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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,ALB]T ,CAMUS 

,TEXT 3 

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,A ,D,O,L,L',S VILLAGE1 ISN'T IT8 ,NO %ORTAGE ( QUA9TNESS H]E6 ,BUT ,I DIDN'T BR+ Y\ TO ?IS ISL& 
= QUA9TNESS1 *] AMI4 ,ANYONE CAN %[ Y\ PEASANT HEADDRESSES1 WOOD5 %OES1 & ORNAM5T$ 
H\SES ) FI%]M5 SMOK+ *OICE TOBACCO SURR\ND$ BY ! SMELL ( FURNITURE WAX4 ,I AM ONE 
( ! FEW PEOPLE1 ON ! O!R H&1 :O CAN %[ Y\ :AT REALLY MATT]S H]E4 

,WE >E REA*+ ! DIKE4 ,WE'LL HAVE TO FOLL[ IT TO GET AS F> AS POSSIBLE FROM !SE TOO *>M+ 
H\SES4 ,PLEASE1 LET'S SIT D[N4 ,WELL1 :AT DO Y\ ?9K ( IT8 ,ISN'T IT ! MO/ BEAUTIFUL NEGATIVE 
L&SCAPE8 ,JU/ SEE ON ! LEFT ?AT PILE ( A%ES !Y CALL A DUNE H]E1 ! GRAY DIKE ON ! RI<T1 ! 
LIVID BEA* AT \R FEET1 & 9 FRONT ( US1 ! SEA ! COLOR ( A WEAK LYE-SOLUTION ) ! VA/ SKY 
REFLECT+ ! COLORLESS WAT]S4 ,A SOGGY HELL1 9DE$6 ,EV]Y?+ HORIZONTAL1 NO RELIEF2 SPACE IS 
COLORLESS1 & LIFE DEAD4 ,IS IT NOT UNIV]SAL OBLIT]ATION1 EV]LA/+ NO?+NESS MADE VISIBLE8 ,NO HU- 
MAN BE+S1 ABOVE ALL1 NO HUMAN BE+S6 ,Y\ & ,I ALONE FAC+ ! PLANET AT LA/ DES]T$6 ,! 
SKY IS ALIVE8 ,Y\ >E RI<T1 *] AMI4 ,IT ?ICK5S1 BECOMES CONCAVE1 OP5S UP AIR %AFTS & DOSES 
CL\DY DOORS4 ,?OSE >E ! DOVES4 ,HAV5'T Y\ NOTIC$ ?AT ! SKY ( ,HOLL& IS FILL$ ) 
MILLIONS ( DOVES1 9VISIBLE BECAUSE ( !IR ALTITUDE1 :I* FLAP !IR W+S1 RISE OR FALL 9 UNISON1 
FILL+ ! HEAV5LY SPACE ) D5SE MULTITUDES ( GRAYI% FEA!RS C>RI$ HI!R & ?I!R BY ! 
W9D8 ,! DOVES WAIT UP !RE ALL YE> R\ND4 ,!Y :EEL ABOVE ! E>?1 LOOK D[N1 & W\LD 
LIKE TO COME D[N4 ,BUT !RE IS NO?+ BUT ! SEA & ! CANALS1 RO(S COV]$ ) %OP SIGNS1 
& NEV] A HEAD ON :I* TO LI<T4 

,Y\ DON'T UND]/& :AT ,I MEAN8 ,I'LL ADMIT MY FATIGUE4 ,I LOSE ! ?READ ( :AT ,I AM SAY+2 
,I'VE LO/ ?AT LUCIDITY TO :I* MY FRI5DS US$ TO 5JOY PAY+ RESPECTS4 ,I SAY 0MY FRI5DS10 
MOREOV]1 AS A CONV5TION4 ,I HAVE NO MORE FRI5DS2 ,I HAVE NO?+ BUT ACCOMPLICES4 ,TO MAKE UP = 
?IS1 !IR NUMB] HAS 9CREAS$2 !Y >E ! :OLE HUMAN RACE4 ,& )9 ! HUMAN RACE1 Y\ 
FIR/ ( ALL4 ,:OEV] IS AT H& IS ALWAYS ! FIR/4 ,H[ DO ,I KN[ ,I HAVE NO FRI5DS8 ,IT'S V]Y EASY3 ,I 
 DISCOV]$ IT ! DAY ,I ?\<T ( KILL+ MYSELF TO PLAY A TRICK ON !M1 TO PUNI% !M1 9 A 
WAY4 ,BUT PUNI% :OM8 ,SOME W\LD BE SURPRIS$1 & NO ONE W\LD FEEL PUNI%$4 ,I REALIZ$ ,I HAD 
NO FRI5DS4 ,BESIDES1 EV5 IF ,I HAD HAD1 ,I %\LDN'T BE ANY BETT] (F4 ,IF ,I HAD BE5 ABLE TO COMMIT 
SUICIDE & !N SEE !IR REACTION1 :Y1 !N ! GAME W\LD HAVE BE5 WOR? ! C&LE4 ,BUT ! 
E>? IS D>K1 *] AMI1 ! C(F9 ?ICK1 & ! %R\D OPAQUE1 ,! EYES ( ! S\L--TO BE SURE--IF 
!RE IS A S\L & IT HAS EYES6 ,BUT Y\ SEE1 WE'RE NOT SURE1 WE CAN'T BE SURE4 ,O!RWISE1 !RE W\LD 
BE A SOLUTION2 AT LEA/ ONE C\LD GET ONESELF TAK5 S]I\SLY4 ,M5 >E NEV] CONV9C$ ( Y\R 
REASONS1 ( Y\R S9C]ITY1 ( ! S]I\SNESS ( Y\R SUFF]+S1 EXCEPT BY Y\R DEA?4 ,SO LONG AS Y\ 
>E ALIVE1 Y\R CASE IS D\BTFUL2 Y\ HAVE A RI<T ONLY TO !IR SKEPTICISM4 ,SO IF !RE W]E ! LEA/ 
C]TA9TY ?AT ONE C\LD 5JOY ! %[1 IT W\LD BE WOR? PROV+ TO !M :AT !Y >E UNWILL+ 
TO BELIEVE & ?US AMAZ+ !M4 ,BUT Y\ KILL Y\RSELF & :AT DOES IT MATT] :E!R OR NOT !Y 
BELIEVE Y\8 ,Y\ >E NOT !RE TO SEE !IR AMAZEM5T & !IR CONTRITION 7FLEET+ AT BE/71 TO 
WITNESS1 ACCORD+ TO EV]Y MAN'S DREAM1 Y\R [N FUN]AL4 ,9 ORD] TO CEASE BE+ A D\BTFUL CASE1 
ONE HAS TO CEASE BE+1 ?AT'S ALL4 

,BESIDES1 ISN'T IT BETT] ?US8 ,WE'D SUFF] TOO MU* FROM !IR 9DIFF]5CE4 0,Y\'LL PAY = ?IS60 A 
DAU<T] SAID TO H] FA!R :O HAD PREV5T$ H] FROM M>RY+ A TOO WELL GROOM$ SUITOR4 ,& 
%E KILL$ H]SELF4 ,BUT ! FA!R PAID = NO?+4 ,HE LOV$ FLY-CA/+4 ,?REE ,SUNDAYS LAT] HE W5T 
BACK TO ! RIV]--TO =GET1 AS HE SAID4 ,HE WAS RI<T2 HE =GOT4 ,TO TELL ! TRU?1 ! CONTR>Y W\LD 
HAVE BE5 SURPRIS+4 ,Y\ ?9K Y\ >E DY+ TO PUNI% Y\R WIFE & ACTUALLY Y\ >E FREE+ H]4 

,IT'S BETT] NOT TO SEE ?AT4 ,BESIDES ! FACT ?AT Y\ MI<T HE> ! REASONS !Y GIVE = Y\R ACTION4 

,AS F> AS ,I AM CONC]N$1 ,I CAN HE> !M N[3 0,HE KILL$ HIMSELF BECAUSE HE C\LDN'T BE> 4440 ,AH1 
*] AMI1 H[ POOR 9 9V5TION M5 >E6 ,!Y ALWAYS ?9K ONE COMMITS SUICIDE = A REASON4 ,BUT 
IT'S QUITE POSSIBLE TO COMMIT SUICIDE = TWO REASONS4 ,NO1 ?AT NEV] OCCURS TO !M4 ,SO :AT'S ! 
GOOD ( DY+ 9T5TIONALLY1 ( SACRIFIC+ Y\RSELF TO ! IDEA Y\ WANT PEOPLE TO HAVE ( Y\8 ,ONCE 
Y\ >E DEAD1 !Y WILL TAKE ADVANTAGE ( IT TO ATTRIBUTE IDIOTIC OR VULG> MOTIVES TO Y\R ACTION4 

,M>TYRS1 *] AMI1 MU/ *OOSE BETWE5 BE+ =GOTT51 MOCK$1 OR MADE USE (4 ,AS = BE+ 
UND]/OOD--NEV]6 

,BESIDES1 LET'S NOT BEAT AB\T ! BU%2 ,I LOVE LIFE--?AT'S MY REAL WEAKNESS4 ,I LOVE IT SO MU* ?AT 
,I AM 9CAPABLE ( IMAG9+ :AT IS NOT LIFE4 ,SU* AVIDITY HAS SOME?+ PLEBEIAN AB\T IT1 DON'T Y\ 
?9K8 ,>I/OCRACY CANNOT IMAG9E ITSELF )\T A LITTLE DI/ANCE SURR\ND+ ITSELF & ITS LIFE4 ,ONE 
DIES IF NECESS>Y1 ONE BREAKS RA!R ?AN B5D+4 ,BUT ,I B5D1 BECAUSE ,I CONT9UE TO LOVE MYSELF4 ,= 
EXAMPLE1 AFT] ALL ,I HAVE TOLD Y\1 :AT DO Y\ ?9K ,I DEVELOP$8 ,AN AV]SION = MYSELF8 ,COME1 
COME1 IT WAS ESPECIALLY ) O!RS ?AT ,I WAS F$ UP4 ,TO BE SURE1 ,I KNEW MY FAIL+S & REGRETT$ 
!M4 ,YET ,I CONT9U$ TO =GET !M ) A RA!R M]ITORI\S OB/9ACY4 ,! PROSECUTION ( 
O!RS1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 W5T ON CON/ANTLY 9 MY HE>T4 ,( C\RSE--DOES ?AT %OCK Y\8 ,MAYBE 
Y\ ?9K IT'S NOT LOGICAL8 ,BUT ! QUE/ION IS NOT TO REMA9 LOGICAL4 ,! QUE/ION IS TO SLIP ?R\< 
&1 ABOVE ALL--YES1 ABOVE ALL1 ! QUE/ION IS TO ELUDE JUDGM5T4 ,I'M NOT SAY+ TO AVOID 
PUNI%M5T1 = PUNI%M5T )\T JUDGM5T IS BE>ABLE4 ,IT HAS A NAME1 BESIDES1 ?AT GU>ANTEES 
\R 9NOC5CE3 IT IS CALL$ MIS=TUNE4 ,NO1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 IT'S A MATT] ( DODG+ JUDGM5T1 ( 
AVOID+ BE+ =EV] JUDG$ )\T EV] HAV+ A S5T5CE PRON\NC$4 

,BUT ONE CAN'T DODGE IT SO EASILY4 ,TODAY WE >E ALWAYS READY TO JUDGE AS WE >E TO =NICATE4 ,) 
?IS DIFF]5CE1 ?AT !RE >E NO 9ADEQUACIES TO FE>4 ,IF Y\ D\BT ?IS1 JU/ LI/5 TO ! TABLE 
CONV]SATION DUR+ ,AUGU/ 9 ?OSE SUMM] HOTELS :]E \R *>ITABLE FELL[ CITIZ5S TAKE ! 
BOR$OM CURE4 ,IF Y\ /ILL HESITATE TO CONCLUDE1 READ ! WRIT+S ( \R GREAT M5 ( ! MOM5T4 

,OR ELSE OBS]VE Y\R [N FAMILY & Y\ WILL BE $IFI$4 ,MON *] AMI1 LET'S NOT GIVE !M ANY 
PRETEXT1 NO MATT] H[ SMALL1 = JUDG+ US6 ,O!RWISE1 WE'LL BE LEFT 9 %R$S4 ,WE >E =C$ TO TAKE 
! SAME PRECAUTIONS AS ! ANIMAL TAM]4 ,IF1 BE=E GO+ 9TO ! CAGE1 HE HAS ! MIS=TUNE TO 
CUT HIMSELF :ILE %AV+1 :AT A FEA/ = ! WILD ANIMALS6 ,I REALIZ$ ?IS ALL AT ONCE ! MOM5T ,I 
HAD ! SUSPICION ?AT MAYBE ,I WASN'T SO ADMIRABLE4 ,FROM !N ON1 ,I BECAME DI/RU/FUL4 ,S9CE ,I 
WAS BLE$+ SLI<TLY1 !RE WAS NO ESCAPE = ME2 !Y W\LD DEV\R ME4 

,MY RELATIONS ) MY CONTEMPOR>IES W]E APP>5TLY ! SAME & YET SUBTLY \T ( TUNE4 ,MY 
FRI5DS HADN'T *ANG$4 ,ON OCCASION1 !Y /ILL EXTOLL$ ! H>MONY & SECURITY !Y F\ND 9 MY 
COMPANY4 ,BUT ,I WAS AW>E ONLY ( ! DISSONANCES & DISORD] ?AT FILL$ ME2 ,I FELT VULN]ABLE & 
OP5 TO PUBLIC ACCUSATION4 ,9 MY EYES MY FELL[S CEAS$ TO BE ! RESPECTFUL PUBLIC TO :I* ,I WAS 
ACCU/OM$4 ,! CIRCLE ( :I* ,I WAS ! C5T] BROKE & !Y L9$ UP 9 A R[ AS ON ! JUDGE'S 
B5*4 ,9 %ORT1 ! MOM5T ,I GRASP$ ?AT !RE WAS SOME?+ TO JUDGE 9 ME1 ,I REALIZ$ ?AT !RE 
WAS 9 !M AN IRRESI/IBLE VOCATION = JUDGM5T4 ,YES1 !Y W]E !RE AS BE=E1 BUT !Y W]E 
LAU<+4 ,OR RA!R IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT EV]Y ONE ,I 5C\NT]$ WAS LOOK+ AT ME ) A HIDD5 
SMILE4 ,I EV5 HAD ! IMPRESSION1 AT ?AT TIME1 ?AT PEOPLE W]E TRIPP+ ME UP4 ,TWO OR ?REE TIMES1 
9 FACT1 ,I /UMBL$ AS ,I 5T]$ PUBLIC PLACES4 ,ONCE1 EV51 ,I W5T SPRAWL+ ON ! FLOOR4 ,! 
,C>TESIAN ,FR5*MAN 9 ME DIDN'T TAKE LONG TO CAT* HOLD ( HIMSELF & ATTRIBUTE ?OSE 
ACCID5TS TO ! ONLY REASONABLE DIV9ITY--?AT IS1 *ANCE4 ,NONE!LESS1 MY DI/RU/ REMA9$4 

,ONCE MY ATT5TION WAS >\S$1 IT WAS NOT H>D = ME TO DISCOV] ?AT ,I HAD 5EMIES4 ,9 MY 
PR(ESSION1 TO BEG9 )1 & ALSO 9 MY SOCIAL LIFE4 ,SOME AMONG !M ,I HAD OBLIG$4 ,O!RS ,I 
%\LD HAVE OBLIG$4 ,ALL ?AT1 AFT] ALL1 WAS NATURAL1 & ,I DISCOV]$ IT )\T TOO MU* GRIEF4 ,IT WAS 
H>D] & MORE PA9FUL1 ON ! O!R H&1 TO ADMIT ?AT ,I HAD 5EMIES AMONG PEOPLE ,I H>DLY 
KNEW OR DIDN'T KN[ AT ALL4 ,I HAD ALWAYS ?\<T1 ) ! +5U\SNESS ,I HAVE ALREADY ILLU/RAT$ TO 
Y\1 ?AT ?OSE :O DIDN'T KN[ ME C\LDN'T RESI/ LIK+ ME IF !Y CAME TO KN[ ME4 ,NOT AT ALL6 ,I 
5C\NT]$ HO/ILITY ESPECIALLY AMONG ?OSE :O KNEW ME ONLY AT A DI/ANCE )\T MY KN[+ 
!M MYSELF4 ,D\BTLESS !Y SUSPECT$ ME ( LIV+ FULLY1 GIV5 UP COMPLETELY TO HAPP9ESS2 & ?AT 
CANNOT BE =GIV54 ,! LOOK ( SUCCESS1 :5 IT IS WORN 9 A C]TA9 WAY1 W\LD 9FURIATE A JACKASS4 

,!N AGA91 MY LIFE WAS FULL TO BUR/+1 & = LACK ( TIME1 ,I US$ TO REFUSE MANY ADVANCES4 ,!N ,I 
W\LD =GET MY REFUSALS1 = ! SAME REASON4 ,BUT ?OSE ADVANCES HAD BE5 MADE ME BY PEOPLE 
:OSE LIVES W]E NOT FULL & :O1 = ?AT V]Y REASON1 W\LD REMEMB] MY REFUSALS4 

,?US IT IS ?AT 9 ! 5D1 TO TAKE BUT ONE EXAMPLE1 WOM5 CO/ ME DE>4 ,! TIME ,I US$ TO 
DEVOTE TO !M ,I C\LDN'T GIVE TO M51 :O DIDN'T ALWAYS =GIVE ME ?IS4 ,IS !RE ANY WAY \T8 

,Y\R SUCCESSES & HAPP9ESS >E =GIV5 Y\ ONLY IF Y\ G5]\SLY CONS5T TO %>E !M4 ,BUT TO 
BE HAPPY IT IS ESS5TIAL NOT TO BE TOO CONC]N$ ) O!RS4 ,CONSEQU5TLY1 !RE IS NO ESCAPE4 

,HAPPY & JUDG$1 OR ABSOLV$ & WRET*$4 ,AS = ME1 ! 9JU/ICE WAS EV5 GREAT]3 ,I WAS 
CONDEMN$ = PA/ SUCCESSES4 ,= A LONG TIME ,I HAD LIV$ 9 ! ILLUSION ( A G5]AL AGREEM5T1 
:]EAS1 FROM ALL SIDES1 JUDGM5TS1 >R[S1 MOCK]IES RA9$ UPON ME1 9ATT5TIVE & SMIL+4 ,! 
DAY ,I WAS AL]T$ ,I BECAME LUCID2 ,I RECEIV$ ALL ! W\NDS AT ! SAME TIME & LO/ MY /R5G? ALL 
AT ONCE4 ,! :OLE UNIV]SE !N BEGAN TO LAU< AT ME4 

,?AT IS :AT NO MAN 7EXCEPT ?OSE :O >E NOT REALLY ALIVE--9 O!R WORDS1 WISE M57 CAN 
5DURE4 ,SPITEFULNESS IS ! ONLY POSSIBLE O/5TATION4 ,PEOPLE HA/5 TO JUDGE 9 ORD] NOT TO BE 
JUDG$ !MSELVES4 ,:AT DO Y\ EXPECT8 ,! IDEA ?AT COMES MO/ NATURALLY TO MAN1 AS IF FROM 
HIS V]Y NATURE1 IS ! IDEA ( HIS 9NOC5CE4 ,FROM ?IS PO9T ( VIEW1 WE >E ALL LIKE ?AT LITTLE 
,FR5*MAN AT ,BU*5WALD :O 9SI/$ ON REGI/]+ A COMPLA9T ) ! CL]K1 HIMSELF A PRISON]1 
:O WAS RECORD+ HIS >RIVAL4 ,A COMPLA9T8 ,! CL]K & HIS COMRADES LAU<$3 0,USELESS1 OLD MAN4 

,Y\ DON'T LODGE A COMPLA9T H]E40 0,BUT Y\ SEE1 SIR10 SAID ! LITTLE ,FR5*MAN1 0MY CASE IS 
EXCEPTIONAL ,I AM 9NOC5T60 
,WE >E ALL EXCEPTIONAL CASES4 ,WE ALL WANT TO APPEAL AGA9/ SOME?+6 ,EA* ( US 9SI/S ON BE+ 
9NOC5T AT ALL CO/1 EV5 IF HE HAS TO ACCUSE ! :OLE HUMAN RACE & HEAV5 ITSELF4 ,Y\ WON'T 
DELI<T A MAN BY COMPLIM5T+ HIM ON ! EF=TS BY :I* HE HAS BECOME 9TELLIG5T OR G5]\S4 

,ON ! O!R H&1 HE WILL BEAM IF Y\ ADMIRE HIS NATURAL G5]OSITY4 ,9V]SELY1 IF Y\ TELL A CRIM9AL 
?AT HIS CRIME IS NOT DUE TO HIS NATURE OR HIS *>ACT] BUT TO UN=TUNATE CIRCUM/ANCES1 HE WILL BE 
EXTRAVAGANTLY GRATEFUL TO Y\4 ,DUR+ ! C\NSEL'S SPEE*1 ?IS IS ! MOM5T HE WILL *OOSE TO 
WEEP4 ,YET !RE IS NO CR$IT 9 BE+ HONE/ OR 9TELLIG5T BY BIR?4 ,JU/ AS ONE IS SURELY NO MORE 
RESPONSIBLE = BE+ A CRIM9AL BY NATURE ?AN = BE+ A CRIM9AL BY CIRCUM/ANCE4 ,BUT ?OSE 
RASCALS WANT GRACE1 ?AT IS1 IRRESPONSIBILITY1 & !Y %AMELESSLY ALLEGE ! JU/IFICATIONS ( NATURE OR 
! EXCUSES ( CIRCUM/ANCES1 EV5 IF !Y >E CONTRADICTORY4 ,! ESS5TIAL ?+ IS ?AT !Y %\LD 
BE 9NOC5T1 ?AT !IR VIRTUES1 BY GRACE ( BIR?1 %\LD NOT BE QUE/ION$ & ?AT !IR MISDE$S1 
BORN ( A MOM5T>Y MIS=TUNE1 %\LD NEV] BE MORE ?AN PROVISIONAL4 ,AS ,I TOLD Y\1 IT'S A MATT] 
( DODG+ JUDGM5T4 ,S9CE IT IS H>D TO DODGE IT1 TRICKY TO GET ONE'S NATURE SIMULTANE\SLY ADMIR$ 
& EXCUS$1 !Y ALL /RIVE TO BE RI*4 ,:Y8 ,DID Y\ EV] ASK Y\RSELF8 ,= P[]1 ( C\RSE4 ,BUT 
ESPECIALLY BECAUSE WEAL? %IELDS FROM IMM$IATE JUDGM5T1 TAKES Y\ \T ( ! SUBWAY CR[D TO 
5CLOSE Y\ 9 A *ROMIUM-PLAT$ AUTOMOBILE1 ISOLATES Y\ 9 HUGE PROTECT$ LAWNS1 ,PULLMANS1 FIR/- 
CLASS CAB9S4 ,WEAL?1 *] AMI1 IS NOT QUITE ACQUITTAL1 BUT REPRIEVE1 & ?AT'S ALWAYS WOR? TAK+4 

,ABOVE ALL1 DON'T BELIEVE Y\R FRI5DS :5 !Y ASK Y\ TO BE S9C]E ) !M4 ,!Y M]ELY 
HOPE Y\ WILL 5C\RAGE !M 9 ! GOOD OP9ION !Y HAVE ( !MSELVES BY PROVID+ !M 
) ! ADDITIONAL ASSURANCE !Y WILL F9D 9 Y\R PROMISE ( S9C]ITY4 ,H[ C\LD S9C]ITY BE A 
CONDITION ( FRI5D%IP8 ,A LIK+ = TRU? AT ANY CO/ IS A PASSION ?AT SP>ES NO?+ & ?AT 
NO?+ RESI/S4 ,IT'S A VICE1 AT TIMES A COM=T1 OR A SELFI%NESS4 ,!RE=E1 IF Y\ >E 9 ?AT SITUATION1 
DON'T HESITATE3 PROMISE TO TELL ! TRU? & !N LIE AS BE/ Y\ CAN4 ,Y\ WILL SATISFY !IR HIDD5 
DESIRE & D\BLY PROVE Y\R AFFECTION4 

,?IS IS SO TRUE ?AT WE R>ELY CONFIDE 9 ?OSE :O >E BETT] ?AN WE4 ,RA!R1 WE >E MORE 9- 
CL9$ TO FLEE !IR SOCIETY4 ,MO/ (T51 ON ! O!R H&1 WE CONFESS TO ?OSE :O >E LIKE US & 
:O %>E \R WEAKNESSES4 ,H5CE WE DON'T WANT TO IMPROVE \RSELVES OR BE BETT]$1 = WE %\LD 
FIR/ HAVE TO BE JUDG$ 9 DEFAULT4 ,WE M]ELY WI% TO BE PITI$ & 5C\RAG$ 9 ! C\RSE WE HAVE 
*OS54 ,9 %ORT1 WE %\LD LIKE1 AT ! SAME TIME1 TO CEASE BE+ GUILTY & YET NOT TO MAKE ! 
EF=T ( CLEANS+ \RSELVES4 ,NOT 5\< CYNICISM & NOT 5\< VIRTUE4 ,WE LACK ! 5]GY ( 
EVIL AS WELL AS ! 5]GY ( GOOD4 ,DO Y\ KN[ ,DANTE8 ,REALLY8 ,! DEVIL Y\ SAY6 ,!N Y\ KN[ 
?AT ,DANTE ACCEPTS ! IDEA ( NEUTRAL ANGELS 9 ! QU>REL BETWE5 ,GOD & ,SATAN4 ,& HE 
PUTS !M 9 ,LIMBO1 A SORT ( VE/IBULE ( HIS ,HELL4 ,WE >E 9 ! VE/IBULE1 *] AMI4 

,PATI5CE8 ,Y\ >E PROBABLY RI<T4 ,IT W\LD TAKE PATI5CE TO WAIT = ! ,LA/ ,JUDGM5T4 ,BUT ?AT'S 
IT1 WE'RE 9 A HURRY4 ,SO MU* 9 A HURRY1 9 DE$1 ?AT ,I WAS OBLIG$ TO MAKE MYSELF A JUDGE-P5IT5T4 

,H[EV]1 ,I FIR/ HAD TO MAKE %IFT ) MY DISCOV]IES & PUT MYSELF RI<T ) MY CONTEMPOR>IES' 
LAU<T]4 ,FROM ! EV5+ :5 ,I WAS CALL$--= ,I WAS REALLY CALL$--,I HAD TO ANSW] OR AT LEA/ 
SEEK AN ANSW]4 ,IT WASN'T EASY2 = SOME TIME ,I FL\ND]$4 ,TO BEG9 )1 ?AT P]PETUAL LAU< & 
! LAU<]S HAD TO TEA* ME TO SEE CLE>LY )9 ME & TO DISCOV] AT LA/ ?AT ,I WAS NOT SIMPLE4 

,DON'T SMILE2 ?AT TRU? IS NOT SO BASIC AS IT SEEMS4 ,:AT WE CALL BASIC TRU?S >E SIMPLY ! ONES WE 
DISCOV] AFT] ALL ! O!RS4 

,H[EV] ?AT MAY BE1 AFT] PROLONG$ RESE>* ON MYSELF1 ,I BR\<T \T ! FUNDAM5TAL 
DUPLICITY ( ! HUMAN BE+4 ,!N ,I REALIZ$1 AS A RESULT ( DELV+ 9 MY MEMORY1 ?AT MODE/Y 
HELP$ ME TO %9E1 HUMILITY TO CONQU]1 & VIRTUE TO OPPRESS4 ,I US$ TO WAGE W> BY PEACEFUL 
MEANS & EV5TUALLY US$ TO A*IEVE1 ?R\< DIS9T]E/$ MEANS1 EV]Y?+ ,I DESIR$4 ,= 
9/ANCE1 ,I NEV] COMPLA9$ ?AT MY BIR?DAY WAS OV]LOOK$2 PEOPLE W]E EV5 SURPRIS$1 ) A 
T\* ( ADMIRATION1 BY MY DISCRETION ON ?IS SUBJECT4 ,BUT ! REASON = MY DIS9T]E/$NESS WAS 
EV5 MORE DISCREET3 ,I LONG$ TO BE =GOTT5 9 ORD] TO BE ABLE TO COMPLA9 TO MYSELF4 ,SEV]AL DAYS 
BE=E ! FAM\S DATE 7:I* ,I KNEW V]Y WELL7 ,I WAS ON ! AL]T1 EAG] TO LET NO?+ SLIP ?AT 
MI<T >\SE ! ATT5TION & MEMORY ( ?OSE ON :OSE LAPSE ,I WAS C\NT+ 7DIDN'T ,I ONCE GO SO 
F> AS TO CONTEMPLATE FALSIFY+ A FRI5D'S CAL5D>874 ,ONCE MY SOLITUDE WAS ?OR\<LY PROV$1 ,I 
C\LD SURR5D] TO ! *>MS ( A VIRILE SELF-PITY4 

,?US ! SURFACE ( ALL MY VIRTUES HAD A LESS IMPOS+ REV]SE SIDE4 ,IT IS TRUE ?AT1 9 ANO!R 
S5SE1 MY %ORTCOM+S TURN$ TO MY ADVANTAGE4 ,= EXAMPLE1 ! OBLIGATION ,I FELT TO CONCEAL ! 
VICI\S P>T ( MY LIFE GAVE ME A COLD LOOK ?AT WAS CONFUS$ ) ! LOOK ( VIRTUE2 MY 
9DIFF]5CE MADE ME LOV$2 MY SELFI%NESS W\ND UP 9 MY G5]OSITIES4 ,I /OP !RE1 = TOO GREAT 
A SYMMETRY W\LD UPSET MY >GUM5T4 ,BUT AFT] ALL1 ,I PRES5T$ A H>% EXT]IOR & YET C\LD 
NEV] RESI/ ! (F] ( A GLASS OR ( A WOMAN6 ,I WAS CONSID]$ ACTIVE1 5]GETIC1 & MY K+DOM 
WAS ! B$4 ,I US$ TO ADV]TISE MY LOYALTY & ,I DON'T BELIEVE !RE IS A S+LE P]SON ,I LOV$ ?AT ,I 
DIDN'T EV5TUALLY BETRAY4 ,( C\RSE1 MY BETRAYALS DIDN'T /& 9 ! WAY ( MY FIDELITY2 ,I US$ TO 
KNOCK (F A CONSID]ABLE PILE ( WORK ?R\< SUCCESSIVE P]IODS ( IDL5ESS2 & ,I HAD NEV] CEAS$ 
AID+ MY NEI<BOR1 ?ANKS TO MY 5JOYM5T 9 DO+ SO4 ,BUT H[EV] MU* ,I REPEAT$ SU* FACTS 
TO MYSELF1 !Y GAVE ME BUT SUP]FICIAL CONSOLATIONS4 ,C]TA9 MORN+S1 ,I W\LD GET UP ! CASE 
AGA9/ MYSELF MO/ ?OR\<LY1 COM+ TO ! CONCLUSION ?AT ,I EXCELL$ ABOVE ALL 9 SCORN4 ,! 
V]Y PEOPLE ,I HELP$ MO/ (T5 W]E ! MO/ SCORN$4 ,C\RTE\SLY1 ) A SOLID>ITY *>G$ ) 
EMOTION1 ,I US$ TO SPIT DAILY 9 ! FACE ( ALL ! BL9D4 

,TELL ME FRANKLY1 IS !RE ANY EXCUSE = ?AT8 ,!RE IS ONE1 BUT SO WRET*$ ?AT ,I CANNOT DREAM 
( ADVANC+ IT4 ,9 ANY CASE1 H]E IT IS3 ,I HAVE NEV] BE5 REALLY ABLE TO BELIEVE ?AT HUMAN AFFAIRS 
W]E S]I\S MATT]S4 ,I HAD NO IDEA :]E ! S]I\S MI<T LIE1 EXCEPT ?AT IT WAS NOT 9 ALL ?IS ,I 
SAW >\ND ME--:I* SEEM$ TO ME M]ELY AN AMUS+ GAME1 OR TIRESOME4 ,!RE >E REALLY EF=TS 
& CONVICTIONS ,I HAVE NEV] BE5 ABLE TO UND]/&4 ,I ALWAYS LOOK$ ) AMAZEM5T1 & A 
C]TA9 SUSPICION1 ON ?OSE /RANGE CREATURES :O DI$ = MONEY1 FELL 9TO DESPAIR OV] ! LOSS ( A 
0POSITION10 OR SACRIFIC$ !MSELVES ) A HI< & MI<TY MANN] = ! PROSP]ITY ( !IR 
FAMILY4 ,I C\LD BETT] UND]/& ?AT FRI5D :O HAD MADE UP HIS M9D TO /OP SMOK+ & 
?R\< %E] WILL P[] HAD SUCCE$$4 ,ONE MORN+ HE OP5$ ! PAP]1 READ ?AT ! FIR/ ,H- 
BOMB HAD BE5 EXPLOD$1 LE>N$ AB\T ITS WOND]FUL EFFECTS1 & HA/5$ TO A TOBACCO %OP4 

,TO BE SURE1 ,I OCCASIONALLY PRET5D$ TO TAKE LIFE S]I\SLY4 ,BUT V]Y SOON ! FRIVOLITY ( S]I\S- 
NESS /RUCK ME & ,I M]ELY W5T ON PLAY+ MY ROLE AS WELL AS ,I C\LD4 ,I PLAY$ AT BE+ EFFICI5T1 
9TELLIG5T1 VIRTU\S1 CIVIC-M9D$1 %OCK$1 9DULG5T1 FELL[-SPIRIT$1 $IFY+ 444 ,9 %ORT1 !RE'S NO 
NE$ ( GO+ ON1 Y\ HAVE ALREADY GRASP$ ?AT ,I WAS LIKE MY ,DUT*M5 :O >E H]E )\T 
BE+ H]E3 ,I WAS ABS5T AT ! MOM5T :5 ,I TOOK UP ! MO/ SPACE4 ,I HAVE NEV] BE5 REALLY 
S9C]E & 5?USIA/IC EXCEPT :5 ,I US$ TO 9DULGE 9 SPORTS1 & 9 ! >MY1 :5 ,I US$ TO ACT 
9 PLAYS WE PUT ON = \R [N AMUSEM5T4 ,9 BO? CASES !RE WAS A RULE ( ! GAME1 :I* WAS 
NOT S]I\S BUT :I* WE 5JOY$ TAK+ AS IF IT W]E4 ,EV5 N[1 ! ,SUNDAY MAT*ES 9 AN OV]- 
FL[+ /ADIUM1 & ! !AT]1 :I* ,I LOV$ ) ! GREATE/ PASSION1 >E ! ONLY PLACES 9 ! 
WORLD :]E ,I FEEL 9NOC5T4 

,BUT :O W\LD CONSID] SU* AN ATTITUDE LEGITIMATE 9 ! FACE ( LOVE1 DEA?1 & ! WAGES ( 
! POOR8 ,YET :AT CAN BE DONE AB\T IT8 ,I C\LD IMAG9E ! LOVE ( ,ISOLDE ONLY 9 NOVELS OR ON ! 
/AGE4 ,AT TIMES PEOPLE ON !IR DEA?B$ SEEM$ TO ME CONV9C$ ( !IR ROLES4 ,! L9ES SPOK5 BY 
MY POOR CLI5TS ALWAYS /RUCK ME AS FITT+ ! SAME PATT]N4 ,:5CE1 LIV+ AMONG M5 )\T 
%>+ !IR 9T]E/S1 ,I C\LD NOT MANAGE TO BELIEVE 9 ! COMMITM5TS ,I MADE4 ,I WAS C\RTE\S 
& 9DOL5T 5\< TO LIVE UP TO :AT WAS EXPECT$ ( ME 9 MY PR(ESSION1 MY FAMILY1 OR MY CIVIC 
LIFE1 BUT EA* TIME ) A SORT ( 9DIFF]5CE ?AT SPOIL$ EV]Y?+4 ,I LIV$ MY :OLE LIFE UND] A 
D\BLE CODE1 & MY MO/ S]I\S ACTS W]E (T5 ! ONES 9 :I* ,I WAS ! LEA/ 9VOLV$4 

,WASN'T ?AT AFT] ALL ! REASON ?AT1 ADD$ TO MY BLUND]S1 ,I C\LD NOT =GIVE MYSELF1 ?AT MADE ME 
REVOLT MO/ VIOL5TLY AGA9/ ! JUDGM5T ,I FELT =M+1 9 ME & >\ND ME1 & ?AT =C$ ME 
TO SEEK AN ESCAPE8 

,= SOME TIME1 MY LIFE CONT9U$ \TW>DLY AS IF NO?+ HAD *ANG$ ,I WAS ON RAILS & SPE$- 
+ AHEAD ,AS IF PURPOSELY1 PEOPLE'S PRAISES 9CREAS$4 ,& ?AT'S JU/ :]E ! TR\BLE CAME FROM4 

,Y\ REMEMB] ! REM>K3 0,WOE TO Y\ :5 ALL M5 SPEAK WELL ( Y\60 ,AH1 ! ONE :O SAID 
?AT SPOKE WORDS ( WISDOM6 ,WOE TO ME6 ,CONSEQU5TLY1 ! 5G9E BEGAN TO HAVE :IMS1 
9EXPLICABLE BREAKD[NS4 

,!N IT WAS ?AT ! ?\<T ( DEA? BUR/ 9TO MY DAILY LIFE4 ,I W\LD MEASURE ! YE>S 
SEP>AT+ ME FROM MY 5D ,I W\LD LOOK = EXAMPLES ( M5 ( MY AGE :O W]E ALREADY DEAD4 

,& ,I WAS TORM5T$ BY ! ?\<T ?AT ,I MI<T NOT HAVE TIME TO ACCOMPLI% MY TASK4 ,:AT TASK8 ,I 
HAD NO IDEA4 ,FRANKLY1 WAS :AT ,I WAS DO+ WOR? CONT9U+8 ,BUT ?AT WAS NOT QUITE IT4 ,A RIDICUL\S 
FE> PURSU$ ME1 9 FACT3 ONE C\LD NOT DIE )\T HAV+ CONFESS$ ALL ONE'S LIES4 ,NOT TO ,GOD 
OR TO ONE ( HIS REPRES5TATIVES2 ,I WAS ABOVE ?AT1 AS Y\ WELL IMAG9E4 ,NO1 IT WAS A MATT] ( 
CONFESS+ TO M51 TO A FRI5D1 TO A BELOV$ WOMAN1 = EXAMPLE4 ,O!RWISE1 W]E !RE BUT ONE LIE 
HIDD5 9 A LIFE1 DEA? MADE IT DEF9ITIVE4 ,NO ONE1 EV] AGA91 W\LD KN[ ! TRU? ON ?IS PO9T1 
S9CE ! ONLY ONE TO KN[ IT WAS PRECISELY ! DEAD MAN SLEEP+ ON HIS SECRET4 ,?AT ABSOLUTE 
MURD] ( A TRU? US$ TO MAKE ME DIZZY4 ,TODAY1 LET ME 9T]JECT1 IT W\LD CAUSE ME1 9/EAD1 SUBTLE 
JOYS4 ,! IDEA1 = 9/ANCE1 ?AT ,I AM ! ONLY ONE TO KN[ :AT EV]YONE IS LOOK+ = & ?AT ,I 
HAVE AT HOME AN OBJECT :I* KEPT ! POLICE ( ?REE C\NTRIES ON ! RUN IS A %E] DELI<T4 ,BUT 
LET'S NOT GO 9TO ?AT4 ,AT ! TIME1 ,I HAD NOT YET F\ND ! RECIPE & ,I WAS FRETT+4 

,I PULL$ MYSELF TOGE!R1 ( C\RSE4 ,:AT DID ONE MAN'S LIE MATT] 9 ! HI/ORY ( G5]ATIONS8 

,& :AT PRET5SION TO WANT TO DRAG \T 9TO ! FULL LI<T ( TRU? A PALTRY FRAUD1 LO/ 9 ! SEA ( 
AGES LIKE A GRA9 ( S& 9 ! OCEAN6 ,I ALSO TOLD MYSELF ?AT ! BODY'S DEA?1 TO JUDGE FROM ?OSE ,I 
HAD SE51 WAS 9 ITSELF SUFFICI5T PUNI%M5T ?AT ABSOLV$ ALL4 ,SALVATION WAS WON 7?AT IS1 ! 
RI<T TO DISAPPE> DEF9ITIVELY7 9 ! SWEAT ( ! DEA? AGONY4 ,NONE!LESS ! DISCOM=T GREW2 
DEA? WAS FAI?FUL AT MY B$SIDE2 ,I US$ TO GET UP ) IT EV]Y MORN+1 & COMPLIM5TS BECAME 
MORE & MORE UNBE>ABLE TO ME4 ,IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ! FALSEHOOD 9CREAS$ ) !M SO 
9ORD9ATELY ?AT NEV] AGA9 C\LD ,I PUT MYSELF RI<T4 

,A DAY CAME :5 ,I C\LD BE> IT NO LONG]4 ,MY FIR/ REACTION WAS EXCESSIVE4 ,S9CE ,I WAS A LI>1 ,I 
W\LD REVEAL ?IS & HURL MY DUPLICITY 9 ! FACE ( ALL ?OSE IMBECILES1 EV5 BE=E !Y DISCOV- 
]$ IT4 ,PROVOK$ TO TRU?1 ,I W\LD ACCEPT ! *ALL5GE4 ,9 ORD] TO =E/ALL ! LAU<T]1 ,I DREAM$ 
( HURL+ MYSELF 9TO ! G5]AL D]ISION4 ,9 %ORT1 IT WAS /ILL A QUE/ION ( DODG+ JUDGM5T4 ,I 
WANT$ TO PUT ! LAU<]S ON MY SIDE1 OR AT LEA/ TO PUT MYSELF ON !IR SIDE4 ,I CONTEMPLAT$1 = 9- 
/ANCE1 JO/L+ ! BL9D ON ! /REET2 & FROM ! SECRET1 UNEXPECT$ JOY ?IS GAVE ME ,I RECOGNIZ$ 
H[ MU* A P>T ( MY S\L LOA!D !M2 ,I PLANN$ TO PUNCTURE ! TIRES ( 9VALIDS' VEHICLES1 TO GO 
& %\T 0,L\SY PROLET>IAN0 UND] ! SCAFFOLD+S ON :I* LABOR]S W]E WORK+1 TO SLAP 
9FANTS 9 ! SUBWAY4 ,I DREAM$ ( ALL ?AT & DID NONE ( IT1 OR IF ,I DID SOME?+ ( ! SORT1 
,I HAVE =GOTT5 IT4 ,9 ANY CASE1 ! V]Y WORD 0JU/ICE0 GAVE ME /RANGE FITS ( RAGE4 ,I CONT9U$1 ( 
NECESSITY1 TO USE IT 9 MY SPEE*ES TO ! C\RT4 ,BUT ,I TOOK MY REV5GE BY PUBLICLY 9VEI<+ AGA9/ 
! HUMANIT>IAN SPIRIT2 ,I ANN\NC$ ! PUBLICATION ( A MANIFE/O EXPOS+ ! OPPRESSION ?AT ! 
OPPRESS$ 9FLICT ON DEC5T PEOPLE4 ,ONE DAY :ILE ,I WAS EAT+ LOB/] AT A SIDEWALK RE/AURANT & A 
BEGG> BO!R$ ME1 ,I CALL$ ! PROPRIETOR TO DRIVE HIM AWAY & L\DLY APPROV$ ! WORDS ( ?AT 
ADM9I/RATOR ( JU/ICE3 0,Y\ >E EMB>RASS+ PEOPLE10 HE SAID4 0,JU/ PUT Y\RSELF 9 ! PLACE ( 
!SE LADIES & G5TS1 AFT] ALL60 ,F9ALLY1 ,I US$ TO EXPRESS1 TO :OEV] W\LD LI/51 MY REGRET ?AT IT 
WAS NO LONG] POSSIBLE TO ACT LIKE A C]TA9 ,RUSSIAN L&[N] :OSE *>ACT] ,I ADMIR$4 ,HE W\LD 
HAVE A BEAT+ ADM9I/]$ BO? TO HIS PEASANTS :O B[$ TO HIM & TO ?OSE :O DIDN'T B[ TO 
HIM 9 ORD] TO PUNI% A BOLDNESS HE CONSID]$ EQUALLY IMPUD5T 9 BO? CASES4 

,H[EV]1 ,I RECALL MORE S]I\S EXCESSES4 ,I BEGAN TO WRITE AN 0,ODE TO ! ,POLICE0 & AN 
0,APO!OSIS ( ! ,GUILLOT9E40 ,ABOVE ALL1 ,I US$ TO =CE MYSELF TO VISIT REGUL>LY ! SPECIAL CAFES 
:]E \R PR(ESSIONAL HUMANIT>IAN FREE ?9K]S GA!R$4 ,MY GOOD PA/ RECORD ASSUR$ ME ( A 
WELCOME4 ,!RE1 )\T SEEM+ TO1 ,I W\LD LET FLY A =BIDD5 EXPRESSION3 0,?ANK ,GOD 4440 ,I 
W\LD SAY1 OR MORE SIMPLY3 0,MY ,GOD 4440 ,Y\ KN[ :AT %Y LITTLE *ILDR5 \R CAFE A!I/S >E4 ,A 
MOM5T ( AMAZEM5T W\LD FOLL[ ?AT \TRAGE\S EXPRESSION1 !Y W\LD LOOK AT ONE ANO!R 
DUMBF\ND$1 !N ! TUMULT W\LD BUR/ =?4 ,SOME W\LD FLEE ! CAFE1 O!RS W\LD GABBLE 
9DIGNANTLY )\T LI/5+ TO ANY?+1 & ALL W\LD WRI! 9 CONVULSIONS LIKE ! DEVIL 9 HOLY 
WAT]4 

,Y\ MU/ LOOK ON ?AT AS *ILDI%4 ,YET MAYBE !RE WAS A MORE S]I\S REASON = ?OSE LITTLE 
JOKES4 ,I WANT$ TO UPSET ! GAME & ABOVE ALL TO DE/ROY ?AT FLATT]+ REPUTATION1 ! ?\<T ( 
:I* ?REW ME 9TO A RAGE4 0,A MAN LIKE Y\ 4440 PEOPLE W\LD SAY SWEETLY1 & ,I W\LD BLAN*4 ,I 
DIDN'T WANT !IR E/EEM BECAUSE IT WASN'T G5]AL1 & H[ C\LD IT BE G5]AL1 S9CE ,I C\LDN'T %>E 
IT8 ,H5CE IT WAS BETT] TO COV] EV]Y?+1 JUDGM5T & E/EEM1 ) A CLOAK ( RIDICULE4 ,I HAD TO 
 LIB]ATE AT ALL CO/ ! FEEL+ ?AT WAS /IFL+ ME4 ,9 ORD] TO REVEAL TO ALL EYES :AT HE WAS 
MADE (1 ,I WANT$ TO BREAK OP5 ! H&SOME WAG-FIGURE ,I PRES5T$ EV]Y:]E4 ,= 9/ANCE1 ,I 
RECALL AN 9=MAL LECTURE ,I HAD TO GIVE TO A GR\P ( Y\NG FL$GL+ LAWY]S4 ,IRRITAT$ BY ! 
FANTA/IC PRAISES ( ! PRESID5T ( ! B>1 :O HAD 9TRODUC$ ME1 ,I C\LDN'T RESI/ LONG4 ,I HAD 
BEGUN ) ! 5?USIASM & EMOTION EXPECT$ ( ME1 :I* ,I HAD NO TR\BLE SUMMON+ UP ON 
ORD]4 ,BUT ,I SUDD5LY BEGAN TO ADVISE ALLIANCE AS A SY/EM ( DEF5SE4 ,NOT1 ,I SAID1 ?AT ALLIANCE 
P]FECT$ BY MOD]N 9QUISITIONS :I* JUDGE SIMULTANE\SLY A ?IEF & AN HONE/ MAN 9 ORD] TO 
CRU% ! SECOND UND] ! CRIMES ( ! FIR/4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 ,I MEANT TO DEF5D ! ?IEF BY 
EXPOS+ ! CRIMES ( ! HONE/ MAN1 ! LAWY] 9 ?IS 9/ANCE4 ,I EXPLA9$ MYSELF V]Y CLE>LY ON 
?IS PO9T3 

0,LET US SUPPOSE ?AT ,I HAVE ACCEPT$ ! DEF5SE ( SOME T\*+ CITIZ51 A MURD]] ?R\< 
JEAL\SY4 ,G5TLEM5 ( ! JURY1 CONSID]1 ,I %\LD SAY1 H[ V5IAL IT IS TO GET ANGRY :5 ONE SEES 
ONE'S NATURAL GOODNESS PUT TO ! TE/ BY ! MALIGNITY ( ! FAIR SEX4 ,IS IT NOT MORE S]I\S1 ON ! 
 CONTR>Y1 TO BE BY *ANCE ON ?IS SIDE ( ! B>1 ON MY [N B5*1 )\T EV] HAV+ BE5 
GOOD OR SUFF]$ FROM BE+ DUP$8 ,I AM FREE1 %IELD$ FROM Y\R SEV]ITIES1 YET :O AM ,I8 ,A ,L\IS 
,X,I,V 9 PRIDE1 A BILLY GOAT = LU/1 A ,PH>AOH = WRA?1 A K+ ( LAZ9ESS4 ,I HAV5'T KILL$ ANYONE8 

,NOT YET1 TO BE SURE6 ,BUT HAVE ,I NOT LET DES]V+ CREATURES DIE8 ,MAYBE4 ,& MAYBE ,I AM READY TO DO 
SO AGA94 ,:]EAS ?IS MAN--JU/ LOOK AT HIM--WILL NOT DO SO AGA94 ,HE IS /ILL QUITE AMAZ$ TO HAVE 
ACCOMPLI%$ :AT HE HAS40 ,?IS SPEE* RA!R UPSET MY Y\NG COLLEAGUES4 ,AFT] A MOM5T1 !Y 
MADE UP !IR M9DS TO LAU< AT IT4 ,!Y BECAME COMPLETELY REASSUR$ :5 ,I GOT TO MY CONCLUSION1 
9 :I* ,I 9VOK$ ! HUMAN 9DIVIDUAL & HIS SUPPOS$ RI<TS4 ,?AT DAY1 HABIT WON \T4 

,BY REPEAT+ !SE PLEASANT 9DISCRETIONS1 ,I M]ELY SUCCE$$ 9 DISCONC]T+ OP9ION SOME:AT4 

,NOT 9 DIS>M+ IT1 OR ABOVE ALL 9 DIS>M+ MYSELF4 ,! AMAZEM5T ,I G5]ALLY 5C\NT]$ 9 MY 
LI/5]S1 !IR RA!R RETIC5T EMB>RASSM5T1 SOME:AT LIKE :AT Y\ >E %[+--NO1 DON'T 
PROTE/--DID NOT CALM ME AT ALL4 ,Y\ SEE1 IT IS NOT 5\< TO ACCUSE Y\RSELF 9 ORD] TO CLE> 
Y\RSELF2 O!RWISE1 ,I'D BE AS 9NOC5T AS A LAMB4 ,ONE MU/ ACCUSE ONESELF 9 A C]TA9 WAY1 :I* IT 
TOOK ME CONSID]ABLE TIME TO P]FECT4 ,I DID NOT DISCOV] IT UNTIL ,I FELL 9TO ! MO/ UTT]LY =LORN 
/ATE4 ,UNTIL !N1 ! LAU<T] CONT9U$ TO DRIFT MY WAY1 )\T MY R&OM EF=TS SUCCE$+ 9 
DIVE/+ IT ( ITS B5EVOL5T1 ALMO/ T5D] QUALITY ?AT HURT ME4 

,BUT ! SEA IS RIS+1 IT SEEMS TO ME4 ,IT WON'T BE LONG BE=E \R BOAT LEAVES2 ! DAY IS 5D+4 

,LOOK1 ! DOVES >E GA!R+ UP !RE4 ,!Y >E CR[D+ AGA9/ ONE ANO!R1 H>DLY /IRR+1 & 
! LI<T IS WAN+4 ,DON'T Y\ ?9K WE %\LD BE SIL5T TO 5JOY ?IS RA!R S9I/] MOM5T8 ,NO1 ,I 
9T]E/ Y\8 ,Y\ >E V]Y POLITE4 ,MOREOV]1 ,I N[ RUN ! RISK ( REALLY 9T]E/+ Y\4 ,BE=E EX- 
PLA9+ MYSELF ON ! SUBJECT ( JUDGES-P5IT5T1 ,I MU/ TALK TO Y\ ( DEBAU*]Y & ( ! LITTLE- 
EASE4 

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