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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,WILLIAM ,GODW9 

,TEXT 3 

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,IT WAS ?US ?AT ,I SPURR$ MYSELF TO P]SI/ 9 ! PA? UPON :I* ,I HAD 5T]$4 ,HAV+ REMA9$ SOME TIME AT ,DRESD51 FLATT]+ MYSELF ) ! HOPE ?AT ,*>LES MI<T YET JO9 ME BE=E ,I QUITT$ ?AT CITY1 ,I BEGAN TO ?9K ( ONCE MORE TURN+ MY /EPS T[>DS ! RESID5CE ( MY FAMILY4 ,?IS WAS NO *E]FUL ?\<T2 BUT UPON :AT WAS ,I TO DET]M9E8 ,I HAD A WIFE :OM ,I >D5TLY LOV$1 & ?REE DAU<T]S ! D>L+S ( MY HE>T4 ,BECAUSE ,I HAD LO/ A BELOV$ SON WAS ,I TO E/RANGE MYSELF FROM !SE8 ,I ALREADY FELT MO/ PA9FULLY ! DETA*M5T & WIDO:OOD TO :I* ,I WAS R$UC$1 & ,I CLUNG ) IMP]I\S AFFECTION TO :AT REMA9$ ( MY RACE4 ,! MEET+ ,I PURPOS$ MU/ BE A MELAN*OLY ONE2 BUT1 9 ! SORR[S ( ! HE>T !RE IS A PUR] & NOBL] GRATIFICATION ?AN 9 ! MO/ TUMULTU\S PLEASURES :]E AFFECTION IS SIL5T4 ,I LOOK$ =W>D 9DE$ TO SC5ES ( 5DLESS V>IETY & ATTRACTION1 BUT 9 ! MEAN TIME :AT SEEM$ FIR/ TO DEM& MY ATT5TION WAS ! BELOV$ CIRCLE ,I HAD LEFT BEH9D 9 ! CITY ( ,CON/ANCE4 

,I RETRAC$1 UPON ! PRES5T OCCASION1 ! R\TE ,I HAD LATELY PURSU$ ) MY SON4 ,H[ DIFF]5T W]E N[ MY S5SATIONS6 ,MY HE>T WAS !N 9DE$ PA9FULLY IMPRESS$ ) ! V>IANCE & DISSOLUTION ( CONFID5CE ?AT HAD >IS5 BETWE5 ME & HIS MO!R4 ,IT WAS P]HAPS PR9CIPALLY = ! SAKE ( BANI%+ ?IS IMPRESSION ?AT ,I HAD HAD REC\RSE TO ! SPL5DOR ( EQUIPAGE & ATT5DANCE :I* WAS FIR/ ASSUM$ UPON ! J\RNEY FROM ,CON/ANCE TO ,DRESD54 ,NOR1 FRIVOL\S AS ?IS EXP$I5T MAY APPE> 9 ! UNATTRACTIVE DISPASSIONAT5ESS ( N>RATIVE1 HAD IT BE5 BY ANY MEANS WEAK ( EFFECT AT ! TIME IT WAS EMPLOY$4 ,:5 ,*>LES WAS ONCE M\NT$ ON HIS PR\D & IMPATI5T /E$1 & DECORAT$ 9 RI* & CO/LY ATTIRE1 ,I FELT1 AS IT W]E1 ! SLUGGI%NESS ( MY IMAG9ATION R\S$2 ,I SURVEY$ HIS %APE & HIS C\NT5ANCE ) 9EXPRESSIBLE COMPLAC5CE2 & ALREADY ANTICIPAT$ ! P]IOD :5 HE WAS TO BECOME ! FAVORITE ( HIS SOV]EIGN & HIS C\NTRY'S PRIDE4 ,N[ ,I RETURN$ ) ! SAME RET9UE2 BUT ! PLACE ?AT HAD BE5 OCCUPI$ BY MY SON WAS EMPTY4 ,I S\<T HIM ) FRANTIC & RE/LESS GAZE2 ,I FIGUR$ HIM TO MY DI/URB$ & FURI\S IMAG9ATION1 TILL ! S5SATIONS & PHANTOMS ( MY BRA9 BECAME 9TOL]ABLE2 ,I RAV$ & IMPRECAT$ CURSES ON MYSELF4 ,I 5DEAVOR$ TO DIV]T MY ?\<TS BY OBS]V+ ! SC5ES ?AT PASS$ BE=E ME4 ,!Y TALK$ TO ME ( ,*>LES2 !Y HAD BE5 PO9T$ \T BY EA* TO EA*1 & HAD BE5 ! SUBJECT ( \R MUTUAL COMM5T4 ,?\< ,*>LES WAS 5D[$ ) A HI< RELI% = ! BEAUTIES ( NATURE1 &1 9 \R LITTLE RETREAT ON ! BORD]S ( ! LAKE1 HAD LIV$ 9 ! MID/ ( !M1 HE HAD SE5 LITTLE ( ! V>IETY ( H] FEATURES2 & ! J\RNEY WE MADE ?R\< ! HE>T ( ,G]MANY HAD FURNI%$ HIM ) CONT9UAL FOOD = ADMIRATION & DELI<T4 ,NOR DID ! SC5ES ,I BEHELD M]ELY REM9D ME ( ! S5SATIONS !Y PRODUC$ 9 ,*>LES2 !Y L$ ME ?R\< A WID] FIELD4 ,I RECOLLECT$ LONG CONV]SATIONS & DIGRESSIVE EXCURSIONS :I* HAD BE5 />T$ BY ! IMPRESSION !Y MADE4 ,I RECOLLECT$ MANY PASSAGES & OCCURR5CES TO :I* !Y HAD NOT ! SLI<TE/ REF]5CE1 BUT :I*1 HAV+ >IS5 :ILE !Y CON/ITUT$ ! VISIBLE SC5E1 W]E =CIBLY REVIV$ BY ITS RE-APPE>ANCE4 ,?US1 FROM V>I\S CAUSES1 MY LO/ & LAM5T$ SON WAS NOT A MOM5T \T ( MY ?\<TS DUR+ ! J\RNEY4 ,:ILE ,I CONT9U$ AT ,DRESD51 ,I SEEM$ DAILY TO EXPECT HIS RETURN2 BUT NO SOON] DID ,I QUIT ?AT CITY ?AN DESPAIR TOOK POSSESSION ( MY HE>T4 

,?US1 ANXI\S & DI/RESS$1 ,I >RIV$ AT ,PRAGUE1 & SOON AFT] AT ,RATISBON4 ,I TRAVEL$ SL[LY1 BECAUSE1 ?\< ,I WAS DESIR\S ( RETURN+ TO ,CON/ANCE1 ,I ANTICIPAT$ MY >RIVAL !RE ) LITTLE COMPLAC5CE4 ,AS ,I DREW NE>] TO MY FAMILY1 ,I FELT MORE DI/9CTLY ! IMPOSSIBILITY ( PRES5T+ MYSELF BE=E !M1 )\T FIR/ 5DEAVOR+ TO TAKE (F ! %OCK !Y W\LD SU/A9 AT SEE+ ME RETURN )\T MY SON4 ,I !RE=E RESOLV$ TO S5D =W>D A S]VANT FROM ,RATISBON1 :OM ,I DIRECT$ TO MAKE ALL PRACTICABLE SPE$1 AS ,I DESIGN$ TO WAIT = AN ANSW] HE %\LD BR+ ME AT ! CITY ( ,MUNI*4 ,TO ATTEMPT TO WRITE TO ,M>GU]ITE ON ?IS SUBJECT WAS A SEV]E TRIAL TO ME4 ,! :OLE H[EV] ?AT ,I PROPOS$ TO MYSELF WAS1 TO REMOVE ! SURPRISE :I* W\LD BE OCCASION$ BY SEE+ ME ALONE1 & TO ANTICIPATE QUE/IONS ?AT IT W\LD BE IMPOSSIBLE = ME TO HE> )\T ANGUI% ( M9D & P]TURBATION ( C\NT5ANCE4 ,I !RE=E TOOK C>E TO EXPRESS MYSELF 9 SU* T]MS AS %\LD LEAD ,M>GU]ITE TO BELIEVE ?AT ,I HAD VOLUNT>ILY LEFT H] SON 9 ,SAXONY1 & ?AT 9 NO V]Y LONG TIME HE W\LD REJO9 HIS FAMILY4 ,I TRU/$ TO SUBSEQU5T EV5TS TO UNFOLD ! PA9FUL CATA/ROPHE1 & C\LD NOT PREVAIL ON MYSELF TO %OCK H] MAT]NAL FEEL+S SO MU* AS ,I MU/ NECESS>ILY DO1 IF ,I 9=M$ H] ( ! :OLE AT ONCE4 ,*>LES HAD NOT BE5 M5TION$ BUT 9 ORD9>Y T]MS & ! ACCU/OM$ LANGUAGE ( AFFECTION1 9 ! LETT]S ,I HAD REC5TLY RECEIV$ FROM ,CON/ANCE2 & ,I WAS !RE=E CONV9C$ ?AT HE HAD NEI!R GONE TO ?AT PLACE1 NOR HAD CONVEY$ ?I!R ANY ACC\NT ( HIS PROCE$+S4 

,! ANSW] ,I RECEIV$ FROM ,M>GU]ITE BY MY MESS5G] WAS AS FOLL[S3-- 

0,Y\R ABS5CE HAS BE5 LONG & CRITICAL1 & ! WELF>E ( Y\R DAU<T]S SEEMS TO REQUIRE ?AT WE %\LD REJO9 EA* O!R AS SPE$ILY AS MAY BE4 ,:E!R WE %\LD MEET H]E OR AT ANY O!R PLACE Y\ MU/ DET]M9E4 ,IT IS1 H[EV]1 RI<T ,I %\LD 9=M Y\ ?AT1 DUR+ Y\R ABS5CE1 RUMOR HAS BE5 BUSY ) Y\R REPUTATION4 ,:AT ! EXT5T OR IMPORTANCE ( ! ILL REPORTS CIRCULAT$ ( Y\ MAY BE1 ,I AM SC>CELY COMPET5T TO JUDGE4 ,WE HAVE LIV$ 9 UNI=M PRIVACY1 & IT IS NATURAL TO SUPPOSE ?AT ! PORTION ( C5SURE ?AT HAS REA*$ US IS BUT A SMALL P>T ( :AT REALLY EXI/S4 ,! MODE 9 :I* Y\ HAVE PROCE$$1 & ! EXTRAORD9>Y FIGURE Y\ HAVE MADE 9 A PROGRESS ?R\< ,G]MANY1 HAVE GIV5 WEI<T TO !SE 9S9UATIONS4 ,BUT IT IS NOT MY 9T5TION TO COMM5T ON :AT Y\ HAVE DONE4 

0,Y\ APPE> TO DESIGN ?AT ,I %\LD UND]/& Y\ HAVE LEFT MY SON BEH9D Y\ 9 ,SAXONY4 ,POOR ,*>LES6 ,I HAD A LETT] FROM HIM ?REE WEEKS AGO1 9 :I* HE 9=MS ME ( :AT HAS HAPP5$1 & APOLOGIZES 9 ! MO/ PA!TIC T]MS = ANY SEEM+ WANT ( REG>D TO ME 9 HIS CONDUCT1 AT ! V]Y MOM5T ?AT HIS HE>T BLE$S = MY FATE4 ,I DID NOT ?9K IT NECESS>Y TO COMMUNICATE ?IS CIRCUM/ANCE TO Y\4 ,I HAVE DONE ) COMPLA9+4 ,N[ ?AT ,I HAVE FALL5 9TO ! WOR/ & MO/ UNLOOK$-= MIS=TUNES1 ,I HAVE A GRATIFICATION ?AT ,I DO NOT *OOSE TO P>T )1 9 %UTT+ UP MY SORR[S 9 MY [N BREA/4 

0,OH1 ,*>LES6 MY SON1 MY IDOL6 ,:AT IS BECOME ( Y\8 ,= :AT CALAMITIES >E Y\ RES]V$8 ,HE TELLS ME IT IS NECESS>Y ?AT ,I %\LD NEV] SEE OR HE> ( HIM AGA94 ,NEV]--,I--HIS MO!R6--,REG9ALD1 !RE >E SOME W\NDS ?AT WE MAY 5DEAVOR TO =GIVE2 BUT !Y LEAVE A S5TIM5T 9 ! HE>T1 ! DEMON/RATIONS ( :I* MAY P]HAPS BE RE/RA9$1 BUT :I* IT IS NOT 9 NATURE :OLLY TO SUBDUE4 ,IF ,I DID BUT KN[ :]E TO F9D OR TO WRITE TO MY POOR BOY1 ,I W\LD TAKE MY GIRLS ) ME1 & P>TAKE HIS HONE/ & HONORABLE POV]TY1 & NEV] AGA9 JO9 ! %AD[ ( HIM :O WAS MY HUSB&4 ,=GIVE ME1 ,REG9ALD6 ,I DID NOT 9T5D TO SAY ?IS4 ,IF ,I %\LD PROVE UNABLE TO CONTROL ! IMPATI5CE ( MY GRIEF1 DO NOT 9FLICT ! PUNI%M5T ( MY (F5SE ON Y\R 9NOC5T DAU<T]S6 

0,AS TO Y\R FICTION ( VOLUNT>ILY LEAV+ HIM BEH9D = FUR!R IMPROVEM5T1 IT CORRESPONDS ) EV]Y ?+ Y\ HAVE LATELY ATTEMPT$ TO MAKE ME BELIEVE4 ,I NO LONG] EXPECT TRU? FROM Y\4 ,= SEV5TE5 YE>S ,I HAD A HUSB&4 ,WELL1 WELL6 ,I \<T NOT P]HAPS TO REP9E4 ,I HAVE HAD MY %>E ( ! HAPP9ESS :I* ! PRES5T LIFE IS CALCULAT$ TO AF=D4 

0,REG9ALD6 ,I HAVE NOT LONG TO LIVE4 ,:5 ,I TELL Y\ ?IS1 ,I AM NOT GIV+ WAY TO MELAN*OLY PRES5TIM5T4 ,I WILL EX]T MYSELF = ! B5EFIT ( MY GIRLS4 ,!Y WILL HAVE A GRIEV\S LOSS 9 ME2 & = !IR SAKE ,I WILL LIVE AS LONG AS ,I CAN4 ,BUT ,I FEEL ?AT Y\ HAVE /RUCK ME TO ! HE>T4 ,MY NI<TS >E SLEEPLESS2 MY FLE% IS WA/$2 MY APPETITE IS 5TIRELY GONE4 ,Y\ WILL PRES5TLY BE ABLE TO JUDGE :E!R ,I AM DECEIV+ MYSELF4 ,! PROSPECT = !SE POOR CREATURES1 :O >E AT PRES5T ALL MY C>E1 IS A DISMAL ONE4 ,I KN[ NOT = :AT !Y >E RES]V$2 BUT ,I CAN HOPE = NO?+ GOOD4 ,:5 ,I AM DEAD1 REMEMB]1 & BE A FA!R TO !M4 ,I ASK NO?+ = MYSELF2 ,I HAVE NO LONG] ANY CONC]N ) LIFE2 BUT1 IF MY DY+ REQUE/ CAN HAVE WEI<T ) Y\1 MAKE UP TO !M ! DUTY Y\ HAVE BROK5 TO ME4 ,BY ALL \T PA/ LOVES1 BY ! CORDIALITY & CONFID5CE 9 :I* WE HAVE SO LONG LIV$1 BY ! S+L5ESS & S9C]ITY ( \R AFFECTION1 BY ! PURE DELI<TS1 SO SELDOM EXP]I5C$ 9 M>RI$ LIFE1 ?AT HAVE ATT5D$ \R UNION1 ,I CONJURE Y\ LI/5 TO ME & OBEY ME 9 ?IS40 

,IF ,I W]E DEEPLY DI/RESS$ = ! LOSS ( MY SON1 IF ,I LOOK$ =W>D ) A M+L$ S5SATION ( EAG]NESS & AL>M TO ! APPROA*+ 9T]VIEW ) MY FAMILY1 IT MAY EASILY BE IMAG9$ ?AT ?IS LETT] =M$ A HEAVY ADDITION TO MY M5TAL ANGUI%4 ,I CONFESS ,I ?\<T IT A CRUEL ONE4 ,M>GU]ITE MI<T WELL SUPPOSE1 ?AT ! DEP>TURE ( ,*>LES WAS A CIRCUM/ANCE ,I MU/ /RONGLY FEEL2 & %E %\LD NOT HAVE ?US AGGRAVAT$ ! REC5T W\NDS ( PAT]NAL GRIEF4 ,SOME ALL[ANCE1 H[EV]1 WAS TO BE MADE = A MO!R4 ,:5 WE >E \RSELVES RACK$ ) 9TOL]ABLE PA91 ?AT C]TA9LY IS NOT ! TIME AT :I* WE CAN RATIONALLY BE EXPECT$ TO EX]T ! NICE/ & MO/ VIGILANT CONSID]ATION = ANO!R4 ,ADD TO :I*1 %E WAS 9NOC5T ( ! CALAMITIES %E SUFF]$1 & C\LD NOT BUT KN[ ?AT ,I WAS !IR SOLE AU?OR4 ,BUT1 :ATEV] MAY BE DECID$ AS TO ! PROPRIETY ( ! LETT]1 ITS EFFECT UPON MY M9D WAS EM95TLY SALUT>Y4 ,I 9/ANTLY DET]M9$ ON ! CONDUCT IT BECAME ME TO PURSUE4 

,I LO/ NOT A MOM5T4 ,FROM ,DRESD5 TO ,MUNI* ,I HAD ADVANC$ ) SL[ & UNWILL+ /EPS2 FROM ,MUNI* TO ,CON/ANCE ,I PROCE$$ AS RAPIDLY AS ! MODES ( TRAVEL+ & ! NATURE ( ! ROADS W\LD P]MIT4 ,I LEFT MY RET9UE AT ! GATES ( ! T[N1 & FLEW 9/ANTLY TO ! AP>TM5TS ( MY FAMILY4 ,I HA/5$ UP /AIRS1 &1 AS ,I 5T]$ ! SITT+-ROOM1 ,I SAW ! FIR/ & MO/ EXEMPL>Y ( MATRONS SURR\ND$ BY H] BLOOM+ DAU<T]S4 ,I 9/ANTLY P]CEIV$ A GREAT ALT]ATION 9 H] APPE>ANCE4 ,H] LOOK WAS DEJECT$2 H] =M EMACIAT$2 H] C\NT5ANCE SICKLY & PALE4 ,%E LIFT$ UP H] EYES AS ,I 5T]$1 BUT IMM$IATELY DROPP$ !M AGA91 )\T ANY DISC]NIBLE EXPRESSION1 EI!R ( CONGRATULATION OR RES5TM5T4 ,I EMBRAC$ MY *ILDR5 ) UNDESCRIBABLE EMOTION2 ,I SAID )9 MYSELF1 ! LOVE & AFFECTION ,I HAD RES]V$ = ,*>LES %ALL BE DIVID$ AMONG Y\1 & ADD$ TO ! %>E Y\ EA* POSSESS ( MY HE>T6 ,HAV+ SALUT$ !M 9 TURN1 ,I ADDRESS$ MYSELF TO ,M>GU]ITE1 TELL+ H] ?AT ,I MU/ HAVE SOME CONV]SATION ) H] 9/ANTLY4 ,MY MANN] WAS E>NE/3 %E L$ ! WAY 9TO ANO!R AP>TM5T4 

,I FELT MY HE>T OV]FL[+ AT MY TONGUE4 

0,I AM COME TO Y\10 CRI$ ,I1 0A REP5T+ PRODIGAL4 ,TAKE ME & MOLD ME AT Y\R PLEASURE60 

,%E LOOK$ UP4 ,%E WAS /RUCK ) ! HONE/ F]VOR ( MY EXPRESSION4 ,%E ANSW]$ 9 ALMO/ =GOTT5 T]MS1 & ) A PECULI> FULLNESS ( MEAN+1 0,MY HUSB&60--,IT SEEM$ AS IF ! BE/ YE>S & ! BE/ EMOTIONS ( \R LIFE W]E SUDD5LY R5EW$4 

0,MO/ ADORABLE ( WOM560 ,I CONT9U$3 0DO Y\ ?9K ,I CAN BE> ?AT Y\ %\LD DIE1 & ,I Y\R MURD]]8 ,NO MAN 9 ANY AGE OR CLIMATE ( ! WORLD EV] [$ SO MU* TO A HUMAN CREATURE AS ,I [E TO Y\2 NO WOMAN WAS EV] SO >D5TLY LOV$6 NO WOMAN EV] SO MU* DES]V$ TO BE LOV$6 ,IF Y\ W]E TO DIE1 ,I %\LD NEV] KN[ PEACE AGA94 ,IF Y\ W]E TO DIE ! VICTIM ( ANY MISCALCULATION ( M9E1 ,I %\LD BE ! BLACKE/ ( CRIM9ALS60 

0,REG9ALD60 REPLI$ %E1 0,I AM AFRAID ,I HAVE BE5 WRONG4 ,I AM AFRAID ,I HAVE WRITT5 H>%LY TO Y\4 ,Y\ HAVE A FEEL+ HE>T1 & ,I HAVE BE5 TOO SEV]E4 ,=GIVE ME6 IT WAS ! EFFECT ( LOVE4 ,AFFECTION CANNOT VIEW ) A TRANQUIL EYE ! FAULTS ( ! OBJECT BELOV$40 

0,LET !M BE =GOTT56 ,LET ! LA/ SIX MON?S BE BLOTT$ FROM \R MEMORY1 BE AS ?\< !Y HAD NEV] EXI/$60 

,%E LOOK$ AT ME4 ,H] LOOK SEEM$ TO SAY1 ?\< %E W\LD NOT GIVE ! S5TIM5T WORDS1 ?AT CAN NEV] BE2 ! LOSS ( ,*>LES1 & C]TA9 O!R CALAMITIES ( ?AT P]IOD1 >E IRRETRIEVABLE6 

0,I RESIGN MYSELF 9TO Y\R H&S6 ,I HAVE BE5 GUILTY2 ,I HAVE HAD SECRETS2 M$ITATIONS 5G5D]$ & %UT UP 9 MY [N BOSOM2 BUT IT %ALL BE SO NO MORE6 ,! TIDE ( AFFECTION KEPT BACK FROM ITS NATURAL *ANNEL1 N[ FL[S ) D\BLE IMPETU\SNESS4 ,NEV] DID ,I LOVE Y\1 NOT :5 Y\ FIR/ CAME A VIRG9 TO MY >MS1 NOT ON ! BANKS ( ! ,G>ONNE1 NOT 9 ! COTTAGE ( ! LAKE1 SO F]V5TLY1 SO 5TIRELY1 AS ,I LOVE Y\ N[6 ,BE MY DIRECTOR2 DO ) ME AS Y\ PLEASE6 ,I HAVE NEV] BE5 EI!R WISE OR VIRTU\S BUT :5 ,I HAVE BE5 IMPLICITLY GUID$ BY Y\6 

0,I HAVE WEAL?2 ,I AM =BIDD5 BY ! MO/ SOLEMN OBLIGATIONS TO DISCOV] ! S\RCE ( ?AT WEAL?4 ,?IS ONLY ,I MAY NOT COMMUNICATE2 9 ALL ?+S ELSE GOV]N ME DESPOTICALLY6 ,%ALL ,I RESIGN IT ALL8 ,%ALL ,I RETURN TO ! COTTAGE ( ! LAKE8 ,%ALL ,I GO1 A H\SELESS & HELPLESS W&]]1 TO ! F>!/ QU>T] ( ! GLOBE8 ,SPEAK ! WORD ONLY1 & IT %ALL BE DONE6 ,I PREF] Y\R AFFECTION1 Y\R CORDIAL REG>D1 9 ! MO/ OBSCURE & MEANE/ RETREAT1 TO ALL ?AT WEAL? CAN PUR*ASE OR K+S CAN GIVE60 

0,REG9ALD1 ,I ?ANK Y\6 ,I ACKN[L$GE 9 Y\R PRES5T LANGUAGE & E>NE/NESS ! OBJECT ( MY FIR/ & ONLY LOVE4 ,?IS RETURN TO Y\R TRUE *>ACT] GIVES ME ALL ! PLEASURE ,I AM N[ CAPABLE ( RECEIV+4 ,BUT IT IS TOO LATE ,MY SON IS LO/2 ?AT CANNOT BE RETRIEV$4 ,Y\R REPUTATION IS BLA/$2 ,I AM SORRY Y\ >E RETURN$ HI!R2 ,CON/ANCE IS 9 >MS AGA9/ Y\1 & ,I WILL NOT ANSW] = ! CONSEQU5CE4 ,= MYSELF2 ,I GRIEVE TO TELL Y\ SO2 ,I AM A%AM$ ( MY WEAKNESS2 BUT--MY HE>T IS BROK56 ,I LOV$ Y\ SO 5TIRELY1 ?AT ,I WAS NOT ABLE TO BE> ANY SUSP5SION ( \R CONFID5CE4 ,I HAD PASS$ ) Y\ ?R\< ALL O!R MIS=TUNES1 & ! FIRMNESS ( MY TEMP] WAS NOT %AK54 ,= ?IS ONE MIS=TUNE1 ?AT SEEM$ ! 5TIRE DISSOLUTION ( \R ATTA*M5T1 ,I WAS NOT PREP>$4 ,I FEEL1 EV]Y MORN+ AS ,I RISE1 ! W>N+S ( MY DECEASE4 ,MY NI<TS >E SLEEPLESS2 MY APPETITE IS GONE FROM ME40 

0,OH1 ,M>GU]ITE1 TALK NOT ?US2 DI/RACT ME NOT ) ! MO/ FATAL ( IMAGES6 ,\R CONFID5CE %ALL RETURN2 ALL ! CAUSES ( Y\R MALADY %ALL BE REMOV$6 ,) ! CAUSES1 ! SYMPTOMS1 DEP5D ON IT1 WILL DISAPPE>4 ,Y\R Y\?1 Y\R TRANQUILITY1 Y\R HAPP9ESS1 %ALL BE R5EW$6 ,OH1 NO1 Y\ %ALL NOT DIE6 ,WE WILL YET LIVE TO LOVE & PEACE60 

0,FLATT] NOT Y\RSELF ) VA9 HOPES1 MY LOVE6 ,I FEEL SOME?+ WRONG )9 ME1 :I* IS RAPIDLY WE>+ MY BODY TO DECAY4 ,RECONCILE Y\R M9D TO :AT V]Y SOON MU/ HAPP56 ,PREP>E Y\RSELF = BE+ ! ONLY P>5T TO Y\R REMA9+ (FSPR+6 ,I HAVE COMPOS$ MY SPIRIT1 & CALMLY WAIT MY FATE4 ,Y\ HAVE N[ ADM9I/]$ TO ME ! ONLY CONSOLATION ,I ASPIR$ TO1 BY ?IS RETURN TO Y\R TRUE *>ACT]1 :I* AF=DS ME A SANGU9E HOPE ?AT Y\ WILL FAI?FULLY DIS*>GE ! DUTY TO Y\R (FSPR+1 :I*1 :5 ,I AM GONE1 WILL BE D\BLY URG5T ON Y\40 

,I WAS GRIEV$ TO SEE ?AT ! M9D ( ,M>GU]ITE WAS SO DEEPLY IMPRESS$ ) ! NOTION ?AT %E HAD BUT A %ORT TIME TO LIVE4 ,I C\LD NOT BE> TO IMAG9E = A MOM5T ?AT H] PROGNO/IC WAS JU/4 ,! ?\<T SEEM$ CAPABLE ( DRIV+ ME TO DI/RACTION4 ,I H[EV] CONCEIV$ ?AT ! BE/ ?+ ?AT C\LD BE DONE = ! PRES5T1 WAS TO TURN ! CONV]SATION TO SOME O!R TOPIC4 

0,WELL1 WELL1 MY LOVE60 ,I ANSW]$4 0,!RE >E SOME ?+S ?AT >E IMM$IATELY PRESS+4 ,DIRECT ME1 DIRECT A HUSB& SO AMPLY CONV9C$ ( Y\R DISCRETION1 :AT ,I AM TO DO AT PRES5T6 ,%ALL ,I 9/ANTLY ANNIHILATE ALL ?AT HAS MADE ?IS UN=TUNATE BREA* BETWE5 US2 %ALL ,I RESIGN MY WEAL?1 FROM :ATEV] S\RCE D]IV$8 ,:I!R %ALL WE GO8 ,%ALL WE RETURN TO ! COTTAGE ( ! LAKE8 ,%ALL WE RETREAT 9TO SOME DI/ANT P>T ( ! WORLD80 

0,H[ CAN Y\ EXPECT ME10 SAID ,M>GU]ITE1 FA9TLY SMIL+1 0TO ADVISE Y\ RESPECT+ ! DISPOSAL ( A WEAL?1 ( ! AM\NT ( :I* ,I AM UN9=M$1 & ! S\RCE ( :I* IS 9VISIBLE8 ,BUT ,I GUESS Y\R SECRET4 ,! /RANG] :O DI$ Y\R GUE/ WAS 9 POSSESSION ( ! PHILOSOPH]'S /ONE1 & HE HAS BEQUEA!D TO Y\ HIS DISCOV]Y4 ,I HAVE HE>D ( ?IS >T1 ?\< ,I CONFESS ,I WAS NOT MU* 9CL9$ TO CR$IT IT4 ,I DO NOT ASK Y\ TO CONFIRM MY CONJECTURE3 ,I DO NOT WI% ?AT Y\ %\LD VIOLATE MY 5GAGEM5TS 9TO :I* Y\ HAVE 5T]$4 ,BUT1 UPON PUTT+ CIRCUM/ANCES TOGE!R1 :I* ,I HAVE BE5 9EVITABLY COMPELL$ TO DO1 ,I APPREH5D IT CAN BE NO?+ ELSE4 ,I AM A/ONI%$ ?AT A CONJECTURE SO OBVI\S %\LD HAVE (F]$ ITSELF TO MY M9D SO LATE4 

0,IF Y\R WEAL? IS ( ANY O!R NATURE1 AMPLE AS IT APP>5TLY IS1 IT IS A NATURAL QUE/ION TO ASK1 TO :OM IS IT TO BE RESIGN$8 ,! ORD9>Y WEAL? ( ! WORLD IS SOME?+ REAL & SUB/ANTIAL1 & CAN NEI!R BE CREAT$ NOR DISSIPAT$ ) A BREA?4 ,BUT IF Y\R WEAL? BE ( ! K9D ,I HAVE NAM$1 LET ME ASK1 IS IT POSSIBLE TO RESIGN IT8 ,A SECRET IS A ?+ ) :I* WE MAY *OOSE :E!R WE WILL BECOME ACQUA9T$2 BUT1 ONCE KN[N1 WE CANNOT BECOME UNACQUA9T$ ) IT AT PLEASURE4 ,Y\R WEAL?1 UPON MY SUPPOSITION1 WILL ALWAYS BE AT Y\R BECK2 & IT IS P]HAPS BEYOND ! /R5G? ( HUMAN NATURE TO REFUSE1 UND] SOME CIRCUM/ANCES1 AT LEA/ 9 SOME EM]G5CIES1 TO USE ! WEAL? :I* IS )9 \R REA*4 

0,IT HAS BE5 \R MUTUAL MIS=TUNE ?AT SU* AN 5G9E HAS BE5 PUT 9TO Y\R H&S4 ,IT HAS BE5 Y\R FAULT TO MAKE AN 9DISCREET USE ( IT4 ,GLADLY W\LD ,I RETURN TO ! TRANQUIL & UNSUSPECT$ POV]TY ( ! COTTAGE ( ! LAKE4 ,BUT ?AT IS IMPOSSIBLE4 ,Y\ HAVE LO/ Y\R SON2 Y\ HAVE LO/ Y\R HONE/ FAME2 ! LIFE ( Y\R ,M>GU]ITE IS UND]M9$ & P]I%+4 ,IF IT W]E POSSIBLE = US TO RETURN TO \R =M] SITUATION & \R =M] PEACE1 /ILL1 MY ,REG9ALD6 =GIVE ME IF ,I SAY1 ,I D\BT ! 9FLEXIBL5ESS ( Y\R RESOLUTION4 ,! GIFT ( UNB\ND$ WEAL?1 IF Y\ POSSESS IT1 &1 ) WEAL?1 APP>5TLY AT LEA/1 DI/9CTION & GREATNESS1 IS TOO P[]FUL A TEMPTATION4 ,NOR1 ?\< ,I %\LD TRU/ Y\R RESI/ANCE1 C\LD ,I BE PLEAS$ 9 A HUSB& ) ! POSSESSION ( !SE EXTRAORD9>Y P[]S4 ,IT SETS TOO GREAT A DI/ANCE BETWE5 ! P>TIES4 ,IT DE/ROYS ?AT COMMUNION ( SPIRIT :I* IS ! S\L ( ! M>RIAGE-TIE4 ,A CONSORT %\LD BE A HUMAN BE+ & AN EQUAL4 ,BUT TO ?IS EQUALITY & SIMPLE HUMANITY IT IS NO LONG] 9 Y\R P[] TO RETURN4 

0,CIRCUM/ANC$ !N AS WE N[ >E1 ! M>RIAGE UNION1 Y\ MU/ ALL[ ME TO SAY1 IRREP>ABLY DISSOLV$1 Y\R SON LO/1 Y\R FAIR FAME DE/ROY$1 Y\R ORPHAN DAU<T]S TO BE PROVID$ =1 ,I KN[ NOT IF ,I %\LD ADVISE Y\ TO =GET ! PR]OGATIVE ?AT HAS BE5 B\<T = Y\ AT SO DREADFUL A PRICE4 ,BESIDE1 IF ,I AM NOT MI/AK51 !RE >E GREAT TRIALS 9 RES]VE = Y\4 ,I AM AFRAID Y\R PRES5T SITUATION IS EXTREMELY CRITICAL4 ,I AM AFRAID ! SUSPICIONS Y\ HAVE EXCIT$ WILL CO/ Y\ DE>4 ,AT ALL EV5TS ,I BELIEVE IT TO BE BUT A NECESS>Y PRECAUTION ?AT WE %\LD FLY FROM ,CON/ANCE4 ,I HAVE NO?+ !RE=E TO RECOMM5D TO Y\ ON ! SUBJECT ( WEAL?1 BUT DISCRETION4 ,I %ALL NOT LONG LIVE TO BE Y\R ADVIS]4 ,I %ALL ALWAYS REG>D ! DONATION Y\ HAVE RECEIV$1 Y\ CANNOT WOND] ?AT ,I %\LD SO REG>D IT1 AS ONE ( ! MO/ FE>FUL CALAMITIES TO :I* A HUMAN BE+ CAN BE EXPOS$4 ,IF Y\ HAD US$ Y\R PR]OGATIVE ) DISCRETION1 Y\ MI<T P]HAPS1 ?\< ,I CONFESS ,I DO NOT SEE H[1 HAVE ESCAP$ ! OBLOQUY ( ! WORLD4 ,9TO Y\R DOME/IC SC5E1 :]E ! 9T]E/ IS MORE LIVELY1 & ! WAT* UPON Y\ MORE UNREMITT$1 IT MU/ HAVE 9TRODUC$ ALI5ATION & DI/RU/4 ,AS IT IS1 ,I SEE Y\ SURR\ND$ ) DANG]S ( A ?\S& D5OM9ATIONS4 ,POLICE HAS ITS EYES UPON Y\2 SUP]/ITION WILL REG>D Y\ AS ! FAMILI> ( DEMONS2 AV>ICE WILL TURN UPON Y\ A REG>D ( JEAL\SY & 9SATIABLE APPETITE4 ,IF ,I C\LD RECOV] FROM ! WEAKNESS ?AT AT PRES5T BESETS ME1 & CONT9UE TO LIVE1 ,I =ESEE MORE & SEV]] TRIALS1 BO? AT HOME & ABROAD1 ?AN ANY ,I HAVE YET SU/A9$2 & ,I AM ALMO/ ?ANKFUL TO ?AT ,PROVID5CE :I* HAS DECRE$ TO TAKE ME AWAY FROM ! EVIL TO COME4 

0,ONE ?+ FUR!R LET ME ADD4 ,I WILL SPEAK IT1 NOT 9 ! *>ACT] ( A C5SOR1 BUT A FRI5D4 ,IT MU/ EV] BE RI<T & USEFUL1 ?AT A MAN %\LD BE UNDECEIV$ 9 ANY ]RONE\S E/IMATE HE MAY MAKE ( HIMSELF4 ,I HAVE LOV$ Y\ MU*2 ,I F\ND 9 Y\ MANY GOOD QUALITIES2 MY IMAG9ATION DECORAT$ Y\ 9 ! VIRTUES ?AT Y\ HAD NOT2 BUT Y\ HAVE REMOV$ ! VEIL4 ,AN ADEPT & AN AL*EMI/ IS A L[ *>ACT]4 ,:5 ,I M>RI$ Y\1 ,I SUPPOS$ MYSELF UNIT$ TO A NOBLEMAN1 A KNI<T1 & A SOLDI]1 A MAN :O W\LD HAVE REVOLT$ ) DISDA9 FROM EV]Y ?+ ?AT WAS POOR-SPIRIT$ & BASE4 ,I LIV$ ) Y\ LONG & HAPPILY4 ,I SAW FAULTS2 ,I SAW IMBECILITIES4 ,I DID NOT SEE !M ) 9DIFF]5CE2 BUT ,I 5DEAVOR$1 & ) A DEGREE ( SUCCESS1 TO =GET & TO =GIVE !M2 !Y DID NOT CONTAM9ATE & CORRUPT ! VITALS ( HONOR4 ,AT L5G? Y\ HAVE COMPLETELY REV]S$ ! SC5E4 ,= A SOLDI] Y\ PRES5T ME ) A PROJECTOR & A *EMI/1 A COLD-BLOOD$ MORTAL1 RAK+ 9 ! A%ES ( A CRUCIBLE = A SELFI% & SOLIT>Y ADVANTAGE4 ,H]E IS AN 5D ( ALL G5U9E DIGNITY1 & ! TRUE/ G5]OSITY ( S\L4 ,Y\ CANNOT BE +5U\S2 = ALL Y\R DEAL+S >E SECRECY & D>KNESS4 ,Y\ CANNOT HAVE A FRI5D2 = ! MORTAL LIVES NOT ?AT CAN SYMPA?IZE ) Y\R ?\<TS & EMOTIONS4 ,A G5]\S SPIRIT1 ,REG9ALD1 DELI<TS TO LIVE UPON EQUAL T]MS ) HIS ASSOCIATES & FELL[S4 ,HE W\LD DISDA91 :5 (F]$ TO HIM1 EXCESSIVE & CL&E/9E ADVANTAGES4 ,EQUALITY IS ! S\L ( REAL & CORDIAL SOCIETY4 ,A MAN ( RANK 9DE$ DOES NOT LIVE UPON EQUAL T]MS ) ! :OLE ( HIS SPECIES2 BUT HIS HE>T ALSO CAN EXULT1 = HE HAS HIS EQUALS4 ,H[ UNHAPPY ! WRET*1 ! MON/] RA!R LET ME SAY1 :O IS )\T AN EQUAL2 :O LOOKS ?R\< ! WORLD1 & 9 ! WORLD CANNOT F9D A BRO!R2 :O IS 5D[$ ) ATTRIBUTES :I* NO LIV+ BE+ P>TICIPATES ) HIM2 & :O IS !RE=E CUT (F = EV] FROM ALL CORDIALITY & CONFID5CE1 CAN NEV] UNB5D HIMSELF1 BUT LIVES ! SOLIT>Y1 JOYLESS T5ANT ( A PRISON1 ! MAT]IALS ( :I* >E EM]ALDS & RUBIES6 ,H[ UNHAPPY ?IS WRET*6 ,H[ WEAK & IGNOBLE ! MAN ?AT VOLUNT>ILY ACCEPTS !SE LAWS ( EXI/5CE60 

,9 ! ADVICE ( ,M>GU]ITE ,I SAW ?AT S\ND WISDOM & DISC]NM5T1 BY :I* 9 ALL ! P]IODS ( \R CONNECTION %E HAD BE5 SO EM95TLY *>ACT]IZ$4 ,) H] VIEWS ( ! FUTURE ,I WAS NOT DISPOS$ TO ACCORD4 ,I REG>D$ !M AS OBSCUR$ & DISCOLOR$ BY ! UN=TUNATE /ATE ( H] HEAL?4 ,I C\LD NOT 9DE$ REFUSE TO BELIEVE ?AT ! PR]OGATIVE ,I HAD RECEIV$ HAD BE5 ! P>5T ( MU* DOME/IC UNHAPP9ESS4 ,WILL+LY W\LD ,I HAVE RESIGN$ ALL ?AT ,I HAD D]IV$ FROM ! /RANG]1 TO BE REPLAC$ 9 ! SITUATION 9 :I* HIS P]NICI\S LEGACIES HAD F\ND ME4 ,HE HAD ROBB$ ME ( MY SON2 HE HAD DE/ROY$ MY DOME/IC PEACE2 HE HAD UND]M9$ ! TRANQUILITY & HEAL? ( ! P>TN] ( MY LIFE4 ,!SE CALAMITIES PRESS$ ) A HEAVY & 9TOL]ABLE WEI<T AT MY HE>T4 ,BUT1 IF1 AS ,M>GU]ITE AFFIRM$1 !Y W]E IRRETRIEVABLE1 OR IF !Y C\LD ONCE BE REMOV$1 & ! DOME/IC ADVANTAGES ,I HAD H]ET(ORE 5JOY$ BE RE/OR$1 ,I WAS NOT DISPOS$ TO FE> ?OSE EXT]NAL MIS*IEFS :I* ,M>GU]ITE SO FEEL+LY PR$ICT$4 ,I C\LD NOT BELIEVE ?AT ,I %\LD HAVE SU* A LEAGUE ( =EIGN 5EMIES TO 5C\NT]1 NOR C\LD ,I EASILY IMAGE TO MYSELF ANY EXT]NAL EVILS :I* IT WAS NOT 9 ! P[] ( GOLD TO REM$Y4 ,!SE CONSID]ATIONS ,I URG$ TO MY BELOV$ P>TN]1 & BY 5=C+ !M 5DEAVOR$ TO REMOVE ?OSE GLOOMY APPREH5SIONS1 FROM ! PREVAL5CE ( :I* ,I FE>$ MU* 9JURY TO H] HEAL?4 ,!RE WAS ANO!R CIRCUM/ANCE ,I WAS L$ P>TICUL>LY TO 9SI/ ON2 ,I MEAN ! NATURE ( ! SECRET 5TRU/$ TO ME4 

0,I ADMIRE Y\R DISC]NM5T & +5UITY1 ,M>GU]ITE10 SAID ,I1 09 Y\R CONJECTURE RESPECT+ ! S\RCE ( MY WEAL?4 ,I ADMIRE Y\R DELICACY 9 NOT PRESS+ ME TO DECIDE UPON ! TRU? ( Y\R CONJECTURE4 ,?IS ONLY ,I MU/ BE P]MITT$ TO SAY ON ?AT SUBJECT4 ,IT IS A SECRET2 & Y\ WILL P]CEIVE ?AT ! SAME REASONS1 :ATEV] !Y >E1 :I* MAKE ?AT SECRET OBLIGATORY ON ME1 REQUIRE ?AT IT %\LD BE RESPECT$ BY Y\4 ,! SAME EVILS ?AT MY [N 9DISCRETION MAY DRAW ON ME1 ,I %ALL BE EQUALLY EXPOS$ TO BY ANY ]ROR OR MISCALCULATION ( Y\RS4 ,I HAVE !RE=E MO/ E>NE/LY & SOLEMNLY TO CONJURE Y\1 :ATEV] MIS=TUNES MAY H]EAFT] BEFALL ME1 9 :ATEV] P]IL\S SITUATION ,I MAY BE 9VOLV$1 ?AT Y\ WILL NEV] UTT] A SYLLABLE ON ?IS SUBJECT2 & ?AT1 AS ,I AM ! SELECT$ DEPOSITORY ( ?IS SECRET1 & ALONE KN[ ) C]TA9TY :AT IS ITS NATURE1 Y\ WILL TRU/ \R PROSP]ITY 9 ?IS PO9T TO ME40--,M>GU]ITE 5GAG$ TO CONDUCT H]SELF AS ,I DESIR$4 

,! NI<T :I* SUCCE$$ ?IS EXPLANATION1 WAS P>TICUL>LY SOO?+ & GRATEFUL TO ME4 ,I WAS RELIEV$ FROM A GREAT & OPPRESSIVE BURD54 ,I WAS CONSCI\S ( ?AT P>TICUL> SPECIES ( PLEASURE :I* >ISES FROM ! RESOLUTE DIS*>GE ( AN H]OIC DUTY4 ,! PEACE ,I FELT )9 %$ ITS GAY & REVIV+ BEAMS UPON ALL >\ND ME4 ,RECONCIL$ TO MYSELF1 ,I WAS FILL$ ) SANGU9E & AGREEABLE VISIONS ( ! FUTURE4 ,MY M9D OB/9ATELY REJECT$ ALL D>K & HATEFUL PRESAGES4 ,I HAD 5TRU/$ MYSELF & ! DIRECTION ( MY CONDUCT1 AS F> AS IT WAS POSSIBLE1 TO ?AT BETT] PILOT1 UND] :OSE GUIDANCE1 IF ,I HAD NOT AVOID$ ! ROCKS & QUICKS&S ( LIFE1 ,I HAD AT LEA/ ESCAP$ ) LITTLE COMP>ATIVE 9JURY4 ,I FELT !RE=E AS IF MY DOME/IC 5JOYM5TS W]E RE/OR$1 & ! PLEASURES ( MY BETT] YE>S W]E AB\T TO RUN OV] AGA9 !IR AUSPICI\S C>E]4 ,NOT SO ,M>GU]ITE4 ,%E WAS MILD1 G5TLE1 & SOO?+4 ,DISPLEASURE & RES5TM5T T[>DS ME W]E BANI%$ FROM H] M9D4 ,%E 5DEAVOR$ TO CONQU] H] MELAN*OLY1 & TO =GET ! W\NDS ?AT HAD BE5 SO FATAL TO H] HOPES4 ,BUT H] 5DEAVORS W]E FRUITLESS4 ,A FIX$ DEJECTION CLUNG TO H] HE>T3 NOR C\LD ! G5]\S SWEETNESS ?AT P]VAD$ H] MANN]S HIDE FROM ME 5TIRELY :AT WAS PASS+ 9 H] BOSOM4 

,DUR+ ?IS 9T]VAL WE HAD TALK$ OV] ! PLAN ( \R FUTURE OP]ATIONS4 ,M>GU]ITE WAS EXCE$+LY URG5T ) ME TO QUIT ,CON/ANCE2 NOR DID ,I1 ?\< NOT IMPRESS$ ) H] PRES5TIM5TS1 FEEL ANY RELUCTANCE TO ?AT *ANGE ( SC5E1 :I*1 ,I BELIEV$1 W\LD MAT]IALLY CONTRIBUTE TO ! S]5ITY ( H] M9D & ! RE/ORATION ( H] HEAL?4 ,WE DET]M9$ ON SOME ( ! CITIES ( ,ITALY AS ! NEXT PLACE ( \R RESID5CE1 &1 FIX$1 IF POSSIBLE1 TO SET \T SOME TIME 9 ! NEXT DAY OR ! DAY AFT]4 ,! PLAN ( PROCE$+ TO ,FRANCE1 :I* HAD LATELY BE5 A FAVORITE ) ME1 WAS A FAVORITE NO LONG]4 ,?AT HAD BE5 ! PROJECT ( *E]FUL & WANTON PROSP]ITY4 ,IT HAD HAD = ITS OBJECT ! REE/ABLI%M5T ( MY FAMILY HONORS1 & ! ELEVATION ( MY SON4 ,N[ MY SON WAS LO/1 MY WIFE WAS OPPRESS$ ) LANGUOR & DISEASE1 MY H\SE WAS OV]:ELM$ ) SORR[4 ,?IS WAS NO TIME = WANTONNESS & TRIUMPH4 ,IF ,I C\LD EV] HOPE TO RESUME ! PLANS MY FROLIC FANCY HAD SKET*$1 AN 9T]VAL AT LEA/ ( SOB]] HUE MU/ FIR/ BE SUFF]$ TO ELAPSE4 

,MY M9D AT ?IS TIME SU/A9$ A REVOLUTION SUFFICI5TLY REM>KABLE1 BUT ( :I* ! URG5CY ( EV5TS ?AT IMM$IATELY SUCCE$$ PREV5T$ ME FROM EV] ASC]TA9+ :E!R IT W\LD HAVE PROV$ TEMPOR>Y OR P]MAN5T4 ,:5 ,I FIR/ RECEIV$ ! DONATION ( ! /RANG]1 MY ?\<TS1 AS ,I HAVE ALREADY SAID1 W]E 9 A /ATE ( 5?USIA/IC TRANSPORT2 &1 AMID ! GOLD5 VISIONS 9 :I* MY FANCY REVEL$1 ,I BECAME 9 A CONSID]ABLE DEGREE ALI5AT$ FROM DOME/IC S5TIM5TS & PLEASURES4 ,IF ,I /ILL LOV$ MY WIFE & *ILDR51 IT WAS ! LOVE ( HABIT RA!R ?AN SYMPA?Y2 MORE AN ANXIETY = !IR PROSP]\S SUCCESS 9 ! WORLD1 ?AN AN E>NE/ CRAV+ = !IR PRES5CE & 9T]C\RSE4 ,?IS /ATE ( 9TOXICATION & RAPTURE HAD N[ SUBSID$4 ,! EV5TS ( ! FEW LA/ WEEKS HAD SOB]$ MY ?\<TS4 ,HAV+ LO/ MY SON1 & BE+ ?REAT5$ ) ! LOSS ( HIS MO!R1 ,I WAS R\S$ TO A S5SE ( !IR VALUE4 ,! 9FLUX ( WEAL? & SUP]NATURAL GIFTS HAD GR[N FAMILI> TO MY M9D1 & N[ ONLY OCCUPI$ ! BACK-GR\ND ( ! PICTURE4 ,I WAS ONCE MORE A MAN1 & ,I HOP$ TO P>TAKE ( ! PRIVILEGES & ADVANTAGES ( A MAN4 ,! FATE RES]V$ = !SE HOPES WILL SPE$ILY BE SE54 

,SOME READ]S WILL P]HAPS ASK ME :Y1 ANXI\S AS ,I WAS = ! LIFE ( ,M>GU]ITE1 & VISIBLE AS WAS ! DECL9E ( H] HEAL?1 ,I DID NOT ADM9I/] TO H] ( ! ELIXIR ( IMMORTALITY :I* WAS ONE ( MY PECULI> 5D[M5TS4 ,SU* READ]S ,I HAVE ONLY TO REM9D1 ?AT ! PIVOT UPON :I* ! HI/ORY ,I AM COMPOS+ TURNS1 IS A MY/]Y4 ,IF !Y WILL NOT ACCEPT ( MY COMMUNICATION UPON MY [N T]MS1 !Y MU/ LAY ASIDE MY BOOK4 ,I AM 5GAG$ 9 RELAT+ ! 9CID5TS ( MY LIFE2 ,I HAVE NO 9T5TION TO FURNI% ! REMOTE/ H9T RESPECT+ ! SCI5CE ( :I* ,I AM ! DEPOSITORY4 ,?AT SCI5CE AF=DS ABUNDANT REASONS :Y ! ELIXIR 9 QUE/ION MI<T NOT1 OR RA!R C\LD NOT1 BE IMBIB$ BY ANY O!R ?AN AN ADEPT4 

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