,Y>O/AN'S ,LA/ ,LETT] 

#aigfaigf 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,FR$Y ,P]LMAN 

,TEXT 3 

,Y>O/AN'S LA/ LETT] 

  
  

,DE> ,SOPHIA1  
  

,I DON'T DES]VE Y\R PITY4 ,I'VE BE5 BL9D4 ,= OV] TW5TY YE>S ,I'VE BE5 NO?+ MORE ?AN AN APOLOGI/ = A REPRESSIVE IDEOLOGY4 ,Y\ TELL ME Y\ DON'T HAVE A VANTAGE PO9T FROM :I* TO CRITICIZE MY ATTITUDES4 ,! EV5TS ,I EXP]I5C$ H]E YE/]DAY CONV9C$ ME ,I NEV] HAD A VANTAGE PO9T FROM :I* TO DEBUNK :AT ,I CALL$ Y\R 0ILLUSIONS10 OR ,LUISA'S = ?AT MATT]4 ,I P>T$ ) MY [N ILLUSIONS F> MORE /UBBORNLY ?AN Y\ P>T$ ) Y\RS4 ,JASNA & ,I HAD TO EXP]I5CE ONE %OCK AFT] ANO!R BE=E EI!R ( US W]E WILL+ TO ADMIT WE W]E WRONG1 & HAD ALWAYS BE5 WRONG1 AB\T ,TITUS ,ZABRAN4 ,! EXT5T TO :I* WE W]E WRONG W5T F> BEYOND ,MIRNA'S OR ,Y>A'S DREAMS4 ,I CAN N[ ANSW] ALL ! QUE/IONS Y\ & ,SAB9A HAVE BE5 ASK+ = ! PA/ FEW MON?S4 ,I CAN N[ TELL Y\ :Y ,TITUS DIDN'T M5TION TO ME ! LETT] Y\ S5T US DUR+ ! ,MAG>NA UPRIS+ & :Y ,TITUS WASN'T >RE/$ ) ! RE/ ( ! C>TON PLANT CREW TW5TY YE>S AGO4 

,FROM ! TIME ,I S5T Y\ MY LA/ LETT] UNTIL YE/]DAY1 ,Y>A TREAT$ ME AS AN 05EMY40 ,H] HO/ILITY T[>D ME DUR+ ! 5TIRE TWO WEEKS WAS AS 9T5SE AS ! HO/ILITY %E HAD BRIEFLY EXPRESS$ T[>D ME ! LA/ TIME %E VISIT$ ME 9 PRISON1 %ORTLY AFT] ,VESNA'S DEA?4 ,%E MADE IT A PO9T NOT TO BE HOME :5 ,I WAS2 %E LEFT A ROOM :5EV] ,I 5T]$ IT4 ,A FEW DAYS AFT] \R TRIP TO ! CLE>+1 :5 %E WAS /ILL WE>+ A B&AGE OV] H] JAW1 WE W]E BO? 9 ! KIT*5 AT ! SAME TIME2 ,I TOLD H] ,I WAS SORRY AB\T ! BL[ ,I HAD GIV5 H]4 

,Y>A'S RESPONSE TO MY APOLOGY WAS1 0,I'M SORRY ,I HAVE TO %>E ?IS H\SE ) Y\4 ,Y\'RE HATEFUL60 ,%E TURN$ H] BACK TO ME & /ORM$ \T ( ! KIT*54 

,DUR+ ! 5TIRE PA/ TWO WEEKS1 ,Y>A'S ATTITUDE T[>D ME REMA9$ :AT ,MIRNA'S HAD BE5 ON ! NI<T AFT] \R \T+ TO ! CLE>+4 ,Y>A WANT$ ME TO MOVE TO ! %$ :]E ,MIRNA HAD ONCE H\S$ H] SICK MO!R4 ,I TRI$ TO MAKE MYSELF 0UND]/&0 ,Y>A'S ATTITUDE AS A HEAL?Y REBELLION AGA9/ H] FA!R4 ,BUT ,I C\LDN'T MAKE MYSELF UND]/& ! SPECIFIC CAUSE = H] REBELLION1 NAMELY H] HY/]ICAL ATTEMPT TO COPULATE ) H] [N FA!R4 ,CONSEQU5TLY1 AL?\< ,I DID TRY TO APOLOGIZE = HAV+ HIT H]1 ,I DID NOT MAKE A S]I\S ATTEMPT TO BE H] FRI5D4 ,ON OCCASIONS :5 %E DIDN'T TURN H] BACK TO ME1 ,I TURN$ M9E TO H]4 ,ONE RESULT ( \R MUTUAL HO/ILITY WAS ?AT ,I FAIL$ TO OBS]VE :AT ,Y>A & ,MIRNA W]E DO+ DUR+ ?OSE TWO WEEKS1 & :5 !IR 0PLOT0 />T$ TO UNFOLD ,I WAS TAK5 COMPLETELY BY SURPRISE4 

,BECAUSE ( MY ANTAGONISM4 ,I GAVE ! WOR/ POSSIBLE 9T]PRETATION TO ! FEW ?+S ,I DID SEE4 ,= EXAMPLE1 E>LY ONE MORN+1 AFT] %E HAD REMOV$ ! B&AGE FROM H] JAW1 ,Y>A LEFT ! H\SE WE>+ ! SAME CO/UME %E HAD WORN TO ! DANCE AT ,MIRNA'S PLANT & TO ! \T+ TO ,MIRNA'S CLE>+4 ,I ASK$ ,MIRNA1 0,= :OSE B5EFIT IS %E P]=M+ H] ,SAB9A ROLE ?IS TIME80 

0,%E'S GO+ TO A LECTURE BE+ GIV5 BY ! FAM\S ,V]A ,KR5A10 ,MIRNA TOLD ME4 

0,9 ?AT CO/UME80 

0,& :Y NOT 9 ?AT CO/UME8 ,HAV5'T Y\ REPEAT$LY WRITT5 ,SOPHIA ?AT WE W]E ALL ACT+ UND] ! 9FLU5CE ( :AT WE LE>N$ FROM H] LETT]S80 ,MIRNA ASK$ ME1 HYPOCRITICALLY SWEET1 BUT B>ELY DISGUIS+ H] S>CASM4 

0,Y\ DON'T MEAN TO TELL ME ,Y>A IS ACT+ ON :AT WE'VE LE>N$ AB\T ,V]A'S 9FATUATION ) ,SAB9A TW5TY YE>S AGO60 

0,:Y ELSE W\LD %E BE WE>+ ?AT CO/UME80 ,MIRNA ASK$1 IRK+ ME ) ! PLAYFULNESS ( H] TONE4 

,I WAS FURI\S4 ,I IMM$IATELY DREW ! WOR/ POSSIBLE CONCLUSION4 0,Y\'RE A G5U9E MANIAC1 ,MIRNA6 ,H[ CAN Y\ PUT Y\R [N DAU<T] UP TO SOME?+ SO VILE8 ,I SUPPOSE Y\'LL S5D H] LOOK+ = A N>COTICS DEAL] NEXT60 

0,Y>O/AN1 Y\'RE A G5U9E SA9T10 %E TOLD ME ) ! SAME EXAGG]AT$ SWEETNESS4 0,JU/ LIKE MY MO!R4 ,BUT MY [N DAU<T]1 IT TURNS \T1 HAS A M9D ( H] [N & DOESN'T NE$ ME TO PUT H] UP TO ANY?+4 ,>E Y\ =GETT+ Y\ CALL$ H] MY DOCTOR80 

,( C\RSE ,I N[ SEE ?AT ,MIRNA'S S>CASM WAS P]FECTLY JU/IFI$4 ,I WAS AN ABSOLUTE HYPOCRITE4 ,:5 ,I HAD READ ! LETT]S 9 :I* Y\ HAD DESCRIB$ Y\R EXP]I5CES 9 ! G>AGE1 ,I HAD BE5 UNRES]V$LY SYMPA!TIC TO ,SAB9A1 ,TISSIE & 0!IR WORLD40 ,YET :5 ,I IMAG9$ ?AT ,MIRNA AS WELL AS TWELVE-YE> OLD ,Y>A W]E BEG9N+ !IR 0C>E]S0 AS PRO/ITUTES1 ,I REACT$ ! SAME WAY ,MIRNA'S MO!R HAD REACT$ TO H] 0DEVILS40 

,MIRNA'S BEHAVIOR DUR+ ! PA/ TWO WEEKS WAS EV5 MORE 9COMPREH5SIBLE TO ME ?AN ,Y>A'S4 ,! DAY AFT] ,Y>A'S DEP>TURE 9 H] 0,SAB9A CO/UME10 BO? W]E \T :5 ,I CAME HOME FROM ! C>TON PLANT4 ,MIRNA RETURN$ AB\T AN H\R AFT] ,I F9I%$ A LONELY SUPP]4 ,I C\LD B>ELY RECOGNIZE H]4 ,I />$ AT H]1 SPEE*LESS1 FASC9AT$ & REPELL$4 ,%E HAD TRANS=M$ H]SELF 9TO A PH5OM5ON ,I HAD NEV] SE5 ON ! /REETS ( ?IS CITY1 A PH5OM5ON ,I HAD SE5 ONLY 9 =EIGN MOTION PICTURES3 A HUMAN BODY = SALE1 A S5SUAL COMMODITY4 ,AS SOON AS %E SAW MY EXPRESSION1 %E DID ALL %E C\LD TO PROVOKE & DEEP5 MY %OCK$ DISBELIEF4 ,%E P>AD$ H]SELF 9 FRONT ( ME IMITAT+ ! PO/URES1 ! WALK & ! GE/URES ( PR(ESSIONAL 0HI< CLASS0 PRO/ITUTES WE HAD SE5 9 MOVIES4 ,9/EAD ( ! USUAL BAG HANG+ ON A %\LD]-/RAP1 %E C>RI$ A SMALL LEA!R PURSE2 %E WORE %OES ) HI< HEELS & NYLON /OCK+S1 NEI!R ( :I* %E'D EV] WORN BE=E2 H] BRI<T SKIRT 5D$ ABOVE H] KNEES2 BETWE5 H] WAI/ & H] %\LD]S %E WORE A TI<T-FITT+ SWEAT] ?AT ACC5TUAT$ ! CONT\RS ( H] L>GE BREA/S2 H] HAIR WAS EXOTICALLY /ACK$ ON H] HEAD 9 ! %APE ( A CAKE4 ,I CONV9C$ MYSELF ?AT ,MIRNA1 ONCE HAV+ REJECT$ H] MO!R'S REPRESSIVE CAUTION1 HAD TAK5 IT 9TO H] HEAD TO RELIVE EV]Y EXP]I5CE 9 ,SAB9A'S LIFE & TO 9V5T ADDITIONAL POSSIBILITIES ( H] [N4 ,I HAD ADMIR$ ,SAB9A1 ,I HAD WRITT5 Y\ ?AT ,I CONSID]$ H] WORLD TO BE M9E1 :5 Y\ HAD DESCRIB$ H] LIFE'S EXP]I5CES TO ME4 ,YET ,I />$ AT ,MIRNA ) REVULSION4 ,I KNEW ,I WAS BE+ A HYPOCRITE2 ,I KNEW ,I C\LDN'T JU/IFY MY REVULSION1 EV5 TO MYSELF4 ,I W5T TO \R B$ROOM ) TE>S 9 MY EYES1 SAY+ NO?+ TO ,MIRNA1 IGNOR+ H] UNTIL %E JO9$ ME 9 B$1 AT :I* TIME ,I TURN$ MY BACK TO H]4 

,BECAUSE ( ! FALSE CONCLUSIONS ,I DREW1 ,I FELT LIKE A /RANG] 9 MY [N H\SE4 ,I ?\<T BO? ,MIRNA & ,Y>A W]E SETT+ \T ON 0LIB]AT$0 C>E]S AS C\RTESANS OR PRO/ITUTES1 & ,I DIDN'T HAVE ! N]VE TO ASK EI!R ( !M ANY QUE/IONS4 ,AFT] \R REC5T \T+ & \R UNSUCCESSFUL CONFRONTATION ) ,TITUS1 ,I FELT AS E/RANG$ FROM ,MIRNA & ,Y>A AS ,I HAD FELT AFT] MY RELEASE FROM PRISON ?REE YE>S AGO4 ,AT ?AT TIME ,MIRNA HAD RU%$ TO WORK & BACK1 T5D$ TO ! SICK OLD WOMAN1 & SLEPT1 9DIFF]5T TO MY PRES5CE1 P]HAPS EV5 RES5TFUL AB\T ! FACT ?AT ,I REPRES5T$ YET ANO!R BURD54 ,& ,Y>A HAD AVOID$ ME AFT] %E HAD ASC]TA9$ ?AT ,I W\LD NOT HAVE BE5 LESS WILL+ ?AN ,TITUS TO GIVE ,VESNA TO ! DOCTORS4 ,MY SYMPA?Y = ,Y>A'S 0POLITICAL0 ACTIVITIES 9 H] S*OOL HAD PUT AN 5D TO H] DISAPPO9TM5T 9 ME1 BUT MY BEHAVIOR 9 ! CLE>+ REVIV$ & DEEP5$ H] DISAPPO9TM5T & TRANS=M$ IT TO HO/ILE DI/RU/4 ,FROM H] [N PO9T ( VIEW %E WAS P]FECTLY JU/IFI$4 ,I HAD BE5 REPELL$ BY ! POSSIBILITY ( 9CE/U\S LOVE ) MY [N DAU<T]4 ,SU* A POSSIBILITY HAD NEV] CROSS$ MY M9D1 & MY :OLE BE+ REJECT$ IT AS ALI5 & REPULSIVE4 ,BUT ,Y>A IS ,MIRNA'S DAU<T]2 %E'S KN[N = YE>S ?AT ,MIRNA AT ,Y>A'S AGE HAD %>$ H] B$ ) H] BRO!R & HAD DESIR$ HIM2 TO ,Y>A ?IS SEEM$ P]FECTLY UND]/&ABLE & NORMAL2 %E'S ALSO HE>D ,MIRNA EXPRESS H] LOVE = H] [N FA!R1 & EV5 H] DESIRE = SEXUAL 9T]C\RSE ) HIM4 ,I'VE ALSO BE5 FAMILI> ) ,MIRNA'S EXPRESS$ DESIRES2 ,I LE>N$ AB\T SOME ( !M FROM ,JAN AS LONG AS TW5TY YE>S AGO4 ,I'VE ALSO LE>N$ TO TAKE !M = GRANT$ AS P]FECTLY NORMAL4 ,I'VE KN[N ?AT ,MIRNA NEV] ACTUALLY REALIZ$ H] 9CE/U\S WI%ES1 & ,I TOOK !M = GRANT$ ONLY AS ! SEXUAL FANTASIES ( A LITTLE GIRL4 ,BUT :5 ,MIRNA COMMUNICAT$ H] DESIRES TO H] TWO DAU<T]S1 %E FRI<T5$ ! OLD] 9TO A PURITANICAL HY/]IA :ILE CREAT+ 9 ! Y\NG] AN UNQU5*ABLE DESIRE TO REALIZE ALL ( ,MIRNA'S UNFULFILL$ WI%ES4 

,I FELT E/RANG$ FROM MY COMPANIONS1 & ,I MADE NO ATTEMPT TO COMMUNICATE ) !M4 ,DUR+ ! PA/ WEEK & A HALF ,I DRAGG$ MYSELF TO WORK & BACK4 ,I TRANSF]R$ MY LIFE'S 9T]E/S TO ! ACTIVITY TAK+ PLACE 9 ! C>TON PLANT1 TO ! CONTACTS BE+ CREAT$ BY WORK]S ALONG ! PRODUCTION L9E 9 ORD] TO EXPLORE WAYS ( DECREAS+ ! AM\NT ( TIME WE SP5T WORK+4 ,AS SOON AS ! WORKDAY 5D$ ,I LO/ ALL MY 5?USIASM1 DRAGG$ MYSELF TO A H\SE :I* ,I KNEW W\LD BE EMPTY1 & WAIT$ ) APPREH5SION = ONE OR ! O!R 0C\RTESAN0 TO RETURN4 ,I EV5 CONSID]$ ! POSSIBILITY ( R5T+ A ROOM1 LETT+ MY COMPANIONS DEVELOP !IR NEW SELVES )\T ME4 ,I FELT ,I NO LONG] HAD ANY?+ TO CONTRIBUTE ) MY PRES5CE 9 ! H\SE4 ,I TOLD MYSELF ?AT ,MIRNA1 TW5TY-N9E YE>S OLD & FRE% \T ( A CONDITION ( DRUDG]Y ?AT WAS MAIM+ H]1 W\LD !N BE COMPLETELY FREE TO SATISFY EV]Y CONCEIVABLE PASSION & DRAMA 9 H] EXQUISITELY CON/RUCT$ SETT+S4 ,& ,I />T$ TO D\BT ?AT ,Y>A & ,I C\LD CONT9UE TO LIVE UND] ! SAME RO(4 ,I WANT$ TO APOLOGIZE = HAV+ HIT H]1 = HAV+ KICK$ ,ZD5EK1 BUT NOT = HAV+ 0DISAPPO9T$0 H]4 ,SAB9A'S MOTTO1 0,EV]Y?+ IS ALL[$10 NO LONG] R\S$ MY UNQUALIFI$ 5?USIASM4 ,I WAS NOT ABLE TO 5GAGE 9 SEXUAL 9T]C\RSE ) MY [N DAU<T]1 & ,I FELT ?AT MY CONT9U$ PRES5CE 9 ! H\SE WAS A PROVOCATION TO A DAU<T] OBSESS$ BY ! DESIRE = SU* AN EXP]I5CE1 & TO A MO!R :O WANT$ TO BE PRES5T DUR+ ! ACT SO AS TO EXP]I5CE VIC>I\SLY AN ACT :I* %E CONSID]$ ! HI<E/ PEAK ( 5JOYM5T4 ,I WAS AFRAID ?AT ! 0REVOLUTION0 ( MY TWO COMPANIONS HAD P>T$ WAYS ) M9E4 ,YE/]DAY ALL ( ?AT *ANG$4 

,YE/]DAY WAS ,SUNDAY1 ! DAY ( ,JASNA'S & ,TITUS' CELEBRATION ( !IR COM+ M>RIAGE4 ,9 ! MORN+ ,I FELT EXTREMELY IRRITABLE & APPREH5SIVE1 & ,I WAS READY TO TALK MYSELF \T ( GO+ TO ! EV5T4 ,I REMEMB]$ ,JASNA'S HAV+ BEGG$ ,MIRNA & ,Y>A NOT TO ATT5D H] CELEBRATION IF !Y /ILL RETA9$ !IR HO/ILITY T[>D ,TITUS1 & AS F> AS ,I C\LD SEE NO?+ HAD *ANG$ 9 !IR \TLOOK4 ,I BECAME EV5 MORE APPREH5SIVE :51 AFT] ! ?REE ( US ATE LUN* 9 SIL5CE1 ,Y>A RAN TO H] ROOM & RETURN$ TO ! LIV+ ROOM WE>+ H] 0,SAB9A CO/UME40 ,A FEW M9UTES LAT] ,MIRNA TURN$ UP 9 ! LIV+ ROOM 9 H] %ORT BRI<T SKIRT1 HI<-HEEL$ %OES & S$UCTIVE SWEAT] & ANN\NC$1 0,WE'RE READY40 

,I ACCOMPANI$ !M \T ( ! H\SE ONLY TO AVOID MAK+ A SC5E4 ,I WALK$ BETWE5 TWO COMPLETE /RANG]S :O1 ) !IR 0SECRETS0 & 0PLOTS0 & CO/UMES1 9HABIT$ A WORLD COMPLETELY UNFAMILI> TO ME4 ,MIRNA LOOK$ ODD4 ,9 ONE H& %E C>RI$ ! EXQUISITE LITTLE LEA!R PURSE :ILE 9 ! O!R %E LUGG$ A PEASANT'S BASKET FILL$ ) ! FOOD %E & ,Y>A HAD SP5T ! MORN+ PREP>+2 ,Y>A E>N$ ANO!R BASKET4 ,!Y DIDN'T ASK ME TO HELP C>RY ANY?+4 

,MY APPREH5SION TURN$ TO ANG] AS SOON AS WE >RIV$ AT ,JASNA'S4 ,I HAD =GOTT5 :5 ! 0CELEBRATION0 WAS TO BEG91 BUT ,I REMEMB]$ AS SOON AS ,JASNA ASK$ :Y WE HAD COME AN H\R E>LY2 ,I KNEW ?AT \R E>LY >RIVAL WAS P>T ( ,MIRNA'S 0PLOT40 ,JASNA WAS 9 AN APRON & HAD H] HAIR 9 A T[EL2 %E1 TOO1 WAS ANGRY AB\T ! FACT ?AT WE W]E AN H\R E>LY1 & H] SUSPICION WAS >\S$4 0,:AT 9 ! WORLD >E Y\ WE>+80 %E ASK$ ,MIRNA AS SOON AS WE WALK$ 94 

0,ISN'T %E POSITIVELY /UNN+80 ,Y>A ASK$ ,JASNA EXCIT$LY4 

,JASNA'S FACE FELL4 ,%E RU%$ TO ! KIT*51 !N UP/AIRS4 

,MIRNA %\T$ TO H]1 0,Y>A & ,I CAN F9I% :ATEV] /ILL HAS TO BE DONE 9 ! KIT*5 & D9+ ROOM2 Y\ JU/ GO UP & GET Y\RSELF READY10 

,JASNA HESITANTLY ACCEPT$ ,MIRNA'S (F]4 ,MIRNA & ,Y>A C>RI$ AN EXTRA TABLE FROM ! KIT*5 TO ! D9+ ROOM1 AFT] :I* !Y SET ! TABLE1 C\NT+ ! PLACES AS IF !Y KNEW EXACTLY H[ MANY GUE/S W]E COM+4 ,!Y !N PROCE$$ TO UNPACK ! FOOD FROM ! BASKETS !Y HAD BR\<T4 ,:5 ,JASNA CAME D[N %E EXCLAIM$1 0,GOOD GRIEF1 ,MIRNA6 ,DID Y\ 9VITE ALL ! PEOPLE 9 Y\R PLANT80 

0,NO1 ,JASNA4 ,I 9VIT$ ALL ! PEOPLE 9 Y\RS10 ,MIRNA TOLD H] CRYPTICALLY4 ,JASNA RAN BACK UP )\T RESPOND+1 CLE>LY BECOM+ AS APPREH5SIVE AS ,I HAD BE5 S9CE ?AT MORN+4 

,WE DIDN'T HAVE TO WAIT LONG BE=E WE />T$ TO LE>N :AT ,MIRNA MEANT4 ,FIFTE5 M9UTES AFT] \R >RIVAL1 ANO!R E>LY GUE/ KNOCK$ AT ! DOOR4 ,Y>A RAN TO OP5 IT & 9 ! DOORWAY ,I RECOGNIZ$ ,COMRADE ,V]A ,KR5A4 

,Y>A EAG]LY EXT5D$ BO? H&S TO ! ,PEOPLE'S ,REPRES5TATIVE & BEGG$ H]1 0,PLEASE DO COME 91 ,V]A40 

,! WOMAN /EPP$ 9SIDE )\T ONCE GLANC+ AT ME OR AT ! H\SE4 ,%E EMBRAC$ ,Y>A & SAID1 0,I'M 5*ANT$ TO SEE Y\ AGA96 ,I CAN'T ?ANK Y\ 5\< = 9VIT+ ME40 

,Y>A PLAC$ H] LIPS NE> ! WOMAN'S E> & :ISP]$1 0,! 5*ANTM5T IS ALL M9E40 ,I WAS C]TA9 ,I HAD BE5 RI<T AB\T ! FUNCTION ( ,Y>A'S 0,SAB9A CO/UME10 H] BLACK HAIR & EYEBR[S1 H] SLI<TLY EXOTIC JACKET & SLACKS1 H] /UDI$ CAT-LIKE GE/URES4 

,JASNA RAN D[N TO SEE :O ELSE HAD >RIV$ & /OPP$ BE=E %E REA*$ ! BOTTOM ( ! /AIRCASE1 GL>+ AT ! C\PLE EMBRAC+ BY ! DOORWAY4 0,V]A ,NEIS60 %E EXCLAIM$ ) SURPRISE1 ALMO/ ) 9DIGNATION4 

,V]A ABRUPTLY LET GO ( ,Y>A & LOOK$ >\ND = ! FIR/ TIME1 0,JASNA ,ZBRKOVA60 %E %\T$4 ,GLANC+ FROM ,JASNA TO ! LIV+ ROOM & BACK TO ! /AIRCASE1 %E EXCLAIM$1 0,BUT ?IS ISN'T ,SAB9A ,NA*ALO'S H\SE6 ,!RE'S SOME MI/AKE60 ,%E BACK$ UP T[>D ! DOOR LIKE A CORN]$ ANIMAL & REA*$ = ! KNOB4 

,Y>A BLOCK$ ! DOOR & :ISP]$ TO H]1 0,IT'S NOT A MI/AKE1 ,V]A40 

,JASNA />T$ TO GR9 AS IF %E HAD CAU<T ON4 ,%E RAN T[>D ,V]A & PULL$ H] H& AWAY FROM ! DOORKNOB4 0,>5'T Y\ GO+ TO EMBRACE ME TOO1 ,V]A8 ,I'M ALSO ,SAB9A ,NA*ALO'S FRI5D60 

,V]A1 ON ! V]GE ( TE>S1 HESITAT$ BRIEFLY BE=E %E PUT H] >M >\ND H] =M] H\SEMATE4 0,I'M T]RIBLY SORRY1 ,JASNA4 ,I DIDN'T KN[ :]E ,I WAS4 ,IT WAS SU* A %OCK40 

,JASNA1 /ILL GR9N+1 EMBRAC$ ,V]A W>MLY & TOLD H]1 0,I'M SO GLAD Y\ REMEMB] ME1 ,V]A6 ,PLEASE DO /AY4 ,Y\'RE MORE ?AN WELCOME1 NO MATT] :AT ,Y>A MADE Y\ ?9K 9 ORD] TO GET Y\ TO COME40 

,FREE+ H]SELF ( ,JASNA'S EMBRACE1 ,V]A TURN$ SUSPICI\SLY TO ,Y>A & ASK$1 0,!N IT'S NOT TRUE ?AT Y\R MO!R IS H]E80 

0,IT IS TRUE6 ,%E'S RI<T H]E60 ,Y>A %\T$4 ,%E TOOK ,V]A'S H& & PULL$ ,V]A T[>D ,MIRNA4 

,V]A CAUTI\SLY TOOK BO? ( ,MIRNA'S H&S 9 H]S4 0,IT'S NOT POSSIBLE4 ,SO Y\NG1 SO BEAUTIFUL1 YET SO TRANS=M$4 ,I'M *>M$ TO SEE Y\ AGA91 ,SAB9A --0 

,MIRNA1 GLEAM+ ) PRIDE1 GR9N$ WICK$LY4 0,! PLEASURE IS ALL M9E1 ,I ASSURE Y\4 ,I'VE LOOK$ =W>D TO ?IS MEET+ = A LONG TIME4 ,I'M ,Y>A'S MO!R --0 

0,BUT Y\'RE NOT ,SAB9A10 ,V]A AT LA/ ASC]TA9$4 ,I FELT CALL$ ON TO CONTRIBUTE1 0,Y>A IS A T]RIBLE LI> --0 

,MIRNA1 HOLD+ ON TO ,V]A'S H&S1 OBVI\SLY DEF5D$ H] COCONSPIRATOR4 0,Y>A WASN'T EXACTLY LY+2 ,%E'S MY DAU<T] ONLY PHYSICALLY4 ,9 SPIRIT %E'S ,SAB9A'S DAU<T]1 JU/ AS 9 SPIRIT ,I'M ,SAB9A'S SI/] --0 

0,!N Y\'RE --0 

0,I'M NOT ANYONE Y\'VE EV] MET2 ,I'M ,JAN ,S$LAK'S SI/]40 ,V]A GRABB$ ,Y>A'S %\LD] & SAID1 )\T BITT]NESS1 0,:Y Y\ LITTLE DEVIL60 

0,EV]Y?+ ,I TOLD Y\ IS TRUE 9 A WAY10 ,Y>A PLEAD$4 0,I SO WANT$ Y\ TO COME6 ,W\LD Y\ HAVE COME IF ,I'D TOLD Y\ ! ACTUAL TRU?80 

0,NO ,I W\LDN'T10 ,V]A ADMITT$4 ,!N ,V]A TURN$ TO ME & GUESS$1 0,SO Y\ MU/ BE ,JAN2 Y\'VE *ANG$ SO --0 

0,JAN DI$ 9 PRISON10 ,I TOLD H]4 0,I'M ,Y>O/AN40 ,WE %OOK H&S4 

0,Y>O/AN ,VO*EK6 ,H[ /UPID ( ME60 ,V]A TURN$ TO ,MIRNA & TOLD H]1 0,I'M SORRY1 ,I DIDN'T KN[40 

0,TW5TY YE>S IS A LONG TIME10 ,I TOLD H]1 0,Y>A IS \R DAU<T]40 

,V]A WAS AMAZ$4 0,Y\R DAU<T]6 ,BUT :Y DID %E BR+ ME H]E8 ,:AT'S ! OCCASION80 

0,NEI!R ,JASNA NOR ,I KNEW %E'D BR+ Y\ H]E10 ,I TOLD H]4 

,JASNA TOLD H]1 0,! OCCASION IS A CELEBRATION ( MY 5GAGEM5T TO ,TITUS ,ZABRAN4 ,SURELY Y\ REMEMB] HIM80 

0,TITUS8 ,( C\RSE ,I REMEMB] HIM6 ,BUT ?IS IS ALL SO /RANGE'4 ,I SUPPOSE ,I %\LD CONGRATULATE Y\40 

,JASNA EXPLA9$ TO H]1 0,MIRNA HAD PROMIS$ TO 9VITE C]TA9 ( ,TITUS' OLD FRI5DS4 ,BUT ,I NEV] EXPECT$ Y\ TO COME60 

,Y>A1 PUTT+ ON ! EXPRESSION ( A BEGG+ DOG1 TOLD ,V]A1 0,I HOPE Y\ >5'T T]RIBLY (F5D$40 

0,NO1 ,I SUPPOSE ,I'M NOT10 ,V]A SAID4 0,I'VE NEV] HAD A PRANK LIKE ?IS PLAY$ ON ME4 ,I'M />T+ TO UND]/& ?AT EV]Y?+ Y\ TOLD ME WAS TRUE1 9 A WAY40 

,! NEXT >RIVALS W]E ,TITUS & ,ZD5EK4 ,I WAS SURPRIS$ TO SEE !M TOGE!R4 0,H]E'S ! GROOM60 ,ZD5EK ANN\NC$ AS HE 5T]$4 

0,ZD5EK1 H[ NICE ( Y\ TO COME10 ,JASNA SAID2 !N %E TOLD ,TITUS1 0,Y\'RE JU/ 9 TIME2 ,MIRNA APP>5TLY MISUND]/OOD ! TIME & GOT H]E AN H\R E>LY4 ,& ONE ( ! GUE/S %E PROMIS$ IS ALREADY H]E40 

,TITUS NOTIC$ ,V]A1 TURN$ /IFFLY TO H] & SAID1 )\T EXT5D+ HIS H&1 0,I TAKE IT Y\'RE ! GUE/1 ,COMRADE ,KR5A4 ,I HADN'T IMAG9$ Y\'D BE 9T]E/$ 9 COM+ H]E TO LI/5 TO MY POLITICAL VIEWS4 ,I'VE HE>D MANY ( Y\RS ON ! RADIO40 

0,& Y\ DON'T AGREE ) !M80 ,V]A ASK$4 

0,I'VE NEV] BELIEV$ A REVOLUTION C\LD BE LAUN*$ BY ! TOP ( ! BUREAUCRACY10 ,TITUS TOLD H]4 

0,DON'T Y\ ?9K IT CAN AT LEA/ BE LUBRICAT$ FROM !RE80 ,V]A ASK$ HIM4 

0,I DON'T ?9K ,I'D CALL ?AT LUBRICATION10 ,TITUS TOLD H]4 ,!N HE REMEMB]$ HE WAS AT LEA/ P>TLY A HO/1 0,DO Y\ KN[ EA* O!R8 ,COMRADE ,TOB>K91 ,COMRADE ,KR5A40 

,ZD5EK1 %AK+ H&S ) ,V]A1 TOLD H]1 0,UN=TUNATELY ,I ONLY LI/5 TO ! RADIO :5 ,I'M DRUNK40 

,I HADN'T SE5 ,ZD5EK S9CE \R \T+ TO ,MIRNA'S CLE>+4 ,AT ?AT TIME ,I HAD ?\<T HIM TOO DRUNK TO BE AW>E ( :AT HE WAS DO+1 BUT ,I WAS WRONG4 ,AS HE %OOK ,V]A'S H&1 HE TURN$ HIS FACE SO ?AT NEI!R ,V]A NOR ,TITUS SAW HIM1 & HE W9K$ TO ,Y>A & ,MIRNA4 ,?AT W9K GAVE ME MY FIR/ CLUE ?AT ,ZD5EK WAS 090 ON ,MIRNA'S & ,Y>A'S GAME1 ?AT HE HAD 9 FACT BE5 ACT+ AS !IR CONF$]ATE S9CE ?AT \T+4 ,MY SUSPICION WAS CONFIRM$ BY ! WAY ,ZD5EK />T$ ! NEXT CONV]SATION4 

,HE TURN$ TO ME & SAID1 0,?IS WORLD IS AMAZ+LY SMALL1 ,Y>O/AN4 ,DO Y\ REMEMB] :5 Y\ & ,I RAN 9TO EA* O!R AT ! POLITICAL PRISON]S' CLUB FIVE OR SIX MON?S AGO80 

,?9K+ ?AT ,I WAS SPOIL+ ! 0SURPRISE0 HE WAS AB\T TO REVEAL1 ,I TOLD HIM1 0,JASNA & ,I ALREADY KN[ ?AT Y\ ALSO RAN 9TO ,TITUS AT ! POLITICAL PRISON]S' CLUB4 ,MIRNA & ,Y>A TOLD US40 

0,ZABRAN & ,I DIDN'T ONLY RUN 9TO EA* O!R !RE40 HE TOLD ME4 0,IT SO HAPP5S WE RAN 9TO EA* O!R ! SAME DAY Y\ & ,I DID4 ,ISN'T ?AT A CO9CID5CE8 ,! FIR/ TIME ,I SAW ,ZABRAN AT ! CLUB WAS AB\T HALF AN H\R BE=E ,I SAW Y\4 ,AS A MATT] ( FACT1 ,I WAS /ILL TALK+ TO HIM :5 ,I NOTIC$ Y\ --0 

,MIRNA COMM5T$1 0,?AT C]TA9LY IS A CO9CID5CE60 

0,I ?\<T Y\ DIDN'T BELIEVE 9 CO9CID5CES10 ,I SAID TO H]4 

,ZD5EK CONT9U$1 0,ON \R WAY H]E ,I WAS TRY+ TO REM9D ,ZABRAN ( ?AT DAY4 ,ZABRAN & ,I >E PRACTICALLY NEI<BORS1 Y\ KN[4 ,HE DOESN'T REMEMB] ?AT DAY4 ,( C\RSE SIX MON?S AGO ,I HAD NO IDEA Y\ & ,ZABRAN KNEW EA* O!R4 ,I RU%$ TO GREET Y\4 ,:5 ,I TURN$ TO 9TRODUCE Y\ TO EA* O!R1 ,ZABRAN WAS GONE40 

,I WAS IRRITAT$ BY ,ZD5EK'S SUGGE/ION ?AT ,TITUS HAD SE5 ME AT ?AT MEET+ & AVOID$ ME4 0,!RE W]E A LOT ( PEOPLE AT ?AT MEET+1 ,ZD5EK1 & ,I'M NOT SURPRIS$ HE DIDN'T SEE ME !RE2 ,I DIDN'T SEE HIM !RE EI!R10 

,ZD5EK ASK$ ME1 0,W\LDN'T Y\ HAVE TURN$ TO LOOK IF SOMEONE HAD %\T$ HIS NAME80 

,I REMEMB]$ ! OCCASION4 ,ZD5EK HAD %\T$ 0,Y>O/AN60 V]Y L\DLY4 ,I LOOK$ T[>D ,TITUS = A CLUE1 BUT HE WAS HELP+ ,JASNA SET ! TABLE & SEEM$ 9DIFF]5T TO ,ZD5EK'S 0CO9CID5CE40 ,I REM9D$ ,ZD5EK1 0,ALMO/ ALL ! PEOPLE 9 ?AT ROOM W]E %\T+ ! NAMES ( ACQUA9TANCES !Y RECOGNIZ$40 ,I FELT UNEASY4 ,I WAS GLAD :5 ,ZD5EK'S ATT5TION TURN$ AWAY FROM ME4 

,V]A & ,Y>A W]E TALK+ QUIETLY TO EA* O!R 9 A CORN] ( ! LIV+ ROOM4 ,I W\LDN'T HAVE NOTIC$ ! EXTREMELY FLIRTATI\S *>ACT] ( !IR EX*ANGE IF ,SAB9A HADN'T 0REM9D$0 ME ( ,V]A'S FLIRTATION ) H] TW5TY YE>S AGO4 ,9 ,JASNA'S LIV+ ROOM ! 9ITIATIVE WAS NOT EXCLUSIVELY ,V]A'S4 ,Y>A1 DO+ AN EXCELL5T IMITATION ( ! LITTLE GYPSY ,I REMEMB]$1 MADE NO EF=T TO HIDE H] ADMIRATION = ! WOMAN :O HAD BE5 ! C5TRAL TOPIC ( H] GOSSIP ) ,JULIA = ! PA/ YE>4 ,APP>5TLY ,Y>A'S E/EEM GREW :5 ,V]A BECAME ! TRIBUNE ( ! RE=MI/ W+ ( ! GOV]NM5T4 ,MIRNA1 :O HAD BE5 PAC+ IMPATI5TLY BETWE5 ! KIT*5 CLOCK & ! FRONT DOOR1 SAT D[N ON ! $GE ( A C\* NE> ,V]A & ,Y>A4 ,ZD5EK ALSO TURN$ TO LI/5 TO !M4 

,V]A WAS ASK+ ,Y>A1 0,BUT :Y DID Y\ 9TRODUCE Y\RSELF AS ,SAB9A ,NA*ALO'S DAU<T]8 ,( ALL ! PEOPLE 9 ?IS ROOM1 Y\ & Y\R MO!R >E ! ONLY ONES :O DIDN'T KN[ ,SAB9A60 

0,OH1 BUT ,MIRNA DID KN[ ,SAB9A60 ,Y>A PROTE/$4 

0,I DO REMEMB] ?AT ,SAB9A & ,JAN W]E GOOD FRI5DS --0 

,MIRNA 9T]RUPT$ ,V]A4 0,SAB9A & ,I W]E MORE ?AN GOOD FRI5DS4 ,WE W]E ALMO/ SI/]S1 & 9 SOME WAYS MU* MORE ?AN SI/]S --0 

,V]A SEEM$ EMB>RASS$ BY ,MIRNA'S TONE4 0,BUT :5 DID Y\ KN[ ,SAB9A8 ,=GIVE ME = D\BT+ Y\1 BUT Y\ SEEM SO Y\NG1 & ,I HAD ?\<T ,SAB9A HAD EMIGRAT$ TW5TY YE>S AGO --0 

,MIRNA1 LOOK+ PA/ ,V]A ) H] DI/ANT LOOK1 TOLD H]1 0,SAB9A & ,I W]E TOGE!R = A DAY OR TWO :5 ! REVOLUTION />T$ TO BREAK \T --0 

0,Y\ MEAN :5 ?AT [N] WAS \/$ FROM ! C>TON PLANT80 ,V]A ASK$4 ,SUDD5LY %E BLU%$ 9T5SELY & TURN$ H] FACE AWAY FROM ,MIRNA'S2 %E PROBABLY ASSUM$ ,SAB9A HAD AT ?AT TIME TOLD ,MIRNA AB\T ,V]A'S SECRET PASSION4 ,= AN 9/ANT ,V]A SEEM$ V]Y EMB>RASS$4 ,ABRUPTLY *ANG+ ! SUBJECT1 %E ASK$ ,Y>A POLITELY1 0,DO Y\ HAVE ANY BRO!RS OR SI/]S80 

,Y>A TOLD H]1 0,I HAD A SI/]1 BUT %E WAS ! EXACT OPPOSITE ( ,SAB9A4 ,H] NAME WAS ,VESNA40 

0,:Y DO Y\ SAY 'WAS'80 

0,%E DI$ ?REE YE>S AGO10 ,Y>A TOLD H]4 

,V]A REA*$ = ,Y>A'S H& AS %E SAID1 0,H[ AWFUL60 ,%E TURN$ TO ,MIRNA & TOLD H]1 0,I'M SO SORRY4 ,H[ DID %E DIE80 

,LOOK+ 9 ,TITUS' DIRECTION1 ,Y>A SAID1 0,MR4 ,ZABRAN KN[S H[ ,VESNA DI$4 ,HE HELP$ H]40 

,JASNA 9T]V5$ 9 ! CONV]SATION4 0,TITUS TOOK ,VESNA TO ! HOSPITAL4 ,HE DID :AT EV]YONE W\LD HAVE DONE40 

,MIRNA1 :O WAS AGA9 PAC+ IMPATI5TLY1 SAID1 0,YES1 EV]YONE W\LD HAVE DONE IT EXCEPT ! GIRL'S [N MO!R & SI/]4 ,NO ONE W\LD HAVE BELIEV$ ?AT ! GIRL'S SI/] UND]/OOD MORE AB\T ! ILLNESS ?AN ! DOCTORS DID40 

,JASNA GAVE ,MIRNA A PLEAD+ LOOK & ASK$ H]4 0,DID Y\ REALLY COME TO BR+ ?AT UP --0 

,TITUS 5T]$ ! CONV]SATION2 HE COMM5T$1 )\T A TRACE ( HO/ILITY1 0,IT IS TO BE EXPECT$ ?AT :5 A PATI5T DIES1 ! DOCTORS >E BLAM$ & NOT ! DISEASE --0 

,JASNA TRI$ TO OBJECT TO ?IS =MULATION4 0,Y>A & ,MIRNA DID KN[ --0 

,BUT ,TITUS CONT9U$1 0,( C\RSE1 GIV5 ! DOCTORS' FAILURE TO DIAGNOSE ! DISEASE 9 TIME1 ANYONE'S GUESS SEEM$ EQUALLY GOOD4 ,BUT ?IS REASON+ IS 9CORRECT4 ,! DOCTORS PROCE$$ ON ! BASIS ( ! MO/ ADVANC$ SCI5CE AVAILABLE TO !M1 ON ! BASIS ( OBJECTIVE & NOT 9/9CTIVE ANALYSIS1 ) EXACT PROC$URES = ANALYZ+1 ISOLAT+1 NEUTRALIZ+ & REMOV+ ! DISEASE4 ,?US ALL GUESSES W]E NOT EQUALLY VALID4 ,ONLY ! DOCTORS' DIAGNOSIS WAS CAPABLE ( RE/OR+ ! *ILD'S HEAL?40 

,Y>A PROTE/$1 0,! ONLY ?+ ,MR4 ,ZABRAN & ! DOCTORS DIDN'T KN[ WAS ?AT !RE WAS NO?+ WRONG ) ,VESNA4 ,IT WAS ! HOSPITAL & ! DOCTORS ?AT MADE H] SICK4 ,!Y KILL$ H]60 

,MIRNA HURRI$LY PULL$ ,Y>A TO ! OPPOSITE COM] ( ! LIV+ ROOM1 NE> :]E ,I WAS /&+ ) ,ZD5EK1 & :ISP]$1 0,DON'T />T ?AT YET1 ,Y>A6 ,WAIT UNTIL !Y'RE ALL H]E60 

,Y>A :ISP]$1 0,I C\LDN'T HELP IT2 HE />T$ IT40 

,MEAN:ILE ,V]A WAS ASK+ ,TITUS1 0,:AT WAS WRONG ) ! *ILD8 ,I DON'T UND]/&60 

,JASNA TOLD H]1 0,!RE WAS NO?+ WRONG ) H]2 UN=TUNATELY NO ONE BELIEV$ ,Y>A40 

,TITUS SEEM$ IRRITAT$ BY ,JASNA'S COMM5T4 0,>E WE TO BELIEVE1 ?REE YE>S AFT] ! FACT1 ?AT AN EI<T-YE> OLD *ILD WAS MORE KN[L$GEABLE 9 M$IC9E ?AN ! /AFFS ( TWO HOSPITALS8 ,IF NO?+ WAS WRONG ) ! GIRL1 ?IS WAS = ! DOCTORS TO DET]M9E1 NOT = LAY PEOPLE UNFAMILI> ) M$IC9E1 & C]TA9LY NOT AN EI<T-YE> OLD60 

,JASNA OBJECT$ MEEKLY1 0,?AT'S NOT ALWAYS TRUE1 ,TITUS4 ,9 ?IS CASE --0 

,TITUS CUT H] %ORT4 0,EXCUSE ME ,JASNA1 BUT IT'S TRUE 9 EV]Y CASE4 ,! RESPONSIBILITY ( ANY REASONABLE ADULT IS TO GET A SICK P]SON TO A HOSPITAL1 NOT TO CONSULT A SE] OR A *ILD AS TO :E!R ! P]SON'S CONDITION W>RANTS A DOCTOR'S 9T]V5TION4 ,A REASONABLE P]SON'S RESPONSIBILITY BEG9S & 5DS ) PUTT+ A SICK P]SON 9 ! C>E ( PEOPLE :O >E EXP]TS 9 DISEASE4 ,IT IS ! RESPONSIBILITY ( ! EXP]TS TO DIAGNOSE ! DISEASE & PRESCRIBE ! CURE4 ,UN=TUNATELY ! EXP]TS >E NOT OMNISCI5T2 !Y'RE LIMIT$ BY ! PRES5T /ATE ( DEVELOPM5T ( M$ICAL KN[L$GE4 ,BUT )9 ?IS LIMIT IT IS OBVI\S ?AT TWO COMPET5T /AFFS ( DOCTORS UND]/OOD ,VESNA'S CONDITION 9F9ITELY BETT] ?AN ,Y>A6 ,IT IS ( C\RSE CONCEIVABLE1 BUT EXTREMELY UNLIKELY1 ?AT ,VESNA'S DEA? MAY HAVE BE5 CAUS$ BY A MI/AKE ON !IR P>T4 ,I'M CONV9C$ ,VESNA WAS 9 A CONDITION :I* C\LDN'T BE CUR$40 

,JASNA P]SI/$4 0,Y\ ADMIT ! DOCTORS C\LD HAVE MADE A MI/AKE4 ,I'M CONV9C$ !Y MADE A T]RIBLE MI/AKE4 ,VESNA W\LD /ILL BE ALIVE TODAY IF Y\ HAD LI/5$ TO ,Y>A --0 

,TITUS SAID ANGRILY1 0,IT IS 9CONCEIVABLE TO ME ?AT ,MIRNA OR ,Y>A OR ,VESNA H]SELF C\LD HAVE BE5 BETT] 9=M$ AB\T ,VESNA'S HEAL? ?AN PEOPLE :O SPECIALIZE 9 ! FIELD ( HEAL?60 

,V]A ASK$1 0,AM ,I TO UND]/& A P]FECTLY HEAL?Y *ILD WAS TAK5 TO ! HOSPITAL & DI$ !RE80 

,JASNA TOLD H]1 0,I'M SORRY ?IS CAME UP BECAUSE IT'S F> TOO COMPLICAT$ TO EXPLA94 ,:AT ,TITUS DID WAS :AT ALMO/ EV]Y REASONABLE P]SON W\LD HAVE DONE4 ,I'M ! ONE :O TOLD ,TITUS ?AT ,VESNA WAS ILL4 ,%E HAD BE5 ABS5T FROM S*OOL4 ,Y>O/AN WAS /ILL 9 PRISON4 ,MIRNA WORK$ ALL DAY & SUPPORT$ NOT ONLY H] TWO DAU<T]S BUT A P>ALYZ$ MO!R AS WELL4 ,TITUS RU%$ TO ,MIRNA'S H\SE AS SOON AS ,I TOLD HIM4 ,:AT HE F\ND !RE W\LD HAVE AL>M$ ANYONE2 IT C]TA9LY AL>M$ ME :5 HE DESCRIB$ IT4 ,VESNA WAS 9 H] P>ALYZ$ GR&MO!R'S B$ & SEEM$ DEA?LY ILL2 %E DIDN'T EAT1 %E HAD A HI< TEMP]ATURE & %E BECAME HY/]ICAL :5EV] ANYONE ?REAT5$ TO REMOVE H] FROM ! OLD WOMAN'S ROOM --0 

,V]A SAID ) CONVICTION1 0,IT SEEMS P]FECTLY OBVI\S TO ME ?AT ! RI<T ?+ TO DO WAS TO HAVE ! *ILD SEE A DOCTOR AS SOON AS POSSIBLE40 ,I />$ AT ,Y>A 7) 9T5SE SATISFACTION1 ,I HAVE TO ADMIT7 :ILE ,V]A ,KR5A SAID !SE WORDS4 ,Y>A'S EYES LOOK$ AT ,V]A ) A HO/ILITY ?AT HAD LONG BE5 FAMILI> TO ME2 ! ROMANCE WAS OV]4 

,I TRI$ TO TAKE UP ,JASNA'S >GUM5T4 0,I WASN'T HOME AT ! TIME1 AS ,JASNA TOLD Y\4 ,IF ,I HAD BE51 ,I W\LD PROBABLY HAVE 9SI/$ ?AT ,VESNA BE TAK5 TO ! HOSPITAL4 ,BUT ,Y>A & ,MIRNA HAVE BO? CONV9C$ ME ?AT ! DOCTORS DID NOT 9 FACT KN[ BETT]1 ?AT ,VESNA W\LD HAVE RECOV]$1 9 H] [N /RANGE WAY1 IF %E'D BE5 LEFT 9 ! OLD WOMAN'S ROOM4 ,I'M CONV9C$ %E'D BE AMONG US TODAY --0 

,Y>A SEEM$ SURPRIS$2 %E LOOK$ 9TO MY EYES ) GRATITUDE4 ,%E WAS PROBABLY SURPRIS$ ?AT ,I WAS 0CONV9C$10 S9CE ,I HAD ONLY REC5TLY BE5 READY TO ?R[ ,MIRNA TO ! DOCTORS TO SAVE H] FROM ! SAME 0SICKNESS40 

,BUT ,TITUS WAS 9FURIAT$ BY MY 9T]V5TION4 0,Y\ DON'T KN[ :AT Y\'RE TALK+ AB\T1 ,Y>O/AN6 ,QUE/IONS ( HEAL? & DISEASE >E 9 ! DOMA9 ( SCI5CE1 NOT SUBJECTS = *ILDR5'S FAIRY TALES OR UN9=M$ SPECULATION60 

,TO :I* ,V]A ADD$1 0,I MU/ SAY ,I EMPHATICALLY AGREE ) ,TITUS6 ,I SIMPLY CAN'T IMAG9E A SICK *ILD BE+ LEFT )\T M$ICAL C>E BECAUSE H] EI<T-YE> OLD SI/] AFFIRM$ ?AT %E WASN'T SICK4 ,I F9D Y\R >GUM5TS /RANGE1 TO SAY ! LEA/60 

,JASNA /ILL PROTE/$1 0,Y\ DON'T UND]/& ! SPECIFIC CONDITION ,VESNA WAS 9 --0 

,JASNA WAS 9T]RUPT$ BY A KNOCK ON ! DOOR4 ,MIRNA RAN TO ! DOOR2 ?IS WAS ! KNOCK %E HAD BE5 WAIT+ =4 ,ALL EYES W]E ON H] AS %E /OPP$ BE=E OP5+ ! DOOR1 /RAI<T5$ H] HAIR1 PULL$ H] SWEAT] D[N TI<TLY4 ,%E TOOK ON A RELAX$ POSE & TURN$ TO LOOK AT US ) A PROVOCATIVE SMILE BE=E %E F9ALLY REA*$ = ! DOORKNOB4 ,I W\LD NEV] HAVE IMAG9$ H] CAPABLE ( SU* S5SU\S GE/URES1 ( ACT+ LIKE SU* A C\RTESAN4 ,BUT MY RI<TE\S %OCK QUICKLY GAVE WAY TO QUIET LAU<T]4 ,! SC5E 9 ! DOORWAY BECAME COMICAL4 ,A *AUFFEUR-DRIV5 LIM\S9E ( ! TYPE RES]V$ = DIPLOMATS & HI< GOV]NM5T (FICIALS WAS VISIBLE 9 ! /REET1 AL?\< ! DOORWAY ITSELF WAS ALMO/ COMPLETELY BLOCK$ BY A %ORT1 EXTREMELY HEAVY MAN4 ,HE WAS DRESS$ 9 A *ECK]$ 0SPORTS0 JACKET & :ITE %OES :I* SEEM$ COMPLETELY 9APPROPRIATE ON SU* A L>GE MAN2 ,I =GET :AT COLOR PANTS HE WORE2 IT WAS OBVI\S ?AT ALL HIS CLO!S HAD BE5 MADE 9 ! MO/ EXP5SIVE TAILOR+ E/ABLI%M5T1 OR ABROAD4 ,) A 0*IVALRY0 ?AT MADE HIM LOOK GROTESQUE1 HE RAIS$ ,MIRNA'S H& TO HIS LIPS4 ,I ALMO/ LAU<$ \T L\D :5 ! MAN BE/[$ A KISS ON ! R\< H& ( ! WOMAN :O HAD NOT 9 FACT SP5T H] LIFE AS A C\RTESAN BUT AS A FACTORY WORK]4 

,MIRNA SAID TO HIM1 9 H] BE/ C9EMA-LE>N$ MANN]1 0,H[ EXQUISITE6 ,PLEASE DO COME 960 

,HOLD+ ON TO ,MIRNA'S H& AS HE FOLL[$ H] 9TO ! ROOM1 ! MAN GLANC$ HA/ILY FROM ,MIRNA'S BOSOM TO ! FEET ( ! O!R PEOPLE /&+ 9 ! ROOM4 ,HE DROPP$ ,MIRNA'S H& ABRUPTLY & :ISP]$1 ) EVID5T SURPRISE1 0,I HAD EXPECT$ TO F9D Y\ ALONE40 

0,OH PLEASE DON'T BE (F5D$60 ,MIRNA BEGG$4 0,EV]Y ONE ( ! PEOPLE 9 ! ROOM IS A GOOD FRI5D ( ,LUISA'S40 ,I WAS />TL$2 SO WAS EV]YONE ELSE EXCEPT ,Y>A1 :O GR9N$ MIS*IEV\SLY4 

,! MAN SAID TO ,MIRNA1 /ILL 9 A :ISP] BUT ) ! AU?ORITATIVE TONE ( SOMEONE US$ TO COMM&+1 0,I HAD LOOK$ =W>D TO A TETE-A-TETE ) Y\1 MY DE>4 ,IF Y\ WILL DO ME ! HONOR ( ACCOMPANY+ ME TO A CAFE --0 

,MIRNA PLAC$ BO? H] H&S ON HIS4 0,I'M FLATT]$ BEYOND WORDS6 ,I'D LIKE NO?+ BETT] ?AN A TETE-A-TETE ) Y\1 & AFT]W>DS WE C\LD GO TO A CAFE1 JU/ ! TWO ( US4 ,BUT PLEASE WAIT A :ILE4 ,:5 ,I TOLD ,LUISA'S O!R FRI5DS H[ *>M+ Y\ W]E1 !Y ALL 9SI/$ ,I 9TRODUCE !M TO Y\1 & !Y'D SIMPLY BE HE>TBROK5 IF ,I KEPT Y\ ALL TO MYSELF --0 

,! MAN />T$ MOV+ BACK T[>D ! DOOR4 0,I ASSURE Y\ ,I'M NOT 9 A M5TAL OR PHYSICAL CONDITION TO MEET ,LUISA'S FRI5DS4 ,IF Y\ C\LD >RANGE TO EXT5D Y\R /AY1 AT LEA/ BY ONE DAY1 ,I'M SURE WE C\LD F9D ANO!R OCCASION --0 

,MIRNA LIFT$ ONE ( HIS H&S1 PRESS$ IT TI<TLY BETWE5 H] BREA/S1 & TOLD HIM ) AN IRRESI/IBLY S$UCTIVE TONE1 0,I'LL DO ANY?+1 ANY?+ AT ALL1 IF Y\'LL ONLY DO ME ! HONOR ( LETT+ ME 9TRODUCE Y\4 ,TOMORR[ WILL BE TOO LATE4 ,?IS IS ! LA/ DAY WE'LL ALL BE TOGE!R1 S9CE ,I HAVE A RES]VATION4 ,PLEASE DO ME ?AT FAVOR40 

,! MAN SEEM$ DEFEAT$4 ,HE LOOK$ AT ! O!R PEOPLE 9 ! ROOM = ! FIR/ TIME4 ,HIS FACE EXPRESS$ %OCK$ DISBELIEF :5 HIS EYES FOCUS$ ON ,V]A ,KR5A4 ,PULL+ HIS H& AWAY FROM ,MIRNA'S BOSOM1 HE EXCLAIM$1 0,Y\60 

,V]A BUR/ \T LAU<+4 0,( C\RSE6 ,WASN'T ,I ONE ( ,LUISA'S BE/ FRI5DS80 

,N>R[+ HIS EYES1 HE ASK$ ,V]A SUSPICI\SLY1 0,>E Y\ & ! SO-CALL$ RE=M P>TY BEH9D ?IS80 

0,I ONLY WI% WE W]E60 ,V]A TOLD HIM4 

,JU/ !N ,TITUS PULL$ ME TO ! HALLWAY BETWE5 ! LIV+ ROOM & ! D9+ ROOM4 0,:AT K9D ( JOKE IS ?IS8 ,I HAD ?\<T ,MIRNA WAS GO+ TO 9VITE WORK]S1 PEOPLE LIKE ,ZD5EK ,TOB>K91 = A S]I\S POLITICAL DISCUSSION40 

,I TOLD ,TITUS1 0,I HAVE NO IDEA :AT ,MIRNA & ,Y>A >E UP TO4 ,I WASN'T 9 ON !IR GAME1 ,I HAVE NO SYMPA?Y = IT1 & ,I DON'T KN[ :O ?AT MAN IS40 

0,Y\ KN[ P]FECTLY WELL :O HE IS60 ,TITUS SAID 9DIGNANTLY4 0,DO Y\ TAKE ME = A FOOL80 

0,HONE/LY1 ,TITUS1 ,I'VE NEV] SE5 HIM BE=E 9 MY LIFE60 ,I ASSUR$ HIM4 

,TITUS !N TOLD ME1 0,?AT IS ! REC5TLY DEMOT$ MEMB] ( ! C5TRAL COMMITTEE ( ! /ATE PLANN+ COMMISSION60 

,I BUR/ \T LAU<+ & ASK$ V]Y L\DLY1 0,?AT FAT MAN IS ,M>C ,GLAVNI80 ,I WAS IMM$IATELY EMB>RASS$ BY MY 9VOLUNT>Y \TBUR/1 & ,I LOOK$ 9TO ! LIV+ ROOM TO SEE IF ANYONE HAD HE>D ME4 ,APP>5TLY NO ONE HAD1 AL?\< ,MIRNA W9K$ AT ME :5 ,I LOOK$ 94 ,MY \TBUR/ WAS A SUDD5 RELEASE ( TWO WEEKS ( T5SION4 ,IT SUDD5LY DAWN$ ON ME ?AT ALL MY SPECULATIONS AB\T ,MIRNA'S 0ACTIVITIES0 ) H] PROVOCATIVE CO/UME HAD BE5 WRONG1 ?AT ! 5TIRE MASQU]ADE HAD BE5 CONCEIV$ ) ONE AIM 9 VIEW3 TO 5TICE ! DEMOT$ MEMB] ( ! C5TRAL COMMITTEE TO ,TITUS' & ,JASNA'S CELEBRATION4 ,I TOLD ,TITUS1 0,I'M AWFULLY SORRY6 ,I REALLY HAD NO IDEA :O HE WAS40 

0,DON'T APOLOGIZE2 ,I BELIEVE Y\10 ,TITUS SAID4 0,I ?9K ,I'M />T+ TO UND]/&4 ,%E'S 9TRODUC+ HIM TO ! FRI5DS ( ,LUISA ,NA*ALO4 ,?AT'S V]Y FUNNY 9DE$1 S9CE HE WAS H] LOV] ONCE --0 

,I SAID1 0,DON'T HOLD ?AT AGA9/ HIM40 

,TITUS CONT9U$1 0,I %\LD HAVE KN[N BETT] ?AN TO EXPECT ,MIRNA ,S$LAK TO BE S]I\S4 ,H[ WELL DID Y\ KN[ H] FA!R8 ,HE WAS ! %REWDE/1 MO/ CALCULAT+ PEASANT ,I EV] MET4 ,JAN & ,MIRNA BO? TOOK AFT] HIM3 EXTREMELY %REWD PRANK/]S4 ,9 ! LA/ ANALYSIS !Y BO? BECAME DILETTANTES DESPITE !IR PEASANT ORIG9S40 

0,BO? ( !M W]E MY CLOSE/ COMPANIONS10 ,I REM9D$ HIM4 

0,H[ WELL ,I KN[60 HE EXCLAIM$4 0,& ,I SUPPOSE Y\ /ILL AGREE ) ,JAN6 ,JU/ PU% ALL ! MA*9]Y 9TO ! /REETS & PLAY ) IT LIKE LITTLE *ILDR51 BOSSES TOGE!R ) WORK]S6 ,MIRNA OBVI\SLY AGREES ) ?AT6 ,%E'S AS BL9D TO ! CLASS /RUGGLE AS ,JAN WAS6 ,:AT K9D ( S]I\S POLITICAL DISCUSSION CAN TAKE PLACE BETWE5 ! HI<E/ FUNCTION>IES & ! L[E/ WORK]S8 ,!RE'S OBVI\SLY NO POSSIBILITY = POLITICAL REGR\PM5T BETWE5 ! PROLET>IAT & ITS CLASS 5EMIES60 

,MY ATT5TION WAS DRAWN TO ! LIV+ ROOM2 ,JASNA WAS %\T+4 ,I DI/RACT$LY :ISP]$ TO ,TITUS1 0,I'M AS SURPRIS$ AS Y\ >E BY ,MIRNA'S BIZ>RE *OICE ( GUE/S40 

0,AT LEA/ OLD ,S$LAK'S FRAME ( REF]5CE WAS ALWAYS CLE>LY DEF9$10 HE TOLD ME4 0,I NEV] ACQUIR$ A TA/E = ,JAN'S OR ,MIRNA'S PRANKS1 :I* ALWAYS LACK$ A FRAME ( REF]5CE DUE TO ! FACT ?AT !Y W]E NO LONG] PEASANTS BUT W]E NOT YET 9TEGRAT$ 9TO ! WORK+ CLASS40 

,WE MOV$ BACK 9TO ! LIV+ ROOM4 ,JASNA WAS %\T+ AT ,GLAVNI3 0,DON'T TELL ME ! WELL-BE+ ( WORK]S IS MORE IMPORTANT TO Y\ ?AN Y\R C>E]6 ,:5 C]TA9 WORK]S W]E 9 PRISON1 ALL ( !M ONE-TIME COMRADES ( Y\RS1 Y\ W]E P]FECTLY WILL+ TO SACRIFICE !IR FRE$OM1 EV5 !IR LIVES1 TO SALVAGE Y\R C>E]60 

,M>C WAS SITT+ ON ! C\*4 ,MIRNA SAT NEXT TO HIM & HELD HIS H& 9 H] LAP4 ,M>C SAID TO ,JASNA1 0,I HAVE NO IDEA :AT Y\'RE TALK+ AB\T40 

0,Y\ KN[ EXACTLY :AT ,I'M TALK+ AB\T60 ,JASNA SNAPP$4 0,TWELVE YE>S AGO EV]Y S+LE P]SON 9 ?IS ROOM RI<T N[1 EXCEPT ,MIRNA & ,Y>A1 WAS >RE/$4 ,A LETT] HAD COME FROM :AT ! POLICE CALL$ ! ,ALB]TS SPY R+4 ,WE N[ KN[ ONE COPY ( ! LETT] WAS DELIV]$ TO AN (FICIAL1 NAMELY TO Y\6 ,& Y\ CLE>$ Y\RSELF BY *>G+ ! O!RS ) BE+ AG5TS ( ?AT SO-CALL$ SPY R+60 

,M>C RESPOND$ PATI5TLY1 0,I REMEMB] ! >RE/S1 ,COMRADE ,ZBRKOVA1 BUT ?IS /ORY ( A SPY R+ IS NEW TO ME40 

0,IT'S NOT NEW TO ANY ( US60 ,JASNA %\T$4 0,Y\R =M] MI/RESS ,LUISA ,NA*ALO WAS SUPPOS$ TO BE ONE ( ! 9T]NATIONAL LEAD]S ( ?AT R+60 

0,I WAS TOLD SU* A /ORY AFT] MY FIR/ >RE/ TW5TY YE>S AGO10 ,M>C ADMITT$4 0,BUT ,I C\LD NEV] MAKE MYSELF BELIEVE ,LUISA WAS CAPABLE ( SU* ACTIVITY40 

0,COMRADE ,GLAVNI1 Y\'RE A BIG HYPOCRITE60 ,JASNA %\T$4 0,:5 Y\R C>E] WAS 9 QUE/ION Y\ DIDN'T ONLY PRET5D TO BELIEVE ,LUISA WAS AN 9T]NATIONAL SPY1 Y\ W5T ON TO ACCUSE O!RS ( BE+ H] ACCOMPLICES60 

,MIRNA TOOK UP H] GUE/'S DEF5SE ) A HYPOCRISY ?AT 9FURIAT$ ,JASNA4 0,:AT Y\'RE SAY+ SEEMS COMPLETELY ILLOGICAL1 ,COMRADE ,ZBRKOVA4 ,IF ,M>C G5U9ELY BELIEV$1 OR EV5 PRET5D$ TO BELIEVE1 ?AT ,LUISA ,NA*ALO WAS AN 9T]NATIONAL SPY1 W\LD HE HAVE COME H]E = A GET-TOGE!R ) ! BE/ FRI5DS ( ?AT ACCOMPLICE TO AN 9T]NATIONAL SPY80 ,!N ,MIRNA TURN$ TO ,M>C & ASK$ HIM1 0,C\LD Y\ BE SO *>M$ BY ME AS TO BE WILL+ TO 5DANG] Y\R 5TIRE C>E] = MY SAKE80 

0,Y\'RE BE+ POSITIVELY HATEFUL60 ,JASNA %\T$ AT ,MIRNA4 0,JAN WAS KILL$ BECAUSE ( ?IS MAN4 ,Y>O/AN & ,ADRIAN W]E GIV5 LONG PRISON T]MS BECAUSE !Y HAD SUPPOS$LY TRI$ TO 9CRIM9ATE SU* A HI< P]SONAGE AS ,COMRADE ,M>C ,GLAVNI --0 

0,IF Y\'RE TALK+ AB\T ! REHABILITATION PROCE$+S1 ,I MU/ PO9T \T ?AT IT WASN'T ,I BUT ,COMRADE ,KR5A & H] HUSB& :O 9ITIAT$ !M40 ,AS HE SAID ?IS1 ,M>C MADE A SLI<T B[ 9 ! DIRECTION ( ,V]A4 

,V]A JUMP$4 0,Y\'RE QUITE AN EXP]T AT MAK+ 9S9UATIONS & />T+ RUMORS1 >5'T Y\1 ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI80 

,M>C %[$ A TRACE ( ANG] = ! FIR/ TIME4 0,P>DON ME1 ,COMRADE ,KR5A8 ,IT'S COMMON KN[L$GE ?AT Y\ & ,PR(ESSOR ,KR5 9ITIAT$ --0 

,V]A HISS$ AT HIM1 0,BE=E SOME?+ BECOMES COMMON KN[L$GE1 IT IS A MALICI\SLY CIRCULAT$ RUMOR1 & RUMORS BEG9 SOME:]E1 !Y HAVE A SPECIFIC ORIG9 --0 

,M>C CUT 91 0,COMRADE ,KR5 9ITIAT$ ! REHABILITATION PROCE$+S AS SOON AS --0 

0,I'M NOT TALK+ AB\T ?AT /UPID >RE/60 ,V]A %\T$4 0,I'M TALK+ AB\T CURR5T RUMORS6 ,!RE >E SOME PEOPLE :O'D LOVE TO DRAG MY NAME ?R\< MUD1 & ALMO/ ALL ( !M >E MEMB]S ( ?AT CONS]VATIVE BUREAUCRATIC CLIQUE Y\'RE ALIGN$ ) --0 

,M>C COMM5T$1 0,I BELIEVE Y\R HUSB& IS SIMIL>LY ALIGN$ --0 

0,PRECISELY60 ,V]A %\T$4 0,& ! RUMORS HAVE ALREADY REA*$ HIS E>S60 

0,HE MU/ HAVE L>G] E>S ?AN M9E10 ,M>C TOLD H]4 0,I HAVE NO IDEA :AT RUMORS Y\'RE REF]R+ TO4 ,Y\R SPEE*ES DISCR$IT Y\ AMPLY 5\<40 

,V]A CONT9U$1 0,!RE >E V]Y FEW PEOPLE 9 ! WORLD :O KN[ ANY?+ ( MY PRIVATE LIFE --0 

0,SURELY Y\'RE EXAGG]AT+10 ,M>C SAID4 0,Y\R AFFAIR ) ! /&>D ( LIV+ COMMISSION] HAS BE5 A PUBLIC SECRET = A V]Y LONG TIME2 Y\ H>DLY KEEP IT TO A SMALL NUMB] ( PEOPLE --0 

,V]A SAID D>KLY1 0,Y\ KN[ P]FECTLY WELL ?AT'S NOT :AT ,I'M TALK+ AB\T1 ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI4 ,Y\'RE ONE ( ! V]Y FEW PEOPLE :O C\LD POSSIBLY BE AT ! S\RCE ( ! VICI\S SL&] ?AT'S BE+ CIRCULAT$ AB\T ME1 ?AT MALICI\S RUMOR AB\T MY AFFAIR ) ,ADRIAN BE+ A M]E COV] = AN ALTOGE!R DIFF]5T TYPE ( RELATION%IP4 ,Y\R 5TIRE CLIQUE IS :ISP]+ AB\T IT6 ,I HE> NO?+ ELSE FROM ,KR560 

,I NOTIC$ ?AT ,Y>A WAS HAV+ A H>D TIME TRY+ TO KEEP FROM BUR/+ \T LAU<+4 

,!RE WAS A KNOCK ON ! DOOR4 ,Y>A RAN TO OP5 IT & RELIEV$ H]SELF ( H] P5T-UP LAU<T]1 SEEM+LY 9 RESPONSE TO ! NEW >RIVALS4 ,I HAD C\NT$ ! NUMB] ( PLACES AT ! D9+ ROOM TABLE1 & ,I FIGUR$ \T ?AT ! C\PLE 9 ! DOORWAY W]E PROBABLY ! LA/ GUE/S4 

,I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE EI!R ( !M UNTIL ,V]A %\T$1 0,ADRIAN6 ,IR5A6 ,Y\ TOO80 

,ADRIAN1 :O SEEM$ 9T5SELY EMB>RASS$1 RU%$ TO ,V]A & TOLD H]1 0,I'M T]RIBLY SORRY AB\T ?IS1 ,V]A4 ,%E 9SI/$ ON DRAGG+ ME ALONG --0 

0,DON'T BE SORRY1 DE>E/10 ,V]A TOLD HIM1 0,?IS PROMISES TO BE A GR& 5T]TA9M5T6 ,WAS IT ! LITTLE GIRL :O GOT Y\ TO COME80 

0,:AT LITTLE GIRL80 ,ADRIAN ASK$4 0,IR5A8 ,%E 9SI/$ ON COM+ 9 ?AT \TL&I% CO/UME & ON DRAGG+ ME ALONG ) H]2 %E ?REAT5$ TO DIVORCE ME IF ,I DIDN'T COME40 

,V]A'S HUMOR VANI%$ AS %E ASK$ ,ADRIAN1 0,%E :AT8 ,WAS ?IS :OLE ?+ ,IR5A'S IDEA80 

,V]A'S EYES1 AS WELL AS EV]YONE ELSE S1 TURN$ T[>D ! OP5 DOOR1 & ! SAME /UNN$ AMAZEM5T APPE>$ ON EV]YONE'S FACE4 ,Y>A & ,IR5A W]E /&+ 9 ! DOORWAY1 GR9N+4 ,BO? ( !M W]E ID5TICALLY DRESS$1 9 ! SAME SLACKS & UNUSUAL WORK JACKET2 BO? HAD ! SAME LONG BLACK HAIR HANG+ D[N TO !IR %\LD]S1 ! SAME BLACK EYEBR[S4 ,!Y LOOK$ LIKE SI/]S1 GYPSY SI/]S4 ,I WALK$ T[>D ,IR5A ME*ANICALLY1 AS IF ,I W]E 9 A TRANCE1 & EXT5D$ MY H& TO H]4 0,I HAVE A FEEL+ ,I KNEW Y\ ONCE1 V]Y LONG AGO-0 

,IR5A CONT9U$ GR9N+4 0,SO ,Y>A TELLS ME4 ,Y\ MU/ BE H] FA!R4 ,%E'S TOLD ME SO MU* AB\T ?AT TW9 SI/] ,I LOOK LIKE6 ,I'M NOT REALLY SURE ,I'D C>E TO MEET H]60 

0,I'M /UNN$ BY ! SIMIL>ITY10 ,I TOLD H]4 

,IR5A SAID1 0,I'M =EV] GRATEFUL TO ,Y>A4 ,%E MADE SO MANY ?+S CLE> TO ME :5 %E TOLD ME AB\T ,V]A'S RELATION TO ,SAB9A ,NA*ALO40 

,IR5A LOOK$ EXACTLY ! WAY ,I W\LD HAVE EXPECT$ H] GYPSY 0TW90 TO LOOK2 %E EV5 SEEM$ TO BE ! SAME AGE4 0,( C\RSE ,I HAV5'T SE5 ,SAB9A = TW5TY YE>S & ,I HAVE NO IDEA :AT %E LOOKS LIKE TODAY10 ,I TOLD H]4 

,MY BRIEF CONV]SATION WAS CUT %ORT BY ,V]A1 :O REGA9$ CONTROL ( H]SELF AFT] H] %OCK AT SEE+ ! SAME SIMIL>ITY4 ,V]A RU%$ T[>D ,IR5A & PULL$ H] FROM ! DOORWAY T[>D ! /AIRCASE4 0,Y\ LITTLE RAT6 ,Y\'RE GO+ TO EXPLA9 C]TA9 ?+S TO ME60 

,IR5A BEAM$ AS %E LET H]SELF BE PULL$ UP ! /AIRCASE4 0,IT'S Y\ :O >E GO+ TO DO ! EXPLA9+1 ,COMRADE ,KR5A6 ,I F9ALLY UND]/& :AT'S BE5 BEH9D --0 

0,SU* A L[1 MEAN TRICK60 ,V]A HISS$4 0,TO S5D A LITTLE GIRL AFT] ME AS ,SAB9A ,NA*ALO'S DAU<T]6 ,Y\'RE GO+ TO TELL ME EXACTLY H[ Y\ LE>N$ --0 

0,Y\'RE GIV+ ME F> TOO MU* CR$IT10 ,IR5A TOLD H]4 0,I WASN'T ! ONE :O MA/]M9D$ --0 ,! TWO WOM5 DISAPPE>$ 9TO AN UP/AIRS ROOM4 

,:ILE ! SC5E ON ! /AIRCASE WAS TAK+ PLACE1 ,ADRIAN HAD EMBRAC$ ,TITUS4 0,NICE TO SEE Y\ AGA91 ,ZABRAN6 ,:AT 9 ! WORLD IS ?IS ALL AB\T1 & :Y DID ,IR5A CONSID] IT SO URG5T = ME TO ATT5D80 

,TITUS EXPLA9$ TO ,ADRIAN1 0,! EV5T WAS ORIG9ALLY TO BE A CELEBRATION ( AN 5GAGEM5T2 SUBSEQU5TLY IT WAS TO BE A POLITICAL DISCUSSION AMONG WORK]S2 F9ALLY IT DIS9TEGRAT$ 9TO AN AN>*IC C>NIVAL4 ,BUT ,I'M GLAD Y\ CAME4 ,?AT MAKES AB\T F\R WORK]S4 ,P]HAPS WE C\LD MEET SEP>ATELY40 

0,:OSE 5GAGEM5T IS BE+ CELEBRAT$80 ,ADRIAN ASK$4 

,TITUS TOLD HIM1 0,MY [N 5GAGEM5T TO ,COMRADE ,ZBRKOVA40 

0,JASNA80 ,ADRIAN ASK$4 0,IS %E H]E80 

0,YES1 ,ADRIAN10 ,JASNA TOLD HIM4 ,%E WAS /&+ RI<T NEXT TO HIM4 

0,CONGRATULATIONS6 ,BUT :Y WAS ?IS SO URG5T TO ,IR5A8 ,DO Y\ KN[ EA* O!R80 ,ADRIAN ASK$4 

0,NO1 WE NEV] MET10 ,JASNA TOLD HIM4 ,!N %E ASK$ ,Y>A1 0,>E !Y ALL H]E N[8 ,LET'S />T EAT+ BE=E EV]Y?+ GETS COLD40 

0,!Y'RE ALL H]E N[10 ,Y>A TOLD H]4 

,MIRNA /ROK$ ,GLAVNI'S H& & BEGG$1 0,S9CE Y\'VE /AY$ ?IS LONG1 Y\'LL SURELY /AY TO D9N]40 

,M>C SEEM$ UNEASY4 0,I W\LD 9F9ITELY PREF] TO 9VITE Y\ TO D9E ) ME 9 A QUIET RE/AURANT4 ,BELIEVE ME :5 ,I TELL Y\ ?AT Y\ HAVE NO?+ AT ALL 9 COMMON ) !SE PEOPLE4 ,!Y MAY ALL HAVE BE5 ,LUISA'S FRI5DS AT ONE TIME1 BUT ?AT'S NOT AN ADEQUATE REASON = Y\ TO BE SO TOL]ANT ( :AT !Y'VE BECOME40 

0,NO ONE'S EV] SAID SU* BEAUTIFUL ?+S TO ME10 ,MIRNA SAID1 KISS+ HIS *EEK4 0,BUT PLEASE /AY1 JU/ = ! MEAL4 ,I F9D !SE PEOPLE SO 9T]E/+60 

0,I W\LD CALL !M BIZ>RE10 ,M>C TOLD H]1 BUT HE WAS ONCE AGA9 DEFEAT$ BY H]2 HOLD+ ON TO H] H&1 HE ACCOMPANI$ H] TO ! D9+ ROOM4 

,TITUS /AY$ BEH9D :5 EV]YONE ELSE LEFT ! LIV+ ROOM4 ,I WAS GLAD = ! OPPORTUNITY TO ASK HIM A QUE/ION4 0,I WAS DI/URB$ BY ! COMM5T Y\ MADE TO ,ADRIAN10 ,I TOLD HIM4 0,Y\ SAID !RE W]E F\R WORK]S H]E :O MI<T MEET & TALK SEP>ATELY4 ,:Y DID Y\ SAY ?AT TO ,ADRIAN8 ,HE'S AN (FICIAL TOO4 ,I C\NT SIX WORK]S1 9CLUD+ ,MIRNA1 ,JASNA & ,V]A'S SECRET>Y1 BUT NOT 9CLUD+ ,ADRIAN40 

0,I WAS REF]R+ TO WORK]S POT5TIALLY 9T]E/$ 9 A S]I\S POLITICAL DISCUSSION10 ,TITUS TOLD ME4 

0,& Y\ 9CLUD$ ,ADRIAN AS A WORK]80 ,I ASK$4 

0,ADRIAN IS A PRO/ITUTE10 HE TOLD ME4 

0,A :AT80 

0,A PRO/ITUTE10 HE REPEAT$4 0,IF HE ONLY REALIZ$ :AT ?AT ,KR5A WOMAN HAS DONE TO HIS LIFE1 HE W\LD SEE ?AT HIS PLACE IS ) ! WORK+ CLASS40 

0,>E Y\ S]I\S80 ,I ASK$4 

0,%E LIT]ALLY B\<T HIM10 HE SAID4 0,ADRIAN IS A KEPT MAN4 ,HE'S ?AT WOMAN'S SLAVE40 

,I SAID L\DLY1 0,I HAD ?\<T ?AT WAS H[ MO/ (FICIALS REA*$ !IR PO/S -- ,V]A ,KR5A H]SELF1 = 9/ANCE40 ,JU/ AS ,I F9I%$ ?AT COMM5T1 ,V]A & ,IR5A CAME RU%+ D[N ! /AIRCASE4 ,I BLU%$2 IT WAS ! SECOND TIME ,I HAD %\T$ AN 9SULT )9 E>%OT ( ! P]SON ,I 9SULT$4 

,JASNA CALL$ FROM ! D9+ ROOM1 0,TITUS6 ,V]A6 ,WE'RE WAIT+ TO />T60 

,TITUS & ,I W]E ! LA/ TO TAKE \R PLACES AT ! TABLE4 ,JASNA & ,TITUS FAC$ EA* O!R ACROSS ! L5G? ( ! TABLE4 ,I TOOK ! LA/ EMPTY *AIR1 AT ,JASNA'S 5D ( ! TABLE1 NEXT TO ,IR5A & DIRECTLY ACROSS FROM ,ZD5EK4 ,AS ,I SAT D[N ,I NOTIC$ ,Y>A ?R[+ A QUE/ION+ GLANCE AT ,IR5A1 :O HAD ALSO JU/ SAT D[N4 ,IR5A RAIS$ H] BLACK EYEBR[ & W9K$ AT ,Y>A1 :O SMIL$ & POK$ ,ZD5EK4 ,I FIGUR$ \T ?AT ,IR5A WAS P>T ( ! CONSPIRACY4 ,JASNA NOTIC$ NO?+4 ,SUDD5LY SOMEONE WAS POK+ ME ON ! %\LD]4 ,ADRIAN1 SITT+ ON ! O!R SIDE ( ,IR5A1 WAS EXT5D+ HIS H& TO ME BEH9D ,IR5A'S BACK4 

0,Y>O/AN ,VO*EK6 ,I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE Y\ :5 ,I CAME 910 ,ADRIAN %\T$4 0,I'M SURPRIS$ WE DIDN'T RUN 9TO EA* O!R 9 PRISON DUR+ ALL ! YE>S WE SP5T !RE40 

,I EXT5D$ MY H& TO HIM1 BUT ,I C\LDN'T TURN MY EYES PA/ ! GYPSY SITT+ NEXT TO ME4 ,LOOK+ AT ,IR5A ,I ASK$ ,ADRIAN1 0,DID Y\ HAPP5 TO RUN 9TO ,JAN ,S$LAK DUR+ ?OSE YE>S8 ,HE SP5T ! RE/ ( HIS LIFE !RE40 ,AS ,I SAID ?IS ,I NOTIC$ ,MIRNA1 :O WAS DIRECTLY 9 MY L9E ( VISION TO ! RI<T ( ,IR5A2 %E WAS SITT+ AT ! OPPOSITE CORN] ( ! TABLE FROM ME1 AT ,TITUS' 5D & NEXT TO ,M>C4 ,%E MOM5T>ILY /OPP$ SMIL+ AT ,M>C & />$ AT ME4 

,ADRIAN SAID1 0,I DIDN'T KN[ AB\T ,JAN ,S$LAK UNTIL AFT] MY RELEASE1 :5 ,JASNA TOLD ME40 

,JASNA SAID L\DLY1 0,& LOOK AT ,JAN'S SI/] C>RY+ ON ) ! MAN RESPONSIBLE = ?OSE >RE/S60 

,ADRIAN :I/L$ CRUDELY & ASK$1 0,IS %E ,JAN ,S$LAK'S SI/]80 

,IR5A :ISP]$ TO ME1 0,>5'T Y\ RELIEV$ Y\ DIDN'T RUN 9TO ,ADRIAN80 

0,YET Y\ M>RI$ HIM10 ,I :ISP]$ TO H]4 

0,JU/ = ! SAKE ( ?IS EXP]I5CE10 %E TOLD ME CRYPTICALLY4 

,MIRNA & ,M>C LOOK$ 9TO EA* O!R'S EYES & SEEM$ NOT TO HE> ! REF]5CES TO !M1 AL?\< ,I WAS SURE ,MIRNA'S E>S W]E PICK+ UP EV]Y S\ND4 

,ADRIAN SAID S>CA/ICALLY1 0,SOME PEOPLE WILL DO ANY?+ AT ALL TO GET !MSELVES ANO!R TITLE40 

,IR5A SAID1 0,YES1 ,ADRIAN1 SOME PEOPLE C]TA9LY WILL40 

,TITUS ADDRESS$ HIMSELF TO ME1 AS IF HE W]E CONT9U+ HIS E>LI] OBS]VATIONS AB\T ,ADRIAN1 0,IT IS IMPORTANT TO DI/+UI% A PROLET>IAN1 :O HAS NO *OICE 9 ! MATT]1 FROM A MEMB] ( ! EXPLOIT+ GR\P1 :O 5JOYS A C]TA9 AM\NT ( SO-CALL$ FREE WILL40 

,MIRNA SAID TO ,M>C1 0,I BELIEVE WE'RE ! SUBJECT ( ! CONV]SATION1 DE>E/40 

,Y>A PULL$ A S]V+ DI% T[>D H] & ASK$1 0,:AT'S EV]YONE WAIT+ =8 ,I'M />V+6 ,CAN ,I />T80 

,AS SOON AS ,Y>A />T$ EAT+1 ALL EYES TURN$ TO ,M>C4 ,HE SUDD5LY =GOT ,MIRNA & />T$ %OVEL+ M\NDS FROM EA* PLATT] ONTO HIS PLATE4 ,ADRIAN1 :O SAT DIRECTLY ACROSS FROM HIM1 %OV$ HIM ! BREAD PLATT]4 ,M>C ALREADY HAD ?REE SLICES ( BREAD NEXT TO HIS PLATE4 ,ADRIAN ASK$1 0,MORE BREAD1 ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI80 

,LIFT+ A =K FILL$ ) FOOD TO HIS M\?1 ,M>C TOLD ,ADRIAN1 0,LAT]1 ?ANK Y\40 

,ADRIAN1 5C\RAG$ BY ! GLANCES ,JASNA WAS GIV+ HIM1 ASK$ ,M>C1 0,Y\ KN[ :O ,I AM1 DON'T Y\ ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI80 

0,( C\RSE1 ,POVR%AN4 ,IT'S NOT A SECRET10 ,M>C TOLD HIM BETWE5 M\?FULS4 

0,DID Y\ ALSO KN[ ME FIVE YE>S AGO1 :5 ,I CAME TO Y\R (FICE LOOK+ = A JOB80 ,ADRIAN ASK$4 

0,IF ,I'M NOT MI/AK51 Y\ CAME TO MY (FICE P>AD+ AS ! BANK DIRECTOR1 ,KR510 ,M>C REMEMB]$4 

,V]A1 SITT+ DIRECTLY ACROSS FROM ,MIRNA & UNTIL !N />+ AT ,MIRNA ) FASC9ATION1 TURN$ TO ,ADRIAN1 :O SAT RI<T NEXT TO H]1 & ASK$1 0,Y\ 9TRODUC$ Y\RSELF AS MY HUSB&8 ,Y\ NEV] TOLD ME AB\T ?AT60 

,ADRIAN CONT9U$ TO ADDRESS HIS REM>KS TO ,M>C4 0,I HAD JU/ BE5 RELEAS$ AFT] SIX YE>S 9 PRISON1 ONLY TO LE>N ?AT Y\ W]E M>RI$4 ,V]A4 ,I NE$$ A JOB1 & ,GLAVNI W\LD NEV] HAVE MADE AN APPO9TM5T ) A LESS IMPORTANT P]SON1 ISN'T ?AT SO1 ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI80 

0,!RE W]E NO OP5+S 9 ANY CASE10 ,M>C TOLD HIM4 

,ADRIAN CONT9U$1 0,MY REAL REASON = COM+ TO Y\1 ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI1 WASN'T TO GET A JOB1 BUT TO ASK H[ IT HAD HAPP5$ ?AT TWO PEOPLE :O HAD ONCE WORK$ 9 ! SAME FACTORY HAD MET ) SU* DIFF]5T FATES4 ,!RE Y\ W]E1 9 ONE ( ! -- %ALL WE SAY PLU%I] -- (FICES ( ! BUREAUCRACY1 & ALREADY />T+ TO FATT5 Y\RSELF ON IMPORT$ DELICACIES1 :ILE !RE ,I WAS1 Y\R =M] FELL[ WORK]1 SK9NY AS A BROOM AFT] SIX YE>S 9 PRISON1 )\T ! SLI<TE/ PROSPECTS --0 

,M>C TOLD HIM1 0,! EXPLANATION IS V]Y SIMPLE1 ,POVR%AN4 ,Y\'RE AN IDIOT40 

,IR5A LAU<$1 BUT ,I NOTIC$ ?AT ,MIRNA'S GR9 LEFT H] FACE2 %E GULP$1 GOT UP ABRUPTLY & RU%$ TO ! KIT*5 BIT+ H] LIP2 %E SEEM$ TO BE ON ! V]GE ( TE>S4 ,Y>A />T$ TO RISE1 BUT ,I GOT UP & RAN AFT] ,MIRNA4 ,I F\ND H] PRESS+ H] BODY AGA9/ ! KIT*5 WALL1 BEAT+ BO? FI/S AGA9/ IT4 ,I %OOK H] & ASK$1 0,HAV5'T Y\ PLAY$ 5\< ( Y\R GAME80 

,MIRNA1 OBVI\SLY REPRESS+ ! URGE TO CRY1 TOLD ME1 0,NO4 LOVE1 MY GAME IS ONLY BEG9N+ --0 

,M>C RU%$ 9TO ! KIT*51 PULL$ ME AWAY FROM ,MIRNA SAY+1 0,EXCUSE ME1 ,COMRADE10 & ASK$ H]1 0,IS EV]Y?+ ALL RI<T1 MY DE>80 

,MIRNA'S GR9 RETURN$4 0,I'M F9E N[1 DE>E/4 ,I SWALL[$ A FI% BONE40 

,:5 ! ?REE ( US RETURN$ TO ! D9+ ROOM TABLE4 ,V]A & ,IR5A W]E %\T+ AT EA* O!R ACROSS ,ADRIAN'S BACK 7S9CE HE WAS SITT+ BETWE5 !M74 ,!IR >GUM5T W\LD HAVE BE5 9COMPREH5SIBLE TO ME IF ,I HADN'T LE>N$ SOME ( ! DETAILS FROM Y\R PREVI\S TWO LETT]S4 ,V]A1 ! BOSS1 WAS %\T+ TO H] SECRET>Y1 0,Y\'LL PAY DE>LY = ?IS1 ,IR5A6 ,I %\LD HAVE KN[N IT WAS Y\6 ,Y\'VE BE5 DY+ TO DO ?IS TO ME EV] S9CE ,I EXPOS$ ?AT SEX MANIAC :O WAS RECTOR ( ! UNIV]SITY60 

0,?AT ACT MADE Y\ ! *AMPION ( REVOLUTION>Y MORALITY1 ! H]O9E ( ! DAY60 ,IR5A %\T$ BACK4 0,:AT AN 9CR$IBLE %AM6 ,IF ANYONE HAD KN[N !N ?AT ALL Y\ WANT$ WAS TO TAKE ! RECTOR'S PLACE1 ?AT ALL Y\ WANT$ WAS TO GO TO B$ ) ONE ( --0 

,V]A REA*$ ACROSS ,ADRIAN AT ,IR5A'S ?ROAT & SCREE*$1 0,%UT Y\R TRAP Y\ LITTLE --0 

,ADRIAN PULL$ ,V]A'S >M AWAY FROM ,IR5A & ASK$1 SEEM+ 9T5SELY EMB>RASS$1 0,C\LDN'T Y\ TWO DISCUSS !SE QUE/IONS PRIVATELY1 SOME O!R TIME80 

,IR5A %\T$ AT ,ADRIAN1 0,J]K6 ,Y\'RE ! M$IUM ?R\< :OM %E ACT$ ALL !SE YE>S1 ! FRONT ?AT KEPT PEOPLE FROM SEE+ :AT %E WAS1 ! ]R& BOY :O C>RI$ H] PUBLIC IMAGE60 

,ADRIAN1 HOLD+ BO? ( ,V]A'S H&S D[N1 %\T$ ANGRILY AT ,IR5A1 0,%UT UP6 ,Y\'RE MAK+ FOOLS \T ( ALL ( US60 

,IR5A SUDD5LY BECAME CALM1 LIKE A REBEL :O HAD DECID$ TO SPIT 9TO H] BOSS'S FACE COLDLY & DELIB]ATELY4 0,IF Y\ HAD ONLY TOLD ME :5 WE W]E /UD5TS TOGE!R ?AT ,I LOOK$ LIKE A LITTLE GIRL Y\ HAD WANT$ TO SLEEP ) --0 

,V]A1 /RA9+ UND] ,ADRIAN'S GRASP1 %\T$1 0,BEA/6 ,UNSCRUPUL\S BEA/6 ,I NEV] DID Y\ ANY H>M40 ,%E />T$ TO CRY4 

,IR5A %\T$1 0,Y\'VE TAK5 HALF ( MY LIFE4 ,V]A6 ,:Y DID Y\ HAVE TO SP9 SU* AN 9TRICATE WEB >\ND ME8 ,I C\LD HAVE SP>$ Y\ ALL Y\R TR\BLE6 ,IF Y\'D ONLY TOLD ME :AT Y\ WANT$ FIFTE5 YE>S AGO1 ,I C\LD HAVE TOLD Y\ RI<T !N ,I HAD NO DESIRE TO %>E Y\ B$1 EV5 = AN 9/ANT1 BECAUSE ,I C\LD ONLY MAKE LOVE TO M560 

,V]A CRI$ PA!TICALLY4 0,PLEASE /OP IT ,IR5A1 PLEASE60 

,Y>A REA*$ ACROSS ,ZD5EK TO PULL ,JASNA'S SLEEVE & ASK$ 9 A :ISP]1 0,FIFTE5 YE>S AGO8 ,?AT WAS :5 ,V]A LIV$ ) Y\4 ,DID Y\ KN[ AB\T ,IR5A ALREADY !N80 

,JASNA ANGRILY SWATT$ ,Y>A'S H& AWAY FROM H] >M & %OOK H] HEAD 9 ! NEGATIVE4 ,!N %E GOT UP1 WALK$ T[>D ,V]A & PULL$ H] UP FROM H] *AIR4 

,V]A SOBB$1 0,PLEASE HELP ME40 ,JASNA ACCOMPANI$ H] TO ! KIT*54 ,EV]YONE'S EYES FOLL[$ !M EXCEPT ,M>C'S2 HE W5T ON EAT+4 

,IR5A1 :O WAS DIRECTLY ACROSS FROM ,Y>A & HAD HE>D ,Y>A'S QUE/ION1 SAID1 0,JASNA DIDN'T KN[4 ,NO ONE KNEW4 ,:5 WE W]E /UD5TS ,I ?\<T ,V]A & ,I W]E GOOD FRI5DS & ,ADRIAN WAS H] LOV]4 ,MAYBE ,I %\LD HAVE FIGUR$ IT ALL \T !N1 BUT ,I'VE NEV] BE5 GIFT$ AT READ+ PEOPLE'S ?\<TS4 ,NO1 ?AT'S WRONG2 IT'S NOT AS IF %E DIDN'T GIVE ME ANY CLUES4 ,EV]Y?+ %E TOLD ME WAS A CLUE4 ,BUT ,I'M AS MU* ( A GOOSE AS ,ADRIAN2 ,I C\LDN'T 9T]PRET A S+LE CLUE UNTIL ?REE WEEKS AGO :5 Y\ ASK$ ME IF MY HAIR & MY COMPLEXION W]E REAL OR IF ,V]A HAD ASK$ ME TO PA9T MYSELF ?IS WAY40 ,IR5A TURN$ TO ME & SAID1 0,Y>A %\T$ ',?AT EXPLA9S EV]Y?+6' AS SOON AS ,I TOLD H] ,I WAS ?REE-QU>T]S GYPSY & HAD COME 9TO ! WORLD EXACTLY ?IS WAY4 ,& ! FUNNY ?+ IS IT DID EXPLA9 EV]Y?+6 ,H[ C\LD ,I'VE BE5 SO D5SE80 ,PO9T+ AT ,ADRIAN1 %E TOLD ,Y>A1 0,BUT ,I'M NOT AS D5SE AS HE IS6 ,%E'S HIS BOSS TOO1 Y\ KN[1 & HE SIMPLY REFUSES TO BELIEVE ANY?+ ,I SAY AB\T ! BOSS40 

0,HAVE Y\ BE5 TOGE!R ) H] = FIFTE5 YE>S80 ,Y>A ASK$ AGA94 

0,BUT ,I C\LDN'T SEE ?R\< H] UNTIL Y\ CAME10 ,IR5A SAID4 0,:5 WE W]E /UD5TS ALL %E EV] TALK$ TO ME AB\T WAS H] ROMANCES1 OR RA!R ANTI-ROMANCES4 ,%E TOLD ME :AT A CL[N H] 'LOV]1' ,ADRIAN1 WAS2 %E NEV] FELT ANY?+ BUT CONTEMPT = HIM4 ,I DIDN'T KN[ HIM !N4 ,%E'D BOA/ TO ME1 ',HE'S SU* A P]FECT FRONT1 ISN'T HE8' ,I NEV] ASK$ MYSELF :AT HE WAS A P]FECT FRONT =4 ,I ASSUM$ HE WAS ! FRONT BEH9D :I* %E C>RI$ ON H] AFFAIR ) ,PR(ESSOR ,KR51 BUT ,I DIDN'T WOND] :AT PURPOSE SU* A FRONT S]V$40 

,ADRIAN ROSE FROM ! TABLE1 SAID1 0,EXCUSE ME10 & APP>5TLY HEAD$ T[>D ! BA?ROOM2 HE LOOK$ LIKE HE WAS READY TO VOMIT4 

,IR5A CONT9U$1 0,AFT] WE GRADUAT$ %E W5T ON TO /UDY UND] ,KR54 ,I GOT HIR$ AS SECRET>Y 9 ! RECTOR'S (FICE4 ,?AT WAS :5 ,I LE>N$ %E FELT NO?+ BUT CONTEMPT = ,KR5 AS WELL2 HE WAS NO?+ MORE TO H] ?AN A LADD] TO CLIMB --0 

,V]A APPE>$ 9 ! KIT*5 DOORWAY2 H] FACE WAS PALE & HAD A CONTORT$ EXPRESSION1 BUT %E WAS NO LONG] CRY+4 0,ALL RI<T1 Y\ LITTLE WRET*1 S9CE WE'RE BR++ IT ALL 9TO ! OP51 WE MI<T AS WELL BE COMPLETE & DO JU/ICE TO ! PA/6 ,Y\ W]5'T M]ELY HIR$ BY ! RECTOR'S (FICE2 Y\ W]E B\<T BY ! RECTOR6 ,HE WAS 9 Y\R B$ BE=E Y\R TRA9+ P]IOD WAS OV]4 ,DON'T S+LE ME \T AS ! N>RATOR ( ROMANCES OR AS ! ONE ) CONTEMPT4 ,Y\R FEEL+S T[>D ! RECTOR W]E ID5TICAL TO M9E T[>D ,KR51 & Y\ N>RAT$ EV]Y GRUESOME DETAIL ) ! GREATE/ RELI%6 ,AFT] SP5D+ B>ELY A MON? AS ! RECTOR'S SECRET>Y Y\ />T$ TALK+ AB\T BECOM+ ASSI/ANT RECTOR2 Y\ W]E WAIT+ = ! OLD MAN OCCUPY+ ?AT PO/ TO BE =CEFULLY RETIR$40 ,V]A TURN$ TO EV]YONE 9 ! ROOM & ASK$ DRAMATICALLY1 AS IF SPEAK+ FROM A PLAT=M1 0,& H[ DID ?IS P>AGON ( VIRTUE 9T5D TO CONQU] ?AT PO/8 ,BY M>RY+ H] BOSS6 ,UN=TUNATELY = \R LITTLE ,C9D]ELLA1 ! BOSS WAS NOT ONLY ALREADY M>RI$1 BUT WAS C>RY+ ON SIMIL> AFFAIRS ) HIS O!R TWO SECRET>IES60 

,IR5A %\T$ ) V5OM1 0,& ?AT WAS :5 Y\ />T$ DREAM+ ( REPLAC+ ! RECTOR1 NOT ONLY 9 HIS (FICE BUT 9 ! B$ROOMS ( HIS SECRET>IES AS WELL6 ,!N ?AT >RE/ TWELVE YE>S AGO ALMO/ SPOIL$ IT ALL = Y\6 ,Y\R GLORI\S ASC5T WAS 9T]RUPT$4 ,Y\ CAME \T SO FURI\S1 & SO HY/]ICAL6 ,Y\ SIMPLY HAD TO F9D A SCAPEGOAT6 ,& :AT BETT] SCAPEGOAT WAS !RE ?AN POOR DUMB ,ADRIAN8 ,HE'D BE 9 Y\R WAY 9 ANY CASE DUR+ Y\R COM+ W$D+ C]EMONY ) ,KR56 ,IF !Y'D KEPT Y\ 9 JAIL = ONLY HALF A YE>1 Y\'D HAVE COME \T TO F9D ME M>RI$ TO ! RECTOR1 OCCUPY+ ! (FICE ( ASSI/ANT RECTOR1 & FREE = GOOD FROM Y\R ATT5TIONS6 ,! RECTOR LOV$ ME & PROMIS$ TO DIVORCE HIS WIFE --0 

,V]A SMIL$ & SAID S>CA/ICALLY1 0,HE MADE ! SAME PROMISE TO BO? ( ! O!R SECRET>IES --0 

0,Y\'RE LY+60 ,IR5A %\T$4 0,Y\ HAT$ ?AT MAN6 ,UNTIL N[ ,I DIDN'T UND]/& Y\R FI]CE HATR$ T[>D HIM4 ,Y\ W]E JEAL\S ( HIM6 ,Y\ CONCEIV$ Y\R S*EME ( DRIV+ HIM \T ) ?AT SC&AL ! MOM5T Y\ REALIZ$ HE REALLY DID LOVE ME6 ,I DIDN'T LOVE HIM2 ,I ADMIT IT6 ,H[ ELSE DOES ONE BECOME SOMEONE 9 ?IS SOCIETY EXCEPT BY SELL+ ONESELF TO A HI< (FICIAL80 

,V]A HISS$1 0,I REGRET EV]Y?+ ,I EV] DID = Y\1 ,IR5A60 

0,Y\'LL REGRET IT EV5 MORE BE=E ,I'M ?R\< ) Y\60 ,IR5A %\T$4 

,V]A RETORT$1 0,Y\'RE NO?+ BUT ! COMMONE/ DIRT60 

0,9 ?AT RESPECT WE'RE TW9S60 ,IR5A TOLD H]4 0,WE BO? CAME \T ( ! SAME CESSPOOL6 ,BUT AS SOON AS Y\ GOT \T1 Y\ %OV$ ME FUR!R 96 ,I W\LDN'T HAVE DONE ?AT TO Y\ IF ,I'D GOTT5 \T FIR/6 ,NEV] =GET ?AT6 ,BUT Y\ BEAT ME TO IT4 ,Y\ ACQUIR$ FREE WILL & 9 ! SAME ACT DEPRIV$ ME ( M9E4 

,FIR/ Y\ HAD ,KR5 =CE ! RETIREM5T ( ! OLD ASSI/ANT RECTOR1 & !N Y\ REPLAC$ HIM4 ,BUT ROBB+ ME ( ?AT PO/ WASN'T 5\< = Y\6 ,Y\ HAD TO DE/ROY ! RE/ ( MY PROSPECTS AS WELL4 ,COMRADE ,V]A ,NEIS M>RI$ ,PR(ESSOR ,KR5 & IMM$IATELY BEGAN H] GLORI\S CAMPAIGN TO CLE> ! UNIV]SITY ( DECAD5T B\RGEOIS REMNANTS1 EXPOS+ ! RECTOR ( ! UNIV]SITY = SEXUAL ABUSES6 ,AS SOON AS ! RECTOR WAS \/$ & JAIL$1 ,COMRADE ,NEIS ,KR5A REPLAC$ HIM AS RECTOR ( ! UNIV]SITY & ALL HAIL$ ! >RIVAL ( A NEW DAY6 ,NO MORE SEXUAL ABUSES6 ,! 5D ( B\RGEOIS DECAD5CE6 ,A GREAT /EP =W>D = WOMANHOOD6 ,& ALL ACCOMPLI%$ ) ONE S+LE >RE/6 ,BUT TO SATISFY ! LIB]T9ES 9 ! POPULATION1 ! POLICE HAD TO ADD A *>GE AB\T HIS HAV+ EMBEZZL$ PUBLIC FUNDS = PRIVATE PURPOSES4 ,OR DID Y\ ADD ?AT1 JU/ = SEASON+8 ,HAVE Y\ MET A S+LE (FICIAL :O HASN'T EMBEZZL$ PUBLIC FUNDS = HIS C\NTRY COTTAGES & J\RNEYS8 ,& HE WAS F9I%$ (F ) SU* AN EXEMPL>Y TRIAL6 ,A TW5TY-YE> S5T5CE6 ,DO Y\ EV5 KN[ ?AT HE DI$ DUR+ HIS FIR/ YE> 9 PRISON8 ,DO Y\ C>E80 

0,DON'T %\T TO ME AB\T C>+1 Y\ RU?LESS HYPOCRITE6 ,DO Y\ C>E H[ MU* ?IS \TBUR/ ( Y\RS IS GO+ TO CO/ ME80 ,V]A ASK$4 

,IR5A TOLD H]1 0,Y\'RE RI<T6 ,I C\LD C>E LESS6 ,DO Y\ REALLY ?9K PEOPLE W\LD RA!R BE RUL$ BY Y\ ?AN BY ! FAT MAN ACROSS FROM Y\80 

,M>C /IRR$ TO RISE FROM ! TABLE1 BUT ,MIRNA TOLD HIM1 0,DON'T BE (F5D$2 ,I'M SURE %E DIDN'T MEAN IT40 

,IR5A W9K$ AT ,MIRNA & SAID1 0,( C\RSE ,I DIDN'T4 ,IF ,I HAVE TO BE RUL$1 ,I'D F> RA!R BE RUL$ BY HIM6 ,HE'D BE F> TOO BUSY EAT+ TO HAVE TIME TO DE/ROY PEOPLE'S LIVES4 ,I W\LD 9F9ITELY PREF] HIS UNQU5*ABLE HUNG] = FOOD TO ?AT UNQU5*ABLE HUNG] = P[]1 ! P[] TO MANIPULATE ! LIVES ( ?\S&S 9 ORD] TO SATISFY A SECRET 9N]MO/ DESIRE TO CRAWL 9TO ! B$ ( A LITTLE GYPSY --0 

,V]A HAD SNAT*$ A TEA POT FROM ! UNOCCUPI$ 5D ( ! TABLE4 ,JASNA RAN T[>D H] FROM ! KIT*5 DOORWAY BUT REA*$ H] TOO LATE TO /OP ,V]A FROM FL++ ! POT ) HOT TEA4 ,! TEA POT B>ELY MISS$ MY HEAD & %ATT]$ ON ,ADRIAN'S UNOCCUPI$ *AIR1 SPLA%+ ITS CONT5TS ON ,TITUS4 

,IR5A SAID TO ,TITUS1 0,Y\ SEE8 ,Y\'RE ! ONES :O FACE ! CONSEQU5CES6 ,H[ RI<T Y\ >E TO SAY A PROLET>IAN IS ! ONE :O HAS NO *OICE4 ,BE=E %E HOOK$ ,KR5 WE W]E EQUALS4 ,BY ! TIME %E WAS RECTOR1 ,I HAD BECOME COMMON DIRT1 AS %E N[ CALLS IT6 ,ALL ! PROSPECTS ,I HAD LOOK$ =W>D TO = T5 YE>S W]E RU9$4 ,I LIT]ALLY HAD NO ALT]NATIVES LEFT1 NO *OICE4 ,I KNEW %E WAS A %AM1 ,I KNEW %E HAD M>RI$ ,KR5 9 ORD] TO BECOME RECTOR ( ! UNIV]SITY1 ,I KNEW ?AT H] SOLE QUALIFICATIONS = ?AT PO/ W]E LOCAT$ A FEW C5TIMET]S ABOVE & BEL[ H] WAI/4 ,BUT ,I WAS B\ND & GAGG$4 ,%E HAD ME 9 H] (FICE EV]Y DAY4 ,:5 %E WAS PROMOT$ TO ! IDEOLOGICAL COMMISSION %E CALL$ ME TO H] MANSION SEV]AL NI<TS A WEEK & ON WEEK5DS4 ,:AT C\LD ,I DO8 ,ONCE1 :5 %E WAS /ILL RECTOR1 ,I /ORM$ \T ( H] (FICE1 9FURIAT$ BY ! TRIVIALITY = :I* %E HAD CALL$ ME 94 ',I ONLY WANT$ Y\ BY MY SIDE2 Y\'RE MY FAVORITE1' %E TOLD ME4 ,I WAS FURI\S4 ',Y\R FAVORITE SECRET>Y6' ,I %\T$4 ,I ?REAT5$ TO EXPOSE H] :OLE %AM4 ',Y\ BREA! A WORD1' %E SAID1 '& :AT DO Y\ ?9K EV]YONE WILL SAY AB\T ! SPITEFUL JEAL\S SECRET>Y8 ,Y\ DON'T SUPPOSE ANYONE WILL BELIEVE Y\1 DO Y\8 ,!Y MI<T EV5 JAIL Y\ AS ! =M] RECTOR'S ACCOMPLICE4' ,I C\LDN'T EV5 DREAM ( LEAV+ ! RECTOR'S (FICE ANY MORE6 ,9 ORD] TO GET ANY K9D ( DEC5T JOB SOME:]E ELSE ,I NE$$ ! RECOMM5DATION ( ! RECTOR ( ! UNIV]SITY1 ,COMRADE ,V]A ,KR5A4 ,I HAD NO *OICE4 ,I WAS LIT]ALLY A PROLET>IAN40 

,I ASK$ ,IR5A1 0,:AT DID Y\ ACCOMPLI% BY M>RY+ ,ADRIAN80 

0,MU* LESS ?AN ,I'D HOP$10 %E TOLD ME4 0,I DIDN'T MEET HIM UNTIL HE WAS RELEAS$ FROM PRISON4 ,I WAS OV]JOY$ TO LE>N HE WAS ! ONE :O HAD BE5 H] LOV]1 & ,I WAS D\BLY ATTRACT$ TO HIM :5 HE TOLD ME H[ ,V]A HAD VICTIMIZ$ HIM BY ASSOCIAT+ HIM ) A SPY R+ & CLAIM+ HE'D TRI$ TO 9CRIM9ATE H]4 ,BESIDES :I* HE WAS MY AGE1 UNLIKE ! RECTOR OR ,V]A'S ,COMRADE ,PR(ESSOR ,KR54 ,BUT MY ONLY SATISFACTION ) ,ADRIAN WAS TO P>ADE HIM 9 FRONT ( ,V]A 9 ! RECTOR'S (FICE RI<T AFT] WE W]E M>RI$4 ,I /ILL HAD NO *OICE4 ,%E WAS %OCK$ :5 ,I TOLD H] WE W]E M>RI$1 & ?AT %OCK IS ALL ,I EV] ACCOMPLI%$ ) HIM4 ,%E IMM$IATELY TURN$ HIM 9TO H] [N PRIVATE ROLL ( TOILET PAP]4 ,%E KNEW HIM F> BETT] ?AN ,I DID4 ,! SECOND OR ?IRD TIME HE CAME = ME1 %E MADE EYES AT HIM & SAID1 ',SU* A TAL5T$ COMRADE IS WA/+ AWAY 9 ! PO/ ( A L[LY RESE>*]4' ,%E KNEW %E WAS AB\T TO BE APPO9T$ DEPUTY M9I/] ( ! IDEOLOGICAL COMMISSION1 ?ANKS TO ,KR5'S 9FLU5CE1 & %E KNEW ?AT FROM !RE %E'D HAVE ALMO/ AS MU* P[] AS ,KR5 HIMSELF4 ,%E TOLD ,ADRIAN3 ',IR5A & ,I WILL F9D Y\ A PO/ MORE 9 KEEP+ ) Y\R TAL5TS4' ,?AT'S RI<T3 ',IR5A & ,I6' ,MY DOG & ,I6 ,I TRI$ TO /OP ,ADRIAN FROM ACCEPT+ ANY?+ FROM ?AT WOMAN1 BUT HE TURN$ TO JELLY WAIT+ = ITS MOLD2 !RE WAS NO TALK+ TO HIM4 ,HE ACCEPT$ A PO/ ON ! SECRET>IAT ( ! /&>D ( LIV+ COMMISSION1 & ,I BECAME ,COMRADE ,KR5A'S PRIVATE SECRET>Y4 ,MY REW>D1 ,I ?\<T6 ,IF ,I'D ONLY KN[N ,I WAS ! ONE %E WAS AFT]6 ,:]EV] %E W5T1 ,ADRIAN & ,I TAGG$ ALONG4 ,ON TRIPS ! ?REE ( US ALWAYS %>$ ! SAME SUITE4 ,! RUMOR />T$ TO CIRCULATE ?AT ,ADRIAN WAS H] LOV]1 & %E BECAME POPUL> = HAV+ ! C\RAGE TO DISPLAY H] LOV] 9 PUBLIC4 ,KR5 BECAME ! SUBJECT ( JOKES4 ,:AT NO ONE KNEW WAS ?AT ,ADRIAN WAS NO?+ MORE TO H] ?AN A DOG1 ?AT IT WAS H] P]SONAL SECRET>Y :OM %E --0 

,V]A HISS$ FROM ! DOORWAY1 0,I NEV] T\*$ Y\1 ,IR5A6 ,NOT ONCE60 

,IR5A TURN$ TO ,V]A ) HATR$4 0,I WI% Y\ HAD T\*$ ME FIFTE5 YE>S AGO6 ,EV]Y?+ W\LD HAVE BE5 P]FECTLY CLE> AT ! />T6 ,I W\LD HAVE DE/ROY$ Y\R DESIRE AT ITS ORIG91 ,I W\LD HAVE MADE Y\ WANT TO KILL ME 9/EAD ( DRAGG+ ME BEH9D Y\ B\ND UP 9 Y\R NET6 ,Y\ DIDN'T D>E T\* ME6 ,& ! MORE Y\ PO/PON$ %[+ Y\R H& ! MORE Y\ FE>$ MY RESPONSE6 ,Y\ W]E DEA?LY AFRAID Y\R BUBBLE W\LD BUR/1 & Y\ W]E RI<T6 ,MY FIR/ *ANCE TO FREE MYSELF ( Y\ DIDN'T COME UNTIL ! CURR5T REBELLION BROKE \T4 ,NO?+ 9 MY MEMORY WAS SO EXCIT+ AS ! UPRO> ?AT />T$ TO SPREAD TO EV]Y SECTOR ( ?IS SOCIETY4 ,?AT WAS :5 ,I REALIZ$ ,I HAD BECOME Y\R POLITICAL B>OMET]4 ,! MORE EXCIT$ ,I BECAME AB\T ! ANTI-BUREAUCRATIC ACTIVITY1 ! MORE L\DLY Y\ %\T$ AB\T ! NE$ TO RE=M ! BUREAUCRACY1 & ?ANKS TO ME Y\ F\ND Y\RSELF RID+ ON ! CRE/ ( ! POPUL> WAVE4 ,:5 ! /RIKES BROKE \T & !RE W]E CALLS = ! =MATION ( WORK]S' C\NCILS1 ,I W5T WILD ) JOY4 ,I LOOK$ =W>D TO ! OV]?R[ ( ! 5TIRE BUREAUCRACY4 ,& Y\ /AY$ RI<T BEH9D ME1 GIV+ SPEE* AFT] SPEE* 9 SUPPORT ( ! MO/ RADICAL /RIKES4 ,I WOND]$ IF Y\'D LO/ Y\R S5SES4 ,I KNEW ,I & ! VA/ MAJORITY HAD EV]Y?+ TO GA9 FROM ! OV]?R[ ( ! 5TIRE BUREAUCRACY4 ,BUT Y\6 ,Y\ HAD EV]Y?+ TO LOSE6 ,I WOND]$ IF Y\ REALLY EXPECT$ TO BECOME ! HEAD WORK] ( ! HEAD WORK]S' C\NCIL1 OR IF Y\ PICTUR$ Y\RSELF AS ,LIB]TY 9 ! PA9T+ BY ,DALACROIX4 ,IT WASN'T UNTIL ,Y>A'S VISIT ?AT ,I />T$ TO GET AN 9SI<T 9TO ! SORDID MOTIVES BEH9D Y\R SUDD5 POPULISM60 

,ADRIAN1 :O REAPPE>$ 9 ! 5TRANCEWAY FROM ! LIV+ ROOM1 />$ BLANKLY AT ,IR5A4 

,V]A1 /ILL LEAN+ ON ! DOORWAY TO ! KIT*51 COMM5T$1 0,SO ON ! BASIS ( A TWELVE-YE> OLD GIRL'S GOSSIP Y\ DECID$ TO DRIVE A KNIFE 9TO ME --0 

0,NOT QUITE1 ,COMRADE ,KR5A60 ,IR5A TOLD H]4 0,NOT ON ! BASIS ( ANYONE'S GOSSIP1 BUT ON ! BASIS ( ! TE/IMONY ( A ROOMFUL ( PEOPLE :OSE LIVES Y\'VE DE/ROY$1 & DUR+ A P]IOD :5 ! 5TIRE POPULATION IS EXPOS+ ?OSE RESPONSIBLE = ! >RE/S & IMPRISONM5TS6 ,:5 ,I LE>N$ AB\T ,SAB9A1 ,I ALSO LE>N$ ?AT ,ADRIAN WASN'T ! ONLY ONE ( Y\R =M] COMRADES :OSE LIFE Y\ DE/ROY$4 ,ADRIAN SP5T SIX YE>S 9 PRISON BECAUSE ( Y\60 ,IR5A TURN$ TO ME & ASK$1 0,H[ MANY YE>S DID Y\ SP5D !RE80 

0,EI<T COMPLETE YE>S10 ,I TOLD H]4 

0,DO Y\ KN[ :Y80 %E ASK$4 

,I SAID1 0,I ?\<T ,I KNEW --0 

0,I'LL REM9D Y\ 9 CASE Y\ =GOT10 ,IR5A SAID TO ME4 0,COMRADE ,V]A ,NEIS GAVE TE/IMONY TO ! EFFECT ?AT ALL H] =M] COMRADES HAD BE5 MEMB]S ( A TOTALLY FICTIONAL SPY R+40 ,!N %E TURN$ TO ,TITUS & ASK$ HIM1 0,H[ LONG DID Y\ SP5D !RE80 

0,A YE>10 ,TITUS TOLD H]1 0BUT ,I %\LD TELL Y\ ,I WASN'T >RE/$ AT ! SAME TIME --0 

0,I DON'T SEE ?AT IT MATT]S10 ,IR5A SAID1 & %E ASK$ ,Y>A1 0,H[ MANY YE>S DID Y\R UNCLE SP5D80 

0,HE NEV] CAME \T10 ,Y>A TOLD H]4 

,IR5A EXCLAIM$1 0,HE DI$ 9 PRISON1 LIKE ! =M] RECTOR6 ,JASNA --0 

,JASNA CUT H] %ORT4 0,I'M SORRY TO RU9 Y\R P]=MANCE1 BUT Y\'RE MISS+ Y\R M>K --0 

0,H[ LONG DID Y\ HAVE TO SP5D80 ,IR5A ASK$4 

0,TWO DAYS10 ,JASNA TOLD H]1 0BUT ! P]SON RESPONSIBLE = MY >RE/1 & = ALL ! O!R >RE/S1 IS SITT+ ACROSS ! TABLE FROM Y\1 & HIS NAME ISN'T ,V]A60 

,ADRIAN %\T$ FROM ! HALLWAY1 0,?AT'S RI<T1 ,IR5A6 ,IT WAS ,GLAVNI :O WAS RESPONSIBLE = ?OSE >RE/S60 

,JASNA TOLD ,IR5A1 0,WE W]E ALL >RE/$ BECAUSE ( A LETT] ?AT WAS DELIV]$ --0 

,IR5A ASK$ ,JASNA 9DIGNANTLY1 0,:Y >E Y\ PROTECT+ H]8 ,?AT LETT] WAS AN 9V5TION ( ! POLICE60 

,ADRIAN %\T$1 0,I'VE TOLD Y\ REPEAT$LY1 ,IR5A6 ,SOME SPIES ACTUALLY DID TRY TO GET 9 CONTACT ) US6 ,& IT WAS UND\BT$LY ,GLAVNI :O TOLD ! POLICE ,I WAS CORRESPOND+ ) !M4 ,:Y ELSE W\LD HE HAVE BE5 SO RUDE TO ME :5 ,I W5T TO SEE HIM AFT] MY RELEASE80 

,I ASK$ ,ADRIAN1 0,DO Y\ /ILL TODAY BELIEVE ,LUISA ,NA*ALO WAS A SPY80 

,ADRIAN TOLD ME1 0,DUR+ MY FIR/ PRISON T]M ! POLICE %[$ ME AN >TICLE AB\T H] 9 ! =EIGN PRESS --0 

0,?AT >TICLE M]ELY PROV$ %E HAD EMIGRAT$ ) H] COMPANION & !IR DAU<T]S10 ,I TOLD HIM4 

,IR5A %\T$ AT ,ADRIAN1 0,IDIOT6 ,Y\'D BELIEVE ! POLICE IF !Y TOLD Y\ ! SUN WAS A TRIANGLE60 

,Y>A TOLD H] NEW FRI5D 9SI/5TLY1 0,BUT !RE REALLY WAS A LETT]1 ,IR5A60 

0,I REMEMB] Y\R TELL+ ME1 BUT >E Y\ SURE Y\ DIDN'T LE>N AB\T ?AT LETT] FROM ! SAME RUMOR />T$ BY ! POLICE80 ,IR5A ASK$ ,Y>A4 

,I TOLD H]1 0,IR5A1 ,I'VE BE5 C>RY+ ON A V]Y /IMULAT+ CORRESPOND5CE ) ! P]SON :O S5T ?OSE LETT]S TWELVE YE>S AGO1 ,SAB9A ,NA*ALO'S SI/]1 OR RA!R1 ,LUISA ,NA*ALO'S DAU<T]1 ,SOPHIA40 

,ADRIAN %\T$ VICTORI\SLY1 0,:O'S ! IDIOT1 ,IR5A80 

,JASNA TOLD ,IR5A1 0,A MESS5G] TRI$ TO DELIV] ,SOPHIA'S LETT]S TO ALL ! PEOPLE %E'D KN[N 9 ! C>TON PLANT EI<T YE>S E>LI]40 ,%E TURN$ ANGRILY TO ,ADRIAN & TOLD HIM1 0,SOPHIA WAS NO SPY6 ,%E WAS TRY+ TO REA* US BECAUSE %E CONSID]$ US ! ONLY FRI5DS %E HAD 9 ! WORLD6 ,SOPHIA LE>N$ ?AT ONLY ONE ( ?OSE LETT]S REA*$ ITS DE/9ATION1 ONE DELIV]$ TO SOMEONE :O WAS AN (FICIAL AT ?AT TIME4 ,V]A1 ,ADRIAN & ,I W]E UNIV]SITY /UD5TS AT ?AT TIME2 ,Y>O/AN & ,JAN W]E /EEL WORK]S4 ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI HAD REC5TLY BECOME HEAD ( ! P>TY ORGANIZATION ( ! PLANT :]E WE HAD ALL WORK$40 

,ADRIAN EXCLAIM$1 0,& HE WAS ! ONE :O WAS CONTACT$6 ,HE CLE>$ HIMSELF BY TELL+ ! POLICE ! SPIES HAD CONTACT$ ME60 

,M>C TOLD ,ADRIAN ANGRILY1 0,! POLICE ASK$ ME IF ,I KNEW Y\4 ,I HAD NO IDEA :Y !Y WANT$ TO KN[ ?AT1 & ALL ,I TOLD !M WAS ?AT ,I HAD KN[N Y\ ONCE2 IT W\LD HAVE BE5 RIDICUL\S TO D5Y IT2 WE HAD BO? BE5 >RE/$ 9 ! SAME PLANT EI<T YE>S E>LI]40 ,ADRIAN APP>5TLY 9T5D$ TO ANSW]1 BUT ,M>C GOT UP ABRUPTLY & TOLD ,MIRNA1 0,I DON'T SEE ! PO9T ( ALL !SE UNCONTROLL$ EMOTIONAL \TBUR/S1 !SE ACCUSATIONS BY UN9=M$ IGNORAMUSES1 & ,I MU/ SAY ,I DON'T F9D ?IS GA!R+ ! SLI<TE/ BIT 9T]E/+40 

,MIRNA TOOK HIS >M AGA9 & BEGG$1 0,PLEASE1 ,M>C1 AT LEA/ /AY ?R\< ! DESS]T --0 

0,I'M SORRY10 HE TOLD H]4 0,I'M ALREADY LATE = AN IMPORTANT MEET+1 :I* ,I W\LD HAVE CALL$ (F IF --0 

,MIRNA GOT UP1 PLAC$ H] LIPS NE> HIS & KNEW %E HAD DEFEAT$ HIM AGA9 ALREADY BE=E %E TOLD HIM1 0,OH PLEASE DO CALL IT (F1 DE>E/2 USE ! PHONE 9 ! B$ROOM UP/AIRS4 ,& :ILE Y\'RE AT IT1 W\LD Y\ PLEASE PO/PONE MY AIRPLANE RES]VATION BY A DAY8 ,!RE >E C]TA9 ?+S ,I SIMPLY MU/ DISCUSS ) Y\1 BUT ,I CAN'T LEAVE ?IS GA!R+4 ,PLEASE UND]/& ,I [E IT TO ,LUISA TO TRY TO COMMUNICATE ) !SE PEOPLE :O SEEM SO CONV9C$ %E WAS A SPY4 ,SURELY Y\ UND]/& %E'S /ILL EXTREMELY CONC]N$ AB\T ?AT *>GE40 

0,I CAN UND]/& H] CONC]N10 ,M>C SAID1 0BUT SURELY ?IS IS NOT ! MO/ FRUITFUL WAY TO CLE> H] ( ! *>GE --0 ,ADRIAN %\T$ FROM ! HALLWAY1 0,! ONLY FRUITFUL WAY IS TO ACCUSE SOMEONE ELSE1 ! WAY Y\ DID1 ,GLAVNI60 

,M>C ASK$ ,MIRNA1 0,DOESN'T ?AT PROVE MY PO9T80 ,MIRNA %OOK H] HEAD4 0,V]Y WELL1 MY DE>4 ,9 :OSE NAME >E ?OSE RES]VATIONS80 HE ASK$ H]4 

,MIRNA WAS FLU/]$4 0,:Y1 ! NAME ,I GAVE TO Y\R SECRET>Y :5 ,I CAME TO SEE Y\4 ,WAIT A SECOND40 ,H] GAME ALMO/ 5D$4 ,I />T$ GR9N+4 ,Y>A FIDGET$ N]V\SLY4 ,MIRNA RAN TO ! LIV+ ROOM & RETURN$ ) ! LITTLE LEA!R PURSE2 %E RUMMAG$ 9SIDE4 0,H]E IT IS6 ,IT'S 9 ! NAME ( ,MAT!WS4 ,MIRNA ,MAT!WS40 

,M>C SAID1 0,OH YES4 ,I REMEMB]4 ,MAT!WS4 ,9T]E/+6 ,Y\'VE *ANG$ Y\R ORIG9AL NAME1 ,I TAKE IT80 

,MIRNA SAID N]V\SLY1 0,OH NO1 ,I -- ,I'M M>RI$40 

,M>C SMIL$ 9DULG5TLY4 0,I SEE4 ,I ASSURE Y\ !RE'S NO CAUSE = Y\R EMB>RASSM5T4 ,I'LL DO :AT ,I CAN AB\T Y\R RES]VATION4 ,IF !RE >E NO VACANCIES = TOMORR[1 WILL ! FOLL[+ DAY DO80 

,MIRNA SMIL$1 RELIEV$4 0,! FOLL[+ DAY W\LD BE P]FECT40 ,%E WAS COOL & CALCULAT+ AGA94 

,M>C WALK$ PA/ ,ADRIAN & HEAD$ UP/AIRS4 ,MIRNA DROPP$ H] S$UCTIVE PO/URE & COLLAPS$ 9TO H] *AIR AS IF %E HAD BE5 C>RY+ A HEAVY LOAD4 

,AS SOON AS ,M>C WAS GONE1 ,JASNA TOLD ,MIRNA1 0,IF Y\ DON'T /OP ?IS RIDICUL\S GAME1 ,I'LL --0 

,MIRNA SAID CALMLY1 0,Y\'RE 5JOY+ IT AS MU* AS ,I AM1 ,JASNA6 ,& Y\ MAY LE>N SOME?+60 ,!N %E TURN$ TO ,TITUS1 :O WAS /ILL SITT+ NEXT TO H]1 AT ! HEAD ( ! TABLE4 0,TITUS1 W]E Y\ >RE/$ RI<T AFT] ! ,MAG>NA RIS+ WAS SUPPRESS$80 

,JASNA SAID ANGRILY1 0,H[ MANY TIMES WILL Y\ REPEAT ?AT /UPID 9S9UATION8 ,Y\ KN[ P]FECTLY WELL HE WAS >RE/$ A YE> AFT] ! RE/ ( US60 

,TITUS ASK$ ,MIRNA1 0,IS ?IS :AT Y\ HAD 9 M9D AS ! SUBJECT MATT] = A FRUITFUL POLITICAL DISCUSSION AMONG WORK]S 9T]E/$ 9 REJO9+ ! /REAM ( HI/ORY80 

,MIRNA TOLD HIM1 0,YES1 ,TITUS1 ?IS IS EXACTLY ! SUBJECT MATT] ,I HAD 9 M9D40 

,TITUS TOLD H]1 0,!N ,I MU/ ASK Y\ TO LEAVE ME \T ( Y\R DISCUSSION4 ,! PRES5T MOM5T IS F> TOO CRITICAL TO BE FRITT]$ AWAY 9 SESSIONS ( B\RGEOIS !RAPY & GAMES4 ,! /RUGGLE WE FACE IS A COLLECTIVE /RUGGLE1 A CLASS /RUGGLE1 & NOT ! /RUGGLE ( 9DIVIDUALS ESCAP+ FROM P]SONAL PROBLEMS4 ,! 5EMIES WE FACE >E 5EMIES BECAUSE ( !IR RELATION TO SOCIETY'S PRODUCTIVE =CES1 NOT BECAUSE ( !IR RELATION TO A LETT] S5T BY A ,SOPHIA ,NA*ALO40 

,ADRIAN :I/L$1 APP>5TLY 9 RESPONSE TO ,MIRNA'S UNANSW]$ QUE/ION1 & RETURN$ TO HIS SEAT NEXT TO ,IR5A4 ,HE TOLD ,TITUS1 0,SOME?+ JU/ /RUCK ME1 SOME?+ ?AT BO!R$ ME AT ! TIME4 ,:5 ,I WAS >RE/$ TWELVE YE>S AGO1 ! POLICE ASK$ ME IF ,I HAD EV] WORK$ ) C]TA9 PEOPLE4 ,! FIR/ TIME !Y 9T]ROGAT$ ME1 !IR LI/ 9CLUD$ ALL ! PEOPLE !Y HAD >RE/$ AT ! C>TON PLANT EI<T YE>S E>LI]1 EXCEPT Y\4 ,AS TIME PASS$1 ! LI/ GOT %ORT]2 ! LA/ TIME !Y ASK$ ME AB\T MY PA/ ACQUA9TANCES1 TWO YE>S AFT] MY >RE/1 ! ONLY NAME LEFT ON ! LI/ WAS ,VO*EK'S4 ,I ASSUM$ PEOPLE W]E DROPP$ FROM ! LI/ EI!R BECAUSE !Y W]E RELEAS$ OR BECAUSE !Y DISAPPE>$1 & IT TURN$ \T ,I WAS RI<T4 ,SOON AFT] MY RELEASE1 ,JASNA TOLD ME EV]YONE EXCEPT ,VO*EK HAD BE5 RELEAS$1 & ,S$LAK HAD DISAPPE>$4 ,Y\ W]E AMONG ?OSE %E TOLD ME HAD BE5 RELEAS$ --0 

,JASNA TOLD ,ADRIAN1 0,!Y'RE NOT AS EFFICI5T AS Y\ TAKE !M TO BE4 ,TITUS WAS >RE/$ A YE> AFT] ! RE/ ( US1 BUT = EXACTLY ! SAME REASONS --0 

0,!N HIS NAME %\LD HAVE APPE>$ ON !IR LI/ A YE> AFT] ,I WAS >RE/$10 ,ADRIAN TOLD H]4 0,DUR+ ! FIR/ TWO YE>S !Y CALL$ ME 9 AT LEA/ ONCE A MON? TO ASK ME :OM ,I HAD KN[N2 ,ZABRAN'S NAME %\LD HAVE BE5 ADD$ TO !IR LI/ DUR+ MY SECOND YE>1 %\LDN'T IT8 ,HE NEV] APPE>$ ON !IR LI/4 ,I ?\<T AT ! TIME ?AT HE MI<T HAVE DI$40 ,HE TURN$ TO ME & ASK$1 0,DIDN'T Y\ WOND] AB\T ?AT80 

,I TOLD HIM1 0,! FIR/ TWO TIMES !Y 9T]ROGAT$ ME ,I TOLD !M ,I HADN'T EV] KN[N ANY ( ! PEOPLE ON !IR LI/1 SO !Y /OPP$ 9T]ROGAT+ ME1 & ,I PAID NO ATT5TION TO ! NAMES !Y LI/$ OR FAIL$ TO LI/40 

,JASNA SAID1 0,IT'S COMMON KN[L$GE ?AT ! POLICE FILES >E CRAMM$ ) MIS9=MATION & DELIB]ATE LIES4 ,I'M NOT AT ALL SURPRIS$ !Y C\LDN'T KEEP TRACK ( ALL ! NAMES ( PEOPLE :O HAD WORK$ TOGE!R 9 A SMALL PLANT EI<T YE>S E>LI]40 

,MIRNA ASK$ ,JASNA1 0,IF !Y LO/ ,TITUS' NAME1 :Y WAS HE >RE/$ A YE> LAT]80 

,JASNA SAID1 0,I'M SURE ,TITUS CAN EXPLA9 ?AT TO Y\R SATISFACTION40 

,BUT ,TITUS PROTE/$1 0,I DON'T [E ANYONE H]E AN EXPLANATION4 ,IS ?IS A POLICE TRIAL80 

,MIRNA1 AS IF %E W]E UPBRAID+ ,JASNA1 ASK$ H]1 0,:Y W\LD Y\ WANT TO =CE ,TITUS TO DO ANY EXPLA9+8 ,HE'S P]FECTLY RI<T3 ?IS ISN'T A TRIAL4 ,& !RE'S NO?+ TO EXPLA94 ,EV]Y?+ IS P]FECTLY CLE>4 ,I SAW ,TITUS A FEW DAYS BE=E ! SUPPRESSION ( ! ,MAG>NA RIS+1 & ,I SAW HIM AGA9 A FEW DAYS AFT] --0 

,ADRIAN :I/L$ AGA94 0,Y\ SAW ,ZABRAN8 ,Y\ MEAN HE WAS OV]SEAS AT ?AT TIME80 

,JASNA SAID1 0,H[ AWFUL6 ,I ?\<T Y\ KNEW ,MIRNA WAS ,Y>O/AN'S WIFE1 ,JAN ,S$LAK'S SI/]60 

,ADRIAN SEEM$ FASC9AT$ BY ,MIRNA4 0,Y\ TOLD ME %E WAS ,S$LAK'S SI/]4 ,BUT ,GLAVNI ACTS AS IF --0 

,JASNA SNICK]$4 0,AS IF %E W]E A =EIGN MOTION PICTURE ACTRESS1 :I* %E REALLY \<T TO BE6 ,%E'S NEV] BE5 FUR!R ?AN A HUNDR$ KILOMET]S AWAY FROM ?IS CITY60 

0,I'LL BE DAMN$6 ,Y\ C]TA9LY HAD ME FOOL$60 ,ADRIAN TOLD ,MIRNA4 ,SUDD5LY HE LOOK$ AT ,ZD5EK1 ACROSS ! TABLE FROM ME4 0,& Y\1 SIR1 IS IT GO+ TO TURN \T ?AT Y\'RE ,ZAGAD1 ONE-TIME [N] ( ! C>TON PLANT80 

,EXT5D+ HIS H& ACROSS ! TABLE1 ,ZD5EK SAID1 0,TOB>K9 ,ZD5EK IS MY NAME3 ,I'VE NEV] [N$ A FACTORY1 A H\SE OR EV5 A C>1 & IF ,I W]E A SIR' ,I W\LD BE V]Y F> AWAY FROM H]E4 ,I'VE BE5 A PLA9 WORK] ALL MY LIFE2 ,I WAS A UNION ORGANIZ] ONCE --0 

,ADRIAN %OOK ,ZD5EK'S H&1 BUT HIS 9T]E/ RETURN$ TO ,MIRNA4 0,:]E DID Y\ SAY Y\ SAW ,ZABRAN AT ! TIME ( ,MAG>NA80 

0,AT \R H\SE1 TWO OR ?REE DAYS BE=E ! TANKS 9VAD$ ,MAG>NA10 ,MIRNA TOLD HIM 9NOC5TLY4 0,HE HAD JU/ SIGN$ SOME K9D ( PETITION DEM&+ FRE$OM ( ! PRESS4 ,JAN WAS AT \R H\SE TOO4 ,HE QUE/ION$ ! IMPORTANCE ( SU* A PETITION4 ,BUT ,TITUS CONV9C$ ME ?AT WORK]S HAD TO BE 9=M$ BY ! PRESS BE=E !Y C\LD ACT 9TELLIG5TLY40 

0,& Y\ SAW HIM AGA9 AFT] ! RIS+ WAS PUT D[N & WE W]E >RE/$80 HE ASK$4 

0,:Y YES1 ,I W5T TO LOOK = HIM ! FIR/ TIME ,I C\LD LEAVE WORK10 ,MIRNA TOLD ,ADRIAN4 0,I ?\<T HE MI<T KN[ :AT HAD HAPP5$ TO MY BRO!R & MY HUSB&4 ,HE WASN'T 9 HIS (FICE 9 ! TRADE UNION BUILD+1 BUT ,I DID LE>N HE HADN'T BE5 >RE/$4 ,I LEFT A MESSAGE = HIM ) A TRADE UNION SECRET>Y4 ,TITUS CAME TO SEE ME ?AT V]Y NI<T4 ,I 9SI/$ ,JAN & ,Y>O/AN HAD BE5 >RE/$ BECAUSE ( ?AT LETT] ?AT HAD COME FROM ,SOPHIA ,NA*ALO1 BUT HE ASSUR$ ME !Y C\LDN'T POSSIBLY HAVE BE5 >RE/$ BECAUSE ( ?AT LETT]1 BUT BECAUSE ( ! ACTIVITY 9 :I* !Y HAD 5GAG$4 ,?IS WAS :AT ,Y>O/AN HAD ALWAYS ?\<T TOO40 

,I SAID TO ,MIRNA1 0,TITUS C\LDN'T HAVE TOLD Y\ ?AT TWELVE YE>S AGO4 ,ONLY TWO WEEKS AGO HE TOLD US HE DIDN'T BELIEVE WE W]E >RE/$ BECAUSE ( \R ACTIVITY1 BUT BECAUSE ( ?AT LETT]40 

,TITUS SAID1 0,S9CE ,I'VE BE5 DRAGG$ 9TO ?IS DISCUSSION AGA9/ MY WILL1 ,I MI<T AS WELL TRY TO CL>IFY ! REASON = ! APP>5T CONTRADICTION40 

0,!N ,MIRNA ISN'T LY+80 ,I ASK$ HIM4 

,HE SAID1 0,%E REMEMB]S CORRECTLY1 BUT %E FAILS TO GRASP ! POLITICAL SIGNIFICANCE ( ?AT LETT] AS WELL AS ! SIGNIFICANCE ( ! >RE/S1 & ,I'D LIKE TO ANALYZE --0 

0,PLEASE DO ANALYZE1 ,TITUS10 ,I BEGG$ HIM4 0,SOME?+ ?AT WAS CLE> TO ME HAS JU/ TURN$ 9TO A VA/ PUZZLE40 

0,I KNEW NO?+ AB\T ! >RE/S UNTIL ,I W5T TO Y\R H\SE IMM$IATELY AFT] ,I RECEIV$ ,MIRNA'S MESSAGE40 ,TITUS SAID4 0,ON ?AT EV5+ ,I DIDN'T BELIEVE ?AT Y\ OR ,JAN C\LD HAVE BE5 >RE/$ BECAUSE ( ! ,NA*ALO LETT]4 ,! POLICE FILES CONTA9$ 5ORM\S DOSSI]S ON BO? ( Y\1 & ! POLICE C\LD HAVE F\ND ANY NUMB] ( PRETEXTS1 AT ANY TIME -- 9 ADDITION TO :I* Y\ HAD BO? REC5TLY BE5 W>N$ --0 

0,?AT WAS EXACTLY MY REASON+10 ,I TOLD HIM4 0,:AT *ANG$ Y\R M9D80 

0,AS ,I TOLD Y\ TWO WEEKS AGO1 ,I W5T TO ! POLICE TO LE>N ! PRECISE REASONS = Y\R >RE/1 & ,I WAS COMPLETELY SURPRIS$ TO LE>N ?AT Y\ HAD 9 FACT BE5 >RE/$ BECAUSE ( ?AT LETT]1 NOT ONLY ! TWO ( Y\1 BUT ! 5TIRE =M] PRODUCTION GR\P ( ! C>TON PLANT --0 

,JASNA 9T]RUPT$ ,TITUS TO ADD1 0,TITUS GOT HIMSELF 9 TR\BLE ) ! POLICE BY TRY+ TO CONV9CE !M TO RELEASE ! RE/ ( US4 ,BUT !N ,GLAVNI & ,V]A SET (F ! APPEAL = !IR REHABILITATION & 9 ! PROCESS !Y CONFIRM$ ! POLICE 9V5TION AB\T ! SPY R+ & ALSO MADE ! POLICE SUSPICI\S ( ,TITUS --0 

0,NOT EXACTLY10 ,TITUS TOLD H]4 0,I WAS >RE/$ A YE> LAT] BECAUSE ,I HAD SIGN$ AN APPEAL 9 SUPPORT ( A FREE PRESS AT ! TIME ( ! UPRIS+1 NOT BECAUSE ,COMRADES ,KR5 OR ,GLAVNI ACCUS$ ME ( BE+ 9 CONTACT ) ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS OR ,SOPHIA ,NA*ALO4 ,! MATT] WASN'T ?AT SIMPLE4 ,A LETT] DID >RIVE BY ! UNUSUAL ME?OD ( P]SONAL MESS5G]1 & ?IS FACT ALONE >\S$ ! SUSPICIONS ( ! POLICE1 ESPECIALLY S9CE ! LETT] CAME FROM A P]SON LI/$ 9 ! POLICE RECORDS AS ! DAU<T] ( A MAN !Y CONSID]$ A SPY4 ,BUT !IR SUSPICIONS W]E 5TIRELY GR\NDLESS4 ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS WAS CONVICT$ 9 ! POLICE FILES )\T EV] HAV+ BE5 TRI$ = ESPIONAGE1 & ,I KN[ = A FACT ?AT HE WAS NO SPY4 ,SEV]AL YE>S E>LI] ,I HAD >GU$ ) ! APPROPRIATE AU?ORITIES ?AT IT WAS TOTALLY 9CORRECT & HYPOCRITICAL TO CONSID] ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS A SPY1 & ,I RETURN$ TO !SE >GUM5TS AFT] ! ,MAG>NA >RE/S4 ,BUT ) SIMIL> LACK ( SUCCESS4 ,AS = ! LETT] ITSELF1 ,I TRI$ TO CONV9CE !M ?AT1 REG>DLESS ( ITS ME?OD ( DELIV]Y1 IT WAS A MAJOR BLUND] TO >RE/ ! PEOPLE TO :OM IT WAS ADDRESS$4 ,I 9SI/$ !Y RELEASE1 NOT ONLY ,GLAVNI & ,V]A ,NEIS1 BUT ALL ! COMRADES :O HAD BE5 SWEPT 9 ON ?AT RIDICUL\S ESPIONAGE *>GE4 ,AS IS *>ACT]I/IC ( ?IS POLICE1 !Y REL5T$ UP TO A PO9T1 F9D+ NEW PRETEXTS = RELEAS+ SEV]AL ( ?OSE ORIG9ALLY >RE/$1 PRETEXTS SUGGE/$ TO !M BY ,COMRADE ,KR51 :ILE RETA9+ ?REE ( ! ORIG9AL GR\P 9 PRISON & REAFFIRM+ !IR POSITION ?AT ! ,NA*ALO LETT] CON/ITUT$ AN ACTUAL & NOT M]ELY A POT5TIAL DANG]40 

,I WAS COMPLETELY CONFUS$ & />T$ TO FEEL NAUSEAT$4 ,I TOLD HIM1 0,TITUS1 Y\'RE MAK+ MY HEAD SWIM4 ,TELL ME SOME?+4 ,Y\ KNEW ! POLICE CONSID]$ ?AT LETT] AN ACTUAL DANG]1 9 O!R WORDS !Y >RE/$ ME BECAUSE ( IT4 ,:Y DIDN'T Y\ AS MU* AS M5TION ?AT LETT] TO ME ! FIR/ TIME Y\ VISIT$ ME 9 PRISON80 

,TITUS ANSW]$1 0,BECAUSE ! ,NA*ALO LETT] WAS NOT ! REAL CAUSE ( Y\R >RE/2 IT WAS NO?+ MORE ?AN ! =MAL CAUSE4 ,AS ,I TOLD Y\ BE=E2 ! REAL CAUSE = ! >RE/S WAS ?AT CONCEPTION ACCORD+ TO :I* ]RORS ( CONSCI\SNESS CAN BE CORRECT$ BY MEANS ( >RE/ & IMPRISONM5T4 ,I SP5T DAY AFT] DAY >GU+ ) ONE AFT] ANO!R (FICIAL2 ,I WROTE ONE AFT] ANO!R REPORT2 ,I TRI$ TO CONV9CE !M ! ,NA*ALO LETT]1 OR ANY LETT] = ?AT MATT]1 EV5 ONE FROM A SPY1 MI<T REPRES5T A POT5TIAL ?REAT TO COH]5T CLASS CONSCI\SNESS1 BUT ?AT SU* A POT5TIAL ?REAT DID NOT & C\LD NOT BECOME AN ACTUAL DANG] UNLESS & UNTIL IT WAS TRANS=M$ 9TO A PROGRAM ( ACTION ( ! CLASS4 ,9 T]MS ( ITS CONT5T1 ! ,NA*ALO LETT] --0 

0,ITS CONT5T1 ,TITUS80 ,JASNA ASK$4 0,! CONT5T ( ! LETT] ,SOPHIA S5T TWELVE YE>S AGO80 ,JASNA HAD TURN$ PALE & SEEM$ TO FEEL AS NAUSEAT$ AS ,I4 

,TITUS CONT9U$1 TOTALLY UNSELFCONSCI\SLY1 0,YES1 ! CONT5T ( ?AT LETT] DID NOT CALL = >RE/1 OR = ANY ACTION :ATEV]1 & ,I TRI$ TO MAKE ?AT P]FECTLY CLE> 9 MY REPORT TO MY SECTION HEAD AS SOON AS ,I COMPLET$ MY /UDY ( IT ,:AT %\LD ,I HAVE TOLD Y\ :5 ,I SAW Y\1 ,Y>O/AN8 ,>RE/ & IMPRISONM5T WAS A TOTALLY 9APPROPRIATE RESPONSE TO ?AT LETT]1 UNW>RANT$ & UNPR9CIPL$4 ,BUT ,I SIMPLY DIDN'T HAVE ! C\RAGE TO TELL A MAN S]V+ AN EI<T-YE> PRISON T]M ?AT HE WAS 9 PRISON = NO REASON :ATEV]1 & ?AT !RE WAS NO PROSPECT = HIS RELEASE60 

,JASNA SI<$ & FA9T$4 ,V]A CAU<T H] BE=E %E FELL TO ! GR\ND4 ,TITUS JUMP$ UP TO HELP C>RY H] TO ! LIV+ ROOM S(A & ON ! WAY !RE HE COMM5T$1 0,POOR ,JASNA1 IT MU/ BE ! HEAT OR ! EXCITEM5T2 MY [N N]VES >E ON $GE40 ,HE WAS TOTALLY UNAW>E ( ! EFFECT ( HIS REVELATION ?AT HE WAS ! ONE :O HAD RECEIV$ Y\R LETT]4 

,:5 ,TITUS RETURN$1 ,MIRNA ASK$ HIM1 ) A COLDNESS ?AT MADE IT CLE> %E HADN'T BE5 SURPRIS$ BY HIS SELF-EXPOSURE1 0,>E Y\ REALLY SURE ! CONT5T ( ,SOPHIA'S LETT] DIDN'T W>RANT & EV5 NECESSITATE ALL ?OSE >RE/S80 

,TITUS SAID1 0,!RE'S NO D\BT 9 MY M9D4 ,I DIDN'T D5Y ! FACT ?AT ! ,NA*ALO GIRL WAS DEEPLY 9FECT$ BY H] FA!R'S 9DIVIDUALISM1 BY HIS COMPLETE LACK ( DISCIPL9E2 %E ILLU/RAT$ ?IS BY GLORIFY+ ! HOODLUM %E F\ND AS A COMPANION1 & %E 9CORRECTLY COMP>$ HIM TO ,Y>O/AN AL?\< HE HAD MU* MORE 9 COMMON ) ,JAN ,S$LAK & EV5 MORE ) H] [N FA!R4 ,I ALSO DIDN'T D5Y ! FACT ?AT1 LIKE H] FA!R & 9 SOME WAYS LIKE ,LUISA AS WELL1 %E S\<T A REVOLUTION NOT ( ! CLASS1 BUT ( PRIVATE B\RGEOIS 9DIVIDUALS1 & NOT 9 HI/ORY1 BUT \TSIDE HI/ORY1 9 SOME?+ %E CALL$ A COMMUNITY1 NAMELY 9 ,UTOPIA4 ,NOR DID ,I D5Y ! FACT ?AT SU* UNHI/ORICAL UTOPIANISM CAN ONLY LEAD TO A PHILOSOPHY ( DESPAIR ON FIR/ CONTACT ) HI/ORICAL1 ,I %\LD SAY CLASS REALITIES4 ,ALL !SE FACTS W]E UND5IABLE1 BUT NONE ( !M JU/IFI$ >RE/S & IMPRISONM5TS4 ,! ONLY WAY = PR9CIPL$ REVOLUTION>IES TO DEAL ) GAPS 9 CONSCI\SNESS IS TO PUT =W>D ! G5]AL 9T]E/S ( ! PROLET>IAT & ! F9AL GOALS ( ! MOVEM5T1 NOT TO >RE/ ! PROLET>IAT OR SECTIONS ( IT4 ,IT IS \R RESPONSIBILITY BE=E HI/ORY TO ISOLATE & >RE/ ! VIRUS1 NOT TO ISOLATE & >RE/ P]FECTLY HEAL?Y WORK]S :O >E TOTALLY UNAFFECT$ BY ! VIRUS4 ,& EV5 IF !Y BECOME 9FECT$1 ! HI/ORICAL PROJECT CAN BE REALIZ$ ONLY IF WE DE/ROY ! DISEASE1 NOT ! PATI5T4 ,ALL ?IS HAS ALWAYS SEEM$ P]FECTLY OBVI\S TO ME40 

,Y>A ASK$ NAIVELY1 0,DO Y\ MEAN ! POLICE DID ! SAME ?+ TO ! WORK]S ?AT ! DOCTORS DID TO ,VESNA80 

,I BEGG$1 0,Y>A1 PLEASE DON'T RE9TRODUCE ?AT GAME40 

,BUT ,MIRNA PROTE/$1 0,IT'S NO GAME1 BUT A V]Y S]I\S MATT]4 ,! RESPONSIBILITY ( EV]Y REASONABLE ADULT IS TO TAKE A SAMPLE ( ! DISEASE TO EXP]TS :O >E ABLE TO DET]M9E ! GRAVITY ( ! 9FECTION1 ISN'T ?AT SO1 ,TITUS8 ,Y\ CONSID]$ ,SOPHIA'S LETT] H>MLESS1 BUT Y\'RE ONLY AN 9DIVIDUAL1 Y\'RE NOT AN EXP]T 9 DIAGNOS+ ! CONDITION ( ! WORK+ CLASS 9 ! LI<T ( ITS HI/ORICAL TASK4 ,?IS IS ! JOB ( PEOPLE :OSE SPECIAL FIELD IS ! HEAL? & DISEASE ( ! PROLET>IAT4 ,OR DID ,I MISUND]/& Y\80 

,TITUS TOLD H]4 0,I HE> MY WORDS COM+ BACK AT ME1 BUT ,I DON'T UND]/& Y\40 

0,I'M SORRY ,I'M SO OBSCURE10 ,MIRNA TOLD HIM4 0,I DON'T UND]/& !SE ?+S1 S9CE ,I'M NOT ANY K9D ( EXP]T4 ,ZD5EK1 HELP ME EXPLA9 :AT ,I MEAN TO ,TITUS40 

,ZD5EK PLUNG$ 9TO ! DISCUSSION4 0,! WORK Y\ DO 9 ! TRADE UNION C\NCIL CONSI/S ( !ORETICAL REFLECTION & ELABORATION ON ! CONDITIONS & G5]AL RESULTS ( ! MOVEM5T1 IS ?AT CORRECT1 ,ZABRAN8 ,I BELIEVE ?OSE >E ! WORDS ,I'VE HE>D Y\ USE SEV]AL TIMES AT PRISON]S' CLUB MEET+S40 

0,?OSE W]E MY WORDS10 ,TITUS ADMITT$4 

,ZD5EK CONT9U$1 0,& Y\R WORK 9CLUDES REFLECTION & ELABORATION AB\T SU* UNUSUAL DOCUM5TS AS A LETT] FROM ABROAD ADDRESS$ TO ! 5TIRE =M] PRODUCTION GR\P ( A FACTORY1 ,I TAKE IT4 ,= 9/ANCE1 ANALYSIS ( ! HI/ORICALLY PROGRESSIVE CONT5T ( SU* A DOCUM5T1 AS WELL AS :AT WE MI<T CALL ITS DANG]\S FACETS --0 

,TITUS SAID1 0,YES1 ( C\RSE1 BUT ,I DON'T SEE :AT ?IS HAS TO DO ) --0 

0,) HOSPITALS80 ,ZD5EK ASK$1 LAU<+4 0,FRANKLY ,I DON'T EI!R1 BUT ,I SUSPECT ,Y>A HAD A V]Y PR(\ND 9SI<T BY MAK+ ?AT COMP>ISON1 & ,I'M SURE IF WE REFLECT ON IT1 IF WE ELABORATE IT --0 

0,>E Y\ JOK+ ) ME1 ,TOB>K980 ,TITUS ASK$ HIM4 

0,ON ! CONTR>Y1 ,ZABRAN4 ,I DON'T CONSID] ?IS A SUBJECT = JOKES10 ,ZD5EK SAID ) A S>CASM ,TITUS MISS$4 0,:AT'S 9 QUE/ION IS HI/ORY1 ! HI/ORICAL PROJECT ( ! PROLET>IAT40 

,ZD5EK'S EXPOSURE WAS 9T]RUPT$ BY ,M>C ,GLAVNI'S HEAVY /EPS ON ! /AIRWAY4 ,! S$UCTIVE EXPRESSION RETURN$ TO ,MIRNA'S FACE AS %E RAN TO ! LIV+ ROOM4 ,%E RETURN$ ) H] >M 9 ,M>C'S & ASK$ HIM1 0,DID Y\ SUCCE$1 MY DE>80 

,M>C TOLD H]1 0,!RE SEEMS TO BE SOME CONFUSION4 ,I'VE SP5T ! PA/ HALF H\R TRY+ TO LOCATE Y\R AIRL9E RES]VATION4 ,!Y CLAIM NOT TO HAVE A RES]VATION 9 ! NAME ( ,MAT!WS40 

0,OH DE>1 ?IS IS SIMPLY AWFUL10 ,MIRNA SAID4 ,%E POND]$1 !N PICK$ UP H] LEA!R PURSE & RUMMAG$ ?R\< IT4 0,:Y ,I HAVE ! FLI<T NUMB] RI<T H]E3 IT'S #c#e#g4 ,?IS WAS ALL DONE = ME BY A TRAVEL AG5T BE=E ,I LEFT1 & ,I REALLY %\LD HAVE /UDI$ ?IS MAT]IAL MORE CLOSELY4 ,OH DON'T TELL ME6 ,H[ T]RIBLY EMB>RASS+6 ,I'VE JU/ COME ACROSS MY IT9]>Y %EET4 ,?AT'S NOT A FLI<T NUMB] BUT ! NUMB] ( A SLEEP+ C>6 ,I WAS TO LEAVE BY RAILWAY TONI<T6 ,I DON'T KN[ H[ TO BEG9 TO APOLOGIZE TO Y\ --0 

,M>C LAU<$1 & MO/ ( ! ,TE/ ( US JO9$ HIM4 0,WE'VE ALL MADE SU* MI/AKES4 ,W\LD Y\ LIKE ME TO TRY TO PO/PONE Y\R TRAM RES]VATION80 

0,I SIMPLY DON'T D>E TO ASK Y\ TO DO ?AT60 ,MIRNA TOLD HIM4 0,I'LL PO/PONE IT MYSELF4 ,MR4 ,ZABRAN WAS JU/ />T+ TO TELL US AB\T HI/ORY'S PROJECT4 ,I'M SURE Y\'LL F9D IT FASC9AT+4 ,I WON'T MISS MU* S9CE ,I DON'T UND]/& SU* ?+S V]Y WELL4 ,I'LL BE AS BRIEF AS POSSIBLE4 ,BE SURE TO HELP Y\RSELF TO DESS]T40 

,MIRNA W5T UP/AIRS & ,M>C RETURN$ TO HIS SEAT1 NEXT TO ,Y>A1 & DID 9DE$ HELP HIMSELF TO A G5]\S S]V+ ( EA* DESS]T4 

,ZD5EK SAID TO ,M>C1 0,WE W]E DISCUSS+ C]TA9 ?+S ,MR4 ,ZABRAN1 ,I MEAN ,COMRADE ,ZABRAN TOLD ME AT A CLUB :]E =M] POLITICAL PRISON]S HOLD MEET+S --0 

,M>C WAS SURPRIS$4 0,ZABRAN ATT5DS MEET+S ( ?AT PRISON]S' CLUB80 

0,QUITE FREQU5TLY2 DOES ?AT SURPRISE Y\80 ,ZD5EK ASK$4 

,M>C SAID1 0,NO1 ,I SUPPOSE NOT4 ,I REMEMB] ?AT HE & ,COMRADE ,NEIS HAD ?AT 9 COMMON2 !Y BO? RAN AFT] ! SO-CALL$ RADICAL SECTORS TO TRY TO PULL !M BY ! TAIL --0 

,V]A PROTE/$1 0,EXCUSE ME1 ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI4 ,I'VE NEV] RUN AFT] --0 

,TITUS ALSO OBJECT$4 0,Y\R /ATEM5T IS EQUALLY (F5SIVE TO ME1 ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI4 ,Y\R SOCIAL POSITION HAS DE/ROY$ Y\R ABILITY TO DI/+UI% A RE=MI/ FROM A REVOLUTION>Y4 ,:AT IS NE$$ TODAY IS NOT HY/]ICAL SPEE*ES GLORIFY+ DIRECTIONLESS /RIKES1 UNCOORD9AT$ DEMON/RATIONS1 UNDISCIPL9$ WORK]S1 SPEE*ES GLORIFY+ A BODY :I* HAS LO/ ITS HEAD6 ,:AT IS NE$$1 ,GLAVNI1 IS SOME?+ Y\'VE LO/ ALL CONTACT )1 NAMELY HI/ORICAL DIRECTION1 A SELF-DISCIPL9$ WORK+ CLASS ) A HEAD4 ,! P[] ( SU* A WORK+ CLASS CAN BE DISLODG$ NEI!R BY RE=MI/ POLITICIANS NOR BY BUREAUCREATS TOTALLY CUT (F FROM ! CLASS & ?US FROM HI/ORY60 

,ZD5EK TOLD ,M>C1 0,I WAS TRY+ TO DET]M9E ,ZABRAN'S ROLE 9 ?IS HI/ORICAL PROCESS4 ,APP>5TLY HE CONTRIBUTES TO IT BY SUBMITT+ REPORTS TO HI/ORY1 SO TO SPEAK1 REPORTS ON ! PRES5T EXP]I5CE & FUTURE C\RSE ( ! HI/ORICAL MOVEM5T40 

,M>C ASK$ ,ZD5EK1 0,>E Y\ REF]R+ TO ,ZABRAN'S WORK 9 ! TRADE UNION C\NCIL8 ,HAS HE REALLY DESCRIB$ IT TO Y\ 9 SU* EXALT$ T]MS8 ,IT IS ( C\RSE TRUE ?AT ! TASKS ( ! POLITICAL SECTIONS >E AS IMPORTANT 9 !IR WAY AS ! TASKS ( ! ECONOMIC & PLANN+ SECTIONS1 BUT ,ZABRAN DOESN'T OCCUPY :AT ONE MI<T CALL A KEY ROLE 9 ! POLITICAL SECTION4 ,I'VE NEV] UND]/OOD :Y2 ,I'VE ALWAYS ?\<T HIM A P]FECTLY COMPET5T P]SON4 ,HE'S BE5 CONT5T TO REMA9 AT ! L[E/ RUNG ( ! POLITICAL SECTION ( ! TRADE UNION C\NCIL4 ,Y\ SURELY EXAGG]ATE HIS IMPORTANCE4 ,HIS REPORTS >E NOT SUBMITT$ TO HI/ORY1 BUT TO ! *IEF ( ! POLITICAL SECTION ( ONE DEP>TM5T ( ! TRADE UNION C\NCIL40 

,ZD5EK TURN$ TO ,TITUS & ASK$1 0,IS ?AT TRUE1 ,ZABRAN8 ,ALL ?AT !ORETICAL REFLECTION & ELABORATION ON ! PROLET>IAT'S TASK DOES NOT GET SUBMITT$ TO HI/ORY BUT TO A M]E SECTION *IEF8 ,= 9/ANCE1 :5 Y\ WROTE UP Y\R ANALYSIS ( ?AT ,NA*ALO LETT] --0 

,I FELT TE>S />T+ TO RUN \T ( MY EYES4 ,I NOTIC$ ,JASNA LEAN+ ON ! WALL BY ! 5TRANCEWAY FROM ! LIV+ ROOM1 PALE AS A %EET & EXPRESSIONLESS4 ,MIRNA RETURN$ FROM UP/AIRS & SAT D[N NEXT TO ,M>C4 ,! GA!R+ LOOK$ FUN]EAL4 ,ONLY ,ZD5EK & ,Y>A SEEM$ TO HAVE ANY LIFE 9 !M4 ,M>C WAS /ILL EAT+4 ,ALL ! O!RS />$ AT !IR PLATES4 

,ZD5EK CONT9U$ QUE/ION+1 OR %\LD ,I SAY NE$L+ ,TITUS4 0,I'M ASK+ Y\ BECAUSE ,I'M G5U9ELY 9T]E/$1 ,ZABRAN4 ,I WAS ALSO AN EMPLOYEE ( ! TRADE UNION C\NCIL4 ,BUT ?AT WAS TW5TY YE>S AGO1 & EV5 AT ?AT TIME ,I HAD NO 9SI<T 9TO ! TYPE ( WORK Y\ DID !RE4 ,ALL ,I EV] DID WAS TO TRANSMIT 9/RUCTIONS FROM ! (FICIALS TO ! WORK]S 9 ! PLANTS TO :I* ,I WAS ASSIGN$4 ,I NEV] 5GAG$ 9 ! REV]SE PROCESS1 9 ANALYZ+ ! ACTIVITY ( ! WORK]S !MSELVES1 9 ! WORK ( !ORETICAL ELABORATION --0 

,TITUS SAID1 0,IT IS SOLELY ON ! BASIS ( SU* !ORETICAL WORK ?AT ! WORK+ CLASS IS ABLE TO RESOLVE CONTRADICTIONS & /E] ITS HI/ORICAL C\RSE --0 

0,( C\RSE1 ,I UND]/&10 ,ZD5EK TOLD HIM4 0,)\T Y\R WORK ! WORK+ CLASS IS A BODY )\T A HEAD4 ,BUT :AT 9T]E/S ME IS ! DAILY R\T9E1 SO TO SPEAK1 :AT Y\ ACTUALLY DO DUR+ Y\R WORK+ DAY4 ,I HAVE A V]Y CONCRETE REASON = TAK+ AN 9T]E/ 9 ?IS4 ,:5 ,I WAS >RE/$ 9 ! TRADE UNION BUILD+ N9ETE5 YE>S AGO & *>G$ ) SYNDICALISM1 ,I ASK$ MYSELF3 ,:Y SYNDICALISM8 ,A *>GE ( SABOTAGE W\LD HAVE MADE S5SE TO ME4 ,EV] S9CE ! C\P ,I HAD SABOTAG$ EV]Y S+LE 9/RUCTION ?AT HAD COME D[N TO ME2 IT SIMPLY WASN'T 9 MY BLOOD TO GIVE SPEE*ES AB\T LABOR DISCIPL9E OR TO COMMUNICATE ?REATS TO WORK]S :O TOOK HALF-H\R BREAKS EV]Y H\R4 ,BUT :Y SYNDICALISM8 ,?AT DOESN'T REF] TO A P]SON'S ACTIVITY1 BUT TO HIS SOCIAL PHILOSOPHY2 ?AT WASN'T ANY?+ ,I HAD DONE1 BUT SOME?+ ,I HAD TOLD SOMEONE4 ,I SE>*$ MY M9D = ! P]SON ) :OM ,I HAD DISCUSS$ MY SOCIAL PHILOSOPHY1 & ! ONLY P]SON ,I C\LD ?9K ( WAS SOMEONE ) :OM ,I'D HAD 9NUM]ABLE CONV]SATIONS1 SOMEONE ) :OSE SOCIAL VIEWS ,I HAD AGRE$ D[N TO DETAILS1 AL?\< !RE HAD BE5 M9OR DISAGREEM5TS H]E & !RE4 ,I />T$ TO WOND] IF ?AT P]SON1 :O HAD ALWAYS SEEM$ SO FRI5DLY & S9C]E1 HAD ACTUALLY BE5 REPORT+ \R CONV]SATIONS TO ! POLICE --0 

,TITUS PROTE/$1 0,I'VE NEV] 9 MY LIFE S5T A S+LE REPORT TO ! POLICE1 & ,I'VE NEV] CONSID]$ >RE/ & IMPRISONM5T CORRECT ME?ODS = DEAL+ ) QUE/IONS ( CONSCI\SNESS60 

0,I'M NOT ACCUS+ Y\ ( ?AT1 ,ZABRAN6 ,GOD =BID60 ,ZD5EK EXCLAIM$4 0,?OSE QUE/IONS ,I ASK$ MYSELF IMM$IATELY AFT] MY >RE/ W]E ALL ANSW]$ ! MOM5T ,I SAW ?AT Y\ HAD ALSO BE5 >RE/$4 ,I HAD OBVI\SLY BE5 WRONG4 ,?IS POLICE SY/EM MAKES EV]YONE SUSPICI\S ( EV]YONE ELSE4 ,IT WAS OBVI\S Y\ HADN'T REPORT$ \R CONV]SATIONS TO ! POLICE1 S9CE Y\ W]E >RE/$ A YE> AFT] ! C\P --0 

,ADRIAN SAID TO ,ZD5EK1 0,SURELY Y\'RE WRONG AB\T ?AT4 ,ZABRAN WAS >RE/$ ) ! RE/ ( US AT ! TIME ( ! REVOLUTION>Y SEIZURE ( P[]1 TW5TY YE>S AGO --0 

,M>C 9T]RUPT$1 0,I BEG TO DIFF] ) Y\1 ,POVR%AN4 ,I SAW ,ZABRAN SOON AFT] ! >RE/S60 

0,Y\ MEAN Y\ W]5'T >RE/$80 ,ADRIAN ASK$ HIM4 0,I WAS >RE/$ ) ! RE/ ( Y\ AT ! TIME ( ! SEIZURE10 ,M>C ANSW]$4 0,S9CE ,I HAD ONLY REC5TLY BE5 HIR$ AT ! C>TON PLANT1 ,I HAD NO TR\BLE CONV9C+ POLICE (FICIALS ?AT ,I HAD NOT E/ABLI%$ ANY CONTACTS ) ! R+LEAD]S --0 

0,SO ?AT WAS H[ Y\ GOT \T SO FA/60 ,V]A %\T$4 0,DIDN'T !Y KN[ Y\ HAD BE5 ! R+LEAD]'S LOV]80 

0,?AT FACT1 ,COMRADE ,KR5A1 DOES NOT SEEM TO HAVE 9T]E/$ !M10 ,M>C TOLD H]4 

,ZD5EK CONT9U$1 0,FROM ! TIME ,I RAN 9TO Y\ 9 PRISON N9ETE5 YE>S AGO UNTIL V]Y REC5TLY ,I /OPP$ ASK+ MYSELF :O OR :AT HAD CAUS$ MY >RE/4 ,I TOLD MYSELF ,I SIMPLY C\LDN'T FA?OM ! ME?ODS & PROC$URES ( ! POLICE4 ,BUT 9 REC5T MON?S ?AT OLD UNRESOLV$ QUE/ION RETURN$ TO MY M9D1 & IT KEPT ON RETURN+ --0 

,ADRIAN COMM5T$1 0,IF ,ZABRAN WAS >RE/$ = ! SAME REASONS Y\ W]E & IF HE WASN'T IMM$IATELY RELEAS$1 Y\ CAN'T ACCUSE HIM ( CLE>+ HIMSELF ( HIS *>GE BY IMPLICAT+ Y\1 ! WAY SOME COMRADES DID TO ME60 

,ZD5EK TOLD HIM1 0,Y\'RE RI<T1 ,COMRADE4 ,IF ,ZABRAN WAS >RE/$ = ! SAME REASONS4 ,BUT Y\ SEE1 HE WASN'T >RE/$ = ! SAME REASONS4 ,HE WAS *>G$1 NOT ) SYNDICALISM1 BUT ) COSMOPOLITANISM4 ,I KNEW ?IS AT ! TIME2 HE TOLD ME HIMSELF :AT HIS *>GE WAS4 ,ZABRAN IS A V]Y OP5 P]SON1 & IT'S H>D TO BE SUSPICI\S ( HIM4 ,I ASSUM$ ! POLICE 9VE/IGATORS ASSIGN$ TO HIS CASE HAD *>G$ HIM ) COSMOPOLITANISM BECAUSE !Y HADN'T PROP]LY MEMORIZ$ ! CORRECT *>GE4 ,BUT TWO OR ?REE MON?S AGO1 9 A CONV]SATION ) SOME REC5TLY RELEAS$ LONG-T]M PRISON]S1 ,I LE>N$ !RE HAD BE5 A WAVE ( >RE/S N9ETE5 YE>S AGO2 C]TA9 PEOPLE W]E *>G$ ) COSMOPOLITANISM4 ,DO Y\ KN[ :AT ?IS *>GE MEANS80 

,V]A SNICK]$4 0,C]TA9 IGNORAMUSES 9 HI< PLACES USE ?AT WORD TO ATTACK ANYONE :O HAS EV] SP5T TIME ABROAD1 EV5 PEOPLE FAMILI> ) A =EIGN LANGUAGE --0 

0,?AT WAS PRECISELY :AT ! *>GE MEANT N9ETE5 YE>S AGO10 ,ZD5EK SAID4 0,IT WAS A BIZ>RE WAVE ( >RE/S2 IT ALMO/ SWEPT AWAY EV]Y (FICIAL :O HAD ANY KN[L$GE ( ! WORLD -- ! SO-CALL$ 9T]NATIONALI/S' TRIAL4 ,HUNDR$S ( MAJOR & M9OR FUNCTION>IES :O WORK$ 9 ! POLITICAL SECTIONS ( EV]Y 9/ITUTION W]E C>T$ (F TO PRISON IF !Y HAD BE5 $UCAT$ ABROAD OR HAD F\<T 9 =EIGN REVOLUTIONS4 ,!N A FEW WEEKS AGO1 :ILE READ+ ! CORRESPOND5CE 9 :I* ,Y>O/AN HAS BE5 5GAG$1 ,I LE>N$ ?AT MY ONE-TIME SYNDICALI/ COMRADE ,ZABRAN HAD PLAY$ A PROM95T P>T 9 A =EIGN REVOLUTION40 

,JASNA OBJECT$1 BUT )\T CONVICTION1 0,?AT /ILL DOESN'T ALL[ Y\ TO CONCLUDE HE HAD ANY?+ TO DO ) Y\R >RE/4 ,9 A WAY WE W]E ALL >RE/$ = COSMOPOLITANISM BO? TIMES1 S9CE !Y CONNECT$ US ) AN 9T]NATIONAL SPY R+40 

,ZD5EK SAID1 0,I HAV5'T DRAWN ANY CONCLUSIONS YET1 ,JASNA4 ,I'M ONLY TRY+ TO CL>IFY SOME QUE/IONS ?AT KEEP ME FROM SLEEP+ AT NI<T4 ,Y\ HAD MU* TO DO ) REAWAK5+ MY QUE/IONS1 ,JASNA4 ,SEV]AL WEEKS AGO1 DUR+ A V]Y 5JOYABLE D9N] AT ! ,VO*EKS'1 Y\ TOLD ! HI/ORY ( C]TA9 LETT]S DELIV]$ BY A MESS5G] AT ! TIME ( ,MAG>NA1 LETT]S :I* CAUS$ SEV]AL >RE/S4 ,IT WAS Y\ :O FIGUR$ \T ! MANN] 9 :I* ! LETT]S W]E RELAT$ TO ! >RE/S4 ,Y\ FIGUR$ \T ?AT ONE LETT] HAD BE5 ADDRESS$ TO SOMEONE :O WAS AN (FICIAL AT ! TIME ( ITS >RIVAL --0 

0,SO ,I WAS TO HAVE BE5 ?AT (FICIAL10 ,M>C SURMIS$4 ,ZD5EK TOLD ,M>C1 0,I DIDN'T KN[ Y\ AT ! TIME1 ,GLAVNI4 ,I ALSO DIDN'T KN[ ?AT MY FRI5D ,ZABRAN HAD EV] HAD RELATIONS ) ,SOPHIA ,NA*ALO4 ,CONSEQU5TLY ,JASNA'S EXPLANATION SEEM$ REASONABLE TO ME4 ,BUT A WEEK OR TWO LAT] ,I LE>N$1 QUITE BY ACCID5T1 ?AT ,ZABRAN WAS NOT A COMPLETE /RANG] TO ! ,NA*ALOS --0 

0,YES1 ?AT IS A BIZ>RE CO9CID5CE10 ,M>C SAID4 

0,?AT WAS ALSO MY FIR/ ?\<T10 ,ZD5EK CONT9U$4 0,H[EV]1 JU/ BE=E Y\ >RIV$ H]E1 Y\R FRI5D ,MRS4 ,MAT!WS WAS TELL+ US %E DIDN'T BELIEVE 9 CO9CID5CES --0 ,M>C SAID REPROA*FULLY TO ,MIRNA1 0,?AT SEEMS SOME:AT F>-FET*$2 LIFE IS FULL ( CO9CID5CES --0 

0,P]HAPS IT IS1 ,COMRADE10 ,ZD5EK CUT 91 0BUT 9 ?IS CASE ,MRS4 ,MAT!WS' PO9T ( VIEW WAS NOT SO F>-FET*$4 ,DUR+ ! PA/ FEW MON?S ,I'VE HAD SEV]AL CONV]SATIONS ) ,COMRADE ,ZABRAN & ,I'VE LE>N$ HE'S A V]Y COMMITT$ P]SON4 ,HE IS TOTALLY DEVOT$ TO ! PROLET>IAT1 & ALSO TO *ILDR54 ,HE HAS EXTREMELY CLE> IDEAS AB\T ! HEAL? ( BO?1 & V]Y ACUTE 9SI<TS 9TO ! 9NUM]ABLE DISEASES ?AT 5DANG] !IR HEAL? --0 

0,I DON'T SEE ! SIGNIFICANCE ( Y\R DRIFT10 ,M>C TOLD HIM IMPATI5TLY4 

0,DON'T Y\80 ,ZD5EK ASK$4 0,IF A MAN ) SU* SELFLESS DEVOTION TO ! PROLET>IAT'S HEAL?1 IF A MAN :O HAD DEVOT$ HIS LIFE TO REFLECTION & ELABORATION 9 ! S]VICE ( ! PROLET>IAT & ITS FUTURE C\RSE1 IF SU* A MAN HAD RECEIV$ ! TYPE ( LETT] ,ZABRAN DESCRIB$ = US E>LI]1 DO Y\ REALLY ?9K IT W\LD BE A CO9CID5CE IF --0 

,TITUS CUT ,ZD5EK %ORT & ASK$ ANGRILY1 0,IF HE ANALYZ$ ! POLITICAL SIGNIFICANCE ( ! CONT5TS ( ! LETT]8 ,IS ?AT :AT Y\'VE BE5 DRIV+ AT = ! PA/ HALF H\R8 ,I MU/ SAY ,I'M DISAPPO9T$ ) Y\1 ,TOB>K94 ,I HAD TAK5 Y\ = A MU* CLE>] ?9K]4 ,Y\'RE MUDDL$ TO ! PO9T ( BE+ 9COH]5T4 ,I'M FAMILI> ) ! CONCLUSION TO :I* Y\R DIGRESSIVE SPECULATIONS LEAD4 ,Y\'RE NOT ! FIR/ TO TRY TO MAKE SU* A PO9T4 ,Y\'RE TRY+ TO E/ABLI% AN ANALOGY BETWE5 ! WORK ( A PROLET>IAN !ORI/ & ! WORK ( ! POLICE4 ,IT'S A SUP]FICIAL ANALOGY4 ,IT OMITS ! C5TRAL FACT ?AT ! POLITICAL !ORI/ WORKS ) HI/ORICAL DATA & AIMS AT MAK+ ! PROLET>IAT CONSCI\S ( ITS REAL 9T]E/S1 :]EAS ! POLICE >E AT ! OPPOSITE 5D ( ! SPECTRUM2 !Y WORK ) WEAPONS & AIM TO >RE/1 CONF9E & PHYSICALLY LIQUIDATE --0 

0,I APOLOGIZE = MY 9COH]5CE1 ,ZABRAN2 IT /EMS FROM ! FACT ?AT ,I'M NOT UNAW>E ( ! DIFF]5CE Y\ PO9T \T10 ,ZD5EK TOLD HIM4 0,?AT'S :AT MAKES ME SO CURI\S AB\T Y\R DAILY ACTIVITY1 Y\R R\T9E4 ,!RE'S A GAP 9 MY KN[L$GE :I* CAUSES ! MUDDLE 9 MY CONSCI\SNESS4 ,Y\ SEE4 ,I'M ONLY FAMILI> ) ! WORK ( REVOLUTION>Y !ORETICIANS 9 PRE-REVOLUTION>Y SITUATIONS4 ,:5 ,I WAS A UNION ORGANIZ]1 A QU>T] ( A C5TURY AGO1 MO/ ( MY FRI5DS W]E REVOLUTION>Y !ORI/S ( ONE SORT OR ANO!R4 ,EV]Y ONE ( !M 5GAG$ 9 WORK ( !ORETICAL REFLECTION & ELABORATION1 ANALYZ$ PROGRESSIVE & REGRESSIVE SOCIAL =CES1 DEF9$ ! FUTURE C\RSE ( ! PROLET>IAN MOVEM5T & ! DANG]S ALONG ! PA?4 ,EV]Y ONE ( !M WAS FAMILI> ) ! VIRUSES & DISEASES ?AT C\LD 9FECT ! PROLET>IAT ALONG ! WAY1 & EA* PRESCRIB$ A DIFF]5T CURE4 ,BUT 9 ?OSE DAYS EA* REVOLUTION>Y !ORI/ PUBLI%$ HIS WRIT+S 9 ! NEWSPAP] ( ! GR\P TO :I* HE BELONG$1 & ! PUBLICATION ( ! !ORIES SEEM$ TO BE ! ULTIMATE PURPOSE ( ! REFLECTION & ELABORATION4 ,H[EV]1 AFT] ! C\P1 OR %\LD ,I SAY AFT] ! SEIZURE ( P[] BY ONE ( ! REVOLUTION>Y GR\PS1 ! C\NTLESS SECTS1 NEWSPAP]S & PUBLI%+ H\SES DISAPPE>$ OV]NI<T1 AS WELL AS ! MAJORITY ( ! POLITICAL !ORI/S :O ANIMAT$ !M4 ,SOME !ORI/S ( C\RSE REMA91 BUT !IR RESE>*ES & ANALYZES >E NO LONG] DI/RIBUT$ BY MILITANTS AT ! 5TRANCES TO FACTORIES1 & PEOPLE :O >E M]E WORK]S1 AS ,I'VE BE5 = ! PA/ FIFTE5 YE>S1 NO LONG] SEE ! FRUITS ( ALL ?AT !ORETICAL REFLECTION4 ,:AT ,I'D LIKE TO KN[ IS3 :AT HAPP5S TO ALL ?IS !ORETICAL WORK ONCE ! PROLET>IAT SEIZES P[]8 ,Y\ TELL ME ?IS WORK IS /ILL MOTIVAT$ BY A COMMITM5T TO ! HI/ORICAL 9T]E/S ( ! PROLET>IAT1 & ,I HAVE NO REASON TO D\BT Y\R MOTIVES4 ,BUT TO :OM IS ! WORK SUBMITT$8 ,TO ! PROLET>IAT8 ,TO HI/ORY8 ,ACCORD+ TO ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI IT IS SUBMITT$ TO A SECTION *IEF --0 

,TITUS 9T]RUPT$ ANGRILY1 0,Y\ OBVI\SLY DON'T EXPECT A REVOLUTION>Y !ORI/ TO --0 

,ZD5EK'S ANG] WAS ALSO M\NT+4 0,MY EXPECTATIONS >E IRRELEVANT1 ,ZABRAN6 ,I HAVE NO IDEA :E!R SU* A P]SON %\LD PR9T LEAFLETS 9 A BASEM5T1 %\T FROM A W9D[ OR SUBMIT CRITICAL REPORTS TO ! APPROPRIATE *ANNELS2 ,I'M NOT 9CL9$ 9 ANY ( ?OSE DIRECTIONS6 ,:AT 9T]E/S ME IS H[ SU* SELFLESS1 9DE$ NOBLE ACTIVITY1 C>RI$ \T ) SU* IRREPROA*ABLE MOTIVES1 CAN POSSIBLY HAVE ANY CONNECTION ) ! DE/RUCTION ( HUMAN LIVES1 ) ! IMMIS]ATION ( ! ACTIVITY ( AN 5TIRE SOCIETY1 ) ! LIQUIDATION ( ALL PROSPECTS --0 

0,AT ?IS PO9T Y\'RE RAV+60 ,TITUS SAID TO HIM4 

,ZD5EK %\T$1 0,Y\'RE RI<T1 ,ZABRAN6 ,CAN Y\ AT LEA/ TELL ME ?IS8 ,:5 WE WORK$ TOGE!R 9 ! TRADE UNION C\NCIL1 ! YE> DUR+ :I* WE 5GAG$ 9 NUM]\S CONV]SATIONS MU* LESS ONE-SID$ ?AN ! PRES5T ONE1 ,I TAKE IT ?AT Y\ ANALYZ$ ! POLITICAL SIGNIFICANCE ( MY SYNDICALISM4 ,& ,I TAKE IT ?AT Y\ WROTE Y\R ANALYSIS D[N1 ISN'T ?AT SO1 ,ZABRAN80 ,ZD5EK RECEIV$ NO ANSW]2 HE TURN$ TO ,M>C4 0,P]HAPS Y\ CAN TELL ME1 ,GLAVNI4 ,:AT W\LD A POLITICAL ANALY/ HAVE WRITT5 AB\T SYNDICALISM DUR+ ! YE> AFT] ! C\P80 

,M>C SEEM$ EMB>RASS$ BY ! QUE/ION4 0,9 ITS DAY1 SYNDICALISM WAS A V]Y PROGRESSIVE HI/ORICAL --0 

0,I MEAN AFT] ! C\P1 N9ETE5 OR TW5TY YE>S AGO1 NOT 9 ITS DAY60 ,ZD5EK 9SI/$4 

,M>C ANSW]$1 0,!RE W]E /ILL 9NUM]ABLE PROGRESSIVE ELEM5TS --0 

,ZD5EK TURN$ ANGRILY TO ,TITUS & ASK$1 0,& !RE W]E ALSO 9NUM]ABLE PITFALLS1 ISN'T ?AT SO1 ,ZABRAN8 ,GAPS 9 CONSCI\SNESS1 9CORRECT APPROA*ES1 & 9 ! F9AL ANALYSIS GROSS ]RORS :I* REPRES5T$ A GREAT ?REAT TO --0 

0,BUT ?AT'S COMMON KN[L$GE1 ,TOB>K910 ,TITUS ADMITT$4 0,:O CAN D5Y ?AT8 ,Y\ P]SONALLY ADMITT$ --0 

0,I NO LONG] AGREE ) ! POSITION1 BUT ?AT'S BESIDE ! PO9T1 ,ZABRAN10 ,ZD5EK TOLD HIM4 0,DON'T MISUND]/& ME4 ,I'M NOT TRY+ TO SUGGE/ Y\ URG$ ! POLICE TO >RE/ ME BECAUSE ( MY 9COH]5CE & MUDDLE1 BECAUSE ( ! ]RORS 9 MY POSITION4 ,Y\ NE$ NOT REPEAT ?AT Y\ DIS[N POLICE ME?ODS AS A WAY ( DEAL+ ) PROBLEMS ( CONSCI\SNESS4 ,HAS IT NEV] OCCURR$ TO Y\1 ,ZABRAN1 ?AT M5 :O HAVE SEIZ$ P[] OV] ! 5TIRE APP>ATUS ( A MOD]N /ATE1 :O HAVE TOTAL CONTROL NOT ONLY OV] ! 5TIRE NETWORK ( COMMUNICATION & $UCATION1 BUT ALSO OV] AN IMM5SE >MY & POLICE -- HAS IT NEV] OCCURR$ TO Y\ ?AT SU* M5 HAVE EXTREMELY P[]FUL 9/RUM5TS = DEAL+ ) 9COH]5T APPROA*ES & ]RORS ( CONSCI\SNESS80 

0,?AT'S A MI/AKE60 ,TITUS 9SI/$4 0,I'VE SP5T TW5TY YE>S PO9T+ \T ?AT PHYSICAL CO]CION --0 

0,IS NO WAY TO DEAL ) FALSE CONSCI\SNESS4 ,I KN[ ?AT4 ,I'M NOT ACCUS+ Y\ ( HOLD+ A DIFF]5T POSITION4 ,I AM TOLD ?AT ! 9V5TOR ( NUCLE> FISSION1 OR :ATEV] IT'S CALL$1 WAS A V]Y PEACEFUL MAN & CAMPAIGN$ AGA9/ W>6 ,DID HE OR DID HE NOT GIVE BIR? TO ?AT DE/RUCTIVE WEAPON8 ,Y\R REFLECTIONS1 ,ZABRAN3 :O USES !M1 H[4 = :AT PURPOSE80 

,TITUS SEEM$ EXASP]AT$ BY ! >GUM5T4 0,?AT'S A TYPICALLY ,UTOPIAN POSITION4 ,HUMANITY CAN ONLY SOLVE ?OSE PROBLEMS = :I* ! SOCIAL & MAT]IAL MEANS ALREADY EXI/4 ,! SOCIAL MEANS = ! PEACEFUL APPLICATION ( SCI5TIFIC DISCOV]IES >E NOT YET SUFFICI5TLY DEVELOP$ --0 

,ZD5EK %\T$1 0,! SOCIAL MEANS = MAK+ PROLET>IANS CONSCI\S ( :AT Y\ CALL !IR HI/ORICAL 9T]E/S ALSO DON'T EXI/1 DO !Y ,ZABRAN8 ,Y\R ELABORATIONS & REFLECTIONS CANNOT BE SUBMITT$ TO IDEAL C>RI]S ( ! PROLET>IAN PROJECT1 ANY MORE ?AN NUCLE> FISSION CAN BE SUBMITT$ TO HUMAN BE+S :O WILL NOT MAKE WEAPONS \T ( IT --0 

0,I'M NOT A UTOPIAN60 ,TITUS %\T$4 

0,EXACTLY :AT ,I'M DRIV+ AT60 ,ZD5EK %\T$1 BANG+ ON ! TABLE & R$ ) ANG]4 0 ,Y\R REFLECTIONS & ELABORATIONS >E SUBMITT$ TO ! ACTUAL C>RI]S ( ! PROLET>IAN PROJECT1 ?OSE :O CURR5TLY DEF9E !MSELVES AS ! AG5TS ( HI/ORY6 ,Y\R ANALYZES CAN ONLY BE TRANSLAT$ 9TO PRACTICE BY HI/ORY'S REAL AG5TS1 NOT BY ITS IDEAL AG5TS6 ,Y\'RE NOT A ,UTOPIAN6 ,:5 Y\ ANALYZE ! 9CORRECT & !RE=E DANG]\S POSITIONS ( A ,ZD5EK ,TOB>K9 OR A ,Y>O/AN ,VO*EK1 DO Y\ SUBMIT Y\R ANALYZES TO HI/ORY1 TO ! PROLET>IAT8 ,:5 Y\ DEF9E ME AS ILL1 ,ZABRAN1 :I* DOCTORS DO Y\ TAKE ME TO8 ,IDEAL DOCTORS ) A P]FECT UND]/&+ ( HUMAN LIFE & HUMAN FRE$OM8 ,OR ! ACTUAL DOCTORS C\<$ UP BY HUMANITY'S HI/ORICAL DEVELOPM5T80 ,ZD5EK WAS SWEAT+4 ,BO? ,JASNA & ,Y>A EXT5D$ !IR H&S T[>D HIM TO TRY TO CALM HIM1 BUT HE PU%$ !IR H&S AWAY & CONT9U$ %\T+4 0,ANSW] ME1 ,ZABRAN6 ,:AT DOES IT MEAN :5 Y\ SAY Y\ DON'T BELIEVE 9 >RE/ & IMPRISONM5T AS ME?ODS = DEAL+ ) QUE/IONS ( CONSCI\SNESS8 ,NO O!R ME?ODS EXI/1 ,ZABRAN1 & Y\'RE NOT A ,UTOPIAN6 ,Y\'RE NOT AN IDLE B\RGEOIS DILETTANTE BUT A P>TICIPANT 9 ! HI/ORICAL PROCESS6 ,:5 Y\ WRITE ?AT ! POSITION ( A ,S$LAK OR A ,VO*EK REPRES5TS A POT5TIAL DANG] TO HI/ORICAL DEVELOPM5T1 SURELY Y\'RE NOT SURPRIS$ IF ,S$LAK OR ,VO*EK >E >RE/$6 ,:Y >E Y\ SUDD5LY SO SIL5T1 ,ZABRAN8 ,DON'T Y\ KN[ ! ONLY REAL1 ! ONLY CONCRETE1 ! ONLY HI/ORICALLY AVAILABLE AG5TS ( Y\R HI/ORICAL PROJECT >E ! MILIT>Y & ! POLICE >M$ ) RIFLES1 MA*9E GUNS & TANKS80 

,ZD5EK1 FLU%$ ) ANG]1 SWEAT DRIPP+ FROM HIS HAIR & HIS FACE1 LOOK$ LIKE HE WAS AB\T TO HAVE AN ATTACK4 ,MIRNA1 =GETT+ ALL AB\T ,M>C1 RAN TO HELP ,JASNA & ,Y>A RAISE ,ZD5EK \T ( HIS *AIR & ACCOMPANY HIM TO ! KIT*54 ,I WAS TOO HYPNOTIZ$ TO MOVE1 AS W]E ! O!RS :O REMA9$ AT ! TABLE ) ME1 ALL ( !M 9 ONE WAY OR ANO!R S]VANTS ( ! SAME APP>ATUS ,TITUS S]V$4 

,ADRIAN QUICKLY LET IT BE KN[N ?AT HE WAS /UNN$ = QUITE DIFF]5T REASONS FROM M9E4 ,HE LET \T A :I/LE & EXCLAIM$1 0,?AT MAN IS A RAV+ LUNATIC60 

0,& Y\'RE A /UNT$ *IMPANZEE60 ,IR5A TOLD ,ADRIAN1 RIS+ FROM ! *AIR BETWE5 ME & ,ADRIAN & TAK+ ,ZD5EK'S SEAT DIRECTLY ACROSS FROM ME4 

,M>C />$ AT ,TITUS1 WIP$ HIS =EHEAD & SAID1 0,I W\LD NEV] HAVE BELIEV$ IT40 

0,:AT DO Y\ BELIEVE1 ,GLAVNI80 ,TITUS ASK$ HIM ANGRILY4 0,ADRIAN IS RI<T2 ?AT MAN IS OBVI\SLY A LUNATIC40 

0,OBVI\SLY6 ,& Y\'RE A MODEL ( SANITY60 ,M>C SAID S>CA/ICALLY4 

,I WAS IRK$ BY ! ?\<T ?AT ,COMRADE ,M>C ,GLAVNI DID NOT HAVE ! MO/ P]FECT 0VANTAGE PO9T0 FROM :I* TO EXPRESS HIMSELF SO SELF-RI<TE\SLY4 0,:I* APP>ATUS DO Y\ S]VE1 ,GLAVNI80 ,I ASK$ HIM4 

0,MY WORK HAPP5S TO BE 9 ! DOMA9 ( POLITICAL ECONOMY & PLANN+10 HE TOLD ME4 

0,>5'T HUMAN BE+S OB/ACLES TO ! REALIZATION ( Y\R PLANS80 ,I ASK$ HIM4 0,>5'T Y\R PLANS ! PRACTICAL TRANSLATION ( ! PROLET>IAT'S HI/ORICAL PROJECT = :I* LIV+ 9DIVIDUALS HAVE TO BE SACRIFIC$80 

,M>C DISMISS$ MY QUE/IONS ) A %AKE ( HIS H&1 AS IF HE W]E SWATT+ A FLY AWAY FROM HIS FACE1 & TURN$ BACK TO ,TITUS4 0,IT WAS ?ANKS TO Y\ ?AT ,I WAS REHIR$ 9 ! C>TON PLANT AFT] MY RELEASE4 ,ZABRAN4 ,I HAV5'T =GOTT5 ?AT4 ,BUT IT SUDD5LY OCCURS TO ME ?AT ,I W\LDN'T HAVE NE$$ Y\R 9T]CESSION TO REGA9 MY =M] JOB IF ,I HADN'T LO/ ?AT JOB TO />T ) --0 

,TITUS1 ) A CONTEMPT EQUAL+ ,M>C'S1 ! CONTEMPT ( A PROLET>IAN REVOLUTION>Y T[>D ! CLASS ( BOSSES1 SAID1 0,?AT'S V]Y FUNNY 9DE$1 ,GLAVNI60 

,M>C TOLD HIM1 0,YES IT IS1 ,ZABRAN1 EXTREMELY FUNNY4 ,! 5TIRE CONV]SATION ,I HAD ) Y\ AT ?AT TIME WAS EXTREMELY FUNNY4 ,Y\ DIDN'T ONLY HELP ME GET MY JOB BACK4 ,Y\ ALSO HELP$ ME RESOLVE SEV]AL1 %ALL WE CALL !M PHILOSOPHICAL1 QUE/IONS4 ,ON ?AT OCCASION ,I DIDN'T ONLY ASK = Y\R HELP 9 GETT+ ME RE9/AT$ 9 ! C>TON PLANT4 ,I ALSO ASK$ Y\R OP9ION AB\T A NEWSPAP] CLIPP+ ?AT HAD BE5 %[N TO ME BY PRISON (FICIALS %ORTLY BE=E MY RELEASE1 A CLIPP+ AB\T A WOMAN ,I HAD LOV$1 A WOMAN :O HAD BE5 KN[N = H] SOLID>ITY ) H] COMRADES4 ,?IS CLIPP+ %[$ ?AT %E WAS NOT 9 JAIL1 LIKE ! COMRADES :O HAD /OOD BY H]1 BUT HAD EMIGRAT$ ) A MAN :O WAS SUPPOS$LY A SPY --0 

,ADRIAN %\T$1 0,I SAW ?AT CLIPP+ TOO6 ,I TRI$ TO BR+ IT UP E>LI]4 ,! MAN'S NAME WAS ,ALB]TS4 ,HE WAS ! HEAD ( ! ,9T]NATIONAL ,ALB]TS ESPIONAGE R+1 & ! CLIPP+ PROV$ ?AT ,CLAUDE ,TAMNI* HAD BE5 RI<T AB\T ,LUISA ,NA*ALO2 %E WAS ! ACCOMPLICE ( AN 9T]NATIONAL SPY --0 

,M>C DISREG>D$ ,ADRIAN ) ! SAME ANNOY$ MOTION ) :I* HE HAD DISREG>D$ ME1 & CONT9U$ ADDRESS+ HIMSELF TO ,TITUS4 0,I ASK$ Y\ IF Y\ HAD KN[N ?IS ,ALB]TS --0 

,ADRIAN 9T]RUPT$ AGA94 0,I'M TELL+ Y\ ?AT ,ALB]TS P]SON WAS A CONVICT$ SPY --0 

,I HAD AN UNOB/RUCT$ VIEW ( ,ADRIAN1 S9CE ,IR5A'S *AIR WAS UNOCCUPI$2 HE REALLY DID LOOK LIKE A 0/UNT$ *IMPANZEE0 TO ME4 ,I REA*$ = HIS >M ANGRILY & %\T$1 0,DAMN Y\1 ,POVR%AN1 :5 WAS HE CONVICT$8 ,BY :AT C\RT80 

,ADRIAN1 NONPLUS$1 TOLD ME1 0,HE WAS A =EIGN]1 LIKE ,LUISA1 & ,ZABRAN TOLD US AT ! TIME HE WAS A REACTION>Y1 !RE=E A =EIGN SPY40 

,M>C DISREG>D$ ,ADRIAN'S COMM5TS2 HE TOLD ,TITUS1 0,9 ANSW] TO MY QUE/ION1 Y\ TOLD ME ,ALB]TS HAD BE5 9 ! PROCESS ( DEVELOP+ REACTION>Y1 P]HAPS Y\ EV5 SAID DANG]\S1 VIEWS4 ,I CONCLUD$ ?AT ! POLICE MI<T HAVE BE5 RI<T AB\T ,ALB]TS40 ,! O!RS />T$ RETURN+ TO ! TABLE4 ,M>C CONT9U$1 0,BUT ,I REFUS$ TO BELIEVE ?AT ,LUISA HAD UND]H&$LY BE5 5GAG$ 9 ESPIONAGE :ILE PRET5D+ TO BE \R COMRADE2 ,I REFUS$ TO BELIEVE %E HAD CAUS$ \R >RE/ BY IMPLICAT+ US 9 ! ACTIVITY ( ?IS ,ALB]TS40 

,S9CE ,ZD5EK'S =M] SEAT WAS OCCUPI$ BY ,IR5A1 ,ZD5EK SAT AT ! FOOT ( ! TABLE1 DIRECTLY ACROSS FROM ,TITUS4 ,JASNA TOOK ,IR5A'S PLACE NEXT TO ME2 AS SOON AS %E SAT D[N %E GRABB$ MY >M & ASK$ ME 9 A :ISP]1 0,SURELY HE'S NOT ALSO ! ONE :O />T$ ! RUMOR AB\T ,LUISA'S BE+ A SPY8 ,H[ C\LD HE8 ,!Y W]E LIFELONG FRI5DS60 

0,NO1 ,JASNA10 ,I :ISP]$ TO H]4 0,BUT BY DESCRIB+ ,ALB]TS AS A REACTION>Y1 HE APP>5TLY CONFIRM$ ?AT RUMOR 9 ! M9DS ( C]TA9 PEOPLE40 

,V]A HE>D ME & TOLD ,JASNA1 0,NAMELY 9 ! M9DS ( IDIOTS1 LIKE ,ADRIAN & ,I4 ,:5 ,ADRIAN & ,CLAUDE TOLD ME ,LUISA WAS 9VOLV$ 9 A SPY R+1 ,I C\LDN'T BELIEVE IT EI!R1 SO ,I ASK$ ! MO/ AU?ORITATIVE P]SON 9 ! PLANT1 ,TITUS ,ZABRAN4 ,HE TOLD ME EXACTLY :AT HE TOLD ,GLAVNI1 NAMELY ?AT ,ALB]TS WAS A MAN ) DANG]\S VIEWS4 ,I OBVI\SLY CONCLUD$ ! RUMOR WAS TRUE40 

,JASNA SAID TO ,V]A1 0,Y\ WANT$ TO BELIEVE IT6 ,Y\ DREAM$ ( REPLAC+ ,LUISA AS ! C5T] ( ATT5TION1 AS A POPUL> H]O9E1 AS ! SPE>HEAD ( ! C>TON PLANT /RIKE1 ESPECIALLY 9 ! EYES ( LITTLE ,SAB9A --0 

0,SO Y\'RE 9 ON ?AT TOO1 ,JASNA60 ,V]A EXCLAIM$4 0,I'LL BE DAMN$6 ,! WAY EV]YONE H]E IS C>RY+ ON1 Y\'D ?9K ,I WAS A SEXUAL MANIAC :O'D SP5T H] LIFE =C+ LITTLE GIRLS & SECRET>IES 9TO ORGIES6 ,! FACT IS ?AT ,I NEV] T\*$ A HAIR ON ,SAB9A'S HEAD -- OR ,IR5A'S6 ,NO PRO( EXI/S = ALL Y\R ACCUSATIONS6 ,:AT DO Y\ HOPE TO ACCOMPLI%8 ,:AT DO Y\ SUPPOSE W\LD HAPP5 IF A DEMOT$ BUREAUCRAT & HIS CLIQUE />T$ ?R[+ \TRAGE\S ACCUSATIONS AT ONE ( ! LEAD+ COMRADES80 

,IR5A RETORT$1 0,WE ALL KN[ P]FECTLY WELL :AT W\LD HAPP51 ,V]A6 ,WE W\LD ALL BE >RE/$ 9 ! MIDDLE ( ! NI<T1 GIV5 ,9T]M9ABLE PRISON T]MS1 & MO/ ( US W\LD NEV] COME \T TO SAY ANO!R WORD AB\T ! LEAD+ COMRADE ,V]A ,KR5A60 

,V]A TURN$ R$ ) FRU/RATION & />$ AT H] PLATE4 

,M>C1 RAIS+ HIS VOICE = ! FIR/ TIME1 TOLD ,V]A1 0,Y\R SEXUAL ADV5TURES DON'T 9T]E/ ME 9 ! LEA/1 ,COMRADE ,KR5A1 SO PLEASE DON'T WAVE ANY ?REATS AT ME6 ,9 MY OP9ION Y\ & Y\R CONSORT ,POVR%AN DES]VE EA* O!R6 ,MAY ,I RETURN TO ! TOPIC ,I WAS TRY+ TO RAISE80 ,HE TURN$ TO ,MIRNA & TOLD H]1 0,=GIVE MY ANG]1 DE>4 ,I HAVE AN URG5T MEET+ TWO H\RS FROM N[1 ONE :I* ,I CANNOT POSSIBLY CALL (F1 & IT SEEMS TO ME ?IS IS PRECISELY ! QUE/ION Y\ WANT$ TO RESOLVE1 IF ,I UND]/OOD Y\ CORRECTLY40 

,MIRNA NODD$4 0,YES1 ?IS WAS PRECISELY ! QUE/ION40 

,M>C TURN$ BACK TO ,TITUS4 0,Y\R DESCRIPTION ( ?AT ,ALB]TS P]SON WAS EXTREMELY DI/URB+ TO ME4 ,9 MANY WAYS ! C\RSE MY LIFE TOOK WAS AFFECT$ BY ?AT BRIEF CONV]SATION ) Y\4 ,I HAD KN[N Y\ & ,LUISA HAD BE5 CLOSE FRI5DS ONCE4 ,%ORTLY BE=E \R >RE/1 A RUMOR WAS CIRCULAT$1 BY ,COMRADES ,POVR%AN & ,NEIS AMONG O!RS1 TO ! EFFECT ?AT ,LUISA WAS ! ACCOMPLICE ( A SPY4 ,!N ,I WAS >RE/$ & *>G$ BY ! POLICE ) MA9TA9+ CONTACTS ) A CIRCLE ( SPIES1 AMONG :OM ,LUISA WAS ! R+LEAD]'S ACCOMPLICE4 ,AS PRO( ( ,LUISA'S GUILT1 ,I WAS %[N A CLIPP+ :I* ,POVR%AN APP>5TLY ALSO SAW4 ,?IS CLIPP+ PROV$ NO?+ AB\T ,LUISA'S ESPIONAGE1 BUT IF IT WAS AU!NTIC IT DID %[ ?AT ,LUISA HAD EMIGRAT$ ) ! SO-CALL$ R+LEAD]4 ,I ASK$ Y\ :AT SIGNIFICANCE Y\ ATTA*$ TO ! CLIPP+1 EXPECT+ Y\ TO DEF5D Y\R COMRADE FROM ! 9S9UATIONS4 ,BUT 9/EAD ( PROCLAIM+ ,LUISA'S 9NOC5CE1 Y\ TOLD ME AB\T ! DANG]\S VIEWS ( ?IS ,ALB]TS P]SON4 ,:5 ,I MET ,MRS4 ,MAT!WS1 ,LUISA'S CLOSE/ COMPANION = ! PA/ TW5TY YE>S1 %E ASSUR$ ME ,LUISA HAD NEV] HAD ANY CONNECTIONS ) A SPY R+1 & ,I HAVE EV]Y REASON 9 ! WORLD TO BELIEVE H]4 ,BUT ,I /ILL F9D Y\R POSITION ON ?IS MATT] EXTREMELY UNCLE>4 ,DID Y\ CONSID] ,LUISA DANG]\S AS WELL8 ,CAN Y\ REMEMB] WELL 5\< TO TELL ME ?AT80 

,TITUS COMM5T$1 0,APP>5TLY ,V]A ,KR5A IS NOT ! ONLY P]SON :O SEEMS TO BE ON TRIAL H]E60 

,M>C PROTE/$1 0,EXCUSE ME1 ,ZABRAN6 ,I'M NOT A JUDGE6 ,I'M ASK+ Y\ AB\T A P]SON :O WAS1 & /ILL IS1 V]Y DE> TO ME60 

,TITUS SAID ANGRILY1 0,BE ?AT AS IT MAY1 ,GLAVNI1 ! RUMOR AB\T ,LUISA OR ,ALB]TS BE+ SPIES C\LD NOT HAVE ORIG9AT$ ) ME6 ,I HAD KN[N BO? ( !M = OV] T5 YE>S1 & ,I KNEW = A FACT ?AT NEI!R ( !M HAD EV] BE5 9VOLV$ 9 A HO/ILE SPY R+4 ,DUR+ ! W>1 ,ALB]TS HAD DONE C]TA9 SCI5TIFIC WORK = ! RESI/ANCE1 & IT WAS ESPECIALLY 9SIDI\S TO ACCUSE HIM ( 9T]NATIONAL ESPIONAGE1 AS IF HE HAD DONE ?IS WORK = ! 5EMY4 ,I =CEFULLY PROTE/$ ! HYPOCRISY & 9JU/ICE ( ?IS *>GE4 ,ALB]TS WAS AN IDEALI/1 A ,UTOPIAN1 BUT HE WAS NOT A SPY6 ,BE=E ! W> HE HAD TAK5 P>T 9 A REVOLUTION>Y UPRIS+4 ,HE HAD EXPECT$ WORK]S TO E/ABLI% ! P]FECT SOCIETY OV]NI<T1 )\T ANALYZ+ ! NATURE ( !IR ORGANIZATION1 ! 9T]NATIONAL BALANCE ( =CES1 OR EV5 ! MAT]IAL CONDITIONS 9 :I* ?IS SOCIETY WAS TO BE E/ABLI%$4 ,SU* UTOPIANISM 9EVITABLY TURNS TO DESPAIR AS SOON AS IT COMES 9TO CONTACT ) REALITY1 & ?IS IS PRECISELY :AT HAPP5$ TO ,ALB]TS4 ,HE CURS$ ! WORK]S = HAV+ FAIL$ TO C>RY \T :AT HI/ORY ITSELF KEPT !M FROM C>RY+ \T4 ,HE DIDN'T ONLY CURSE ! WORK]S2 HE GRADUALLY TURN$ AGA9/ ! PROLET>IAN PROJECT ITSELF4 ,I ANALYZ$ ?IS PROGRESSION FROM UTOPIANISM TO --0 

0,Y\ :AT1 ,ZABRAN80 ,M>C ASK$4 

0,I ANALYZ$ IT60 ,TITUS REPEAT$4 0,I TRI$ TO DET]M9E ITS ORIG9S4 ,& ,I ?9K ,I LOCAT$ ! S\RCE ( ! UTOPIANISM1 AT LEA/ ! V]SION C>RI$ BY ,ALB]TS & TO A SMALL] EXT5T BY ,LUISA AS WELL AS ?OSE %E 9FLU5C$ --0 

,I S5S$ ?AT ,JASNA HAD />T$ TO TREMBLE4 ,%E RAIS$ H]SELF UP & :ISP]$ TO ME1 0,I CAN'T TAKE ANY MORE ( ?IS1 ,Y>O/AN40 ,%E RAN UP/AIRS1 PROBABLY TO H] B$ROOM4 

,TITUS ASK$ ME1 0,JASNA LOOK$ ILL2 IS !RE ANY?+ ,I CAN --0 

0,NO1 ,TITUS40 ,I TOLD HIM4 0,I ?9K %E'D RA!R BE ALONE40 

,M>C TOLD ,TITUS1 0,PLEASE GO ON1 ,ZABRAN4 ,?IS IS EXACTLY :AT ,MRS4 ,MAT!WS WANT$ TO LE>N4 ,Y\ SAY Y\ ANALYZ$ ! S\RCE ( ,LUISA'S & H] FRI5D'S UTOPIANISM --0 

,TITUS F9ALLY HE>D ! IRONY 9 ,M>C'S TONE1 PROBABLY = ! FIR/ TIME1 & HE HESITAT$2 !N HE DECID$ TO CONT9UE4 0,LUISA'S COMPANION AT ! TIME ( ! E>LI] RIS+1 A V]Y DYNAMIC MAN BY ! NAME ( ,NA*ALO1 EX]T$ AN 5ORM\S 9FLU5CE ON ,ALB]TS1 & OBVI\SLY ON ,LUISA AS WELL4 ,I DIDN'T ACTUALLY KN[ ! MAN1 BUT ,I WAS SURR\ND$ BY HIS FRI5DS & CONSEQU5TLY EV5 ,I WAS 9FECT$ BY SOME ( HIS ATTITUDES1 & ,I REMA9$ 9FECT$ = MANY YE>S AFT] HIS DEA?4 ,?IS WAS ! PROBLEM1 Y\ SEE4 ,! MAN'S ATTITUDES W]E AS 9FECTI\S AS ! MAN HIMSELF4 ,I DON'T WANT TO GO 9TO ! SPECIFIC CONT5T ( ?OSE POSITIONS1 BUT LET ME JU/ SAY !Y W]E ,UTOPIAN TO ! HI<E/ DEGREE4 ,I TRAC$ ,ALB]TS' UTOPIANISM1 HIS SUBSEQU5T DESPAIR AS WELL AS ! REACTION>Y CONCLUSIONS :I* HE F9ALLY DREW1 TO ?IS S+LE S\RCE1 ?IS MAN ,NA*ALO4 ,ALB]TS WAS A SCI5TI/ BY PR(ESSION1 & NEI!R HIS TEMP]AM5T NOR HIS SPECIFIC DISCIPL9E W\LD HAVE L$ HIM TO ?OSE POSITIONS4 ,IT WAS ONLY HIS CONTACT ) ,NA*ALO ?AT D]AIL$ HIM FROM :AT WE MI<T CONSID] HIS NATURAL C\RSE4 ,AS ,I SAID1 ,I HAD NO DIRECT CONTACT ) ! MAN HIMSELF1 BUT AT ! C>TON PLANT WE ALL EXP]I5C$ ! 9FECTI\S *>ACT] ( HIS POSITIONS4 ,EV]YONE 9 ! C>TON PLANT WAS AFFECT$ TO A GREAT] OR LESS] EXT5T4 ,Y\ W]E HIR$ V]Y LATE1 & CONSEQU5TLY Y\ DIDN'T EXP]I5CE ?IS PROCESS LONG 5\< TO DRAW ! CONCLUSIONS ,I WAS ABLE TO DRAW4 ,ORIG9ALLY ,I ?\<T ?AT ,LUISA1 9 ! ABS5CE ( ,NA*ALO & 9 ! FACE ( NEW DEM&S & A NEW CONCRETE SITUATION1 W\LD GRADUALLY %$ ! ,UTOPIAN ELEM5TS & BEG9 TO GRAPPLE ) REALITIES4 ,I WAS MI/AK54 ,LUISA NOT ONLY CONT9U$ TO C>RY ,NA*ALO'S ATTITUDES2 %E 9FECT$ ALMO/ EV]YONE 9 ! PLANT ) !M4 ,! ONLY TWO WORK]S :O REMA9$ COMPLETELY IMMUNE TO ?IS 9FLU5CE W]E ,TAMNI* & ,POVR%AN4 ,AT ! OPPOSITE EXTREME1 ,S$LAK BECAME SOME?+ ( A RE9C>NATION ( ,NA*ALO 9SIDE ! C>TON PLANT4 ,LUISA COMMUNICAT$ MORE ( ! DEAD MAN'S ATTITUDES TO ,S$LAK ?AN %E H]SELF ACCEPT$ 9 H] [N PRACTICE6 ,! COH]5CE1 ! POLITICAL HEAL? ( ! 5TIRE PRODUCTION GR\P WAS 5DANG]$ --0 

,M>C GOT UP ABRUPTLY4 0,I ?9K Y\'VE TOLD US QUITE 5\<1 ,ZABRAN1 & ,I REALLY MU/ BE GO+ N[4 ,BUT Y\'VE CREAT$ AN ALTOGE!R NEW PUZZLE = ME4 ,IF ,ALB]TS & ,LUISA REPRES5T$ EV]Y?+ Y\ SAY !Y DID --0 

,MIRNA /OPP$ HIM1 0,OH MY1 Y\ DON'T ACTUALLY BELIEVE ,LUISA WAS --0 

0,MY DE>10 ,M>C SAID TO H]1 0IT IS =TUNATELY NOT MY BUS9ESS TO TRANSLATE ! WORK ( POLITICAL !ORETICIANS 9TO POLICIES :I* CAN BE SOCIALLY IMPLEM5T$4 ,MY WORK IS EXCLUSIVELY 9 ! ECONOMIC DOMA94 ,I BELIEVE ,ZABRAN'S ANALYSIS HAS A C]TA9 AM\NT ( PLAUSIBILITY1 & ,I %UDD] :5 ,I ?9K ( ! WAYS 9 :I* SU* AN ANALYSIS MU/ HAVE BE5 TREAT$ 9 ! (FICES ( ADM9I/RATORS ) MORE PRACTICAL CONC]NS ?AN ,ZABRAN'S40 ,HE TURN$ TO ,TITUS AGA94 0,?AT'S :Y ,I'M PUZZL$1 ,ZABRAN4 ,IF ?OSE TWO PEOPLE REPRES5T$ :AT Y\ SAY1 :Y DID \R POLICE RELEASE !M 9 SU* A HURRY8 ,:Y W]5'T !Y %OT80 

0,%OT60 ,MIRNA EXCLAIM$ ) MOCK NAIVETE4 0,!Y C\LDN'T HAVE BE5 %OT1 C\LD !Y8 ,LUISA TOLD ME ! POLICE W]E EXTREMELY C\RTE\S ON ! DAY !Y W]E RELEAS$4 ,AFT] ALL1 ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS WAS AT ?AT TIME AN IMPORTANT NAME 9 9T]NATIONAL SCI5TIFIC CIRCLES --0 

0,AH YES1 ,I HAD =GOTT560 ,M>C SAID4 0,HE WAS ! W>TIME PHYSICI/4 ,! LIQUIDATION ( SU* A P]SONAGE W\LD HAVE DONE GREAT H>M TO \R 9T]NATIONAL PRE/IGE1 PRECISELY AT ?AT CRITICAL MOM5T4 ,& IF ,I UND]/& Y\ CORRECTLY1 ,ZABRAN1 Y\ 9SI/$ ON ! FACT ?AT NEI!R ,ALB]TS NOR ,LUISA W]E DANG]\S AS 9DIVIDUALS1 BUT M]ELY AS C>RI]S ( A DANG]\S & EXTREMELY 9FECTI\S VIRUS1 & CONSEQU5TLY !IR =C$ EMIGRATION REMOV$ ! C>RI]S FROM \R MID/ AS EFFECTIVELY AS O!R =MS ( LIQUIDATION4 ,BUT ?OSE AMONG US :O HAD CAU<T ! VIRUS -- TO A GREAT] OR LESS] DEGREE1 AS Y\ TOLD US1 & AS ,I'M SURE Y\ SCRUPUL\SLY MADE CLE> TO ! RESPONSIBLE LEAD]S AT ! TIME -- C\LD NOT BE =C$ TO EMIGRATE4 ,WE W]E PLAC$ 9 CONF9EM5T ( V>Y+ DURATIONS1 DEP5D+ ON ! EXT5T ( ! 9FECTION & ! SPE$ ( ! CURE --0 

,TITUS PROTE/$1 0,I'VE REPEAT$LY TOLD Y\ ,I DON'T CONSID] PHYSICAL CONF9EM5T AN ADEQUATE RESPONSE --0 

0,?AT'S P]FECTLY CLE> TO ME1 ,ZABRAN10 ,M>C TOLD HIM4 0,Y\R P]SONAL APPROA* TO !SE PROBLEMS IS EXTREMELY PACIFI/IC4 ,IT IS N[ ALSO CLE> TO ME :Y Y\ HAVE NEV] RIS5 ABOVE ! L[E/ RUNG ( ! POLITICAL SECTION ( Y\R DEP>TM5T1 NAMELY :Y Y\ HAV5'T BE5 PROMOT$ TO HI<] LEVELS1 :]E PRACTICAL IMPLEM5TATION IS A MORE DIRECT CONC]N4 ,SU* A PACIFI/IC APPROA* HAS NOT BE5 ! MO/1 %ALL WE SAY EXP$I5T1 APPROA* TO ! POLITICAL PROBLEMS WE HAVE FAC$4 ,BUT ,I MU/ ADMIT ,I'M SURPRIS$4 ,Y\R SQUEAMI%NESS AB\T ME?ODS COMB9ES RA!R BADLY ) ! BRUTAL REALISM ( Y\R OV]ALL APPROA*4 ,W\LD Y\ SAY ?IS IS AN ELEM5T ( ,NA*ALO'S 9FLU5CE ?AT REMA9S ) Y\ TO ?IS DAY -- A TRACE ( UTOPIANISM 9 ! DOMA9 ( ME?ODS8 ,BUT ,I REALLY MU/ BE GO+ N[ --0 

0,OH MU/ Y\ GO80 ,MIRNA ASK$ HIM4 0,Y\ CL>IFI$ SO MANY ?+S = ME --0 

0,I ADMIT ,I'M GLAD Y\ =C$ ME TO /AY10 HE TOLD H]4 0,MANY ?+S HAVE BE5 CL>IFI$ = ME AS WELL4 ,Y\ SEE1 ,I WAS PR(\NDLY HURT :5 ,I LE>N$ ,LUISA HAD EMIGRAT$ ) SOMEONE CONSID]$ A =EIGN SPY4 ,I HAD BE5 CLOSE1 V]Y CLOSE TO ,LUISA4 ,I OBVI\SLY C\LDN'T MAKE MYSELF BELIEVE %E HAD BE5 5GAG$ 9 ESPIONAGE1 NOR ?AT %E HAD IMPLICAT$ ! RE/ ( US 9 ?AT ACTIVITY4 ,BUT UNTIL TODAY ,I C\LD EXPLA9 NEI!R ! REASON = \R SUDD5 >RE/ NOR ! REASON = ,LUISA'S MY/]I\S EMIGRATION4 ,MY 9ABILITY TO EXPLA9 ?OSE EV5TS HAD A M>K$ EFFECT ON MY P]SONALITY4 ,AFT] MY VISIT TO ,ZABRAN ,I MADE DECISIONS :I* HAVE AFFECT$ MY LIFE S9CE !N4 ,I SWORE MYSELF TO CELIBACY & DEVOT$ MYSELF S+LE-M9D$LY TO MY C>E] --0 

,HIS COMM5TS CONFLICT$ ) :AT ,I HAD KN[N AB\T HIM1 & ,I ASK$ HIM1 0,>E Y\ CLAIM+ Y\ W\LD NEV] HAVE BE5 A C>E]I/ IF ! POLICE HADN'T ACCUS$ ,LUISA ( BE+ A SPY80 

,HE DISREG>D$ MY QUE/ION ) ! SAME SWATT+ GE/URE1 & HE TOLD ,MIRNA1 0,I HAVE NOT EXP]I5C$ ! DESIRE = A WOMAN'S AFFECTION FROM ?AT DAY UNTIL Y\ WALK$ 9TO MY (FICE4 ,I HOPE ,I'M NOT EMB>RASS+ Y\1 MY DE>4 ,FUR!RMORE1 UNTIL TODAY ,I HAD NEV] CALL$ (F A MEET+ EXCEPT 9 9/ANCES :5 IT OV]LAPP$ ) A MORE IMPORTANT MEET+4 ,I ATTRIBUTE ALL ?IS TO Y\1 DE>4 ,Y\ BR\<T ME NEWS ( ,LUISA1 Y\ BR\<T ME ! ASSURANCE ?AT ,LUISA HAD NEV] BE5 A SPY1 & ABOVE ALL Y\ BR\<T ME Y\RSELF40 ,DUR+ ?IS CONFESSION1 ,M>C HAD BE5 LEAD+ ,MIRNA ?R\< ! HALLWAY T[>D ! LIV+ ROOM1 HIS L>GE >M >\ND H] WAI/4 

,AFT] A FEW SECONDS1 ,I HE>D ,MIRNA %\T1 0,H[ AWFUL6 ,I JU/ REMEMB]$ ?AT ,I WASN'T ABLE TO GET ?R\< TO ! TRA9 /ATION TO *ANGE MY RES]VATION1 & MY TRA9 LEAVES 9 AN H\R60 

,!Y BO? RU%$ BACK 9TO ! D9+ ROOM4 ,MIRNA RAN TO GET ! PURSE BY H] SEAT1 :ILE ,M>C PAC$ BACK & =?1 OBVI\SLY ANNOY$4 0,?AT REALLY IS A DI/RESS+ OV]SI<T10 HE SAID4 0,I =GOT TOO6 ,ISN'T !RE SOME K9D ( TIME LIMIT BEYOND :I* RES]VATIONS CANNOT BE *ANG$80 

,MIRNA SAID1 0,YES1 & ,I'M AFRAID ,I MISS$ ?AT LIMIT60 

0,?AT'S EXTREMELY UN=TUNATE10 ,M>C TOLD H]1 /ILL PAC+2 0,I HAD V]Y MU* WANT$ TO HAVE ANO!R R5DEZ-V\S ) Y\40 

0,I HAD WANT$ ! SAME ?+ ) Y\1 ,M>C10 %E TOLD 

HIM4 

,M>C LOOK$ AT HIS WAT* & TOLD H]1 0,I'M SURE SOME?+ C\LD /ILL BE DONE1 BUT ,I SIMPLY DON'T HAVE ! TIME TO TRY TO EXPLORE ! POSSIBILITIES /ILL AVAILABLE TO US40 

0,I W\LDN'T DREAM ( ASK+ Y\ TO SP5D Y\R VALUABLE TIME ?AT WAY AT ?IS H\R10 ,MIRNA TOLD HIM4 

0,ONE ( ! ?+S ,I HAD WANT$ TO TELL Y\ WAS ?AT !RE IS A GREAT LIKELIHOOD ,I WILL BE TRAVEL+ OV]SEAS 9 ! V]Y NE> FUTURE10 HE TOLD H]1 0& ,I V]Y MU* WANT$ TO HAVE Y\R HOME ADDRESS1 JU/ 9 CASE --0 

0,:AT A WOND]FUL SOLUTION TO \R PRES5T DILEMMA60 ,MIRNA %\T$4 0,& :AT AN EXCIT+ PROSPECT6 ,I'LL BE SO HAPPY TO SEE Y\ AGA960 

0,& Y\R HUSB&80 ,M>C ASK$4 

0,WE'VE BE5 SEP>AT$ = SEV]AL YE>S10 %E TOLD HIM2 0DIDN'T ,I TELL Y\80 

0,PLEASE DO GIVE ME Y\R ADDRESS10 HE BEGG$4 

0,H[ EXCIT+60 ,MIRNA />T$ FI%+ ?R\< H] PURSE4 0,ISN'T ?IS SILLY8 ,I'M SO EXCIT$ ,I CAN'T EV5 REMEMB] MY [N ADDRESS40 

,M>C LOOK$ AT HIS WAT* AGA9 & SAID IMPATI5TLY1 0,PLEASE DO HURRY1 MY DE>40 

,MIRNA %\T$1 0,H]E IT IS60 ,%E TOOK \T A PIECE ( PAP]1 WROTE ON IT & H&$ IT TO HIM2 !N %E TOOK HIS H& 9 H]S & TOLD HIM1 V]Y S$UCTIVELY1 0,Y\'LL BE MORE ?AN WELCOME6 ,& ,LUISA6 ,%E'LL SIMPLY GO WILD :5 ,I TELL H]60 ,!Y WALK$ TO ! LIV+ ROOM1 >M 9 >M4 ,Y>A1 ,ZD5EK1 ,IR5A & ,I CR[D$ 9TO ! HALLWAY TO WAT* ! P>T+4 

,M>C KISS$ ,MIRNA'S H& & TOLD H]1 0,I DON'T KN[ H[ TO ?ANK Y\4 ,PLEASE DO COMMUNICATE TO ,LUISA H[ DEEPLY ,I REGRET ! ?\<TS ,I LEFT UNRESOLV$ DUR+ ! PA/ TW5TY YE>S4 ,9 MY HE>T ,I'VE NEV] FELT ANY?+ BUT ADMIRATION = H]1 AN ADMIRATION ! LIKE ( :I* ,I'VE S9CE FELT T[>D NO ONE BUT Y\40 

,:ILE ,M>C /ILL HELD ,MIRNA'S H& NE> HIS LIPS1 ,ADRIAN W5T BOLT+ \T ( ! D9+ ROOM /RAI<T T[>D ,M>C1 HIS RI<T H& EXT5D$4 0,COMRADE ,GLAVNI1 ,I CAN'T LET Y\ LEAVE BE=E TRY+ TO EXPLA9 MYSELF4 ,I [E Y\ AN APOLOGY --0 

,M>C DROPP$ ,MIRNA'S H&1 TURN$ HIS BACK TO ,ADRIAN & />T$ TO WALK T[>D ! BLACK LIM\S9E :I* WAS /ILL WAIT+ = HIM4 

,ADRIAN RAN \T ( ! H\SE AFT] HIM & %\T$1 0,Y\'VE GOT TO SEE MY PO9T ( VIEW1 ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI4 ,:5 !Y ?REW ?AT SPY *>GE AT ME = ! SECOND TIME1 & :5 ,I F\ND \T Y\ HAD BE5 RELEAS$1 & !N REMEMB]+ H[ CLOSE Y\ HAD BE5 TO ,LUISA1 ,I ASSUM$ --0 

,M>C SLAMM$ ! DOOR ( ! LIM\S9E & LOOK$ ONLY AT ,MIRNA1 :O /OOD 9 ! DOORWAY4 

,ADRIAN CONT9U$ %\T+1 0,9 ANY CASE ,I WASN'T ! ONE :O />T$ ?AT RUMOR AB\T H]60 ,!N HE WALK$ PA/ ,MIRNA BACK TO ! LIV+ ROOM & EXCLAIM$1 0,DAMN60 

,ZD5EK ASK$ HIM1 0,:AT'S ! MATT]1 ,POVR%AN8 ,AFRAID ,GLAVNI MI<T GET RE9/AT$80 

,ADRIAN REPEAT$1 0,DAMN60 & DROPP$ ONTO A S(A1 R$ ) FRU/RATION & P]SPIR+4 

,MIRNA /OOD 9 ! DOORWAY WAV+ AT ! LIM\S9E AS IT DROVE (F4 

,AS SOON AS ,MIRNA CLOS$ ! DOOR1 ,Y>A RAN TO H]1 EMBRAC$ H] & %\T$1 0,Y\ W]E P]FECT1 ABSOLUTELY P]FECT1 9 EV]Y WAY60 

,ZD5EK & ,IR5A BO? GR9N$ AS !Y1 TOO1 CONGRATULAT$ H]4 ,MIRNA LOOK$ QUIZZICALLY AT ME4 

,I SMIL$ & TOLD H]1 0,HIS C>E] /ILL CAME FIR/ -- EV5 ABOVE ! PROSPECT ( A TETE-A-TETE ) ,MRS4 ,MAT!WS4 ,BUT Y\ W]E NEV] SO -- SO S$UCTIVE ) ME40 

0,( C\RSE NOT60 %E TOLD ME4 0,Y\ NEV] ASK$ ME TO HAVE A TETE-A-TETE ) Y\1 :ATEV] ?AT IS60 ,%E RAN TO ME & KISS$ ME PASSIONATELY ON MY LIPS4 ,!N %E LOOK$ >\ND1 ASK$1 0,BUT :Y ISN'T ! BRIDE BACK80 & RAN UP/AIRS4 

,Y>A />T$ TO RETURN TO ! D9+ ROOM1 BUT ,IR5A /OPP$ H] & TOLD H]1 0,!Y'RE HAV+ IT \T ) EA* O!R4 ,LEAVE !M40 

,V]A WAS %\T+ AT ,TITUS 9 ! D9+ ROOM4 0,SO Y\ SAW RI<T ?R\< ME1 DID Y\ ,COMRADE ,ZABRAN8 ,Y\ KNEW ALL AB\T ME FROM ! V]Y BEG9N+6 ,& ) :OM DID Y\ %>E ?IS KN[L$GE ( Y\RS8 ,:Y DID Y\ SPREAD IT8 ,:AT DO Y\ EXPECT TO GET \T ( IT80 

,TITUS TOLD H] 9DIGNANTLY1 0,I HAPP5 NOT TO BE A GOSSIP MONG]1 ,COMRADE ,KR5A60 

0,I SUPPOSE Y\ ONLY WANT$ Y\R PRECI\S ,ADRIAN TO RECOGNIZE HE WAS 9 ! GRIP ( A MON/]60 %E %\T$4 0,& :AT !N8 ,DO Y\ REALLY BELIEVE ?AT AFT] EXP]I5C+ ! UPP] E*ELONS ( ! BUREAUCRACY HE'D EV] AGA9 RETURN TO A FACTORY JOB8 ,Y\'RE DELUD$ BEYOND IMAG9ATION6 ,ADRIAN IS P]MAN5TLY SPOIL$6 ,HE'LL NEV] AGA9 BE ONE ( Y\R BELOV$ PROLET>IANS1 HE'LL NEV] AGA9 BE ONE ( Y\R FOLL[]S60 

0,UNSCRUPUL\S1 %AMELESS HYPOCRITE60 ,TITUS %\T$1 G5U9ELY ANGRY = ! FIR/ TIME4 0,UND] ! GUISE ( DEVOTION TO ! PROLET>IAN CAUSE1 Y\'VE DONE NO?+ BUT SURR\ND Y\RSELF ) 9/RUM5TS = ! SATISFACTION ( Y\R DEPRAV$ P]SONAL DESIRES60 

0,Y\ HAVE ! N]VE TO SAY ?AT TO ME60 %E RETORT$4 0,Y\1 ,TITUS ,ZABRAN1 D>E TO ?R[ ?AT 9 MY FACE6 ,Y\ :O'VE SP5T Y\R LIFE MAIM+ & KILL+ Y\R BELOV$ PROLET>IANS1 :O DE/ROY$ :AT Y\ C\LD NEV] TOTALLY POSSESS1 Y\ HAVE ! N]VE TO ?R[ DEPRAVITY 9 MY FACE6 ,I'VE COME NO CLOS] TO SATISFY+ :AT Y\ CALL MY DEPRAV$ DESIRES ?AN Y\4 ,COMRADE ,ZABRAN1 BUT ,I NEV] W5T TO SU* L5G?S TRY+60 ,!RE WAS A LONG SIL5CE4 ,SUDD5LY ,V]A WAS %\T+ ?R\< SOBS1 APP>5TLY ON ! V]GE ( HY/]IA4 0,H[ CAN Y\ JU/ SIT !RE1 SO COLD1 SO IMPASSIVE8 ,DON'T Y\ KN[ :AT Y\'VE DONE80 ,%E SOBB$1 & !N CONT9U$1 0,I WOR%IP$ MY PROLET>IANS AS MU* AS Y\ EV] DID Y\RS1 BUT ,I NEV] DID M9E ANY H>M1 NOT ! SLI<TE/1 EV]6 ,BUT Y\6 ,:5 Y\ LO/ Y\R HOLD OV] Y\RS1 Y\ HAD !M MAIM$1 TORTUR$1 CONF9$1 KILL$6 ,& Y\ TALK TO ME AB\T DEPRAVITY60 ,!RE WAS SIL5CE AGA92 ONLY H] HY/]ICAL SOBB+ C\LD BE HE>D4 

,SUDD5LY ,TITUS APPE>$ 9 ! LIV+ ROOM 5TRANCE2 HE WALK$ T[>D ! C\* :]E ,I WAS & SAT D[N4 0,SURELY Y\'RE /ILL SOB] & UNHY/]ICAL 5\< TO UND]/&1 ,Y>O/AN40 

0,I'M FAIRLY SOB] & UNHY/]ICAL1 BUT ,I DON'T UND]/&10 ,I TOLD HIM4 

,HE W5T ON1 0,MASS >RE/ ( ! 5TIRE GR\P WAS AN IDIOTIC RESPONSE TO ! ACTUAL DANG] ! GR\P REPRES5T$1 BUT UNCRITICAL ACCEPTANCE ( ! GR\P'S UNBRIDL$ & GR[+ 9DIVIDUALISM W\LD HAVE BE5 AN EQUALLY IDIOTIC RESPONSE4 ,! POT5TIALLY EXPLOSIVE & 9FECTI\S *>ACT] ( SU* UNCONTROLL$ 9DIVIDUALISM 9 ! MID/ ( A REVOLUTION>Y SITUATION HAD TO BE C>EFULLY ASSESS$1 NOT ) ! SAB]-RATTL+ HY/]IA ( A ,TAMNI*1 BUT ) ! HI/ORICALLY TRI$ & TE/$ ME?ODS ( PROLET>IAN ANALYSIS4 ,:5 ! MO/ COMBATIVE ELEM5TS ( ! CLASS BEGAN TO REJECT1 NOT ONLY ! MISLEAD]S :O HEAD$ !IR PSEUDO-ORGANIZATIONS1 BUT ALSO ! REAL LEAD]S ( ! PROLET>IAT'S [N ORGANIZATION1 ! CONSCI\SNESS ( ! 5TIRE CLASS WAS PUT 9TO JEOP>DY4 ,SURELY Y\ UND]/& ?IS6 ,! WORK+ CLASS HAS ALWAYS CONSID]$ ITS ORGANIZATION AS ITS MO/ PRECI\S 9/RUM5T4 ,OPPOSITION TO ITS ORGANIZATION HAS ALWAYS BE5 ! EXPRESSION ( CONFUSION 9 ! CLASS1 CREAT$ BY PETTY B\RGEOIS 9FLU5CES --0 

,I MOV$ AS F> TO ! O!R 5D ( ! C\* AS POSSIBLE4 ,I ADDRESS$ HIM AS 0,ZABRAN0 & REMEMB]$ H[ AMAZ$ ,I HAD BE5 :5 ,Y>A HAD />T$ CALL+ HIM 0,MR4 ,ZABRAN40 ,I SAID TO HIM1 0,DUR+ ! W>1 ,ZABRAN1 :5 ,I WAS CAU<T SLEEP+ 9 ! C>TON PLANT1 Y\ KEPT ! =EMAN FROM HAV+ ME >RE/$4 ,Y\ 9TRODUC$ ME TO Y\R COMRADES 9 ! RESI/ANCE ORGANIZATION4 ,LAT] Y\ 9TRODUC$ ME TO ,LUISA ,NA*ALO4 ,I'VE ALWAYS BE5 GRATEFUL = :AT Y\ DID = ME4 ,BUT -- & EXCUSE ME = PUTT+ IT ?IS WAY -- ,I'M SUDD5LY CURI\S AB\T Y\R MOTIVES4 ,:AT WAS ,I TO Y\8 ,OR TO PUT IT DIFF]5TLY1 :AT POT5TIAL DID ,I SEEM TO REPRES5T = ! WORK+ CLASS /RUGGLE80 

,:ILE ,I WAS TALK+1 ,ADRIAN WAS TIPTOE+ T[>D ! HALLWAY TO ! D9+ ROOM4 ,I HE>D HIM ASK ,V]A4 0,DO Y\ REALIZE WE GO ON ! RADIO EXACTLY N9ETY M9UTES FROM N[80 

,9 A MUFFL$ VOICE1 ,V]A SAID1 0,I =GOT ALL AB\T IT4 ,Y\'LL HAVE TO GO ON BY Y\RSELF4 ,I FEEL AWFUL40 

0,BY MYSELF80 ,ADRIAN GASP$4 0,I'VE NEV] GIV5 A TALK BY MYSELF6 ,! TALK ,I PREP>$ LA/S ALL ( FIVE M9UTES60 

0,WELL HAVE ,IR5A TYPE Y\ MORE60 ,V]A %\T$4 0,I CAN'T GO ON6 ,DON'T Y\ UND]/& ?AT80 

,ADRIAN RETURN$ TO ! LIV+ ROOM & WALK$ T[>D ,IR5A4 ,HE TOLD H] %EEPI%LY1 0,V]A CAN'T GO ON40 

,IR5A TOLD HIM1 0,WRITE Y\R [N SPEE*1 ,ADRIAN4 ,I'M QUITT+60 

,ADRIAN WAS ON ! V]GE ( TE>S4 0,IR5A1 PLEASE --0 

0,GO TO HELL60 ,IR5A %\T$4 

,ADRIAN TOLD H]1 0,DON'T =GET ! COMRADES AT ! RADIO /ATION EXT5D$ \R TIME TO HALF AN H\R BECAUSE Y\ HAD 9SI/$ FIFTE5 M9UTES WASN'T LONG 5\< = \R PROGRAM40 

,IR5A HESITAT$ = A SECOND4 ,!N %E WALK$ T[>D ME1 EXT5D$ H] H& & LOOK$ 9TO MY EYES4 0,I'M SURE WE'LL SEE EA* O!R AGA940 ,%E CROSS$ ! ROOM T[>D ,Y>A1 TOOK H] H& & SAID1 0,PLEASE DO LET ME KN[ :5 Y\'LL GO ON ANO!R ONE ( Y\R EXCURSIONS4 ,I'D LIKE TO GO UP/AIRS TO SAY GOODBYE TO ,MIRNA40 

0,I'M SURE Y\'LL SEE H] AGA9 TOO10 ,Y>A TOLD H]4 0,WE BO? LOVE Y\ = COM+40 

0,:5 WILL ,I MEET Y\R FRI5D ,JULIA80 ,IR5A ASK$4 

0,I'LL BR+ H] TO Y\R (FICE TOMORR[ MORN+10 ,Y>A TOLD H]4 0,I'M AFRAID Y\ WON'T LIKE ALL ! GAMES ,JULIA & ,I PLAY --0 

,IR5A SAID1 0,I'M SURE ,I'LL LOVE ANY GAMES Y\ PLAY1 ,Y>A60 

,IR5A KISS$ ,ZD5EK'S BE>D$ *EEK1 & ,Y>A ACCOMPANI$ H] TO ! DOOR4 ,Y>A TOLD H]1 0,?ANKS = EV]Y?+4 ,SI/]S80 

0,SI/]S1 ,Y>A4 ,=EV]60 ,!Y EMBRAC$ 9 ! DOORWAY4 ,I C\LDN'T TAKE MY EYES (F !M3 ID5TICAL HAIR1 ID5TICAL CLO!S1 ALMO/ ! SAME HEI<T4 ,F9ALLY ,ADRIAN PULL$ ,IR5A AWAY FROM ,Y>A & WALK$ \T ) H]4 

,MY EYES W&]$ BACK TO ,TITUS1 :O WAS />+ AT ME FROM ! O!R 5D ( ! S(A4 ,I TRI$ TO RETURN TO ! QUE/ION ,I HAD ASK$ HIM E>LI]4 0,I TAKE IT ?AT ,I WAS MORE TO Y\ ?AN SIMPLY A HOODLUM1 A HOMELESS WRET* = :OM Y\ M]ELY FELT PITY4 ,I REPRES5T$ SOME?+ TO Y\1 DIDN'T ,I8 ,I WAS ONE GRA9 ( ?AT VA/ MASS :I* C\LD POT5TIALLY RAISE ! WORLD TO ITS %\LD]S1 BUT :I* WAS ASLEEP1 BL9D & IGNORANT4 ,Y\ PROVID$ ! NECESS>Y COH]5CE1 SELF-DISCIPL9E & ORGANIZATION4 ,I WAS EXPECT$ TO DO ! RE/ ON MY [N40 

,BUT BE=E ,I CL>IFI$ MY QUE/ION1 ,MIRNA CAME D[N ! /AIRWAY PULL+ ,JASNA BY ! H&4 ,MIRNA SAT D[N ON ! FLOOR BY MY FEET1 PLAC$ H] >M ACROSS MY KNEES1 & /RET*$ H] EXPOS$ /OCK+$ FEET T[>D ,TITUS1 AS IF TO PROVOKE HIM4 ,JASNA SAT D[N RI<T NEXT TO ME1 OR RA!R DIRECTLY 9 FRONT ( ME S9CE ,I WAS FAC+ SIDEWAYS TO TALK TO ,TITUS4 ,JASNA TOOK BO? MY H&S & PULL$ !M >\ND H] WAI/4 ,?IS SEEM$ TO BE H] WAY ( PROCLAIM+ ?AT H] M>RIAGE WAS (F4 ,FEEL+ AN URGE TO CONVEY ! SAME MESSAGE TO HIM1 ,I PULL$ ,JASNA CLOS] T[>D ME1 BURI$ MY FACE 9 H] HAIR & KISS$ H] E> :ILE ,I />$ DIRECTLY AT ,TITUS4 ,Y>A LEFT ! DOOR & W5T TO SIT ON ,ZD5EK'S LAP4 ,TITUS WAS COMPLETELY ALONE1 & = A SECOND ,I FELT SORRY = HIM4 ,HE TURN$ HIS FACE AWAY FROM ME & />$ D[N AT HIS [N %OES4 

,MIRNA SAID1 0,I'M SORRY WE 9T]RUPT$4 ,PLEASE DO GO ON40 

,I WASN'T ABLE TO GO ON4 ,!RE WAS A LONG SIL5CE4 ,!N ,Y>A SAID TO ,TITUS1 0,Y>O/AN WAS ASK+ Y\ :Y Y\ TOOK HIM 9TO Y\R ORGANIZATION6 ,:AT DID Y\ EXPECT FROM HIM80 

,TITUS1 /ILL LOOK+ D[N1 SAID1 0,I'VE EXPRESS$ MY WILL+NESS TO ANSW] ANY QUE/ION Y\ ASK1 ,Y>O/AN -- PROVID$ ,I CAN UND]/& IT40 

,I APOLOGIZ$4 ,I WAS HAV+ A H>D TIME CONC5TRAT+ ON ! QUE/ION ,I WANT$ TO ASK HIM4 ,I TRI$ AGA94 0,:AT Y\'VE JU/ TOLD AB\T ,LUISA -- ,I SUPPOSE Y\ ?\<T ALL ?OSE ?+S AB\T H] AT ! TIME40 ,TITUS NODD$4 0,YET Y\ 9TRODUC$ ME TO H]4 ,Y\ DIDN'T ONLY 9TRODUCE ME4 ,Y\ APP>5TLY WANT$ ME TO BE1 H[ %ALL ,I SAY IT1 SOME?+ LIKE H] POLITICAL PUPIL40 ,TITUS NODD$ AGA94 ,I WAS IRRITAT$4 0,I DON'T UND]/& ! SIGNIFICANCE ( Y\R NOD40 

0,I DON'T UND]/& Y\R QUE/ION10 HE TOLD ME4 

,I %\T$4 0,Y\ TOOK Y\R PATI5T TO ! WRONG TYPE ( DOCTOR1 DIDN'T Y\80 

,HE LOOK$ UP FROM HIS %OES ) A BEWILD]$ EXPRESSION2 ,I C\LD SEE ?AT HE G5U9ELY HADN'T UND]/OOD4 ,I />T$ AGA94 0,A HOODLUM1 A LUMP5 PROLET>IAN WAS F\ND SLEEP+ 9 ! C>TON PLANT40 ,TITUS />$ D[N AT HIS %OES AGA94 ,I CONT9U$1 0,HE WASN'T SIMPLY A HOODLUM1 BUT ONE FAMILI> ) ! CITY 'S HID+ PLACES1 ) ! SEW]S & EMPTY BUILD+S1 ! ALLEYS & UND]GR\ND PASSAGES4 ,HE WAS POT5TIALLY USEFUL TO ! RESI/ANCE ORGANIZATION1 P>TICUL>LY AT A TIME :5 AN >M$ RIS+ WAS AB\T TO BEG94 ,Y\ TOOK HIM UND] Y\R W+4 ,! FIR/ GOAL WAS TO W9 ! W>2 ! RE/ W\LD COME LAT]4 ,BUT ! W> 5D$1 & Y\ /ILL KEPT ?IS LUMP5 UND] Y\R W+1 AL?\< HE WAS NO LONG] USEFUL TO Y\4 ,HIS KN[L$GE ( SEW]S HAD BECOME IRRELEVANT4 ,:AT WAS NE$$ !N WAS A PROLET>IAN CADRE1 & ?IS LUMP5 WAS IGNORANT1 UNDISCIPL9$ & ANTI-9TELLECTUAL4 ,:AT Y\ CALL$ A M]ELY 9/9CTIVE REBEL HAD TO BE TRANS=M$ 9TO A CLASS-CONSCI\S REVOLUTION>Y1 IF POSSIBLE ONE ) A SMATT]+ ( PROLET>IAN !ORY4 ,BUT :Y DID Y\ *OOSE ,LUISA = ?IS TASK8 ,H[ C\LD %E HAVE C>RI$ ?AT TRANS=MATION ?R\<80 

,TITUS SAID1 0,I /ILL FAIL TO UND]/& Y\R QUE/ION1 UNLESS Y\ WANT ! SIMPLI/IC & OBVI\S ANSW] ?AT ,LUISA WAS AN EXP]I5C$ WORK+ CLASS ORGANIZ] :]EAS ,I WAS M]ELY A !ORI/ --0 

0,>E Y\ BE+ PURPOSELY D5SE80 ,I ASK$ HIM1 EXASP]AT$4 0,Y\ APP>5TLY EXPECT$ ,LUISA TO %APE ME 9TO A SELF-DISCIPL9$1 REALI/IC CADRE1 TO *ANNEL MY 9/9CTIVE REBELLION & ,UTOPIAN HOPES 9TO SCI5TIFIC UND]/&+ ( ! LAWS ( SOCIAL DEVELOPM5T & RIGID CONSCI\SNESS ( ! PROLET>IAT'S HI/ORICAL TASK4 ,BUT Y\'VE JU/ TOLD US ,LUISA WAS 9CAPABLE ( C>RY+ \T SU* AN ASSIGNM5T --0 

,TITUS LOOK$ T[>D ,ZD5EK ) HO/ILITY & SAID1 0,I ?9K ,I SEE :AT Y\'RE DRIV+ AT4 ,Y\'RE BACK TO ! FACT ?AT :ATEV] \R 9T5TIONS >E1 WE'RE LIMIT$ TO HI/ORICALLY AVAILABLE 9/RUM5TS1 & ,LUISA WAS ! ONLY HI/ORICALLY AVAILABLE PROLET>IAN ORGANIZ] 9 ?AT PLANT2 !RE W]E NO IDEAL ORGANIZ]S4 ,YES1 ,Y>O/AN1 UN=TUNATELY WE DON'T *OOSE ! CIRCUM/ANCES 9 :I* WE HAVE TO CONFRONT \R TASKS4 ,YES11 ,I TOOK Y\ UND] MY W+1 IF Y\ WANT TO PUT IT ?AT WAY4 ,Y\ W]E SOME?+ ( A NATURAL LEAD]1 & 9 FACT Y\ W]E ! CATALY/ :O SET (F ! POLITICIZATION ( ! O!RS2 IT WAS Y\ ! O!RS LOOK$ TO4 ,LUISA C\LDN'T PLAY ?AT ROLE AT ! />T BECAUSE ( H] UNFAMILI>ITY ) ! LOCAL CONDITIONS & ! DI/ANCE CREAT$ BY H] LACK ( LOCAL EXP]I5CES --0 

0,BUT SOME?+ W5T WRONG1 DIDN'T IT80 ,I ASK$4 0,LUISA />T$ -- H[ DID Y\ PUT IT8 -- 9FECT+ US ) ATTITUDES ?AT ?REAT5$ TO SPOIL EV]Y?+60 

0,LUISA DIDN'T />T BY 9FECT+ Y\60 HE PROTE/$4 0,%E W5T A LONG WAY T[>D TRANS=M+ Y\ 9TO A CLASS-CONSCI\S REVOLUTION>Y4 ,I MU/ HAVE EXPRESS$ MYSELF SIMPLI/ICALLY E>LI]4 ,! ATTITUDES ,LUISA AS WELL AS ,ALB]TS' DAU<T] 9H]IT$ FROM ,NA*ALO W]E TYPICAL ( ! MO/ MILITANT SECTORS ( ! WORK+ CLASS1 !Y REFLECT$ ! CLASS'S IMPLACABLE HATR$ = CAPITAL1 ITS WILL TO /RUGGLE AGA9/ ! CAPITALI/ ORD]1 ITS REPUDIATION ( ALL CLASS COLLABORATION4 ,A,H ?IS IS NECESS>Y1 9DE$ 9DISP5SABLE1 = ! PROLET>IAT'S /RUGGLE4 ,IT IS NECESS>Y1 BUT NOT SUFFICI5T4 ,ABOVE ALL ELSE ! PROLET>IAT NE$S !ORY1 NAMELY PROLET>IAN CONSCI\SNESS1 AS WELL AS ORGANIZATION4 ,BUT CONSCI\SNESS CANNOT SIMPLY BE PLAC$ 9TO SOMEONE'S HEAD4 ,IT GR[S \T ( ! SITUATION ITSELF1 \T ( DAILY CONFRONTATION ) ! CONTRADICTION BETWE5 ! PRODUCTIVE =CES & ! PRODUCTION RELATIONS40 

0,I SEE10 ,I TOLD HIM4 0,SO MY JOB WAS SUPPOS$ TO 9CULCATE ! SELF-DISCIPL9E4 ,! F9AL RESULT WAS TO BE A CADRE ) ,NA*ALO'S IMPLACABLE HATR$ & ) SOME?+1 LIKE Y\R !ORY --0 

0,PRECISELY60 HE SAID4 0,& ,LUISA WAS P]FECTLY SUIT$ TO GUIDE Y\ ?R\< SU* A DEVELOPM5T4 ,IF O!R FACTORS HADN'T 9T]V5$1 NO?+1 9 ! WORLD W\LD HAVE MADE Y\ TURN AGA9/ PROLET>IAN !ORY & ULTIMATELY AGA9/ ! PROLET>IAT'S V]Y ORGANIZATION --0 

0,N[ Y\'RE COM+ TO :AT ,I WANT TO KN[10 ,I TOLD HIM4 0,:AT W]E ?OSE O!R FACTORS80 

0,9 ESS5CE !Y CAN ALL BE R$UC$ TO ,NA*ALO'S 9FLU5CE10 HE SAID4 0,BUT ?IS 9FLU5CE WAS NOT COMMUNICAT$ AS DIRECTLY AS Y\ CLAIM ,I MADE IT SEEM4 ,NA*ALO COMB9$ IMPLACABLE HATR$ = CAPITALISM ) IMPLACABLE HATR$ = ! PROLET>IAT'S [N ORGANIZATION & !ORY40 

0,JU/ LIKE MY BRO!R10 ,MIRNA OBS]V$4 

0,& LIKE Y\1 ,MIRNA60 ,TITUS TOLD H]4 0,IT WAS PRECISELY ?R\< ,JAN ?AT ! ,NA*ALO 9FLU5CE WAS COMMUNICAT$ TO ! RE/ ( ! PRODUCTION CREW4 ,IT WAS NO WOND] TO ME ?AT HE & ,ALB]TS' DAU<T] TOOK2 TO EA* O!R6 ,ULTIMATELY ( C\RSE ,LUISA WAS ! C>RI] ( ?AT 9FLU5CE1 BUT :AT REMA9$ M]ELY DORMANT 9 ,LUISA FL>$ UP 9 ,JAN6 ,I WASN'T AW>E ?AT TWO PROCESSES W]E TAK+ PLACE SIMULTANE\SLY4 ,AT ,LUISA'S H\SE Y\ BECAME 9CREAS+LY CONSCI\S ( ! TASKS CONFRONT+ ! CLASS & ( ! LOCAL MAT]IAL & SOCIAL CONDITIONS 9 :I* \R GR\P F\ND ITSELF4 ,H[EV] AT ! PLANT ,JAN ,S$LAK ABSORB$1 NOT LESSONS DRAWN FROM ! PRODUCTION PROCESS1 BUT ! LESSONS HE DREW FROM ,LUISA'S MANN]ISMS & UN9T5TIONAL COMM5TS4 ,?IS HAPP5$ 9 SPITE ( ! FACT ?AT ,LUISA NEV] CONSID]$ HIM A COMRADE4 ,S$LAK'S SPONTANEISM1 HIS 9/9CTIVE REBELLION C\LD HAVE BE5 *ANNEL$ & CONTROLL$1 IT C\LD HAVE PLAY$ A USEFUL ROLE 9 ! WORK]S' MOVEM5T1 IF ! RE/ ( ! GR\P1 & P>TICUL>LY Y\1 HAD REMA9$ CONSCI\S ( ! HI/ORICAL TASKS4 ,BUT GRADUALLY Y\ W]E SWAY$ --0 

0,JU/ :AT DID ?IS 9FLU5CE CONSI/ (80 ,I ASK$ HIM4 

0,IMMATURITY ( CONSCI\SNESS1 9SUFFICI5T GRASP ( ! NE$S ( ! CLASS /RUGGLE1 LACK ( ANY COH]5T APPROA* TO ORGANIZATION & POLITICAL ACTIVITY10 HE ANSW]$4 0,9 ,NA*ALO & ,S$LAK WE SAW A TOTAL 9COMPREH5SION ( ! ?REE FUNDAM5TAL TASKS ( ! REVOLUTION>Y /RUGGLE ( ! PROLET>IAT3 CLASS CONSCI\SNESS1 PROLET>IAN !ORY & ORGANIZATION4 ,?IS WAS EXTREMELY GRAVE4 ,ALL ! COMB9$ =CES ( CAPITAL DO NOT REPRES5T AS GREAT A DANG] TO ! PROLET>IAT AS ! 9COH]5T & UNCONTROLL$ =CES )9 ! PROLET>IAT ITSELF4 ,I'VE DEVOT$ MY :OLE LIFE TO ! TASK ( REFLECTION & ELABORATION ( ! PROLET>IAT'S HI/ORICAL PROJECT1 ! TASK ( DEF9+ & ISOLAT+ UNCONTROLL$ & DANG]\S =CES )9 ! PROLET>IAT'S [N RANKS4 ,:AT Y\ DON'T UND]/& IS ?AT ,NA*ALO & HIS LIKES APPE> TO BE ! MO/ MILITANT WORK]S DUR+ TIMES :5 NO ORGANIZ$ /RUGGLE IS TAK+ PLACE4 ,BUT DUR+ TIMES ( /RUGGLE !Y BECOME OB/ACLES & FETT]S TO ! PROLET>IAT4 ,:AT WAS NE$$ 9 ! C>TON PLANT WAS A COH]5T /RUCTURE TO MA9TA9 & DEVELOP POLITICAL CL>ITY4 ,T]RORI/ PETTY B\RGEOIS ELEM5TS FI<T+ ONLY TO GRATIFY !IR [N P]SONAL DESIRES HAD NO PLACE 9 SU* A /RUGGLE4 ,! 5TIRE AIM ( REVOLUTION>Y !ORY CAN BE R$UC$ TO ?IS3 TO DEF9E1 ISOLATE & MAKE POSSIBLE ! NEUTRALIZATION ( SU* ELEM5TS BE=E !Y CONTAM9ATE ! 5TIRE CLASS --0 

0,?IS NEUTRALIZATION1 ,ZABRAN -- H[ WAS IT C>RI$ \T80 ,I ASK$ HIM4 0,BY MEANS ( !ORY1 BY P]SUASION1 BY ORGANIZ]S LIKE ,LUISA1 BY !ORI/S LIKE Y\RSELF8 ,Y\'VE TOLD ME ?AT 9 ! E>LI] /RUGGLE Y\ W]E A SOLDI] 9 A SO-CALL$ POPUL> >MY4 ,TANKS & RIFLES W]E ! 9/RUM5TS ) :I* Y\ ISOLAT$ & NEUTRALIZ$ --0 

0,?AT MILIT>Y ORGANIZATION WAS E/ABLI%$ )9 ! FRAMEWORK ( AN 9CORRECT P]SPECTIVE1 AS ,I'VE TOLD Y\ BE=E60 HE SAID ANGRILY4 0,! CLASS MU/ NECESS>ILY MAKE USE ( VIOL5CE1 BUT ?IS CANNOT BE DONE BY A M9ORITY SEP>ATE FROM ! G5]AL MOVEM5T ( ! CLASS6 ,T]RORISM1 BY 9DIVIDUALS OR SEP>ATE GR\PS LIKE >MIES OR POLICE1 IS ABSOLUTELY =EIGN TO ! ME?ODS ( ! CLASS & CON/ITUTES A ME?OD :I* EXPRESSES ! DESPAIR ( ! PETTY B\RGEOISIE --0 

0,DAMN IT1 ,I DON'T UND]/&60 ,I %\T$4 0,DO Y\ ACTUALLY CONCEIVE ( ! PROLET>IAT AS A S+LE BODY ?AT TURNS ALL AT ONCE AGA9/ ITS CLASS 5EMY & DEALS A S+LE BL[1 AS IF IT DIDN'T CONSI/ ( 9DIVIDUALS1 ( DIFF]5T GR\PS80 

0,JU/ SO60 HE SAID4 0,& IT IS PRECISELY ?IS UNITY ( PURPOSE & UNITY ( ACTION ?AT >E SABOTAG$ BY 9DIVIDUALI/S LIKE ,NA*ALO & ,S$LAK6 ,9DIVIDUALISM IS A DISEASE6 ,! 5TIRE TACTICS & /RATEGY ( ! /RUGGLE RESIDE 9 DIAGNOS+ ?IS DISEASE & ISOLAT+ ITS C>RI]S FROM ! RE/ ( ! CLASS1 NOT BY MILIT>Y ME?ODS BUT BY ! ME?ODS ( SCI5CE6 ,ONCE ! C>RI]S >E ISOLAT$1 !IR [N FOLL[]S T5D TO ABSORB ! HI/ORICAL LESSON & WELD !MSELVES TO ! IRON FI/ :I* CLE>S AWAY ! FETT]S ?AT OB/RUCT ! HI/ORICAL MOVEM5T --0 

0,I'M />T+ TO UND]/&10 ,I SAID1 FEEL+ NAUSEAT$4 0,! PO9T IS NOT = AN >MY1 A M9ORITY1 TO C>RY Y\R !ORY 9TO HI/ORY4 ,! PO9T IS = ,NA*ALO'S [N COMRADES TO C>RY Y\R !ORY1 & IF POSSIBLE ,NA*ALO HIMSELF4 ,! PO9T IS TO TURN ,NA*ALO'S [N COMRADES 9TO P>TISANS ( A /RUGGLE HE HAD REPUDIAT$ FROM ! M>R[ ( HIS BONES4 ,SO ?AT'S :AT Y\ EXPECT$ 9 ! C>TON PLANT8 ,ONCE ,LUISA & ,SAB9A W]E NO LONG] ABLE TO 9FECT US ) ! 9DIVIDUALI/IC VIRUS1 ! RE/ ( US W]E TO TURN TO ! CORRECT TASKS ON \R [N1 UND] NO O!R PRESSURE ?AN ?AT ( ! LEVEL ( DEVELOPM5T ( ! PRODUCTIVE =CES --0 

0,YES1 ,Y>O/AN1 ?AT'S PRECISELY ! PO9T10 HE SAID4 0,! PO9T IS NOT ! PHYSICAL LIQUIDATION ( SPONTANEITY OR COMBATIV5ESS OR 9/9CTIVE REBELLION4 ,:5 ?IS IS DONE ! PROLET>IAT IS LEFT DIS>M$2 ?IS IS :5 TANKS & RIFLES SUB/ITUTE !MSELVES = ! PROLET>IAN FI/1 BECAUSE IT IS ! =CE BEH9D ! FI/ ?AT IS ?US LIQUIDAT$4 ,! GOAL IS TO TRANS=M NOT ONLY Y\1 BUT EV5 A ,JAN ,S$LAK & A ,NA*ALO 9TO COH]5T EXPRESSIONS ( CLASS P[]1 & ?IS CANNOT BE ACCOMPLI%$ BY MEANS ( GUNS AIM$ AT !IR HEADS6 ,! PROLET>IAT'S HI/ORICAL TASK IS NOT ?AT SIMPLE6 ,IT IS ! DISEASE ?AT HAS TO BE LIQUIDAT$1 NOT ! PROLET>IAT6 ,SURG]Y CANNOT BE C>RI$ \T BY MEANS ( EXPLOSIVES6 ,NOT EV5 9 HI/ORICAL P]IODS :5 EXPLOSIVES >E ! 9/RUM5TS MO/ READILY AVAILABLE TO ! SURGEONS6 ,!ORY HAS DEVELOP$ O!R ME?ODS1 & !SE O!R ME?ODS CANNOT BE CONSID]$ ,UTOPIAN BECAUSE PROLET>IAN !ORY IS NOT AN AB/RACTION2 IT IS AN EXCRESC5CE ( ! CLASS6 ,A ,S$LAK MU/ BE MADE CAPABLE ( TURN+ HIS 5]GY T[>D ! APPROPRIATION ( ! PRODUCTIVE =CES :5 ! HI/ORICAL OPPORTUNITY = SU* AN ACT PRES5TS ITSELF1 9/EAD ( %\T+ LIKE A REACTION>Y ,LUDDITE1 ',LET'S TAKE ! MA*9]Y 9TO ! /REET6' ,A ,NA*ALO MU/ BE MADE TO DI/+UI% HIS P]SONAL 5EMIES FROM 5EMIES ( ! CLASS1 & NOT LEFT 9 A CONDITION 9 :I* HE GREETS ! PROLET>IAT'S [N ORGANIZATION BY %\T+ ',D[N ) ! R$ BUT*]S6'0 

,JASNA & ,MIRNA W]E AS />TL$ AS ,I WAS4 ,! ?REE ( US JUMP$ UP2 ,Y>A & ,ZD5EK JO9$ US4 ,WE =M$ A HO/ILE CIRCLE SURR\ND+ ,TITUS4 ,I ASK$ HIM1 0,C\LD Y\ REPEAT ?AT8 ,:AT DID Y\ SAY ,NA*ALO %\T$80 

,HE SEEM$ DISORI5T$ & HESITAT$ BE=E ANSW]+4 0,I'VE ALREADY TOLD Y\ ,I NEV] MET ,NA*ALO4 ,I BELIEVE IT WAS ,ALB]TS :O TOLD ME ,NA*ALO HAD SAID SOME?+ ( ?AT NATURE --0 

0,:]E WAS ,NA*ALO :5 HE SAID ?IS80 ,I ASK$4 

0,I BELIEVE HE WAS AT ! FRONT10 ,TITUS SAID HESITANTLY4 0,BUT AS ,I TOLD Y\1 ,I'VE TRI$ TO =GET MY 9VOLVEM5T ) ?AT MILIT>Y ORGANIZATION & ,I DON'T REMEMB] ANY ( IT CLE>LY --0 

,I %\T$1 0,IT WAS ! ONLY TIME 9 Y\R LIFE :5 Y\ W]E P]SONALLY 9 A POSITION TO IMPLEM5T Y\R !ORY1 TO APPLY ! CURE CALL$ = BY Y\R DIAGNOSIS60 

0,BUT ?AT >MY WAS NOT AN APPROPRIATE ME?OD40 HE PROTE/$4 

0,Y\'RE CONTRADICT+ Y\RSELF60 ,I EXCLAIM$4 0,Y\ JU/ SAID ,NA*ALO %\T$ AB\T R$ BUT*]S 9 ! FACE ( ! PROLET>IAT'S [N ORGANIZATION4 ,?IS MEANS Y\ DID REG>D ?AT >MY AS ! PROLET>IAT'S [N ORGANIZATION1 AS ! ONLY HI/ORICALLY AVAILABLE 9/RUM5T --0 

,HE PROTE/$1 0,I C\LDN'T HAVE EXPRESS$ MYSELF --0 

0,ON ! CONTR>Y1 Y\ EXPRESS$ Y\RSELF V]Y CLE>LY10 ,I TOLD HIM4 0,HI/ORY'S 9/RUM5T WAS A FIR+ SQUAD60 

,TITUS />$ AT ME ) A BEWILD]$ EXPRESSION & SAID NO?+4 

,I TRI$ TO REMEMB] ! EXACT WORDS ( ,SAB9A'S ACC\NT4 0,9 ! REAL REVOLUTION1 ! PEOPLE WILL TURN AGA9/ ! R$ BUT*]S FIR/6'0 

,TITUS' FACE TURN$ 9TO A GRIMACE ( HORROR4 ,HIS :OLE BODY />T$ TREMBL+4 ,HE LOOK$ AT ME WILDLY1 AS IF HE W]E LOOK+ AT A <O/ -- ! <O/ ( ,NA*ALO1 :OM HE HAD NEV] MET4 ,9 A B>ELY AUDIBLE VOICE HE SAID1 ',?AT'S IMPOSSIBLE --0 

,JASNA4 TRY+ V]Y H>D TO CONTROL H] TE>S1 WALK$ TO ! FRONT DOOR & OP5$ IT SL[LY4 0,TITUS1 GET \T ( ?IS H\SE40 

,TITUS ROSE SL[LY4 ,HE DIDN'T TAKE HIS EYES (F ME4 ,EV]Y P>T ( HIS BODY TREMBL$ AS HE WALK$ \T ! DOOR4 

,JASNA CLOS$ ! DOOR BEH9D HIM & FELL 9TO ,MIRNA'S >MS1 AB&ON+ ALL H] SELF-CONTROL1 TREMBL+ AS ,TITUS HAD ON HIS WAY \T4 

,ZD5EK ASK$ ,MIRNA1 0,:Y DID Y\ MAKE ,JASNA COME D[N TO FACE ! GORY 5D8 ,Y\ MI<T HAVE SP>$ H]40 

,MIRNA TOLD HIM1 0,I ASK$ H] H[ %E'D FEEL N[ IF %E HAD M>RI$ HIM :5 %E FIR/ MET HIM4 ,!N %E DIDN'T WANT TO BE SP>$40 

,JASNA WEPT CONVULSIVELY4 0,Y\ TRI$ TO TELL ME1 BUT ,I DIDN'T WANT TO BELIEVE Y\4 ,I DEF5D$ HIM TO ! V]Y 5D4 ,I KN[ ,I W\LD HAVE /OOD BY HIM :5 HE HAD Y\R ,VESNA TAK5 AWAY4 ,:Y >E Y\ SO GOOD TO ME1 ,MIRNA80 

0,IT WAS HE :O WAS GOOD1 ,JASNA1 & Y\ HAD EV]Y REASON 9 ! WORLD TO DEF5D HIM10 ,MIRNA TOLD H]4 0,HE WAS GOOD ! WAY ,VESNA WAS GOOD1 ! WAY MY MO!R WAS GOOD4 ,HE DID EV]Y?+ = ! NOBLE/ MOTIVES1 = HIS PLA/IC ,JESUS1 ! PROLET>IAT4 ,:O C\LD HAVE ?\<T ?AT SU* A GOOD MAN WAS AN ASSASS98 ,HE HELP$ ,JAN & ,Y>O/AN F9D JOBS AFT] !IR RELEASE FROM PRISON4 ,HE ALSO HELP$ Y\1 ,JASNA4 ,HE HELP$ MY FA!R GET A P5SION AFT] HE WAS FIR$ FROM HIS JOB4 ,HE VISIT$ ,Y>O/AN 9 PRISON & HELP$ ME GET A PASS --0 

0,:Y >E Y\ REPEAT+ ALL ?AT AGA980 ,JASNA ASK$4 0,NONE ( US W\LD HAVE NE$$ HIS HELP IF HE HIMSELF HADN'T BE5 RESPONSIBLE --0 

0,I'M REM9D+ Y\ :Y Y\ DEF5D$ HIM10 ,MIRNA TOLD H]4 0,EV5 ,I C\LDN'T BELIEVE IT ALL UNTIL TODAY1 UNTIL HE ?REW UP ALL ?OSE GRUESOME DETAILS40 

,JASNA ASK$1 0,H[ 9 ! WORLD DID Y\ SEE :AT ,Y>O/AN & ,I C\LD NEV] HAVE IMAG9$80 

,I HAD WANT$ TO ASK ,MIRNA ! SAME QUE/ION1 BUT JU/ !N ,V]A WALK$ 9 FROM ! D9+ ROOM4 ,%E HAD BE5 CRY+ & LOOK$ AS PALE AS ,TITUS HAD LOOK$ :5 HE'D LEFT4 ,! ELEGANT1 PR\D WOMAN ,I HAD SE5 AT ! BEG9N+ ( ! 0CELEBRATION0 N[ LOOK$ OLD2 ! D>K R+S >\ND H] EYES MADE H] FACE LOOK LIKE A SKULL ) A WIG & PA9T4 ,V]A WALK$ T[>D ,Y>A1 FELL TO H] KNEES1 EMBRAC$ ,Y>A'S LEGS & PLAC$ H] HEAD 9 ,Y>A'S BOSOM4 ,%E SOBB$1 0,I NEV] MEANT ANY H>M4 ,Y\ KN[ ?AT1 DON'T Y\80 

,Y>A B5T D[N TO =CE ,V]A'S H&S AWAY FROM H] LEGS & WALK$ T[>D ME2 %E PUT H] >MS >\ND ME1 PRESS$ H] HEAD TO MY *E/ & />T$ TO CRY4 

,V]A PA!TICALLY CRAWL$ ON H] KNEES T[>D ,MIRNA1 EXT5D$ H] H& & REA*$ = ,MIRNA'S H&4 ,MIRNA PULL$ H] H& AWAY1 WALK$ TO ,ZD5EK'S *AIR & SAT D[N ON ITS >M1 WRAPP+ H] >M >\ND ,ZD5EK'S %\LD]4 ,V]A TURN$ TO CRAWL T[>D ,Y>A AGA94 

0,V]A1 DON'T60 ,JASNA SCREAM$ AS %E RAN T[>D ,V]A & RAIS$ H] TO H] FEET4 ,JASNA RAN TO ! CLOSET = ,V]A'S PURSE & HAT4 0,I'LL WALK Y\ TO ! TAXI /&2 Y\'RE OV]WR\<T10 %E TOLD ,V]A1 LEAD+ H] \T ! DOOR1 H] >M >\ND ,V]A'S %\LD]4 ,V]A WALK$ \T ME*ANICALLY1 LIKE A HUMAN BE+ SUDD5LY DEPRIV$ ( H] UND]/&+4 

,:5 !Y HAD LEFT1 ,ZD5EK COMM5T$1 0,?AT WOMAN IS C>RY+ ALL ( ,ZABRAN'S GUILT BECAUSE ,ZABRAN IS TOO IDIOTIC TO REALIZE :AT HE'S DONE1 & ,JASNA IS ! ONLY ONE ( US ) 5\< COMPASSION TO KN[ ?AT ,KR5A IS C>RY+ MORE ?AN H] %>E40 

0,%E'D HAVE DONE ! SAME ?+ HE DID10 ,MIRNA 9SI/$4 

,ZD5EK OBJECT$1 0,BUT ! FACT IS1 %E DIDN'T QUITE DO ! SAME ?+40 

,Y>A WAS /ILL SOBB+4 0,I US$ TO ?9K %E WAS SO WOND]FUL1 SU* A P[]FUL1 PR\D WOMAN40 ,I RAN MY H&S ?R\< ,Y>A'S HAIR4 ,%E LOOK$ UP2 !RE W]E TE>S ON H] PRETTY IF NOT 9NOC5T FACE4 0,Y\ LIKE ME AGA980 %E ASK$ ME4 

0,YES1 ,Y>A40 

0,AS MU* AS Y\ LIK$ ,IR5A80 %E ASK$4 

,I BLU%$ & LOOK$ AWAY FROM H] EYES4 ,H] H&S DROPP$ FROM BEH9D ME4 ,I PUT H] H&S BACK & =C$ MYSELF TO SAY1 0,MORE1 ,Y>A1 9F9ITELY MORE --0 

0,%[ ME60 %E SAID2 H] EYES W]E BIG1 H] LIPS P>TIALLY OP54 

,I EMBRAC$ ,Y>A TI<TLY4 ,MY HE>T BEAT SO H>D ,I ?\<T ! :OLE ROOM %OOK2 ,I FELT A SURGE ( DESIRE ,I HADN'T KN[N ,I C\LD FEEL4 ,I L[]$ MY FACE1 CLOS$ MY EYES1 P>T$ MY LIPS & PLAC$ !M ON ,Y>A'S4 ,:5 \R LIPS P>T$1 ,I WAS DIZZY & UNAW>E ?AT ,I WAS /&+4 ,I ALMO/ FELL TO ! FLOOR2 ,Y>A HELP$ ME TO A *AIR4 

,MIRNA RAN TO ME & ASK$1 9 A COAX+ TONE1 0,>5'T Y\ A%AM$80 

0,NO1 ,MIRNA1 ,I'M NOT A%AM$40 

,MIRNA SQUEEZ$ NEXT TO ME & KISS$ ME1 NOT G5TLY LIKE ,Y>A HAD1 BUT FI]CELY1 BIT+ MY LIPS & MY TONGUE4 0,DIDN'T ,I TELL Y\ HE WAS /ILL \RS1 ,Y>A80 %E ASK$4 

0,:OSE DID ,Y>A ?9K ,I WAS80 ,I ASK$ H]4 

0,GOD'S1 MORALITY'S1 HI/ORY'S60 ,MIRNA SAID4 0,AFT] :AT Y\ DID TO H] 9 MY CLE>+1 %E WAS CONV9C$ Y\ HAD GIV5 Y\R LIFE AWAY1 ?AT Y\ HAD BECOME A S]VANT ( ! TANKS & FIR+ SQUADS --0 

0,%E WASN'T SO F> WRONG10 ,I ADMITT$4 

0,YES ,I WAS60 ,Y>A PROTE/$4 ,%E CR[D$ NEXT TO ME FROM ! O!R SIDE & ASK$1 0,Y\ DIDN'T EV] WANT TO TURN ME 9TO A CADRE1 DID Y\80 

,I HID MY TE>S BY BURY+ MY FACE 9 ,Y>A'S HAIR4 ,BIT+ H] E> G5TLY1 ,I :ISP]$1 0,NO1 ,Y>A1 ,I WANT Y\ EXACTLY AS Y\ >E4 

,JASNA RETURN$1 GLANC$ ) SURPRISE AT ! LOVE SC5E BETWE5 ! ?REE ( US1 & TURN$ TO ,ZD5EK4 0,POOR ,ZD5EK1 :AT DID Y\ DO TO DRIVE EV]YONE AWAY FROM Y\80 

0,NO?+ EXCEPT GR[ OLD1 ,JASNA10 HE TOLD H]4 

0,OLD6 ,ALL ( LIFE IS /ILL 9 FRONT ( Y\10 ,JASNA PROTE/$4 ,%E SAT D[N ON ! >M ( HIS *AIR 9 ,MIRNA'S =M] POSITION4 

0,IS ?AT :AT Y\ TOLD ,KR5A80 ,ZD5EK ASK$4 

,JASNA ALMO/ CRI$ AGA94 0,%E'S COMPLETELY BROK54 ,%E KEPT REPEAT+1 ',I'M NOT LIKE HIM1 ,JASNA1 ,I'M NOT LIKE HIM4' ,I FELT SO SORRY = H]4 ,POOR1 SAD ,V]U%KA4 ,I TRI$ TO TELL H] NONE ( US ?\<T %E WAS LIKE HIM AT ALL4 ,%E DID CAUSE ,ADRIAN'S & PROBABLY ,JAN'S & ,Y>O/AN'S JAIL T]MS TO BE L5G!N$ -- BUT %E WASN'T ! ONE :O WAS RESPONSIBLE = !IR BE+ 9 PRISON TO />T )40 

0,& ?AT RECTOR80 ,MIRNA ASK$4 

0,%E ALONE WAS RESPONSIBLE = ?AT40 ,JASNA ADMITT$1 & ADD$1 0,BUT NOT A S+LE ONE ( US IS PURE40 

,MIRNA ASK$1 0,>E Y\ BOA/+1 ,JASNA80 

0,Y\ CAN SOMETIMES BE SO CRUEL1 ,MIRNA10 ,JASNA TOLD H]4 0,GOD KN[S :AT Y\ W\LD HAVE DONE IF --0 

,MIRNA CUT 91 0,IF ,I HADN'T CONC5TRAT$ MY PASSION 9TO --0 

0,9TO LOVE GAMES60,Y>A EXCLAIM$4 0,:I* IS :AT ?OSE TWO DIDN'T EV] DO1 EV5 ?\< !Y BO? LONG$ TO6 ,!Y'VE P5T IT ALL UP 9SIDE1 & IT GETS SO UGLY :5 IT'S SO P5T UP4 ,I WAS AFRAID ( H]4 ,DIDN'T Y\ SEE H[ %E LOOK$ AT ME8 ,I WAS AFRAID %E'D TE> MY >MS (F1 ONE BY ONE1 & />T EAT+ !M --0 

,I 9T]RUPT$ ,Y>A TO ASK ,MIRNA1 0,JASNA />T$ ASK+ Y\ H[ Y\ KNEW --0 

0,AB\T ,MR4 ,ZABRAN80 ,Y>A ASK$4 0,I KNEW ?REE YE>S AGO1 :5 HE HAD ,VESNA TAK5 TO ! HOSPITAL4 ,I KNEW HE WASN'T HAV+ H] TAK5 AWAY BECAUSE HE LOV$ H]1 BUT BECAUSE HE LOV$ SOME?+ HE CALL$ HEAL? --0 

0,I KNEW EV5 E>LI]10 ,MIRNA SAID4 0,?AT DAY ,I W5T TO HIS ROOM1 BE=E Y\ W]E RELEAS$1 HE MADE ME FEEL %AME -- ! SAME %AME ,I'D FELT :5 MY MO!R F\ND ,JAN & ME SLEEP+ 9 EA* O!R'S >MS1 ! SAME %AME ,I'D FELT :5 %E SURPRIS$ ,SAB9A & ME1 ! SAME %AME ,I'D FELT :5 ,VESNA TURN$ RIGID ! DAY ,Y>A & ,I RETURN$ FROM VISIT+ Y\ --0 

,I ASK$1 ) UN9T5D$ S>CASM1 0,& FROM ?AT FEEL+ ( %AME Y\ 9F]R$ --0 

0,I DIDN'T 9F] ANY?+1 ,Y>O/AN10 %E TOLD ME4 0,I FELT ! SAME %AME ! DAY ,Y>A4 ,ZD5EK & ,I W5T TO HIS ROOM TO 9VITE HIM TO ! DANCE AT MY PLANT4 ,! LOOK ON HIS FACE WAS ! SAME AS MY MO!R'S :5 %E SAW ! DEVIL 9 ME -- AS IF ,I 9T5D$ TO TE> HIS CLO!S (F & PULL HIM 9TO ME RI<T !RE & !N6 ,I NE>LY MELT$ 9 ! FACE ( ?AT LOOK4 ,!N ,ZD5EK TOLD ME HE HAD MET HIM AT ! PRISON]S' CLUB1 ?AT HE'D BE5 TALK+ TO HIM :5 HE SAW Y\1 & ,TITUS MY/]I\SLY VANI%$4 ,IT WAS ONLY !N ?AT ,I />T$ ASK+ MYSELF :AT ,SOPHIA KEPT ASK+ Y\3 :Y HADN'T HE EV] TOLD Y\ AB\T H] LETT]8 ,AFT] ,JASNA TOLD US :AT HE HAD SAID TO H] AB\T ,LUISA1 ,Y>A & ,I TOOK ALL ( ,SOPHIA'S LETT]S TO ,ZD5EK'S & ! ?REE ( US RE-READ EV]Y ONE ( !M4 ,SAB9A KNEW :O ,TITUS WAS TW5TY YE>S AGO1 & MAYBE EV5 E>LI]60 

,ZD5EK ASK$ ,MIRNA1 0,:AT ,I'D LIKE TO KN[ IS H[ ?AT BUS9ESS AB\T ,KR5A GOT \T --0 

,Y>A TOLD HIM1 0,OH1 ,I FIGUR$ ALL ?AT \T BY MYSELF4 ,MR4 ,ZABRAN HAD TOLD ,JASNA EV]Y?+ HE KNEW AB\T ,V]A1 BUT ?AT REALLY BECAME 9T]E/+ :5 ,I READ :AT ,SAB9A SAID AB\T H]4 ,I W5T TO LI/5 TO H] LECTURES2 ONCE ,I /AY$ AFT] ! LECTURE & SAW ,IR5A6 ,I FIGUR$ IT ALL \T ! MOM5T ,I SAW H]6 ,%E LOOK$ EXACTLY ! WAY ,I'D BE5 SUPPOS$ TO LOOK AT ! DANCE6 ,I HAD ,MIRNA FIX ME UP TO LOOK LIKE ,SAB9A AGA9 & ,I W5T TO SEE ,IR5A4 ,%E REACT$ ! SAME WAY ,I HAD3 WE W]E TW9S6 ,DUR+ ALL ! YE>S %E'D WORK$ = ,V]A1 %E HADN'T FIGUR$ ANY?+ \T --0 

,ZD5EK ASK$1 0,BUT :O />T$ ?AT RUMOR ?AT SUPPOS$LY REA*$ ,KR5'S E>S8 ,I NEV] HE>D ( IT BE=E TODAY40 

,Y>A BLU%$ & LOOK$ GUILTILY T[>D ,JASNA4 0,OH1 ?AT RUMOR10 %E SAID4 0,JASNA WASN'T SUPPOS$ TO TELL ME :AT %E'D LE>N$ FROM ,MR4 ,ZABRAN1 ,I WASN'T SUPPOS$ TO TELL ,JULIA1 ,JULIA'S FA!R WASN'T SUPPOS$ TO TELL ! PEOPLE 9 ! BANK :]E HE WORKS1 & !Y W]5'T SUPPOS$ TO BREA! A WORD TO ,KR540 

,EV]YONE LAU<$1 9CLUD+ ,JASNA4 ,Y>A LOOK$ RELIEV$4 ,!N ,JASNA ASK$ ,MIRNA1 0,:]E 9 ! WORLD DID Y\ LE>N SO MU* AB\T AIRPLANE RES]VATIONS8 ,I'VE NEV] EV5 BE5 TO ! AIRPORT60 

0,NEI!R HAD ,I10 ,MIRNA SAID4 0,! :OLE =EIGN T\RI/ IDEA WAS ,IR5A'S1 OR AT LEA/ ORIG9AT$ ) H]4 ,IR5A B\<T ME ! CLO!S & ! LITTLE PURSE4 ,I TOOK TWO TRIPS TO ! AIRPORT & ACT$ AS IF ,I WANT$ TO BUY A TICKET4 ,I HAD ! TIME ( MY LIFE !RE1 BE+ OGL$ BY ALL ! IMPORTANT M5 ) BRIEFCASES1 ESPECIALLY ! ONES ) !IR WIVES NEXT TO !M6 ,!Y W]5'T ALL AS POLITE AS MY ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI4 ,I ALSO HAD ANO!R REASON = GO+ TO ! AIRPORT4 ,AT ?AT TIME ,I ?\<T WE W\LD SOON BE TAK+ EXCURSIONS BY AIRPLANE4 ,IT WAS ,IR5A :O SUGGE/$ ,I TELL HIM ,I WAS LEAV+ TONI<T4 ,O!RWISE ,I C\LD NEV] HAVE MADE HIM /AY -- HE KEPT TRY+ TO RUN \T AS IT WAS --0 

,Y>A ASK$ H]1 0,HAD Y\ PLANN$ ! MIXUP BETWE5 ! AIRPLANE & SLEEP+ C> TICKETS80 

,MIRNA LAU<$ & TOLD H]1 0,PLANN$ IT6 ,I WAS SO /UPID IT DIDN'T OCCUR TO ME ?AT !RE W\LDN'T BE A RES]VATION = ,MRS4 ,MAT!WS :5 HE CALL$ ! AIRL9E6 ,?AT WAS :5 ,I ?\<T MY :OLE GAME WAS OV]6 ,!N ,I REMEMB]$ A SC5E 9 A MOVIE -- A Y\NG MAN RU%$ TO ! RAILWAY /ATION1 PULL$ \T HIS TICKET1 & LE>N$ IT WAS A BUS TICKET --0 

,Y>A ASK$1 0,:AT ADDRESS DID Y\ S5D HIM TO80 

0,! ONLY TWO ADDRESSES ,I KNEW W]E ,LUISA'S & ,SOPHIA S1 & ,I DIDN'T WI% HIM ON EI!R ( !M60 ,MIRNA EXCLAIM$4 0,!RE W]E T5 ( US H]E1 SO ,I WROTE3 ,MRS4 ,RON ,MAT!WS1 #a ,DAMAN ,/REET1 ,NEW ,YORK4 ,I HOP$ HE W\LDN'T HAPP5 TO KN[ ,DAMAN ,/REET DIDN'T EXI/40 

,ZD5EK RO>$ ) LAU<T]4 0,MAYBE IT DOES6 ,:O KN[S :OM HE'LL F9D --0  
  

"9 "9 "9 

,PLEASE =GIVE ME = BREAK+ (F SO ABRUPTLY4 ,MIRNA JU/ RU%$ 9TO ! H\SE & TOLD ME1 0,!Y'RE 9VAD+6 ,! TANKS >E MOV+ T[>D ! CITY60 

,I CAN'T REMEMB] :]E ,I /OPP$1 & ,I DON'T HAVE ! PATI5CE TO RECON/RUCT MY FRAME ( M9D4 ,ON ,MONDAY MORN+1 ! DAY AFT] ! 0CELEBRATION10 ,I W5T TO WORK1 & ,I ?\<T ( NO?+ BUT ,TITUS ,ZABRAN ALL DAY LONG4 ,I WAS GLAD TO F9D Y\R LETT] :5 ,I RETURN$ FROM WORK ?AT AFT]NOON4 ,Y\ CONFIRM$ SO MU* ( :AT ,MIRNA & ,Y>A HAD 0TAU<T0 ME4 ,I />T$ WRIT+ Y\ ?AT NI<T1 & ,I /AY$ HOME FROM WORK YE/]DAY & TODAY TRY+ TO DESCRIBE TO Y\ EV]Y VIVID DETAIL1 UNTIL A FEW M9UTES AGO1 :5 ,MIRNA RETURN$ FROM A MEET+ ) SOME ( H] FRI5DS AT H] =M] PLANT4 ,! TANKS >E SUPPOS$ TO >RIVE TOMORR[ OR ! NEXT DAY -- 

,I'M CONT9U+ AN H\R LAT]4 ,Y>A1 ,JULIA & ,IR5A W]E JU/ H]E4 ,IR5A HAD BE5 ! FIR/ TO LE>N AB\T ! COM+ 9VASION1 & ,Y>A HAD CALL$ ,MIRNA AT ! PLANT4 ,:ILE !Y W]E H]E1 ! F\R ( !M SPOKE EXCIT$LY AB\T JO9+ A GR\P ( PEOPLE1 L>GELY =M] WORK]S FROM ,MIRNA'S PLANT1 :O >E CON/ITUT+ !MSELVES 9TO A SORT ( 0RECEPTION COMMITTEE0 = ! TANKS4 ,!Y 9T5D TO REMOVE AS MANY /REET SIGNS AS POSSIBLE & TO KNOCK ON DOORS & SUGGE/ ?AT PEOPLE REMOVE ! NUMB]S FROM !IR H\SES4 ,IR5A IS NO LONG] ,V]A ,KR5A'S SECRET>Y4 ,! DAY AFT] TOMORR[ ?AT JOB MI<T CEASE TO EXI/ ANYWAY4 ,ALL F\R ( !M BEGG$ ME TO JO9 !M1 BUT ,I DECID$ TO /AY TO TRY TO F9I% ?IS LETT]2 TOMORR[ ,I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO MAIL IT4 

,I'M ALONE AGA91 BUT ,I'M F9D+ IT IMPOSSIBLE TO CONC5TRATE ON ANY?+ EXCEPT ! TANKS & ! FACT ?AT ,MR4 ,N9OVO IS 9 FRONT ( HIS H\SE RAK+ LEAVES4 ,HE HAD DISAPPE>$ = SEV]AL MON?S4 ,! PA/ TWO MORN+S ,I GOT UP BE=E SUNRISE TO CONT9UE ?IS LETT]1 & ,I HE>D ,N9OVO RETURN+ FROM ! B> :]E HE WORKS4 

,ACCORD+ TO (FICIAL ACC\NTS1 AN >MY ( F\R MILLION M5 IS MASS$ AT \R FRONTI]S4 ,F\R MILLION6 ,9 SOME CIRCLES !Y'RE DESCRIB$ AS 0B>B>IAN HORDES10 BUT ,I'M SURE ! VA/ MAJORITY ( !M >E WORK]S1 EXACTLY LIKE ! PEOPLE !Y'RE COM+ TO REPRESS4 ,!Y'RE NOT 0B>B>IANS40 ,BUT ! 0PROJECT0 !Y'RE AB\T TO REALIZE IS ONE ( ! MO/ B>B>IC ACTS 9 HI/ORY4 ,SU* AN 9VAD+ =CE C\LD ANNIHILATE A POPULATION T5 TIMES L>G] ?AN \RS 9 A S+LE DAY4 ,H[ DID SO MANY C5TURIES ( 0PROGRESS0 LEAD TO ?IS SC&AL\S B>B>ISM8 ,:AT K9D ( SY/EM CAN AF=D TO SUPPORT A P]MAN5T =CE ( F\R MILLION TRA9$ ASSASS9S8 ,CAN Y\ EV5 IMAG9E H[ MU* ( A SOCIETY'S ACTIVITY HAS TO BE CONC5TRAT$ ON W>-RELAT$ WORK TO SUPPLY AN >MY ( F\R MILLION -- 9 0PEACE TIME08 ,9 ! NAME ( ! MO/ TOTAL LIB]ATION ( HUMAN BE+S PROCLAIM$ BY ANY HI/ORICAL P]IOD1 HUMAN BE+S >E SUBJUGAT$ BY ! MO/ B>B>IC BRUTE VIOL5CE6 ,IT W\LD BE MORE COM=T+ TO ?9K ! 9VAD]S W]E CREATURES FROM ANO!R PLANET1 OR 9SECTS4 ,:AT IS SO T]RIFY+ IS ! ?\<T ?AT ! 9VAD]S >E WORK]S LIKE \RSELVES1 WORK]S :O MAY NEXT WEEK BE REPRESS$ BY >MIES CONSI/+ ( SOME ( ! V]Y WORK]S !Y >E REPRESS+ N[4 ,IT ISN'T 0!Y10 0! 5EMY10 :O >E DRIV+ ?OSE TANKS & C>RY+ ?OSE RIFLES4 ,IT'S 0WE0 -- WE COMRADES1 FELL[ WORK]S1 BRO!RS1 WE :O FAIL$ TO COMMUNICATE ) EA* O!R1 WE :O FAIL$ TO DE/ROY ! TANKS & ! PLANTS ?AT PRODUCE !M & ! LABORATORIES ?AT DESIGN !M1 WE :O FAIL$ TO DE/ROY ! S*OOLS :]E WE'RE TAU<T TO PRODUCE ! TANKS -- ! S*OOLS :]E WE'RE TAU<T TO OBEY ! COMM&]S :O ORD] US TO ASSASS9ATE EA* O!R4 ,WORK] WILL BE KILL+ WORK]1 LIKE WILL BE REPRESS+ LIKE1 AS AT ! TIME ( ! SUPPRESSION ( ! ,MAG>NA RIS+4 ,I HAD ?\<T \R LETT]S W]E A /EP T[>D COMMUNICATION ACROSS !SE FRONTI]S1 AT LEA/ A SYMBOLIC /EP4 ,BUT ! FRONTI]S HAV5'T FALL54 ,TO ! WORK]S 9 ! TANKS WE'RE A POPULATION 0\T ( CONTROL10 WE'RE AS 9COMPREH5SIBLE AS 9SECTS1 WE'RE LIKE CREATURES FROM ANO!R PLANET4 ,& 9 SOME WAYS WE >E3 WE HAD />T$ TO BE FREE HUMAN BE+S4 

,ZD5EK WAS JU/ H]E4 ,HE CAME DIRECTLY FROM HIS JOB1 & HE AL>M$ ME CONSID]ABLY4 ,HE LE>N$ ?AT A SECTION ( ! POLITICAL POLICE IS BACK 9 OP]ATION1 PATROLL+ ! /REETS = 0V&ALS & T]RORI/S40 

,I'M EXTREMELY WORRI$4 ,SUPP] TIME HAS COME & GONE1 & !RE'S NO SIGN ( ,MIRNA & ,Y>A4 ,I DON'T D\BT ! ABILITY OR RES\RCEFULNESS ( EI!R ( !M2 !Y'VE AMPLY DEMON/RAT$ !SE QUALITIES TO ME DUR+ REC5T WEEKS4 ,BUT !Y'RE EXTREMELY VULN]ABLE4 ,Y>A'S 0COMBAT0 EXP]I5CE IS LIMIT$ TO A FEW PROTE/ DEMON/RATIONS AT H] PRIM>Y S*OOL1 & ,MIRNA SP5T MO/ ( ! PA/ TWO DECADES 9 A CLO?+ FACTORY4 ,! POLITICAL POLICE1 ON ! O!R H&1 HAVE TW5TY YE>S ( EXP]I5CE 9 0DEF9+ SOCIAL DISEASES0 & 9 0ISOLAT+ DANG]\S 9DIVIDUALS0 BE=E !Y 09FECT ! CLASS40 

,ZD5EK WAS FURI\S :5 ,I TOLD HIM :]E !Y HAD GONE4 0,Y\ DON'T PLAY CAT & M\SE ) A MA*9E GUN60 HE %\T$4 

,I LO/ MY TEMP] & QUOT$ ,ZD5EK'S [N /ATEM5T1 0,:Y REPRESS Y\RSELF BECAUSE !Y MI<T REPRESS Y\8 ,LET !M DO ! REPRESS+60 

,ZD5EK SAID1 0,?AT'S 9APPROPRIATE N[60 ,HE W5T \T TO LOOK = !M1 DET]M9$ TO BR+ ! 0RECKLESS IDIOTS0 HOME4 

,I'M WORRI$ BECAUSE ,I KN[ ?AT NONE ( !M WILL RETURN HOME AT ! FIR/ SIGN ( DANG]4 ,!Y'RE ALL CONV9C$ !Y HAVE A WORLD TO W9 & NO?+ TO LOSE BUT A CONDITION ( LIFELESS R\T9E TO :I* NONE ( !M CAN ACQUIESCE N[4 ,! EXTREME CAUTION & FE> ( 0TR\BLE0 ?AT HAD *>ACT]IZ$ ,MIRNA'S BEHAVIOR AFT] ,JAN'S & MY >RE/1 & EV5 AFT] ,Y>A'S FIR/ DEMON/RATION1 DISAPPE>$ )\T LEAV+ A TRACE :5 ,MIRNA'S FELL[ WORK]S 9 ! CLO?+ FACTORY DISB&$ AS A PRODUCTION GR\P & BECAME EXPLOR]S ( A NEW WORLD4 ,AT ?IS MORN+'S MEET+1 AS SOON AS ,MIRNA & H] FRI5DS LE>N$ AB\T ! COM+ 9VASION1 !Y UNANIM\SLY DECID$ ?AT ! MOM5T ! 9VASION TOOK PLACE1 !Y W\LD SEE TO IT ?AT ! MA*9]Y AT !IR PLANT W\LD NEV] AGA9 BE US$ TO PRODUCE CLO?+ = A REGIME LIKE ! ONE !Y EXP]I5C$ = TW5TY YE>S4 ,AFT] ?AT ACT !Y W\LD DISB& UNTIL ! POSSIBILITY = FUR!R COMMUNICATION & EXPLORATION EXI/$ AGA94 ,SOME ( !M >E PREP>+ TO EMIGRATE2 O!RS >E DET]M9$ TO 0/OP ! TANKS02 ,MIRNA IS AMONG ! LATT]4 

,:5 %E RETURN$ ?IS AFT]NOON1 ,MIRNA TOLD ME1 0,I NO LONG] HAVE ANY REASON TO SP5D MY LIFE BEH9D MA*9]Y4 ,MY MO!R & ,VESNA >E BO? DEAD4 ,Y\'RE ON Y\R [N4 ,Y>A IS OLD 5\< TO TAKE C>E ( H]SELF1 & IF %E'S NOT1 ,ZD5EK AS WELL AS ,JASNA WILL SURELY BO? BE CAUTI\S 5\< TO REMA9 \T ( PRISON & BE ABLE TO HELP H]4 ,C]TA9LY ,ZD5EK WILL2 OLD AS HE IS1 HE LOVES %E] SURVIVAL MORE ?AN ANY ( ! RE/ ( US40 

,BETWE5 ,MIRNA'S & ,ZD5EK'S PRES5T ATTITUDES1 ,I KN[ ,I'LL *OOSE ,MIRNA'S 0IDIOTIC RECKLESSNESS40 ,! ONLY TIME ,I S\<T 0SURVIVAL0 )9 ! CONF9ES ( ! POLICE CAPITALISM AB\T TO BE REIMPOS$ WAS IMM$IATELY AFT] ,MIRNA & ,I W]E M>RI$4 ,IT WAS !N ?AT ,TITUS HELP$ ME F9D ?REE JOBS4 ,?AT P]IOD 5D$ ) ! ,MAG>NA RIS+4 ,AFT] MY RELEASE EI<T YE>S LAT]1 ! ?\<T ( SUICIDE APPEAL$ TO ME MORE ?AN ! ?\<T ( RESUM+ ?AT K9D ( LIFE4 ,Y>A'S 0RECKLESSNESS0 BR\<T ME AS WELL AS ,MIRNA BACK TO LIFE4 ,Y>A'S DEMON/RATION = H] FIR$ TEA*] %[$ ME ?AT ! POSSIBILITY ( REBELLION HAD NOT BE5 SUPPRESS$1 & IT ALSO REVIV$ ,MIRNA'S DESIRES1 ,MIRNA EMBRAC$ BO? ,Y>A & ME2 %E WAS AS EXCIT$ BY ! EVID5CE ( 0DEVILRY0 9 ,Y>A AS BY ! FRI5D%IP ?AT =M$ BETWE5 ,Y>A & ME ON ?AT DAY4 ,= ME ! IMPOSSIBLE REBELLION1 = ,MIRNA ! IMPOSSIBLE PASSION1 HAD BECOME POSSIBLE AGA94 ,MIRNA WANT$ ME = H]SELF -- AS H] BRO!R2 %E WANT$ ME EV5 MORE = ,Y>A4 ,BUT H] PASSION = VIC>I\S 9CE/ REMA9$ 0QUIET10 BURI$ F> BEL[ ! SURFACE1 & :5 ! POLICE (FICIAL CAME TO \R H\SE BECAUSE ,N9OVO HAD REPORT$ ME AS ! 9/IGATOR ( ,Y>A'S DEMON/RATION1 ,MIRNA REV]T$ TO SIL5CE4 ,UNABLE TO TRU/ ME UNRES]V$LY1 & AFRAID ( ,MIRNA'S MOODS1 ,Y>A S\<T H] ALLIES ELSE:]E1 ) H] S*OOL FRI5DS ,JULIA & ,SLOBODAN4 ,IT WAS ) !M %E PLAY$ H] FIR/ 0LOVE GAMES0 9 ! ATTIC ( ,JULIA'S H\SE4 ,! GAMES W]E BAS$ MA9LY ON GOSSIP !Y LE>N$ FROM ! 0POPUL> PRESS03 APP>5TLY !IR FAVORITE GAME WAS AB\T ! BOSS ( ,JULIA'S FA!R1 BANK DIRECTOR ,KR54 ,Y>A TOLD ME ,SLOBODAN PLAY$ ,KR51 ,Y>A PLAY$ ,V]A1 & ,JULIA PLAY$ ! UNKN[N LOV]4 ,SOMETIME AFT] ,N9OVO REPORT$ ME TO ! POLICE1 ! ?REE ( !M1 TOGE!R ) A UNIV]SITY FRI5D ( ,JULIA'S1 PLAC$ TWO L>GE SNAKES 9 ,N9OVO'S H\SE4 ,?AT WAS :Y HE HAD DISAPPE>$4 ,Y>A WASN'T ! ONLY ONE :O DISCOV]$ 0ALLIES0 AFT] ?AT FIR/ DEMON/RATION4 ,I DISCOV]$ MY FIR/ 0ALLY0 9 ,Y>A1 & ?IS L$ ME TO SEEK O!RS4 ,I BECAME CURI\S AB\T ,LUISA1 & AB\T Y\ & ,SAB9A4 ,MIRNA REMEMB]$ Y\R ADDRESS4 ,I ALSO LE>N$ ?AT ! C>TON PLANT WAS 9 ! PROCESS ( *ANGE4 ,I F\ND ! SAME SPIRIT !RE ?AT ,I HAD F\ND 9 ,Y>A AFT] H] DEMON/RATION4 ,AN EPO* SEEM$ TO HAVE 5D$4 ,IT N[ SEEMS ?AT WE'VE ONLY HAD A BRIEF 0VACATION40 ,BUT ,I CAN NO LONG] GO BACK TO 0WORK40 ,EV] S9CE ,JAN & ,I W]E >RE/$ AT ! /EEL PLANT TWELVE YE>S AGO ,I'VE ACQUIESC$ TO ! REQUIREM5TS ( ! SOCIAL ORD] ONLY UND] COMPULSION1 NAMELY 9 PRISON4 ,I KN[ ,I WILL NOT RETURN TO ! C>TON PLANT TOMORR[ OR NEXT WEEK & SUBMIT TO ! ORD]S ( POLICE-APPO9T$ MANAG]S1 UNION BUREAUCRATS OR =EM54 0,9/9CTIVE REBELLION10 ,TITUS CALL$ IT4 ,HE'S RI<T4 ,I DON'T HAVE ! 9/9CTS ( ANTS OR BEES2 ,I CAN'T FUNCTION 9 A HIVE4 ,MY 9/9CTS >E SIMIL> TO ,JAN'S & ,MANUEL'S 9/9CTS1 & ,I F9ALLY KN[ ?AT4 ,I F9ALLY KN[ IT'S NOT ! PRODUCTIVE =CES ?AT >E FETT]$ BUT ! HUMAN BE+S4 ,BY CONT9U+ TO REPRODUCE !M1 WE'RE DEPRIV+ \RSELVES ( ! POSSIBILITY TO DEVELOP1 WE'RE EXPROPRIAT+ \RSELVES ( \R HUMAN QUALITIES1 WE'RE BECOM+ TANKS4 ,ZD5EK SEEMS TO FEEL ?AT BY SUBMITT+ TO ! REPRESSIVE R\T9E1 WE CAN AT LEA/ SURVIVE2 !N \R POT5TIALITIES CAN REEM]GE :5 ANO!R OPPORTUNITY >ISES4 ,I DON'T KN[ IF ,I EV] AGRE$ ) SU* AN \TLOOK2 ,I C]TA9LY DON'T N[4 ,) ?AT \TLOOK ONE C\LD JU/IFY RETURN+ TO ANY JOB1 EV5 ! JOB ( DRIV+ A TANK OR C>RY+ A RIFLE = AN 9VAD+ >MY4 ,9 ! ACT ( KEEP+ MYSELF ALIVE = ! NEXT *ANCE ,I W\LD DE/ROY ?OSE :O >E GRASP+ = LIFE RI<T N[4 ,I SEE NO REASON TO COLLABORATE ) ! RUL+ ORD] AT ANY TIME1 UND] ANY CIRCUM/ANCES --  
  

"9 "9 "9 

,!RE >E TANKS 9 ! /REET4 ,I DIDN'T GET ?IS LETT] 9 ! MAIL YE/]DAY4 ,JASNA CAME LATE LA/ NI<T2 %E WAS ALMO/ HY/]ICAL4 ,I HADN'T SE5 H] S9CE ! 0CELEBRATION40 

0,I'VE H>DLY SLEPT S9CE !N10 %E TOLD ME4 0,I'M /ILL ATTA*$ TO HIM1 ,Y>O/AN4 ,I CAN'T HELP IT4 ,I HAD KN[N MANY ( ?OSE ?+S BE=E1 & ,I HADN'T TURN$ AGA9/ HIM BECAUSE ( !M4 ,& EV5 IF ,I HADN'T KN[N ANY ( IT1 ,I CAN'T JU/ WIPE \T A LIFELONG FRI5D%IP 9 A FEW H\RS6 ,I'VE ADMIR$ HIM = TW5TY-FIVE YE>S6 ,I WANT$ SO MU* TO PROVIDE HIM ) COMRADE%IP1 TO 5D HIS ISOLATION6 ,:ATEV] HE DID 9 ! PA/1 ,I KN[ HE WAS S9C]E 9 WANT+ COMRADES TODAY1 & ,I KN[ HE'S UNAMBIGU\SLY OPPOS$ TO ! COM+ 9VASION4 ,HE WAS ALWAYS SYMPA!TIC TO ! MO/ RADICAL WORK]S --0 

0,PROVID$ !Y C>RI$ ! CORRECT HI/ORICAL PROJECT10 ,I REM9D$ H]4 

0,EV5 ?AT MI<T HAVE *ANG$10 %E 9SI/$4 0,I'VE BE5 ?9K+ AB\T NO?+ ELSE DAY & NI<T4 ,?IS AFT]NOON1 AS SOON AS ,I HE>D AB\T ! 9VASION1 ,I W5T TO ! TRADE UNION BUILD+4 ,I WANT$ TO TELL HIM ,I WAS /ILL HIS FRI5D4 ,BUT HE WASN'T 94 ,A SECRET>Y TOLD ME ?IS WAS HIS FIR/ ABS5CE 9 YE>S4 ,I W5T TO HIS ROOM4 ,I LOVE HIM1 ,Y>O/AN6 ,EV]Y?+ ?AT'S COME \T HASN'T DE/ROY$ MY LOVE4 ,I LI/5$ AT HIS DOOR BUT HE>D NO?+4 ,I ASK$ ! BUILD+ GU>D & HIS NEI<BORS IF !Y HAD SE5 HIM1 BUT NONE ( !M HAD4 ,I WAIT$ AT HIS DOOR UNTIL N[4 ,I CAN'T TELL Y\ :AT ,I FE>6 ,HE WAS1 AFT] ALL1 A HUMAN BE+ & NOT A DOG60 

,JASNA & ,I RU%$ TO ,TITUS' AP>TM5T BUILD+4 ,IT WAS PA/ MIDNI<T4 ,! FRONT 5TRANCE WAS CLOS$2 WE RANG ! BUILD+ GU>D'S BELL4 ,JASNA TOLD HIM %E HAD LEFT H] PURSE1 ) H] ID5TIFICATION C>D 9SIDE1 9 ,TITUS' ROOM4 ,WE TOLD HIM ,TITUS HAD MY/]I\SLY VANI%$ & ASK$ HIM TO ACCOMPANY US TO ,TITUS' ROOM = ! PURSE4 ,HE RECOGNIZ$ ,JASNA & GAVE US ! KEY TO ! ROOM1 EXCUS+ HIMSELF = NOT ACCOMPANY+ US2 HE WAS 9 HIS B$CLO!S4 

,TITUS ,ZABRAN WAS DEAD4 ,HE HAD %OT HIMSELF ?R\< ! HEAD4 ,!RE W]E NO EXPLANATORY PAP]S OR NOTES 9 HIS MODE/ ROOM4 ,I HAD NEV] SE5 HIS ROOM BE=E4 ,IT'S TRUE ?AT HE D]IV$ NO P]SONAL B5EFIT FROM HIS POLITICAL COMMITM5T TO ! PROLET>IAT'S HEAL? -- )9 ! LIMITS ( PRES5TLY AVAILABLE KN[L$GE1 LIKE ,VESNA'S DOCTORS4 ,!RE WAS A B$1 A TABLE1 A BOOK%ELF & A RECORD PLAY] ?AT WAS /ILL TURN+2 HE HAD APP>5TLY BE5 LI/5+ TO ,DON ,GIOVANNI1 AN OP]A BY ,MOZ>T4 ,9 ! BOOK%ELF ,I RECOGNIZ$ ! TWO BOOKS HE HAD L5T ME :5 HE'D VISIT$ ME 9 PRISON3 ,! ,BRO!RS ,K>AMAZOV & ,! ,CA/LE4 ,! WALLS ( ! ROOM W]E B>E4 

,JASNA COLLAPS$ 9 MY >MS4 ,I LEFT ! RECORD PLAY] TURN+1 CLOS$ ,TITUS' DOOR QUIETLY1 SUPPORT$ ,JASNA TO ! BUILD+ 5TRANCE1 & SLIPP$ ! KEY UND] ! BUILD+ GU>D'S DOOR4 ,JASNA REVIV$ 9 ! FRE% AIR AS WE WALK$ TO ! TAXI /& BY ! TRADE UNION C\NCIL BUILD+4 ,%E TOLD ME %E WASN'T ABLE TO RETURN TO H] H\SE ALONE4 ,I ASK$ ! DRIV] TO TAKE US TO MY H\SE4 

,JASNA & ,I SP5T ! NI<T TOGE!R4 ,%E'S WAIT+ = ME N[4 ,!RE'S BE5 NO SIGN ( ,MIRNA OR ,Y>A OR ,IR5A OR ,JULIA4 ,ZD5EK HASN'T COME AGA94 ,WE'RE GO+ TO TRY TO F9D !M1 & JO9 !M4 ,JASNA ISN'T CRY+ ?IS MORN+4 ,! DESPAIR COMES FROM ! ?\<T ?AT ! TANKS CANNOT BE SUP]S$$4 ,JASNA IS SMIL+1 BEAUTIFUL & BRAVE4 ,I'VE BE5 ON ! SIDE ( REPRESSION & DEA?1 9CLUD+ ,VESNA'S1 = TOO LONG4 ,IF ! 0JOYLESS DRUDG]Y0 IS REIMPOS$1 ,I WILL NOT BE AMONG ?OSE :O REPRODUCE IT4 

,I D\BT ?AT ?IS LETT] WILL REA* Y\2 ,I CAN NO LONG] DROP IT 9 A MAIL BOX4 ,IF IT DOES REA* Y\1 PLEASE ACCEPT MY APOLOGY = ATTITUDES :I* REFLECT$ TW5TY YE>S ( IGNORANCE4 

,JASNA S5DS H] LOVE1 TO ALL ( Y\4 ,SO DO ,I4  
  

,Y>O/AN4  

,FROM 3 ,!,AN>*I/,LIBR>Y4ORG4 

,*RONOLOGY 3 
,NOVEMB] #c1 #aige 3 ,Y>O/AN'S ,LA/ ,LETT] -- ,PUBLICATION4 
,APRIL #b#f1 #bb 3 ,Y>O/AN'S ,LA/ ,LETT] -- ,ADD$4 

 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3  
HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/