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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,WILLIAM ,GODW9 

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,!SE DEFICI5CIES ,I ANXI\SLY ANTICIPAT$2 BUT !RE WAS ANO!R EVIL1 UPON :I* ,I HAD NOT CALCULAT$1 ?AT WAS /ILL NE>] & MORE OV]:ELM+4 ,! MODE ( LIFE 9 :I* ,I WAS N[ 5GAG$1 SO DIFF]5T FROM ANY ?+ TO :I* ,I HAD BE5 ACCU/OM$1 EXCESSIVE FATIGUE1 TOGE!R ) ! OCCASIONAL HEAT ( ! WEA!R1 ! UNEAS9ESS ( MY M9D1 & ! SLEEPLESSNESS ( MY NI<TS1 ALL COMB9$ TO ?R[ ME 9TO A FEV]1 :I*1 ?\< IT DID NOT LA/ LONG1 HAD RAG$ SO FURI\SLY DUR+ ! P]IOD ( ITS CONT9UANCE1 AS TO LEAVE ME 9 A /ATE ( ! MO/ COMPLETE DEBILITY4 ,:ILE ! DISORD] WAS UPON ME1 ,I WAS S5SIBLE ( MY DANG]2 &1 AS ! BRILLIANT & CONSOLATORY PROSPECTS ( LIFE SEEM$ = EV] CLOS$ UPON ME1 ,I AT FIR/ REG>D$ MY APPROA*+ DISSOLUTION ) COMPLAC5CY1 & LONG$ TO BE RELEAS$ FROM A S]IES ( WOES1 9 :I* ,I HAD BE5 ORIG9ALLY 9VOLV$ BY MY [N FOLLY4 ,?IS FRAME ( M9D H[EV] WAS ( NO GREAT DURATION2 ! MORE NE>LY ,I CONTEMPLAT$ ! IDEA ( SEP>ATION FROM ?OSE ,I LOV$1 ! SMALL] WAS MY RESIGNATION4 ,I WAS UNWILL+ TO QUIT ?OSE DE> OBJECTS BY :I* ,I /ILL HELD TO ?IS MORTAL SC5E2 ,I %RUNK ) AV]SION FROM ?AT B>RI] :I* SEP>ATES US FROM ALL ?AT IS NEW1 MY/]I\S1 & /RANGE4 ,ANO!R TRA9 ( IDEAS SUCCE$$ ?IS1 & ,I BEGAN TO DESPISE MYSELF = MY IMPATI5CE & C[>DICE4 ,IT WAS BY MY VICES ?AT MY FAMILY WAS 9VOLV$ 9 A LONG TRA9 ( MIS=TUNES2 C\LD ,I %R9K FROM P>TAK+ :AT ,I HAD NOT FE>$ TO CREATE8 ,! GREAT] W]E ! ADV]SITIES = :I* !Y W]E RES]V$1 ! MORE \<T ,I TO DESIRE TO SUFF] ) !M4 ,I HAD ALREADY COMMITT$ ! EVIL2 9 :AT REMA9$1 IT WAS REASONABLE TO SUPPOSE ,I %\LD PROVE !IR B5EFACTOR & NOT !IR FOE4 ,IT WAS 9CUMB5T ON ME TO SOO! & TO ANIMATE !M1 TO 5RI* !IR M9DS ) *E]FULNESS & C\RAGE1 & TO SET BE=E !M AN EXAMPLE ( PHILOSOPHY & PATI5CE4 ,BY MY FACULTIES ( 9DU/RY ,I WAS !IR PR9CIPAL HOPE2 &1 :ATEV] WE MI<T SUFF] COMB9$1 IT WAS PROBABLE !IR SUFF]+S W\LD BE 9F9ITELY GREAT]1 IF DEPRIV$ ( MY ASSI/ANCE4 ,!SE REFLECTIONS GAVE ME 5]GY2 & IT SEEM$ AS IF ! RESOLUTE PR$ILECTION ,I HAD CONCEIV$ = LIFE CONTRIBUT$ MU* TO MY RECOV]Y4 

,ONE ?+ :I* /RONGLY CONFIRM$ ! *ANGE MY M9D UND]W5T 9 ?IS RESPECT1 WAS A CONV]SATION ?AT ,I OV]HE>D AT A TIME :5 ,I WAS SUPPOS$ TO BE COMPLETELY 9 A /ATE ( 9S5SIBILITY1 BUT :51 ?\< ,I WAS TOO MU* R$UC$ TO GIVE ALMO/ ANY TOK5S ( LIFE1 MY FACULTIES ( HE>+ & UND]/&+ :AT PASS$ >\ND ME W]E 5TIRE4 ,*>LES CAME UP TO MY B$SIDE1 LAID HIS H& UPON M9E AS IF TO FEEL ! /ATE ( ! SK91 &1 ) A H&K]*IEF ?AT WAS NE>1 WIP$ AWAY ! MOI/URE ?AT B$EW$ MY FACE4 ,HE HAD BE5 FITT$ = MANY NURSE-LIKE (FICES BY ! UNWE>I$ ATT5TION HE HAD EX]T$ T[>DS ME 9 ! P>OXYSM ( MY 9SANITY4 ,HAV+ F9I%$ HIS TASK1 HE )DREW FROM ! B$1 & BUR/ 9TO TE>S4 ,HIS MO!R CAME UP TO HIM1 DREW HIM TO ! FUR!/ P>T ( ! ROOM1 & 9 A L[ VOICE BEGAN ! CONV]SATION4 

0,DO1 MY DE> BOY1 GO D[N /AIRS1 & GET Y\RSELF SOME?+ TO EAT4 ,Y\ SEE1 Y\R PAPA IS QUIET N[40 

0,I AM AFRAID ?AT WILL NOT LA/ LONG2 & !N HE WILL BE SO RE/LESS1 & TOSS AB\T SO1 IT IS DREADFUL TO SEE HIM40 

0,I WILL WAT*1 ,*>LES1 & LET Y\ KN[40 

0,9DE$1 MAMA1 ,I CANNOT EAT N[4 ,I WILL BY & BY40 

0,Y\ MU/ TRY TO EAT1 ,*>LES1 OR ELSE Y\ WILL MAKE Y\RSELF QUITE ILL4 ,IF Y\ W]E ILL TOO1 IT W\LD BE MORE ?AN ,I C\LD SUPPORT40 

0,I WILL NOT BE ILL1 MAMA4 ,I ASSURE Y\ ,I WILL NOT4 ,BUT1 BESIDES ?AT ,I HAVE NO /OMA*1 ,I CANNOT BE> TO EAT :5 !RE IS H>DLY 5\< = MY SI/]S40 

0,EAT1 BOY4 ,DO NOT TR\BLE Y\RSELF AB\T ?AT4 ,WE %ALL GET MORE :5 ?AT IS GONE4 ,GOD IS GOOD1 & WILL TAKE C>E ( US40 

0,I KN[ ?AT ,GOD IS GOOD2 BUT = ALL ?AT1 ONE MU/ NOT EXPECT TO HAVE EV]Y ?+ ONE WI%ES4 ,?\< ,GOD IS GOOD1 !RE >E DREADFUL MIS=TUNES 9 ! WORLD1 & ,I SUPPOSE WE %ALL HAVE \R %>E ( !M40 

0,COME1 ,*>LES1 ?\< Y\ >E BUT A BOY1 Y\ >E ! BE/ BOY 9 ! WORLD4 ,Y\ >E N[ ALMO/ MY ONLY COM=T2 BUT Y\ WILL NOT BE ABLE TO COM=T ME IF Y\ DO NOT TAKE C>E ( Y\RSELF40 

0,DE> MAMA6--,DO Y\ KN[1 MAMA1 ,I HE>D ?AT NAU<TY MAN BEL[ /AIRS C\NT UP LA/ NI<T H[ MU* R5T Y\ [$ HIM =1 & SWE> Y\ %\LD NOT /AY ANY LONG] IF Y\ DID NOT PAY HIM4 ,IF ,I W]E A LITTLE BIGG]1 ,I W\LD TALK TO HIM SO ?AT HE %\LD NOT D>E TO 9SULT US 9 \R DI/RESS4 ,BUT1 NOT BE+ BIG 5\<1 ,I OP5$ ! DOOR1 & W5T 9TO ! ROOM1 & BEGG$ HIM = ,GOD'S SAKE NOT TO ADD TO Y\R DI/RESS4 ,&1 ?\< HE IS SO UGLY1 ,I TOOK HOLD ( HIS H&1 & KISS$ IT4 ,BUT IT FELT LIKE IRON1 :I* PUT ME 9 M9D ( HIS IRON HE>T1 & ,I CRI$ READY TO BUR/ ) MORTIFICATION4 ,HE DID NOT SAY H>DLY A WORD40 

0,HE MU/ BE PAID1 ,*>LES3 HE %ALL BE PAID40 

0,DO Y\ KN[1 MAMA1 AS SOON AS ,I LEFT HIM ,I W5T TO ! BI%OP'S G>D5S1 & SPOKE TO ! G>D5]8 ,I ASK$ HIM1 IF HE HAD HE>D ?AT MY PAPA WAS ILL1 & HE SAID HE HAD4 ,HE SAID1 TOO1 HE WAS V]Y SORRY1 & WANT$ TO KN[ :AT H& WE MADE ( IT = WANT ( ! WAGES4 ,I TOLD HIM1 WE W]E SADLY (F1 & ! MAN ( ! H\SE HAD JU/ BE5 AFFRONT+ ME AB\T HIS R5T4 ,BUT1 SAID ,I1 CANNOT Y\ GIVE ME SOME?+ TO DO1 TO WE$ OR TO RAKE8 ,I CAN DIG A LITTLE TOO1 & SCATT] SE$4 ,HE ASK$1 IF ,I KNEW WE$S FROM FL[]S4 ,OH1 ?AT ,I DO6 SAID ,I4 ,WELL !N1 SAID HE1 !RE IS NOT MU* Y\ CAN DO2 BUT Y\ >E A GOOD BOY1 & ,I WILL PUT Y\ ON ! BI%OP'S LI/4 ,BUT N[1 MAMA1 ,I HAVE NOT ! HE>T TO WORK1 TILL ,I SEE :E!R PAPA WILL GET WELL AGA940 

,:ILE POOR ,*>LES TOLD HIS >TLESS TALE1 ,M>GU]ITE WEPT OV] HIM1 & KISS$ HIM AGA9 & AGA94 ,%E CALL$ HIM ! BE/ *ILD 9 ! WORLD1 & SAID ?AT1 IF ,I W]E BUT SO =TUNATE AS TO RECOV]1 ) SU* A HUSB& & SU* A SON1 %E %\LD YET BE ! HAPPIE/ ( WOM54 

0,OH1 MY POOR FA!R60 EXCLAIM$ ,*>LES4 0,EV] S9CE ! GREAT HAIL-/ORM1 ,I HAVE EV]Y H\R LOV$ HIM BETT] ?AN BE=E4 ,I ?\<T ?AT WAS IMPOSSIBLE1 BUT HE IS SO G5TLE1 SO K9D1 SO GOODHUMOR$1 & SO PATI5T6 ,I LOV$ HIM :5 HE WAS H>%1 & :5 HE WAS \T ( HIS M9D2 BUT NO?+ SO WELL !N AS ,I HAVE DONE S9CE4 ,PEOPLE ?AT >E K9D & SMILE ALWAYS DO ONE GOOD2 BUT NOBODY'S SMILES >E LIKE MY FA!R'S4 ,IT MAKES ME CRY ) JOY SOMETIMES1 :5 ,I DO BUT ?9K ( !M4 ,PRAY1 PAPA10 ADD$ HE1 COM+ UP TO ! B$SIDE1 & :ISP]+1 YET ) A HURRI$ & PASSIONATE ACC5T1 0GET WELL6 ,DO BUT GET WELL1 & WE WILL BE SO HAPPY6 ,NEV] WAS !RE A FAMILY SO HAPPY OR SO LOV+ AS WE WILL BE60 

,:ILE HE SPOKE ?US1 ,I 5DEAVOR$ TO PUT \T MY H&1 BUT ,I C\LD NOT2 ,I 5DEAVOR$ TO SMILE1 BUT ,I WAS UNABLE3 MY HE>T WAS 9 A FEEBLE1 YET SOO?+1 TRANQUILITY4 ,! ACC5TS ( LOVE ,I HAD HE>D1 DWELT UPON MY MEMORY4 ,!Y HAD TALK$ ( DI/RESS1 BUT ! S5TIM5T ( LOVE WAS UPP]MO/ 9 MY RECOLLECTION4 ,I WAS TOO WEAK ( FRAME TO SUFF] 9TELLECTUAL DI/RESS2 NO ACC5TS BUT ?OSE :I* C>RI$ BALM TO MY SPIRIT1 SEEM$ CAPABLE ( RE/+ UPON MY E>4 ,FROM ?IS H\R ,I REGUL>LY GREW BETT]1 &1 AS ,I RECOV]$1 SEEM$ TO FEEL MORE & MORE VIVIDLY H[ 5VIABLE IT WAS TO BE ! HEAD ( A LOV+ & H>MONI\S FAMILY4 

,MY RECOV]Y H[EV] WAS EXCE$+LY SL[1 & IT WAS SEV]AL WEEKS BE=E ,I HAD SO F> RECRUIT$ MY /R5G? AS TO BE CAPABLE ( MY ORD9>Y OCCUPATIONS4 ,9 ! MEAN TIME ! PECUNI>Y DIFFICULTIES TO :I* WE W]E EXPOS$ H\RLY 9CREAS$1 & ! *E]FUL BUT 9SIGNIFICANT LABORS ( ,*>LES C\LD CONTRIBUTE LITTLE TO ! SUPPORT ( A FAMILY4 ,! MELAN*OLY NATURE ( \R SITUATION MI<T P]HAPS HAVE BE5 EXPECT$ TO PREV5T ! RE/ORATION ( MY HEAL?4 ,AT FIR/ H[EV] IT HAD NOT ?AT EFFECT4 ,! DEBILITAT$ /ATE ( MY ANIMAL FUNCTIONS L$ ME1 BY A SORT ( IRRESI/IBLE 9/9CT1 TO REJECT IDEAS & REFLECTIONS :I* ,I %\LD !N HAVE BE5 UNABLE TO 5DURE4 ,I SAW ! ANXIETY & AFFECTION ( MY FAMILY1 & ,I WAS COM=T$4 ,I SAW ! SMILES ( ,M>GU]ITE1 & ,I SEEM$ 9S5SIBLE TO ! LANGUOR1 ! SADD5$ *E]FULNESS1 !Y EXPRESS$4 ,I DID NOT P]CEIVE ?AT1 :ILE ,I WAS PROVID$ ) EV]Y ?+ NECESS>Y 9 MY CONDITION1 MY FAMILY W]E 9 WANT ( ! V]Y BREAD ?AT %\LD SU/A9 EXI/5CE4 

,MY HEAL? 9 ! MEAN TIME IMPROV$1 & MY P]CEPTIONS BECAME PROPORTIONABLY CLE>]4 ,SYMPTOMS ( DESOLATION & FAM9E1 ?\< AS MU* AS POSSIBLE COV]$ FROM MY SI<T1 OBTRUD$ !MSELVES1 & W]E REM>K$4 ,ONE DAY 9 P>TICUL> ,I OBS]V$ V>I\S TOK5S ( ?IS NATURE 9 SIL5CE1 & ) ?AT SORT ( BEWILD]$ UND]/&+ :I* AT ONCE LABORS = COMPREH5SION & RESI/S BELIEF4 ,! DAY CLOS$2 & :AT ,I HAD P]CEIV$ PRESS$ UPON MY M9D1 & EXCLUD$ SLEEP4 ,N[ = ! FIR/ TIME ,I EX]T$ MYSELF TO RECOLLECT 9 A ME?ODICAL WAY ! /ATE ( MY AFFAIRS2 = ! SEV]ITY ( MY ILLNESS HAD AT L5G? SUCCE$$ TO BANI% FROM ME ALL IDEAS & FEEL+S BUT :AT RELAT$ TO ! S5SATIONS IT PRODUC$1 & TO ! OBJECTS >\ND ME2 & IT WAS NOT )\T EF=T ?AT ,I C\LD ONCE MORE FULLY CALL TO M9D ! SC5ES 9 :I* ,I HAD BE5 5GAG$4 ,! TRU? !N BY REGUL> DEGREES ROSE COMPLETELY TO VIEW2 & ,I BEGAN TO BE A/ONI%$1 ?AT MY POOR WIFE & *ILDR5 HAD BE5 ABLE 9 ANY MANN] TO GET ?R\< ! HORRIBLE EVILS TO :I* !Y MU/ HAVE BE5 EXPOS$4 ,?IS ?\<T ,I REVOLV$ 9 MY M9D = NE> TWO H\RS2 & ! LONG] ,I DWELT UPON IT1 ! MORE P]TURB$ & RE/LESS ,I GREW4 ,AT L5G? IT BECAME IMPOSSIBLE = ME TO HOLD MY CONTEMPLATIONS P5T UP 9 MY [N BOSOM4 ,I TURN$ TO ,M>GU]ITE1 & ASK$ H]1 :E!R %E W]E ASLEEP4 

,%E ANSW]$ 9 ! NEGATIVE3 %E HAD BE5 REM>K+ MY RE/LESSNESS1 & T5D]LY 9QUIR$ RESPECT+ ITS CAUSE4 

0,H[ LONG10 SAID ,I1 0IS IT S9CE ,I WAS TAK5 ) ! FEV]80 

0,A MON? TO-MORR[10 REPLI$ %E4 0,IT WAS ( ! MO/ MALIGNANT & DI/RESS+ K9D :ILE IT LA/$1 & ,I DID NOT EXPECT Y\ TO LIVE4 ,BUT IT HAS LEFT Y\ A =TNI<T2 & ,I HOPE1 ,REG9ALD1 Y\ F9D Y\RSELF GETT+ /RONG AGA940 

0,& SO WE >E H]E 9 ,CON/ANCE1 & WE HAVE LEFT ,SWITZ]L&----80 

0,?REE MON?S1 MY LOVE60 

0,I REMEMB] V]Y WELL ! LETT] WE RECEIV$ FROM MONSIEUR ,GRIMSELD2 HAS ANY FUR!R 9TELLIG5CE REA*$ US FROM ?AT QU>T]80 

0,NONE40 

0,NONE6 ,NO SUPPLY ( ANY K9D HAS REA*$ Y\80 

0,MY DE> ,REG9ALD1 TALK ( SOME?+ ELSE6 ,Y\ WILL SOON1 ,I HOPE1 BE WELL3 \R *ILDR5 >E ALL ALIVE2 & ! CALAMITY1 ?AT HAS NOT SUCCE$$ TO SEP>ATE US1 OR TO DIM9I% \R CIRCLE ( LOVE EV5 BY A S+LE MEMB]1 WE WILL LE>N TO BE>4 ,LET US FIX \R ATT5TION ON ! BETT] PROSPECTS ?AT OP5 BE=E US60 

0,/AY1 ,M>GU]ITE6 ,I HAVE O!R QUE/IONS TO ASK4 ,BE=E Y\ REQUIRE ME TO BE> ! CALAMITIES ?AT HAVE OV]TAK5 US1 LET ME UND]/& :AT !SE CALAMITIES >E4 ,:ILE WE WAIT$ = 9TELLIG5CE FROM ,SWITZ]L&1 WE EXP5D$ ! :OLE SUM ?AT WE BR\<T ) US1 & ,I WAS OBLIG$ TO HIRE MYSELF TO ! EPISCOPAL G>D5] = BREAD2 WAS IT NOT SO80 

0,9DE$1 ,REG9ALD1 Y\ >E TO BLAME6 ,PRAY QUE/ION ME NO FUR!R60 

0,?IS WAS \R CONDITION SOME TIME AGO2 & N[1 = A MON? PA/1 ,I HAVE BE5 9CAPABLE ( LABOR4 ,M>GU]ITE1 :AT HAVE Y\ DONE80 

0,9DE$1 MY LOVE1 ,I HAVE BE5 TOO ANXI\S = Y\1 TO ?9K MU* ( ANY ?+ ELSE4 ,WE HAD /ILL SOME ?+S1 Y\ KN[1 ?AT WE C\LD CONTRIVE TO DO )\T2 & ?OSE ,I HAVE SOLD4 ,*>LES TOO1 \R EXCELL5T-HE>T$ SON1 HAS LATELY HIR$ HIMSELF TO ! G>D5]1 & HAS EV]Y NI<T BR\<T US HOME A LITTLE1 ?\< IT WAS BUT LITTLE40 

0,DE> BOY6 ,:AT *ILDR51 :AT A WIFE1 HAVE ,I BR\<T TO DE/RUCTION6 ,\R R5T TOO1 SURELY Y\ HAVE NOT BE5 ABLE TO PAY ?AT80 

0,NOT 5TIRELY4 ,9 P>T ,I HAVE BE5 OBLIG$ TO PAY IT40 

0,AH6 ,I WELL REMEMB] H[ FL9TY-HE>T$ A WRET* HAS GOT ! P[] OV] US 9 ?AT RESPECT60 

0,HE HAS NOT TURN$ US \T ( DOORS4 ,HE ?REAT5$ H>D SEV]AL TIMES4 ,AT LA/ ,I SAW IT WAS NECESS>Y TO MAKE AN EF=T1 & ! DAY BE=E YE/]DAY ,I PAID HIM HALF HIS DEM&4 ,IF ,I C\LD HAVE AVOID$ ?AT1 WE MI<T HAVE HAD A SUPPLY ( FOOD A LITTLE LONG]4 ,I 9TREAT$ E>NE/LY = A LITTLE FUR!R 9DULG5CE1 BUT IT WAS 9 VA94 ,IT W5T AGA9/ ! PRIDE & 9DEP5D5CE ( MY S\L TO SUE TO ?IS MAN2 BUT IT WAS = Y\ & = MY *ILDR560 

0,REMORSELESS WRET*6 ,!N EV]Y PETTY RES\RCE WE HAD IS GONE80 

0,9DE$ ,I DO NOT KN[ ?AT WE HAVE ANY ?+ MORE TO SELL4 ,I SE>*$ N>R[LY YE/]DAY2 BUT ,I WILL EXAM9E AGA9 TO-DAY4 ,! POOR *ILDR5 MU/ HAVE SOME?+ TO SUPPORT !M1 & !IR F>E HAS ( LATE BE5 DREADFULLY SCANTY40 

0,!IR F>E6 ,:AT HAVE !Y EAT580 

0,BREAD2 NO?+ ELSE = ! LA/ =TNI<T60 

0,& Y\RSELF80 

0,OH1 ,REG9ALD6 IT WAS NECESS>Y1 Y\ KN[1 ?AT ,I %\LD KEEP MYSELF ALIVE4 ,BUT1 ,I ASSURE Y\1 ,I HAVE ROBB$ !M AS LITTLE AS ,I C\LD40 

0,HORROR1 HORROR6 ,M>GU]ITE1 :AT IS IT Y\ DREAM (8 ,I SEE MY WIFE & *ILDR5 DY+ ( HUNG]1 & Y\ TALK TO ME ( HOPE & ( PROSPECTS6 ,:Y HAS ?IS DETAIL ( MIS]IES BE5 CONCEAL$ FROM ME8 ,:Y HAVE ,I BE5 SUFF]$1 ) ACCURS$ & UNNATURAL APPETITE1 TO FE$ ON ! VITALS ( ALL ,I LOVE80 

0,REG9ALD6 EV5 SELFI%NESS ITSELF W\LD HAVE TAU<T US ?AT6 ,IT IS TO Y\R RECOV]Y ?AT WE LOOK = \R FUTURE SUPPORT60 

0,MOCK ME NOT1 ,I ADJURE Y\1 ) S5SELESS WORDS6 ,Y\ TALK IDLY ( ! FUTURE1 :ILE ! TREM5D\S PRES5T B>S ALL PROSPECT TO ?AT FUTURE4 ,WE >E P]I%+ BY 9*ES4 ,WE HAVE NO PROVISION = ! COM+ DAY6 ,NO1 NO2 SOME?+ DESP]ATE1 SOME?+ YET UN?\<T (1 MU/ BE ATTEMPT$6 ,I WILL NOT SIT 9ACTIVE1 & SEE MY (FSPR+ >\ND ME DIE 9 SUCCESSION4 ,NO1 BY ,HEAV56 ,?\< ,I AM />V+ LIKE ,UGOL9O1 ,I AM NOT1 LIKE ,UGOL9O1 %UT UP 9 A DUNGEON6 ,! WORLD IS OP52 ITS SC5ES >E WIDE2 ! RES\RCES IT (F]S >E1 TO ! BOLD & DESPAIR+1 9NUM]ABLE6 ,I AM A FA!R1 & WILL %[ MYSELF WOR?Y ( ! NAME60 

0,REG9ALD6 TORTURE ME NOT BY LANGUAGE LIKE ?IS6 ,?9K :AT IT IS TO BE 9DE$ A FA!R1 & MAKE Y\RSELF ?AT6 ,BE C>EFUL ( Y\RSELF2 COMPLETE Y\R RECOV]Y1--& LEAVE ! RE/ TO ME6 ,I HAVE CONDUCT$ IT ?US F>1 NOR AM ,I YET )\T HOPE4 ,EI<T DAYS AGO ,I APPLI$ TO ! SECRET>Y ( ! PALACE1 REPRES5T+ Y\R CASE AS A RETA9] ( ! BI%OP1 DISABL$ BY SICKNESS1 & ) A FAMILY UNPROVID$ =4 ,TILL YE/]DAY ,I GOT NO ANSW] TO MY MEMORIAL2 & !N HE 9=M$ ME1 ?AT Y\ HAD BE5 SO %ORT A TIME 9 EMPLOY1 ?AT NO?+ C\LD BE DONE = Y\4 ,BUT TO-DAY ,I WILL ?R[ MYSELF AT ! FEET ( ! BI%OP HIMSELF1 :O >RIV$ LA/ NI<T ONLY FROM ! O!R SIDE ( ! LAKE40 

,EV]Y WORD ?AT ,M>GU]ITE UTT]$ W5T TO MY HE>T4 ,IT WAS NOT LONG BE=E ! DAWN ( ! DAY1 & ! TRU?S ,I HAD HE>D W]E FUR!R CONFIRM$ TO ME BY ! ORGAN ( SI<T4 ,! S5TIM5TS ( ?IS NI<T PRODUC$ A TOTAL REVOLUTION 9 ME1 & ,I WAS NO LONG] ! FEEBLE CONVALESC5T ?AT ! SETT+ SUN ( ! PREC$+ DAY HAD LEFT ME4 ,! FILM WAS REMOV$ FROM MY EYES1 & ,I SURVEY$ NOT ! OBJECTS >\ND ME ) A GLASSY EYE & UNAPPREH5SIVE OBS]VATION4 ,ALL ! P[]S ,I POSSESS$ W]E AL]T & 9 MOTION4 ,TO MY SUSPICI\S & HURRI$ GAZE ! AP>TM5T APPE>$ /RIPP$ ( ITS MOVABLES1 & LEFT NAK$1 A MANSION 9 :I* = DESPAIR TO TAKE UP HIS ABODE4 ,MY *ILDR5 APPROA*$ ME2 ,I SEEM$ TO READ ! WAN & EMACIAT$ TRACES ( DEA? 9 !IR C\NT5ANCES4 ,?IS P]HAPS WAS 9 SOME DEGREE ! PA9T+ ( MY TOO CONSCI\S ?\<TS4 ,BUT !RE NE$$ NO EXAGG]ATION TO AWAK5 TORTURE 9 MY BOSOM1 :51 ?US /IMULAT$1 ,I OBS]V$ = ! FIR/ TIME ! DREADFUL *ANGE ?AT HAD TAK5 PLACE 9 ,M>GU]ITE4 ,H] COLOR WAS GONE2 H] *EEKS W]E SUNK2 H] EYE HAD ! QUICKNESS & DISCOMPOSURE EXPRESSIVE ( DEBILITY4 ,I TOOK HOLD ( H] H&1 & F\ND IT COLD1 EMACIAT$1 & :ITE4 ,I PRESS$ IT TO MY LIPS ) AGONY2 A TE> UNBIDD5 FELL FROM MY EYE1 & RE/$ UPON IT4 ,HAV+ F9I%$ MY EXAM9ATION1 ,I TOOK MY HAT1 & WAS HA/5+ TO ESCAPE 9TO ! /REET4 ,M>GU]ITE NOT$ MY MOTIONS1 & ANXI\SLY 9T]POS$ TO PREV5T MY DESIGN4 ,%E LAID H] H& ON MY >M G5TLY1 YET 9 A MANN] FULL ( IRRESI/IBLE EXPO/ULATION4 

0,:]E W\LD Y\ GO8 ,:AT HAVE Y\ PURPOS$8 ,DO NOT1--,OH1 DO NOT1 DE/ROY A FAMILY1 TO :OM Y\R LIFE1 Y\R SOBRIETY1 & PRUD5CE1 >E 9DISP5SABLE60 

,I TOOK H] H& )9 BO? M9E4 0,COMPOSE Y\RSELF1 MY LOVE6 ,I HAVE BE5 Y\R 5EMY TOO MU* ALREADY1 TO BE CAPABLE N[1 SO MU* AS 9 ?\<T1 ( ADD+ TO MY GUILT6 ,I NE$ AN 9T]VAL = MUS+ & DET]M9ATION4 ,I WILL RETURN 9 A V]Y %ORT TIME1 & Y\ %ALL BE ! CONFIDANT ( MY ?\<TS60 

,) WILD & IMPATI5T SPIRIT ,I REPASS$ 9 IDEA ! :OLE HI/ORY ( MY LIFE4 ,BUT PR9CIPALLY ,I DWELT 9 RECOLLECTION UPON ! M>QUIS DE ,DAMVILLE1 ?AT G5]\S FRI5D1 ?AT MUNIFIC5T B5EFACTOR1 :OSE CONFID5CE ,I HAD SO ILL REPAID4 0,DAMVILLE60 EXCLAIM$ ,I1 0Y\ TRU/$ TO ME Y\R DAU<T]1 ! DE>E/ ?+ Y\ KNEW ON E>?2 Y\ BELIEV$ ?AT ! WRET* DID NOT LIVE :O C\LD BE UNJU/ TO SO RI* A PL$GE4 ,LOOK D[N1 LOOK D[N1 ,O BE/ ( M56 FROM ! HEAV5 TO :I* Y\R VIRTUES HAVE RAIS$ Y\1 & SEE ( H[ MU* BAS5ESS MAN--YES1 ! MAN Y\ DISDA9$ NOT TO CALL Y\R FRI5D--IS CAPABLE6 ,BUT1 NO6 A SI<T LIKE ?IS MI<T WELL CONV]T ! HEAV5 Y\ DWELL 9 TO HELL6 ,Y\ TRU/$ H] TO ME2 ,I HAVE ROBB$ H]6 ,Y\ 5RI*$ H] M9D ) ! NOBLE/ 5D[M5TS2 ,I HAVE BURI$ !M 9 ! MIRE ( ! VILE/ CONDITION6 ,ALL H] G5]\S1 H] UNWE>I$ EX]TIONS >E FRUITLESS2 BY MY EVIL G5IUS !Y >E BLA/$6 ,I HAVE MADE H] A MO!R1 ONLY ?AT %E MI<T BEHOLD H] *ILDR5 P]I%+ ) HUNG]6 ,!Y /RET* \T !IR H&S TO ME = ! SMALLE/ PORTION ( ?AT 9H]ITANCE1 :I* ,I HAVE SQU&]$ 9 MORE ?AN DEMONIAC VICE6 ,?IS1 ?IS IS ! FRUIT ( MY MISDE$S6 ,I AM N[ DRA9+ ! LA/ DREGS ( ?AT MIS*IEF1 ( :I* ,I HAVE SO WICK$LY1 SO BASELY1 BE5 ! AU?OR60 

,AS ,I RETURN$ ,I MET ,M>GU]ITE1 :O WAS COME FROM H] ATTEMPT UPON ! BI%OP4 ,HE HAD RECEIV$ H] PAP]1 & DELIV]$ IT TO HIS SECRET>Y1 ?AT V]Y SECRET>Y :O HAD ALREADY DISAPPO9T$ ALL H] EXPECTATIONS FROM ?AT QU>T]4 ,%E HAD ATTEMPT$ TO SPEAK1 TO ADJURE ! BI%OP1 :ATEV] HE DID1 NOT TO DELIV] H] OV] TO A MAN BY :OM H] HOPES HAD BE5 SO CRUELLY FRU/RAT$2 BUT ! TUMULT ( ! SC5E DR[N$ H] VOICE1 & ! HURRY & CONFUSION OV]P[]$ H] EF=TS4 ,!Y1 H[EV]1 DREW SU* A DEGREE ( ATT5TION ON H]1 ?AT1 9 ! DISS5TIONS :I* RELIGI\S BROILS AT ?AT TIME SPREAD 9 ,CON/ANCE1 %E WAS SUSPECT$ ( PRESS+ ?US E>NE/LY T[>DS ! P]SON ( ! BI%OP ) NO GOOD DESIGN1 & 9 F9E WAS RUDELY ?RU/ \T ( ! PALACE4 ,%E HAD NOT RECOV]$ FROM ! AGITATION 9TO :I* %E HAD BE5 ?R[N1 :5 ,I MET H]4 ,I EAG]LY 9QUIR$ 9TO ! CAUSE ( H] APP>5T DI/RESS2 BUT %E %OOK H] HEAD M\RNFULLY1 & WAS SIL5T4 ,I EASILY UND]/OOD :]E %E HAD BE51 & ! FAILURE ( H] EXP]IM5T4 

0,ALL !N10 SAID ,I1 0IS AT AN 5D4 ,N[1 ,M>GU]ITE1 Y\ MU/ GIVE UP Y\R EXP]IM5TS1 & LEAVE TO ME ! CURE ( EVILS ( :I* ,I ONLY AM ! AU?OR4 ,I WILL RETURN ?IS 9/ANT TO ! G>D5 ( ! PALACE1 & RESUME ! SITUATION ,I =M]LY OCCUPI$40 

0,= ,GOD'S SAKE1 ,REG9ALD1 :AT IS IT Y\ MEAN8 ,Y\ HAVE JU/ ACQUIR$ /R5G? TO SEEK ! B5EFIT ( AIR4 ,! LEA/ EX]TION FATIGUES Y\4 ,AT ?IS MOM5T1 ! LITTLE WALK Y\ HAVE TAK5 HAS COV]$ Y\ ) P]SPIRATION4 ,Y\ C\LD NOT DIG OR /OOP = A QU>T] ( AN H\R )\T BE+ UTT]LY EXHAU/$40 

0,M>GU]ITE1 ,I WILL NOT SIT D[N TAMELY1 & SEE MY FAMILY EXPIRE4 ,9 MANY CASES IT IS REASONABLE TO BID A VALETUD9>IAN TAKE C>E ( HIMSELF4 ,BUT \R SITUATION IS BEYOND ?AT4 ,I MU/ DO SOME?+4 ,EXTRAORD9>Y CIRCUM/ANCES (T5 BR+ ALONG ) !M EXTRAORD9>Y /R5G?4 ,NO MAN KN[S1 TILL ! EXP]IM5T1 :AT HE IS CAPABLE ( EFFECT+4 ,I FEEL AT ?IS MOM5T NO DEBILITY2 & ,I D\BT NOT ?AT ! DESPAIR ( MY M9D WILL GIVE R$\BL$ 5]GY TO MY EF=TS40 

,:ILE ,I SPOKE ?US1 ,I WAS CONSCI\S ?AT ,I HAD LITTLE MORE ?AN ! /R5G? ( A NEW-BORN *ILD4 ,BUT ,I C\LD NOT 5DURE AT SU* A TIME TO REMA9 9 9ACTIVITY4 ,I FELT AS MU* A%AM$ ( ! DEBILITAT$ /ATE 9 :I* MY FEV] HAD LEFT ME1 AS ,I C\LD HAVE DONE ( ! MO/ +LORI\S EFFEM9ACY & C[>DICE ( S\L4 ,I DET]M9$ TO RELIEVE MY FAMILY1 OR P]I% 9 ! ATTEMPT4 ,IF ALL MY EF=TS W]E VA91 ,I C\LD NOT BETT] F9I% MY C>E]1 ?AN EXHAU/$1 S9K+1 EXPIR+ UND] A LA/ EX]TION1 TO DIS*>GE ! DUTIES ( MY /ATION4 

,WE RETURN$ 9TO ! H\SE4 ,M>GU]ITE TOOK FROM A CLOSET ! LA/ REMNANT ( PROVISIONS WE HAD1 ! PUR*ASE ( POOR ,*>LES'S LABOR ( ! PREC$+ DAY4 ,!RE WAS A G5]AL CONTE/ :O %\LD ESCAPE FROM RECEIV+ ANY P>T 9 ! DI/RIBUTION4 ,*>LES HAD )DRAWN HIMSELF1 & WAS NOT TO BE F\ND4 ,JULIA 5DEAVOR$ TO ABSCOND1 BUT WAS /OPP$ BY ,L\ISA & H] MO!R4 ,%E HAD WEPT SO MU*1 ?AT 9ANITION SEEM$ MORE DANG]\S = H]1 ?AN P]HAPS = ANY O!R ( ! CIRCLE4 ,NO ONE CAN CONCEIVE1 :O HAS NOT FELT IT1 H[ AFFECT+ A CONTE/ ( ?IS K9D MU/ APPE> TO ME1 S5SIBLE AS ,I WAS TO ! DANG] ?AT !IR VIRTUE & G5]\S AFFECTION W]E ! PRELUDE ONLY TO !IR COMMON DE/RUCTION4 ,I SAID1 !RE WAS A G5]AL CONTE/ :O %\LD AVOID ALL %>E 9 ! DI/RIBUTION2 BUT ,I RECOLLECT ?AT ! LITTLE ,M>GU]ITE1 TWO YE>S & A HALF OLD1 EXCLAIM$ AT FIR/1 0,I AM SO HUNGRY1 MAMA60 ,BUT WAT*+1 AS %E C>EFULLY DID1 EV]Y ?+ ?AT PASS$1 %E PRES5TLY LAID D[N H] BREAD UPON ! TABLE 9 SIL5CE1 & ALMO/ UNT\*$2 & BE+ ASK$1 ,:Y %E DID SO8 %E REPLI$1 9 A TONE ( SPEAK+ S5SIBILITY1 0,?ANK Y\1 ,I AM NOT HUNGRY N[60 

,?IS SC5E MADE AN IMPRESSION ON MY M9D NEV] TO BE =GOTT54 ,IT BLA/$ & CORRUPT$ ALL ! PULSES ( MY S\L4 ,A LITTLE BE=E1 ,I HAD RECONCIL$ MYSELF TO POV]TY2 ,I HAD EV5 BR\<T MYSELF TO REG>D IT ) *E]FULNESS4 ,BUT ! S5TIM5T WAS N[ REV]S$4 ,I C\LD 5DURE IT1 ,I C\LD /EEL MYSELF AGA9/ ITS ATTACKS2 BUT NEV] FROM ?IS H\R1 9 ! WILDE/ P>OXYSMS ( 5?USIASM1 HAS IT BE5 ! TOPIC ( MY EXULTATION OR MY PANEGYRIC4 ,NO *ANGE ( CIRCUM/ANCES1 NO 9UNDATION ( WEAL?1 HAS HAD ! P[] TO OBLIT]ATE FROM MY RECOLLECTION :AT ,I !N SAW4 ,A FAMILY P]I%+ ) HUNG]2 ALL ?AT IS DE>E/ TO Y\ 9 ! WORLD S9K+ UND] ! MO/ DREADFUL ( ALL ! SC\RGES ) :I* ?IS SUBLUN>Y SC5E IS EV] AFFLICT$2 NO HELP NE>2 NO PROSPECT BUT ( /ILL ACCUMULAT+ DI/RESS2 A DEA?1 ! SL[E/1 YET ! MO/ C]TA9 & ! MO/ AGONIZ+1 ?AT CAN BEFALL US3 NO1 !RE IS NO?+ ?AT HAS P[] TO R5D ALL ! /R+S ( ! HE>T LIKE ?IS6 ,FROM ?IS MOM5T1 ! :OLE SET ( MY FEEL+S WAS *ANG$4 ,AV>ICE DESC5D$1 & TOOK POSSESSION ( MY S\L4 ,HAUNT$1 AS ,I P]PETUALLY WAS1 BY IMAGES ( ! PLAGUE ( FAM9E1 NO?+ APPE>$ TO ME SO VALUABLE AS WEAL?2 NO?+ SO DESIRABLE AS TO BE PLAC$ AT ! UTMO/ POSSIBLE DI/ANCE FROM WANT4 ,AN APPETITE ( ?IS K9D IS 9SATIABLE2 NO DI/ANCE SEEMS SUFFICI5TLY GREAT2 NO OB/ACLES1 M\NTA9S ON M\NTA9S ( GOLD1 APPE> AN 9ADEQUATE SECURITY TO B> FROM US ! APPROA* ( ! MON/] WE DREAD4 

,:ILE ,I SPEAK ( ! S5TIM5TS :I* 9 ! SEQUEL W]E G5]AT$ 9 MY M9D BY :AT ,I N[ SAW1 ,I AM SUSP5D+ MY N>RATIVE 9 A CRISIS AT :I* A FAMILY1 9T]E/+1 AMIABLE & VIRTU\S1 IS R$UC$ TO ! L[E/ /ATE ( HUMILIATION & DI/RESS4 

,!Y >E MOM5TS LIKE !SE1 ?AT H>D5 ! HUMAN HE>T1 & FILL US ) 9EXT+UI%ABLE HATR$ & CONTEMPT = \R SPECIES4 ,!Y TE> (F ! TRAPP+S & DECORATION ( POLI%$ SOCIETY1 & %[ IT 9 ALL ITS HIDE\SNESS4 ,! WANTON EYE ( PAMP]$ PRIDE PLEASES ITSELF ) ! SPECTACLE ( CITIES & PALACES1 ! /ATELY COLUMN & ! SWELL+ >*4 ,IT OBS]VES AT H& ! BUSY SC5E1 :]E ALL >E OCCUPI$ 9 ! V>I\S PURSUITS ( PLEASURE OR 9DU/RY2 & ADMIRES ! CONC]T1 ! WIDE-SPREAD+ CONF$]ACY1 BY MEANS ( :I* EA* AFT] HIS MODE IS UNCONSCI\SLY PROMOT+ ! OBJECTS ( O!RS4 ,*EAT$ BY ! \TSIDE ( ?+S1 WE D5OM9ATE ?IS A VA/ COMB9ATION = G5]AL B5EFIT4 ,! POOR & ! FAMI%$ MAN CONTEMPLATES ! SC5E ) O!R ?\<TS4 ,UNBRIB$ TO ADMIRE & APPLAUD1 HE SEES 9 IT A CONF$]ACY ( HO/ILITY & G5]AL OPPRESSION4 ,HE SEES EV]Y MAN PURSU+ HIS SELFI% 5DS1 REG>DLESS ( ! WANTS ( O!RS4 ,HE SEES HIMSELF CONTEMPTU\SLY DRIV5 FROM ! CIRCLE :]E ! RE/ ( HIS FELL[-CITIZ5S >E BUSILY & PR(ITABLY 5GAG$4 ,HE LIVES 9 ! MID/ ( A CR[D1 )\T ONE FRI5D TO FEEL AN 9T]E/ 9 HIS WELF>E4 ,HE LIVES 9 ! MID/ ( PL5TY1 FROM ! P>TICIPATION ( :I* HE IS DRIV5 BY BRUTAL M5ACES & VIOL5CE4 ,NO MAN :O HAS NOT BE5 PLAC$ 9 HIS SITUATION CAN IMAG9E ! S5SATIONS1 ) :I*1 OV]:ELM$ AS HE IS ) DOME/IC RU9 & DESPAIR1 HE BEHOLDS ! RIOT1 ! PRODIGALITY1 ! IDIOT O/5TATION1 ! S5SELESS EXP5SE1 ) :I* HE IS SURR\ND$ ON EV]Y SIDE4 ,:AT W]E WE TO DO8 ,W]E WE TO BEG ALONG ! /REETS8 ,W]E WE TO 9 TREAT = WRET*$ (FALS AT RI* M5'S DOORS8 ,ALAS6 ?IS1 IT WAS TO BE FE>$1 EV5 IF WE /OOP$ TO ! MIS]ABLE ATTEMPT1 9/EAD ( SATISFY+ WANTS = EV] NEW1 W\LD ONLY PROLONG 9 ! BITT]NESS ( ANGUI% ! FATE = :I* WE W]E RES]V$6---- 

,AN UNEXPECT$ RELIEF AT ?IS TIME PRES5T$ ITSELF4 ,:ILE ! SCANTY MEAL ,I HAVE M5TION$ WAS YET UNF9I%$1 A LETT] WAS PRES5T$ ME 5CLOS+ UND] ITS COV] A BILL ( ONE HUNDR$ CR[NS4 ,! LETT] WAS FROM ,B]N>D91 ! FAI?FUL S]VANT :OM WE F\ND IT NECESS>Y TO DISMISS ?REE MON?S BE=E1 :5 WE QUITT$ \R RESID5CE 9 ,SWITZ]L&4 ,IT 9=M$ US ?AT1 AS SOON AS HE HAD P>T$ FROM US1 HE HAD SET \T ON HIS RETURN TO HIS NATIVE T[N1 NEXT ADJAC5T TO MY PAT]NAL RESID5CE2 ?AT HE F\ND HIS FA!R HAD DI$ A %ORT TIME BE=E1 & ?AT1 FROM ! SALE ( HIS EFFECTS1 HE HAD REAP$ AN 9H]ITANCE TO TRIPLE ! AM\NT ( ! SUM HE HAD N[ =W>D$ TO US4 ,HE HAD HE>D BY ACCID5T ( ! DEA? ( \R FRI5D 9 ,SWITZ]L&1 & ! *>ACT] ( HIS SUCCESSOR1 & DREAD$ ?AT ! CONSEQU5CES MI<T PROVE HI<LY 9JURI\S TO US4 ,HE HAD /ILL SOME BUS9ESS TO SETTLE ) ! SURVIV+ BRAN*ES ( HIS FAMILY1 BUT ?AT W\LD BE OV] 9 A FEW WEEKS2 & !N1 IF WE W\LD ALL[ HIM1 HE W\LD RETURN TO HIS DE> MA/]1 & AF=D US EV]Y ASSI/ANCE 9 HIS P[]4 ,! LITTLE PROP]TY ?AT HAD N[ FALL5 TO HIM W\LD PREV5T HIM FROM BE+ A BURD52 & HE W\LD HIRE A SPOT ( L&1 & REMA9 NE> US1 IF WE REFUS$ HIM ! CONSOLATION ( RETURN+ TO HIS =M] EMPLOYM5T4 

,:AT A REPROA* WAS IT TO ME1 ?AT1 DESC5D$ FROM ONE ( ! MO/ ILLU/RI\S FAMILIES 9 ,EUROPE1 ! HEIR ( AN AMPLE PATRIMONY1 & RECEIV+ A /ILL L>G] =TUNE 9 M>RIAGE1 ,I %\LD1 BY ! TOTAL NEGLECT & PR(LIGATE DEFIANCE ( ! DUTIES 9CUMB5T ON ME1 HAVE R$UC$ MYSELF SO L[ AS TO BE 9DEBT$ TO A PEASANT & A M5IAL = ! MEANS ( SAV+ MY FAMILY FROM 9/ANT DE/RUCTION6 ,?IS WAS A DEEP & FATAL W\ND TO ! PRIDE ( MY S\L4 ,!RE WAS H[EV] NO ALT]NATIVE1 NO POSSIBILITY ( REJECT+ ! SUPPLY AF=D$ US AT SO EV5TFUL A MOM5T4 ,WE DET]M9$ TO USE IT = ! PRES5T1 & TO REPAY IT ) ! E>LIE/ OPPORTUNITY2 & 9 ! FOLL[+ WEEK1 9 SPITE ( ! REMON/RANCES ( ,M>GU]ITE1 ! YET FEEBLE /ATE ( MY HEAL?1 & ! P5ALTIES ANNEX$ TO ! PROCE$+1 ,I SET (F = ! CANTON ( ,SOLEURE1 DET]M9$1 IF POSSIBLE1 TO WRE/ ! LITTLE /AFF ( MY FAMILY FROM ! H& ?AT SO BASELY DETA9$ IT4 

,I PASS$ ?R\< ,ZURI* & A P>T ( ! CANTON ( ,BASLE )\T OB/ACLE2 !SE P>TS ( ,SWITZ]L& HAD NOT SUFF]$ FROM ! CALAMITY :I* HAD OCCASION$ \R EXILE4 ,9 PROCE$+ FUR!R1 ,I F\ND IT NECESS>Y TO ASSUME A DISGUISE1 & TO AVOID L>GE T[NS & FREQU5T$ ROADS4 ,I REA*$ AT L5G? ! WELL KN[N SC5E 9 :I* ,I HAD SO LATELY CONSUM$ TWELVE MON?S ( MY LIFE2 9 :I* ,I FIR/ BEGAN TO BREA! 7TO BREA!1 NOT TO BE REFRE%$7 FROM RU91 BEGG>Y1 & EXILE4 ,!RE WAS NO PLEAS+ RECOLLECTION ANNEX$ TO ?IS SPOT2 IT WAS A REMEMBRANC] ( %AME1 SORR[1 & REMORSE4 ,YET1 SU* IS ! P[] ( OBJECTS ONCE FAMILI>1 REVISIT$ AFT] ABS5CE1 ?AT MY EYE RAN OV] !M ) DELI<T1 ,I FELT LI<T5$ FROM ! WE>9ESS ( ! J\RNEY1 & F\ND ?AT ! RECOLLECTION ( PA9S PA/ OV] & SUBDU$ WAS CAPABLE ( BE+ MADE A S\RCE ( GRATIFICATION4 ,! M\NTA9S AMONG :I* ,I HAD W&]$1 & CONSUM$1 AS IT W]E1 ! LA/ DREGS ( MY 9SANITY1 SURR\ND$ ME2 ! PA? 9 :I* ,I WAS TRAVEL+ L$ ALONG ONE ( !IR RIDGES4 ,I HAD P]=M$ ?IS P>T ( MY J\RNEY BY NI<T2 & ! FIR/ GLEAMS ( DAY N[ BEGAN TO /REAK ! HORIZON4 ,I LOOK$ T[>DS ! COTTAGE1 ! DI/ANT VIEW ( :I* HAD SO (T51 9 MOM5TS ( ! DEEPE/ DESPAIR1 AWAK5$ 9 MY HE>T ! SOO?+S ( SYMPA?Y & AFFECTION4 ,I SAW ?AT AS YET IT REMA9$ 9 ITS =LORN CONDITION1 & HAD UND]GONE NO REPAIR2 :ILE ! L&S >\ND1 :I* HAD LATELY EXP]I5C$ ! SUP]9T5D5CE ( ,M>GU]ITE1 HAD MET ) MORE ATT5TION1 & BEGAN TO RESUME ! M>KS ( CULTURE4 ,I SI<$ = ! RETURN ( ?OSE DAYS & ?AT SITUATION1 :I*1 :ILE PRES5T TO ME1 HAD PASS$ UNHE$$ & UN5JOY$4 

,I REPAIR$ TO ! H\SE ( MY LATE PROTECTOR1 N[ ! RESID5CE ( MONSIEUR ,GRIMSELD4 ,HE WAS A MEAG] %RIVEL$ FIGURE2 &1 ?\< SC>CELY >RIV$ AT ! MIDDLE ( HUMAN LIFE1 EXHIBIT$ ALL ! M>KS ( A PREMATURE OLD AGE4 ,I DISCLOS$ MYSELF TO HIM1 & BEGAN W>MLY TO EXPO/ULATE ) HIM UPON ! PR(LIGACY ( HIS CONDUCT4 ,HE *ANG$ COLOR1 & BETRAY$ SYMPTOMS ( CONFUSION1 ! MOM5T ,I ANN\NC$ MYSELF4 ,:ILE ,I PRESS$ HIM ) ! B>B>ITY ( HIS CONDUCT1 ! DREADFUL EFFECTS IT HAD ALREADY PRODUC$1 & ! 9CONTE/IBLE JU/ICE ( MY CLAIM1 HE /AMM]$1 & BEGAN TO PROPOSE T]MS ( ACCOMMODATION4 ,DUR+ ?IS CONV]SATION WE W]E ALONE4 ,AFT] SOME TIME1 H[EV]1 A S]VANT 5T]$ ! ROOM1 & ! C\NT5ANCE ( ! MA/] ASSUM$ AN EXPRESSION ( SATISFACTION & CONFID5CE4 ,HE EAG]LY SEIZ$ ON ! OCCASION :I* PRES5T$ ITSELF1 &1 9/ANTLY *ANG+ HIS TONE1 CALL$ ON HIS S]VANT TO ASSI/ HIM 9 SECUR+ A CRIM9AL AGA9/ ! /ATE4 ,I AT FIR/ RESI/$1 BUT ,GRIMSELD P]CEIV+ ?IS1 APPLI$ TO HIS BELL ) GREAT VEHEM5CE1 & ?REE O!R S]VANTS MADE !IR APPE>ANCE1 :OSE EMPLOYM5T WAS 9 ! FIELD1 BUT :O HAD N[ ACCID5TALLY COME 9TO ! H\SE = REFRE%M5T4 ,I HAD >MS2 BUT ,I F\ND IT IMPRACTICABLE TO EFFECT MY ESCAPE2 & ,I SOON FELT ?AT1 BY YIELD+ TO ! IMPULSE ( 9DIGNATION1 & PUNI%+ ,GRIMSELD ON ! SPOT = HIS P]FIDY1 ,I MI<T RU9 BUT C\LD NOT =W>D ! AFFAIR 9 :I* ,I WAS 5GAG$4 

,I WAS CONDUCT$ TO PRISON2 & ! ?\<TS PRODUC$ 9 ME BY ?IS SUDD5 REV]SE W]E EXTREMELY MELAN*OLY & DISC\RAG+4 ,GRIMSELD WAS A MAN ( OPUL5CE & P[]2 ,I WAS )\T FRI5DS1 OR ! MEANS ( PROCUR+ FRI5DS4 ,! LAW EXPRESSLY CONDEMN$ MY RETURN2 & :AT HAD ,I NOT TO FE> FROM LAW1 :5 ABETT$ & 9=C$ BY ! H& ( P[]8 ,I MI<T BE IMPRISON$ = T5 YE>S2 ,I MI<T BE IMPRISON$ = LIFE4 ,I BEGAN E>NE/LY TO WI% ?AT ,I HAD REMA9$ ) MY FAMILY1 & GIV5 UP AT LEA/ ALL PRES5T HOPES ( R$RESS4 ,IT W\LD BE A DREADFUL ACCUMULATION ( ALL MY CALAMITIES1 IF N[ AT LA/ ,I & MY *ILDR5 W]E DE/9$ TO SUFF]1 P]HAPS TO P]I%1 9 A /ATE ( SEP>ATION2 & ! LA/ CONSOLATIONS ( ! WRET*$1 ?OSE ( SUFF]+1 SYMPA?IZ+1 & CONDOL+ ) EA* O!R1 W]E D5I$ US4 

,FULL ( !SE TRAGICAL =EBOD+S1 ,I ?REW MYSELF AT FIR/ ON ! FLOOR ( MY CELL 9 A /ATE LITTLE %ORT ( ! MO/ ABSOLUTE DESPAIR4 ,I EXCLAIM$ UPON MY ADV]SE =TUNE1 :I* WAS NEV] WE>Y ( P]SECUT+ ME4 ,I APO/ROPHIZ$1 ) T5D] & DI/RACT$ ACC5TS1 MY WIFE & *ILDR51 FROM :OM ,I N[ SEEM$ TO BE CUT (F BY AN EV]LA/+ DIVORCE4 ,I CALL$ UPON DEA? TO PUT AN 5D TO !SE TUMULTS & EMOTIONS ( ! S\L1 :I* W]E NO LONG] TO BE BORNE4 

,9 A %ORT TIME H[EV] ,I RECOV]$ MYSELF1 PROCUR$ ! IMPLEM5TS ( WRIT+1 & DREW UP1 9 ! /RONG & IMPRESSIVE LANGUAGE ( TRU?1 A MEMORIAL TO ! C\NCIL ( ! /ATE4 ,I WAS NEXT TO CONSID] H[ ?IS WAS TO REA* ITS DE/9ATION2 = !RE WAS SOME DANG] ?AT IT MI<T BE 9T]CEPT$ BY ! VIGILANCE & MALIGNITY ( MY ADV]S>Y4 ,I DESIR$ TO SPEAK ) ! KEEP] ( ! PRISON4 ,HE HAD SOME RECOLLECTION ( ME1 & A /ILL MORE DI/9CT ONE ( MY FAMILY4 ,HE CONCURR$ ) ! G5]AL S5TIM5T1 9 A /RONG AV]SION TO ! *>ACT] ( ,GRIMSELD4 ,AS ,I PRESS$ UPON HIM ! H>D%IP ( MY CASE1 & ! FATAL CONSEQU5CES ) :I* IT MI<T BE ATT5D$1 ,I C\LD P]CEIVE ?AT HE FULLY 5T]$ 9TO ! FEEL+ ) :I* ,I WI%$ HIM TO BE IMPRESS$4 ,HE BLAM$ MY RA%NESS 9 RETURN+ TO ,SWITZ]L& 9 DEFIANCE ( ! POSITIVE PROHIBITION ?AT HAD BE5 ISSU$2 BUT PROMIS$ AT ALL EV5TS ?AT MY PAP] %\LD BE DELIV]$ TO ! PRESID5T TO-MORR[ MORN+4 

,I REMA9$ ?REE DAYS )\T AN ANSW]1 & !SE DAYS W]E TO ME AN ET]NITY4 ,I ANTICIPAT$ EV]Y K9D ( MIS=TUNE2 ,I BELIEV$ ?AT LAW & MALICE HAD SUCCE$$ TO ! SUBV]SION ( EQUITY4 ,AT L5G? H[EV] ,I WAS DELIV]$ FROM MY APPREH5SIONS & P]PLEXITY1 & SUMMON$ TO APPE> BE=E ! C\NCIL4 ,IT WAS WELL = ME P]HAPS ?AT ,I HAD TO DO ) A GOV]NM5T SO SIMPLE & MOD]ATE AS ?AT ( ,SWITZ]L&4 ,I OBTA9$ R$RESS4 ,IT WAS REF]R$ TO AN >BITRATION ( NEI<BORS TO SET A FAIR PRICE ON MY PROP]TY1 & !N DECRE$1 ?AT IF MONSIEUR ,GRIMSELD REFUS$ ! PUR*ASE1 ! SUM %\LD BE PAID ME \T ( ! C(F]S ( ! /ATE4 ,HE WAS ALSO CONDEMN$ 9 A C]TA9 F9E = ! FRAUD HE HAD ATTEMPT$ TO COMMIT4 ,! AFFAIR1 ?US PUT 9 TRA91 WAS SOON COMPLET$2 & ,I RETURN$ ) JOY1 HAV+ EFFECT$ ! OBJECT ( MY J\RNEY1 TO MY ANXI\S & EXPECT+ FAMILY4 ,SOON AFT]1 WE REMOV$ TO ! SPOT WE HAD *OS5 ON ! EA/]N BANK ( ! LAKE1 :]E WE REMA9$ = ! SIX FOLL[+ YE>S 9 A /ATE ( PEACE & TRANQUILITY4 

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