,Y>O/AN'S SECOND ,LETT] 

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,AU?OR 3 ,FR$Y ,P]LMAN 

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,Y>O/AN'S SECOND LETT] 

  
  

,DE> ,SOPHIA1  
  

,MY PICTURE ( Y\ WAS HAZY :5 ,I WROTE Y\ LA/ TIME BUT N[ ,I REMEMB] Y\ AS IF ,I HAD BE5 ) Y\ ONLY YE/]DAY4 ,NO ONE :O HAD KN[N Y\ TW5TY YE>S AGO C\LD FAIL TO RECOGNIZE Y\4 ,Y\ WROTE ME A W>M1 COMRADELY LETT]4 ,I'D LIKE TO ANSW] 9 ! SAME SPIRIT4 ,I'D LIKE AT LEA/ TO BE POLITE4 ,BUT TW5TY YE>S HAVE PASS$4 ,EV]YONE >\ND ME HAS *ANG$4 ,Y\R PICTURE ( Y\RSELF AS Y\ >E TODAY IS DI/URB+LY SIMIL> TO ! P]SON Y\ ?\<T Y\ W]E TW5TY YE>S AGO4 ,:AT ,I RECOGNIZE 9 Y\R LETT] IS NOT ! EV5T WE EXP]I5C$ TOGE!R BUT AN EV5T WE NEV] EXP]I5C$4 ,I WROTE TO A LIV+ P]SON & WAS ANSW]$ BY AN IMAG9>Y P]SON CELEBRAT+ AN EV5T ?AT NEV] TOOK PLACE4 

,I ADMIT ?AT ,I ONCE %>$ ! ILLUSION Y\R LETT] CELEBRATES4 ,TW5TY YE>S AGO Y\ & ,I W]E LIKE *ILDR5 :O SAW A GR\P ( PEOPLE DIGG+ 9 A FIELD & RAN TO JO9 !M4 ,!Y W]E *ANT+4 ,WE MISUND]/OOD ! *ANT2 WE FAIL$ TO HE> ! SUFF]+ & RESIGNATION4 ,WE ?\<T !Y W]E S++ \T ( JOY4 ,WE F\ND SPADES & DUG ) !M4 ,WE SANG MORE L\DLY ?AN ! RE/ UNTIL ONE ( !M TURN$ TO US & ASK$1 0,DON'T Y\ KN[ :AT Y\'RE DO+80 ,SOPHIA1 DON'T Y\ REMEMB] ?AT T]RIFI$ FACE WR9KL$ ) PA98 0,LOOK OV] !RE10 HE SAID1 PO9T+ T[>D RIFLES AIM$ AT ! GR\P4 ,WE HAD JO9$ A GR\P ( PRISON]S S5T5C$ TO DIE2 WE W]E HELP+ !M DIG ! MASS GRAVE 9TO :I* !Y W]E TO BE ?R[N AFT] !Y W]E %OT4 ,H[ CAN Y\ HAVE RETA9$ ONLY ! MEMORY ( ! MOM5T :5 WE JOYFULLY SANG ALONGSIDE !M8 ,IS IT POSSIBLE ?AT AFT] TW5TY YE>S Y\ /ILL DON'T KN[ :AT WE HELP$ !M DO8 

,I WAS DISAPPO9T$ BY Y\R LETT] & 9F9ITELY MORE DISAPPO9T$ BY ,LUISA4 ,MAYBE Y\ W]E TOO Y\NG & FULL ( LIFE TO GRASP ! NATURE ( :AT Y\ CALL Y\R KEY EXP]I5CE4 ,BUT ,I CAN'T MAKE MYSELF BELIEVE ?AT ,LUISA -- ! ,LUISA ,I ?\<T ,I KNEW -- C\LD NURSE AN ILLUSION ( ?IS MAGNITUDE = TWO DECADES4 ,?AT'S :Y ,I'M S5D+ ?IS LETT] TO Y\R ADDRESS 9/EAD ( H]S4 

,:5 ,I />T$ READ+ Y\R LETT] ,I WAS OV]JOY$ AT HAV+ REA*$ BO? ( Y\4 ,BY ! SECOND OR ?IRD PAGE MY JOY TURN$ TO DISBELIEF4 ,I />T$ AGA94 ,MY IMPRESSION WAS CONFIRM$4 ,Y\ LOCATE Y\R BIR?1 Y\R />T+ PO9T1 9 ! EV5T ?AT TORE ME AP>T2 Y\R GR[? CO9CIDES ) MY DE/RUCTION4 

,& ,LUISA 5C\RAGES Y\6 ,ONLY ,SAB9A SEEMS TO BE AW>E ( :AT HAPP5$ EV5 ?\< %E WAS ONLY TWELVE AT ! TIME4 ,MAYBE MY 9ABILITY TO RECOGNIZE ! ,LUISA 9 Y\R LETT] IS SIMIL> TO Y\R 9ABILITY TO REMEMB] :AT WE DID TOGE!R4 ,I TOO NURS$ AN ILLUSION = MANY YE>S1 AN ILLUSION ( A P]SON CALL$ ,LUISA :OSE ONLY COMMON TRAIT ) ! REAL ,LUISA WAS H] NAME4 ,I PRES]V$ MY PORTRAIT ( ,LUISA DUR+ MY FIR/ PRISON T]M2 NO 9VE/IGATORS C\LD TAKE IT FROM ME1 NO TORTUR]S C\LD M> IT4 ,I ADMIR$ & RESPECT$ ?IS ,LUISA4 ,I LOV$ H]4 ,%E WAS ! GUIDE :O L$ ME UNH>M$ ?R\< ALL ! SUFF]+1 ! HOPELESSNESS1 ! HORROR4 ,%E WAS MY FIR/ REAL TEA*]4 ,EV]Y ONE ( ,LUISA'S COMM5TS1 FROM ! WORDS AB\T ! APPROA* ( LIB]ATION >MIES TO ! DESCRIPTION ( ,JAN ,S$LAK AS A HO!AD1 DISFIGUR$ ! PICTURE ,I HAD GU>D$ SO C>EFULLY4 ,MY 0,LUISA0 IS N[ 9 %R$S4 ,Y\ RID ME ( AN ILLUSION4 ,MY IMAG9>Y 0,LUISA0 IS %ATT]$ & FRAGM5TS ( A DIFF]5T P]SON >E RETURN+ TO MY MEMORY4 ,!SE FRAGM5TS HAD BE5 SUPPRESS$ DUR+ ! YE>S :5 ! MY?ICAL ,LUISA WAS ! ONLY ,LUISA ,I REMEMB]$4 ,! RETURN ( ! FRAGM5TS SUGGE/S ?AT ,I ONCE KNEW A DIFF]5T ,LUISA FROM ! ONE :OSE PORTRAIT ,I PRES]V$2 ,I ONCE KNEW A P]SON DI/URB+LY SIMIL> TO ! ONE 9 Y\R LETT]4 ,I KNEW SU* A P]SON & REJECT$ H] BECAUSE %E WASN'T SOMEONE ,I C\LD ADMIRE1 RESPECT OR LOVE4 ,! YE>S ( SEP>ATION ANNIHILAT$ ! TRACES LEFT BY ! REAL P]SON2 ! IMAG9>Y ,LUISA EVICT$ ! LIV+ ,LUISA FROM MY MEMORY4 

,I'M MAK+ ?IS T$I\S EF=T TO UND]/& ! WORK+S ( MY MEMORY SO AS TO GA9 SOME 9SI<T 9TO Y\RS4 ,C\LD IT BE ?AT :AT Y\ DESCRIBE AS \R COMMON EXP]I5CE WAS ONLY P>TLY A REAL EV5T & MA9LY Y\R [N 9V5TION8 ,C\LD IT BE ?AT Y\R ILLUSORY PA/ EXP]I5CE WAS SO GRATIFY+1 SO COMPLETE1 ?AT 9 TIME Y\ SUPPRESS$ EV]Y TRACE ( ! REAL EV5T8 ,IF SO1 & IF Y\'RE ATTA*$ TO Y\R ILLUSION1 !N Y\ DON'T HAVE TO READ ANY FUR!R2 ! RE/ ( ?IS LETT] MAY HAVE ! SAME EFFECT ON Y\ AS Y\RS HAD ON ME3 MY %ATT]$ ILLUSION IS BE+ REPLAC$ BY PA9FUL1 LONG-SUPPRESS$ MEMORIES2 ,I'M SEE+ PEOPLE & EV5TS ,I HAD W>D$ (F = TWO DECADES4 

,I WAS ONLY FIFTE5 :5 ,TITUS ,ZABRAN FIR/ 9TRODUC$ ME TO Y\R H\SE4 ,HE & ,LUISA BO? WORK$ AT ! C>TON PLANT4 ,I HAD MET ,TITUS A YE> E>LI]1 JU/ BE=E ! 5D ( ! W>2 WE W]E BO? 9 A RESI/ANCE GR\P ?AT F\<T AGA9/ ! OCCUPY+ >MY4 ,I REMEMB]1 EV5 )\T Y\R REM9D]1 ?AT ,TITUS DID NOT 9TRODUCE ME TO A MO!R & H] DAU<T]S4 ,HE 9TRODUC$ ME TO ?REE WOM53 ,LUISA1 A WOMAN 9 H] LATE TW5TIES2 ,SOPHIA -- Y\ MU/ HAVE BE5 TWELVE OR ?IRTE5 -- & LITTLE ,SAB9A1 N9E OR T54 ,Y\ ADDRESS$ EA* O!R BY Y\R FIR/ NAMES1 AS EQUALS4 ,Y\ & ,SAB9A HAD PREP>$ SUPP] = ALL ( US4 ,LUISA ASK$ ,SAB9A IF !RE WAS ANY?+ %E C\LD DO TO HELP1 & ! LITTLE GIRL ANSW]$ ) SELF-ASSURANCE3 0,JU/ SIT D[N & TALK2 EV]Y?+ IS READY40 ,I WAS FASC9AT$4 ,I HAD NEV] BE=E EXP]I5C$ SU* A TOTAL ABS5CE ( AU?ORITY 9 RELATIONS BETWE5 *ILDR5 & ADULTS4 

,9 RETROSPECT IT MI<T BE MORE ACCURATE TO SAY ?AT ,I WAS 5TRANC$4 ,I FELL UND] A4 SPELL4 ,I />T$ TO CREATE MY MY?ICAL PICTURE ( ! ?REE ( Y\ FROM ! MOM5T ,I MET Y\4 ,FROM !N ON ,I SAW1 HE>D & FELT ONLY ?OSE EXPRESSIONS & GE/URES ?AT FITT$ ) ! IMAG9>Y CREATURES Y\ HAD ALREADY BECOME4 ,I SUPPRESS$ EV]Y?+ ?AT CONFLICT$ ) MY PICTURE4 ,! SUPPRESS$ ELEM5TS REMA9$ SOME:]E 9 MY MEMORY1 BURI$ UND] ! MY?4 ,!SE ELEM5TS >E RETURN+ N[1 P]FECTLY PRES]V$ BUT FRAGM5T>Y4 ,!Y HAD NEV] BE5 MORE ?AN FRAGM5TS4 

,I WAS DRAWN TO Y\R H\SE LIKE A BEE TO FL[]S1 FIR/ ONCE A WEEK1 !N TWO & EV5 ?REE TIMES4 ,I PLI$ ,LUISA ) QUE/IONS AB\T ! REVOLUTION 9 :I* %E HAD TAK5 P>T T5 YE>S E>LI]4 ,I C\LDN'T HE> 5\< AB\T IT4 ,TITUS HAD ALSO TAK5 P>T 9 IT1 BUT ,I DIDN'T ASK HIM ANY QUE/IONS4 ,:5EV] HE MADE A COMM5T1 IT CONSI/$ ( VA/ HI/ORICAL G5]ALIZATIONS4 ,HE REF]R$ TO PEOPLE & EV5TS ?AT W]E UNFAMILI> TO ME & ,I WAS BOR$1 CONFUS$ & EMB>RASS$ TO BE SO IGNORANT4 ,I DIDN'T ONLY WANT TO LE>N AB\T ?AT REVOLUTION2 ,I WANT$ TO LE>N IT FROM ,LUISA4 ,I UND]/OOD EV]Y WORD %E SPOKE4 ,H] DESCRIPTIONS W]E SO CLE>1 SO VIVID ?AT AS %E SPOKE ,I IMAG9$ ,I WAS TAK+ P>T 9 ! EV5TS %E DESCRIB$4 ,%E HELP$ ME LIVE ?OSE EV5TS BY COMP>+ !M TO EXP]I5CES ,I HAD MYSELF LIV$4 

,LUISA COMP>$ ! DAY ( ! \TBREAK ( ! REVOLUTION ) ! FIR/ DAY ( ! RESI/ANCE1 :5 MY NEI<BORS & FRI5DS RAN \T ( !IR H\SES >M$ & FILL$ ) 5?USIASM1 ! DAY :5 ,I HELP$ BUILD A B>RICADE & !N HELP$ DEF5D IT4 ,N9E YE>S SEP>AT$ ! TWO EV5TS1 & 9 ,LUISA'S DESCRIPTIONS ?AT WAS ALL ?AT SEP>AT$ !M4 ,I KNEW !N AS CLE>LY AS ,I KN[ N[ ?AT ! TWO EV5TS HAD NO?+ 9 COMMON EXCEPT ! B>RICADES4 ,TO ,LUISA !Y HAD EV]Y?+ 9 COMMON2 ! TWO EV5TS W]E ONE & ! SAME4 ,YET ?IS DIDN'T BO!R ME4 ,H] COMP>ISON HELP$ ME UND]/&4 ,GR\PS ( PEOPLE :O HAD NEV] 5GAG$ 9 ANY ACTIVITY TOGE!R -- SOME ( !M =M] ACQUA9TANCES FROM ! NEI<BORHOOD OR FACTORY1 MO/ ( !M COMPLETE /RANG]S -- BECAME ! BE/ ( FRI5DS 9 AN 9/ANT4 ,!Y SUDD5LY HAD EV]Y?+ 9 COMMON3 APPREH5SIONS AS WELL AS HOPES1 IMM$IATE TASKS AS WELL AS DI/ANT PROJECTS4 ,& ,I WAS ONE ( !M4 ,I TRANSF]R$ ! RESI/ANCE EXP]I5CES ,I HAD LIV$ A YE> E>LI] TO ! REVOLUTION>Y EXP]I5CE ,LUISA HAD LIV$4 ,I BECAME A MEMB] ( A FI<T+ COMMUNITY1 AN EQUAL AMONG PEOPLE :O W]E FREE+ !MSELVES1 A COMRADE AMONG WORK]S DET]M9$ TO DE/ROY ! REPRESSIVE WORLD4 ,I WAS NO LONG] ! L\SY KID1 ! VAGRANT1 ! LUMP5 ,I HAD BE5 DUR+ ! W>4 

,I WASN'T PR\D ( :AT ,I'D BE5 E>LI]2 MY REC5T PA/ WAS \T ( PLACE 9 ! WORLD ! ?REE ( Y\ 9HABIT$1 ?AT MY?ICAL WORLD :]E ,I MYSELF LODG$ Y\4 ,Y\ WANT$ TO KN[ AB\T MY 0H]OIC0 EXP]I5CES DUR+ ! RESI/ANCE BUT ,I NEV] TOLD Y\ AB\T !M4 ,LUISA HELP$ ME =GET !M2 %E HELP$ ME TRANS=M ! REAL EV5TS ( MY LIFE 9TO IMAG9>Y EV5TS :I* ,I 0EXP]I5C$0 ONLY :ILE LI/5+ TO ,LUISA'S /ORIES4 

,MY P>5TS W]E TAK5 AWAY %ORTLY BE=E ! W> 5D$4 ,I WAS SUPPOS$ TO HIDE 9 ! COAL B9 ( ! H\SE ACROSS ! /REET4 ,BUT ,I /OOD BY ! BASEM5T W9D[ & WAT*$ AS !Y W]E ESCORT$ \T ( \R H\SE & HELP$ TO ! BACK ( A TRUCK4 ,!Y HAD BO? WORK$ 9 FACTORIES4 ,!Y'D JU/ COME HOME FROM WORK2 IT WAS DUSK4 ,E>LI] ?AT DAY1 :5 MY NEI<BORS HAD =C$ ME 9TO ! B91 ,I 9SI/$ ON KN[+ :Y4 ,!Y 0EXPLA9$0 ?AT MY MO!R'S FA!R HAD BE5 ,JEWI%4 ,?IS EXPLANATION TOLD ME NO?+4 ,MY P>5TS HAD NEV] DISCUSS$ POLITICS OR RELIGION OR ANY?+ AT ALL EXCEPT ! AM\NT ( MONEY LEFT TO MEET ! WEEK'S EXP5SES4 ,! EXPLANATION ,I UND]/OOD WAS WRITT5 ON MY NEI<BORS' FACES3 MY P>5TS W]E /A9$4 ,I WAS /A9$4 ,ALL ! NEI<BORS WAT*$ AS MY P>5TS W]E TAK5 AWAY4 ,?OSE :O C\LDN'T SEE FROM ! W9D[S CAME \T ( !IR H\SES TO LOOK4 ,NO ONE DID ANY?+ OR SAID ANY?+4 ,IT WAS LIKE A FUN]AL4 ,ALL ! FACES W]E SAD1 YET !Y ALL EXPRESS$ SOME?+ O!R ?AN SADNESS3 !Y W]E RELIEV$ !Y DIDN'T HAVE ,JEWI% GR&FA!RS4 

,MY NEI<BORS1 AS POOR AS MY P>5TS & N]V\S AS SQUIRRELS1 HAD ALREADY GOTT5 FALSE PAP]S PROV+ ,I WAS !IR SON4 ,BUT ,I C\LDN'T /AY ON ) !M4 ,!Y W]5'T US$ TO HAV+ A P]MAN5T GUE/ & ,I KNEW !Y C\LDN'T AF=D TO FE$ ME4 ,SECONDLY1 & ,I N[ ?9K UNJU/LY1 ,I FELT ?AT JU/ BEL[ !IR K9DNESS & G5]OSITY !Y FE>$ ,I W\LD SOON] OR LAT] /A9 !M4 

,I LEFT MY 0HOME T[N0 & ,I'VE NEV] FELT ! SLI<TE/ DESIRE TO RETURN !RE1 EV5 = A VISIT4 ,I WALK$ ALL ! WAY TO ! CITY1 SLEEP+ 9 FIELDS & B>NS1 EAT+ FRUITS & RAW VEGETABLES ON ! WAY4 ,:5 ,I GOT H]E ,I ROAM$ ! /REETS LIKE A /RAY DOG1 SLEEP+ 9 DOORWAYS & ALLEYS4 ,9 W9T] ,I PRI$ OP5 BASEM5T W9D[S4 ,MY LA/ 0/OL5 HOME0 WAS ! /OR]OOM ( A FACTORY1 A VA/ GALL]Y FULL ( %EETS & ROLLS ( C>DBO>D4 ,I SURVIV$ BY /EAL+ -- NOT FROM ! OCCUPI]S NOR FROM ! RI*4 ,ONE DAY ,I SAW A BOY MY AGE RUNN+ ALONG ! SIDEWALK2 HE SNAT*$ AN OLD WOMAN'S GROC]Y BAG )\T SL[+ D[N OR EV5 LOS+ A /EP & DISAPPE>$4 ,I PRACTIC$ = SEV]AL H\RS ) A G>BAGE BAG1 ,I ACQUIR$ A 0SKILL0 & ,I W5T \T TO ! WORLD TO E>N MY LIV+4 

,ONE MORN+ ,I OV]SLEPT4 ,I DIDN'T WAKE UP UNTIL A MAN PULL$ ME BY ! E> & %\T$ HY/]ICALLY3 0,H[ DID Y\ GET 9 H]E1 Y\ L\SY VAGABOND8 ,I'LL TAKE Y\ /RAI<T TO ! POLICE40 ,O!RS RAN 9 FROM ! WORK%OP4 ,ONE ( !M RAN UP TO MY TORTUR] & %\T$1 0,LET ! BOY GO60 0,I WILL NOT6 ,HE'S GO+ /RAI<T TO ! POLICE60 ! MAN %\T$ BACK1 PULL+ MY E> SO H>D ,I ?\<T IT W\LD BREAK2 ,I LAT] LE>N$ HE WAS ! =EMAN4 ,! GR\P SURR\ND$ ! =EMAN2 MY DEF5D] PLANT$ HIMSELF RI<T 9 FRONT ( HIM4 ,! =EMAN LEFT MY BURN+ E> ALONE & GRABB$ ME BY ! >M4 ,MY DEF5D] !N SAID1 0,HE'S A FRI5D ( M9E2 HE'S LOOK+ = WORK2 ,I ASK$ HIM TO MEET ME H]E4 ,IT'S FREEZ+ \TSIDE & Y\ CAN SEE HE'S NOT DRESS$ = IT4 ,W\LD Y\ /& & WAIT 9 ! COLD IF Y\ W]E ABLE TO COME 9SIDE80 ,! =EMAN VISIBLY DIDN'T BELIEVE A WORD ( IT1 BUT HE LET MY >M GO2 HE C\LDN'T PROVE ANY?+ EXCEPT ?AT ,I HAD F\ND MY WAY \T ( ! COLD1 & BESIDES1 HE WAS SURR\ND$4 ,?AT EV5+ ,I LE>N$ MY DEF5D]'S NAME3 ,TITUS ,ZABRAN4 ,ONE ( ! PEOPLE 9 ! GR\P ?AT SURR\ND$ ! =EMAN WAS ,JASNA ,ZBRKOVA4 ,:5 ,I F9ALLY DID GET A JOB !RE AFT] ! W> %E CALL$ ME 0! VAGABOND :O WAS CAU<T OV]SLEEP+40 ,I RETURN$ TO ! PLANT ?AT EV5+2 ,I WANT$ TO ?ANK ,TITUS4 ,9/EAD1 HE ?ANK$ ME = WAIT+ = HIM4 ,HE ASK$ IF ,I W\LD HAVE BE5 WILL+ TO WORK !RE IF !RE HAD BE5 AN OP5+4 ,I HAD NEV] ?\<T ( WORK+4 ,I TOLD HIM MY P>5TS HAD DONE NO?+ ELSE ) !IR LIVES & 9 ! 5D W]E TAK5 AWAY 9 ! BACK ( A TRUCK4 

,TITUS 9TRODUC$ ME TO HIS FRI5DS4 ,ONE ( !M H\S$ ME2 O!RS TOOK TURNS FE$+ ME4 ,!Y W]E ALL WORK]S4 ,!Y ALL BEGG$ ME TO /OP /EAL+2 !Y SAID IT W\LD 5DANG] !IR ORGANIZATION2 ! POLICE W\LD COME LOOK+ = ME & W\LD >RE/ ALL ( !M4 ,I /OPP$4 ,BUT !N ,I HAD NO?+ TO DO4 ,I ATT5D$ ALL ! ORGANIZATION MEET+S BUT WAS BOR$ TO TE>S4 ,:5 !Y >GU$ ,I />$ 9TO SPACE2 NO?+ !Y EV] SAID HAD ANY?+ TO DO ) ME4 ,!Y US$ WORDS LIKE 0REVOLUTION0 & 0LIB]ATION10 BUT 9 SU* /RANGE WAYS2 !Y SEEM$ LIKE EXOTIC M]*ANTS SCREE*+ & TE>+ EA* O!RS' HAIR BECAUSE ONE HAD *EAT$ ! O!R 9 A TRANSACTION ?AT HAD TAK5 PLACE YE>S AGO 9 A DIFF]5T P>T ( ! WORLD4 7,LAT] ON ,I TOOK P>T 9 SU* DISCUSSIONS2 9 RETROSPECT ,I CONSID] MY FIR/ REACTION TO HAVE BE5 ! HEAL?I] ONE47 ,I WASN'T IDLE V]Y LONG4 ,! W> WAS NE>+ ITS 5D4 ,! WORD 0LIB]ATION0 BEGAN TO BE US$ 9 9CREAS+LY COMPREH5SIBLE WAYS4 ,IT />T$ TO MEAN RIFLES1 GR5ADES1 BULLETS4 ,:5 IT WAS LE>N$ ?AT ,I WAS FAMILI> ) HID+ PLACES 9 EV]Y P>T ( ! CITY ,I NO LONG] HAD TIME TO /EAL OR TO />E 9TO SPACE DUR+ MEET+S4 

,! ?REE DAYS & ?REE NI<TS ( ! RIS+ W]E ! HI< PO9T ( MY LIFE4 ,ALL ! ELEM5TS ,I LAT] HE>D ,LUISA DESCRIBE W]E PRES5T2 !Y >E PROBABLY ELEM5TS ( EV]Y POPUL> UPRIS+4 ,BUT !RE W]E O!R ELEM5TS1 S9I/] ONES2 ,LUISA LAT] HELP$ ME SUPPRESS !M2 %E HELP$ ME REMEMB] ?OSE ?REE DAYS AS IF !Y HAD BE5 ! FIR/ ?REE DAYS ( ! REVOLUTION %E HAD EXP]I5C$4 ,YES1 ! COOP]ATION1 ! SOCIABILITY & ! COMRADE%IP W]E ALL !RE4 ,BUT ,I TOOK ALL ?IS = GRANT$4 ,AFT] ALL1 = SEV]AL MON?S ,I HAD US$ ALL MY TIME & 5]GY HID+ WEAPONS1 PREP>+ = ?IS EV5T2 ,I DIDN'T EXPECT LESS FROM O!RS4 ,! ONLY EMOTION ,I FELT DUR+ ?OSE ?REE DAYS -- AN EMOTION :OSE MEMORY TRACES W]E LAT] DRIV5 UND]GR\ND BY ,LUISA 'S $IFY+ /ORY -- WAS A BLOOD?IR/Y DESIRE = REV5GE4 ,BUILD+ ! B>RICADES WAS A PR(\ND EXP]I5CE1 A SOCIAL PROJECT AS Y\ CALL IT1 EV5 A TYPE ( POPUL> >*ITECTURE4 ,& ,I G5U9ELY 5JOY$ ! WORK 9 WAYS ?AT ! R\T9IZ$1 9/ITUTIONALIZ$ DAILY WORK CAN'T BE 5JOY$4 ,BUT ! PROJECT WAS M>R$ BY ITS PURPOSE4 ,I WORK$ 5?USIA/ICALLY1 BUT MY M9D WAS ON ! 5EMY3 ,I LOOK$ =W>D1 NOT TO ! COMPLETION ( ! COMMON PROJECT1 BUT TO ! ATTACK4 ,& :5 !Y ATTACK$1 MY SOCIABILITY & MY >*ITECTURAL 9T]E/ VANI%$4 ,I HAD ONLY ONE GOAL3 TO LODGE EV]Y S+LE BULLET 9 A UNI=M$ BODY4 ,AT FIR/ ,I %OT TO AV5GE MY P>5TS4 ,LAT] ,I JU/ %OT2 MY ONLY CONC]N WAS TO HIT4 

,I CAN ALREADY HE>1 0,BUT ?AT'S NOT JU/ Y\2 ?AT'S W>40 ,YES IT IS4 ,IT'S JU/ W>4 ,IF WE TAKE IT SO MU* = GRANT$1 :Y DO WE SUPPRESS EV]Y MEMORY ( IT8 ,A FEW MON?S E>LI] ,I HAD /OL5 ! GROC]IES ( POOR OLD WOM5 & ,I HAD BE5 A VICI\S ?IEF1 A BULLY4 ,N[ ,I MURD]$ DOZ5S ( HUMAN BE+S1 MO/ ( !M WORK]S1 MANY ( !M H>DLY OLD] ?AN ,I1 & ,I WAS A H]O4 ,I HAV5'T BE5 PR\D ( MY !FTS1 BUT ,I NEV] FELT ! NE$ TO SUPPRESS !M FROM MY MEMORY4 ,AS = ! DE$S ?AT MADE ME A H]O3 ,I C\LDN'T FLEE FROM !M FA/ 5\<4 ,I HAD TO SUPPRESS !M1 REPLACE !M ) O!R DE$S -- & EV5 !N ,I WASN'T SELF-ASSUR$ 9 MY H]O'S PRIDE4 

,LUISA HELP$ ME SUPPRESS MY MEMORY ( ! REAL UPRIS+4 ,%E HELP$ ME DRIVE \T ( MY CONSCI\SNESS ! %OTS1 ! FALL+ BODIES & ! EXPRESSIONS ON !IR FACES4 ,I MET ,LUISA ONLY A FEW DAYS AFT] ! RIS+1 :5 ,I WAS HIR$ AT ! C>TON PLANT4 ,CLAUDE ,TAMNI*1 ,V]A ,NEIS & ,ADRIAN ,POVR%AN W]E ALSO HIR$ AT ?AT TIME4 ,! RIS+ HAD CREAT$ LOTS ( VACANCIES4 ,SEV]AL WORK]S HAD BE5 KILL$ BY A S+LE GR5ADE AS !Y W]E LEAV+ ! PLANT4 ,IT WAS PROBABLY ?R[N BY A Y\NG WORK] AV5G+ ! DEA? ( HIS COMRADES1 P]HAPS COMRADES ,I HAD %OT SOME M9UTES OR H\RS E>LI]4 ,EV5 ! =EMAN WAS GONE2 HE HAD BE5 KILL$ BY 0\R SIDE10 ! DAY AFT] ! RIS+2 SOMEONE HAD %\T$ 0,KILL ! DIRTY COLLABORATOR60 & SEV]AL PEOPLE HAD AIM$ & %OT HIM AS IF HE HAD BE5 A DISEAS$ DOG2 IF ,I HAD BE5 !RE ,I W\LD HAVE BE5 AMONG ! FIR/ TO %OOT4 ,P]HAPS ! MAN :O %\T$ 0,KILL ! COLLABORATOR0 WAS A TRUCK DRIV]2 P]HAPS SOME TWO YE>S E>LI] HE HAD DRIV5 A TRUCK 9 ! BACK ( :I* TWO OLD WORK]S W]E TRANSPORT$ TO A CAMP4 

,LUISA'S 9SPIR+ N>RATIVE LEFT NO ROOM = SU* SPECULATIONS4 ,I =GOT AB\T MY RESI/ANCE EXP]I5CES :5 ,I LI/5$ TO H] DESCRIBE ! DAY :51 N9E YE>S E>LI]1 ! >MY />T$ TO ATTACK ! POPULATION IT SUPPOS$LY DEF5D$4 ,9 RESPONSE TO ! ATTACK1 ! PEOPLE ROSE2 M51 WOM51 BOYS & GIRLS1 EMPLOY$ & UNEMPLOY$ WORK]S BEGAN >M+ !MSELVES & BUILD+ B>RICADES4 ,! ISOLAT$ COGS ( ! SOCIAL MA*9E BECAME A COMMUNITY ( HUMAN BE+S HELD TOGE!R BY A COMMON PROJECT1 A COMMON GOAL3 TO DEF5D !IR CITY & TO BUILD A NEW WORLD1 !IR [N WORLD4 ,9 MY EXP]I5CE SU* A PROJECT HAD BE5 NEI!R ! 9T5TION NOR ! \TCOME4 ,BUT ,I WI%$ IT HAD BE5 BO?1 & ,I BELIEV$ ,LUISA4 ,FUR!RMORE ! ?REE ( Y\ W]E LIV+ PRO( ( ! NEW WORLD2 AT LEA/ ALL ! PRO( ,I NE$$4 

,! CLIMAX ( ! /ORY WAS ! VICTORY4 ,! >MY WAS DEFEAT$4 ,! OLD ORD] CRUMBL$4 ,! REVOLUTION HAD TRIUMPH$ AT LA/4 ,& ! POPULATION WAS TRANS=M$4 ,ON ! B>RICADES & 9 ! BATTLES ! PASSIVE1 SUBMISSIVE & REPRESS$ UND]CLASS TURN$ 9TO A COMMUNITY ( 9DEP5D5T 9DIVIDUALS4 ,AT ?AT PO9T A /EADY1 UNBROK5 PROCESS BEGAN4 ,*UR*ES W]E TURN$ 9TO NURS]IES & S*OOLS & MEET+ H\SES4 ,PRISONS W]E DE/ROY$4 ,WORK]S OCCUPI$ ! FACTORIES :]E !Y HAD WORK$ & BEGAN TO OP]ATE !M ON !IR [N1 )\T [N]S OR MANAG]S4 ,BUSSES & TRAMS W]E OP]AT+ NORMALLY ONLY A FEW DAYS AFT] ! VICTORY4 ,9 ! >MAM5TS FACTORIES WORK]S BEGAN TO PRODUCE WEAPONS ?AT HAD NEV] BE=E BE5 MADE 9 ?OSE PLANTS4 ,! REVOLUTION SPREAD4 ,PEASANTS \/$ L&LORDS & TOOK OV] ! L&4 

,H[ DID SU* A SEQU5CE ( VICTORIES 5D 9 SU* OV]:ELM+ DEFEAT8 ,! WORK]S W]E ATTACK$ ON TWO FRONTS3 ,LUISA REPEATS ?IS EXPLANATION 9 Y\R LETT]4 ,! P[] ( ! =CES ?AT OPPRESS$ ! WORK]S WAS OV]:ELM+4 ,! G5]ALS BUILT P[]FUL >MIES ABROAD2 !Y GOT AID FROM EV]Y QU>T] & ! WORK]S GOT NONE4 ,BESIDES :I* A FIF? COLUMN DEVELOP$ 9T]NALLY4 ,! REVOLUTION C\LD HAVE BE5 VICTORI\S AGA9/ ONE OR ! O!R FRONT3 IT HAD ALREADY PROV$ ITSELF 9 ITS CONFRONTATION ) ! G5]ALS4 ,BUT 9 ! FACE ( BO? IT WAS DEFEAT$4 ,LUISA'S PICTURE IS BEAUTIFUL1 $IFY+ & SAD4 ,EV]Y?+ \R SIDE DID SPREAD ! REVOLUTION1 /R5G!N$ IT1 DEEP5$ IT4 ,?OSE :O WORK$ AGA9/ IT W]E \TSID]S TO IT1 =EIGN TO ITS SPIRIT1 HO/ILE TO ITS PROJECT4 

,YE>S LAT]1 9 PRISON1 ,I MET ,MANUEL1 A MAN :O HAD TAK5 P>T 9 ?AT REVOLUTION4 ,HE HAD BE5 9 PRISONS & CAMPS = F\RTE5 YE>S :5 ,I MET HIM4 ,HE WAS >RE/$ BY ! 0PEOPLE'S0 POLICE A FEW MON?S AFT] ! REVOLUTION>Y VICTORY AGA9/ ! >MY1 & HE SP5T HIS LIFE S9CE !N BE+ TRANSF]R$ FROM ONE PRISON OR CAMP TO ANO!R4 ,HIS ACC\NT ( ! EXP]I5CE WAS SIMIL> TO ,LUISA'S ONLY TO ! EXT5T ?AT IT REM9D$ ME ( ! EV5TS ) :I* ,LUISA HAD FAMILI>IZ$ ME4 ,! LANGUAGE WAS DIFF]5T1 BUT ! EV5T WAS ! SAME3 ,I RECOGNIZ$ IT1 D[N TO DETAILS4 ,:AT ,I FAIL$ TO RECOGNIZE WAS ?AT ! FRAGM5TS ,MANUEL N>RAT$ DID NOT FIT 9TO ,LUISA'S PICTURE AT ALL4 ,I FAIL$ TO SEE ?AT ! LANGUAGE WAS DIFF]5T BECAUSE IT DESCRIB$ A DIFF]5T PICTURE4 ,LUISA'S DESCRIPTIONS ( ! REVOLUTION1 ! RESI/ANCE1 ! UPRIS+ 9 :I* Y\ TOOK P>T1 HAVE ONE ?+ 9 COMMON3 !Y >E DESCRIPTIONS ( IMAG9>Y EV5TS4 ,! V]Y LANGUAGE %E US$ FALSIFI$ ! REAL EV5TS & REPLAC$ !M ) /ORIES ?AT W]E PR(\ND1 COMPLETE & $IFY+ ONLY BECAUSE !Y W]E MY?S4 ,I CAN SEE ?IS N[ BECAUSE Y\R LETT] APPLI$ ! SAME MAGIC TO AN EXP]I5CE ,I ACTUALLY LIV$1 AN EXP]I5CE ,I /ILL REMEMB]4 ,Y\ S5T ME A DI/ORT$ MIRROR-IMAGE ( MYSELF1 SIMIL> 5\< TO BE RECOGNIZABLE1 5GAG$ 9 ACTIVITY ?AT NEV] TOOK PLACE4 ,:5 ,I SEE :AT Y\ & ,LUISA DID TO MY EXP]I5CE ,I BEG9 TO UND]/& :AT %E HAS DONE TO H] [N4 ,%E EXP]I5C$ ONE ( ! GREAT MOM5TS ( HI/ORY & %E SUPPRESS$ EV]Y TRACE ( IT FROM H] MEMORY4 ,%E SAW ! REPRESS$1 ! MAIM$ & ! /UNT$ TRANS=M !MSELVES 9TO HUMAN BE+S :O GLI/5$ ) POT5TIALITIES1 & %E LOOK$ AWAY SO AS NOT TO BE BL9D$4 ,ON ! B>RICADES %E TOOK P>T 9 A PROJECT ?AT WAS COMPLETELY H] [N1 A PROJECT BORN ) ! GR\P 5GAG$ 9 IT1 A PROJECT ?AT W\LD MAKE ALL PROJECTS POSSIBLE4 ,= A MOM5T ! IMAG9ATIONS ( FREE 9DIVIDUALS ROAM$ ?R\< A UNIV]SE ( 9F9ITE POSSIBILITIES1 = A MOM5T ! POSSIBILITY ( G5U9ELY HUMAN ACTIVITY WAS 9 EV]YONE'S REA*4 ,?IS WAS ! PEAK ( ! REVOLUTION2 EV]Y?+ ?AT FOLL[$ WAS A /EEP DESC5T4 ,YET IT IS ?IS MOM5T ?AT'S MISS+ FROM ,LUISA'S ACC\NT4 ,EI!R %E WAS LOOK+ AWAY OR %E SUPPRESS$ IT4 ,9/EAD1 %E GLORIFIES ! SEQU5CE ( EV5TS ?AT DE/ROY$ ! POSSIBILITIES1 /UNT$ ! IMAG9ATIONS & MAIM$ ! LIVES ( ! 9DIVIDUALS :O HAD SO BRIEFLY BE5 FREE4 ,LUISA'S 0REVOLUTION0 IS /ILL MOV+ UPW>D :51 ON ! DAY AFT] ! VICTORY1 0\R MILITANTS0 MET ) \/$ & P[]LESS POLITICIANS ( ! RU9$ /ATE APP>ATUS & CON/ITUT$ !MSELVES 9TO A 0PEOPLE'S COMMITTEE02 IT IS /ILL MOV+ UPW>D :51 9/EAD ( LAUN*+ \R [N PROJECTS1 WE RETURN TO 0\R [N0 FACTORIES1 BUSSES & TRAMS1 :5 0\R [N'0 MILITANTS REPLACE ! =EM51 MANAG]S & DIRECTORS2 IT IS /ILL MOV+ UPW>D :5 WE PRODUCE 0\R [N0 WEAPONS 9 0\R [N0 >MAM5TS PLANTS4 ,IT BEG9S TO MOVE D[NW>D ONLY :5 \TSIDE ELEM5TS US+ =EIGN =CE BETRAY 0\R MILITANTS0 ON ! 0PEOPLE'S COMMITTEE0 & TRANS=M ! COMMITTEE 9TO A POLICE2 :5 !SE ELEM5TS =CE 0\R MILITANTS0 TO CONV9CE PEASANTS TO GIVE !IR L&S BACK TO =M] L&LORDS & TO CONV9CE WORK]S TO ACCEPT A /ATE-APPO9T$ MANAG] OR EV5 ! =M] [N] AS !IR BOSS2 IT BEG9S TO MOVE D[NW>D ONLY :5 ! NEW 0PEOPLE'S >MY0 & ! REVITALIZ$ 0PEOPLE'S POLICE0 BEG9 TO >RE/ WORK]S :O RESI/ ! REIMPOS$ BOSS & PEASANTS :O RESI/ ! REIMPOS$ L&LORD1 :5 WORK]S BEG9 TO BE KILL$ BY 0!IR [N0 BULLETS FIR$ FROM RIFLES PRODUC$ 9 0!IR [N0 PLANTS1 :5 ! >MY & POLICE P>ADE ?R\< ! /REETS ) TRUCKS & TANKS ( A TYPE NEV] BE=E PRODUC$ 9 0! WORK]S' [N0 >MAM5TS PLANTS4 ,WE W]E OV]:ELM$ BY EXT]NAL =CES1 BY 0/ATI/S0 & BY ! 0FIF? COLUMN40 ,AT NO PO9T WAS !RE A TRACE ( ROT AT \R [N CORE4 ,MAYBE A FEW1 V]Y FEW1 ( \R MILITANTS MADE SOME MI/AKES1 BUT !Y W]E M9OR & 9SIGNIFICANT1 & EV]YONE MAKES MI/AKES4 

,I BELIEV$ :AT ,LUISA TOLD ME4 ,I HAD TO4 ,%E HAD BE5 !RE & ,I HADN'T4 ,BUT :5 %E USES ! SAME LANGUAGE & IMAG]Y TO DESCRIBE ! RESI/ANCE :I* ,I DID TAKE P>T 91 AS WELL AS ! C\P :I* CUT AWAY HALF MY LIFE1 ,I REALIZE %E HAS DONE SOME?+ DRA/IC TO REALITY3 %E HAS CUT IT \T ( H] MEMORY4 

,BUT :AT HAPP5$ TO Y\1 ,SOPHIA8 ,:AT HAVE Y\ DONE TO Y\R MEMORY8 ,H[ CAN Y\ REF] TO ! RESI/ANCE BY M5TION+1 9 ONE & ! SAME S5T5CE1 ! 0?\S&S ( WORK+ PEOPLE FI<T+ & DY+ TO FREE !IR CITY0 & ! 0APPROA* ( ! LIB]ATION >MIES08 ,IF WE F\<T TO FREE ! CITY1 !N WE LO/2 ! 0LIB]ATION >MY0 DE/ROY$ ! CITY'S FRE$OM4 ,BUT IF WE F\<T TO FREE ! CITY1 :Y DID WE -- ?\S&S ( US 9 ! /REETS1 AS Y\ SAY -- *E] & DANCE :5 ! TANKS & SOLDI]S ( ! 0LIB]ATION >MY0 M>*$ 9TO ! ALREADY LIB]AT$ CITY8 ,IF WE F\<T TO LIB]ATE ! CITY1 :Y DIDN'T WE TURN \R GUNS ON ! NEW OCCUPI]S8 ,:Y DIDN'T WE %OOT ! COMM&]S1 FRAT]NIZE ) ! SOLDI]S & BEG9 BUILD+ \R FREE CITY8 ,IT'S ! SAME1 FAMILI> & DI/ORT$ PICTURE4 ,WE W]E PURE2 WE F\<T = FRE$OM4 ,!Y W]E DESPOTIC2 !Y F\<T TO 5?RALL$ US4 ,?IS PICTURE IS FALSE4 ,I WAS ONE ( ?OSE ?\S&S4 ,I %OT TO AV5GE & TO KILL4 ,SO DID ! PEOPLE ALONGSIDE ME ON ! B>RICADES4 ,I LE>N$ ?AT ,I HAD HELP$ TO 0FREE ! CITY0 ONLY AFT] ,I MET ,LUISA4 ,& !N ,I 0REMEMB]$0 HAV+ DONE ?AT4 ,BUT IT'S NOT TRUE4 ,I DIDN'T = A MOM5T BELIEVE ?AT ,I & ! PEOPLE ) :OM ,I BUILT B>RICADES W]E GO+ TO CREATE A NEW SOCIAL ACTIVITY1 9V5T NEW MODES ( TRANSPORTATION1 DREAM UP NEW WAYS TO RELATE TO EA* O!R1 TO \R ACTIVITY1 TO \R 5VIRONM5T4 ,I KNEW ?AT GANG/]S1 COPS & SOLDI]S HAD ALWAYS GOV]N$ 9 ! PA/ & ,I DIDN'T ?9K ANY?+ ,I DID W\LD KEEP !M FROM GOV]N+ 9 ! FUTURE4 ,I DIDN'T RELATE ANY ( ?AT TO MY ACTIVITY ON ! B>RICADES4 ,:ILE ,I %OT & :ILE HUNDR$S LIKE ME W]E KILL$1 WE CLE>$ ! /REETS = ! 0VICTORI\S LIB]ATION >MY40 ,I DIDN'T HELP CLE> !IR PA? 9T5TIONALLY2 ,I W\LDN'T EV] HAVE RISK$ MY LIFE TO DO ?AT4 ,YET AMONG ! ?\S&S Y\ SAY W]E 0FREE+ !IR CITY10 !RE W]E SOME :O DID ACTUALLY RISK !IR LIVES 9 ORD] TO CLE> ! PA? = ! NEW OCCUPI]S4 ,P]HAPS !Y ?\<T !Y'D BE PRAIS$ & REW>D$ BY ! NEW MA/]S4 ,P]HAPS !Y W]E 9 FACT REW>D$4 ,I HAD MET SOME ( !M 9 ! RESI/ANCE ORGANIZATION4 ,I SUSPECT !Y C\LDN'T HAVE F\<T H>D & C\LDN'T HAVE TAK5 GREAT RISKS S9CE ! DEAD CAN'T 5JOY !IR REW>DS4 ,BUT MAYBE ,I'M WRONG4 ,MAYBE LIKE ! NOBLE/ ( SLAVES !Y RISK$ EV]Y?+1 HOP+ ?AT IF !Y DI$ ! NEW MA/]S W\LD AT LEA/ DECORATE !IR GRAVES4 

,Y\ REF] TO :AT HAPP5$ ?REE YE>S LAT] AS ! MO/ SIGNIFICANT EXP]I5CE 9 Y\R LIFE4 0,NO \TSIDE =CE DEF9$ \R PROJECT OR MADE \R DECISIONS40 ,Y\'VE RETA9$ ?IS PICTURE = AS LONG AS ,I RETA9$ MY PICTURE ( A ,LUISA :O REJECT$ WAGE LABOR1 ! FAMILY1 ! /ATE1 A ,LUISA :O REJECT$ ALL ILLUSIONS4 ,YET SURELY SOME:]E 9 Y\R CONSCI\SNESS FRAGM5TS ( ANO!R EXP]I5CE MU/ SURVIVE4 ,AN 0\TSIDE =CE0 DID 9 FACT DEF9E Y\R PROJECT & MAKE Y\R DECISIONS4 ,IT WAS NONE O!R ?AN ! POLITICIANS :O ?REE YE>S E>LI] HAD HELP$ CLE> AWAY ONE >MY 9 ORD] TO MAKE ROOM = ANO!R4 ,Y\ & ,I M]ELY RECIT$ ! L9ES ( A SCRIPT1 MOV$ UND] ! CONTROL ( A PUPPETE]4 ,EV5 ! EMOTIONS WE EXPRESS$ W]E PR$ESIGN$4 ,Y\ APP>5TLY LIK$ Y\R CO/UME & MAKE-UP SO WELL ?AT Y\'VE CONT9U$ TO WE> !M AFT] ! PLAY 5D$4 ,! PLAY WAS A %[ ( ! POLITICIANS' P[] 0AMONG ! WORK]S02 ! PLOT DEALT ) ! 0WORK]S' /RUGGLE0 AGA9/ ! POLITICIANS' 5EMIES2 ! CLIMAX CAME :5 ! WORK]S \/$ ,ZAGAD FROM ! FACTORY4 ,AT ?AT PO9T1 BEH9D ! SC5ES1 POLITICIANS \/$ ,ZAGAD'S FRI5DS FROM GOV]NM5T (FICES2 ANYONE UNFRI5DLY TO ! POLITICIANS WAS AUTOMATICALLY ,ZAGAD'S FRI5D4 ,! UNION APP>ATUS ACT$ AS PUPPETE]4 ,UNION POLITICIANS 9ITIAT$ ! /RIKES1 PREP>$ ! SPONTANE\S DEMON/RATIONS & LECTUR$ AB\T ! SOLID>ITY1 P[] & DET]M9ATION ( ! WORK+ CLASS4 ,IT WAS \R ROLE TO CONFIRM \R SOLID>ITY BY RECIT+ \R SCRIPTS1 TO DEMON/RATE \R P[] BY GE/UR+ & TO %[ \R DET]M9ATION BY MAK+ FACES4 ,! PLAY WAS $UCATIONAL3 ITS MA9 PURPOSE WAS TO 9/RUCT ! AUDI5CE AB\T !IR L9ES1 GE/URES & FEEL+S4 ,! FEEL+ Y\ /ILL EXPRESS TODAY3 ! ILLUSION ( AUTONOMY1 ! ILLUSION ?AT WE W]E DEF9+ \R [N PROJECTS & MAK+ \R [N DECISIONS1 WAS PRECISELY ! ILLUSION ! PLAY WAS DESIGN$ TO COMMUNICATE4 ,ANIMAT$ BY ! ILLUSION ( AUTONOMY WE DIDN'T ONLY P]=M \R ROLES ) CONTAGI\S 5?USIASM2 WE ALSO CONV9C$ AUDI5CE AFT] AUDI5CE ?AT WE G5U9ELY CONSID]$ ! 5EMIES ( ! POLITICIANS TO BE \R [N 5EMIES4 

,( C\RSE ,I WAS TAK5 9 AS MU* AS Y\ W]E4 ,! C>NIVAL SPIRIT TOOK HOLD ( EV]YONE4 ,WE W]E ALL ON /AGE1 MO/ ( US = ! FIR/ TIME 9 \R LIVES4 ,SOMETIMES AS MANY AS FIVE PUPPET %[S PLAY$ = EA* O!R4 ,IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO TELL :O WASN'T ON /AGE4 ,LIKE EV]YONE ELSE1 ,I TOOK MY ROLE S]I\SLY2 ,I WANT$ TO P]=M WELL4 ,:5 ,I C>RI$ A PLAC>D ?AT SAID1 0,! FACTORIES TO ! WORK]S60 ,I ACT$ AS IF ,I MEANT :AT IT SAID4 ,I KNEW ?AT POLITICIANS HAD >RANG$ ! DEMON/RATION1 ?AT ! UNION HAD PREP>$ IT4 ,DIDN'T ,I KN[1 !N1 ?AT MY SLOGAN C\LD ONLY MEAN1 0,I SUPPORT ! NEW BOSS08 ,MAYBE ,I KNEW4 ,BUT ,I DIDN'T WI% IT4 ,MAYBE ,I ?\<T ! PLAC>DS !MSELVES W\LD GIVE RISE TO ! SITUATION !Y DESCRIB$4 ,I DID FEEL LIKE AN AG5T1 AN 9/RUM5T1 :5 WE M>*$ TO ,ZAGAD'S (FICE LIKE A MILITIA ( F\R4 ,BUT ,I ?\<T ,I WAS AN 9/RUM5T ( 0! WORK+ CLASS10 NOT AN 9/RUM5T ( ! UNION & ! /ATE4 ,YET ! DETAIL ,SAB9A REMEMB]$ %\LD HAVE PUT ME ON MY GU>D4 ,TO ,CLAUDE WE W]5'T M]E WORK]S1 F\R AMONG MANY2 WE W]E 0REPRES5TATIVES ( ! PLANT C\NCIL10 AG5TS ( AN APP>ATUS4 

,I WASN'T ONLY TAK5 92 ,I WAS TAK5 OV]4 ,! C>NIVAL ATMOSPH]E WAS SO CONTAGI\S ?AT IT 9FECT$ MY DEEPE/ EMOTIONS4 ,AN EXP]I5CE ,I REMEMB] VIVIDLY HAD TO DO ) ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS4 ,I H>DLY KNEW HIM2 ! MO/ WE EV] SAID TO EA* O!R WAS 0GOOD EV5+40 ,%ORTLY BE=E WE W]E >RE/$1 :5 SLOGANS AB\T 0,FACTORIES TO WORK]S0 HAD BE5 REPLAC$ BY SLOGANS AB\T 0! 5EMY 9 \R MID/10 ,CLAUDE & ,ADRIAN APPROA*$ ME1 TO 0TALK AB\T ,ALB]TS40 ,!Y ASK$ :]E ,ALB]TS HAD GONE BE=E ! 5D ( ! W> & :Y HE HADN'T F\<T 9 ! RESI/ANCE4 ,!Y ASK$ :I* SIDE HE HAD F\<T ON4 ,I WAS ANGRY4 ,I TOLD !M TO ASK ,LUISA1 :O LIV$ ) ,ALB]TS1 OR ,TITUS ,ZABRAN1 :O HAD F\<T ) HIM SEV]AL YE>S E>LI]4 ,I TOLD !M ,I DIDN'T KN[ ANY?+ AB\T ,ALB]TS4 ,I HAD NEV] CONSID]$ IT ANY ( MY BUS9ESS TO ASK :]E HE HAD BE5 OR :AT HE HAD DONE2 ,I ONLY KNEW ?AT :5 HE RETURN$ HE WAS EMPLOY$ AS A HI<LY QUALIFI$ SPECIALI/4 ,ADRIAN SAID !Y DIDN'T WANT TO CONFRONT ,TITUS ,ZABRAN 0PREMATURELY10 BE=E !Y HAD DET]M9$ 0ALL ! FACTS40 ,AS = ,LUISA3 !Y W]E GO+ TO SPEAK TO H] :5 ! 0CASE0 WAS COMPLETE2 !Y W]E GO+ TO CONFRONT H] ) AN ULTIMATUM3 EI!R D5\NCE ,ALB]TS OR LEAVE ! PLANT4 ,I YELL$ AT !M FURI\SLY4 ,I SAID !Y HAD GONE CRAZY4 ,I ASK$ IF !Y W]E 9 ! PAY ( ! POLICE4 ,BUT !IR P]=MANCE1 LIKE ALL ! O!R P]=MANCES1 SUCCE$$4 ,IT COMMUNICAT$ ITS MESSAGE4 ,ON ?AT DAY MY DISLIKE = ,ALB]TS TURN$ TO SUSPICION4 ,YES1 HE BECAME SUSPICI\S TO ME4 ,HE WAS /A9$ EXACTLY ! SAME WAY MY P>5TS HAD BE5 /A9$4 ,Y\ TELL ME Y\R PROJECTS & DECISIONS W]E Y\R [N4 ,EV5 MY FEEL+S W]5'T MY [N4 ,MY SUSPICION ( ,ALB]TS WAS NO MORE MY [N ?AN ANY ( ! RE/ ( ?AT 0SIGNIFICANT EXP]I5CE40 ,I REPRODUC$ 9SIDE MYSELF ! 0FEEL+S0 ( ! /ATE4 

,! SIGNIFICANCE ( MY SUSPICION ( ,ALB]TS BECAME CLE> TO ME DUR+ MY FIR/ YE> 9 PRISON4 ,I MET C\NTLESS PRISON]S :OSE SOLE CRIME HAD BE5 ! 0ACT0 ( BECOM+ SUSPICI\S TO O!RS4 ,SOMETIMES1A POLITICIAN />T$ A RUMOR AB\T SOMEONE HE DISLIK$3 SOMETIMES ! RUMOR WAS />T$ BY A WORK] :O ?\<T HE'D GET ANO!R'S JOB4 ,! VICTIM WAS ALWAYS HELPLESS2 EV]Y?+ HE SAID & DID ONLY MADE ! /A9 MORE VISIBLE4 ,SOON EV]YONE SAW IT1 EV]YONE WAS READY TO TURN HIM 94 ,HIS FELL[ WORK]S1 HIS COMRADES1 HIS NEI<BORS ALL BECAME POLICE AG5TS1 PA!TICALLY PO9T+ !IR F+]S LIKE MY NEI<BOR ,N9OVO1 %\T+10,Y\'RE ALL TR\BLEMAK]S2 !Y %\LD NEV] HAVE LET Y\ \T40 

,Y\R LETT] GOES ON TO DESCRIBE ! 9DIVIDUALS :O TOOK P>T 9 ?IS 0SIGNIFICANT EXP]I5CE02 Y\ REF] TO !M AS 0\R GR\P40 ,! ONLY TRAITS Y\R PORTRAITS %>E ) ! 9DIVIDUALS ,I REMEMB] >E !IR NAMES4 ,S9CE Y\'VE DISABUS$ ME ( MY ILLUSORY PORTRAIT ( ,LUISA1 ,I %\LD 9 FAIRNESS TRY TO DO AS MU* = Y\4 ,I HAD KN[N MO/ ( ?OSE 9DIVIDUALS = AT LEA/ ?REE YE>S4 ,Y\ W]E ) !M = TWO WEEKS1 DUR+ A CRISIS4 ,I REALIZE ?AT PEOPLE >E (T5 TRANS=M$ BY CRISES3 !Y ACQUIRE TRAITS !Y HAD NEV] DISPLAY$ 9 NORMAL TIMES1 !Y UND]GO PR(\ND *ANGES4 ,I REALIZE ?AT Y\ MI<T HAVE BE5 SEE+ !SE 9DIVIDUALS DUR+ ! MOM5T :5 !Y HAD CEAS$ TO BE :AT !Y HAD BE54 ,BUT ,I VIVIDLY REMEMB] ?AT ?IS IS NOT ! CASE4 ,EI!R BECAUSE ! CRISIS WASN'T REAL1 OR BECAUSE !SE 9DIVIDUALS W]5'T ABLE TO %$ !IR =M] P]SONALITIES1 !Y DID NOT UND]GO PR(\ND *ANGES2 EA* ( !M REMA9$ :AT %E OR HE HAD BE5 BE=E4 

,Y\ REMEMB] ! SPE$ ( ,V]A ,NEIS'S WIT4 ,SO DO ,I4 ,I WAS GRATEFUL TO H] QUICK WIT EV]Y DAY ,I SP5T AT ! PLANT4 ,EV]YONE WAS4 ,%E MADE ! R\T9E BE>ABLE4 ,%E WAS LIKE A RADIO ?AT WAS TURN$ ON :5 WE />T$ TO WORK & C\LDN'T BE TURN$ (F UNTIL WE W]E ?R\<4 ,9 ANY O!R CIRCUM/ANCES H] QUICK WIT W\LD HAVE BE5 UNBE>ABLE4 ,9 ?IS P>TICUL> CIRCUM/ANCE IT REPRES5T$ A GREAT DEAL4 ,%E 5T]TA9$ US ) GOSSIP AB\T ! RUL+ CLASS4 ,OCCASIONALLY %E TAU<T US SOME?+ AB\T ! MA*9]Y BEH9D ! FACADES4 ,%E WAS A MISSION>Y2 APP>5TLY %E REALLY BELIEV$ ?AT AS SOON AS ALL ( US GRASP$ ! MESSAGE ( H] /ORIES1 ! WORLD W\LD *ANGE4 ,?IS WASN'T :AT WE LIK$ AB\T H]4 ,:AT MADE H] A G5U9E H]O9E 9 ! PLANT WAS ?AT ) H] CONT9UAL TIRADES %E SABOTAG$ PRODUCTION FROM ! MOM5T WORK BEGAN4 ,%E CONSID]$ H] CRUSADES MORE IMPORTANT ?AN ! WORK %E HAD BE5 HIR$ TO DO1 & %E NEV] ALL[$ ! WORK TO 9T]F]E ) H] LECTURES4 ,! CON/ANT >GUM5TS 9 :I* %E 5GAG$ ONE OR ANO!R ( US MU/ HAVE CUT \R \TPUT AT LEA/ BY HALF4 ,EV]YONE EXPECT$ H] TO BE FIR$4 ,! L5I5CY ( ! =EMAN WAS ONE ( ! ?+S WE HAD WON FROM ! RESI/ANCE4 ,:5 ! G5]AL /RIKE BEGAN %E REMA9$ :AT %E HAD BE52 9 Y\R WORDS3 0%E C\LDN'T LET A /RANG] WALK BY )\T TRY+ TO CONV]T HIM40 ,BUT AT ?AT PO9T H] QUICK WIT NO LONG] REPRES5T$ AN ESCAPE FROM ! BOR+ R\T9E2 IT WAS NO LONG] UN9T5D$ SABOTAGE4 ,AT ?AT PO9T %E WAS ONLY A MISSION>Y PREA*+ SALVATION ?R\< BELIEF 9 HALF A DOZ5 AB/RACTIONS & A M\ND ( GOSSIP1 CONV]T+ PRES5T-DAY ,ROMANS TO A NEW ,*RI/IANITY4 

,Y\ SAY 0!RE'S NOT EV5 A QUE/ION AB\T ANY ( ! RE/40 ,YET ALL Y\ SAY AB\T ,ADRIAN IS 0,V]A & ,ADRIAN40 ,?AT MU* IS QUITE ACCURATE4 ,BE=E Y\ MET HIM1 IT HAD BE5 0,TITUS & ,ADRIAN10 :5 ! /RIKE BEGAN IT WAS 0,V]A & ,ADRIAN10 & BE=E ! /RIKE 5D$1 0,CLAUDE & ,ADRIAN40 ,?AT'S ALL ?AT CAN BE SAID AB\T HIM4 ,HE WAS LIKE A P9 DRAWN TO ! MO/ P[]FUL MAGNET1 LIKE D\< %AP$ BY ! NE>E/ BAK]1 A COG :O C\LD FIT 9TO ANY APP>ATUS4 ,:5 ! UNIONS LAUN*$ ! 0CAMPAIGN = A WORK]S' SOCIETY10 ,ADRIAN BECAME ,V]A'S ONLY CONV]T4 ,HE MEMORIZ$ TWO OR ?REE AB/RACTIONS & SET UP A MISSION ( HIS [N3 A SL[1 HUMORLESS V]SION ( ! SAME !ME4 ,:5 ! TIME CAME TO 0F]RET \T ! 5EMY 9 \R MID/10 HE BECAME ,CLAUDE'S DISCIPLE1 PA!TICALLY TRY+ TO SIMULATE :AT Y\ CALL ,CLAUDE'S 0DEVOTION10 HIS CONTEMPT = HIS FELL[ WORK]S4 

,Y\R PORTRAIT ( ,JASNA ,ZBRKOVA WAS LESS FAVORABLE4 ,%E WAS ! EXACT OPPOSITE ( ,CLAUDE4 ,%E WAS BY F> ! W>ME/1 ! MO/ G5]\S P]SON 9 ! GR\P4 ,%E WAS ONE ( ?OSE R>E HUMAN BE+S :O >E ABLE TO FEEL ANO!R P]SON'S PA9S & 5JOY ANO!R'S HOPES4 ,IT'S TRUE ?AT H] EMPA?Y ) O!RS W5T TO ! PO9T ( FEEL+ SORRY = ! 0POOR [N]0 :O HAD SO MANY PROBLEMS RUNN+ SU* A COMPLEX PLANT4 ,IT'S TRUE ?AT H] G5]OSITY WAS BL9D TO POLITICAL & ECONOMIC REALITIES4 ,BUT 9 A CONTEXT :]E ,CLAUDE WAS READY TO %OOT HIS FELL[ WORK]S1 :]E ,ADRIAN %IFT$ OV]NI<T FROM UNIV]SAL SOLID>ITY TO UNIV]SAL SUSPICION1 IT WAS PRECISELY ?IS 0BL9D0 G5]OSITY ?AT WAS MISS+4 

,I DON'T HAVE A CLE> MEMORY ( ,M>C ,GLAVNI4 ,HE HAD BE5 HIR$ A FEW WEEKS1 AT MO/ A C\PLE ( MON?S1 BE=E ! /RIKE BEGAN4 ,I REMEMB] /AY+ AWAY FROM HIM4 ,HE WAS A /UD5T1 & WAS CLE>LY ON HIS WAY ?R\< ! PLANT TO SOME?+ 0HI<]40 ,HE MAY HAVE BE5 RES\RCEFUL1 AS Y\ SAY4 ,I ONLY REMEMB] ?AT HE ?\<T HIMSELF RES\RCEFUL4 

,WE KN[ AB\T ,LUISA4 ,SO ?IS LEAVES ONLY ,JAN & ,TITUS4 ,Y\ DIDN'T LIKE ,TITUS4 ,& ,JAN WAS 0HO!AD$40 ,?IS *>ACT]IZATION ( ,JAN APPE>S E>LY 9 Y\R LETT]4 ,I HAD A H>D TIME READ+ PA/ IT4 ,?AT WAS H[ HIS EXECUTION]S DESCRIB$ HIM4 

,TITUS ,ZABRAN WAS A 0REALI/40 ,AT ! TIME ,I ?\<T HIS 0REALISM0 5ABL$ HIM TO SEE ?R\< ! MASQU]ADE4 ,HE SEEM$ TO BE AS AW>E AS ,JAN ?AT ! REMOVAL ( ,ZAGAD WAS AT MO/ A BEG9N+1 ?AT \R VICTORI\S APPROPRIATION ( ! EXI/+ PROJECT WAS NO VICTORY AT ALL4 ,UNLIKE ,JAN1 :O WAS IMPATI5T1 ,TITUS SEEM$ TO HAVE A LONG-RANGE /RATEGY2 HE SEEM$ 0REALI/IC0 BECAUSE1 HE CONSID]$ ! PRES5T1 MOVE TO BE A NECESS>Y /EP OR 0/AGE0 T[>D ! NEXT4 ,YET WAS ,TITUS ANY MORE ( A 0REALI/0 ?AN ,JAN WAS A 0HO!AD0 ,DID ,TITUS KN[ ?AT ?IS /EP1 ?IS 0/AGE10 WAS GO+ TO ELIM9ATE ! POSSIBILITY ( TAK+ ANO!R /EP8 

,BY ! WAY1 Y\'RE ALSO WRONG AB\T ! REASONS = \R >RE/4 ,Y\R & ,LUISA'S CONNECTION TO ,ALB]TS HAD NO?+ TO DO ) IT1 NO MATT] H[ SUSPICI\S ,ALB]TS BECAME TO ,CLAUDE4 ,?ANKS TO IMAG9ATIONS LIKE Y\RS & M9E1 ,LUISA'S & ,V]A'S1 WE ALL TOOK \R ROLES S]I\SLY4 ,& WE 9FECT$ EV]YONE ELSE1 ) \R 5?USIASM4 ,:5 ! /RIKES & DEMON/RATIONS 5D$1 :5 MO/ WORK]S REALIZ$ ! C>NIVAL WAS OV] & RETURN$ TO WORK1 \R GR\P CONT9U$ TO P]=M ITS %[4 ,WE W]E /ILL PR9T+ PO/]S1 GLU+ 0,FACTORIES TO ,WORK]S0 ON REC5TLY CLEAN$ WALLS1 %\T+ AB\T ! WORK]S' COMMONWEAL?4 ,AT ?AT PO9T WE BECAME DANG]\S1 BECAUSE AT ?AT PO9T PEOPLE LIKE US ELSE:]E SAW ?AT AT LEA/ SOME HAD MEANT :AT !Y SAID & ?AT ! P]=MANCE ( A PLAY HAD NOT BE5 ! ONLY POSSIBILITY4 ,IF O!RS DIDN'T REALIZE ?IS1 AT LEA/ ! AU?ORITIES ?\<T !Y DID4 ,ONLY AT ?AT PO9T DID WE BEG9 TO 0ACT ON \R [N10 BUT WE W]5'T AW>E ( ?IS4 ,WE W]E SO C>RI$ AWAY BY \R P]=MANCE ?AT WE FAIL$ TO SEE ?AT ! CURTA9 HAD FALL5 & ! C>NIVAL HAD 5D$4 ,9/EAD ( ACT+ ON \R [N WE CONT9U$ RECIT+ ! L9ES ( ! SCRIPT & P]=M+ ! REHE>S$ MOTIONS EV5 ?\< ! PROMPT] & PLAY DIRECTOR HAD LEFT ! !AT]4 ,WE W]E >RE/$ BECAUSE WE UN9T5TIONALLY TRANSPORT$ \R P]=MANCE \T ( ! !AT] 9TO ! /REET1 BECAUSE WE CONT9U$ TO PLAY :5 IT WAS TIME TO RETURN TO WORK4 ,BECAUSE ( MY FAILURE TO TURN (F MY ACT ,I SP5T F\R YE>S MOV+ FROM ONE DUNGEON TO ANO!R4 ,MY OV]5?USIA/IC P]=MANCE 9 A PUPPET %[ WAS 9T]PRET$ BY ! ALL-KN[+ PROLET>IAN 9QUISITORS AS DANG]\S1 ANTI-SOCIAL ACTIVITY1 AS SABOTAGE ( SOCIAL MEANS ( PRODUCTION & !RE=E AS A ?REAT TO ! PRES5T & FUTURE WELL-BE+ ( ! WORK+ CLASS4 

,F\R YE>S LAT] ,I WAS GIV5 AN OPPORTUNITY TO 5JOY ! NEW SOCIETY TO :I* \R SIGNIFICANT EXP]I5CE HAD L$4 ,MU* ( ! OLD SOCIETY HAD SURVIV$ 9 ! NEW4 ,AMONG O!R ?+S1 M>RIAGE4 ,:Y DO Y\ S+LE \T M>RIAGE8 ,I REMEMB] ! DISCUSSIONS AT Y\R H\SE4 ,I ALSO REMEMB] ?AT NOT ONLY M>RIAGE BUT ALSO WAGE LABOR1 POLICE1 PRISONS1 GOV]NM5TS & S*OOLS W]E GO+ TO BE ABS5T FROM ! NEW SOCIETY4 ,!Y ALL SURVIV$1 9TACT1 EV5 RE9=C$4 ,OR DID Y\ ?9K \R SIGNIFICANT EXP]I5CE HAD *ANG$ ALL ?IS1 ?AT M>RIAGE1 WAGE LABOR & PRISONS HAD BE5 ABOLI%$8 

,:AT ,I SAW :5 ,I WAS RELEAS$ RESEMBL$ ! PRISON ,I HAD LEFT MORE ?AN IT RESEMBL$ A FREE CITY4 ,!RE W]E 9MATES & GU>DS4 ,(FICIALS W]E 9 AUTOMOBILES1 WORK]S 9 BUSSES & TRAMS4 ,& EV]YONE WAS 09 UNI=M40 ,I SAW FUNCTION>IES1 POLICEM51 SOLDI]S1 WORK]S1 %OPP]S & /UD5TS4 ,I DIDN'T SEE PLA91 UNCATEGORIZ$1 UNUNI=M$ HUMAN-BE+S4 ,I S5S$ ?AT NONE ( ! PEOPLE ,I SAW MET AT H\SES LIKE Y\RS TO DISCUSS ! ABOLITION ( M>RIAGE & WAGE LABOR4 ,ALL SU* PEOPLE HAD BE5 >RE/$2 ALL SU* DISCUSSIONS TOOK PLACE 9 JAIL4 

,I HAD NO PLACE TO GO S9CE ,I HAD NO FAMILY & MY FRI5DS HAD ALL BE5 JAIL$4 ,YET ,I WAS 5?USIA/IC3 ! FIR/ T]M HADN'T BROK5 ME ! WAY ! SECOND WAS GO+ TO4 ,I WANT$ TO F9D WORK & !N CONT9UE TO FI<T1 TO EXPRESS :AT ,I HAD SE5 & LE>N$4 ,I WANT$ TO LE>N :AT WAS POSSIBLE 9 ! NEW SITUATION4 ,I VISIT$ ! C>TON PLANT4 ,EV]Y FACE WAS NEW4 ,EV]Y MEMB] ( ! GR\P Y\ & ,I HAD KN[N WAS GONE1 9CLUD+ ! L5I5T =EMAN4 ,?AT'S ALL ?AT WAS NEW4 ,! MA*9ES W]E ! SAME4 ,! WALLS W]E ! SAME2 !Y HADN'T EV5 BE5 PA9T$4 ,PEOPLE WORK$ 9 COMPLETE SIL5CE4 ,I WALK$ >\ND & WAT*$4 ,PEOPLE GLANC$ AT ME & TURN$ AWAY4 ,NO ONE ASK$ ME :O ,I WAS OR :AT ,I WANT$4 ,! SIL5CE & 9DIFF]5CE W]E NEW4 ,SOME?+ ELSE WAS NEW2 MAYBE IT WAS ONLY A PRODUCT ( ! 9DIFF]5CE4 ,EV]Y C>TON ,I SAW WAS POORLY PR9T$2 WE W\LD HAVE PUT !M ALL 9 ! /ACK ( SECONDS4 ,BUT N[ EV]Y /ACK 9 ! PLANT WAS A /ACK ( SECONDS4 ,!RE W]E NO LONG] ANY FIR/S4 ,! WORK]S W]E SIL5T & SEEM$ 9DIFF]5T1 BUT UND] ?OSE FRI<T5+ MASKS !Y W]E /ILL ALIVE4 

,AN OLD MAN WAS OP]AT+ 0MY0 PRESS1 AT A SNAIL'S PACE4 ,HE HAD TURN$ ! SPE$ D[N TO ! L[E/ NOT*4 ,! PRESS CREAK$ & SQUEAL$4 ,IT OBVI\SLY HADN'T BE5 GREAS$ = F\R YE>S4 ,I DIDN'T SEE A CAN ( GREASE 9 ! 5TIRE PLANT2 APP>5TLY ! PLANN]S DIDN'T SEE :Y GREASE %\LD BE ALLOCAT$ TO A C>TON PLANT4 ,! ABS5CE ( GREASE HAD CAUS$ ! MA9 CYL9D] BE>+ TO TURN TO AN ELLIPSE4 ,AS A RESULT !RE WAS NO WAY TO AVOID PR9T+ A D\BLE IMAGE AT EV]Y IMPRESSION4 ,! OLD MAN OBVI\SLY C\LDN'T BE HELD RESPONSIBLE = SABOTAGE4 ,HE WAS VISIBLY BE+ AS SL[ & C>EFUL AS HE C\LD BE4 ,HE WAS DO+ HIS V]Y BE/4 ,& :O NE$S P]FECTLY PR9T$ BOXES ANYWAY8 ,I WANT$ TO %AKE HIS H&1 TO CONGRATULATE HIM1 TO LAU< & %>E ! JOKE ) HIM4 ,9/EAD ,I ASK$ HIM IF IT WAS POSSIBLE TO APPLY = A JOB 9 ! PLANT4 ,HE TOLD ME TO SPEAK TO AN (FICIAL ON ! TRADE UNION C\NCIL4 ,?IS WAS ANO!R NOVELTY1 A SIGN ( ! WORK]S' VICTORY4 ,PO9T+ 9 ! DIRECTION ( ,ZAGAD'S =M] (FICE1 ,I ASK$ :]E ,I C\LD F9D !SE (FICIALS4 ,I HAD GUESS$ RI<T4 ,I MU/ HAVE BE5 !RE BE=E4 

,! TRADE UNION (FICIAL AT ,ZAGAD'S DESK WAS SLI<TLY *UBBI] ?AN ,ZAGAD4 ,& HE CALL$ ME 0COMRADE40 ,9 ALL O!R WAYS HE WAS V]Y SIMIL>4 ,HE ASK$ MY NAME4 ,HE TELEPHON$4 ,!N HE SAID1 V]Y POLITELY1 0,SORRY1 COMRADE4 ,! ECONOMIC SITUATION IS EXTREMELY CRITICAL4 ,WE CANNOT AF=D TO HIRE AN 9DIVIDUAL :O WAS F\ND GUILTY ( SABOTAGE40 

,BE=E LEAV+ ! PLANT1 ,I /OPP$ BY ! OLD MAN TO ASK HIM SOME QUE/IONS4 ,I WANT$ TO F9D \T TO :AT EXT5T ! SABOTAGE ,I SAW WAS ORGANIZ$1 :AT =MS ( COMMUNICATION ! WORK]S HAD SUCCE$$ 9 CREAT+4 ,BUT ! OLD MAN WAS N]V\S2 HE KEPT LOOK+ >\ND ) A FE> ,I HAD NEV] SE5 ON A WORK]'S FACE4 ,AS F> AS ,I C\LD SEE1 ! =EMAN WAS \T = ! DAY1 ! MANAG] MU/ HAVE HAD HIS (FICE ELSE:]E1 ! UNION (FICIAL WAS SMOK+ 9 HIS (FICE1 & EV]YONE ELSE WAS WORK+4 ,WAS ! OLD MAN ACTUALLY AFRAID ( BE+ WAT*$ & HE>D BY ! O!R WORK]S8 ,V]A C\LDN'T HAVE LA/$ = A DAY 9 ?IS PLANT4 

,I WAIT$ = HIM \TSIDE AS ,I'D WAIT$ = ,TITUS ,ZABRAN ALMO/ EI<T YE>S E>LI]4 ,HE WAS MORE TALKATIVE4 ,HE ASK$ IF ,I'D BE5 HIR$4 0,NO JAILBIRDS10 ,I SAID4 ,HE LOOK$ >\ND AS HE HAD 9SIDE2 ,I WAS AFRAID ,I'D PUT AN 5D TO \R CONV]SATION4 ,! LOOK ON HIS FACE WAS A LOOK ,I HAD SE5 BE=E4 ,NO ONE HAD EV] LOOK$ AT ME ?AT WAY 9 PRISON4 ,SO ?IS WAS :AT ,I HAD BE5 RELEAS$ 9TO6 ,I FELT 9T5SE RELIEF :5 ! OLD MAN SAID MANY ( HIS FRI5DS1 ! 0MORE POLITICAL0 ONES1 HAD ALSO BE5 JAIL$1 & MY GR[+ ANG] LEFT ME :5 HE SAID1 0,ONE DAY !SE WISEACRES >E GO+ TO REAP :AT !Y'RE S[+40 ,HE WAS AW>E ?AT HIS E>LI] LOOK HAD /UNG ME1 & HE BECAME MORE TALKATIVE1 ?\< BY NO MEANS COMRADELY4 ,! UNION1 HE TOLD ME1 DUPLICAT$ ! SUP]VISORY WORK ( ! MANAGEM5T1 & BO? W]E SUP]VIS$ BY ! POLICE4 ,! =EMAN WAS DIRECTLY RESPONSIBLE TO ! POLICE1 & ONE OR MORE WORK]S W]E POLICE AG5TS4 ,HE LAU<$ :5 ,I ASK$ AB\T 9=MAL ORGANIZATION 9 !SE CONDITIONS4 ,!RE HAD NEV] BE5 MORE DI/RU/ AMONG WORK]S4 0,9 ADDITION TO ACTUAL POLICE AG5TS10 HE TOLD ME1 0!RE >E WORK]S :O S]I\SLY BELIEVE ! FACTORIES >E !IRS & ?AT !RE=E ! WORK]S >E !IR [N BOSS4 ,!Y'RE FANATICS4 ,SU* PEOPLE DON'T REMA9 WORK]S V]Y LONG1 S9CE !IR CONVICTIONS LEAD TO QUICK PROMOTIONS4 ,BUT :ILE !Y'RE WORK]S1 !Y'RE F> WORSE ?AN ! UNION (FICIALS OR EV5 ! POLICE AG5TS4 ,!Y WORK H>D] ?AN ANYONE ELSE1 CRITICIZE O!R WORK]S1 HAVE WORK]S FIR$ = SABOTAGE & WRECK+4 ,! MANAG]S & UNION (FICIALS W\LD ( C\RSE LIKE TO HIRE ONLY WORK]S ( ?IS TYPE4 ,BUT ?IS IS IMPOSSIBLE4 ,! 5?USIASM DOESN'T LA/ LONG IF ! PROMOTIONS DON'T FOLL[4 ,& !Y CAN'T PROMOTE ! 5TIRE PRODUCTION CREW4 ,CONSEQU5TLY SU* WORK]S >E ALWAYS 9 A M9ORITY4 ,BUT ?IS M9ORITY EFFECTIVELY PREV5TS ANY K9D ( UNIFI$ ACTION4 ,EV5 GRUMBL+ CAN LEAD TO >RE/4 ,BUT DON'T ?9K !Y'VE TURN$ US 9TO OX510 ! OLD MAN CONCLUD$4 0,) ALL !IR ?REATS1 >RE/S & H>ASSM5TS1 ) ALL !IR TALK AB\T RECORD PRODUCTIVITY & RECORD \TPUT1 PRODUCTION /ILL HASN'T REA*$ ! PRE-W> LEVEL40 

,9 P>T+1 ! OLD MAN GAVE ME /RANGE ADVICE4 ,HE TOLD ME NOT TO BE DISAPPO9T$ AT NOT HAV+ BE5 HIR$4 ,FACTORY LIFE WASN'T = 0POLITICAL PEOPLE40 0,! GOOD LIFE IS 9 POLITICS3 ?AT'S ! PLACE = Y\ ACTIVI/S10 HE SAID4 ,HE HAD GRASP$ ! ESS5CE ( :AT Y\ CALL Y\R SIGNIFICANT EXP]I5CE4 ,I WAS GO+ TO RECEIVE ! SAME ADVICE AGA94 

,I LOOK$ = JOBS ELSE:]E4 ,SOMETIMES ,I SPOKE TO MANAG]S1 SOMETIMES TO UNION (FICIALS4 ,! \TCOME WAS ALWAYS ! SAME3 ! SAME PHONE CALL1 ! SAME 0,SORRY COMRADE1 F\R YE>S = SABOTAGE 4440 ,PRODUCTION HAD NOT REA*$ ! PRE-W> LEVEL1 BUT ! C5TRALIZATION & COMMUNICATION ( POLICE FILES HAD BROK5 ALL PREVI\S RECORDS & WAS CONT9UALLY CLIMB+ TO NEW HEI<TS4 ,! 5?USIASM ) :I* ,I HAD LEFT PRISON VANI%$4 ,I BECAME DESP]ATE4 ,I WAS RUNN+ \T ( MONEY4 ,I SLEPT 9 ALLEYS1 BUT ?IS WASN'T AS EASY AS IT HAD BE5 EI<T YE>S E>LI]4 ,I WAS OLD] & PEOPLE W]E F> MORE SUSPICI\S ( /RANG]S4 ,I WAS AFRAID SOMEONE :O SAW ME 9 ! /REET OR 9 AN ALLEY W\LD TURN ME 9 AS A VAGABOND4 ,I BEGAN TO UND]/& :Y ! POLICE HAD GR[N SO 5ORM\S4 ,I WAS TRAPP$4 ,I HAD ! *OICE ( />V+ TO DEA? OR KILL+ MYSELF4 ,I HAD YET ANO!R 0*OICE40 ,IT WAS !N ,I GRASP$ ?AT ! POLICE W]E NOT A DIFF]5T SPECIES4 ,AT LEA/ NOT ALL ( !M4 ,SOON] OR LAT] ,I W\LD BE >RE/$4 ,I W\LD BE UND] A RO(1 ,I W\LD SLEEP ON SOME K9D ( MATTRESS4 ,I MI<T EV5 TELL !M1 0,I GIVE UP4 ,:AT DO ,I HAVE TO DO TO SURVIVE80 ,!Y W\LD SMILE1 HAVE ME SIT D[N1 (F] ME A CIG>ETTE4 0,YES1 WE'VE BE5 EXPECT+ Y\1 COMRADE4 ,WE ?\<T Y\ W\LD RETURN MU* SOON]4 ,TIMES >E H>D4 ,IF Y\ WANT TO WORK1 WE CAN F9D A JOB = Y\40 

,?IS WAS MY MOOD :5 ,I DECID$ TO TRY TO F9D ,JAN ,S$LAK4 ,I /OPP$ WORRY+ AB\T ADD+ TO HIS PROBLEMS 9 CASE HE'D JU/ BE5 RELEAS$4 ,I NE$$ TO COMMUNICATE ) ANO!R HUMAN BE+4 ,I HAD LITTLE HOPE ( F9D+ HIM4 ,I DIDN'T KN[ H[ LONG HIS S5T5CE HAD BE5 OR IF HE'D BE5 RELEAS$4 ,I HAD BE5 TO HIS H\SE ONLY ONCE1 %ORTLY BE=E \R >RE/4 ,HE HAD TAK5 ,SAB9A & ME !RE ONE OR TWO DAYS AFT] ,ZAGAD WAS \/$ FROM1 ! C>TON PLANT4 ,!Y LIV$ 9 A POOR WORK+ CLASS QU>T] ON ! \TSKIRTS ( ! CITY4 ,!Y HAD BE5 DRIV5 FROM !IR F>M DUR+ ! W>1 & HAD MOV$ TO ! SECTION ?AT MO/ CLOSELY RESEMBL$ A VILLAGE4 ,LIKE !IR NEI<BORS1 MA9LY =M] PEASANTS1 !Y RAIS$ *ICK5S & GEESE & KEPT A L>GE G>D54 ,JAN'S FA!R HAD F\ND A JOB DRIV+ A BUS DUR+ ! W>1 & HAD CONT9U$ TO DRIVE ! SAME BUS ?R\< ! W>1 ! RESI/ANCE1 ! C\P & ! >RE/S4 ,AS ,I RODE ! TRAM ,I CONV9C$ MYSELF ! ,S$LAKS W\LD NO LONG] BE LIV+1 !RE4 ,SURELY ! OLD PEASANT HAD F\ND ANO!R JOB & MOV$ TO ! CITY4 ,SURELY ! ONE-TIME PEASANTS ( ?AT QU>T] HAD F9ALLY BECOME JU/ WORK]S & HAD LEFT !IR H\SES & Y>DS TO NEW >RIVALS FROM VILLAGES4 ,I F\ND ! QU>T]4 ,! H\SES HAD DET]IORAT$ & MANY HAD BE5 AB&ON$4 ,=M] OCCUPANTS HAD NOT BE5 REPLAC$ BY NEW >RIVALS4 

,BUT !RE W]E CURTA9S 9 ! W9D[S ( ,JAN'S H\SE4 ,IT WAS OBVI\SLY 9HABIT$4 ,I KNOCK$4 ,! OLD WOMAN :O OP5$ ! DOOR WORE ! SAME BLACK DRESS & ! SAME BLACK %AWL %E HAD WORN BE=E4 ,H] FACE WAS WR9KL$ ) AGE4 ,%E WAS />TL$1 AS IF %E W]E LOOK+ AT A <O/4 ,H] %OCK GAVE WAY TO AN EXPRESSION :I* HAS REMA9$ 5GRAV$ ON MY MEMORY4 ,I'M /ILL CONV9C$ IT WAS AN EXPRESSION ( REGRET4 ,) UNMI/AKABLE SADNESS1 %E SAID4 0,JAN'S FRI5D10 & MOTION$ = ME TO COME 94 ,%E SEEM$ TO KN[ ALREADY !N ! NATURE ( ! GIFTS ,I WAS BR++ 9TO ! ,S$LAK H\SEHOLD4 ,%E F$ ME SWEETS & C(FEE & LEFT ME ALONE 9 A L>GE ROOM4 

,!RE W]E SEV]AL *AIRS & A TABLE1 BUT O!RWISE ! ROOM WAS B>R5 EXCEPT = ?REE BOOKS /ACK$ 9 A CORN]3 MA!MATICS1 ZOOLOGY1 & A 0HI/ORY ( ! WORK+ CLASS MOVEM5T40 ,I LEAF$ ?R\< ! HI/ORY4 ,I LE>N$ ?AT ! WORK+ CLASS HAD BEGUN TO MOVE DUR+ ! V]Y MOM5T :5 ,I ?\<T IT HAD /OPP$ MOV+1 & ?AT ! MOVEM5TS ( ! CLASS CONSI/$ ( MOVES ( POLITICIANS4 ,I WAS RELIEV$ :5 ,I LEAF$ ?R\< ! ZOOLOGY BOOK & SAW ?AT ! NAMES ( ANIMALS HAD NOT BE5 *ANG$4 

,A Y\NG WOMAN BUR/ 9TO ! ROOM C>RY+ POTATOES 9 H] APRON4 ,%E DROPP$ !M AS SOON AS %E SAW ME4 ,I SURMIS$ !Y /ILL KEPT A G>D54 ,NO?+ HAD *ANG$ H]E4 ,PEOPLE W]E A LITTLE OLD]1 SOME ( ! NEI<BORS HAD MOV$ \T1 & ?AT WAS ALL4 ,! OLD MAN PROBABLY /ILL DROVE ! SAME BUS4 ,I ASSUM$ ! Y\NG WOMAN WAS ,JAN'S WIFE4 ,%E WAS CLE>LY A PEASANT 9 SPITE ( H] CITY DRESS4 ,%E LOOK$ AT ME ) AN EXPRESSION ,I CAN ONLY CALL WILD3 LIKE A LONE %EPH]DESS ON A DESOLATE M\NTA9 :O HAD UNEXPECT$LY BUMP$ 9TO A /RANG]4 

,SUDD5LY %E %\T$1 0,Y\'RE ,Y>O/AN60 ,%E SAID ?IS ) SU* JOY ,I ?\<T %E WAS GO+ TO ?R[ H] >MS >\ND ME4 

,IT WAS MY TURN TO SEE A <O/4 0,H[ 9 ! WORLD DO Y\ KN[ :O ,I AM80 

0,Y\'RE ,JAN'S FRI5D60 

,BEG9N+ TO D\BT MY FIR/ ASSUMPTION1 ,I NEV]!LESS =MULAT$ ! QUE/ION1 0,& Y\'RE -- ,JAN'S WIFE80 

0,NO1 SILLY6 ,DON'T Y\ REMEMB] ME8 ,I'M ,MIRNA60 

,JAN'S SI/]4 ,H[ C\LD ,I HAVE REMEMB]$ H]1 OR EV5 GUESS$8 ,! LA/ TIME ,I'D SE5 H] %E'D BE5 AT MO/ T5 OR ELEV5 YE>S OLD1 ATT5D+ ELEM5T>Y S*OOL4 ,?AT MEANT %E WAS AT MO/ FIFTE54 ,I HELP$ H] PICK UP ! POTATOES4 ,%E SAID NO?+ MORE1 JU/ />$ AT ME4 ,I C\LDN'T HELP LOOK+ AT H]4 ,%E BECAME EMB>RASS$4 ,%E C>RI$ ! POTATOES 9TO ! KIT*5 & /AY$ !RE4 ,I WAS AGA9 ALONE 9 ! L>GE ROOM4 ,MY ?\<TS & FEEL+S W]E 9 *AOS4 ,ISN'T IT AMAZ+ H[ FLEXIBLE WE >E1 H[ QUICKLY WE CAN TRAVEL FROM ONE EMOTIONAL EXTREME TO ANO!R8 ,ONLY TWO H\RS E>LI] ,I HAD BE5 WEI<+ & COMP>+ MY ALT]NATIVES3 IMPRISONM5T1 SUICIDE OR CAPITULATION4 ,N[ ,I WAS FILL$ ) 5?USIASM AGA91 FILL$ ) ?\<TS ( LIV+1 ( BUILD+ A WORLD TOGE!R ) !SE PEOPLE1 NE> ?IS GIRL4 ,I LOOK$ AT ! ?REE BOOKS4 ,I HAD AN URGE TO HURL !M \T ( ! H\SE4 ,!Y W]E AS \T ( PLACE 9 ?IS ROOM AS %E WAS \T ( PLACE 9 ?IS CITY4 ,:AT =CES HAD DRIV5 ?IS C\NTRY GIRL AWAY1 FROM OP5 FIELDS & 9TO AU?ORIT>IAN CLASSROOMS8 ,:Y8 ,:AT IS GA9$ :5 ?IS FREE BE+ IS CONF9$ TO A DESK & =C$ TO RECITE A TOADY'S ACC\NT ( ! WORDS & GE/URES ( HIS PATRONS8 

,JAN'S FA!R RETURN$ FROM WORK WE>+ HIS DRIV]'S CAP4 ,HE EMBRAC$1 ME AS SOON AS HE CAME 94 ,HE WAS NEI!R />TL$ NOR APPREH5SIVE4 ,HE ACT$ AS IF ,I W]E AN OLD FRI5D1 AS IF HE HAD EXPECT$ ME TO BE !RE4 0,LIV+ ANY:]E80 HE ASK$4 

,I LI$ & TOLD HIM ,I WAS R5T+ A ROOM 9 ! CITY4 

0,>E Y\R ?+S !RE80 

0,I HAVE NO ?+S10 ,I ADMITT$4 

0,MIRNA60 HE %\T$1 0FIX UP ! GUE/ ROOM4 ,JAN'S FRI5D IS GO+ TO /AY ) US40 

,HE SEEM$ TO KN[ ?AT ,I HAD NO?+ ELSE TO DO & NO:]E ELSE TO GO1 ?AT ,I HAD REA*$ ! 5D ( MY J\RNEY4 0,RELAX10 HE TOLD ME1 AS IF HE KNEW :AT ,I'D BE5 ?9K+ E>LI]4 0,TOGE!R WE'LL /RAI<T5 EV]Y?+ \T40 

,IT WAS ONLY :5 ,JAN CAME HOME ?AT ,I />T$ TO RELAX4 ,JAN WAS OV]JOY$4 ,HE HAD TE>S 9 HIS EYES :5 HE EMBRAC$ ME4 ,HE SAID HE HAD KN[N ,I'D TURN UP4 ,RELEAS$ A FEW MON?S BE=E ,I WAS1 HE HAD SOMEH[ LE>N$ ! DATE ( MY RELEASE4 ,HE KNEW ,I W\LDN'T F9D A JOB & W\LD HAVE NO:]E ELSE TO GO4 ,HE HAD BEGUN TO WORRY :5 ,I FAIL$ TO TURN UP2 HE WOND]$ IF !Y'D FAIL$ TO RELEASE ME OR IF ,I HAD ALREADY BE5 >RE/$ AGA94 

,JAN HAD A JOB 9 ! TRANSPORT DEPOT REPAIR %OP4 ,HE GOT ! JOB ?R\< AN ODD CO9CID5CE1 ,A FEW MON?S BE=E HIS RELEASE1 HIS FA!R'S BUS HAD BROK5 D[N & ! DRIV] HAD ACCOMPANI$ IT TO ! REPAIR %OP4 ,:ILE A CL]K WAS ASK+ ,S$LAK ! USUAL QUE/IONS3 NAME1 NUMB]1 R\TE1 & SO ON1 A UNION (FICIAL :O WAS /&+ NE>BY ASK$ IF ! DRIV] WAS RELAT$ TO ,JAN ,S$LAK4 ,SUSPICI\S ( ALL (FICIALS1 ,S$LAK W>ILY ASK$ ! MAN :Y HE WANT$ TO KN[4 ,! (FICIAL APOLOGIZ$ V]Y POLITELY1 ADMITT+ ?AT UND] ! CIRCUM/ANCES HE HAD BE5 9SOL5T TO ASK HIM SU* A QUE/ION4 ,HE !N PROCE$$ TO EXPLA9 HE HAD BE5 ,JAN'S FRI5D S9CE ! W>1 !Y HAD WORK$ TOGE!R = SEV]AL YE>S1 & HE -- ! (FICIAL -- HAD ONLY REC5TLY BE5 RELEAS$ FROM PRISON4 ,! DAY AFT] ,JAN WAS RELEAS$1 HE & HIS FA!R W5T TO SEE ?IS (FICIAL4 ,IT WAS ,TITUS ,ZABRAN4 ,! FOLL[+ DAY ,JAN WAS EMPLOY$ 9 ! REPAIR %OP4 ,HE *ANG$ HIS FIR/ NAME & SOON RECEIV$ A WORK BOOKLET4 ,TITUS HAD DISCREETLY RECOMM5D$ HIM AS ,S$LAK'S C\NTRY NEPHEW1 A H>D-WORK+ PEASANT :O HAD JU/ >RIV$ 9 ! CITY4 

,?AT NI<T ,I ATE SUPP] ) FRI5DS :O W]E NOT PRISON]S = ! FIR/ TIME 9 F\R YE>S4 

,JAN & ,I LEFT HIS H\SE AN H\R BE=E SUNRISE ! FOLL[+ MORN+4 ,WE TRAVEL$ BY TRAM & BUS TO ! O!R 5D ( ! CITY4 ,! HEADQU>T]S ( ! TRADE UNION W]E LOCAT$ NEXT DOOR TO ! REPAIR %OP4 ,JAN KNOCK$ ON ! DOOR ( ,TITUS' (FICE4 ,:5 ,TITUS OP5$ IT1 ,I WAS SURE ?AT = AN 9/ANT ,I SAW ! SAME EXPRESSION ( AL>M & DISAPPO9TM5T ,I HAD SE5 ON ! FACE ( ,JAN'S MO!R3 HE SAW A <O/4 ,JAN CONV9C$ ME LAT] ?AT ,TITUS C\LDN'T HAVE BE5 AL>M$1 S9CE IT WAS FROM HIM ?AT ,JAN HAD LE>N$ ! DATE ( MY RELEASE4 ,9 ANY CASE1 ,TITUS QUICKLY RECOV]$4 ,HE EMBRAC$ ME & ASK$ IF ,I NE$$ MONEY OR A PLACE TO /AY4 ,JAN EXPLA9$ ?AT ,I HAD 0ALREADY SOLV$0 ALL MY LIV+ PROBLEMS2 ALL ,I NE$$ WAS A JOB4 

,TITUS PICK$ UP ! PHONE4 ,HE TALK$ AB\T ANO!R ,S$LAK NEWLY >RIV$ FROM ! C\NTRY4 ,SUDD5LY HE TURN$ TO ME & ASK$1 0,Y\R FIR/ NAME80 

,I FUMBL$4 ,!N ,I ALMO/ %\T$1 0,MIRAN60 ,& ,I GLANC$ AT ,JAN ) A %EEPI% GR94 

0,MIRAN ,S$LAK10 ,TITUS TOLD ! PHONE4 ,HE TOLD ME ,I WAS TO />T DRIV+ A BUS 9 A WEEK4 ,I SAID ,I HAD NEV] DRIV5 ANY?+ O!R ?AN A BICYCLE4 ,TITUS LAU<$4 ,HE SAID ,I'D LE>N 9 A WEEK1 & BY ! SECOND WEEK ,I W\LD ALREADY BE BOR$2 !RE W]E NO F9E ADJU/M5TS TO BE MADE 7AS !RE HAD BE5 ON A PRESS74 ,TITUS EMBRAC$ BO? ( US :5 WE LEFT4 ,?IS WAS ! SECOND TIME HE HAD PULL$ ME \T ( A TRAP4 ,! FIR/ TIME SEEM$ TO HAVE TAK5 PLACE SO LONG AGO ,I WASN'T SURE IT HAD TAK5 PLACE AT ALL2 P]HAPS ,I HAD DREAM$ IT4 

,D9N] ?AT NI<T WAS A CELEBRATION4 ,I HAD REJO9$ HUMANITY4 ,I HAD F\ND A HOME1 A FAMILY1 A JOB4 

0,WE'RE ALMO/ BACK ON \R FEET10 ,JAN SAID4 0,SOON WE'LL BE RUNN+ AGA940 

0,& Y\'LL RUN RI<T BACK TO JAIL10 HIS MO!R GRUMBL$4 

,BUT ,JAN'S FA!R DIDN'T LET HIS SPIRITS BE DAMP5$4 0,ANO!R RELATIVE60 HE %\T$4 0,SOON !RE'LL BE ,S$LAKS DRIV+ HALF ! BUSSES1 ,S$LAKS 9 HALF ! FACTORIES4 ,WELCOME ,Y>O/AN ,S$LAK60 

0,MIRAN ,S$LAK10 ,JAN CORRECT$4 

0,MIRAN80 ASK$ ,MIRNA4 0,!N WE'RE TW9S60 

0,TW9S60 RO>$ ! OLD MAN4 0,EV]YONE = MILES >\ND CAN SEE Y\'RE ANY?+ BUT TW9S60 

,MIRNA BLU%$1 DROPP$ H] FOOD1 & RAN TO H] ROOM4 ,JAN LAU<$4 ,IT WAS ALREADY UND]/OOD ?AT ,MIRNA & ,I W]E TO BE M>RI$4 ,NO MORE WAS GO+ TO BE SAID AB\T IT2 ! MATT] HAD BE5 SETTL$4 ,I WAS OV]JOY$4 

,IT WASN'T Y\R LETT] ?AT GAVE RISE TO MY FIR/ D\BTS4 ,!SE BEGAN TO RISE ! V]Y NEXT MORN+1 :5 ,I LEFT ! H\SE ) ,JAN'S FA!R = MY FIR/ DRIV+ LESSON4 ,:AT HAD ,I CELEBRAT$8 ,:AT DID MY JOY MEAN8 ,:I* HUMANITY HAD ,I REJO9$3 A HUMANITY ( UN%ACKL$ BE+S TRANS=M+ !IR DREAMS 9TO PROJECTS1 OR ! HUMANITY ( HOME1 FAMILY & JOB8 ,HAD ,I CELEBRAT$ MY SELF-BETRAYAL8 ,HAD ,I BECOME A TRAITOR TO MY [N COMMITM5T1 TO Y\ & ,LUISA1 TO ALL ! COMRADES ) :OM ,I HAD F\<T = A DIFF]5T WORLD8 ,HAD ! IMPRISONM5T BROK5 ME1 TAM$ ME1 DOME/ICAT$ ME8 ,W\LD MY BETRAYAL ( MY PA/ & MY COMRADES HAVE BE5 ANY GREAT] IF ,I HAD JO9$ ! POLICE OR IF1 AS Y\ SUGGE/$1 ,I HAD TAK5 UP RELIGION OR 9VE/$ CAPITAL8 ,HADN'T ,I SP5T F\R YE>S 9 PRISON = REJECT+ EV]Y?+ ,I WAS N[ EMBRAC+1 5JOY+ & CELEBRAT+8 

,AT ! V]Y BEG9N+ ( MY PRISON T]M ,I HAD GRUMBL$ AB\T ! FOOD4 ,I COMPLA9$ ?AT ! BREAD WAS /ALE & ! S\P WAS LUKEW>M SEWAGE4 ,A PRISON] SITT+ ACROSS ! TABLE FROM ME TOLD ME HE HAD READ AB\T PEOPLE :O HAD SO LITTLE FOOD !Y ATE ! B>K ( TREES2 :5 A FIRE DE/ROY$ !IR =E/1 !Y DREAM$ AB\T ! B>K AS IF IT W]E A DELICACY4 ,SOMETIME LAT] ,I SP5T A WEEK 9 A DAMP1 AIRLESS DUNGEON4 ,MY DIET !N WAS /ALE BREAD & COLD WAT]4 ,:5 ,I REJO9$ ! LIV+1 ! W>M SEWAGE BECAME A DELICACY4 ,I ATE IT SL[LY1 SIPP+ IT SO AS TO 5JOY ! FLAVOR ( EV]Y SPOONFUL4 

,I WAS UND\BT$LY BROK51 TAM$1 BUT NOT BY ! F\R YE>S 9 PRISON4 ,I HAD LEFT PRISON ) A C]TA9 AM\NT ( 5?USIASM4 ,I HAD AT LEA/ BE5 EAT+ B>K4 ,! FIRE ?AT DE/ROY$ MY =E/ BURN$ DUR+ ! N9E OR T5 DAYS AFT] MY RELEASE4 ,IT WAS ONLY !N ?AT ,I WAS LEFT ) NO?+ AT ALL4 ,IT WAS ONLY !N ?AT ,I WAS DEPRIV$ ( ALL FRI5D%IP1 ALL COMMUNICATION1 ALL HOPES4 ,I WAS EXCLUD$ FROM EV]Y COMMUNITY & FROM ALL SOCIAL ACTIVITY4 ,I LONG$ = NO MORE ?AN B>K1 BUT IT HAD ALL BURN$4 ,! WOR/ DEPRIVATION ( ALL WAS MY EXCLUSION FROM WORK4 ,I HAD F\<T AGA9/ SELF-SELL+1 ,I HAD 5GAG$ 9 ! /RUGGLE TO ABOLI% WAGE LABOR1 YET N[ ,I WAS TORTUR$ BECAUSE ,I C\LDN'T SELL MYSELF = A WAGE4 ,I WAS 9 PA9 BECAUSE ?IS EXCLUSION WAS A F> GREAT] TORTURE ?AN SOLIT>Y CONF9EM5T4 ,?\< DEA? & 9SANITY W]E NOT 9FREQU5T RESULTS ( SOLIT>Y CONF9EM5T1 !Y W]E NOT 9EVITABLE4 ,I HAD SE5 MANY EM]GE ) !IR SELVES 9TACT4 ,IT WAS ?IS POSSIBILITY ( EM]G+ 9TACT ?AT HAD BE5 REMOV$4 ,A NEW >RE/ OR />VATION MEANT NOT EM]G+ AT ALL4 ,EM]G+ BY SELL+ MYSELF TO ! POLICE MEANT ,I W\LD MURD] MY [N SELF1 MY :OLE PA/ LIFE1 & ,I W\LD ALSO SUPPRESS O!RS LIKE ME1 ,I W\LD MURD] MY O!R SELVES4 

,I HAD BE5 EXCLUD$ FROM HUMANITY4 ,?IS EXCLUSION WAS ! DUNGEON ,I EM]G$ FROM :5 ,I REJO9$ HUMANITY4 ,& ,I SIPP$1 ) G5U9E 5JOYM5T1 ! V]Y S\P ,I HAD REJECT$ AS SEWAGE4 ,I EMBRAC$ A TRADITIONAL1 >*AIC1 PATRI>*AL FAMILY1 & ,I WAS FILL$ ) JOY4 ,I W\LD HAVE BE5 SATISFI$ ) B>K & ,I SAT 9 FRONT ( A COMPLETE MEAL1 A VIRTUAL FEA/4 ,I WAS ) W>M1 SOCIABLE HUMAN BE+S :O WELCOM$ ME AS ONE ( !IR [N1 ) PEASANTS :O HAD NEV] QUITE BE5 URBANIZ$2 ,I WAS ) PEOPLE :O W]E MORE HUMAN ?AN MY CONTEMPOR>IES PRECISELY BECAUSE !Y HAD BE5 LEFT BEH9D1 BECAUSE !Y HAD NOT REPLAC$ K9%IP ) CIVIC RESPONSIBILITY OR FRI5D%IP ) DUTY TO ! /ATE4 ,I WAS ) PEOPLE :O DID NOT EXP]I5CE \R GREAT SOCIETY AS !IR BOON OR !IR VICTORY1 BUT AS !IR FATE1 !IR DE/9Y1 AS AN 9COMPREH5SIBLE CATA/ROPHE1 A PUNI%M5T = UNKN[N TRANSGRESSIONS4 ,& = AN 9/ANT ,I FELT ,I HAD REJO9$ MY [N4 ,I WAS FILL$ ) JOY4 ,I EMBRAC$ ! WORLD ,I HAD ONCE REJECT$4 ,I ACCEPT$ :AT WE HAD ONCE CALL$ NEPOTISM & WAS PR\D ( MYSELF AS A NEPHEW1 A C\NTRY C\S91 A RELATIVE4 ,I FELT ONLY GRATITUDE :5 ,I WAS ALL[$ TO REJO9 ! COMMUNITY ( WAGE LABOR]S4 ,& MY HAPP9ESS WAS CR[N$ BY ! PROSPECT ( M>RY+ ! WOND]FUL PEASANT GIRL :O HAD REMA9$ UN/A9$ BY URBAN CORRUPTION1 UN/A9$ BY ! FACTORIES & PRISONS4 

,MY /UPOR LA/$ = A DAY4 ,I C\LDN'T P]MAN5TLY TURN MYSELF 9SIDE \T1 BECOME SOMEONE ELSE1 TURN MY BACK ON :AT ,I HAD WANT$ UNTIL !N4 ,& ,I C\LDN'T =GET ALL ?OSE LIKE ME :O W]E /ILL 9 PRISON1 ALL ?OSE :O HAD DI$1 ALL ?OSE :O HAD EM]G$ SO MAIM$ !Y C\LD ONLY HOPE = ! NEXT RELEASE4 

,! OLD PEASANT TOOK ME ALONG 9 HIS BUS = A WEEK4 ,!RE W]E H>DLY ANY PASS5G]S DUR+ TWO AFT]NOON H\RS1 :5 HE HAD ME DRIVE ! BUS4 ,ON ! FIF? DAY HE LET ME DRIVE IT ALL DAY4 ,BY ! 5D ( ! WEEK ,I WAS AN EXP]I5C$ DRIV]2 ALL ,I HAD LEFT TO LE>N WAS ! R\TE4 ,& BY ! 5D ( ! FOLL[+ WEEK ,I WAS A SEASON$ DRIV]4 ,I BEGAN TO RECOGNIZE MANY ( ! PASS5G]S4 ,I BEGAN TO UND]/& ! NATURE ( MY USEFUL SOCIAL ACTIVITY1 ! FUNCTION ( ! JOB ,I HAD BE5 SO OV]JOY$ TO F9D4 ,! MORN+ PASS5G]S W]E ALMO/ ALL WORK]S ON !IR WAY TO FACTORIES1 W>EH\SES & SOMETIMES (FICES4 ,!Y W]E 9 ! PROCESS ( SELL+ !IR 5]GY & TIME 9 EX*ANGE = A WAGE4 ,! BUS WAS ! VEHICLE :I* DELIV]$ ! SOLD ITEM TO ITS PUR*AS]4 ,! TRANSACTION WAS UNUSUAL BECAUSE ! SELL]S HAD TO ACCOMPANY ! ITEMS !Y SOLD3 !Y C\LDN'T /AY HOME :ILE ! BUY] WALK$ AWAY ) !IR TIME4 ,AS A RESULT ! BUS LOOK$ LIKE IT WAS TRANSPORT+ PEOPLE1 BUT ! PEOPLE W]E M]ELY ACCOMPANY+ !IR M]*&ISE4 ,IT WASN'T ! PEOPLE :O W]E DELIV]$ EV]Y MORN+ BUT ONLY ! M]*&ISE4 ,! AFT]NOON PASS5G]S1 G5]ALLY RELATIVES ( ! SAME WORK]S1 TOOK ! BUS TO %OPS2 !Y B\<T BACK1 NOT ! LIV+ 5]GY SOLD BY ! WORK]S1 BUT SOME ( ! OBJECTS :I* HAD CONSUM$ ! 5]GY4 ,!Y SP5T ! WAGE4 ,:5 IT WAS SP5T1 ! BUS AGA9 DELIV]$ M]*&ISE1 ?IS TIME TANGIBLE M]*&ISE1 MAT]IAL OBJECTS1 ?+S -- ! ?+S 9TO :I* ! WORK]S HAD P\R$ !IR LIVES4 ,9 ! EV5+ ! \T] HUSKS ( ! WORK]S RETURN$ HOME4 ,! SPECIFIC CONT5T ( EA* HAD DISSOLV$ 9TO ?AT HOMOG5E\S SUB/ANCE !Y HAD SOLD = A WAGE1 IT HAD DRIPP$ \T ( !M DUR+ ! DAY LIKE LIQUID EXCREM5T4 ,?IS EXCREM5T WAS ! M]*&ISE ! BUS HAD DELIV]$ 9 ! MORN+4 ,IT WAS C>RI$ 9 ! H&S1 >MS1 LEGS & EYES ( ! PASS5G]S4 ,POT5TIAL 5]GY HAD BE5 TRANS=M$ 9TO A SUB/ANCE ?AT C\LD BE DIS*>G$ FROM ! BODY & SOLD4 ,S9CE ! WORK]S C\LDN'T SEP>ATE !MSELVES FROM ! ITEM !Y HAD SOLD1 ! TRANSACTION WAS NOT COMPLET$ UNTIL ! ITEM WAS CONSUM$4 ,9 ! EV5+ !Y RETURN$ HOME TO REFILL !IR EMPTY %ELLS1 TO REG5]ATE ! 5]GY1 ONLY TO LET IT FL[ \T AGA9 DUR+ EI<T H\RS ( DI>RHEA ! FOLL[+ DAY4 ,IT WAS MY USEFUL FUNCTION TO BE A MIDDLEMAN 9 ?IS TRANSACTION1 TO CIRCULATE ! EXCREM5T AMONG ITS CONSUM]S4 ,& AS ,I CIRCULAT$ IT ,I /UDI$ ! OBJECTS 9TO :I* ?IS LIQUID 5]GY HAD FL[$1 ! MONUM5TS 9TO :I* IT HAD BE5 MOLD$4 ,I DROVE PA/ !SE PRODUCTS ( HUMAN LABOR EV]Y DAY3 ! CRAMP$ LIV+ QU>T]S 9 :I* ! CONSUM$ 5]GY WAS NI<TLY REG5]AT$1 ! =BIDD+ /RUCTURES 9SIDE :I* ! ALLOCATION ( ! EXCREM5T & ! SPE$ ( ITS DIS*>GE W]E DAILY DET]M9$4 ,I ALSO /UDI$ ! MO/ SOPHI/ICAT$ PRODUCTS ( HUMAN LABOR1 ! MO/ IMPORTANT MONUM5TS %AP$ \T ( ! EXCREM5T3 (FICIALS1 POLITICIANS & POLICE1 AS !Y DROVE BY ME 9 !IR GLOSSY C>S4 ,?IS WAS ! VICTORY 9TO :I* \R SIGNIFICANT EXP]I5CE WAS %AP$4 ,& Y\ TELL ME3 0,I KNEW EXACTLY :AT P>T ,I WAS PLAY+ 9 ! CREATION ( \R COMMON WORLD40 ,DID Y\ REALLY8 ,& >E Y\ PR\D1 TW5TY YE>S LAT]1 ?AT Y\ HELP$ CREATE ?IS WORLD8 

,MY 5?USIASM DIM9I%$ ! DAY AFT] ,I EXP]I5C$ SU* JOY AT HAV+ REJO9$ ?IS WORLD1 & IT WAS ALL GONE BY ! TIME ,I HAD DRIV5 ! BUS = A WEEK4 ,MY 9T]E/ 9 LIFE RETURN$4 ,I HAD LEFT PRISON ) AN 9T5SE DESIRE TO EXPRESS MYSELF1 TO COMMUNICATE ) O!RS1 TO EXPLORE ! POSSIBLE & PROJECT ! IMPOSSIBLE4 ,?IS DESIRE RETURN$ AS SOON AS ,I WAS 0ALMO/ BACK ON MY FEET0 & HAD />T$ 0RUNN+ AGA910 AS ,JAN HAD PUT IT4 ,I REGA9$ ! PO/URE Y\ REMEMB]3 MY 0MILITANT0 PO/URE4 ,MY HO/S BECAME MY AUDI5CE1 MY POT5TIAL 9SURG5TS1 MY REVOLUTION>Y COMMUNITY4 ,I BEGAN >GU+ ) ! OLD DRIV] AB\T ! SIGNIFICANCE ( DRIV+ A BUS 9 A SOCIETY CONSI/+ ( 5T]PRISES & WAGE WORK]S4 ,I >GU$ AB\T ! SIGNIFICANCE ( K9%IP RELATIONS 9 A SOCIETY ( BUY]S & SELL]S4 ,& :5 HE DIDN'T RESPOND1 ,I >GU$ AB\T ! DANG]S ( H\S+ TWO SABOTEURS1 TWO ELEM5TS :O ?REAT5$ ! PRES5T & FUTURE WELL-BE+ ( ! WORK+ CLASS4 

,! OLD PEASANT HE>D NO?+1 BUT HE LE>N$ ?AT HIS FUTURE 0SON-9-LAW0 WAS AN AGITATOR4 ,& HIS RESPONSE TO ?IS DISCOV]Y WAS ID5TICAL TO ?AT ( ! OLD WORK] 9 ! C>TON PLANT4 0,Y\ WON'T BE DRIV+ A BUS = LONG10 ,S$LAK SAID4 0,!Y'VE GOT O!R JOBS = Y\ UP !RE40 ,HE WAS PR\D ( HIS FUTURE RELATIVE4 ,S$LAK WAS A %REWD & CALCULAT+ MAN4 ,I KNEW ?AT = ONCE HE WAS MISCALCULAT+ BUT ,I C\LDN'T HAVE KN[N AT ! TIME H[ BADLY HE WAS MISCALCULAT+ ME1 MY PROSPECTS1 & ! SITUATION HE W\LD F9D HIMSELF 9 BECAUSE ( ME4 ,HIS WIFE'S EXPECTATIONS W]E F> MORE MODE/1 H] GUESSES W]E BAS$ ON MORE SOLID REALITIES4 ,%E M]ELY %OOK H] HEAD :5EV] ,I SPOKE & %E SAID ABSOLUTELY NO?+4 

,I ALSO >GU$ ) ,MIRNA AB\T M>RIAGE4 ,I HAD NOT LE>N$ TO CONSID] M>RIAGE 0! MO/ NATURAL RELATION 9 ! WORLD02 ,I HAD NOT CONV9C$ MYSELF ?AT 0PEOPLE NEV] LIV$ \TSIDE ?IS CATEGORY40 ,I AGREE ) EV]Y?+ Y\ SAY 9 ?IS P>T ( Y\R LETT]1 & ,I ADMIRE ! WAY ALL ( Y\ HAVE REFUS$ TO COMPROMISE ) ?IS 9/ITUTION4 ,BUT Y\ PROVOKE ME TO ASK A QUE/ION4 ,S9CE Y\ >E ALSO OPPOS$ TO WAGE LABOR1 HAVE Y\ REFUS$ TO COMPROMISE ) ?IS 9/ITUTION8 ,IF SO1 H[ HAVE Y\ SUPPORT$ Y\RSELVES8 

,MIRNA & ,I TOOK LONG WALKS 9 ?AT VILLAGE-LIKE NEI<BORHOOD4 ,ONLY !N DID EV]YONE = MILES >\ND KN[ ?AT ,MIRNA & ,MIRAN W]E NOT TW9S4 ,I TRI$ TO EXPLA9 TO H] ?AT ! PROPOS$ M>RIAGE WAS AN ABSURDITY1 A MI/AKE1 POSSIBLY EV5 A CRIME4 ,SOON] OR LAT] ,I W\LD BE >RE/$ AGA94 ,MY T]M W\LD PROBABLY BE MU* LONG] S9CE ,I W\LD BE A REPEAT$ (F5D]4 ,WE W\LD BO? BE OLD :5 ,I RETURN$1 IF ,I RETURN$ AT ALL4 ,I D\BT$ ?AT ,I C\LD LIVE ?R\< A LONG] T]M4 ,IF ,I DI$ %E W\LD AS LIKELY AS NOT ?9K ,I WAS /ILL ALIVE SOME:]E 9 ?AT UND]WORLD ( ! LIV+ DEAD4 ,9=M+ RELATIVES AB\T SU* DETAILS WAS NOT ONE ( ! PRIORITIES ( \R RECORD-BREAK+ CONTROL 9DU/RY4 ,H] >*AIC1 MONOGAM\S & PATRI>*AL PEASANT NEI<BORS W\LD NOT ALL[ H] TO DIVORCE ME IF IT WAS ?\<T ,I WAS /ILL ALIVE4 ,%E W\LD BE *A9$ TO A BURI$ CORPSE4 ,! M>RIAGE W\LD ROB H] ( H] Y\NG LIFE4 ,%E W\LDN'T M]ELY BE B\ND = LIFE TO A P]SON %E MI<T CEASE TO LOVE ON ! DAY AFT] ! C]EMONY4 ,?AT POSSIBILITY WAS AT ! CORE ( EV]Y M>RIAGE4 ,!RE WAS ! ADDITIONAL POSSIBILITY ?AT ,I W\LD BE >RE/$ ! DAY AFT] ! M>RIAGE4 ,! FIFTE5-YE> OLD GIRL W\LD BE B\ND = LIFE TO A P]SON %E MI<T NEV] SEE AGA94 

,MIRNA LI/5$ TO ME ! SAME WAY H] FA!R DID4 ,%E HE>D NO?+4 ,H] 5]GY1 H] PASSION & H] JOYFUL ANTICIPATION DID NOT DIM9I% = AN 9/ANT4 ,! M>RIAGE WAS SIMPLY A DATE ON ! CAL5D>1 A COM+ HOLIDAY ?AT WAS ONE DAY CLOS] ) EV]Y SUNRISE4 ,IT WAS AS UNAVOIDABLE AS ! PASSAGE ( TIME4 ,!RE WAS NO LONG] ANY?+ %E OR ,I C\LD DO AB\T IT -- IF WE W]E DEC5T4 ,H] BRO!R'S FRI5D1 ! 9TELLIG5T & S5SITIVE Y\NG MAN :O HAD EXP]I5C$ TORTURE & IMPRISONM5T1 WAS OBVI\SLY DEC5T4 ,SU* A P]SON C\LDN'T POSSIBLY HUMILIATE H]1 /A9 H] = LIFE1 MAKE H] ! LAU<+ /OCK ( ! VILLAGE BY RUNN+ \T BE=E ! M>RIAGE4 ,MY TALK DIDN'T EV5 SUGGE/ SU* A POSSIBILITY4 ,SU* ?+S DID HAPP54 ,BRIDES :O W]E CO]C$ TO M>RY A P]SON !Y HAT$1 BRIDEGROOMS :O W]E AFRAID TO FACE ! WORLD1 SOMETIMES RAN AWAY LU/ BE=E ! C]EMONY4 ,BUT CLE>LY NEI!R ( US HAD REASON TO RUN AWAY4 ,WE LOV$ EA* O!R & ,I WASN'T ABLE TO COMMUNICATE MY MISGIV+S4 ,%\LD ,I HAVE RUN AWAY8 ,:]E WAS ,I TO GO8 ,BACK TO PRISON8 ,%\LD ,I HAVE SACRIFIC$ MY [N LIFE SO AS TO AVOID RU9+ H]S8 ,& IF ,I DID4 C\LD ,I BE SURE ! HUMILIATION W\LD BE LESS SEV]E TO H] ?AN ! M>RIAGE8 ,C\LD ,I BE SURE %E W\LDN'T TORTURE OR MAIM H]SELF BECAUSE ,I HAD 0RUN \T0 ON H]1 LEAV+ H] ! 0LAU<+ /OCK ( ! VILLAGE08 

,I SPOKE TO H] P>5TS AS WELL4 ,BUT ?AT WAS LIKE TALK+ TO /ONES4 ,H] FA!R 0KNEW0 ?AT ,I'D 0GO F>40 ,& H] MO!R HE>D NO?+ AT ALL4 ,AT FIR/ ,I ?\<T ,I C\LD REA* ! OLD WOMAN3 %E HAD DISLIK$ ME S9CE ! DAY ,I HAD >RIV$ & %E SEEM$ TO =ESEE A CATA/ROPHIC FALL :]E H] HUSB& =ESAW A /EEP & UNLIMIT$ ASC5T4 ,BUT ! COM+ CATA/ROPHE MI<T AS WELL HAVE TAK5 PLACE ALREADY4 ,9 H] VIEW WE C\LDN'T AVOID \R FUTURE ANY MORE ?AN \R PA/2 ALL WE C\LD DO WAS TO RESIGN \RSELVES TO :AT WAS TO COME4 ,MY JABB]+ WAS M]E NOISE1 S9CE TO H] ,I C\LD NO MORE UNDO :AT WAS TO COME ?AN ,I C\LD UNDO MY >RIVAL AT !IR H\SE4 

,JAN WAS ! ONLY ONE :O HE>D ME1 BUT HE DIDN'T HELP4 ,MY >GUM5TS & MY D\BTS ANG]$ HIM4 ,HE ACCUS$ ME ( DE/ROY+ ! BASIS ( ALL FRI5D%IP & ALL SOLID>ITY4 ,HE >GU$ ?AT ANYONE MI<T DIE ( AN ILLNESS ! DAY AFT] =M+ A RELATION%IP ) ANO!R P]SON & ?AT WAS NO REASON TO AVOID =M+ SU* RELATIONS4 ,AS = ! 9/ITUTIONALIZATION ( ! RELATION%IP1 ,JAN >GU$ ?AT IF \R LIVES W]E TO ACQUIRE ANY MEAN+ AT ALL1 WE W\LD SOON BE RID ( ! 9/ITUTION & ,MIRNA & ,I C\LD *OOSE OR REJECT EA* O!R FREELY4 

,9 SPITE ( MY D\BTS ?OSE W]E ! HAPPIE/ MOM5TS ( MY LIFE4 ,AS ! DAY DREW NE>]1 ,MIRNA BEAM$ CON/ANTLY4 ,ON \R EV5+ WALKS %E ?REW H] >MS >\ND *ILDR5 & OLD PEOPLE1 %E DANC$ ) P]FECT /RANG]S 9 ! /REET4 ,I TALK$ LESS AB\T ! POSSIBILITY ( MY >RE/ & MORE AB\T ! POSSIBILITIES ( \R LIVES TOGE!R4 ,I TALK$ AB\T ! DAY :5 ALL ! WORK+ PEOPLE ( ! CITY W\LD EMBRACE EA* O!R & DANCE 9 ! /REET4 

,! C]EMONY WAS >*AIC1 PATRI>*AL & AU?ORIT>IAN4 ,I EXP]I5C$ IT AS BEAUTIFUL4 ,MIRNA SEEM$ LIKE A FEA!R FLOAT+ ?R\< AIR4 ,%E DIDN'T MAKE ! SLI<TE/ EF=T TO HIDE A HAPP9ESS ?AT WAS AS CLE> AS A CL\DLESS SKY4 ,%E LIT]ALLY FLITT$ FROM ONE P]SON TO ! NEXT1 9FECT+ !M ALL ) H] UNRE/RA9$ JOY4 ,I HAD BE5 WALK+ ON CL\DS FROM ! MOM5T ,I HAD GOTT5 UP2 = ME ! EV5T WAS A DREAM4 ,I WAS 9 A /UPOR1 AS UNCONSCI\S AS IF ,I HADN'T WOK5 UP4 AT ALL4 ,I DON'T ?9K ,I SPOKE A S+LE COH]5T WORD ALL DAY LONG4 ,ALL ,I DID WAS LAU<4 

,WE DIDN'T /OP LOV+ EA* O!R ! DAY AFT] ! C]EMONY OR LAT]4 ,!RE W]E TIMES :5 ,I CURS$ ! M>RIAGE BECAUSE ( ! TORTURE & MIS]Y IT HAD C>RI$ 9 ITS TRA91 BUT ,I NEV] REGRETT$ IT4 ,MIRNA EMBRAC$ ! HAPPY MOM5TS -- & !RE W]E MANY BUT !Y ALL FLEW PA/ US DUR+ ! FIR/ FEW MON?S -- ) UNDISGUIS$ JOY1 & %E ACCEPT$ ! TRAG$IES ) SIL5T RESIGNATION1 ?\< NEV] ) H] MO!R'S ABSOLUTE1 UNQUE/ION+ RESIGNATION4 

,I DROVE A BUS = A YE>1 DUR+ :I* TIME ,MIRNA & ,I LIV$ ) H] P>5TS4 ,JAN MOV$ \T SOON AFT] WE W]E M>RI$4 ,HE EXPLA9$ ?AT HE DIDN'T 5JOY TRAVEL+ ACROSS ! 5TIRE CITY TWICE A DAY4 ,?AT WAS UND\BT$LY P>T ( HIS REASON = MOV+ \T4 ,HE HAD PROBABLY ALSO COME TO FEEL LIKE A /RANG] TO \R HAPP9ESS4 ,HE HAD LO/ HIS SI/] AS WELL AS HIS BE/ FRI5D1 & ! H\SE MU/ HAVE />T$ TO SEEM CR[D$ TO HIM3 CR[D$ ) /RANG]S4 

,T[>D ! 5D ( ! FIR/ YE> ,VESNA WAS BORN4 ,?IS UNLUCKY1 UNHAPPY *ILD WAS BORN 9TO SOME?+ LIKE A PIT SURR\ND$ BY ! UNSCALABLE WALLS Y\ DESCRIB$ SO VIVIDLY 9 Y\R LETT]4 ,IT WASN'T ,MIRNA ,I %\LD HAVE WORRI$ AB\T1 BUT ,VESNA4 ,! BABY GIRL BORN LATE ?AT FALL HADN'T ASK$ TO BE BR\<T TO ?IS WORLD1 %E HADN'T ASK$ TO BE BORN 9TO ! CAGE FROM :I* %E WAS NEV] TO EM]GE4 ,WE HAD NEGLECT$ ?IS TOPIC 9 \R DISCUSSIONS AT ,LUISA'S3 BIR?4 ,BY :AT RI<T DO WE DRAG A HELPLESS 9FANT 9TO A WORLD WE'VE LEFT UN*ANG$1 BY :AT RI<T DO WE =CE ANO!R HUMAN BE+ TO BREA! AN AIR1 ?AT'S SUFFOCAT+ US1 BY :AT RI<T DO WE LEAVE A LITTLE GIRL SCRAT*+ H] F+]NAILS UNTIL H] H&S BLE$ 9 A PA!TIC ATTEMPT TO SCALE A WALL WE C\LD NEI!R CLIMB NOR DE/ROY8 

,I CAN'T READ ,LUISA'S OR Y\R DESCRIPTION ( \R SIGNIFICANT EXP]I5CE )\T REMEMB]+ ! SIGNIFICANCE ( ?AT EXP]I5CE4 ,I CAN'T =GET ! SIGNIFICANCE IT HAD = ! OLD PEASANT1 = HIS WIFE1 = ,JAN & ,VESNA1 = ,MIRNA1 = ME & O!RS LIKE ME4 ,H[ CAN Y\ REM9D ME ( ! DREAMS WE %>$ & ! POSSIBILITIES WE ANTICIPAT$ :ILE Y\ GLORIFY ! EV5T :I* DE=M$ ! DREAMS & DE/ROY$ ! POSSIBILITIES8 ,H[ CAN Y\ PO9T TO EV]Y?+ ?AT DI$ 9 ?AT EV5T1 TELL ME IT WAS BORN !N & ASK ME TO CELEBRATE ! BIR?8 

,I'M ABLE TO WRITE Y\ N[ ONLY BECAUSE1 AFT] TW5TY YE>S1 ! SIGNIFICANCE ( \R EXP]I5CE IS AT LA/ BE+ EXPOS$4 ,I CAN REA* Y\ N[ ONLY BECAUSE ?OSE IMP5ETRABLE WALLS HAVE />T$ TO CRACK4 ,IT'S NOT SO MU* BECAUSE ( ! EF=TS ( MY CONTEMPOR>IES1 MY LIKES1 ?AT ! WALLS >E CRUMBL+1 & C]TA9LY NOT BECAUSE ( MY EF=TS4 ,!Y'RE COM+ D[N MORE OR LESS ON !IR [N4 ,! CITY IS WAK+ UP FROM A TW5TY-YE> LONG DEA?-LIKE SLEEP4 ,CORPSE-LIKE HUSKS ) %RIVEL$ CAPACITIES1 DRI$ UP IMAG9ATIONS & US$ UP LIVES >E BEG9N+ TO EXHIBIT NEW GLEAMS 9 !IR EYES & NEW 5]GIES 9 !IR LIMBS4 

,! PEOPLE ( ?IS CITY >E SUDD5LY REALIZ+ !Y'VE BE5 BUILD+ ?OSE WALLS3 HI< & L[ WALLS1 \T] & 9N] WALLS1 YET MORE WALLS )9 ! 9N] WALLS2 !Y'VE BE5 BUILD+ ! WALLS ?AT IMPRISON !M4 ,P]HAPS !Y'RE NOT REALIZ+ ?IS ONLY N[2 P]HAPS !Y W]E AW>E ( IT ALL ALONG4 ,BUT !IR AW>5ESS DIDN'T AFFECT !IR ACTIVITY4 ,!Y ACT$ AS IF !Y W]E UNAW>E ( ! WALLS4 ,IT WAS AS IF HUGE SIGNS1 MASSIVE COLORFUL TAPE/RIES1 HAD BE5 HUNG 9 FRONT ( ! WALLS4 ,! SIGNS DEPICT$ FREE HUMAN BE+S 5GAG$ 9 COMMON PROJECTS1 WORK+ PEOPLE 5GAG$ 9 CREAT+ !IR [N HI/ORY4 ,Y\ & ,I HELP$ TO PA9T ?OSE SIGNS4 ,IF PEOPLE REALIZ$ !RE W]E WALLS BEH9D ! SIGNS !Y C\LDN'T REF] TO ! WALLS )\T BE+ >RE/$2 IF !Y KNEW !IR ACTIVITY WASN'T ! ACTIVITY DEPICT$ ON ! SIGNS BUT ! ACTIVITY ( CON/RUCT+ & RE9=C+ ! WALLS BEH9D ! SIGNS1 !Y HAD TO KEEP ?IS KN[L$GE TO !MSELVES4 ,! ONLY ACTIVITY !Y C\LD REF] TO & COMMUNICATE AB\T WAS ! ACTIVITY ON ! SIGNS4 ,PEOPLE SAW OP51 VA/1 UNLIMIT$ FIELDS :ILE !Y ACCOMMODAT$ !MSELVES TO CRAMP$ PRISON CELLS4 ,ALL ( A SUDD5 ?OSE TAPE/RIES >E BE+ TORN D[N & ! WALLS BEH9D !M >E BE+ ATTACK$4 ,IT'S ALL HAPP5+ BECAUSE ( A QUIRK 9 ! PRISON MA*9]Y1 A MI/AKE ON ! P>T ( A PRISON W>D54 ,A FEW WEEKS BE=E ,I WROTE Y\ MY FIR/ LETT]1 ONE ( ! NORMAL *ANGES ( ! PRISON GU>D TOOK PLACE4 ,?IS P>TICUL> *ANGE WAS SLI<TLY LESS R\T9E ?AN ! DAILY *ANGES BECAUSE IT WAS ACCOMPANI$ BY A LESS FREQU5T1 ?\< /ILL P]IODIC1 REPLACEM5T ( ! HEAD W>D5 BY HIS UND]/UDY4 ,DUE TO ! FACT ?AT ! PRISON ADM9I/RATORS HAD BE5 C>ELESS & HAD NEGLECT$ TO REPLACE ! W>D5 MANY YE>S E>LI]1 ?IS W>D5 HAD GOTT5 US$ TO HIS JOB & HAD GR[N S5ILE 9 HIS (FICE4 ,:5 ! TIME CAME = HIM TO LEAVE HIS (FICE1 HE REFUS$4 ,9/EAD1 HE & ! HEAD PRISON GU>DS1 :O HAD REMA9$ FAI?FUL TO HIM1 HAT*$ A PLOT3 !Y W]E GO+ TO LOCK UP ALL ! O!R MEMB]S ( ! PRISON ADM9I/RATION 9 ORD] TO KEEP HIM 9 HIS (FICE4 ,BUT ONE ( ! GU>DS :O WAS TO TAKE P>T 9 ! CONSPIRACY LO/ FAI? 9 ! S5ILE W>D5 & TOLD ! REMA9+ ADM9I/RATORS !Y W]E AB\T TO BE >RE/$4 ,! ADM9I/RATORS PROMPTLY REPLAC$ ! W>D5 & BLOCK$ ! CONSPIRACY4 ,! PLOTT]S W]E R\T$4 ,ONE ( !M1 ! SECOND OR ?IRD HI<E/ (FICIAL 9 ! PRISON1 RAN (F TO SELL HIMSELF TO ! PRISON ADM9I/RATORS ( :AT HE HAD UNTIL !N CALL$ ! 5EMY CAMP4 ,! ADM9I/RATIVE %UFFLE 5D$2 IT HAD BE5 FAIRLY R\T9E4 

,SU* *ANGES HAD TAK5 PLACE BE=E1 & EV5 ! CONSPIRACY WAS NO?+ \T ( ! ORD9>Y4 ,SU* EV5TS DIDN'T NORMALLY CREATE RIPPLES AMONG ! 9MATES1 IF = NO O!R REASON ?AN BECAUSE ! PRISON POPULATION WAS TOLD NO?+ AB\T !M4 ,BUT ?IS TIME SOME?+ ELSE HAPP5$4 ,! NE>LY->RE/$ ADM9I/RATORS DISCOV]$ ?AT ALL ! PRISON GU>DS HAD BE5 9VOLV$ 9 ! CONSPIRACY4 ,TO PROTECT !MSELVES1 !Y SUSP5D$ ! ACTIVITY ( ! GU>DS4 ,!Y C\LDN'T POSSIBLY HAVE KN[N :AT !Y W]E DO+4 ,MAYBE !Y HAD NO *OICE4 ,BY SUSP5D+ ! GU>DS !Y REMOV$ ! GLUE ?AT HELD ! :OLE SY/EM TOGE!R & IT ALL />T$ TO FALL AP>T4 ,PEOPLE />T$ TO PULL AT ! TAPE/RIES1 TO TE> !M1 TO PO9T TO ! WALLS BEH9D !M4 0,?IS IS :AT WE'VE BE5 BUILD+1 & ?IS IS ALL WE'VE BE5 BUILD+10 SOMEONE %\T$4 ,& :5 ?AT P]SON WASN'T %OT OR EV5 LOCK$ UP O!RS />T$ %\T+ & TE>+ D[N ! SIGNS4 ,& NO?+ HAPP5$ TO ANY ( !M4 ,PEOPLE :O HAD BE5 SIL5T = TW5TY YE>S SUDD5LY />T$ TO SPEAK4 ,MANY W]E UNABLE TO F9D WORDS4 ,= TWO DECADES !Y HAD ONLY SPOK5 AB\T ! PEOPLE & ACTIVITIES DEPICT$ ON ! TAPE/RIES4 ,SUDD5LY PEOPLE />T$ TALK+ AB\T !MSELVES & !IR [N REAL ACTIVITIES1 AB\T JAIL]S & PRISON WALLS1 AB\T !IR SACRIFIC$ LIVES & AB\T ! TORTURES4 ,MANY FAIL$ TO UND]/&4 ,YET /ILL NO?+ HAPP5$ TO ?OSE :O TORE AT ! SIGNS & SPOKE AB\T ! WALLS4 ,GRADUALLY ?OSE :O HAD =GOTT5 H[ TO REF] TO !MSELVES OR !IR [N ACTIVITY BEGAN TO REMEMB] OR LE>N ! WORDS1 & ?OSE :O HAD ?\<T !IR LIVES W]E DESCRIB$ BY ! TAPE/RIES LE>N$ TO EXP]I5CE !IR [N LIVES4 ,EV5 *ILDR5 :O HAD NEV] KN[N ANY LANGUAGE O!R ?AN ! LANGUAGE ON ! SIGNS & /UD5TS :O HAD EXP]I5C$ LIFE ONLY AS IT WAS DEPICT$ ON ! TAPE/RIES BEGAN TE>+ D[N SIGNS & COMMUNICAT+ AB\T ! PRISON WALLS4 ,!Y HAD TO 9V5T WORDS ) :I* TO TALK AB\T !MSELVES & !IR REAL SURR\ND+S4 

,IT'S ONLY BECAUSE ! SIGNIFICANCE ( ! EV5T Y\ GLORIFY IS F9ALLY BE+ EXPOS$ ?AT ,I'M ABLE TO WRITE Y\ N[4 ,IF !SE EV5TS W]5'T TAK+ PLACE MY LETT] PROBABLY W\LDN'T EV5 REA* Y\ & ,I MI<T NOT EV5 BE H]E4 ,9 MY FIR/ LETT] ,I TOLD Y\ AB\T A DEMON/RATION 9 :I* ,Y>A P>TICIPAT$ AT H] S*OOL4 ,9 SLI<TLY DIFF]5T CIRCUM/ANCES ?AT DEMON/RATION C\LD HAVE L$ TO MY ?IRD & SURELY LA/ IMPRISONM5T4 ,MY NEI<BOR ,MR4 ,N9OVO1 ! SELF-REPRESS$ B> CLEAN] :O EXPRESSES HIMSELF ONLY 9 ! LANGUAGE ( ! SIGNS1 LE>N$ AB\T ! DEMON/RATION & AB\T ,Y>A'S ROLE 9 IT4 ,HE PROMPTLY REPORT$ ME TO ! POLICE4 ,9 O!R CIRCUM/ANCES ,I W\LD HAVE BE5 RE->RE/$1 ACCUS$ ( 9/IGAT+ DANG]\S ANTI-SOCIAL ACTIVITY & JAIL$4 ,I C\LD H>DLY BELIEVE :AT HAPP5$ 9/EAD4 ,AN (FICIAL CAME TO ! H\SE4 ,HE WAS EXTREMELY POLITE & HE APOLOGIZ$ = HIS VISIT4 ,HE TOLD US ,MR4 ,N9OVO HAD REPORT$ ME & !N HE PROCE$$ TO W>N US TO BEW>E ( \R NEI<BOR1 TELL+ US ,MR4 ,N9OVO WAS A SPITEFUL1 5VI\S & DANG]\S MAN4 7,( C\RSE 9 O!R CIRCUM/ANCES !RE W\LD HAVE BE5 NO DEMON/RATION AT ,Y>A'S S*OOL & ,MR4 ,N9OVO W\LDN'T HAVE REPORT$ ME = 9/IGAT+ IT47 ,WE'VE BE5 LOOK+ = ,MR4 ,N9OVO BUT HE APP>5TLY HASN'T BE5 COM+ HOME TO SLEEP4 ,!RE HAVE BE5 TWO MORE DEMON/RATIONS AT ,Y>A'S S*OOL S9CE !M4 

,AN UNBELIEVABLE METAMORPHOSIS HAS BE5 TAK+ PLACE4 ,) ! EXCEPTION ( ! ,N9OVOS 7:O UN=TUNATELY >5'T R>E71 PR$ICTABLE MA*9ES >E TURN+ 9TO HUMAN BE+S1 SPECIALIZ$ 9/RUM5TS >E TURN+ 9TO LIV+ CREATURES ) UNLIMIT$ POSSIBILITIES4 ,! EM]G5CE ( SO MANY HUMAN BE+S \T ( ! %ELLS1 ! HUSKS & ! CAGES IS /UPEFY+4 ,! FIR/ ?+ IT 9DICATES IS ?AT SO LONG AS ! REPRESSIVE APP>ATUS HAD FUNCTION$1 HUMAN BE+S HAD DISAPPE>$4 ,! HUMAN COMMUNITY HAD CEAS$ TO EXI/4 ,!RE HAD ONLY BE5 DEAF & DUMB AGGREGATES ( SPECIALIZ$ 9/RUM5TS1 COLLECTIONS ( ,N9OVOS :O RELAT$ TO EA* O!R BY WAY ( ! POLICE4 

,! REPRESS$ >E RETURN+ 9 A V]Y LIT]AL S5SE AS WELL4 ,I'VE HE>D RUMORS ?AT RELEAS$ PRISON]S >E />T+ TO =M CLUBS1 TO COMMUNICATE !IR EXP]I5CES & EXPOSE !IR SIGNIFICANCE4 ,I WANT TO TAKE P>T 9 ?IS ACTIVITY BUT SO F> ,MIRNA HAS KEPT ME FROM CONTACT+ !SE GR\PS4 ,%E DOESN'T BELIEVE ?AT :AT WE'RE EXP]I5C+ TODAY WILL LA/ & %E'S CONV9C$ MY CONTACT ) O!R =M] PRISON]S WILL ONLY %ORT5 ! DURATION ( MY RELEASE4 

,I'D LIKE TO BELIEVE ?AT ,MIRNA'S APPREH5SION IS EXAGG]AT$1 ?AT H] FE>S HAVE NO BASIS 9 PRES5T REALITY1 BUT ,I CAN'T KEEP MYSELF FROM HE>+ :AT %E HE>S4 ,! SITUATION IS /ILL UNCLE>1 ! NEWBORN COMMUNICATION /ILL CONTA9S SOME OLD & S9I/] S\NDS4 ,! POLITICIANS /ILL USE ! LANGUAGE & ! IMAG]Y ( ! TORN TAPE/RIES4 ,! FAWN+ PRIE/S :O RUN ! PRESS /ILL PREA* AB\T ! OMNISCI5CE ( !IR GODS & JU/IFY ! WISDOM & GOODNESS ( !IR PA/1 PRES5T OR FUTURE PATRONS4 ,BUT AN ALTOGE!R DIFF]5T TYPE ( COMMUNICATION IS GRADUALLY DR[N+ \T !SE S\NDS FROM ! PA/4 ,IT IS A COMMUNICATION AMONG LIKES1 A COMMUNICATION AB\T !MSELVES1 !IR LIVES & POSSIBILITIES4 ,IT IS A COMMUNICATION ,I FIR/ EXP]I5C$ ON ! B>RICADES ( ! RESI/ANCE TW5TY-?REE YE>S AGO1 A COMMUNICATION :OSE SIGNIFICANCE ,I LE>N$ ONLY :5 ,LUISA TOLD ME AB\T ! B>RICADES ( ! REVOLUTION %E HAD EXP]I5C$4 ,SU* COMMUNICATION HAS SO F> EXI/$ ONLY 9 SITUATIONS ( CRISIS1 ON B>RICADES1 9 ! FACE ( ALMO/ C]TA9 DEA?4 ,YET EV5 IF IT HAS SO F> EXI/$ NO:]E ELSE1 IT REVEAL$ ITSELF !RE AS A P]MAN5T HUMAN POSSIBILITY1 & IT'S ?IS POSSIBILITY ?AT IS BE+ GRASP$ BY ?OSE >\ND ME TODAY4 

,?IS REBIR? ( COMMUNICATION IS :AT /IMULATES ME TO SEEK \T MY LIKES1 NOT ONLY AMONG O!R =M] PRISON]S & O!R WORK]S1 BUT EV]Y:]E 9 ! WORLD4 ,I WROTE Y\ BECAUSE ,I WANT$ TO EXPLORE ! PRES5T1 TO PROBE ITS POSSIBILITIES1 TO MOVE BEYOND ! PA/4 ,I DIDN'T WRITE Y\ 9 ORD] TO REVIVE ! PA/ & C]TA9LY NOT TO CELEBRATE ! EV5TS :I* HAD PUT AN 5D TO ALL COMMUNICATION1 AT LEA/ = ME4 ,IT'S BECAUSE WE W]E 9 ! ?ROES ( ! VICTORY Y\ N[ CELEBRATE ?AT ! LETT] Y\ S5T ME TWELVE YE>S AGO C\LDN'T REA* ME4 ,I W\LD HAVE WELCOM$ IT !N4 ,?AT WAS ANO!R P]IOD ( F]M5T1 A F]M5T ?AT WAS IMM$IATELY SUPPRESS$1 A F]M5T ?AT CREAT$ CRACKS 9 ! WALLS BUT NOT = LONG 5\< TO ALL[ HUMAN MESSAGES TO GET ?R\<4 ,?AT WAS ALSO ! MOM5T ( MY SECOND >RE/4 ,MIRNA TELLS ME ! POLICE CAME LOOK+ = ?AT LETT] ONLY A FEW H\RS AFT] IT CAME4 ,BY %E] CO9CID5CE ,I DIDN'T COME HOME FROM WORK ON ! DAY Y\R LETT] CAME1 NOR ! FOLL[+ DAY NOR ANY DAY AFT] ?AT = ! NEXT EI<T YE>S4 

,A FEW DAYS AGO ,I ASK$ ,MIRNA IF %E /ILL REMEMB]$ ! WALKS WE TOOK JU/ BE=E WE W]E M>RI$4 ,%E REMEMB]$ ! WALKS BUT NOT ! TALKS4 ,:5 ,I REM9D$ H] ,I HAD ONCE TRI$ TO W>N H] NOT TO *A9 H]SELF TO A CONVICT$ SABOTEUR1 A SOCIALLY DANG]\S ELEM5T1 %E ASK$ FURI\SLY1 0,W]E Y\ ,GOD8 ,DID Y\ KN[ ?AT CURS$ LETT] WAS GO+ TO COME YE>S BE=E IT WAS EV5 WRITT580 ,MIRNA HOLDS ?AT LETT] RESPONSIBLE = MY SECOND IMPRISONM5T4 ,%E /ILL ?9KS IT CAUS$ MY >RE/4 ,I'VE TRI$ TO EXPLA9 TO H] ?AT ! >RIVAL ( ! LETT] ON ! DAY ( MY >RE/ WAS A PURE CO9CID5CE1 BUT %E M]ELY TELLS ME1 0,!RE >E NO CO9CID5CES40 ,?AT'S :Y %E ?\<T ! LETT] PECULI> & ATTRIBUT$ A /RANGE P[] TO IT1 & /ILL DOES TODAY3 %E ?9KS Y\R LETT] HAD ! P[] TO IMPRISON ME = EI<T YE>S4  
  

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