,VOLUME #a1 ,*APT] #a #aicaaica ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN ,TEXT 3 ,PHOTO BY ,SNAP%OTS ( ! ,PA/1,C,C ,B,Y ,LIC5SE ,LIV+ ,MY ,LIFE BY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN ,VOLUME ONE ,NEW ,YORK3 ,ALFR$ ,A ,KNOPF ,9C41#a#i#c#a4 ,*APT] #a ,IT WAS ! #a#e? ( ,AUGU/ #a#h#h#i1 ! DAY ( MY >RIVAL 9 ,NEW ,YORK ,CITY4 ,I WAS TW5TY YE>S OLD4 ,ALL ?AT HAD HAPP5$ 9 MY LIFE UNTIL ?AT TIME WAS N[ LEFT BEH9D ME1 CA/ (F LIKE A WORN-\T G>M5T4 ,A NEW WORLD WAS BE=E ME1 /RANGE & T]RIFY+4 ,BUT ,I HAD Y\?1 GOOD HEAL?1 & A PASSIONATE IDEAL4 ,:ATEV] ! NEW HELD 9 /ORE = ME ,I WAS DET]M9$ TO MEET UNFL9*+LY4 ,H[ WELL ,I REMEMB] ?AT DAY6 ,IT WAS A ,SUNDAY4 ,! ,WE/ ,%ORE TRA91 ! *EAPE/1 :I* WAS ALL ,I C\LD AF=D1 HAD BR\RI$ ?REE ADDRESSES1 ONE ( A M>RI$ AUNT1 ONE ( A Y\NG M$ICAL /UD5T ,I HAD MET 9 ,NEW ,HAV5 A YE> BE=E1 :ILE WORK+ 9 A CORSET FACTORY !RE1 & ONE ( ! ,FREIHEIT1 A ,G]MAN AN>*I/ PAP] PUBLI%$ BY ,JOHANN ,MO/4 ,MY 5TIRE POSSESSIONS CONSI/$ ( FIVE DOLL>S & A SMALL H&-BAG4 ,MY SEW+-MA*9E1 :I* WAS TO HELP ME TO 9DEP5D5CE1 ,I HAD *ECK$ AS BAGGAGE4 ,IGNORANT ( ! DI/ANCE FROM ,WE/ ,=TY-SECOND ,/REET TO ! ,B[]Y1 :]E MY AUNT LIV$1 & UNAW>E ( ! 5]VAT+ HEAT ( A ,NEW ,YORK DAY 9 ,AUGU/1 ,I />T$ \T ON FOOT4 ,H[ CONFUS+ & 5DLESS A L>GE CITY SEEMS TO ! NEW-COM]1 H[ COLD & UNFRI5DLY6 ,AFT] RECEIV+ MANY DIRECTIONS & MISDIRECTIONS & MAK+ FREQU5T /OPS AT BEWILD]+ 9T]SECTIONS1 ,I L&$ 9 ?REE H\RS AT ! PHOTOGRAPHIC GALL]Y ( MY AUNT & UNCLE4 ,TIR$ & HOT1 ,I DID NOT AT FIR/ NOTICE ! CON/]NATION ( MY RELATIVES AT MY UNEXPECT$ >RIVAL4 ,!Y ASK$ ME TO MAKE MYSELF AT HOME1 GAVE ME BREAKFA/1 & !N PLI$ ME ) QUE/IONS4 ,:Y DID ,I COME TO ,NEW ,YORK8 ,HAD ,I DEF9ITELY BROK5 ) MY HUSB&8 ,DID ,I HAVE MONEY8 ,:AT DID ,I 9T5D TO DO8 ,I WAS TOLD ?AT ,I C\LD1 ( C\RSE1 /AY ) !M4 0,:]E ELSE C\LD Y\ GO1 A Y\NG WOMAN ALONE 9 ,NEW ,YORK80 ,C]TA9LY1 BUT ,I W\LD HAVE TO LOOK = A JOB IMM$IATELY4 ,BUS9ESS WAS BAD1 & ! CO/ ( LIV+ HI<4 ,I HE>D IT ALL AS IF 9 A /UPOR4 ,I WAS TOO EXHAU/$ FROM MY WAKEFUL NIT$4 ,! FRI5D ,I HAD 9V5T$ 9 ORD] TO ESCAPE ! 0HOSPITALITY0 ( MY RELATIVES WAS ONLY A SLI*I/ BY ! NAME ( ,A4 ,SOLOT>(F1 :OM ,I HAD ONCE HE>D LECTURE 9 ,NEW ,HAV54 ,N[ ,I />T$ \T TO F9D HIM4 ,AFT] A LONG SE>* ,I DISCOV]$ ! H\SE1 BUT ! T5ANT HAD LEFT4 ,! JANITOR1 AT FIR/ V]Y BRUSQUE1 MU/ HAVE NOTIC$ MY DESPAIR4 ,HE SAID HE W\LD LOOK = ! ADDRESS ?AT ! FAMILY LEFT :5 !Y MOV$4 ,PRES5TLY HE CAME BACK ) ! NAME ( ! /REET1 BUT !RE WAS NO NUMB]4 ,:AT WAS ,I TO DO8 ,H[ TO F9D ,SOLOT>(F 9 ! VA/ CITY8 ,I DECID$ TO /OP AT EV]Y H\SE1 FIR/ ON ONE SIDE ( ! /REET1 & !N ON ! O!R4 ,UP & D[N1 SIX FLIY4 ,! OPPRESSIVE DAY WAS DRAW+ TO A CLOSE4 ,AT LA/1 :5 ,I WAS AB\T TO GIVE UP ! SE>*1 ,I DISCOV]$ HIM ON ,MONTGOM]Y ,/REET1 ON ! FIF? FLOOR ( A T5EM5T H\SE SEE?+ ) HUMANITY4 ,A YE> HAD PASS$ S9CE \R FIR/ MEET+1 BUT ,SOLOT>(F HAD NOT =GOTT5 ME4 ,HIS GREET+ WAS G5IAL & W>M1 AS ( AN OLD FRI5D4 ,HE TOLD ME ?AT HE %>$ HIS SMALL AP>TM5T ) HIS P>5TS & LITTLE BRO!R1 BUT ?AT ,I C\LD HAVE HIS ROOM2 HE W\LD /AY ) A FELL[-/UD5T = A FEW NI*I/S1 & O!R 9T]E/+ MATT]S4 ,I WAS GRATEFUL TO MY HO/1 MU* MORE = HIS FRI5DLY CONC]N & CAM>AD]IE ?AN = ! TEA & CAKE4 ,I =GOT ! BITT]NESS ?AT HAD FILL$ MY S\L OV] ! CRUEL RECEPTION GIV5 ME BY MY [N K94 ,NEW ,YORK NO LONG] SEEM$ MON/] IT HAD APPE>$ 9 ! 5DLESS H\RS ( MY PA9FUL WALK ! ,B[]Y4 ,LAT] ,SOLOT>(F TOOK ME TO ,SA*S'S CAFE ON ,SUFFOLK ,/REET1 :I*1 AS HE 9=M$ ME1 WAS ! HEADQU>T]S ( ! ,EA/ ,SIDE RADICALS1 SOCIALI/S1 & AN>*I/S1 AS WELL AS ( ! Y\NG ,YIDDI% WRIT]S & POETS4 0,EV]YBODY =GA!RS !RE10 HE REM>K$2 0 ! ,M9K9 SI/]S WILL NO D\BT ALSO BE !RE40 ,= ONE :O HAD JU/ COME AWAY FROM ! MONOTONY ( A PROV9CIAL T[N LIKE ,RO*E/] & :OSE N]VES W]E ON $GE FROM A NI1 ! NOISE & TURMOIL ?AT GREET$ US AT ,SA*S'S W]E C]TA9LY NOT V]Y SOO?+4 ,! PLACE CONSI/$ ( TWO ROOMS & WAS PACK$4 ,EV]YBODY TALK$1 GE/ICULAT$1 & >GU$1 9 ,YIDDI% & ,RUSSIAN1 EA* COMPET+ ) ! O!R4 ,I WAS ALMO/ OV]COME 9 ?IS /RANGE HUMAN M$LEY4 ,MY ESCORT DISCOV]$ TWO GIRLS AT A TABLE4 ,HE 9TRODUC$ !M AS ,ANNA & ,HEL5 ,M9K94 ,!Y W]E ,RUSSIAN ,JEWI% WORK+ GIRLS4 ,ANNA1 ! OLD]1 WAS AB\T MY [N AGE2 ,HEL5 P]HAPS EI(F WAS PO9T+ \T TO ME ! DIFF]5T PEOPLE 9 ! CAFE1 ,I SUDD5LY HE>D A P[]FUL VOICE CALL3 0,EXTRA-L>GE /EAK6 ,EXTRA CUP ( C(FEE60 ,MY [N CAPITAL WAS SO SMALL & ! NE$ = ECONOMY SO GREAT ?AT ,I WAS />TL$ BY SU* APP>5T EXTRAVAGANCE4 ,BESIDES1 ,SOLOT>(F HAD TOLD ME ?AT ONLY POOR /UD5TS1 WRIT]S1 & WORK]S W]E ! CLI5TS ( ,SA*S4 ,I WOND]$ :O ?AT RECKLESS P]SON C\LD BE & H[ HE C\LD AF=D SU* FOOD4 0,:O IS ?AT GLUTTON80 ,I ASK$4 ,SOLOT>(F LAU<$ AL\D4 0,?AT IS ,ALEX&] ,B]KMAN4 ,HE CAN EAT = ?REE4 ,BUT HE R>ELY HAS 5\< MONEY = MU* FOOD4 ,:5 HE HAS1 HE EATS ,SA*S \T ( HIS SUPPLIES4 ,I'LL 9TRODUCE HIM TO Y\40 ,WE HAD F9I%$ \R MEAL1 & SEV]AL PEOPLE CAME TO \R TABLE TO TALK TO ,SOLOT>(F4 ,! MAN ( ! EXTRA-L>GE /EAK WAS /ILL PACK+ IT AWAY AS IF HE HAD GONE HUNGRY = WEEKS4 ,JU/ AS WE W]E AB\T TO DEP>T1 HE APPROA*$ US1 & ,SOLOT>(F 9TRODUC$ HIM4 ,HE WAS NO MORE ?AN A BOY1 H>DLY EIK$ TO ME3 0,JOHANN ,MO/ IS SPEAK+ TONI HIM80 ,H[ EXTRAORD9>Y1 ,I ?\ ! FI]Y MAN :OM ! ,RO*E/] PRESS US$ TO PORTRAY AS ! P]SONIFICATION ( ! DEVIL1 A BLOOD?IR/Y DEMON6 ,I HAD PLANN$ TO VISIT ,MO/ 9 ! (FICE ( HIS NEWSPAP] SOME TIME LAT]1 BUT ?AT ! OPPORTUNITY %\LD PRES5T ITSELF 9 SU* AN UNEXPECT$ MANN] GAVE ME ! FEEL+ ?AT SOME?+ WOND]FUL WAS AB\T TO HAPP51 SOME?+ ?AT W\LD DECIDE ! :OLE C\RSE ( MY LIFE4 ,ON ! WAY TO ! HALL ,I WAS TOO ABSORB$ 9 MY ?\ MU* ( ! CONV]SATION ?AT WAS GO+ ON BETWE5 ,B]KMAN & ! ,M9K9 SI/]S4 ,SUDD5LY ,I /UMBL$4 ,I %\LD HAVE FALL5 HAD NOT ,B]KMAN GRIPP$ M >M & HELD ME UP4 0,I HAVE SAV$ Y\R LIFE10 HE SAID JE/+LY4 0,I HOPE ,I MAY BE ABLE TO SAVE Y\RS SOME DAY10 ,I QUICKLY REPLI$4 ,! MEET+-PLACE WAS A SMALL HALL BEH9D A SALOON1 ?R\< :I* ONE HAD TO PASS4 ,IT WAS CR[D$ ) ,G]MANS1 DR9K+1 SMOK+1 & TALK+4 ,BE=E LONG1 ,JONA?AN ,MO/ 5T]$4 ,MY FIR/ IMPRESSION ( HIM WAS ONE ( REVULSION4 ,HE WAS ( M$IUM HEIGE HEAD CR[N$ ) GRAYI% BU%Y HAIR2 BUT HIS FACE WAS TWI/$ \T ( =M BY AN APP>5T DISLOCATION ( ! LEFT JAW4 ,ONLY HIS EYES W]E SOO?+2 !Y W]E BLUE & SYMPA!TIC4 ,HIS SPEE* WAS A SCOR*+ D5UNCIATION ( ,AM]ICAN CONDITIONS1 A BIT+ SATIRE ON ! 9JU/ICE & BRUTALITY ( ! DOM9ANT P[]S1 A PASSIONATE TIRADE AGA9/ ?OSE RESPONSIBLE = ! ,HAYM>KET TRAG$Y & ! EXECUTION ( ! ,*ICAGO AN>*I/S 9 ,NOVEMB] #a#h#h#g4 ,HE SPOKE ELOQU5TLY & PICTURESQUELY4 ,AS IF BY MAGIC1 HIS DISFIGUREM5T DISAPPE>$1 HIS LACK ( PHYSICAL DI/9CTION WAS =GOTT54 ,HE SEEM$ TRANS=M$ 9TO SOME PRIMITIVE P[]1 RADIAT+ HATR$ & LOVE1 /R5G? & 9SPIRATION4 ,! RAPID CURR5T ( HIS SPEE*1 ! MUSIC ( HIS VOICE1 & HIS SP>KL+ WIT1 ALL COMB9$ TO PRODUCE AN EFFECT ALMO/ OV]:ELM+4 ,HE /IRR$ ME TO MY DEP?S4 ,CAUDS ! PLAT=M1 ,I F\ND MYSELF BE=E ,MO/4 ,B]KMAN WAS NE> ME & 9TRODUC$ ME4 ,BUT ,I WAS DUMB ) EXCITEM5T & N]V\SNESS1 FULL ( ! TUMULT ( EMOTIONS ,MO/'S SPEE* HAD >\S$ 9 ME4 ,?AT NITYRDOM1 YET EV]Y DETAIL /OOD \T CLE> BE=E MY VISION & AFFECT$ ME AS IF IT HAD HAPP5$ BYT YE/]DAY4 ,MY SI/] ,HEL5A & ,I HAD BECOME 9T]E/$ 9 ! FATE ( ! M5 DUR+ ! P]IOD ( !IR TRIAL4 ,! REPORTS 9 ! ,ROD*E/] NEWSPAP]S IRRITAT$1 CONFUS$1 & UPSET US BY !IR EVID5T PREJUDICE4 ,! VIOL5CE ( ! PRESS1 ! BITT] D5UNCIATION ( ! ACCUS$1 ! ATTACKS ON ALL =EIGN]S1 TURN$ \R SYMPA?IES TOT HE ,HAYM>KET VICTIMS4 ,WE HAD LE>N$ ( ! EXI/5CE 9 ,RO*E/] ( A ,G]MAN SOCIALI/ GR\P ?AT HELD SESSIONS ON ,SUNDAY 9 ,G]MANIA ,HALL4 ,WE BEGAN TO ATT5D ! MEET+S1 MY OLD] SI/]1 ,HEL5A1 ON A FEW OCCASIONS ONLY1 & ,I REGUL>LY4 ,! GA!R+S W]E G5]ALLY UN9T]E/+1 BUT !Y (F]$ AN ESCAPE FROM ! GRAY DULLNESS ( MY ,RO*E/] EXI/5CE4 ,!RE ONE HE>D1 AT LEA/1 SOME?+ DIFF]5T FROM ! EV]LA/+ TALK AB\T MONEY & BUS9ESS1 & ONE MEET PEOPLE ( SPIRIT & IDEAS4 ,ONE ,SUNDAY IT WAS ANN\NC$ ?AT A FAM\S SOCIALI/ SPEAK] FROM ,NEW ,YORK1 ,JOHANNA ,GREIE1 W\LD LECTURE ON ! CASE !N BE+ TRI$ 9 ,*ICAGO4 ,ON ! APPO9T$ DAY ,I WAS ! FIR/ 9 ! HALL4 ,! HUGE PLACE WAS CR[D$ FROM TOP TO BOTTOM BY EAG] M5 & WOM51 :ILE ! WALLS W]E L9$ ) POLICE4 ,I HAD NEV] BE=E BE5 AT SU* A L>GE MEET+4 ,I HAD SE5 G5D>MES 9 ,/4 ,PET]SBURG DISP]SE SMALL /UD5T GA!R+S4 ,BUT ?AT 9 ! C\NTRY :I* GU>ANTE$ FREE SPEE*1 (FIC]S >M$ ) LONG CLUBS %\LD 9VADE AN ORD]LY ASSEMBLY FILL$ ME ) CON/]NATION & PROTE/4 ,SOON ! *AIRMAN ANN\NC$ ! SPEAK]4 ,%E WAS A WOMAN 9 H] ?IRTIES1 PALE & ASCETIC-LOOK+1 ) L>GE LUM9\S EYES4 ,%E SPOKE ) GREAT E>NE/NESS1 9 A VOICE VIBRAT+ ) 9T5SITY4 ,H] MANN] 5GROSS$ ME4 ,I =GOT ! POLICE1 ! AUDI5CE1 & EV]Y ?+ ELSE AB\T ME4 ,I WAS AW>E ONLY ( ! FRAIL WOMAN 9 BLACK CRY+ \T H] PASSIONATE 9DICTM5T AGA9/ ! =CES ?AT W]E AB\T TO DE/ROY EIVE/] ,COMPANY 9 ?AT CITY WAS ATTACK$ BY POLICE2 M5 & WOM5 W]E BEAT5 & SEV]AL P]SONS KILL$4 ,TO PROTE/ AGA9/ ! \TRAGE A MASS MEET+ WAS CALL$ 9 ,HAYM>KET ,SQU>E ON ,MAY #d4 ,IT WAS ADDRESS$ BY ,ALB]T ,P>SONS1 ,AUGU/ ,SPIES1 ,ADOLPH ,FIS*]1 & O!RS1 & WAS QUIET & ORD]LY4 ,?IS WAS ATTE/$ TO BY ,C>T] ,H>RISON1 ,MAYOR ( ,*ICAGO1 :O HAD ATT5D$ ! MEET+ TO SEE :AT WAS GO+ ON4 ,! ,MAYOR LEFT1 SATISFI$ ?AT EV]Y?+ WAS ALL RIT$ TO DISP]SE1 ONLY A FEW REMA9+ :ILE ONE ( ! LA/ SPEAK]S WAS ADDRESS+ ! AUDI5CE4 ,!N ,CAPTA9 ,W>D1 ACCOMPANI$ BY A /RONG =CE ( POLICE1 SUDD5LY APPE>$ ON ! SQU>E4 ,HE ORD]$ ! MEET+ TO DISP]SE =?)4 0,?IS IS AN ORD]LV ASSEMBLY10 ! *AIRMAN REPLI$1 :]EUPON ! POLICE FELL UPON ! PEOPLE1 CLUBB+ !M UNM]CIFULLY4 ,!N SOME?+ FLA%$ ?R\< ! AIR & EXPLOD$1 KILL+ A NUMB] ( POLICE (FIC]S & W\ND+ A SCORE ( O!RS4 ,IT WAS NEV] ASC]TA9$ :O ! ACTUAL CULPRIT WAS1 & ! AU?ORITIES APP>5TLY MADE LITTLE EF=T TO DISCOV] HIM4 ,9/EAD ORD]S W]E IMM$IATELY ISSU$ = ! >RE/ ( ALL ! SPEAK]S AT ! ,HAYM>KET MEET+ & O!R PROM95T AN>*I/S4 ,! 5TIRE PRESS & B\RGEOISIE ( ,*ICAGO & ( ! :OLE C\NTRY BEGAN %\T+ = ! BLOOD ( ! PRISON]S4 ,A V]ITABLE CAMPAIGN ( T]ROR WAS C>RI$ ON BY ! POLICE1 :O W]E GIV5 MORAL & F9ANCIAL 5C\RAGEM5T BY ! ,CITIZ5S' ,ASSOCIATION TO FUR!R !IR MURD]\S PLAN TO GET ! AN>*I/S \T ( ! WAY4 ,! PUBLIC M9D WAS SO 9FLAM$ BY ! ATROCI\S /ORIES CIRCULAT$ BY ! PRESS AGA9/ ! LEAD]S ( ! /RIKE ?AT A FAIR TRIAL = !M BECAME AN IMPOSSIBILITY4 ,9 FACT1 ! TRIAL PROV$ ! WOR/ FRAME-UP 9 ! HI/ORY ( ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES4 ,! JURY WAS PICK$ = CONVICTION2 ! ,DI/RICT ,ATTORNEY ANN\NC$ 9 OP5 C\RT ?AT IT WAS NOT ONLY ! >RE/$ M5 :O W]E ! ACCUS$1 BUT ?AT 0AN>*Y WAS ON TRIAL0 & ?AT IT WAS TO BE EXT]M9AT$4 ,! JUDGE REPEAT$LY D5\NC$ ! PRISON]S FROM ! B5*1 9FLU5C+ ! JURY AGA9/ !M4 ,! WITNESSES W]E T]RORIZ$ OR BRIB$1 ) ! RESULT ?AT EI*I/S1 C\PL$ ) ! EMPLOY]S' BITT] OPPOSITION TO ! EI*I/S4 ,FIVE ( !M ---,ALB]T ,P>SONS1 ,AUGU/ ,SPIES1 ,L\IS ,L+G1 ,ADOLPH ,FIS*]1 & ,GEORGE ,5GEL --- W]E S5T5C$ TO DIE BY HANG+2 ,MI*AEL ,S*WAB & ,SAMUEL ,FIELD5 W]E DOOM$ TO LIFE IMPRISONM5T2 ,NEEBE RECEIV$ FIFTE5 YE>S' S5T5CE4 ,! 9NOC5T BLOOD ( ! ,HAYM>KET M>TYRS WAS CALL+ = REV5GE4 ,AT ! 5D ( ,GREIE'S SPEE* ,I KNEW :AT ,I HAD SURMIS$ ALL ALONG3 ! ,*ICAGO M5 W]E 9NOC5T4 ,!Y W]E TO BE PUT TO DEA? = !IR IDEAL4 ,BUT :AT WAS !IR IDEAL8 ,JOHANNA ,GREIC SPOKE ( ,P>SONS1 ,SPIES1 ,L+G1 & ! O!RS AS SOCIALI/S1 BUT ,I WAS IGNORANT ( ! REAL MEAN+ ( SOCIALISM4 ,:AT ,I HAD HE>D FROM ! LOCAL SPEAK]S HAD IMPRESS$ ME AS COL\RIESS & ME*ANI/IC4 ,ON ! O!R H&1 ! PAP]S CALL$ !SE M5 AN>*I/S1 BOMB-?R[]S4 ,:AT WAS AN>*ISM8 ,IT WAS ALL V]Y PUZZL+4 ,BUT ,I HAD NO TIME = FUR!R CONTEMPLATION4 ,! PEOPLE W]E FIL+ \T1 & ,I GOT UP TO LEAVE4 ,GREIE1 ! *AIRMAN1 & A GR\P ( FRI5DS W]E /ILL ON ! PLAT=M4 ,AS ,I TURN$ T[>DS !M1 ,I SAW ,GREIE MOTION+ TO ME4 ,I WAS />TL$1 MY HE>T BEAT VIOL5TLY1 & MY FEET FELT LEAD54 ,:5 ,I APPROA*$ H]1 %E TOOK ME BY ! H& & SAID3 0,I NEV] SAW A FACE ?AT REFLECT$ SU* A TUMULT ( EMOTIONS AS Y\RS4 ,Y\ MU/ BE FEEL+ ! IMP5D+ TRAG$Y 9T5SELY4 ,DO Y\ KN[ ! M580 ,9 A TREMBL+ VOICE ,I REPLI$3 0,UN=TUNATELY NOT1 BUT ,I DO FEEL ! CASE ) EV]Y FIB]1 & :5 ,I HE>D Y\ SPEAK1 IT SEEM$ TO ME AS IF ,I KNEW !M40 ,%E PUT H] H& ON MY %\LD]4 0,I HAVE A FEEL+ ?AT Y\ WILL KN[ !M BETT] AS Y\ LE>N !IR IDEAL1 & ?AT Y\ WILL MAKE !IR CAUSE Y\R [N40 ,I WALK$ HOME 9 A DREAM4 ,SI/] ,HEL5A WAS ALREADY ASLEEP1 BUT ,I HAD TO %>E MY EXP]I5CE ) H]4 ,I WOKE H] UP & RECIT$ TO H] ! :OLE /ORY1 GIV+ ALMO/ A V]BATIM ACC\NT ( ! SPEE*4 ,I MU/ HAVE BE5 V]Y DRAMATIC1 BECAUSE ,HEL5A EXCLAIM$3 0,! NEXT ?+ ,I'LL HE> AB\T MY LITTLE SI/] IS ?AT %E1 TOO1 IS A DANG]\S AN>*I/40 ,SOME WEEKS LAT] ,I HAD OCCASION TO VISIT A ,G]MAN FAMILY ,I KNEW4 ,I F\ND !M V]Y MU* EXCIT$4 ,SOMEBODY FROM ,NEW ,YORK HAD S5T !M A ,G]MAN PAP]1 ,DIE ,FREIHEIT1 $IT$ BY ,JOHANN ,MO/4 ,IT WAS FILL$ ) NEWS AB\T ! EV5TS 9 ,*ICAGO4 ,! LANGUAGE FAIRLY TOOK MY BREA? AWAY1 IT WAS SO DIFF]5T FROM :AT ,I HAD HE>D AT ! SOCIALI/ MEET+S & EV5 FROM ,JOHANNA ,GREIE'S TALK4 ,IT SEEM$ LAVA %OOT+ =? FLAMES ( RIDICULE1 SCORN1 & DEFIANCE2 IT BREA!D DEEP HATR$ ( ! P[]S ?AT W]E PREP>+ ! CRIME 9 ,*ICAGO4 ,I BEGAN TO READ1 ,DIE ,FREIHEIT REGUL>LY4 ,I S5T = ! LIT]ATURE ADV]TIS$ 9 ! PAP] & ,I DEV\R$ EV]Y L9E ON AN>*ISM ,I C\LD GET1 EV]Y WORD AB\T ! M51 !IR LIVES1 !IR WORK4 ,I READ AB\T !IR H]OIC /& :ILE ON TRIAL & !IR M>VEL\S DEF5SE4 ,I SAW A NEW WORLD OP5+ BE=E ME4 ,! T]RIBLE ?+ EV]YONE FE>$1 YET HOP$ W\LD NOT HAPP51 ACTUALLY OCCURR$4 ,EXTRA $ITIONS ( ! ,RO*E/] PAP]S C>RI$ ! NEWS3 ! ,*ICAGO AN>*I/S HAD BE5 HANG$6 ,WE W]E CRU%$1 ,HEL5A & ,I4 ,! %OCK COMPLETELY UNN]V$ MY SI/]2 %E C\LD ONLY WR+ H] H&S & WEEP SIL5TLY4 ,I WAS 9 A /UPOR2 A FEEL+ ( NUMBNESS CAME OV] ME1 SOME?+ TOO HORRIBLE EV5 = TE>S4 ,9 ! EV5+ WE W5T TO \R FA!R'S H\SE4 ,EV]YBODY TALK$ AB\T ! ,*ICAGO EV5TS4 ,I WAS 5TIRELY ABSORB$ 9 :AT ,I FELT AS MY [N LOSS4 ,!N ,I HE>D ! CO>SE LAU< ( A WOMAN4 ,9 A %RILL VOICE %E SNE]$3 0,:AT'S ALL ?IS LAM5T AB\T8 ,! M5 W]E MURD]]S4 ,IT IS WELL !Y W]E HANG$40 ,) ONE LEAP ,I WAS AT ! WOMAN'S ?ROAT4 ,!N ,I FELT MYSELF TORN BACK4 ,SOMEONE SAID3 0,! *ILD HAS GONE CRAZY40 ,I WR5*$ MYSELF FREE1 GRABB$ A PIT*] ( WAT] FROM A TABLE1 & ?REW IT ) ALL MY =CE 9TO ! WOMAN'S FACE4 0,\T1 \T10 ,I CRI$1 0OR ,I WILL KILL Y\60 ,! T]RIFI$ WOMAN MADE = ! DOOR & ,I DROPP$ TO ! GR\ND 9 A FIT ( CRY+4 ,I WAS PUT TO B$1 & SOON ,I FELL 9TO A DEEP SLEEP4 ,! NEXT MORN+ ,I WOKE AS FROM A LONG ILLNESS1 BUT FREE FROM ! NUMBNESS & ! DEPRESSION ( ?OSE H>R[+ WEEKS ( WAIT+1 5D+ ) ! F9AL %OCK4 ,I HAD A DI/9CT S5SATION ?AT SOME?+ NEW & WOND]FUL HAD BE5 BORN 9 MY S\L4 ,A GREAT IDEAL1 A BURN+ FAI?1 A DET]M9ATION TO D$ICATE MYSELF TO ! MEMORY ( MY M>TYR$ COMRADES1 TO MAKE !IR CAUSE MY [N1 TO MAKE KN[N TO ! WORLD !IR BEAUTIFUL LIVES & H]OIC DEA?S4 ,JOHANNA ,GREIE WAS MORE PROPHETIC ?AN SITE HAD PROBABLY REALIZ$4 ,MY M9D WAS MADE UP4 ,I W\LD GO TO ,NEW ,YORK1 TO ,JOHANN ,MO/4 ,HE W\LD HELP ME PREP>E MYSELF = MY NEW TASK4 ,BUT MY HUSB&1 MY P>5TS --- H[ W\LD !Y MEET MY DECISION8 ,I HAD BE5 M>RI$ ONLY T5 MON?S4 ,! UNION HAD NOT BE5 HAPPY4 ,I HAD REALIZ$ ALMO/ FROM ! BEG9N+ ?AT MY HUSB& & ,I W]E AT OPPOSITE POLES1 ) NO?+ 9 COMMON1 NOT EV5 SEXUAL BL5D+4 ,! V5TURE1 LIKE EV]Y?+ ELSE ?AT HAD HAPP5$ TO ME S9CE ,I HAD COME TO ,AM]ICA1 HAD PROV$ MO/ DISAPPO9T+4 ,AM]ICA1 0! L& ( ! FREE & ! HOME ( ! BRAVE0 --- :AT A F>CE IT N[ SEEM$ TO ME6 ,YET H[ ,I HAD F\K+ ON ! /EAM] ,ELBE = ! ,PROMIS$ ,L&4 ,ANO!R SI/] HAD PREC$$ US BY A FEW YE>S1 HAD M>RI$1 & WAS LIV+ 9 ,RO*E/]4 ,REPEAT$LY %E HAD WRITT5 ,HEL5A TO COME TO H]1 ?AT %E WAS LONELY4 ,AT LA/ ,HEL5A HAD DECID$ TO GO4 ,BUT ,I C\LD NOT SUPPORT ! ?\ATION FROM ! ONE :O MEANT MORE TO ME ?AN EV5 MY MO!R4 ,HEL5A ALSO HAT$ TO LEAVE ME BEH9D4 ,%E KNEW ( ! BITT] FRICTION ?AT EXI/$ BETWE5 ,FA!R & ME4 ,%E (F]$ TO PAY MY F>E1 BUT ,FA!R W\LD NOT CONS5T TO MY GO+4 ,I PLEAD$1 BEGG$1 WEPT4 ,F9ALLY ,I ?REAT5$ TO JUMP 9TO ! ,NEVA1 :]EUPON HE YIELD$4 ,EQUIPP$ ) TW5TY-FIVE RUBLES --- ALL ?AT ! OLD MAN W\LD GIVE ME --- ,I LEFT )\T REGRETS4 ,S9CE MY E>LIE/ RECOLLECTION1 HOME HAD BE5 /IFL+1 MY FA!R'S PRES5CE T]RIFY+4 ,MY MO!R1 :ILE LESS VIOL5T ) ! *ILDR51 NEV] %[$ MU* W>M?4 ,IT WAS ALWAYS ,HEL5A :O GAVE ME AFFECTION1 :O FILL$ MY *ILDHOOD ) :ATEV] JOY IT HAD4 ,%E W\LD CONT9UALLY %\LD] ! BLAME = ! RE/ ( ! *ILDR54 ,MANY BL[S 9T5D$ = MY BRO!R & ME W]E GIV5 ,HEL5A4 ,N[ WE W]E COMPLETELY TOGE!R-NOBODY W\LD SEP>ATE US4 ,WE TRAVEL$ /E]AGE1 :]E ! PASS5G]S W]E H]D$ TOGE!R LIKE CATTLE4 ,MY FIR/ CONTACT ) ! SEA WAS T]RIFY+ & FASC9AT+4 ,! FRE$OM FROM HOME1 ! BEAUTY & WOND] ( ! 5DLESS EXPANSE 9 ITS V>Y+ MOODS1 & ! EXCIT+ ANTICIPATION ( :AT ! NEW L& W\LD (F] /IMULAT$ MY IMAG9ATION & S5T MY BLOOD T+L+4 ,! LA/ DAY ( \R J\RNEY COMES VIVIDLY TO MY M9D4 ,EV]YBODY WAS ON DECK4 ,HEL5A & ,I /OOD PRESS$ TO EA* O!R1 5RAPTUR$ BY ! SIBOR & ! ,/ATUE ( ,LIB]TY SUDD5LY EM]G+ FROM ! MI/4 ,AH1 !RE %E WAS1 ! SYMBOL ( HOPE1 ( FRE$OM1 ( OPPORTUNITY6 ,%E HELD H] TOR* HI< TO LIT ( ,AM]ICA4 ,\R SPIRITS W]E HI<1 \R EYES FILL$ ) TE>S4 ,GRUFF VOICES BROKE 9 UPON \R REV]IE4 ,WE W]E SURR\ND$ BY GE/ICULAT+ PEOPLE --- ANGRY M51 HY/]ICAL WOM51 SCREAM+ *ILDR54 ,GU>DS R\D51 ! CLE>+-H\SE = IMMIGRANTS4 ,! SC5ES 9 ,CA/LE ,G>D5 W]E APPALL+1 ! ATMOSPH]E *>G$ ) ANTAGONISM & H>%NESS4 ,NO:]E C\LD ONE SEE A SYMPA!TIC (FICIAL FACE2 !RE WAS NO PROVISION = ! COM=T ( ! NEW >RIVALS1 ! PREGNANT WOM5 & Y\NG *ILDR54 ,! FIR/ DAY ON ,AM]ICAN SOIL PROV$ A VIOL5T %OCK4 ,WE W]E POSSESS$ BY ONE DESIRE1 TO ESCAPE FROM ! D ?AT ,RO*E/] WAS ! 0,FL[] ,CITY0 ( ,NEW ,YORK1 BUT WE >RIV$ !RE ON A BLEAK & COLD ,JANU>Y MORN+4 ,MY SI/] ,L5A1 HEAVY ) H] FIR/ *ILD1 & ,AUNT ,RA*EL MET US4 ,L5A'S ROOMS W]E SMALL1 BUT !Y W]E BRI$ = ,HEL5A & MYSELF WAS FILL$ ) FL[]S4 ,?R\<\T ! DAY PEOPLE CAME 9 & \T --- RELATIVES ,I HAD NEV] KN[N1 FRI5DS ( MY SI/] & ( H] HUSB&1 NEI AB\T ! OLD C\NTRY4 ,!Y W]E ,JEWS :O HAD SUFF]$ MU* 9 ,RUSSIA2 SOME ( !M HAD EV5 BE5 9 POGROMS4 ,LIFE 9 ! NEW C\NTRY1 !Y SAID1 WAS H>D2 !Y W]E ALL /ILL POSSESS$ BY NO/ALGIA = !IR HOME ?AT HAD NEV] BE5 A HOME4 ,AMONG ! VISITORS !RE W]E SOME :O HAD PROSP]$4 ,ONE MAN BOA/$ ?AT HIS SIX *ILDR5 W]E ALL WORK+1 SELL+ NEWSPAP]S1 %9+ %OES4 ,EV]YBODY WAS CONC]N$ AB\T :AT WE W]E GO+ TO DO4 ,ONE CO>SE-LOOK+ FELL[ CONC5TRAT$ HIS ATT5TION ON ME4 ,HE KEPT />+ AT ME ALL ! EV5+1 SCANN+ ME UP & D[N4 ,HE EV5 CAME OV] & TRI$ TO FEEL MY >MS4 ,IT GAVE ME ! S5SATION ( /&+ NAK$ ON ! M>KET-PLACE4 ,I WAS \TRAG$1 BUT ,I DID NOT WANT TO 9SULT MY SI/]'S FRI5DS4 ,I FELT UTT]LY ALONE & ,I RU%$ \T ( ! ROOM4 ,A LONG+ POSSESS$ ME = :AT ,I HAD LEFT BEH9D --- ,/4 ,PET]SBURG1 MY BELOV$ ,NEVA1 MY FRI5DS1 MY BOOKS & MUSIC4 ,I BECAME AW>E ( L\D VOICES 9 ! NEXT ROOM4 ,I HE>D ! MAN :O HAD 5RAG$ ME SAY3 0,I CAN GET H] A JOB AT ,G>SON & ,MAY]'S4 ,! WAGES WILL BE SMALL1 BUT %E WILL SOON F9D A FELL] TO M>RY H]4 ,SU* A BUXOM GIRL1 ) H] R$ *EEKS & BLUE EYES1 WILL NOT HAVE TO WORK LONG4 ,ANY MAN WILL SNAT* H] UP & KEEP H] 9 SILKS & DIAMONDS40 ,I ?\RY ME (F AT ! AGE ( FIFTE54 ,I HAD PROTE/$1 BEGG+ TO BE P]MITT$ TO CONT9UE MY /UDIES4 ,9 HIS FR5ZY HE ?REW MY ,FR5* GRAMM> 9TO ! FIRE1 %\T+3 0,GIRLS DO1 NOT HAVE TO LE>N MU*6 ,ALL A ,JEWI% DAUE GEFULLTE FI%1 CUT NOODLES F9E1 & GIVE ! MAN PL5TY ( *ILDR540 ,I W\LD NOT LI/5 TO HIS S*EMES2 ,I WANT$ TO /UDY1 TO KN[ LIFE1 TO TRAVEL4 ,BESIDES1 ,I NEV] W\LD M>RY = ANY?+ BUT LOVE1 ,I /\TLY MA9TA9$4 ,IT WAS REALLY TO ESCAPE MY FA!R'S PLANS = ME ?AT ,I HAD 9SI/$ ON GO+ TO ,AM]ICA4 ,N[ ATTEMPTS TO M>RY ME (F PURSU$ ME EV5 9 ! NEW L&4 ,I WAS DET]M9$ NOT TO BE B>T]$3 ,I W\LD GO TO WORK4 ,SI/] ,L5A HAD LEFT = ,AM]ICA :5 ,I WAS AB\T ELEV54 ,I US$ TO SP5D MU* TIME ) MY GR&MO!R 9 ,KOVNO1 :ILE MY PEOPLE LIV$ 9 ,POPELAN1 A SMALL T[N 9 ! ,BALTIC ,PROV9CE ( ,KURL&4 ,L5A HAD ALWAYS BE5 HO/ILE TO ME1 & UNEXPECT$LY ,I HAD DISCOV]$ ! REASON4 ,I C\LD NOT HAVE BE5 MORE ?AN SIX AT ! TIME1 :ILE ,L5A WAS TWO YE>S OLD]4 ,WE W]E PLAY+ A GAME ( M>BLES4 ,SOMEH[ SI/] ,L5A ?\E NOT MY SI/]40 ,! EFFECT ( H] \TBUR/ ON ME WAS PETRIFY+4 ,= A FEW MOM5TS ,I SAT RIVET$ TO ! GR\ND1 />+ AT ,L5A 9 SIL5CE2 !N ! T5SION GAVE WAY TO A FIT ( CRY+4 ,I RAN TO SI/] ,HEL5A1 TO :OM ,I C>RI$ ALL MY *ILDI% WOES4 ,I DEM&$ TO KN[ :AT ,L5A HAD MEANT :5 %E SAID MY FA!R HAD ROBB$ H]1 & :Y ,I WAS NOT H] SI/]4 ,AS USUAL ,HEL5A TOOK ME 9 H] >MS1 TRI$ TO COM=T ME1 & MADE LIN$ ?AT !RE HAD BE5 ANO!R FA!R1 ,HEL5A'S & ,L5A'S4 ,HE HAD DI$ Y\NG & ,MO!R HAD !N *OS5 MY FA!R1 M9E & MY BABY BRO!R'S4 ,%E SAID ?AT MY FA!R WAS ALSO ,HEL5A'S & ,L5A'S1 EV5 IF !Y W]E HIS /EP*ILDR54 ,IT WAS TRUE1 %E EXPLA9$1 ?AT ,FA!R HAD US$ ! MONEY LEFT TO ! TWO GIRLS4 ,HE HAD 9VE/$ IT 9 BUS9ESS & FAIL$4 ,HE HAD MEANT IT = ! GOOD ( ALL ( US4 ,BUT :AT ,MO!R TOLD ME DID NOT LESS5 MY GREAT HURT4 0,FA!R HAD NO RIE ORPHANS4 ,IT IS A S9 TO ROB ORPHANS4 ,I WI% ,I W]E GR[N UP2 !N ,I C\LD PAY BACK ! MONEY4 ,YES1 ,I MU/ PAY BACK1 ,I MU/ ATONE = ,FA!R'S S940 ,I HAD BE5 TOLD BY MY ,G]MAN NURSE ?AT :OEV] WAS GUILTY ( ROBB+ ORPHANS W\LD NEV] GET TO HEAV54 ,I HAD NO CLE> CONCEPTION ( ?AT PLACE4 ,MY PEOPLE1 :ILE KEEP+ ,JEWI% RITES & GO+ TO ! SYNAGOGUE ON ,SATURDAYS & HOLIDAYS1 R>ELY SPOKE TO US AB\T RELIGION4 ,I GOT MY IDEA ( ,GOD & DEVIL1 S9 & PUNI%M5T1 FROM MY NURSE & \R ,RUSSIAN PEASANT S]VANTS4 ,I WAS SURE ,FA!R W\LD BE PUNI%$ IF ,I DID NOT PAY BACK HIS DEBT4 ,ELEV5 YE>S HAD PASS$ S9CE ?AT 9CID5T4 ,I HAD LONG =GOTT5 ! HURT ,L5A HAD CAUS$1 BUT ,I BY NO MEANS FELT ! GREAT AFFECTION = H] ?AT ,I BORE MY DE> ,HEL5A4 ,ALL ! WAY TO ,AM]ICA ,I HAD BE5 ANXI\S AB\T :AT ,L5A'S FEEL+S MIDS ME1 BUT :5 ,I SAW H]1 HEAVY ) H] FIR/ *ILD1 H] SMALL FACE PALE & %RUNK51 MY HE>T W5T \T TO H] AS IF !RE HAD NEV] BE5 A %AD[ BETWE5 US4 ,! DAY AFT] \R >RIVAL WE ?REE SI/]S REMA9$ ALONE4 ,L5A TOLD US H[ LONELY %E HAD BE51 H[ %E HAD LONG$ = US & = \R PEOPLE4 ,WE LE>N$ ( ! H>D LIFE ?AT HAD BE5 H]S1 FIR/ AS A DOME/IC S]VANT 9 ,AUNT ,RA*EL'S H\SE1 LAT] AS BUTTONHOLE-MAK] 9 ,/E9'S CLO?+-FACTORY4 ,H[ HAPPY %E WAS N[1 ) H] [N HOME AT LA/ & ! JOY ( H] EXPECT$ *ILD6 0,LIFE IS /ILL DIFFICULT10 ,L5A SAID2 0MY HUSB& IS E>N+ TWELVE DOLL>S A WEEK AS A T9-SMI?1 WORK+ ON RO(S 9 ! BEAT+ SUN & 9 ! COLD W9D1 ALWAYS 9 DANG]4 ,HE HAD BEGUN WORK+ AS A *ILD ( EIS A WEEK & A *ILD ON ! WAY6 ,SOME DAYS LAT] ,HEL5A GOT A JOB RET\*+ NEGATIVES1 :I* HAD BE5 H] WORK 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,I F\ND EMPLOYM5T AT ,G>SON & ,MAY]'S1 SEW+ UL/]S T5 & A HALF H\RS A DAY1 = TWO DOLL>S & FIFTY C5TS A WEEK4 ,FROM 3 ,AN>*Y ,>*IVES4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,DECEMB] #c#a1 #aic 3 ,VOLUME #a1 ,*APT] #a -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,JANU>Y #b#c1 #bag 3 ,VOLUME #a1 ,*APT] #a -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/