,Y>O/AN'S ,?IRD ,LETT] 

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,AU?OR 3 ,FR$Y ,P]LMAN 

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,Y>O/AN'S ?IRD LETT] 

  
  

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,Y\R LETT] WAS COMRADELY &4 ,I'LL TRY TO ANSW] 9 ! SAME SPIRIT4 ,BUT ,I DON'T AGREE ) Y\4 ,Y\ MAKE ! /ATEM5T3 0,\R PROJECT WAS NOT TO EXCOMMUNICATE BUT TO COMMUNICATE40 ,?IS IS A BAD JOKE4 ,I'LL TRY TO %[ Y\ ?AT \R PROJECT WAS TO EXCOMMUNICATE1 NOT TO COMMUNICATE4 

,I READ Y\R LETT] SEV]AL TIMES4 ,MIRNA READ IT4 ,%E'S /ILL CONV9C$ Y\'RE ! OGRE :O CAUS$ MY >RE/ BUT %E N[ CONSID]S Y\ A RA!R PLEASANT OGRE4 ,%E EV5 EXPRESS$ A DESIRE TO GET TOGE!R ) Y\ & ,SAB9A IF CIRCUM/ANCES %\LD EV] ALL[ SU* A MEET+4 ,BUT %E ?\<T ! PASSAGES :]E Y\ GLORIFY Y\R PA/ EXP]I5CE MU/ HAVE BE5 TAK5 FROM ! SPEE*ES ( \R POLITICIANS4 

,MIRNA & ,I W]E /UNN$ TO LE>N C]TA9 FACTS FROM Y\R LETT]4 ,I WAS AMAZ$ TO LE>N ?AT ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS HAD NOT BE5 >RE/$ AT ! TIME :5 Y\4 ,LUISA1 ,I & ! RE/ ( US W]E >RE/$4 ,I ALSO ?9K IT CURI\S ?AT Y\ & ,LUISA W]E RELEAS$ AFT] SP5D+ ONLY TWO DAYS 9 JAIL2 ,I SP5T F\R YE>S !RE & AS F> AS ,I KN[ V]Y FEW ( US W]E S5T5C$ TO T]MS %ORT] ?AN ?AT4 

,! REASON ,I WAS AMAZ$ ,ALB]TS HADN'T BE5 >RE/$ IS BECAUSE ,I HAD ALWAYS ?\<T HE'D BE5 >RE/$ BE=E ANY ( ! RE/ ( US4 ,I HAD ?\<T ,CLAUDE'S SUSPICION ( HIM A P>T ( AN (FICIAL CAMPAIGN DESIGN$ TO PREP>E ,ALB]TS' FRI5DS & ACQUA9TANCES = HIS >RE/4 ,SU* CAMPAIGNS TO /IGMATIZE AN 9DIVIDUAL AS A SUSPICI\S *>ACT] NORMALLY ORIG9AT$ HI< UP 9 ! POLITICAL HI]>*Y & W]E PASS$ D[N TO SUSCEPTIBLE PEOPLE LIKE ,CLAUDE4 ,AN 9/RUCTION WAS ?US TRANS=M$ 9TO A WIDELY CIRCULAT$ RUMOR1 ! RUMOR GRADUALLY BECAME A WIDELY HELD C]TA9TY1 & 9 TIME ALL ! VICTIM'S FRI5DS ACQUIESC$ 9 HIS TEMPOR>Y OR P]MAN5T LIQUIDATION1 FREQU5TLY FEEL+ RELIEV$ TO BE RID ( SU* A DANG]\S ACQUA9TANCE4 ,! FACT ?AT ,ALB]TS WASN'T >RE/$ SUGGE/S ?AT ! SUSPICION WAS NOT AN 9/RUCTION FROM ! TOP BUT ORIG9AT$ ) ,CLAUDE4 ,S9CE ,CLAUDE HAD NEV] HAD P]SONAL CONTACT ) ,ALB]TS HE MU/ HAVE BE5 PO9T+ HIS F+] AT ,LUISA OR ELSE AT ,TITUS ,ZABRAN OR ME1 S9CE WE W]E ,LUISA'S CLOSE/ FRI5DS & !RE=E BY EXT5SION ,ALB]TS' FRI5DS4 ,CLAUDE'S ACT MU/ HAVE BE5 A CLASSICAL POLITICAL MOVE3 HE WAS 9CRIM9AT+ ONE OR ALL ?REE ( US 9 ORD] TO E/ABLI% HIS P[] OV] ! RE/4 ,HIS SUCCESS AGA9/ US W\LD BE A P]MAN5T ?REAT HE C\LD HOLD OV] ! O!RS & HIS POSITION AS GANG LEAD] W\LD BE ASSUR$ BY HIS P[] TO ELIM9ATE REAL OR POT5TIAL OPPON5TS4 ,?IS W\LDN'T MEAN ?AT ,CLAUDE ,TAMNI* WAS ANY LESS ( A GORILLA ?AN ,I HAD REMEMB]$ HIM TO BE BUT IT W\LD MEAN ?AT HE WAS CONSID]ABLY MORE 9TELLIG5T4 

,ANO!R REASON ,I'M AMAZ$ TO LE>N ?AT ,ALB]TS WASN'T >RE/$ IS BECAUSE ?IS CONFLICTS ) AN EV5T Y\ M5TION$ 9 Y\R FIR/ LETT]1 NAMELY ) ! FACT ?AT HE WAS FIR$ FROM HIS JOB4 ,I HAD KN[N AB\T HIS EXPULSION AT ! TIME & HAD ASSUM$ ?IS HAD BE5 ! FIR/ /EP T[>D HIS >RE/ & IMPRISONM5T4 ,I HAD ASSUM$ HE HAD BE5 >RE/$ = EXACTLY ! SAME REASON WE W]E4 ,I HAD ?\<T HIS FIR+ HAD BE5 SOME?+ LIKE A =ECA/ ( \R >RE/2 HE WAS ACCUS$ ( SABOTAGE1 ( BE+ A =EIGN AG5T & ( REPRES5T+ A DANG] TO SOCIETY'S PRODUCTIVE =CES4 ,I KN[ HE WASN'T ! CAUSE ( \R >RE/ BUT ,I WAS SURE HE HAD BE5 >RE/$4 ,>E Y\ SURE AB\T ?IS8 ,I'M NOT ASK+ TO CAT* Y\ 9 ANO!R SLIP ( MEMORY BUT TO CL>IFY MY UND]/&+4 ,S9CE ,TITUS ,ZABRAN AS WELL AS ,LUISA HAD LONG BE5 HIS COMRADES ,I HAD ASSUM$ HIS ACTIVITY HAD BE5 SIMIL> TO ,LUISA'S1 AT LEA/ BE=E HE EMIGRAT$1 & ?AT CONSEQU5TLY HE HAD BE5 >RE/$ = ! SAME REASON4 

,! DETAIL ?AT UPSET ,MIRNA CONC]N$ ! LETT] Y\ S5T ME TWELVE YE>S AGO4 ,Y\ MAKE ME FEEL ,I %\LD APOLOGIZE = BR++ ?IS UP AGA94 ,BE=E M5TION+ :AT BO!R$ ,MIRNA ,I %\LD MAKE IT CLE> ?AT ,I DON'T CONSID] EI!R Y\ OR ,LUISA P]SONALLY RESPONSIBLE = MY >RE/ OR IMPRISONM5T4 ,Y\ APP>5TLY READ MY CRITIQUE ( \R %>$ PA/ ACTIVITY AS A CRITIQUE ( Y\ & ,LUISA & Y\ UND]/OOD ,MIRNA'S SUSPICIONS AB\T Y\R LETT] TO BE P>T ( ?AT CRITIQUE4 ,MY CRITIQUE IS PRIM>ILY A REEVALUATION ( MY [N PA/ & HAS NO?+ TO DO ) ,MIRNA'S SUSPICIONS4 ,I TOLD Y\ ,I DIDN'T CONSID] ?AT LETT] RESPONSIBLE = MY >RE/ & ,I DIDN'T MAKE ! ABSURD SUGGE/ION ?AT Y\ S5T 9/RUCTIONS TO ! POLICE4 ,AT ! TIME ( MY SECOND >RE/ ?\S&S ( PEOPLE W]E IMPRISON$2 !Y W]E ACCUS$ ( 5GAG+ 9 ACTS HO/ILE TO ! /ATE4 ,I WAS >RE/$ BECAUSE ( ! ACTIVITIES 9 :I* ,JAN ,S$LAK & ,I & SEV]AL O!R COMRADES W]E 5GAG$ AT ! TIME4 ,! >RIVAL ( Y\R LETT] HAPP5$ TO CO9CIDE ) A VA/ UPRIS+ ?AT BROKE \T 9 ,MAG>NA1 AN UPRIS+ :I* HAD NUM]\S E*OES H]E4 ,JAN & ,I W]E AMONG ?OSE E*OES2 ALL ! E*OES W]E SUPPRESS$4 ,MIRNA SAW A CAUSAL CONNECTION :]E !RE WAS NO?+ MORE ?AN A PURE CO9CID5CE4 ,YET MY M5TION ( ,MIRNA'S ]RONE\S CONCLUSION L$ Y\ TO ?9K ,I WAS ACCUS+ Y\ 9DIRECTLY1 BACKH&$LY4 ,SU* AN UND]/&+ ( MY LETT] MAKES IT DIFFICULT = ME TO DEAL ) ,MIRNA'S RESPONSE TO Y\R MO/ REC5T LETT]4 

,MIRNA WAS UPSET :5 %E LE>N$ ?AT ! MESS5G] :O DELIV]$ Y\R LETT] WAS >RE/$4 ,?IS 9=MATION CONFIRMS H] BELIEF ?AT Y\R LETT] WAS ! CAUSE ( MY >RE/4 ,H] BELIEF REMA9S GR\NDLESS1 BUT Y\R FRI5D'S >RE/ DOES POSE ANO!R QUE/ION4 ,:AT WAS HE DO+ H]E BESIDES DELIV]+ Y\R LETT]8 ,:Y WAS HE SO IMPORTANT TO ! POLICE8 ,DID !Y ?9K Y\R LETT] WAS AN IMPORTANT DOCUM5T1 OR WAS HE DELIV]+ SOME?+ ELSE BESIDES8 

,Y\ DIDN'T BELIEVE Y\R FRI5D'S ACC\NT ( ! EXP]I5CES TO :I* HE WAS SUBJECT$ 9 PRISON4 ,Y\ V]Y HONE/LY ADMITT$ Y\ C\LDN'T BELIEVE A WORLD WE HAD HELP$ BUILD C\LD HAVE DEG5]AT$ 9TO SU* A PRIMITIVE TORTURE *AMB]4 ,I DON'T KN[ :AT HE TOLD Y\ BUT ,I KN[ ?AT SOME ( ! EXP]I5CES ,I HAVE UND]GONE >E DIFFICULT TO PUT 9TO WORDS4 ,I SUSPECT ?AT Y\R GREATE/ 9JU/ICE TO HIM WAS TO ?9K HE WAS LY+4 

,! FATE ( Y\R LETT] ILLU/RATES A PO9T ,I'M TRY+ TO MAKE4 ,:AT IS ! RELATION BETWE5 ! 9T5TIONS ( \R ACTS & ! SIGNIFICANCE \R ACTS HAVE TO O!RS8 ,H[ DO O!RS UND]/& & RESPOND TO \R WORDS & GE/URES8 ,MIRNA'S RESPONSE TO Y\R LETT] ILLU/RATES ?AT ?IS RELATION%IP IS NOT AS CLE> & OBVI\S AS Y\ MAKE IT SEEM4 ,LIV+ 9 A WORLD :]E >RE/S >E FREQU5T1 :]E NEWS IS R>ELY GOOD1 :]E ! \TCOME ( UNUSUAL EV5TS IS NOT ANTICIPAT$ ) JOY BUT ) FE>1 ,MIRNA SAW Y\R LETT] AS AN OM54 ,= ,MIRNA ?AT LETT] C\LD ONLY HAVE BE5 A ?REAT OR A SUMMONS2 ?OSE W]E ! ONLY TYPES ( MESSAGES %E HAD EV] RECEIV$4 ,MY PO9T ISN'T TO SUGGE/ ?AT ,MIRNA IS RI<T 9 ?9K+ Y\R E>LI] LETT] ! CAUSE ( MY >RE/4 ,MY PO9T IS TO UND]/& :AT H] ATTITUDE TO Y\R LETT] MEANS4 ,:AT Y\ EXCLUDE FROM Y\R ANALYSIS IS ! SOCIAL CONTEXT 9 :I* \R ACTS TAKE PLACE4 ,:5 Y\ WROTE ?AT LETT] TWELVE YE>S AGO Y\R 9T5TION WAS TO COMMUNICATE AB\T EXP]I5CES WE HAD %>$4 ,?IS WAS ! CONT5T ( Y\R LETT]4 ,YET TO ,MIRNA ?AT LETT] WAS AN OM52 IT WAS AN OBJECT :I* HAD NO?+ 9 COMMON ) Y\R 9T5TIONS4 ,MIRNA WAS WRONG4 ,BUT LET'S IMAG9E ?AT %E WAS RI<T1 ?AT Y\R LETT] DID HAVE SOME?+ TO DO ) MY >RE/4 ,9 ?AT CASE Y\R LETT] W\LD HAVE BE5 PRECISELY ! OBJECT ,MIRNA SAW & NOT ! COMMUNICATION Y\ HAD 9T5D$4 ,9 ?AT CASE !RE W\LD HAVE BE5 A GREAT DISCREPANCY BETWE5 Y\R 9T5TION1 TO COMMUNICATE1 & ! SIGNIFICANCE ( Y\R GE/URE1 TO CAUSE MY >RE/4 

,AFT] MY FIR/ RELEASE FROM PRISON MY \TLOOK WAS V]Y SIMIL> TO Y\R PRES5T \TLOOK4 ,MU* ( :AT ,I EXP]I5C$ DUR+ ?AT F\R-YE> T]M %\LD HAVE *ANG$ ?AT \TLOOK BUT FAIL$ TO DO SO UNTIL MANY YE>S LAT]4 ,LIKE Y\1 ,I TREAT$ MY PA/1 MY EXP]I5CE ) Y\ & MY UND]/&+ ( ,LUISA'S EXP]I5CE AS A /&>D ( COMP>ISON1 AS A />K CONTRA/ TO ! WORLD 9TO :I* ,I WAS RELEAS$4 ,! F\R YE>S 9 PRISON ONLY /R5G!N$ MY DESIRE TO COMMUNICATE ?IS EXP]I5CE TO O!RS4 ,LIKE Y\1 ,I WANT$ TO BR+ MY E>LI] EXP]I5CE BACK TO LIFE2 ,I LOOK$ = COMRADES ) :OM TO RESUME ! SAME /RUGGLE4 ,LIKE Y\1 ,I DIDN'T WANT TO BECOME A 0BL9D TOOL ( ! WORLD ?AT SURR\ND$ ME4 ,I SAW ?R\< ?AT WORLD1 ,I SAW IT AS A CAGE1 BECAUSE ,I HAD EXP]I5C$ AN \TSIDE1 A ,UTOPIA1 BECAUSE ,I HAD /RUGGL$ TOGE!R ) O!RS TO REALIZE A DIFF]5T WORLD4 

,?IS WAS MY \TLOOK :5 ,I EMBRAC$ ,MIRNA & H] P>5TS4 ,I SAW !M AS ! COMMON PEOPLE1 AS TYPICAL EXAMPLES ( ! BROADE/ SECTOR ( ! WORK+ POPULATION4 ,I WAS CONV9C$ ?AT IF ,I C\LD COMMUNICATE MY PROJECT TO !SE FEW PEOPLE !Y W\LD !MSELVES COMMUNICATE IT TO ALL ?OSE LIKE !M & ! REVOLUTION>Y PROJECT W\LD SPREAD LIKE A TIDAL WAVE4 ,I WAS CONV9C$ ?AT 9 TIME ,MIRNA'S FA!R W\LD TRANSLATE 9TO HIS [N LANGUAGE HIS UND]/&+ ?AT ! CON/RA9TS & ! DEAD5+ R\T9E W]E NOT IMPOS$ BY NATURE LIKE ! CYCLE ( PLANT+ & H>VE/+ BUT W]E SOCIALLY IMPOS$1 L>GELY BECAUSE HE & HIS LIKES CONS5T$ DAILY TO REPRODUCE ! CON/RA9T & ! R\T9E4 ,I WAS SURE HE'D F9D HIS [N WORDS = EXPRESS+ HIS UND]/&+ ?AT HE & HIS LIKES HAD ! ABILITY TO 5D ! 9F]NAL R\T9E & ! ABILITY TO PROJECT & BUILD AN ALTOGE!R DIFF]5T WORLD4 ,I WAS ALSO CONV9C$ ?AT ,MIRNA W\LD EASILY GRASP ?AT M>RIAGE1 *ILDBIR? & H\SEKEEP+ W]E NOT H] LOT1 ?AT ?OSE ACTIVITIES C\LDN'T CONT9UE IF %E & H] LIKES DIDN'T SUBMIT TO !M4 ,I WAS CONV9C$ ?AT AS SOON AS %E TRANSLAT$ ?IS UND]/&+ 9TO H] [N WORDS %E W\LD COMMUNICATE IT TO O!RS LIKE H]1 & A NEW FIELD ( POSSIBILITIES W\LD OP5 UP4 

,:5 ,JAN /ILL LIV$ AT ! ,S$LAK H\SE ,I S5S$ A C]TA9 HO/ILITY T[>D MY >GUM5TS4 ,?\< ,I KNEW HE AGRE$ ) ME1 HE NEV] SUPPORT$ ME4 ,ONCE1 AFT] A LONG >GUM5T ! SUBJECT ( :I* ,I'VE =GOTT51 HE TOLD ME HE HAD NEV] REALIZ$ H[ MU* ( A MISSION>Y ,I WAS4 ,HE TREAT$ MY >GUM5TS AS ATTEMPTS TO CONV]T HIS FAMILY TO A RELIGION4 ,I DIDN'T TRY TO UND]/& HIS ATTITUDE4 ,LAT]1 :5 HE & ,I WORK$ TOGE!R1 ,I DIDN'T DRAW ANY CONCLUSIONS FROM ! BLATANT DIFF]5CE BETWE5 HIS BEHAVIOR & M9E4 ,LIKE Y\R FRI5D ,RON HE FL\T$ AU?ORITY1 DIDN'T SUBMIT TO DISCIPL9E1 AVOID$ WORK :5EV] POSSIBLE & /OLE AS MU* AS HE C\LD4 ,ALSO LIKE ,RON & UNLIKE Y\ & ME HE DIDN'T >GUE1 HE DIDN'T TRY TO CONV]T ANYONE TO HIS ,UTOPIA1 HE MADE NO ATTEMPT TO COMMUNICATE HIS PA/ EXP]I5CES TO O!RS4 ,I DIDN'T LE>N ! SIGNIFICANCE ( ,JAN'S HO/ILITY UNTIL SEV]AL YE>S LAT]1 :5 IT HAD LONG BE5 TOO LATE TO LET HIM KN[ ,I F9ALLY UND]/OOD :AT HE HAD TRI$ TO TELL ME4 ,MY ACTIVITY DUR+ ?OSE HEAT$ AFT]-D9N] >GUM5TS WAS NOT COMMUNICATION2 IT WAS MISSION>Y ACTIVITY4 ,IT WAS EXACTLY ! TYPE ( ACTIVITY ?AT TAKES PLACE 9 ?AT S*OOL Y\ DESCRIB$2 IT C\LDN'T G5]ATE A COMMUNITY BUT ONLY DE/ROY IT4 ,I ACT$ T[>D MY HO/S & FUTURE RELATIVES AS A PRIE/1 A PR(ESSOR1 A P$AGOGUE4 ,MY M9D HAD TRANS=M$ MY PA/ EXP]I5CES 9TO REVELATIONS ( TRU? & ,I PR(ESS$ ?IS TRU? 9 ORD] TO CONV]T ,MIRNA1 H] FA!R & IF POSSIBLE EV5 H] MO!R4 ,I HAD CONV9C$ MYSELF ?AT AS SOON AS ,I COMMUNICAT$ ?IS TRU? FROM MY HEAD TO !IRS !Y W\LD SPREAD IT FUR!R4 

,EV]Y EV5+ AFT] D9N] ,I LAUN*$ 9TO A TIRADE AGA9/ ONE OR ANO!R TYPE ( SOLD ACTIVITY1 USUALLY BUS DRIV+4 ,:AT ,MIRNA'S FA!R HE>D WAS A TIRADE1 A LECTURE1 :I* REF]R$ ONLY M>G9ALLY TO HIS [N ACTIVITY AS BUS DRIV] & :I* HAD NO?+ AT ALL TO DO ) REBELLION OR 9SURRECTION4 ,HE KNEW PEOPLE :O REBELL$ 9 V>I\S WAYS3 SOME CAME TO WORK DRUNK1 O!RS DAMAG$ OR WRECK$ BUSSES1 YET O!RS US$ !IR BUSSES ON WEEK5DS = FAMILY \T+S4 ,HE MAY HAVE SYMPA?IZ$ ) ALL ( !M & HE UND]/OOD !Y W]E ALL REBELS 9 SOME S5SE4 ,I CLE>LY WASN'T LIKE !M4 ,MY DISC\RSES ON ! NE$ TO ABOLI% VEHICLES W]E NOT REBELLION BUT P$AGOGY4 

,PR(ESSORS ( 9SURRECTION >E NOT 9SURG5TS4 ,LAT] 9 ?IS LETT] ,I'LL TRY TO DESCRIBE :AT ,I ?9K !Y >E4 ,MO/ PEOPLE KN[ ?IS4 ,= EXAMPLE :5 ,MIRNA READ Y\R LETT] %E REM>K$ ?AT Y\R FRI5D ,RON REM9D$ H] ( H] BRO!R4 ,RON REJECT$ WAGE LABOR1 PRIVATE PROP]TY1 $UCATION & HIS FAMILY ?R\< CONCRETE ACTS2 HE F\<T AGA9/ !SE 9/ITUTIONS 9 HIS DAILY PRACTICE4 ,RON WAS AN 9SURG5T :]EAS Y\ & ,LUISA >E P$AGOGUES1 MISSION>IES4 ,Y\ RECOGNIZE ! CONTRADICTORY NATURE ( SU* P$AGOGY 9 Y\R DESCRIPTION ( Y\R ACADEMIC FRI5D ,DAMAN BUT Y\ DON'T SEEM TO RECOGNIZE IT 9 ,LUISA OR 9 Y\RSELF4 

,TO ,MIRNA'S FA!R ,I WAS NEI!R A DRUNK>D NOR A ?IEF NOR MU* ( A REBEL4 ,I W5T TO WORK ON TIME1 DROVE ! S*$UL$ R\TE1 DIDN'T GET DRUNK & NEV] TRI$ TO BORR[ ! BUS4 ,S$LAK HAD NO TR\BLE AT ALL UND]/&+ :AT ,I WAS 9 HIS WORLD3 A POLITICAL P$AGOGUE4 ,& 9 HIS WORLD SU* PEOPLE W]E NOT BUS DRIV]S BUT POLITICIANS4 ,HE RECOGNIZ$ ME1 NOT BECAUSE ( MY BIR? OR MY SOCIAL FUNCTION BUT BECAUSE ( MY BEHAVIOR4 ,HE KNEW ?AT 9 HIS WORLD POLITICAL PHILOSOPH]S DIDN'T LONG REMA9 PEASANTS OR BUS DRIV]S2 !Y W]E EV5TUALLY TRANSF]R$ TO RUNGS ON ! LADD]S ( UNION BUREAUCRACIES OR GOV]NM5T BUREAUCRACIES4 ,:5 ,I TRI$ TO COMMUNICATE MY 9T5TIONS HE ONLY HE>D ME EXPRESS ! ASPIRATIONS ( A POLITICIAN4 ,ALL HE SAW 9 MY GE/URES WAS ! ABILITY TO SATISFY SU* ASPIRATIONS4 ,& HE RELAT$ TO ME 9 T]MS ( ! WAY HE SAW ME1 NOT 9 T]MS ( ! PROJECTS & POSSIBILITIES ,I ?\<T ,I WAS COMMUNICAT+ TO HIM4 ,I'VE ALREADY TOLD Y\ ?AT HE WAS V]Y 5?USIA/IC AB\T MY M>RIAGE TO ,MIRNA4 ,HIS 5?USIASM CAN'T BE EXPLA9$ BY ! FACT ?AT HE LIK$ ME NOR BY ! FACT ?AT HE HAD FALL5 9 LOVE ) MY DREAMS & HOPES1 MY PROJECTS1 MY PA/ EXP]I5CES4 ,HE WAS A G5]\S & W>M P]SON BUT HE WAS ALSO A %REWD1 CALCULAT+ & OBS]VANT PEASANT4 ,! YE>S ( BUS DRIV+ HADN'T DEPRIV$ HIM ( ! PEASANT'S ABILITY TO ORI5T HIMSELF TO ! VILLAGE M>KET4 ,HE C\LD /ILL S5SE ! PRECISE MOM5T :5 ! PRICE ( HIS COMMODITY ROSE2 HE /ILL KNEW :I* BUY]S W]E WILL+ TO PAY ! HI<E/ PRICE4 ,HE HADN'T LO/ ! COMM]CIAL 9/9CTS ( PEASANTS :OSE PRODUCTIVE ACTIVITY IS ORI5T$ TO ! M>KET4 ,HE WAS ALSO AW>E ?AT POLITICIANS HAD BECOME ! DIAMONDS & CAVI> ON ! M>KET ( HUMAN COMMODITIES4 ,MY ATTEMPTS TO COMMUNICATE ) HIM HAD M]ELY 9=M$ HIM ?AT ,I WAS A COMMODITY ( ?IS TYPE4 ,HIS 5?USIASM = ! M>RIAGE WAS MOTIVAT$ BY A COMB9ATION ( TRADITIONAL & COMM]CIAL CONSID]ATIONS4 ,TRADITIONALLY ! HUSB& OR WIFE ( A VILLAG] HAD TO BE /RONG & HEAL?Y2 ! SAME /&>D WAS APPLI$ TO C[S & HORSES4 ,A SICK C[ OR A WEAK HORSE W\LD CON/ITUTE A BURD52 :AT WAS DESIR$ WAS AN ANIMAL ?AT W\LD CONTRIBUTE TO ! MA9T5ANCE ( ! PEASANT H\SEHOLD & W\LD ASSURE ! SURVIVAL ( ! P>5TS 9 OLD AGE4 ,S$LAK APPLI$ ?IS /&>D 9 ! CONDITIONS ( ! SOCIETY 9 :I* HE F\ND HIMSELF4 ,! HUSB& /ILL HAD TO BE HEAL?Y & /RONG BUT !SE REQUIREM5TS LO/ !IR PHYSICAL MEAN+ & REF]R$ TO COMM]CIAL QUALITIES4 ,?US HEAL?Y BECAME EQUIVAL5T TO M>KETABLE1 NAMELY ! QUALITY ( BE+ USEFUL TO SPECIFIC POT5TIAL BUY]S4 ,HE HAD TO BE /RONG1 NOT PHYSICALLY BUT COMM]CIALLY1 9 ! QUANTITATIVE S5SE ( COMM&+ A HI< PRICE1 AS OPPOS$ TO A WEAK ORD9>Y COMMODITY ! L[ QUALITY ( :I* IS PROV$ BY ITS L[ PRICE4 ,CONSEQU5TLY = ,S$LAK ! M>RIAGE WAS A %REWD COMM]CIAL TRANSACTION2 HE SOLD HIS DAU<T] 9 EX*ANGE = AN ANTICIPAT$ FUTURE :I* W\LD MORE ?AN RECOMP5SE HIS ORIG9AL 9VE/M5T4 ,HE MADE ONLY ONE MI/AKE 9 HIS CALCULATIONS1 & CONSID]+ ! LIMITS ( HIS KN[L$GE ( ! M>KET HIS ]ROR WAS REALLY V]Y M9OR4 ,HIS MA9 E/IMATES W]E ALL PRECISE4 ,! CONDITIONS ( ! M>KET W]E EXACTLY ?OSE HE SURMIS$3 TODAY'S BUY]S DO 9 FACT PAY MORE = POLITICIANS ?AN = ANY O!R HUMAN COMMODITY2 \R C5TURY IS AFT] ALL ! GOLD5 AGE ( ! POLITICAL RACKETE]4 ,& ?ANKS TO ,LUISA ,I WAS 9 FACT A COMMODITY ( ?AT G5US4 ,HIS ONLY MISCALCULATION WAS CAUS$ BY HIS LACK ( FAMILI>ITY ) ! SPECIFIC COMMODITY 9 QUE/ION4 ,IF APPLES HAD BE5 9 QUE/ION HE W\LD HAVE KN[N ?AT ONLY C]TA9 TYPES ( APPLES W]E SELL+ = AN EXAGG]AT$LY HI< PRICE & HE W\LDN'T HAVE ]R$ BY BR++ ! WRONG APPLES TO ! M>KET4 ,BUT HE WASN'T AS FAMILI> ) POLITICIANS AS ) APPLES4 ,HE DIDN'T GRASP ! SUBTLE DIFF]5CES BETWE5 POLITICIANS2 HE DIDN'T EV5 KN[ !RE W]E SU* DIFF]5CES4 ,TO HIM ALL POLITICIANS W]E ! SAME4 ,HE LACK$ ! SY/EM ( CLASSIFICATION ( ?IS COMMODITY4 ,?IS IS :AT CAUS$ HIM TO ]R4 ,HE MI/AK5LY PLAC$ HIS EXPECTATIONS ON A COMMODITY ( ! RI<T CLASS1 EV5 ! RI<T G5US1 BUT ! WRONG SPECIES4 ,HE NEV] UND]/OOD HIS ]ROR4 

,MY WORDS DIDN'T 9=M ,S$LAK AB\T MY PA/ EXP]I5CES OR MY HOPES OR MY DET]M9ATION TO /RUGGLE = A DIFF]5T WORLD4 ,!Y 9=M$ HIM AB\T ! *>ACT]I/ICS & ! POT5TIAL SELL+ PRICE ( A COMMODITY4 ,I ?\<T ?AT BY COMMUNICAT+ ?OSE EXP]I5CES & =MULAT+ ?OSE >GUM5TS ,I WAS CEAS+ TO BE A TOOL ( MY 5VIRONM5T1 A M]E OBJECT 9 A WORLD ( OBJECTS4 ,YET ! 5D RESULT ( MY ACTIVITY WAS A COMPLETE 9V]SION ( MY 9T5TIONS3 ,I SUCCE$$ ONLY 9 DEF9+ MYSELF AS A SPECIFIC TYPE ( OBJECT4 

,MY PO9T ISN'T TO EXPOSE A PEASANT'S MOTIVES OR IDIOSYNCRASIES BUT TO UND]/& :AT HAPP5$ TO ! HOPES & PROJECTS ,I ONCE %>$ ) Y\ :5 ,I TRI$ TO COMMUNICATE !M TO O!R HUMAN BE+S4 ,H[ DID O!RS P]CEIVE ME1 MY PROJECT & MY PA/ EXP]I5CE8 ,WAS ,S$LAK'S P]CEPTION ( ME DI/ORT$8 ,OR WAS IT MY SELF-P]CEPTION ?AT WAS DI/ORT$8 ,HE RECOGNIZ$ ! P$AGOGUE BEH9D ! SPEE*MAK]1 ! POLITICIAN BEH9D ! P$AGOGUE1 & ! REPRESSIVE MA*9]Y ( ! /ATE BEH9D ! POLITICIAN4 ,HE RECOGNIZ$ ! POLITICAL RHETORIC AS ! MA9 ATTRIBUTE ( TODAY'S RUL]S4 ,IT WAS ,I :O DIDN'T UND]/& ! NATURE ( MY ACTIVITY4 ,I ONLY UND]/OOD IT 9 T]MS ( MY 9T5TIONS1 AS Y\ /ILL DO TODAY4 ,AT ?AT TIME ,I %>$ Y\R PRES5T COMMITM5T4 ,?AT'S :Y Y\'RE RI<T :5 Y\ COMP>E MY RELEASE AFT] MY FIR/ PRISON T]M ) Y\R EXP]I5CE AFT] Y\ EMIGRAT$4 ,BO? ( US LACK$ & TRI$ TO RECON/ITUTE ! PROJECT WE HAD %>$4 ,I SAW ! ,S$LAKS AS PEOPLE ) :OM ,I C\LD %>E ?AT PROJECT2 Y\ SAW ,RON AS SU* A P]SON4 ,BUT Y\ FAIL$ TO LE>N FROM ,RON :AT ,I EV5TUALLY LE>N$ FROM ! ,S$LAKS3 ?AT ,I WASN'T ONE ( !M BUT ONE ( ! P$AGOGUES2 ?AT MY TEA*+ WASN'T DI/+UI%ABLE FROM ! ONE ?AT HAD CREAT$ !IR REPRESSIVE WORLD2 ?AT ?IS P$AGOGY WAS NO?+ MORE ?AN A S]IES ( RATIONALIZATIONS :I* JU/IFI$ ! RULE ( P$AGOGUES OV] ! RE/ ( SOCIETY4 ,:5 ,MIRNA'S FA!R SAW A POLITICIAN BEH9D ! P$AGOGUE HE WASN'T EXHIBIT+ HIS IGNORANCE BUT RA!R HIS ACUTE P[]S ( OBS]VATION4 ,HE SAW MY DREAMS AS ILLUSIONS & L9K$ MY GE/URES TO ! REPRESSIVE ACTS ( ! RUL+ ORD]4 ,IT WAS HE :O EXPOS$ ! NATURE ( Y\R & MY PA/ EXP]I5CE1 NOT BECAUSE HE WAS A SOCIAL PHILOSOPH] OR CRITIC BUT BECAUSE HE HAD A FAIRLY LUCID AW>5ESS ( ! WORLD HE 9HABIT$ & BECAUSE1 LIKE A PRISON] 9 A CR[D$ CELL1 HE TRI$ TO ACCOMMODATE HIMSELF AS WELL AS POSSIBLE )\T CAUS+ DISCOM=T TO O!RS & )\T DEHUMANIZ+ HIMSELF4 

,! COMMITM5T ,I ONCE %>$ ) Y\ REB\ND$ FROM ! WORLD & HIT ME 9 ! FACE4 ,AT SOME PO9T ,I HAD TO REEXAM9E ?AT COMMITM5T4 ,:5 ,I F\ND ?AT MY PA/ EXP]I5CE AS WELL AS MY ATTEMPTS TO COMMUNICATE IT W]E FLAW$ ,I BEGAN TO REJECT !M4 ,I CONSID] IT HI<LY SIGNIFICANT ?AT TEA*+ HAPP5S TO BE ! BRAN* ( ACTIVITY 9 :I* Y\'VE 5GAG$ Y\RSELF4 ,I'M SORRY IF ,I SEEM 9T5TIONALLY CRUEL4 ,I KN[ FROM Y\R DESCRIPTION ( Y\R LIFE'S ACTIVITIES & FROM Y\R ATTA*M5T TO EXP]I5CES ,I'VE BE5 REJECT+ ?AT Y\'RE (F5D$ BY MY PRES5T ATTITUDES4 ,:5 ,I FIR/ WROTE Y\ ,I WOND]$ IF Y\ HAD *ANG$ & IF ,I'D RECOGNIZE Y\2 :5 ,I READ Y\R FIR/ LETT] ,I RECOGNIZ$ Y\ F> TOO WELL2 ,I REALIZ$ IT WAS ,I :O HAD *ANG$4 ,I HAD REEXAM9$ & REJECT$ ! QUALITIES Y\ HAD MA9TA9$4 ,?AT'S :Y ,I RESPOND$ TO Y\R LETT] ) A C]TA9 AM\NT ( ANG]4 ,I WASN'T RESPOND+ TO Y\ BUT TO MYSELF & MY [N REC5T PA/1 TO ATTITUDES ,I HAD ONLY REC5TLY WRE/L$ ) & REJECT$ 9 MYSELF4 ,IF Y\ ?\<T MY ATTACKS W]E AIM$ SPECIFICALLY AT Y\ !N Y\ MISUND]/OOD ME4 ,!Y W]E AIM$ AT A PA/ :I* ,I %>E ) MO/ ( MY CONTEMPOR>IES4 ,TODAY ,I'M ONE AMONG HUNDR$S1 MAYBE ?\S&S1 :O >E REJECT+ & UPROOT+ & EXPOS+ ?AT PA/4 ,CONTR>Y TO :AT Y\ SAY REPEAT$LY 9 Y\R LA/ LETT]1 ! F]M5T SURR\ND+ ME TODAY IS NOT A CONT9UATION ( ANY PROJECT Y\ & ,I TOOK P>T 94 ,ALL >\ND ME 9 FACTORIES & S*OOLS & ON ! /REETS MY CONTEMPOR>IES >E TURN+ !IR BACKS TO ! EXP]I5CE Y\ CELEBRATE 9 Y\R LETT]S & ALSO TO ! DREAMS Y\ & ,I ONCE %>$4 

,A FEW DAYS AGO ,I VISIT$ ! PLANT :]E ,I HAD F\ND MY FIR/ JOB1 :]E ,I HAD MET ,TITUS & ,LUISA & Y\4 ,! LA/ TIME ,I HAD BE5 !RE WAS FIFTE5 YE>S AGO AFT] MY FIR/ RELEASE4 ,Y\R LETT]S & MY ATTEMPTS TO REMEMB] & DESCRIBE ! PLANT /IMULAT$ ME TO SEE IT AGA94 ,I ALSO HAD A VAGUE DESIRE TO F9D \T :AT HAPP5$ TO ! PEOPLE :O HAVE PLAY$ SU* A SIGNIFICANT P>T 9 Y\R LIFE4 

,I WAS /UNN$ BY :AT ,I SAW !RE AL?\< ,I %\LD HAVE EXPECT$ IT4 ,ZAGAD'S NAME HAS N[ BE5 REMOV$ FROM ! FRONT ( ! BUILD+1 FROM ALL ! W9D[S & FROM ! C>TONS2 IT HAS BE5 REPLAC$ BY ! WORD 0POPUL>40 ,& H>DLY ANY?+ ELSE 9 ! PLANT HAS *ANG$ -- 9 MORE ?AN TW5TY YE>S6 ,9 FACT IT IS N[ MORE SIMIL> TO ! PLACE ,I ONCE WORK$ 9 ?AN TO ! PLANT ,I VISIT$ AFT] MY FIR/ RELEASE4 ,! MA*9]Y SEEM$ GREAS$ & OIL$2 EV]Y?+ SEEM$ TO BE 9 WORK+ ORD]4 ,ON ! O!R H& ! BUILD+ IS DET]IORAT+1 ! WALLS HAV5'T BE5 PA9T$ = AT LEA/ A QU>T] ( A C5TURY1 ! WORK SPACE IS EV5 DIRTI] ?AN IT HAD BE5 FIFTE5 YE>S AGO & ! PR9T+ ON ! C>TONS IS ( EV5 L[] QUALITY4 ,! R$ PO/]S ON ! WALLS ) !IR MESSAGES CELEBRAT+ ! GLORI\S VICTORY ( ! WORK+ CLASS >E COV]$ ) GRIME4 

,! FIR/ MAJOR *ANGE ?AT TOOK PLACE !RE DUR+ ! PA/1 TW5TY YE>S WAS TAK+ PLACE BE=E MY [N EYES2 ! WORK]S W]E ON /RIKE4 ,IT'S ! FIR/ /RIKE !RE 9 TW5TY YE>S4 ,IT />T$ A WEEK AGO4 

,EV]Y?+ AB\T ?IS /RIKE GL>+LY DEMON/RATES ?AT IT HAS NO?+ 9 COMMON ) ! LA/ /RIKE ?AT BROKE \T 9 ?AT PLANT1 ! ONE Y\ & ,I TOOK P>T 94 ,& EV]YONE 9 ! PLANT WAS AW>E ( ?IS4 ,I DIDN'T EV5 HAVE TO ASK QUE/IONS4 ,AS SOON AS ,I 9TRODUC$ MYSELF AS SOMEONE :O HAD WORK$ !RE ONCE & HAD BE5 IMPRISON$ = SABOTAGE1 EV]YONE />T$ TALK+ AT ONCE4 ,:AT EV]YONE EXPRESS$ MO/ CLE>LY & UNMI/AKABLY WAS RELIEF3 0,IT'S OV]6 ,! T]ROR IS OV]60 ,IT'S AS IF A W> OR A PLAGUE HAD SUDD5LY COME TO AN 5D4 ,V>I\S WORK]S TOLD ME ?AT = SEV]AL WEEKS !Y'D BE5 SKEPTICAL & CAUTI\S4 ,!Y HAD READ AB\T ! ATTEMPT$ C\P BY ! PRESID5T & ! >MY & AB\T ! SUSP5SION ( ! POLICE BUT !Y DIDN'T DISCUSS !SE EV5TS4 ,!Y LI/5$ TO ! SPEE*ES ( POLITICIANS1 AT FIR/ ONLY ON !IR RADIOS AT HOME2 LAT] A WORK] BR\<T A RADIO TO WORK & !Y LI/5$ ALL DAY4 ,!Y />T$ TO TALK AB\T ! SPEE*ES4 ,BUT !Y DIDN'T ACT4 ,!Y W]E SUSPICI\S4 ,!Y ?\<T ! :OLE SEQU5CE MI<T BE NO?+ MORE ?AN A P]=MANCE CONDUCT$ BY ?OSE ON TOP1 AN 9T]MISSION BETWE5 TWO ACTS1 A *ANGE ( GU>D1 A M]E REPLACEM5T ( ONE REPRESSIVE GR\P BY ANO!R GR\P ) DIFF]5T NAMES & SLOGANS BUT EQUALLY REPRESSIVE4 ,!N !Y BEGAN TO HE> ( \TBREAKS ( /RIKES 9 O!R PLANTS1 \/+S ( POLICE AG5TS1 MANAG]S & UNION REPRES5TATIVES4 ,!Y LE>N$ ?AT ! WORK]S :O TOOK P>T 9 ?OSE ACTS W]5'T >RE/$1 IMPRISON$ OR EV5 FIR$4 ,AT ?AT PO9T !Y /OPP$ DISCUSS+ ! SPEE*ES ON ! RADIO & />T$ TALK+ AB\T !IR PLANT4 ,! DECISION TO /RIKE GREW \T ( ?OSE DISCUSSIONS4 ,IT WAS ! COLLECTIVE DECISION ( ! WORK]S 9 ! PLANT4 ,IT WASN'T A DECISION TAK5 BY POLITICIANS & TRANSMITT$ TO ! WORK]S BY UNION REPRES5TATIVES OR ANY O!R AG5TS ( ?OSE 9 P[]4 ,9 FACT ! PURPOSE ( ! /RIKE WAS TO \/ ! UNION REPRES5TATIVE4 ,!Y WON ?IS DEM& IMM$IATELY3 ! (FICIAL LEFT HIS PO/ AS SOON AS ! /RIKE BROKE \T4 ,BUT ! WORK]S REMA9$ ON /RIKE4 ,!Y WORK$ \T A S*EME = REPLAC+ ! UNION REPRES5TATIVE4 ,!Y WANT$ ! PO/ TO ROTATE AMONG ALL ! WORK]S 9 ! PLANT1 9 ALPHABETICAL ORD]4 ,EA* WORK] WAS TO OCCUPY ! PO/ = A MON?4 ,! MANAG] 9SI/$ ON A P]MAN5T & APPO9T$ UNION REPRES5TATIVE4 ,! WORK]S AB&ON$ !IR 9ITIAL S*EME & 9SI/$ ONLY ON ! RI<T TO ELECT A P]MAN5T REPRES5TATIVE1 A DEM& ! MANAG] IS READY TO GRANT4 ,I ASK$ !M :Y !Y GAVE UP !IR DEM& & :Y !Y DIDN'T \/ ! MANAG] ALONG ) ! UNION REPRES5TATIVE4 ,V>I\S WORK]S EXPLA9$ ?AT ! PRES5T MANAG] IS A PLIANT & M$IOCRE BUREAUCRAT :O P]=MS HIS FUNCTIONS RELUCTANTLY & OBEYS 9/RUCTIONS LIKE EV]YONE ELSE :]EAS ! PREVI\S UNION REPRES5TATIVE HAD BE5 ! REAL P[] BEH9D ! MANAGEM5T >ID ! MO/ FE>$ & HAT$ 9DIVIDUAL 9 ! PLANT4 ,! UNION REPRES5TATIVE WAS A MEMB] ( ! POLITICAL POLICE & HIS ACTUAL FUNCTION WAS ?AT ( PRISON W>D54 ,AS SOON AS HE WAS \/$ ALL ! M9OR POLICE AG5TS AMONG ! WORK]S QUIETLY DISAPPE>$4 ,?US ! REMOVAL ( ?IS S+LE FUNCTION>Y CLE>S ! AIR & CREATES AN ATMOSPH]E ( FRE$OM NEV] BE=E EXP]I5C$ BY MO/ ( ! WORK]S 9 ! PLANT4 ,I WAS TOLD ?AT ALL ! O!R /EPS !Y MI<T TAKE W]E M9OR BY COMP>ISON2 N[ ?AT !Y'VE RECOV]$ !IR ABILITY TO ACT & REMOV$ !IR MA9 FETT] !Y'LL WAIT & SEE :AT O!R /EPS ! SITUATION MAKES POSSIBLE4 ,BEH9D ?IS REALISM ,I S5S$ A C]TA9 AM\NT ( FE>4 

,DESPITE !IR APPREH5SION & !IR CAUTION !SE WORK]S >E NOT ! PUPPETS WE W]E4 ,?IS TIME ! PROJECT IS G5U9ELY !IR [N4 ,I DON'T WANT TO EXAGG]ATE ! IMPORTANCE ( :AT !Y'VE DONE SO F>4 ,/RIKES 9ITIAT$ BY WORK]S HAVE BE5 NE>LY IMPOSSIBLE H]E = TW5TY YE>S BUT SU* /RIKES >E NOT A NEW DISCOV]Y4 ,NOR IS ! \/+ ( A UNION REPRES5TATIVE A NOVELTY4 ,ALL ,I WANT TO EMPHASIZE IS ! DIFF]5CE BETWE5 ?IS EV5T & ! ONE Y\ & ,I EXP]I5C$4 ,! =CES 9 PLAY >E ALMO/ ID5TICAL4 ,A GR\P ( POLITICIANS IS JOCKEY+ = POSITIONS ( P[]4 ,! POLITICIANS' J\RNALI/IC ADMIR]S >E DESIGN+ HALOES & CR[NS = !IR PATRONS1 HY/]ICALLY TRY+ TO /IMULATE DISPLAYS ( REV]5CE = ONE OR ANO!R CLIQUE ( RACKETE]S4 ,PR(ESSORS & UNION BUREAUCRATS >E FLY+ FROM ONE PLANT TO ANO!R FRANTICALLY & PA!TICALLY SEEK+ APPLAUSE = ONE OR ANO!R BUREAUCRATIC PANACEA4 ,EA* POLITICAL GR\P IS TRY+ TO PLANT ITS AG5TS AMONG WORK]S1 EA* GR\P IS TRY+ TO /IMULATE WORK]S TO DEMON/RATE SUPPORT = ONE OR ANO!R P>T ( ITS PROGRAM4 ,BUT UNLIKE TW5TY YE>S AGO ! POLITICIANS >5'T SUCCE$+4 ,! SPEE*ES >E *E]$ & IGNOR$4 ,WORK]S 9VITE SPEAK]S1 PRAISE !M1 APPLAUD !M & !N DISCUSS ! NEXT /EPS TO BE TAK5 ) EA* O!R2 ! /EPS !Y TAKE >E ALMO/ ALWAYS DIAMETRICALLY OPPOS$ TO ?OSE ADVOCAT$ BY ! SPEE*-MAK] !Y APPLAUD$4 ,! WORK]S ,I SAW 9 ! PLANT W]5'T C>RY+ \T ! DIRECTIVES ( (FICIALS BUT EXPLOR+ & C>RY+ \T !IR [N DESIRES4 ,I S5S$ A FEEL+ ( SOLID>ITY ,I HADN'T FELT TW5TY YE>S AGO2 IT WAS A SOLID>ITY CEM5T$ BY MUTUAL AID 9/EAD ( MUTUAL SUSPICION4 

,& ?IS GR\P ( PEOPLE WELCOM$ ME4 ,UNLIKE MY EXP]I5CE FIFTE5 YE>S AGO1 :5 ! UNION BUREAUCRAT TOLD ME HE C\LDN'T AF=D TO HIRE A CONVICT$ SABOTEUR1 !SE WORK]S 9VIT$ ME TO JO9 !M BE=E ,I EV5 ASK$4 ,SEV]AL PEOPLE ASK$ ME IF ,I HAD ANO!R JOB & S9CE ,I DIDN'T !Y URG$ ME TO 0COME BACK40 ,SEV]AL OP5+S HAVE BE5 CREAT$ BY ! SUDD5 RESIGNATION ( ! POLICE AG5TS :O FL$ :5 !IR *IEF WAS \/$1 FE>+ ! O!R WORK]S' REV5GE4 ,I TOLD !M ,I'D ?9K AB\T IT & !Y SAID !Y'D RES]VE A PLACE = ME4 ,! V]Y POSSIBILITY ( SU* AN 9VITATION IS PROBABLY ! GREATE/ *ANGE 9 ! PLANT'S HI/ORY4 ,I WASN'T BE+ HIR$ BUT 9VIT$3 ! DIFF]5CE 9 WORDS ALONE 9DICATES ?AT A PR(\ND *ANGE IS UND] WAY4 ,ONE IS HIR$ TO A JOB2 ,I WAS BE+ 9VIT$ TO TAKE P>T 9 AN EXP]I5CE :OSE CONT5T IS AS YET UNKN[N4 ,& ! PEOPLE 9VIT+ ME W]E NEI!R [N]S NOR MANAG]S NOR UNION BUREAUCRATS BUT WORK]S4 ,!Y W]E 9VIT+ ME TO JO9 !M 9 AN ACTIVITY :I* WAS AB\T TO BE TRANS=M$ FROM A DEAD5+ R\T9E TO A PROJECT1 AL?\< NO ONE AS YET KNEW JU/ H[ IT WAS TO BE TRANS=M$4 

,:AT ,I SAW1 HE>D & FELT AM\NT$ TO A COMPLETE REJECTION ( Y\R & MY PA/ EXP]I5CE4 ,I'M SORRY IF ?IS S\NDS CRUEL OR CALL\S4 ,Y\ S\ND EV5 MORE CALL\S TO ME :5 Y\ DESCRIBE \R PA/ ACTIVITY AS A PROJECT 9 :I* ! :OLE POPULATION RAIS$ ITSELF \T ( SUBMISSION4 ,SU* A DESCRIPTION IS A TRAVE/Y ( ! REAL EV5T4 ,Y\R DESCRIPTION REF]S TO ! MOM5T :5 ! :OLE POPULATION IMM]S$ ITSELF 9 UNPREC$5T$ SUBMISSION4 ,! POPULATION IS RAIS+ ITSELF \T ( ?AT SUBMISSION ONLY N[1 SC>R$ & WEAK5$ AFT] TW5TY YE>S ( B5D+ BUT NOT DEFEAT$4 ,:AT !SE WORK]S >E F9ALLY QUE/ION+ IS EV]Y?+ ?AT WAS IMPOS$ ON !M TW5TY YE>S AGO -- EV]Y?+ EXCEPT ! FUNCTION ( ! PLANT ITSELF1 :I* ,JAN ,S$LAK & Y\R FRI5D ,RON W\LD HAVE QUE/ION$ BUT NOT Y\ OR ,I OR ,LUISA4 ,!Y'VE DISCUSS$ EV]Y?+ EXCEPT ! NATURE ( !IR ACTIVITY1 AN ACTIVITY 9 :I* PEOPLE SELL !IR LIVES SO AS TO PACKAGE O!R PEOPLE'S SOLD LIVES1 AN ACTIVITY ?AT EPITOMIZES ! CANNIBALISM ( ! COMM]CIAL MON/ROSITY ?AT N\RI%ES ITSELF ON HUMAN LIVES4 ,I HAVE NO IDEA :E!R OR NOT !SE WORK]S >E GO+ TO /ORM ?AT =TRESS4 ,IF !Y DO1 Y\ & ,I WILL NOT HAVE CONTRIBUT$ TO ?AT /RUGGLE ) \R SLOGANS AB\T WORK]S ADM9I/]+ & MANAG+ !IR [N FACTORIES4 

,BE=E ,I LEFT ! PLANT ,I ASK$ ! WORK]S IF ANY ( !M MI<T KN[ :AT HAPP5$ TO \R =M] COMRADES4 ,SEV]AL PEOPLE HAD HE>D ( ?REE ( \R FRI5DS BUT !Y W]E ALL SURPRIS$ TO LE>N \R COMRADES HAD ONCE WORK$ AT ! PLANT4 ,Y\ WILL SURELY BE MORE SURPRIS$ BY :AT ,I LE>N$ ?AN ,I WAS4 ,! DREAM]1 ACCORD+ TO Y\ A WORK] LIKE ALL ! RE/1 ,M>C ,GLAVNI1 IS ONE ( ! MORE IMPORTANT BUREAUCRATS 9 ! /ATE APP>ATUS2 HE HAS BE5 ON ! C5TRAL COMMITTEE ( ! /ATE PLANN+ COMMISSION = SEV]AL YE>S4 ,!Y F\ND MY IGNORANCE MORE SURPRIS+ ?AN ,I F\ND ! NEWS2 ,I HAD TO ADMIT ,I NEV] LOOK$ 9TO NEWSPAP]S4 ,!Y W]E EV5 MORE SURPRIS$ :5 ,I ASK$ AB\T ,ADRIAN ,POVR%AN4 0,DON'T Y\ LI/5 TO ! RADIO EI!R80 ONE P]SON ASK$4 ,I DO LI/5 TO ! RADIO OCCASIONALLY BUT APP>5TLY ,I'M NOT V]Y ATT5TIVE4 ,\R FRI5D ,ADRIAN1 TO :OM Y\ SAY ! SPIRIT ( LIB]ATION ONCE SPREAD1 GIVES FREQU5T SPEE*ES OV] ! RADIO & IS A WELL-KN[N POLITICIAN 0( ! NEW TYPE10 ,I WAS TOLD4 ,LIKE OLD ,S$LAK ,I CAN NO LONG] DI/+UI% BETWE5 POLITICIANS4 

,ONE WOMAN ALSO KNEW ,JASNA ,ZBRKOVA & ?IS SURPRIS$ ME A GREAT DEAL MORE1 NOT BECAUSE ,JASNA HAS BECOME RI* & FAM\S TOO1 BUT BECAUSE %E TEA*ES 9 ,Y>A'S S*OOL & LIVES 9 MY NEI<BORHOOD4 ,I C\LD HAVE ASK$ ,Y>A AB\T H]2 ,JASNA C\LD JU/ AS WELL HAVE ASK$ ,Y>A AB\T ME4 ,I RU%$ TO ! S*OOL AS SOON AS ,I LEFT ! PLANT4 

,:5 ,Y>A CAME \T ( S*OOL %E ?\<T ,I'D COME TO WALK H] HOME & WAS PLEAS$1 S9CE ,I HAD NEV] DONE ?AT BE=E4 ,I TOLD H] ,I HAD JU/ LE>N$ AN OLD FRI5D ( M9E TAU<T 9 H] S*OOL4 

0,DO ,I KN[ H]80 ,Y>A ASK$4 

0,I SUPPOSE SO10 ,I ANSW]$4 0,IT'S ,JASNA ,ZBRKOVA40 

0,OH1 NOT H]60 ,Y>A SAID1 9T5SELY DISAPPO9T$4 0,%E WAS ! LA/ ONE TO JO9 US2 %E /AY$ \T ( EV]Y DEMON/RATION EXCEPT ! LA/ & %E CAME \T A WEEK AGO ONLY BECAUSE IT'S BECOME FA%IONABLE40 

,I SAW ,JASNA COME \T ( ! S*OOL :ILE ,Y>A WAS /ILL SPEAK+ & ,I DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO RESPOND TO ,Y>A'S P]FECT DESCRIPTION2 ,I W\LD HAVE TOLD H]1 0,YES1 ?AT'S ! ONE1 ?AT'S EXACTLY ! P]SON ,I KNEW40 

,JASNA LOOK$ TW5TY YE>S OLD]4 ,I DON'T ?9K ,I W\LD HAVE RECOGNIZ$ H] IF ,I HADN'T BE5 LOOK+ = H]4 ,%E SEEM$ EMB>RASS$ TO SEE BO? ( US4 ,%E GREET$ ,Y>A POLITELY4 ,!N %E RAN TO EMBRACE ME & BUR/ \T CRY+4 ,) A VOICE MUFFL$ BY SOBS %E SAID1 0,?ANK GOD IT'S F9ALLY OV]60 ,LETT+ ME GO1 %E EMBRAC$ ,Y>A & TOLD H]1 0,& ?ANK Y\ = BE+ ! MO/ MATURE & ! MO/ C\RAGE\S ( ALL ( US60 ,JASNA BEGAN TO APOLOGIZE PR(USELY TO ,Y>A & TO ME AL?\< NEI!R ( US HAD SAID ANY?+4 ,%E ADMITT$ HAV+ KN[N = YE>S ?AT ,Y>A WAS MY DAU<T]2 %E APOLOGIZ$ = NEV] HAV+ TOLD ,Y>A ?AT %E KNEW ME4 ,%E HAD KN[N :5 ,I WAS RELEAS$ & ?AT ,I WAS HOME4 0,I WANT$ V]Y BADLY TO COME TO SEE Y\10 %E TOLD ME4 ,TURN+ TO ,Y>A %E CONT9U$1 0,JU/ AS ,I WANT$ V]Y BADLY TO TAKE P>T 9 ! FIR/ TWO DEMON/RATIONS4 ,BUT ,I /AY$ AWAY4 ,I WAS AFRAID4 ,I WAS IMPRISON$ TOO1 NOT AS LONG AS ,Y>O/AN1 BUT LONG 5\< TO HAVE FILL$ ! RE/ ( MY LIFE ) FE> ( BE+ >RE/$40 

,I TOLD ,JASNA AB\T MY CORRESPOND5CE ) Y\ & ASK$ IF %E REMEMB]$ Y\ & ,LUISA & ,SAB9A4 

0,I C\LD NO MORE =GET !M ?AN ,I C\LD =GET Y\60 %E SAID4 0,IT'S BECAUSE ,I REMEMB] ALL ( Y\ ?AT ,I BEGAN TO HATE MYSELF = MY FE> & C[>DICE1 = /AY+ AWAY FROM ! /UD5TS & ! DEMON/RATIONS2 ,I FELT ,I WAS BETRAY+ NOT ONLY ! /UD5TS BUT EV]Y?+ & EV]YONE ,I LOV$40 

,I ASK$ IF %E WAS /ILL AFRAID TO VISIT \R H\SE4 

0,IF Y\ HADN'T COME TODAY ,I W\LD HAVE COME TO SEE Y\10 %E ANSW]$4 0,! SPELL BROKE A WEEK AGO4 ,I'M NO LONG] AFRAID4 ,:AT KEPT ME FROM COM+ YE/]DAY OR ! DAY BE=E WAS NO LONG] FE> ( >RE/ BUT EMB>RASSM5T2 ,I C\LDN'T FACE Y\R BRAVE ,Y>A2 ,I WAS A%AM$ ( BE+ SU* A C[>D40 

,Y>A REA*$ = ! TEA*]'S H& & HELD IT 9 H] [N2 %E HAD APP>5TLY BECOME CONV9C$ %E HAD MISJUDG$ \R COMRADE4 

0,?AT FE> IS SO IRRATIONAL1 SO S5SELESS & YET IT HOLDS Y\ AS IF Y\ W]E LOCK$ 9TO A BOX10 ,JASNA EXPLA9$4 0,BUT AS SOON AS ,I TOOK P>T 9 ?AT DEMON/RATION A WEEK AGO ! FE> VANI%$ AS IF ,I HAD SUDD5LY LEFT ! BOX4 ,IT WAS WOND]FUL6 ,JU/ LIKE OLD TIMES60 

,TO F9D \T IF %E WAS REALLY SAY+ :AT Y\'VE BE5 SAY+ 9 Y\R LETT]S ,I ASK$ H]1 0,JU/ EXACTLY LIKE OLD TIMES80 

,! SAME ,JASNA :OM Y\ & ,I REMEMB] ANSW]$1 0,NO1 IT WASN'T REALLY LIKE OLD TIMES AT ALL4 ,?IS WAS COMPLETELY DIFF]5T4 ,!SE KIDS HAVE F> MORE C\RAGE ?AN ,I EV] HAD4 ,I NEV] DID ANY?+ UNLESS ,I ?\<T EV]YONE ELSE WAS DO+ ! SAME ?+4 ,! KIDS BEGAN COMPLETELY ON !IR [N :5 NO ONE WAS ON !IR SIDE1 :5 !Y DIDN'T KN[ :AT W\LD HAPP5 TO !M1 :5 ALL ! (FICIALS & TEA*]S W]E AGA9/ !M4 ,& ,Y>A WAS AMONG ! FIR/40 

,I ASK$ ,JASNA IF %E EV] SAW ANY ( ! PEOPLE Y\ & ,I HAD KN[N4 ,%E SAID %E HAD SE5 ,TITUS ,ZABRAN REGUL>LY OV] ! YE>S4 ,%E ALSO KNEW SOME?+ AB\T ALL ! O!RS & PROMIS$ TO TELL ME AB\T !M :5 %E VISITS US2 ALL %E SAID AB\T !M WAS1 0,!Y'RE ALL DO+ BETT] ?AN ,I AM40 

,?AT EV5+ ,I TOLD ,MIRNA AB\T MY VISIT TO ! PLANT & AB\T ,JASNA4 ,I DECID$ TO ACCEPT ! WORK]S' G5]\S 9VITATION & GO BACK TO WORK 9 ! C>TON PLANT4 ,I ASK$ ,MIRNA IF %E W\LD QUIT H] JOB :5 ,I />T$ WORK+4 ,%E SAID %E W\LDN'T DREAM ( IT4 

,:5 ,I SPOKE TO ,MIRNA AB\T MY 9T5SE DESIRE TO VISIT ! REC5TLY =M$ POLITICAL PRISON]S' CLUB %E AGA9 SAID SU* A VISIT W\LD ONLY CAUSE MORE TR\BLE ?AN IT C\LD POSSIBLY BE WOR?4 ,H[EV] :5 ,I M5TION$ ,JASNA'S RELUCTANCE TO VISIT US & ! REASON = H] RELUCTANCE1 ,MIRNA SAID1 0,IT'S ONE ?+ TO BE AFRAID TO TAKE P>T 9 A DEMON/RATION4 ,IF ,Y>A HAD ASK$ = MY P]MISSION ,I'D NEV] HAVE GIV5 IT TO H]4 ,BUT IT'S T]RIBLE TO BE AFRAID TO VISIT OLD FRI5DS4 ,%E WAS MY BRO!R'S FRI5D6 ,%E %\LD HAVE COME TO SEE ME LONG BE=E Y\ W]E RELEAS$40 

0,DON'T Y\ SEE ,I HAVE AS MU* REASON TO VISIT ! PRISON]S CLUB80 ,I ASK$4 ,MY CONC]N WASN'T TO HAVE H] P]MISSION BUT TO CALM H] FE>S4 ,MIRNA WAS ONCE AS RECKLESS & ADV5TUR\S AS ,Y>A2 TWO DECADES ( 0P>ADISE0 HAVE MADE H] FE>FUL1 CAUTI\S & RESIGN$4 

,I W5T TO ! PRISON]S' CLUB ! FOLL[+ DAY4 ,I HAD ! IMPRESSION ,I WAS VISIT+ ! UND]WORLD ( ! ANCI5T ,GREEKS1 ! PLACE :]E PEOPLE W5T AFT] !Y DI$4 ,EV]YONE 9 ! ROOM TURN$ TO LOOK AT EV]Y NEWCOM]2 ON EV]Y FACE !RE WAS ! SAME QUE/ION3 IS ?IS ANO!R <O/ ( A =M] FRI5D8 ,NEWCOM]S CONT9UALLY %\T$ ) GLEE AS !Y RECOGNIZ$ !IR =M] FRI5DS4 ,IT WAS V]Y MOV+4 ,M5 & WOM5 MO/LY OLD] ?AN ,I CONT9UALLY CALL$ \T ! NAMES ( PEOPLE !Y SUDD5LY RECOGNIZ$4 ,PEOPLE :O HAD MET 9 PRISON WEPT1 PEOPLE :O HADN'T SE5 EA* O!R = TW5TY YE>S EMBRAC$4 ,EA* ?\<T ! O!R HAD LONG BE5 DEAD4 ,BUT IT WASN'T ,HADES4 ,! PEOPLE ,I SAW W]E V]Y MU* ALIVE4 ,!Y ALL EXPRESS$ ! SAME S5SE ( RELIEF ,I HAD FELT EV]Y:]E ELSE3 0,IT'S F9ALLY OV]60 ,!SE PEOPLE W]E NOT SPIRITS MEET+ 9 ! UND]WORLD BUT LIV+ BE+S DANC+ ON A TOMB2 ! TOMB CONTA9S :AT Y\ CALL \R PROJECT4 ,!SE PEOPLE >E AT LA/ EM]G+ FROM ?AT PROJECT'S SPELL1 RIDD+ !MSELVES ( ITS P[]2 Y\ >E AMONG ! LA/ :O >E /ILL 9 A TRANCE4 

,I DIDN'T LONG REMA9 AN \TSID] OBS]V+ A C]EMONY BUT QUICKLY BECAME ONE ( ! CELEBRANTS4 

0,Y>O/AN60 SOMEONE %\T$1 SOMEONE ,I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE4 ,HE WAS A GRAY-HAIR$ MAN :O LOOK$ OV] SIXTY4 ,:5 HE EMBRAC$ ME & %OOK ME TO MAKE SURE ,I WAS ALIVE1 ,I WAS OV]:ELM$4 ,I RECOGNIZ$ HIM4 0,ZD5EK ,TOB>K960 ,I %\T$4 

,I FIR/ MET ?IS ONE-TIME UNION ORGANIZ] DUR+ MY FIR/ PRISON T]M4 ,I HAD ?\<T HE WASN'T MU* OLD] ?AN ,I4 ,HE'S AG$ T]RIBLY4 ,HE BRIEFLY TOLD ME AB\T HIS EXP]I5CES AFT] HIS RELEASE2 !Y W]E QUITE DIFF]5T FROM M9E4 ,HE WAS RELEAS$ A FEW MON?S AFT] MY FIR/ RELEASE4 ,HE TOO WAS TURN$ D[N BY A UNION BUREAUCRAT :5 HE TRI$ TO GET HIS =M] JOB BACK4 ,BUT MANY WORK]S AT HIS PLANT REMEMB]$ HIM4 ,!Y ?REAT5$ TO /RIKE IF HE WASN'T RE9/AT$4 ,:AT HAPP5$ !N WAS ALMO/ UNHE>D ( 9 ?OSE DAYS4 ,! WORK]S WON4 ,ZD5EK WAS REHIR$4 ,HE TOLD ME HE !N SP5T SEV]AL WEEKS TRY+ TO LOCATE ME2 HE EV5 ASK$ A FRI5D TO DO RESE>* 9 UNION FILES4 ,HE LAU<$ :5 ,I TOLD HIM ,I HAD BECOME ,MIRAN ,S$LAK1 A NEWLY->RIV$ PEASANT4 

0,I'VE BE5 %UFFL+ FROM HOME TO WORK & BACK HOME AGA94 ,! ONLY EXTRAORD9>Y ?+ ,I'VE DONE OV] !SE YE>S WAS TO COME TO ?IS PRISON]S' CLUB10 HE TOLD ME4 0,IT'S NOT ! PRISONS ?AT HAVE TO BE EXPOS$4 ,:]EV] !RE >E PRISONS !Y'RE GO+ TO BE ! SAME4 ,:AT HAS TO BE EXPOS$ IS ! ACTIVITY ?AT L$ WORK]S TO PUT UP ) ! IMPRISONM5T ( !IR COMRADES1 TO ACCEPT )\T /RUGGLE ! COMPLETE DE/RUCTION ( !IR RI<TS & ! CON/ANT POLICE SURVEILLANCE40 

,I ASK$ HIM :AT =MS !SE EXPOSURES MI<T TAKE & HE SAID1 0,I DON'T KN[ BUT ,I DO KN[ IT WILL BE ! MO/ USEFUL WORK ,I'VE DONE 9 MY LIFE40 

,MY VIEWS HAD BE5 SIMIL> TO ,ZD5EK'S :5 WE'D FIR/ MET4 ,I WAS 9T5SELY HAPPY TO LE>N HE HAD UND]GONE A SIMIL> *ANGE AS ,I & ?AT WE AGA9 HAD A SIMIL> \TLOOK4 ,HE'S AS CONV9C$ AS ,I AM ?AT ! TYPE ( ACTIVITY TO :I* WE W]E1 COMMITT$ :5 WE FIR/ MET LIES AT ! ROOT ( ! RELATIONS :I* HAVE %ACKL$ US4 ,?IS ACTIVITY IS PRECISELY ! EXP]I5CE :I* = Y\ HAS BECOME A /&>D BY :I* Y\ JUDGE Y\R PRES5T PRACTICE4 ,Y\'VE 9TOXICAT$ Y\RSELF ) ?AT EXP]I5CE & Y\'RE (F5D$ BY MY ATTEMPT TO UND]/& ITS NATURE4 ,BUT IF WE REFUSE TO SEE :]E IT L$ US4 WE CAN H>DLY AVOID REPRODUC+ ! SAME \TCOME OV] & OV] AGA94 ,IF WE'RE TO AVOID ?AT \TCOME1 WE %\LD CONFRONT ! ELEM5TS ?AT L$ TO IT1 EXPOSE !M1 UPROOT !M & BURY !M4 ,PLEASE UND]/& ?AT ,I'M NOT DEVIS+ AN >GUM5T TO ?R[ AT Y\ OR ,LUISA4 ,I'M TRY+ TO DESCRIBE A PROCESS 9 :I* NOT ONLY ,ZD5EK & ,I BUT MO/ ( ! PEOPLE >\ND ME >E 5GAG$4 ,?IS PROCESS IS AN EXT5SIVE EXAM9ATION ( ! ROOTS ( \R SUBMISSION4 ,IF ,I F9D ?AT MY [N PA/ ACTIVITY IS ONE ( ?OSE ROOTS !N ,I HAVE TO EXPOSE ?AT ACTIVITY ALONG ) ALL ! O!R ROOTS4 

,I FIR/ MET ,ZD5EK 9 PRISON AB\T A YE> AFT] Y\ & ,I W]E >RE/$4 ,HALFWAY ?R\< A MEAL ,I />T$ LI/5+ TO A DISCUSSION TAK+ PLACE AT ! O!R 5D ( ! TABLE4 ,SOMEONE SAID ?AT BE=E ! W> ! UNION HAD F\<T = WORK]S' 9T]E/S & SECUR$ ! WORK]S' %>E ( ! SOCIAL \TPUT4 ,ANO!R P]SON SAID UNIONS HAD ALWAYS BE5 PLIANT 9/RUM5TS 9 ! H&S ( ! MO/ 9FLU5TIAL SECTIONS ( ! RUL+ CLASS & ?AT \R NEWLY-9/ALL$ /ATE-RUN UNIONS W]E DIFF]5T ONLY 9 DEGREE BUT NOT 9 K9D FROM ALL O!R UNIONS4 ,A ?IRD P]SON -- ?IS WAS ,ZD5EK -- >GU$ ?AT ! PRE-W> AS WELL AS ! PO/-C\P UNIONS W]E NOT WORK]S' UNIONS AT ALL BUT CAPITALI/ ORGANIZATIONS )9 ! WORK+ CLASS4 ,HE SAID A G5U9E UNION WAS AN 9/RUM5T = ! APPROPRIATION ( SOCIETY'S PRODUCTIVE =CES BY ! WORK]S2 AN ORGANIZATION :I* CONSI/$ ( RACKETE]S :O 5RI*$ !MSELVES BY SELL+ LABOR P[] & ASSI/$ ! POLICE 9 DISCIPL9+ WORK]S WAS NOT A G5U9E UNION4 ,9 ,ZD5EK'S >GUM5T ,I RECOGNIZ$ :AT ,I HAD LE>N$ FROM ,LUISA & ,I LOOK$ = OPPORTUNITIES TO TALK TO HIM4 ,= SEV]AL MON?S ,ZD5EK & ,I TALK$ CONT9UALLY DUR+ EX]CISE SESSIONS & DUR+ MEALS4 ,HE WAS FASC9AT$ BY MY ACC\NTS ( ,LUISA'S EXP]I5CES2 9 MY DESCRIPTIONS ( ?OSE EV5TS HE SAW A REFLECTION ( HIS [N ACTIVITIES AS A UNION ORGANIZ]4 

,ZD5EK HAD BE5 ACTIVE 9 UNION POLITICS1 9 ! SAME PLANT :]E HE /ILL WORKS TODAY1 ALREADY BE=E ! W>4 ,DUR+ ! W> HE HAD BE5 A MEMB] ( A RESI/ANCE ORGANIZATION4 ,AFT] ! W> HE WAS APPO9T$ TO A M9OR UNION PO/4 ,HE NEV] TIR$ ( EXPLA9+ TO ME ?AT1 AL?\< HE ID5TIFI$ ) ! UNION BUREAUCRACY AT ! TIME1 HE TOOK HIS FUNCTION S]I\SLY ONLY ) RESPECT TO ! WORK]S' DEM&S & F\<T TO 9CREASE WAGES & IMPROVE SAFETY /&>DS & WORK+ CONDITIONS2 HE DIDN'T TAKE S]I\SLY ! DIRECTIVES ?AT CAME FROM ! TOP REG>D+ WORK DISCIPL9E & PRODUCTIVITY4 ,HIS FIR/ MAJOR POLITICAL 5GAGEM5T CO9CID$ ) Y\RS & M9E -- BUT UNLIKE Y\ & ME1 ,ZD5EK WAS A MEMB] ( ! UNION BUREAUCRACY4 ,HE TOOK S]I\SLY ! /ATE PROPAG&A AB\T DANG]\S REACTION>Y CIRCLES :O ?REAT5$ TO DEPRIVE WORK]S ( !IR RI<TS & 9/ITUTE A REPRESSIVE MILIT>Y REGIME4 ,HE 5GAG$ HIMSELF 9 ! (FICIAL /RUGGLE TO NEUTRALIZE ?OSE REACTION>Y CIRCLES BY MOBILIZ+ WORK]S TO DEMON/RATE & /RIKE4 ,HE KNEW ?AT WORK]S DID NOT 9ITIATE ! /RIKES & DEMON/RATIONS S9CE ! 9ITIATIVES W]E 9/RUCTIONS H&$ D[N TO HIM BY UNION (FICIALS4 ,BUT HE DIDN'T QUE/ION HIS ROLE2 HE WAS CONV9C$ ?AT ! ?REAT HAD TO BE REMOV$ & ?AT ! /RIKES & DEMON/RATIONS W]E APPROPRIATE RESPONSES TO IT4 

,ZD5EK 9ITIAT$ ! /RIKE AT HIS PLANT1 CALL$ = ! EXPULSION ( ! MANAG] & P]SONALLY ACCOMPANI$ ! DELEGATION ?AT C>RI$ \T ! EXPULSION4 ,AL?\< HE HAD BECOME CRITICAL BY ! TIME HE TOLD ME AB\T !SE EV5TS1 HE COMMUNICAT$ ! 5?USIASM HE HAD FELT AT ! TIME !Y HAD TAK5 PLACE4 ,HE ATT5D$ ! CONGRESS ( WORKS C\NCILS AS ! (FICIAL DELEGATE = HIS PLANT4 0,HUNDR$S ( DELEGATES >RIV$10 ,I REMEMB] HIM TELL+ ME2 0,WE DECID$ TO DECL>E A G5]AL /RIKE1 & ONLY T5 VOTES W]E RECORD$ AGA9/ IT40 ,AL?\< ,I DON'T REMEMB] HIS DESCRIPTIONS WORD = WORD1 HIS SUMM>Y ( HIS EXP]I5CES WAS V]Y SIMIL> TO Y\RS2 HE CONSID]$ ?IS ! GREATE/ EV5T 9 HIS LIFE2 0,! EV5T RELEAS$ A SURGE ( CONT5TM5T1 5?USIASM & 9ITIATIVE ?R\<\T ! WORK+ POPULATION2 AT LA/ WE W]E GO+ TO RUN \R [N AFFAIRS1 AT LA/ ! PEOPLE W]E MA/]S1 NOBODY W\LD BE ABLE TO EXPLOIT \R EF=TS = !IR [N 5DS1 NOBODY W\LD BE ABLE TO DECIEVE US1 SELL US TO \R 5EMIES OR BETRAY US40 ,HE REMA9$ 5?USIA/IC :51 AT LEA/ 9 APPE>ANCE1 >M$ WORK]S OCCUPI$ RADIO /ATIONS1 PO/ & TELEGRAPH (FICES1 RAILWAY /ATIONS4 ,:5 ACTION COMMITTEES & WORK]S' MILITIAS SPRANG UP 9 EV]Y FACTORY & EV]Y PUBLIC 9/ITUTION HE ?\<T ! WORK]S' COMMUNITY HAD BE5 BORN4 

,ZD5EK DIDN'T BEG9 TO HAVE D\BTS UNTIL HE WAS \/$ FROM HIS UNION PO/4 ,A NEW PLANT C\NCIL WAS APPO9T$ & HE WAS EXCLUD$ FROM IT4 ,ZD5EK HIMSELF HADN'T BE5 ELECT$ EI!R BUT HAD BE5 APPO9T$ BY RESI/ANCE POLITICIANS & HE HAD NEV] QUE/ION$ HIS [N RI<T TO ! PO/ HE OCCUPI$4 ,AS HE N>RAT$ ?IS HE WAS BITT] AB\T ! FACT ?AT HE BECAME CRITICAL ( HIS [N USURPATION ONLY AFT] HE WAS HIMSELF USURP$4 ,ZD5EK WAS EXCLUD$ BECAUSE A TEMPOR>Y TRADE UNION C\NCIL HAD APPO9T$ ITSELF AS AN ORGAN HI<] ?AN ! PLANT C\NCIL2 ?IS TEMPOR>Y BODY CONSI/$ EXCLUSIVELY ( WORK]S :O HAD BE5 MEMB]S ( ONE ORGANIZATION3 ! GOV]NM5T P>TY4 ,! TEMPOR>Y BODY !N PROCE$$ TO APPO9T A NEW PLANT C\NCIL CONSI/+ ( WORK]S :O W]E MEMB]S ( ! SAME P>TY OR :O W]E AT LEA/ 5?USIA/IC SYMPA?IZ]S4 ,ZD5EK WAS POPUL> AMONG WORK]S = HIS CONSI/5T DEF5SE ( !IR 9T]E/S AS WORK]S BUT HE WAS KN[N AS A CRITIC ( ! GOV]NM5T P>TY4 ,! NEWLY APPO9T$ PLANT C\NCIL !N PROCE$$ TO ELECT A NEW TRADE UNION C\NCIL & VOT$ BACK ! V]Y 9DIVIDUALS :O HAD PREVI\SLY APPO9T$ ! PLANT C\NCIL2 BY ?IS MANEUV] ! /ATUS ( ! TRADE UNION C\NCIL WAS LEGITIMIZ$ AS AN ORGAN HI<] ?AN ! PLANT C\NCIL & !RE=E EMP[]$ TO APPO9T ! MEMB]S ( ! PLANT C\NCIL4 ,ZD5EK SET \T ON A LONE CAMPAIGN TO EXPOSE !SE MA*9ATIONS BUT HIS EXPOSURES HAD NO EFFECT4 ,WORK]S :O KNEW HIM M]ELY W9K$ KN[+LY & REM9D$ HIM ?AT HE HADN'T MADE SU* CRITIQUES :5 HE HAD BE5 A CREATURE ( SELF-APPO9T$ POLITICIANS4 ,HE HAD KN[N AB\T !SE ?+S ALL ALONG BUT HADN'T CONC5TRAT$ ON !M DUR+ ! YE>S :5 HE HAD HIMSELF BE5 P>T ( ! MA*9]Y4 ,BY ! TIME ,I MET HIM HE C\LDN'T SAY 5\< AB\T ! SPURI\S NATURE ( ! WORK]S' VICTORY OR ! OR*E/RAT$ *>ACT] ( ! /RIKES & DEMON/RATIONS4 ,IT WAS FROM ,ZD5EK ,I LE>N$ ?AT ! 9ITIATIVE 9 ?OSE EV5TS DIDN'T COME FROM ! WORK]S !MSELVES1 ?AT ! 5?USIASM WAS >TIFICIALLY /IMULAT$ BY SEASON$ BUREAUCRATS1 ?AT 9/RUCTIONS W]E SKILLFULLY TRANSMITT$ FROM ! TOP ( ! POLITICAL HI]>*Y TO ! RANK & FILE4 ,9 MY LA/ LETT] ,I TRI$ TO SUMM>IZE :AT ,I LE>N$ FROM ,ZD5EK BUT Y\R RESPONSE TO MY DESCRIPTION ( ! PUPPETS & PUPPETE]S MAKES ME AW>E ?AT ,I FAIL$ TO COMMUNICATE :AT ,I LE>N$4 ,ZD5EK'S DESCRIPTIONS W]E FILL$ ) VIVID DETAILS2 HAV+ HIMSELF PLAY$ A ROLE 9 /IMULAT+ ! >TIFICIAL 5?USIASM HE WAS 9TIMATELY FAMILI> ) ! WAYS 9 :I* ?IS WAS DONE2 HE KNEW P]FECTLY WELL H[ ! DECISIONS TO DEMON/RATE & TO /RIKE HAD BE5 REA*$4 

,I /ILL REMEMB] EV]Y DETAIL ( ONE ( HIS DESCRIPTIONS4 ,SEV]AL DAYS BE=E A S*$UL$ UNION MEET+ HE WAS 9=M$ BY ! LOCAL SECRET>Y ( ! GOV]NM5T P>TY ?AT ON ! DAY ( ! UNION MEET+ SEV]AL PLANTS W]E GO+ TO PROCLAIM !MSELVES ON /RIKE 9 OPPOSITION TO ! MA*9ATIONS ( REACTION>Y CIRCLES4 ,S9CE ,ZD5EK WAS GLAD TO LE>N ?IS1 SEE+ IT AS AN APPROPRIATE RESPONSE TO A REAL ?REAT1 ON ! DAY ( ! MEET+ HE WAS ! FIR/ TO SPEAK 9 FAVOR ( PROCLAIM+ ! /RIKE4 ,?REE OR F\R O!RS IMM$IATELY FOLL[$ ) SPEE*ES 9 FAVOR ( ! /RIKE & A C\PLE ( M9UTES AFT] ! LA/ SPEE* ! DECISION TO GO ON /RIKE WAS UNANIM\SLY ACCLAIM$4 ,! DECISION :I* HAD BE5 TRANSMITT$ TO ,ZD5EK BY ! SECRET>Y ( ! LOCAL ORGANIZATION HAD BE5 TRANSMITT$ BY ! SAME SECRET>Y TO ! ?REE O!RS :O SPOKE 9 FAVOR ( IT4 ,! DECISION HAD OBVI\SLY BE5 TRANSMITT$ TO ! LOCAL SECRET>Y BY ! REGIONAL SECRET>Y1 S9CE O!RWISE ! LOCAL SECRET>Y C\LDN'T HAVE KN[N AHEAD ( TIME ?AT SEV]AL O!R PLANTS W]E GO+ TO MAKE ID5TICAL DECISIONS ON ! SAME DAY4 ,:5 ! /RIKE BROKE \T & ALMO/ ALL PLANTS W]E ON /RIKE :5 ! DAY BEGAN1 IT BECAME CLE> ?AT NOT A S+LE ONE ( !SE /RIKES WAS A SPONTANE\S GE/URE ( SOLID>ITY2 IT BECAME OBVI\S ?AT ! DECISION TO /RIKE HAD ORIG9AT$ YET HI<]1 ?AT IT WAS ! DECISION ( ! G5]AL SECRET>Y ( ! ORGANIZATION1 :O WAS AT ?AT TIME JOCKEY+ = ! PO/ ( PRIME M9I/]4 ,! DECISION HAD ORIG9AT$ AT ! PEAK ( ! /ATE APP>ATUS & BY TRANSMITT+ IT1 ,ZD5EK HAD BE5 A /ATE AG5T4 

,ONLY AFT] HE WAS >RE/$ DID ,ZD5EK REALIZE ?AT ALL ! DEMON/RATIONS & /RIKES1 ALL ! %[S ( =CE BY >M$ WORK]S1 HAD A SIMIL> ORIG92 ONLY !N DID HE LOSE HIS 5?USIASM = ! EV5TS ?AT HAD TAK5 PLACE4 ,! PLANT MILITIAS & ACTION COMMITTEES1 :I* HE HAD E>LI] SE5 AS DETA*M5TS ( >M$ WORK]S SPONTANE\SLY CREAT$ BY ! WORK]S AS ORGANS ( /RUGGLE & SELF-DEF5SE1 W]E COMPOS$ EXCLUSIVELY ( WORK]S :O HAD LONG BE5 MEMB]S ( ! SAME ORGANIZATION ?AT \/$ HIM FROM HIS PO/4 ,9 JAIL HE REALIZ$ ?AT ! MEMB]S ( ?IS ORGANIZATION HAD SUCCE$$ 9 BECOM+ ! ONLY >M$ BODY 9 EV]Y FACTORY & PUBLIC 9/ITUTION4 ,S9CE ! POLICE WAS BY !N UND] ! COMM& ( ! SAME ORGANIZATION1 ! ROLE ( ! ACTION COMMITTEES1 MILITIAS & O!R GR\PS ( >M$ WORK]S WAS TO ACT AS AN ADJUNCT TO ! POLICE4 ,HE REALIZ$ ?AT ! 5TIRE MOVEM5T ( >M$ WORK]S HAD NOT CON/ITUT$ A WORK]S' COMMUNITY BUT A GIGANTIC POLICE NETWORK1 ?AT :OLE SECTIONS ( ! WORK+ CLASS HAD BE5 RECRUIT$ TO DO POLICE WORK1 ?AT UND] ! BANN]S ( ! SELF-LIB]ATION ( !' WORK+ CLASS WORK]S HAD ATTACK$ & >RE/$ O!R WORK]S4 

,:AT ,ZD5EK REALIZ$ WAS ?AT HE HAD PLAY$ HIS P>T1 NOT 9 A VICTORY ( ! WORK]S' MOVEM5T BUT 9 ITS COMPLETE DEFEAT4 ,:AT PA9$ HIM EV5 MORE WAS ! REALIZATION ?AT ?IS DEFEAT HAD ANNIHILAT$ EV]Y?+ ! WORK]S HAD WON DUR+ ALL ! E>LI] DECADES ( /RUGGLE3 MILITANT WORK]S :O HAD F\<T = WORK]S' DEM&S W]E ALL JAIL$2 WORK]S LO/ ! RI<T TO /RIKE2 ! POSSIBILITY ( =M+ 9DEP5D5T WORK]S' ORGANIZATIONS WAS DE/ROY$4 ,AL?\< ,ZD5EK HAD HELP$ 9FLICT ?IS DEFEAT AS A MEMB] ( ! UNION APP>ATUS1 AT ! TIME ( \R DISCUSSIONS HE /ILL DIDN'T GRASP ! ROLE HIS ACTIVITY AS UNION ORGANIZ] HAD PLAY$ 9 ?IS DEFEAT4 ,HIS \TLOOK WAS ID5TICAL TO ! POSITION ,LUISA /ILL EXPRESSES TODAY4 ,HE BLAM$ HIMSELF ONLY M>G9ALLY & ONLY = HIS BL9DNESS2 HE BLAM$ EXT]NAL ELEM5TS = ! DEFEAT4 ,HE >GU$ ?AT ! WORK]S' REAL UNION HAD BE5 TRANS=M$ 9TO A %AM UNION1 ?AT ! REAL WORK]S' MOVEM5T HAD BE5 REPLAC$ BY A SIMULAT$ WORK]S' MOVEM5T :I* 9 FACT CONSI/$ ( POLITICIANS & BUREAUCRATS4 ,! POLITICIANS HAD 9FILTRAT$ ! WORK]S' UNION & DE/ROY$ IT FROM )92 !Y HAD TAK5 OV] & !N D]AIL$ ! REAL WORK]S' MOVEM5T4 ,ZD5EK FELT ?AT HE & ! RE/ ( ! WORK]S HAD BE5 BETRAY$4 ,9/EAD ( TAK+ OV] ! PLANTS & RUNN+ !M ON !IR [N ! WORK]S HAD REPLAC$ A ,ZAGAD ONLY TO F9D !MSELVES BOSS$ BY A ,G5<IS ,KHAN4 ,!Y HAD AV]T$ ! MILIT>Y & POLICE DICTATOR%IP :I* WAS TO BE C>RI$ \T BY REACTION>Y CIRCLES ?AT LAT] TURN$ \T TO HAVE BE5 PURE 9V5TIONS ( PROPAG&I/S1 & F\ND !MSELVES SURR\ND$ BY ! MILIT>Y & ! POLICE1 BY AN IMM5SELY 5L>G$ POLICE :I* 9CLUD$ =M] FRI5DS1 FELL[ WORK]S1 RELATIVES & NEI<BORS 9 ITS RANKS4 

,?R\<\T HIS PRISON T]M ,ZD5EK REMA9$ CONV9C$ ?AT ! REAL WORK]S' MOVEM5T WAS /ILL ALIVE1 ?AT WORK]S C\LD /ILL REVITALIZE ! UNION1 ?AT ALL !Y HAD TO DO WAS TO \/ ! ALI5 ELEM5TS ?AT HAD 9FILTRAT$ IT4 ,AT ! 5D ( HIS T]M HE WAS AS MU* ( A MISSION>Y AS ,I WAS4 ,HE LEFT PRISON ) ! 5?USIASM ( ! FIR/ UNION ORGANIZ]S4 ,HIS MISSION WAS TO EXPOSE :AT ! WORK]S DIDN'T KN[3 ?AT !Y HAD BE5 DUP$1 ?AT AG5TS ( ! /ATE & RACKETE]S HAD TAK5 OV] !IR UNION & MADE IT S]VE !IR [N 5DS4 ,HE WAS AS CONV9C$ AS Y\ & ,LUISA ?AT HIS PA/ EXP]I5CES1 9T5TIONS & HOPES W]E AN ADEQUATE BASIS = HIS RELATIONS ) O!RS4 ,HIS AIM WAS TO RETURN TO ! /RUGGLE AS IT HAD BE5 BE=E !SE EXT]NAL =CES D]AIL$ IT FROM ITS REAL C\RSE & TEMPOR>ILY DEFEAT$ IT4 

,ZD5EK WAS ALWAYS BITT] AB\T ! FACT ?AT HE DIDN'T BEG9 TO REEXAM9E HIS PA/ UNTIL AFT] HE LO/ HIS UNION PO/4 ,EV5 :5 ,I TALK$ TO HIM ONLY A FEW DAYS AGO HE 9SI/$ HE W\LD /ILL BE A TRADE UNION BUREAUCRAT TODAY IF HE HADN'T BE5 \/$ TW5TY YE>S AGO & ?AT HE W\LDN'T HAVE DEVELOP$ ANY CRITICAL 9SI<TS IF HE HAD CONT9U$ TO C>RY \T HIS (FICIAL FUNCTION4 ,HE ADMITS HE W\LD SOON] OR LAT] HAVE BE5 REMOV$ FROM ! APP>ATUS BECAUSE HE W\LD HAVE CONT9U$ TO USE HIS POSITION TO FUR!R ! WORK]S' 9T]E/S :5EV] ?IS C\LD BE DONE4 ,BUT HE SAYS ?AT IF ! APP>ATUS HAD BE5 FLEXIBLE 5\< TO ALL[ HIM TO DO ONLY ?AT1 HE W\LD NEV] HAVE TURN$ AGA9/ IT ON HIS [N4 

,:5 ,I FIR/ MET HIM1 HIS CRITIQUE WAS SIMIL> TO Y\RS4 ,HIS E>LI] HOPES & PROJECTS AS A UNION ORGANIZ] W]E ! BASIS = HIS COMMITM5T & HE DIDN'T TRY TO EXAM9E ! NATURE ( HIS E>LI] ACTIVITY4 ,HE DEF5D$ ! UNION NOT ONLY AS AN 9/RUM5T ) :I* WORK]S C\LD APPROPRIATE ! PRODUCTIVE =CES BUT AS ! ONLY 9/RUM5T SUITABLE = ?IS TASK4 ,HE REJECT$ C\NCILS & ALL O!R =MS ( WORK]S' ORGANIZATIONS4 ,HE DIDN'T CLASSIFY C\NCILS 9TO G5U9E & SPURI\S TYPES BUT HELD ?AT ALL C\NCILS C\LD BE MANIPULAT$ BY ANY WELL-ORGANIZ$ GR\P ( POLITICIANS4 ,HE 9SI/$ ?AT C\NCILS W]E BY NATURE LOCAL ORGANIZATIONS :]EAS ! UNION WAS A MASS ORGANIZATION & !RE=E WAS LESS SUSCEPTIBLE TO BE+ US$ BY AN \TSIDE GR\P4 ,HE HELD ON TO !SE VIEWS EV5 ?\< HE HAD WAT*$ A POLITICAL GR\P USE C\NCILS AS WELL AS UNIONS AS ! 9/RUM5TS ) :I* IT DE/ROY$ EV]Y?+ ,ZD5EK HAD F\<T TO BUILD4 

,:5 ,I SAW ,ZD5EK AT ! PRISON]S' CLUB A FEW DAYS AGO HE HAD *ANG$ HIS M9D AB\T VIRTUALLY EV]Y?+ HE HAD DEF5D$ :5 ,I FIR/ MET HIM4 ,I DIDN'T HAVE MU* ( A *ANCE TO TALK TO HIM BECAUSE HE GOT 9VOLV$ 9 AN >GUM5T :I* BECAME QUITE HEAT$ & :I* LA/$ MO/ ( ! EV5+4 ,WE EX*ANG$ ADDRESSES & HE AGRE$ TO VISIT ME 9 ! NE> FUTURE4 ,I LE>N$ FROM HIS >GUM5TS ?AT HE HAS REA*$ CONCLUSIONS V]Y SIMIL> TO MY PRES5T \TLOOK4 ,! >GUM5T BEGAN :5 AN ELD]LY MAN OV]HE>D ,ZD5EK TELL ME1 0,! V]Y LANGUAGE WE ONCE US$ HAS TO BE DEMY/IFI$2 T]MS LIKE WORK]S' MOVEM5T1 UNION1 POPUL> WILL %\LD BE AB&ON$ UNTIL HUMANITY REG5]ATES ITSELF & KN[S :AT IT MEANS BY !M40 

0,?AT S\NDS LIKE AN AMBITI\S PROJECT1 MY FRI5D2 IT W\LD REQUIRE ORGANIZATIONAL RES\RCES ?AT >E NOT AVAILABLE TO US AT PRES5T10 SAID ! MAN2 ,I LAT] LE>N$ HE HAD ONCE BE5 A POLITICIAN1 HAD BE5 >RE/$ AS A MEMB] ( AN 9EXI/5T OPPOSITIONAL ORGANIZATION & HAD BE5 AN ELEM5T>Y S*OOL TEA*] S9CE HIS RELEASE4 

,ZD5EK TURN$ TO ! MAN & SNAPP$1 0,ORGANIZATIONAL RES\RCES >E ONE ( ! ?+S WE DON'T NE$2 ?AT'S YET ANO!R MY/IFICATION40 

0,I DON'T UND]/& Y\10 ! TEA*] SAID4 0,T]MS LIKE WORK]S' MOVEM5T & UNION HAVE BE5 TRANS=M$ 9TO SYNONYMS ( ! WORD /ATE4 ,!Y MU/ BE DEMY/IFI$2 !IR REAL MEAN+S HAVE TO BE RE/OR$4 ,?IS REQUIRES SOME TYPE ( ORGANIZATION1 M9IMALLY SOME TYPE ( PUBLI%+ ACTIVITY40 

0,?AT WASN'T :AT ,I MEANT10 ,ZD5EK SAID1 0,?OSE T]MS DON'T HAVE ANY REAL MEAN+S4 ,P]HAPS DEMY/IFICATION IS ! WRONG WORD4 ,P]HAPS !Y HAVE TO BE ELIM9AT$ ALTOGE!R4 ,EA* ( ?OSE T]MS & C\NTLESS O!RS1 9CLUD+ ! WORD ORGANIZATION1 REF] TO OPPOSITES4 ,TAKE ! WORD UNION4 ,IT REF]S AT ONE & ! SAME TIME TO ALL WORK]S & TO ! POLITICIANS :O SPEAK 9 ! NAME ( ! WORK]S4 ,IT'S EXACTLY ! SAME TYPE ( T]M AS COMMONWEAL?1 :I* SEEMS TO REF] TO ALL HUMAN BE+S & TO ! WORLD !Y %>E :]EAS 9 PRACTICE IT REF]S ONLY TO ! MON>*S :O RUL$ OV] HUMAN BE+S ?R\<\T HI/ORY40 

0,I AGREE ) Y\10 ! TEA*] SAID4 0,!RE'S NO QUE/ION ?AT C\NTLESS T]MS HAVE BE5 DI/ORT$ \T ( RECOGNITION4 ,BUT SURELY Y\'RE NOT D5Y+ ?AT SOME K9D ( ORGANIZ$ ACTIVITY IS REQUIR$ TO COMBAT ?IS4 ,I DON'T MEAN AN ORGANIZATION ( EXP]TS OR A CIRCLE ( 9TELLECTUALS4 ,I'M REF]R+ TO AN ORGANIZATION ?AT TRANS=MS LANGUAGE BY TRANS=M+ REALITY ITSELF1 LIKE ! WORK]S' ORGANIZATIONS ( ! PA/1 C\NCILS1 UNIONS & O!R =MS :I* WORK]S F\ND USEFUL 9 !IR /RUGGLE40 

,ZD5EK RAIS$ HIS VOICE4 0,?OSE ORGANIZATIONS W]E NEV] USEFUL TO WORK]S4 ,UNIONS AS WELL AS C\NCILS W]E USEFUL ONLY TO POLITICIANS4 ,ALL ! =MS Y\ M5TION >E =MS :I* ALL[$ POLITICIANS TO MAKE !MSELVES REPRES5TATIVES ( ! WORK+ PEOPLE1 EMBODIM5TS ( ! WORK]S' MOVEM5T4 ,Y\ MISS$ MY COMP>ISON ) A COMMONWEAL?4 ,JU/ AS 9 A COMMONWEAL?1 ! MON>*S ( A UNION SPEAK =1 DOM9ATE1 REPRESS & SELL !IR SUBJECTS40 

0,?AT'S ( C\RSE TRUE TODAY1 BUT --0 

,ZD5EK 9T]RUPT$ ! TEA*] & %\T$1 0,?AT'S TRUE :5EV] WORK+ PEOPLE LOSE CONTROL OV] ! LANGUAGE !Y USE1 :5EV] !IR V]Y ?\<TS >E C\*$ 9 T]MS !Y DON'T UND]/&1 T]MS LIKE ORGANIZATION60 

0,BUT ?AT'S RIDICUL\S10 ! TEA*] OBJECT$4 0,Y\ SEEM TO WANT EV]Y G5]ATION TO DE/ROY ! LANGUAGE & 9V5T ONE ( ITS [N40 

0,MAYBE ?AT'S EXACTLY :AT ,I WANT10 ,ZD5EK SAID4 0,= PEOPLE TO DE/ROY ! LANGUAGE ALONG ) ALL ! O!R CONDITIONS !Y'RE BORN 9TO1 = EV]Y G5]ATION TO %APE ITS [N WORLD & 9V5T ITS [N LANGUAGE4 ,H[ CAN WE TALK ( A REVOLUTION 9 :I* PEOPLE RE%APE !IR WORLD IF WE CAN'T EV5 IMAG9E PEOPLE %AP+ !IR [N LANGUAGE8 ,H[ CAN PEOPLE %APE ANY?+ IF !Y NEV] LEAVE ! WORLD !Y'RE BORN 9TO80 

0,H[ CAN Y\ EV5 COMMUNICATE ) PEOPLE IF Y\ DON'T AGREE TO USE ! LANGUAGE !Y USE80 ! TEA*] ASK$4 

0,DO Y\ ?9K Y\ COMMUNICATE ANY?+ :5 Y\ DO USE ?AT LANGUAGE80 ,ZD5EK ASK$4 

0,( C\RSE !RE'S A VICI\S CIRCLE 9 ! :OLE PROBLEM ( COMMUNICATION1 BUT IT'S NOT AS CLOS$ AS Y\ MAKE IT SEEM10 ! TEA*] SAID4 0,I'M OBVI\SLY AW>E ?AT ! LANGUAGE ( AN EPO* EXPRESSES ! IDEAS ( ! RUL+ CLASS1 BUT ?IS HAS NEV] MEANT ?AT IT IS !RE=E IMPOSSIBLE TO F9D SUPPORT = A /RUGGLE AGA9/ ! RUL+ CLASS2 ?IS HAS NEV] MEANT ?AT A DISCIPL9$ REVOLUTION>Y ORGANIZATION NE$ BE P]MAN5TLY TRAPP$ 9 Y\R VICI\S CIRCLE40 

0,HASN'T IT MEANT ?AT8 ,REALLY NEV]80 ,ZD5EK ASK$4 0,I'M UND] ! IMPRESSION ?AT ?IS WAS ALWAYS ! CASE4 ,! V]Y ORGANIZ]S ( SU* A /RUGGLE >E ! 9/RUM5TS :O RE/ORE ! RUL+ CLASS4 ,:E!R IT'S A QUE/ION ( UNIONS OR C\NCILS OR WORK]S' MOVEM5TS1 ! ORGANIZ]S' V]Y LANGUAGE ALREADY EMBODIES RELATIONS BETWE5 RUL]S & RUL$1 RELATIONS ( DOM9ATION & SUBMISSION4 ,:AT 9 ! WORLD DO Y\ ?9K SUPPORT & DISCIPL9E MEAN80 

0,PLEASE DON'T ID5TIFY MY WORDS ) ! WORDS ( ! RUL+ POLITICIANS10 ! TEA*] 9SI/$4 0,I'M TALK+ AB\T OPPOSITION TO ! RUL+ ORD]40 

0,Y\'RE TALK+ AB\T SUPPORT = ! POLITICIANS :O HEAD ! ORGANIZATION10 ,ZD5EK 9SI/$4 0,:5 ,I SUPPORT ! ORGANIZATION'S LEAD+ POLITICIANS ,I MAKE !IR 5EMIES MY 5EMIES1 ,I BECOME SUSPICI\S ( !IR 5EMIES & 9 ! 5D ,I EV5 BECOME GRATEFUL TO ! POLICE = LIQUIDAT+ PEOPLE :O W]E NEV] MY 5EMIES BUT 5EMIES ( ! ORGANIZATION'S LEAD]S4 ,Y\'RE TALK+ AB\T ! RUL+ ORD]1 NOT AB\T OPPOSITION TO IT40 

,:ILE ,ZD5EK SPOKE ,I WAS AGA9 REM9D$ ( ,CLAUDE'S SUSPICION ( ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS TW5TY YE>S AGO4 ,Y\ MADE A GREAT DEAL \T ( ! FACT ?AT ,ALB]TS WAS A /RANGE P]SON & ?AT !RE=E IT WASN'T SURPRIS+ IF PEOPLE W]E SUSPICI\S ( HIM4 ,CLAUDE'S OR MY SUSPICION ( ,ALB]TS HAD NO?+ TO DO ) ,ALB]TS' P]SONALITY OR ) HIS ACTS4 ,I WAS MAK+ ! SAME PO9T ,ZD5EK MADE4 ,MY SUSPICION ILLU/RAT$ ! FACT ?AT ,I1 LIKE ,CLAUDE1 HAD BECOME AN 9/RUM5T ( ! AU?ORITIES1 ?AT ,I HAD COME TO ?9K ( !IR 5EMIES AS MY 5EMIES4 ,! FACT ?AT ,ALB]TS HAD %ORTCOM+S IS AS IRRELEVANT AS ! FACT ?AT ,SAB9A HAD AN EXAGG]AT$ IDEA ( HIS VIRTUES4 ,?IS HAD NO?+ TO DO ) ,CLAUDE'S OR ) MY SUSPICION4 ,:AT WAS ,ALB]TS TO ME8 

,EV]YONE 9 ! ROOM WAS LI/5+ TO ! DEBATE & ,ZD5EK WAS %\T+4 ,I DON'T KN[ H[ MANY PEOPLE AGRE$ ) :AT ,ZD5EK WAS SAY+1 BUT ,I DO KN[ ?AT EV]YONE UND]/OOD :AT HE WAS TALK+ AB\T2 HE WAS DAMN+ ! ROLE HE HAD PLAY$ 9 ! E/ABLI%M5T ( ! RUL+ SY/EM4 0,:5 Y\ TALK AB\T SUPPORT Y\ TALK AB\T OB$I5CE10 ,ZD5EK CONT9U$4 0,:5 Y\ TALK AB\T A DISCIPL9$ ORGANIZATION Y\'RE TALK+ AB\T PEOPLE :O TRANSMIT 9/RUCTIONS FROM ! HI<] UPS TO ?OSE L[] D[N40 

0,9 PRES5T-DAY HI/ORICAL CIRCUM/ANCES IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO OV]?R[ A RUL+ SOCIAL ORD] )\T DISCIPL9E & ORGANIZATION10 ! TEA*] OBJECT$4 

0,BUT MY GOOD FELL[40 ,ZD5EK %\T$1 0DON'T Y\ SEE ?AT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO OV]?R[ A RUL+ SOCIAL ORD] ) ORGANIZATION & DISCIPL9E8 ,:AT Y\'RE TALK+ AB\T IS ! RE9/ATEM5T ( ! RUL+ ORD]1 NOT ITS OV]?R[4 ,WE BEG9 BY FI<T+1 NOT = EA* O!R & = \RSELVES1 BUT = ! ORGANIZATION1 & WE 5D BY SUSPECT+ & FI<T+ EA* O!R2 AT ! 5D IT IS NEI!R Y\R WILL NOR MY WILL ?AT DET]M9ES DECISIONS BUT ! WILL ( ! /ATE3 DECISIONS >E IMPLEM5T$ AT ! 5D NOT BY Y\ & ME BUT BY ! C5TRAL ORGAN ( ! /ATE'S WILL3 ! POLICE6 ,AT ?AT PO9T \R PLANT MILITIAS & TRADE UNION C\NCILS & ACTION COMMITTEES CEASE TO BE \R 9/RUM5TS = OV]?R[+ ! RUL+ ORD] & BECOME ! /ATE'S 9/RUM5TS = REPRESS+ US4 ,AT ?AT PO9T \R [N 9ITIAL COMMITM5TS JUMP BACK AT US AS ! /ATE'S COMMITM5TS40 

0,?AT'S ( C\RSE :AT HAPP5$ H]E10 ! TEA*] ADMITT$4 0,BUT :AT HAPP5$ H]E WAS DUE TO V]Y SPECIFIC HI/ORICAL CIRCUM/ANCES :I* Y\ LEAVE TOTALLY \T ( ACC\NT4 ,Y\ =GET ?AT ! RUL+ CLIQUE US$ A GREAT DEAL ( *ICAN]Y & D\BLE-TALK TO SECURE ITS P[] & ?AT IT WAS L>GELY ?R\< ?IS *ICAN]Y ?AT !Y TOOK ! WORK]S' ORGANIZATIONS AWAY FROM ! WORK]S & TRANS=M$ !M 9TO !IR [N 9/RUM5TS40 

0,I DON'T ?9K IT'S ?AT SIMPLE & ,I DON'T ?9K *ICAN]Y IS A GOOD WORD10 ,ZD5EK SAID4 0,*ICAN]Y SUGGE/S A ONE-SID$ RELATION%IP & :AT ,I EXP]I5C$ WAS TWO-SID$4 ,I SUSPECT Y\ W]E AMONG ?OSE :O HELP$ ! PRES5T CLIQUE TO P[] --0 

0,YES1 ,I1 BUT --0 

,ZD5EK CUT HIM %ORT SAY+1 0,SO WAS ,I4 ,& ,I DON'T REMEMB] ?9K+ EI!R ?AT ,I WAS DUP$ BY ?OSE ABOVE ME OR ?AT IT WAS MY TASK TO DUPE ?OSE BEL[ ME4 ,DO Y\8 ,I TRANSMITT$ 9/RUCTIONS & WAIT$ = ! WORLD TO *ANGE1 = FACTORIES TO BE TRANS=M$1 = ! /ATE TO DISAPPE>1 = CAPITALISM TO CRUMBLE4 ,:AT WAS ,I DO+ TO MAKE ALL ?IS HAPP58 ,TRANSMITT+ 9/RUCTIONS4 ,:AT W]E Y\ DO+80 

0,( C\RSE --0 

0,( C\RSE10 ,ZD5EK 9T]RUPT$ AGA94 0,W]5'T WE ALL8 ,WAS ,I A VICTIM ( *ICAN]Y8 ,NO1 ,I WAS P]FECTLY AW>E ( :AT WAS HAPP5+4 ,I WAS TRANSMITT+ 9/RUCTIONS1 ! NEXT P]SON WAS TRANSMITT+ !M FUR!R1 & EV5TUALLY WE ALL ACT$ !M \T4 ,AS = ! FACTORIES1 ! /ATE & CAPITALISM1 ,I ASSUM$ AS EV]YONE >\ND ME ASSUM$ ?AT SOMEONE W\LD TAKE C>E ( ALL ?AT IF ,I TOOK GOOD C>E ( :AT ,I WAS DO+4 ,& :O WAS TO TAKE C>E ( ALL ?AT :ILE ,I WAS BUSY C>RY+ \T MY 9/RUCTIONS8 ,! ORGANIZATION1 ( C\RSE6 ,! C\NCILS6 ,! UNION6 ,! WORK]S' MOVEM5T6 ,I'M P[]LESS BUT ! ORGANIZATION IS ALL-P[]FUL6 ,ITS P[] & ITS EFFICACY W]E CON/ANTLY BE+ V]IFI$4 ,DON'T Y\ REMEMB] :AT PROV$ ! P[] & EFFICACY ( ! ORGANIZATION8 ,! EFFICI5CY ) :I* IT REMOV$ 5EMIES4 ,H]E WAS ONE1 !RE WAS ANO!R1 RI<T 9 \R MID/6 ,! ORGANIZATION REMOV$ !M BO?4 ,?ANK GOD ! ORGANIZATION KN[S H[ TO RECOGNIZE !M6 ,?ANK GOD ! ORGANIZATION REMOV$ !M6 ,?ANK GOD ! ORGANIZATION KN[S :AT IT IS DO+ & KN[S H[ TO BR+ AB\T MY GOALS6 ,! ORGANIZATION WILL REMOVE ! EMP]OR1 ! CAPITALI/S1 ! /ATE1 ! POLICE1 & 9 !IR PLACE WILL 9/ITUTE A NEW WORLD4 ,ALL ,I HAVE TO DO IS OBEY ! 9/RUCTIONS & /AY AT MY PO/40 

,AT ?IS PO9T 9 ,ZD5EK'S TIRADE ,I ?\<T ( ! COMM5TS Y\ HAD MADE 9 Y\R LETT]4 ,Y\ & ,I1 AFT] ALL1 M]ELY C>RI$ \R SIGNS AT ! APPO9T$ TIME & ! APPO9T$ PLACE2 DID WE ?9K ?AT \R WALKS ) ?OSE SIGNS W\LD UND]M9E ! RUL+ ORD] OR ?AT ) \R MOTIONS WE W]E BUILD+ A NEW WORLD8 ,& IF WE W]5'T DE/ROY+ ! OLD WORLD & BUILD+ ! NEW ) \R ACTS !N :O WAS DO+ ?IS8 ,I'M CONV9C$ WE W]E AMONG ?OSE ,ZD5EK DESCRIB$4 

0,IT WAS ! SAME ALL ALONG ! ORGANIZATIONAL L9E4 ,! WORK+ CLASS HAD RIS51 ! WORK]S W]E MOV+4 ,BUT WE ALL LOOK$ ABOVE TO SEE MOTION4 ,= ALL ( US ONLY ! TOP MOV$4 ,ITS MOTION WAS CONFIRM$ BY ACTS ( REPRESSION4 ,\R 5EMIES W]E R\ND$ UP & ! DEFEAT ( ?OSE 5EMIES WAS \R VICTORY & \R ONLY VICTORY4 ,SOON WE ?\<T ! VICTORY OV] ?OSE 5EMIES WAS ! ULTIMATE VICTORY4 ,BUT :]E HAD WE MOV$ & :]E HAD WE />T$8 ,DIDN'T WE NOTICE ?AT ! 5EMIES :O W]E WIP$ \T HAD NEV] BE5 \R 5EMIES8 ,DID WE =GET ?AT ! 5EMY WE />T$ COMBAT+ WAS ! SITUATION 9TO :I* WE W]E BORN8 ,?AT SITUATION REMA9$ 9TACT YET WE EXP]I5C$ A VICTORY4 ,VICTORY AGA9/ 5EMIES4 ,:I* 5EMIES8 ,NOT M9E4 ,GR\PS HO/ILE TO ! LEAD+ GR\P W]E WIP$ \T & :5 ! LA/ GR\P ( 5EMIES WAS WIP$ \T & VICTORY WAS PROCLAIM$ WE F\ND \RSELVES FACE TO FACE ) ! POLICE1 ! \TFIT ?AT LIQUIDAT$ ! 5EMIES4 ,! ONLY ?+ \R /RUGGLE = LIB]ATION DIDN'T BR+ AB\T WAS \R LIB]ATION4 ,! POLICE W]E ! ONLY VICTORS4 ,WE DIDN'T RECOV] \R LO/ P[]S1 WE DIDN'T BECOME COMMUNAL BE+S1 WE DIDN'T EV5 BEG9 TO COMMUNICATE ) EA* O!R1 WE DIDN'T CON/ITUTE \RSELVES 9TO A COMMUNITY ?AT DET]M9$ ITS ,[N RELATIONS1 5VIRONM5T & DIRECTION4 ,Y\ CAN'T TELL ME ?AT ,I WAS DUP$4 ,I WAS WIDE AWAKE4 ,IF ,I WAS DUP$ !N ,I DUP$ MYSELF2 NO ONE US$ *ICAN]Y ON ME4 ,I MYSELF F\<T = ! VICTORY ( ! 5TITIES ?AT HELD ME 9 !IR GRIP1 ! UNIONS & WORK]S C\NCILS1 ! MOVEM5T -- 5TITIES :I* HAVE AS MU* TO DO ) HUMAN LIFE AS SA9TS & ANGELS4 ,!SE WORDS --0 

,?IS TIME ! TEA*] 9T]RUPT$ ,ZD5EK4 0,?AT'S ! MO/ CONSI/5TLY NIHILI/IC ANALYSIS ,I'VE EV] HE>D4 ,FIR/ Y\ ID5TIFY ! WORK]S' ORGANIZATIONS ) ! POLICE & !N Y\ CLAIM ?AT UNIONS & C\NCILS >E RELIGI\S ORGANIZATIONS40 

0,PRECISELY10 ,ZD5EK SAID4 0,:AT Y\ CALL WORK]S' ORGANIZATIONS >E M]E WORDS4 ,UNIONS1 C\NCILS1 MOVEM5TS -- !Y'RE WORDS ON BANN]S C>RI$ BY OPPORTUNI/S1 RACKETE]S & GANG/]S AS WELL AS 9QUISITION]S & EXECUTION]S4 ,WE1 Y\ & ,I & PROBABLY ! MAJORITY ( ! PEOPLE 9 ?IS ROOM1 AT ONE TIME OR ANO!R M>*$ BEH9D ?OSE BANN]S2 WE PROVID$ ! BACK+1 ! MASK ?AT 5ABL$ ?OSE GANG LEAD]S TO CALL !MSELVES ! UNION1 ! C\NCIL & ! WORK]S' MOVEM5T4 ,?ANKS TO \R DISCIPL9E & SUPPORT ! UNIONS & ! POLITICIANS BECAME ! SAME 5TITY1 ! /RUGGLE TO BUILD A NEW WORLD BECAME SYNONYM\S ) ! SEIZURE ( P[] BY ! POLITICAL RACKETE]S4 ,& 9 ! ACT ( SUPPORT+ 9QUISITION]S & JAIL]S WE BECAME P[]LESS & ACQUIESC5T ?+S1 AT MO/ CANNON FODD] 9 !IR /RUGGLES4 ,ONLY \R REPRES5TATIVES HAD ! P[] TO ACT4 ,\R [N 9DEP5D5T ACTION BECAME IMPOSSIBLE & 9CONCEIVABLE4 ,CALL IT :AT Y\ LIKE4 ,\R ROLE WAS TO RE9TRODUCE RELIGION 9TO A WORLD :]E IT HAD BE5 DY+4 ,WE HELP$ EMPTY HUMAN BE+S ( !IR HUMANITY1 WE HELP$ TURN !IR HUMANITY 9TO AN IMAGE1 A WORD :I* WE C>RI$ 9 \R HEADS2 WE DISLODG$ ! REAL POT5TIALITIES ( PEOPLE FROM !IR REAL GE/URES & LODG$ !M 9 ! HEADS ( PRIE/S4 ,Y\ UND]/OOD ME P]FECTLY4 ,UNION1 C\NCIL1 MOVEM5T -- ALL \R FAVORITE WORDS BECAME SYNONYMS ( HEAV54 ,BUT WE NEV] SAW HEAV54 ,ALL WE SAW WAS ! WIT* HUNTS & ! PURGES & WE ?ANK$ ! P[]S ( HEAV5 = LIQUIDAT+ IMAG9>Y BE+S :I* WE EXP]I5C$ AS ! ONLY EVIL ?AT OPPRESS$ US40 

,IT WASN'T H>D = ME TO IMAG9E ! EXP]I5CES :I* HAD L$ ,ZD5EK TO ?OSE CONCLUSIONS4 ,HIS EXP]I5CES MU/ HAVE BE5 SIMIL> TO M9E4 ,! 5TIRE 5VIRONM5T ?AT SURR\ND$ US 9 PRISON WAS FILL$ ) MEAN+S WE FAIL$ TO GRASP4 ,WE DIDN'T LOOK OR LI/54 ,WE W]E SPELLB\ND BY IMAGES WE C>RI$ 9 \R HEADS4 ,WE FAIL$ TO GRASP ! MEAN+ ( ! WALLS OR ! GU>DS OR ! 9T]ROGATIONS2 WE FAIL$ TO DRAW CONCLUSIONS :5 WE EXP]I5C$ :AT A HUMAN BE+ BECAME :5 HE HAD TOTAL P[] OV] ANO!R4 

,ZD5EK & ,I W]E TOGE!R DUR+ ! E>LY P>T ( MY FIR/ PRISON T]M4 ,:AT ,I EXP]I5C$ AFT] WE W]E SEP>AT$ %\LD HAVE L$ ME TO REEXAM9E MY E>LI] COMMITM5TS4 ,BUT ,I DIDN'T REVISE !M DUR+ ?AT T]M NOR DUR+ ! F\R YE>S ( MY FIR/ RELEASE4 ,I EM]G$ FROM MY FIR/ T]M ) AN \TLOOK ALMO/ ID5TICAL TO Y\R & ,LUISA'S PRES5T \TLOOK4 ,SOON AFT] MY RELEASE1 :5 ,JAN ,S$LAK ACCUS$ ME ( EXAGG]AT+ ! IMPORTANCE ( MY CLE> & DI/9CT IDEAS1 ,I DEF5D$ MYSELF ) >GUM5TS SIMIL> TO Y\R PRES5T >GUM5TS4 ,AT ONE PO9T 9 Y\R LETT] Y\ SAID ,I HAD GIV5 Y\ ! IMPRESSION ?AT ,I CONSID]$ MYSELF MORE OBS]VANT & MORE 9SI<TFUL ?AN Y\4 ,! OPPOSITE IS TRUE4 ,I HELD ON TO CONCLUSIONS SIMIL> TO Y\RS 9 ! FACE ( EXP]I5CES ?AT COMPLETELY UND]M9$ ?OSE CONCLUSIONS2 ,I WAS NEI!R OBS]VANT NOR 9SI<TFUL2 ,I WAS BL9D4 ,I'M UNRAVEL+ ! SIGNIFICANCE ( ?OSE EXP]I5CES ONLY N[1 ALMO/ TWO DECADES LAT]2 MANY ( MY 9SI<TS >E BE+ =MULAT$ = ! FIR/ TIME ONLY 9 RESPONSE TO Y\R LETT]4 ,DUR+ ! F\R YE>S ( MY FIR/ PRISON T]M ,I SEEM$ TO BE TWO DIFF]5T PEOPLE3 ONE ( !M SAW1 HE>D & FELT EV5TS TAKE PLACE1 ! O!R RESPOND$ AS IF HE W]E DEAF & BL9D4 ,I /OR$ ! PRISON EXP]I5CES 9 MY MEMORY BUT MY BEHAVIOR & MY \TLOOK W]5'T AFFECT$ BY !M UNTIL SEV]AL YE>S LAT]4 

,MY EXP]I5CE DUR+ ! FIR/ WEEKS AFT] MY >RE/ WAS 9 MANY WAYS SIMIL> TO Y\R EXP]I5CE AFT] Y\R RELEASE & EMIGRATION1 :5 Y\ F\ND Y\RSELF ALONE 9 A HO/ILE 5VIRONM5T4 ,I WAS AN ALI5 9 A WORLD ,I C\LDN'T UND]/&4 ,! PRISON AU?ORITIES SEEM$ LIKE BE+S ( A DIFF]5T SPECIES4 ,!Y W]E CRUEL1 SADI/IC & >BITR>Y2 !Y W]E 9COMPREH5SIBLE TO ME4 ,!SE BRUTES & SADI/S W]5'T MY LIKES1 !Y W]5'T SIMIL> TO PEOPLE ) :OM ,I HAD %>$ HOPES & PROJECTS1 !Y W]5'T BE+S ) :OM ,I C\LD COMMUNICATE4 ,I WAS FILL$ ) ANG] :5 ,I LE>N$ ?AT MANY ( ! GU>DS HAD !MSELVES BE5 PRISON]S DUR+ ! W> & ?AT !IR MO/ VICI\S PRACTICES W]E PRACTICES !Y HAD LE>N$ FROM !IR JAIL]S4 

,BUT ! IMPRESSION ?AT ! JAIL]S W]E A DIFF]5T SPECIES DIDN'T /AY ) ME4 ,MANY GU>DS HAD !MSELVES BE5 PRISON]S & MANY PRISON]S HAD BE5 GU>DS4 ,I SOON MET PRISON]S :O HAD BE5 PRISON OR CAMP AU?ORITIES OR POLICE AG5TS DUR+ ! W>4 ,!IR BEHAVIOR 9 ! CELLS1 9 ! EX]CISE Y>D1 9 ! PRISON CORRIDORS & DUR+ MEALS DIDN'T DIFF] FROM ! BEHAVIOR ( O!R PRISON]S4 ,!Y W]5'T A DIFF]5T SPECIES4 ,I EV5 MET PEOPLE :O HAD BE5 JAIL]S ONLY A FEW MON?S OR WEEKS BE=E ,I MET !M & DUR+ ?AT BRIEF P]IOD HAD ACQUIR$ HUMAN *>ACT]I/ICS TOTALLY LACK+ 9 JAIL]S4 ,& ! FIR/ P]SON :O BECAME A FRI5D1 ,ZD5EK ,TOB>K91 HAD BE5 AN 9TEGRAL P>T ( ! BUREAUCRATIC APP>ATUS BE=E HIS >RE/1 YET :5 ,I MET HIM HE WAS SOMEONE :OSE EXP]I5CES & \TLOOKS ,I %>$4 ,DID A MUTATION TAKE PLACE :5 A P]SON MOV$ FROM ONE SIDE ( ! B>S TO ! O!R8 ,I'M NOT SAY+ :AT Y\ & ,LUISA UND]/OOD ME TO BE SAY+4 ,I DON'T CONSID] PRISON]S 9T]*ANGEABLE ) GU>DS4 ,I'M NOT SUGGE/+ ?AT Y\ & ,I MI<T HAVE BE5 JAIL]S4 ,SU* A HYPO!SIS MAY OR MAY NOT BE ABSURD2 ,I DON'T KN[2 IT'S NOT MY PO9T TO EXPLORE IT4 ,ALL ,I'M SAY+ IS ?AT AT SOME PO9T ,I LE>N$ ?AT AT LEA/ SOME ( ! JAIL]S W]E NOT A DIFF]5T TYPE ( BE+4 ,BEL[ !IR SOCIAL FUNCTION !RE WAS SOME?+ RECOGNIZABLE4 ,BEL[ ! GE/URES & ATTITUDES !Y HAD LE>N$ FROM O!R JAIL]S ,I SAW O!R GE/URES & ATTITUDES4 ,!SE ATTITUDES HADN'T BE5 LE>N$ 9 PRISONS BUT ON /REETS & 9 FACTORIES2 !Y REF]R$ TO EXP]I5CES ,I HAD %>$2 !Y 9DICAT$ ?AT AT SOME TIME 9 !IR LIVES !SE PEOPLE HAD 5GAG$ 9 A /RUGGLE SIMIL> TO M9E1 ?AT !Y HAD ONCE TAK5 P>T 9 /RIKES & DEMON/RATIONS1 ?AT !Y HAD ONCE %>$ MY P]SPECTIVES & HOPES4 ,( C\RSE ?IS WASN'T TRUE ( ALL ! JAIL]S4 ,SOME W]E SO BRUTALIZ$ ?AT !Y REMA9$ ! SAME ON BO? SIDES ( ! B>S2 IT WASN'T 9 !M ?AT ,I RECOGNIZ$ ANY TRACE ( MYSELF4 ,! JAIL]S ,I'M DESCRIB+ W]E EQUALLY BRUTI% 9 !IR BEHAVIOR BUT ! BRUTALITY WASN'T ! ONLY COMPON5T ( !IR P]SONALITIES4 ,!RE WAS SOME?+ ELSE1 SOME?+ FAMILI>1 SOME?+ ?AT RESEMBL$ ME4 ,! RESEMBLANCE WASN'T SUP]FICIAL2 IT DIDN'T CONSI/ ( A M]E SIMIL>ITY ( WORDS :I* 9 REALITY HAD DIFF]5T MEAN+S4 ,:AT ,I RECOGNIZ$ WASN'T ! WORDS BUT ! HOPES & EXP]I5CES BEH9D ! WORDS4 ,:AT ,I RECOGNIZ$ WAS ! EXP]I5CE >\ND :I* Y\ HAVE BUILT Y\R LIFE4 ,I RECOGNIZ$ DREAMS & HOPES ,I HAD %>$ ) Y\ & ,LUISA4 ,! ROLE HID ! DREAMS1 JU/ AS SEV]AL YE>S LAT] MY ROLE AS BUS DRIV] HID !M4 ,YET AS SOON AS A BUREAUCRAT LIKE ,ZD5EK WAS DISLODG$ FROM HIS PO/1 AS SOON AS A GU>D WAS JAIL$1 ! P]SON BEL[ ! MASK BECAME VISIBLE4 ,?OSE EXP]I5CES1 HOPES & DREAMS W]5'T BORN AFT] ! GU>D WAS JAIL$2 !Y HAD BE5 !RE ALL ALONG1 MASK$ BY ! JAIL]'S SOCIAL ROLE4 ,IT'S IRONIC ?AT SOME ( ! GU>DS 9 :OM ,I RECOGNIZ$ MY [N PA/ EXP]I5CES W]E ! /RICTE/ DISCIPL9>IANS & ! CRUELE/ TORTUR]S4 ,HABITUAL SADI/S W]E >BITR>Y & !RE=E 9CONSI/5T & CORRUPTIBLE & SOMETIMES L5I5T4 ,BUT ?OSE :O HAD ONCE 5GAG$ !MSELVES 9 A /RUGGLE SIMIL> TO M9E & :O SAW !MSELVES AS /ILL 5GAG$ 9 IT W]E 9CORRUPTIBLE1 PITILESS & UNSW]V+4 ,!Y W]E ! /RICTE/ GU>DS & ! CRUELE/ TORTUR]S PRECISELY BECAUSE !Y W]E /ILL COMMITT$ TO ?AT /RUGGLE4 ,9 !IR [N EYES !Y W]5'T CRUEL BUT COMMITT$4 ,!Y SAW !MSELVES AS EMBODIM5TS ( ! WORK+ CLASS /RUGGLE & !Y SAW PRISON]S AS 5EMIES ( ! WORK+ CLASS4 ,!IR CRUELTY WASN'T AIM$ AGA9/ 9DIVIDUALS BUT AGA9/ ! PR9CIPLE ( EVIL2 ?R\< !M ! WORK]S' MOVEM5T WAS PROTECT+ ITSELF FROM ITS 5EMIES4 ,SU* JAIL]S W]E CONV9C$ ?AT ! /RUGGLE Y\ & ,I HAD WAG$ HAD BE5 VICTORI\S1 ?AT ! WORK]S HAD SEIZ$ P[] OV] ALL SOCIAL ACTIVITY4 ,!SE JAIL]S SAW !MSELVES AS ! PROTECTORS ( ?AT VICTORY4 ,! PRO( ( ! VICTORY WAS ! FACT ?AT PEOPLE LIKE !MSELVES W]E 9 P[]1 PEOPLE :OSE WORDS EXPRESS$ ! LIB]ATION ( ! WORK+ CLASS1 :OSE BRA9S CONTA9$ A REPRES5TATION ( ! SELF-LIB]ATION ( ! WORK]S4 ,!IR P[] OV] PRISON]S WAS ! PRO( ( ! SUCCESS ( ! PROJECT4 ,AS ,ZD5EK OBS]V$ 9 HIS >GUM5T ) ! =M] POLITICIAN1 !SE W]E PEOPLE :O HAD TRANS=M$ ! WORK]S' MOVEM5T 9TO A RELIGION4 ,!Y W]E ITS PRIE/S4 ,!Y S]V$ !IR RELIGION BY SUPPRESS+ ITS 5EMIES4 ,PRISONS & CONC5TRATION CAMPS W]E ! LIV+ PRO( ( ! RELIGION'S VICTORY1 /RICT SURVEILLANCE ( 9MATES WAS ! PRO( ( ITS VITALITY & ! LIQUIDATION ( ALL ! 5EMIES W\LD H]ALD ITS ULTIMATE REALIZATION4 

,C>RI]S ( MY [N PROJECT W]E MY [N WOR/ TORTUR]S4 ,!Y W]E MY LIKES1 NOT 9 ! S5SE ?AT ,I C\LD HAVE BE5 LIKE !M1 BUT 9 ! S5SE ?AT !Y C>RI$ ! PROJECT ,I HAD C>RI$4 ,& ,I WAS !IR LIKE1 NOT 9 ! S5SE ?AT ,I'VE EV] BE5 ! JAIL] ( ANO!R HUMAN BE+1 BUT 9 ! S5SE ?AT ,I /ILL C>RI$ ! PROJECT 9 :OSE NAME !Y TORTUR$ ME4 ,?R\<\T MY PRISON T]M ,I REMA9$ COMMITT$ TO ! SAME REPRES5TATIONS1 ! SAME RELIGION2 ,I TOO WAS A PRIE/4 ,I DIDN'T GRASP ! REPRESSIVE *>ACT] ( MY COMMITM5T1 ,I DIDN'T SEE ?AT PRISONS & CONC5TRATION CAMPS W]E \TCOMES ( MY RELIGION'S VICTORY1 NOT ( ITS DEFEAT4 

,MY PREVI\S LETT] WAS ONE-SID$4 ,I ?REW AT Y\ CONCLUSIONS ,I'VE REA*$ OV] A TW5TY-YE> P]IOD BUT ,I DIDN'T DESCRIBE ! EXP]I5CES :I* L$ ME TO ?OSE CONCLUSIONS4 ,I MADE IT SEEM ?AT Y\ HAD 9TOXICAT$ Y\RSELF ) ILLUSIONS :I* ,I HAD NEV] %>$ & :I* ,I F\ND 9COMPREH5SIBLE4 ,ACTUALLY1 DESPITE ! FACT ?AT ,I RECOGNIZ$ MY [N PROJECT 9 MY JAIL]S & DESPITE ! FACT ?AT ,I RECOGNIZ$ MYSELF 9 A =M] UNION BUREAUCRAT1 MY COMMITM5T REMA9$ UN*ANG$ DUR+ ALL ! F\R YE>S ( MY T]M & ,I LEFT PRISON ) ! SAME 5?USIASM ?AT Y\ EXPRESS4 ,I W5T \T 9TO ! WORLD DET]M9$ TO SPREAD ?AT PROJECT4 ,Y\R LETT] ANG]$ ME BECAUSE IT REM9D$ ME H[ LONG & H[ /UBBORNLY ,I HELD ON TO ?AT COMMITM5T4 ,Y\ CONFRONT$ ME ) ATTITUDES ,I HAD ONLY REC5TLY REJECT$4 ,I HAD NEV] BE=E C\*$ ?AT REJECTION 9 WORDS4 ,Y\ W]5'T F> WRONG :5 Y\ SAID ,I WAS C>RI$ AWAY BY MY RHETORIC4 ,I WAS PUTT+ 9TO WORDS = ! FIR/ TIME :AT ,I HAD JU/ LE>N$ & ,I MADE IT APPE> ?AT ,I HAD ALWAYS KN[N IT4 ,I'M N[ TRY+ TO REM$Y ?AT ONE-SID$NESS BY DESCRIB+ ! EXP]I5CES :I* L$ ME TO REJECT ! ATTITUDES ,I ONCE %>$ ) Y\4 ,IT WAS ONLY GRADUALLY ?AT ,I LE>N$ TO SEE ?OSE ATTITUDES AS A POOR BASIS = PRES5T ACTION4 ,ONLY AFT] 9NUM]ABLE %OCKS DID ,I BEG9 TO SEE ?AT SU* ATTITUDES & SU* BEHAVIOR W]E ELEM5TS ( SOCIAL RELATIONS COMMON TO RELIGIONS1 ?AT ! CONCRETE \TCOME ( SU* PRACTICE WAS ! PALACE1 ! *UR* & ! DUNGEON1 & ?AT 9 AN AGE ( FUSION & FISSION SU* A PROJECT WAS UNIMAG9ABLY REPRESSIVE4 

,I EXP]I5C$ ANO!R ONE ( !SE %OCKS :5 ,I LE>N$ AB\T \R W>TIME RESI/ANCE FROM PRISON]S :O HAD TAK5 P>T 9 IT4 ,I MET SEV]AL PEOPLE BESIDES ,ZD5EK :O HAD 0BE5 ACTIVE 9 ! RESI/ANCE4 ,ALMO/ EV]Y S+LE ONE ( !M HAD BECOME CRITICAL ( HIS P>T 9 ?AT /RUGGLE ONLY AFT] HE WAS EXCLUD$ FROM AN (FICIAL FUNCTION4 ,BE=E ! EXCLUSION !Y1 LIKE ,ZD5EK1 HAD NOT QUE/ION$ ! NATURE ( !IR 5GAGEM5T4 ,?IS FACT IS V]Y SIGNIFICANT BUT ITS SIGNIFICANCE ISN'T ! ONE ,LUISA READ 9TO MY FIR/ LETT]4 ,I DON'T MEAN ?AT EV]Y VICTIM W\LD HAVE BE5 AN EXECUTION] IF HE HAD ONLY BE5 ALL[$ TO REMA9 ON HIS PO/4 ,! PRISON]S ,I MET W\LD ALL HAVE BE5 REMOV$ FROM !IR PO/S EV5TUALLY2 !Y W\LD ALL HAVE /OPP$ C>RY+ \T !IR (FICIAL FUNCTIONS AT ONE OR ANO!R TIME4 ,SOME W\LD HAVE /OPP$ SOON]1 O!RS LAT]4 ,!Y W]E WILL+ TO GO TO A C]TA9 L9E BUT NO FUR!R4 ,!Y DIFF]$ FROM EA* O!R 9 T]MS ( :]E EA* DREW ?IS L9E4 ,& ?OSE :O W]E /ILL C>RY+ \T !IR FUNCTIONS & :O !RE=E SEEM$ SO DIFF]5T FROM ! RE/ ( US MI<T DRAW ?AT L9E AT ! NEXT TURN OR ! TURN AFT] ?AT4 ,TODAY'S JAIL]S W\LD !N JO9 YE/]DAY'S VICTIMS & BE VICTIMIZ$ BY TOMORR['S4 

,:AT AB\T Y\ & ,LUISA & ME8 ,DIDN'T WE C>RY A PROJECT UP TO A PO9T BEYOND :I* WE REFUS$ TO C>RY IT8 ,LUISA'S ANSW] TO MY LA/ LETT] IS ?AT ! PROJECT WE C>RI$ WAS 9SURRECTION & ?AT MY REJECTION ( \R =M] ACTIVITY IS A REJECTION ( 9SURRECTION 9 FAVOR ( ACQUIESC5CE TO ! RUL+ ORD]4 ,9 O!R WORDS ,I'M A TRAITOR1 & NO ONE WANTS TO BE A TRAITOR4 ,! FE> ( BE+ CONSID]$ A TRAITOR IS :AT KEEPS MO/ ( US MOV+ LONG] ?AN WE WANT 9 A DIRECTION WE'VE />T$ TO SUSPECT IS WRONG4 ,?OSE ( ,LUISA'S ACCUS]S :O TOOK P>T 9 >RE/+ ! 5EMIES ( ! WORK+ CLASS BUT REFUS$ TO TAKE P>T 9 !IR EXECUTION W]E ACCUS$ BY !IR PREVI\S DAY'S COMRADES ( TURN+ !IR BACKS ON ! REVOLUTION1 AB&ON+ !IR COMMITM5T1 BECOM+ S(T & CONS]VATIVE & ULTIMATELY ( BECOM+ REACTION>Y & C\NT]-REVOLUTION>Y4 ,WE BECOME CRITICAL ONLY AFT] WE CEASE TO GO ALONG1 & EV5 !N MO/ ( US BECOME CRITICAL ONLY ( ! EV5TS ?AT TOOK PLACE AFT] WE /OPP$ GO+ ALONG4 

,I MET ONLY ONE 9DIVIDUAL :O F\<T 9 ! RESI/ANCE ON HIS [N1 :O HAD NO CONNECTION AT ALL ) ANY ( ! ORGANIZ$ RESI/ANCE GR\PS4 ,I NO LONG] REMEMB] HIS NAME2 ,I'LL CALL HIM ,ANTON4 ,:5 ,I MET HIM ,I CONSID]$ HIM V]Y DIFF]5T FROM ME & FROM MO/ ( ! O!R PEOPLE ,I MET4 ,HE WAS COMPLETELY APOLITICAL4 ,HE DIDN'T EXPRESS DREAMS OR HOPES ?AT Y\ & ,I W\LD HAVE RECOGNIZ$ AS \R [N4 ,ANTON WAS A WORK] A FEW YE>S OLD] ?AN ,I4 ,HE HAD MANY ( ,RON'S TRAITS4 ,HE REJECT$ SOCIAL 9/ITUTIONS 9 PRACTICE BUT NOT 9 WORDS4 ,AS A BOY HE HAD LEFT HIS FAMILY1 RUN AWAY TO ! CITY & GOTT5 A JOB4 ,HE REJECT$ ALL ! RULES ( WORK & WAS REPEAT$LY FIR$ = ABS5TEEISM & !FT4 ,HE WAS EVICT$ FROM ONE AFT] ANO!R AP>TM5T = REFUS+ TO PAY R5T4 ,ON ! FIR/ DAY ( ! RESI/ANCE HE JO9$ A GR\P ( PEOPLE :O W]E BUILD+ A B>RICADE4 ,HE HAT$ ! MILIT>I/S :O OCCUPI$ ! CITY & WAS DET]M9$ TO DO ALL HE C\LD TO RID ! CITY ( !M4 ,:5 ! LIB]ATION >MY 5T]$ ! CITY HE RETURN$ TO ! B>RICADE & CONT9U$ %OOT+4 ,HE DIDN'T DI/+UI% BETWE5 ! TWO >MIES2 TO HIM !Y W]E ! SAME4 ,= HIM ! RESI/ANCE HADN'T 5D$4 ,HE WAS >RE/$ IMM$IATELY AS AN 5EMY AG5T & S5T5C$ TO LIFE IMPRISONM5T4 

,IT DIDN'T OCCUR TO ME AT ! TIME ?AT IF ,I HADN'T MET ,LUISA & IF ,I HADN'T LE>N$ TO EXPRESS MYSELF 9 POLITICAL T]MS1 ,I MI<T HAVE BE5 V]Y SIMIL> TO ,ANTON :5 WE MET4 ,I MYSELF HAD F\<T 9 ! RESI/ANCE ) V]Y FEW POLITICAL CONCEPTIONS4 S9CE ,I HADN'T LE>N$ A GREAT DEAL FROM ,TITUS ,ZABRAN OR HIS FRI5DS4 ,! ONLY REASON ,I DIDN'T %OOT :5 ! 0LIB]ATORS0 M>*$ 9TO ! CITY WAS BECAUSE ( MY IGNORANCE2 ,ANTON WAS MU* BETT] 9=M$ ?AN ,I4 ,:5 HE TOLD ME AB\T ! EV5TS ?AT HAD PREC$$ ! LIB]ATION >MY'S 5TRANCE 9TO ! CITY ,I WAS CONV9C$ ?AT IF ,I HAD KN[N AB\T ?OSE EV5TS AT ! TIME ,I W\LD HAVE %OT TOO4 

,ANTON'S ACC\NT ( ! 5D ( ! RESI/ANCE WAS ID5TICAL TO ACC\NTS ,I HAD HE>D FROM O!R PEOPLE :O HAD F\<T 9 IT & HAD BE5 9=M$ AB\T ! =CES 9 PLAY4 ,BUT ,ANTON'S ACC\NT WAS UNIQUE & HORRIFY+4 ,UNLIKE ALL ! O!R ACC\NTS IT WASN'T C\*$ 9 ! POLITICAL LANGUAGE ?AT HAD REC5TLY BECOME FAMILI> TO ME1 IT DIDN'T CONTA9 ! QUALIFICATIONS1 ! IFS1 ! POLITICAL 9T]PRETATIONS & PSEUDO-EXPLANATIONS4 ,HE DESCRIB$ A SEQU5CE ( EV5TS :OSE SIGNIFICANCE SPOKE AS L\DLY AS DROPS ( BLOOD DRIPP+ FROM.-A W\ND4 ,NO ONE ,I'VE MET EV] CONTE/$ ! FACTS ( ,ANTON'S N>RATIVE4 ,ALL ! O!R ACC\NTS ,I'VE HE>D AS WELL AS NUM]\S FIGURES ,I'VE SE5 HAVE ONLY CONFIRM$ ! ACCURACY ( ,ANTON'S DESCRIPTION D[N TO ! SMALLE/ DETAILS4 

0,DUR+ ! FIR/ NI<T ( ! RIS+1 ?\S&S ( B>RICADES W]E BUILT ?R\<\T ! CITY1 ACROSS /REETS & ALLEYS40 7,I AM RETELL+ ,ANTON'S /ORY FROM MEMORY47 0,! 5TIRE CITY WAS HELD BY ! 9HABITANTS1 EXCEPT = A FEW SECTIONS :I* W]E /ILL HELD BY ! OCCUPY+ >MY4 ,! FOLL[+ DAY ! OCCUPI]S MOBILIZ$ ALL NE>BY TROOPS1 TANKS & >TILL]Y AGA9/ ! CITY4 ,!RE W]E AT LEA/ F\R HEAVILY >M$ SOLDI]S = EV]Y ?REE POORLY >M$ WORK]S4 ,RESI/]S DISPAT*$ 5VOYS TO ! TWO >MIES :I* W]E ON !IR WAY TO 'LIB]ATE' ! CITY1 >MIES :I* HAD BE5 URG+ ! POPULATION TO RISE AGA9/ ! OCCUPI]S4 ,BO? >MIES W]E )9 A FEW H\RS M>* ( ! CITY4 ,EA* ( !M \TNUMB]$ ! =CES ( ! OCCUPI]S4 ,YET = ?REE DAYS & ?REE NI<TS NEI!R >MY MADE A MOVE4 ,CAMP$ SO CLOSE ?AT !Y C\LD ALMO/ HE> ! %ELLS EXPLODE1 !Y WAIT$ :ILE M5 & WOM5 & *ILDR5 W]E MASSACR$ 9 ALL ! /REETS ( ! CITY4 ,SEV]AL ?\S& PEOPLE W]E BUT*]$4 ,YET PEOPLE F\<T ) SU* DET]M9ATION ?AT ! OCCUPY+ =CES W]E DEFEAT$2 !Y CAPITULAT$ AT ! 5D ( ! ?IRD DAY & />T$ TO EVACUATE ! CITY4 ,ON ! DAY AFT] ! CAPITULATION ( ! LA/ OCCUPY+ =CES1 ! SO-CALL$ >MY ( LIB]ATION M>*$ 9TO ! CITY4 ,PEOPLE :O C\LD NOT HAVE TAK5 P>T 9 ! RIS+1 :O MU/ HAVE /AY$ 9 !IR BASEM5TS DUR+ ALL ! FI<T+1 LO/ !IR HEADS *E]+ = !SE LIB]ATORS4 ,I GOT BEH9D A WALL & />T$ %OOT+4 ,:5 ,I WAS CAPTUR$ PEOPLE LOOK$ AT MET AS IF ,I WAS A LUNATIC4 ,I'VE (T5 WOND]$ :Y MORE PEOPLE DIDN'T CONT9UE %OOT+ :5 ! NEW OCCUPI]S 5T]$ ! CITY4 ,! EXPLANATION IS ?AT MO/ ( ! PEOPLE :O W\LD HAVE KEPT ON FI<T+ W]E KILL$ DUR+ ?OSE ?REE DAYS & NI<TS4 ,! 'LIB]ATORS' WAIT$ :ILE PEOPLE LIKE ,I W]E EXT]M9AT$ BY ! =M] OCCUPI]S4 ,IT W\LD HAVE BE5 EMB>RASS+ = SO-CALL$ LIB]ATORS TO BEG9 LIB]AT+ ! CITY BY %OOT+ ?\S&S ( ITS 9HABITANTS4 ,?OSE :O DI$ W]E ?OSE :O F\<T H>DE/1 ?OSE :O W]E MO/ EXPOS$1 ?OSE :O W\LD HAVE %OT AT ! NEXT OCCUPI]S4 ,& ,I WAS CALL$ A =EIGN AG5T = %OOT+ AT A =EIGN >MY ?AT M>*$ 9 & OCCUPI$ ! CITY40 

,O!R ACC\NTS ,I HE>D DIFF]$ FROM ,ANTON'S ONLY 9 T]MS ( ! MEAN+S 9TO :I* ! SAME FACTS W]E 9S]T$4 ,SOME PEOPLE CONSID]$ IT REASONABLE ?AT ! LIB]ATION >MY HAD LET ! OCCUPI]S CLEAN UP RIFF-RAFF LIKE ,ANTON SO AS NOT TO HAVE TO DO IT !MSELVES2 !Y CONSID]$ ?IS A NECESS>Y PURGE ( DANG]\S ELEM5TS C>RI$ \T )\T TR\BLE OR EXP5SE TO ?OSE :O B5EFITT$ FROM IT4 ,MO/ PEOPLE W]5'T SO CRUDE AS TO ACTUALLY JU/IFY ! MASSACRE4 ,ALL ?OSE ,I MET ADMITT$ !Y HAD KN[N AT ! TIME ?AT ! LIB]ATION >MIES W]E )9 A /ONE'S ?R[ ( ! FI<T+ DUR+ ALL ?REE DAYS & NI<TS YET ALT ( !M HAD *E]$ :5 ! LIB]ATION >MY M>*$ 9TO ! CITY ON ! DAY AFT] ! MASSACRE1 :5 IT WAS ALREADY LIB]AT$4 ,!Y ADMITT$ ! FACTS ONLY AFT] !Y W]E JAIL$4 ,E>LI]1 :5 !Y'D HELD (FICIAL PO/S1 !Y HAD D5I$ ?AT ! LIB]ATION >MY HAD BE5 ANY:]E NE> ! CITY AT ! TIME4 ,YET EV5 :5 !Y ADMITT$ ! FACTS !Y DIDN'T ADMIT !IR SIGNIFICANCE4 ,!Y SUDD5LY DISCOV]$1 9 !IR BRA9S1 ALL K9DS ( MILIT>Y REASONS = ! FACT ?AT ! LIB]ATION >MY HADN'T MOV$3 ! SUPPLY L9ES W]E OV]EXT5D$1 ! RE>GU>D HAD FALL5 BEH9D ! FRONT L9ES & LEFT !M EXPOS$4 ,!Y HADN'T EV] DREAM$ ( 9VOK+ !SE REASONS BE=E !Y W]E IMPRISON$4 ,!Y NEV] FAC$ ! CONTRADICTION BETWE5 !IR KN[L$GE & !IR *E]+4 ,!Y KNEW ?AT TROOPS1 TANKS & >TILL]Y HAD CAMP$ NE>BY :ILE ?\S&S ( PEOPLE W]E SLAU<T]$4 ,BUT !Y REFUS$ TO SEE ?IS >MY AS AN >MY4 ,!Y SAW IT AS ! WORK+ CLASS MOVEM5T4 ,:AT 5T]$ ! CITY WASN'T TANKS & SOLDI]S BUT ! REPRES5TATIVE ( ! VICTORY ( ! WORK+ CLASS4 ,IT WAS \R DREAMS1 ASPIRATIONS & HOPES ?AT M>*$ 9TO ! CITY4 ,IT WAS ! IMAGE ( \R LIB]ATION1 ( \R DET]M9ATION TO RUN \R LIVES FREE ( >MIES & PRISONS & TANKS4 ,?IS IS :AT !SE BL9D COMRADES SAW 5T]+ ! CITY :5 !Y *E]$4 

,I HE>D ,ANTON & ,I SYMPA?IZ$ ) HIM1 BUT ,I DIDN'T LE>N4 ,I /ILL ID5TIFI$ ) POLITICIANS4 ,AL?\< MY [N P>TICIPATION 9 ! RESI/ANCE HAD BE5 ALMO/ ID5TICAL TO ,ANTON'S1 MY LAT] POLITICAL EXP]I5CES HAD TRANS=M$ ME TO SU* AN EXT5T ?AT ,I NO LONG] RECOGNIZ$ MYSELF 9 HIM4 ,BE=E ,I C\LD DO ?IS ,I HAD TO PEEL (F ONE AFT] ANO!R LAY] ( ! POLITICAL SK9 ?AT HAD COV]$ UP ! P]SON :O C\LD HAVE RECOGNIZ$ HIMSELF 9 ,ANTON4 ,FIR/ ( ALL ,I HAD TO PEEL (F ! LAY] ,I HAD ACQUIR$ FROM ,LUISA4 ,?IS IS :AT ,MANUEL DID = ME4 ,HE DIDN'T ACTUALLY REMOVE ?AT LAY]1 BUT HE PROVID$ ME ) A VANTAGE PO9T FROM :I* ,I WAS ABLE TO REMOVE IT4 ,NO1 ,MANUEL IS NOT AN EMBODIM5T ( MY REACTION>Y >GUM5TS3 HE'S NOT AN 9V5TION4 

,MANUEL WAS A PRISON] ,I MET DUR+ ! SECOND YE> ( MY T]M4 ,9 AN >GUM5T ) ANO!R PRISON]1 ,I WAS DEF5D+ ! REVOLUTION>Y POT5TIAL ( UNIONS4 ,AT ONE PO9T ,I REF]R$ TO AN EXAMPLE ,I HAD LE>N$ FROM ,LUISA2 ,I ILLU/RAT$ MY CASE BY REF]R+ TO A HI/ORICAL EV5T 9 :I* WORK]S HAD US$ ! UNION AS AN 9/RUM5T ) :I* TO C>RY ON !IR [N /RUGGLE4 ,MANUEL 9T]RUPT$ MY >GUM5T4 ,HE SAID HE WAS FAMILI> ) ! EV5T ,I WAS CIT+ BECAUSE HE HAD F\<T 9 IT4 ,HE SAID HE HAD ONCE AGRE$ ) ! POSITION ,I WAS DEF5D+ BUT ?AT LIFE ITSELF HAD DISABUS$ HIM ( ?IS VIEW2 HE ALSO SAID ,I WAS SUPPORT+ MY >GUM5TS BY SUPPRESS+ N9E-T5?S ( ! ACTUAL PICTURE4 

,MANUEL GREW UP 9 A PEASANT VILLAGE4 ,POV]TY DROVE HIM TO ! CITY & HE BECAME A TRANSPORT WORK]4 ,AT ! TIME ( ! RIS+ ( ! >MY AGA9/ ! POPULATION HE WAS A MEMB] ( A SMALL POLITICAL ORGANIZATION4 ,HE EXPLA9$ ?AT HE HAD NOT JO9$ ?IS ORGANIZATION BECAUSE HE HAD SELECT$ IT FROM AMONG ! O!RS NOR BECAUSE HE AGRE$ ) ITS PROGRAM MORE ?AN ) O!R PROGRAMS BUT ONLY BECAUSE ! FIR/ WORK] :O BECAME HIS FRI5D WAS A MEMB] ( IT4 ,AT ! TIME ( ! RIS+ ALL ! MEMB]S ( ,MANUEL'S ORGANIZATION W]E 9 ! /REETS ALONG ) ! RE/ ( ! POPULATION4 ,9 A S+LE DAY WORK+ PEOPLE FROM ALL QU>T]S ( ! CITY1 HAV+ TRANS=M$ EV]Y AVAILABLE IMPLEM5T 9TO A WEAPON1 DEFEAT$ ! >MY4 ,= AN 9/ANT1 BUT ONLY = AN 9/ANT1 ! POPULATION WAS ON ! V]GE ( MAK+ ITS [N HI/ORY4 ,= AN 9/ANT IT LOOK$ AS IF ! REVOLUTION W\LD SPREAD1 AS IF IT W\LD CONT9UE TO GR[ UNTIL IT 5COMPASS$ ALL WORK+ PEOPLE EV]Y:]E1 UNTIL ALL ! >MIES ( ! WORLD W]E DEFEAT$4 ,BUT ! 9/ANT WAS %ORT-LIV$4 ,:ILE ! SMOKE /ILL FILL$ ! AIR1 UNKN[N TO ! WORK]S :O HAD RISK$ !IR LIVES ALL DAY & HAD SE5 C\NTLESS FRI5DS & RELATIVES SLAU<T]$1 A MEET+ TOOK PLACE4 ,IT WAS SOME?+ LIKE A PRIVATE MEET+ BETWE5 ! GOV]NM5T ?AT HAD BE5 DISC>D$ & DE/ROY$ DUR+ ! DAY1 ! GOV]NM5T ?AT HAD LO/ ITS >M$ =CE & CEAS$ TO FUNCTION -- BETWE5 ?AT =M] GOV]NM5T & F\R OR FIVE WORK]S4 ,!SE W]E NOT NAMELESS WORK]S4 ,!Y W]E NOT ANY F\R OR FIVE AMONG ?\S&S4 ,!Y W]E WORK]S :O W]E KN[N AS FI]CE FI<T]S & UNCOMPROMIS+ UNION MILITANTS1 ,!Y W]E WORK]S :O W]E KN[N NOT TO TOL]ATE ANY AU?ORITY :E!R IT BE BOSS OR GOV]NM5T (FICIAL4 ,! POLITICIAN ( ! \/$ OLD ORD] (F]$ !SE WORK]S PO/S 9 ! GOV]NM5T4 ,9/EAD ( TURN+ !IR BACKS TO ?IS WILY POLITICIAN & TELL+ HIM ! WORK]S HAD JU/ DE/ROY$ GOV]NM5TS & HAD BECOME !IR [N MA/]S1 !SE UNION MILITANTS ACCEPT$ ! (F]4 ,!Y TOLD !MSELVES ?AT A GOV]NM5T ) !IR PRES5CE WAS NO LONG] A GOV]NM5T BUT A M]E ORGAN ( ! WORK]S' SELF-GOV]NM5T4 ,& !Y TOLD O!R WORK]S ?AT !Y W]E NOT A GOV]NM5T AT ALL BUT A REVOLUTION>Y COMMITTEE2 !Y SAID ! /ATE HAD BE5 ABOLI%$4 ,& MANY WORK]S ACCEPT$ ?IS4 ,= YE>S !Y HAD RESPECT$ & ADMIR$ !SE MILITANTS1 !Y HAD COME TO REG>D !M AS LEAD]S1 !Y HAD SE5 !M AS C>RI]S ( !IR [N ASPIRATIONS4 ,!Y ACCEPT$ ! 5TRY ( !SE MILITANTS 9TO ! GOV]NM5T AS !IR [N SELF-GOV]NM5T4 ,:5 A MEMB] ( ,MANUEL'S [N ORGANIZATION ACCEPT$ A PO/ 9 ?IS REVOLUTION>Y COMMITTEE1 ,MANUEL TURN$ 9 HIS MEMB]%IP C>D4 ,HE F\ND HIMSELF ISOLAT$4 ,GRADUALLY HE F\ND O!R PEOPLE :O UND]/OOD & TRI$ TO EXPOSE !-FACT ?AT ! UNION HAD NOT S]V$ ! WORK]S AS AN 9/RUM5T ( !IR LIB]ATION BUT ( !IR RE5SLAVEM5T4 ,IRONICALLY1 ,MANUEL WAS >RE/$ %ORTLY AFT] HE QUIT HIS SMALL ORGANIZATION2 ! REASON = HIS >RE/ WAS HIS MEMB]%IP 9 ?IS ORGANIZATION4 ,IT WAS ?ANKS TO ?IS >RE/ ?AT HE WAS /ILL ALIVE :5 ,I MET HIM4 ,HE LE>N$ LAT] ?AT ! O!R 9DIVIDUALS HE HAD MET :O HAD TRI$ TO EXPOSE ! 9CORPORATION ( ! UNION 9TO ! /ATE APP>ATUS HAD ALL BE5 %OT4 

,9 MY DISCUSSIONS ) ,MANUEL1 ,I C\NT]$ EV]Y OBS]VATION HE MADE ) AN OBS]VATION ,I HAD LE>N$ FROM ,LUISA4 ,I HAVE NO IDEA IF HE'S DEAD OR ALIVE TODAY4 ,AT ! 5D ( MY SECOND YE> 9 PRISON HE WAS TRANSF]R$ TO ANO!R PRISON & ,I NEV] HE>D ( HIM AGA94 ,DUR+ ! BRIEF TIME ,I KNEW HIM1 ,I DEF5D$ ,LUISA'S VIEWS ) SU* SELF-ASSURANCE ?AT HE MU/ HAVE KN[N HE WASN'T CONV9C+ ME4 ,HE MU/ EV5 HAVE ?\<T ?AT ,I HADN'T HE>D A S+LE WORD ( HIS ACC\NT4 ,I'LL PROBABLY NEV] BE ABLE TO TELL HIM ?AT ,I DID HE> HIM1 YE>S LAT]1 & ?AT HIS ACC\NT HELP$ ME UND]/&1 NOT ONLY ! EV5T HE DESCRIB$1 BUT MANY ( MY O!R EXP]I5CES AS WELL4 ,IT WAS ,MANUEL :O HELP$ ME UND]/& ! DIFF]5CE BETWE5 ! REBEL & ! PHILOSOPH] ( REBELLION1 BETWE5 SOMEONE LIKE ,RON & SOMEONE LIKE ,LUISA1 BETWE5 WORK]S & ! REPRES5TATION ( WORK]S BY UNIONS1 C\NCILS1 P>TIES & MOVEM5TS4 ,HE ALSO HELP$ ME SEE H[ EASILY WE DELUDE \RSELVES & TAKE ONE = ! O!R1 H[ EASILY WE BECOME C>RI]S ( ! REPRES5TATION & AG5TS ( \R [N REPRESSION4 ,BUT IT WAS ONLY DUR+ MY SECOND PRISON T]M ?AT ,I BEGAN TO HE> :AT ,MANUEL HAD TOLD ME4 ,IT WAS ONLY !N ?AT ,I BEGAN TO COMP>E HIS ACC\NT TO ,LUISA'S4 ,AS SOON AS ,I DID BEG9 TO REPLACE ,LUISA'S ACC\NT ) ,MANUEL'S ,I WAS ABLE TO IMAG9E MYSELF A P>TICIPANT 9 ! EV5TS ,MANUEL N>RAT$1 JU/ AS ,I HAD E>LI] IMAG9$ MYSELF A P>TICIPANT 9 ,LUISA'S N>RATIVE4 ,! DAY :5 WORK]S FILL$ ! /REETS & BEGAN TO BUILD B>RICADES C\LDN'T HAVE BE5 V]Y DIFF]5T FROM ! FIR/ DAY ( ! RESI/ANCE H]E4 ,AS 9 MY EXP]I5CE1 B>RICADES SPRANG UP 9 EV]Y QU>T] ( ! CITY4 ,! MA9 DIFF]5CE WAS ?AT 9 ,MANUEL'S ACC\NT !RE W]E NO LIB]ATION >MIES CAMP$ NE>BY OBS]V+ \R SLAU<T]4 ,?IS DIFF]5CE DOESN'T BLUR ! SIMIL>ITY ( ! EV5TS = ME BECAUSE ,I DIDN'T KN[ AB\T ?OSE >MIES AT ! TIME4 

,IMAG9E ?AT WE'RE AMONG NEI<BORS & FRI5DS1 ?AT DUR+ ! C\RSE ( A DAY & A HALF WE RID ! CITY ( ! LA/ MILIT>I/S4 ,IMAG9E ! CITY IS \RS TO %APE ) EA* O!R AS WE %AP$ ! B>RICADES4 ,WE'LL ORGANIZE \R SOCIAL ACTIVITY ) EA* O!R 9 T]MS ( \R DREAMS4 ,IF ! POSSIBILITIES TO REALIZE ALL \R DREAMS DON'T EXI/ WE'LL CREATE ! POSSIBILITIES4 ,WE'LL COMMUNICATE ) EA* O!R1 WE'LL COORD9ATE ) EA* O!R1 WE'LL ORGANIZE ) EA* O!R -- )\T POLITICIANS :O SPEAK = US1 )\T COORD9ATORS :O MANIPULATE US1 )\T (FICIALS :O ORGANIZE \R ACTIVITY4 ,TO COMMUNICATE ) EA* O!R WE HOLD L>GE & SMALL MEET+S :]E WE EX*ANGE SUGGE/IONS1 9ITIATE PROJECTS1 SOLVE PROBLEMS4 ,AT ! L>GE/ MEET+1 WE ATT5TIVELY LI/5 TO ! PROTECTS ( ALL1 ! DECISIONS ( ALL4 ,YET :5 WE LEAVE ! L>GE/ ( ALL ! MEET+S WE ALL FEEL *EAT$1 WE FEEL ?AT SOME?+ HAS BE5 TAK5 FROM US1 ?AT SOME?+1 SOME:]E HAS GONE WRONG4 ,AT ?AT MAMMO? MEET+ WE LI/5$ TO SPEE*ES GIV5 BY \R UNION MILITANTS1 BY WORK]S :O HAD F\<T ALONGSIDE US1 :O HAD ALWAYS BE5 ! FIR/ TO ATTACK4 ,MANY SU* MILITANTS HAVE DI$4 ,WE LI/5$ TO !M AS WE HAD ALWAYS LI/5$ TO !M3 AS \R VOICES1 AS ! =MULATORS ( \R DEEPE/ ASPIRATIONS1 AS COMRADES & FELL[ WORK]S :O HAD ALWAYS BE=E PUT 9TO WORDS ! DECISIONS ( ! UNION1 ! DECISIONS ( ALL ! WORK]S4 ,YET AT ?IS MEET+ ! DECISIONS ( ALL ! WORK]S W]E UNLIKE ! DECISIONS WE HAD BE5 MAK+ ) EA* O!R S9CE ! DAY WE BUILT ! B>RICADES2 ! PROJECTS ( ALL ! WORK]S W]E UNLIKE ! PROJECTS WE HAD LAUN*$ ) EA* O!R1 :E!R IT WAS TO REPAIR DISABL$ VEHICLES OR TO APPROPRIATE A RE/AURANT SO AS TO PREP>E \R [N MEALS4 ,AT ?IS MEET+ ! MO/ MILITANT1 ADMIRABLE & C\RAGE\S ( \R COMRADES1 /&+ & SITT+ ON ! SPEAK]S' PLAT=M1 W]E TRANS=M$ 9TO SOME?+ WE CANNOT QUITE UND]/&4 ,WE HAD COME TO ! MEET+ 9 ORD] TO ORGANIZE SOCIAL ACTIVITY ) EA* O!R & WE F\ND \R ORGANIZATION ON ! PLAT=M4 ,WE HAD COME TO COORD9ATE ACTIVITY ) EA* O!R & WE F\ND FIVE COORD9ATORS ON ! PLAT=M4 ,WE HAD COME TO =MULATE \R COLLECTIVE DECISIONS & WE HE>D \R COLLECTIVE DECISIONS =MULAT$ FROM ! PLAT=M4 ,WE HAD ALWAYS BE=E LI/5$ TO ! COLLECTIVE DECISIONS =MULAT$ & EXPRESS$ FROM ! PLAT=M4 ,YET N[ WE PAUSE1 LOOK >\ND & ASK \RSELVES :AT IT WAS WE HAD ALWAYS BE=E LI/5$ TO4 ,WE BEG9 TO REALIZE ?AT ! DECISIONS ( ALL ! WORK]S1 ! DECISIONS ( ! UNION1 W]E ! DECISIONS ( ! SECRET>Y ( ! UNION1 ( ONE 9DIVIDUAL4 ,ONE1 P]HAPS FIVE1 AT MO/ T5 9DIVIDUALS HAD EXPRESS$ \R ASPIRATIONS1 =MULAT$ \R PROJECTS1 MADE \R DECISIONS4 ,YET :O >E !Y1 ?OSE 9FLU5TIAL MILITANTS WE HAD SO GREATLY ADMIR$8 ,:AT IS ?IS UNION8 ,:O IS ! SECRET>Y ( ! UNION8 ,IS ?IS REALLY \R UNION OR IS IT A %AM8 ,IT'S \R REAL UNION4 ,IT'S ! SAME UNION IT HAS ALWAYS BE54 ,! PEOPLE ON ! PLAT=M >E ! V]Y PEOPLE :O %\LD BE ON ! PLAT=M4 ,!Y'RE ! MILITANTS :O DEVOT$ !IR LIVES TO US1 :O ALWAYS F\<T ALONGSIDE US 9 \R /RUGGLES TO GOV]N \RSELVES1 TO RE%APE \R [N SOCIAL ACTIVITY1 TO DEF9E ! CONT5T ( \R [N LIVES4 ,?IS IS ! UNION WE'VE KN[N2 IT HASN'T TURN$ 9TO A %AM2 IT HASN'T BE5 BETRAY$4 ,IT'S WE :O *ANG$4 ,WE *ANG$ ! DAY BE=E YE/]DAY4 ,NOT ALL ( US4 ,MAYBE ONLY MIS]ABLY FEW ( US4 ,WE SUDD5LY DISCOV]$ \R [N & EA* O!R'S HUMANITY ONLY YE/]DAY1 & WE BEGAN TO ACT AS A HUMAN COMMUNITY4 ,& TODAY WE SUDD5LY REALIZE ?AT ?IS UNION WE HAD F\<T TO BUILD & :OSE VICTORY WE ASSUR$ ! DAY BE=E YE/]DAY IS NOT \R PROJECT AT ALL4 ,IT'S NOT A HUMAN COMMUNITY4 ,IT'S A P[] ABOVE US1 AS ALI5 & HO/ILE AS ! P[]S WE'VE JU/ OV]?R[N4 ,& N[ WE REALIZE ?AT ! PROJECT ( ! PEOPLE ON ! PLAT=M IS AB\T TO REPLACE ! PROJECTS ( ?\S&S ( HUMAN BE+S :O ONLY YE/]DAY LE>N$ !Y HAD ! ABILITY TO 9ITIATE PROJECTS4 ,WE BECOME NAUSEAT$ :5 WE REALIZE WE'VE JU/ TAK5 P>T 9 AN EV5T :I* ROBB$ US ( ! FRUIT ( \R /RUGGLE1 AN EV5T 9 :I* ! REPRES5TATIVES ( ! UNION ( ALL ! WORK]S REPLAC$ ! UNION ( ALL ! WORK]S4 ,! UNION HAS ROBB$ ?\S&S ( WORK]S ( !IR EYES1 E>S & VOICES ONLY ONE DAY AFT] !Y HAD LE>N$ TO USE ORGANS :I* HAD UNTIL !N GR[N WEAK & PASSIVE FROM DISUSE4 ,WE'RE LE>N+1 & WE'RE NAUSEAT$ BECAUSE WE'RE LE>N+ TOO LATE4 ,C\LDN'T ONE ( US HAVE GOTT5 UP AT ?AT VA/ MEET+ & %\T$8 ,C\LDN'T HE HAVE ASK$ :Y ! 9FLU5TIAL MILITANTS W]E ON ! PLAT=M ! DAY AFT] WE HAD ELIM9AT$ ! NE$ = 9FLU5TIAL MILITANTS AS WELL AS PLAT=MS8 ,W\LD ANYONE HAVE HE>D8 ,WAS IT ALREADY TOO LATE EV5 !N8 ,%\LD ?OSE QUE/IONS HAVE BE5 RAIS$ YE>S E>LI]1 %\LD WE HAVE %\T$ !M DUR+ ! DAYS :5 WE \RSELVES HELP$ BUILD ! WORK]S' ORGANIZATIONS & ! 9FLU5TIAL MILITANTS 9 :OSE GRIP WE N[ F9D \RSELVES8 ,AT ?AT MEET+ WE ACQUIESC$ 9 \R [N RE5SLAVEM5T1 WE ACCEPT$ ! RECON/ITUTION ( ! 5TIRE /ATE APP>ATUS4 ,! 9FLU5TIAL MILITANTS :O >GU$ ?AT !IR PRES5CE 9 ! /ATE APP>ATUS WAS EQUIVAL5T TO ! ABOLITION ( ! /ATE WILL QUICKLY BECOME 5GULF$ BY ! APP>ATUS1 !Y'LL SOON BE M9I/]S4 ,AS RUL]S !Y'LL DIFF] 9 NO WAY FROM E>LI] OR LAT] RUL]S4 ,! POLITICIANS WILL LET \R MILITANTS CALL !MSELVES :ATEV] !Y PLEASE1 EV5 REPRES5TATIVES ( ! ABOLITION ( ! /ATE4 ,!SE MIS]ABLE POLITICIANS KN[ ?AT !Y NE$ ! 9FLU5CE \R COMRADES EX]T AMONG US TO REBUILD ! /ATE APP>ATUS4 ,AS SOON AS ! LEGITIMACY ( ?AT APP>ATUS IS REE/ABLI%$ ?OSE SEASON$ POLITICIANS WILL SKILLFULLY USE \R COMRADES ! WAY CRAFTSM5 USE TOOLS4 ,!Y'LL TRANS=M ! ONE-TIME UNION MILITANTS 9TO AG5TS ( ! /ATE4 ,!Y'LL USE ! =M] WORK]S TO TURN ONE GR\P ( WORK]S AGA9/ ANO!R4 ,!Y'LL USE ! 9FLU5TIAL MILITANTS AS TR\BLE-%OOT]S2 !Y'LL S5D !M TO DIS>M ! WORK]S1 TURN+ US ONCE AGA9 9TO HELPLESS VICTIMS ( ! >MY & ! POLICE4 ,& LIKE CLASSIC MON>*S1 ! 9FLU5TIAL MILITANTS1 \R ONETIME COMRADES1 WILL LULL US BACK TO SLEEP ) SPEE*ES 9 :I* !Y GLORIFY !IR RULE4 ,!Y'LL TELL US !IR PRES5CE 9 ! /ATE APP>ATUS IS EQUIVAL5T TO ! VICTORY ( ! WORK+ CLASS & ! REALIZATION ( ,UTOPIA ON E>?4 ,& SOME ( !M WILL GO TO GREAT] L5G?S ?AN ANY MON>* :O EV] SAID3 ,I AM ! PEOPLE4 ,SOME ( \R 9FLU5TIAL =M] COMRADES WILL NOT ONLY TELL US !IR RULE IS \R RULE BUT ALSO ?AT !IR PRES5CE 9 ! GOV]NM5T IS EQUIVAL5T TO ! REALIZATION ( ALL HUMANITY'S DEEPE/ ASPIRATIONS4 

,MANUEL'S ACC\NT DE/ROY$ ! PICTURE ,LUISA HAD DRAWN = ME4 ,I'M OBVI\SLY NOT SURPRIS$ BY ,LUISA'S RESPONSE TO MY REJECTION ( H] ANALYSIS ( H] FIR/ /RUGGLE4 ,I'M NOT SURPRIS$ %E CONSID]S MY REJECTION ( H] /RUGGLE A REJECTION ( ALL /RUGGLE1 NOR ?AT %E CONSID]S ,MANUEL REACTION>Y4 ,MANUEL'S ACC\NT %[S ?AT ! SEQU5CE ( EV5TS CELEBRAT$ BY ,LUISA DIDN'T LEAD TO ! TRIUMPH ( ! WORK]S BUT TO !IR REPRESSION4 ,LUISA IS US+ ! WORD REACTION>Y ! WAY POLITICIANS USE IT3 ALL ?OSE :O *ALL5GE ! POLITICIANS' PREMISES >E REACTION>Y4 ,9 MY UND]/&+ A REACTION>Y IS A P]SON :O FAVORS A RETURN TO AN E>LI] SY/EM ( SOCIAL RELATIONS1 AN E>LI] MODE ( BE+1 AN E>LI] =M ( POLITICAL 5GAGEM5T4 ,IF ! T]M IS TO DEF9E ,MANUEL OR ME IT HAS TO BE DRA/ICALLY R$EF9$4 ,ALL MY LIFE ,I'VE REJECT$ ALL E>LI] SY/EMS ( SOCIAL RELATIONS 9CLUD+ ! ONE ,I WAS BORN 9TO1 ALL E>LI] MODES ( LIV+1 & = ! PA/ T5 YE>S ,I'VE BE5 REJECT+ MY [N E>LI] =MS ( POLITICAL 5GAGEM5T4 ,S9CE ,LUISA 9TRODUC$ ?IS T]M ,I NO LONG] SEE ANY NE$ TO KEEP MYSELF FROM ASK+ :O AMONG US GLORIFIES1 9TOXICATES H]SELF )1 AN E>LI] =M ( POLITICAL 5GAGEM5T8 ,:O AMONG US MAKES A VIRTUAL ,UTOPIA \T ( A MIS]ABLE PRACTICE ?AT HAS REPEAT$LY L$ TO ! PHYSICAL & SPIRITUAL DE/RUCTION ( ?OSE 5GAG$ 9 IT8 ,:O AMONG US USES REPRESSIVE ACTIVITIES ( ! PA/ AS GUIDES TO ! PRES5T & FUTURE8 ,IF ,I HAD ?\<T AB\T IT DUR+ ! PA/ T5 YE>S ,I W\LD HAVE KN[N ?AT ,I W\LD NEV] AGA9 BE ABLE TO HAVE A COMRADELY OR EV5 A POLITE CONV]SATION ) ,LUISA UNLESS %E TOO *ANG$4 ,I KNEW ?IS AS SOON AS ,I BEGAN TO GRASP ! SIGNIFICANCE ( ,MANUEL'S N>RATIVES4 ,YET ,I LE>N FROM Y\R LETT] ?AT ,LUISA KNEW ?IS MU* E>LI]1 P]HAPS AS MANY AS TW5TY YE>S AGO4 ,Y\ DON'T SEEM TO REALIZE Y\ TOLD ME ?IS4 ,Y\ TELL ME ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS HAD CONSID]$ ME A HOOLIGAN2 Y\ TELL ME ?IS ILLU/RATES ! SIMIL>ITY ( ,ALB]TS' \TLOOK ) ?AT ( MY JAIL]S4 ,Y\ ALSO TELL ME :AT ,LUISA ?\<T ( ,ALB]TS' OP9ION ( ME3 0,ALB]TS WAS RI<T40 ,DID %E ALREADY CONSID] ME A DE/RUCTIVE HOOLIGAN TW5TY YE>S AGO8 

,MANUEL HELP$ CLE> MY M9D ( EV]Y?+ ,I HAD LE>N$ FROM ,LUISA4 ,BUT ,I HAD TO UND]GO MANY O!R %OCKS BE=E ,I C\LD COME TO GRIPS ) ! SIGNIFICANCE ( :AT HE TOLD ME4 

,DUR+ ! ?IRD YE> ( MY FIR/ T]M1 SEV]AL MON?S AFT] ,MANUEL HAD BE5 TRANSF]R$ TO ANO!R PRISON1 ALL ! CELLS FILL$ TO CAPACITY4 ,WORK]S FROM A SMALL 9DU/RIAL T[N W]E CR[D$ 9TO EV]Y CELL4 ,I HAD ! IMPRESSION ?AT ! 9HABITANTS ( A :OLE T[N HAD BE5 R\ND$ UP & JAIL$4 ,ALL ( !SE WORK]S W]E FURI\S4 ,I HAD NEV] BE=E SE5 SO MANY PRISON]S ) SO MU* SPIRIT & SO MU* ANG]4 ,!Y REFUS$ TO /OP %\T+ DUR+ ! DAY OR NI<T4 ,!Y GAVE ! IMPRESSION !Y W]E DET]M9$ TO B5D ! /EEL B>S & DISMANTLE ! /ONE WALLS ( ! PRISON4 ,AFT] A FEW WEEKS MO/ ( !M W]E RELEAS$1 :ILE A FEW ( !M W]E SEP>AT$ FROM EA* O!R & S5T5C$ TO 9CR$IBLY LONG PRISON T]MS4 ,= ! FIR/ TIME S9CE ! RESI/ANCE ! WORK]S ( A :OLE T[N HAD RIS54 ,AS F> AS ,I REMEMB] !RE HAD BE5 NO?+ EXTRAORD9>Y AB\T ! CIRCUM/ANCES ?AT L$ TO ! RIS+3 WORK+ CONDITIONS W5T FROM BAD TO WORSE1 JOBS W]E UNSAFE1 REAL 9COMES W]E FALL+1 H\SES W]E DET]IORAT+4 ,BUT ! RESPONSE ( ! WORK]S GREW TO PROPORTIONS :I* MADE ?IS EV5T UNIQUE 9 \R REC5T HI/ORY4 ,ALL ! WORK]S ( ! T[N W5T ON /RIKE & DEMON/RAT$ !IR DISCONT5T4 ,UNLIKE WORK]S AT PREVI\S OR LAT] DEMON/RATIONS1 !SE WORK]S CALL$ = ! ABOLITION ( ! POLITICAL POLICE1 ! ABOLITION ( ! FACTORY MANAG]S1 ! ABOLITION ( UNION REPRES5TATIVES4 ,9 ,LUISA'S LANGUAGE1 ALL !SE WORK]S W]E HOOLIGANS2 ALL !IR DEM&S W]E DE/RUCTIVE4 ,!Y CALL$ = NO?+ LESS ?AN ! ABOLITION ( ! RUL+ SY/EM4 ,ONE WORK] PR\DLY TOLD ME1 0,:5 A UNION REP GOT ON0 A PLAT=M & />T$ LECTUR+' AB\T ! VICTORY ( ! WORK+ CLASS1 AB\T WORK]S ADM9I/]+ !IR [N FACTORIES1 WE C>RI$ (F ! REP1 ! MICROPHONE AS WELL AS ! PLAT=M4 ,:5 ! POLICE CAME 9 TO CLE> ! /REETS ( WORK]S1 WE CLE>$ ! /REETS ( POLICE4 ,WE ?\<T WORK]S EV]Y:]E W\LD FOLL[ \R EXAMPLE40 ,!SE WORK]S W]E MORE DI/RU/FUL ( POLITICIANS & P$AGOGUES ?AN ANY WORK]S ,I'VE MET BE=E OR S9CE4 ,!Y TRU/$ ONLY EA* O!R2 !Y LE>N$ ONLY FROM EA* O!R4 ,!Y HAD PUT AN 5D TO ! P[] ( REPRES5TATIVES1 IF NOT ?R\<\T SOCIETY1 AT LEA/ OV] !MSELVES4 0,WE W]E ABLE TO HOLD \R [N AGA9/ :AT !Y CALL ! WORK]S' MILITIA & ! WORK]S' POLICE10 ! SAME WORK] TOLD ME4 0BUT WE C\LDN'T HOLD \T AGA9/ ! >MY40 ,! GREATE/ A*IEVEM5T ( TE*NOLOGICAL PROGRESS1 ! >MY1 DEFEAT$ !M4 ,APPROXIMATELY HALF ! 9HABITANTS ( ! T[N W]E >RE/$ & IMPRISON$ -- 9 ! NAME ( ! WORK]S' SELF-ADM9I/RATION ( !IR [N PRODUCTIVE =CES4 ,!Y W]E REPRESS$ BY ! (FICIAL REPRES5TATIVES ( ! WORK]S' MOVEM5T4 ,! REPRESSION WAS ORGANIZ$ BY P$AGOGUES :OSE PROJECT IS ! LIB]ATION ( ! WORK+ CLASS4 ,!SE POLITICAL RACKETE]S PRES5T$ ! REPRESSION ( !SE WORK]S AS YET ANO!R GREAT /RIDE T[>D ! LIB]ATION ( ! WORK]S4 

,IT WAS ! SEIZURE ( TOTAL P[] OV] SOCIETY'S REPRESSIVE APP>ATUS BY P$AGOGUES1 PHILOSOPH]S & DREAM]S ?AT CREAT$ CONDITIONS 9 :I* WORK]S W]E >RE/$ & IMPRISON$ UND] ! BANN] ( !IR [N LIB]ATION4 ,TODAY'S FANATICS CONSID] HUMAN BE+S OB/ACLES ON ! PA?S ( !IR GODS4 ,! GODS >E TODAY CALL$ WORK]S BUT >E 9 FACT M5TAL CATEGORIES LODG$ 9 ! BRA9S ( P$AGOGUES & HAVE NO?+ 9 COMMON ) LIV+ BE+S4 ,9 ! NAME ( !SE GODS ! E>?LY REPRES5TATIVES ( !SE DEITIES1 ! POLITICIANS1 RECOGNIZE NO HUMAN OR NATURAL LIMITS4 ,= ! SAKE ( !IR DEITIES !Y DEPOPULATE CITIES & EV5 5TIRE REGIONS4 ,!SE GODS >E MORE JEAL\S ?AN ! PATRI>*AL DESPOT ,JAHWEH2 !Y DON'T ONLY DEM& ! DE/RUCTION ( O!R GODS ?AT ?REAT5 TO /& BESIDE !M2 !Y CALL = ! LIQUIDATION ( ALL HUMAN BE+S :O REFUSE TO B[ TO !M4 

,!SE >E CONCLUSIONS ,I'VE DRAWN FROM PA9FUL EXP]I5CES4 ,I DIDN'T DRAW !M EASILY & ,I ?9K ,I CAN !RE=E UND]/& :Y Y\ HAV5'T COME TO SU* CONCLUSIONS4 ,ALL ! EXP]I5CES ( MY FIR/ PRISON T]M DIDN'T AFFECT MY \TLOOK UNTIL SEV]AL YE>S LAT]4 ,DUR+ ?OSE F\R YE>S ,I HAD LE>N$ H[ WORK]S HAD BE5 TRANS=M$ 9TO POLICE DETA*M5TS :I* REPRESS$ O!R WORK]S2 ,I HAD MET PRISON GU>DS :OSE CONCEPTIONS HAD ONCE BE5 ID5TICAL TO MY [N2 ,I HAD LE>N$ ?AT WE HAD EMBRAC$ AS LIB]ATORS ?OSE :O ALL[$ \R COMRADES TO BE MASSACR$2 FROM ,MANUEL ,I HAD LE>N$ ?AT ALL GR\PS & ORGANIZATIONS ?AT EMBODY ! ASPIRATIONS ( O!RS CAN ONLY BE VICTORI\S BY REPRESS+ ?OSE ASPIRATIONS2 ,I HAD MET WORK]S :O HAD RIS5 AGA9/ ALL =MS ( REPRES5TATION & HAD F\ND !MSELVES FACE TO FACE ) ! 5TIRE REPRESSIVE APP>ATUS ( SOCIETY4 ,YET AFT] ALL ?OSE EXP]I5CES ,I LEFT PRISON LIKE A NEW ORGANIZ]4 ,IT WAS AT ! 5D ( ?OSE F\R YE>S ?AT ,I C>RI$ MY 9SI<T & MY PROJECT TO ,MIRNA & H] P>5TS1 DET]M9$ TO COMMUNICATE TO !M1 NOT :AT ,I HAD EXP]I5C$ 9 PRISON1 BUT ! ACTIVITIES MY PRISON EXP]I5CES HAD UND]M9$4 ,I W5T TO !M AS A P$AGOGUE :O HAD LE>N$ NO?+ AB\T ! SIGNIFICANCE ( HIS [N TEA*+S3 ,I W5T TO !M DET]M9$ TO 5ACT ! SAME DRAMA YET ANO!R TIME4 

,I ?9K ,I DO UND]/& H[ Y\'RE US+ :AT Y\ CALL Y\R /&>D ( COMP>ISON4 ,Y\'RE COMP>+ ! REPRESSIVE SOCIETY ?AT SURR\NDS US ) AN E>LI] EXP]I5CE ?AT REPRODUC$ ! SAME REPRESSION4 ,IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT ?IS EXP]I5CE PROVIDES Y\ ) A FAULTY /&>D ( COMP>ISON4 ,:AT Y\ TOLD ME AB\T Y\R FRI5D ,RON MADE ME ?9K ?AT HIS G5U9ELY REBELLI\S ACTS PROVIDE A /&>D ( COMP>ISON F> SUP]IOR TO ! OR*E/RAT$ MASS ACTIVITY :I* PLAC$ ! REPRESSIVE MA*9]Y ( SOCIETY 9 ! H&S ( REPRES5TATIVES ( HUMAN LIB]ATION4 ,Y\R COMP>ISON ( Y\RSELF TO ,VESNA & ( Y\R 5VIRONM5T TO ,VESNA'S CAGE W]E V]Y MOV+4 ,BUT ,I'M CONV9C$ ! EXP]I5CE Y\'VE PRES]V$ ) SU* C>E DOES NOT GIVE Y\ A VANTAGE PO9T \TSIDE ! CAGE4 ,I'M CONV9C$ Y\'RE LOOK+ AT ! CAGE FROM A VANTAGE PO9T 9SIDE IT4 ,Y\'RE DO+ PRECISELY :AT Y\ SAY P]MAN5T 9MATES ( A PRISON CAN'T HELP BUT DO3 Y\'RE CONFUS+ A CORN] ( ! PRISON ) ! \TSIDE WORLD4 

,I'D LIKE TO LE>N MORE AB\T Y\R LIFE4 ,I F\ND Y\R DESCRIPTIONS FASC9AT+ & SOME ( Y\R ANALYZES PR(\ND & 9=MATIVE4 ,BUT ,I WON'T BE CONV]T$ TO Y\R LIFE'S C5TRAL PROJECT4 ,I WAS CONV]T$ TO IT ONCE1 BY ,LUISA1 & ,I'M /ILL /RUGGL+ TO RID MYSELF ( MY 5TANGLEM5T ) IT4 ,I CAN'T HONE/LY SAY ,I ADMIRE Y\ = HOLD+ ON TO ?AT PROJECT SO T5ACI\SLY & = SU* A LONG TIME4  
  

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