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#aicaaica 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,TEXT 3 

  

,PHOTO BY ,TIM ,GOOS1,C,C ,B,Y-,N,C-,N,D ,LIC5SE ,LIV+ ,MY ,LIFE 

BY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,VOLUME ,ONE 

,NEW ,YORK3 ,ALFR$ ,A ,KNOPF ,9C41 #a#i#c#a4 

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,AT ! HEI<T ( MY ,CALI=NIA ACTIVITIES A LETT] CAME ?AT %ATT]$ MY VISIONS ( H>MONI\S LOVE3 ,MAX WROTE ME ?AT HE & HIS COMRADE 0,PUCK0 W]E AB\T TO GO ABROAD TOGE!R1 F9ANC$ BY A FRI5D4 ,I LAU<$ AL\D AT ! FOLLY ( MY HOPES4 ,AFT] ! FAILURE ) ,$ H[ C\LD ,I HAVE DREAM$ ( LOVE & UND]/&+ ) ANYONE ELSE8 ,LOVE & HAPP9ESS --- EMPTY1 MEAN+LESS WORDS1 VA9 REA*+ \T = ! UNATTA9ABLE4 ,I FELT ROBB$ BY LIFE1 DEFEAT$ 9 MY YE>N+ = A BEAUTIFUL RELATION%IP4 ,I /ILL HAD MY IDEAL TO LIVE =1 AS ,I CONSOL$ MYSELF1 & ! WORK ,I HAD SET MYSELF TO DO4 ,:Y EXPECT MORE FROM LIFE8 ,BUT :]E GET /R5G? & 9SPIRATION TO KEEP UP ! /RUGGLE8 ,M5 HAD BE5 ABLE TO DO ! WORLD'S WORK )\T ! SU/A9+ P[] ( LOVE2 :Y %\LD NOT ALSO WOM58 ,OR IS IT ?AT WOMAN NE$S LOVE MORE ?AN MAN8 ,A /UPID1 ROMANTIC NOTION1 CONCEIV$ TO KEEP H] = EV] DEP5D5T ON ! MALE4 ,WELL1 ,I W\LD NOT HAVE IT2 ,I W\LD LIVE & WORK )\T LOVE4 ,!RE IS NO P]MAN5CY ANY:]E 9 NATURE OR 9 LIFE4 ,I MU/ DRA9 ! MOM5T & !N LET ! GOBLET FALL TO ! GR\ND4 ,IT IS ! SOLE PROTECTION AGA9/ TAK+ ROOT1 ONLY TO BE PA9FULLY PULL$ UP AGA94 ,MY Y\NG FRI5DS 9 ,SAN ,FRANCISCO HAD BE5 CALL+4 ,! VISION ( LIFE ) ,MAX HAD /OOD 9 ! WAY4 ,N[ ,I C\LD RESPOND2 ,I MU/ RESPOND 9 ORD] TO =GET4 

,AFT] VISIT+ ,PORTL& & ,SEATTLE ,I W5T TO ,TACOMA1 ,WA%+TON4 ,EV]Y?+ HAD BE5 PREP>$ = A MEET+ !RE1 BUT :5 ,I >RIV$1 ,I F\ND ?AT ! [N] ( ! HALL HAD BACK$ \T1 & NO O!R PLACE C\LD BE SECUR$4 ,AT ! LA/ MOM5T1 :5 ALL HOPES HAD BE5 GIV5 UP1 ! SPIRITUALI/S CAME TO ! RESCUE4 ,I DELIV]$ SEV]AL LECTURES BE=E !M1 BUT AT ! SUBJECT ( ,FREE ,LOVE EV5 !Y BALK$4 ,EVID5TLY ! SPIRITS CONT9U$ 9 HEAV5 ! MORAL /&>DS !Y HAD SET DUR+ !IR EMBODIM5T4 

,SPR+ ,VALLEY1 ,ILL9OIS1 A L>GE M9+ SECTION1 HAD A /RONG AN>*I/ GR\P1 CONSI/+ MO/LY ( ,BELGIANS & ,ITALIANS4 ,!Y HAD 9VIT$ ME = A S]IES ( LECTURES1 CULM9AT+ 9 A DEMON/RATION ON ,LABOR ,DAY4 ,!IR EF=TS W]E CR[N$ ) GREAT SUCCESS4 ,AL?\< IT WAS BROIL+ HOT1 ! M9]S TURN$ \T ) !IR WIVES & *ILDR51 DRESS$ 9 !IR F9E/4 ,I HEAD$ ! PROCESSION1 C>RY+ A L>GE R$ FLAG4 ,9 ! G>D5 HIR$ = ! SPEE*ES ! PLAT=M HAD NO AWN+4 ,I SPOKE ) ! HOT SUN BEAT+ D[N ON MY HEAD1 :I* HAD ALREADY BEGUN TO A*E DUR+ ! LONG M>*4 ,9 ! AFT]NOON1 AT \R PICNIC1 ! COMRADES BR\<T N9ETE5 BABIES TO BE BAPTIZ$ BY ME 9 0TRUE AN>*I/ FA%ION10 AS !Y SAID4 ,I GOT ON AN EMPTY BE] B>REL1 NO O!R /& BE+ AVAILABLE1 & ADDRESS$ ! AUDI5CE4 ,I FELT ?AT ! ONES :O NE$$ BAPTISM W]E REALLY ! P>5TS1 BAPTISM 9 ! NEW IDEAS ( ! RI<TS ( ! *ILD4 

,! LOCAL PAP]S ! FOLL[+ DAY C>RI$ TWO LEAD+ /ORIES3 ONE ?AT ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 0DRANK LIKE A TROOP]02 ! O!R ?AT %E 0HAD BAPTIZ$ AN>*I/ *ILDR5 9 A B>REL ( BE]40 

,DUR+ MY PREVI\S VISIT 9 ,DETROIT ) ,MAX ,I HAD MET ONE ( ,ROB]T ,REITZEL'S /AUN*E/ FRI5DS1 ,H]MAN ,MILL]1 & ANO!R DEVOTEE ( ! ,>M] ,TEUFEL1 ,C>L ,/ONE4 ,MILL] WAS PRESID5T ( ! ,CLEVEL& ,BREW+ ,COMPANY & A MAN ( CONSID]ABLE MEANS4 ,H[ HE EV] CAME TO HIS POSITION WAS A PUZZLE TO ALL :O KNEW HIM4 ,HE WAS A DREAM] & VISION>Y1 A LOV] ( FRE$OM & BEAUTY1 & A V]Y G5]\S SPIRIT4 ,= YE>S HE HAD BE5 ! MA9 SUPPORT ( ! ,>M] ,TEUFEL4 ,HIS F9E/ TRAIT WAS HIS >T ( GIV+4 ,EV5 :5 HE TIPP$ A WAIT]1 IT WAS DONE 9 A DELICATE & ALMO/ APOLOGETIC WAY4 ,AS = HIS FRI5DS1 ,H]MAN FAIRLY %[]$ GIFTS ON !M1 9 A MANN] AS ?\< !Y W]E BE/[+ A FAVOR ON HIM4 ,ON ?IS OCCASION MY HO/ \TDID HIMSELF 9 ?\<TFULNESS & G5]OSITY4 ,! DAYS SP5T ) HIM & ,/ONE1 9 ! COMPANY ( ! ,RU$EBUS*ES1 ,EMMA ,CLAUS51 & O!R FRI5DS1 W]E A R\ND ( GOOD FELL[%IP & COMRADE%IP4 

,BO? ,MILL] & ,/ONE %[$ GREAT 9T]E/ 9 MY /RUGGLE & PLANS = ! FUTURE4 ,ASK$ AB\T ! LATT]1 ,I 9=M$ !M ?AT ,I HAD NONE1 EXCEPT TO WORK = MY IDEAL4 ,DIDN'T ,I WI% TO SECURE MYSELF MAT]IALLY1 BY HAV+ SOME PR(ESSION1 = 9/ANCE1 ,H]MAN SUGGE/$4 ,I HAD ALWAYS WANT$ TO /UDY M$IC9E1 ,I TOLD HIM1 BUT HAD NEV] HAD ! MEANS = IT4 ,I WAS COMPLETELY TAK5 (F MY FEET BY ,H]MAN'S UNEXPECT$LY (F]+ TO F9ANCE MY /UDIES4 ,/ONE ALSO WANT$ TO %>E ! EXP5SE1 BUT ! TWO FRI5DS ?\<T IT IMPRACTICABLE TO TURN ! 5TIRE AM\NT OV] TO ME4 0,I UND]/& Y\ ALWAYS HAVE A /R+ ( PEOPLE NE$+ HELP2 Y\ WILL BE SURE TO GIVE ! MONEY AWAY10 ,H]MAN SAID4 ,!Y AGRE$ TO SECURE ME = FIVE YE>S ) AN 9COME ( =TY DOLL>S A MON?4 ,! SAME DAY ,H]MAN1 ACCOMPANI$ BY ,JULIA ,RU$EBUS*1 TOOK ME TO ! BE/ /ORE 9 ,DETROIT1 0TO HELP RIG ,EMMA \T = H] TRIP40 ,A BEAUTIFUL BLUE ,SCOT* CLO? CAPE WAS AMONG ! NUM]\S ?+S ,I *]I%$ FROM MY %OPP+ T\R4 ,C>L ,/ONE PRES5T$ ME ) A GOLD WAT*2 IT WAS CLAM-%AP$1 & ,I WOND]$ :Y HE HAD *OS5 SU* A PECULI> =M4 0,9 TOK5 ( A GIFT Y\ HAVE1 SO R>E 9 Y\R SEX3 ! ABILITY TO KEEP MOM10 HE SAID4 0,?AT IS 9DE$ A COMPLIM5T FROM A MALE60 ,I RETORT$1 TO ! AMUSEM5T ( ! RE/4 

,BE=E ,I TOOK LEAVE ( MY DE> FRI5DS 9 ,DETROIT1 ,H]MAN %YLY & UNOBTRUSIVELY PUT AN 5VELOPE 9 MY H&4 0,A LOVE-LETT]10 HE SAID1 0TO BE READ ON ! TRA940 ,! 0LOVE-LETT]0 CONTA9$ FIVE HUNDR$ DOLL>S1 ) A NOTE3 0,= Y\R PASSAGE1 DE> ,EMMA1 & TO KEEP Y\ FROM C>E UNTIL WE MEET 9 ,P>IS40 

,! LA/ HOPE ( LEGAL R$RESS = ,SA%A WAS GONE :5 ! NEW ,BO>D ( ,P>DONS REFUS$ TO HE> \R APPEAL4 ,!RE WAS NO?+ LEFT EXCEPT ! DESP]ATE V5TURE ,SA%A HAD BE5 PLANN+ = A CONSID]ABLE TIME --- AN ESCAPE4 ,HIS FRI5DS US$ EV]Y MEANS TO DISSUADE HIM FROM ! IDEA DUR+ ! CAMPAIGN MADE 9 HIS BEHALF BY ,C>L1 ,H5RY1 ,GORDON1 & ,H>RY ,KELLY4 ,) ! POSSIBILITY ( RELEASE GONE1 ,I C\LD DO NO?+ BUT SUBMIT TO ,SA%A'S WI%ES1 ?\< ) AN ANXI\S HE>T4 

,HIS LETT]S1 AFT] ,I 9=M$ HIM ?AT WE W\LD GO AHEAD ) HIS S*EME1 %[$ HIM TO HAVE UND]GONE A WOND]FUL TRANS=MATION4 ,HE WAS BUOYANT AGA91 FULL ( HOPE & VIGOR4 ,SOON HE W\LD S5D A FRI5D TO US1 HE WROTE1 A MO/ TRU/WOR?Y P]SON1 A FELL[ PRISON] :OM HE CALL$ 0,TONY40 ,! MAN W\LD BE RELEAS$ )9 A FEW WEEKS1 & HE W\LD !N BR+ US ! NECESS>Y DETAILS ( ! PLAN4 0,IT WILL NOT FAIL IF MY 9/RUCTIONS >E FAI?FULLY C>RI$ \T10 HE WROTE4 ,HE EXPLA9$ ?AT TWO ?+S W\LD BE REQUIR$3 DEP5DABLE COMRADES ( GRIT & 5DURANCE1 & SOME MONEY4 ,HE WAS SURE ,I W\LD F9D BO?4 

,BE=E LONG 0,TONY0 WAS RELEAS$1 BUT C]TA9 PREP>ATORY WORK 9 ,SA%A'S BEHALF KEPT HIM 9 ,PITTSBUR<1 & WE C\LD NOT GET 9 P]SONAL T\* ) HIM4 ,I LE>N$1 H[EV]1 ?AT ,SA%A'S PLAN 9VOLV$ ! DIGG+ ( A TUNNEL FROM ! \TSIDE 9TO ! PRISON1 & ?AT ,SA%A HAD 5TRU/$ 0,TONY0 ) ALL ! NECESS>Y DIAGRAMS & MEASUREM5TS TO 5ABLE US TO DO ! WORK4 ,! S*EME SEEM$ FANTA/IC1 ! DESP]ATE DESIGN ( ONE DRIV5 TO /AKE EV]Y?+1 EV5 HIS LIFE1 UPON ! ?R[ ( A C>D4 ,YET ,I WAS C>RI$ AWAY BY ! PROJECT1 SO CLEV]LY CONCEIV$1 & WORK$ \T ) UTMO/ C>E4 ,I REFLECT$ A LONG TIME UPON :OM TO APPROA* 9 REG>D TO ! UND]TAK+4 ,!RE W]E PL5TY ( COMRADES :O W\LD BE WILL+ TO RISK !IR LIVES TO RESCUE ,SA%A1 BUT FEW :O HAD ! REQUISITES = SU* A DIFFICULT & HAZ>D\S TASK4 ,I F9ALLY DECID$ UPON \R ,NORWEGIAN FRI5D ,]IC ,B4 ,MORTON :OM WE HAD NICKNAM$ 0,IBS540 ,HE WAS A V]ITABLE VIK+1 9 SPIRIT & PHYSIQUE1 A MAN ( 9TELLIG5CE1 D>+1 & WILL-P[]4 

,! PLAN APPEAL$ TO HIM AT ONCE4 ,)\T HESITATION HE PROMIS$ TO DO ANY?+ ?AT W\LD BE REQUIR$1 & HE WAS READY TO />T !RE & !N4 ,I EXPLA9$ ?AT !RE W\LD BE AN UNAVOIDABLE DELAY1 WE HAD TO WAIT = 0,TONY40 ,SOME?+ WAS APP>5TLY DETA9+ HIM MU* LONG] ?AN HE HAD EXPECT$4 ,I WAS LOA! TO LEAVE = ,EUROPE )\T BE+ SURE ?AT ,SA%A'S PLAN WAS BE+ C>RI$ \T & ,I CONFESS$ TO ,]IC ?AT ,I FELT UNEASY AB\T GO+ AT ALL4 0,IT WILL BE MADD5+ TO BE ?REE ?\S& MILES AWAY :ILE ,SA%A'S FATE IS HANG+ 9 ! BALANCE10 ,I SAID4 ,]IC UND]/OOD MY FEEL+S 9 ! MATT]1 BUT HE ?\<T ?AT AS F> AS ! PROPOS$ TUNNEL WAS CONC]N$1 ,I C\LD DO NO?+4 0,9 FACT1 Y\R ABS5CE MAY PROVE ( GREAT] VALUE10 HE >GU$1 0?AN Y\R PRES5CE 9 ,AM]ICA4 ,IT WILL S]VE TO W>D (F SUSPICION ?AT SOME?+ IS BE+ DONE = ,SA%A40 ,HE AGRE$ ) ME ?AT ! QUE/ION ( ,SA%A'S SAFETY AFT] ! ESCAPE WAS ( P>AM\NT IMPORTANCE4 ,HE FE>$1 AS ,I DID1 ?AT ,SA%A C\LD NOT REMA9 V]Y LONG 9 ! C\NTRY )\T BE+ APPREH5D$4 

0,WE'LL HAVE TO GET HIM AWAY AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE TO ,CANADA OR ,MEXICO1 & !NCE TO ,EUROPE10 HE SUGGE/$4 0,! TUNNEL WILL REQUIRE MON?S ( WORK1 & ?AT WILL GIVE Y\ TIME TO PREP>E A PLACE = HIM ABROAD4 ,!RE HE WILL BE RECOGNIZ$ AS A POLITICAL REFUGEE & AS SU* HE WILL NOT BE EXTRADIT$40 

,I KNEW ,]IC WAS A V]Y LEVEL-HEAD$ MAN1 5TIRELY RELIABLE4 ,/ILL ,I HAT$ TO GO AWAY )\T SEE+ 0,TONY10 LE>N+ ! DETAILS ( ! PLAN1 & F9D+ \T ALL HE C\LD TELL US AB\T ,SA%A4 ,]IC QUIET$ MY APPREH5SIONS BY PROMIS+ TO TAKE *>GE ( ! 5TIRE MATT] & TO BEG9 OP]ATIONS AS SOON AS 0,TONY0 >RIV$4 ,HE WAS A MAN ( CONV9C+ MANN] & /RONG P]SONALITY1 & ,I HAD ! FULLE/ FAI? 9 HIS C\RAGE & ABILITY TO C>RY \T SUCCESSFULLY ,SA%A'S DIRECTIONS4 ,HE WAS1 MOREOV]1 SPL5DID COMPANY1 FULL ( *E]1 & ) A F9E S5SE ( HUMOR4 ,AT P>T+ HE JUBILANTLY ASSUR$ ME ?AT TOGE!R ) ,SA%A WE %\LD SOON ALL MEET 9 ,P>IS TO CELEBRATE HIS ESCAPE4 

,/ILL 0,TONY0 FAIL$ TO APPE> & HIS ABS5CE FILL$ ME ) MISGIV+S4 ,9VOLUNT>ILY ,I ?\<T ( ! UNRELIABILITY ( PRISON]S' PROMISES4 ,I REMEMB]$ ! GREAT ?+S SEV]AL ( ! WOM5 9 ,BLACKWELL'S ,ISL& W]E GO+ TO DO = ME UPON !IR RELEASE4 ,!Y W]E ALL SOON DRAWN 9TO ! :IRLPOOL ( LIFE & P]SONAL 9T]E/S1 !IR BE/ PRISON 9T5TIONS SLIPP+ AWAY FROM !M4 ,IT IS R>E 9DE$ ?AT A RELEAS$ PRISON] IS WILL+ & ABLE TO C>RY \T ! PROMISES MADE TO HIS FELL[ SUFF]]S REMA9+ BEH9D ! B>S4 0,TONY0 WAS PROBABLY LIKE ! MAJORITY1 ,I ?\<T4 ,/ILL1 ,I HAD SEV]AL WEEKS YET BE=E SAIL+ --- P]HAPS 0,TONY0 W\LD TURN UP 9 ! MEANTIME4 

,S9CE LEAV+ ,NEW ,YORK ON MY LA/ T\R ,I HAD NOT CORRESPOND$ ) ,$1 BUT ON MY RETURN ,I HAD RECEIV$ A LETT] FROM HIM BEGG+ ME TO COME TO ! AP>TM5T & OCCUPY IT UNTIL ,I LEFT = ,EUROPE4 ,HE C\LD NOT 5DURE ! IDEA ?AT ,I %\LD BE ) /RANG]S :5 ,I HAD A HOME ( MY [N4 0,!RE IS NO REASON = Y\R NOT /AY+ H]E1 HE WROTE2 0WE >E /ILL FRI5DS1 & ! FLAT1 ) EV]Y?+ 9 IT IS Y\RS40 ,AT FIR/ ,I WAS 9CL9$ TO REFUSE2 ,I DREAD$ A REVIVAL ( \R =M] RELATION%IP & ! OLD /RUGGLE4 ,BUT ,$ WAS SO P]SI/5T 9 HIS LETT]S ?AT ,I F9ALLY RETURN$ TO ! PLACE ?AT HAD BE5 MY HOME = SO MANY YE>S4 ,$ WAS *>M+1 FULL ( TACT1 CONSID]ATELY NON9VASIVE4 ,\R FLAT HAD SEP>ATE 5TRANCES2 WE CAME & W5T \R DIFF]5T WAYS4 ,IT WAS ! BUSY SEASON = ,$'S FIRM1 & MY TIME WAS FULLY OCCUPI$ BY RAIS+ MONEY = ,SA%A'S PROJECT & GETT+ READY = MY TRIP ABROAD4 ,ON MY OCCASIONAL FREE EV5+S OR ,SATURDAY AFT]NOONS ,$ W\LD 9VITE ME TO D9N] OR TO ! !AT]1 AFT]W>DS GO+ TO ,JU/US'S PLACE4 ,HE NEV] ONCE REF]R$ TO \R OLD LIFE4 ,9/EAD WE DISCUSS$ MY PLANS = ,EUROPE & HE SEEM$ GREATLY 9T]E/$ 9 !M4 ,HE WAS PLEAS$ TO HE> ?AT ,H]MAN ,MILL] & ,C>L ,/ONE W]E TO F9ANCE MY /UDY ( M$IC9E1 & HE PROMIS$ TO PAY ME A VISIT 9 ,EUROPE1 AS HE WAS PLANN+ TO GO ABROAD ! FOLL[+ YE>4 ,HIS MO!R HAD BE5 AIL+ ( LATE2 %E WAS GR[+ OLD & HE WAS ANXI\S TO SEE H] AS SOON AS POSSIBLE4 

,JU/US'S PLACE CONT9U$ TO BE ! MO/ 9T]E/+ 9 ,NEW ,YORK1 BUT ITS =M] GAIETY WAS DAMP5$ BY ! AL>M+ CONDITION ( ITS HO/4 ,I HAD NOT BE5 9=M$1 :ILE T\R+ ! C\NTRY1 ( HIS ILLNESS1 & ON MY RETURN ,I WAS APPALL$ TO F9D HIM WA/$ & WEAK4 ,HIS NE$S HAD URG$ HIM TO GO = A RE/2 ,MRS4 ,S*WAB & !IR SON C\LD MANAGE ! PLACE 9 HIS ABS5CE4 ,BUT ,JU/US W\LD NOT CONS5T4 ,HE LAU<$ & JOK$ AS USUAL1 BUT HIS GLORI\S VOICE HAD LO/ ITS OLD R+4 ,IT WAS HE>T-R5D+ TO SEE \R 0GIANT OAK0 BEG9N+ TO BREAK4 

,FUNDS TO C>RY \T ,SA%A'S UND]TAK+ HAD TO BE RAIS$ UND] COV] ( A SUPPOS$ NEW LEGAL MOVE4 ,ONLY V]Y FEW COMRADES C\LD BE TOLD AB\T ! REAL OBJECT = :I* ! MONEY WAS NE$$4 ,! MAN :O C\LD HELP MO/ WAS ,S4 ,YAN(SKY1 $ITOR ( ! ,FREIE ,>BEIT] ,/IMME1 ! ,YIDDI% AN>*I/ WEEKLY4 ,HE HAD ONLY REC5TLY COME FROM ,5GL&1 :]E HE HAD $IT$ ! ,>BEIT] ,FREUND2 HE WAS CLEV] & WIELD$ AN 9CISIVE P54 ,I KNEW HIM AS A WOR%IP] ( ,MO/ :I* WAS NO D\BT ! REASON = HIS ANTAGONI/IC ATTITUDE T[>DS ME AT \R FIR/ MEET+4 ,HIS S>CA/IC MANN] HAD MADE A DISAGREEABLE IMPRESSION ON ME1 & ,I DISLIK$ HAV+ TO APPROA* HIM4 ,BUT IT WAS = ,SA%A'S SAKE1 & ,I W5T TO SEE HIM4 

,TO MY SURPRISE ,I F\ND ,YAN(SKY V]Y MU* 9T]E/$ & WILL+ TO HELP4 ,HE EXPRESS$ D\BTS AB\T ! *ANCES ( ! PLAN'S SUCCESS BUT :5 ,I 9=M$ HIM ?AT ,SA%A WAS DESP]ATE AT ! ?\<T ( CONT9U+ ELEV5 MORE YE>S 9 HIS GRAVE1 ,YAN(SKY PROMIS$ TO DO HIS UTMO/ TO RAISE ! NECESS>Y MONEY4 ,) 0,IBS50 & SEV]AL O!R RELIABLE FRI5DS 9 ,PITTSBUR< TO LOOK AFT] ! UND]TAK+1 & ) ,YAN(SKY TO ASSI/ ) ! F9ANCIAL 5D MY ANXIETY WAS CONSID]ABLY ALLAY$4 

,H>RY ,KELLY WAS !N 9 ,5GL&4 ,I HAD WRITT5 HIM AB\T MY COM+ TO ,EUROPE & HE IMM$IATELY 9VIT$ ME TO /AY 9 ! H\SE :]E HE WAS LIV+ ) HIS WIFE & *ILD4 ,! ,LONDON COMRADES ,H>RY WROTE1 W]E PLANN+ A L>GE ELEV5?-(-,NOVEMB] MEET+ AN W\LD BE GLAD TO HAVE ME AS ONE ( ! SPEAK]S4 ,AT ! SAME TIME A LETT] >RIV$ FROM ! AN>*I/S 9 ,GLASG[1 9VIT+ ME = LECTURES4 ,BESIDES1 !RE WAS MU* TO BE DONE = \R CONGRESS4 ,I HAD RECEIV$ CR$5TIALS AS A DELEGATE FROM SEV]AL GR\PS4 ,SOME ( ! ,AM]ICAN COMRADES1 AMONG !M ,LIZZIE & ,WILLIAM ,HOLMES1 ,ABE ,ISAAK1 & ,SUSAN ,PATT51 ASK$ ME TO PRES5T !IR PAP]S ON V>I\S TOPICS4 ,I HAD A GREAT DEAL ( WORK BE=E ME & IT WAS TIME TO />T ON MY J\RNEY4 ,BUT TO MY DI/RESS !RE WAS /ILL NO WORD FROM 0,TONY40 

,ONE EV5+ ,I W5T TO ,JU/US'S PLACE1 :]E ,I HAD PROMIS$ TO MEET ,$4 ,I F\ND HIM 9 ! CIRCLE ( HIS PHILOLOGIC CRONIES1 DISCUSS+1 AS USUAL1 ! ETYMOLOGY ( WORDS4 ,AN OLD LIT]>Y FRI5D1 :OM ,I HAD NOT SE5 = A LONG TIME1 WAS !RE1 & :ILE ,I WAIT$ = ,$1 ,I CONV]S$ ) HIM4 ,IT GREW LATE1 BUT ,$ %[$ NO DISPOSITION TO LEAVE4 ,I TOLD HIM ,I WAS GO+ HOME1 & ,I LEFT1 ACCOMPANI$ BY ! WRIT]1 :O LIV$ 9 ! SAME NEI<BORHOOD4 ,AT MY DOOR ,I BADE HIM GOOD-BYE & IMM$IATELY W5T TO B$4 

,I AWOKE FROM A <A/LY DREAM ?AT T]RIFI$ ME BY LI<TN+ & RUMBL+4 ,BUT ! ?UND] & CRA%+ ( ?+S SEEM$ TO CONT9UE1 & PRES5TLY ,I BECAME AW>E ?AT IT WAS REAL1 HAPP5+ NEXT DOOR1 9 ,$'S ROOM4 ,HE MU/ BE CRAZ$ BY DR9K1 ,I ?\<T4 ,YET ,I HAD NEV] SE5 ,$ 9TOXICAT$ TO ! EXT5T ( LOS+ CONTROL ( HIMSELF4 ,:AT HAD HAPP5$ TO MAKE ,$ SO VIOL5T AS TO COME HOME & SMA% UP ?+S 9 ! MIDDLE ( ! NI<T8 ,I WANT$ TO CALL1 TO CRY \T TO HIM1 BUT ,I WAS SOMEH[ RE/RA9$ BY ! CONT9U$ CLATT] ( OBJECTS FALL+ & BREAK+4 ,AFT] A :ILE IT SUBSID$ & ,I HE>D ,$ ?R[ HIMSELF HEAVILY ON ! C\*4 ,!N ALL WAS QUIET4 

,I KEPT AWAKE1 MY EYES BURN+1 MY HE>T BEAT+ TUMULTU\SLY4 ,AT DAYBREAK ,I DRESS$ HA/ILY & OP5$ ! DOOR SEP>AT+ MY ROOM FROM ,$'S4 ,! SI<T WAS APPALL+3 ! FLOOR WAS LITT]$ ) BROK5 FURNITURE & *9A2 ! SKET* ,F$YA HAD MADE ( ME1 :I* ,$ HAD *]I%$ AS HIS GREATE/ TREASURE1 LAY TORN & TRAMPL$ UPON1 ITS FRAME SMA%$4 ,TABLE & *AIRS W]E OV]TURN$ & BROK54 ,9 ! MID/ ( ! CONFUSION LAY ,$1 HALF-DRESS$ & FA/ ASLEEP4 ,9 ANG] & DISGU/ ,I RAN BACK TO MY ROOM1 SLAMM+ ! DOOR BEH9D ME4 

,I SAW ,$ ONCE MORE1 ! NEXT DAY1 BE=E ,I SAIL$4 ,HIS HAGG>D LOOK ( MIS]Y SEAL$ MY LIPS4 ,:AT WAS !RE TO SAY OR EXPLA98 ,! DEBRIS ( \R ?+S W]E ! SYMBOL ( \R WRECK$ LOVE1 ( ! LIFE ?AT HAD BE5 SO FULL ( COLOR & PROMISE4 

,MANY FRI5DS CAME TO ! /EAM] TO SAY ADIEU TO ME & TO ,M>Y ,ISAAK1 :O WAS SAIL+ ) ME4 ,$ WAS NOT AMONG !M1 & ,I WAS GRATEFUL = IT4 ,IT W\LD HAVE BE5 EV5 MORE DIFFICULT TO CONTROL MY TE>S 9 HIS PRES5CE4 ,IT WAS MO/ PA9FUL TO SAY GOOD-BYE TO ,JU/US1 :OM WE ALL KNEW TO BE DY+ ( TUB]CULOSIS4 ,HE LOOK$ V]Y ILL1 & ,I FELT SADD5$ BY ! ?\<T ?AT ,I MI<T NEV] SEE HIM ALIVE AGA94 ,IT WAS H>D ALSO TO P>T FROM MY BRO!R4 ,I WAS GLAD TO BE ABLE TO LEAVE HIM SOME MONEY1 & ,I W\LD CONTRIBUTE TO HIS NE$S FROM ! MON?LY ALL[ANCE MY ,DETROIT FRI5DS W]E TO S5D ME4 ,I C\LD MANAGE ON LESS2 ,I HAD DONE IT 9 ,VI5NA4 ,! BOY HAD TAK5 DEEP HOLD ON MY HE>T2 HE WAS SO T5D] & CONSID]ATE ?AT HIS AFFECTION HAD BECOME SOME?+ V]Y PRECI\S 9 MY LIFE4 ,AS ! BIG L9] /EAM$ \T1 ,I REMA9$ ON DECK TO WAT* ! REC$+ SILH\ETTES ( ,NEW ,YORK4 

,\R CROSS+ WAS UNEV5TFUL1 EXCEPT = A RAG+ /ORM4 ,WE >RIV$ 9 ,LONDON TWO DAYS TOO LATE = ! ELEV5?-(-,NOVEMB] MEET+ & AT ! HEI<T ( ! ,BO] ,W>4 ,9 ! H\SE :]E ,H>RY ,KELLY & HIS FAMILY W]E LIV+ !RE WAS ONLY ONE ROOM VACANT1 & ?AT WAS 9 ! BASEM5T4 ,EV5 9 CLE> WEA!R IT HAD BUT LITTLE DAY LI<T1 :ILE ON FOGGY DAYS ! GAS-JET HAD TO BE KEPT GO+ ALL ! TIME4 ,! FIRE-PLACE W>M$ ONLY ONE'S SIDE OR BACK1 NEV] ! 5TIRE BODY1 & ,I CON/ANTLY HAD TO KEEP *ANG+ MY POSITION TO BALANCE1 TO SOME EXT5T1 ! ATMOSPH]IC DIFF]5CE BETWE5 ! FIRE & ! COLD ROOM4 

,HAV+ BE5 9 ,LONDON DUR+ ITS BE/ SEASON1 9 LATE ,AUGU/ & ,SEPTEMB]1 ,I US$ TO ?9K ?AT PEOPLE EXAGG]AT$ :5 !Y SPOKE ( ! HORRORS ( ! ,LONDON FOGS1 ! DAMPNESS & GRAYNESS ( ITS W9T]4 ,BUT ,I REALIZ$ ?IS TIME ?AT !Y HAD H>DLY DONE JU/ICE TO ! REALITY4 ,! FOG WAS LIKE A MON/]1 /EAL?ILY CREEP+ UP & 5VELOP+ ! VICTIM 9 ITS *ILLY EMBRACE4 ,MORN+S ,I W\LD AWAK5 ) A LEAD5 FEEL+1 MY M\? P>*$4 ,9 VA9 ! HOPE ( 5JOY+ A RAY ( LI<T BY OP5+ ! BL9DS2 ! BLACKNESS FROM ! \TSIDE W\LD SOON CREEP 9TO ! ROOM4 ,POOR ,M>Y ,ISAAK1 COM+ FROM SUNNY ,CALI=NIA1 WAS DEPRESS$ BY ! ,LONDON WEA!R EV5 WORSE ?AN ,I4 ,%E HAD PLANN$ TO /AY A MON?1 BUT AFT] ONE WEEK %E WAS ANXI\S TO LEAVE4 

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