,*APT] #ca ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,WILLIAM ,GODW9 ,TEXT 3 ,*,A,P,T,] ,X,X,X,I4 ,! 9DULG5CE ?US O/5TATI\SLY PROCLAIM$ BY ! FA!R-9QUISITOR WAS NOT EXACTLY TO MY TA/E4 ,F9D+ ?AT ALL ! 5]GY ( M9D ,I C\LD APPLY TO MY DEF5SE WAS VA91 ,I DET]M9$ TO HAVE REC\RSE TO A DIFF]5T MODE ( PROCE$+4 ,I RECEIV$ ?REE ADMONITIONS1 AS !Y CALL !M1 ! SUB/ANCE ( :I* ,I HAVE ALREADY RECIT$1 9 ! C\RSE ( ! FIR/ T5 DAYS ( MY CONF9EM5T1 & ,I !N = SOME TIME HE>D ( ! 9QUISITOR NO MORE4 ,I UND]/OOD ?AT IT WAS FREQU5TLY ! PRACTICE1 AFT] ?REE ADMONITIONS1 NOT TO BR+ UP ! PRISON] = FUR!R HE>+ DUR+ A :OLE YE>2 & IT APPE>$ SUFFICI5TLY PROBABLE FROM ! LA/ WORDS ADDRESS$ TO ME BY MY JUDGE1 ?AT ?IS POLICY WAS 9T5D$ TO BE EMPLOY$ 9 MY CASE4 ,)\T FUR!R DELAY !RE=E ,I RESOLV$ TO RECUR TO ! EXP$I5T 9 ! USE ( :I* MY P[] WAS UNB\ND$1 & BY A BRILLIANT (F] AT ONCE TO SUBDUE ! SCRUPLES1 & SECURE ! FIDELITY1 ( ! P]SON OR P]SONS UPON :OM MY SAFE CU/ODY MIY WAS TO CONV9CE ! P>TY TO :OM ,I %\LD PROPOSE ! ASSI/+ ME1 ( ! REALITY ( MY P[]S2 & !N TO PUT C>TE BLAN*E 9TO HIS H&S1 OR RA!R TO ASC]TA9 AT ONCE ! EXT5T ( HIS HOPES & DEM&S1 & BY A SPIRIT$ & P]EMPTORY CONDUCT TO YIELD !M ALL4 ,9 ! P]IOD :I*1 IMM$IATELY PREVI\S TO MY PRES5T IMPRISONM5T1 ,I HAD DEVOT$ TO ! M$ITATION ( MY FUTURE PLANS & ! REVIEW ( MY PA/1 ,I HAD SEV]ELY ACCUS$ MYSELF ( HALF MEASURES1 & HAD DET]M9$ TO ABJURE ALL HESITATION & IRRESOLUT5ESS = ! TIME TO COME4 ,IT IS NOT 9DE$ TO BE WOND]$ AT1 ?AT1 POSSESS+ A P[] SO UTT]LY REMOTE FROM COMMON IDEAS & CONCEPTIONS1 & :I*1 SPEAK+ FROM EXP]I5CE1 ,I DO NOT HESITATE TO AFFIRM NO M]E EF=T ( IMAG9ATION IS ADEQUATE TO REPRES5T1 ,I %\LD HAVE ACT$ BEL[ ! PR]OGATIVES & DEM&S ( MY SITUATION4 ,?IS MI/AKE ,I W\LD MAKE NO MORE4 ,I W\LD OV]:ELM OPPOSITION BY ! SPL5DOR ( MY PROCE$+S1 & CONF\ND SCRUPLES BY ! DIGNITY & PR9CELY MAGNIFIC5CE ( MY APPE>ANCE4 ,UN%ACKL$ AS ,I WAS ) CONNECTIONS1 & RISK+ NO ONE'S HAPP9ESS BUT MY [N1 ,I PROPOS$ TO COMPEL ! HUMAN SPECIES TO VIEW ME FROM AN AWFUL DI/ANCE1 & TO OBLIGE EV]Y ONE ?AT APPROA*$ ME TO FEEL HIS 9F]IORITY4 ,IT W\LD BE TO ! LA/ DEGREE DISGRACEFUL & CONTEMPTIBLE 9 ME1 BE+ RAIS$ SO F> ABOVE MY PE]S 9 MY PRIVILEGES1 IF ,I W]E TO FALL BEL[ ! ORD9>Y /&>D ( A GALLANT MAN 9 ! DECISION & FIRMNESS ( MY SY/EM ( CONDUCT4 ,DECISION & FIRMNESS W]E ! PR9CIPLES TO BE EX]CIS$ BY ME N[2 DIGNITY & MAGNIFIC5CE MU/ AWAIT !IR TURN H]EAFT]4 ,IT WAS NOT LONG BE=E ,I EMBRAC$ AN OPPORTUNITY ( SPEAK+ TO ! MAN :O WAIT$ ON ME ) MY DAILY ALLOTM5T ( PROVISIONS1 & ,I DESIGN$ AS %ORTLY AS POSSIBLE TO PROCE$ TO ?AT SPECIES ( >GUM5T1 9 :I* ,I PR9CIPALLY CONFID$ TO 5GAGE HIM 9 MY CAUSE4 ,BUT HE DID NOT SUFF] ME TO UTT] A S5T5CE BE=E ) A V]Y EXPRESSIVE GE/URE HE 9T]RUPT$ ME4 ,I HAD REM>K$ ALREADY ! SIL5CE :I* SEEM$ = EV] TO P]VADE ?IS DISMAL ABODE2 BUT ,I HAD NOT ASCRIB$ IMPORTANCE 5\< TO ?IS CIRCUM/ANCE1 TO SUPPOSE ?AT IT C\LD MAT]IALLY 9T]F]E ) ! PROJECT ,I HAD =M$4 ,I N[ P]CEIV$ ! C\NT5ANCE ( MY ATT5DANT TO BE OV]SPREAD ) T]ROR & AL>M4 ,HE PUT HIS H& UPON MY M\?1 & BY HIS ATTITUDE SEEM$ E>NE/LY TO 9SI/ UPON MY CON=M+ TO ! RULES ( ! PRISON4 ,I WAS NOT H[EV] TO BE ?US DIV]T$ FROM MY PURPOSE4 ,I SEIZ$ HIS H&S1 & BEGAN AGA9 TO PURSUE ! DISC\RSE ,I HAD M$ITAT$4 ,?IS PROCE$+ ON MY P>T 9DUC$ HIM TO BREAK ! SIL5CE HE HAD HI!RTO PRES]V$4 ,HE TOLD ME ?AT IF ,I DID NOT 9/ANTLY SET HIM AT LIB]TY1 HE W\LD AL>M ! PRISON4 ,I LOOS$ HIS H&S4 ,I !N BY EV]Y GE/URE ,I C\LD DEVISE 5DEAVOR$ TO PREVAIL ON HIM TO APPROA* ME1 TO SUFF] ME TO CONF] ) HIM 9 ! L[E/ :ISP]1 & ASSUR$ HIM ?AT HE %\LD HAVE NO REASON TO REP5T HIS COMPLIANCE4 ,I MIKNESS4 ,9 ! EV5+ ( ! DAY ( ?IS ATTEMPT ! KEEP] ( ! PRISON 5T]$ MY AP>TM5T4 ,:5 HE APPE>$1 ,I BEGAN TO FLATT] MYSELF ?AT 9 ?IS MAN ,I %\LD F9D A BETT] SUBJECT = MY PURPOSE ?AN 9 ! POOR TURNKEY :O HAD GIV5 ME SO UNFAVORABLE A PROGNO/IC ( MY SUCCESS4 ,I LO/ NO TIME 9 SAY+ TO HIM ?AT ,I HAD SOME?+ IMPORTANT TO COMMUNICATE2 BUT HE P]EMPTORILY COMM&$ ME TO BE SIL5T1 & LI/5 TO :AT HE WAS AB\T TO SAY TO ME4 ,HE TOLD ME ?AT ,I HAD ALREADY BE5 COMPLA9$ AGA9/ = SPEE*1 & ,I WAS N[ REPEAT+ MY (F5SE4 ,HE ADVIS$ ME TO POND] WELL ! CONSEQU5CES ( :AT ,I WAS DO+4 ,! ORD]S ( ! 9QUISITION W]E RIGOR\S & 9FLEXIBLE4 ,! CELLS W]E NOT SO SUB/ANTIALLY SEP>AT$ BUT ?AT A VOICE MID FROM ONE TO ! O!R2 YET IT HAD HAPP5$ MORE ?AN ONCE1 ?AT A HUSB& & WIFE1 A FA!R & *ILD1 HAD = YE>S BE5 LODG$ NEXT TO EA* O!R1 )\T ! SMALLE/ SUSPICION ON EI!R P>T ( ! PROXIMITY ( !IR SITUATION4 ,HE WAS A/ONI%$ AT ! P]T9ACITY ( MY BEHAVIOR4 ,!RE WAS NO GOV]NM5T ON ! FACE ( ! E>?1 HE W\LD V5TURE TO SAY1 ?AT HAD SUBJECTS MORE OB$I5T1 MORE DUTIFUL & EXEMPL>Y ?AN ! HOLY 9QUISITION4 ,NOT A MURMUR WAS EV] HE>D2 NOT A DISCONT5T EV] EXPRESS$4 ,ALL WAS HUMBL5ESS1 ?ANKFULNESS1 & GRATITUDE4 ,HE RECOMM5D$ TO ME TO CON=M MYSELF TO MY SITUATION1 & LET HIM HE> NO FUR!R COMPLA9TS ( ME4 ,HE HAD NO SOON] F9I%$ HIS H>ANGUE1 ?AN HE LEFT ME AS ABRUPTLY AS HIS S]VANT HAD DONE4 ,IT IS NOT POSSIBLE TO IMP>T ANY ADEQUATE IMAGE ( ! 9FLEXIBILITY ( HIS FEATURES1 OR ! /]N COMPOSURE ( HIS DEMEANOR4 ,I N[ SAW MY SITUATION 9 A DIFF]5T PO9T ( VIEW4 ,BRIB]Y WAS ( NO USE1 :]E ALL 9T]C\RSE WAS D5I$4 ,GREAT ,GOD6 9TO :AT POSITION WAS ,I GOT8 ,9 ! MID/ ( A GREAT & POPUL\S CITY1 AT ?IS TIME P]HAPS ! METROPOLIS ( ! WORLD1 ,I HE>D OCCASIONALLY FROM BEYOND ! LIMITS ( MY PRISON ! HUM ( BUSY ?RONGS1 OR ! %\TS ( A TUMULTU\S POPULACE4 ,YET ,I WAS MYSELF 9 ! DEEPE/ SOLITUDE4 ,LIKE ! WRET*$ M>9]S ,I HAVE SOME:]E READ (1 %IPWRECK$ UPON A DES]T %ORE1 ,I MITM5T2 BUT TO ME HE WAS SIMPLY A MOV+ & BREA?+ /ATUE1 HIS FEATURES NEV] MOLD$ 9TO ! EXPRESSION ( A MEAN+1 NOR HIS M\? OP5$ = ! UTT]ANCE ( A S\ND4 ,FROM ! FIR/ ,I HAD BE5 /RUCK ) ! EXTREME & DEA?-LIKE SIL5CE ?AT *>ACT]IZ$ ! PLACE ( MY CONF9EM5T2 BUT MY M9D WAS OCCUPI$ ) O!R ?\ = A ,FR5*MAN1 & 9CL9$ TO TACITURNITY3 ,I HAD RESOLV$ TO MAKE A FAIR & AMPLE TRIAL ( ! P[] ( A JU/ DEF5SE1 :]E MY 9NOC5CE WAS SO COMPLETE & ,I WAS 5TIRELY DIS5GAG$ FROM ?OSE UNFAVORABLE APPE>ANCES :I* HAD CON/ITUT$ MY MIS=TUNE AT ,CON/ANCE2 & ,I EV5 REJOIC$1 ?AT A SIL5CE1 :I* ,I REG>D$ AS CASUAL & 9DIVIDUAL1 DELIV]$ ME FROM ALL FE> ( IMP]T95CE 9 MY ATT5DANT4 ,) H[ DIFF]5T A TEMP] DO WE CONTEMPLATE AN 9CID5T :I*1 WE P]SUADE \RSELVES1 CONT9UES TO OP]ATE ONLY BECAUSE WE WANT 9CL9ATION TO REMOVE IT2 & AN 9CID5T :I* IS VIOL5TLY IMPOS$1 & TO :I*1 ) ! UTMO/ EX]TION ( \R /R5G?1 WE CANNOT SUCCE$ TO IMP>T ! SLIT ( TYRANNY IS ?IS SIL5CE6 ,! JAIL] MID ( OPPRESSIONS )\T A/ONI%M5T OR 9DIGNATION4 ,?IS IS ! PECULI> PR]OGATIVE ( DESPOTISM3 IT PRODUCES MANY SYMPTOMS ( ! SAME G5]AL APPE>ANCE AS ?OSE :I* >E D]IV$ FROM LIB]TY & JU/ICE4 ,!RE >E NO REMON/RANCES2 !RE IS NO IMPATI5CE OR VIOL5CE2 !RE IS A CALM1 A FATAL & ACCURS$ TRANQUILITY ?AT P]VADES ! :OLE4 ,! SPECTATOR 5T]S1 & = A TIME MIS9T]PRETS EV]Y OBJECT HE SEES2 HE P]CEIVES HUMAN BODIES /&+ OR MOV+ >\ND HIM2 & IT IS ) ! UTMO/ SURPRISE1 IF HE HAS LEISURE & OPPORTUNITY TO OBS]VE A LITTLE FUR!R1 ?AT HE F9DS AT LA/ ! ?+S HE SEES TO BE ! M]E %ADES ( M51 COLD1 9]T1 GL>+ BODIES1 :I* ! HEAV5-BORN S\L HAS LONG S9CE DES]T$4 ,WOND]FUL1 ,I HESITATE NOT TO AFFIRM1 IS ! G5U9E & DIRECT P[] ( SU* A SITUATION AS ?AT 9 :I* ,I WAS N[ PLAC$1 UPON ! HUMAN IMAG9ATION4 ,:AT WAS IT !N TO ME1 TO :OM SPEE* WAS NOT M]ELY ONE ( ?OSE ?+S1 MISNAM$ 9DULG5CES1 MISNAM$ LUXURIES1 UPON :I* ! DESIRABL5ESS & ! HEAL? ( HUMAN EXI/5CE DEP5D2 BUT :O HAD LOOK$ TO IT AS ! ONLY & ! ASSUR$ MEANS ( MY RESCUE FROM ?IS SC5E ( HORRORS6 ,I 9TREAT ! READ] TO P>DON ME1 :5 ,I CONFESS1 ?AT ! OP]ATION ( ! DISCOV]Y ,I MADE WAS SO OV]:ELM+ & APP>5TLY DESP]ATE1 ?AT IT WAS SOME WEEKS1 ,I MIDS ! CLOSE ( ! P]IOD ,I HAVE NAM$1 ?AT A NEW 9CID5T1 CONCURR+ ) ?AT FAMILI>ITY :I* S]VES 9 SOME MEASURE TO DIS>M EV]Y MIS*IEF ( ITS /+1 RE/OR$ & RE-AWAK5$ MY M9D4 ,I HAD VEGETAT$ N[ = SOME TIME1 IF ! METAPHOR CAN ) PROPRIETY BE APPLI$ TO EXI/5CE 9 A NOXI\S & EMPOISON$ AIR1 BY :I* ALL VEGETATION W\LD HAVE BE5 UND]M9$1 & :I* ! VITAL PR9CIPLE 9 MAN IS SC>CELY COMPET5T TO SURM\NT2 & 9 ALL ?IS P]IOD HAD 5C\NT]$ NO?+ FROM )\T1 NOR RECEIV$ ANY 9TIMATION1 ?AT C\LD 9 ! SLIY H\R ( MY BE+ ATT5D$ BY MY W>D]1 ,I WAS SURPRIS$ TO SEE HIM BR+ ) HIM A VISIT] TO MY CELL4 ,! UNKN[N WAS A MAN ) GRAY HAIRS & A SILV] BE>D3 ?\< ONCE TALL1 HE N[ /OOP$ CONSID]ABLY1 & SUPPORT$ HIMSELF ) A /AFF3 HIS DRESS WAS SIMPLE & NEAT1 & HIS :OLE APPE>ANCE PREPOSSESS+4 ,A SWEET S]5ITY WAS DIFFUS$ OV] HIS C\NT5ANCE2 YET !RE W]E OCCASIONALLY A FIRE1 & A CONTEMPLATIVE GRASP ( ?\D] HAD BR\D] LEFT US ALONE4 ,! UNKN[N BECKON$ ME TO BE SEAT$1 = ! FIR/ EMOTION ( SURPRISE AT ! 5TRANCE ( A /RANG] HAD CAUS$ ME TO />T ON MY FEET2 &1 OP5+ A FOLD+ /OOL HE HAD RECEIV$ FROM MY ATT5DANT1 HE PLAC$ HIMSELF BESIDE ME4 ,HE !N ADDRESS$ ME 9 A L[ VOICE1 & TOLD ME1 ?AT ! HUMANITY ( ! FA!RS ( ! 9QUISITION HAD GIV5 HIM P]MISSION TO VISIT ME1 & ?AT1 IF ,I W\LD BE SO OBLIG+1 9 CON=MITY TO ! REGULATIONS ( ! PRISON1 AS TO L[] MY VOICE TO ! /&>D ( HIS1 WE W]E AT LIB]TY TO CONF] TOGE!R4 ,HE HOP$ ! CONF]5CE W\LD BE SOME RELIEF TO MY SOLITUDE1 IF NOT LEAD TO MY COMPLETE LIB]ATION4 ,HE !N UNFOLD$ TO ME HIS /ORY4 ,HE TOLD ME ?AT HE1 LIKE MYSELF1 HAD BE5 COMMITT$ TO ! PRISONS ( ! 9QUISITION UPON AN ACCUSATION ( SORC]Y4 ,HAV+ ADVANC$ ?US F>1 HE /OPP$4 ,HE TALK$ MISCELLANE\SLY & DIGRESSIVELY ( WIZ>DS & !IR FAMILI>S1 ( POSSESSIONS & DEMONS1 ( *>MS1 SPELLS1 TALISMANS & 9CANTATIONS1 EV5 ( ! ELIXIR VITAE & ! PHILOSOPH]'S /ONE4 ,SOMETIMES 9 ! PROGRESS ( ?IS DISC\RSE ,I C\LD P]CEIVE HIM OBS]V+ ME ) ! UTMO/ N>R[NESS1 AS IF HE W\LD DOVE 9TO MY S\L2 & AGA91 P>TICUL>LY :5 HE CAU5T DESIGN ( MAK+ ME =GET ! 9QUIRY ,I HAD MADE4 ,HE AVOID$ ANTICIPATION1 LE/ HE %\LD MISCALCULATE & TAKE WRONG GR\ND 9 MY AFFAIR2 &1 ?\< SUP]FICIALLY HE SEEM$ COMMUNICATIVE1 ,I F\ND ?AT HE SC>CELY TOLD ME RESPECT+ HIMSELF ANY ONE ?+ DEF9ITE & CLE>4 ,HE CELEBRAT$ ! CLEM5CY ( ! FA!RS ( ! 9QUISITION4 ,HE SAID1 !Y SEEM$ TO REG>D !MSELVES AS ! ADOPTIVE P>5TS ( ?OSE !Y HELD 9 !IR CU/ODY1 & W]E ANXI\S SOLELY = ! RE/ORATION ( S\LS4 ,9 !IR EXT]IOR !Y W]E AU/]E1 & HAD UN=TUNATELY CONTRACT$ A =BIDD+ MANN]2 BUT HE HAD SOON F\ND1 UPON A CLOS] 9SPECTION ( !IR *>ACT]1 ?AT ! ONLY WAY TO DEAL SUCCESSFULLY ) !M WAS TO REPOSE 9 !M A P]FECT CONFID5CE4 ,?IS PANEGYRIC WAS NOT RESORT$ TO TILL HE HAD EXHAU/$ ! V>I\S TOPICS BY :I* HE HAD HOP$ HIMSELF TO EXTORT MY SECRET FROM ME4 ,I ASK$ HIM1 :E!R ! EFFECT ( HIS REPOS+ CONFID5CE HAD BE5 AN ABJURATION ( SORC]Y1 & RECONCILIATION TO ! *UR*8 ,BUT ?IS QUE/ION EXP]I5C$ ! FATE ( EV]Y O!R ?AT ,I ADDRESS$ TO HIM4 ,HE ONLY TOLD ME G5]ALLY1 ?AT HE HAD EV]Y REASON TO BE SATISFI$ )1 & TO SPEAK WELL (1 ! TREATM5T HE HAD EXP]I5C$ 9 ! H\SE ( ! 9QUISITION4 ,HE POSSESS$1 OR RA!R1 AS ,I BELIEV$1 AFFECT$1 A *>ACT] ( ?\RULITY & LOQUACITY1 WELL ADAPT$ TO COV] ! /RANGE DEVIATIONS & ABRUPT TRANSITIONS ?AT M>K$ HIS DISC\RSE4 ,IT WAS C]TA9LY S+UL>LY CONTRA/$ ) ?AT CLOSE & P5ETRAT+ AIR :I* FROM TIME TO TIME ,I REM>K$ 9 HIM4 ,! READ] MAY DEEM IT SURPRIS+ & UNACC\NTABLE2 BUT C]TA9 IT IS ,I TOOK UNCOMMON DELINE/LY TO REPEAT HIS VISITS1 & W\LD SC>CELY SUFF] HIM TO DEP>T1 TILL HE HAD PROMIS$ TO COME TO ME AGA9 ! NEXT DAY OR ! DAY AFT]4 ,YET ,I LOOK$ ON HIM AS MY MORTAL 5EMY1 & HAD NO D\BT ?AT HE WAS ONE ( ! 9FAM\S WRET*ES1 EMPLOY$ BY ! POLICY ( ! 9QUISITION1 & WELL KN[N B5EA? ?OSE HAT$ RO(S BY ! APPELLATION ( MOSCAS4 ,V>I\S REASONS MAY BE ASSIGN$ = MY CONDUCT 9 ?IS P>TICUL>4 ,LET IT FIR/ BE REMEMB]$ ?AT ,I WAS ALONE1 & = MON?S HAD NOT HE>D ! S\ND ( MY [N VOICE4 ,NO 9CID5T M>K$ MY DAYS2 NO OBJECT >RE/$ MY ATT5TION4 ,A DULL1 HEAVY1 PE/IL5TIAL1 S\L-DEPRESS+ MONOTONY =M$ ! HI/ORY ( MY LIFE4 ,IF 9 ?IS SITUATION ,I HAD BE5 VISIT$ BY A M\SE OR A RAT1 ,I %\LD 9DEFATIGABLY HAVE S\M? ( ANIMAL LIFE PRESS+ RESPONSIVELY ON MY HE>T4 ,) :AT EAG] APPETITE ,I %\LD HAVE MIX$ 9 SC5ES ( CALAMITY & CRUELTY1 9TOL]ABLE TO ANY O!R EYE1 GLAD = MYSELF ?AT EV5 UPON SU* T]MS ,I C\LD ESCAPE ! FRO/B\ND W9T] ( ! S\L6 ,H[ ,I %\LD HAVE REJOIC$1 LIKE K+ ,RI*>D ( ,5GL&1 TO SEE F\R GRIM & DEA?-DEAL+ ASSASS9S 5T] MY CELL1 LIKE HIM TO /RUGGLE & WRE/LE & CONT5D ) MY MURD]]S1 ?\<1 AS 9 HIS CASE1 W\NDS & A FATAL 5D %\LD BE ! RESULT6 ,?US FEEL+ !N1 IT IS LITTLE WOND]FUL ?AT ,I %\LD HAVE HAIL$ ) PLEASURE ! VISIT ( ! MOSCA4 ,BUT ?IS WAS NOT ALL4 ,:ILE ,I CONF]R$ )1 OR RA!R LI/5$ TO MY VISIT]1 ?AT PRIDE & SELF COMPLAC5CY1 :I* ,I SUSPECT TO BE ! MA91 OR AT LEA/ ! 9DISP5SABLE1 +R$I5T ( ALL \R PLEASURES1 REVIV$ 9 MY HE>T4 ,I BELIEV$ ?AT HE WAS SET UPON ME BY !SE 9SATIABLE BLOODSUCK]S ( ! 9QUISITION1 ?AT HE MIE ME ) HIS QUE/IONS1 & TREA*]\SLY 9VEIGLE ME TO ! FAGOT & ! /AKE4 ,I FELT A LA/1 LAMB5T 9TIMATION ( PRIDE )9 ME1 :5 MY HE>T :ISP]$ ME1 0,?IS MAN %ALL NOT ATTA9 HIS 5DS40 ,I SECRETLY DEFI$ HIS >TS1 & AMUS$ MYSELF ) BAFFL+ HIS MO/ CUNN+ DEVICES4 ,I HAD N[ SOME ONE ) :OM TO MEASURE MYSELF4 ,! COMP>ISON1 ,I [N1 = A DESC5DANT ( ! C\NTS ( ,/4 ,LEON1 WAS A HUMBLE ONE2 BUT IT IS NOT P]MITT$ A PRISON] 9 ! JAILS ( ! 9QUISITION TO BE FA/IDI\S 9 HIS PLEASURES4 ,?IS MAN ,I PLAY$ ) AT MY EASE1 & LAU<$ AT HIS /RATAGEMS4 ,I !RE=E FELT ?AT ,I WAS HIS SUP]IOR1 &1 :I* WAS A S5SATION ,I HAD NOT LATELY BE5 ACCU/OM$ TO1 ?AT ,I WAS SOMEBODY4 ,!SE FEEL+S RECOMM5D$ TO ME HIS VISITS4 ,BUT :AT WAS MU* MORE MAT]IAL1 ,I LOOK$ FUR!R1 & PROPOS$ AN ULTIMATE 5D TO ?IS OCCURR5CE4 ,LET IT BE RECOLLECT$ :AT WAS MY UNHAPP9ESS1 :5 ,I F\ND MYSELF1 IF ,I MAY BE ALL[$ ! EXPRESSION1 SUDD5LY DEPRIV$ ( SPEE*1 & !N IT WILL EASILY BE UND]/OOD H[ S9C]ELY ,I REJOIC$ TO HAVE ?IS FACULTY RE/OR$ TO ME4 ,SPEE*1 AS ,I HAVE ALREADY SAID1 ,I HAD REG>D$ AS ! ONLY & ASSUR$ MEANS ( MY DELIV]ANCE FROM ?IS SC5E ( HORRORS4 ,I !RE=E D\BT$ NOT ?AT FROM ?IS MIS]ABLE TOOL ( MY OPPRESSORS ,I W\LD OBTA9 MY 5L>GEM5T4 ,I /OOD FIRMLY ON MY GU>D4 ,I P]MITT$ HIM TO RUN \T ! :OLE L5G? ( HIS [N PROJECT )\T 9T]RUPTION4 ,BY ?IS DELAY ,I %\LD BETT] UND]/& HIS *>ACT]1 & F9ALLY SEIZE IT ) A MORE DECISIVE GRASP4 ,?US PURPOS+1 ,I ALL[$ ?REE OR F\R VISITS TO PASS BE=E ,I OP5$ TO ! MOSCA MY [N PROPOSAL4 ,I DESIGN$ UNEXPECT$LY TO TURN ! TABLES UPON HIM1 TO SURPRISE & F9I% ) HIM AT ONCE4 ,I KNEW NOT ?AT ALL ?IS PRECAUTION WAS NECESS>Y1 BUT ,I PLAY$ = TOO DEEP A /AKE1 NOT TO BE ANXI\S TO OMIT NO?+1 :I* H]EAFT] 9 RETROSPECT ,I MID$LY HAVE DROPP$1 EV]Y LOOK & GE/URE ?AT C\LD HAVE BE5 9T]PRET$ TO MY DISADVANTAGE1 W\LD HAVE BE5 9/ANTLY REPORT$ TO ! FA!RS ( ! 9QUISITION4 ,:Y1 :AT A POOR & MIS]ABLE FOOL MU/ Y\ HAVE IMAG9$ ME TO BE6 ,H[ CAME Y\ 9TO MY CELL8 ,HAD Y\ A SECRET KEY BY :I* Y\ F\ND Y\R WAY HI!R UNKN[N8 ,C\LD Y\ EV] HAVE COME 9TO MY AP>TM5T1 IF Y\ HAD NOT BE5 EMPLOY$8 ,Y\ FAWN UPON ME1 & >E ! TAME & PASSIVE AG5T ( MY M]CILESS DE/ROY]S6 ,%AME ON SU* BASE & P]FIDI\S PROCE$+S6 ,IS ?IS RELIGION1 ?AT Y\ %\LD FLATT] & CAJOLE & LIE TO A MAN1 PURELY ?AT Y\ MAY HAVE ! GRATIFICATION AT LA/ ( BURN+ HIM ALIVE8 ,IF Y\ OR Y\R MA/]S CAN MAKE \T ANY ?+ TO MY DISADVANTAGE1 LET !M MAKE IT \T 9 ! WAY ( FAIR & OP5 TRIAL1 BY ! PRODUCTION ( DIRECT EVID5CE1 & CALL+ ON ME = MY DEF5SE4 ,!Y /YLE !MSELVES ! *AMPIONS ( ,*RI/5DOM & ORNAM5TS ( \R HOLY FAI?2 !Y PRET5D TO AN EXTRAORD9>Y DEGREE ( SANCTITY1 & W\LD HAVE ALL M5 B[ D[N 9 MUTE REV]5CE & A/ONI%M5T AT !IR GODL9ESS2 & YET !Y HAVE REC\RSE TO MEANS SO BASE1 ?AT ! MO/ PR(LIGATE & AB&ON$ TYRANT UPON RECORD W\LD HAVE DISDA9$ TO EMPLOY !M4 ,BUT1 BASE AS >E ! JUDGES & ASSESSORS ( ! C\RT 9 :OSE PRISON ,I /&1 EV5 !Y SCORN ! MEANNESS ( ! P]FIDI\S TASK 9 :I* Y\ HAVE 5GAG$40 ,! VEHEM5CE ,I PUT 9TO ! SUPPRESS$ & UND]-TONE ) :I* ,I DELIV]$ !SE REPROA*ES1 SEEM$ TO PRODUCE NO EMOTION 9 MY GUE/4 ,HE DROPP$ HIS /AFF UPON HIS %\LD]2 HE MEEKLY FOLD$ HIS >MS UPON HIS BOSOM1 & ANSW]$1 ?AT HE HAD LONG S9CE LE>N$ TO BE> EV]Y CONTUMELY = ! CAUSE ( ,GOD & ! ,R$EEM]3 !Y W]E HEAV5-DIRECT$ *A/ISEM5TS1 :I* HIS MANIFOLD S9S & 9IQUITIES HAD AMPLY DES]V$4 0,HYPOCRITE60 REPLI$ ,I1 0W\LD Y\ MAKE ME BELIEVE ?AT A CONSCI5TI\S MOTIVE CAN PROMPT SU* CONDUCT AS Y\RS1 CAN MOLD Y\R FEATURES 9TO A TREA*]\S EXPRESSION ( K9DNESS1 & FILL Y\R M\? ) LIES & DECEPTIONS 9NUM]ABLE80 0,NO PROCE$+S10 REJO9$ HE1 ) AN UNALT]$ AIR1 0>E BASE1 ?AT ,GOD & HIS *UR* PRESCRIBE4 ,I TAKE UP ! CROSS ) *E]FULNESS1 & GLORY 9 MY %AME4 ,! MORE IGNOM9I\S 9 ! EYES ( AN UNREG5]ATE WORLD IS MY CONDUCT1 ! MORE 5TIRE & IMPLICIT DOES IT PROVE MY OB$I5CE TO BE40 ,MY HE>T SWELL$ )9 ME AS HE TALK$4 ,I C\LD L5D NO ATT5TION TO SU* DESPICABLE CANT1 & WAS A%AM$ TO SEE ! MO/ PR(LIGATE CONDUCT ASSUM+ TO ITSELF ! PRET5SIONS TO AN EXTRAORD9>Y DEGREE ( SANCTITY & DIS9T]E/$NESS4 0,COME1 COME10 SAID ,I1 0DISSEMBL]2 ,I KN[ ?AT NO?+ C\LD BUY A MAN TO SO LOA?SOME AN (FICE BUT MONEY4 ,Y\ >E SOME GALLEY-SLAVE1 SOME WRET*1 :O BY Y\R COMPLICAT$ CRIMES HAVE =FEIT$ Y\R LIFE TO ! COMMUNITY1 & >E N[ P]MITT$ TO E>N A MIS]ABLE EXI/5CE BY LY+ 9 WAIT = ! UN=TUNATE1 & 5GAG+ 9 >TS AT :I* HUMANITY %UDD]S4 ,I TAKE Y\ UPON Y\R [N T]MS2 Y\ >E ! MAN ,I WANT4 ,ASSI/ ME TO ESCAPE2 GO ) ME TO SOME SAF] & LESS CRUEL C\NTRY2 ,I WILL REW>D Y\ TO ! EXT5T ( Y\R WI%ES4 ,GIVE ME Y\R H&2 AN E/ATE ( SIX ?\S& PI/OLES P] ANNUM1 )\T FUR!R CONDITION1 WAITS Y\R ACCEPTANCE4 ,I 9VOKE ALL ! P[]S1 SACR$ TO TRU? & PUNI%]S ( DECEIT1 TO WITNESS1 ?AT ,I HAVE ABILITY TO MAKE GOOD ! :OLE ( :AT ,I PROMISE40 ,:ILE ,I SPOKE1 ,I C\LD P]CEIVE AN EXTRAORD9>Y REVOLUTION TAK+ PLACE 9 MY GUE/4 ,! MEEKNESS & TRANQUILITY ( HIS C\NT5ANCE SUBSID$2 HIS EYE BECAME ANIMAT$ & ALIVE4 ,I HAIL$ ! AUSPICI\S OM52 ,I URG$ MY PROPOSAL ) ALL ! IMPETUOSITY ,I C\LD EX]T & ALL ! >GUM5TS ,I C\LD DEVISE4 ,AT L5G? ,I PAUS$4 ,I LOOK$ AGA9 AT ! C\NT5ANCE ( ! MOSCA2 ,I WAS LESS PLEAS$ ?AN BE=E4 ,! EXPRESSION DID NOT SEEM TO BE ?AT ( ASS5T & CONGRATULATION2 IT WAS RA!R ( HORROR & AL>M4 0,/4 ,JAGO1 & ALL ! SA9TS & ANGELS ( HEAV51 PROTECT ME60 EXCLAIM$ HE4 0,:AT DO ,I HE>8 ,A FULL CONFESSION ( GUILT6 ,& >T ?\ !N ! CONF$]ATE ( ! PR9CE ( ! P[]S ( D>KNESS8 ,IF WE W]E NOT H]E1 9 ! HOLY H\SE ( 9QUISITION1 ,I %\LD DIE AT ?IS MOM5T ) FE> ?AT ! RO( W\LD FALL & CRU% US TOGE!R4 ,I %\LD EXPECT HELL TO SWALL[ ME ALIVE1 = BE+ F\ND 9 ?Y UNHALL[$ SOCIETY40 ,HE TREMBL$ ) EV]Y EXPRESSION ( ! S9C]E/ T]ROR & AV]SION4 0',?Y MONEY P]I% ) !E1' ?\ SECOND ,ELYMAS1 LIKE HIM 'FULL ( ALL SUBTLETY & MIS*IEF1 *ILD ( ! DEVIL1 5EMY ( ALL RI*-DECEIV] ( MANK9D1 :AT HAS ! DEVIL DONE = !E8 ,HE HAS P]SUAD$ !E ?AT ?\ >T RI*2 & ?\ WANTE/ EV]Y JOY & EV]Y NECESS>Y ( LIFE4 ,HE HAS PROMIS$ TO BE ?Y FRI5D2 & HE BR+S !E TO ! FAGOT & FLAMES 9 ?IS WORLD1 AS AN E>NE/ ( ?Y ET]NAL DAMNATION H]EAFT]40 ,MY VISIT] HAD NO SOON] ?US P\R$ \T ! TUMULT & AGITATION ( HIS S\L1 ?AN HE LEFT ME ABRUPTLY1 & ,I SAW HIM NO MORE4 ,SU* WAS ! EV5T ( MY ATTEMPT TO BRIBE ! (FIC]S ( ! 9QUISITION4 ,9 MY FIR/ EXP]IM5T ,I C\LD NOT EV5 OBTA9 A HE>+2 9 :AT FOLL[$1 MY PROPOSALS W]E REJECT$ ) ALL ! TRANSPORTS ( RELIGI\S ABHORR5CE4 ,:AT ,I (F]$ 9DE$1 H[EV] DAZZL+ 9 ! /ATEM5T1 HAD NOT 9 FACT ! NATURE ( A TEMPTATION4 ,HE TO :OM ,I ADDRESS$ IT GAVE NO CR$IT TO MY ASS]TIONS2 HE ?\*-DECEIV] ( MANK9D1 OR ?AT MY MONEY1 :5 POSSESS$1 W\LD SOON *ANGE ITS FIGURE1 & FROM SEEM+ PIECES ( SOLID CO9 BE CONV]T$ 9TO PIECES ( HORN OR ( %ELLS4 ,EV5 IF HE HAD NOT APPREH5D$ SU* A METAMORPHOSIS1 HE W\LD YET HAVE REG>D$ EV]Y D\BLOON HE RECEIV$ AS ! PRICE ( HIS CONT9UAL ADV]SITY H]E1 & DAMNATION H]EAFT]4 ,I GA9$ NO?+ FAVORABLE = MY SITUATION BY ! TRIAL ,I HAD MADE1 BUT ,I ADD$ A NEW *APT] TO MY KN[L$GE ( HUMAN NATURE4 ,I F\ND1 ?AT TO BE A KNAVE1 IT WAS NOT NECESS>Y TO BE AN 9FIDEL3 ,I CORRECT$ ! TOO HA/Y CONCLUSION :I* ,I HAD ADOPT$ ) ! RE/ ( MY CONTEMPOR>IES1 ?AT HE :OSE CONDUCT WAS 9FAM\S1 MU/ 9EVITABLY BE DE/ITUTE ( RELIGI\S IMPRESSIONS & BELIEF2 & ,I BECAME SATISFI$ ?AT A MAN1 :ILE HE PRACTIC$ EV]Y VICE ?AT CAN DISGRACE HUMAN NATURE1 MIS4 ,?\< ! WRET* :O HAD BE5 PLAC$ UPON ME AS A SPY1 WAS1 FROM MY PROPOSAL TO HIM1 SATISFI$ ( MY GUILT1 HIS SUP]IORS W]E NOT SO4 ,!Y F\ND NO?+ 9 :AT HE REPORT$ DEF9ITIVE AS TO ! NATURE ( MY UNLAWFUL PRACTICES1 & !Y C\LD EXTORT FROM ME NO FUR!R CONFESSION4 ,!Y !RE=E ADH]$ TO !IR FAVORITE MAXIM1 TO AVOID ! PRECIPITATE MI/AKES ( O!R TRIBUNALS1 & TO ALL[ !IR PRISON] FULL TIME TO DEVELOP HIS GUILT1 OR1 AS !Y PRET5D$1 TO E/ABLI% HIS 9NOC5CE4 ,P]HAPS TOO ! TEMP] ( ! PR9CE :O N[ FILL$ ! ,SPANI% ?RONE1 CONTRIBUT$ TO MY SAFETY4 ,!Y C\LD NOT CONT5T !MSELVES ) A LESS PUNI%M5T = SO OB/9ATE & 9CORRIGIBLE A H]ETIC1 ?AN ?AT ( ! FLAMES2 BUT1 DUR+ ! REIGN ( ! EMP]OR ,*>LES1 ?IS SPECIES ( PUNI%M5T = H]ESY WAS R>ELY 9FLICT$1 & ONLY ONE OR TWO CONTUMACI\S1 AT 9T]VALS1 W]E DELIV]$ OV] TO ! EXECUTION] AT A TIME4 ,! 9/ITUTION :OSE VICTIM ,I HAD BECOME1 LOOK$ = A RI*] & MORE ABUNDANT H>VE/ FROM ! WELL-KN[N PIETY & ZEAL ( HIS SUCCESSOR4 ,I PASS OV] ! RE/ ( ! YE>S ( MY T$I\S IMPRISONM5T ,!Y HAD 9 !M A SAD & DEA?-LIKE UNI=MITY4 ,:AT SURPRIS+ OR AGREEABLE ADV5TURES CAN BE EXPECT$ FROM A MAN CLOS$ UP )9 ! F\R WALLS ( A DUNGEON8 ,YET IT IS NOT ALTOGE!R ! UNI=MITY ( ?IS P]IOD ?AT DET]M9ES ME NOT TO DWELL UPON & EXP& IT4 ,TWELVE YE>S CANNOT PASS 9 ! LIFE ( MAN )\T MANY MEMORABLE 9CID5TS & OCCURR5CES4 ,HE ?AT %\LD BE BURI$ ALIVE 9 ! DEEPE/ CAV]N ( ! E>?1 IF HE W]E NOT AN IDIOT1 OR 9CAPABLE ( ! TASK ( N>RATION1 & C\LD SUBSI/ TWELVE YE>S 9 ?AT SITUATION1 C\LD TELL ( ?+S ?AT OCCURR$ TO HIM1 ?AT MIE1 :O SUPPOSE MY FACULTIES W]E ALTOGE!R B5UMB$ OR DEAD1 ?AT IT WAS NOT SO4 ,I DID 9DE$ PASS DAYS1 P]HAPS WEEKS1 9 A CONDITION ( ?AT SORT4 ,BUT AT O!R TIMES MY M9D WAS R\S$1 & BECAME BUSY1 RE/LESS1 IMPATI5T1 & 9V5TIVE4 ,!RE WAS NO MODE ( ESCAPE ?AT ,I DID NOT RUM9ATE UPON OR ATTEMPT2 NOT TO M5TION ?AT1 ?\< MY BODY WAS RE/RA9$1 MY M9D OCCASIONALLY SO>$ TO ! FUR!/ REGIONS ( ! EMPYREAN1 OR PLUNG$ 9TO ! DEEPE/ ( ! RECESSES 9 :I* NATURE CONCEALS H] OP]ATIONS4 ,ALL SY/EMS ( PHILOSOPHIZ+ BECAME FAMILI> TO ME4 ,I REVOLV$ EV]Y DIFF]5T FABLE ?AT HAS BE5 CON/RUCT$ RESPECT+ ! 9VISIBLE P[]S ?AT SUP]9T5D ! EV5TS ( ! B\NDLESS UNIV]SE2 & ,I FE>LESSLY TRAC$ \T & DEVELOP$ ! BOLDE/ CONJECTURES & ASS]TIONS ( DEMONISM OR A!ISM4 ,AS ! HUMOR ( ! MOM5T L$ ME1 ,I D]IV$ MIS]Y OR CONSOLATION FROM EA* ( !SE SY/EMS 9 !IR TURN4--,BUT MEMORY1 BITT] MEMORY1 UNP]CEIV$ BY ITS LORD1 IS SEIZ+ MY P51 & RUNN+ AWAY ) MY N>RATIVE4 ,5\<1 5\< ( ! 9T]IOR ( ! PRISON ( ! 9QUISITION6 ,FROM 3 ,!,AN>*I/,LIBR>Y4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,JANU>Y #e1 #bba 3 ,*APT] #ca -- ,ADD$4 ,JANU>Y #a#g1 #bbb 3 ,*APT] #ca -- ,UPDAT$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/