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,!Y W]E ALL 9 GOOD HEAL?4  ,IT C\LD NOT BE CALL$ ILL HEAL? IF ,IVAN ,ILY* SOMETIMES SAID ?AT HE HAD A QUE] TA/E 9 HIS M\? & FELT SOME DISCOM=T 9 HIS LEFT SIDE4  

,BUT ?IS DISCOM=T 9CREAS$ &1 ?\< NOT EXACTLY PA9FUL1 GREW 9TO A S5SE ( PRESSURE 9 HIS SIDE ACCOMPANI$ BY ILL HUMOR4  ,& HIS IRRITABILITY BECAME WORSE & WORSE & BEGAN TO M> ! AGREEABLE1 EASY1 & CORRECT LIFE ?AT HAD E/ABLI%$ ITSELF 9 ! ,GOLOV9 FAMILY4  ,QU>RELS BETWE5 HUSB& & WIFE BECAME MORE & MORE FREQU5T1 & SOON ! EASE & AM5ITY DISAPPE>$ & EV5 ! DECORUM WAS B>ELY MA9TA9$4  ,SC5ES AGA9 BECAME FREQU5T1 & V]Y FEW ( ?OSE ISLETS REMA9$ ON :I* HUSB& & WIFE C\LD MEET )\T AN EXPLOSION4  ,PRASKOVYA ,F$OROVNA N[ HAD GOOD REASON TO SAY ?AT H] HUSB&'S TEMP] WAS TRY+4  ,) *>ACT]I/IC EXAGG]ATION %E SAID HE HAD ALWAYS HAD A DREADFUL TEMP]1 & ?AT IT HAD NE$$ ALL H] GOOD NATURE TO PUT UP ) IT = TW5TY YE>S4  ,IT WAS TRUE ?AT N[ ! QU>RELS W]E />T$ BY HIM4  ,HIS BUR/S ( TEMP] ALWAYS CAME JU/ BE=E D9N]1 (T5 JU/ AS HE BEGAN TO EAT HIS S\P4  ,SOMETIMES HE NOTIC$ ?AT A PLATE OR DI% WAS *IPP$1 OR ! FOOD WAS NOT RI<T1 OR HIS SON PUT HIS ELB[ ON ! TABLE1 OR HIS DAU<T]'S HAIR WAS NOT DONE AS HE LIK$ IT1 & = ALL ?IS HE BLAM$ ,PRASKOVYA ,F$OROVNA4  ,AT FIR/ %E RETORT$ & SAID DISAGREEABLE ?+S TO HIM1 BUT ONCE OR TWICE HE FELL 9TO SU* A RAGE AT ! BEG9N+ ( D9N] ?AT %E REALIZ$ IT WAS DUE TO SOME PHYSICAL D]ANGEM5T BR\<T ON BY TAK+ FOOD1 & SO %E RE/RA9$ H]SELF & DID NOT ANSW]1 BUT ONLY HURRI$ TO GET ! D9N] OV]4  ,%E REG>D$ ?IS SELF-RE/RA9T AS HI<LY PRAISEWOR?Y4  ,HAV+ COME TO ! CONCLUSION ?AT H] HUSB& HAD A DREADFUL TEMP] & MADE H] LIFE MIS]ABLE1 %E BEGAN TO FEEL SORRY = H]SELF1 & ! MORE %E PITI$ H]SELF ! MORE %E HAT$ H] HUSB&4  ,%E BEGAN TO WI% HE W\LD DIE2 YET %E DID NOT WANT HIM TO DIE BECAUSE !N HIS SAL>Y W\LD CEASE4  ,& ?IS IRRITAT$ H] AGA9/ HIM /ILL MORE4  ,%E CONSID]$ H]SELF DREADFULLY UNHAPPY JU/ BECAUSE NOT EV5 HIS DEA? C\LD SAVE H]1 & ?\< %E CONCEAL$ H] EXASP]ATION1 ?AT HIDD5 EXASP]ATION ( H]S 9CREAS$ HIS IRRITATION ALSO4  

,AFT] ONE SC5E 9 :I* ,IVAN ,ILY* HAD BE5 P>TICUL>LY UNFAIR & AFT] :I* HE HAD SAID 9 EXPLANATION ?AT HE C]TA9LY WAS IRRITABLE BUT ?AT IT WAS DUE TO HIS NOT BE+ WELL1 %E SAID ?AT HE WAS ILL IT %\LD BE ATT5D$ TO1 & 9SI/$ ON HIS GO+ TO SEE A CELEBRAT$ DOCTOR4  

,HE W5T4  ,EV]Y?+ TOOK PLACE AS HE HAD EXPECT$ & AS IT ALWAYS DOES4  ,!RE WAS ! USUAL WAIT+ & ! IMPORTANT AIR ASSUM$ BY ! DOCTOR1 ) :I* HE WAS SO FAMILI> 7RESEMBL+ ?AT :I* HE HIMSELF ASSUM$ 9 C\RT71 & ! S\ND+ & LI/5+1 & ! QUE/IONS :I* CALL$ = ANSW]S ?AT W]E =EGONE CONCLUSIONS & W]E EVID5TLY UNNECESS>Y1 & ! LOOK ( IMPORTANCE :I* IMPLI$ ?AT 0IF ONLY Y\ PUT Y\RSELF 9 \R H&S WE WILL >RANGE EV]Y?+ -- WE KN[ 9DUBITABLY H[ IT HAS TO BE DONE1 ALWAYS 9 ! SAME WAY = EV]YBODY ALIKE40  ,IT WAS ALL JU/ AS IT WAS 9 ! LAW C\RTS4  ,! DOCTOR PUT ON JU/ ! SAME AIR T[>DS HIM AS HE HIMSELF PUT ON T[>DS AN ACCUS$ P]SON4  

,! DOCTOR SAID ?AT SO-&-SO 9DICAT$ ?AT !RE WAS SO- &-SO 9SIDE ! PATI5T1 BUT IF ! 9VE/IGATION ( SO-&-SO DID NOT CONFIRM ?IS1 !N HE MU/ ASSUME ?AT & ?AT4  ,IF HE ASSUM$ ?AT & ?AT1 !N444& SO ON4  ,TO ,IVAN ,ILY* ONLY ONE QUE/ION WAS IMPORTANT3  WAS HIS CASE S]I\S OR NOT8  ,BUT ! DOCTOR IGNOR$ ?AT 9APPROPRIATE QUE/ION4  ,FROM HIS PO9T ( VIEW IT WAS NOT ! ONE UND] CONSID]ATION1 ! REAL QUE/ION WAS TO DECIDE BETWE5 A FLOAT+ KIDNEY1 *RONIC CAT>RH1 OR APP5DICITIS4  ,IT WAS NOT A QUE/ION ! DOCTOR SOLV$ BRILLIANTLY1 AS IT SEEM$ TO ,IVAN ,ILY*1 9 FAVOR ( ! APP5DIX1 ) ! RES]VATION ?AT %\LD AN EXAM9ATION ( ! UR9E GIVE FRE% 9DICATIONS ! MATT] W\LD BE RECONSID]$4  ,ALL ?IS WAS JU/ :AT ,IVAN ,ILY* HAD HIMSELF BRILLIANTLY ACCOMPLI%$ A ?\S& TIMES 9 DEAL+ ) M5 ON TRIAL4  ,! DOCTOR SUMM$ UP JU/ AS BRILLIANTLY1 LOOK+ OV] HIS SPECTACLES TRIUMPHANTLY & EV5 GAILY AT ! ACCUS$4  ,FROM ! DOCTOR'S SUMM+ UP ,IVAN ,ILY* CONCLUD$ ?AT ?+S W]E BAD1 BUT ?AT = ! DOCTOR1 & P]HAPS = EV]YBODY ELSE1 IT WAS A MATT] ( 9DIFF]5CE1 ?\< = HIM IT WAS BAD4  ,& ?IS CONCLUSION /RUCK HIM PA9FULLY1 >\S+ 9 HIM A GREAT FEEL+ ( PITY = HIMSELF & ( BITT]NESS T[>DS ! DOCTOR'S 9DIFF]5CE TO A MATT] ( SU* IMPORTANCE4  

,HE SAID NO?+ ( ?IS1 BUT ROSE1 PLAC$ ! DOCTOR'S FEE ON ! TABLE1 & REM>K$ ) A SI<3  0,WE SICK PEOPLE PROBABLY (T5 PUT 9APPROPRIATE QUE/IONS4  ,BUT TELL ME1 9 G5]AL1 IS ?IS COMPLA9T DANG]\S1 OR NOT84440  

,! DOCTOR LOOK$ AT HIM /]NLY OV] HIS SPECTACLES ) ONE EYE1 AS IF TO SAY3  0,PRISON]1 IF Y\ WILL NOT KEEP TO ! QUE/IONS PUT TO Y\1 ,I %ALL BE OBLIG$ TO HAVE Y\ REMOV$ FROM ! C\RT40  

0,I HAVE ALREADY TOLD Y\ :AT ,I CONSID] NECESS>Y & PROP]4  ,! ANALYSIS MAY %[ SOME?+ MORE40  ,& ! DOCTOR B[$4  

,IVAN ,ILY* W5T \T SL[LY1 SEAT$ HIMSELF DISCONSOLATELY 9 HIS SL$GE1 & DROVE HOME4  ,ALL ! WAY HOME HE WAS GO+ OV] :AT ! DOCTOR HAD SAID1 TRY+ TO TRANSLATE ?OSE COMPLICAT$1 OBSCURE1 SCI5TIFIC PHRASES 9TO PLA9 LANGUAGE & F9D 9 !M AN ANSW] TO ! QUE/ION3  0,IS MY CONDITION BAD8  ,IS IT V]Y BAD8  ,OR IS !RE AS YET NO?+ MU* WRONG80  ,& IT SEEM$ TO HIM ?AT ! MEAN+ ( :AT ! DOCTOR HAD SAID WAS ?AT IT WAS V]Y BAD4  ,EV]Y?+ 9 ! /REETS SEEM$ DEPRESS+4  ,! CABM51 ! H\SES1 ! PASS]SBY1 & ! %OPS1 W]E DISMAL4  ,HIS A*E1 ?IS DULL GNAW+ A*E ?AT NEV] CEAS$ = A MOM5T1 SEEM$ TO HAVE ACQUIR$ A NEW & MORE S]I\S SIGNIFICANCE FROM ! DOCTOR'S DUBI\S REM>KS4  ,IVAN ,ILY* N[ WAT*$ IT ) A NEW & OPPRESSIVE FEEL+4  

,HE REA*$ HOME & BEGAN TO TELL HIS WIFE AB\T IT4  ,%E LI/5$1 BUT 9 ! MIDDLE ( HIS ACC\NT HIS DAU<T] CAME 9 ) H] HAT ON1 READY TO GO \T ) H] MO!R4  ,%E SAT D[N RELUCTANTLY TO LI/5 TO ?IS T$I\S /ORY1 BUT C\LD NOT /& IT LONG1 & H] MO!R TOO DID NOT HE> HIM TO ! 5D4  

0,WELL1 ,I AM V]Y GLAD10 %E SAID4  0,M9D N[ TO TAKE Y\R M$IC9E REGUL>LY4  ,GIVE ME ! PRESCRIPTION & ,I'LL S5D ,G]ASIM TO ! *EMI/'S40  ,& %E W5T TO GET READY TO GO \T4  

,:ILE %E WAS 9 ! ROOM ,IVAN ,ILY* HAD H>DLY TAK5 TIME TO BREA!1 BUT HE SI<$ DEEPLY :5 %E LEFT IT4  

0,WELL10 HE ?\<T1 0P]HAPS IT ISN'T SO BAD AFT] ALL40  

,HE BEGAN TAK+ HIS M$IC9E & FOLL[+ ! DOCTOR'S DIRECTIONS1 :I* HAD BE5 ALT]$ AFT] ! EXAM9ATION ( ! UR9E4  BUT !N IT HAPP5$ ?AT !RE WAS A CONTRADICTION BETWE5 ! 9DICATIONS DRAWN FROM ! EXAM9ATION ( ! UR9E & ! SYMPTOMS ?AT %[$ !MSELVES4  ,IT TURN$ \T ?AT :AT WAS HAPP5+ DIFF]$ FROM :AT ! DOCTOR HAD TOLD HIM1 & ?AT HE HAD EI!R =GOTT5 OR BLUND]$1 OR HIDD5 SOME?+ FROM HIM4  ,HE C\LD NOT1 H[EV]1 BE BLAM$ = ?AT1 & ,IVAN ,ILY* /ILL OBEY$ HIS ORD]S IMPLICITLY & AT FIR/ D]IV$ SOME COM=T FROM DO+ SO4  

,FROM ! TIME ( HIS VISIT TO ! DOCTOR1 ,IVAN ,ILY*'S *IEF OCCUPATION WAS ! EXACT FULFILLM5T ( ! DOCTOR'S 9/RUCTIONS REG>D+ HYGI5E & ! TAK+ ( M$IC9E1 & ! OBS]VATION ( HIS PA9 & HIS EXCRETIONS4 ,HIS *IEF 9T]E/ CAME TO BE PEOPLE'S AILM5TS & PEOPLE'S HEAL?4  ,:5 SICKNESS1 DEA?S1 OR RECOV]IES W]E M5TION$ 9 HIS PRES5CE1 ESPECIALLY :5 ! ILLNESS RESEMBL$ HIS [N1 HE LI/5$ ) AGITATION :I* HE TRI$ TO HIDE1 ASK$ QUE/IONS1 & APPLI$ :AT HE HE>D TO HIS [N CASE4  

,! PA9 DID NOT GR[ LESS1 BUT ,IVAN ,ILY* MADE EF=TS TO =CE HIMSELF TO ?9K ?AT HE WAS BETT]4  ,& HE C\LD DO ?IS SO LONG AS NO?+ AGITAT$ HIM4  ,BUT AS SOON AS HE HAD ANY UNPLEASANTNESS ) HIS WIFE1 ANY LACK ( SUCCESS 9 HIS (FICIAL WORK1 OR HELD BAD C>DS AT BRIDGE1 HE WAS AT ONCE ACUTELY S5SIBLE ( HIS DISEASE4  ,HE HAD =M]LY BORNE SU* MIS*ANCES1 HOP+ SOON TO ADJU/ :AT WAS WRONG1 TO MA/] IT & ATTA9 SUCCESS1 OR MAKE A GR& SLAM4  ,BUT N[ EV]Y MIS*ANCE UPSET HIM & PLUNG$ HIM 9TO DESPAIR4  ,HE W\LD SAY TO HIMSELF3 0!RE N[1 JU/ AS ,I WAS BEG9N+ TO GET BETT] & ! M$IC9E HAD BEGUN TO TAKE EFFECT1 COMES ?IS ACCURS$ MIS=TUNE1 OR UNPLEASANTNESS4440  ,& HE WAS FURI\S ) ! MI%AP1 OR ) ! PEOPLE :O W]E CAUS+ ! UNPLEASANTNESS & KILL+ HIM1 = HE FELT ?AT ?IS FURY WAS KILL+ HIM BUT HE C\LD NOT RE/RA9 IT4  ,ONE W\LD HAVE ?\<T ?AT IT %\LD HAVE BE5 CLE> TO HIM ?AT ?IS EXASP]ATION ) CIRCUM/ANCES & PEOPLE AGGRAVAT$ HIS ILLNESS1 & ?AT HE \<T !RE=E TO IGNORE UNPLEASANT OCCURR5CES4  ,BUT HE DREW ! V]Y OPPOSITE CONCLUSION3  HE SAID ?AT HE NE$$ PEACE1 & HE WAT*$ = EV]Y?+ ?AT MI<T DI/URB IT & BECAME IRRITABLE AT ! SLI<TE/ 9FR+EM5T ( IT4 ,HIS CONDITION WAS R5D]$ WORSE BY ! FACT ?AT HE READ M$ICAL BOOKS & CONSULT$ DOCTORS4  ,! PROGRESS ( HIS DISEASE WAS SO GRADUAL ?AT HE C\LD DECEIVE HIMSELF :5 COMP>+ ONE DAY ) ANO!R -- ! DIFF]5CE WAS SO SLI<T4  ,BUT :5 HE CONSULT$ ! DOCTORS IT SEEM$ TO HIM ?AT HE WAS GETT+ WORSE1 & EV5 V]Y RAPIDLY4  ,YET DESPITE ?IS HE WAS CONT9UALLY CONSULT+ !M4  

,?AT MON? HE W5T TO SEE ANO!R CELEBRITY1 :O TOLD HIM ALMO/ ! SAME AS ! FIR/ HAD DONE BUT PUT HIS QUE/IONS RA!R DIFF]5TLY1 & ! 9T]VIEW ) ?IS CELEBRITY ONLY 9CREAS$ ,IVAN ,ILY*'S D\BTS & FE>S4  ,A FRI5D ( A FRI5D ( HIS1 A V]Y GOOD DOCTOR1 DIAGNOS$ HIS ILLNESS AGA9 QUITE DIFF]5TLY FROM ! O!RS1 & ?\< HE PR$ICT$ RECOV]Y1 HIS QUE/IONS & SUPPOSITIONS BEWILD]$ ,IVAN ,ILY* /ILL MORE & 9CREAS$ HIS D\BTS4  ,A HOMEOPA?I/ DIAGNOS$ ! DISEASE 9 YET ANO!R WAY1 & PRESCRIB$ M$IC9E :I* ,IVAN ,ILY* TOOK SECRETLY = A WEEK4  ,BUT AFT] A WEEK1 NOT FEEL+ ANY IMPROVEM5T & HAV+ LO/ CONFID5CE BO? 9 ! =M] DOCTOR'S TREATM5T & 9 ?IS ONE'S1 HE BECAME /ILL MORE DESPOND5T4  ,ONE DAY A LADY ACQUA9TANCE M5TION$ A CURE EFFECT$ BY A WOND]-WORK+ ICON4  ,IVAN ,ILY* CAU<T HIMSELF LI/5+ ATT5TIVELY & BEG9N+ TO BELIEVE ?AT IT HAD OCCURR$4  ,?IS 9CID5T AL>M$ HIM4  0,HAS MY M9D REALLY WEAK5$ TO SU* AN EXT5T80 HE ASK$ HIMSELF4  0,NONS5SE6  ,IT'S ALL RUBBI%4  ,I MU/N'T GIVE WAY TO N]V\S FE>S BUT HAV+ *OS5 A DOCTOR MU/ KEEP /RICTLY TO HIS TREATM5T4  ,?AT IS :AT ,I WILL DO4  ,N[ IT'S ALL SETTL$4  ,I WON'T ?9K AB\T IT1 BUT WILL FOLL[ ! TREATM5T S]I\SLY TILL SUMM]1 & !N WE %ALL SEE4  ,FROM N[ !RE MU/ BE NO MORE ( ?IS WAV]+60  ?IS WAS EASY TO SAY BUT IMPOSSIBLE TO C>RY \T4  ,! PA9 9 HIS SIDE OPPRESS$ HIM & SEEM$ TO GR[ WORSE & MORE 9CESSANT1 :ILE ! TA/E 9 HIS M\? GREW /RANG] & /RANG]4  ,IT SEEM$ TO HIM ?AT HIS BREA? HAD A DISGU/+ SMELL1 & HE WAS CONSCI\S ( A LOSS ( APPETITE & /R5G?4  ,!RE WAS NO DECEIV+ HIMSELF3  SOME?+ T]RIBLE1 NEW1 & MORE IMPORTANT ?AN ANY?+ BE=E 9 HIS LIFE1 WAS TAK+ PLACE )9 HIM ( :I* HE ALONE WAS AW>E4  ,?OSE AB\T HIM DID NOT UND]/& OR W\LD NOT UND]/& IT1 BUT ?\<T EV]Y?+ 9 ! WORLD WAS GO+ ON AS USUAL4  ,?AT TORM5T$ ,IVAN ,ILY* MORE ?AN ANY?+4  ,HE SAW ?AT HIS H\SEHOLD1 ESPECIALLY HIS WIFE & DAU<T] :O W]E 9 A P]FECT :IRL ( VISIT+1 DID NOT UND]/& ANY?+ ( IT & W]E ANNOY$ ?AT HE WAS SO DEPRESS$ & SO EXACT+1 AS IF HE W]E TO BLAME = IT4  ,?\< !Y TRI$ TO DISGUISE IT HE SAW ?AT HE WAS AN OB/ACLE 9 !IR PA?1 & ?AT HIS WIFE HAD ADOPT$ A DEF9ITE L9E 9 REG>D TO HIS ILLNESS & KEPT TO IT REG>DLESS ( ANY?+ HE SAID OR DID4 ,H] ATTITUDE WAS ?IS3  0,Y\ KN[10 %E W\LD SAY TO H] FRI5DS1 0,IVAN ,ILY* CAN'T DO AS O!R PEOPLE DO1 & KEEP TO ! TREATM5T PRESCRIB$ = HIM4  ,ONE DAY HE'LL TAKE HIS DROPS & KEEP /RICTLY TO HIS DIET & GO TO B$ 9 GOOD TIME1 BUT ! NEXT DAY UNLESS ,I WAT* HIM HE'LL SUDD5LY =GET HIS M$IC9E1 EAT /URGEON -- :I* IS =BIDD5 -- & SIT UP PLAY+ C>DS TILL ONE O'CLOCK 9 ! MORN+40  

0,OH1 COME1 :5 WAS ?AT80 ,IVAN ,ILY* W\LD ASK 9 VEXATION4  0,ONLY ONCE AT ,PET] ,IVANOVI*'S40  

0,& YE/]DAY ) %EBEK40  

0,WELL1 EV5 IF ,I HADN'T /AY$ UP1 ?IS PA9 W\LD HAVE KEPT ME AWAKE40  

0,BE ?AT AS IT MAY Y\'LL NEV] GET WELL LIKE ?AT1 BUT WILL ALWAYS MAKE US WRET*$40  

,PRASKOVYA ,F$OROVNA'S ATTITUDE TO ,IVAN ,ILY*'S ILLNESS1 AS %E EXPRESS$ IT BO? TO O!RS & TO HIM1 WAS ?AT IT WAS HIS [N FAULT & WAS ANO!R ( ! ANNOYANCES HE CAUS$ H]4  ,IVAN ILY* FELT ?AT ?IS OP9ION ESCAP$ H] 9VOLUNT>ILY -- BUT ?AT DID NOT MAKE IT EASI] = HIM4  

,AT ! LAW C\RTS TOO1 ,IVAN ,ILY* NOTIC$1 OR ?\<T HE NOTIC$1 A /RANGE ATTITUDE T[>DS HIMSELF4  ,IT SOMETIMES SEEM$ TO HIM ?AT PEOPLE W]E WAT*+ HIM 9QUISITIVELY AS A MAN :OSE PLACE MI<T SOON BE VACANT4  ,!N AGA91 HIS FRI5DS W\LD SUDD5LY BEG9 TO *AFF HIM 9 A FRI5DLY WAY AB\T HIS L[ SPIRITS1 AS IF ! AWFUL1 HORRIBLE1 & UNHE>D-( ?+ ?AT WAS GO+ ON )9 HIM1 9CESSANTLY GNAW+ AT HIM & IRRESI/IBLY DRAW+ HIM AWAY1 WAS A V]Y AGREEABLE SUBJECT = JE/S4  ,S*W>TZ 9 P>TICUL> IRRITAT$ HIM BY HIS JOCUL>ITY1 VIVACITY1 & "9SAVOIR-FAIRE"91 :I* REM9D$ HIM ( :AT HE HIMSELF HAD BE5 T5 YE>S AGO4  

,FRI5DS CAME TO MAKE UP A SET & !Y SAT D[N TO C>DS4  ,!Y DEALT1 B5D+ ! NEW C>DS TO S(T5 !M1 & HE SORT$ ! DIAMONDS 9 HIS H& & F\ND HE HAD SEV54  ,HIS P>TN] SAID 0,NO TRUMPS0 & SUPPORT$ HIM ) TWO DIAMONDS4  ,:AT MORE C\LD BE WI%$ =8  ,IT \<T TO BE JOLLY & LIVELY4  ,!Y W\LD MAKE A GR& SLAM4  ,BUT SUDD5LY ,IVAN ,ILY* WAS CONSCI\S ( ?AT GNAW+ PA91 ?AT TA/E 9 HIS M\?1 & IT SEEM$ RIDICUL\S ?AT 9 SU* CIRCUM/ANCES HE %\LD BE PLEAS$ TO MAKE A GR& SLAM4  

,HE LOOK$ AT HIS P>TN] ,MIKHAIL ,MIKHAYLOVI*1 :O RAPP$ ! TABLE ) HIS /RONG H& & 9/EAD ( SNAT*+ UP ! TRICKS PU%$ ! C>DS C\RTE\SLY & 9DULG5TLY T[>DS ,IVAN ,ILY* ?AT HE MI<T HAVE ! PLEASURE ( GA!R+ !M UP )\T ! TR\BLE ( /RET*+ \T HIS H& = !M4  0,DOES HE ?9K ,I AM TOO WEAK TO /RET* \T MY >M80 ?\<T ,IVAN ,ILY*1 & =GETT+ :AT HE WAS DO+ HE OV]-TRUMP$ HIS P>TN]1 MISS+ ! GR& SLAM BY ?REE TRICKS4  ,& :AT WAS MO/ AWFUL ( ALL WAS ?AT HE SAW H[ UPSET ,MIKHAIL ,MIKHAYLOVI* WAS AB\T IT BUT DID NOT HIMSELF C>E4  ,& IT WAS DREADFUL TO REALIZE :Y HE DID NOT C>E4  

,!Y ALL SAW ?AT HE WAS SUFF]+1 & SAID3  0,WE CAN /OP IF Y\ >E TIR$4  ,TAKE A RE/40  ,LIE D[N8  ,NO1 HE WAS NOT AT ALL TIR$1 & HE F9I%$ ! RUBB]4  ,ALL W]E GLOOMY & SIL5T4  ,IVAN ,ILY* FELT ?AT HE HAD DIFFUS$ ?IS GLOOM OV] !M & C\LD NOT DISPEL IT4  ,!Y HAD SUPP] & W5T AWAY1 & ,IVAN ,ILY* WAS LEFT ALONE ) ! CONSCI\SNESS ?AT HIS LIFE WAS POISON$ & WAS POISON+ ! LIVES ( O!RS1 & ?AT ?IS POISON DID NOT WEAK5 BUT P5ETRAT$ MORE & MORE DEEPLY 9TO HIS :OLE BE+4  

,) ?IS CONSCI\SNESS1 & ) PHYSICAL PA9 BESIDES ! T]ROR1 HE MU/ GO TO B$1 (T5 TO LIE AWAKE ! GREAT] P>T ( ! NI<T4  ,NEXT MORN+ HE HAD TO GET UP AGA91 DRESS1 GO TO ! LAW C\RTS1 SPEAK1 & WRITE2 OR IF HE DID NOT GO \T1 SP5D AT HOME ?OSE TW5TY-F\R H\RS A DAY EA* ( :I* WAS A TORTURE4  ,& HE HAD TO LIVE ?US ALL ALONE ON ! BR9K ( AN ABYSS1 ) NO ONE :O UND]/OOD OR PITI$ HIM4  

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