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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,ALB]T ,CAMUS 

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,Y\ >E WRONG1 *]1 ! BOAT IS GO+ AT TOP SPE$4 ,BUT ! ,ZUID] ,ZEE IS A DEAD SEA1 OR ALMO/4 

,) ITS FLAT %ORES1 LO/ 9 ! FOG1 !RE'S NO SAY+ :]E IT BEG9S OR 5DS4 ,SO WE >E /EAM+ 
ALONG )\T ANY L&M>K2 WE CAN'T GAUGE \R SPE$ ,WE >E MAK+ PROGRESS & YET NO?+ IS 
*ANG+4 ,IT'S NOT NAVIGATION BUT DREAM+4 

,9 ! ,GREEK >*IPELAGO ,I HAD ! CONTR>Y FEEL+4 ,CON/ANTLY NEW ISL&S W\LD APPE> ON ! 
HORIZON4 ,!IR TREELESS BACKBONE M>K$ ! LIMIT ( ! SKY & !IR ROCKY %ORE CONTRA/$ 
%>PLY ) ! SEA4 ,NO CONFUSION POSSIBLE2 9 ! %>P LI<T EV]Y?+ WAS A L&M>K4 ,& FROM 
ONE ISL& TO ANO!R1 CEASELESSLY ON \R LITTLE BOAT1 :I* WAS NEV]!LESS DAWDL+1 ,I FELT AS IF WE 
W]E SCUDD+ ALONG1 NI<T & DAY1 ON ! CRE/ ( ! %ORT1 COOL WAVES 9 A RACE FULL ( SPRAY & 
LAU<T]4 ,S9CE !N1 ,GREECE ITSELF DRIFTS SOME:]E )9 ME1 ON ! $GE ( MY MEMORY1 TIRELESSLY 
444 ,HOLD ON1 ,I1 TOO1 AM DRIFT+2 ,I AM BECOM+ LYRICAL6 ,/OP ME1 *]1 ,I BEG Y\4 

 ,BY ! WAY1 DO Y\ KN[ ,GREECE8 ,NO8 ,SO MU* ! BETT]4 ,:AT %\LD WE DO !RE1 ,I ASK 
Y\8 ,!RE ONE HAS TO BE PURE 9 HE>T4 ,DO Y\ KN[ ?AT !RE MALE FRI5DS WALK ALONG ! /REET 9 
PAIRS HOLD+ H&S8 ,YES1 ! WOM5 /AY HOME & Y\ (T5 SEE A MIDDLE-AG$1 RESPECTABLE MAN1 
SPORT+ MU/A*ES1 GRAVELY /RID+ ALONG ! SIDEWALKS1 HIS F+]S LOCK$ 9 ?OSE ( HIS FRI5D4 ,9 
! ,ORI5T LIKEWISE1 AT TIMES8 ,ALL RI<T4 ,BUT TELL ME1 W\LD Y\ TAKE MY H& 9 ! /REETS ( ,P>IS8 

,OH1 ,I'M JOK+4 ,WE HAVE A S5SE ( DECORUM2 SCUM MAKES US /ILT$4 ,BE=E APPE>+ 9 ! ,GREEK 
ISL&S1 WE %\LD HAVE TO WA% AT L5G?4 ,!RE ! AIR IS *A/E & S5SUAL 5JOYM5T AS 
TRANSP>5T AS ! SEA4 ,& WE 444 

,LET'S SIT D[N ON !SE /EAM] *AIRS4 ,:AT A FOG6 ,I 9T]RUPT$ MYSELF1 ,I BELIEVE1 ON ! WAY TO 
! LITTLE-EASE4 ,YES1 ,I'LL TELL Y\ :AT ,I MEAN4 ,AFT] HAV+ /RUGGL$1 AFT] HAV+ US$ UP ALL MY 9- 
SOL5T AIRS1 DISC\RAG$ BY ! USELESSNESS ( MY EF=TS1 ,I MADE UP MY M9D TO LEAVE ! SOCIETY ( 
M54 ,NO1 NO1 ,I DIDN'T LOOK = A DES]T ISL&2 !RE >E NO MORE4 ,I SIMPLY TOOK REFUGE AMONG 
WOM54 ,AS Y\ KN[1 !Y DON'T REALLY CONDEMN ANY WEAKNESS2 !Y W\LD BE MORE 9CL9$ TO 
TRY TO HUMILIATE OR DIS>M \R /R5G?4 ,?IS IS :Y WOMAN IS ! REW>D1 NOT ( ! W>RIOR1 BUT ( 
! CRIM9AL4 ,%E IS HIS H>BOR1 HIS HAV52 IT IS 9 A WOMAN'S B$ ?AT HE IS G5]ALLY >RE/$4 ,IS %E 
NOT ALL ?AT REMA9S TO US ( E>?LY P>ADISE8 ,9 DI/RESS1 ,I HA/5$ TO MY NATURAL H>BOR4 ,BUT ,I NO 
LONG] 9DULG$ 9 PRETTY SPEE*ES4 ,I /ILL GAMBL$ A LITTLE1 \T ( HABIT2 BUT 9V5TION WAS LACK+4 ,I 
HESITATE TO ADMIT IT = FE> ( US+ A FEW MORE NAU<TY WORDS3 IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT AT ?AT TIME ,I FELT 
! NE$ ( LOVE4 ,OBSC5E1 ISN'T IT8 ,9 ANY CASE1 ,I EXP]I5C$ A SECRET SUFF]+1 A SORT ( PRIVATION 
?AT MADE ME EMPTI] & ALL[$ ME1 P>TLY ?R\< OBLIGATION & P>TLY \T ( CURIOSITY1 TO MAKE 
A FEW COMMITM5TS4 ,9ASMU* AS ,I NE$$ TO LOVE & BE LOV$1 ,I ?\<T ,I WAS 9 LOVE4 ,9 O!R 
WORDS1 ,I ACT$ ! FOOL4 

,I (T5 CAU<T MYSELF ASK+ A QUE/ION :I*1 AS A MAN ( EXP]I5CE1 ,I HAD ALWAYS PREVI\SLY 
AVOID$4 ,I W\LD HE> MYSELF ASK+3 0,DO Y\ LOVE ME80 ,Y\ KN[ ?AT IT IS CU/OM>Y TO ANSW] 9 
SU* CASES3 0,& Y\80 ,IF ,I ANSW]$ YES1 ,I F\ND MYSELF COMMITT$ BEYOND MY REAL FEEL+S4 ,IF ,I 
 D>$ TO SAY NO1 ,I RAN ! RISK ( CEAS+ TO BE LOV$1 & ,I W\LD SUFF] !RE=4 ,! GREAT] 
! ?REAT TO ! FEEL+ 9 :I* ,I HAD HOP$ TO F9D CALM1 ! MORE ,I DEM&$ ?AT FEEL+ ( MY 
P>TN]4 ,H5CE ,I WAS L$ TO EV] MORE EXPLICIT PROMISES & CAME TO EXPECT ( MY HE>T AN EV] 
MORE SWEEP+ FEEL+4 ,?US ,I DEVELOP$ A DECEPTIVE PASSION = A *>M+ FOOL ( A WOMAN :O 
HAD SO ?OR\<LY READ 0TRUE LOVE0 /ORIES ?AT %E SPOKE ( LOVE ) ! ASSURANCE & CONVICTION 
( AN 9TELLECTUAL ANN\NC+ ! CLASSLESS SOCIETY4 ,SU* CONVICTION1 AS Y\ MU/ KN[1 IS CONTAGI\S4 

,I TRI$ MYSELF \T AT TALLY+ LIKEWISE ( LOVE & EV5TUALLY CONV9C$ MYSELF4 ,AT LEA/ UNTIL %E 
BECAME MY MI/RESS & ,I REALIZ$ ?AT ! 0TRUE LOVE0 /ORIES1 ?\< !Y TAU<T H[ TO TALK ( 
LOVE1 DID NOT TEA* H[ TO MAKE LOVE4 ,AFT] HAV+ LOV$ A P>ROT1 ,I HAD TO GO TO B$ ) A S]P5T4 

,SO ,I LOOK$ ELSE:]E = ! LOVE PROMIS$ BY BOOKS1 :I* ,I HAD NEV] 5C\NT]$ 9 LIFE4 

,BUT ,I LACK$ PRACTICE4 ,= MORE ?AN ?IRTY YE>S ,I HAD BE5 9 LOVE EXCLUSIVELY ) MYSELF4 ,:AT 
HOPE WAS !RE ( LOS+ SU* A HABIT8 ,I DIDN'T LOSE IT & REMA9$ A TRIFL] 9 PASSION4 ,I MULTIPLI$ 
 ! PROMISES4 ,I CONTRACT$ SIMULTANE\S LOVES AS1 AT AN E>LI] P]IOD1 ,I HAD MULTIPLE LIAISONS4 ,9 
?IS WAY ,I PIL$ UP MORE MIS=TUNES1 = O!RS1 ?AN AT ! TIME ( MY F9E 9DIFF]5CE4 ,HAVE ,I 
TOLD Y\ ?AT 9 DESPAIR MY P>ROT WANT$ TO LET H]SELF DIE ( HUNG]8 ,=TUNATELY ,I >RIV$ 9 TIME 
& SUBMITT$ TO HOLD+ H] H& UNTIL %E MET1 ON HIS RETURN FROM A J\RNEY TO ,BALI1 ! 5G9E] 
) GRAY+ TEMPLES :O HAD ALREADY BE5 DESCRIB$ TO H] BY H] FAVORITE WEEKLY4 ,9 ANY CASE1 F> 
FROM F9D+ MYSELF TRANSPORT$ & ABSOLV$ 9 ! :IRLW9D--AS ! SAY+ GOES--( PASSION1 ,I 
ADD$ EV5 MORE TO ! WEI<T ( MY CRIMES & TO MY DEVIATION FROM VIRTUE4 ,AS A RESULT1 ,I 
CONCEIV$ SU* A LOA?+ = LOVE ?AT = YE>S ,I C\LD NOT HE> 0,LA ,VIE 5 ROSE0 OR ! 0,LIEBE/OD0 
)\T GRITT+ MY TEE?4 ,I TRI$ ACCORD+LY TO GIVE UP WOM51 9 A C]TA9 WAY1 & TO LIVE 9 A 
/ATE ( *A/ITY4 ,AFT] ALL1 !IR FRI5D%IP \<T TO SATISFY ME4 ,BUT ?IS WAS TANTAM\NT TO GIV+ UP 
GAMBL+4 ,)\T DESIRE1 WOM5 BOR$ ME BEYOND ALL EXPECTATION1 & OBVI\SLY ,I BOR$ !M TOO4 

,NO MORE GAMBL+ & NO MORE !AT]--,I WAS PROBABLY 9 ! REALM ( TRU?4 ,BUT TRU?1 *] AMI1 
IS A COLOSSAL BORE4 

 ,DESPAIR+ ( LOVE & ( *A/ITY1 ,I AT LA/ BE?\<T MYSELF ( DEBAU*]Y1 A SUB/ITUTE = 
LOVE1 :I* QUIETS ! LAU<T]1 RE/ORES SIL5CE1 & ABOVE ALL1 CONF]S IMMORTALITY4 ,AT A C]TA9 
DEGREE ( LUCID 9TOXICATION1 LY+ LATE AT NI<T BETWE5 TWO PRO/ITUTES & DRA9$ ( ALL DESIRE1 
HOPE CEASES TO BE A TORTURE1 Y\ SEE2 ! M9D DOM9ATES ! :OLE PA/1 & ! PA9 ( LIV+ IS 
OV] =EV]4 ,9 A S5SE1 ,I HAD ALWAYS LIV$ 9 DEBAU*]Y1 NEV] HAV+ CEAS$ WANT+ TO BE 
IMMORTAL4 ,WASN'T ?IS ! KEY TO MY NATURE & ALSO A RESULT ( ! GREAT SELF-LOVE ,I HAVE TOLD Y\ 
AB\T8 ,YES1 ,I WAS BUR/+ ) A LONG+ TO BE IMMORTAL4 ,I WAS TOO MU* 9 LOVE ) MYSELF NOT TO 
WANT ! PRECI\S OBJECT ( MY LOVE NEV] TO DISAPPE>4 ,S9CE1 9 ! WAK+ /ATE & ) A LITTLE 
SELF-KN[L$GE1 ONE CAN SEE NO REASON :Y IMMORTALITY %\LD BE CONF]R$ ON A SALACI\S MONKEY1 
ONE HAS TO OBTA9 SUB/ITUTES = ?AT IMMORTALITY4 ,BECAUSE ,I LONG$ = ET]NAL LIFE1 ,I W5T TO B$ 
) H>LOTS & DRANK = NI<TS ON 5D4 ,9 ! MORN+1 TO BE SURE1 MY M\? WAS FILL$ ) ! 
BITT] TA/E ( ! MORTAL /ATE4 ,BUT1 = H\RS ON 5D1 ,I HAD SO>$ 9 BLISS4 ,D>E ,I ADMIT IT TO Y\8 ,I 
/ILL REMEMB] ) AFFECTION C]TA9 NI<TS :5 ,I US$ TO GO TO A SORDID NI<T CLUB TO MEET A 
QUICK-*ANGE DANC] :O HONOR$ ME ) H] FAVORS & = :OSE REPUTATION ,I EV5 F\<T ONE 
EV5+ ) A BE>D$ BRAGG>T4 ,EV]Y NI<T ,I W\LD /RUT AT ! B>1 9 ! R$ LI<T & DU/ ( 
?AT E>?LY P>ADISE1 LY+ FANTA/ICALLY & DR9K+ AT L5G?4 ,I W\LD WAIT = DAWN & AT LA/ 5D 
UP 9 ! ALWAYS UNMADE B$ ( MY PR9CESS1 :O W\LD 9DULGE ME*ANICALLY 9 SEX & !N SLEEP 
)\T TRANSITION4 ,DAY W\LD COME S(TLY TO ?R[ LI<T ON ?IS DISA/] & ,I W\LD GET UP & 
/& MOTIONLESS 9 A DAWN ( GLORY4 

,ALCOHOL & WOM5 PROVID$ ME1 ,I ADMIT1 ! ONLY SOLACE ( :I* ,I WAS WOR?Y4 ,I'LL REVEAL ?IS 
SECRET TO Y\1 *] AMI1 DON'T FE> TO MAKE USE ( IT4 ,!N Y\'LL SEE ?AT TRUE DEBAU*]Y IS LIB]AT+ 
BECAUSE IT CREATES NO OBLIGATIONS4 ,9 IT Y\ POSSESS ONLY Y\RSELF2 H5CE IT REMA9S ! FAVORITE 
PA/IME ( ! GREAT LOV]S ( !IR [N P]SON4 ,IT IS A JUNGLE )\T PA/ OR FUTURE1 )\T ANY 
PROMISE ABOVE ALL1 NOR ANY IMM$IATE P5ALTY4 ,! PLACES :]E IT IS PRACTIC$ >E SEP>AT$ FROM 
! WORLD4 ,ON 5T]+1 ONE LEAVES BEH9D FE> & HOPE4 ,CONV]SATION IS NOT OBLIGATORY !RE2 :AT 
ONE COMES = CAN BE HAD )\T WORDS1 & (T5 9DE$ )\T MONEY4 ,AH1 ,I BEG Y\1 LET 
ME PAY HONOR TO ! UNKN[N & =GOTT5 WOM5 :O HELP$ ME !N6 ,EV5 TODAY1 MY 
RECOLLECTION ( !M CONTA9S SOME?+ RESEMBL+ RESPECT4 

,9 ANY CASE1 ,I FREELY TOOK ADVANTAGE ( ?AT LIB]ATION4 ,I WAS EV5 SE5 9 A HOTEL D$ICAT$ TO 
:AT IS CALL$ S91 LIV+ SIMULTANE\SLY ) A MATURE PRO/ITUTE & AN UNM>RI$ GIRL ( ! BE/ 
SOCIETY4 ,I PLAY$ ! GALLANT ) ! FIR/ & GAVE ! SECOND AN OPPORTUNITY TO LE>N ! REALITIES4 

,UN=TUNATELY ! PRO/ITUTE HAD A MO/ MIDDLE-CLASS NATURE2 %E S9CE CONS5T$ TO WRITE H] 
MEMOIRS = A CONFESSIONS MAGAZ9E QUITE OP5 TO MOD]N IDEAS4 ,! GIRL1 = H] P>T1 GOT M>RI$ 
TO SATISFY H] UNBRIDL$ 9/9CTS & MAKE USE ( H] REM>KABLE GIFTS4 ,I AM NOT A LITTLE PR\D 
LIKEWISE TO HAVE BE5 ADMITT$ AS AN EQUAL1 AT ?AT TIME1 BY A MASCUL9E GUILD TOO (T5 REVIL$4 ,BUT 
,I'LL NOT 9SI/ ON ?AT3 Y\ KN[ ?AT EV5 V]Y 9TELLIG5T PEOPLE GLORY 9 BE+ ABLE TO EMPTY ONE 
BOTTLE MORE ?AN ! NEXT MAN4 ,I MI<T ULTIMATELY HAVE F\ND PEACE & RELEASE 9 ?AT HAPPY 
DISSIPATION4 ,BUT1 !RE TOO1 ,I 5C\NT]$ AN OB/ACLE 9 MYSELF4 ,?IS TIME IT WAS MY LIV]1 & A 
FATIGUE SO DREADFUL ?AT IT HASN'T YET LEFT ME4 ,ONE PLAYS AT BE+ IMMORTAL & AFT] A FEW WEEKS ONE 
DOESN'T EV5 KN[ :E!R OR NOT ONE CAN HANG ON TILL ! NEXT DAY4 

,! SOLE B5EFIT ( ?AT EXP]I5CE1 :5 ,I HAD GIV5 UP MY NOCTURNAL EXPLOITS1 WAS ?AT LIFE BECAME LESS PA9FUL = ME4 ,! FATIGUE ?AT WAS GNAW+ AT MY BODY HAD SIMULTANE\SLY CAUT]IZ$ 
MANY RAW SPOTS 9 ME4 ,EA* EXCESS DECREASES VITALITY1 H5CE SUFF]+4 ,!RE IS NO?+ FR5ZI$ 
AB\T DEBAU*]Y1 CONTR>Y TO :AT IS ?\<T4 ,IT IS BUT A LONG SLEEP4 ,Y\ MU/ HAVE NOTIC$ ?AT 
M5 :O REALLY SUFF] FROM JEAL\SY HAVE NO MORE URG5T DESIRE ?AN TO GO TO B$ ) ! WOMAN 
!Y NEV]!LESS ?9K HAS BETRAY$ !M4 ,( C\RSE1 !Y WANT TO ASSURE !MSELVES ONCE MORE 
?AT !IR DE> TREASURE /ILL BELONGS TO !M4 ,!Y WANT TO POSSESS IT1 AS ! SAY+ GOES4 ,BUT !RE IS 
ALSO ! FACT ?AT IMM$IATELY AFT]W>DS !Y >E LESS JEAL\S4 ,PHYSICAL JEAL\SY IS A RESULT ( ! 
IMAG9ATION AT ! SAME TIME ?AT IT IS A SELF-JUDGM5T4 ,ONE ATTRIBUTES TO ! RIVAL ! NA/Y ?\<TS 
ONE HAD ONESELF 9 ! SAME CIRCUM/ANCES4 ,=TUNATELY EXCESS ( S5SUAL SATISFACTION WEAK5S BO? 
IMAG9ATION & JUDGM5T4 ,! SUFF]+ !N LIES DORMANT AS LONG AS VIRILITY DOES4 ,= ! 
SAME REASONS ADOLESC5TS LOSE !IR METAPHYSICAL UNRE/ ) !IR FIR/ MI/RESS2 & C]TA9 
M>RIAGES1 :I* >E M]ELY =MALIZ$ DEBAU*ES1 BECOME ! MONOTON\S HE>SES ( D>+ & 
9V5TION4 ,YES1 *] AMI1 B\RGEOIS M>RIAGE HAS PUT \R C\NTRY 9TO SLIPP]S & WILL SOON LEAD IT TO ! GATES ( DEA?4 

,I AM EXAGG]AT+8 ,NO1 BUT ,I AM /RAY+ FROM ! SUBJECT4 ,I M]ELY WANT$ TO TELL Y\ ! ADVANTAGE ,I D]IV$ FROM ?OSE MON?S ( ORGY4 ,I LIV$ 9 A SORT ( FOG 9 :I* ! LAU<T] BECAME SO 
MUFFL$ ?AT EV5TUALLY ,I CEAS$ TO NOTICE IT4 ,! 9DIFF]5CE ?AT ALREADY HAD SU* A HOLD OV] ME 
N[ 5C\NT]$ NO RESI/ANCE & EXT5D$ ITS SCL]OSIS4 ,NO MORE EMOTIONS6 ,AN EV5 TEMP]1 OR 
RA!R NO TEMP] AT ALL4 ,TUB]CUL> LUNGS >E CUR$ BY DRY+ UP & GRADUALLY ASPHYXIATE !IR HAPPY 
[N]4 ,SO IT WAS ) ME AS ,I PEACEFULLY DI$ ( MY CURE4 ,I WAS /ILL LIV+ ON MY WORK1 AL?\< MY 
REPUTATION WAS S]I\SLY DAMAG$ BY MY FLI<TS ( LANGUAGE & ! REGUL> EX]CISE ( MY PR(ESSION COMPROMIS$ BY ! DISORD] ( MY LIFE4 ,IT IS NOTEWOR?Y1 H[EV]1 ?AT ,I >\S$ LESS 
RES5TM5T BY MY NOCTURNAL EXCESSES ?AN BY MY V]BAL PROVOCATIONS4 ,! REF]5CE1 PURELY 
V]BAL1 ?AT ,I (T5 MADE TO ,GOD 9 MY SPEE*ES BE=E ! C\RT AWAK5$ MI/RU/ 9 MY CLI5TS4 

,!Y PROBABLY FE>$ ?AT HEAV5 C\LD NOT REPRES5T !IR 9T]E/S AS WELL AS A LAWY] 9V9CIBLE 
:5 IT CAME TO ! CODE ( LAW4 ,:5CE IT WAS BUT A /EP TO CONCLUDE ?AT ,I 9VOK$ ! DIV9ITY 9 
PROPORTION TO MY IGNORANCE4 ,MY CLI5TS TOOK ?AT /EP & BECAME SC>CE4 ,N[ & !N ,I /ILL 
>GU$ A CASE4 ,AT TIMES EV51 =GETT+ ?AT ,I NO LONG] BELIEV$ 9 :AT ,I WAS SAY+1 ,I WAS A GOOD 
ADVOCATE4 ,MY [N VOICE W\LD LEAD ME ON & ,I W\LD FOLL[ IT2 )\T REALLY SO>+1 AS ,I ONCE 
DID1 ,I AT LEA/ GOT (F ! GR\ND & DID A LITTLE H$GEHOPP+4 ,\TSIDE ( MY PR(ESSION1 ,I SAW BUT 
FEW PEOPLE & PA9FULLY KEPT ALIVE ONE OR TWO TIR$ LIAISONS4 ,IT EV5 HAPP5$ ?AT ,I W\LD SP5D 
PURELY FRI5DLY EV5+S1 )\T ANY ELEM5T ( DESIRE1 YET ) ! DIFF]5CE ?AT1 RESIGN$ TO 
BOR$OM1 ,I SC>CELY LI/5$ TO :AT WAS BE+ SAID4 ,I BECAME A LITTLE FATT] & AT LA/ WAS ABLE TO 
BELIEVE ?AT ! CRISIS WAS OV]4 ,NO?+ REMA9$ BUT TO GR[ OLD]4 

,ONE DAY1 H[EV]1 DUR+ A TRIP' TO :I* ,I WAS TREAT+ A FRI5D )\T TELL+ H] ,I WAS 
DO+ SO TO CELEBRATE MY CURE1 ,I WAS ABO>D AN OCEAN L9]--ON ! UPP] DECK1 ( C\RSE4 ,SUDD5LY1 
F> (F AT SEA1 ,I P]CEIV$ A BLACK SPECK ON ! /EEL-GRAY OCEAN4 ,I TURN$ AWAY AT ONCE & MY HE>T 
BEGAN TO BEAT WILDLY4 ,:5 ,I =C$ MYSELF TO LOOK1 ! BLACK SPECK HAD DISAPPE>$4 ,I WAS ON ! 
PO9T ( %\T+1 ( /UPIDLY CALL+ = HELP1 :5 ,I SAW IT AGA94 ,IT WAS ONE ( ?OSE BITS ( REFUSE 
?AT %IPS LEAVE BEH9D !M4 ,YET ,I HAD NOT BE5 ABLE TO 5DURE WAT*+ IT2 = ,I HAD ?\<T AT ONCE ( A DR[N+ P]SON4 ,!N ,I REALIZ$1 CALMLY AS Y\ RESIGN Y\RSELF TO AN IDEA ! TRU? ( 
:I* Y\ HAVE LONG KN[N1 ?AT ?AT CRY :I* HAD S\ND$ OV] ! ,SE9E BEH9D ME YE>S BE=E 
HAD NEV] CEAS$1 C>RI$ BY ! RIV] TO ! WAT]S ( ! ,*ANNEL1 TO TRAVEL ?R\<\T ! WORLD1 
ACROSS ! LIMITLESS EXPANSE ( ! OCEAN1 & ?AT IT HAD WAIT$ = ME !RE UNTIL ! DAY ,I HAD 
5C\NT]$ IT4 ,I REALIZ$ LIKEWISE ?AT IT W\LD CONT9UE TO AWAIT ME ON SEAS & RIV]S1 EV]Y:]E1 
9 %ORT1 :]E LIES ! BITT] WAT] ( MY BAPTISM4 ,H]E1 TOO1 BY ! WAY1 >5'T WE ON ! WAT]8 

,ON ?IS FLAT1 MONOTON\S1 9T]M9ABLE WAT] :OSE LIMITS >E 9DI/+UI%ABLE FROM ?OSE ( 
! L&8 ,IS IT CR$IBLE ?AT WE %ALL EV] REA* ,AM/]DAM8 ,WE %ALL NEV] GET \T ( ?IS IMM5SE 
HOLY-WAT] F\NT4 ,LI/54 ,DON'T Y\ HE> ! CRIES ( 9VISIBLE GULLS8 ,IF !Y >E CRY+ 9 \R 
DIRECTION1 TO :AT >E !Y CALL+ US8 

,BUT !Y >E ! SAME GULLS ?AT W]E CRY+1 ?AT W]E ALREADY CALL+ OV] ! ,ATLANTIC ! DAY ,I 
REALIZ$ DEF9ITIVELY ?AT ,I WAS NOT CUR$1 ?AT ,I WAS /ILL CORN]$ & ?AT ,I HAD TO MAKE %IFT ) IT4 

,5D$ ! GLORI\S LIFE1 BUT 5D$ ALSO ! FR5ZY & ! CONVULSIONS4 ,I HAD TO SUBMIT & ADMIT 
MY GUILT4 ,I HAD TO LIVE 9 ! LITTLE-EASE4 ,TO BE SURE1 Y\ >E NOT FAMILI> ) ?AT DUNGEON CELL ?AT 
WAS CALL$ ! LITTLE-EASE 9 ! ,MIDDLE ,AGES4 ,9 G5]AL1 ONE WAS =GOTT5 !RE = LIFE4 ,?AT CELL 
WAS DI/+UI%$ FROM O!RS BY +5I\S DIM5SIONS4 ,IT WAS NOT HI< 5\< TO /& UP 9 NOR 
YET WIDE 5\< TO LIE D[N 94 ,ONE HAD TO TAKE ON AN AWKW>D MANN] & LIVE ON ! DIAGONAL2 
SLEEP WAS A COLLAPSE1 & WAK+ A SQUATT+4 ,MON *]1 !RE WAS G5IUS--& ,I AM WEI<+ MY 
WORDS--9 ?AT SO SIMPLE 9V5TION4 ,EV]Y DAY ?R\< ! UN*ANG+ RE/RICTION ?AT /IFF5$ HIS 
BODY1 ! CONDEMN$ MAN LE>N$ ?AT HE WAS GUILTY & ?AT 9NOC5CE CONSI/S 9 /RET*+ 
JOY\SLY4 ,CAN Y\ IMAG9E 9 ?AT CELL A FREQU5T] ( SUMMITS & UPP] DECKS8 ,:AT8 ,ONE C\LD 
LIVE 9 ?OSE CELLS & /ILL BE 9NOC5T8 ,IMPROBABLE6 ,HI<LY IMPROBABLE6 ,OR ELSE MY REASON+ W\LD 
COLLAPSE4 ,?AT 9NOC5CE %\LD BE R$UC$ TO LIV+ HUN*BACK$--,I REFUSE TO 5T]TA9 = A 
SECOND SU* A HYPO!SIS4 ,MOREOV]1 WE CANNOT ASS]T ! 9NOC5CE ( ANYONE1 :]EAS WE CAN 
/ATE ) C]TA9TY ! GUILT ( ALL4 ,EV]Y MAN TE/IFIES TO ! CRIME ( ALL ! O!RS--?AT IS MY FAI? 
& MY HOPE4 

,BELIEVE ME1 RELIGIONS >E ON ! WRONG TRACK ! MOM5T !Y MORALIZE & FULM9ATE 
COMM&M5TS4 ,GOD IS NOT NE$$ TO CREATE GUILT OR TO PUNI%4 ,\R FELL[ M5 SUFFICE1 AID$ BY 
\RSELVES4 ,Y\ W]E SPEAK+ ( ! ,LA/ ,JUDGM5T4 ,ALL[ ME TO LAU< RESPECTFULLY4 ,I %ALL WAIT = IT 
RESOLUTELY1 = ,I HAVE KN[N :AT IS WORSE1 ! JUDGM5T ( M54 ,= !M1 NO EXT5UAT+ 
CIRCUM/ANCES2 EV5 ! GOOD 9T5TION IS ASCRIB$ TO CRIME4 ,HAVE Y\ AT LEA/ HE>D ( ! SPITT+- 
CELL1 :I* A NATION REC5TLY ?\<T UP TO PROVE ITSELF ! GREATE/ ON E>?8 ,A WALL$-UP BOX 9 
:I* ! PRISON] CAN /& )\T MOV+4 ,! SOLID DOOR ?AT LOCKS HIM 9 HIS CEM5T 
%ELL /OPS AT *9 LEVEL4 ,H5CE ONLY HIS FACE IS VISIBLE1 & EV]Y PASS+ JAIL] SPITS COPI\SLY ON IT4 

,! PRISON]1 W$G$ 9TO HIS CELL1 CANNOT WIPE HIS FACE1 ?\< HE IS ALL[$1 IT IS TRUE1 TO CLOSE HIS 
EYES4 ,WELL1 ?AT1 MON *]1 IS A HUMAN 9V5TION4 ,!Y DIDN'T NE$ ,GOD = ?AT LITTLE MA/]PIECE4 

,:AT ( IT8 ,WELL1 ,GOD'S SOLE USEFULNESS W\LD BE TO GU>ANTEE 9NOC5CE1 & ,I AM 9CL9$ TO 
SEE RELIGION RA!R AS A HUGE LAUND]+ V5TURE--AS IT WAS ONCE BUT BRIEFLY1 = EXACTLY ?REE YE>S1 
& IT WASN'T CALL$ RELIGION4 ,S9CE !N1 SOAP HAS BE5 LACK+1 \R FACES >E DIRTY1 & WE WIPE ONE 
ANO!R'S NOSES4 ,ALL DUNCES1 ALL PUNI%$1 LET'S ALL SPIT ON ONE ANO!R &--HURRY6 TO ! LITTLE-EASE6 

,EA* TRIES TO SPIT FIR/1 ?AT'S ALL4 ,I'LL TELL Y\ A BIG SECRET1 MON *]4 ,DON'T WAIT = ! ,LA/ ,JUDGM5T4 

,IT TAKES PLACE EV]Y DAY4 

,NO1 IT'S NO?+2 ,I'M M]ELY %IV]+ A LITTLE 9 ?IS DAMN$ HUMIDITY4 ,WE'RE L&+ ANYWAY4 

,H]E WE >E4 ,AFT] Y\4 ,BUT /AY A LITTLE1 ,I BEG Y\1 & WALK HOME ) ME4 ,I HAV5'T F9I%$2 ,I 
MU/ GO ON4 ,CONT9U+ IS :AT IS H>D4 ,SAY1 DO Y\ KN[ :Y HE WAS CRUCIFI$--! ONE Y\ >E 
P]HAPS ?9K+ ( AT ?IS MOM5T8 ,WELL1 !RE W]E HEAPS ( REASONS = ?AT4 ,!RE >E 
ALWAYS REASONS = MURD]+ A MAN4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO JU/IFY HIS LIV+4 ,?AT'S :Y 
CRIME ALWAYS F9DS LAWY]S1 & 9NOC5CE ONLY R>ELY4 ,BUT1 BESIDE ! REASONS ?AT HAVE BE5 V]Y 
WELL EXPLA9$ TO US = ! PA/ TWO ?\S& YE>S1 !RE WAS A MAJOR ONE = ?AT T]RIBLE AGONY1 
& ,I DON'T KN[ :Y IT HAS BE5 SO C>EFULLY HIDD54 ,! REAL REASON IS ?AT HE KNEW HE WAS NOT 
ALTOGE!R 9NOC5T4 ,IF HE DID NOT BE> ! WEI<T ( ! CRIME HE WAS ACCUS$ (1 HE HAD COMMITT$ 
O!RS--EV5 ?\< HE DIDN'T KN[ :I* ONES4 ,DID HE REALLY NOT KN[ !M8 ,HE WAS AT ! 
S\RCE1 AFT] ALL2 HE MU/ HAVE HE>D ( A C]TA9 ,SLAU<T] ( ! ,9NOC5TS4 ,! *ILDR5 ( ,JUDEA 
MASSACR$ :ILE HIS P>5TS W]E TAK+ HIM TO A SAFE PLACE--:Y DID !Y DIE IF NOT BECAUSE ( 
HIM8 ,?OSE BLOOD-SPATT]$ SOLDI]S1 ?OSE 9FANTS CUT 9 TWO FILL$ HIM ) HORROR4 ,BUT GIV5 ! 
MAN HE WAS1 ,I AM SURE HE C\LD NOT =GET !M4 ,& AS = ?AT SADNESS ?AT CAN BE FELT 9 HIS EV]Y 
ACT1 WASN'T IT ! 9CURABLE MELAN*OLY ( A MAN :O HE>D NI<T AFT] NI<T ! VOICE ( ,RA*EL 
WEEP+ = H] *ILDR5 & REFUS+ ALL COM=T8 ,! LAM5TATION W\LD R5D ! NI<T1 
,RA*EL W\LD CALL H] *ILDR5 :O HAD BE5 KILL$ = HIM1 & HE WAS /ILL ALIVE6 

,KN[+ :AT HE KNEW1 FAMILI> ) EV]Y?+ AB\T MAN--AH1 :O W\LD HAVE BELIEV$ ?AT 
CRIME CONSI/S LESS 9 MAK+ O!RS DIE ?AN 9 NOT DY+ ONESELF6--BR\<T FACE TO FACE DAY & 
NI<T ) HIS 9NOC5T CRIME1 HE F\ND IT TOO H>D = HIM TO HOLD ON & CONT9UE4 ,IT WAS BETT] TO 
HAVE DONE ) IT1 NOT TO DEF5D HIMSELF1 TO DIE1 9 ORD] NOT TO BE ! ONLY ONE TO LIVE1 & TO GO 
ELSE:]E :]E P]HAPS HE W\LD BE UPHELD4 ,HE WAS NOT UPHELD1 HE COMPLA9$1 & AS A LA/ 
/RAW1 HE WAS C5SOR$4 ,YES1 IT WAS ! ?IRD EVANGELI/1 ,I BELIEVE1 :O FIR/ SUPPRESS$ HIS COMPLA9T4 

0,:Y HA/ ?\ =SAK5 ME80--IT WAS A S$ITI\S CRY1 WASN'T IT8 ,WELL1 !N1 ! SCISSORS6 ,M9D Y\1 
IF ,LUKE HAD SUPPRESS$ NO?+1 ! MATT] W\LD H>DLY HAVE BE5 NOTIC$2 9 ANY CASE1 IT W\LD 
NOT HAVE ASSUM$ SU* IMPORTANCE4 ,?US ! C5SOR %\TS AL\D :AT HE PROSCRIBES4 ,! WORLD'S 
ORD] LIKEWISE IS AMBIGU\S4 

,NONE!LESS1 ! C5SOR$ ONE WAS UNABLE TO C>RY ON4 ,& ,I KN[1 *]1 :]E( ,I SPEAK4 ,!RE 
WAS A TIME :5 ,I DIDN'T AT ANY M9UTE HAVE ! SLI<TE/ IDEA H[ ,I C\LD REA* ! NEXT ONE4 

,YES1 ONE CAN WAGE W> 9 ?IS WORLD1 APE LOVE1 TORTURE ONE'S FELL[ MAN1 OR M]ELY SAY EVIL ( ONE'S 
NEI<BOR :ILE KNITT+4 ,BUT1 9 C]TA9 CASES1 C>RY+ ON1 M]ELY CONT9U+1 IS SUP]HUMAN4 ,& HE 
WAS NOT SUP]HUMAN1 Y\ CAN TAKE MY WORD = IT4 ,HE CRI$ AL\D HIS AGONY & ?AT'S :Y ,I LOVE 
HIM1 MY FRI5D :O DI$ )\T KN[+4 

,! UN=TUNATE ?+ IS ?AT HE LEFT US ALONE1 TO C>RY ON1 :ATEV] HAPP5S1 EV5 :5 WE >E 
LODG$ 9 ! LITTLE-EASE1 KN[+ 9 TURN :AT HE KNEW1 BUT 9CAPABLE ( DO+ :AT HE DID & ( 
DY+ LIKE HIM4 ,PEOPLE NATURALLY TRI$ TO GET SOME HELP FROM HIS DEA?4 ,AFT] ALL1 IT WAS A /ROKE ( 
G5IUS TO TELL US3 0,Y\'RE NOT A V]Y PRETTY SI<T1 ?AT'S C]TA96 ,WELL1 WE WON'T GO 9TO ! DETAILS6 

,WE'LL JU/ LIQUIDATE IT ALL AT ONCE1 ON ! CROSS60 ,BUT TOO MANY PEOPLE N[ CLIMB ONTO ! CROSS 
M]ELY TO BE SE5 FROM A GREAT] DI/ANCE1 EV5 IF !Y HAVE TO TRAMPLE SOME:AT ON ! ONE :O 
HAS BE5 !RE SO LONG4 ,TOO MANY PEOPLE HAVE DECID$ TO DO )\T G5]OSITY 9 ORD] TO PRACTICE 
*>ITY4 ,OH1 ! 9JU/ICE1 ! RANK 9JU/ICE ?AT HAS BE5 DONE HIM6 ,IT WR+S MY HE>T6 

 ,GOOD HEAV5S1 ! HABIT HAS SEIZ$ ME AGA9 & ,I'M ON ! PO9T ( MAK+ A SPEE* TO 
! C\RT4 ,=GIVE ME & REALIZE ?AT ,I HAVE MY REASONS4 ,:Y1 A FEW /REETS FROM H]E !RE IS A 
MUSEUM CALL$ ,\R ,LORD 9 ! ,ATTIC4 ,AT ! TIME1 !Y HAD ! CATACOMBS 9 ! ATTIC4 ,AFT] ALL1 ! 
CELL>S >E FLOOD$ H]E4 ,BUT TODAY--SET Y\R M9D AT RE/--!IR ,LORD IS NEI!R 9 ! ATTIC NOR 9 
! CELL>4 ,!Y HAVE HOI/$ HIM ONTO A JUDGE'S B5*1 9 ! SECRET ( !IR HE>TS1 & !Y SMITE1 
!Y JUDGE ABOVE ALL1 !Y JUDGE 9 HIS NAME4 ,HE SPOKE S(TLY TO ! ADULT]ESS3 0,NEI!R DO ,I 
CONDEMN !E60 BUT ?AT DOESN'T MATT]2 !Y CONDEMN )\T ABSOLV+ ANYONE4 ,9 ! NAME ( 
! ,LORD1 H]E IS :AT Y\ DES]VE4 ,LORD8 ,HE1 MY FRI5D1 DIDN'T EXPECT SO MU*4 ,HE SIMPLY WANT$ 
TO BE LOV$1 NO?+ MORE4 ,( C\RSE1 !RE >E ?OSE :O LOVE HIM1 EV5 AMONG ,*RI/IANS4 ,BUT 
!Y >E NOT NUM]\S4 ,HE HAD =ESE5 ?AT TOO2 HE HAD A S5SE ( HUMOR4 ,PET]1 Y\ KN[1 ! 
C[>D1 ,PET] D5I$ HIM3 0,I KN[ NOT ! MAN 444 ,I KN[ NOT :AT ?\ SAYE/ 444 ETC40 ,REALLY1 HE 
W5T TOO F>6 ,& MY FRI5D MAKES A PLAY ON WORDS3 0,?\ >T ,PET]1 & UPON ?IS ROCK ,I WILL BUILD 
MY *UR*40 ,IRONY C\LD GO NO FUR!R1 DON'T Y\ ?9K8 ,BUT NO1 !Y /ILL TRIUMPH6 0,Y\ SEE1 HE HAD SAID IT60 ,HE HAD SAID IT 9DE$2 HE KNEW ! QUE/ION ?OR\<LY4 ,& !N HE LEFT =EV]1 
LEAV+ !M TO JUDGE & CONDEMN1 ) P>DON ON !IR LIPS & ! S5T5CE 9 !IR HE>TS4 

,= IT CANNOT BE SAID !RE IS NO MORE PITY2 NO1 GOOD ,LORD1 WE NEV] /OP TALK+ ( IT4 ,SIMPLY1 NO 
ONE IS EV] ACQUITT$ ANY MORE4 ,ON DEAD 9NOC5CE ! JUDGES SW>M1 ! JUDGES ( ALL SPECIES1 ?OSE 
( ,*RI/ & ?OSE ( ! ,ANTI*RI/1 :O >E ! SAME ANYWAY1 RECONCIL$ 9 ! LITTLE-EASE4 ,= ONE 
MU/N'T BLAME EV]Y?+ EXCLUSIVELY ON ! ,*RI/IANS4 ,! O!RS >E 9VOLV$ TOO4 ,DO Y\ KN[ 
:AT HAS BECOME ( ONE ( ! H\SES 9 ?IS CITY ?AT %ELT]$ ,DESC>TES8 ,A LUNATIC ASYLUM4 ,YES1 
G5]AL DELIRIUM & P]SECUTION4 ,WE1 TOO1 NATURALLY1 >E OBLIG$ TO COME TO IT4 ,Y\ HAVE HAD A 
*ANCE TO OBS]VE ?AT ,I SP>E NO?+1 & AS = Y\1 ,I KN[ ?AT Y\ AGREE 9 ?\<T4 ,:]E=E1 
S9CE WE >E ALL JUDGES1 WE >E ALL GUILTY BE=E ONE ANO!R1 ALL ,*RI/S 9 \R MEAN MANN]1 ONE BY 
ONE CRUCIFI$1 ALWAYS )\T KN[+4 ,WE %\LD BE AT LEA/ IF ,I1 ,CLAM5CE1 HAD NOT F\ND A 
WAY \T1 ! ONLY SOLUTION1 TRU? AT LA/ 444 

,NO1 ,I AM /OPP+1 *] AMI1 FE> NO?+6 ,BESIDES1 ,I'M GO+ TO LEAVE Y\1 = WE >E AT MY DOOR4 

,9 SOLITUDE & :5 FATIGU$1 ONE IS AFT] ALL 9CL9$ TO TAKE ONESELF = A PROPHET4 ,:5 ALL IS SAID 
& DONE1 ?AT'S REALLY :AT ,I AM1 HAV+ TAK5 REFUGE 9 A DES]T ( /ONES1 FOGS1 & /AGNANT 
WAT]S--AN EMPTY PROPHET = %ABBY TIMES1 ,ELIJAH )\T A MESSIAH1 *OK$ ) FEV] & 
ALCOHOL1 MY BACK UP AGA9/ ?IS MOLDY DOOR1 MY F+] RAIS$ T[>D A ?REAT5+ SKY1 %[]+ 
IMPRECATIONS ON LAWLESS M5 :O CANNOT 5DURE ANY JUDGM5T4 ,= !Y CAN'T 5DURE IT1 TRES *]1 
& ?AT'S ! :OLE QUE/ION4 ,HE :O CL+S TO A LAW DOES NOT FE> ! JUDGM5T ?AT RE9/ATES HIM 
9 AN ORD] HE BELIEVES 94 ,BUT ! KE5E/ ( HUMAN TORM5TS IS TO BE JUDG$ )\T A LAW4 ,YET WE 
>E 9 ?AT TORM5T4 ,DEPRIV$ ( !IR NATURAL CURB1 ! JUDGES1 LOOS$ AT R&OM1 >E RAC+ ?R\< 
!IR JOB4 ,H5CE WE HAVE TO TRY TO GO FA/] ?AN !Y1 DON'T WE8 ,& IT'S A REAL MADH\SE4 ,PROPHETS 
& QUACKS MULTIPLY2 !Y HA/5 TO GET !RE ) A GOOD LAW OR A FLAWLESS ORGANIZATION BE=E 
! WORLD IS DES]T$ ,=TUNATELY1 ,I >RIV$6 ,I AM ! 5D & ! BEG9N+2 ,I ANN\NCE ! LAW4 ,9 
%ORT1 ,I AM A JUDGE-P5IT5T4 

,YES1 YES1 ,I'LL TELL Y\ TOMORR[ :AT ?IS NOBLE PR(ESSION CONSI/S (4 ,Y\ >E LEAV+ ! DAY 
AFT] TOMORR[1 SO WE >E 9 A HURRY4 ,COME TO MY PLACE1 WILL Y\8 ,JU/ R+ ?REE TIMES4 ,Y\ >E 
GO+ BACK TO ,P>IS8 ,P>IS IS F>2 ,P>IS IS BEAUTIFUL2 ,I HAV5'T =GOTT5 IT4 ,I REMEMB] ITS TWILI<TS AT 
AB\T ?IS SAME SEASON4 ,EV5+ FALLS1 DRY & RU/L+1 OV] ! RO(S BLUE ) SMOKE1 ! CITY 
RUMBLES1 ! RIV] SEEMS TO FL[ BACKW>D4 ,!N ,I US$ TO W&] 9 ! /REETS4 ,!Y W&] N[ 
TOO1 ,I KN[6 ,!Y W&]1 PRET5D+ TO HA/5 T[>D ! TIR$ WIFE1 ! =BIDD+ HOME 444 ,AH1 MON AMI1 DO Y\ KN[ :AT ! SOLIT>Y CREATURE IS LIKE AS HE W&]S 9 BIG CITIES8 444 

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