4 ,) ?AT KEY 
WORD ,I W\LD BLUDGEON :OEV] CONTRADICT$ ME2 ,I MADE IT S]VE MY DESIRES & MY P[]4 ,I US$ 
TO :ISP] IT 9 B$ 9 ! E> ( MY SLEEP+ MATES & IT HELP$ ME TO DROP !M ,I W\LD SLIP IT 444 

,T*K6 ,T*K6 ,I AM GETT+ EXCIT$ & LOS+ ALL S5SE ( PROPORTION4 ,AFT] ALL1 ,I DID ON OCCASION MAKE 
A MORE DIS9T]E/$ USE ( FRE$OM & EV5--JU/ IMAG9E MY NAIVETE--DEF5D$ IT TWO OR ?REE 
TIMES )\T ( C\RSE GO+ SO F> AS TO DIE = IT1 BUT NEV]!LESS TAK+ A FEW RISKS4 ,I MU/ BE 
=GIV5 SU* RA% ACTS2 ,I DIDN'T KN[ :AT ,I WAS DO+4 ,I DIDN'T KN[ ?AT FRE$OM IS NOT A REW>D 
OR A DECORATION ?AT IS CELEBRAT$ ) *AMPAGNE4 ,NOR YET A GIFT1 A BOX ( DA9TIES DESIGN$ TO MAKE 
Y\ LICK Y\R *OPS4 ,OH1 NO6 ,IT'S A *ORE1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 & A LONG-DI/ANCE RACE1 QUITE 
SOLIT>Y & V]Y EXHAU/+4 ,NO *AMPAGNE1 NO FRI5DS RAIS+ !IR GLASSES AS !Y LOOK AT Y\ 
AFFECTIONATELY4 ,ALONE 9 A =BIDD+ ROOM1 ALONE 9 ! PRISON]'S BOG BE=E ! JUDGES1 & ALONE 
TO DECIDE 9 FACE ( ONESELF OR 9 ! FACE ( O!RS' JUDGM5T4 ,AT ! 5D ( ALL FRE$OM IS A C\RT 
S5T5CE2 ?AT'S :Y FRE$OM IS TOO HEAVY TO BE>1 ESPECIALLY :5 Y\'RE D[N ) A FEV]1 OR >E 
DI/RESS$1 OR LOVE NOBODY4 

,AH1 MON *]1 = ANYONE :O IS ALONE1 )\T ,GOD & )\T A MA/]1 ! WEI<T ( DAYS IS 
DREADFUL4 ,H5CE ONE MU/ *OOSE A MA/]1 ,GOD BE+ \T ( /YLE4 ,BESIDES1 ?AT WORD HAS LO/ ITS 
MEAN+2 IT'S NOT WOR? ! RISK ( %OCK+ ANYONE4 ,TAKE \R MORAL PHILOSOPH]S1 = 9/ANCE1 SO 
S]I\S1 LOV+ !IR NEI<BOR & ALL ! RE/--NO?+ DI/+UI%ES !M FROM ,*RI/IANS1 EXCEPT 
?AT !Y DON'T PREA* 9 *UR*ES4 ,:AT1 9 Y\R OP9ION1 KEEPS !M FROM BECOM+ CONV]T$8 

,RESPECT P]HAPS1 RESPECT = M52 YES1 HUMAN RESPECT4 ,!Y DON'T WANT TO />T A SC&AL1 SO !Y 
KEEP !IR FEEL+S TO !MSELVES4 ,= EXAMPLE1 ,I KNEW AN A!I/IC NOVELI/ :O US$ TO PRAY EV]Y 
 NI<T4 ,?AT DIDN'T /OP ANY?+3 H[ HE GAVE IT TO ,GOD 9 HIS BOOKS6 ,:AT A DU/+ (F1 AS 
SOMEONE OR O!R W\LD SAY4 ,A MILITANT FREE?9K] TO :OM ,I SPOKE ( ?IS RAIS$ HIS H&S--) 
NO EVIL 9T5TION1 ,I ASSURE Y\--TO HEAV53 0,Y\'RE TELL+ ME NO?+ NEW10 ?AT APO/LE SI<$1 
0!Y >E ALL LIKE ?AT40 ,ACCORD+ TO HIM1 EI<TY P] C5T ( \R WRIT]S1 IF ONLY !Y C\LD AVOID 
SIGN+1 W\LD WRITE & HAIL ! NAME ( ,GOD4 ,BUT !Y SIGN1 ACCORD+ TO HIM1 BECAUSE !Y LOVE 
!MSELVES1 & !Y HAIL NO?+ AT ALL BECAUSE !Y LOA! !MSELVES4 ,S9CE1 NEV]!LESS1 !Y 
CANNOT KEEP !MSELVES FROM JUDG+1 !Y MAKE UP = IT BY MORALIZ+4 ,9 %ORT1 !IR ,SATANISM IS VIRTU\S4 ,AN ODD EPO*1 9DE$6 ,IT'S NOT AT ALL SURPRIS+ ?AT M9DS >E CONFUS$ & ?AT ONE ( MY 
FRI5DS1 AN A!I/ :5 HE WAS A MODEL HUSB&1 GOT CONV]T$ :5 HE BECAME AN ADULT]]6 

,AH1 ! LITTLE SNEAKS1 PLAY ACTORS1 HYPOCRITES--& YET SO T\*+6 ,BELIEVE ME1 !Y ALL >E1 EV5 
:5 !Y SET FIRE TO HEAV54 ,:E!R !Y >E A!I/S OR *UR*GO]S1 ,MUSCOVITES OR ,BO/ONIANS1 
ALL ,*RI/IANS FROM FA!R TO SON4 ,BUT IT SO HAPP5S ?AT !RE IS NO MORE FA!R1 NO MORE RULE6 
,!Y >E FREE & H5CE HAVE TO %IFT = !MSELVES2 & S9CE !Y DON'T WANT FRE$OM OR ITS 
JUDGM5TS1 !Y ASK TO BE RAPP$ ON ! KNUCKLES1 !Y 9V5T DREADFUL RULES1 !Y RU% \T TO BUILD 
PILES ( FAGOTS TO REPLACE *UR*ES4 ,SAVON>OLAS1 ,I TELL Y\4 ,BUT !Y BELIEVE SOLELY 9 S91 NEV] 9 
GRACE4 ,!Y ?9K ( IT1 TO BE SURE4 ,GRACE IS :AT !Y WANT--ACCEPTANCE1 SURR5D]1 HAPP9ESS1 & 
MAYBE1 = !Y >E S5TIM5TAL TOO1 BETRO?AL1 ! VIRG9AL BRIDE1 ! UPRI<T MAN1 ! ORGAN MUSIC4 

,TAKE ME1 = EXAMPLE1 & ,I AM NOT S5TIM5TAL--DO Y\ KN[ :AT ,I US$ TO DREAM (8 ,A TOTAL 
LOVE ( ! :OLE HE>T & BODY1 DAY & NI<T1 9 AN UN9T]RUPT$ EMBRACE1 S5SUAL 5JOYM5T 
& M5TAL EXCITEM5T--ALL LA/+ FIVE YE>S & 5D+ 9 DEA?4 ,ALAS6 

,SO1 AFT] ALL1 = WANT ( BETRO?AL OR UN9T]RUPT$ LOVE1 IT WILL BE M>RIAGE1 BRUTAL M>RIAGE1 ) 
P[] & ! :IP4 ,! ESS5TIAL IS ?AT EV]Y?+ %\LD BECOME SIMPLE1 AS = ! *ILD1 ?AT 
EV]Y ACT %\LD BE ORD]$1 ?AT GOOD & EVIL %\LD BE >BITR>ILY1 H5CE OBVI\SLY1 PO9T$ \T4 

,& ,I AGREE1 H[EV] ,SICILIAN & ,JAVANESE ,I MAY BE & NOT AT ALL ,*RI/IAN1 ?\< ,I FEEL 
FRI5D%IP = ! FIR/ ,*RI/IAN ( ALL4 ,BUT ON ! BRIDGES ( ,P>IS ,I1 TOO1 LE>N$ ?AT ,I WAS AFRAID ( 
FRE$OM4 ,SO HURRAH = ! MA/]1 :OEV] HE MAY BE1 TO TAKE ! PLACE ( HEAV5'S LAW4 0,\R 
,FA!R :O >T PROVISIONALLY H]E 444 ,\R GUIDES1 \R DELI<TFULLY SEV]E MA/]S1 ,O CRUEL & BELOV$ 
LEAD]S 4440 ,9 %ORT1 Y\ SEE1 ! ESS5TIAL IS TO CEASE BE+ FREE & TO OBEY1 9 REP5TANCE1 A GREAT] 
ROGUE ?AN ONESELF4 ,:5 WE >E ALL GUILTY1 ?AT WILL BE DEMOCRACY4 ,)\T C\NT+1 *] AMI1 ?AT 
WE MU/ TAKE REV5GE = HAV+ TO DIE ALONE4 ,DEA? IS SOLIT>Y1 :]EAS SLAV]Y IS COLLECTIVE4 ,! 
O!RS GET !IRS1 TOO1 & AT ! SAME TIME AS WE--?AT'S :AT C\NTS4 ,ALL TOGE!R AT LA/1 BUT ON 
\R KNEES & HEADS B[$4 

,ISN'T IT GOOD LIKEWISE TO LIVE LIKE ! RE/ ( ! WORLD1 & = ?AT DOESN'T ! RE/ ( ! WORLD 
HAVE TO BE LIKE ME8 ,?REAT1 DI%ONOR1 POLICE >E ! SACRAM5TS ( ?AT RESEMBLANCE4 ,SCORN$1 
HUNT$ D[N1 COMPELL$1 ,I CAN !N %[ :AT ,I AM WOR?1 5JOY :AT ,I AM1 BE NATURAL AT LA/4 ,?IS 
IS :Y1 TRES *]1 AFT] HAV+ SOLEMNLY PAID MY RESPECTS TO FRE$OM1 ,I DECID$ ON ! SLY ?AT IT HAD TO 
BE H&$ OV] )\T DELAY TO ANYONE :O COMES ALONG4 ,& EV]Y TIME ,I CAN1 ,I PREA* 9 
MY *UR* ( ,MEXICO ,CITY1 ,I 9VITE ! GOOD PEOPLE TO SUBMIT TO AU?ORITY & HUMBLY TO SOLICIT ! 
COM=TS ( SLAV]Y1 EV5 IF ,I HAVE TO PRES5T IT AS TRUE FRE$OM4 

,BUT ,I'M NOT BE+ CRAZY2 ,I'M WELL AW>E ?AT SLAV]Y IS NOT IMM$IATELY REALIZABLE4 ,IT WILL BE ONE ( 
! BLESS+S ( ! FUTURE1 ?AT'S ALL4 ,9 ! MEANTIME1 ,I MU/ GET ALONG ) ! PRES5T & SEEK AT 
LEA/ A PROVISIONAL SOLUTION4 ,H5CE ,I HAD TO F9D ANO!R MEANS ( EXT5D+ JUDGM5T TO EV]YBODY 
9 ORD] TO MAKE IT WEI< LESS HEAVILY ON MY [N %\LD]S4 ,I F\ND ! MEANS4 ,OP5 ! W9D[ A 
LITTLE1 PLEASE2 IT'S FRI<TFULLY HOT4 ,NOT TOO MU*1 = ,I AM COLD ALSO4 ,MY IDEA IS BO? SIMPLE & F]TILE4 

,H[ TO GET EV]YONE 9VOLV$ 9 ORD] TO HAVE ! RI<T TO SIT CALMLY ON ! \TSIDE MYSELF8 ,%\LD 
,I CLIMB UP TO ! PULPIT1 LIKE MANY ( MY ILLU/RI\S CONTEMPOR>IES1 & CURSE HUMANITY8 ,V]Y 
DANG]\S1 ?AT IS6 ,ONE DAY1 OR ONE NI<T1 LAU<T] BUR/S \T )\T A W>N+4 ,! JUDGM5T Y\ 
>E PASS+ ON O!RS EV5TUALLY SNAPS BACK 9 Y\R FACE1 CAUS+ SOME DAMAGE4 ,& SO :AT8 Y\ 
ASK4 ,WELL1 H]E'S ! /ROKE ( G5IUS4 ,I DISCOV]$ ?AT :ILE WAIT+ = ! MA/]S ) !IR 
RODS1 WE %\LD1 LIKE ,COP]NICUS1 REV]SE ! REASON+ TO W9 \T4 ,9ASMU* AS ONE C\LDN'T 
CONDEMN O!RS )\T IMM$IATELY JUDG+ ONESELF1 ONE HAD TO OV]:ELM ONESELF TO HAVE ! 
RI<T TO JUDGE O!RS4 ,9ASMU* AS EV]Y JUDGE SOME DAY 5DS UP AS A P5IT5T1 ONE HAD TO TRAVEL ! 
ROAD 9 ! OPPOSITE DIRECTION & PRACTICE ! PR(ESSION ( P5IT5T TO BE ABLE TO 5D UP AS A JUDGE4 

,Y\ FOLL[ ME8 ,GOOD4 ,BUT TO MAKE MYSELF EV5 CLE>]1 ,I'LL TELL Y\ H[ ,I OP]ATE4 

,FIR/ ,I CLOS$ MY LAW (FICE1 LEFT ,P>IS1 TRAVEL$4 ,I AIM$ TO SET UP UND] ANO!R NAME 9 SOME 
PLACE :]E ,I %\LDN'T LACK = A PRACTICE4 ,!RE >E MANY 9 ! WORLD1 BUT *ANCE1 CONV5I5CE1 
IRONY1 & ALSO ! NECESSITY = A C]TA9 MORTIFICATION MADE ME *OOSE A CAPITAL ( WAT]S & FOGS1 
GIRDL$ BY CANALS1 P>TICUL>LY CR[D$1 & VISIT$ BY M5 FROM ALL CORN]S ( ! E>?4 ,I SET UP MY 
(FICE 9 A B> 9 ! SAILORS' QU>T]4 ,! CLI5TELE ( A PORT-T[N IS V>I$4 ,! POOR DON'T GO 9TO 
! LUXURY DI/RICTS1 :]EAS EV5TUALLY ! G5TLEFOLK ALWAYS W9D UP AT LEA/ ONCE1 AS Y\ HAVE SE51 
9 ! DISREPUTABLE PLACES4 ,I LIE 9 WAIT P>TICUL>LY = ! B\RGEOIS1 & ! /RAY+ B\RGEOIS 
AT ?AT2 IT'S ) HIM ?AT ,I GET MY BE/ RESULTS4 ,LIKE A VIRTUOSO ) A R>E VIOL91 ,I DRAW MY SUBTLE/ 
S\NDS FROM HIM4 

,SO ,I HAVE BE5 PRACTIC+ MY USEFUL PR(ESSION AT ,MEXICO ,CITY = SOME TIME4 ,IT CONSI/S TO BEG9 
)1 AS Y\ KN[ FROM EXP]I5CE1 9 9DULG+ 9 PUBLIC CONFESSION AS (T5 AS POSSIBLE4 ,I ACCUSE 
MYSELF UP & D[N4 ,IT'S NOT H>D1 = ,I N[ HAVE ACQUIR$ A MEMORY4 ,BUT LET ME PO9T \T ?AT ,I 
DON'T ACCUSE MYSELF CRUDELY1 BEAT+ MY BREA/4 ,NO1 ,I NAVIGATE SKILLFULLY1 MULTIPLY+ DI/9CTIONS & 
DIGRESSIONS1 TOO--9 %ORT1 ,I ADAPT MY WORDS TO MY LI/5] & LEAD HIM TO GO ME ONE BETT]4 ,I 
M+LE :AT CONC]NS ME & :AT CONC]NS O!RS4 ,I *OOSE ! FEATURES WE HAVE 9 COMMON1 ! 
EXP]I5CES WE HAVE 5DUR$ TOGE!R1 ! FAIL+S WE %>E--GOOD =M1 9 O!R WORDS1 ! MAN 
( ! H\R AS HE IS RIFE 9 ME & 9 O!RS4 ,) ALL ?AT ,I CON/RUCT A PORTRAIT :I* IS ! IMAGE ( 
ALL & ( NO ONE4 ,A MASK1 9 %ORT1 RA!R LIKE ?OSE C>NIVAL MASKS :I* >E BO? LIFELIKE & 
/YLIZ$1 SO ?AT !Y MAKE PEOPLE SAY3 0,:Y1 SURELY ,I'VE MET HIM60 ,:5 ! PORTRAIT IS F9I%$1 AS 
IT IS ?IS 
 EV5+1 ,I %[ IT ) GREAT SORR[3 0,?IS1 ALAS1 IS :AT ,I AM60 ,! PROSECUTOR'S 
*>GE IS F9I%$4 ,BUT AT ! SAME TIME ! PORTRAIT ,I HOLD \T TO MY CONTEMPOR>IES BECOMES A 
MIRROR4 

,COV]$ ) A%ES1 TE>+ MY HAIR1 MY FACE SCOR$ BY CLAW+1 BUT ) PI]C+ EYES1 ,I /& 
BE=E ALL HUMANITY RECAPITULAT+ MY %AMES )\T LOS+ SI<T ( ! EFFECT ,I AM PRODUC+1 & 
SAY+3 0,I WAS ! L[E/ ( ! L[40 ,!N IMP]CEPTIBLY ,I PASS FROM ! 0,I0 TO ! 0WE40 ,:5 ,I 
GET TO 0,?IS IS :AT WE >E10 ! TRICK HAS BE5 PLAY$ & ,I CAN TELL !M (F4 ,I AM LIKE !M1 TO BE 
SURE2 WE >E 9 ! S\P TOGE!R4 ,H[EV]1 ,I HAVE A SUP]IORITY 9 ?AT ,I KN[ IT & ?IS GIVES ME 
! RI<T TO SPEAK4 ,Y\ SEE ! ADVANTAGE1 ,I AM SURE4 ,! MORE ,I ACCUSE MYSELF1 ! MORE ,I HAVE A 
RI<T TO JUDGE Y\4 ,EV5 BETT]1 ,I PROVOKE Y\ 9TO JUDG+ Y\RSELF1 & ?IS RELIEVES ME ( ?AT 
MU* ( ! BURD54 ,AH1 MON *]1 WE >E ODD1 WRET*$ CREATURES1 & IF WE M]ELY LOOK BACK OV] 
\R LIVES1 !RE'S NO LACK ( OCCASIONS TO AMAZE & HORRIFY \RSELVES4 ,JU/ TRY4 ,I %ALL LI/51 Y\ MAY 
BE SURE1 TO Y\R [N CONFESSION ) A GREAT FEEL+ ( FRAT]NITY4 

 ,DON'T LAU<6 ,YES1 Y\ >E A DIFFICULT CLI5T2 ,I SAW ?AT AT ONCE4 ,BUT Y\'LL COME TO IT 
9EVITABLY4 ,MO/ ( ! O!RS >E MORE S5TIM5TAL ?AN 9TELLIG5T2 !Y >E DISCONC]T$ AT ONCE4 

,) ! 9TELLIG5T ONES IT TAKES TIME4 ,IT IS 5\< TO EXPLA9 ! ME?OD FULLY TO !M4 ,!Y DON'T 
=GET IT2 !Y REFLECT4 ,SOON] OR LAT]1 HALF AS A GAME & HALF \T ( EMOTIONAL UPSET1 !Y GIVE UP 
& TELL ALL4 ,Y\ >E NOT ONLY 9TELLIG5T1 Y\ LOOK POLI%$ BY USE4 ,ADMIT1 H[EV]1 ?AT TODAY Y\ 
FEEL LESS PLEAS$ ) Y\RSELF ?AN Y\ FELT FIVE DAYS AGO8 ,N[ ,I %ALL WAIT = Y\ TO WRITE ME OR 
COME BACK4 ,= Y\ WILL COME BACK1 ,I AM SURE6 ,Y\'LL F9D ME UN*ANG$4 ,& :Y %\LD ,I *ANGE1 
S9CE ,I HAVE F\ND ! HAPP9ESS ?AT SUITS ME8 ,I HAVE ACCEPT$ DUPLICITY 9/EAD ( BE+ UPSET 
AB\T IT4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 ,I HAVE SETTL$ 9TO IT & F\ND !RE ! COM=T ,I WAS LOOK+ = 
?R\<\T LIFE4 ,I WAS WRONG1 AFT] ALL1 TO TELL Y\ ?AT ! ESS5TIAL WAS TO AVOID JUDGM5T4 ,! ESS5TIAL IS BE+ ABLE TO P]MIT ONESELF EV]Y?+1 EV5 IF1 FROM TIME TO TIME1 ONE HAS TO PR(ESS VOCIF]\SLY ONE'S [N 9FAMY4 ,I P]MIT MYSELF EV]Y?+ AGA91 & )\T ! LAU<T] ?IS TIME4 

 ,I HAV5'T *ANG$ MY WAY ( LIFE2 ,I CONT9UE TO LOVE MYSELF & TO MAKE USE ( O!RS4 ,ONLY1 
! CONFESSION ( MY CRIMES ALL[S ME TO BEG9 AGA9 LI<T] 9 HE>T & TO TA/E A D\BLE 
5JOYM5T1 FIR/ ( MY NATURE & SECONDLY ( A *>M+ REP5TANCE4 

,S9CE F9D+ MY SOLUTION1 ,I YIELD TO EV]Y?+1 TO WOM51 TO PRIDE1 TO BOR$OM1 TO RES5TM5T1 
& EV5 TO ! FEV] ?AT ,I FEEL DELI<TFULLY RIS+ AT ?IS MOM5T4 ,I DOM9ATE AT LA/1 BUT =EV]4 

,ONCE MORE ,I HAVE F\ND A HEI<T TO :I* ,I AM ! ONLY ONE TO CLIMB & FROM :I* ,I CAN JUDGE 
EV]YBODY4 ,AT LONG 9T]VALS1 ON A REALLY BEAUTIFUL NI<T ,I OCCASIONALLY HE> A DI/ANT LAU< & AGA9 ,I 
D\BT4 ,BUT QUICKLY ,I CRU% EV]Y?+1 PEOPLE & ?+S1 UND] ! WEI<T ( MY [N 9FIRMITY1 & 
AT ONCE ,I P]K UP4 

,SO ,I %ALL AWAIT Y\R RESPECTS AT ,MEXICO ,CITY AS LONG AS NECESS>Y4 ,BUT REMOVE ?IS BLANKET2 ,I WANT 
TO BREA!4 ,Y\ WILL COME1 WON'T Y\8 ,I'LL %[ Y\ ! DETAILS ( MY TE*NIQUE1 = ,I FEEL A SORT ( 
AFFECTION = Y\4 ,Y\ WILL SEE ME TEA*+ !M NI<T AFT] NI<T ?AT !Y >E VILE4 ,?IS V]Y 
EV5+1 MOREOV]1 ,I %ALL RESUME4 ,I CAN'T DO )\T IT OR D5Y MYSELF ?OSE MOM5TS :5 
ONE ( !M COLLAPSES1 ) ! HELP ( ALCOHOL1 & BEATS HIS BREA/4 ,!N ,I GR[ TALL]1 TRES *]1 ,I GR[ TALL]1 ,I BREA! FREELY1 ,I AM ON ! M\NTA91 ! PLA9 /RET*ES BE=E MY EYES4 ,H[ 9TOXICAT+ TO FEEL LIKE ,GOD ! ,FA!R & TO H& \T DEF9ITIVE TE/IMONIALS ( BAD *>ACT] & 
HABITS4 ,I SIT 5?RON$ AMONG MY BAD ANGELS AT ! SUMMIT ( ! ,DUT* HEAV5 & ,I WAT* 
ASC5D+ T[>D ME1 AS !Y ISSUE FROM ! FOGS & ! WAT]1 ! MULTITUDE ( ! ,LA/ ,JUDGM5T4 

,!Y RISE SL[LY2 ,I ALREADY SEE ! FIR/ ( !M >RIV+4 ,ON HIS BEWILD]$ FACE1 HALF HIDD5 BY HIS 
H&1 ,I READ ! MELAN*OLY ( ! COMMON CONDITION & ! DESPAIR ( NOT BE+ ABLE TO ESCAPE IT4 

,& AS = ME1 ,I PITY )\T ABSOLV+1 ,I UND]/& )\T =GIV+1 & ABOVE ALL1 ,I FEEL AT LA/ 
?AT ,I AM BE+ ADOR$6 

,YES1 ,I AM MOV+ AB\T4 ,H[ C\LD ,I REMA9 9 B$ LIKE A GOOD PATI5T8 ,I MU/ BE HI<] ?AN 
Y\1 & MY ?\<TS LIFT ME UP4 ,SU* NI<TS1 OR SU* MORN+S RA!R 7= ! FALL OCCURS AT DAWN71 ,I 
GO \T & WALK BRISKLY ALONG ! CANALS4 ,9 ! LIVID SKY ! LAY]S ( FEA!RS BECOME ?9N]1 ! 
 DOVES MOVE A LITTLE HI<]1 & ABOVE ! RO(S A ROSY LI<T ANN\NCES A NEW DAY ( MY 
CREATION4 ,ON ! ,DAMRAK ! FIR/ /REETC> S\NDS ITS BELL 9 ! DAMP AIR & M>KS ! AWAK5+ 
( LIFE AT ! EXTREMITY ( ?IS ,EUROPE :]E1 AT ! SAME MOM5T1 HUNDR$S ( MILLIONS ( M51 MY 
SUBJECTS1 PA9FULLY SLIP \T ( B$1 A BITT] TA/E 9 !IR M\?S1 TO GO TO A JOYLESS WORK4 ,!N1 
SO>+ OV] ?IS :OLE CONT95T :I* IS UND] MY SWAY )\T KN[+ IT1 DR9K+ 9 ! 
ABS9!-COLOR$ LI<T ( BREAK+ DAY1 9TOXICAT$ ) EVIL WORDS1 ,I AM HAPPY--,I AM HAPPY1 ,I TELL Y\1 ,I WON'T LET Y\ ?9K ,I'M NOT HAPPY1 ,I AM HAPPY UNTO DEA?6 ,OH1 SUN1 BEA*ES1 & ! ISL&S 9 ! PA? ( ! TRADE W9DS1 Y\? :OSE MEMORY DRIVES ONE TO DESPAIR6 

,I'M GO+ BACK TO B$2 =GIVE ME4 ,I FE> ,I GOT WORK$ UP2 YET ,I'M NOT WEEP+4 ,AT TIMES ONE 
W&]S1 D\BT+ ! FACTS1 EV5 :5 ONE HAS DISCOV]$ ! SECRETS ( ! GOOD LIFE4 ,TO BE SURE1 
MY SOLUTION IS NOT ! IDEAL4 ,BUT :5 Y\ DON'T LIKE Y\R [N LIFE1 :5 Y\ KN[ ?AT Y\ MU/ 
*ANGE LIVES1 Y\ DON'T HAVE ANY *OICE1 DO Y\8 ,:AT CAN ONE DO TO BECOME ANO!R8 ,IMPOSSIBLE4 
,ONE W\LD HAVE TO CEASE BE+ ANYONE1 =GET ONESELF = SOMEONE ELSE1 AT LEA/ ONCE4 ,BUT 
H[8 ,DON'T BE> D[N TOO H>D ON ME4 ,I'M LIKE ?AT OLD BEGG> :O W\LDN'T LET GO ( MY H& 
ONE DAY ON A CAFE T]RACE3 0,OH1 SIR10 HE SAID1 0IT'S NOT JU/ ?AT ,I'M NO GOOD1 BUT Y\ LOSE TRACK ( ! LI<T40 ,YES1 WE HAVE LO/ TRACK ( ! LI<T1 ! MORN+S1 ! HOLY 9NOC5CE ( ?OSE :O =GIVE !MSELVES4 

,LOOK1 IT'S SN[+6 ,OH1 ,I MU/ GO \T6 ,AM/]DAM ASLEEP 9 ! :ITE NI<T1 ! D>K JADE CANALS 
UND] ! LITTLE SN[-COV]$ BRIDGES1 ! EMPTY /REETS1 MY MUT$ /EPS--!RE WILL BE PURITY1 EV5 IF FLEET+1 BE=E TOMORR['S MUD4 ,SEE ! HUGE FLAKES DRIFT+ AGA9/ ! W9D[PANES4 ,IT MU/ BE ! DOVES1 SURELY4 ,!Y F9ALLY MAKE UP !IR M9DS TO COME D[N1 ! LITTLE DE>S2 !Y >E COV]+ ! WAT]S & ! RO(S ) A ?ICK LAY] ( FEA!RS2 !Y >E FLUTT]+ AT EV]Y W9D[4 ,:AT AN 9VASION6 ,LET'S HOPE !Y >E BR++ GOOD NEWS4 ,EV]YONE WILL BE SAV$1 EH8--& NOT ONLY ! ELECT4 ,POSSESSIONS & H>D%IPS WILL BE %>$ & Y\1 = EXAMPLE1 FROM TODAY ON Y\ WILL SLEEP EV]Y NI<T ON ! GR\ND = ME4 ,! :OLE %OOT+ MAT*1 EH8 ,COME N[1 ADMIT ?AT Y\ W\LD BE FLABB]GA/$ IF A *>IOT CAME D[N FROM HEAV5 TO C>RY ME (F1 OR IF ! SN[ SUDD5LY CAU<T FIRE4 ,Y\ DON'T BELIEVE IT8 ,NOR DO ,I4 ,BUT /ILL ,I MU/ GO \T4 

,ALL RI<T1 ALL RI<T1 ,I'LL BE QUIET2 DON'T GET UPSET6 ,DON'T TAKE MY EMOTIONAL \TBUR/S OR MY RAV+S TOO S]I\SLY4 ,!Y >E CONTROLL$4 ,SAY1 N[ ?AT Y\ >E GO+ TO TALK TO ME AB\T Y\RSELF1 ,I %ALL F9D \T :E!R OR NOT ONE ( ! OBJECTIVES ( MY ABSORB+ CONFESSION IS A*IEV$4 ,I ALWAYS HOPE1 9 FACT1 ?AT MY 9T]LOCUTOR WILL BE A POLICEMAN & ?AT HE WILL >RE/ ME = ! !FT ( 0,! ,JU/ ,JUDGES40 ,= ! RE/--AM ,I RI<T8--NO ONE CAN >RE/ ME4 ,BUT AS = ?AT !FT1 IT FALLS )9 ! PROVISIONS ( ! LAW & ,I HAVE >RANG$ EV]Y?+ SO AS TO MAKE MYSELF AN ACCOMPLICE3 ,I AM H>BOR+ ?AT PA9T+ & %[+ IT TO :OEV] WANTS TO SEE IT4 ,Y\ W\LD >RE/ ME !N2 ?AT W\LD BE A GOOD BEG9N+4 ,P]HAPS ! RE/ W\LD BE TAK5 C>E ( SUBSEQU5TLY2 ,I W\LD BE 
DECAPITAT$1 = 9/ANCE1 & ,I'D HAVE NO MORE FE> ( DEA?2 ,I'D BE SAV$4 ,ABOVE ! GA!R$ 
CR[D1 Y\ W\LD HOLD UP MY /ILL W>M HEAD1 SO ?AT !Y C\LD RECOGNIZE !MSELVES 9 IT & ,I 
C\LD AGA9 DOM9ATE--AN EXEMPL>4 ,ALL W\LD BE CONSUMMAT$2 ,I %\LD HAVE BR\<T TO A 
CLOSE1 UNSE5 & UNKN[N1 MY C>E] AS A FALSE PROPHET CRY+ 9 ! WILD]NESS & REFUS+ TO 
COME =?4 

,BUT ( C\RSE Y\ >E NOT A POLICEMAN2 ?AT W\LD BE TOO EASY4 ,:AT8 ,AH1 ,I SUSPECT$ AS MU*1 
Y\ SEE4 ,?AT /RANGE AFFECTION ,I FELT = Y\ HAD S5SE TO IT !N4 ,9 ,P>IS Y\ PRACTICE ! NOBLE PR(ESSION ( LAWY]6 ,I S5S$ ?AT WE W]E ( ! SAME SPECIES4 ,>E WE NOT ALL ALIKE1 CON/ANTLY TALK+ & TO NO ONE1 =EV] UP AGA9/ ! SAME QUE/IONS AL?\< WE KN[ ! ANSW]S 9 ADVANCE8 

,!N PLEASE TELL ME :AT HAPP5$ TO Y\ ONE NI<T ON ! QUAYS ( ! ,SE9E & H[ Y\ MANAG$ NEV] TO RISK Y\R LIFE4 ,Y\ Y\RSELF UTT] ! WORDS ?AT = YE>S HAVE NEV] CEAS$ E*O+ ?R\< MY NI<TS & ?AT ,I %ALL AT LA/ SAY ?R\< Y\R M\?3 0,O Y\NG WOMAN1 ?R[ Y\RSELF 9TO ! WAT] AGA9 SO ?AT ,I MAY A SECOND TIME HAVE ! *ANCE ( SAV+ BO? ( US60 ,A SECOND TIME1 EH1 :AT A RISKY SUGGE/ION6 ,JU/ SUPPOSE1 *] MAITRE1 ?AT WE %\LD BE TAK5 LIT]ALLY8 ,WE'D HAVE TO GO ?R\< ) IT4 ,BRR 4446 ,! WAT]'S SO COLD6 ,BUT LET'S NOT WORRY6 ,IT'S TOO LATE N[4 ,IT WILL ALWAYS BE TOO LATE4 ,=TUNATELY6 

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