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#ahiiahii 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TRANSLATOR 3 ,L\ISE ,MAUDE 

,TEXT 3 

,:5 ,NEKHLUD(F KNEW ,SEL59 AS A /UD5T1 HE WAS A GOOD SON1 A TRUE FRI5D1 & = HIS YE>S AN $UCAT$ MAN ( ! WORLD1 ) MU* TACT2 ELEGANT1 H&SOME1 & AT ! SAME TIME TRU?FUL & HONE/4 ,HE LE>N$ WELL1 )\T MU* EX]TION & ) NO P$ANTRY1 RECEIV+ GOLD M$ALS = HIS ESSAYS4 ,HE CONSID]$ ! S]VICE ( MANK9D1 NOT ONLY 9 WORDS BUT 9 ACTS1 TO BE ! AIM ( HIS Y\NG LIFE4 ,HE SAW NO O!R WAY ( BE+ USEFUL TO HUMANITY ?AN BY S]V+ ! ,/ATE4 ,!RE=E1 AS SOON AS HE HAD COMPLET$ HIS /UDIES1 HE SY/EMATICALLY EXAM9$ ALL ! ACTIVITIES TO :I* HE MI<T DEVOTE HIS LIFE1 & DECID$ TO 5T] ! ,SECOND ,DEP>TM5T ( ! ,*ANCELL]IE1 :]E ! LAWS >E DRAWN UP1 & HE DID SO4 ,BUT1 9 SPITE ( ! MO/ SCRUPUL\S & EXACT DIS*>GE ( ! DUTIES DEM&$ ( HIM1 ?IS S]VICE GAVE NO SATISFACTION TO HIS DESIRE ( BE+ USEFUL1 NOR C\LD HE AWAKE 9 HIMSELF ! CONSCI\SNESS ?AT HE WAS DO+ 0! RI<T ?+40 

,?IS DISSATISFACTION WAS SO MU* 9CREAS$ BY ! FRICTION ) HIS V]Y SMALL-M9D$ & VA9 FELL[ (FICIALS ?AT HE LEFT ! ,*ANCELL]IE & 5T]$ ! ,S5ATE4 ,IT WAS BETT] !RE1 BUT ! SAME DISSATISFACTION /ILL PURSU$ HIM2 HE FELT IT TO BE V]Y DIFF]5T FROM :AT HE HAD EXPECT$1 & FROM :AT \<T TO BE4 

,& N[ ?AT HE WAS 9 ! ,S5ATE HIS RELATIVES OBTA9$ = HIM ! PO/ ( ,G5TLEMAN ( ! ,B$*AMB]1 & HE HAD TO GO 9 A C>RIAGE1 DRESS$ 9 AN EMBROID]$ UNI=M & A :ITE L95 APRON1 TO ?ANK ALL SORTS ( PEOPLE = HAV+ PLAC$ HIM 9 ! POSITION ( A LACKEY4 ,H[EV] MU* HE TRI$ HE C\LD F9D NO REASONABLE EXPLANATION = ! EXI/5CE ( ?IS PO/1 & FELT1 MORE ?AN 9 ! ,S5ATE1 ?AT IT WAS NOT 0! RI<T ?+10 & YET HE C\LD NOT REFUSE IT = FE> ( HURT+ ?OSE :O FELT SURE !Y W]E GIV+ HIM MU* PLEASURE BY ?IS APPO9TM5T1 & BECAUSE IT FLATT]$ ! L[E/ P>T ( HIS NATURE4 ,IT PLEAS$ HIM TO SEE HIMSELF 9 A MIRROR 9 HIS GOLD-EMBROID]$ UNI=M1 & TO ACCEPT ! DEF]5CE PAID HIM BY SOME PEOPLE BECAUSE ( HIS POSITION4 

,SOME?+ ( ! SAME K9D HAPP5$ :5 HE M>RI$4 ,A V]Y BRILLIANT MAT*1 FROM A WORLDLY PO9T ( VIEW1 WAS >RANG$ = HIM1 & HE M>RI$ *IEFLY BECAUSE BY REFUS+ HE W\LD HAVE HAD TO HURT ! Y\NG LADY :O WI%$ TO BE M>RI$ TO HIM1 & ?OSE :O >RANG$ ! M>RIAGE1 & ALSO BECAUSE A M>RIAGE ) A NICE Y\NG GIRL ( NOBLE BIR? FLATT]$ HIS VANITY & GAVE HIM PLEASURE4 ,BUT ?IS M>RIAGE V]Y SOON PROV$ TO BE EV5 LESS 0! RI<T ?+0 ?AN ! ,GOV]NM5T S]VICE & HIS POSITION AT ,C\RT4 

,AFT] ! BIR? ( H] FIR/ *ILD ! WIFE DECID$ TO HAVE NO MORE1 & BEGAN LEAD+ ?AT LUXURI\S WORLDLY LIFE 9 :I* HE N[ HAD TO P>TICIPATE :E!R HE LIK$ OR NOT4 

,%E WAS NOT P>TICUL>LY H&SOME1 & WAS FAI?FUL TO HIM1 & %E SEEM$1 9 SPITE ( ALL ! EF=TS IT CO/ H]1 TO D]IVE NO?+ BUT WE>9ESS FROM ! LIFE %E L$1 YET %E P]SEV]+LY CONT9U$ TO LIVE IT1 ?\< IT WAS POISON+ H] HUSB&'S LIFE4 ,& ALL HIS EF=TS TO ALT] ?IS LIFE WAS %ATT]$1 AS AGA9/ A /ONE WALL1 BY H] CONVICTION1 :I* ALL H] FRI5DS & RELATIVES SUPPORT$1 ?AT ALL WAS AS IT %\LD BE4 

,! *ILD1 A LITTLE GIRL ) B>E LEGS & LONG GOLD5 CURLS1 WAS A BE+ P]FECTLY =EIGN TO HIM1 *IEFLY BECAUSE %E WAS TRA9$ QUITE O!RWISE ?AN HE WI%$ H] TO BE4 ,!RE SPRUNG UP BETWE5 ! HUSB& & WIFE ! USUAL MISUND]/&+1 )\T EV5 ! WI% TO UND]/& EA* O!R1 & !N A SIL5T W>F>E1 HIDD5 FROM \TSID]S & TEMP]$ BY DECORUM4 ,ALL ?IS MADE HIS LIFE AT HOME A BURD51 & BECAME EV5 LESS 0! RI<T ?+0 ?AN HIS S]VICE & HIS PO/4 

,BUT IT WAS ABOVE ALL HIS ATTITUDE T[>DS RELIGION :I* WAS NOT 0! RI<T ?+40 ,LIKE EV]Y ONE ( HIS SET & HIS TIME1 BY ! GR[? ( HIS REASON HE BROKE )\T ! LEA/ EF=T ! NETS ( ! RELIGI\S SUP]/ITIONS 9 :I* HE WAS BR\<T UP1 & DID NOT HIMSELF EXACTLY KN[ :5 IT WAS ?AT HE FRE$ HIMSELF ( !M4 ,BE+ E>NE/ & UPRI<T1 HE DID NOT1 DUR+ HIS Y\? & 9TIMACY ) ,NEKHLUD(F AS A /UD5T1 CONCEAL HIS REJECTION ( ! ,/ATE RELIGION4 ,BUT AS YE>S W5T ON & HE ROSE 9 ! S]VICE1 & ESPECIALLY AT ! TIME ( ! REACTION T[>DS CONS]VATISM 9 SOCIETY1 HIS SPIRITUAL FRE$OM /OOD 9 HIS WAY4 

,AT HOME1 :5 HIS FA!R DI$1 HE HAD TO BE PRES5T AT ! MASSES SAID = HIS S\L1 & HIS MO!R WI%$ HIM TO GO TO CONFESSION OR TO COMMUNION1 & IT WAS 9 A WAY EXPECT$1 BY PUBLIC OP9ION1 BUT ABOVE ALL1 ,GOV]NM5T S]VICE DEM&$ ?AT HE %\LD BE PRES5T AT ALL SORTS ( S]VICES1 CONSECRATIONS1 ?ANKSGIV+S1 & ! LIKE4 ,H>DLY A DAY PASS$ )\T SOME \TW>D RELIGI\S =M HAV+ TO BE OBS]V$4 

,:5 PRES5T AT !SE S]VICES HE HAD TO PRET5D ?AT HE BELIEV$ 9 SOME?+ :I* HE DID NOT BELIEVE 91 & BE+ TRU?FUL HE C\LD NOT DO ?IS4 ,! ALT]NATIVE WAS1 HAV+ MADE UP HIS M9D ?AT ALL !SE \TW>D SIGNS W]E DECEITFUL1 TO ALT] HIS LIFE 9 SU* A WAY ?AT HE W\LD NOT HAVE TO BE PRES5T AT SU* C]EMONIALS4 ,BUT TO DO :AT SEEM$ SO SIMPLE W\LD HAVE CO/ A GREAT DEAL4 ,BESIDES 5C\NT]+ ! P]PETUAL HO/ILITY ( ALL ?OSE :O W]E NE> TO HIM1 HE W\LD HAVE TO GIVE UP ! S]VICE & HIS POSITION1 & SACRIFICE HIS HOPES ( BE+ USEFUL TO HUMANITY BY HIS S]VICE1 N[ & 9 ! FUTURE4 ,TO MAKE SU* A SACRIFICE ONE W\LD HAVE TO BE FIRMLY CONV9C$ ( BE+ RI<T4 

,& HE WAS FIRMLY CONV9C$ HE WAS RI<T1 AS NO $UCAT$ MAN ( \R TIME CAN HELP BE+ CONV9C$ :O KN[S A LITTLE HI/ORY & H[ ! RELIGIONS1 & ESPECIALLY ,*UR* ,*RI/IANITY1 ORIG9AT$4 

,BUT UND] ! /RESS ( HIS DAILY LIFE HE1 A TRU?FUL MAN1 ALL[$ A LITTLE FALSEHOOD TO CREEP 94 ,HE SAID ?AT 9 ORD] TO DO JU/ICE TO AN UNREASONABLE ?+ ONE HAD TO /UDY ! UNREASONABLE ?+4 ,IT WAS A LITTLE FALSEHOOD1 BUT IT SUNK HIM 9TO ! BIG FALSEHOOD 9 :I* HE WAS N[ CAU<T4 

,BE=E PUTT+ TO HIMSELF ! QUE/ION :E!R ! OR?ODOXY 9 :I* HE WAS BORN & BR$1 & :I* EV]Y ONE EXPECT$ HIM TO ACCEPT1 & )\T :I* HE C\LD NOT CONT9UE HIS USEFUL OCCUPATION1 CONTA9$ ! TRU?1 HE HAD ALREADY DECID$ ! ANSW]4 ,& TO CLE> UP ! QUE/ION HE DID NOT READ ,VOLTAIRE1 ,S*OP5HAU]1 ,H]B]T ,SP5C]1 OR ,COMTE1 BUT ! PHILOSOPHICAL WORKS ( ,HEGEL & ! RELIGI\S WORKS ( ,V9ET & ,KHOMYAK(F1 & NATURALLY F\ND 9 !M :AT HE WANT$1 I4E41 SOME?+ LIKE PEACE ( M9D & A V9DICATION ( ?AT RELIGI\S TEA*+ 9 :I* HE WAS $UCAT$1 :I* HIS REASON HAD LONG CEAS$ TO ACCEPT1 BUT )\T :I* HIS :OLE LIFE WAS FILL$ ) UNPLEASANTNESS :I* C\LD ALL BE REMOV$ BY ACCEPT+ ! TEA*+4 

,& SO HE ADOPT$ ALL ! USUAL SOPHI/RIES :I* GO TO PROVE ?AT A S+LE HUMAN REASON CANNOT KN[ ! TRU?1 ?AT ! TRU? IS ONLY REVEAL$ TO AN ASSOCIATION ( M51 & CAN ONLY BE KN[N BY REVELATION1 ?AT REVELATION IS KEPT BY ! *UR*1 ETC4 ,& SO HE MANAG$ TO BE PRES5T AT PRAY]S1 MASSES = ! DEAD1 TO CONFESS1 MAKE SIGNS ( ! CROSS 9 FRONT ( ICONS1 ) A QUIET M9D1 )\T BE+ CONSCI\S ( ! LIE1 & TO CONT9UE 9 ! S]VICE :I* GAVE HIM ! FEEL+ ( BE+ USEFUL & SOME COM=T 9 HIS JOYLESS FAMILY LIFE4 ,AL?\< HE BELIEV$ ?IS1 HE FELT ) HIS 5TIRE BE+ ?AT ?IS RELIGION ( HIS1 MORE ?AN ALL ELSE1 WAS NOT 0! RI<T ?+10 & ?AT IS :Y HIS EYES ALWAYS LOOK$ SAD4 

,& SEE+ ,NEKHLUD(F1 :OM HE HAD KN[N BE=E ALL !SE LIES HAD ROOT$ !MSELVES )9 HIM1 REM9D$ HIM ( :AT HE !N WAS4 ,IT WAS ESPECIALLY AFT] HE HAD HURRI$ TO H9T AT HIS RELIGI\S VIEWS ?AT HE HAD MO/ /RONGLY FELT ALL ?IS 0NOT ! RI<T ?+10 & HAD BECOME PA9FULLY SAD4 ,NEKHLUD(F FELT IT ALSO AFT] ! FIR/ JOY ( MEET+ HIS OLD FRI5D HAD PASS$1 & !RE=E1 ?\< !Y PROMIS$ EA* O!R TO MEET1 !Y DID NOT TAKE ANY /EPS T[>DS AN 9T]VIEW1 & DID NOT AGA9 SEE EA* O!R DUR+ ?IS /AY ( ,NEKHLUD(F'S 9 ,PET]SBURG4 

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