,*APT] #i ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,WILLIAM ,GODW9 ,TEXT 3 ,*,A,P,T,] ,I,X4 ,MY AFFAIRS BE+ ?US F> ADJU/$1 ,I TOOK LEAVE ( MY LATE HABITATION1 & SET (F ) MY WIFE & *ILDR5 ! SAME AFT]NOON4 ,9 ! EV5+ WE >RIV$ AT ,BASLE1 :]E WE W]E P]MITT$ TO REMA9 ?AT NIGU]ITE & MYSELF HAD ALREADY =M$ \R PLAN4 ,WE BEGAN ) DISMISS+ BO? \R S]VANTS4 ,AN ATT5DANT WAS NO LONG] NECESS>Y TO ME1 NOR A NURSE = ! 9FANT4 ,! SUGGE/ION ( ?IS MEASURE ORIG9AT$ 9 MYSELF4 ,MY TEMP] AT ?IS TIME1 AS ,I HAVE ALREADY SAID1 UND]W5T A /RIK+ *ANGE4 ,I WAS RESOLV$ TO BE HAPPY2 ,I WAS RESOLV$ TO BE ACTIVE4 ,IT WAS H>D TO P>T ) P]SONS SO LONG FAMILI> TO US1 & :O APPE>$ RA!R 9 ! *>ACT] ( HUMBLE FRI5DS ?AN DOME/ICS2 BUT AN IMP]I\S NECESSITY DEM&$ IT4 0,LET US10 SAID ,I TO ,M>GU]ITE1 09CREASE & SECURE \R HAPP9ESS BY DIM9I%+ \R WANTS4 ,I WILL BE Y\R HUSB&MAN & Y\R LABOR]2 Y\ MAY DEP5D UPON MY P]SEV]ANCE4 ,MY $UCATION HAS FITT$ ME TO 5DURE H>D%IP & FATIGUE1 ?\< ! H>D%IPS !N ?\E FAT$ TO BE PEASANTS1 & WILL !RE=E BE EM95TLY B5EFIT$ BY ! EXAMPLE ( PATI5CE & 9DEP5D5CE WE %ALL SET BE=E !M40 ,! NEXT OBJECT ( \R PLAN RELAT$ TO ! *OICE ( \R FUTURE PLACE ( RESID5CE4 ,?IS ORIG9AT$ ) ,M>GU]ITE4 ,%E HAD HE>D MU* ( ! BEAUTY & RI*NESS ( ! C\NTRY BORD]+ ON ! LAKE ( ,CON/ANCE1 & %E ?\GU]ITE'S VIRTUE & =CE ( M9D /ILL RETA9$ OV] M9E4 ,! VIRTUE ,I HAD SO REC5TLY ADOPT$ WAS A /R5U\S EF=T4 ,I RA!R RESOLV$ TO BE HAPPY1 ?AN C\LD /RICTLY BE SAID TO BE HAPPY4 ,I LOV$ MY *ILDR5 9DE$ ) AN UNFEIGN$ AFFECTION4 ,IT WAS ) S9C]ITY ?AT ,I PR(ESS$ TO PREF] !M TO ALL E>?LY POSSESSIONS4 ,BUT VANITY & O/5TATION W]E HABITS WR\T ( ITS ESS5CE4 ,I C\LD NOT1 BUT BY ! =CE ( CON/ANT RECOLLECTION1 KEEP !M \T ( MY WI%ES & HOPES = ! FUTURE4 ,I C\LD NOT1 LIKE ,M>GU]ITE1 SUFF] MY ?\Y ?AT ,I %\LD RESOLUTELY HOLD MYSELF D[N1 & FROM :I* MY ?\$ EV] UPON ! AL]T TO ESCAPE4 ,BITT] EXP]I5CE HAD AT L5G? TAUD LESSON2 & ?AT LESSON ,I WAS DET]M9$ TO PRACTICE1 :ATEV] PANGS MY RESIGNATION MIILY ATT5DANT UPON IT 7\R FAMILY1 EV5 AFT] ITS R$UCTION1 CONSI/+ ( NO LESS ?AN SIX P]SONS71 DRA9$ \R PURSE ( A GREAT P>T ( ! MONEY :I* HAD BE5 SUPPLI$ TO US BY ! B5EVOL5T S5ATOR4 ,BUT HE HAD AGRE$ TO UND]TAKE ! DISPOS+ ( ! PROP]TY WE W]E OBLIG$ TO LEAVE BEH9D US1 & 9 ! MEAN TIME1 IF ANY CONSID]ABLE 9T]VAL OCCURR$ BE=E ?AT WAS ACCOMPLI%$1 TO FURNI% US ) ! SUMS ?AT %\LD BE NECESS>Y = \R SUBSI/5CE4 ,WE PLAC$ ! UTMO/ RELIANCE UPON HIS FIDELITY1 & DISMISS$ FROM \R M9DS ALL ANXIETY RESPECT+ ! 9T]VAL :I* \R BANI%M5T HAD 9T]POS$ BETWE5 US & ! RES\RCES NECESS>Y = \R FUTURE SETTLEM5T4 ,UPON \R >RIVAL AT ,CON/ANCE1 WE F\ND A LETT] FROM \R FRI5D2 & ?\< HE TRANSMITT$ TO US NO FRE% SUPPLY1 ! COMPLEXION ( HIS COMMUNICATION WAS UPON ! :OLE SO 5C\RAG+1 AS TO DET]M9E US1 ) NO O!R DELAY ?AN ?AT ( F\R DAYS' RE/ FROM \R J\RNEY1 TO PASS TO ! O!R SIDE ( ! LAKE1 & EXPLORE = \RSELVES A SITUATION SUITABLE TO \R DESIGN4 ,! WE/]N BANK ( ! LAKE1 ) ! EXCEPTION ONLY ( ! CITY ( ,CON/ANCE1 WAS P>T ( ! PAYS CONQUIS ( ! ,UNIT$ ,CANTONS2 ! EA/]N BANK WAS A T]RITORY DEP5D5T ON ! GOV]NM5T ( ?AT CITY4 ,IT WAS 9 ?IS T]RITORY ?AT WE PURPOS$ FIX+ \R RESID5CE2 & WE TRU/$1 ?AT \R AFFAIRS W\LD %ORTLY BE PUT 9 A TRA9 TO 5ABLE US TO TAKE POSSESSION ( ! SPOT WE %\LD SELECT4 ,?US DRIV5 ONCE MORE 9TO FLIITY MI$1 OR T5D] RECOLLECTIONS HAVE MADE 9T]E/+1 WE DID NOT S9K UND] ! WEI$ LIKE ! VALES ( ,/4 ,LEON4 ,I WAS NOT N[ GOAD$ & TORM5T$ BY CONSCI\S GUILT 9 ! DEGREE ,I HAD !N BE52 ,M>GU]ITE WAS NOT AFFLICT$ BY ! SPECTACLE ( MY MIS]Y4 ,\R PRES5T *ANGE1 ?\< IT MIISON ) ! =M]4 ,! COMPOSURE ,I HAD GA9$ WAS NEW TO ME1 & HAD TO MY [N M9D ALL ! GLOSS ( NOVELTY4 ,TO MY COMPANIONS IT PROV$ CONTAGI\S2 !Y W]E A/ONI%$ AT MY S]5ITY1 & DREW FROM IT AN UNWONT$ LIT4 ,?US CIRCUM/ANC$1 \R T\R HAD ITS *>MS = US ALL2 & !RE >E FEW PASSAGES ( MY LIFE ?AT ,I HAVE FELT MORE AGREEABLY4 ,! LAKE ITSELF IS UNCOMMONLY BEAUTIFUL1 & ITS 5VIRONS >E F]TILE & 9T]E/+4 ,IT IS SURR\ND$ ) AN ABUNDANCE ( T[NS1 VILLAGES1 C\NTRY SEATS1 & MONA/]IES1 SUFFICI5T TO ADORN & DIV]SIFY ! VIEW1 BUT NOT TO EXCLUDE ! SWEETNESS ( A RURAL SC5]Y1 OR ! GR& FEATURES ( NATURE4 ,WE COA/$ A CONSID]ABLE P>T ( ! LAKE1 ?AT WE MIT ( ! %ORE PROMIS$ BE/ TO YIELD US ! OBJECT WE S\I$2 & ! V9E-COV]$ HILLS EXHIBIT$ A W>M? & LUXURIANCE ( COLOR+1 ?AT NO O!R OBJECT ( NATURE OR >T IS ABLE TO COPE )4 ,SURR\ND$ ) !SE OBJECTS1 ,I SAT 9 MY BOAT 9 ! MID/ ( MY *ILDR52 &1 AS ,I WAS BUT JU/ AWAK5$ TO AN OBS]VATION ( !IR WOR? & MY [N HAPP9ESS1 ,I VIEW$ !M ) A TRANSPORT ?AT W\LD BE ILL ILLU/RAT$ BY BE+ COMP>$ ) ! TRANSPORT ( A MIS] OV] HIS NEW-RECOV]$ TREASURE FROM ! B[ELS ( ! DEEP4 ,O POV]TY6 EXCLAIM$ ,I1 ) ELEVAT$ & UNCONQU]ABLE EMOTION1 IF !SE >E ! DELIT4 ,I WILL 5JOY ! BEAUTY ( SC5ES CULTIVAT$ BY O!R H&S ?AN M9E1 OR ?AT >E SPREAD \T BE=E ME BY ! ,AU?OR ( ! UNIV]SE4 ,I WILL SIT 9 ! MID/ ( MY *ILDR51 & REVEL 9 ! LUXURY ( DOME/IC AFFECTIONS2 PLEASURES !SE1 ?AT MAY BE 5CUMB]$1 BUT CANNOT BE HEIN TO BE CONT5T$2 ,I WAS NOT =M$ TO BE SATISFI$ 9 OBSCURITY & A L[ E/ATE4 ,?US HAPPY1 & ?US AMUS$1 WE SP5T TWO DAYS 9 COA/+ ! LAKE1 L&+ FREQU5TLY = ! PURPOSES EI!R ( V>IETY OR 9QUIRY1 & REGUL>LY PASS+ ! NIANCE & PLEAS+ SITUATION ( A COTTAGE1 :I* WE DISCOV]$ 9 \R RAMBLES1 AB\T A MILE & A HALF FROM ! LAKE4 ,WE F\ND ?AT IT WAS TO BE SOLD1 & IT SEEM$ PRECISELY TO CORRESPOND ) ! WI%ES WE HAD =M$4 ,IT WAS AT A CONSID]ABLE DI/ANCE FROM ANY POPUL\S NEIE/ T[N BE+ ?AT ( ,M]SPURG1 ! USUAL RESID5CE ( ! BI%OPS ( ,CON/ANCE1 :I* WAS DI/ANT FROM ?IS SPOT NOT LESS ?AN ?REE LEAGUES4 ,! COTTAGE WAS SITUAT$ 9 A VALLEY2 ! HILLS BE+ = ! MO/ P>T CR[N$ ) RI* & V]DANT FOLIAGE1 !IR SIDES COV]$ ) V9EY>DS & CORN1 & A CLE> TRANSP>5T RIVULET MURMUR+ ALONG FROM EA/ TO WE/4 ,9 ! DI/ANCE A FEW SIMIL> COTTAGES DISCOV]$ !MSELVES1 & 9 FRONT !RE WAS AN OP5+ BETWE5 ! HILLS1 JU/ WIDE 5\< TO %[ US A FEW SAILS AS !Y FLOAT$ ALONG ! N[ EV5 SURFACE ( ! LAKE4 ,WE APPROA*$ ! COTTAGE1 & F\ND 9 IT ONLY ONE P]SON1 AN 9T]E/+ GIRL ( N9ETE51 :O HAD RESID$ !RE FROM H] BIR?1 & HAD BE5 EMPLOY$ = ! LA/ F\R YE>S 9 ATT5DANCE UPON ! CLOS+ SC5E ( H] MO!R4 ,H] MO!R HAD BE5 DEAD ONLY A FEW WEEKS1 & %E WAS UPON ! PO9T ( REMOV+1 AS %E TOLD US1 TO ! H\SE ( A BRO!R1 ! BE/ CREATURE 9 ! WORLD1 :O WAS ALREADY M>RI$1 & HAD A FAMILY ( *ILDR54 ,:ILE WE W]E TALK+ ) H]1 WE P]CEIV$ A F9E BOY ( AB\T ELEV5 YE>S ( AGE SKIPP+ ALONG ! MEAD[4 ,HE PROV$ TO BE H] NEPHEW1 & HA/5$ TO SAY ?AT HIS FA!R & ,MR4 ,H5RY W]E JU/ BEH9D1 & W\LD BE ) H] 9 A FEW M9UTES4 ,WE WAIT$ !IR >RIVAL2 & IT WAS EASY TO SEE ?AT ,MR4 ,H5RY WAS BY NO MEANS AN 9DIFF]5T OBJECT 9 ! EYES ( ! BEAUTIFUL ORPHAN3 %E HAD PROBABLY CONDITION$ ?AT HE %\LD P]MIT H] TO REMA9 S+LE AS LONG AS %E C\LD BE ( ANY USE TO H] MO!R4 ,! LOV]S W]E WELL SATISFI$ ?AT ! GIRL'S BRO!R %\LD BE TAK5 ASIDE1 ?AT ,I MIT ( ! PROP]TY ( ! DECEAS$1 & ! T]MS ( \R 9T5D$ PUR*ASE W]E EASILY ADJU/$4 ,?\< WE HAD N[ ACCOMPLI%$ ! IMM$IATE PURPOSE ( \R EXP$ITION1 YET1 AS WE HAD F\ND UNUSUAL EXHIL>ATION & SWEETNESS 9 ! OBJECTS IT PRES5T$ TO US1 WE CAME TO A RESOLUTION ( CONT9U+ IT /ILL FUR!R1 & COMPLET+ ! CIRCUIT ( ! LAKE4 ,WE W]E AW>E ?AT IT W\LD BE VA9 AS YET TO EXPECT TO RECEIVE ! MONEY REQUISITE = COMPLET+ \R PUR*ASE2 & AS NO PLEASURE1 M]ELY 9 ! WAY ( RELAXATION1 C\LD BE MORE DELITIFICIAL1 UNB\\ND US W]E REFRE%+ & 9VIGORAT+2 !Y W]E CALCULAT$1 TEMPOR>ILY AT LEA/1 TO 9SPIRE GAIETY & Y\? 9TO DECREPITUDE ITSELF4 ,AMID !SE SC5ES WE =GOT \R SORR[S2 !Y W]E A K9D ( /REAM1 9 :I* WE>9ESS & DEJECTION PLUNG$ !IR LIMBS1 & CAME =? UNTIR$ & AL]T4 ,!Y AWAK5$ 9 ! M9D ALL ITS MO/ PLEAS+ ASSOCIATIONS4 ,HAV+ ALREADY1 AS WE BELIEV$1 *OS5 ! PLACE ( \R FUTURE RESID5CE1 WE BUSI$ \RSELVES 9 IMAG9+ ALL ! ACCOMPANIM5TS ?AT W\LD GR[ \T ( IT4 ,WE DET]M9$ ?AT POV]TY ) HEAL? W\LD NOT FAIL TO BE ATT5D$ ) ITS PORTION ( PLEASURES4 ,! SC5ES ( NATURE W]E ALL \R [N2 NOR C\LD WEAL? GIVE !M A MORE P]FECT1 OR A FIRM]1 APPROPRIATION4 ,! AFFECTIONS & *>ITIES ( HABITUDE & CONSANGU9ITY WE TRU/$ WE %\LD FEEL UN9T]RUPT$2 UN9CUMB]$ ) ! C]EMONIES & TRAPP+S ( LIFE1 & 9 ?AT RURAL PLA9NESS :I* IS !IR G5IAL SOIL4 ,AFT] A LEISURELY & DELIIETY ( CIRCUM/ANCES ?AT MITM5TS 9 AN OBSCURE ALLEY ( ! CITY ( ,CON/ANCE4 ,WE W]E 9 ! ACT ( M$ITAT+ :AT /EPS IT W\LD BE NECESS>Y TO TAKE 9 ?IS UN=TUNATE EM]G5CY1 :5 9TELLIG5CE WAS BR\D SOME?+ DUR+ \R RESID5CE 9 ! NEIT ( HIS LIFE ! H>D%IPS ( POV]TY1 SCRUPL$ NO MEANS1 HONORABLE OR O!RWISE1 ( REMOV+ IT TO ! GREATE/ PRACTICABLE DI/ANCE4 ,HE HAD ALREADY REAP$ ! SUCCESSION SOME WEEKS1 :5 WE HE>D ( ! EV5T ?AT PUT HIM 9 POSSESSION ( IT2 & ! LETT]S :I* ,I HAD MORE ?AN ONCE ADDRESS$ TO \R PROTECTOR HAD PROBABLY FALL5 9TO HIS H&S4 ,!SE CIRCUM/ANCES AF=D$ NO FAVORABLE AUGURY ( ! TREATM5T WE MIY IT WAS ?AT WE %\LD COME TO A CONCLUSION AS SPE$ILY AS POSSIBLE4 ,I REPRES5T$ TO HIM PA!TICALLY ! CONDITION TO :I* ,I WAS BORN1 & ! OPUL5CE 9 :I* ,I HAD PASS$ MANY YE>S ( MY LIFE1 TOGE!R ) ! CONTRA/ AF=D$ BY ! PRES5T R$UC$ & URG5T CIRCUM/ANCES ( MY FAMILY4 ,I 5TREAT$ HIM TO EX]T HIS G5]OSITY & JU/ICE 9 BEHALF ( AN UN=TUNATE EXILE1 :OM UNT[>D EV5TS HAD DEPRIV$ ( ! P[] ( DO+ JU/ICE TO HIMSELF4 ,TO ?IS LETT] ,I RECEIV$ NO ANSW]4 ,UNC]TA9 AS TO ! CAUSE ( MY CORRESPOND5T'S SIL5CE1 OR EV5 :E!R MY LETT] HAD BE5 RECEIV$1 ,I WROTE AGA94 ,MY HE>T WAS WRUNG ) ?IS NEW ADV]SITY4 ,I WAS =BIDD51 UND] PA9 ( P]PETUAL IMPRISONM5T1 TO RETURN TO ! T]RITORIES ( ! REPUBLIC1 & ,I HAD NO FRI5D TO SOLICIT 9 MY BEHALF4 ,9 ,CON/ANCE ,I WAS UTT]LY A /RANG]4 ,9 ,SWITZ]L&1 MY UN=TUNATE HABITS ( LIFE1 ! DEPRESSION & SOLITUDE 9 :I* ,I HAD BE5 M]G$1 DEPRIV$ ME ( ! OPPORTUNITY ( =M+ CONNECTIONS4 ,! DECEAS$ WAS ! ONLY P]SON :O HAD BE5 DISPOS$ TO 9T]F]E = ME4 ,IT WAS TOO PROBABLE ?AT ! SIL5CE ( HIS SUCCESSOR WAS AN 9DICATION ( ! HO/ILITY ( HIS VIEWS4 ,I SAW NO?+ BE=E ME BUT ! PROSPECT ( MY FAMILY P]I%+ ) WANT1 DEPRIV$ ( !IR LA/ RES\RCE1 EXILES & P5NYLESS4 ,?US DE/ITUTE & =LORN1 :AT C\LD WE DO8 TO :AT PLAN C\LD WE HAVE REC\RSE8 ,WE HAD NOT SO MU* AS ! MEANS ( PROVID+ \RSELVES ) ! IMPLEM5TS ( ! HUMBLE/ LABOR4 ,IF WE HAD1 C\LD ,I1 UND] MY CIRCUM/ANCES1 RESOLVE UPON ?IS8 ,C\LD ,I GIVE UP ! LA/ SL5D] PITTANCE ( MY *ILDR5 :ILE !RE WAS A *ANCE ( RECOV]+ IT2 &1 BY SURR5D]+ !M TO ! SLAV]Y ( P]PETUAL LABOR1 DEVOTE !M TO ! L[E/ DEGREE ( IGNORANCE & DEGRADATION8 ,NO2 ,I /ILL CLUNG TO ?IS F9AL HOPE1 & WAS RESOLV$ TO UND]TAKE ANY ?+1 H[EV] DESP]ATE1 RA!R ?AN P>T ) IT4 ,SU* W]E MY FEEL+S2 &1 9 ! NEW LETT] :I* ,I N[ DISPAT*$1 ,I P\R$ \T ALL ! ANGUI% ( MY S\L4 ,A REPLY TO ?IS LETT] WAS AT L5G? V\*SAF$4 ,! HEIR ( MY PROTECTOR 9=M$ ME1 ?AT HE KNEW NO?+ ( ! BUS9ESS TO :I* ,I ALLUD$2 ?AT HE HAD COME 9TO POSSESSION ( ! L&S ,I DESCRIB$1 TOGE!R ) ! O!R PROP]TY ( HIS LATE UNCLE1 & REG>D$ HIMSELF AS HOLD+ !M BY ! SAME T5URE2 ?AT HE F\ND 9 ! ACC\NTS ( ! E/ATE A SUM ( MONEY ADVANC$ TO ME1 :I* HE MID AS A DEBT1 & PURSUE ME = IT ACCORD+LY4 ,HE %\LD BE LIB]AL 5\< H[EV] SO F> TO GIVE CR$IT TO MY /ORY1 & TO CONSID] ! SUM 9 QUE/ION AS ADVANC$ UPON A PL$GE ( L&3 9 ?AT CASE1 ,I MID MYSELF AS SUFFICI5TLY =TUNATE 9 HAV+ OBTA9$ EV5 ?AT AM\NT AT A TIME :51 BUT = ! HUMANITY OR WEAKNESS ( HIS UNCLE1 MY E/ATE W\LD NOT HAVE SOLD = A F>?+4 ,MEAN:ILE1 ! =BE>ANCE :I* HE PR(F]$ W\LD1 HE OBS]V$1 DEP5D UPON MY CONDUCT1 & BE RETRACT$ IF ,I AF=D$ HIM CAUSE = RES5TM5T4 ,HE ADD$1 ?AT HE DESPIS$ MY M5ACES & COMM&S1 & ?AT1 IF ,I TOOK A S+LE /EP AGA9/ HIM1 ,I %\LD F9D IT T]M9ATE 9 MY UTT] RU94 ,NO?+ C\LD BE MORE PR(LIGATE ?AN ! /YLE ( HIS LETT]4 ,BUT ITS IMPOT5CE WAS EQUAL TO ITS WICK$NESS4 ,IT WAS ABSURD TO ?REAT5 TO 9FLICT RU9 ON A MAN :OM RU9 HAD ALREADY OV]TAK54 ,BE=E ! LETT] >RIV$1 ,I HAD DISBURS$ ! :OLE SUM ,I BR\ R$UC$ AS TO MAKE IT IMPRACTICABLE = ME TO LEAVE MY WIFE & *ILDR5 5\< TO SUPPORT !M 9 MY ABS5CE1 EV5 IF ,I HAD DET]M9$ MYSELF TO SET \T UPON ?IS P]IL\S EXP$ITION P5NYLESS4 ,I RESOLV$ ?AT1 IF WE DID P]I%1 WE W\LD P]I% TOGE!R4 ,P5URY WAS N[ ADVANC+ UPON US ) SU* RAPID /RIDES1 ?AT ! L[E/ & MO/ SCANTY RES\RCES NO LONG] ADMITT$ ( NEGLECT4 ,HAD A CASE ?US DESP]ATE BE5 5C\NT]$ ) TIMELY ATT5TION1 IT IS NOT IMPROBABLE ?AT SOME ( ! V>I\S TAL5TS ,I HAD ACQUIR$ 9 ! C\RSE ( MY $UCATION W\LD HAVE FURNI%$ ME ) A MEANS ( SUBSI/5CE NOT ALTOGE!R PLEBEIAN OR 9COMPET5T4 ,BUT1 ) ! UNC]TA9TY ( MY SITUATION1 & TOTALLY UNACCU/OM$ AS ,I WAS TO REG>D MY P]SON OR M9D AS A MA*9E FITT$ = PRODUCTIVE LABOR1 ,I HAD NOT LOOK$ TO ?IS QUE/ION1 TILL ! URG5CY ( ! CASE DEPRIV$ ME ( EV]Y ADVANTAGE ,I MID5] ( ! EPISCOPAL PALACE1 = :OSE S]VICE ,I WAS SUFFICI5TLY QUALIFI$ BY MY T5 YE>S' RETREAT 9 ! ,BORDELOIS4 ,?AT ,I MIM5TS MORE SUITABLE TO ! BUS9ESS ,I N[ SOLICIT$4 ,IT WAS NOT TILL ,I HAD >RIV$ )9 A V]Y FEW DAYS TO ! 5D ( MY RES\RCES2 ?AT EV5 ?IS EXP$I5T1 BY A SORT ( ACCID5T1 RECURR$ TO MY M9D4 ,M>GU]ITE1 ?\< FULLY AW>E ( ! URG5CY ( ! CASE1 HAD1 AS %E AFT]W>DS TOLD ME1 IMPOS$ ON H]SELF A COMPULSORY SIL5CE1 FE>+ = ! 9FLAM$ & IRRITAT$ FRAME ( MY M9D1 & AW>E ?AT ! C\RSE ( EV5TS W\LD ULTIMATELY LEAD ME TO A PO9T ) :I* %E DREAD$ TO 9T]M$DLE4 ,?IS WAS = H] A TRY+ MOM5T2 MY LATELY RECOV]$ 9SANITY OBLIG+ H] TO CONTEMPLATE 9 SIL5CE \R GR[+ DI/RESS1 & TO WAIT ! ATTACK ( HUNG] & WANT ?AT ?REAT5$ TO DE/ROY US1 ) AN APP>5T TRANQUILITY & *E]FULNESS4 ,= ME1 SO 5TIRE A REVOLUTION HAD TAK5 PLACE 9 MY S5TIM5TS1 ?AT ,I SPURN$ ) CONTEMPT1 SO F> AS RELAT$ TO MYSELF1 ?AT PRIDE ( RANK & ROMANTIC GALLANTRY ( HONOR1 :I* HAD =M]LY BE5 MY IDOLS4 ,I SUBMITT$ ) A SORT ( GLOOMY CONT5TM5T TO ! SITUATION UPON :I* MY DE/9Y DROVE ME4 ,I REG>D$ IT AS ! NATURAL RESULT ( MY =M] MISCONDUCT2 & D]IV$ A S5TIM5T ( EASE & RELIEF FROM ?US EXPIAT+1 AS IT W]E1 ) ! SWEAT ( MY BR[1 ! TEMPTATIONS TO :I* ,I HAD YIELD$4 ,HAD ,I BE5 MYSELF ONLY R$UC$ ?US L[1 OR HAD ! PRODUCE ( MY LABOR BE5 SUFFICI5T TO PUR*ASE COMPET5CE = MY WIFE & ! MEANS ( 9/RUCTION = MY FAMILY1 ,I CAN SAFELY AFFIRM ?AT ,I %\LD HAVE F\ND NO CONSEQU5CE SO DIRECT FROM MY [N DEGRADATION AS ! MEANS ( SIL5C+ ! REPROA*ES ( CONSCI5CE & RECONCIL+ ME TO MYSELF4 ,BUT :5 ,I RETURN$ 9 ! EV5+ ) ! E>N+S ( MY DAY'S LABOR1 & F\ND IT 9COMPET5T TO ! PROCUR+ = ?OSE :O DEP5D$ ON ME ! SIMPLE/ MEANS ( SUBSI/5CE1 !N 9DE$ MY S5SATIONS W]E DIFF]5T4 ,MY HE>T DI$ )9 ME4 ,I DID NOT RETURN AFT] ! FATIGUES ( ! DAY1 :I*1 TO ME :O HAD NOT BE5 ACCU/OM$ TO UNREMITT$ LABOR1 & :O N[ BEGAN TO FEEL ?AT ,I WAS NOT SO Y\NG AS ,I HAD BE5 AT ! SIEGE ( ,PAVIA1 W]E EXTREMELY TRY+1--,I DID NOT RETURN1 ,I SAY1 TO A NID1 & 5DEAVOR$ TO PICTURE TO MYSELF ! FUTURE SITUATION ( MY FAMILY4 ,I WAT]$ MY PILL[ ) MY TE>S4 ,(T51 :5 ,I IMAG9$ ?AT MY :OLE FAMILY W]E ASLEEP1 ,I GAVE V5T TO MY P]TURBAT$ & DI/RACT$ M9D 9 GROANS3 ,M>GU]ITE W\LD SOMETIMES OV]HE> ME2 & ) ! G5TLE/ SUGGE/IONS ( H] ADMIRABLE M9D W\LD 5DEAVOR TO SOO! MY ?\N+S W]E 9COMPET5T1 & WE F\ND IT NECESS>Y TO SUPPLY ! DEFICI5CY BY ! SALE ( ! FEW G>M5TS1 NOT 9 IMM$IATE USE1 ?AT WE /ILL POSSESS$4 ,:AT !N W\LD BE ! CASE :5 !SE W]E GONE1 & :51 9 ADDITION TO ?IS1 IT W\LD BE NECESS>Y TO PUR*ASE NOT ONLY FOOD TO EAT1 & A RO( TO %ELT]1 BUT ALSO CLO!S TO COV] US8 ,FROM 3 ,!,AN>*I/,LIBR>Y4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,JANU>Y #e1 #bba 3 ,*APT] #i -- ,ADD$4 ,JANU>Y #a#g1 #bbb 3 ,*APT] #i -- ,UPDAT$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/