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,Y\R VICTORY IS COMPLETE4 ,I NEV] DREAM$ ! PASSION Y\ JU/ DESCRIB$ LAY BEL[ ! SURFACE ( ! P]SON ,I KNEW TW5TY YE>S AGO4 ,I WAS WRONG4 ,MY \TLOOK DIDN'T ALL[ ME TO SEE BEL[ ! SURFACE4 ,I WAS NE>-SI<T$2 ,I /ILL AM4 ,MIRNA1 ,Y>A1 Y\R LETT]1 ALL ! EV5TS TAK+ PLACE >\ND ME >E MAK+ ME SUSPECT ,I'VE BE5 VIEW+ ! WORLD ?R\< OPAQUE GLASS4 ,! FRAME ( REF]5CE ,I ACQUIR$ FROM ,TITUS & ,LUISA & FROM COMRADES ,I MET DUR+ TWO LONG PRISON T]MS SUDD5LY SEEMS 9ADEQUATE2 REAL PEOPLE SEEM TO MOVE \TSIDE ITS B\ND>IES4 ,MORE IS BREAK+ D[N & MORE IS RIS+ UP ?AN ,I'M ABLE TO TAKE M4 ,P]HAPS ,I NEV] DREAM$ ( ANY?+ MORE ?AN A DIFF]5T SY/EM ( CON/RA9T4 ,I HAD NOT 5VISION$ ! WEAL? ( POT5TIALITY1 ! PASSION BUR/+ \T ( 9DIVIDUALS :O SUDD5LY LO/ !IR *A9S4 ,TOTAL LACK ( CON/RA9T APPEAL$ TO ME AS A CONCEPT A MOTTO4 ,BUT ! MORE ,MIRNA & ,Y>A1 & Y\1 MAKE IT A LIV$ EXP]I5CE1 ! LESS ABLE ,I FEEL TO MOVE T[>DS IT4 

,MIRNA1 ,Y>A1 AS WELL AS ,JASNA >E ON A J\RNEY4 ,!Y'RE EXPLOR+ ! POSSIBILITIES AVAILABLE TO !M4 ,Y\R PREVI\S LETT] CONV9C$ !M WORK+ PEOPLE W]E RIS+ 9 EV]Y P>T ( ! GLOBE4 ,EV]Y?+ SEEMS TO CONFIRM ?IS4 ,A TOTALLY DIFF]5T ACTIVITY SEEMS TO BE ON ! HORIZON4 

,YET = ! FIR/ TIME 9 MY LIFE ,I F9D MYSELF HOLD+ BACK4 ,I DIDN'T ACCOMPANY MY ?REE COMRADES ON !IR J\RNEY2 ,I *OSE TO REMA9 9 ! C>TON PLANT4 ,MY EXPECTATIONS SEEM TO BE CONSID]ABLY BEL[ ! LEVEL ( ! ACTIVITY TAK+ PLACE >\ND ME4 ,I TOLD-Y\ ?AT DUR+ MY SECOND PRISON T]M ,I REJECT$ ! \TLOOK ,I HAD ACQUIR$ FROM1 ,LUISA2 ,I TOLD Y\ ?AT :5 ,I FIR/ MET ,MIRNA4 %E HUNG]$ = LIFE & ,I WAS ONLY ABLE TO (F] H] POLITICS4 ,I HAV5'T MOV$ V]Y F> S9CE !N4 ,I'M />T+ TO ,REALIZE ?AT ,I B>ELY UND]/& ,MIRNA OR ,Y>A4 ,I LE>N$ FROM ,TITUS & ,LUISA TO PUT MY LIFE AT ! S]VICE ( POLITICS4 ,ALL ,I DID DUR+ MY SECOND T]M WAS TO MODIFY MY POLITICS1 P]HAPS EV51 TO 5RI* MY 4POLITICAL \TLOOK2 ,I DIDN'T 5RI* MY LIFE'S DESIRES4 ,MY 0!ORY0 IS /ILL MY DE>E/ POSSESSION4 ,YET ! G5U9E REBELS 9 MY LIFE HAVE BE5 ,JAN & ,MIRNA1 & BO? ( !M HAVE1 HAD V]Y 0CRUDE0 !ORIES BY ,LUISA'S & ,TITUS' /&>DS -- AS CRUDE AS M9E WAS :5 ,LUISA FIR/ UND]TOOK TO 0$UCATE0 ME4 ,DESPITE HIS !ORETICAL 0CRUDITY0 ,JAN WAS F> LESS RECONCIL$ TO ! TOTALITY ( REPRESSION ?AN ,LUISA4 

,LUISA'S ACC\NT ( H] ACTIVITY AS A DELEGATE 9 ! TRANSPORT UNION CONFIRMS MO/ ( :AT ,MANUEL TOLD ME DUR+ MY FIR/ PRISON T]M4 ,:5 ,MANUEL RETURN$ FROM ! FRONT TO ! CITY HE F\ND =M] UNION MILITANTS WORK+ AS SUP]VISORS & SPE$-UP 5G9E]S1 LUBRICAT+ ! PRODUCTION ( WEAPONS = A 0POPUL> >MY0 :OSE GUNS W]E TURN$ AGA9/ ! WORK]S !MSELVES4 ,LUISA FAILS TO CL>IFY PRECISELY :AT'S OBSCURE4 ,H[ C\LD ,NA*ALO1 ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS & ,TITUS ,ZABRAN ALL HAVE F\<T ON ! SAME FRONT8 ,:Y DID ,ALB]TS RETURN FROM ! FRONT COMPLETELY TRANS=M$ & 0%ELL %OCK$80 ,ALB]TS HAD TOLD ,SAB9A HIS ONLY MILIT>Y ACTIVITY HAD BE5 TO S]VE ON A FIR+ SQUAD :I* LIQUIDAT$ C]TA9 09FILTRATORS10 BY :I* HE MEANT REVOLUTION>IES :O REFUS$ TO PLACE !MSELVES UND] ! ORD]S ( ! 0POPUL> >MY40 ,DID HE TELL ,LUISA MORE IMM$IATELY AFT] ?IS ACT ?AN HE TOLD ,SAB9A A DECADE LAT]8 ,ACCORD+ TO ,LUISA1 ,ALB]TS & ,ZABRAN 0BO? JO9$ ,NA*ALO AT ! FRONT40 ,:AT A /RANGE WAY TO PUT IT6 ,FROM ,MANUEL & ,SAB9A WE'VE LE>N$ ?AT ! POPUL> >MY BRIGADE 0JO9$0 ! MILITIA UNIT ONLY TO LIQUIDATE IT4 ,LUISA FAILS TO DI/+UI% VICTIMS FROM EXECUTION]S4 ,! TWO >E ! SAME TO H] BECAUSE !Y >E BO? P>TS ( 0\R ORGANIZATION40 ,! GREATE/ CRIMES >E VIRTUES :5 COMMITT$ BY 0\R ORGANIZATION40 ,:5 0\R MILITANTS0 5T] ! /ATE APP>ATUS1 9 ,LUISA'S EYES !Y'RE /ILL UNION MILITANTS1 NOT /ATE FUNCTION>IES4 ,:5 0\R M9I/]S0 GIVE ORD]S TO AN >MY1 ! >MY IS NO LONG] A /ATE >MY BUT AN EXT5SION ( ! CLASS4 ,IT'S NOT BY *ANCE ?AT %E REF]S TO ! FASCI/ >MY AS ! 0REBEL >MY0 & TO FASCI/ G5]ALS AS 09SURG5TS40 ,ONCE H] COMRADES W]E 9 ! GOV]NM5T1 ! AIM ( 0\R ORGANIZATION0 BECAME TO MA9TA9 LAW & ORD]1 & ALL ?OSE :O ?REAT5$ IT W]E 9SURG5TS4 ,=C$ LABOR 9 ! S]VICE ( ! /ATE APP>ATUS BECAME REVOLUTION>Y ACTIVITY2 SUP]VISORS & =EM5 BECAME MILITANTS FI<T+ 9 ! RE>4 ,I TOO REMEMB] HAV+ HE>D ,LUISA'S ACC\NT BE=E4 ,BUT N[ ,I'M EXTREMELY PUZZL$ AB\T ! FRI5D%IP BETWE5 ,LUISA1 ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS & ,TITUS ,ZABRAN4 ,TITUS NEV] TOLD ME V]Y MU* AB\T HIS PA/ ACTIVITIES1 & ,I'M SURPRIS$ TO LE>N HE WAS SU* A TALKATIVE 0!ORI/0 :5 ,LUISA MET HIM4 ,WAS %E EXAGG]AT+ 9 ORD] TO COMP>E HIM TO Y\R Y\NG FRI5D ,CLESEC1 OR HAVE ,I NEV] REALLY KN[N HIM8 ,I'M NOT ONLY PUZZL$ BY ,LUISA'S ACC\NT2 ,I'M V]Y SUSPICI\S ( IT4 ,SAB9A TOLD Y\ ?AT ,ALB]TS DIDN'T GO TO ! FRONT ) WORK]S & PEASANTS FI<T+ TO LIB]ATE !MSELVES2 HE W5T ) A /ATE >MY ?AT REPRESS$ !M4 ,ACCORD+ TO ,LUISA1 ,ALB]TS LEFT = ! FRONT AFT] ,TITUS CONV9C$ HIM ?AT VICTORY AT ! FRONT WAS A PR]EQUISITE = MEAN+FUL ACCOMPLI%M5TS 9 ! RE>2 AT ?AT PO9T !Y BO? 0JO9$ ,NA*ALO AT ! FRONT40 ,?IS DOESN'T MAKE S5SE4 ,ACCORD+ TO ,MANUEL ! MILITIA UNITS W]E =M$ A FEW DAYS AFT] ! /REET FI<T+ 5D$4 ,MANUEL AS WELL AS ,NA*ALO LEFT = ! FRONT ALMO/ IMM$IATELY AFT] !Y HAD F\<T ON ! B>RICADES4 ,! 0POPUL> >MY0 DIDN'T EXI/ YET2 ! 9FLU5TIAL UNION MILITANTS W]E /ILL TRY+ TO GET 9TO ! /ATE APP>ATUS4 ,IT WAS ONLY AFT] ! ANTI-/ATE MILITANTS BECAME /ATE FUNCTION>IES ?AT ! 0POPUL> >MY0 WAS CREAT$4 ,LUISA TOLD Y\ ,TITUS WAS ALREADY 9 UNI=M :5 ,ALB]TS MET HIM4 ,IT'S CONCEIVABLE ?AT IT WAS ,TITUS :O CONV9C$ ,ALB]TS AB\T ! IMPORTANCE ( VICTORY AT ! FRONT4 ,BUT IT'S NOT CONCEIVABLE TO ME ?AT ,ALB]TS 0JO9$0 EI!R ,NA*ALO OR ,TITUS AT ! FRONT4 ,TITUS' UNI=M MU/ HAVE BE5 ! MILITIA UNI=M1 & HE MU/ HAVE BE5 ON LEAVE FROM ! MILITIA'S FRONT :5 HE MET ,ALB]TS2 HE PROBABLY C\LDN'T IMAG9E ! NATURE ( ! 0POPUL> >MY0 BE+ CREAT$ 9 ! RE>4 ,I'LL TRY TO ASK ,TITUS2 ,I HAV5'T SE5 HIM S9CE WE BEGAN \R CORRESPOND5CE4 ,! MORE ,I LE>N AB\T ?AT /RUGGLE1 ! MORE ,I SUSPECT ?AT MY [N LIFE1 AS WELL AS Y\RS1 HAVE BE5 AFFECT$ BY IT4 ,IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT IF ,TITUS CONV9C$ ,ALB]TS TO JO9 ! 0POPUL> >MY10 IT WAS BECAUSE ,TITUS WAS UNFAMILI> ) ! NATURE ( ?AT ORGANIZATION4 ,IF !Y !N 0JO9$0 EA* O!R AT ! SAME FRONT1 IT WASN'T AS ALLIES4 ,TITUS RETURN$ TO HIS MILITIA UNIT -- P]HAPS ! V]Y UNIT 9 ! VILLAGE DESCRIB$ BY ,MANUEL4 ,ALB]TS >RIV$ LAT] ) AN APP>ATUS ?AT WAS LABEL$ 0POPUL>0 -- & HE S]V$ ON A FIR+ SQUAD ?AT LIQUIDAT$ MEMB]S ( ! MILITIA UNIT AFT] CALL+ !M 09FILTRATORS40 ,LUISA VISIT$ ,TITUS 9 A HOSPITAL AFT] HE WAS 9JUR$1 PROBABLY DEF5D+ HIS MILITIA COMRADES4 ,& ,ALB]TS RETURN$ 0%ELL %OCK$0 & 0TOTALLY TRANS=M$0 -- :Y8 ,:AT DID HE TELL ,LUISA :5 HE RETURN$8 ,?AT HE HAD %OT HIS [N COMRADES8 ,?AT HE HAD TAK5 ,TITUS' ADVICE & 0BY MI/AKE0 HAD F\ND HIMSELF ON ! OPPOSITE SIDE ( ! FIR+ L9E8 

,AS = Y\R 0REMEMB]+0 ?AT ,TITUS WAS ) Y\ AT ! TIME ( Y\R RELEASE TW5TY YE>S AGO1 ,I CAN ASSURE Y\ ?AT Y\R MEMORY IS PLAY+ TRICKS ON Y\4 ,HE DIDN'T /AY BEH9D 9 ORD] TO TRY TO RELEASE ! RE/ ( US2 HE /AY$ BEH9D BECAUSE HE WAS 9 JAIL LIKE ! RE/ ( US4 ,TITUS HAD JU/ BE5 RELEAS$ :5 HE MET ,JAN'S FA!R AT ! BUS REPAIR DEPOT NEXT DOOR TO ! TRADE UNION BUILD+ :]E ,TITUS HAD JU/ GOTT5 HIS JOB BACK4 ,:5 ,LUISA TOLD Y\ ?AT /ORY1 %E MU/ HAVE FELT GUILTY = HAV+ AB&ON$ H] COMRADES2 %E MU/ HAVE KN[N ?AT H] EMIGRATION DID NOT ILLU/RATE ! 0SOLID>ITY & COMRADE%IP0 %E HAD PREA*$4 ,ONLY A FEW DAYS AGO ,ZD5EK & ,TITUS RAN 9TO EA* O!R1 NOT QUITE BY *ANCE4 ,ON ! DAY ( ! DANCE AT H] PLANT1 ,MIRNA TOOK ,ZD5EK TO ,TITUS' H\SE2 %E 9T5D$ TO 9VITE ,TITUS TO ! DANCE4 ,MIRNA WAS SURPRIS$ TO LE>N ?AT ,ZD5EK & ,TITUS HAD KN[N EA* O!R4 ,AMONG O!R ?+S1 ,ZD5EK TOLD ,MIRNA HE HAD RUN 9TO ,TITUS 9 PRISON -- DUR+ ! TIME ( MY FIR/ PRISON T]M6 

,MIRNA HAD 9VIT$ ,ZD5EK TO ! DANCE A !IR PLANT TWO WEEKS AGO1 :ILE 9 ! MIDDLE ( AN >GUM5T ) HIM4 ,I HAD TIM$ D[N ,MIRNA'S 9VITATION BECAUSE ( MY 9ABILITY TO DANCE1 BUT ,JASNA HAD HIR$ ME 9TO TAK+ P>T 9 ! EV5T BY3 PROMIS+ TO GIVE ME ANO!R DANC+ LESSON4 

,I WASN'T AW>E ( ALL ! WORK ,MIRNA & ,Y>A DID TO PREP>E = ! EV5T1 BECAUSE6 SP5T MY DAYS 9 ! C>TON PLANT4 ,A WEEK AGO ,MONDAY ALL ! WORK]S AT ! PLANT LI/5$ TO A DEBATE ON ! RADIO4 ,JASNA HAD TOLD US AB\T TWO WEEKS AGO ?AT ,M>C ,GLAVNI & ,V]A ,KR5A W]E GO+ TO 5GAGE 9 ?IS DEBATE1 BUT ,I HAD PROMPTLY =GOTT5 AB\T IT4 ,I LE>N$ AT ,MIRNA'S DANCE ?AT ,Y>A HADN'T ONLY REMEMB]$ ! DEBATE2 %E HAD A UNIV]SITY FRI5D ( H]S MAKE A RECORD+ ( ! SPEE*ES1 & RE-BROADCA/ EXC]PTS ( ,GLAVNI'S SPEE* AT ! DANCE ITSELF1 ) V]Y DRAMATIC EFFECT4 ,:5 ,I FIR/ HE>D ! SPEE*ES ,I RES5T$ ! FACT ?AT MY FELL[ WORK]S HAD DROPP$ 0EV]Y?+ TO LI/5 TO !M2 IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT IF ! SPEE*ES ( BUREAUCRATS /ILL MATT]$ TO US1 !N WE HADN'T MOV$ V]Y F>4 ,IF ,I'D KN[N :AT USE ,Y>A WAS GO+ TO MAKE ( ,COMRADE ,GLAVNI'S SPEE* ,I W\LD HAVE LI/5$ ) GREAT] 9T]E/4 

,! FOLL[+ DAY ,I GOT A H9T ( :AT ,MIRNA & ,Y>A W]E PREP>+4 ,I C\LD B>ELY RECOGNIZE ,Y>A4 ,H] LI<T HAIR HAD ,BE5 DY$ PIT* BLACK1 ALONG ) H] EYEBR[S & EYELA%ES4 ,MIRNA EXPLA9$ ?AT ! DANCE WAS TO BE A MASQU]ADE3 ,I GA!R$ ?AT ,Y>A WAS GO+ TO PLAY ! DEVIL4 ,MIRNA !N DRESS$ ME 9 A PEASANT JACKET1 PANTS & BOOTS ( ! TYPE ,JAN US$ TO WE>4 ,%E PROCE$$ TO /RAI<T5 MY HAIR ) WAX1 & TO FA/5 A MU/A*E ABOVE MY LIPS4 

,E>LY ,W$NESDAY MORN+1 :5 ,I WAS GETT+ READY TO LEAVE = ! C>TON PLANT1 !RE WAS A KNOCK AT"9\R DOOR4 ,IT WAS ,JASNA4 ,%E SEEM$ AS FULL ( 5]GY & MIS*IEF AS ! O!R TWO4 0,H[ GLAD ,I AM Y\ HAV5'T LEFT = ! PLANT YET10 %E TOLD ME EXUB]ANTLY4 0,Y\ HAV5'T *ANG$ Y\R M9D AB\T *AP]ON+ ME TO ! DANCE80 

,I BLU%$ AS ,I TOLD H]1 0,NO1 ,JASNA4 ,I'M LOOK+ =W>D TO IT -- V]Y MU*40 

0,Y\ WON'T RECOGNIZE ME10 %E ANN\NC$4 

0,NOR Y\ ME10 ,I SAID4 0,MIRNA ALREADY TOLD ME IT'S GO+ TO BE A MASQU]ADE4 ,%E'S GO+ TO PA/E A MU/A*E ON MY FACE & --0 

0,Y\ WON'T RECOGNIZE ME BEL[ ! MASQU]ADE10 ,JASNA SAID CRYPTICALLY1 KISS+ MY *EEK4 0,:]E >E ! TWO DEVILS80 

0,!Y'RE /ILL ASLEEP10 ,I TOLD H]4 0,!Y SP5T HALF ! NI<T 9 ,Y>A'S ROOM HAT*+ PLOTS4 ,>E Y\ 9 ON !M80 

0,NOT YET1 BUT ,I WILL BE6 ,MAY ,I WAKE !M80 

,JASNA WOKE ,Y>A1 :O IMM$IATELY %\T$1 0,Y\'LL DO IT1 ,JASNA6 ,I KNEW Y\ W\LD'40 ,!N BO? RAN EXCIT$LY TO ,MIRNA'S ROOM4 ,:AT ,I HE>D NEXT MADE ME EXTREMELY APPREH5SIVE = ! RE/ (4 ! DAY4 ,MIRNA SAID1 0,Y\'RE A REAL FRI5D1 ,JASNA60 ,!N ,JASNA %\T$1 0,& Y\'RE A REAL HYPOCRITE1 ,MIRNA4 ,Y\'RE PU%+ ME 9TO ?IS GAME ONLY BECAUSE Y\ KN[ ,I'LL NEV] TAKE HIM FROM Y\4 ,HE'D HAVE TO BE CRAZY TO LET ME6 ,LOOK AT ! TWO ( US1 ,Y>A6 ,HE'S NOT BL9D60 ,Y>A %\T$1 0,Y\2RE BEAUTIFUL1 ,JASNA6 ,ALL ( US >E BEAUTIFUL1 & HE LOVES EV]Y ONE ( US2 Y\'LL SEE60 ,AT ?IS PO9T ,MIRNA %U%$ ! O!R TWO SO ?AT ,I W\LDN'T HE> ANY MORE ( !IR 0PLOT40 

,I DIDN'T GO TO WORK ,?URSDAY MORN+4 ,Y>A & H] FRI5D ,JULIA W]E 9 & \T ( ! H\SE ALL MORN+ LONG4 ,!Y PA9T$ L>GE SIGNS :I* !Y DIDN'T LET ME SEE4 ,MIRNA WAS BUSY SEW+ MORE CO/UMES4 ,AB\T TWO H\RS BE=E ! DANCE WAS TO BEG91 ,MIRNA MADE SURE ,I WORE EV]Y ITEM ( MY CO/UME1 9CLUD+ ! MU/A*E1 APPROPRIATELY4 ,Y>A1 ) BLACK HAIR HANG+ D[N TO H] %\LD]S & OV] H] FACE1 WORE SLACKS & A WORK JACKET4 ,MIRNA WORE ! DRESS %E HAD WORN :5 ,I'D FIR/ MET H] TW5TY YE>S AGO4 ,SLOBODAN & AN OLD] BOY CAME BY = ! SIGNS1 & ,JULIA LEFT ) !M4 ,!N ,MIRNA & ,Y>A LEFT C>RY+ SUITCASES2 ,MIRNA EXPLA9$ !Y W]E GO+ TO 0FIX UP0 ,JASNA & ,ZD5EK4 

,I WALK$ TO ,JASNA'S H\SE 9 MY FUNNY CLO!S4 ,JASNA WAS 0FIX$ UP0 9 CLO!S ?AT W]E VAGUELY FAMILI> TO ME4 ,I ASK$ H] :AT ! MASQU]ADE WAS GO+ TO MEAN4 

0,DON'T Y\ RECOGNIZE Y\RSELF1 OR ME1 OR ,Y>A80 %E ASK$4 ,I ADMITT$ ,I DIDN'T4 0,I'LL MAKE Y\ GUESS10 %E TOLD ME PROVOCATIVELY4 

,AS SOON AS ,JASNA & ,I REA* ! PLANT1 ! FIR/ ?+ ,I SEE IS YET ANO!R ILLU/RATION ( ! SIGNIFICANCE Y\R LETT]S HAVE = US4 ,Y\ RESPOND$ IMM$IATELY TO MY 0CONFESSION40 ,Y>A RESPOND$ JU/ AS IMM$IATELY TO Y\R FIR/ DESCRIPTION ( ! COMMUNE TO :I* ,T9A ACCOMPANI$ Y\4 ,OV] ! MAM 5TRANCE TO ,MIRNA'S PLANT1 COV]+ ! PLANT'S 5ORM\S NAME PLAQUE1 IS ONE ( ! BANN]S ,Y>A & ,JULIA PA9T$2 IT CONTA9S A S+LE WORD3 ,L,I,B,],A,T,$4 ,9SIDE ! PLANT1 ! FLOOR & WALLS >E NEWLY PA9T$2 !RE IS NO SIGN ( ! MA*9]Y1 :I* HAS ALL BE5 PU%$ AGA9/ A WALL & HIDD5 AWAY BY A CURTA94 ,AT ONE 5D ( ! VA/ ROOM !RE'S A SPEAK]S' PLAT=M2 BEH9D IT !RE'S AN 5ORM\S R$ FLAG ) A PICTURE ( A TANK 9 ITS C5T]4 ,!RE >E /REAM]S ALL OV] ! CEIL+4 ,! TWO SIDE WALLS CONTA9 5ORM\S BANN]S ) SLOGANS Y\'LL RECOGNIZE2 ONE SAYS1 0,EV]Y?+ IS ALL[$02 ! O!R1 0,NO?+ IS BANN$40 

,JASNA & ,I >E NOT AMONG ! FIR/ PEOPLE TO >RIVE2 WE SEEM TO BE AMONG ! LA/4 ,ZD5EK RU%ES TO US & TELLS US1 0,I RAN 9TO Y\R FRI5D ,ZABRAN ON ! WAY H]E -- A FUNNY MEET+40 ,JASNA & ,I >E BO? AMAZ$ TO LE>N ?IS1 BUT ,ZD5EK TELLS US HE'LL SAVE ! /ORY UNTIL LAT]2 0,I DON'T WANT TO MISS ANY ( ! ANTICS ( ?OSE TWO10 HE EXPLA9S2 0!Y'RE BO? LIKE T5-YE> OLD *ILDR51 & ,I SUSPECT ,MIRNA IS ! Y\NG] ( ! TWO40 

,! SAME ?\<T HAD GONE ?R\< MY M9D :5 ,MIRNA HAD LEFT ! H\SE WE>+ H] ELEM5T>Y S*OOL DRESS4 ,I MYSELF FEEL LIKE A T5-YE> OLD 9 ?IS =M] FACTORY :I* SEEMS TO HAVE BE5 DECORAT$ MA9LY BY ,Y>A1 ,JULIA & !IR T5-YE> OLD FRI5D ,MIRNA4 ,I F9D Y\R COMP>ISON ( ,TISSIE & ( ALL ( US TO *ILDR5 PR(\ND & HI<LY APPROPRIATE4 ,YES1 ! WORLD IS BECOM+ = ALL ( US :AT IT IS = ,Y>A1 :AT IT MAY HAVE BE5 = US :5 WE W]E *ILDR53 UNPR$ICTABLE & FASC9AT+ BECAUSE UNKN[N4 ,! MA*9E-LIKE R\T9E1 ! KN[L$GE ?AT TOMORR[ WILL BE LIKE TODAY1 IS GONE4 ,! WORLD IS BECOM+ A FIELD = ! REALIZATION ( \R DREAMS1 Y\R DREAMS1 ALL ! DREAMS ?AT REA* US1 ALL ! IMAG9+S ( ALL ! PA/ DREAM]S WE'VE BE5 C>RY+ 9SIDE \RSELVES4 ,! WORLD IS NO LONG] EXT]NAL TO ME1 TO ANY ( US1 BUT IS BEG9N+ TO BE AN EXT]NALIZATION & REFLECTION ( \RSELVES2 IT IS NO LONG] A COLD1 HO/ILE REALITY OPPOS$ TO \R 0PRIVATE10 P]SONAL1 UNREAL DREAMS4 ,REALITY IS />T+ TO 9CORPORATE \R DREAMS4 

,MUSIC />TS TO PLAY3 A TRADITIONAL FOLK MELODY4 ,EV]YONE =MS 9TO A CIRCLE1 :I* ,JASNA & ,I JO91 & WE />T TO MOVE 9 RHY?M TO ! MUSIC4 ,9 ! MIDDLE ( ! CIRCLE ANO!R DANCE BEG9S4 ,ZD5EK IS 9 ! C5T] DANC+ ) AN OLD1 B5T WOMAN MADE UP AS A SKELETON1 OR P]HAPS AS DEA?4 ,! OLD WOMAN SP9S HIM 9 CIRCLES1 & !N *ASES HIM >\ND ! CIRCUMF]5CE ( ! CIRCLE4 ,SUDD5LY A BEAUTIFUL 0C\RTESAN0 APPROA*ES ,ZD5EK & MAKES SUGGE/IVE GE/URES4 ,! C\RTESAN'S EYES >E COV]$ BY A MASK BEL[ :I* ,I RECOGNIZE ,Y>A'S LIPS2 %E WE>S A %ORT SKIRT1 A WIG ( LONG BLOND HAIR1 A TI<T SWEAT] OV] A PADD$ *E/1 & HI<-HEEL$ %OES4 ,I :ISP] TO ,JASNA1 0,?IS MU/ HAVE BE5 REHE>S$40 

0,I SUPPOSE IT WAS10 %E TELLS ME4 0,I WASN'T 9 ON ?IS P>T ( IT4 ,I B>ELY RECOGNIZE H]4 ,ISN'T %E FANTA/IC80 

,:5 ! OLD 0SKELETON'S0 BACK IS TURN$1 ,ZD5EK ACCEPTS ! C\RTESAN'S 9VITATION & DANCES ) H] ON ! 9SIDE ( ! CIRCLE4 ,BUT :5 ,ZD5EK'S BACK IS TURN$1 ,Y>A ?R[S ! BLOND WIG & ! %OES TO ,MIRNA1 :O PLACES A BLACK HAIRNET ) HORNS OV] ,Y>A'S DY$ BLACK HAIR1 & ?R[S A BLACK CAPE OV] ,Y>A'S %\LD]S4 ,!N ,Y>A1 AS ! DEVIL1 CONT9UES TO DANCE ) ! /UNN$ ,ZD5EK1 :ILE ! OLD 0SKELETON0 RUNS BEH9D !M ) A BROOM4 ,SUDD5LY ! BROOM HITS ! DEVIL1 :O VANI%ES ?R\< ! CIRCLE4 ,ZD5EK IS LEFT ALONE1 FAC+ ! OLD WOMAN & H] BROOM4 ,HE TRIES TO RUN AFT] ! DEVIL1 BUT F9DS NO WAY \T ( ! CIRCLE ( DANC]S4 ,! PEASANT-GIRL ,MIRNA LEAVES ! CIRCLE1 RUNS TO ,ZD5EK & DANCES ) HIM4 ,! OLD WOMAN TRIES TO HIT !M ) ! BROOM1 BUT H] BROOM ONLY HITS ! GR\ND2 %E SEEMS UNABLE TO KEEP UP ) !M4 

,EV]YONE LAU<S & APPLAUDS :5 ,Y>A & ,SLOBODAN HANG A SIGN BEL[ ! 0,EV]Y?+ IS ,ALL[$0 BANN]4 ,! SIGN CONTA9S ! WORDS 0,DAU<T] ) ,FA!R40 

,ANO!R MELODY BEG9S & ,ZD5EK JO9S ! \T] CIRCLE ( DANC]S4 ,MIRNA REMA9S 9SIDE ! CIRCLE4 ,%E MOVES FROM P]SON TO P]SON & /OPS 9 FRONT ( ME4 ,I NOTICE ?AT ANO!R SIGN IS BE+ ADD$ BEL[ ! PREVI\S ONE4 ,! NEW SIGN SAYS1 0,BRO!R ) ,SI/]40 ,MIRNA PULLS ME 9SIDE ! CIRCLE1 GUIDES ME1 PU%ES ME1 TURNS ME4 ,I GR9 & LOOK AWKW>DLY BACK T[>D AB&ON$ ,JASNA4 ,BUT !RE'S NO SMILE ON ,MIRNA'S FACE2 %E LOOKS DET]M9$1 OBSESS$1 ALMO/ POSSESS$4 ,:ILE PRESS+ & TURN+ ME1 %E KISSES ME & TELLS ME1 0,\R LOVE IS POSSIBLE N[1 ,JAN4 ,FROM N[ ON EV]Y?+ IS POSSIBLE4 ,TONI<T WE'LL MAKE LOVE2 TOMORR[ WE'LL ROAM ACROSS ! 5TIRE C\NTRY1 AS FREE AS BIRDS2 WE'LL VISIT /REAMS & CAV]NS & O!R CITIES1 & :]EV] WE GO WE'LL F9D ONLY FRI5DS2 !RE WON'T BE ANY PRY+ OLD WOM5 --0 

,BEH9D US ,I FEEL 0DEA?'S0 BROOM HITT+ ! GR\ND1 9CREAS+LY CLOS] TO US4 ,MIRNA CONT9UES1 0EV]YONE WILL BEG US TO JO9 !M 9 :AT !Y'RE DO+1 & WE WON'T KN[ :I* WAY TO TURN --0 ,:ILE %E'S SPEAK+1 ! SKELETON REMOVES ,MIRNA'S >MS FROM ME & PULLS H] \T ( ! CIRCLE1 :I* BREAKS UP BECAUSE ! DANCE 5DS4 ,A SIGN ON ! SPEAK]'S PLAT=M ANN\NCES AN 09T]MISSION40 

,C\PLES MOVE \T TO ! DANCE FLOOR4 ,MIRNA DANCES ) ,ZD5EK1 TURN+ GRACEFULLY >\ND HIM1 EMBRAC+ HIM1 KISS+ HIM4 ,JASNA />TS TO GIVE ME MY SECOND LESSON 9 DANC+4 ,%E %[S ME FOOT MOTIONS1 H& POSITIONS1 B[S & TURNS4 ,%E TELLS ME1 0,PUT Y\R >M H]E1 >\ND MY WAI/4 ,NOT SO LOOSE1 ,Y>O/AN6 ,>E Y\ AFRAID ( ME80 ,I PUT BO? >MS >\ND H] ?9 WAI/1 KISS H] & TRY TO RESUME MY FOOT MOTIONS1 BUT ,JASNA PROLONGS ! KISS4 ,!N %E GUIDES ME1 /ILL DANC+1 PA/ ! O!R C\PLES & TO ! FRE% AIR \TSIDE ! PLANT4 

,JASNA1 H] >MS >\ND ME1 LEANS ON ! FACTORY WALL & SMILES BEAUTIFULLY4 0,Y\'VE F9ALLY RECOGNIZ$ ME10 %E SI<S4 

0,Y\'RE ,JASNA & Y\'RE BEAUTIFUL10 ,I TELL H]4 

0,Y\ DON'T KN[ H[ HAPPY Y\'RE MAK+ ME40 ,%E KISSES ME PASSIONATELY4 0,HOLD ME1 ,Y>O/AN1 PRESS ME1 LOVE ME4 ,I'VE NEV] BE5 LOV$ 9 MY 5TIRE LIFE40 ,SUDD5LY %E DROPS H] >MS & />TS CRY+4 0,IT'S ALL A LIE10 %E WAILS4 

,I TRY TO KISS H] AGA91 & ,I ASSURE H] ,I MEANT :AT ,I SAID4 

,JASNA PULLS ME T[>D ! LI<T ?AT %9ES \T ( A FACTORY W9D[4 ,!RE >E TE>S ON H] *EEKS1 BUT %E'S /ILL SMIL+4 ,%E TELLS ME1 0,I'M NOT ,JASNA60 

0,DON'T BE FOOLI%10 ,I TELL H]4 0,DO !SE CLO!S MAKE ME SOMEONE O!R ?AN ,Y>O/AN80 

0,WE'VE KN[N EA* O!R = TW5TY-?REE YE>S1 ,Y>O/AN1 & Y\ NEV] KISS$ ME UNTIL ,I TRI$ TO MAKE MYSELF LOOK LIKE ,LUISA ,NA*ALO3 H] CLO!S1 H] HAIR1 EV5 H] MANN]S --0 

0,LUISA6 ,BUT ?AT'S RIDICUL\S1 ,JASNA6 ,Y\'RE NO MORE LIKE ,LUISA ?AN ,I AM LIKE ,JAN40 

0,MIRNA KN[S Y\ MU* BETT] ?AN Y\ KN[ Y\RSELF10 %E TELLS ME4 0,MIRNA & ,Y>A />T$ ?IS GAME OV] A WEEK AGO1 RI<T AFT] ! LA/ GET-TOGE!R WE HAD AT Y\R H\SE4 ,:5 !Y CAME TO MY H\SE1 MIS*IEV\S & CONSPIRATORIAL1 ,I WAS SOME:AT FRI<T5$1 BUT ,I WAS EXCIT$4 ,I SUPPOSE ,I WAS FLATT]$ ?AT !Y WANT$ TO 9CLUDE ME 9 !IR MIS*IEF4 ,!Y TOLD ME ! DANCE W\LD BE A MASQU]ADE1 & ,Y>A ASK$ IF ,I C\LD HELP MAKE H] LOOK LIKE ,SAB9A --0 

0,( C\RSE60 ,I EXCLAIM1 SUDD5LY 0RECOGNIZ+0 ! GYPSY ) ! LONG BLACK HAIR4 0,%E'S A P]FECT LIK5ESS40 

0,BUT !N ,MIRNA 9SI/$ ,I MAKE MYSELF LOOK LIKE ,LUISA4 ,I WAS (F5D$ & FRI<T5$4 ,I REM9D$ H] Y\ HAD LOV$ ,LUISA1 & ASK$ IF %E WANT$ ME TO GO TO H] DANCE ) H] HUSB& AS MY LOV]4 ',Y\'D LIKE NO?+ BETT]2 Y\'VE DREAM$ AB\T IT = TW5TY YE>S1' %E TOLD ME4 ,MIRNA IS ABSOLUTELY %AMELESS4 ,& %E'S WRONG4 ,I NEV] WANT$ TO TRICK Y\ 9TO LOV+ ME --0 

0,Y\R SMILE1 Y\R MOTIONS1 Y\R WORDS >5'T TRICKS1 ,JASNA4 ,& IF ,I DID TAKE Y\ = SOMEONE ,I LOV$ ONCE1 IT W\LD ONLY BE BECAUSE ,I LOV$ Y\ --0 

0,?AT'S EXACTLY :AT ,MIRNA SAID1 EV5 9 ! SAME WORDS6 ,I ASK$ H] :Y %E WANT$ TO DO ?IS8 ,%E LOVES Y\2 :Y DID %E WANT TO MAKE EV]Y ONE ( US MIS]ABLE8 ,Y>A TOLD ME ,MIRNA WANT$ Y\ TO BE EXACTLY AS Y\ W]E :5 %E FIR/ MET Y\4 ,?AT WAS :5 ,I REALIZ$ ,Y>A WAS /AGE-MANAG+ ! :OLE P]=MANCE1 & ,I TOLD H] ,I REFUS$ TO PLAY ONE ( H] LOVE GAMES1 NOT BECAUSE ,I %>E ,VESNA'S FE> -- OR AT LEA/ NO LONG] BECAUSE ( ?AT -- BUT BECAUSE ,I WAS 9 LOVE ) SOMEONE ELSE1 ) ,TITUS ,ZABRAN40 

0,WAS ?AT TRUE80 

0,YES1 ,Y>O/AN1 ,I'VE LOV$ ,TITUS AS LONG AS ,I'VE LOV$ Y\1 & ! POOR MAN IS ALL BY HIMSELF2 HE NE$S ME2 Y\ HAVE ,MIRNA AS WELL AS ,Y>A4 ,LET'S GO 0BACK4 ,!Y W\LDN'T WANT Y\ TO MISS ! SECOND HALF40 

,AS SOON AS ,I RE5T] ! FACTORY-DANCE HALL ) ,JASNA-,LUISA1 ! 09T]MISSION0 SIGN IS REMOV$ FROM ! SPEAK]S' PLAT=M BY ,SLOBODAN & ,Y>A2 !Y TURN ! SIGN >\ND & HANG IT BEL[ ! O!R SIGNS ON ! WALL ') ! 0,EV]Y?+ IS ,ALL[$0 BANN]2 ! BACK ( ! 09T]MISSION0 SIGN SAYS1 0,! ,DEVIL ) ,EA*40 

,! LI<TS GO \T2 ONLY ! C5T] ( ! DANCE FLOOR IS LIT4 ,Y>A1 9 ! DEVIL'S BLACK CAPE & HORNS1 PULLS ME AWAY FROM ,JASNA T[>D ! LIT-UP C5T] ( ! FLOOR4 ,! DEVIL />TS TO DANCE ) ME4 ,I SEE ,MIRNA'S H& REA*+ = ME FROM \TSIDE ! CIRCLE ( LI<T2 !N ! OLD WOMAN DRESS$ AS A SKELETON PULLS ,MIRNA AWAY FROM ME4 ,! OLD WOMAN TURNS TO ME & SWEEPS NE> MY FEET1 AS IF %E W]E TRY+ TO SWEEP ME \T ( ! CIRCLE ( LI<T4 ,MEAN:ILE ! SPOTLI<T FOLL[S 0BLACK-HAIR$1 BLACK-CAP$ ,Y>A AS %E BEG9S TO DANCE ) ,MIRNA BEH9D ! OLD WOMAN'S BACK1 :ILE ! OLD WOMAN CONT9UES TO SWEEP ME AWAY 9 ! D>KNESS4 ,! AUDI5CE LAU<S & APPLAUDS 5?USIA/ICALLY4 

,! SPOTLI<T CONT9UES FOLL[+ ,Y>A & ,MIRNA1 :O P]=M SOME SORT ( C\RT%IP DANCE4 ,MIRNA GOADS ! DEVIL1 :O DANCES GRACEFULLY T[>D H]1 BUT AS SOON AS ! DEVIL REA*ES H]1 ,MIRNA RUNS AWAY4 ,! SEQU5CE IS REPEAT$ SEV]AL TIMES UNTIL ! DEVIL REFUSES TO BE GOAD$ ANO!R TIME4 ,! AUDI5CE LAU<S4 ,AT ?IS PO9T ! DEVIL BEG9S TO GOAD ,MIRNA2 AFT] BRIEF HESITATION1 ,MIRNA MOVES CLOS] & CLOS] UNTIL %E'S AN >M'S L5G? AWAY4 ,! DEVIL JUMPS & 0CAPTURES0 ,MIRNA4 ,! AUDI5CE APPLAUDS4 ,EXOTIC MUSIC PLAYS4 ,AS ! SPOTLI<T FOLL[S !M1 ,MIRNA & ! DEVIL SP9 EA* O!R GRACEFULLY >\ND ! DANCE FLOOR UNTIL A F9AL1 PASSIONATE EMBRACE1 FOLL[$ BY APPLAUSE & EMB>RASS$ LAU<T] FROM ! AUDI5CE4 

,MIRNA & ! DEVIL REMA9 LOCK$ 9 !IR ]OTIC EMBRACE :5 ALL ! LI<TS GO ON4 ,! OLD WOMAN /OPS SWEEP+ BEH9D ME1 TURNS >\ND & SEES ,MIRNA 9 ! DEVIL'S GRASP4 ,%E RUNS T[>D !M & />TS TO HIT ! DEVIL ) H] BROOM4 ,! EXOTIC MUSIC IS REPLAC$ BY FAMILI> FOLK MUSIC2 ! AUDI5CE />TS TO =M 9TO A CIRCLE AGA94 ,JASNA PULLS ME & ,ZD5EK 9TO ! CIRCLE4 ,MIRNA 5T]S ! CIRCLE BETWE5 ,ZD5EK & A Y\NG MAN 9 A PEASANT CO/UME SIMIL> TO M9E4 ,! OLD WOMAN SEEMS TO HAVE VANI%$4 ,SUDD5LY ,MIRNA PULLS ! BEWILD]$ Y\NG MAN NEXT TO H] 9TO ! C5T] ( ! CIRCLE & BEG9S ) HIM ! ]OTIC C\RT%IP DANCE %E JU/ COMPLET$ ) ! DEVIL4 ,! Y\NG MAN SEEMS APPREH5SIVE AT FIR/2 GRADUALLY HE GETS 9TO ! SPIRIT ( IT & REPEATS ! MOTIONS ( ! DEVIL 9 ! PREVI\S DANCE4 ,BUT :5 HE TRIES TO 0CAPTURE0 ,MIRNA1 %E TRIPS HIM & HE FALLS TO ! FLOOR4 ,AT ?AT PO9T ,MIRNA PULLS1 ME 9TO ! CIRCLE & SP9S ME >\ND ! FALL5 PEASANT ,:5 HE TRIES TO GET UP1 %E B5DS ME PREC>I\SLY OV] HIM & KISSES ME PASSIONATELY4 ,%E CONT9UES TO DISPLAY H] PASSION = ME PROVOCATIVELY UNTIL ! PEASANT BREAKS ?R\< ! L>G] CIRCLE & RUNS AWAY4 ,/ILL POSSESS$ ) PASSION1 ,MIRNA DANCES ) ME T[>D ,ZD5EK & !N T[>D ,Y>A1 :O HAS REMOV$ H] CAPE & HORNS & ONCE AGA9 WE>S SLACKS & A WORK-JACKET ( A TYPE ,SAB9A WORE TO ! C>TON PLANT TW5TY YE>S AGO4 ,MIRNA PULLS BO? ( !M 9SIDE ! CIRCLE4 ,! F\R ( US =M A SMALL CIRCLE :I* MOVES 9 ! OPPOSITE DIRECTION FROM ! L>GE ONE1 & SEV]AL TIMES FA/]4 ,! OLD WOMAN RETURNS2 ! BL[S ( H] BROOM >E AIM$ AT ,MIRNA4 ,Y>A PU%ES ,MIRNA 9TO ! C5T]2 ,ZD5EK1 ,Y>A & ,I PROTECT ,MIRNA FROM ! BL[S BY =M+ A TI<T1 CLOS$ CIRCLE >\ND H]4 ,JASNA BREAKS ! CIRCUMF]5CE ( ! L>GE CIRCLE1 PULLS ! L9E ( DANC]S BETWE5 \R SMALL CIRCLE & ! OLD WOMAN1 & RE-=MS ANO!R CIRCLE >\ND \R CIRCLE ( ?REE4 ,! NEW CIRCLE TI<T5S AS ! DANC]S GRASP EA* O!RS' WAI/S4 ,! REMA9+ DANC]S CONT9UE BREAK+ ! L>GE/ CIRCLE & CREAT+ SMALL] ONES1 EA* TIME =C+ ! OLD WOMAN \TSIDE ! NEW CIRCUMF]5CE UNTIL AT LA/ %E'S EXCLUD$ FROM ALL ! CIRCLES4 ,EA* CIRCLE IS TI<TLY CLOS$1 EA* MOVES 9 ! OPPOSITE DIRECTION FROM ! NEXT1 & 9 ! C5T] ( ALL ! CONC5TRIC CIRCLES ,MIRNA1 H] H&S LIFT$ HI<1 SP9S H] BODY FR5ZI$LY AGA9/ \RS1 9 ! OPPOSITE DIRECTION1 SO ?AT ! SPE$ IS DIZZY+4 ,ANO!R SIGN HAS BE5 ADD$ BEL[ ! BANN]2 ?IS ONE SAYS1 0,EA* ) ,ALL40 

,:ILE ! CONC5TRIC CIRCLES TURN LIKE :EELS )9 :EELS1 ! MUSIC GR[S DIMM] AS IT IS GRADUALLY REPLAC$ BY AN ALI5 S\ND ?AT SEEMS TO COME FROM ! SPEAK]S' PLAT=M4 ,IT'S ! %RILL VOICE ( A POLITICIAN1 & IT ALMO/ SEEMS TO EMANATE FROM ! TANK AT ! C5T] ( ! R$ FLAG BEH9D ! PLAT=M4 ,! VOICE BL>ES1 0,! CRITIQUE ( ! BUREAUCRACY IS JU/IFI$1 BUT IT %\LD NOT GET \T ( CONTROL1 IT MU/ NOT BE ALL[$ TO SLIP 9TO G5]AL & FACILE ATTACKS AGA9/ \R 5TIRE SOCIAL SY/EM4440 ,I RECOGNIZE ! SPEE* ,I HAD HE>D 9 ! C>TON PLANT A FEW DAYS E>LI]1 AS WELL AS ! VOICE ( ! ,PLANN+ ,COMMISSION]1 ,M>C ,GLAVNI4 

,! MUSIC /OPS ALTOGE!R4 ,! LI<TS GO \T4 ,!RE'S A SPOTLI<T ON ! SPEAK]S' PLAT=M1 ! FLAG & ! TANK4 ,! MOM5T ! LI<TS GO \T1 ,MIRNA /OPS SP9N+ & COLLAPSES 9TO ! >MS ( ,Y>A & ,ZD5EK4 ,! CONC5TRIC CIRCLES />T TO BREAK UP AS ! DANC]S %AKE !IR FI/S AT ! PLAT=M4 

0,! RI<TFUL DEM& ( WORK]S TO PLAY A L>G] ROLE 9 \R ECONOMIC LIFE10 ! VOICE GOES ON1 0MU/ NOT BE ALL[$ TO DE/ROY ALL WORK DISCIPL9E2 IT MU/ NOT BE ALL[$ TO CREATE *AOS 9 PRODUCTION4 ,?AT IS A FALSE DEMOCRACY40 

,FROM BEH9D ! SPEAK]S' PLAT=M APPE>S ! OLD SKELETON-WOMAN ) H] BROOM4 ,! SPOTLI<T FOLL[S H] AS %E LEAVES ! PLAT=M & MOVES T[>D ! DANC]S4 ,EV]Y TIME ,GLAVNI MAKES AN EMPHATIC /ATEM5T1 %E MAKES A ?REAT5+ GE/URE ) H] BROOM4 ,EV]Y ONE ( H] ?REAT5+ GE/URES IS ACCOMPANI$ BY SPONTANE\S APPLAUSE & LAU<T] AMONG ! DANC]S4 

,! VOICE BEH9D ! TANK GR[S YET L\D]4 0,! SITUATION MU/ NOT BE ALL[$ TO GET \T ( CONTROL4 ,:AT IS ! S5SE ( ALL ! CALLS = WORK]S' C\NCILS & O!R =MS ( UNCONTROLL$ P>TICIPATION8 ,DOES ! PRES5T SITUATION REALLY JU/IFY ! TYPE ( TALK SOME COMRADES >E 5GAG$ 98 ,IT IS EASY TO LAUN* A MOVEM5T1 BUT IT IS NOT EASY TO SUPPORT ITS CONSEQU5CES6 ,9 ! GUISE ( RE=M & DEMOCRATIZATION1 DISRUPTIVE ELEM5TS >E DE/ROY+1 NOT ! DE=MATIONS1 BUT ! A*IEVEM5TS ( ! PA/ TW5TY YE>S6 ,SU* ELEM5TS TAKE 9TO ACC\NT NEI!R ! GRAVITY ( ! H\R1 NOR ! ELEM5T>Y RULES ( DEMOCRATIC LIFE1 NOR \R 9T]NATIONAL OBLIGATIONS4 ,!Y >E DE/ROY+ ! CONFID5CE ( ! WORK+ MASSES 9 !IR LEAD]S --0 

,! SKELETON-WOMAN HAS />T$ TO H]D PEOPLE \T ( ! FACTORY ) H] BROOM4 ,H] ?REATS >E MET BY TAUNTS & LAU<T]4 

,! SPEAK]'S VOICE HAS BECOME DEAF5+4 0,! OCCUPATIONS1 ! WORK /OPPAGES1 ! /RIKES1 ALL REPRES5T =MS ( DE/RUCTION ( ! SOCIAL MEANS ( PRODUCTION2 !Y >E 9ADMISSIBLE =MS ( SELF-AFFIRMATION ( ! WORK+ CLASS4 ,WORK]S >E PRES5T+ DEM&S 9 ! =M ( ULTIMATUMS1 ?US CREAT+ DISORD] & DI/RU/ & GIV+ RISE TO UNCONTROLL$1 EMOTIONAL MOVEM5TS4 ,! COMRADES :O SUPPORT SU* DEM&S >E SUPPORT+ AN IRRATIONAL UND]TAK+ :I*1 :ILE SOMETIMES CLAIM+ TO SUPPORT ! POLICY WE'VE BE5 FOLL[+ = ! PA/ MON?S1 9 FACT COMPROMISES & UND]M9ES \R POLICY4 ,! REC\RSE TO /RIKES IS A REC\RSE TO A ME?OD COMPLETELY UNJU/IFI$ 9 ! PRES5T CIRCUM/ANCES4 ,:AT WE NE$ MO/ URG5TLY IS ORD] & DISCIPL9E AT WORK6 ,LET US BE CONSCI\S ( \R HI/ORIC TASKS60 

,! SKELETON CONT9UES SWEEP+ & ?REAT5+ UNTIL ALL ! DANC]S LEAVE ! PLANT4 ,%E RAGES & WAVES H] BROOM AT ! LA/ ?REE DANC]S TO EM]GE3 ,Y>A & ,ZD5EK C>RY+ ,MIRNA4 ,! CR[D GA!RS AT ! /REET LI<T \TSIDE ! PLANT4 ,AS SOON AS ! LA/ GR\P JO9S !M1 ,MIRNA JUMPS \T ( ,Y>A'S & ,ZD5EK'S >MS1 LAU<+ JOYFULLY1 :ILE ! OLD WOMAN DRESS$ AS A SKELETON REMOVES H] CO/UME & ,Y>A'S FRI5D ,JULIA EM]GES FROM IT4 ,! AUDI5CE APPLAUDS WILDLY & =MS A CIRCLE >\ND ,Y>A & ,JULIA 9 ! /REET2 NE> ! /REET LI<T 9SIDE ! CIRCLE1 ! TWO FRI5DS REPEAT A FRAGM5T ( ! DEVIL'S C\RT%IP DANCE4 

,! DANC]S \TSIDE ,MIRNA'S PLANT1 :O LAU<$ AT ! RAIL+ BUREAUCRAT1 :O LAU<$ AT ! TANK ON ! FLAG1 :O LAU<$ AT DEA? SWEEP+ !M FROM ! DANCE HALL1 >E 9DE$ \T ( CONTROL4 ,!Y SEEM DET]M9$ TO EXT5D !IR DANCE TO ! 5TIRE WORLD4 ,GLAVNI & HIS FELL[ BUREAUCRATS CAN NO LONG] REIMPOSE ?AT CONTROL4 ,! DOME/IC AG5CIES ( REPRESSION >E \T ( COMMISSION4 ,?AT'S :Y ,GLAVNI CALLS 0US0 TO BE 0CONSCI\S ( \R HI/ORIC TASKS40 ,?AT CONSCI\SNESS IS ! F9AL AG5T ( REPRESSION2 ONLY ?AT CONSCI\SNESS CAN REIMPOSE ORD] & WORK-DISCIPL9E N[4 ,ACCEPT+ RULES & OBLIGATIONS1 CONFID+ 9 0\R LEAD]S0 -- ?AT'S ! 5TIRE CONT5T ( ?IS 0CONSCI\SNESS ( \R HI/ORIC TASKS40 ,GLAVNI'S SPEE* CONTA9$ A NOTE ( HY/]IA4 ,HE & HIS FELL[ BUREAUCRATS NO LONG] 9C>NATE ! SOCIAL ORD]2 !IR DEF9ITIONS ( SOCIETY'S TASKS >E BE+ MET BY /RIKES1 BY DEMON/RATIONS1 & BY LAU<T]4 ,=M] 0WORK]S0 >E LOS+ !IR 0HI/ORIC CONSCI\SNESS10 !Y'RE COM+ ALIVE & DEF9+ !IR [N TASKS2 ! POPULATION IS \T ( CONTROL4 ,BE=E ! GA!R+ DISP]SES1 SOMEONE ANN\NCES1 0,DON'T =GET6 ,NEXT ,MONDAY WE SET \T ON \R EXPLORATION40 ,WORK1 ORD] & DISCIPL9E >E GONE FROM ?IS =M] FACTORY4 

,UN=TUNATELY ! PEOPLE GA!R$ 9 FRONT ( ,MIRNA'S PLANT DON'T TYPIFY ! SPIRIT ( ! RE/ ( ! POPULATION4 ,COMP>$ TO !M1 ,ZD5EK & ,I >E 0CONSCI\S10 0RESPONSIBLE10 & RELATIVELY ORD]LY4 ,ZD5EK1 9 FACT1 RU%ES AWAY FROM US1 EXPLA9+ ?AT ! 0WORK]S' VICTORY0 AT HIS PLANT WAS ( A DIFF]5T NATURE ?AN AT ,MIRNA'S PLANT1 & ?AT CONSEQU5TLY HE HAS TO GO TO WORK ! FOLL[+ MORN+4 

,AFT] EV]YONE DISP]SES1 ,MIRNA TELLS ,JASNA1 0,WE /OPP$ AT ,TITUS' H\SE ON \R WAY TO ! DANCE4 ,:Y DIDN'T Y\ TELL US Y\ HAD ALREADY 9VIT$ HIM80 

,JASNA SEEMS EMB>RASS$4 0,I DIDN'T WANT Y\ TO PROVIDE ME ) A LOV]1 ,MIRNA40 

0,I WASN'T PROVID+ Y\ ) ANY?+1 ,JASNA4 ,I WAS PROVID+ MYSELF60 

0,DON'T TAUNT ME ANY MORE1 ,MIRNA10 ,JASNA BEGS4 0,I'VE ASK$ ,TITUS TO M>RY ME40 

0,IS ?AT :Y HE ACT$ SO /RANGE :5 HE SAW US80 ,Y>A ASKS4 ,! F\R ( US />T TO WALK HOME4 

0,ZD5EK TOLD US Y\ /OPP$ BY HIS ROOM10 ,JASNA FELLS !M4 

0,Y\ ASK$ HIM TO M>RY Y\80 ,MIRNA ASKS4 

0,YES1 ,MIRNA1 TWICE4 ,DO Y\ REMEMB] :5 WE READ ! LETT] 9 :I* ,SOPHIA DESCRIB$ H] EXP]I5CES 9 ,SAB9A'S G>AGE8 ,?AT EV5+ Y\ 9TIMIDAT$ ME SO MU* --0 

0,I :AT80 

0,Y\ 9TIMIDAT$ ME1 ,MIRNA6 ,Y\ CALL$ ME A C[>D1 A SP9ELESS1 FRU/RAT$ OLD MAID6 ,TITUS VISIT$ ME SEV]AL DAYS AFT] ?AT EV5+ -- & ,I ASK$ HIM TO M>RY ME40 

,Y>A ASKS1 0,WAS ?AT :5 Y\ TOLD ME AB\T ,V]A & ,ADRIAN8 ,:Y DIDN'T Y\ TELL ME Y\'D PROPOS$ TO HIM80 

0,I WAS HAPPY2 ,Y>A1 & ,I DIDN'T WANT TO SPOIL MY HAPP9ESS BY TELL+ Y\4 ,I KNEW H[ Y\'VE HAT$ HIM S9CE ,VESNA DI$4 ,Y\ W]E ON Y\R \T+ TO ! M\NTA9S :5 HE VISIT$ ME4 ,I WAS ALONE & T]RIBLY DEPRESS$ AFT] ! >GUM5T ) ,MIRNA4 ,I ACT$ LIKE A BABY4 ,I ASK$ HIM ,TISSIE'S PA!TIC QUE/ION3 ',:AT'S WRONG ) ME8' ,HE DIDN'T UND]/&2 HE TOLD ME HE HAD ALWAYS ADMIR$ MY COOL-HEAD$NESS & MY RES]VE4 ,I BROKE D[N4 ,I TOLD HIM MY COOL-HEAD$NESS WAS NO?+ BUT C[>DICE2 ,I HAD NEV] FAC$ ! SMALLE/ OB/ACLES2 ,I HAD L$ A HORRIBLY IMPOV]I%$ LIFE4 ,I CONTRA/$ MYSELF TO ! WOM5 ,I HAD ADMIR$3 ,LUISA ,NA*ALO ) ALL H] LOV]S4 ,V]A ,NEIS ) H] TWO CONQUE/S1 Y\1 ,MIRNA --0 

,MIRNA ASKS1 0,DID HE %>E Y\R ADMIRATION = ?REE SU* PASSIONATE --0 

0,NO1 ,MIRNA1 HE DIDN'T4 ,POOR MAN4 ,HE'S BE5 SO JOYLESS = SO MANY YE>S6 ,HE TOLD ME AWFUL ?+S AB\T ,LUISA & ,V]A40 

0,& ME80 ,MIRNA ASKS4 

0,I'D RA!R NOT REPEAT !M10 ,JASNA TELLS H]2 0,I KNEW IT WAS HIS LONEL9ESS ?AT MADE HIM SO BITT]4 ,I FELT EV5 SORRI] = HIM ?AN ,I'D FELT = MYSELF :5 HE'D COME4 ,I ?\<T !RE WAS NO REASON = HIM TO REMA9 SO T]RIBLY ALONE2 EV]Y?+ WAS *ANG+2 NEW POSSIBILITIES W]E ON EV]YONE'S HORIZON4 ,9 ! PA/ HE 9TIMIDAT$ ME1 BUT SUDD5LY ,I SAW H[ ALIKE WE W]E4 ,HE NEV] ASPIR$ TO ANY?+ MORE ?AN ! SMALL CORN] HE OCCUPIES NE> ! BOTTOM ( ! SOCIAL HI]>*Y4 ,HE'S SO MODE/4 ,HE DEVOT$ HIS :OLE LIFE TO HIS DREAM ( A BETT] WORLD1 BUT HE NEV] S\<T ANY?+ = HIMSELF4 ,I ?\<T WE'D MAKE A NICE C\PLE 9 A QUIET WAY1 NOT PASSIONATE1 BUT CONSID]ATE & HELPFUL4 ,I ASK$ HIM IF HE'D EV] ?\<T ( M>RY+4 ,HE TOLD ME HE HAD M>RI$ ! PROLET>IAT :5 HE WAS EI<TE54 ,:5 ,I TOLD HIM HIS PRES5T LONEL9ESS PROV$ ?AT HIS LIFELONG DEVOTION HAS REMA9$ UNREW>D$ & UNRECOGNIZ$1 HE TOLD ME ! DESIRE = REW>DS & RECOGNITION W]E ALI5 TO HIM4 ,I ASK$ HIM /RAI<T \T IF ! ?\<T ( M>RY+ ME MI<T EV] CROSS HIS M9D4 ,9/EAD ( ANSW]+1 HE TOLD ME HE RESPECT$ ME F> MORE ?AN HE RESPECT$ ! ?REE WOM5 ,I ADMIR$4 ,I WAS HAPPY4 ,I *OSE TO 9T]PRET HIS ANSW] AS AN AFFIRMATION4 ,BUT ,I LONG$ TO TALK TO SOMEONE4 ,I DIDN'T D>E VISIT Y\1 ,MIRNA1 RI<T AFT] Y\'D ?R[N ALL ?OSE PA9FUL ACCUSATIONS AT ME4 ,I WAS EV5 MORE AFRAID TO P\R MY HE>T \T TO Y\1 ,Y>O/AN1 BECAUSE ,I C\LDN'T HAVE RESI/$ -- ,I W\LD HAVE MELT$ --0 

0,Y\ C\LD HAVE TOLD ME10 ,Y>A 9SI/S4 0,I DON'T HATE Y\1 BUT HIM40 

0,I WAS OV]JOY$ TO SEE Y\1 ,Y>A1 ,I FELT LIKE TELL+ Y\ EV]Y?+4 ,Y\ TOLD ME AB\T ! LOVE GAMES Y\ HAD PLAY$ ON M\NTA9 TOPS4 ,I WOND]$ :AT ,TITUS MI<T SAY AB\T Y\R '%AMELESS 9DIVIDUALISM4' ,BUT ,I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK AB\T ,VESNA AGA94 ,ONLY A FEW DAYS E>LI] ,MIRNA HAD REM9D$ ME ?AT ,I HAD DONE NO?+ :5 ,VESNA WAS TAK5 AWAY4 ,BESIDES1 Y\ W]E F> MORE EAG] TO LE>N ! BUCKETFULLS ( SECRETS AB\T ,V]A ,KR5A ?AT ,I HAD JU/ LE>N$ FROM ,TITUS4 ,& ,I DIDN'T HAVE MU* ( A *ANCE TO TALK TO Y\ AFT] ?AT4 ,! V]Y NEXT MORN-+ Y\ CAME TO TELL ME ,Y>O/AN WAS GO+ TO HAVE ,MIRNA TAK5 TO ! HOSPITAL1 = ! SAME REASONS ,VESNA HAD BE5 TAK5 AWAY4 ,I F9ALLY TOLD BO? ( Y\ :5 Y\ WANT$ ME TO MAKE MYSELF LOOK LIKE ,LUISA = ,Y>O/AN1 BUT NEI!R ( Y\ BELIEV$ ME --0 

0,OBVI\SLY NOT !N10 ,Y>A SAYS2 0,WE ?\<T Y\ W]E LOOK+ = AN EXCUSE TO /AY \T ( \R GAME40 

0,BUT ! EXCUSE HAPP5$ TO FIT Y\R PLANS P]FECTLY1 DIDN'T IT80 ,JASNA ASKS4 0,MIRNA ?REAT5$ TO 9VITE ,TITUS TO ! DANCE -- = ME1 ,I ?\<T2 BECAUSE ,I WAS UNABLE TO SATISFY MY DESIRES ON MY [N4 ,I REFUS$ TO PLAY Y\R GAME40 

,I REM9D ,JASNA1 0,?AT'S :AT Y\ TOLD ME BE=E4 ,YET H]E Y\ >E1 PLAY+ !IR GAME4 ,DID Y\ *ANGE Y\R M9D8 ,DID ,MIRNA & ,Y>A =CE Y\80 

0,A LITTLE ( BO?1 ,I SUPPOSE10 ,JASNA TELLS ME1 WRAPP+ H] >M >\ND ME4 0,MIRNA MADE ME POSITIVELY MIS]ABLE4 ,%E TOLD ME ,I'D NEV] SATISFY MY DESIRES ON MY [N2 ,I'D C>RY MY UNSATISFI$ DESIRES TO ! GRAVE4 ,%E ASK$ IF ,I'D EV] HELD MY BODY LESS ?AN AN >M'S L5G? AWAY FROM ! TWO PEOPLE ,I'VE LOV$ = A QU>T] ( A C5TURY4 ,& %E CONT9U$ TAUNT+ ME2 %E C\LD DRIVE A SANE P]SON \T ( H] M9D4 ',IF Y\ WON'T LET ME BR+ ,TITUS = Y\1 WILL Y\ AT LEA/ LET ME BR+ HIM = MYSELF8' %E ASK$4 ,!N %E TOLD ME %E HAD BE5 F> CLOS] TO ,TITUS ?AN ,I WAS EV] GO+ TO BE4 ,I CALL$ H] A LI>4 ,SO %E TOLD ME ?AT DUR+ Y\R SECOND PRISON T]M Y\ HAD ASK$ ,TITUS TO CONV9CE ,MIRNA TO DIVORCE Y\1 & :5 ,TITUS HAD GONE TO H]1 %E HAD TRI$ TO AB&ON H]SELF TO HIM4 ,& %E CONCLUD$ H] /ORY BY %\T+1 ',>5'T Y\ HUMAN1 ,JASNA8 ,DON'T Y\ WANT TO GET EV5 ) ME BY TAK+ ,Y>O/AN FROM ME8 ,I HELD Y\R ,TITUS 9 MY >MS6 ,I WANT$ HIM6 ,I W\LD HAVE MADE MYSELF ,LUISA = HIM6' ,& ,Y>A1 ! LITTLE DEVIL1 SUPPORT$ H]6 ,I C\LDN'T /& !IR TAUNTS4 ,LA/ ,TUESDAY NI<T ,I W5T TO ,TITUS' ROOM BY MYSELF4 ,HE SEEM$ PLEAS$ TO SEE ME4 ,HE />T$ EXPLA9+ TO ME ! POLITICAL /RATEGY ?AT WAS NECESS>Y 9 ! CURR5T SITUATION1 BUT ,I DIDN'T LI/54 ,I PROPOS$ TO HIM1 JU/ LIKE ?AT4 ,& ,I 9VIT$ HIM TO COME TO ! DANCE4 ,HE TURN$ D[N ! 9VITATION TO ! DANCE1 JU/ AS ,Y>O/AN HAD DONE AT FIR/4 ,I DIDN'T PRESS HIM2 ,I WANT$ HIS ANSW] TO MY PROPOSAL4 ,:AT HE TOLD ME WAS ?AT ( ALL ! WOM5 HE KNEW1 ,I WAS ! ONLY ONE HE C\LD IMAG9E M>RY+4 ,!N HE BECAME FRI<TFULLY QUIET4 ,IT WAS LATE & ,I WANT$ TO SP5D ! NI<T 9 HIS ROOM1 BUT ,I WAS AFRAID TO ASK HIM4 ,:5 ,I F9ALLY LEFT1 HE ACCOMPANI$ ME TO ! /REET TELEPHONE :ILE ,I CALL$ = A TAXI4 ,I RODE HOME FEEL+ COMPLETELY REJECT$4 ,I DIDN'T C>E IF ,MIRNA BR\<T HIM TO ! DANCE OR EV5 IF %E =NICAT$ ) HIM ON ! DANCE FLOOR4 ,I DECID$ TO BECOME ,LUISA = Y\1 ,Y>O/AN4 ,YE/]DAY MORN+ ,I MADE SURE Y\ HADN'T *ANG$ Y\R M9D AB\T GO+ TO ! DANCE ) ME4 ,:5 ,I'D FIR/ 9VIT$ Y\1 ,I ONLY HAD DANC+ 9 M9D4 ,BUT YE/]DAY MORN+ ,I HAD AN ALTOGE!R DIFF]5T DANCE 9 M9D3 ,Y>A'S DEVIL DANCE4 ,I WOKE ,Y>A & ,MIRNA & TOLD !M ,I WAS READY TO PLAY !IR GAME1 ,I WAS ?R\< ) ,TITUS1 ,I WAS 9 LOVE ) Y\4 ,I ALSO TOLD ,MIRNA ?AT ,I WAS 9SULT$ BY ! FACT ?AT %E WASN'T ! SLI<TE/ BIT AFRAID ( ME4 ,Y>A EXPLA9$3 ',( C\RSE %E'S AFRAID ( Y\6 ,?AT'S ! PO9T ( ! GAME6 ,BUT H] FE> ISN'T P>T ( Y\R ROLE4' ,IT WAS GO+ TO BE ! FIR/ TIME 9 MY LIFE ?AT ,I REA*$ \T = SOMEONE4 ,BUT AS SOON AS WE >RIV$ ,ZD5EK TOLD US ,MIRNA HAD TRI$ TO 9VITE ,TITUS4 ,MIRNA1 IF Y\ HAD COME TO ! DANCE ) HIM1 ,I W\LD HAVE BEGG$ ,Y>O/AN TO TAKE ME TO ! 5D ( ! WORLD4 ,BUT HE DIDN'T COME1 & ,I FELT 9CREAS+LY SORRY = HIM40 

0,MAYBE HE ACT$ SO /RANGE BECAUSE HE FELT GUILTY AB\T MAK+ Y\ RIDE HOME BY TAXI10 ,Y>A SAYS4 

0,DID HE ACT /RANGE :5 Y\ SAW HIM80 ,JASNA ASKS4 ,WE'VE REA*$ ,JASNA'S /REET & WALK T[>D H] H\SE4 

,Y>A N>RATES1 0,AFT] WE LEFT Y\R H\SE WE TOOK ,ZD5EK HIS CO/UME & MADE HIM LOOK JU/ LIKE ! PHOTOGRAPH ( GR&FA!R4 ,ZD5EK & ,MR4 ,ZABRAN LIVE 9 ! SAME NEI<BORHOOD1 & ,MIRNA WANT$ ,MR4 ,ZABRAN AT ! DANCE2 %E WANT$ EV]YONE %E'D EV] PLAY$ LOVE GAMES )4 ,%E ALSO WANT$ TO SEE IF ,MR4 ,ZABRAN W\LD ?9K ,ZD5EK LOOK$ LIKE GR&FA!R & IF ,I LOOK$ LIKE ,SAB9A4 ,:5 HE ANSW]$ HIS DOOR HE JU/ /OOD 9 HIS DOORWAY & TURN$ PALE1 AS IF HE W]E LOOK+ AT <O/S4 ,= A LONG TIME HE JU/ />$ AT ,ZD5EK2 !N HE LOOK$ AT ,MIRNA & ME AS IF HE'D NEV] SE5 US BE=E4 ,MIRNA ASK$ ,MR4 ,ZABRAN IF HE RECOGNIZ$ ,ZD5EK4 ',HE'S MY FA!R1' %E TOLD HIM4 ,HE LOOK$ LIKE HE WAS GO+ TO SLAM ! DOOR 9 \R FACES4 ',:AT DO Y\ WANT8' HE ASK$ US4 ,I WAS SC>$4 ,MIRNA /OPP$ SMIL+4 ,%E EXPLA9$ TO HIM ?AT WE W]E ON \R WAY TO ! DANCE AT H] PLANT & ASK$ IF HE WANT$ TO COME4 ,HE TOLD US Y\ HAD ALREADY 9VIT$ HIM1 & !N HE CLOS$ ! DOOR6 ,IT WAS ONLY AFT]W>DS ?AT ,ZD5EK TOLD US HE & ,MR4 ,ZABRAN KNEW EA* O!R40 

,WE'VE REA*$ ,JASNA'S H\SE4 0,Y\'RE SO MEAN10 ,JASNA SAYS TO ,MIRNA4 0,H[ DID Y\ ?9K HE'D RESPOND IF HE'D ?\<T ,ZD5EK WAS Y\R FA!R8 ,HE'S KN[N Y\R FA!R HAS BE5 DEAD = T5 YE>S6 ,DID Y\ EXPECT HIM TO %AKE ! <O/'S H& & 9VITE HIM 98 ,I D\BT IF ANYONE EV] PLAY$ A PRANK ON HIM BE=E4 ,POOR MAN60 ,JASNA LEAVES US & GOES 9TO H] H\SE4 

,ON \R WAY HOME ,I ASK ,Y>A IF ,ZD5EK TOLD !M :5 HE HAD KN[N ,TITUS4 

0,ZD5EK ALMO/ DIDN'T TELL US10 ,Y>A SAYS4 0,HE WAS ANGRY AT ,MIRNA & ME = ! SAME REASON ,JASNA IS4 ,HE TOLD US WE PLAY$ ) PEOPLE'S FE>S AS 9NOC5TLY AS *ILDR5 SET FIRES4 ,!N HE ASK$ ,MIRNA H[ %E F\ND \T ,MR4 ,ZABRAN & ,ZD5EK HAD ONCE SUSPECT$ EA* O!R ( HAV+ DONE SOME?+ T]RIBLE4 ,MIRNA TOLD ,ZD5EK HE WAS ! ONE PLAY+ ) FE>S4 ,%E TOLD HIM ,MR4 ,ZABRAN HAD WORK$ ) Y\ & ,JAN & ,JASNA 9 ! C>TON PLANT1 HAD HELP$ H] FA!R AS WELL AS H] MO!R1 & EV5 ?AT %E HAD ONCE LOV$ HIM4 ,I ADD$ ?AT HE WAS ! MAN :O HAD TAK5 ,VESNA TO ! HOSPITAL4 ,?AT WAS :5 ,ZD5EK TOLD US WE HAD PROBABLY FRI<T5$ ! MAN TO DEA? BY 9TRODUC+ ,ZD5EK AS ,MIRNA'S FA!R2 HE TOLD US HE & ,MR4 ,ZABRAN KNEW EA* O!R4 ,!Y HAD KN[N EA* O!R YE>S AGO :5 !Y BO? WORK$ 9 ! TRADE UNION BUILD+4 ,!Y US$ TO JOKE TOGE!R AB\T ! EMP]OR & HIS BODYGU>D4 ,SUDD5LY ,ZD5EK WAS >RE/$1 & HE WAS SURE IT WAS ! FAULT ( ! P]SON ) :OM HE HAD JOK$ SO FREELY4 ,BUT !N HE SAW HIM 9 PRISON2 ?AT WAS DUR+ ! TIME :5 Y\ W]E 9 PRISON = ! FIR/ TIME4 ,ZD5EK FELT T]RIBLE AB\T HIS SUSPICIONS2 HE KNEW ,MR4 ,ZABRAN MU/ HAVE HAD ID5TICAL SUSPICIONS AB\T ,ZD5EK4 ,& !N !Y SAW EA* O!R YE>S LAT]1 AT ! CLUB :]E =M] PRISON]S MEET --0 

0,TITUS ATT5D$ A MEET+ ( ! PRISON]S' CLUB80 ,I ASK )1 SURPRISE4 

0,ZD5EK SAID ONE TIME HE SAW BO? ( Y\ AT ! SAME MEET+1 BUT Y\ & ,MR4 ,ZABRAN DIDN'T SEE EA* O!R4 ,& !N ,ZD5EK ASK$ US H[ WE ?\<T ,MR4 ,ZABRAN MU/ HAVE FELT :5 ,MIRNA ,9TRODUC$ ,ZD5EK AS H] FA!R4 ,HE MADE US BO? FEEL BAD ALL ! WAY TO ! DANCE1 BUT WE =GOT ALL AB\T IT AS SOON AS ! DANCE BEGAN40 

,:5 WE REA* \R H\SE1 ,Y>A GOES DIRECTLY TO B$1 EXHAU/$ BY ! DAY'S EV5TS4 ,BUT ,MIRNA IS WIDE AWAKE4 ,I ASK H] :Y %E WANT$ TO 9VITE ,TITUS = ,JASNA4 0,SURELY ?AT'S 9SULT+1 ESPECIALLY AFT] ,JASNA H]SELF TRI$ TO 9VITE HIM4 ,& :Y DID Y\ TAUNT ,JASNA BY TELL+ H] Y\ ?REW Y\RSELF AT ,TITUS80 

0,I WASN'T 9VIT+ ,TITUS = ,JASNA BUT = MYSELF10 %E TELLS ME1 AS %E'D E>LI] TOLD ,JASNA4 0,I WANT$ TO COMPLETE MY TRAM1 MY CA/ ( *>ACT]S1 MY LIFE'S LOV]S2 ,I WANT$ MY FA!R1 MY BRO!R1 MY HUSB&1 MY DEVIL & MY FRI5D4 ,& ,I WASN'T TAUNT+ ,JASNA60 

0,:AT W]E Y\ DO+ !N80 

0,I WAS TELL+ H] ! TRU?1 ,Y>O/AN1 & ,I'VE TOLD IT TO Y\ SEV]AL TIMES ALREADY4 ,DO ,I HAVE TO DESCRIBE ! VIVID DETAILS TO Y\8 ,IT HAPP5$ ?REE YE>S BE=E Y\R RELEASE --0 

0,MIRNA1 ,I'M ASK+ AB\T ,JASNA2 ,I DON'T WANT Y\ TO TELL ME :AT Y\ DID DUR+ ! TWELVE YE>S ,I SP5T 9 PRISON4 ,Y\ HAD EV]Y RI<T TO DO :ATEV] Y\ PLEAS$4 ,I EV5 ASK$ Y\ TO DIVORCE ME SO ?AT Y\'D FEEL FREE TO DO :ATEV] --0 

0,?AT WAS PRECISELY :AT PROVOK$ ME6 ,JAN HAD DISAPPE>$2 MY FA!R WAS DEAD2 MY MO!R WAS \T ( H] M9D4 ,Y\ W]E ALL ,I HAD LEFT4 ,& Y\ HAD ! N]VE TO S5D ,TITUS ON ?AT MISSION --0 

0,AT ?AT TIME ,I ?\<T ,I'D NEV] COME \T AGA91 ,MIRNA2 ,I ?\<T ?AT IF Y\ REMA9$ TI$ TO ME1 Y\ MI<T AS WELL HAVE BE5 TAIL$ ) ME4 ,:AT K9D ( A LIFE WAS ?AT = Y\8 ,BUT Y\ PAID NO ATT5TION TO ME4 ,I ?\<T Y\ MI<T PAY MORE ATT5TION TO ,TITUS2 ,JASNA IS RI<T2 HE'S SU* A REASONABLE MAN1 & HE'S ALWAYS BE5 SO GOOD TO US40 

0,YES1 ,JASNA IS RI<T10 ,MIRNA SAYS4 0,TITUS C]TA9LY WAS A GOOD MAN4 ,IT WAS PRECISELY HIS GOODNESS ?AT KILL$ ,VESNA60 

0,>E WE BACK TO --0 

0,NO1 ,Y>O/AN1 WE'RE NOT BACK TO ,VESNA4 ,WE'RE TALK+ AB\T MY PASSION = ,TITUS ,ZABRAN1 ! GOOD ,MR4 ,ZABRAN4 ,IT SO HAPP5S ?AT ,VESNA HAD P]SONAL CONTACT ) ?AT PASSION4 ,?AT WAS :5 ,VESNA FIR/ EXHIBIT$ ?AT SO-CALL$ ILLNESS ( :I* %E DI$40 

0,I DON'T UND]/& --0 

0,I DON'T EI!R10 %E TELLS ME4 0,I ONLY KN[ :AT HAPP5$4 ,I KNEW TWELVE YE>S AGO1 AT ! TIME ( ! ,MAG>NA UPRIS+1 ?AT TWO ( ! PEOPLE 9 MY LIFE HAD A GREAT DEAL 9 COMMON3 MY MO!R & ,TITUS ,ZABRAN4 ,!Y BO? GAVE !IR LIVES TO SOME?+ HI<]1 TO ,GOD1 ONLY NO ONE ELSE C\LD SEE ?AT AB\T ,TITUS BECAUSE HE DIDN'T CALL IT ,GOD4 ,:5 ! ,MAG>NA WORK]S F\<T AGA9/ TANKS 9 ! /REET1 ,I KNEW & ,JAN KNEW ?AT !Y W]E FI<T+ = !MSELVES1 = A WORLD 9 :I* !Y C\LD FULFILL !IR DREAMS & SATISFY !IR DESIRES2 TO ME !Y W]E FI<T+ ALONGSIDE ! DEVIL4 ,BUT ,TITUS ?\<T !Y W]E FI<T+ = SOME?+ ELSE1 SOME?+ \TSIDE !MSELVES2 = ,GOD1 & Y\ /OOD SOME:]E BETWE5 ,TITUS & ME4 ,BUT :5 ! TANKS SLAU<T]$ ! ,MAG>NA WORK]S & !Y HAD TO BE BURI$ 9 MASS GRAVES1 & :5 Y\ & ,JAN DISAPPE>$1 ,I WAS A%AM$ & ,I FELT GUILTY4 ,I ?\<T ! DEVIL HAD BETRAY$ US4 ,I WAS A%AM$ ( MY PASSION1 MY SELFI%NESS4 ,& ( C\RSE MY MO!R MADE ! MO/ ( MY %AME4 ,%E EV5 TRI$ TO TAKE ,VESNA AWAY FROM ME4 ,& ,I CONV9C$ MYSELF %E WAS RI<T4 ,I LOOK$ FRANTICALLY = ,TITUS1 NOT AS A FRI5D1 NOT AS SOMEONE ,I C\LD LOVE1 BUT AS SOMEONE :O W\LD HELP ME F9D Y\ & ,JAN4 ,I LEFT A MESSAGE = HIM AT ! UNION BUILD+4 ,:5 HE CAME ,I TOLD HIM Y\ HAD BO? DISAPPE>$ & MY FA!R HAD BE5 FIR$ FROM HIS JOB BECAUSE ( A LETT] ?AT HAD COME FROM ABROAD :I* !Y NEV] RECEIV$4 ,HE WAS FURI\S AB\T ! >RE/S2 HE TOLD ME PEOPLE C\LDN'T BE >RE/$ BECAUSE ( A LETT] !Y HADN'T EV5 READ4 ,HE EV5 W5T TO ! POLICE TO >GUE ) !M4 ,HE HELP$ MY FA!R GET A P5SION FROM ! UNION1 & HE HELP$ ME GET A PASS TO VISIT Y\4 ,& ?AT WAS ALL ,TITUS WAS TO ME1 ?AT WAS ALL ANYONE WAS TO ME3 SOMEONE :O HELP$ ) P5SIONS & PASSES4 ,EXCEPT Y\4 ,MY FA!R'S DEA? KEPT ME FROM US+ MY PASS DUR+ ! P]IOD /AMP$ ON IT4 ,:5 ,I W5T TO ! UNION BUILD+ AGA91 ,I LE>N$ ?AT SOME?+ HAD HAPP5$ TO ,TITUS1 BUT !Y W\LDN'T TELL ME :AT4 ,I MANAG$ TO GET HIS ADDRESS4 ,I F\ND HIS ROOM4 ,ONE ( HIS NEI<BORS TOLD ME HE'D BE5 >RE/$4 ,HIS NEI<BOR REF]R$ TO ,TITUS ! SAME WAY ,JASNA JU/ DID3 SU* A QUIET1 MODE/ MAN1 K9D TO *ILDR51 ) NO H>M 9 HIM2 POOR MAN4 ,I HAD NO ONE LEFT 9 ! WORLD1 & ,I ?\<T MY MO!R HAD BE5 RI<T4 ,I HAD SACRIFIC$ EV]YONE ,I LOV$ TO ! DEVIL -- TO MY PASSION1 IF Y\ PREF] ?AT WORD1 ,TITUS' VISIT AFT] HIS RELEASE WAS LIKE ! BEG9N+ ( SPR+4 ,HE BECAME EV]Y?+ TO ME2 ,JAN1 Y\1 MY FA!R4 ,VESNA WAS SIX & /ILL HADN'T />T$ S*OOL4 ,MY MO!R WAS A %\T+ 9VALID :O WAS TURN+ ,VESNA AGA9/ ME4 ,! SEQU5CE ( TRAG$IES C\LDN'T GO ON4 ,I ?REW MY >MS >\ND HIM HUNGRILY AS SOON AS HE WALK$ 94 ,BUT HE BACK$ AWAY FROM ME4 ,VESNA WAS LOOK+ AT ME1 &4 ,I FELT A%AM$1 HORRIBLY A%AM$ BE=E BO? ( !M4 ,FROM ?AT DAY ON1 ,VESNA GREW AS ATTA*$ TO ,TITUS AS TO MY MO!R4 ,%E WOR%IP$ ! GOOD MAN1 %E HAT$ ME1 & %E FE>$ Y\4 ,POOR ,VESNA DIDN'T HAVE ANY REASON TO FEEL ANY O!R WAY T[>D US4 ,FROM ! TIME %E WAS ABLE TO WALK1 %E'D HAD NO?+ 9 H] LIFE BUT *ORES4 ,%E NURS$ ,Y>A2 %E M9I/]$ TO ! SICK OLD WOMAN2 %E B\<T ! GROC]IES & COOK$ MO/ ( ! MEALS4 ,%E WAS SU* A FRAIL ?+1 %E SIMPLY C\LDN'T DO ALL ?AT4 ,ONE DAY %E COLLAPS$4 ,I DIDN'T KN[ :AT TO DO2 ,I HAD NEV] HAD ANY?+ TO DO ) DOCTORS4 ,I TOOK A BUS TO ,TITUS'4 ,HE CONTACT$ A DOCTOR & BR\<T HIM TO ! H\SE4 ,! DOCTOR SAID ,VESNA HAD A SLI<T HE>T MURMUR1 & SAID %E HAD TO RE/ ALL ! TIME4 ,TITUS CAME TO VISIT ,VESNA EV]Y DAY = A WEEK4 ,!Y LIK$ EA* O!R & !Y W]E JU/ LIKE EA* O!R4 ,VESNA GOT WELL 9 A WEEK2 ,I WASN'T ABLE TO =CE H] TO SP5D H] DAYS RE/+4 ,IT WAS TO SAVE ,VESNA ! /RA9 ( C>RY+ A PACKAGE TO Y\ ?AT ,I ASK$ ,TITUS TO VISIT Y\4 ,& ?AT WAS :5 Y\ S5T ,TITUS TO ME ) ?AT MISSION --0 

0,MIRNA1 EV]Y?+ Y\'RE TELL+ ME CONV9CES ME ?AT Y\R LOYALTY TO ME1 OR :ATEV] Y\'D LIKE TO CALL IT1 LOCK$ Y\ 9TO A PRISON MANY TIMES WORSE ?AN ! ONE ,I WAS 9 --0 

0,?AT'S EXACTLY :AT ,I'M TRY+ TO TELL Y\10 %E SNAPS4 0,Y\ S5T ,TITUS ON ?AT MISSION BECAUSE Y\ WANT$ TO ESCAPE FROM ?AT WORSE PRISON4 ,Y\ DIDN'T WANT TO %>E MY LOAD4 ,Y\ W]E WRONG6 ,HALF ?AT LOAD WAS Y\RS4 ,IF ! DEVIL WAS RESPONSIBLE = :AT HAD HAPP5$1 IF MY SELFI%NESS1 GRE$1 DESIRE HAD BR\<T IT ALL AB\T1 IT WAS Y\ & NOT ,TITUS :O HAD %>$ ?AT DESIRE ) ME4 ,I WAS FURI\S -- AT Y\1 NOT AT ,TITUS4 ,I KNEW EV]Y ONE ( HIS WORDS CAME FROM Y\4 ,HE TOLD ME ,I WAS /ILL Y\NG & 5]GETIC2 ) A LITTLE C>E ,I C\LD /ILL BE BEAUTIFUL4 ,HE ASK$ ME IF ,I HAD EV] ?\<T ( DIVORC+ Y\4 ,I BECAME HY/]ICAL4 ,I ASK$ HIM IF Y\ HAD TOLD HIM TO ASK ME ?AT1 OR IF HE KNEW Y\ W]E GO+ TO DISAPPE> LIKE ,JAN HAD1 IF !Y HAD TAK5 Y\ FROM ME =EV]4 ,VESNA BEGG$ ME NOT TO SCREAM AT ,TITUS1 S9CE IT WASN'T HE :O HAD TAK5 BO? ( Y\ FROM ME4 ,TITUS PICK$ ,VESNA UP ) TE>S 9 HIS EYES4 ,HE TOLD ME HE WASN'T ASK+ = Y\ BUT = HIMSELF2 HE SAID HE WAS FOND ( ,VESNA & ( ME2 HE SAID ,VESNA1 ,Y>A & ,I DES]V$ MORE ?AN ! MIS]ABLE DRUDG]Y WE LIV$ DAILY2 HE SAID HE HAD HOP$ ,I W\LD LET HIM HELP US4 ,!N HE LEFT4 ,I KNEW HE WASN'T SPEAK+ = HIMSELF4 ,I KNEW Y\ HAD CONV9C$ HIM ,I C\LDN'T FUNCTION AS A 'CONSCI\S & COMBATIVE PROLET>IAN' BECAUSE ( ! *A9 >\ND MY NECK4 ,I KNEW HE WASN'T FOND ( ME1 BUT ( HIS PRECI\S PROLET>IAT4 ,BUT ,I WAS />V$ = LOVE1 & S9CE HIS FONDNESS CAME FROM Y\1 ,I CONV9C$ MYSELF ,I W\LD BE LOV+ Y\4 ,PASSION /IRR$ 9SIDE ME = ! FIR/ TIME S9CE ! ,MAG>NA RIS+4 ,IT CAME BECAUSE ,I ?\<T1 OR LET MYSELF IMAG9E1 ?AT ,I WAS DESIR$4 ,IT WAS ! PASSION ,I HAD LE>N$ FROM ,SAB9A1 ! DEVIL'S PASSION1 ! PASSION ,I !N ?\<T HAD DRIV5 MY FA!R1 MY BRO!R & Y\ TO HELL4 ,I WAS 9 A FR5ZY = TWO DAYS4 ,& ,I WAS HAPPY4 ,I TOOK 'A LITTLE C>E' & MADE MYSELF Y\NG AGA94 ,LITTLE ,Y>A NOTIC$2 %E SAID1 ',Y\ LOOK BEAUTIFUL MOMMY4' ,VESNA NOTIC$ TOO4 ,%E GREW FRI<T5$1 %E CRI$1 & %E /AY$ AWAY FROM ME4 ,%E SPOKE TO ME ONLY ONCE2 %E TOLD ME %E C\LD SEE ! DEVIL 9 ME1 JU/ AS H] GR&MO!R HAD TOLD H]4 ,%E'D HAD NO MORE JOY 9 H] LIFE ?AN MY MO!R1 & %E WANT$ TO KILL IT 9 ME JU/ AS MY MO!R DID4 ,TWO DAYS AFT] HIS VISIT1 ,I W5T TO HIS ROOM DIRECTLY FROM WORK1 SO AS TO AVOID ,VESNA'S REPROA*FUL1 FE>FUL EYES4 ,I HAD TO WAIT = HIM4 ,AS SOON AS HE UNLOCK$ ! DOOR1 ,I SLIPP$ 9TO HIS ROOM4 ,IT WAS B>E1 ) NO?+ BUT A COT1 A TABLE1 A FEW BOOKS & A *EAP RECORD PLAY]4 ,I ?REW MY >MS >\ND HIM4 ,I TOLD HIM1 ',I'M NOT ONLY FOND ( Y\1 ,TITUS2 ,I LOVE Y\2 ,I'M Y\RS4' ,I BEGG$ HIM TO TAKE ME4 ,BUT HE BACK$ AWAY FROM ME4 ,HIS FACE WAS T]ROR /RICK54 ,HE LOOK$ AT ME AS IF ,I W]E A NI<TM>E1 AS IF ,I W]E RE5ACT+ SOME HORRIBLE EV5T HE'D EXP]I5C$ 9 HIS PA/4 ,HE SAW ! DEVIL 9 ME1 ! SAME DEVIL ,VESNA HAD SE54 ,HIS FRI<T5$ EYES />$ AT MY =EHEAD AS IF ! WORD '9CE/' W]E /AMP$ ACROSS IT4 ,!N HE ADMITT$ Y\ HAD PUT HIM UP TO ! :OLE ?+1 Y\ HAD ASK$ HIM TO TALK TO ME AB\T DIVORCE1 Y\ HAD EV5 SUGGE/$ HE TRY TO REPAIR ! WA/$ Y\?1 ! WA/$ *ILDR54 ',BUT ,I HAVE NO?+ TO (F] Y\1' HE TOLD ME4 ,MY :OLE BODY A*$ ) %AME1 ) ! %AME ,I'D FELT :5 ,I'D EMBRAC$ HIM AFT] HIS RELEASE1 ) ! %AME ,I'D FELT :5 ,I'D DRAGG$ MYSELF TO MY MO!R'S H\SE AFT] Y\R >RE/4 ,I BECAME AFRAID ( :AT HE HAD SE5 9 ME2 ,I WAS AS T]RIFI$ AS HE :5 ,I BACK$ \T ( HIS ROOM4 ,I DRAGG$ MYSELF HOME1 SAT 9 ! KIT*5 & CRI$4 ,VESNA JO9$ ME & CRI$ ) ME4 ,%E /ROK$ MY HAIR1 KISS$ ME1 CONSOL$ ME4 ,%E HUGG$ ME & TOLD ME %E WAS GLAD ,I HADN'T DONE :AT ,I'D SET \T TO DO2 %E WAS GLAD ,I HAD *AS$ ! DEVIL \T ( ME4 ,%E NO LONG] HAT$ ME4 ,:5 ,I RETURN$ TO ! JOYLESS DRUDG]Y ,I BECAME ,VESNA'S BE/ FRI5D1 & ,I REMA9$ H] BE/ FRI5D UNTIL ,I LE>N$ ! DATE ( Y\R RELEASE4 ,! FIR/ TIME ,I TOLD ,VESNA AB\T Y\ ,I ?\<T ,I SAW A GLEAM 9 H] EYE1 A GLEAM ( ANTICIPATION1 ALMO/ JOY4 ,IT MU/ HAVE BE5 !RE1 S9CE ,Y>A SAW ,VESNA KISS H]SELF 9 ! MIRROR4 ,BUT ! JOY CONFLICT$ ) SOME?+ ELSE ?AT WAS ALREADY DEEPLY EMB$D$ 9 ,VESNA1 IT CONFLICT$ ) ?AT ,GOD MY MO!R HAD DRIV5 9TO H] HE>T4 ,%E WANT$ TO LOVE Y\1 BUT %E KNEW %E %\LDN'T1 BECAUSE LOVE IS ! DEVIL2 %E KILL$ H] LOVE = Y\ JU/ AS MY MO!R HAD KILL$ H] LOVE = ANYONE O!R ?AN H] WOOD5 ,LORD4 ,IT WAS ?AT ,LORD1 ?AT MORALITY1 ?AT S5SE ( DUTY OR :ATEV] ELSE PEOPLE WANT TO CALL IT1 ?AT KILL$ ,VESNA4 ,YES1 KILL$ H]4 ,BECAUSE ?AT FE>FUL ,VESNA WASN'T ! REAL ,VESNA4 ,I DIDN'T KN[ IT !N BUT ,Y>A KNEW4 ,! REAL ,VESNA1 ! :OLE1 NATURAL & NORMAL ,VESNA HAD PASSION 9SIDE H] JU/ AS WE DID4 ,%E'D BE5 TWI/$ 9TO SOME?+ UNNATURAL BY MY MO!R1 BY S*OOL1 BY ! LIVES WE L$4 ,%E ALMO/ CAME ) US ! DAY ,Y>A & ,I W5T TO TELL Y\ PRISON]S W\LD ACTUALLY BE RELEAS$ AT ! 5D ( !IR T]MS4 ,BUT %E HELD H]SELF BACK4 ,%E HAD BE5 TAU<T NOT TO TRAFFIC ) DEMONS1 C\NT]-REVOLUTION>IES OR SABOTEURS4 ,H] DESIRES CONFLICT$ ) H] MORAL DUTY4 ,Y>A'S B\NDLESS1 UNA%AM$ JOY ALMO/ 9FECT$ H]4 ,ALMO/4 ,BE=E ?AT VISIT1 ,Y>A & ,I PUT ON \R BE/ CLO!S2 WE FIX$ \R HAIR2 WE DIDN'T /OP SMIL+ AT EA* O!R4 ,! DEVIL LIT FIRES 9SIDE BO? ( US4 ,I KN[ WE 9FECT$ Y\ ) \R JOY4 ,:5 WE RETURN$ HOME MY %AME WAS GONE2 ,I BURN$ ) PASSION4 ,IT WAS ,I :O TAU<T ,Y>A TO PLAY H] LOVE GAMES ?AT V]Y AFT]NOON4 ,I TOLD H] ?AT :5 Y\ RETURN$ Y\'D MAKE LOVE TO ALL ?REE ( US4 ,I ?REW ,Y>A ,ON MY B$ & %[$ H] H[ Y\'D T\* US1 EMBRACE US1 HUG US1 EXACTLY AS ,SAB9A HAD ONCE %[N ME ,JAN W\LD EMBRACE ME4 ,Y>A HAD NO?+ BUT ! DEVIL 9SIDE H]4 ,%E SCREAM$ ) JOY4 ,NEI!R ( US SAW ,VESNA /&+ 9 ! DOORWAY4 ,:5 ,VESNA DEM&$ 9DIGNANTLY1 ',:AT >E Y\ TWO DO+8' %E S\ND$ JU/ LIKE MY MO!R :5 %E'D SE5 ,JAN & ME BE=E %E *AS$ HIM \T ( ! H\SE1 OR :5 %E LOOK$ 9 ON ,SAB9A & ME ! FIR/ TIME Y\ CAME TO \R H\SE4 ,I WAS FURI\S4 ,I WASN'T READY TO BE DRIV5 BACK TO JOYLESS DRUDG]Y1 NOT BY A LIV+ DAU<T] :O DIDN'T YET HAVE ! OLD WOMAN'S DRI$ UP FLE%4 ,Y>A & ,I BO? LEAP$ AT H] & PULL$ H] TO B$4 ,! DEVIL DROVE BO? ( US4 ,WE %[$ H] :AT H] FA!R W\LD DO TO H] AS SOON AS HE RETURN$4 ,WE BO? TURN$ H] & KISS$ H] LIPS & HUGG$ H] UNTIL ,I FELT A HORRIBLE P>ALYZES FL[+ ?R\< H] TREMBL+1 FREEZ+ BODY4 ,H] FACE WAS A MASK ( DEA?4 ,%E />$ LIKE AN IDIOT4 ,%E'D BECOME ! OLD WOMAN6 ,I WAS T]RIFI$4 ,ALL MY %AME RETURN$4 ,I TRI$ TO VOMIT ! DEVIL \T ( PIE1 BUT NO?+ CAME4 ,I PLEAD$ ) ,VESNA4 ,I1 %RIEK$4 ,Y>A %OOK ,VESNA & SCOLD$ H] = SPOIL+ \R HAPP9ESS4 ,BUT ! IDIOT'S MASK DIDN'T LEAVE ,VESNA'S FACE3 %E WAS P>ALYZ$4 ,I DIDN'T KN[ :AT TO DO & BECAME HY/]ICAL4 ,I HAD GONE TO ,TITUS :5 %E'D BE5 SICK BE=E1 BUT ,I C\LDN'T MAKE MYSELF GO TO HIM AGA94 ,I ASK$ ,Y>A TO GO TO HIM1 BUT %E 9SI/$ HE'D ONLY MAKE ,VESNA WORSE2 %E 9SI/$ ,VESNA WAS PLAY+ ) US4 ,I DIDN'T BELIEVE H]4 ,BUT :5 ,I TRI$ TO C>RY ,VESNA TO H] B$1 %E KICK$ ME & SCREAM$2 %E RAN TO ! OLD WOMAN'S ROOM1 LAY D[N NEXT TO H]1 & />$ AT ! CEIL+1 P>ALYZ$ AGA94 ,I KNEW ,Y>A WAS RI<T2 ,VESNA WAS PLAY+ ) US4 ,BUT I DIDN'T KN[ H[ TO PUT AN 5D TO H] GAME1 ,I DIDN'T KN[ H[ TO RECLAIM H] = Y\1 = ,Y>A & = ME4 ,I WASN'T /RONG 5\<4 ,MY MO!R & ,TITUS CLAIM$ H]2 EA* ( !M HAD RECOGNIZ$ ,VESNA AS ONE ( !IRS FROM ! MOM5T !Y'D SET EYES ON H]4 ,Y>A KNEW !Y W]E WRONG2 %E KNEW ,VESNA WAS \RS4 ,BUT ,I WASN'T SURE4 ,I TOO HAD BE5 TURN$ 9TO HALF AN IDIOT BY MY MO!R & BY ! DAILY DRUDG]Y4 ,I KNEW ,Y>A HAD TOLD ! S*OOL AU?ORITIES ?AT ,VESNA WAS SICK4 ,BUT AT ?AT TIME ,I DIDN'T KN[ ,JASNA HAD TOLD ,TITUS4 ,I C\LDN'T IMAG9E :AT HAD BR\<T ,TITUS TO \R H\SE2 ,I ?\<T ,GOD MU/ HAVE TOLD HIM HIS ,VESNA WAS SICK AGA94 ,I C\LDN'T TALK TO HIM4 ,I C\LDN'T EV5 LOOK AT HIM4 ,I WAS FILL$ ) %AME4 ,I LET ,Y>A DO ALL ! PROTE/+ & PLEAD+4 ,ONLY ONCE DID ,I BEG ,TITUS TO LEAVE H] :]E %E WAS4 ,HE CALL$ HIE A CRIM9AL = KEEP+ ,VESNA 9 B$ ) AN 9SANE OLD WOMAN4 ,A CRIM9AL4 ,MY MO!R HAD TOLD ME ,I C>RI$ ! DEVIL'S SWORD4 ,Y>A 9SI/$ %E KNEW H] [N SI/] & ! DOCTORS DIDN'T KN[ H]4 ,TITUS RIDICUL$ ,Y>A & ME = ACT+ AS IF ,Y>A KNEW MORE AB\T SICKNESS ?AN ! DOCTORS 9 ! HOSPITAL4 ,HE HAD AN AMBULANCE COME4 ,Y>A TRI$ TO /OP !M0 FROM T\*+ ,VESNA4 ,TWO NURSES HAD TO HOLD ,Y>A :ILE ,VESNA WAS C>RI$ AWAY3 ',MOMMY /OP !M6' %E SCREAM$ AT ME4 ',DON'T LET !M TAKE H]2 !Y'LL KILL \R ,VESNA6' ,! NEXT DAY & SEV]AL DAYS AFT] ?AT1 ,I DIDN'T GO TO WORK4 ,= ! FIR/ TIME S9CE ,I'D BE5 HIR$1 ,I ASK$ MYSELF :AT ALL ?AT WORK WAS =4 ,Y>A & ,I W5T TO ! HOSPITAL1 BUT !Y DIDN'T LET US PA/ ! FRONT DESK2 !Y TOLD US ,VESNA WAS 9 A COMA & 9 CRITICAL CONDITION4 ,WE BEGG$ !M TO LET US TAKE H] HOME ) US1 BUT !Y TREAT$ US LIKE DIRT & HAD US WAIT \TSIDE ! HOSPITAL1 EV5 :5 IT RA9$3 ,!Y W]E CIVIL TO US ONLY ON ! DAY !Y TOLD US1 ',Y\R DAU<T] DI$ AT #a3#b ?IS MORN+ 9 AN AMBULANCE DUR+ TRANSIT TO ! M5TAL HOSPITAL4'0 

,Y>A HAD ALREADY TOLD ME H[ \R ,VESNA HAD DI$1 BUT MY EYES FILL ) TE>S :5 ,MIRNA GIVES ME H] ACC\NT4 ,I NEV]!LESS MANAGE TO PROTE/1 0,Y\ CAN'T BLAME ,TITUS = :AT HE DID4 ,I W\LDN'T HAVE DONE ANY?+ DIFF]5T4 ,9 FACT1 :5 ,Y>A VISIT$ ME = ! LA/ TIME BE=E MY RELEASE1 ,I 9SI/$ JU/ AS RIGIDLY --0 

0,I KN[2 WE W]E ALL HALF-IDIOTS10 %E SAYS1 TAK+ MY H& & PULL+ ME T[>D \R B$ROOM4 ,!RE >5'T ANY TE>S 9 ,MIRNA'S EYES4 0,WE W]E ALL DE=M$ BY A WORLD ( DOCTORS1 POLICE & PRY+ OLD WOM54' ,Y>A WAS ! ONLY ONE :O KNEW ?AT BY KILL+ ! DEVIL 9SIDE US1 WE KILL$ \R SELVES1 & %E C\LDN'T HELP BUT KN[ BECAUSE !RE WAS NO?+ 9SIDE H] BUT ! DEVIL4 ,%E C\LDN'T HELP BUT KN[ ?AT ! DEVIL IS NOT ! ASSASS92 ?AT PASSION DOESN'T KILL1 ?AT ! SWORD ?AT KILLS ISN'T ! DEVIL'S BUT ,GOD'S4 ,GOD IS ! MURD]]4 ,:5 ,I HE>D ,Y>A TELL Y\ %E'D SE5 ,VESNA KISS+ H]SELF 9 ! MIRROR1 ,I KNEW MY %AME HAD BE5 BR\<T ON BY A LIE4 ,I KNEW IT WASN'T ! PASSION ?AT HAD KILL$ ,VESNA1 ,I KNEW IT HADN'T BE5 ! DEVIL :O HAD DRIV5 A SWORD ?R\< H]4 ,IT'S ONLY ?OSE :O D5Y ! DEVIL :O C>RY A SWORD6 ,VESNA HAD PASSION 9SIDE H] TOO1 & IT WASN'T ! PASSION ?AT KILL$ H]2 ?AT PASSION MADE H] NATURAL & HEAL?Y & BEAUTIFUL4 ,:AT KILL$ H] WAS ! D5IAL ( H] PASSION2 :AT KILL$ H] WAS ! ,GOD ?AT HAD BE5 DRIV5 9TO H] BY SA9TLY OLD WOM5 & GOOD1 MODE/ M54 ,?AT WAS :AT POSSESS$ H]1 :AT /OPP$ H] FROM GRATIFY+ H]SELF1 :AT FROZE H] ORGANS1 :AT KILL$ H] JOY1 :AT ROBB$ H] ( PLEASURE4 ,IT WAS ! GOODNESS1 ! %AME & ! GUILT1 ?AT POSSESS$ ,VESNA1 ?AT /RANGL$ :AT WAS 9 H]4 ,DO Y\ UND]/& :AT ,I'M TELL+ Y\80 

,I'M HALF ASLEEP4 ,I TRY TO REPEAT :AT %E'S SAY+ 9 MY [N WORDS4 0,Y>A CONV9C$ Y\ Y\R DESIRES W]E NATURAL1 :]EAS ! GUILT1 ! %AME1 ! D5IAL ( DESIRES W]E ALI5 TO Y\ & TO ,VESNA AS WELL4 ,I'M NOT SURE ,I AGREE --0 

0,I'M NOT TRY+ TO CONV9CE Y\4 ,I'M EXPLA9+ :Y ,I WANT$ ,TITUS TO COME TO ! DANCE4 ,I WANT$ HIM = MY SAKE1 NOT = ,JASNA'S4 ,Y>A & ,I BO? WANT$ TO SEE :AT EFFECT HE'D HAVE ON ME N[1 TO SEE IF MY ORGANS /ILL FILL UP ) %AME & GUILT -- ,I WANT$ TO KN[1 BECAUSE TOMORR[ WE'RE GO+ TO DECIDE :AT /EPS TO TAKE NEXT40 

,! FOLL[+ DAY1 LA/ ,FRIDAY1 ,MIRNA TOOK ,Y>A TO H] =M] FACTORY AT ! H\R :5 %E US$ TO GO TO WORK4 ,%E TOLD ME :AT 0NEXT /EPS0 !Y HAD DECID$ TO TAKE :5 ,I RETURN$ FROM ! C>TON PLANT ?AT NI<T4 ,! =M] WORK]S ( H] PLANT DECID$1 PROBABLY ON ,MIRNA'S SUGGE/ION1 TO TAKE A 0J\RNEY ACROSS ! C\NTRY10 TO TAKE BUS EXCURSIONS TO O!R PLANTS 9 O!R CITIES & REGIONS1 IF POSSIBLE TO O!R C\NTRIES4 ,! PURPOSE ( ! J\RNEY IS TO SEE :AT O!RS >E DO+ SO AS TO EXPLORE :AT CAN BE DONE4 ,MIRNA & ,Y>A EAG]LY 9VIT$ ME TO ACCOMPANY !M1 BUT ,I TURN$ D[N !IR 9VITATION4 ,A CONFRONTATION HAS JU/ TAK5 PLACE 9 ! C>TON PLANT2 IT'S ! TYPE ( CONFRONTATION ,I HAD BE5 LOOK+ =W>D TO4 

,AB\T TWO WEEKS AGO1 :5 ,JASNA HAD COME TO \R H\SE TO CELEBRATE ! /RIKE AT ,MIRNA'S PLANT & TO READ Y\R PREVI\S LETT]1 ,JASNA HAD SPECULAT$ AB\T ! POSSIBILITY ?AT ,M>C ,GLAVNI HAD CAUS$ \R >RE/ TWELVE YE>S AGO BY REPORT+ ! >RIVAL ( Y\R LETT] TO ! POLICE4 ,JASNA HAD ALSO TOLD US ?AT ,GLAVNI & ,V]A ,KR5A W]E GO+ TO HOLD A DEBATE OV] ! RADIO4 ,! SPEE* ,GLAVNI MADE DUR+ ?IS DEBATE WAS TAPE RECORD$ BY ,Y>A'S UNIV]SITY FRI5D & RE-BROADCA/ AT ! DANCE4 

,I HAD =GOTT5 AB\T ! COM+ DEBATE AS SOON AS ,JASNA HAD M5TION$ IT4 ,I DIDN'T ?9K ( IT AGA9 UNTIL LA/ ,MONDAY1 :5 ! RADIO ANN\NC$ ! TWO SPEAK]S1 LI/+ AS P>T ( !IR BACKGR\ND ! FACT ?AT !Y HAD BO? BE5 PRODUCTION WORK]S AT ! C>TON PLANT 0BE=E ! SEIZURE ( P[] BY ! WORK+ CLASS40 ,MY FELL[ WORK]S W]E DISAPPO9T+LY EAG] TO HE> A DEBATE BETWE5 TWO ( !IR PR$ECESSORS :O HAD RIS5 SO HI<4 ,SEV]AL MON?S AGO ! CITY'S MA9 RADIO /ATION HAD LAUN*$ A POLICY ( 0COMPLETE & OBJECTIVE 9=MATION0 :I* HAD A GREAT DEAL 9 COMMON ) Y\R FRI5D ,HU<'S 9SI/5CE ?AT 0TWO SIDES ( EV]Y QUE/ION0 BE PRES5T$4 ,DEBATES BETWE5 TWO BUREAUCRATS SEEM TO SATISFY ! RADIO /ATION'S NOTION ( 0OBJECTIVITY40 

,! TWO SPEE*ES HAD NOT ORIG9ALLY BE5 GIV5 AS P>T ( A DEBATE4 ,KR5A'S SPEE* WAS GIV5 TO AN IMM5SE GA!R+ ( WORK]S AT A L>GE FACTORY4 ,IT WAS ONE ( ! MO/ 0RADICAL0 SPEE*ES ,I'VE YET HE>D FROM ! M\? ( A BUREAUCRAT4 ,%E URG$ ! GA!R$ WORK]S TO TAKE MATT]S \T ( ! H&S ( BUREAUCRATS & 9TO !IR [N4 ,GLAVNI'S SPEE*1 :I* ,I SUMM>IZ$ E>LI]1 WAS ORIG9ALLY GIV5 9 A /UDIO ( ! RADIO /ATION1 & IT WAS NOT 9T5D$ AS A DIRECT ATTACK ON ,KR5A BUT AS A CRITIQUE ( 0C]TA9 COMRADES40 ,KR5A WAS C]TA9LY 9CLUD$ AMONG ?OSE 0C]TA9 COMRADES10 BUT ,GLAVNI ALSO 9CLUD$ MANY ( HIS [N E>LI] POSITIONS AMONG ! POSITIONS HE N[ OPPOS$4 ,AS ,I M5TION$ E>LI]1 HE URG$ WORK]S NOT TO ALL[ !MSELVES TO GO 0\T ( CONTROL0 & TO LEAVE MATT]S 9 ! H&S ( ! BUREAUCRATS4 

,JASNA & ,I HAD ATT5D$ A LECTURE GIV5 BY ,KR5A AB\T TWO MON?S AGO4 ,AT ?AT TIME ,V]A ,KR5A HAD SPOK5 AB\T 0LEAD]S APPLY+ POLICIES :I* WILL E>N !M !IR LEAD+ ROLES10 & HAD MADE /ATEM5TS LIKE 0,WE MU/ E>N \R AU?ORITY ?R\< \R ACTS40 ,! SPEE* ,I HE>D 9 ! C>TON PLANT 9DICAT$ ?AT ,GLAVNI IS NOT ALONE 9 HAV+ *ANG$ HIS M9D REC5TLY4 ,BUT ,V]A'S *ANGE ( M9D MOVES 9 ! OPPOSITE DIRECTION FROM ,GLAVNI'S4 

,9 ! SPEE* ,I HE>D LA/ ,MONDAY ,V]A NEGAT$ VIRTUALLY EV]Y?+ %E HAD SAID ON ! E>LI] OCCASION4 0,! EXECUTION ( ! POLICY WE DEF5D$ IS NO LONG] ! AFFAIR ( LEAD+ ORGANS1 BUT ( ! 5TIRE WORK+ POPULATION10 %E %\T$4 0,PEOPLE CANNOT BE ACTIVE 9 ANY SECTOR ( !IR LIVES -- NEI!R ON !IR JOBS NOR AT !IR PLANT MEET+S NOR 9 ANY ( !IR SOCIAL OR ECONOMIC RELATIONS -- IF !Y >E NOT POLITICALLY ACTIVE4 ,! WORK+ POPULATION CANNOT BE POLITICALLY ACTIVE IF IT DOES NOT DET]M9E ! CONT5T AS WELL AS ! =M ( ITS SOCIAL AS WELL AS ECONOMIC ACTIVITY4 ,?IS IS \R POLICY6 ,WE CONDEMN ! CURR5T POLICY ( C]TA9 COMRADES :O HAVE RETREAT$ 9CESSANTLY 9 ! FACE ( EXT]NAL PRESSURES40 7,V]A'S REF]5CE TO 0C]TA9 COMRADES0 IS PROBABLY :AT MADE ?IS SPEE* SUITABLE = A DEBATE ) ONE ( ?OSE C]TA9 COMRADES47 0,WE CONDEMN ! DELIB]ATE SUPPRESSION ( 9=MATION 9 RESPONSE TO EXT]NAL PRESSURES6 ,WE CONDEMN ! FACT ?AT POLICIES >E /ILL TODAY DEF9$ NOT BY ! CLE>LY EXPRESS$ WILL ( ! WORK+ POPULATION BUT BY A SELF-APPO9T$ BUREAUCRACY ?AT DOES NO?+ BUT TRANSMIT 9/RUCTIONS & ORD]S FROM ABROAD6 ,WE >E READY TO USE ALL ! MEANS AT \R DISPOSAL -- AT ! DISPOSAL ( ! 5TIRE WORK+ POPULATION -- TO PUT \R PROGRAM 9TO EFFECT4 ,WE WILL OPPOSE ! REPLACEM5T ( \R PROGRAM BY ALL ! WEAPONS AVAILABLE TO ! WORK+ CLASS1 9CLUD+ ! G5]AL /RIKE60 

,! WORK]S AT ! PLANT :]E ! SPEE* HAD BE5 GIV5 APPLAUD$ WILDLY1 AS DID MOI/ ( ! WORK]S AT ! C>TON PLANT4 ,I WAS SURPRIS$ ?AT ,GLAVNI'S 0LAW1 ORD] & DISCIPL9E0 SPEE*1 :I* FOLL[$ ,V]A'S1 ALSO RECEIV$ SOME APPLAUSE4 

,! SPEE*ES BY \R TWO 0=M] FELL[ WORK]S0 W]E ! MA9 TOPIC ( CONV]SATION AT ! C>TON PLANT DUR+ ! DAYS :5 ,MIRNA & ,Y>A MADE ! PREP>ATIONS = !IR DANCE4 ,AT LEA/ TWO 0/RIKES0 A DAY 7ONE-H\R LONG WORK /OPPAGES = MEET+S7 W]E CALL$1 USUALLY BY ONE ( ! (FICE WORK]S4 ,! WORK CREW AT ! PLANT N[ CONSI/S ( EI<TE5 PRODUCTION & ?IRTY-TWO (FICE WORK]S4 ,9 ! C\RSE ( ?OSE MEET+S1 ! C>TON PLANT WORK]S SPLIT 9TO TWO 0P>TIES10 BUT ! ALIGNM5TS 9 !SE P>TIES C\LD NOT EASILY BE EXPLA9$ 9 T]MS ( PEOPLE'S 0RELATION TO ! PRODUCTIVE =CES40 ,?IRTY ( ! (FICE WORK]S BECAME MILITANT SUPPORT]S ( ,V]A'S 0PROGRAM40 ,TWELVE ( ! EI<TE5 PRODUCTION WORK]S & ! REMA9+ TWO (FICE WORK]S W]E P>TISANS ( ,GLAVNI'S POSITION4 ,AT FIR/ ,I C\LDN'T UND]/& :Y ANYONE W\LD SUPPORT ,GLAVNI'S AU?ORIT>IAN1 BUREAUCRATIC /&1 BUT GRADUALLY ! REASONS BECAME OBVI\S TO ME4 ,! TWO (FICE WORK]S :O SUPPORT$ HIM >E BO? UNION (FICIALS = :OM ,GLAVNI IS ! DIRECT GATE = PROMOTIONS TO SUP]VISORY & MANAG]IAL PO/S4 ,AMONG ! PRODUCTION WORK]S :O SUPPORT$ HIM1 SOME ASPIRE TO FOLL[ ,GLAVNI'S [N PA? TO SUP]VISORY & MANAG]IAL POSITIONS2 O!RS1 LIKE ,MIRNA UNTIL V]Y REC5TLY1 >E 9TIMIDAT$1 ,I %\LD SAY SIL5C$1 BY ! PROSPECT ( TANKS1 >RE/S2 & MILIT>Y 9VASION4 

,SIX PRODUCTION ,WORK]S1 9CLUD+ MYSELF1 REMA9$ \TSIDE ( EI!R 0P>TY40 ,I ALSO KEPT \T ( ALL ! DISCUSSIONS4 ,IF ,V]A ,KR5A W]E M]ELY ANO!R MEMB] ( ! WORK+ POPULATION = :OM %E SPEAKS1 %E W\LD 9DE$ BE A POPUL> TRIBUNE EXPRESS+ :AT EV]YONE FEELS & WANTS4 ,BUT ,V]A IS NOT A POPUL> TRIBUNE4 ,%E'S A DEMAGOGUE4 ,%E'S EXPRESS+ :AT EV]YONE FEELS & WANTS NOT BECAUSE %E FEELS IT1 NOT BECAUSE %E'S ONE ( ! WORK+ POPULATION1 BUT BECAUSE %E & H] CLIQUE >E AIM+ TO BECOME ! P]MAN5T 9/ITUTIONAL 0VOICE0 & 0M9D0 ( ?AT WORK+ POPULATION4 ,V]A'S 0PROGRAM0 W\LD BE FULFILL$ IF RUL+ BUREAUCRATS JU/IFI$ !IR RULE AS ! FULFILLM5T ( ! WORK+ POPULATION'S ASPIRATIONS & DESIRES :ILE ?AT WORK+ POPULATION CONT9U$ TO 5GAGE DAILY 9 ! SAME JOYLESS DRUDG]Y4 

,AT FIR/ ! DISCUSSIONS ?AT TOOK PLACE AT ! DAILY 0/RIKES0 W]E >GUM5TS AB\T :E!R TO ,SIGN PETITIONS 9 FAVOR ( ,V]A'S CLIQUE1 OR TO DEMON/RATE 0AS WE DID TW5TY YE>S AGO10 US+ ! C>TON PLANT AS A S\RCE = PO/]S & PLAC>DS4 

,BUT GRADUALLY A NEW & MU* MORE 9T]E/+ ELEM5T APPE>$4 ,IRONICALLY1 IT WAS ONE ( ! WORK]S :O HAD SUPPORT$ ,GLAVNI'S SPEE* :O 9TRODUC$ ! 0NEW0 9TO ! DISCUSSIONS4 ,HE OBJECT$ TO PETITIONS AS WELL AS DEMON/RATIONS ) AN >GUM5T V]Y SIMIL> TO ?AT ( A WORK] Y\ HAD DESCRIB$ 9 AN E>LI] LETT]4 ,HE SAID PETITIONS & DEMON/RATIONS W\LD ONLY ATTRACT ! ATT5TION ( ! POLICE4 ,HE WAS NATURALLY CALL$ A C[>D BY O!R WORK]S1 ESPECIALLY BY ! (FICE WORK]S4 ,HE !N SAID ! PO9T WAS NOT TO MAKE A DISPLAY ( \R C\RAGE NOR TO BE >RE/$2 ! PO9T WAS TO *ANGE ! NATURE ( \R ACTIVITY4 ,HE SUGGE/$ SOME?+2 V]Y SIMIL> TO ,MIRNA'S 0EXCURSION10 ?\< ON A MU* MORE LIMIT$ SCALE4 ,WORK]S FROM ! C>TON PLANT %\LD DIRECTLY CONTACT WORK]S 9 O!R PLANTS 9 ! SAME SPH]E ( PRODUCTION & BEG9 TO EXPLORE WAYS ( TRANS=M+ \R ACTIVITY4 

,ALL ! ?IRTY (FICE WORK]S :O HAD 5?USIA/ICALLY SUPPORT$ ,V]A'S RADICAL SPEE* OPPOS$ ?IS WORK]'S SUGGE/IONS1 :]EAS F\RTE5 ( ! EI<TE5 PRODUCTION WORK]S1 9CLUD+ T5 SUPPORT]S ( ,GLAVNI'S DISCIPL9>IANISM1 SUPPORT$ ! SUGGE/IONS4 ,I M5TION ! NUMB]S BECAUSE ,I ?9K ! ALIGNM5TS >E REVEAL+4 ,! (FICE WORK]S KN[ ?AT ! TRANS=MATION 5VISAG$ BY ?IS WORK] WILL NOT 9CREASE ! IMPORTANCE ( !IR ROLES1 BUT WILL ON ! CONTR>Y ELIM9ATE ! NE$ = (FICE WORK]S4 ,BY REMA9+ /AUN* SUPPORT]S ( ,V]A ,KR5A !Y DEMON/RATE ?AT !Y UND]/& P]FECTLY ! REAL NATURE & CONT5T ( ,V]A'S 0RADICALISM40 

,UNLIKE ! (FICE WORK]S1 ! PRODUCTION WORK]S DIDN'T CALL = MEET+S & !Y DIDN'T >GUE 9 FAVOR ( ! NEW SUGGE/IONS4 ,AT MEET+S CALL$ BY (FICE WORK]S !Y CONT9U$ TO DEF5D ,GLAVNI'S CONS]VATIVE POSITIONS4 ,BUT 9 PRACTICE !Y />T$ TO IMPLEM5T1 NOT ,V]A ,KR5A'S REAL 9T5TIONS1 BUT :AT ,V]A HAD SAID3 !Y BEGAN TO TAKE MATT]S 9TO !IR [N H&S4 ,LA/ ,W$NESDAY1 ! DAY BE=E ,MIRNA'S DANCE1 AN 9=MAL 0DELEGATION0 ( C>TON PLANT WORK]S DECID$ TO VISIT ONE ( ! PAP] FACTORIES :I* PRODUCES SOME ( ! MAT]IALS WE USE4 ,I WANT$ TO ACCOMPANY ?IS 0DELEGATION0 BUT !Y DECID$ TO MAKE !IR VISIT ON ! DAY ( ! DANCE4 ,LA/ ,FRIDAY ALL ! C>TON PLANT'S PRODUCTION WORK]S GA!R$ >\ND ! F\R 0DELEGATES10 EAG] TO LE>N AB\T !IR VISIT4 ,!Y TOLD US ! MAJORITY ( ! WORK]S AT ! PAP] FACTORY HAD WELCOM$ !M ) OP5 >MS4 ,! PAP] WORK]S SAID !Y RECEIV$ 9/RUCTIONS & SPECIFICATIONS FROM SUP]VISORS & 5G9E]S & !Y NEV] UND]/OOD ! SIGNIFICANCE ( ! 9/RUCTIONS BECAUSE !Y HAD NO CONTACT ) ?OSE :O US$ ! PAP] !Y PRODUC$4 ,& F\R DAYS AGO4 ?IS PA/ ,MONDAY1 A SIMIL> 0DELEGATION0 ( PAP] WORK]S >RIV$ AT ! C>TON PLANT4 ,!Y TOLD US !Y HAD COME TO LE>N :AT WAS ACTUALLY REQUIR$ BY ! WORK]S :O PROCESS$1 !IR PAP] AT ! NEXT /AGE2 !Y WANT$ TO F9D \T H[ MANY ( ! 9/RUCTIONS & SPECIFICATIONS W]E NO?+ BUT IMPOSITIONS ( >BITR>Y AU?ORITY OR ACADEMIC RULES TAU<T TO 5G9E]S 9 UNIV]SITY C\RSES1 RULES :I* S]V$ NO PRACTICAL PURPOSE4 ,BE=E !Y LEFT1 !Y EAG]LY TOLD US ?AT DUR+ ! AFT]NOON'S DISCUSSION !Y HAD FIGUR$ \T SEV]AL WAYS TO SIMPLIFY PRODUCTION1 ELIM9ATE WA/E1 & DO ! REQUIR$ WORK AT A FRACTION ( ! TIME IT TAKES N[4 

,! C>TON PLANT WORK]S DECID$ TO CREATE MORE 9=MAL 0DELEGATIONS0 TO VISIT FOOD PACKAG+ PLANTS & O!R US]S ( C>TONS4 ,I PLAN TO TAKE SU* A TRIP TWO DAYS FROM N[4 ,?AT'S :Y ,I TURN$ D[N ,MIRNA'S 9VITATION TO ACCOMPANY H] ON ! 0EXPLORATORY J\RNEY40 

,MIRNA & ,Y>A HAD ALSO 9VIT$ ,ZD5EK TO ACCOMPANY !M ON !IR EXCURSION1 BUT HE TOLD !M HE C\LDN'T IMAG9E LEAV+ HIS PLANT = A :OLE WEEK1 N[ ?AT IT'S RUN 0BY ! WORK]S !MSELVES40 ,:5 WE HAD DISCUSS$ Y\R LETT] TWO WEEKS AGO & ,ZD5EK HAD DEF5D$ UNIONS AGA9/ Y\R ATTACKS1 ,MIRNA HAD *>ACT]IZ$ HIM AS 0CONS]VATIVE40 ,?AT *>ACT]IZATION CONFLICT$ ) MY ORIG9AL IMPRESSIONS ( ,ZD5EK4 ,:5 ,I FIR/ MET HIM 9 PRISON1 ,I WAS DEEPLY IMPRESS$ BY HIS DET]M9$ OPPOSITION TO ANYONE OR ANY?+ ?AT /OOD BETWE5 ! WORK]S & !IR WORLD4 ,I WAS ALSO DEEPLY IMPRESS$ BY ! /RIKE ?AT BROKE \T AT ,ZD5EK'S PLANT1 :5 ALL PO/S W]E OCCUPI$ BY ELECT$ WORK]S4 ,BUT ,I'M />T+ TO REALIZE ,I'M /ILL APPLY+ A /&>D ,I LE>N$ FROM ,LUISA ALMO/ A QU>T] ( A C5TURY AGO4 ,MIRNA IS APPLY+ A SIGNIFICANTLY DIFF]5T /&>D4 ,I DON'T KN[ IF %E LE>N$ IT FROM ,JAN OR IF %E R$ISCOV]$ IT ON H] [N1 BUT ,I DO KN[ ?AT H] ATTITUDES >E V]Y SIMIL> TO ,JAN'S4 ,! ONLY QUE/IONS %E ASKS >E3 ,IS IT = US1 ! LIV+8 ,IS IT = \R DESIRES1 \R PASSIONS1 \R DREAMS8 

,:5 ,I ASK MYSELF ,MIRNA'S QUE/IONS1 ,I LOSE HALF ( MY 5?USIASM = ,ZD5EK'S /RIKE1 & = MY [N PRES5T ACTIVITY AS WELL4 ,ZD5EK'S FELL[ WORK]S HAVE NOT APPROPRIAT$ ! WORLD AS A FIELD = POSSIBILITIES1 AS A FIELD = PROJECTS1 AS A NON-EXI/5T :I* IS TO BE CREAT$ BY US4 ,ZD5EK & HIS COMRADES REA*$ ,LUISA'S GOAL3 !Y CREAT$ A 0G5U9E WORK]S' UNION40 ,I DON'T AGREE ) Y\R FRI5D ,CLESEC'S SUGGE/ION ?AT NO?+ AT ALL *ANGES :5 ! WORK]S !MSELVES TAKE *>GE ( ! EXI/+ PRODUCTION APP>ATUS4 ,BUT ,I DO AGREE ?AT SU* AN ACT DOES NOT CREATE A NEW =M ( HUMAN ACTIVITY1 S9CE :AT IS APPROPRIAT$ IS PRECISELY ! OLD ACTIVITY1 ! EXI/+ WORLD4 ,& ?IS EXI/+ WORLD IS NOT A FIELD = ! REALIZATION ( PROJECTS1 BUT A NEGATION ( ! V]Y POSSIBILITY ( PROJECTS4 ,IT IS NOT ?IS ACTIVITY1 EV5 IF APPROPRIAT$ & MANAG$ BY US1 ?AT WE'RE GLIMPS+ ON ! HORIZON BECAUSE IT IS AT ! V]Y C5T] ( \R PRES5T LIVES4 ,IT IS :AT SURR\NDS US N[1 :AT WE 9H]IT$4 ,IT WASN'T PROJECT$ BY US BUT BY ! HI/ORY ( CAPITAL4 ,JAN KNEW ?AT WE C\LD NEV] APPROPRIATE ?IS ACTIVITY BECAUSE IT APPROPRIATES US4 ,MIRNA KN[S ?AT ,ZD5EK'S COMMITM5T IS NOT TO SATISFY HIS [N DESIRES1 BUT TO SATISFY ! NE$S ( ! PRODUCTIVE =CES4 ,= ,ZD5EK1 AS = ,LUISA1 ! REPRESSION ?AT WAS UNACCEPTABLE :5 MANAG]S & UNION REPRES5TATIVES W]E IMPOS$ FROM \TSIDE BECOMES ACCEPTABLE :5 WORK]S !MSELVES ASSUME ! ROLES ( MANAG]S & UNION REPRES5TATIVES4 ,ZD5EK HAS TOLD ME SEV]AL TIMES ?AT HE HAS WORK$-MU* H>D] & HAS BE5 F> MORE 0RESPONSIBLE0 AT HIS JOB S9CE ! /RIKE AT HIS PLANT TOOK PLACE4 ,ZD5EK'S DAILY ACTIVITY REMA9S DRUDG]Y2 IT ISN'T !RE ?AT HE EXPECTS TO SATISFY DESIRES OR REALIZE DREAMS2 ! DESIRES & DREAMS >E NOT P>T ( HIS 0WORK01 BUT P>T ( HIS 0POLITICS10 & HE 0REALIZES0 !M BY ATT5D+ MEET+S ( ! CLUB ( =M] POLITICAL PRISON]S4 

,I'M HAV+ A H>D TIME CONV9C+ MYSELF ?AT ,I TURN$ D[N ,MIRNA'S 9VITATION TO H] J\RNEY = BETT] REASONS ?AN ,ZD5EK'S4 ,AT ! C>TON PLANT WE'RE NO LONG] CREAT+ A 0G5U9E UNION0 SO AS TO REPLACE ! MANAG]S & =EM5 ) ELECT$ MANAG]S & =EM54 ,BUT WE /ILL OBS]VE LIMITS ?AT ! =M] WORK]S ( ,MIRNA'S PLANT NO LONG] OBS]VE2 WE'RE /ILL COMMITT$ TO A WORLD WE \RSELVES DID NOT CREATE1 A WORLD :I* WE 9H]IT$2 TO BORR[ Y\R IMAGE1 WE'RE /ILL /EPP+ 9TO A H\SE ?AT'S ALREADY COMPLETELY BUILT1 FURNI%$ & DECORAT$4 ,! DELEGATION ( PAP] WORK]S :O CAME TO ! C>TON PLANT ASK$ :AT WAS REQUIR$ AT ! NEXT /AGE ( ! PRODUCTION PROCESS2 !Y DID NOT ASK IF ?IS PRODUCTION PROCESS WAS REQUIR$4 ,! DELEGATIONS ?AT LEAVE FROM ! C>TON PLANT >E ASK+ :AT IS REQUIR$ ( US AT ! NEXT /AGE ( ! PROCESS2 !Y >E NOT ASK+ :E!R OR NOT C>TONS >E REQUIR$4 ,WE'RE NOT ASK+ ,MIRNA'S QUE/IONS4 ,WE MAY ULTIMATELY DESIRE C>TONS4 ,BUT :Y DO WE BEG9 ) ! DESIRE = C>TONS8 ,IS IT ! DESIRE = C>TONS ?AT'S BE5 REPRESS$ BY CAPITAL & ! /ATE8 ,IS IT ! DESIRE = C>TONS ?AT WE'RE /RUGGL+ TO SATISFY8 ,IS ?AT REALLY A PLACE TO BEG98 

,I ?9K ?AT MY ATTITUDE TO MY ACTIVITY IS SIMIL> TO ,SAB9A'S ATTITUDE TO H] ACTIVITY 9 ! FASC9AT+ RESE>* C5T] Y\ DESCRIB$4 ,I'M EXCIT$ AB\T :AT'S HAPP5+ 9 ! C>TON PLANT1 BUT ,I HAVE NUM]\S RES]VATIONS AB\T ITS SIGNIFICANCE1 ESPECIALLY :5 ,I COMP>E IT TO ,MIRNA'S PRES5T ACTIVITY4 ,! PURPOSE ( ,MIRNA'S EXCURSION IS TO MEET FELL[ HUMAN BE+S1 TO F9D \T :O !Y >E & :AT !Y DESIRE1 & ABOVE ALL TO LE>N TO COMMUNICATE ) !M AB\T ! PRES5T & AB\T ALL ! POSSIBLE FUTURES4 ,! PURPOSE ( ! 0DELEGATIONS0 SETT+ \T FROM ! C>TON PLANT IS MU* MORE LIMIT$4 ,!IR PURPOSE TOO IS TO MEET & COMMUNICATE ) FELL[ HUMAN BE+S1 BUT ONLY )9 ! REALM ( PAP] & C>TONS4 ,9 O!R WORDS1 WE'RE SEEK+ CONTACTS ) EA* O!R )9 ! WALL$-9 REALM WE'RE AT PRES5T LOCK$ 9TO1 )\T FIR/ DE/ROY+ ! WALLS ?AT SEP>ATE US FROM2 EA* O!R4 ,WE'RE NOT GO+ \T TO MEET HUMAN BE+S BUT PAP] PRODUC]S &4 C>TON US]S2 WE'RE TALK+ TO !M AB\T SPECIFICATIONS = SIMPLIFI$ PAP] & C>TON PRODUCTION BE=E LE>N+ :O !Y >E OR :AT !Y DESIRE4 ,WE'RE NOT LE>N+ TO COMMUNICATE AB\T \R DESIRES & POSSIBILITIES BECAUSE SU* COMMUNICATION HAS NEV] BE5 TRI$1 IT MAY BE SL[ & DIFFICULT TO BEG91 & WE LACK ! PATI5CE & ! TIME = ?AT BECAUSE \R TASKS >E F> TOO2 PRESS+1 ! C>TONS >E WAIT+1 WE'RE /ILL !IR S]VANTS4 

,I WAS FULL ( ADMIRATION = ,SAB9A1 ,TISSIE & ,T$ :5 ,I READ Y\R DESCRIPTION ( ! TE*NOLOGICAL 0TOYS0 TO :I* !Y'VE GIV5 !MSELVES ACCESS4 ,BUT ,I HAVE1! SAME RES]VATIONS AB\T ?OSE 0TOYS0 AS ,I HAVE AB\T ! DELEGATIONS LEAV+ ! C>TON PLANT4 ,IF ,I'M NOT ABLE TO COMMUNICATE ) ! PEOPLE :O PRES5TLY SURR\ND ME1 PEOPLE :OSE LANGUAGE & EXP]I5CES ,I %>E1 :Y W\LD ,I WANT TO FLY TO EV]Y CORN] ( ! GLOBE AT LI<TN+ SPE$8 ,W\LDN'T SU* ACTIVITY REMOVE US YET FUR!R FROM :AT Y\'VE DESCRIB$ AS Y\R LIFE'S GOAL3 COMMUNICATION ) \R CONTEMPOR>IES1 HUMAN COMMUNITY8 ,9 :AT S5SE W\LD MY EXP]I5CE 9 SU* A VEHICLE DIFF] FROM ! VEHICLE'S [N 0EXP]I5CE08 ,! PROSPECT ( A WORLD ( BE+S BUZZ+ ?R\< ! AIR AT LI<TN+ SPE$ FRI<T5S ME4 ,! FACT ?AT ! METEORS WON'T COLLIDE ) EA* O!R DOESN'T CONSOLE ME4 ,! R$UCTION ( HUMAN BE+S TO SELF-PROPELL$ CAPSULES1 ! R$UCTION ( ! WEAL? ( HUMAN QUALITIES TO ! TWO MO/ QUANTIFIABLE QUALITIES1 DIRECTION & SPE$1 /RIKES ME AS ! F9AL IMPOV]I%M5T ( ! SPECIES %ORT ( COMPLETE ANNIHILATION4 ,SAB9A H]SELF EXPRESS$ SOME RES]VATIONS TO Y\4 ,:AT ,SURPRISES ME IS ?AT %E EXPRESS$ !M SO HESITANTLY4 ,I F9D ?AT H] PRES5T ACTIVITY CONFLICTS IRRECONCILABLY ) H] [N GOALS4 ,:5 Y\ JO9$ H] 9 ! G>AGE T5 YE>S AGO %E TOLD Y\1 V]Y MU* 9 ! SPIRIT ( ,JAN & ,MIRNA1 ?AT H] AXIOMS W]E 0MY LIFE1 MY DESIRES1 MY CAPACITIES0 ,LIKE ,JAN & ,MIRNA %E F\<T = A WORLD :]E ! DEVELOPM5T ( !SE 0AXIOMS0 ,WAS POSSIBLE4 ,HAS %E R$UC$ H] LIFE'S AXIOMS TO ONE3 VELOCITY8 ,>E ! BUZZ+ ,VEHICLES A FULFILLM5T ( H] LIFE OR ITS ABSOLUTE NEGATION8 ,%E ,WANTS ,TISSIE ALONGSIDE H] :ILE %E 5GAGES 9 H] 0RESE>*02 %E EV5 BEGG$ Y\ TO /AY ) H]4 ,SAB9A ( ALL PEOPLE KN[S ?AT H] LIFE1 H] DESIRES1 H] CAPACITIES CANNOT DEVELOP \TSIDE A HUMAN WORLD1 A COMMUNITY ( HUMAN BE+S %E CAN TALK TO1 T\*1 EMBRACE1 LOVE4 ,YET %E'S 5?USIA/ICALLY DESIGN+ A PLA/IC >MOR ?AT W\LD SEP>ATE EA* FROM ALL4 ,! CONDITION ,SAB9A'S RESE>* IS HELP+ CREATE IS NOT A NEW HUMAN CONDITION4 ,9 PRISON IT'S KN[N AS SOLIT>Y CONF9EM5T4 ,IT'S ONE ( ! WOR/ =MS ( TORTURE4 

,I HAVE TO ADMIT ,I DON'T UND]/& ,SAB9A4 ,! FEW TIMES %E EXPRESS$ H] LIFE'S GOALS TO Y\1 %E S\ND$ LIKE ,JAN OR ,MIRNA4 ,YET H] PROJECT HAS NO?+ 9 COMMON ) !IRS3 IT HAS EV]Y?+ 9 COMMON ) ! LIFE PROJECT ( A P]SON %E SEEMS TO DESPISE3 ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS4 ,ISN'T IT ,ALB]TS' LIFE PROJECT ?AT %E'S C>RY+ ON1 DUR+ A TIME :5 0EV]Y?+ IS POSSIBLE0 ,:Y8 ,:AT ILLUSIONS DOES %E /ILL RETA9 AB\T ?AT PROJECT8 ,P]HAPS SEV]AL C5TURIES AGO IT WAS POSSIBLE TO ?9K ?AT 9DU/RIALIZATION W\LD CREATE AN 5VIRONM5T HOSPITABLE TO HUMAN LIFE1 TO ! REALIZATION ( HUMAN DESIRES1 TO ! DEVELOPM5T ( HUMAN CAPACITIES4 ,IT WAS POSSIBLE TO ?9K ?IS BE=E ! PROCESS BEGAN2 SU* A BELIEF WAS ILLUSORY AS SOON AS 9DU/RIALIZATION />T$4 ,HUMAN LIFE WAS IMM$IATELY IMPOV]I%$2 ! WEAL? ( HUMAN ACTIVITIES WAS R$UC$ TO ! ONE S+LE ACTIVITY3 WAGE LABOR1 OR ,MIRNA'S WORDS1 JOYLESS DRUDG]Y2 HUMAN DESIRES W]E SACRIFIC$ TO ! NE$S ( ! PRODUCTIVE APP>ATUS2 HUMAN CAPACITIES W]E BLOCK$1 /UNT$1 FROZ5 & EV5TUALLY REMOV$ FROM LIFE & RELEGAT$ TO ! REALM ( ,UTOPIAN DREAMS4 ,IS ,SAB9A'S PRES5T PROJECT :AT HAS TO BE BORN OR :AT HAS TO DIE8 ,SAB9A TOLD Y\ ! RUL+ ORD] SUPPRESS$ ! DEVELOPM5T ( H] PLA/IC VEHICLE4 ,MAYBE IT DID4 ,BUT DID ,SAB9A OPPOSE ?AT RUL+ ORD] BECAUSE IT SUPPRESS$ ! DEVELOPM5T ( PLA/IC VEHICLES8 ,JAN OPPOS$ ! RUL+ ORD] BECAUSE IT SUPPRESS$ US1 ! LIV+1 NOT BECAUSE IT SUPPRESS$ VEHICLES OR C>TONS1 OR EV5 BECAUSE IT KEPT 0! WORK]S !MSELVES0 FROM DEVELOP+ ! VEHICLES & C>TONS4 ,IT'S ALWAYS BE5 0! WORK]S !MSELVES0 :O DEVELOP$ ! VEHICLES & C>TONS6 ,!Y P\R$ !IR :OLE LIVES1 ALL !IR DESIRES & CAPACITIES1 9TO ! C>TONS & VEHICLES6 

,UND\BT$LY ,SAB9A1 LIKE ,ZD5EK & ,I1 W\LD HAVE BE5 F> TOO 9VOLV$ 9 PRESS+ TASKS TO ACCOMPANY ,MIRNA & ,Y>A ON !IR EXCURSION1 !IR ROAM+ ACROSS ! C\NTRY AS FREE AS BIRDS1 !IR VISITS TO O!R CITIES 9 :I* !Y EXPECT TO F9D ONLY FRI5DS4 ,!Y'RE NOT 9T]E/$ 9 FREE+ ! PRODUCTIVE =CES1 9 ELIM9AT+ FETT]S TO !IR DEVELOPM5T4 ,!Y'RE LOOK+ = HUMAN BE+S ELIM9AT+ FETT]S TO !IR [N DEVELOPM5T4 ,IF ,I W]E TO SUMM>IZE !IR 0GUID+ AXIOMS10 ,I C\LDN'T F9D BETT] WORDS ?AN3 0MY LIFE1 MY DESIRES1 MY CAPACITIES40 

,I DON'T WANT TO EXAGG]ATE ! LUCIDITY ( MY TWO COMRADES4 ,!Y CONV9C$ ,JASNA TO ACCOMPANY !M ON !IR TRIP4 ,BE=E !Y LEFT1 ,Y>A TOLD ME1 ) UNRES]V$ 5?USIASM1 ?AT %E C\LDN'T WAIT TO ASK ,JASNA MORE DETAILS AB\T ,V]A ,KR5A'S RELATIONS ) H] HUSB& & H] LOV]2 APP>5TLY ,TITUS REC5TLY TOLD ,JASNA ?+S %E HADN'T KN[N4 ,Y>A IS ON A QUE/ = A WORLD )\T BUREAUCRATS1 YET %E REMA9S FASC9AT$ BY ! PRIVATE LIVES ( ?OSE :OSE SOCIAL ACTIVITY /IFLES H] [N LIFE4 

,I EXPECT !M BACK 9 TWO OR ?REE DAYS4 ,Y>A IS RI<T3 ,I LOVE ALL ?REE ( !M4 ,I MISS !M T]RIBLY4 ,IF !Y 9T5D TO VISIT Y\R P>T ( ! WORLD ON !IR NEXT J\RNEY1 OR ON ! ONE AFT] ?AT1 ,I WON'T TURN D[N !IR 9VITATION4 ,I KN[ Y\ ONLY FROM Y\R LETT]S1 ,SOPHIA1 & ,I W\LD LIKE V]Y MU* TO SEE Y\1 TO TALK TO Y\1 TO HOLD Y\ 9 MY >MS4 ,IF Y\'RE /ILL ABLE TO SAY 0,I LOVE Y\1 ,Y>O/AN10 EV5 IF ONLY BECAUSE ?AT PHRASE HAS BECOME Y\R 0LIFE'S MOTTO10 !N ,I CAN NO LONG] KEEP MYSELF FROM FEEL+1 & SAY+1  
  

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