,VOLUME #a1 ,*APT] #cd 

#aicaaica 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,TEXT 3 

  

,PHOTO BY ,SPYROS ,!ODORITSIS1,C,C ,B,Y ,LIC5SE ,LIV+ ,MY ,LIFE 

BY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,VOLUME ONE 

,NEW ,YORK3 ,ALFR$ ,A ,KNOPF ,9C41 #a#i#c#a4 

,*APT] #cd 

,9 PLANN+ \R T\R TO TAKE PLACE DUR+ ! PRESID5TIAL CAMPAIGN WE HAD OV]LOOK$ ! 9T]E/ ( ! ,AM]ICAN MASSES 9 ! POLITICAL CIRCUS4 ,! RESULT WAS FAILURE ( ! 9ITIAL P>T \R TRIP4 ,9 ,9DIANAPOLIS1 ! FIR/ CITY TO BR+ \T A L>GE ATT5DANCE1 MY LECTURE WAS SUPPRESS$ 9 ! USUAL MANN]4 ,! ,MAYOR EXPRESS$ REGRET ?AT ! POLICE HAD OV]/EPP$ !IR P[]S1 BUT ( C\RSE HE C\LD NOT ACT AGA9/ ! DEP>TM5T4 ,! ,*IEF SAID ?AT /OPP+ ! MEET+ MI<T HAVE BE5 BAD LAW1 BUT ?AT IT WAS GOOD COMMON S5SE4  

,WE W]E MORE =TUNATE 9 ,/4 ,L\IS1 :]E WE EXP]I5C$ NO 9T]F]5CE4 ,!RE ,I MET ,WILLIAM ,M>ION ,RE$Y1 ! $ITOR ( ! ,/4 ,L\IS ,MIRROR4 ,HE & HIS PAP] W]E AN OASIS 9 ! DES]T ( ,AM]ICAN 9TELLECTUALITY4 ,RE$Y1 A MAN ( ABILITY1 BROAD CULTURE1 & RI* HUMOR1 ALSO POSSESS$ A C\RAGE\S SPIRIT4 ,HIS FELL[%IP MADE \R /AY 9 ,/4 ,L\IS A PLEASANT EV5T & BR\<T ME L>GE & V>I$ AUDI5CES4 ,AFT] MY DEP>TURE HE PUBLI%$ 9 HIS WEEKLY AN >TICLE AT HE CALL$ 0,! ,DAU<T] ( ! ,DREAM40 ,NO F9] APPRECIATION MY IDEAS & NO GREAT] TRIBUTE TO ME HAD EV] BE5 WRITT5 BY A NON-AN>*I/ BE=E4  

,9 ,SEATTLE ,B5 & ,I W]E >RE/$4 ,HIS (F5SE CONSI/$ 9 PUTT+ HIS WEI<T TOO HEAVILY AGA9/ ! DOOR ( ! HALL1 :I* HE HAD F\ND B>R$2 M9E WAS 9 PROTE/+ AGA9/ HIS >RE/4 ,AT ! /ATION-H\SE IT DEVELOP$ ?AT ! PRICE ( MY MANAG]'S (F5SE WAS A DOLL> & A HALF1 REPRES5T+ ! AM\NT ! L&LORD DEM&$ = HIS BROK5 LOCK4 ,AFT] WE PAID = ?IS 9JURY TO ! SANCTITY ( PROP]TY1 WE W]E BO? RELEAS$4 ,( C\RSE1 !RE W]E NO FUR!R MEET+S 9 ,SEATTLE & NO R$RESS = ! LOSS WE HAD SU/A9$4  

,9 ,EV]ETT NO HALL WAS OP5 TO US4 ,9 ,BELL+HAM \R TRA9 WAS MET BY DETECTIVES4 ,!Y FOLL[$ US TO ! HOTEL1 & :5 WE W5T \T TO F9D A RE/AURANT1 !Y PUT US UND] >RE/4 0,W\LD Y\ PLEASE WAIT UNTIL WE HAVE D9$80 ,B5 ASK$ ) AN 5GAG+ SMILE4 0,SURE10 SAID \R PROTECTORS1 0WE WILL WAIT40 ,IT WAS BRI<T & W>M 9 ! RE/AURANT1 DRIZZL+ & *ILLY \TSIDE1 BUT WE TOOK NO PITY ON \R WAT*-DOGS4 ,WE L+]$ LONG OV] \R MEAL1 WELL AW>E ?AT WE %\LD HAVE ! :OLE NI<T BE=E US 9 A PLACE NEI!R W>M NOR BRI<T4 ,9 ! /ATION-H\SE WE W]E PRES5T$ ) ! W>RANT4 ,IT WAS A DOCUM5T WOR?Y ( IMMORTALITY4 0,EMMA ,GOLDMAN & ,DR4 ,B5 ,L4 ,REITMAN10 IT READ1 0AN>*I/S & \TLAWS1 HAV+ CONSPIR$ TO HOLD AN UNLAWFUL ASSEMBLY10 & SO =? 9 ! SAME SPIRIT4 ,WE W]E GIV5 ! *OICE BETWE5 LEAV+ ,BELL+HAM AT ONCE OR GO+ TO ! CITY JAIL4 ,IT BE+ ! FIR/ HOSPITALITY (F]$ US 9 ! ,/ATE ( ,WA%+TON1 WE DECID$ 9 FAVOR ( ! JAIL4 ,AT MIDNI<T ! (F] TO GET \T ( T[N WAS REPEAT$1 BUT HAV+ ALREADY MADE MYSELF AT HOME 9 ! CELL1 ,I REFUS$ TO LEAVE4 ,B5 DID LIKEWISE4  

,9 ! MORN+ WE W]E TAK5 BE=E A MAGI/RATE1 :O PLAC$ US UND] FIVE-?\S&-DOLL> BAIL4 ,IT WAS ONLY TOO APP>5T ?AT ! JUDGE KNEW ?AT ! POLICE HAD UND]TAK5 MORE ?AN !Y W\LD BE ABLE TO C>RY ?R\<4 ,WE C\LD NOT BE TRI$ = M]ELY 0ATTEMPT+0 TO HOLD A MEET+1 BUT WE W]E AT !IR M]CY1 JU/ ! SAME4 ,WE KNEW NO ONE 9 T[N LIKELY TO BAIL US \T1 & WE HAD NO MEANS ( GETT+ 9 T\* ) A LAWY]4 ,I WAS 9T]E/$1 H[EV]1 TO F9D \T H[ F> LEGALIZ$ /UPIDITY C\LD GO4  

,9 ! AFT]NOON TWO /RANG]S >RIV$4 ,!Y 9TRODUC$ !MSELVES AS ,MR4 ,S*AMEL1 ATTORNEY1 & ,MR4 ,LYN*4 ,! =M] VOLUNTE]$ HIS S]VICES GRATIS2 ! LATT] (F]$ TO BE \R BONDSMAN4  

0,BUT Y\ DON'T KN[ US10 ,I SAID 9 A/ONI%M5T4 0,H[ CAN Y\ RISK SO MU* MONEY80  

0,OH1 YES10 SAID ,MR4 ,S*AMEL1 0WE DO KN[ Y\4 ,WE >E NOT AN>*I/S1 BUT WE FEEL ?AT ANYONE :O WILL /& UP = AN IDEAL AS Y\ HAVE DONE IS WOR?Y ( TRU/40  

,IF ,I HAD NOT BE5 AFRAID ( %OCK+ !M1 ,I %\LD HAVE EMBRAC$ !M 9 OP5 C\RT4 ,! OLD FOSSIL ON ! B5*1 :O HAD BLU/]$ :5 WE APPE>$ FRI5DLESS BE=E HIM 9 ! MORN+1 WAS P]SONIFI$ POLIT5ESS N[4 ,WE W]E QUICKLY BAIL$ \T1 5T]TA9$ AT A RE/AURANT BY \R NEW FRI5DS1 & ACCOMPANI$ TO ! TRA94  

,:5 WE REA*$ ,BLA9E1 ON ! ,CANADIAN BORD]1 A MAN CAME 9TO \R C>1 WALK$ /RAI<T UP TO ME1 & 9QUIR$3 0,Y\ >E ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN1 >E Y\ NOT80- 0,& :O >E Y\80- 0,I AM A ,CANADIAN IMMIGRATION 9SPECTOR4 ,I HAVE ORD]S TO 9VITE Y\ TO LEAVE ! TRA940 ,:AT C\LD ONE DO BUT COMPLY ) SU* A G5TLEMANLY REQUE/8 ,AT ! (FICE ! 9SPECTOR 9 *>GE SEEM$ V]Y MU* SURPRIS$ ?AT ,I LOOK$ LIKE A LADY & HAD NO BOMBS AB\T ME4 ,HE ASSUR$ US ?AT HE HAD GA!R$ FROM ! /ORIES 9 ! ,AM]ICAN PRESS ?AT ,I WAS A V]Y DANG]\S P]SON4 ,HE HAD !RE=E DECID$ TO HOLD UP MY 5TRY 9TO ,CANADA UNTIL HE C\LD RECEIVE 9/RUCTIONS FROM ,OTTAWA4 ,MEAN:ILE HE ASK$ ME1 AS HIS GUE/1 TO MAKE MYSELF AT HOME 9 HIS HUT4 ,I C\LD HAVE ANY?+ ,I WANT$ 9 ! WAY ( FOOD & DR9K4 ,9 CASE ( DELAY WE W\LD BE GIV5 ! BE/ ROOMS 9 ! LOCAL HOTEL4 ,HE SPOKE 9 A POLITE MANN]1 HIS TONE MORE FRI5DLY ?AN ,I HAD EV] HE>D FROM AN ,AM]ICAN (FICIAL4 ,:ILE ! RESULT WAS ! SAME1 ,I DID NOT FEEL QUITE SO 9DIGNANT OV] ! NEW 9T]F]5CE4  

,! NEXT MORN+ \R JOVIAL 9SPECTOR 9=M$ US ?AT ,OTTAWA HAD WIR$ TO LET ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN PROCE$4 ,!RE WAS NO LAW 9 MON>*ICAL ,CANADA TO =BID MY 5TRY 9TO ! C\NTRY4 ,AM]ICAN DEMOCRACY1 ) ITS ANTI-AN>*I/ LAWS1 WAS MADE TO APPE> RA!R LUDICR\S4  

,SAN ,FRANCISCO HELD A SPECIAL ATTRACTION4 ,! EX-SOLDI] ,WILLIAM ,BUWALDA1 AS A RESULT ( \R AGITATION 
                          9 HIS BEHALF1 HAD BE5 P>DON$ BY ,PRESID5T ,ROOSEVELT4 ,HE WAS RELEAS$ AFT] T5 MON?S' 
                          IMPRISONM5T1 TWO WEEKS BE=E \R >RIVAL 9 ! CITY4   

,[+ TO A T]RIFIC RA9-/ORM MY FIR/ MEET+1 9 ! ,VICTORY ,!AT]1 WAS POORLY ATT5D$4 ,WE W]E NOT DISC\RAG$1 H[EV]1 BECAUSE ( ! WIDE PUBLICITY GIV5 MY S]IES ( EI<T LECTURES & TWO DEBATES4 ,! FOLL[+ AFT]NOON ,WILLIAM ,BUWALDA CALL$ ON ME1 A V]Y DIFF]5T MAN 9 HIS CIVILIAN CLO!S FROM ! SOLDI] :OSE H& ,I HAD CLASP$ = A FLEET+ MOM5T ?AT MEMORABLE AFT]NOON ON ! PLAT=M ( ,WALTON'S ,PAVILION4 ,HIS F9E1 OP5 FACE1 9TELLIG5T EYES1 & FIRM M\? W]E 9DICATIVE ( AN 9DEP5D5T *>ACT]4 ,I WOND]$ H[ HE HAD /OOD FIFTE5 YE>S ( MILIT>Y S]VICE )\T BECOM+ W>P$4 ,BUWALDA RELAT$ ?AT HE HAD JO9$ ! ,>MY MA9LY BECAUSE ( TRADITION4 ,AM]ICAN-BORN1 HE WAS ( ,DUT* /OCK & NE>LY ALL ! M5 ( HIS FAMILY HAD DONE MILIT>Y S]VICE 9 ,HOLL&4 ,HE HAD BELIEV$ 9 ,AM]ICAN FRE$OM & HE HAD CONSID]$ ITS >MY =CES A NECESS>Y PROTECTION4 ,ON SEV]AL OCCASIONS HE HAD COME ACROSS MY NAME 9 ! PAP]S4 ,HE HAD ?\<T ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN A CRANK & HAD PAID LITTLE ATT5TION TO >TICLES AB\T ME4 0,?AT IS NOT V]Y FLATT]+10 ,I 9T]RUPT$3 0H[ C\LD Y\ BE SO RUDE TO A LADY80  

0,IT IS TRUE1 ?\<10 HE REPLI$ ) A SMILE4 ,MILIT>Y PEOPLE LIVE 9 A WORLD ( !IR [N1 HE EXPLA9$1 & HE HAD BE5 P>TICUL>LY OCCUPI$ = SEV]AL YE>S PA/4 ,HE HAD TAK5 UP A C\RSE ( VET]9>Y SURG]Y BECAUSE HE WAS PASSIONATELY FOND ( HORSES1 & HE HAD ALSO /UDI$ %OR?&4 ,ADD$ TO HIS DUTIES 9 ! B>RACKS1 IT HAD KEPT HIM TOO BUSY = O!R 9T]E/S4  

,HE HAD COME UPON MY MEET+ ACCID5TALLY1 :ILE \T = A WALK4 ,HE HAD SE5 ! L>GE CR[D & ! POLICE BE=E ! ,WALTON ,PAVILION4 ,IT HAD MADE HIM CURI\S & HE ?\<T IT A GOOD OPPORTUNITY TO PRACTICE HIS /5OGRAPHY BY TAK+ D[N ! SPEE*4 0,!N Y\ APPE>$10 HE CONT9U$1 0A LITTLE1 UNASSUM+ FIGURE 9 BLACK1 & Y\ />T$ TO TALK4 ,I BEGAN TO FEEL DI/URB$4 ,I ?\<T AT FIR/ IT WAS ! HEAT 9 ! HALL & ! T5SE ATMOSPH]E4 ,I DID NOT =GET ! PURPOSE ?AT HAD BR\<T ME4 ,= A :ILE ,I WAS ABLE TO FOLL[ Y\2 !N ,I BECAME DI/RACT$ BY Y\R VOICE4 ,I FELT MYSELF C>RI$ ALONG BY Y\R SL$GE-HAMM] >RAIGNM5T ( ALL ,I HELD HI<4 ,I WAS FILL$ ) RES5TM5T4 ,I WANT$ TO RAISE MY VOICE 9 PROTE/1 TO *ALL5GE Y\R /ATEM5TS BE=E ! :OLE ASSEMBLY4 ,BUT ! MORE ,I RESI/$ Y\R 9FLU5CE1 ! MORE ,I FELL UND] ITS SWAY4 ,Y\R ELOQU5CE HELD ME BREA?LESS TO ! 5D ( Y\R SPEE*4 ,I FELT CONFUS$ & EAG] TO ESCAPE4 ,9/EAD ,I WAS CAU<T BY ! CR[D & F\ND MYSELF /&+ ON ! PLAT=M HOLD+ \T MY H& TO Y\40  

0,& !N80 ,I ASK$4 0,DID Y\ SEE ! DETECTIVES FOLL[+ Y\8 ,DID Y\ REALIZE ?AT !Y W\LD CAUSE Y\ TR\BLE80  

0 ,I DON'T REMEMB] H[ ,I GOT \T ( ! HALL1 & ,I DID NOT FEEL ?AT ,I HAD DONE ANY?+ WRONG4 ,I WAS UPSET BY :AT ,I HAD HE>D & 9 ! GRIP ( ! TURMOIL Y\ HAD CAUS$ 9 ME4 ,ALL ! WAY TO ! ,PRESIDIO ,I KEPT ?9K+3 ',%E'S WRONG1 %E'S 5TIRELY WRONG6 ,PATRIOTISM IS NOT ! LA/ RESORT ( SC\NDRELS4 ,MILIT>ISM ISN'T ONLY MURD] & DE/RUCTION6' ,AFT] ! PLA9-CLO!S M5 HAD REPORT$ ME TO MY SUP]IOR (FIC]1 ,I WAS PUT UND] >RE/4 ,I ?\<T IT WAS ALL A MI/AKE1 ?AT ,I HAD BE5 TAK5 = SOMEONE ELSE & ?AT ,I %\LD BE FRE$ 9 ! MORN+4 ,TO ?9K O!RWISE W\LD HAVE MEANT ?AT Y\ W]E RI<T1 & MY :OLE BE+ REBELL$ AGA9/ ?AT4 ,= SEV]AL DAYS ,I CLUNG TO ! BELIEF ?AT Y\ HAD MISREPRES5T$ ! ,GOV]NM5T :I* ,I HAD S]V$ = FIFTE5 YE>S2 ?AT MY C\NTRY WAS TOO FAIR & TOO JU/ TO BE GUILTY ( Y\R UNREASONABLE *>GES4 ,BUT :5 ,I WAS BR\<T BE=E ! MILIT>Y TRIBUNAL1 ,I BEGAN TO SEE ?AT Y\ HAD SPOK5 ! TRU?4 ,I WAS ASK$ :AT Y\ HAD DONE = ME ?AT ,I %\LD MIX ) SU* A DANG]\S P]SON1 & ,I REPLI$3 ',%E HAS MADE ME ?9K4' ,YES1 Y\ HAD MADE ME ?9K1 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN1 = ! FIR/ TIME 9 ALL MY =TY YE>S40  

,I HELD \T MY H& TO HIM & SAID3 0,N[ ?AT Y\ >E FREE FROM Y\R MILIT>Y %ACKLES1 WE CAN %AKE H&S )\T FE>4 ,LET US BE FRI5DS40  

,HE TOOK MY H& EAG]LY4 0,FRI5DS = LIFE & COMRADES AS WELL1 DE>1 BIG1 LITTLE ,EMMA40  

,I WAS SO C>RI$ AWAY BY HIS /ORY ?AT ,I HAD =GOTT5 IT WAS TIME TO PREP>E = MY MEET+4 ,NEV] BE+ ABLE TO EAT BE=E A LECTURE1 ,I DID NOT M9D GO+ )\T D9N]4 ,BUT = MY GUE/ ,I HAD PROV$ A POOR HO/ESS4 ,MY NEW COMRADE GALLANTLY ASSUR$ ME ?AT HE DID NOT C>E = FOOD4  

,:5 WE CAME )9 A BLOCK ( ! HALL1 WE SAW ! /REETS FILL$ ) PEOPLE4 ,I ?\<T IT WAS \R ANN\NCEM5TS ?AT HAD BR\<T \T ! VA/ CR[D1 BUT :5 WE REA*$ ! ,VICTORY ,!AT]1 ,I WAS RECEIV$ ) OP5 >MS BY DETECTIVES & PUT UND] >RE/4 ,BUWALDA PROTE/$ & WAS ALSO >RE/$4 ,WE W]E HU/L$ 9TO ! PATROL WAGON TO F9D ?AT ,B51 TOO1 HAD MET ) ! SAME FATE4 ,AS ! WAGON RATTL$ ?R\< ! /REETS1 HE HURRI$LY RELAT$ ?AT ! POLICE HAD ORD]$ EV]YONE \T ( ! !AT]1 FREELY US+ !IR CLUBS4 ,HE HAD OBJECT$ TO !IR ME?ODS1 ( C\RSE1 & WAS PUT UND] >RE/4 ,HE HAD S5T SOMEONE ) A W>N+ TO ME1 BUT EVID5TLY ! COMRADE HAD F\ND ME GONE4  

,AT POLICE HEADQU>T]S ,WILLIAM ,BUWALDA WAS DIS*>G$ ) A SEV]E REPRIM& = ASSOCIAT+ ) 0DANG]\S CRIM9ALS40 ,B5 & ,I W]E *>G$ ) 0CONSPIRACY1 MAK+ UNLAWFUL ?REATS1 US+ =CE & VIOL5CE1 & DI/URB+ ! PUBLIC PEACE40 ,9 ! MORN+ WE W]E TAK5 BE=E A JUDGE1 :O HELD US = TRIAL UND] SIXTE5-?\S&-DOLL> BAIL EA*4 ,! SAME DAY ,ALEX&] ,HORR WAS >RE/$ = DI/RIBUT+ A H&BILL PROTE/+ AGA9/ ! ACTION ( ! AU?ORITIES4 ,! TASK ( RAIS+ \R BOND & >RANG+ = C\NSEL & PUBLICITY FELL TO ,CASSIUS ,V4 ,COOK1 A MAN ,I HAD MET ONLY CASUALLY A FEW YE>S BE=E4 ,BUT HE PROV$ TO BE A T[] ( /R5G?4  

,)9 A FEW DAYS ,SA%A & O!R ,NEW ,YORK FRI5DS TELEGRAPH$ ?AT FIVE ?\S& DOLL>S W\LD BE S5T T[>DS \R BAIL & ?AT MONEY WAS BE+ RAIS$ = \R DEF5SE4  ,FROM ALL OV] ! C\NTRY PROTE/S & CONTRIBUTIONS BEGAN P\R+ 94 ,*>LES ,T4 ,SPRAD+1 ( ,LOS ,ANGELES1 :OM ,I HAD FIR/ MET 9 ,D5V] ON MY MAID5 T\R TO ! ,COA/ 9 #a#h#i#g1 \R BUOYANT ,*>LIE1 ( READY WIT & M]RY PRANKS1 WIR$ TWO ?\S& DOLL>S AS BAIL4 ,! ,=RE/]S1 & O!R FRI5DS1 HELP$ 9 A SIMIL> WAY4 ,:AT DID \R TR\BLE MATT] ) SU* GOOD COMRADE%IP TO AID US8  

,\R LAWY]S1 ,MESSRS4 ,KIRK & ,K+1 9TELLIG5T & BRAVE M51 EX]T$ !MSELVES 9 \R BEHALF1 & )9 A FEW DAYS ,MR4 ,KIRK SUCCE$$ 9 HAV+ \R BAIL RELEAS$4 ,WE W]E TO BE LIB]AT$ & PLAC$ 9 HIS CU/ODY4 ,BUT UNEXPECT$LY ANO!R 9DICTM5T CAME1 *>G+ US ) 0UNLAWFUL ASSEMBLAGE1 D5\NC+ AS UNNECESS>Y ALL ORGANIZ$ GOV]NM5T10 &- HORROR ( HORRORS- ) 0PREA*+ AN>*I/ DOCTR9ES40 ,BAIL WAS SET AT TWO ?\S& DOLL>S EA*4 ,I WAS TO BE TRI$ FIR/1 ,B5 TO FOLL[4  

,AMONG ! S5SATIONAL REPORTS 9 ! ,SAN ,FRANCISCO PRESS REG>D+ ! RAID ( \R MEET+ & \R >RE/ WAS ONE 5L>G+ UPON 0,EMMA ,GOLDMAN'S LACK ( S5TIM5T & FEEL+40 ,:ILE 9 JAIL1 %E HAD BE5 GIV5 A TELEGRAM ANN\NC+ H] FA!R'S DEA?1 ! PAP] /AT$1 :I* %E RECEIV$ )\T ! LEA/ SIGN ( EMOTION4 ,AS A MATT] ( FACT1 MY FA!R'S 5D1 ?\< NOT UNEXPECT$1 HAD AFFECT$ ME DEEPLY & HAD RECALL$ TO ME ! DETAILS ( HIS WA/$ LIFE4 ,AN 9VALID = OV] ?IRTY YE>S1 HE HAD ( LATE BE5 MORE FREQU5TLY ILL ?AN USUALLY4 ,:5 ,I HAD SE5 HIM ON MY LA/ VISIT TO ,RO*E/]1 9 ,OCTOB]1 ,I HAD BE5 %OCK$ TO F9D HIM SO NE> DEA?4 ,! GIANT HE HAD ONCE BE5 WAS N[ %ATT]$ BY ! /ORMS ( LIFE4  

,) ! PASS+ YE>S HAD COME TO ME BETT] UND]/&+ ( ,FA!R1 & MUTUAL SYMPA?Y HAD DRAWN US GRADUALLY CLOS]4 ,MY BELOV$ ,HEL5A HAD HAD MU* TO DO ) MY *ANGE T[>DS HIM4 ,IT WAS HELP$ ALSO BY MY AWAK5+ TO ! COMPLEXITIES ( SEX AS A =CE DOM9AT+ \R FEEL+S4 ,I HAD LE>N$ TO UND]/& BETT] MY [N TURBUL5T NATURE1 & MY EXP]I5CES HAD MADE ME SEE :AT HAD BE5 OBSCURE TO ME SO LONG 9 ! *>ACT] ( MY FA!R4 ,HIS VIOL5CE & H>DNESS HAD ONLY BE5 SYMPTOMS ( AN 9T5SELY SEXUAL NATURE ?AT HAD FAIL$ TO F9D ADEQUATE EXPRESSION4  

,MY P>5TS HAD BE5 BR\<T TOGE!R 9 ! TRADITIONAL ,JEWI% OR?ODOX FA%ION1 )\T LOVE4 ,!Y W]E MISMAT$ FROM ! FIR/4 ,MO!R HAD BE5 LEFT A WID[ AT TW5TY-?REE1 ) TWO *ILDR51 A LITTLE /ORE H] ONLY E>?LY POSSESSION4 ,:ATEV] LOVE %E HAD HAD DI$ ) ! Y\NG MAN TO :OM %E HAD BE5 M>RI$ AT ! AGE ( FIFTE54 ,FA!R HAD BR\<T 9TO ! MAT* A FIRE ( PASSIONATE Y\?4 ,HIS WIFE WAS ONLY ONE YE> HIS S5IOR & RADIANTLY BEAUTIFUL4 ,! IMPELL+ NE$ ( HIS NATURE DROVE HIM TO H] & MADE HIM MORE 9SI/5T 9 PROPORTION AS ,MO!R F\<T BACK HIS 9SATIABLE HUNG]4 ,MY COM+ HAD M>K$ H] F\R? *ILDBIR?1 EA* ONE NE>LY BR++ H] TO ! GRAVE4 ,I RECALL$ SOME REM>KS ,I HAD HE>D H] MAKE :5 ,I WAS TOO Y\NG TO UND]/& !IR MEAN+4 ,!Y ILLUM9AT$ MU* ?AT HAD BE5 D>K TO ME & CAUS$ ME TO REALIZE :AT A PURGATORY MY P>5TS' 9TIMACY MU/ HAVE BE5 = !M BO?4 ,NO D\BT !Y W\LD HAVE BE5 %OCK$ HAD ANYONE CALL$ TO !IR ATT5TION ! TRUE S\RCE ( ! /RUGGLE BETWE5 !M & ( ,FA!R'S UNCONTROLLABLE TEMP]4 ,) ! DECL9E ( HEAL? CAME ALSO A LESS5+ ( HIS ]OTIC VITALITY & A RESULTANT PSY*IC *ANGE4 ,FA!R GREW MORE MELL[1 PATI5T1 & K9DLY4 ,! AFFECTION HE HAD R>ELY %[N HIS [N *ILDR5 HE N[ LAVI%$ ON ?OSE ( MY TWO SI/]S4 ,:5 ,I ONCE REF]R$ TO ! H>% ME?ODS HE HAD US$ T[>DS US1 HE ASSUR$ ME ?AT IT C\LD NOT BE TRUE4 ,! T5D]NESS ?AT HAD COME 9TO HIS NATURE BLOTT$ \T EV5 ! REMEMBRANCE ( PA/ SEV]ITY4 ,! BE/ 9 HIM1 =M]LY HIDD5 BY EMOTIONAL /RESS1 BY ! /RUGGLE = EXI/5CE & YE>S ( PHYSICAL SUFF]+1 CAME 9TO ITS [N AT LA/4 ,HE N[ FELT & GAVE US A NEWLY BORN AFFECTION1 :I* 9 ITS TURN AWAK5$ \R LOVE = HIM4  

,! C\RT F>CE 9 ,SAN ,FRANCISCO1 5D+ 9 \R ACQUITTAL1 DID MORE = AN>*ISM ?AN MON?S ( \R PROPAG&A MI<T HAVE ACCOMPLI%$4 ,BUT ! MO/ SIGNIFICANT EV5T WAS ,WILLIAM ,BUWALDA'S LETT] TO ! MILIT>Y AU?ORITIES & HIS 5TRY 9TO \R RANKS4 ,! HI/ORIC DOCUM5T1 PUBLI%$ 9 ! ,MAY #aii ISSUE ( ,MO!R ,E>?1 READ AS FOLL[S3  

,HUDSONVILLE1 ,MI*IGAN  
 ,APRIL #f1 #aii  

,HON4 ,JOSEPH ,M4 ,DICK9SON1  
 ,SECRET>Y ( ,W>1  
 ,WA%+TON1 ,D4 ,C4  

,SIR3-  

,AFT] ?9K+ ! MATT] OV] = SOME TIME ,I HAVE DECID$ TO S5D BACK ?IS TR9KET TO Y\R ,DEP>TM5T1 HAV+ NO FUR!R USE = SU* BAUBLES1 & 5ABLE Y\ TO GIVE IT TO SOME ONE :O WILL APPRECIATE IT MORE ?AN ,I DO4  

,IT SPEAKS TO ME ( FAI?FUL S]VICE1 ( DUTY WELL DONE1 ( FRI5D%IPS 9SEP>ABLE1 FRI5D%IPS CEM5T$ BY DANG]S & H>D%IPS & SUFF]+S %>$ 9 COMMON 9 CAMP & 9 ! FIELD4 ,BUT1 SIR1 IT ALSO SPEAKS TO ME ( BLOOD%$ --- POSSIBLY SOME ( IT UNAVOIDABLY 9NOC5T --- 9 DEF5SE ( LOV$ ONES1 ( HOMES2 HOMES 9 MANY CASES BUT HUTS ( GRASS1 YET *]I%$ NONE ! LESS4  

,IT SPEAKS ( RAIDS & BURN+S1 ( MANY PRISON]S TAK5 &1 LIKE VILE BEA/S1 ?R[N 9 ! F\LE/ ( PRISONS4 ,& = :AT8 ,= FI<T+ = !IR HOMES & LOV$ ONES4  

,IT SPEAKS TO ME ( ,G4 ,O4 #a1 ) ALL ITS ATT5DANT HORRORS & CRUELTIES & SUFF]+S2 ( A C\NTRY LAID WA/E ) FIRE & SWORD2 ( ANIMALS USEFUL TO MAN WANTONLY KILL$2 ( M51 WOM51 & *ILDR5 HUNT$ LIKE WILD BEA/S1 & ALL ?IS 9 ! NAME ( ,LIB]TY1 ,HUMANITY1 & ,CIVILIZATION4  

,9 %ORT1 IT SPEAKS TO ME ( ,W> --- LEGALIZ$ MURD]1 IF Y\ WILL --- UPON A WEAK & DEF5SELESS PEOPLE4 ,WE HAVE NOT EV5 ! EXCUSE ( SELF-DEF5SE4  

,Y\RS S9C]ELY1  
 ,WM4 ,BUWALDA  
 ,R4 ,R4 ,NO4 #c  
 ,HUDSONVILLE1 ,MI*IGAN  

,\R DEP>TURE = ,AU/RALIA HAD BE5 SET = ,JANU>Y4 ,! >RE/ & SUBSEQU5T FREE-SPEE* FI<T 9 ,SAN ,FRANCISCO =C$ US TO PO/PONE IT UNTIL ,APRIL4 ,AT LA/ WE W]E READY1 \R TRUNKS PACK$1 A GR& F>EWELL P>TY >RANG$ = US4 ,WE W]E AB\T TO SECURE PASSAGE :5 A TELEGRAM FROM ,RO*E/] DEMOLI%$ \R PLANS4 0,WA%+TON REVOK$ ,K]%N]'S CITIZ5%IP PAP]S10 IT READ2 0DANG]\S TO LEAVE C\NTRY40  

,MY SI/] HAD WRITT5 ME MON?S BE=E ?AT TWO SUSPICI\S-LOOK+ 9DIVIDUALS HAD BE5 SNOOP+ AB\T TO SECURE DATA ON ,K]%N]4 ,HE HAD LEFT ! CITY YE>S PREVI\SLY & NO?+ HAD BE5 HE>D FROM HIM S9CE !N4 ,NOT F9D+ ,K]%N]1 ! M5 HAD PE/]$ HIS P>5TS & TRI$ TO GET 9=MATION FROM !M4 ,I HAD DISMISS$ ! MATT] FROM MY M9D AT ! TIME AS ( NO CONSEQU5CE4 ,BUT N[ ! BL[ CAME4 ,I WAS DEPRIV$ ( MY CITIZ5%IP )\T EV5 AN OPPORTUNITY TO CONTE/ ! ACTION ( ! ,F$]AL AU?ORITIES4 ,I KNEW ?AT IF ,I %\LD LEAVE ! C\NTRY1 ,I %\LD NOT BE P]MITT$ TO RE5T] IT4 ,MY ,AU/RALIAN T\R HAD TO BE AB&ON$ AT A GREAT F9ANCIAL LOSS1 NOT TO M5TION ! EXP5DITURES 9VE/$ BY \R ,AU/RALIAN FRI5DS 9 PREP>+ = MY ACTIVITIES !RE4 ,IT WAS A BITT] DISAPPO9TM5T1 MU* MITIGAT$1 =TUNATELY1 BY ! UNDAUNT$ OPTIMISM ( MY HOBO MANAG]4 ,HIS ZEAL M]ELY 9CREAS$ ) ! OB/ACLES WE 5C\NT]$4 ,HIS 5]GY WAS DYNAMIC & TIRELESS4  

,AU/RALIA ELIM9AT$ FROM \R IT9]>Y1 WE W5T TO ,TEXAS 9/EAD4 ,EL ,PASO1 ,SAN ,ANTONIO1 & ,H\/ON W]E NEW GR\ND4 ,I WAS CAUTION$ TO AVOID ! ,NEGRO QUE/ION1 BUT ?\< ,I MADE NO CONCESSIONS TO ! PREJUDICES ( ! ,S\?1 ,I WAS 9 NO WAY MOLE/$1 NOR WAS !RE ANY POLICE 9T]F]5CE4 ,I EV5 WALK$ ) ,B5 FROM ,EL ,PASO TO ,MEXICO & BACK AGA9 BE=E ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES IMMIGRATION 9SPECTOR HAD TIME TO REALIZE ! *ANCE HE HAD MISS$ TO SAVE HIS ,GOV]NM5T FROM ! ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN M5ACE4 

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