,VOLUME #a1 ,*APT] #af 

#aicaaica 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,TEXT 3 

  

,PHOTO BY ,DAVE ,S*UMAK]1,C,C ,B,Y-,N,C-,N,D ,LIC5SE ,LIV+ ,MY ,LIFE 

BY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

 ,VOLUME ONE 

,NEW ,YORK3 ,ALFR$ ,A ,KNOPF ,9C41#a#i#c#a4 

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,MY FIR/ /OP WAS ,PHILADELPHIA1 ,I HAD VISIT$ ! CITY MANY TIMES S9CE MY >RE/ 9 #a#h#i#c1 ALWAYS ADDRESS+ ,JEWI% AUDI5CES4 ,ON ?IS OCCASION ,I WAS 9VIT$ TO LECTURE 9 ,5GLI% BE=E SEV]AL ,AM]ICAN ORGANIZATIONS4 ,:ILE 9 ! ,CITY ( ,BRO!RLY ,LOVE ,I /AY$ AT ! H\SE ( ,MISS ,P]LE ,MC,LEOD1 ! PRESID5T ( ! ,LADIES' ,LIB]AL ,LEAGUE4 ,I %\LD HAVE PREF]R$ ! W>M] HOSPITALITY ( MY OLD FRI5D ,NATA%A ,NOTK91 ) :OM ,I FELT AT HOME1 9 ! CONG5IAL ATMOSPH]E ( MY ,RUSSIAN COMRADES1 BUT IT HAD BE5 SUGGE/$ ?AT ! AP>TM5T ( ,MISS ,MC,LEOD WAS MORE ACCESSIBLE TO ! ,AM]ICANS :O W\LD WANT TO MEET ME4 

,! MEET+S W]E NOT BADLY ATT5D$1 BUT1 /ILL A*+ FROM ! DI/RESS+ SC5E ) ,$1 ,I DID NOT FEEL FULLY EQUAL TO ! SITUATION1 & MY LECTURES LACK$ 9SPIRATION4 ,YET MY VISIT WAS NOT ALTOGE!R USELESS4 ,I GA9$ A FOOT+ & MADE A NUMB] ( FRI5DS1 AMONG !M A MO/ 9T]E/+ WOMAN1 ,SUSAN ,PATT54 ,I KNEW ?R\< ,SA%A ?AT %E WAS ONE ( HIS CON/ANT ,AM]ICAN CORRESPOND5TS4 ,I LIK$ H] ON ACC\NT ( ?AT & = H] F9E SPIRIT4 

,9 ,WA%+TON ,I SPOKE BE=E A ,G]MAN FREE-?\<T SOCIETY4 ,AFT] ! LECTURE ,I MET A GR\P ( ,REITZEL ,FREUNDE1 AS ! READ]S ( ! ,>M] ,TEUFEL CALL$ !MSELVES4 ,MO/ ( !M LOOK$ MORE LIKE BUT*]S ?AN IDEALI/S4 ,ONE MAN1 :O BOA/$ ( BE+ AN EMPLOYEE ( ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES ,GOV]NM5T1 TALK$ MU* ( BEAUTY 9 >T & LETT]S --- NOT = ! IGNORANT MOB1 ( C\RSE1 BUT = ! *OICE FEW4 ,HE HAD NO PATI5CE ) AN>*ISM1 BECAUSE 0IT WANT$ TO MAKE ALL ALIKE40 0,H[ C\LD A HOD-C>RI]1 = 9/ANCE1 CLAIM ! SAME RI<TS AS ,I1 AN $UCAT$ MAN80 HE ASK$ ME4 ,HE DIDN'T ?9K ?AT ,I S]I\SLY BELIEV$ 9 SU* EQUALITY1 OR ?AT ANY O!R LEAD+ AN>*I/ DID4 ,HE WAS SURE WE W]E M]ELY US+ IT AS A BAIT4 ,HE DID NOT BLAME US AT ALL2 0! RABBLE %\LD BE MADE TO PAY40 

0,H[ LONG HAVE Y\ BE5 READ+ ! ,>M] ,TEUFEL80 ,I 9QUIR$4 0,S9CE ITS FIR/ ISSUE10 HE PR\DLY REPLI$4 0,& ?AT IS ALL Y\ GOT FROM IT8 ,WELL1 ALL ,I CAN SAY IS ?AT MY FRI5D ,ROB]T HAS BE5 CA/+ HIS PE>LS BE=E A SW9E40 ,! MAN JUMP$ TO HIS FEET & ANGRILY LEFT ! ROOM AMID ! BOI/]\S LAU<T] ( ! RE/ ( ! COMPANY4 

,ANO!R ,REITZEL 0FRI5D0 9TRODUC$ HIMSELF AS A BREW] FROM ,C9C9NATI4 ,HE MOV$ CLOS] TO ME & BEGAN TO TALK ( SEX4 ,HE HAD HE>D ?AT ,I WAS ! 0GREAT *AMPION ( FREE LOVE0 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES4 ,HE WAS DELI<T$ TO SEE ?AT ,I WAS NOT ONLY CLEV]1 AS ,I HAD JU/ PROV$1 BUT ALSO Y\NG & *>M+1 NOT AT ALL LIKE ! RIGID BLUE-/OCK+ HE HAD IMAG9$ ME TO BE4 ,HE1 TOO1 BELIEV$ 9 FREE LOVE1 ?\< HE DIDN'T ?9K MO/ M5 & WOM5 W]E RIPE = IT1 ESPECIALLY WOM5 :O ALWAYS TRY TO HOLD ON TO ! MAN4 ,BUT 0,EMMA ,GOLDMAN1 ?AT'S ANO!R MATT]40 ,HIS LEWD & SMIRK+ MANN] NAUSEAT$ ME4 ,I TURN$ MY BACK UPON HIM & W5T TO MY ROOM4 ,V]Y TIR$1 ,I FELL ASLEEP ALMO/ IMM$IATELY4 ,I WAS AWAK5$ BY A P]SI/5T TAP-TAP ON MY DOOR4 0,:O IS IT80 ,I CALL$4 0,A FRI5D10 CAME 9 REPLY2 0WON'T Y\ OP580 ,IT WAS ! VOICE ( ! BREW] FROM ,C9C9NATI4 ,JUMP+ \T ( B$1 ,I %\T$ AS L\D AS ,I C\LD3 0,IF Y\ DON'T LEAVE 9/ANTLY1 ,I %ALL WAKE ! :OLE H\SE60 0,PLEASE1 PLEASE60 HE PLEAD$ ?R\< ! DOOR1 0DON'T MAKE ANY SC5E4 ,I'M A M>RI$ MAN1 ) GR[N *ILDR54 ,I ?\<T Y\ BELIEV$ 9 FREE LOVE40 ,!N ,I HE>D HIM HURRY+ (F4 

,( :AT AVAIL >E L(TY IDEALS1 ,I WOND]$4 ,! GOV]NM5T CL]K :O D>ES PUT HIMSELF ABOVE ! HOD-C>RI]2 ! RESPECTABLE PILL> ( SOCIETY1 TO :OM FREE LOVE IS ONLY A MEANS = CL&E/9E AFFAIRS --- BO? READ]S ( ,REITZEL1 ! BRILLIANT REBEL & IDEALI/6 ,!IR HEADS & HE>TS HAVE REMA9$ AS /]ILE AS ! ,SAH>A4 ,! WORLD MU/ BE FULL ( SU* PEOPLE1 ! WORLD ,I HAVE SET \T TO AWAK54 ,A S5SE ( FUTILITY CAME OV] ME & ( DISMAL ISOLATION4 

,ON ! WAY FROM ,WA%+TON TO ,PITTSBUR< IT P\R$ 9CESSANTLY4 ,I WAS *ILL$ TO ! BONE & OPPRESS$ BY ! MEMORY ( ,HOME/EAD & ( ,SA%A4 ,ALWAYS ON MY VISITS TO ! ,/EEL ,CITY A HEAVY WEI<T W\LD SETTLE ON MY HE>T4 ,! SI<T ( ! BEL*+ FIRES FROM ! HUGE FURNACES SCOR*$ MY S\L4 

,! PRES5CE AT ! /ATION ( ,C>L ,NOLD & ,H5RY ,BAU] SOME:AT *E]$ MY DEJECTION4 ,MY TWO COMRADES HAD BE5 LIB]AT$ FROM ! ,WE/]N ,P5IT5TI>Y 9 ,MAY ( ?AT YE> 7#a#h#i#g74 ,I HAD NEV] MET ,BAU] BE=E1 BUT ,C>L BR\<T BACK ! DAYS ( \R FIR/ MEET+1 9 ,NOVEMB] #a#h#i#b4 ,! FRI5D%IP BEGUN !N HAD BECOME /R5G!N$ ?R\< \R CORRESPOND5CE :ILE ,C>L WAS 9 PRISON4 ,\R MEET+ N[ WAS TO CEM5T FUR!R ! BOND BETWE5 US4 ,IT WAS GOOD TO SEE ! DE>1 VIVACI\S FACE AGA94 ,PRISON HAD MADE HIM MORE ?\<TFUL1 YET IT HAD NOT DAMP5$ HIS JOY 9 LIFE4 ,BAU]1 L>GE & JOVIAL1 T[]$ OV] US LIKE A GIANT4 0,! ELEPHANT & HIS FAMILY10 HE REM>K$1 WALK+ BETWE5 US1 :ILE ,C>L & ,I VA9LY TRI$ TO KEEP PACE ) HIS HUGE /EPS4 

,ON MY =M] VISITS 9 ,PITTSBUR< ,I HAD ALWAYS /OPP$ ) MY GOOD FRI5D ,H>RY ,GORDON & HIS FAMILY4 ,H>RY WAS ONE ( \R BE/ WORK]S1 A FAI?FUL & 5?USIA/IC FRI5D4 ,MRS4 ,GORDON1 A SIMPLE & T5D]-HE>T$ WOMAN1 WAS V]Y MU* ATTA*$ TO ME4 ,%E ALWAYS W5T \T ( H] WAY TO MAKE MY /AY 9 H] HOME AS PLEASANT & COM=TABLE AS H] HUSB&'S SMALL WAGES W\LD P]MIT4 ,I LOV$ BE+ ) ! ,GORDONS1 & ,I ASK$ MY COMPANIONS TO TAKE ME TO !M4 ,!Y1 H[EV]1 W]E B5T ON CELEBRAT+ MY >RIVAL FIR/4 

,!RE W]E TO BE NO LECTURES 9 ,PITTSBUR<4 ,C>L & ,H5RY HAD BEGUN A NEW MOVE = ,SA%A'S RELEASE1 AN APPEAL TO ! ,BO>D ( ,P>DONS TO BE BACK$ EXCLUSIVELY BY LABOR ELEM5TS4 ,I HAD NO FAI? LEFT 9 SU* /EPS1 BUT ,I DID NOT WANT TO COMMUNICATE MY PESSIMISM TO MY FRI5DS4 ,BO? ( !M W]E 9 A JOVIAL MOOD4 ,!Y HAD >RANG$ A LITTLE D9N] 9 A NE>-BY RE/AURANT1 9 A ROOM ALL BY \RSELVES :]E WE W\LD BE UNDI/URB$4 ,WE DRANK \R FIR/ GLASS /&+1 9 SIL5CE4 ,IT WAS TO ,SA%A4 ,HIS SPIRIT HOV]$ OV] US & BR\<T US CLOS] TO EA* O!R 9 \R COMMON AIMS & WORK4 ,!N ,C>L & ,H5RY REC\NT$ TO ME !IR PRISON EXP]I5CE & ! YE>S !Y HAD SP5T UND] ! SAME RO( ) ,SA%A4 ,!Y HAD BR\<T \T A MESSAGE = ME :I* !Y FE>$ TO TRU/ TO ! MAILS3 ,SA%A WAS PLANN+ AN ESCAPE4 

,HIS S*EME WAS A MA/]LY ONE2 IT FAIRLY TOOK MY BREA? AWAY4 ,BUT EV5 IF HE %\LD SUCCE$ 9 GETT+ \T ( PRISON1 ,I REFLECT$1 :]E W\LD HE GO8 ,9 ,AM]ICA HE W\LD HAVE TO KEEP UND] COV] = ! RE/ ( HIS LIFE4 ,HE W\LD BE A HAUNT$ MAN1 TO BE CAPTUR$ 9 ! 5D4 ,IT W\LD BE DIFF]5T 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,SIMIL> ESCAPES HAD BE5 REPEAT$LY C>RI$ \T !RE4 ,BUT ,RUSSIA HAD A REVOLUTION>Y SPIRIT & ! POLITICAL WAS A P]SECUT$ UN=TUNATE 9 ! EYES ( ! WORK]S & ! PEASANT2 HE C\LD C\NT ON !IR SYMPA?Y & ASSI/ANCE4 ,9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES1 ON ! O!R H&1 N9E-T5?S ( ! WORK]S !MSELVES W\LD IMM$IATELY JO9 9 ! HUNT = ,SA%A4 ,NOLD & ,BAU] AGRE$ ) ME1 BUT !Y ASK$ ME NOT TO COMMUNICATE MY FE>S TO ,SA%A4 ,HE HAD REA*$ ! LIMIT ( 5DURANCE2 HIS EYES W]E FAIL+1 HIS HEAL? WAS BREAK+ D[N1 & HE HAD AGA9 BE5 BROOD+ ON SUICIDE4 ,! HOPE ( ESCAPE & ! ELABORATION ( HIS PLAN 5]GIZ$ HIS FI<T+ SPIRIT4 ,WE MU/ NOT DISC\RAGE HIM1 BUT P]HAPS WE W\LD 9DUCE HIM TO WAIT UNTIL EV]Y LEGAL MEANS = HIS RELEASE HAD BE5 TRI$4 

,SO DEEPLY 5GROSS$ HAD WE BECOME 9 \R TALK ?AT WE HAD LO/ ALL S5SE ( TIME4 ,9 SURPRISE WE DISCOV]$ ?AT IT WAS LONG AFT] MIDNI<T4 ,MY COMPANIONS ?\<T IT TOO LATE TO GO TO ! ,GORDONS' & SUGGE/$ TAK+ ME TO A LITTLE HOTEL KEPT BY A READ] ( ! ,>M] ,TEUFEL4 ,ON ! WAY ,I RELAT$ TO !M MY EXP]I5CE ) ! ,WA%+TON ,REITZEL ,FREUNDE1 BUT ,BAU] ASSUR$ ME ?AT ! ,PITTSBUR< HOTEL MAN WAS ( A DIFF]5T TYPE4 ,HE REALLY TURN$ \T TO BE V]Y FRI5DLY4 0,9DE$1 !RE IS SURELY ROOM = ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 9 MY PLACE10 HE SAID G5IALLY4 ,WE W]E AB\T TO M\NT ! /AIRS :5 ! HY/]ICAL VOICE ( A WOMAN BUR/ UPON \R E>S4 0,A ROOM = ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN60 %E SCREAM$4 0,?IS IS A RESPECTABLE FAMILY HOTEL1 NO PLACE = ?AT %AMELESS CREATURE1 ! FREE LOV] ( A CONVICT60 0,LET'S GET \T ( ?IS10 ,I URG$ MY FRI5DS4 ,BE=E WE HAD A *ANCE TO MOVE1 ! H5-PECK$ HUSB& BANG$ HIS FI/ ON ! C\NT]1 DEM&+ TO KN[ :O WAS BOSS4 0,TELL ME ?AT1 Y\ ,XANTIPPE60 HE YELL$4 0,AM ,I1 OR AM ,I NOT1 MA/] 9 ?IS H\SE80 ,) A DEVA/AT+ LOOK 9 MY DIRECTION ! WOMAN SLUNK \T ( ! ROOM4 ,! MA/] BECAME CALM & K9DLY AGA94 ,HE C\LDN'T LET ME GO \T 9 ! AWFUL WEA!R1 HE PROTE/$2 ,I MU/ /AY AT LEA/ = ! NI<T4 ,BUT ,I HAD HAD 5\<1 & WE LEFT4 

0,:Y NOT COME TO MY D580 ,C>L SUGGE/$4 ,TOGE!R ) HIS WIFE & LITTLE BOY HE OCCUPI$ ONE ROOM & A KIT*51 & !Y W\LD BE GLAD TO %>E !M ) ME4 ,DE>1 G5]\S ,C>L DID NOT KN[ ! DREAD ,I HAD ( GO+ 9TO PEOPLE'S H\SES UN9VIT$4 ,BUT ,I WAS V]Y TIR$ & WE>Y & ,I DID NOT WI% TO HURT ,C>L4 0,I WILL GO ANY:]E Y\ TAKE ME1 ,C>OLUS1 EV5 TO HELL10 ,I SAID2 0ONLY LET'S GET !RE QUICKLY40 

,AT LA/ WE REA*$ ,NOLD'S PLACE1 9 ,ALLE<5Y1 ,BAU] HAV+ GONE HOME4 ,! DOOR OP5$ ON A DIMLY LIT ROOM4 ,A BUXOM Y\NG WOMAN1 SOME:AT DI%EVEL$1 MET US1 & ,C>L 9TRODUC$ H] TO ME4 ,I HAD ! IMPRESSION ?AT %E RES5T$ MY 9TRUSION4 ,! PLACE WAS SMALL1 CONTA9+ ONLY ONE B$1 9 :I* ! *ILD LAY SLEEP+4 ,I LOOK$ QUE/ION+LY AT ,C>L4 0,IT'S ALL RI<T1 ,EMMA10 HE SAID2 0,NELLIE & ,I WILL SLEEP ON ! FLOOR1 & Y\ WILL %>E ! B$ ) ! KID40 ,I HESITAT$1 9CL9$ TO LEAVE1 BUT ! RA9 WAS COM+ D[N 9 TORR5TS4 ,I TURN$ TO ! WOMAN TO APOLOGIZE = ! DISCOM=T ,I WAS CAUS+1 BUT %E W\LD NOT LI/52 9 SIL5CE %E WALK$ 9TO ! KIT*51 CLOS+ ! DOOR4 ,HALF DRESS$1 ,I LAY D[N ON ! B$ ALONGSIDE ( ! LITTLE BOY & IMM$IATELY FELL ASLEEP4 ,I WAS AWAK5$ BY SOMEONE %\T+3 0,HE'S KILL+ ME6 ,HELP6 ,POLICE60 ,! ROOM WAS PIT*-D>K4 ,I JUMP$ UP 9 T]ROR1 NOT REALIZ+ AT FIR/ :AT WAS HAPP5+4 ,GROP+1 ,I F\ND A TABLE & MAT*ES4 ,:5 ,I HAD /RUCK A LI<T1 ,I SAW TWO BODIES ROLL+ ON ! FLOOR1 FI<T+4 ,! WOMAN HELD ,C>L PRESS$ D[N ) H] KNEES & WAS TRY+ TO GET AT HIS ?ROAT1 AT ! SAME TIME YELL+ = ! POLICE4 ,C>L WAS BEAT+ BACK H] H&S & MAK+ FRANTIC EF=TS TO EXTRICATE HIMSELF4 ,I HAD NEV] SE5 A MORE DISGU/+ SI<T4 ,I PULL$ ! WOMAN (F ,C>L1 SNAT*$ UP MY ?+S1 & WAS \T ON ! /REET BE=E EI!R ( !M HAD COME TO HIS S5SES4 ,MY M9D 9 A TURMOIL1 ,I RAN 9 ! BEAT+ RA9 TO ,H5RY'S PLACE1 R\S+ HIM \T ( B$ & TELL+ HIM :AT HAD HAPP5$4 ,HE ACCOMPANI$ ME IMM$IATELY ON MY SE>* = A HOTEL4 ,C>L HAD DA%$ \T AFT] ME & ! ?REE ( US WALK$ 9 ! D[NP\R TO ,PITTSBUR<1 ! HOTELS 9 ,ALLE<5Y BE+ CLOS$ AT ?AT LATE H\R4 ,WE CANVAS$ A NUMB] ( HO/ELRIES1 BUT W]E REFUS$ EV]Y:]E1 NO D\BT BECAUSE ,I LOOK$ SO WET & DISREPUTABLE1 )\T ANY SUITCASE1 = ?AT HAD BE5 LEFT AT ,C>L'S4 ,IT WAS NE>LY MORN+ :5 AT LA/ WE F\ND A LITTLE HOTEL ?AT W\LD RECEIVE ME4 

,) %AK+ KNEES & *ATT]+ TEE? ,I CRAWL$ 9TO B$1 DRAW+ ! BLANKETS OV] MY FACE TO %UT \T ! HIDE\SNESS ( LIFE4 ,BUT 9 VA9 ,I S\<T =GETFULNESS 9 SLEEP4 ,D>K %AD[S SEEM$ TO 5VELOP ME ON EV]Y SIDE4 ,! S9I/] WALLS ( ! P5IT5TI>Y ?AT HELD ,SA%A1 HIS YE>S ( SUFF]+1 MY [N PRISON DAYS1 ! <A/LY EXP]I5CE ( AN H\R AGO1 ALL BL5D$ 9TO A GR9N+1 FANTA/IC MOCK]Y ( D>KNESS & DESPAIR4 ,YET SOME:]E 9 ! DI/ANCE !RE QUIV]$ A FA9T %IMM] ( LI<T4 ,I KNEW IT2 ,I RECOGNIZ$ IT2 IT EMANAT$ FROM ,$4 ,! ?\<T ( \R LOVE1 \R HOME1 PI]C$ ! GLOOM = AN 9/ANT4 ,I /RET*$ \T TREMBL+ H&S1 BUT !Y 5C\NT]$ ONLY EMPTY SPACE1 EMPTY & COLD AS MY [N HE>T4 

,?REE DAYS LAT] ,I >RIV$ 9 ,DETROIT4 ,! LURE ( ?AT CITY HAD ALWAYS BE5 TO ME ,ROB]T ,REITZEL4 ,HIS WIT & PE]LESS P5 HAD FASC9AT$ ME FROM ! TIME ,I BEGAN TO READ HIS PAP]4 ,HIS C\RAGE\S DEF5SE ( ! ,*ICAGO M>TYRS & HIS BOLD EF=T TO SAVE !IR LIVES HAD IMPRESS$ HIM ON MY M9D AS AN UNFL9*+ REBEL & FI<T]4 ,! VISION ,I HAD ( HIM HAD BECOME /R5G!N$ BY HIS REVOLUTION>Y >DOR1 HAD CALUMNIAT$ HIM & DISP>AG$ HIS ACT1 ,REITZEL HAD GLORI$ 9 ! MAN & HIS ,ATT5TAT4 ,HIS >TICLE 0,IM ,HO*SUMM] FIEL E9 ,S*USS0 WAS AN EXALT$ & MOV+ TRIBUTE TO \R BRAVE BOY4 ,IT BR\<T ,REITZEL V]Y CLOSE TO ME & MADE ME LONG TO KN[ HIM P]SONALLY4 

,ALMO/ FIVE YE>S HAD PASS$ S9CE ,I HAD FIR/ MET ! $ITOR ( ! ,>M] ,TEUFEL1 :ILE HE WAS VISIT+ ,NEW ,YORK4 ,! RECOLLECTION ( ?AT EXP]I5CE N[ /OOD \T VIVIDLY BE=E ME4 ,IT WAS LATE ONE EV5+1 :ILE /ILL AT MY SEW+-MA*9E1 ?AT ,I HE>D VIOL5T KNOCK+ ON ! %UTT]S ( MY W9D[4 0,LET 9 ! ]RANT KNI<TS60 BOOM$ ! BASS ( ,JU/US4 ,BESIDE HIM ,I SAW A MAN ALMO/ AS TALL & BROAD-%\LD]$ AS HIMSELF1 :OM ,I AT ONCE RECOGNIZ$ AS ,ROB]T ,REITZEL4 ,BE=E ,I C\LD GREET HIM1 HE BEGAN TO UPBRAID ME PLAYFULLY4 0,A F9E AN>*I/ Y\ >E60 HE ?UND]$4 0,Y\ PREA* ! NE$ ( LEISURE1 & WORK LONG] ?AN A GALLEY-SLAVE4 ,WE HAVE COME TO BREAK Y\R *A9S1 & WE >E GO+ TO TAKE Y\ ) US IF WE HAVE TO USE =CE4 ,M>*6 ,LITTLE GIRL1 GET READY6 ,COME ON \T H]E1 S9CE Y\ DON'T SEEM TOO ANXI\S TO 9VITE US 9TO Y\R VIRG9 *AMB]40 ,MY UNEXPECT$ VISITORS W]E /&+ 9 FULL VIEW ( ! /REET-LAMP4 ,REITZEL WORE NO HAT4 ,A %OCK ( BLOND HAIR1 ALREADY CONSID]ABLY GRAY$1 FELL 9 CONFUSION OV] HIS HI< =EHEAD4 ,HE LOOK$ BIG & /RONG1 MORE Y\?FUL & VITAL ?AN ,JU/US4 ,HE WAS HOLD+ ON TO ! W9D[SILL ) BO? H&S1 HIS EYES 9QUISITIVELY SCRUT9IZ+ MY FACE4 0,:AT'S ! V]DICT80 HE EXCLAIM$2 0AM ,I ACCEPTABLE80 0,AM ,I80 ,I QUE/ION$ 9 RETURN4 0,Y\ HAVE PASS$ LONG AGO10 HE REPLI$1 0& ,I HAVE COME TO GIVE Y\ ! PRIZE1 TO (F] MYSELF AS Y\R KNI<T40 

,SOON ,I WAS WALK+ BETWE5 ! TWO M5 9 ! DIRECTION ( ,JU/US'S PLACE4 ,!RE WE W]E MET BY HIL>I\S HURRAHS & 0,HO* SOLL ] LEB510 & CALLS = MORE W9E4 ,JU/US1 ) HIS USUAL GRACI\SNESS1 ROLL$ UP HIS SLEEVES1 GOT BEH9D ! C\NT]1 & 9SI/$ ON PLAY+ HO/4 ,ROB]T GALLANTLY (F]$ HIS >M TO LEAD ME TO ! HEAD ( ! TABLE4 ,AS WE WALK$ UP ! AISLE ,JU/US 9TON$ ! W$D+-M>* FROM ,LOH5GR94 ,! /RA9S W]E TAK5 UP BY ! :OLE GR\P ( M51 :O HAD SPL5DID VOICES4 

,ROB]T WAS ! SPIRIT ( ! GA!R+4 ,HIS HUMOR WAS MORE SP>KL+ ?AN ! W9E FREELY P>TAK5 ( BY ALL PRES5T4 ,! AM\NT HE CONSUM$ TRANSC5D$ EV5 ,MO/'S ABILITY 9 ?AT REG>D2 & ! MORE HE IMBIB$1 ! MORE ELOQU5T HE GREW4 ,HIS /ORIES1 V]Y COLORFUL & AMUS+1 CAME GU%+ LIKE WAT] FROM A BROOK4 ,HE WAS 9EXHAU/IBLE4 ,LONG AFT] MO/ ( ! O!RS HAD CAV$ 91 MY KNI<T KEPT ON S++ & TALK+ ( LIFE & LOVE4 

,IT WAS ALMO/ DAYBREAK :51 ACCOMPANI$ BY ,ROB]T1 ,I /EPP$ 9TO ! /REET1 CL++ TO HIS >M4 ,A GREAT LONG+ POSSESS$ ME TO EMBRACE ! FASC9AT+ MAN AT MY SIDE1 SO F9E & BEAUTIFUL 9 BODY & M9D4 ,I FELT SURE HE WAS ALSO /RONGLY ATTRACT$ TO ME2 HE HAD %[N IT ALL ?R\< ! EV5+ 9 HIS EV]Y GLANCE & T\*4 ,AS WE WALK$ ALONG ,I C\LD FEEL HIS AGITATION ( PASSIONATE DESIRE4 ,:]E C\LD WE GO8 ,! ?\<T FLITT$ ?R\< MY M9D1 AS 9 9CREAS+ EXCITEM5T ,I WALK$ CLOSE TO HIM1 WAIT+ & MADLY HOP+ ?AT HE W\LD MAKE SOME SUGGE/ION4 

0,& ,SA%A80 HE SUDD5LY ASK$4 0,DO Y\ HE> (T5 FROM \R WOND]FUL BOY80 ,! SPELL WAS BROK54 ,I FELT ?RU/ BACK 9TO ! WORLD ( MIS]Y & /RIFE4 ,DUR+ ! RE/ ( ! WALK WE TALK$ ( ,SA%A & HIS ACT1 ( ,MO/'S ATTITUDE & ITS DIRE EFFECTS4 ,IT WAS ANO!R ,ROB]T N[2 IT WAS ! REBEL & FI<T] AGA9/ 9JU/ICE4 

,AT MY DOOR HE TOOK ME 9 HIS >MS1 ) HOT BREA? :ISP]+3 0,I WANT Y\6 ,LET'S =GET ! UGL9ESS ( LIFE40 ,G5TLY ,I FRE$ MYSELF FROM HIS EMBRACE4 0,TOO LATE1 MY DE>10 ,I REPLI$2 0! MY/]I\S VOICES ( ! NI<T >E SIL5T1 ! DISSONANCES ( ! DAY HAVE BEGUN40 ,HE UND]/OOD4 ,GAZ+ AFFECTIONATELY 9TO MY EYES1 HE SAID3 0,?IS IS ONLY ! BEG9N+ ( \R FRI5D%IP1 MY BRAVE ,EMMA4 ,WE WILL MEET AGA9 SOON 9 ,DETROIT40 ,I ?REW MY W9D[ WIDE OP5 & WAT*$ ! RHY?MIC SW+ ( HIS WELL-KNIT BODY UNTIL HE DISAPPE>$ R\ND ! CORN]4 ,!N ,I W5T BACK TO MY LIFE & TO MY MA*9E4 

,A YE> LAT] CAME ! NEWS ( ,REITZEL'S ILLNESS4 ,HE WAS SUFF]+ FROM SP9AL TUB]CULOSIS1 :I* RESULT$ 9 ! P>ALYZES ( HIS L[] EXTREMITIES4 ,HE WAS B$RIDD51 LIKE ,HE9E1 :OM HE SO GREATLY ADMIR$ & :OM 9 A C]TA9 MEASURE HE RESEMBL$ 9 SPIRIT & FEEL+4 ,BUT EV5 9 HIS MATTRESS-GRAVE ,ROB]T C\LD NOT BE DAUNT$4 ,EV]Y L9E HE WROTE WAS A CL>ION CALL TO FRE$OM & BATTLE4 ,FROM HIS SICK-B$ HE HAD PREVAIL$ ON ! ,C5TRAL ,LABOR ,UNION ( HIS CITY TO 9VITE ME AS SPEAK] TO ?AT YE>'S ELEV5? ( ,NOVEMB] COMMEMORATION4 0,COME A FEW DAYS E>LI]10 HE HAD WRITT5 ME1 0SO ?AT WE CAN RESUME \R FRI5D%IP ( ! DAYS :5 ,I WAS /ILL Y\NG40 

,I >RIV$ 9 ,DETROIT LATE 9 ! AFT]NOON ON ! DAY ( ! S*$UL$ MEET+ & WAS MET BY ,M>T9 ,DRES*]1 :OSE /IRR+ POEMS HAD (T5 APPE>$ 9 ! ,>M] ,TEUFEL4 ,TO MY AMUSEM5T & ! A/ONI%M5T ( ! CR[D AT ! /ATION1 ,DRES*]1 TALL & AWKW>D1 KNEEL$ BE=E ME1 HOLD+ \T A BUN* ( R$ ROSES1 & DELIV]+ HIMSELF ( ! FOLL[+3 0,FROM Y\R KNI<T1 MY ,QUE51 ) HIS UNDY+ LOVE40 0,& :O MAY BE ! KNI<T80 ,I QU]I$4 0,ROB]T1 ( C\RSE6 ,:O ELSE W\LD D>E S5D HIS LOVE TO ! ,QUE5 ( ! ,AN>*I/S80 ,! CR[D LAU<$1 BUT ! MAN ON HIS KNEES BE=E ME WAS NOT DI/URB$4 ,TO SAVE HIM FROM CAT*+ A BAD COLD 7!RE WAS SN[ ON ! GR\ND7 ,I HELD \T MY H&1 SAY+3 0,N[1 VASSAL1 TAKE ME TO MY CA/LE40 ,DRES*] GOT UP1 B[$ L[1 GAVE ME HIS >M1 & SOLEMNLY L$ ME TO A CAB4 0,TO ! ,R&OLPH ,HOTEL10 HE COMM&$4 ,ON \R >RIVAL !RE1 WE F\ND HALF A SCORE ( ,ROB]T'S FRI5DS AWAIT+ US4 ,! [N] HIMSELF WAS ONE ( ! ,>M] ,TEUFEL ADMIR]S4 0,MY BE/ ROOM & W9ES >E AT Y\R DISPOSAL10 HE ANN\NC$4 ,I KNEW IT WAS ,ROB]T'S ?\<TFULNESS & FRI5D%IP ?AT HAD PAV$ ! WAY & SECUR$ = ME ! AFFECTION & HOSPITALITY ( HIS CIRCLE4 

,TURN] ,HALL WAS FILL$ TO ! LIMIT1 ! AUDI5CE 9 TUNE ) ! SPIRIT ( ! EV5+4 ,! EV5T WAS MADE MORE FE/IVE BY ! S++ ( A *ORUS ( *ILDR5 & ! MA/]LY READ+ ( A F9E REVOLUTION>Y POEM BY ,M>T9 ,DRES*]4 ,I WAS S*$UL$ TO SPEAK 9 ,G]MAN4 ,! IMPRESSION ON ME ( ! ,*ICAGO TRAG$Y HAD NOT PAL$ ) ! PASS+ YE>S4 ,?AT NI<T IT SEEM$ MORE POIGNANT1 P]HAPS BECAUSE ( ! NE>NESS ( ,ROB]T ,REITZEL1 :O HAD KN[N1 LOV$1 & F\<T = \R ,*ICAGO M>TYRS & :O WAS HIMSELF N[ SL[LY DY+4 ,! MEMORY ( #ahhg TOOK LIV+ =M1 P]SONIFY+ !IR ,CALV>Y & 9SPIR+ ME TO HEI<TS ( EXALTATION1 ( HOPE & LIFE SPR++ FROM H]OIC DEA?4 

,AT ! CONCLUSION ( ! MEET+ ,I WAS CALL$ BACK TO ! PLAT=M TO RECEIVE FROM ! H&S ( A GOLD5-HAIR$ MAID5 ( FIVE A HUGE B\QUET ( R$ C>NATIONS1 TOO L>GE = H] WEE BODY4 ,I PRESS$ ! *ILD TO MY HE>T & C>RI$ H] (F1 B\QUET & ALL4 

,LAT] 9 ! EV5+ ,I MET ,JOE ,LABADIE1 A PROM95T 9DIVIDUALI/ AN>*I/ ( PICTURESQUE APPE>ANCE1 :O 9TRODUC$ TO ME ! ,REV]5D ,DR4 ,H4 ,S4 ,MC,C[AN4 ,BO? EXPRESS$ REGRET ?AT ,I HAD NOT SPOK5 9 ,5GLI%4 0,I CAME ESPECIALLY TO HE> Y\10 ,DR4 ,MC,C[AN 9=M$ ME1 :]EUPON ,JOE1 AS EV]YONE AFFECTIONATELY CALL$ ,LABADIE1 REM>K$3 0,WELL1 :Y DON'T Y\ (F] ,MISS ,GOLDMAN Y\R PULPIT8 ,!N Y\ C\LD HE> \R ',R$ ,EMMA' 9 ,5GLI%40 0,?AT'S AN IDEA60 ! M9I/] REPLI$2 0BUT ,MISS ,GOLDMAN IS OPPOS$ TO *UR*ES2 W\LD Y\ SPEAK 9 ONE80 0,9 HELL IF NE$ BE10 ,I SAID1 0PROVID$ ! ,DEVIL WON'T PULL AT MY SKIRTS40 0,ALL RI<T10 HE EXCLAIM$1 0Y\ %ALL SPEAK 9 MY *UR*1 & NO ONE %ALL PULL AT Y\R SKIRTS OR CURTAIL A WORD ( :AT Y\ WANT TO SAY40 ,WE AGRE$ ?AT MY LECTURE %\LD BE ON AN>*ISM1 IT BE+ A SUBJECT MO/ PEOPLE KNEW ALMO/ NO?+ AB\T4 

,) ! FL[]S MY 0KNI<T0 HAD S5T ME CAME ALSO A NOTE ASK+ ME TO VISIT HIM ANY TIME AFT] ! MEET+1 S9CE HE W\LD BE AWAKE4 ,IT SEEM$ /RANGE = A SICK P]SON TO KEEP SU* LATE H\RS1 BUT ,DRES*] ASSUR$ ME ?AT ,ROB]T FELT BE/ AFT] SUND[N4 ,HIS H\SE WAS ! LA/ ON ! /REET1 OV]LOOK+ A L>GE OP5 SPACE4 0,LUG9SL&10 ,ROB]T HAD NAM$ IT2 IT WAS ALL HIS EYE HAD LOOK$ UPON = ! PA/ ?REE & A HALF YE>S4 ,HIS 9N] VISION1 ?\<1 KE5 & P5ETRAT+1 W&]$ TO DI/ANT L&S & CLIMES1 BR++ TO HIM ALL ! CULTURAL WEAL? !Y CONTA9$4 ,! BRI<T LI<T /REAM+ ?R\< HIS BAY W9D[ C\LD BE SE5 FROM AF>2 IT REM9D$ ME ( A LI<?\SE1 ) ,ROB]T ,REITZEL ITS KEEP]4 ,SONG & LAU<T] S\ND$ FROM ! H\SE4 ,ON 5T]+ ,REITZEL'S ROOM ,I F\ND IT FILL$ ) PEOPLE2 ! SMOKE WAS SO ?ICK ?AT IT OBSCUR$ ,ROB]T FROM VIEW & BLURR$ ! FACES ( ?OSE PRES5T4 ,HIS VOICE CALL$ \T JOVIALLY3 0,WELCOME TO \R SANCTUM6 ,WELCOME TO ! D5 ( Y\R ADOR+ KNI<T60 ,ROB]T1 9 A :ITE %IRT OP5 WIDE AT ! NECK1 SAT 9 B$ PROPP$ UP AGA9/ A M\NTA9 ( PILL[S4 ,EXCEPT = ! A%Y COLOR ( HIS FACE1 ! 9CREAS$ GRAYNESS ( HIS HAIR1 & HIS ?91 TRANSP>5T H&S1 !RE WAS NO 9DICATION ( HIS ILLNESS4 ,HIS EYES ALONE SPOKE ( ! M>TYRDOM HE WAS SUFF]+4 ,!IR C>E-FREE LI<T WAS GONE4 ,) A*+ HE>T ,I PUT MY >MS >\ND HIM1 PRESS+ HIS BEAUTIFUL HEAD TO ME4 0,SO MO!RLY80 HE OBJECT$4 0,>5'T Y\ GO+ TO KISS Y\R KNI<T80 0,( C\RSE10 ,I /AMM]$4 

,I HAD ALMO/ =GOTT5 ! O!RS 9 ! ROOM1 TO :OM ,ROB]T N[ BEGAN 9TRODUC+ ME AS ! 0,VE/AL ( ! ,SOCIAL ,REVOLUTION40 0,LOOK AT H]60 HE CRI$1 0LOOK AT H]2 DOES %E RESEMBLE ! MON/] PICTUR$ BY ! PRESS1 ! FURY ( A HETA]A8 ,BEHOLD H] BLACK DRESS & :ITE COLL>1 PRIM & PROP]1 ALMO/ LIKE A NUN40 ,HE WAS MAK+ ME EMB>RASS$ & SELF-CONSCI\S4 0,Y\ >E PRAIS+ ME AS IF ,I W]E A HORSE Y\ WANT$ TO SELL10 ,I F9ALLY OBJECT$4 ,IT DID NOT DISMAY HIM 9 ! LEA/4 0,DIDN'T ,I SAY Y\ >E PRIM & PROP]80 HE DECL>$ TRIUMPHANTLY2 0Y\ DON'T LIVE UP TO Y\R REPUTATION4 ,WE9 H]10 HE CALL$2 0LET'S DR9K TO \R ,VE/AL60 ,! M5 SURR\ND$ ,ROB]T'S B$1 GLASSES 9 H&4 ,HE EMPTI$ HIS TO ! DREGS & !N FLUNG IT AGA9/ ! WALL4 0,EMMA IS N[ ONE ( US4 ,\R PACT IS SEAL$2 WE WILL BE TRUE TO H] TO \R LA/ BREA?60 

,AN ACC\NT ( ! MEET+ & ( MY SPEE* HAD PREC$$ ME TO ,REITZEL1 ! MANAG] ( HIS PAP] HAV+ BR\<T BACK A GL[+ REPORT4 ,:5 ,I M5TION$ ,MC,C[AN'S 9VITATION1 ,ROB]T WAS DELI<T$4 ,HE KNEW ! ,REV]5D ,DOCTOR1 :OM HE CONSID]$ A R>E EXCEPTION 9 ! 0\TFIT ( S\L-SAV]S40 ,I TOLD ,ROB]T AB\T MY FRI5D 9 ,BLACKWELL'S ,ISL&1 ! Y\NG PRIE/1 RELAT+ H[ F9E & UND]/&+ HE WAS4 0,A PITY Y\ MET HIM 9 PRISON10 ,ROB]T TEAS$ ME1 0ELSE Y\ MI<T HAVE F\ND 9 HIM AN >D5T LOV]40 ,I WAS SURE ,I C\LD NOT LOVE A PRIE/4 0,?AT'S NONS5SE1 MY DE> --- LOVE HAD NO CONC]N ) IDEAS10 HE REPLI$2 0,I HAVE LOV$ GIRLS 9 EV]Y T[N & VILLAGE & !Y W]E NOT REMOTELY SO 9T]E/+ AS Y\R PRIE/ SEEMS TO BE4 ,LOVE HAS NO?+ TO DO ) ANY ISM1 & Y\'LL F9D IT \T :5 Y\ GR[ OLD]40 ,9 VA9 ,I 9SI/$ ?AT ,I KNEW ALL AB\T IT4 ,I WAS NO *ILD1 BE+ NE>LY TW5TY-N9E4 ,I WAS CONFID5T ,I %\LD NEV] FALL 9 LOVE ) ANYONE :O DID NOT %>E MY IDEAS4 

,! NEXT MORN+ ,I WAS AWAK5$ 9 MY HOTEL BY ! ANN\NCEM5T ?AT A DOZ5 REPORT]S W]E WAIT+ TO 9T]VIEW ME4 ,!Y W]E EAG] = A /ORY ON MY PROPOS$ SPEE* 9 ,DR4 ,MC,C[AN'S *UR*4 ,!Y %[$ ME ! MORN+ PAP]S ) ! GL>+ HEADL9ES3 0,E,M,M,A ,%,[,S ,M,O,!,R ,9,/,9,C,T --- ,F,R,E,E ,L,O,V,] ,9 ,A ,D,E,T,R,O,I,T ,P,U,L,P,I,T --- ,R,$ ,E,M,M,A ,C,A,P,T,U,R,E,S ,H,E,>,T ,( ,MC,C,[,A,N --- ,C,O,N,G,R,E,G,A,T,I,O,N,A,L ,*,U,R,* ,T,O ,B,E ,T,U,R,N,$ ,9,T,O ,H,O,T,B,$ ,( ,A,N,>,*,Y ,& ,F,R,E,E ,L,O,V,E40 

,= SEV]AL SUCCE$+ DAYS ! FRONT PAGE ( EV]Y PAP] 9 ,DETROIT WAS FILL$ ) ! IMP5D+ DESECRATION ( ! *UR* & ! PORT5D+ RU9 ( ! CONGREGATION BY 0,R$ ,EMMA40 ,REPORTS AB\T MEMB]S' ?REAT5+ TO LEAVE & COMMITTEES' BESIEG+ POOR ,DR4 ,MC,C[AN FOLL[$ ONE ANO!R4 0,IT WILL MEAN HIS NECK10 ,I SAID TO ,REITZEL :5 ,I SAW HIM ! DAY BE=E ! MEET+1 0& ,I'D HATE TO BE ! CAUSE ( IT40 ,BUT ,ROB]T HELD ?AT ! MAN KNEW :AT HE WAS DO+2 IT WAS ONLY RI<T = HIM TO /ICK TO HIS GUNS1 IF ONLY TO TE/ HIS 9DEP5D5CE 9 ! *UR*4 0,AT ANY RATE1 ,I MU/ (F] TO )DRAW10 ,I SUGGE/$1 0TO GIVE ,MC,C[AN A *ANCE TO RECALL HIS 9VITATION IF HE FEELS LIKE IT40 ,A FRI5D WAS DISPAT*$ TO ! M9I/]1 BUT HE S5T WORD ?AT HE W\LD GO ?R\< ) HIS PLAN NO MATT] :AT HAPP5$4 0,A *UR* ?AT REFUSES ! RI<T ( EXPRESSION TO ! MO/ UNPOPUL> P]SON OR CRE$ IS NO PLACE = ME10 HE SAID4 0,Y\ MU/ NOT M9D ! CONSEQU5CES TO ME40 

,9 ! ,TAB]NACLE ! ,REV]5D ,DR4 ,MC,C[AN PRESID$4 ,9 A %ORT SPEE*1 :I* HE READ FROM A PREP>$ TEXT1 HE SET =? HIS [N POSITION4 ,HE WAS NOT AN AN>*I/1 HE DECL>$2 HE HAD NEV] GIV5 MU* ?\<T TO IT & HE REALLY KNEW V]Y LITTLE AB\T IT4 ,IT WAS = ?AT REASON ?AT HE HAD VISIT$ ,TURN] ,HALL ON ! NI<T ( ,NOVEMB] #a#a4 ,UN=TUNATELY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN HAD SPOK5 9 ,G]MAN1 & :5 IT WAS SUGGE/$ ?AT HE MI<T HE> H] 9 ,5GLI% 9 HIS [N PULPIT1 HE HAD ACCEPT$ ! IDEA AT ONCE4 ,HE FELT ?AT ! MEMB]S ( HIS *UR* W\LD BE GLAD TO HE> ! WOMAN :O HAD = YE>S BE5 P]SECUT$ AS A 0SOCIAL M5ACE02 AS GOOD ,*RI/IANS1 HE ?\<T1 !Y W\LD BE *>ITABLE TO H]4 ,HE !N TURN$ OV] ! PULPIT TO ME4 

,I HAD DECID$ TO /ICK /RICTLY TO ! ECONOMIC SIDE ( AN>*ISM & TO AVOID AS F> AS POSSIBLE MATT]S ( RELIGION & SEXUAL PROBLEMS4 ,I FELT ,I [$ IT TO ! MAN :O WAS MAK+ SU* A C\RAGE\S /&4 ,AT LEA/ HIS CONGREGATION %\LD HAVE NO CAUSE TO SAY ?AT ,I HAD US$ ! ,TAB]NACLE TO ATTACK !IR ,GOD OR TO UND]M9E ! SACR$ 9/ITUTION ( M>RIAGE4 ,I SUCCE$$ BETT] ?AN ,I HAD EXPECT$4 ,MY LECTURE1 LA/+ AN H\R1 WAS LI/5$ TO )\T ANY 9T]RUPTION & WAS MU* APPLAUD$ AT ! 5D4 0,WE WON60 ,DR4 ,MC,C[AN :ISP]$ TO ME :5 ,I SAT D[N4 

,HE REJOIC$ TOO SOON4 ,! APPLAUSE HAD B>ELY DI$ AWAY :5 AN ELD]LY WOMAN ROSE BELLIG]5TLY4 0,MR4 ,*AIRMAN10 %E DEM&$1 0DOES ,MISS ,GOLDMAN BELIEVE 9 ,GOD OR DOES %E NOT80 ,%E WAS FOLL[$ BY ANO!R4 0,DOES ! SPEAK] FAVOR KILL+ (F ALL RUL]S80 ,!N A SMALL1 EMACIAT$ MAN JUMP$ TO HIS FEET & 9 A ?9 VOICE CRI$3 0,MISS ,GOLDMAN6 ,Y\'RE A BELIEV] 9 FREE LOVE1 >5'T Y\8 ,N[1 W\LDN'T Y\R SY/EM RESULT 9 H\SES ( PRO/ITUTION AT EV]Y LAMP-PO/80 

0,I %ALL HAVE TO ANSW] !SE PEOPLE /RAI<T FROM ! %\LD]10 ,I REM>K$ TO ! M9I/]1 0,SO BE IT10 HE REPLI$4 0,LADIES & G5TLEM510 ,I BEGAN1 0,I CAME H]E TO AVOID AS MU* AS POSSIBLE TREAD+ ON Y\R CORNS4 ,I HAD 9T5D$ TO DEAL ONLY ) ! BASIC ISSUE ( ECONOMICS ?AT DICTATES \R LIVES FROM ! CRADLE TO ! GRAVE1 REG>DLESS ( \R RELIGION OR MORAL BELIEFS4 ,I SEE N[ ?AT IT WAS A MI/AKE4 ,IF ONE 5T]S A BATTLE1 HE CANNOT BE SQUEAMI% AB\T A FEW CORNS4 ,H]E1 !N1 >E MY ANSW]S3 ,I DO NOT BELIEVE 9 ,GOD1 BECAUSE ,I BELIEVE 9 MAN4 ,:ATEV] HIS MI/AKES1 MAN HAS = ?\S&S ( YE>S PA/ BE5 WORK+ TO UNDO ! BOT*$ JOB Y\R ,GOD HAS MADE40 ,! H\SE W5T FRANTIC4 0,BLASPHEMY6 ,H]ETIC6 ,S9N]60 ! WOM5 SCREAM$4 0,/OP H]6 ,?R[ H] \T60 

,:5 ORD] WAS RE/OR$1 ,I CONT9U$3 0,AS TO KILL+ RUL]S1 IT DEP5DS 5TIRELY ON ! POSITION ( ! RUL]4 ,IF IT IS ! ,RUSSIAN ,CZ>1 ,I MO/ C]TA9LY BELIEVE 9 DISPAT*+ HIM TO :]E HE BELONGS4 ,IF ! RUL] IS AS 9EFFECTUAL AS AN ,AM]ICAN PRESID5T1 IT IS H>DLY WOR? ! EF=T4 ,!RE >E1 H[EV]1 SOME POT5TATES ,I W\LD KILL BY ANY & ALL MEANS AT MY DISPOSAL4 ,!Y >E ,IGNORANCE1 ,SUP]/ITION1 & ,BIGOTRY --- ! MO/ S9I/] & TYRANNICAL RUL]S ON E>?4 ,AS = ! G5TLEMAN :O ASK$ IF FREE LOVE W\LD NOT BUILD MORE H\SES ( PRO/ITUTION1 MY ANSW] IS3 !Y WILL ALL BE EMPTY IF ! M5 ( ! FUTURE LOOK LIKE HIM40 

,!RE WAS 9/ANT P&EMONIUM4 ,9 VA9 ! *AIRMAN P\ND$ = ORD]4 ,PEOPLE JUMP$ UP ON B5*ES1 WAV$ !IR HATS1 %\T$1 & W\LD NOT LEAVE ! *UR* UNTIL ! LI<TS W]E TURN$ \T4 

,! NEXT MORN+ MO/ ( ! PAP]S REPORT$ ! ,TAB]NACLE MEET+ AS A DISGRACEFUL SPECTACLE4 ,!RE WAS G5]AL CONDEMNATION ( ! ACTION ( ,DR4 ,MC,C[AN 9 P]MITT+ ME TO SPEAK 9 ! ,TAB]NACLE4 ,EV5 ! FAM\S AGNO/IC ,ROB]T ,+]SOLL JO9$ ! *ORUS4 0,I ?9K ?AT ALL ! AN>*I/S >E 9SANE1 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN AMONG ! RE/10 HE /AT$2 0,I ALSO ?9K ?AT ! ,REV]5D ,DR4 ,MC,C[AN IS A G5]\S MAN --- NOT AFRAID4 ,H[EV]1 IT IS NOT COMM5DABLE = A CRAZY MAN OR WOMAN TO BE 9VIT$ TO TALK BE=E ANY PUBLIC ASSEMBLAGE40 ,DR4 ,MC,C[AN RESIGN$ FROM ! *UR*4 0,I'M GO+ TO A M9+ T[N10 HE TOLD ME2 0,I AM SURE ! M9]S WILL APPRECIATE MY WORK MU* BETT]40 ,I WAS SURE !Y W\LD4 

,MY CORRESPOND5CE ) ,$ AFT] ,I LEFT ,NEW ,YORK WAS ( A FRI5DLY NATURE1 ?\< CON/RA9$4 ,:5 ,I REA*$ ,DETROIT1 ,I F\ND A LONG LETT] FROM HIM 9 ! OLD LOV+ SPIRIT4 ,HE MADE NO REF]5CE TO \R LA/ SC5E4 ,HE WAS ANXI\SLY WAIT+ = ME TO RETURN1 HE WROTE1 & HE HOP$ TO HAVE ME BACK = ! HOLIDAYS4 0,:5 ONE'S SWEE!>T IS M>RI$ TO PUBLIC LIFE1 ONE MU/ LE>N TO BE G5UGSAM .<CONT5T ) LITTLE.>10 HIS LETT] READ4 ,I C\LD NOT IMAG9E ,$ BE+ G5UGSAM1 BUT ,I UND]/OOD ?AT HE WAS TRY+ TO MEET MY NE$S4 ,I LOV$ ,$ & ,I WANT$ HIM1 BUT ,I WAS DET]M9$ TO GO ON ) MY WORK4 ,I GREATLY MISS$ HIM1 H[EV]1 & HIS *>M1 :I* HAD NOT CEAS$ TO ATTRACT ME4 ,I WIR$ HIM ?AT ,I WAS ON MY WAY TO VISIT SI/] ,HEL5A & ?AT ,I %\LD BE HOME )9 A WEEK4 

,\TSIDE ( A BRIEF VISIT AFT] MY RELEASE FROM PRISON1 ,I HAD NOT BE5 9 ,RO*E/] S9CE #a#h#i#d4 ,IT SEEM$ AGES1 SO MU* HAD HAPP5$ 9 MY LIFE4 ,*ANGES HAD ALSO TAK5 PLACE 9 ! =TUNES ( MY BELOV$ SI/] ,HEL5A4 ,! ,HO*/E9S N[ OCCUPI$ MORE COM=TABLE QU>T]S 9 A LITTLE H\SE ) A T\* ( GRE5 9 ! BACK4 ,!IR /EAM%IP AG5CY1 ?\< YIELD+ SMALL RETURNS1 HAD NEV]!LESS IMPROV$ !IR CONDITION4 ,HEL5A CONT9U$ TO %\LD] ! MA9 BURD52 H] *ILDR5 NE$$ H] EV5 MORE ?AN BE=E1 & SO DID ! BUS9ESS4 ,MO/ ( !IR CU/OM]S W]E ,LI?UANIAN & ,LETTI% PEASANTS1 :O P]=M$ ! H>DE/ LABOR 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES4 ,!IR WAGES W]E SMALL1 YET !Y MANAG$ TO S5D MONEY TO !IR FAMILIES & BR+ !M OV] TO ,AM]ICA4 ,POV]TY & DRUDG]Y HAD MADE !M DULL & SUSPICI\S1 & ?IS REQUIR$ TACT & PATI5CE 9 DEAL+ ) !M4 ,MY BRO!R-9-LAW1 ,JACOB1 USUALLY EXTREMELY RES]V$ & QUIET1 W\LD (T5 LOSE HIS TEMP] :5 CONFRONT$ ) SU* /UPIDITY4 ,BUT = ,HEL5A MO/ ( ! CU/OM]S W\LD HAVE TURN$ TO SOME BETT] BUS9ESS MAN ?AN ,JACOB ,HO*/E91 ! S*OL>4 ,%E KNEW H[ TO SMOO? ! TR\BL$ WAT]S4 ,H] SYMPA?IES W]E ) !SE WAGE-SLAVES & %E UND]/OOD !IR PSY*OLOGY4 ,%E DID MORE ?AN M]ELY SELL !M TICKETS & =W>D !IR MONEY2 %E 5T]$ 9TO !IR B>R5 LIVES4 ,%E WROTE !IR LETT]S HOME = !M & HELP$ !M OV] MANY DIFFICULTIES4 ,NOR W]E !Y ! ONLY ONES TO COME TO ,HEL5A TO BE COM=T$ & AID$4 ,ALMO/ ! 5TIRE NEI<BORHOOD BR\<T !IR TR\BLES TO H]4 ,:ILE MY PRECI\S SI/] W\LD L5D AN ATT5TIVE E> TO EV]YBODY'S TALE ( WOE1 %E H]SELF NEV] COMPLA9$1 NEV] LAM5T$ H] [N UNFULFILL$ HOPES1 ! DREAMS & ASPIRATIONS ( H] Y\?4 ,I REALIZ$ KE5LY :AT A =CE WAS LO/ 9 ! R>E CREATURE2 H]S WAS A L>GE NATURE COMPRESS$ 9 TOO LIMIT$ A SPACE4 

,! DAY ( MY >RIVAL (F]$ NO *ANCE = COMMUNION ) ,HEL5A4 ,9 ! EV5+1 :5 ! *ILDR5 W]E ASLEEP & ! (FICE CLOS$1 WE C\LD TALK4 ,%E W\LD NOT PRY 9TO MY LIFE2 :AT ,I TOLD H] %E ACCEPT$ ) UND]/&+ & AFFECTION4 ,%E H]SELF SPOKE MO/LY AB\T ! *ILDR51 H]S & ,L5A'S1 & ( ! H>D LIFE ( \R P>5TS4 ,I KNEW WELL 5\< H] REASONS = CON/ANTLY DWELL+ ON ! DIFFICULTIES ( \R FA!R4 ,%E /ROVE TO BR+ ME CLOS] TO HIM & TO HELP TO A BETT] UND]/&+4 ,%E HAD SUFF]$ GREATLY BECAUSE ( \R MUTUAL ANTAGONISM1 :I* 9 ME HAD DEVELOP$ 9TO HATR$4 ,%E HAD BE5 HORRIFI$ AT ! MESSAGE ,I HAD S5T H] ?REE YE>S PREVI\SLY :5 %E HAD NOTIFI$ ME ?AT ,FA!R WAS NE> ,DEA?'S DOOR4 ,HE HAD UND]GONE A DANG]\S OP]ATION ON HIS ?ROAT1 & ,HEL5A HAD CALL$ ME TO HIS B$SIDE4 0,HE %\LD HAVE DI$ LONG AGO10 ,I HAD WIR$ BACK4 ,S9CE !N %E HAD TRI$ REPEAT$LY TO *ANGE MY ATTITUDE T[>DS ! MAN :OSE H>%NESS HAD M>R$ ! *ILDHOOD ( ALL ( US4 

,! MEMORY ( \R SAD PA/ HAD MADE ,HEL5A MORE K9D & G5]\S4 ,IT WAS H] BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT & MY [N DEVELOPM5T ?AT GRADUALLY HEAL$ ME ( ! BITT]NESS ,I BORE MY FA!R4 ,I CAME TO UND]/& ?AT IT IS IGNORANCE RA!R ?AN CRUELTY ?AT MAKES P>5TS DO SO MANY DREADFUL ?+S TO !IR HELPLESS *ILDR54 ,DUR+ MY %ORT /AY 9 ,RO*E/] 9 #a#h#i#d1 ,I HAD SE5 MY FA!R = ! FIR/ TIME 9 FIVE YE>S4 ,I /ILL FELT E/RANG$1 BUT NO LONG] SO HO/ILE4 ,ON ?AT VISIT ,I F\ND ,FA!R PHYSICALLY BROK51 A M]E %AD[ ( HIS =M] /RONG & 5]GETIC SELF4 ,HIS CONDITION WAS CON/ANTLY GR[+ WORSE4 ,T5 H\RS' WORK 9 ! %OP ON DRY FOOD W]E DE/RUCTIVE TO HIS WEAK5$ & N]V\S /ATE ( HEAL?1 AGGRAVAT$ BY ! TAUNTS & 9DIGNITIES HE HAD TO 5DURE4 ,HE WAS ! ONLY ,JEW1 A MAN ( NE>LY FIFTY1 A =EIGN] NOT FAMILI> ) ! LANGUAGE ( ! C\NTRY4 ,MO/ ( ! Y\NG/]S :O WORK$ ) HIM W]E ( =EIGN P>5TS1 BUT !Y HAD ACQUIR$ ! WOR/ ,AM]ICAN TRAITS )\T ANY ( ! F9E QUALITIES4 ,!Y W]E CRUDE1 CO>SE1 & HE>TLESS4 ,!Y ?ROVE ON ! PRANKS & TRICKS !Y PLAY$ ON ! 0%E5Y40 ,REPEAT$LY !Y HAD SO MOLE/$ & H>ASS$ HIM AS TO CAUSE HIM TO FA9T4 ,HE W\LD BE BR\<T HOME1 ONLY TO COMPEL HIMSELF TO GO BACK ! NEXT DAY4 ,HE C\LD NOT AF=D TO LOSE ! JOB ?AT PAID HIM T5 DOLL>S A WEEK4 

,! SI<T ( ,FA!R SO ILL & WORN S(T5$ ! LA/ VE/IGE ( MY ANIMOSITY T[>DS HIM4 ,I BEGAN TO REG>D HIM AS ONE ( ! MASS ( ! EXPLOIT$ & 5SLAV$ = :OM ,I WAS LIV+ & WORK+4 

,9 \R TALKS ,HEL5A HAD ALWAYS >GU$ ?AT ,FA!R'S VIOL5CE 9 HIS Y\? HAD BE5 DUE TO HIS EXCEPTIONAL 5]GY1 :I* F\ND NO ADEQUATE \TLET 9 SU* A SMALL PLACE AS ,POPELAN4 ,HE HAD BE5 AMBITI\S = HIMSELF & HIS FAMILY1 DREAM+ ( ! L>GE CITY & ! BIG ?+S HE C\LD DO !RE4 ,! PEASANTS EK$ \T A POOR EXI/5CE ON !IR L&2 BUT MO/ ( ! ,JEWS1 ) PRACTICALLY EV]Y PR(ESSION CLOS$ TO !M1 LIV$ UPON ! PEASANTS4 ,FA!R WAS TOO HONE/ = SU* ME?ODS1 & HIS PRIDE SM>T$ UND] DAILY 9DIGNITIES FROM ! (FICIALS HE HAD TO DEAL )4 ,! FAILURE ( HIS LIFE1 ! LACK ( OPPORTUNITY TO PUT HIS ABILITIES TO GOOD USE1 HAD EMBITT]$ HIM & MADE HIM ILL-NATUR$ & H>D T[>DS HIS [N4 

,MY YE>S ( CONTACT ) ! LIVES ( ! MASSES1 ! SOCIAL VICTIMS 9 & \T ( PRISON1 & MY WIDE READ+ HAD %[N ME ! DEHUMANIZ+ EFFECT ( MISPLAC$ 5]GY4 ,9 NUM]\S 9/ANCES ,I HAD WAT*$ PEOPLE :O HAD />T$ LIFE ) AMBITION & HOPE BE+ ?W>T$ BY A HO/ILE 5VIRONM5T4 ,ONLY TOO (T5 !Y HAD GR[N V9DICTIVE & RU?LESS4 ,! UND]/&+ ,I GA9$ ?R\< MY [N /RUGGLE HAD COME TO MY SI/] ?R\< H] HI<LY S5SITIVE NATURE & H] UNUSUAL 9TUITIV5ESS4 ,%E WAS WISE )\T HAV+ KN[N MU* ( LIFE4 

,I SAW A GREAT DEAL ( MY SI/] ,L5A & H] FAMILY ON ?IS VISIT4 ,%E ALREADY HAD F\R *ILDR51 & A FIF? WAS ON ! WAY4 ,%E WAS WORN BY TOO FREQU5T *ILD-BE>+ & ! /RUGGLE TO MAKE 5DS MEET4 ,! ONLY JOY ,L5A HAD WAS H] *ILDR54 ,! MO/ RADIANT ( ! F\R WAS LITTLE ,/ELLA1 :O HAD ALWAYS BE5 MY SUNBEAM 9 GRAY ,RO*E/]4 ,%E WAS T5 N[1 V]Y 9TELLIG5T1 HI<-/RUNG1 & FULL ( EXAGG]AT$ FANCIES AB\T H] ,TANTE ,EMMA1 AS %E CALL$ ME4 ,S9CE MY PREVI\S VISIT ,/ELLA HAD BEGUN TO CORRESPOND ) ME1 9 QUA9T & EXTRAVAGANT \TP\R+S ( ! YE>N+S ( H] Y\NG S\L4 ,! SEV]ITY ( H] FA!R & HIS PREF]5CE = H] Y\NG] SI/] W]E GREAT & REAL TRAG$IES TO ! S5SITIVE *ILD4 ,HAV+ TO %>E ! SAME B$ ) H] CAUS$ ,/ELLA GREAT MIS]Y4 ,H] PEOPLE HAD NO PATI5CE ) 0SU* :IMS02 BESIDES1 !Y W]E TOO POOR TO AF=D EXTRA SPACE4 ,BUT ,I UND]/OOD ,/ELLA ONLY TOO WELL3 H] TRAG$Y WAS A REPETITION ( :AT ,I MYSELF HAD SUFF]$ AT H] AGE4 ,I WAS HAPPY 9 ! ?\<T ?AT ! LITTLE ONE HAD ,HEL5A NE>1 TO :OM %E C\LD TAKE H] TR\BLES1 & ?AT %E FELT ! NE$ ( CONFID+ 9 ME4 0,I HATE ! PEOPLE :O >E MEAN TO MY ,TANTE ,EMMA10 ,/ELLA WROTE :5 %E WAS B>ELY SEV54 0,:5 ,I GR[ UP1 ,I WILL FI<T = H]40 

,!RE WAS ALSO MY BRO!R ,YEGOR4 ,UNTIL ! AGE ( F\RTE5 HE WAS1 LIKE MO/ ,AM]ICAN BOYS1 CRUDE & WILD4 ,HE LOV$ ,HEL5A BECAUSE %E HAD BE5 SO DEVOT$ TO HIM4 ,I HAD EVID5TLY NOT SO IMPRESS$ MYSELF ON HIS M9D4 ,I WAS JU/ A SI/]1 LIKE ,L5A --- NO?+ TO BE EXCIT$ AB\T4 ,BUT ON MY VISIT 9 #ahid ,I SEEM$ TO AWAK5 A DEEP] FEEL+ 9 HIM4 ,S9CE !N HE HAD BECOME1 LIKE ,/ELLA1 CLOSELY ATTA*$ TO ME1 P]HAPS BECAUSE ,I HAD PREVAIL$ UPON ,FA!R NOT TO COMPEL ! BOY TO CONT9UE AT S*OOL4 ,YEGOR HAD %[N HIMSELF CLEV] AT HIS /UDIES1 & ?IS L$ ! OLD MAN TO HOPE ?AT HIS Y\NGE/ SON W\LD REALIZE HIS [N BANKRUPT AMBITIONS TO BE A MAN ( LE>N+4 ,HIS ELDE/ BOY1 ,H]MAN1 HAD PROV$ A DISAPPO9TM5T 9 ?IS REG>D4 ,HE C\LD DO WOND]S ) HIS H&S1 BUT HE HAT$ S*OOL1 & ,FA!R F9ALLY LO/ HOPE ( EV] SEE+ HIS ,H]MAN BECOME A 0MAN ( ! PR(ESSIONS40 ,HE S5T HIM TO A MA*9E %OP1 :]E ! BOY SOON PROV$ ?AT HE WAS MU* MORE AT HOME ) ! MO/ 9TRICATE MA*9E1 ?AN ) ! SIMPLE/ BOOK LESSON4 ,HE BECAME A NEW BE+1 S]I\S & CONC5TRAT$4 ,FA!R C\LD NOT GET OV] ! DISAPPO9TM5T2 YET HOPE SPR+S ET]NAL4 ,) ,YEGOR DO+ WELL AT S*OOL1 ,FA!R AGA9 BEGAN TO VISION COLLEGE DIPLOMAS4 ,BUT AGA9 HIS PLANS W]E FRU/RAT$4 ,MY VISIT SAV$ ! SITUATION4 ,MY >GUM5TS 9 BEHALF ( 0\R BABY0 HAD A BETT] EFFECT ?AN ! PLEAS ,I HAD ONCE URG$ 9 MY [N BEHALF4 ,YEGOR W5T TO WORK 9 ! SAME %OP ) ,H]MAN4 ,SUBSEQU5TLY ! BOY UND]W5T A RADICAL *ANGE3 HE BECAME 5AMOR$ ( /UDY4 ,! LIFE ( A WORK+-MAN & ! LUN*-BASKET HE HAD SO GREATLY ADMIR$ LO/ !IR GLAM\R4 ,! %OP1 ) ITS NOISES & CO>S5ESS1 REVOLT$ HIM4 ,TO READ & LE>N WAS N[ HIS AMBITION4 ,CONTACT ) ! MIS]Y ( ! WORK]S' LOT BR\<T ,YEGOR CLOS] TO ME4 0,Y\ HAVE BECOME MY H]O9E10 HE WROTE ME2 0Y\ HAVE BE5 9 PRISON1 Y\ >E ) ! PEOPLE & 9 T\* ) ! AIMS ( Y\?40 ,I W\LD UND]/& HIS AWAK5+1 HE ADD$2 HIS HOPES W]E C5T]$ ON ME1 = ONLY ,I C\LD 9DUCE \R FA!R TO P]MIT HIM TO GO TO ,NEW ,YORK4 ,HE WANT$ TO /UDY4 ,BUT1 /RANGE TO SAY1 9/EAD ( BE+ GLAD1 ,FA!R OBJECT$4 ,HE HAD LO/ FAI? 9 ! FICKLE BOY1 HE DECL>$4 ,BESIDES1 ! WAGES ,YEGOR WAS E>N+ W]E NE$$ 9 ! H\SE N[ ?AT HIS [N HEAL? WAS FAIL+ & HE C\LD NOT CONT9UE MU* LONG] AT WORK4 ,IT REQUIR$ DAYS ( PLEAD+ & MY (F] TO TAKE ,YEGOR TO MY HOME 9 ,NEW ,YORK BE=E ,FA!R YIELD$4 ,YEGOR HAD HIS WI% & N[ SAW HIS DREAM AB\T TO BE FULFILL$1 & ?US ,I WON HIS LA/+ DEVOTION4 

,MY /AY 9 ,RO*E/] ?IS TIME PROV$ TO BE MY FIR/ UNCL\D$ VISIT ) MY FAMILY4 ,IT WAS A NOVEL EXP]I5CE TO BE ACCEPT$ ) W>M? & AFFECTION BY ?OSE :O HAD ALWAYS BE5 /RANG]S TO ME4 ,MY DE> SI/] ,HEL5A & ! TWO Y\NG LIVES ?AT NE$$ ME HELP$ ME TO CLOS] COMMUNION ) MY P>5TS4 

,ON MY WAY TO ,NEW ,YORK ,I ?\<T MU* AB\T MY FREQU5T TALKS ) ,$ 9 REG>D TO MY TAK+ UP A C\RSE ( M$IC9E4 ,IT HAD BE5 MY ASPIRATION :5 ,I WAS /ILL 9 ,KONIGSB]G1 & MY /UDIES 9 ,VI5NA HAD AGA9 AWAK5$ ?AT DESIRE4 ,$ HAD SEIZ$ UPON ! IDEA ) 5?USIASM1 ASSUR+ ME HE W\LD SOON BE ABLE TO PAY MY WAY ?R\< COLLEGE4 ,MY >RANGEM5TS TO HAVE ,YEGOR 9 ,NEW ,YORK ) US & TO ASSI/ HIM W\LD1 H[EV]1 PO/PONE ! REALIZATION ( MY HOPE ( BECOM+ A DOCTOR4 ,I ALSO FE>$ ,$ MI<T RES5T ! NEW OB/ACLE & DISLIKE HAV+ MY BRO!R 9 ! H\SE4 ,I W\LD C]TA9LY NOT =CE HIM ON ,$4 

,I F\ND ,$ 9 SPL5DID CONDITION & F9E SPIRITS4 ,\R LITTLE AP>TM5T LOOK$ FE/IVE1 AS MY SWEE!>T ALWAYS MADE IT ON MY HOMECOM+S4 ,F> FROM OBJECT+ TO MY PLANS AB\T ,YEGOR1 ,$ IMM$IATELY CONS5T$ TO HAVE HIM3 ) MY BRO!R 9 ! H\SE1 HE SAID1 HE W\LD NOT FEEL SO LONELY DUR+ MY ABS5CES4 ,DID ,YEGOR TALK MU*1 HE 9QUIR$ ANXI\SLY4 ,HE HIMSELF C\LD SIT = H\RS )\T UTT]+ A WORD1 & HE WAS GREATLY RELIEV$ :5 ,I TOLD HIM ?AT ,YEGOR WAS A /UDI\S & RETIC5T BOY4 ,AS TO MY PROPOS$ /UDY ( M$IC9E1 ,$ WAS CONFID5T ?AT WE %\LD BE ABLE TO C>RY \T ! IDEA BE=E LONG4 ,HE WAS 0ON ! WAY TO RI*ES10 HE ASSUR$ ME ) A S]I\S FACE2 HIS P>TN] HAD P]FECT$ AN 9V5TION1 A NOVELTY 9 ALBUMS1 :I* W\LD C]TA9LY PROVE A GREAT SUCCESS4 0,WE WANT Y\ AS \R ?IRD P>TN]10 HE ANN\NC$ JUBILANTLY2 0Y\ MI<T TAKE ! CONTRAPTION ON ! ROAD ) Y\ ON Y\R NEXT T\R40 ,AGA91 AS 9 ! E>LY /AGES ( \R LIFE1 HE BEGAN TO 9DULGE 9 FANCIES ( ! ?+S HE W\LD DO = ME :5 WE BECAME RI*4 

,YEGOR >RIV$ AFT] ,NEW ,YE>'S ,DAY4 ,$ LIK$ HIM FROM ! FIR/1 & BE=E LONG MY BRO!R WAS COMPLETELY *>M$ BY MY BELOV$4 ,I WAS SOON TO GO ON A NEW T\R1 & IT WAS A GREAT COM=T TO KN[ ?AT MY TWO 0*ILDR50 W\LD KEEP EA* O!R COMPANY 9 MY ABS5CE4 

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