,BOOK #b1 ,*APT] #af 

#ahiiahii 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TEXT 3 

,NEKHLUD(F'S FIR/ FEEL+ ON RIS+ ! FOLL[+ MORN+ 
WAS ?AT HE HAD COMMITT$ SOME?+ ABOM9ABLE ! 
PREC$+ EV5+4 

,HE BEGAN TO RECALL :AT HAD HAPP5$4 ,!RE WAS 
NO?+ ABOM9ABLE2 HE HAD DONE NO?+ WRONG4 ,HE 
HAD ONLY ?\<T ?AT ALL HIS PRES5T 9T5TIONS--?AT ( 
M>RY+ ,KATI\%A1 GIV+ ! L& TO ! PEASANTS-->TIFICIAL1 
UNNATURAL1 & ?AT HE MU/ CONT9U$ TO LIVE 
AS HE HAD LIV$ BE=E4 

,HE C\LD RECALL NO WRONG ACT1 BUT HE REMEMB]$ :AT 
WAS WORSE ?AN A WRONG ACT--!RE W]E ! BAD ?\<TS 
9 :I* ALL BAD ACTS HAVE !IR ORIG94 ,BAD ACTS MAY 
NOT BE REPEAT$2 ONE MAY REP5T ( !M1 :ILE BAD 
?\<TS GIVE BIR? TO BAD ACTS4 

,A BAD ACT ONLY SMOO?S ! WAY TO O!R BAD ACTS1 :ILE 
BAD ?\<TS IRRESI/IBLY LEAD T[>D !M4 

,RECALL+ HIS ?\<TS ( ! DAY BE=E1 ,NEKHLUD(F 
WOND]$ H[ HE C\LD HAVE BELIEV$ !M4 ,H[ SO 
NOVEL & DIFFICULT MI<T BE ?AT :I* HE 9T5D$ TO 
DO1 HE KNEW ?AT IT WAS ! ONLY LIFE POSSIBLE TO HIM N[1 
& ?AT1 H[EV] EASY IT MI<T BE = HIM TO RETURN TO 
HIS OLD MODE ( LIFE1 HE KNEW ?AT ?AT WAS DEA?1 NOT 
LIFE4 ,?IS TEMPTATION ( ! DAY BE=E WAS SIMIL> TO 
?AT ( A MAN :O1 AFT] A NI<T'S S\ND SLEEP1 FEELS LIKE 
TAK+ HIS EASE ON ! S(T MATTRESS = A :ILE1 AL?\< 
HE KN[S ?AT IT IS TIME TO BE UP & AWAY ON AN IMPORTANT 
AFFAIR4 

,NEKHLUD(F W\LD HAVE LEFT ! SAME EV5+ BUT = 
HIS PROMISE TO ,M>IETTE TO VISIT H] AT ! !AT]4 ,?\< 
HE KNEW ?AT IT WAS WRONG TO DO IT1 HE W5T !RE1 CONTR>Y 
TO ! DICTATES ( HIS [N CONSCI5CE1 CONSID]+ 
HIMSELF B\ND TO KEEP HIS WORD4 ,BESIDES HIS WI% TO 
SEE ,M>IETTE AGA91 HE ALSO WI%$1 AS HE ?\<T1 TO 
MEASURE HIMSELF AGA9/ ?AT WORLD LATELY SO NE>1 BUT 
N[ SO /RANGE TO HIM4 

0,C\LD ,I )/& !SE TEMPTATIONS80 HE ?\<T1 
BUT NOT ) 5TIRE S9C]ITY4 0,I WILL TRY IT = ! LA/ 
TIME40 

,ATTIR$ 9 A DRESS-COAT1 HE >RIV$ 9 ! !AT] :]E 
! ET]NAL 0,DAME AUX ,CAMELIAS0 WAS BE+ PLAY$4 ,A 
,FR5* ACTRESS WAS %[+ 9 A NOVEL WAY H[ CONSUMPTIVE 
WOM5 DIE4 

,NEKHLUD(F WAS %[N TO ! BOX OCCUPI$ BY ,M>IETTE4 
,9 ! CORRIDOR A LIV]I$ S]VANT B[$ & OP5$ ! 
DOOR = HIM4 

,ALL ! SPECTATORS 9 ! CIRCLE ( BOXES--SITT+ & 
/&+1 GRAY-HAIR$1 BALD & POMAD$ HEADS--W]E 
9T5TLY FOLL[+ ! MOVEM5TS ( A SLIM ACTRESS MAK+ 
WRY FACES & 9 AN UNNATURAL VOICE READ+ A MONOLOGUE4 
,SOME ONE HISS$ :5 ! DOOR WAS OP5$1 & 
TWO /REAMS ( COLD & W>M AIR W]E WAFT$ ON ,NEKHLUD(F'S 
FACE4 

,9 ! BOX HE F\ND ,M>IETTE & A /RANGE LADY ) 
A R$ MANTLE OV] H] %\LD]S & HI< HEAD-DRESS1 & 
TWO M5--A G5]AL1 ,M>IETTE'S HUSB&1 A H&SOME1 
TALL MAN ) A HI<1 >TIFICIAL1 MILIT>Y BREA/1 & A 
FLAX5 HAIR$1 BALD-HEAD$ MAN ) %AV$ *9 & 
SOLEMN SIDE-:ISK]S4 ,M>IETTE1 GRACEFUL1 SLIM1 ELEGANT1 
DECOLETTE1 ) H] /RONG1 MUSCUL> %\LD]S SLOP+ 
D[N FROM ! NECK1 AT ! JO9TURE ( :I* WAS A D>K5+ 
LITTLE MOLE1 IMM$IATELY TURN$ >\ND1 &1 PO9T+ 
) H] FAN TO A *AIR BEH9D H]1 GREET$ HIM ) 
A WELCOME1 GRATEFUL1 &1 AS IT SEEM$ TO ,NEKHLUD(F1 
SIGNIFICANT SMILE4 ,H] HUSB& CALMLY1 AS WAS HIS WONT1 
LOOK$ AT ,NEKHLUD(F & B[$ HIS HEAD4 ,9 ! GLANCE 
:I* HE EX*ANG$ ) HIS WIFE1 AS 9 EV]Y?+ ELSE1 
HE LOOK$ ! MA/]1 ! [N]1 ( A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN4 

,!RE WAS A ?UND] ( APPLAUSE :5 ! MONOLOGUE 
5D$4 ,M>IETTE ROSE1 &1 HOLD+ 9 ONE H& H] 
RU/L+ SILK SKIRT1 WALK$ TO ! RE> ( ! BOX & 9TRODUC$ 
,NEKHLUD(F TO H] HUSB&4 ,! G5]AL 9CESSANTLY 
SMIL$ ) HIS EYES1 SAID HE WAS GLAD1 & REMA9$ 
CALM & MUTE4 

0,I HAD TO LEAVE TO-DAY1 BUT ,I PROMIS$ Y\10 SAID ,NEKHLUD(F1 
TURN+ TO ,M>IETTE4 

0,IF Y\ DON'T WI% TO SEE ME1 Y\ WILL SEE A REM>KABLE 
ACTRESS10 ,M>IETTE SAID1 ANSW]+ ! MEAN+ ( HIS 
WORDS4 0,WASN'T %E GREAT 9 ! LA/ SC5E80 %E TURN$ 
TO H] HUSB&4 

,! G5]AL B[$ HIS HEAD4 

0,?AT DOES NOT AFFECT ME10 SAID ,NEKHLUD(F4 0,I HAVE 
SE5 SO MU* REAL MIS=TUNE TO-DAY ?AT----0 

0,SIT D[N & TELL US :AT Y\ HAVE SE540 

,! HUSB& LI/5$1 & IRONICALLY SMIL$ ) HIS 
EYES4 

0,I W5T TO SEE ?AT WOMAN :O HAS BE5 RELEAS$4 ,%E 
IS 5TIRELY BROK5 D[N40 

0,?AT IS ! WOMAN ( :OM ,I HAVE SPOK5 TO Y\10 
,M>IETTE SAID TO H] HUSB&4 

0,YES2 ,I WAS V]Y GLAD ?AT %E C\LD BE RELEAS$10 HE 
CALMLY SAID1 NODD+ HIS HEAD & SMIL+ IRONICALLY1 AS 
IT SEEM$ TO ,NEKHLUD(F1 UND] HIS MU/A*E4 0,I WILL GO 
TO ! SMOK+-ROOM40 

,NEKHLUD(F WAIT$1 EXPECT+ ?AT ,M>IETTE W\LD TELL 
HIM ?AT SOME?+ :I* %E SAID %E HAD TO TELL HIM1 
BUT 9/EAD %E ONLY JE/$ & TALK$ ( ! P]=MANCE1 
:I*1 %E ?\<T1 \<T TO AFFECT HIM P>TICUL>LY4 

,NEKHLUD(F UND]/OOD ?AT ! ONLY PURPOSE = :I* 
%E HAD BR\<T HIM TO ! !AT] WAS TO DISPLAY H] 
EV5+ TOILET ) H] %\LD]S & MOLE1 & HE WAS 
BO? PLEAS$ & DISGU/$4 ,N[ HE SAW :AT WAS UND] 
! VEIL ( ! *>M ?AT AT FIR/ ATTRACT$ HIM4 ,LOOK+ 
ON ,M>IETTE1 HE ADMIR$ H]1 BUT HE KNEW ?AT %E WAS 
A PREV>ICATOR :O WAS LIV+ ) H] C>E]-MAK+ 
HUSB&2 ?AT :AT %E HAD SAID ! O!R DAY WAS UNTRUE1 
& ?AT %E ONLY WI%$--& NEI!R KNEW :Y--TO 
MAKE HIM LOVE H]4 ,&1 AS HAS BE5 SAID1 HE WAS 
BO? PLEAS$ & DISGU/$4 ,SEV]AL TIMES HE ATTEMPT$ 
TO LEAVE1 TOOK HIS HAT BUT /ILL REMA9$4 ,BUT F9ALLY1 
:5 ! G5]AL1 HIS ?ICK MU/A*E REEK+ ) TOBACCO1 
RETURN$ TO ! BOX & GLANC$ AT ,NEKHLUD(F 
PATRONIZ+LY DISDA9FUL1 AS IF HE DID NOT RECOGNIZE HIM1 
,NEKHLUD(F WALK$ \T BE=E ! DOOR CLOS$ BEH9D ! 
G5]AL1 &1 F9D+ HIS OV]COAT1 LEFT ! !AT]4 

,ON HIS WAY HOME HE SUDD5LY NOTIC$ BE=E HIM A 
TALL1 WELL-BUILT1 L\DLY-DRESS$ WOMAN4 ,EV]Y PASS]BY 
TURN$ TO LOOK AT H]4 ,NEKHLUD(F WALK$ QUICK] ?AN 
! WOMAN1 & ALSO 9VOLUNT>ILY LOOK$ H] 9 ! FACE4 
,H] FACE1 PROBABLY R\G$1 WAS PRETTY2 H] EYES FLA%$ 
AT HIM1 & %E SMIL$4 ,NEKHLUD(F 9VOLUNT>ILY ?\<T 
( ,M>IETTE1 = HE EXP]I5C$ ! SAME FEEL+ ( ATTRACTION 
& DISGU/ :I* TOOK HOLD ( HIM 9 ! 
!AT]4 ,PASS+ H] HA/ILY1 ,NEKHLUD(F TURN$ ! CORN] 
( ! /REET1 &1 TO ! SURPRISE ( ! POLICEMAN1 
BEGAN TO WALK UP & D[N ! WAT]-FRONT4 

0,?AT ONE 9 ! !AT] ALSO SMIL$ ?AT WAY :5 ,I 
5T]$10 HE ?\<T1 0& ! SMILE ( ! =M] CONVEY$ 
! SAME MEAN+ AS ?AT ( ! LATT]4 ,! ONLY 
DIFF]5CE BETWE5 !M IS ?AT ?IS ONE SPEAKS OP5LY 
& PLA9LY1 :ILE ! O!R PRET5DS TO BE EX]CIS+ 
HI<] & REF9$ FEEL+S4 ,BUT 9 REALITY !Y >E ALIKE4 
,?IS ONE IS AT LEA/ TRU?FUL1 :ILE ! O!R IS LY+40 
,NEKHLUD(F RECALL$ HIS RELATIONS ) ! WIFE ( ! 
DI/RICT COMM&]1 & A FLOOD ( %AMEFUL RECOLLECTIONS 
CAME UPON HIM4 0,!RE IS A DISGU/+ BE/IALITY 9 
MAN10 HE ?\<T2 0BUT :5 IT IS 9 A PRIMITIVE /ATE1 
ONE LOOKS D[N UPON & DESPISES IT1 :E!R HE IS 
C>RI$ AWAY ) OR )/&S IT4 ,BUT :5 ?IS SAME 
BE/IALITY HIDES ITSELF UND] A SO-CALL$ ES!TIC1 POETIC 
COV]1 & DEM&S TO BE WOR%IP$1 !N1 DEIFY+ ! 
BEA/1 ONE GIVES HIMSELF UP TO IT1 )\T DI/+UI%+ 
BETWE5 ! GOOD & ! BAD4 ,!N IT IS HORRIBLE40 

,AS !RE WAS NO SOO?+1 RE/-GIV+ D>KNESS ?AT 
NI<T1 BUT 9/EAD !RE WAS A HAZY1 *E]LESS1 UNNATURAL 
LI<T1 SO EV5 WAS !RE NO RE/-GIV+ D>KNESS--IGNORANCE--= 
,NEKHLUD(F'S S\L4 ,EV]Y?+ WAS CLE>4 
,IT WAS PLA9 ?AT ALL ?AT IS CONSID]$ IMPORTANT & 
USEFUL IS REALLY 9SIGNIFICANT & WICK$1 & ?AT ALL ?AT 
SPL5DOR & LUXURY W]E HID+ OLD CRIMES1 FAMILI> TO 
EV]Y ONE1 & NOT ONLY /ALK+ UNPUNI%$1 BUT TRIUMPH+ 
& ADORN$ ) ALL ! ALLUREM5TS MAN IS CAPABLE 
( CONCEIV+4 

,NEKHLUD(F WI%$ TO =GET IT1 NOT TO SEE IT1 BUT HE 
C\LD NO LONG] HELP SEE+ IT4 ,AL?\< HE DID NOT SEE 
! S\RCE ( ! LI<T :I* REVEAL$ !SE ?+S TO HIM1 
AS HE DID NOT SEE ! S\RCE ( ! LI<T :I* SPREAD 
OV] ,/4 ,PET]SBURG1 & ?\< ?IS LI<T SEEM$ TO HIM 
HAZY1 *E]LESS & UNNATURAL1 HE C\LD NOT HELP SEE+ 
?AT :I* ! LI<T REVEAL$ TO HIM1 & HE FELT AT ! 
SAME TIME BO? JOY & AL>M4 

7,S\RCE3 ,! ,AWAK5+ BY GRAF ,LEO ,TOL/OY1 ,TRANSLAT$ BY ,SMI?1 ,WILLIAM ,E41 ,A,K,A3 ,! ,RESURRECTION4 ,TEXT FROM ,GUT5B]G4ORG47 

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