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,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA 

#ahiiahii 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TRANSLATOR 3 ,L\ISE ,MAUDE 

,TEXT 3 

,9 SPITE ( ! H>D CONDITIONS 9 :I* !Y W]E PLAC$1 LIFE AMONG ! POLITICAL PRISON]S SEEM$ V]Y GOOD TO ,KATU%A AFT] ! DEPRAV$1 LUXURI\S & EFFEM9ATE LIFE %E HAD L$ 9 T[N = ! LA/ SIX YE>S1 & AFT] TWO MON?S' IMPRISONM5T ) CRIM9AL PRISON]S4 ,! FIFTE5 TO TW5TY MILES !Y DID P] DAY1 ) ONE DAY'S RE/ AFT] TWO DAYS' M>*+1 /R5G!N$ H] PHYSICALLY1 & ! FELL[%IP ) H] NEW COMPANIONS OP5$ \T TO H] A LIFE FULL ( 9T]E/S SU* AS %E HAD NEV] DREAM$ (4 ,PEOPLE SO WOND]FUL 7AS %E EXPRESS$ IT7 AS ?OSE :OM %E WAS N[ GO+ ) %E HAD NOT ONLY NEV] MET BUT C\LD NOT EV5 HAVE IMAG9$4 

0,!RE N[1 & ,I CRI$ :5 ,I WAS S5T5C$10 %E SAID4 0,:Y1 ,I MU/ ?ANK ,GOD = IT ALL ! DAYS ( MY LIFE4 ,I HAVE LE>N$ TO KN[ :AT ,I NEV] %\LD HAVE F\ND \T ELSE40 

,! MOTIVES %E UND]/OOD EASILY & )\T EF=T ?AT GUID$ !SE PEOPLE1 &1 BE+ ( ! PEOPLE1 FULLY SYMPA?IZ$ ) !M4 ,%E UND]/OOD ?AT !SE P]SONS W]E = ! PEOPLE & AGA9/ ! UPP] CLASSES1 & ?\< !MSELVES BELONG+ TO ! UPP] CLASSES HAD SACRIFIC$ !IR PRIVILEGES1 !IR LIB]TY & !IR LIVES = ! PEOPLE4 ,?IS ESPECIALLY MADE H] VALUE & ADMIRE !M4 ,%E WAS *>M$ ) ALL ! NEW COMPANIONS1 BUT P>TICUL>LY ) ,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA1 & %E WAS NOT ONLY *>M$ ) H]1 BUT LOV$ H] ) A PECULI>1 RESPECTFUL & RAPTUR\S LOVE4 ,%E WAS /RUCK BY ! FACT ?AT ?IS BEAUTIFUL GIRL1 ! DAU<T] ( A RI* G5]AL1 :O C\LD SPEAK ?REE LANGUAGES1 GAVE AWAY ALL ?AT H] RI* BRO!R S5T H]1 & LIV$ LIKE ! SIMPLE/ WORK+ GIRL1 & DRESS$ NOT ONLY SIMPLY1 BUT POORLY1 PAY+ NO HE$ TO H] APPE>ANCE4 ,?IS TRAIT & A COMPLETE ABS5CE ( COQUETRY WAS P>TICUL>LY SURPRIS+ & !RE=E ATTRACTIVE TO ,MASLOVA4 ,MASLOVA C\LD SEE ?AT ,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA KNEW1 & WAS EV5 PLEAS$ TO KN[1 ?AT %E WAS H&SOME1 & YET ! EFFECT H] APPE>ANCE HAD ON M5 WAS NOT AT ALL PLEAS+ TO H]2 %E WAS EV5 AFRAID ( IT1 & FELT AN ABSOLUTE DISGU/ TO ALL LOVE AFFAIRS4 ,H] M5 COMPANIONS KNEW IT1 & IF !Y FELT ATTRACT$ BY H] NEV] P]MITT$ !MSELVES TO %[ IT TO H]1 BUT TREAT$ H] AS !Y W\LD A MAN2 BUT ) /RANG]S1 :O (T5 MOLE/$ H]1 ! GREAT PHYSICAL /R5G? ON :I* %E PRID$ H]SELF /OOD H] 9 GOOD /EAD4 

0,IT HAPP5$ ONCE10 %E SAID TO ,KATU%A1 0?AT A MAN FOLL[$ ME 9 ! /REET & W\LD NOT LEAVE ME ON ANY ACC\NT4 ,AT LA/ ,I GAVE HIM SU* A %AK+ ?AT HE WAS FRI<T5$ & RAN AWAY40 

,%E BECAME A REVOLUTION>Y1 AS %E SAID1 BECAUSE %E FELT A DISLIKE TO ! LIFE ( ! WELL-TO-DO FROM *ILDHOOD UP1 & LOV$ ! LIFE ( ! COMMON PEOPLE1 & %E WAS ALWAYS BE+ SCOLD$ = SP5D+ H] TIME 9 ! S]VANTS' HALL1 9 ! KIT*5 OR ! /ABLES 9/EAD ( ! DRAW+-ROOM4 

0,& ,I F\ND IT AMUS+ TO BE ) COOKS & ! COA*M51 & DULL ) \R G5TLEM5 & LADIES10 %E SAID4 0,!N :5 ,I CAME TO UND]/& ?+S ,I SAW ?AT \R LIFE WAS ALTOGE!R WRONG2 ,I HAD NO MO!R & ,I DID NOT C>E = MY FA!R1 & SO :5 ,I WAS N9ETE5 ,I LEFT HOME1 & W5T ) A GIRL FRI5D TO WORK AS A FACTORY H&40 

,AFT] %E LEFT ! FACTORY %E LIV$ 9 ! C\NTRY1 !N RETURN$ TO T[N & LIV$ 9 A LODG+1 :]E !Y HAD A SECRET PR9T+ PRESS4 ,!RE %E WAS >RE/$ & S5T5C$ TO H>D LABOR4 ,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA SAID NO?+ AB\T IT H]SELF1 BUT ,KATU%A HE>D FROM O!RS ?AT ,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA WAS S5T5C$ BECAUSE1 :5 ! LODG+ WAS SE>*$ BY ! POLICE & ONE ( ! REVOLUTIONI/S FIR$ A %OT 9 ! D>K1 %E PLEAD$ GUILTY4 

,AS SOON AS %E HAD LE>N$ TO KN[ ,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA1 ,KATU%A NOTIC$ ?AT1 :ATEV] ! CONDITIONS %E F\ND H]SELF 91 ,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA NEV] ?\<T ( H]SELF1 BUT WAS ALWAYS ANXI\S TO S]VE1 TO HELP SOME ONE1 9 MATT]S SMALL OR GREAT4 ,ONE ( H] PRES5T COMPANIONS1 ,NOVODVOR(F1 SAID ( H] ?AT %E DEVOT$ H]SELF TO PHILAN?ROPIC AMUSEM5TS4 ,& ?IS WAS TRUE4 ,! 9T]E/ ( H] :OLE LIFE LAY 9 ! SE>* = OPPORTUNITIES ( S]V+ O!RS4 ,?IS K9D ( AMUSEM5T HAD BECOME ! HABIT1 ! BUS9ESS ( H] LIFE4 ,& %E DID IT ALL SO NATURALLY ?AT ?OSE :O KNEW H] NO LONG] VALU$ BUT SIMPLY EXPECT$ IT ( H]4 

,:5 ,MASLOVA FIR/ CAME AMONG !M1 ,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA FELT REPULS$ & DISGU/$4 ,KATU%A NOTIC$ ?IS1 BUT %E ALSO NOTIC$ ?AT1 HAV+ MADE AN EF=T TO OV]COME !SE FEEL+S1 ,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA BECAME P>TICUL>LY T5D] & K9D TO H]4 ,! T5D]NESS & K9DNESS ( SO UNCOMMON A BE+ T\*$ ,MASLOVA SO MU* ?AT %E GAVE H] :OLE HE>T1 & UNCONSCI\SLY ACCEPT+ H] VIEWS1 C\LD NOT HELP IMITAT+ H] 9 EV]Y?+4 

,?IS DEVOT$ LOVE ( ,KATU%A T\*$ ,M>Y ,PAVLOVNA 9 H] TURN1 & %E LE>N$ TO LOVE ,KATU%A4 

,!SE WOM5 W]E ALSO UNIT$ BY ! REPULSION !Y BO? FELT TO SEXUAL LOVE4 ,! ONE LOA!D ?AT K9D ( LOVE1 HAV+ EXP]I5C$ ALL ITS HORRORS1 ! O!R1 NEV] HAV+ EXP]I5C$ IT1 LOOK$ ON IT AS SOME?+ 9COMPREH5SIBLE & AT ! SAME TIME AS SOME?+ REPUGNANT & (F5SIVE TO HUMAN DIGNITY4 

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