,VOLUME #a1 ,*APT] #ae 

#aicaaica 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,TEXT 3 

  

,PHOTO BY ,TIFFANY ,VON ,>NIM1,C,C ,B,Y ,LIC5SE ,LIV+ ,MY ,LIFE 

  

BY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

 ,VOLUME ONE 

,NEW ,YORK3 ,ALFR$ ,A ,KNOPF ,9C41#a#i#c#a4 

,*APT] #ae 

,A ,R5AISSANCE WAS N[ TAK+ PLACE 9 ,AN>*I/ RANKS2 GREAT] ACTIVITY WAS BE+ MANIFE/$ ?AN AT ANY TIME S9CE #a#h#h#g1 ESPECIALLY AMONG ,AM]ICAN ADH]5TS4 ,SOLID>ITY1 AN ,5GLI% PUBLICATION />T$ 9 #ahib BY ,S4 ,M]L9O & SUSP5D$ LAT] ON1 REAPPE>$ 9 @&_?#a#d#f2#i#d1 GA!R+ AB\T ITSELF A NUMB] ( V]Y ABLE ,AM]ICANS4 ,AMONG !M W]E ,JOHN ,$ELMAN1 ,WILLIAM ,C4 ,[51 ,*>LES ,B4 ,COOP]1 ,MISS ,VAN ,ETTON1 AN 5]GETIC TRADE-UNIONI/1 & A NUMB] ( O!RS4 ,A SOCIAL SCI5CE CLUB WAS ORGANIZ$1 ) WEEKLY LECTURES4 ,! WORK ATTRACT$ CONSID]ABLE ATT5TION AMONG ! 9TELLIG5T NATIVE ELEM5T1 NOT FAIL+1 ( C\RSE1 ALSO TO CALL =? VIRUL5T ATTACKS 9 ! PRESS4 ,NEW ,YORK WAS NOT ! ONLY CITY :]E AN>*ISM WAS BE+ EXP\ND$4 ,9 ,PORTL&1 ,OREGON1 ! ,FIREBR&1 ANO!R ,5GLI% WEEKLY1 WAS BE+ PUBLI%$ BY A GR\P ( GIFT$ M5 & WOM51 9CLUD+ ,H5RY ,ADDIS & ! ,ISAAK FAMILY4 ,9 ,BO/ON ,H>RY ,M4 ,KELLY1 A Y\NG & >D5T COMRADE1 HAD ORGANIZ$ A COOP]ATIVE PR9T+ %OP :I* WAS PUBLI%+ ! ,REBEL4 ,9 ,PHILADELPHIA ACTIVITIES W]E C>RI$ ON BY ,VOLTAIR9E DE ,CLEYRE1 ,H4 ,BR[N1 ,P]LE ,MC,LEOD1 & O!R C\RAGE\S ADVOCATES ( \R IDEAS4 ,9 FACT1 ALL OV] ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES ! SPIRIT ( ! ,*ICAGO M>TYRS HAD BE5 RESURRECT$4 ,! VOICE ( ,SPIES & HIS COMRADES WAS F9D+ EXPRESSION 9 ! NATIVE TONGUE AS WELL AS 9 EV]Y =EIGN LANGUAGE ( ! PEOPLES 9 ,AM]ICA4 

,\R WORK HAD RECEIV$ CONSID]ABLE 9C5TIVE ?R\< ! >RIVAL ( TWO ,BRITI% AN>*I/S1 ,*>LES ,W4 ,M[BRAY & ,JOHN ,TURN]4 ,! =M] HAD COME 9 #a#h#i#d1 %ORTLY AFT] MY RELEASE FROM PRISON1 & WAS N[ ACTIVE 9 ,BO/ON4 ,JOHN ,TURN]1 :O WAS ! MORE CULTIVAT$ & BETT] 9=M$ ( ! TWO1 HAD BE5 9VIT$ TO ! ,/ATES BY ,H>RY ,KELLY4 ,= SOME REASON HIS LECTURES W]E AT FIR/ POORLY ATT5D$ & IT BECAME NECESS>Y = US 9 ,NEW ,YORK TO LOOK AFT] ! >RANGEM5TS4 ,I HAD MET ,JOHN & HIS SI/] ,LIZZIE DUR+ MY /AY 9 ,LONDON4 ,BO? ( !M HAD /RONGLY APPEAL$ TO ME BY REASON ( !IR W>M?1 G5IALITY1 & FRI5DL9ESS4 ,I LOV$ ESPECIALLY TO TALK TO ,JOHN2 HE WAS FAMILI> ) ! SOCIAL MOVEM5TS 9 ,5GL& & WAS HIMSELF CLOSELY ALLI$ ) ! TRADE-UNION & COOP]ATIVE ELEM5TS1 AS WELL AS ) ! ,COMMONWEAL1 F\ND$ BY ,WILLIAM ,MORRIS4 ,BUT HIS BE/ EF=TS W]E DEVOT$ TO ! PROPAG&A ( AN>*ISM4 ,JOHN ,TURN]'S COM+ TO ,AM]ICA GAVE ME AN OPPORTUNITY TO TE/ MY ABILITY TO SPEAK 9 ,5GLI%1 AS ,I (T5 HAD TO PRESIDE AT HIS MEET+S4 

,! FREE-SILV] CAMPAIGN WAS AT ITS HEI<T4 ,! PROPOSITION = ! FREE CO9AGE ( SILV] AT ! RATIO ) GOLD ( SIXTE5 TO ONE HAD BECOME A NATIONAL ISSUE ALMO/ OV]NI<T4 ,IT GA9$ 9 /R5G? BY ! SUDD5 ASC5DANCY ( ,WILLIAM ,J5N+S ,BRYAN :O HAD /AMP$$ ! ,DEMOCRATIC ,CONV5TION BY AN ELOQU5T SPEE* & ! CAT* PHRASE3 0,Y\ %ALL NOT PRESS D[N UPON ! BR[ ( LABOR ! CR[N ( ?ORNS1 Y\ %ALL NOT CRUCIFY MANK9D UPON ! CROSS ( GOLD40 ,BRYAN WAS RUNN+ = ! PRESID5CY3 ! 0SILV]-TONGU$0 ORATOR HAD CAU<T ! FANCY ( ! MAN 9 ! /REET4 ,! ,AM]ICAN LIB]ALS1 :O SO EASILY FALL = EV]Y NEW POLITICAL S*EME1 W5T OV] TO ,BRYAN ON FREE SILV] ALMO/ TO A MAN4 ,EV5 SOME AN>*I/S W]E C>RI$ AWAY BY HIS SLOGANS4 ,ONE DAY A WELL-KN[N ,*ICAGO COMRADE1 ,GEORGE ,S*ILL+1 >RIV$ 9 ,NEW ,YORK TO 5LI/ ! COOP]ATION ( ! ,EA/]N RADICALS4 ,GEORGE WAS AN >D5T FOLL[] ( ,B5JAM9 ,TUCK]1 ! LEAD] ( ! 9DIVIDUALI/ S*OOL ( AN>*ISM1 & A CONTRIBUTOR TO HIS PAP]1 ,LIB]TY4 ,BUT1 UNLIKE ,TUCK]1 HE WAS CLOS] TO ! LABOR MOVEM5T & ALSO MORE REVOLUTION>Y ?AN HIS TEA*]4 ,! WI% = A POPUL> AWAK5+ 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES WAS FA!R TO ,GEORGE@&_?#a#d#f2S BELIEF ?AT ! FREE-SILV] ISSUE W\LD BECOME A =CE TO UND]M9E BO? MONOPOLY & ! ,/ATE4 ,! VICI\S ATTACKS ON ,BRYAN 9 ! PRESS HELP$ HIS CAUSE BY LEAD+ ,GEORGE & MANY O!RS TO REG>D HIM AS A M>TYR4 ,! PAP]S SPOKE ( ,BRYAN AS A 0TOOL 9 ! BLOOD-/A9$ H&S ( ,ALTGELD1 ! AN>*I/1 & ,EUG5E ,DEBS1 ! REVOLUTIONI/40 

,I C\LD NOT %>E ! 5?USIASM = ,BRYAN1 P>TLY BECAUSE ,I DID NOT BELIEVE 9 ! POLITICAL MA*9E AS A MEANS ( BR++ AB\T FUNDAM5TAL *ANGES1 & ALSO BECAUSE !RE WAS SOME?+ WEAK & SUP]FICIAL AB\T ,BRYAN4 ,I HAD A FEEL+ ?AT HIS MA9 AIM WAS TO GET 9TO ! ,:ITE ,H\SE RA!R ?AN 0/RIKE (F ! *A9S0 FROM ! PEOPLE4 ,I RESOLV$ TO /E] CLE> ( HIM4 ,I S5S$ HIS LACK ( S9C]ITY & ,I DID NOT TRU/ HIM4 ,= ?IS ATTITUDE ,I WAS ASSAIL$ FROM TWO DIFF]5T SIDES ON ! SAME DAY4 ,FIR/ IT WAS ,S*ILL+ :O URG$ ME TO JO9 ! FREE-SILV] CAMPAIGN4 0,:AT >E Y\ ,EA/]N]S GO+ TO DO10 HE ASK$ :5 ,I MET HIM1 0:5 ! ,WE/ M>*ES 9 REVOLUTION>Y RANKS T[>DS ! ,EA/8 ,>E Y\ GO+ TO CONT9UE TALK+1 OR WILL Y\ JO9 =CES ) US80 ,HE ASSUR$ ME ?AT MY NAME HAD TRAVEL$ TO ! ,WE/ & ?AT ,I C\LD BE A VALUABLE FACTOR 9 ! POPUL> MOVEM5T TO FREE ! MASSES FROM !IR DESPOIL]S4 ,GEORGE WAS V]Y OPTIMI/IC 9 HIS >DOR1 BUT HE FAIL$ TO CONV9CE ME4 ,WE P>T$ AS FRI5DS1 ,GEORGE %AK+ HIS HEAD OV] MY LACK ( JUDGM5T AB\T ! IMP5D+ REVOLUTION4 

,9 ! EV5+ WE HAD A VISITOR1 ! =M] ,BURGESS ( ,HOME/EAD1 A MAN NAM$ ,JOHN ,MC,LUCKIE4 ,I REMEMB]$ HIS DET]M9$ /& DUR+ ! /EEL /RIKE AGA9/ ! IMPORTATION ( BLACKLEGS & ,I APPRECIAT$ HIS SOLID>ITY ) ! WORK]S4 ,I WAS GLAD TO MEET ! L>GE1 JOVIAL FELL[1 A TRUE TYPE ( ! OLD ,JEFF]SONIAN DEMOCRAT4 ,HE TOLD ME ?AT HE HAD BE5 ASK$ BY ,VOLTAIR9E TO SEE ME AB\T ,SA%A4 ,HE HAD GONE TO H] TO 9=M H] ?AT ,B]KMAN  WAS NO LONG] 9 ! ,WE/]N ,P5IT5TI>Y4 ,HE1 AS WELL AS MANY O!R PEOPLE 9 ,HOME/EAD1 BELIEV$ ?AT ,B]KMAN HAD NEV] 9T5D$ TO KILL ,FRICK2 HE HAD COMMITT$ ! ACT ONLY TO >\SE SYMPA?Y = ! LATT]4 ,! EXCESSIVE S5T5CE HE HAD BE5 GIV5 WAS M]ELY A RUSE ON ! P>T ( ! ,P5NSYLVANIA C\RTS TO DECEIVE ! PUBLIC4 ,! ,HOME/EAD WORK]S FELT SURE ?AT ,ALEX&] ,B]KMAN HAD BE5 LET \T ( PRISON LONG AGO4 ,VOLTAIR9E HAD GIV5 ,MC,LUCKIE MAT]IAL :I* PROV$ H[ RIDICUL\S HIS /ORY WAS & HAD S5T HIM TO ME = MORE PRO(S4 

,I LI/5$ TO ! MAN1 UNABLE TO CONCEIVE ?AT ANYONE 9 HIS S5SES C\LD BELIEVE SU* A ?+ AB\T ,SA%A4 ,HE HAD SACRIFIC$ HIS Y\?1 HE HAD ALREADY SP5T FIVE YE>S 9 ! P5IT5TI>Y1 HAD SUFF]$ ! DUNGEON1 SOLIT>Y CONF9EM5T1 & BRUTAL PHYSICAL ATTACKS4 ,P]SECUTION BY ! PRISON AU?ORITIES HAD EV5 DRIV5 HIM TO ATTEMPT SUICIDE4 ,YET HE WAS BE+ SUSPECT$ BY ! V]Y PEOPLE = :OM HE WAS WILL+ TO LAY D[N HIS LIFE4 ,IT WAS PREPO/]\S1 CRUEL4 ,I /EPP$ 9TO MY ROOM1 TOOK ,SA%A@&_?#a#d#f2S LETT]S1 & H&$ !M TO ,MC,LUCKIE4 0,READ10 ,I SAID1 0& !N TELL ME IF Y\ /ILL BELIEVE ! IMPOSSIBLE /ORIES Y\ HAVE JU/ TOLD ME40 

,HE TOOK UP ONE ( ! LETT]S FROM ! PILE1 READ IT C>EFULLY1 !N SCANN$ SEV]AL O!RS4 ,PRES5TLY HE HELD \T HIS H&4 0,MY DE>1 BRAVE GIRL10 HE SAID1 0,I AM SORRY1 ,I AM AWFULLY SORRY1 TO HAVE D\BT$ Y\R FRI5D40 ,HE ASSUR$ ME ?AT HE N[ REALIZ$ H[ WRONG HE & HIS PEOPLE HAD BE54 0,Y\ CAN C\NT ON ME TO HELP10 HE ADD$1 FEEL+LY1 09 ANY EF=T Y\ MAY MAKE TO GET ,B]KMAN \T ( PRISON40 ,!N HE REF]R$ TO ,BRYAN1 DWELL+ ON ! EXCEPTIONAL OPPORTUNITY TO ASSI/ ,SA%A IF ,I W\LD JO9 ! FREE-SILV] CAMPAIGN4 ,MY ACTIVITIES W\LD BR+ ME 9 CLOSE CONTACT ) ! PROM95T POLITICIANS ( ! ,DEMOCRATIC ,P>TY1 & !Y C\LD AFT]W>DS BE APPROA*$ TO SECURE A P>DON4 ,HE HIMSELF W\LD UND]TAKE TO SEE ! LEAD]S & HE WAS C]TA9 ( SUCCESS IF HE C\LD ASSURE !M ( MY S]VICES4 ,HE PO9T$ \T ?AT ,I W\LD HAVE NO RESPONSIBILITIES AB\T ! BUS9ESS 5D4 ,HE W\LD TRAVEL ) ME & >RANGE EV]Y?+4 ,( C\RSE1 ,I W\LD BE PAID A G5]\S SAL>Y4 

,MC,LUCKIE WAS FRANK & DEC5T1 ?\< EVID5TLY *ILDI%LY IGNORANT ( MY IDEAS4 ,P]HAPS IT WAS ALSO HIS SUGGE/ION ?AT ,I MI<T HELP ,SA%A ?AT MAKE HIM SYMPA!TIC TO ME4 ,/ILL1 ,I C\LD HAVE NO?+ TO DO ) ,BRYAN1 FEEL+ HE W\LD USE ! WORK]S M]ELY AS A /EPP+-/ONE TO P[]4 

,MY VISITOR TOOK NO (F5SE4 ,HE LEFT ) REGRETS ?AT ,I WAS SO LACK+ 9 PRACTICAL S5SE1 BUT HE PROMIS$ FAI?FULLY TO 5LI<T5 HIS PEOPLE 9 ,HOME/EAD 9 REG>D TO ,B]KMAN4 

,TOGE!R ) ,$ & SEV]AL O!R CLOSE FRI5DS ,I DISCUSS$ ! POSSIBLE ORIG9 ( ! DREADFUL RUMORS AB\T ,SA%A4 ,I WAS SURE ?AT !Y HAD BE5 CREAT$ BY ! ATTITUDE ( ,MO/4 ,I REMEMB]$ ?AT ! PRESS HAD WIDELY COMM5T$ ON ,MO/@&_?#a#d#f2S /ATEM5T ?AT ,SA%A HAD US$ A 0TOY PI/OL TO %OOT ,FRICK UP A BIT40 ,JOHANN ,MO/-MY LIFE WAS SO FULL ,I HAD NE>LY =GOTT5 HIM4 ,! BITT]NESS HIS BETRAYAL ( ,SA%A HAD >\S$ HAD GIV5 WAY TO A DULL FEEL+ ( DISAPPO9TM5T 9 ! MAN :O HAD ONCE MEANT SO MU* TO ME4 ,! W\ND HE HAD /RUCK HAD P>TLY HEAL$1 YET LEAV+ BEH9D A S5SITIVE SC>4 ,MC,LUCKIE@&_?#a#d#f2S VISIT HAD TORN ! W\NDS OP5 AGA94 

,MY 5C\NT]S ) ,S*ILL+ & ,MC,LUCKIE MADE ME AW>E ( A L>GE NEW FIELD = ACTIVITY4 ,:AT ,I HAD DONE SO F> WAS ONLY ! FIR/ /EP ( USEFULNESS 9 \R MOVEM5T4 ,I W\LD GO ON A T\R N[1 /UDY ! C\NTRY & ITS PEOPLE1 COME CLOSE TO ! PULSE ( ,AM]ICAN LIFE4 ,I W\LD BR+ TO ! MASSES ! MESSAGE ( A NEW SOCIAL IDEAL4 ,I WAS EAG] TO />T AT ONCE1 BUT ,I DET]M9$ FIR/ TO BECOME MORE PR(ICI5T 9 ,5GLI% & TO E>N SOME MONEY4 ,I DID NOT WANT TO BE DEP5D5T ON ! COMRADES OR TAKE PAY = MY LECTURES4 ,MEAN:ILE ,I C\LD CONT9UE MY WORK 9 ,NEW ,YORK4 

,I WAS FULL ( 5?USIASM = ! FUTURE1 BUT 9 PROPORTION AS MY SPIRITS ROSE1 ,$@&_?#a#d#f2S 9T]E/ 9 MY AIMS WAN$4 ,I HAD KN[N = A LONG TIME ?AT HE BEGRUDG$ EV]Y MOM5T :I* TOOK ME AWAY FROM HIM4 ,I WAS ALSO AW>E ( \R DECID$ DIFF]5CES AS F> AS ! WOMAN QUE/ION WAS CONC]N$4 ,BUT \TSIDE ( ?AT1 ,$ HAD MOV$ ALONG ) ME1 HAD ALWAYS BE5 HELPFUL & READY TO AID 9 MY EF=TS4 ,N[ HE BECAME DISGRUNTL$1 CRITICAL ( EV]Y?+ ,I WAS DO+4 ,AS ! DAYS PASS$1 HE GREW MORE MOROSE4 ,(T5 ON MY RETURN FROM A LATE MEET+ ,I W\LD F9D HIM ) A SET FACE1 FRIGIDLY SIL5T1 N]V\SLY SW++ HIS LEG4 ,I YE>N$ TO COME CLOSE TO HIM1 TO %>E MY ?\<TS & PLANS ) HIM2 BUT HIS REPROA*FUL LOOK W\LD NUMB ME4 ,9 MY ROOM ,I W\LD WAIT EXPECTANTLY1 BUT HE W\LD REMA9 AWAY & !N ,I W\LD HE> HIM WE>ILY DRAG HIMSELF TO B$4 ,IT HURT ME TO ! QUICK1 = ,I LOV$ HIM DEEPLY4 ,\TSIDE ( MY 9T]E/ 9 ! MOVEM5T & ,SA%A1 MY GREAT PASSION = ,$ HAD DISPLAC$ EV]Y?+ ELSE4 

,I /ILL HAD A V]Y T5D] FEEL+ = MY ]/:ILE >TI/ LOV]1 ! MORE SO BECAUSE ,I ?\<T HE NE$$ ME4 ,ON MY RETURN FROM ,EUROPE ,I HAD F\ND HIM V]Y MU* *ANG$4 ,HE HAD RIS5 9 HIS PR(ESSION & WAS E>N+ CONSID]ABLE MONEY4 ,HE REMA9$ AS G5]\S TO ME AS 9 \R DAYS ( POV]TY1 HAV+ AID$ ME F9ANCIALLY ALL ?R\< MY /AY 9 ,VI5NA & LAT] FURNI%+ MY NEW AP>TM5T4 ,9DE$1 !RE WAS NO *ANGE 9 HIS ATTITUDE T[>DS ME4 ,BUT IT DID NOT TAKE ME LONG TO DISCOV] ?AT ! MOVEM5T HAD LO/ ITS =M] MEAN+ = ,F$YA4 ,HE N[ LIV$ 9 A DIFF]5T CIRCLE1 & HIS 9T]E/S W]E DIFF]5T1 ,>T AUCTIONS ABSORB$ HIM1 & ALL HIS LEISURE HE SP5T AT SALES4 ,HE HAD CRAV$ BEAUTY SO LONG ?AT1 N[ ?AT HE HAD SOME MEANS1 HE WANT$ TO GORGE HIMSELF ) IT4 ,/UDIOS BECAME HIS GREAT PASSION4 ,EV]Y FEW MON?S HE W\LD FURNI% ONE ) ! MO/ EXQUISITE ?+S1 ONLY TO DISC>D IT %ORTLY = ANO!R1 :I* HE W\LD DECORATE ) NEW HANG+S1 VASES1 CANVASES1 C>PETS1 & :AT NOT4 ,ALL ! BEAUTIFUL ?+S 9 \R FLAT HAD COME FROM HIS ATELI]S4 ,I C\LD NOT BE> ! ?\<T ( ,F$YA'S W&]+ SO F> AWAY FROM \R PA/ 9T]E/S ?AT HE W\LD NOT (F] ANY MORE F9ANCIAL HELP TO ! MOVEM5T4 ,BUT AS HE HAD NEV] HAD MU* S5SE ( MAT]IAL VALUES1 ,I WAS NOT SURPRIS$ TO F9D HIM SO EXTRAVAGANT4 ,I WAS EV5 CONC]N$ MORE AB\T HIS *OICE ( NEW FRI5DS1 NE>LY ALL ( !M M5 :O WORK$ ON NEWSPAP]S4 ,A DISSIPAT$1 CYNICAL LOT !Y W]E1 !IR MA9 OBJECTS 9 LIFE BE+ DR9K & WOM54 ,UNHAPPILY !Y HAD SUCCE$$ 9 IMBU+ ,F$YA ) ! SAME SPIRIT2 ,I WAS GRIEV$ TO SEE MY IDEALI/IC FRI5D GO+ ! WAY ( SO MANY EMPTY 9 HEAD & HE>T4 ,SA%A HAD ALWAYS FELT ?AT ! SOCIAL /RUGGLE W\LD PROVE A M]E PASS+ PHASE 9 ,F$YA'S LIFE1 BUT ,I HAD HOP$ ?AT :5 ,F$YA %\LD BE DRAWN 9TO O!R *ANNELS1 !Y W\LD BE ?OSE ( >T4 ,HIS DRIFT T[>DS MEAN+LESS & TRIVIAL PLEASURES1 = :I* HE WAS 5TIRELY TOO F9E1 WAS MO/ PA9FUL4 ,=TUNATELY HE /ILL FELT CLOSE TO US4 ,HE HAD GREAT REG>D = ,$1 & HIS AFFECTION = ME1 :ILE NO LONG] ! SAME AS 9 ! PA/1 WAS YET W>M 5\< TO C\NT]ACT AT LEA/ P>TLY1 ! DIS9TEGRAT+ 9FLU5CE ( HIS NEW SURR\ND+S4 

,HE CAME (T5 TO \R H\SE4 ,ON ONE OCCASION HE ASK$ ME TO POSE1 ?IS TIME = A P5-&-9K SKET* HE HAD PROMIS$ ,$4 ,DUR+ ! SITT+S ,I ?\<T ( \R COMMON PA/1 ( \R AFFECTION ?AT HAD BE5 SO T5D]1 P]HAPS TOO T5D] TO SURVIVE ! SWAY ,$'S P]SONALITY EX]CIS$ OV] ME2 PROBABLY ALSO BECAUSE ,F$YA'S LOVE WAS TOO YIELD+ = MY TURBUL5T NATURE1 :I* C\LD F9D EXPRESSION ONLY 9 ! CLA%+ ( WILLS1 9 RESI/ANCE & ! SURM\NT+ ( OB/ACLES4 ,F$YA /ILL ATTRACT$ ME1 BUT IT WAS ,$ :O CONSUM$ ME ) 9T5SE LONG+1 ,$ :O TURN$ MY BLOOD TO FIRE1 ,$ :OSE T\* 9TOXICAT$ & EXALT$ ME4 ,! SUDD5 *ANGE FROM HIS USUAL SELF TO A DISCONNECT$ & HYP]CRITICAL ATTITUDE WAS TOO GALL+ TO 5DURE4 ,BUT MY PRIDE W\LD NOT LET ME MAKE ! FIR/ /EP TO BREAK HIS SIL5CE4 ,F$YA TOLD ME ?AT ,$ HAD GREATLY ADMIR$ HIS SKET* ( ME & HAD PRAIS$ IT AS A SPL5DID PIECE ( WORK1 EXPRESSIVE ( MU* ( MY BE+4 ,9 MY PRES5CE1 H[EV]1 ,$ W\LD NOT SAY A WORD AB\T IT4 

,BUT ONE EV5+ ,$'S RES]VE BROKE D[N4 ,Y\ >E DRIFT+ AWAY FROM ME6 HE CRI$ EXCIT$LY4 ,I CAN SEE ?AT MY HOPES ( A BEAUTIFUL LIFE ) Y\ MU/ BE GIV5 UP4 ,Y\ HAVE WA/$ A YE> 9 ,VI5NA1 Y\ HAVE ACQUIR$ A PR(ESSION ONLY TO ?R[ IT OV] = ?OSE /UPID MEET+S4 ,Y\ HAVE NO CONC]N AB\T ANY?+ ELSE2 Y\R LOVE HAS NO ?\<T ( ME OR MY NE$S4 ,Y\R 9T]E/ 9 ! MOVEM5T1 = :I* Y\ >E WILL+ TO BREAK UP \R LIFE1 IS NO?+ BUT VANITY1 NO?+ BUT Y\R CRAV+ = APPLAUSE & GLORY & ! LIMELI<T4 ,Y\ >E SIMPLY 9CAPABLE ( A DEEP FEEL+4 ,Y\ HAVE NEV] UND]/OOD OR APPRECIAT$ ! LOVE ,I HAVE GIV5 Y\4 ,I HAVE WAIT$ & WAIT$ = A *ANGE1 BUT ,I SEE IT IS USELESS4 ,I WILL NOT %>E Y\ ) ANYBODY OR ANY?+4 ,Y\ WILL HAVE TO *OOSE6 ,HE PAC$ ! ROOM LIKE A CAG$ LION1 TURN+ FROM TIME TO TIME TO FA/5 HIS EYES ON ME4 ,ALL ?AT HAD BE5 ACCUMULAT+ 9 HIM = WEEKS N[ /REAM$ \T 9 ACCUSATION & REPROA*ES4 

,I SAT 9 CON/]NATION4 ,! FAMILI> OLD DEM& ?AT ,I *OOSE KEPT DRON+ 9 MY E>S4 ,$1 :O HAD BE5 MY IDEAL1 WAS LIKE ! O!RS4 ,HE W\LD HAVE ME =SWE> MY 9T]E/S & ! MOVEM5T1 SACRIFICE EV]Y?+ = LOVE ( HIM4 ,MO/ HAD REPEAT$LY GIV5 ME ! SAME ULTIMATUM4 ,I />$ AT HIM UNABLE TO SPEAK OR MOVE1 :ILE HE CONT9U$ /ALK+ AB\T ! ROOM 9 UNCONTROLL$ ANG]4 ,F9ALLY HE PICK$ UP HIS COAT & HAT & LEFT4 

,= H\RS ,I SAT AS IF P>ALYZ$2 !N A VIOL5T R+ BR\<T ME TO MY FEET4 ,IT WAS A CALL TO A CONF9EM5T CASE4 ,I TOOK ! BAG :I* ,I HAD BE5 KEEP+ READY = WEEKS & WALK$ \T ) ! MAN :O HAD COME = ME4 

,9 A TWO-ROOM FLAT ON ,H\/ON ,/REET1 ON ! SIX? FLOOR ( A T5EM5T-H\SE1 ,I F\ND ?REE *ILDR5 ASLEEP & ! WOMAN WRI?+ 9 LABOR PA9S4 ,!RE WAS NO GAS-JET1 ONLY A K]OS5E LAMP1 OV] :I* ,I HAD TO HEAT ! WAT]4 ,! MAN LOOK$ BLANK :5 ,I ASK$ HIM = A %EET4 ,IT WAS ,FRIDAY4 ,HIS WIFE HAD WA%$ ,MONDAY1 HE TOLD ME1 & ALL ! B$-L95 HAD GOT DIRTY S9CE4 ,BUT ,I MI<T USE ! TABLE-CLO?2 IT HAD BE5 PUT ON ?AT V]Y EV5+ = ! ,SABBA?4 0,DIAP]S OR ANY?+ ELSE READY = ! BABY80 ,I ASK$4 ,! MAN DID NOT KN[4 ,! WOMAN PO9T$ TO A BUNDLE :I* CONSI/$ ( A FEW TORN %IRTS1 A B&AGE1 & SOME RAGS4 ,9CR$IBLE POV]TY OOZ$ FROM EV]Y CORN]4 

,) ! USE ( ! TABLE-CLO? & AN EXTRA APRON ,I HAD BR\<T ,I PREP>$ TO RECEIVE ! EXPECT$ COM]4 ,IT WAS MY FIR/ PRIVATE CASE1 & ! %OCK OV] ,$'S \TBUR/ HELP$ TO 9CREASE MY N]V\SNESS4 ,BUT ,I /EEL$ MYSELF & WORK$ ON DESP]ATELY4 ,LATE 9 ! MORN+ ,I HELP$ TO BR+ ! NEW LIFE 9TO ! WORLD4 ,A P>T ( MY [N LIFE HAD DI$ ! EV5+ BE=E4 

,= A WEEK MY GRIEF OV] ,$'S ABS5CE WAS DULL$ BY WORK4 ,! C>E ( SEV]AL PATI5TS & ,DR4 ,:ITE'S OP]ATIONS1 AT :I* ,I ASSI/$1 LEFT ME LITTLE TIME = REP9+4 ,! EV5+S W]E OCCUPI$ ) MEET+S 9 ,NEW>K1 ,PAT]SON1 & O!R NE>-BY T[NS4 ,BUT AT NI<T1 ALONE 9 ! FLAT1 ! SC5E ) ,$ HAUNT$ & TORTUR$ ME4 ,I KNEW HE C>$ = ME1 BUT ?AT HE C\LD LEAVE AS HE DID1 /AY AWAY SO LONG1 & GIVE NO SIGN ( HIS :]EAB\TS MADE ME RES5TFUL4 ,IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO RECONCILE MYSELF TO A LOVE ?AT D5I$ ! BELOV$ ! RI<T TO H]SELF1 A LOVE ?AT ?ROVE ONLY AT ! EXP5SE ( ! LOV$ ONE4 ,I FELT ,I C\LD NOT SUBMIT TO SU* A SAPP+ EMOTION1 BUT ! NEXT MOM5T ,I W\LD F9D MYSELF 9 ,$'S ROOM1 MY BURN+ FACE ON HIS PILL[1 MY HE>T CONTRACT+ ) YE>N+ = HIM4 ,AT ! 5D ( TWO WEEKS MY LONG+ MA/]$ ALL MY RESOLUTIONS2 ,I WROTE HIM AT HIS PLACE ( WORK & BEGG$ HIM TO RETURN4 

,HE CAME AT ONCE4 ,FOLD+ ME TO HIS HE>T1 BETWE5 TE>S & LAU<T]1 HE CRI$3 0,Y\ >E /RONG] ?AN ,I2 ,I HAVE WANT$ Y\ EV]Y MOM5T1 EV] S9CE ,I CLOS$ ?AT DOOR4 ,EV]Y DAY ,I MEANT TO COME BACK1 BUT ,I WAS TOO C[>DLY4 ,NI<TS ,I HAVE BE5 WALK+ R\ND ! H\SE LIKE A %AD[4 ,I WANT$ TO COME 9 & BEG Y\ TO =GIVE & =GET4 ,I EV5 W5T TO ! /ATION :5 ,I KNEW Y\ HAD TO GO TO ,NEW>K & ,PAT]SON4 ,I C\LD NOT BE> TO ?9K ( Y\R GO+ HOME ALONE LATE AT NI<T4 ,BUT ,I WAS AFRAID ( Y\R SCORN1 AFRAID Y\ W\LD S5D ME AWAY4 ,YES1 Y\ >E BRAV] & /RONG] ?AN ,I4 ,Y\ >E MORE NATURAL4 ,WOM5 ALWAYS >E4 ,MAN IS SU* A SILLY1 CIVILIZ$ CREATURE6 ,WOMAN HAS RETA9$ H] PRIMITIVE IMPULSES & %E IS MORE REAL40 

,WE TOOK UP \R COMMON LIFE AGA91 BUT ,I SP5T LESS TIME ON MY PUBLIC 9T]E/S4 ,P>TLY IT WAS DUE TO ! NUM]\S CALLS ON MY PR(ESSIONAL S]VICES1 BUT MORE TO MY DET]M9ATION TO DEVOTE MYSELF TO ,$4 ,AS ! WEEKS PASS$1 H[EV]1 ! /ILL SMALL VOICE KEPT ON :ISP]+ ?AT ! F9AL RUPTURE W\LD ONLY TEMPOR>ILY BE DEF]R$4 ,I CLUNG DESP]ATELY TO ,$ & HIS LOVE TO W>D (F ! IMP5D+ 5D4 

,MY PR(ESSION ( MIDWIFE WAS NOT V]Y LUCRATIVE1 ONLY ! POORE/ ( ! =EIGN ELEM5T RESORT+ TO SU* S]VICES4 ,?OSE :O HAD RIS5 9 ! SCALE ( MAT]IAL ,AM]ICANISM LO/ !IR NATIVE DIFFID5CE TOGE!R ) MANY O!R ORIG9AL TRAITS4 ,LIKE ! ,AM]ICAN WOM5 !Y1 TOO1 W\LD BE CONF9$ ONLY BY DOCTORS4 ,MIDWIF]Y (F]$ A V]Y LIMIT$ SCOPE2 9 EM]G5CIES ONE WAS COMPELL$ TO CALL = ! AID ( A PHYSICIAN4 ,T5 DOLL>S WAS ! HI<E/ FEE2 ! MAJORITY ( ! WOM5 C\LD NOT PAY EV5 ?AT4 ,BUT :ILE MY WORK HELD \T NO HOPE ( WORLDLY RI*ES1 IT FURNI%$ AN EXCELL5T FIELD = EXP]I5CE4 ,IT PUT ME 9TO 9TIMATE CONTACT ) ! V]Y PEOPLE MY IDEAL /ROVE TO HELP & EMANCIPATE4 ,IT BR\<T ME FACE TO FACE ) ! LIV+ CONDITIONS ( ! WORK]S1 AB\T :I*1 UNTIL !N1 ,I HAD TALK$ & WRITT5 MO/LY FROM !ORY4 ,!IR SQUALID SURR\ND+S1 ! DULL & 9]T SUBMISSION TO !IR LOT1 MADE ME REALIZE ! COLOSSAL WORK YET TO BE DONE TO BR+ AB\T ! *ANGE \R MOVEM5T WAS /RUGGL+ TO A*IEVE4 

,/ILL MORE IMPRESS$ WAS ,I BY ! FI]CE1 BL9D /RUGGLE ( ! WOM5 ( ! POOR AGA9/ FREQU5T PREGNANCIES4 ,MO/ ( !M LIV$ 9 CONT9UAL DREAD ( CONCEPTION2 ! GREAT MASS ( ! M>RI$ WOM5 SUBMITT$ HELPLESSLY1 & :5 !Y F\ND !MSELVES PREGNANT1 !IR AL>M & WORRY W\LD RESULT 9 ! DET]M9ATION TO GET RID ( !IR EXPECT$ (FSPR+4 ,IT WAS 9CR$IBLE :AT FANTA/IC ME?ODS DESPAIR C\LD 9V5T3 JUMP+ (F TABLES1 ROLL+ ON ! FLOOR1 MASSAG+ ! /OMA*1 DR9K+ NAUSEAT+ CONCOCTIONS1 & US+ BLUNT 9/RUM5TS4 ,!SE & SIMIL> ME?ODS W]E BE+ TRI$1 G5]ALLY ) GREAT 9JURY4 ,IT WAS H>R[+1 BUT IT WAS UND]/&ABLE4 ,HAV+ A L>GE BROOD ( *ILDR51 (T5 MANY MORE ?AN ! WEEKLY WAGE ( ! FA!R C\LD PROVIDE =1 EA* ADDITIONAL *ILD WAS A CURSE1 0A CURSE ( ,GOD10 AS OR?ODOX ,JEWI% WOM5 & ,IRI% ,CA?OLICS REPEAT$LY TOLD ME4 ,! M5 W]E G5]ALLY MORE RESIGN$1 BUT ! WOM5 CRI$ \T AGA9/ ,HEAV5 = 9FLICT+ SU* CRUELTY UPON !M4 ,DUR+ !IR LABOR PA9S SOME WOM5 W\LD HURL ANA!MA ON ,GOD & MAN1 ESPECIALLY ON !IR HUSB&S4 0,TAKE HIM AWAY10 ONE ( MY PATI5TS CRI$1 0DON'T LET ! BRUTE COME NE> ME-,I'LL KILL HIM60 ,! TORTUR$ CREATURE ALREADY HAD HAD EI<T *ILDR51 F\R ( :OM HAD DI$ 9 9FANCY4 ,! REMA9+ W]E SICKLY & UND]N\RI%$1 LIKE MO/ ( ! ILL-BORN1 ILL-KEPT1 & UNWANT$ *ILDR5 :O TRAIL$ AT MY FEET :5 ,I WAS HELP+ ANO!R POOR CREATURE 9TO ! WORLD4 

,AFT] SU* CONF9EM5TS ,I W\LD RETURN HOME SICK & DI/RESS$1 HAT+ ! M5 RESPONSIBLE = ! FRI<TFUL CONDITION ( !IR WIVES & *ILDR51 HAT+ MYSELF MO/ ( ALL BECAUSE ,I DID NOT KN[ H[ TO HELP !M4 ,I C\LD1 ( C\RSE1 9DUCE AN ABORTION4 ,MANY WOM5 CALL$ ME = ?AT PURPOSE1 EV5 GO+ D[N ON !IR KNEES & BEGG+ ME TO HELP !M1 0= ! SAKE ( ! POOR LITTLE ONES ALREADY H]E40 ,!Y KNEW ?AT SOME DOCTORS & MIDWIVES DID SU* ?+S1 BUT ! PRICE WAS BEYOND !IR MEANS4 ,I WAS SO SYMPA!TIC2 W\LDN'T ,I DO SOME?+ = !M8 ,!Y W\LD PAY 9 WEEKLY 9/ALLM5TS4 ,I TRI$ TO EXPLA9 TO !M ?AT IT WAS NOT MONET>Y CONSID]ATIONS ?AT HELD ME BACK2 IT WAS CONC]N = !IR LIFE & HEAL?4 ,I W\LD RELATE ! CASE ( A WOMAN KILL$ BY SU* AN OP]ATION1 & H] *ILDR5 LEFT MO!RLESS4 ,BUT !Y PREF]R$ TO DIE1 !Y AV[$2 ! CITY WAS !N SURE TO TAKE C>E ( !IR ORPHANS1 & !Y W\LD BE BETT] (F4 

,I C\LD NOT PREVAIL UPON MYSELF TO P]=M ! MU*-COVET$ OP]ATION4 ,I LACK$ FAI? 9 MY SKILL & ,I REMEMB]$ MY ,VI5NA PR(ESSOR :O HAD (T5 DEMON/RAT$ TO US ! T]RIBLE RESULTS ( ABORTION4 ,HE HELD ?AT EV5 :5 SU* PRACTICES PROVE SUCCESSFUL1 !Y UND]M9E ! HEAL? ( ! PATI5T4 ,I W\LD NOT UND]TAKE ! TASK4 ,IT WAS NOT ANY MORAL CONSID]ATION = ! SANCTITY ( LIFE2 A LIFE UNWANT$ & =C$ 9TO ABJECT POV]TY DID NOT SEEM SACR$ TO ME4 ,BUT MY 9T]E/S EMBRAC$ ! 5TIRE SOCIAL PROBLEM1 NOT M]ELY A S+LE ASPECT ( IT1 & ,I W\LD NOT JEOP>DIZE MY FRE$OM = ?AT ONE P>T ( ! HUMAN /RUGGLE4 ,I REFUS$ TO P]=M ABORTIONS & ,I KNEW NO ME?ODS TO PREV5T CONCEPTION4 

,I SPOKE TO SOME PHYSICIANS AB\T ! MATT]4 ,DR4 ,:ITE1 A CONS]VATIVE1 SAID3 0,! POOR HAVE ONLY !MSELVES TO BLAME2 !Y 9DULGE !IR APPETITES TOO MU*40 ,DR4 ,JULIUS ,H(FMANN ?\<T ?AT *ILDR5 W]E ! ONLY JOY ! POOR HAD4 ,DR4 ,SOLOT>(F HELD \T ! HOPE ( GREAT *ANGES 9 ! NE> FUTURE :5 WOMAN W\LD BECOME MORE 9TELLIG5T & 9DEP5D5T4 0,:5 %E USES H] BRA9S MORE10 HE W\LD TELL ME1 0H] PROCREATIVE ORGANS WILL FUNCTION LESS40 ,IT SEEM$ MORE CONV9C+ ?AN ! >GUM5TS ( ! O!R M$ICOS1 ?\< NO MORE COM=T+2 NOR WAS IT ( ANY PRACTICAL HELP4 ,N[ ?AT ,I HAD LE>N$ ?AT WOM5 & *ILDR5 C>RI$ ! HEAVIE/ BURD5 ( \R RU?LESS ECONOMIC SY/EM1 ,I SAW ?AT IT WAS MOCK]Y TO EXPECT !M TO WAIT UNTIL ! SOCIAL REVOLUTION >RIVES 9 ORD] TO RI<T 9JU/ICE4 ,I S\<T SOME IMM$IATE SOLUTION = !IR PURGATORY1 BUT ,I C\LD F9D NO?+ ( ANY USE4 

,MY HOME LIFE WAS ANY?+ BUT H>MONI\S1 ?\< EXT]NALLY ALL SEEM$ SMOO?4 ,$ WAS APP>5TLY CALM & CONT5T$ AGA91 BUT ,I FELT CRAMP$ & N]V\S4 ,IF ,I ATT5D$ A MEET+ & WAS DETA9$ LAT] ?AN EXPECT$1 IT W\LD MAKE ME UNEASY & ,I W\LD HA/5 HOME 9 P]TURBATION4 ,(T5 ,I REFUS$ 9VITATIONS TO LECTURE BECAUSE ,I S5S$ ,$'S DISAPPROVAL4 ,:]E ,I C\LD NOT DECL9E1 ,I WORK$ = WEEKS OV] MY SUBJECT1 MY ?\<TS DWELL+ ON ,$ RA!R ?AN ON ! MATT] 9 H&4 ,I W\LD WOND] H[ ?IS PO9T OR ?AT >GUM5T MI<T APPEAL TO HIM & :E!R HE W\LD APPROVE4 ,YET ,I NEV] C\LD GET MYSELF TO READ HIM MY NOTES1 & IF HE ATT5D$ MY MEET+S1 HIS PRES5CE MADE ME SELF-CONSCI\S1 = ,I KNEW ?AT HE HAD NO FAI? 9 MY WORK4 ,IT S]V$ TO WEAK5 MY FAI? 9 MYSELF4 ,I DEVELOP$ /RANGE N]V\S ATTACKS4 ,)\T PRELIM9>Y W>N+ ,I W\LD FALL TO ! GR\ND AS IF KNOCK$ D[N BY A HEAVY BL[4 ,I DID NOT LOSE CONSCI\SNESS1 BE+ ABLE TO SEE & UND]/& :AT WAS GO+ ON >\ND ME1 BUT ,I WAS NOT ABLE TO UTT] A WORD4 ,MY *E/ FELT CONVULS$1 MY ?ROAT COMPRESS$2 ,I HAD AN AGONIZ+ PA9 9 MY LEGS AS IF ! MUSCLES W]E BE+ PULL$ ASUND]4 ,?IS CONDITION W\LD LA/ FROM T5 M9UTES TO AN H\R & LEAVE ME UTT]LY EXHAU/$4 ,SOLOT>(F1 FAIL+ TO DIAGNOSE ! TR\BLE1 TOOK ME TO A SPECIALI/1 :O PROV$ NO WIS]4 ,DR4 ,:ITE'S EXAM9ATION ALSO GAVE NO RESULTS4 ,SOME PHYSICIANS SAID IT WAS HY/]IA1 O!RS AN 9V]T$ WOMB4 ,I KNEW ! LATT] WAS ! REAL CAUSE1 BUT ,I W\LD NOT CONS5T TO AN OP]ATION4 ,MORE & MORE ,I HAD BECOME CONV9C$ ?AT MY LIFE W\LD NEV] KN[ H>MONY 9 LOVE = V]Y LONG1 ?AT /RIFE & NOT PEACE W\LD BE MY LOT4 ,9 SU* A LIFE !RE WAS NO ROOM = A *ILD4 

,FROM V>I\S P>TS ( ! C\NTRY CAME REQUE/S = A S]IES ( LECTURES4 ,I WAS V]Y EAG] TO GO1 BUT ,I LACK$ ! C\RAGE TO BROA* ! MATT] TO ,$4 ,I KNEW HE W\LD NOT CONS5T1 & HIS REFUSAL W\LD MO/ LIKELY BR+ US NE>] TO A VIOL5T SEP>ATION4 ,MY PHYSICIANS HAD /RONGLY ADVIS$ A RE/ & *ANGE ( SC5E1 & N[ ,$ SURPRIS$ ME BY 9SI/+ ?AT ,I \<T TO GO AWAY4 0,Y\R HEAL? IS MORE IMPORTANT ?AN ANY O!R CONSID]ATION10 HE SAID1 0BUT FIR/ Y\ MU/ DROP ! SILLY NOTION ?AT Y\ HAVE TO E>N Y\R [N LIV+40 ,HE WAS MAK+ 5\< = BO? N[1 & IT W\LD MAKE HIM HAPPY IF ,I W\LD GIVE UP MY NURS+ & /OP MAK+ MYSELF ILL BY HELP+ HAPLESS BRATS 9TO ! WORLD4 ,HE WELCOM$ ! OPPORTUNITY TO TAKE C>E ( ME1 TO AF=D ME LEISURE & RECUP]ATION4 ,LAT] ON1 HE SAID1 ,I %\LD BE 9 CONDITION TO GO ON A T\R4 ,HE REALIZ$ H[ MU* ,I WANT$ IT & HE KNEW :AT AN EF=T IT WAS TO ME TO PLAY ! DEVOT$ WIFE4 ,HE 5JOY$ ! HOME ,I HAD MADE SO BEAUTIFUL = HIM1 HE W5T ON1 BUT HE C\LD SEE ?AT ,I WAS NOT CONT5T$4 ,HE WAS SURE A *ANGE W\LD DO ME GOOD1 GIVE ME BACK MY OLD SPIRIT1 & BR+ ME BACK TO HIM4 

,! WEEKS ?AT FOLL[$ W]E HAPPY & PEACEFUL4 ,WE W]E MU* TOGE!R1 MAK+ FREQU5T TRIPS TO ! C\NTRY1 ATT5D+ CONC]TS & OP]AS4 ,WE TOOK UP READ+ TOGE!R AGA91 & ,$ HELP$ ME TO UND]/& ,RAC9E1 ,CORNEILLE1 ,MOLI]E4 ,HE C>$ ONLY = ! CLASSICS2 ,ZOLA & HIS CONTEMPOR>IES W]E REPELL5T TO HIM4 ,BUT :5 ALONE DUR+ ! DAY ,I 9DULG$ 9 ! MORE MOD]N LIT]ATURE1 BESIDES PLANN+ A NUMB] ( LECTURES = MY =?COM+ T\R4 

,9 ! MID/ ( MY PREP>ATIONS CAME ! NEWS ( TORTURES 9 ! ,SPANI% PRISON ( ,MONTJUI*4 ,?REE HUNDR$ M5 & WOM51 MO/LY TRADE-UNIONI/S1 ) A SPR9KL+ ( AN>*I/S1 HAD BE5 >RE/$ 9 #ahif AS A RESULT ( A BOMB EXPLOSION 9 ,B>CELONA DUR+ A RELIGI\S PROCESSION4 ,! 5TIRE WORLD WAS APPALL$ BY ! RESURRECTION ( ! ,9QUISITION1 BY PRISON]S BE+ KEPT = DAYS )\T FOOD OR WAT]1 FLOGG$1 & BURN$ ) HOT IRONS4 ,ONE EV5 HAD HAD HIS TONGUE CUT \T4 ,! FI5DI% ME?ODS W]E US$ TO EXTORT CONFESSIONS FROM ! UN=TUNATES4 ,SEV]AL W5T MAD & 9 !IR DELIRIUM IMPLICAT$ !IR 9NOC5T COMRADES1 :O W]E IMM$IATELY CONDEMN$ TO DEA?4 ,! P]SON RESPONSIBLE = !SE HORRORS WAS ! ,PRIME ,M9I/] ( ,SPA91 ,CANOVAS DEL ,CA/ILLO4 ,LIB]AL-M9D$ PAP]S 9 ,EUROPE1 LIKE ! ,FRANKFURT] ,ZEITUNG & ! ,P>IS ,9TRANSIGEANT1 W]E >\S+ PUBLIC S5TIM5T AGA9/ ! N9ETE5?-C5TURY ,9QUISITION4 ,ADVANC$ MEMB]S ( ! ,H\SE ( ,COMMONS1 ! ,REI*/AG1 & ! ,*AMB] ( ,DEPUTIES W]E CALL+ = ACTION TO /AY ! H& ( ,CANOVAS4 ,ONLY ,AM]ICA REMA9$ DUMB4 ,EXCEPT+ ! RADICAL PUBLICATIONS1 ! PRESS MA9TA9$ A CONSPIRACY ( SIL5CE4 ,TOGE!R ) MY FRI5DS ,I /RONGLY FELT ! NECESSITY ( BREAK+ ?R\< ?AT WALL4 ,9 CONF]5CE ) ,$1 ,JU/US1 ,JOHN ,$ELMAN1 & ,H>RY ,KELLY1 :O HAD COME FROM ,BO/ON1 & ) ! COOP]ATION ( ,ITALIAN & ,SPANI% AN>*I/S1 WE DECID$ TO />T \R CAMPAIGN ) A L>GE MASS MEET+4 ,A DEMON/RATION 9 FRONT ( ! ,SPANI% ,CONSULATE 9 ,NEW ,YORK WAS TO FOLL[4 ,AS SOON AS \R EF=TS BECAME PUBLIC1 ! REACTION>Y PAP]S BEGAN TO URGE ! AU?ORITIES TO /OP 0,R$ ,EMMA10 ?AT T]M HAV+ /UCK TO ME S9CE ! ,UNION ,SQU>E MEET+4 ,ON ! NI<T ( \R GA!R+ ! POLICE APPE>$ 9 FULL =CE1 CR[D+ EV5 ! PLAT=M SO ?AT ! SPEAK]S C\LD H>DLY MAKE A GE/URE )\T T\*+ AN (FIC]4 ,:5 MY TURN CAME TO SPEAK1 ,I GAVE A DETAIL$ ACC\NT ( ! ME?ODS ?AT W]E BE+ US$ 9 ,MONTJUI*1 & CALL$ = A PROTE/ AGA9/ ! ,SPANI% HORRORS4 

,! P5T-UP EMOTIONS ( ! AUDI5CE1 >\S$ TO A HI< PIT*1 BROKE 9TO ?UND]\S APPLAUSE4 ,BE=E IT FULLY SUBSID$1 A VOICE FROM ! GALL]Y CALL$ \T3 0,MISS ,GOLDMAN1 DON'T Y\ ?9K SOMEONE ( ! ,SPANI% ,EMBASSY 9 ,WA%+TON OR ! ,LEGATION 9 ,NEW ,YORK \<T TO BE KILL$ 9 REV5GE = ! CONDITIONS Y\ HAVE JU/ DESCRIB$80 ,I FELT 9TUITIVELY ?AT MY QUE/ION] MU/ BE A DETECTIVE1 ATTEMPT+ TO TRAP ME4 ,!RE WAS A MOVEM5T AMONG ! POLICE NE> ME AS IF PREP>+ TO LAY H&S ON ME4 ,! AUDI5CE WAS HU%$ 9 T5SE EXPECTATION4 ,= A MOM5T ,I PAUS$2 !N ,I REPLI$ CALMLY & DELIB]ATELY3 0,NO1 ,I DO NOT ?9K ANY ONE ( ! ,SPANI% REPRES5TATIVES 9 ,AM]ICA IS IMPORTANT 5\< TO BE KILL$1 BUT IF ,I W]E 9 ,SPA9 N[1 ,I W\LD KILL ,CANOVAS DEL ,CA/ILLO40 

,SEV]AL WEEKS LAT] CAME ! NEWS ?AT ,CANOVAS DEL ,CA/ILLO HAD BE5 %OT DEAD BY AN AN>*I/ :OSE NAME WAS ,ANGIOLILLO4 ,AT ONCE ! ,NEW ,YORK PAP]S />T$ A V]ITABLE HUNT = ! LEAD+ AN>*I/S TO SECURE !IR OP9IONS ( ! MAN & HIS DE$4 ,REPORT]S PE/]$ ME DAY & NI<T = 9T]VIEWS4 ,DID ,I KN[ ! MAN8 ,HAD ,I BE5 9 CORRESPOND5CE ) HIM8 ,HAD ,I SUGGE/$ TO HIM ?AT ,CANOVAS BE KILL$8 ,I HAD TO DISAPPO9T !M4 ,I DID NOT KN[ ,ANGIOLILLO & HAD NEV] CORRESPOND$ ) HIM4 ,ALL ,I KNEW WAS ?AT HE HAD ACT$ :ILE ! RE/ ( US HAD ONLY TALK$ AB\T ! FE>FUL \TRAGES4 

,WE LE>N$ ?AT ,ANGIOLILLO HAD LIV$ 9 ,LONDON & ?AT HE WAS KN[N AMONG \R FRI5DS AS A S5SITIVE Y\NG MAN1 AN >D5T /UD5T1 A LOV] ( MUSIC & BOOKS1 POETRY BE+ HIS PASSION4 ,! ,MONTJUI* TORTURES HAD HAUNT$ HIM & HE DECID$ TO KILL ,CANOVAS4 ,HE W5T TO ,SPA91 EXPECT+ TO F9D ! ,PRIME ,M9I/] 9 ,P>LIAM5T1 BUT HE LE>N$ ?AT ,CANOVAS WAS RECUP]AT+ FROM HIS 0LABORS ( ,/ATE0 AT ,SANTA ,AGU$A1 A FA%IONABLE SUMM] RESORT4 ,ANGIOLILLO J\RNEY$ !RE4 ,HE MET ,CANOVAS ALMO/ IMM$IATELY1 BUT ! MAN WAS ACCOMPANI$ BY HIS WIFE & TWO *ILDR54 0,I C\LD HAVE KILL$ HIM !N10 ,ANGIOLILLO SAID 9 C\RT1 0BUT ,I W\LD NOT RISK ! LIVES ( ! 9NOC5T WOMAN & *ILDR54 ,IT WAS ,CANOVAS ,I WANT$2 HE ALONE WAS RESPONSIBLE = ! CRIMES ( ,MONTJUI*40 ,HE !N VISIT$ ! ,CA/ILLO VILLA1 9TRODUC+ HIMSELF AS ! REPRES5TATIVE ( A CONS]VATIVE ,ITALIAN PAP]4 ,:5 HE WAS FACE TO FACE ) ! ,PRIME ,M9I/]1 HE %OT HIM DEAD4 ,MME ,CANOVAS RAN 9 AT ?AT MOM5T & HIT ,ANGIOLILLO FULL 9 ! FACE4 0,I DID NOT MEAN TO KILL Y\R HUSB&10 ,ANGIOLILLO APOLOGIZ$ TO H]1 0,I AIM$ ONLY AT ! (FICIAL RESPONSIBLE = ! ,MONTJUI* TORTURES40 

,! ,ATT5TAT ( ,ANGIOLILLO & HIS FRI<TFUL DEA? VIVIDLY RECALL$ TO ME ! P]IOD ( ,JULY #a#h#i#b4 ,SA%A'S ,CALV>Y HAD N[ LA/$ FIVE YE>S4 ,H[ CLOSE ,I HAD COME TO %>+ A SIMIL> FATE6-! LACK ( A PALTRY FIFTY DOLL>S HAD PREV5T$ MY ACCOMPANY+ ,SA%A TO ,PITTSBUR<-BUT CAN ONE E/IMATE ! SPIRITUAL TRAVAIL & SUFF]+ ! EXP]I5CE 9VOLV$8 ,YET ! PRICE WAS WOR? ! LESSON ,I HAD GA9$ FROM ,SA%A'S DE$4 ,S9CE !N ,I HAD CEAS$ TO REG>D POLITICAL ACTS1 AS SOME O!R REVOLUTIONI/S DID1 FROM A M]ELY UTILIT>IAN /&PO9T OR FROM ! VIEW ( !IR PROPAG&I/IC VALUE4 ,! 9N] =CES ?AT COMPEL AN IDEALI/ TO ACTS ( VIOL5CE1 (T5 9VOLV+ ! DE/RUCTION ( HIS [N LIFE1 HAD COME TO MEAN MU* MORE TO ME4 ,I FELT C]TA9 N[ ?AT BEH9D EV]Y POLITICAL DE$ ( ?AT NATURE WAS AN IMPRESSIONABLE1 HI<LY S5SITIZ$ P]SONALITY & A G5TLE SPIRIT4 ,SU* BE+S CANNOT GO ON LIV+ COMPLAC5TLY 9 ! SI<T ( GREAT HUMAN MIS]Y & WRONG4 ,!IR REACTIONS TO ! CRUELTY & 9JU/ICE ( ! WORLD MU/ 9EVITABLY EXPRESS !MSELVES 9 SOME VIOL5T ACT1 9 SUPREME R5D+ ( !IR TORTUR$ S\L4 

,I HAD SPOK5 9 ,PROVID5CE A NUMB] ( TIMES )\T ! LEA/ TR\BLE4 ,RHODE ,ISL& WAS /ILL ONE ( ! FEW ,/ATES TO MA9TA9 ! OLD TRADITION ( UNABRIDG$ FRE$OM ( SPEE*4 ,TWO ( \R OP5-AIR GA!R+S1 ATT5D$ BY ?\S&S1 W5T (F WELL4 ,BUT ! POLICE HAD EVID5TLY DECID$ TO SUPPRESS \R LA/ MEET+4 ,>RIV+ ) SEV]AL FRI5DS AT ! SQU>E :]E ! ASSEMBLY WAS TO TAKE PLACE1 WE F\ND A MEMB] ( ! ,SOCIALI/ ,LABOR ,P>TY TALK+1 &1 NOT WI%+ TO 9T]F]E ) HIM1 WE SET UP \R BOX F>!R AWAY4 ,MY GOOD COMRADE ,JOHN ,H4 ,COOK1 A V]Y ACTIVE WORK]1 OP5$ ! MEET+1 & ,I BEGAN TO SPEAK4 ,JU/ !N A POLICEMAN CAME RUNN+ T[>DS US1 %\T+3 0,/OP Y\R JABB]+6 ,/OP IT ?IS M9UTE OR ,I'LL PULL Y\ (F ! BOX60 ,I W5T ON TALK+4 ,SOMEONE CALL$ \T3 0,DON'T M9D ! BULLY-GO RI<T ON60 ,! POLICEMAN CAME UP1 PUFF+ HEAVILY4 ,:5 HE GOT HIS BREA? HE SN>L$1 0,SAY1 Y\1 >E Y\ DEAF8 ,DIDN'T ,I TELL Y\ TO /OP8 ,:AT D'Y\ MEAN NOT OBEY+ ! LAW80 0,>E Y\ ! LAW80 ,I RETORT$3 0,I ?\<T IT IS Y\R DUTY TO MA9TA9 ! LAW1 NOT TO BREAK IT4 ,DON'T Y\ KN[ ! LAW 9 ?IS ,/ATE GIVES ME ! RI<T ( FREE SPEE*80 0,! HELL IT DOES10 HE REPLI$1 0,I'M ! LAW40 ,! AUDI5CE BEGAN HOOT+ & JE]+4 ,! (FIC] />T$ TO PULL ME (F ! IMPROVIS$ PLAT=M4 ,! CR[D LOOK$ ?REAT5+ & BEGAN CLOS+ 9 ON HIM4 ,HE BLEW HIS :I/LE4 ,A PATROL WAGON DA%$ UP TO ! SQU>E1 & SEV]AL POLICEM5 BROKE ?R\< ! CR[D ) !IR CLUBS SW++4 ,! (FIC]1 /ILL HOLD+ ON TO ME1 %\T$3 0,DRIVE ?OSE DAMN AN>*I/S BACK SO ,I CAN GET ?IS WOMAN4 ,%E'S UND] >RE/40 ,I WAS L$ TO ! PATROL WAGON & LIT]ALLY ?R[N 9TO IT4 

,AT ! POLICE /ATION ,I DEM&$ TO KN[ BY :AT RI<T ,I HAD BE5 9T]F]$ )4 0,BECAUSE Y\'RE ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN10 ! S]GEANT AT ! DESK REPLI$4 0,AN>*I/S HAVE NO RI<TS 9 ?IS COMMUNITY1 SEE80 ,HE ORD]$ ME LOCK$ UP = ! NI<T4 

,IT WAS ! FIR/ TIME S9CE #ahic ?AT ,I HAD BE5 >RE/$1 BUT1 CON/ANTLY EXPECT+ TO FALL 9TO ! CLUT*ES ( ! LAW1 ,I HAD MADE IT A PRACTICE TO C>RY A BOOK ) ME :5 GO+ TO MEET+S4 ,I WRAPP$ MY SKIRTS >\ND ME1 CLIMB$ UP ON ! BO>D PLAC$ = A B$ 9 MY CELL1 PRESS$ CLOSE TO ! B>R$ DOOR1 ?R\< :I* %IMM]$ A LI<T1 & />T$ TO READ4 ,PRES5TLY ,I BECAME AW>E ( SOMEONE MOAN+ 9 ! ADJO9+ CELL4 0,:AT IS IT80 ,I CALL$ 9 A :ISP]2 0>E Y\ ILL80 ,A WOMAN'S VOICE REPLI$ BETWE5 SOBS3 0,MY *ILDR51 MY MO!RLESS *ILDR56 ,:O IS GO+ TO TAKE C>E ( !M N[8 ,MY SICK HUSB&1 :AT'LL BECOME ( HIM80 ,H] WEEP+ BECAME L\D]4 0,SAY1 Y\ DRUNK5 L\T1 /OP ?AT SQUEAL+60 A MATRON %\T$ FROM SOME:]E4 ,! CRY+ WAS *ECK$1 & ,I HE>D ! WOMAN WALK+ UP & D[N H] CELL LIKE A CAG$ ANIMAL4 ,:5 %E QUIET$ D[N A LITTLE ,I ASK$ H] TO TELL ME H] TR\BLES2 P]HAPS ,I C\LD BE ( HELP4 ,I LE>N$ ?AT %E WAS ! MO!R ( SIX *ILDR51 ! ELDE/ F\RTE51 ! BABY ONLY A YE> OLD4 ,H] HUSB& HAD BE5 ILL = T5 MON?S1 UNABLE TO WORK1 & 9 H] DESPAIR %E HAD HELP$ H]SELF TO A LOAF ( BREAD & A CAN ( MILK FROM ! GROC]Y /ORE 9 :I* %E HAD ONCE WORK$4 ,%E WAS CAU<T 9 ! ACT & TURN$ OV] TO ! POLICE4 ,%E BEGG$ TO BE LET (F = ! NI<T 9 ORD] NOT TO FRI<T5 H] FAMILY1 BUT ! (FIC] 9SI/$ ON H] GO+ ) HIM1 NOT EV5 GIV+ H] A *ANCE TO S5D A MESSAGE TO H] HOME4 ,%E WAS BR\<T TO ! /ATION H\SE AFT] ! EV5+ MEAL4 ,! MATRON TOLD H] %E C\LD ORD] SOME FOOD IF %E HAD ! PRICE4 ,! WOMAN HAD NOT EAT5 ALL DAY2 %E WAS FA9T ) HUNG] & ILL ) ANXIETY2 BUT %E HAD NO MONEY4 

,I RAPP$ = ! MATRON & ASK$ H] TO S5D \T = SUPP] = ME4 ,9 LESS ?AN FIFTE5 M9UTES %E RETURN$ ) A TRAY ( HAM & EGGS1 HOT POTATOES1 BREAD1 BUTT]1 & A L>GE POT ( C(FEE4 ,I HAD GIV5 H] A TWO-DOLL> BILL1 & %E H&$ BACK FIFTE5 C5TS4 0,Y\ HAVE FANCY PRICES H]E10 ,I SAID4 0,SURE ?+1 KID1 DID Y\ ?9K ?IS WAS A *>ITY JO9T80 ,SEE+ ?AT %E WAS 9 A GOOD HUMOR1 ,I REQUE/$ H] TO PASS P>T ( ! MEAL TO MY NEI<BOR4 ,%E DID1 BUT NOT )\T COMM5T+3 0,Y\'RE A REGUL> FOOL TO WA/E SU* A FE$ ON A COMMON SNEAK-?IEF40 

,! NEXT MORN+ ,I WAS TAK51 TOGE!R ) MY NEI<BOR & O!R UN=TUNATES1 BE=E A MAGI/RATE4 ,I WAS HELD OV] UND] BOND1 & AS ! AM\NT C\LD NOT BE RAIS$ IMM$IATELY ,I WAS RETURN$ TO ! /ATION-H\SE4 ,AT ONE O'CLOCK 9 ! AFT]NOON ,I WAS AGA9 CALL$ =1 ?IS TIME TO SEE ! ,MAYOR4 ,?AT 9DIVIDUAL1 NO LESS BULKY & BLOAT$ ?AN ! POLICEMAN1 9=M$ ME ?AT IF ,I W\LD PROMISE UND] OA? NEV] TO RETURN TO ,PROVID5CE HE W\LD LET ME GO4 0,?AT'S NICE ( Y\1 ,MAYOR10 ,I REPLI$2 0BUT 9ASMU* AS Y\ HAVE NO CASE AGA9/ ME1 Y\R (F] ISN'T QUITE SO G5]\S AS IT APPE>S1 IS IT80 ,I TOLD HIM ?AT ,I W\LD MAKE NO PROMISES :ATEV]1 BUT ?AT IF IT W\LD RELIEVE HIS M9D1 ,I C\LD TELL HIM ?AT ,I WAS AB\T TO />T ON A LECTURE T\R TO ,CALI=NIA4 0,IT MAY TAKE ?REE MON?S OR MORE1 ,I DON'T KN[4 ,BUT ,I DO KN[ ?AT Y\ & Y\R CITY CANNOT DO )\T ME MU* LONG] ?AN ?AT1 SO ,I AM DET]M9$ TO COME BACK40 ,! ,MAYOR & HIS FLUNKIES RO>$1 & ,I WAS RELEAS$4 

,ON MY >RIVAL 9 ,BO/ON ,I WAS %OCK$ BY A REPORT 9 ! LOCAL PAP]S ( ! %OOT+ AT ,HAZLETON1 ,P5NSYLVANIA1 ( TW5TY-ONE /RIK]S4 ,! M5 W]E M9]S ON !IR WAY TO ,LATIM]1 9 ! SAME ,/ATE1 TO 9DUCE ! WORK]S !RE TO JO9 ! /RIKE4 ,! ,%]IFF HAD MET !M ON ! PUBLIC ROAD & W\LD NOT ALL[ !M TO GO ON4 ,HE COMM&$ !M TO RETURN TO ,HAZLETON1 & :5 !Y REFUS$1 HE & HIS POSSE OP5$ FIRE4 

,! PAP]S /AT$ ?AT ! ,%]IFF HAD ACT$ 9 SELF-DEF5SE2 ! MOB HAD BE5 ?REAT5+4 ,YET !RE WAS NOT ONE CASUALTY AMONG ! POSSE1 :ILE TW5TY-ONE WORK+-M5 HAD BE5 M[$ D[N & A NUMB] ( O!RS W\ND$4 ,IT WAS EVID5T FROM ! REPORT ?AT ! M5 HAD GONE \T ) EMPTY H&S1 )\T ANY 9T5TION ( (F]+ RESI/ANCE4 ,EV]Y:]E WORK]S W]E SLA91 EV]Y:]E ! SAME BUT*]Y6 ,MONTJUI*1 ,*ICAGO1 ,PITTSBUR<1 ,HAZLETON - ! FEW = EV] \TRAG+ & CRU%+ ! MANY4 ,! MASSES W]E ! MILLIONS1 YET H[ WEAK6 ,TO AWAK5 !M FROM !IR /UPOR1 TO MAKE !M CONSCI\S ( !IR P[] - ?AT IS ! GREAT NE$4 ,SOON1 ,I TOLD MYSELF1 ,I %\LD BE ABLE TO REA* !M ?R\<\T ,AM]ICA4 ,) A TONGUE ( FIRE ,I W\LD R\SE !M TO A REALIZATION ( !IR DEP5D5CE & 9DIGNITY6 ,GL[+LY ,I VISION$ MY FIR/ GREAT T\R & ! OPPORTUNITIES IT W\LD (F] ME TO PLEAD \R ,CAUSE4 ,BUT PRES5TLY MY REV]IE WAS DI/URB$ BY ! ?\<T ( ,$4 ,\R COMMON LIFE-:AT W\LD BECOME ( IT8 ,:Y C\LD IT NOT GO H& 9 H& ) MY WORK8 ,MY GIV+ TO HUMANITY W\LD ONLY 9CREASE MY [N NE$1 W\LD MAKE ME LOVE & WANT ,$ MORE4 ,HE W\LD1 HE MU/1 UND]/&2 HE HAD HIMSELF SUGGE/$ MY GO+ AWAY = A TIME4 ,! IMAGE ( ,$ FILL$ ME ) W>M?1 BUT MY HE>T FLUTT]$ ) APPREH5SION4 

,I HAD BE5 AWAY FROM ,$ ONLY TWO WEEKS1 BUT MY LONG+ = HIM WAS MORE 9T5SE ?AN IT HAD BE5 ON MY RETURN FROM ,EUROPE4 ,I C\LD H>DLY CONTA9 MYSELF UNTIL ! TRA9 CAME TO A /OP 9 ! ,GR& ,C5TRAL ,/ATION1 :]E HE MET ME4 ,AT HOME EV]Y?+ SEEM$ NEW1 MORE BEAUTIFUL & 5TIC+4 ,$@&_?#a#d#f2S 5DE>+ WORDS S\ND$ LIKE MUSIC 9 MY E>S4 ,%ELT]$ & PROTECT$ FROM ! /RIFE & CONFLICT \TSIDE1 ,I CLUNG TO HIM & BASK$ 9 ! SUN%9E ( \R HOME4 ,MY EAG]NESS TO GO ON A LONG T\R PAL$ UND] ! FASC9ATION ( MY LOV]4 ,A MON? ( JOY & AB&ON FOLL[$1 BUT MY DREAM WAS SOON TO SUFF] A PA9FUL AWAK5+4 ,IT WAS CAUS$ BY ,NIETZS*E4 ,EV] S9CE MY RETURN FROM ,VI5NA ,I HAD BE5 HOP+ ?AT ,$ W\LD READ MY BOOKS4 ,I HAD ASK$ HIM TO DO SO & HE PROMIS$ HE W\LD :5 HE HAD MORE TIME4 ,IT MADE ME V]Y SAD TO F9D ,$ SO 9DIFF]5T TO ! NEW LIT]>Y =CES 9 ! WORLD4 ,ONE EV5+ WE W]E GA!R$ AT ,JU/US@&_?#a#d#f2S PLACE AT A F>EWELL P>TY4 ,JAMES ,HUNEK] WAS PRES5T & A Y\NG FRI5D ( \RS1 ,P4 ,YEL9ECK1 A TAL5T$ PA9T]4 ,!Y BEGAN DISCUSS+ ,NIETZS*E4 ,I TOOK P>T1 EXPRESS+ MY 5?USIASM OV] ! GREAT POET-PHILOSOPH] & DWELL+ ON ! IMPRESSION ( HIS WORKS ON ME4 ,HUNEK] WAS SURPRIS$4 0 ,I DID NOT KN[ Y\ W]E 9T]E/$ 9 ANY?+ \TSIDE ( PROPAG&A1 0 HE REM>K$4 0 ,?AT IS BECAUSE Y\ DON'T KN[ ANY?+ AB\T AN>*ISM10 ,I REPLI$1 0 ELSE Y\ W\LD UND]/& ?AT IT EMBRACES EV]Y PHASE ( LIFE & EF=T & ?AT IT UND]M9ES ! OLD1 \TLIV$ VALUES40 ,YEL9ECK ASS]T$ ?AT HE WAS AN AN>*I/ BECAUSE HE WAS AN >TI/2 ALL CREATIVE PEOPLE MU/ BE AN>*I/S1 HE HELD1 BECAUSE !Y NE$ SCOPE & FRE$OM = !IR EXPRESSION4 ,HUNK] 9SI/$ ?AT >T HAS NO?+ TO DO ) ANY ISM4 0,NIETZS*E HIMSELF IS ! PRO( ( IT10 HE >GU$2 0HE IS AN >I/OCRAT1 HIS IDEAL IS ! SUP]MAN BECAUSE HE HAS NO SYMPA?Y ) OR FAI? 9 ! COMMON H]D40 ,I PO9T$ \T ?AT ,NIETZS*E WAS NOT A SOCIAL !ORI/ BUT A POET1 A REBEL & 9NOVATOR4 ,HIS >I/OCRACY WAS NEI!R ( BIR? NOR ( PURSE2 IT WAS ( ! SPIRIT4 ,9 ?AT RESPECT ,NIETZS*E WAS AN AN>*I/1 & ALL TRUE AN>*I/S W]E >I/OCRATS1 ,I SAID4 ,!N ,$ SPOKE4 ,HIS VOICE S\ND$ COLD & CON/RA9$1 & ,I S5S$ ! TEMPE/ BEH9D IT4 0,NIETZS*E IS A FOOL10 HE SAID1 0 A MAN ) A DISEAS$ M9D4 ,HE WAS DOOM$ FROM BIR? TO ! IDIOCY :I* F9ALLY OV]TOOK HIM4 ,HE WILL BE =GOTT5 9 LESS ?AN A DECADE1 & SO WILL ALL ?OSE O!R PSEUDO-MOD]NS4 ,!Y >E CONTORTIONI/S 9 COMP>ISON ) ! TRULY GREAT ( ! PA/40 0,BUT Y\ HAV5'T READ ,NIETZS*E60 ,I OBJECT$ HEAT$LY2 0H[ CAN Y\ TALK AB\T HIM80 0,OH1 YES1 ,I HAVE10 HE RETORT$1 0 ,I READ LONG AGO ALL ! SILLY BOOKS Y\ BR\<T FROM ABROAD40 ,I WAS DUMBF\ND$4 ,HUNEK] & ,YEL9ECK TURN$ ON ,$1 BUT MY HURT WAS TOO GREAT TO CONT9UE ! DISCUSSION4 ,HE HAD KN[N H[ ,I HAD WANT$ HIM TO %>E MY BOOKS1 H[ ,I HAD HOP$ & WAIT$ = HIM TO RECOGNIZE !IR VALUE & SIGNIFICANCE4 ,H[ C\LD HE HAVE KEPT ME 9 SUSP5SE1 H[ C\LD HE HAVE REMA9$ SIL5T AFT] HE HAD READ !M8 ,( C\RSE1 HE HAD A RI<T TO HIS OP9ION2 ?AT ,I BELIEV$ IMPLICITLY4 ,IT WAS NOT HIS DIFF]+ FROM ME ?AT HAD /ABB$ ME TO ! QUICK2 IT WAS HIS SCORN & RIDICULE ( :AT HAD COME TO MEAN SO MU* TO ME4 ,HUNEK]1 ,YEL9ECK1 /RANG]S 9 A MEASURE1 WELCOM$ MY APPRECIATION ( ! NEW SPIRIT1 :ILE MY [N LOV] MADE ME APPE> SILLY1 *ILDI%1 9CAPABLE ( JUDGM5T4 ,I WANT$ TO RUN AWAY FROM ,JU/US@&_?#a#d#f2S PLACE1 TO BE ALONE2 BUT ,I *ECK$ MYSELF4 ,I C\LD NOT BE> AN OP5 CONFLICT ) ,$4 ,LATE AT NI<T1 :5 WE RETURN$ HOME1 HE SAID TO ME3 0,LETS NOT SPOIL \R BEAUTIFUL ?REE MON?S2 ,NIETZS*E IS NOT WOR? IT40 ,I FELT W\ND$ TO ! HE>T4 0,IT ISN'T ,NIETZS*E1 IT IS Y\-Y\10 ,I CRI$ EXCIT$LY4 0,UND] ! PRETEXT ( A GREAT LOVE Y\ HAVE DONE Y\R UTMO/ TO *A9 ME TO Y\1 TO ROB ME ( ALL ?AT IS MORE PRECI\S TO ME ?AN LIFE4 ,Y\ >E NOT CONT5T ) B9D+ MY BODY1 Y\ WANT ALSO TO B9D MY SPIRIT6 ,FIR/ ! MOVEM5T & MY FRI5DS- N[ ITS ! BOOKS ,I LOVE4 ,Y\ WANT TO TE> ME AWAY FROM !M4 ,Y\'RE ROOT$ 9 ! OLD4 ,V]Y WELL1 REMA9 !RE6 ,BUT DON'T IMAG9E Y\ WILL HOLD ME TO IT4 ,Y\ >E NOT GO+ TO CLIP MY W+S1 Y\ %AN'T /OP MY FLI<T4 ,I'LL FREE MYSELF EV5 IF IT MEANS TE>+ Y\ \T ( MY HE>T40 ,HE /OOD LEAN+ AGA9/ ! DOOR ( HIS ROOM1 HIS EYES CLOS$1 GIV+ NO SI< ( HAV+ HE>D A WORD ,I SAID4 ,BUT ,I NO LONG] C>$4 ,I /EPP$ 9TO MY [N ROOM1 MY HE>T COLD & EMPTY4 ,! LA/ FEW DAYS W]E \TW>DLY CALM1 EV5 FRI5DLY1 ,$ HELP+ ME TO PREP>E = MY DEP>TURE4 ,AT ! /ATION HE EMBRAC$ ME4 ,I KNEW HE WANT$ TO SAY SOME?+1 BUT HE REMA9$ SIL5T4 ,I1 TOO1 C\LD NOT SPEAK4 ,:5 ! TRA9 PULL$ \T & ,$@&_?#a#d#f2S =M REC$$1 ,I REALIZ$ ?AT \R LIFE W\LD NEV] BE ! SAME ANY MORE4 ,MY LOVE HAD RECEIV$ TOO VIOL5T A %OCK4 ,IT WAS N[ LIKE A CRACK$ BELL2 NEV] AGA9 W\LD IT R+ ! SAME CLE>1 JOY\S SONG4 

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