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,AU?OR 3 ,WILLIAM ,GODW9 

,TEXT 3 

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,A SUCCESSION ( GLOOMY ?\<TS REVOLV$ 9 MY M9D = SOME TIME AFT] ,I WAS LEFT TO MYSELF4 ,I WAS H[EV] OV]COME ) FATIGUE1 &1 AFT] AN 9T]VAL ( H>ASS+ M$ITATIONS1 9S5SIBLY FELL ASLEEP4 ,I WAS AWAK5$ AFT] SOME H\RS' REPOSE1 BY ! PRES5CE ( ,BE?LEM ,GABOR /&+ BY ! SIDE ( MY C\*4 ,HE 9VIT$ ME TO RISE1 &1 :5 ,I HAD ATTIR$ MYSELF1 />T$ ! PLAN ( \R VISIT+ TOGE!R ! V>I\S AP>TM5TS ( ! CA/LE1 A SMALL P>T ( :I* ONLY HAD BE5 SE5 BY ME :5 ,I WAS LA/ AT ?IS PLACE4 ,AMONG O!R ?+S1 HE TOLD ME1 !RE WAS A SUBT]RANEAN ( MO/ WOND]FUL EXT5T1 9T]SP]S$ ) A V>IETY ( CELLS & LURK+ PLACES1 ( :I* NO MAN HAD TO HIS KN[L$GE EV] ASC]TA9$ ! NUMB]4 

,! SAME DRE>Y COMPLEXION ( ?\<T FOLL[$ ME TO-DAY1 :I* HAD BE5 FIR/ PRODUC$ 9 ME UPON MY RECEPTION 9TO ! TROOP ( ,BE?LEM ,GABOR ! PREC$+ NI<T4 ,MY S5SATIONS W]E ( ! MO/ DEPRESS+ & DISCOMFIT+ NATURE2 ,I FELT AS IF ,I W]E ! SLAVE ( SOME D>K1 MY/]I\S TYRANT1 & DRAGG$ ALONG SUP9ELY :]EV] HE MOTION$ ME TO GO4 ,I TASK$ MYSELF S]I\SLY2 ,I REASON$ ) MYSELF4 ,I FELT ?AT IT WAS NO IDLE & EV]YDAY P>T ?AT ,I WAS CALL$ TO SU/A92 & ,I RESOLV$ ?AT ,I W\LD NOT BE RU9$ BY MY [N 9ACTIVITY & C[>DICE4 ,YET1 :5 ,I EXAM9$ ! QUE/ION DISPASSIONATELY1 ,I C\LD NOT F9D ?AT ,I HAD ANY OCCASION = C\RAGE1 & ,I CONFESS$ ?AT IT WAS NOT LESS C5SURABLE1 TO DISCOV] A USELESS SPIRIT ( MI/RU/ & DEFIANCE1 ?AN TO DES]T ONE'S PRES]VATION :]E RESI/ANCE WAS DEM&$4 ,:AT REASON HAD ,I TO SUSPECT A MAN BETWE5 :OM & MYSELF !RE HAD PREVAIL$ SO MU* MUTUAL CONFID5CE8 ,NONE1 NONE1 ,I REPLI$1 BUT ! CAUSELESS & SUP]/ITI\S MISGIV+S ( MY [N M9D6 ,EV5 IF ,I HAD GR\ND TO DI/RU/ HIM1 :AT REM$Y HAD ,I AGA9/ HIS ILL FAI?1 PLAC$ AS ,I WAS 9 ! MID/ ( HIS [N DOMA9S1 & SURR\ND$ BY M5 DEVOT$ TO HIS S]VICE8 ,TO DISCOV] APPREH5SION UND] SU* CIRCUM/ANCES1 WAS TO EXCITE ANIMOSITY4--,!SE REASON+S P>TICUL>LY OCCURR$ TO MY M9D1 AS ,I /OOD WAIT+ = ! TOR*1 :I* HE HAD HIMSELF GONE TO PROCURE ?AT HE MI<T ATT5D ME TO ! SUBT]RANEAN CAV]NS4--,I HAD AS YET SE5 NO ONE1 S9CE WE BROKE UP FROM \R NI<TLY REPA/1 BUT MY HO/4 0,WE WILL BREAKFA/10 SAID HE1 0:5 WE RETURN FROM VIEW+ !SE CURIOSITIES40 

,WE CREPT ALONG A SUCCESSION ( D>K & GLOOMY VAULTS1 ALMO/ 9 SIL5CE4 ,BE?LEM ,GABOR1 ?\< HE L$ ME ON1 & DIS*>G$ ! (FICE ( A GUIDE1 SEEM$ TO HAVE SMALL 9CL9ATION TO ASSUME ?AT ( AN 9T]PRET]4 ,?IS WAS SUFFICI5TLY 9 UNISON ) HIS ORD9>Y *>ACT]1 TO HAVE LITTLE CLAIM TO EXCITE SURPRISE4 ,YET ! READ] WILL NOT ON REFLECTION GREATLY WOND] ?AT MY PRES5T SITUATION WAS F> FROM AGREEABLE4 ,I WAS ALONE 9 PASSAGES :I*1 TO JUDGE FROM ANY DISCOV]ABLE TOK51 Y\ W\LD SC>CELY IMAG9E HAD = AGES BE5 TROD BY A HUMAN CREATURE4 ,! VOICE WAS LO/ AMID ! DAMPS ( !SE IMM5SE CAV]NS2 NOR WAS IT POSSIBLE BY ANY EX]TION TO CALL ! H& ( MAN TO Y\R AID4 ,MY GUIDE WAS AN 9DIVIDUAL :OM CALAMITY HAD PROMPT$ TO QU>REL ) ! WORLD2 ( /RONG FEEL+S 9DE$1 ( CAPACI\S ?\<T2 BUT RUGG$1 F]OCI\S1 BRUTAL1 & 9ACCESSIBLE TO PRAY]4 ,I HAD *OS5 HIM = MY PROTECTOR & ALLY2 ,I HAD NEV] 9T5D$ TO PUT MYSELF 9 HIS P[]4 ,!RE WAS A MY/]Y 9 HIS C>RIAGE1 A SOME?+ NOT TO BE EXPLA9$1 A %ELL ?AT NO HUMAN =CES C\LD P5ETRATE1 ?AT WAS MORTAL TO CONFID5CE1 & MI<T QUAIL ! /\TE/4 

,I ?\<T !RE W\LD BE NO 5D TO \R PILGRIMAGE4 ,AT L5G? WE CAME TO A /RONG DOOR1 CROSS-B>R$ & SECUR$ ) A FRAME ( IRON4 ,BE?LEM ,GABOR UNLOCK$ IT4 ,WE HAD NO SOON] 5T]$1 ?AT IT IMPETU\SLY CLOS$ BEH9D US4 0,:AT IS ?AT80 SAID ,I1 />TL$ AT ! L\DNESS ( ! REPORT4 0,COME ON10 CRI$ MY HO/2 0IT IS ONLY ! W9D :I/L+ ?R\< ! CAV]NS3 ! SPR+-BOLT IS %OT1 BUT ,I HAVE ! KEY 9 MY H&60 ,AT ! OPPOSITE 5D ( ! AP>TM5T WAS ANO!R DOOR ) AN ASC5T ( FIVE /EPS LEAD+ TO IT4 ,BE?LEM ,GABOR UNLOCK$ ?AT ALSO1 & !N FAC$ AB\T ) ! TOR* 9 HIS H&3 ,I WAS CLOSE BEH9D HIM4 0,/AY :]E Y\ >E60 SAID HE ) A FURI\S ACC5T1 & ?RU/ ME VIOL5TLY FROM HIM4 ,! VIOL5CE WAS UNEXPECT$3 ,I /AGG]$ FROM ! TOP ( ! /EPS TO ! BOTTOM4 ,?IS DOOR CLOS$ ) AS L\D A REPORT AS ! O!R2 ,BE?LEM ,GABOR DISAPPE>$2 ,I WAS LEFT 9 D>KNESS4 

,= AN 9/ANT ,I D\BT$ :E!R ! SITUATION 9 :I* ,I ?US F\ND MYSELF W]E ! RESULT ( DESIGN OR ( ACCID5T4 ,! %UTT+ ( ! DOOR MI<T BE ASCRIB$ TO ! LATT]3 ! ACTION H[EV]1 & ! WORDS ( MY HO/ DID NOT ADMIT ( ?AT 9T]PRETATION4 ,I /OOD MOTIONLESS1 A/ONI%$1 & ALMO/ 9CAPABLE ( REFLECTION4 ,:AT AN 9CR$IBLE REV]SE WAS ?US ! CREATURE ( A MOM5T6 ,YE/]DAY ,I POSSESS$ UNB\ND$ TREASURES1 & ! HE>TS ( ! :OLE ,TURCO-,HUNG>IAN NATION4 ,YE/]DAY1 AS ,I RODE =? ON ?IS FATAL EXCURSION1 ,I BEHELD ! FOOD ( A MI<TY PEOPLE1 MATURE = CONSUMPTION1 ! GR[? ( MY EX]TIONS2 & IT WILL NOT BE ?\<T SURPRIS+ ?AT MY HE>T LEAP$ )9 ME AT ! SI<T4 ,:O W\LD NOT HAVE 5VI$ ! UNP>ALLEL$ EM95CE AT :I* ,I HAD >RIV$8 ,MY TRIUMPHS W]E ATT5D$ ) NO MELAN*OLY EXCEPTIONS TO DAMP !IR JOY4 ,!Y W]E ! *ILDR5 ( NO 9TRIGUE2 !Y W]E MANLY1 FRANK1 +5U\S1 & HONORABLE4 ,MY LAURELS W]E /A9$ ) NO DROP ( BLOOD1 W]E T>NI%$ ) NO TE>S ( ! WID[ & ! ORPHAN4 ,H[ MU* MORE NOBLE TO RESCUE MANK9D FROM FAM9E & DEA?1 ?AN TO VIOLATE ! HONE/ PRIDE ( !IR NATURE ) ! EXHIBITION ( VICTORIES & TROPHIES6 

,YET1 TRULY CONSID]$1 !RE WAS NO?+ ABRUPT 9 ! REV]SE UND] :I* ,I WAS N[ SUFF]+4 ,! :OLE WAS A *A91 EV]Y L9K ( :I* WAS 9DISSOLUBLY CONNECT$ FROM ONE 5D TO ! O!R4 ,MY ATTEMPT TO RESCUE A PEOPLE FROM ! HORRORS ( FAM9E NECESS>ILY EXPOS$ ME TO UNFAVORABLE ACCID5TS & MISCON/RUCTION4 ,IT 9EVITABLY L$ TO MY APPLICATION TO ! GOV]NM5T = ITS AID4 ,IT C\LD NOT FAIL TO EXCITE ! AL>MS & JEAL\SIES ( GOV]NM5T AS TO ! T5D5CY ( MY PROCE$+S4 ,BY EXHIBIT+ ME AS ! POSSESSOR ( IMM5SE WEAL?1 ) V]Y LIMIT$ MEANS = ! PROTECTION ( ?AT WEAL?1 IT M>K$ ME A PREY TO A RAPACI\S VIC]OY OR HIS MORE DESPOTIC MA/]4 ,:5 ,I BECAME S5SIBLE ( ! PREC>I\S SITUATION 9 :I* ,I /OOD T[>DS ! P[]S ( ! /ATE1 C\LD ,I HAVE FALL5 UPON A MORE NATURAL EXP$I5T1 ?AN ! 5DEAVOR TO COV] MYSELF ) ! %IELD ( FRI5D%IP & GRATITUDE 9 ! P]SON ( ONE ( ITS NOBLES8 ,BUT ?IS EXP$I5T W\LD ALMO/ 9FALLIBLY LEAD TO ! PLAC+ MYSELF SOON] OR LAT] 9 ! P[] ( ! MAN :OSE FRI5D%IP ,I S\<T4 ,I HAD DONE SO1 & ?IS WAS ! T]M9ATION ( MY VIEWS & MY PROJECTS6 

,I N[ WELL UND]/OOD ! PURPOSE ( ?AT 9ATT5TION & NEGLECT ) :I* ,BE?LEM ,GABOR HAD TREAT$ ME ! PREC$+ EV5+1 ! UNEAS9ESS RESULT+ FROM :I* ,I HAD BLAM$ 9 MYSELF AT ! TIME1 AS ! DICTATE ( WEAKNESS & UNWOR?Y SUSPICION4 ,YE/]DAY ,I HAD BE5 PLAC$ UND] ! SAFEGU>D ( A NATION2 EV]Y MAN 9 ,BUDA & ITS 5VIRONS WAS FAMILI> ) MY P]SON2 EV]Y MAN W\LD HAVE BE5 READY ALMO/ TO SACRIFICE HIS LIFE TO PROCURE MY SAFETY4 ,N[ ,I WAS F> FROM ! SC5E ( MY PHILAN?ROPICAL EX]TIONS2 NO ONE 9 ! TROOP ( ,BE?LEM ,GABOR KNEW :O ,I WAS2 HE HAD APPE>$ TO TREAT ME ! PREC$+ EV5+ ) 9DIFF]5CE & CONTEMPT2 IF !Y SAW ME NO MORE1 NO CURIOSITY W\LD BY ?AT CIRCUM/ANCE BE EXCIT$ 9 !IR M9DS4 ,MY CLI5TS ON ! O!R H& 9 ! VIC9ITY ( ! METROPOLIS1 H[EV] GREAT AN 9T]E/ !Y MI<T TAKE 9 MY =TUNE1 HAD NO CLUE ?AT C\LD LEAD !M TO ! KN[L$GE ( IT4 ,!Y MU/ SUPPOSE ME A PRISON] ) ! ,AU/RIANS1 OR ?AT ,I HAD BE5 KILL$1 9 RESI/+ TO BECOME !IR PRISON]4 ,I WAS CUT (F FROM ALL ASSI/ANCE & DISCOV]Y1 & LEFT AS MU* 9 ! P[] ( MY TREA*]\S ALLY1 AS IF ,I HAD BE5 ALONE ) HIM1 OPPRESS$ ) ! UTMO/ DISP>ITY ( P]SONAL =CE1 9 ! REMOTE/ ISL& ( ! ,PACIFIC ,OCEAN4 

,SU* W]E ! REFLECTIONS ?AT E>LY SUGGE/$ !MSELVES TO MY M9D 9 ! SOLITUDE & D>KNESS 9 :I* ,I WAS ?US UNEXPECT$LY 9VOLV$4 ,MEAN:ILE ONE T$I\S H\R SUCCE$$ TO ANO!R1 & ,I REMA9$ UN9TRUD$ ON & UNNOTIC$4 ,I C\LD =M NO CONJECTURE AS TO ! OBJECT ( ,BE?LEM ,GABOR 9 ! ATROCI\S P]FIDY HE HAD COMMITT$4 ,C\LD HE HAVE ANY RES5TM5T AGA9/ ME1 & DID HE M$ITATE REV5GE8 ,HE HAD RECEIV$ FROM ME NO?+ BUT B5EFITS4 ,DID HE EMPLOY RE/RA9T ON MY P]SON AS ! MEANS ( EXTORTION8 ,I C\LD NOT CONCEIVE ?AT HE C\LD HAVE ANY CLUE LEAD+ HIM TO ! DISCOV]Y ( MY GR& SECRET2 &1 %ORT ( ?IS1 MY B\NTIES HAD BE5 SO EXUB]ANT1 AS1 ,I IMAG9$1 LEFT HIM NO?+ TO WI%4 ,9 ?IS WILD]NESS ( CONJECTURE ,I H[EV] FIX$ UPON EXTORTION AS A MOTIVE LESS 9CR$IBLE ?AN REV5GE4 ,I IMPATI5TLY WAIT$1 TILL ! APPE>ANCE ( MY TYRANT %\LD FREE ME FROM SOME P>T ( MY PRES5T UNC]TA9TY4 

,HE DID NOT APPE>4 ,9 ! MEAN TIME ,I WAS 9 A CONDITION FEEBLE & EXHAU/$4 ,! EX]CISE ( YE/]DAY1 ! H\RLY-BAFFL$ EXPECTATION ( MEET+ HIM :OM ,I HAD CALL$ MY FRI5D1 ! ALT]NATION ( BE+ FIR/ TAK5 PRISON] & AFT]W>DS RESCU$1 HAD EXTREMELY FATIGU$ ME4 ,WE HAD TRAVEL$ DUR+ ! :OLE NI<T4 ,YET ! UNACC\NTABLE DEJECTION ( M9D UND] :I* ,I LABOR$ ON \R >RIVAL AT ,BE?LEM ,GABOR'S CA/LE HAD PREV5T$ ME FROM TAK+ ALMO/ ANY %>E 9 ! CO>SE REPA/ ?AT HAD !N BE5 SET BE=E US4 ,! 5TRANCE ( MY HO/ 9 ! MORN+ HAD R5D]$ MY SLUMB]S %ORT4 ,AS ,I FOLL[$ HIM TO MY DUNGEON1 UNCONSCI\S :I!R ,I W5T1 MY LIMBS A*$1 & MY HE>T A*$ /ILL MORE4 ,I WAS ILL PREP>$ = A FA/ ( ?IRTY-SIX H\RS :I* ! BRUTALITY ( MY JAIL] 9FLICT$ UPON ME4 ,AFT] HAV+ LONG EXPECT$ HIM 9 VA91 ,I GAVE MYSELF UP TO DESPAIR4 ,:AT A T]M9ATION ( LIFE = HIM :O POSSESS$ ! PHILOSOPH]'S /ONE6 

,I CANNOT DO JU/ICE TO ! S5SATIONS ?AT N[ TOOK POSSESSION ( MY M9D4 ,IT WAS NOT ! DEADLY CALM ( DESPAIR1 = ,I /ILL EXPECT$ EV]Y MOM5T :5 ,BE?LEM ,GABOR W\LD APPE>4 ,I BELIEV$ ?AN HE W\LD1 & ,I BELIEV$ ?AT HE W\LD NOT1 LEAVE ME TO P]I%4 ,I LI/5$ ) EAG] ATT5TION TO EV]Y S\ND1 & MY S\L FLOAT$ ON ! H[L+ W9DS4 ,9 VA96 NO?+ CAME ( IT2 !RE WAS NO ALT]ATION 9 ! S\ND1 OR ONLY ?OSE VICISSITUDES TO :I* ! H[L+ ( ! W9D IS UNAVOIDABLY SUBJECT4 ,I !N TURN$ AWAY 9 ANGUI%2 ,I CURS$2 ,I /AMP$ ) MY FEET2 ,I SMOTE MY =EHEAD ) MY CLOS$ H&2 ,I TORE MY HAIR4 ,ANON ANO!R S\ND >RE/$ MY ATT5TION2 IT WAS A DIFF]5T H[L+2 IT SEEM$ TO BE LIKE A HUMAN VOICE2 MY FANCY CREAT$ TO ME ! TREAD ( A HUMAN FOOT4 ,I LI/5$ ) MORE 9T5TNESS ( S\L ?AN EV]4 ,IT WAS AGA9 9 VA96 

,NO1 NO2 HE WILL NOT COME6 HE WILL NEV] COME4 ,:Y %\LD ,I AGITATE MYSELF TO NO PURPOSE8 ,LET ME LIE D[N & DIE6--,I REASON$ ) MYSELF4 ,:Y %\LD ,I WI% TO LIVE8 ,I AM NO?+ TO ANY HUMAN BE+3 ,I AM ALONE 9 ! B\NDLESS UNIV]SE2 ,I HAVE NO TIE TO EXI/5CE4 ,/4 ,LEON HAS NO WIFE2 ,/4 ,LEON HAS NO *ILD2 HE HAS NEI!R CONNECTION NOR FRI5D 9 ! WORLD4 ,EV5 9 ?IS WRET*$ VISION ( ! PHILOSOPH]'S /ONE1 HAVE ,I NOT TRI$ IT 5\<8 HAVE ,I ANY HOPES FROM IT8 IS IT NOT TIME ?AT ,I %\LD ?R[ AWAY ?AT & EXI/5CE TOGE!R8--,MY M$ITATIONS W]E 9EFFECTUAL4 ,I SUPPOSE IT IS ! CASE ) ALL M5 ?US VIOL5TLY ?RU/ \T ( LIFE 9 ! FULL POSSESSION ( !IR FACULTIES--,I KN[ IT WAS ! CASE ) ME1--! MORE P]EMPTORY WAS MY SUMMON]1 ! MORE OB/9ATELY ,I CLUNG TO ! WOR?LESS TOY4 

,AT L5G? ,I LAID MYSELF D[N ON ! FLOOR2 &1 IF ,I OCCASIONALLY LI/5$1 ,I NO LONG] RAN TO ! WALLS & ! DOORS TO CAT* ! UNC]TA9 S\NDS4 ,! GNAW+S ,I N[ FELT )9 W]E 9TOL]ABLE4 ,!Y W]E AT ONE P]IOD SO SEV]E1 ?AT ,I CAN COMP>E !M TO NO?+1 BUT ! S5SATION ( HAV+ SWALL[$ A GL[+ EMB]4 ,AFT]W>DS1 ! WEAKNESS ( NATURE W\LD NO LONG] FE$ ?IS EXCRUCIAT+ PA91 & IT SUBSID$ 9TO A />T+ & CONVULSIVE ?ROB2 ! PA9 WAS DIV]SIFI$ ) 9T]VALS ( A DEA?-LIKE & 9SUPPORTABLE SICKNESS4--,BUT1 NO2 ,I WILL NOT ATTEMPT TO DESCRIBE ! HORRORS ( HUNG] SUBLIM$ BY DESPAIR1 :]E ! TORTURE ( ! M9D GIVES NEW PUNG5CY & UPRO> TO ! CORPOREAL ANGUI%4 ,! IMAGE1 AS IT N[ PRES5TS ITSELF TO MY RECOLLECTION1 IS TOO DREADFUL4 

,AT LA/ ,I SUNK 9TO A /ATE ( 9S5SIBILITY2 & ! AGONY ,I HAD SUFF]$ SEEM$ DRAWN TO ITS F9AL CLOSE4 ,! BUSY TURMOIL1 ! FEV]I% DREAM ( HUMAN EXI/5CE WAS AT AN 5D4 ,I %UT MY EYES1 & ,I BELIEV$ ,I %\LD OP5 !M NO MORE4 

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