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,AU?OR 3 ,FR$Y ,P]LMAN 

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,Y\'LL NEV] GUESS :]E ,I AM4 ,\TSIDE !RE'S A G5]AL /RIKE4 ,EV]Y?+ IS \T ( COMMISSION4 ,LIT]ALLY EV]Y?+3 FACT ONES1 (FICES1 TRANSPORTATION VEHICLES1 EV5 TAXIS -- EV]Y?+ EXCEPT ! TELEPHONES1 & A RADIO /ATION ?AT'S BE5 TAK5 OV] BY ! POLICE4 ,I \<T TO BE 9 ! C\NCIL (FICE1 OR 9 ! RESE>* C5T] :]E ,TISSIE & ,SAB9A >E CONQU]+ ! :OLE UNIV]SE1 OR SOME:]E 9 ! MID/ ( ALL ! EXCITEM5T4 ,BUT ,I'M SITT+ AT MY DESK 9 ,LUISA'S H\SE1 WRIT+ Y\ ON ! ANCI5T TYPEWRIT] ,I 9H]IT$ FROM ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS :5 HE LEFT4 ,I'M SURPRIS$ IT /ILL WORKS2 IT'S ! MA*9E ON :I* ,I WAS GO+ TO TYPE UP MY NOVEL AB\T Y\ & ,RON ,MAT!WS AS SOON AS ,I ORGANIZ$ ALL MY NOTES4 ,LUISA CLEAN$ ! ROOM SO ?OR\<LY AFT] ,>T MOV$ \T ?AT !RE WAS NO TRACE ( ANYONE'S HAV+ BE5 H]E S9CE ,I LEFT = COLLEGE FIFTE5 YE>S AGO4 ,! WALLS >E ! SAME WALLS ,I />$ AT DAY AFT] DAY TW5TY YE>S AGO1 WOND]+ :Y ,I HAD BE5 SEP>AT$ FROM MY ,Y>O/AN & FROM ! ONLY FRI5DS ,I HAD 9 ! WORLD4 ,! B$ IS ! SAME B$ ,I %>$ ) ,RON = A :OLE WEEK AFT] ! NI<T :5 HIS FA!R ?REAT5$ TO %OOT BO? ( US -- ?AT HAPPY WEEK :I* 5D$ ) MY ?9K+ ,SAB9A HAD 0/OL50 ,RON FROM ME4 ,IT WAS ! ONLY HAPPY WEEK ,I SP5T 9 ?IS ROOM4 ,BE=E & AFT] ?AT WEEK ,I ONLY DREAM$ ( HAPP9ESS2 ,I SPUN ?AT :OLE UNIV]SE ( ILLUSIONS :I* Y\'VE F9ALLY SUCCE$$ 9 %ATT]+ COMPLETELY4 

0,I DIDN'T PRET5D ,SOPHIA WAS ANYONE ,I HAD EV] LOV$4 ,I ONLY US$ H]40 

,I'VE BE5 />+ AT ?OSE TWO S5T5CES ! WAY ,I ONCE />$ AT ! WALLS ( ?IS ROOM4 ,9 ONE ( MY LETT]S ,I TRI$ TO >GUE ?AT ! REALITY ON :I* ,I BAS$ MY DREAMS DIDN'T MATT]1 BECAUSE MY DREAMS ONLY DEF9$ :AT ,I S\<T1 NOT :AT ,I HAD ACTUALLY LIV$4 ,N[ ,I KN[ ,I WAS WRONG1 DEAD WRONG4 ,! REALITY DOES MATT] TO ME4 ,I GOT BO? Y\R LETT]S ?IS MORN+2 ,I READ !M 9 ! ORD] 9 :I* Y\ S5T !M1 & C\LD B>ELY READ ?R\< ! FIR/4 ,I FELT EMPTY & HIDE\S 9SIDE4 ,I HAD BAS$ MY :OLE LIFE1 MY DAILY ACTS AS WELL AS MY MO/ DI/ANT HOPES1 ON A TRAVE/Y4 ,Y\ HAD 0ONLY0 US$ ME6 ,?AT MATT]S TO ME4 ,IT MATT]S TO EV]Y N]VE 9 MY BRA9 & TO EV]Y ORGAN 9 MY BODY4 ,9 Y\R LAT] LETT]1 :I* ,I'VE JU/ READ1 Y\ TELL ME ?AT \R CORRESPOND5CE HAS BE5 IMPORTANT TO ALL ( Y\2 Y\ TELL ME ?AT ,MIRNA1 ,Y>A AS WELL AS ,JASNA HAVE BE5 /IMULAT$ BY SOME ( ! ?+S ,I'VE WRITT51 & EV5 ?AT !IR V]Y DECISIONS & ACTIONS HAVE 9 SOME WAY BE5 AFFECT$ BY ME4 ,:AT IF NONE ( :AT ,I'D WRITT5 W]E TRUE2 :AT IF ,I'D NEV] LEFT ?IS ROOM & HAD 9V5T$ 2EV]Y?+ ,I'VE N>RAT$8 ,W\LDN'T ?AT MATT] TO Y\1 TO ALL ( Y\8 

,I WAS 9 A RAGE :5 ,I READ Y\R 0CONFESSION10 & ,I SP5T ! 5TIRE DAY SQUEEZ+ MY ILLUSION \T ( MY BE+1 ACT+ )\T 0,Y>O/AN0 AT ! C5T] ( MY CONSCI\SNESS4 ,?ANKS TO MY RAGE1 AN H\R AGO ,I A*IEV$ SOME?+ ,I MI<T CALL MY 9DEP5D5CE4 ,= ONCE 9 MY LIFE ,I DIDN'T TRY TO LIVE UP TO MY 0C5TRAL EXP]I5CE40 ,I ACT$ ON MY 1 [N & = MYSELF4 ,I AB&ON$ MYSELF TO MY WILDE/ DESIRES & ,I DIDN'T TRY TO LIVE UP TO ANY?+ EXCEPT MY [N PASSION4 ,IF ,MIRNA HAD BE5 H]E %E W\LD HAVE LOV$ ME2 ,SAB9A W\LD HAVE TOO4 ,& CONTR>Y TO :AT ,MIRNA SUGGE/$ AB\T ,LUISA & ME1 ,I'M NOT RUNN+ FROM ! CONSEQU5CES4 ,I'M /AY+ RI<T H]E1 EAG] TO FACE EV]Y ONE ( ! CONSEQU5CES2 ,LUISA'S HO/ILITY1 ,DAMAN'S HATR$1 ,PAT ,CLESEC'S SUSPICION & EV5 FE>1 AS WELL AS MY [N NEWBORN1 9EXP]I5C$ & UNTRI$ 9DEP5D5CE4 

,:AT 5RAG$ ME EV5 MORE ?AN Y\R 0CONFESSION0 WAS ! FACT ?AT ,I RECOGNIZ$ MYSELF 9 Y\R DESCRIPTION4 ,?AT PASSIVE1 FRAGILE1 M9DLESS ?+ :O WAS P]FECTLY WILL+ TO DO 0:ATEV] PLEASES Y\1 ,Y>O/AN10 IS ! SAME P]SON :O REC5TLY BEGG$ EI<TE5-YE> OLD ,PAT ,CLESEC TO 0%[ ME :AT TO DO40 ,?AT ID5TICAL PO/URE1 AT ! BEG9N+ & 5D ( TWO DECADES ( EXP]I5CE1 WAS NOT A REFLECTION ( MY WEAKNESS1 ( A MOM5T ( DEP5D5CE 9 AN O!RWISE 9DEP5D5T P]SON4 ,?AT PO/URE 9DICAT$ ! DEP? & EXT5T ( MY4 9DEP5D5CE4 ,I MADE EA* ( ?OSE /ATEM5TS DUR+ A P]IOD :5 ,I HAD BROK5 \T ( PASSIVITY & JO9$ A COMMUNITY ( 9DEP5D5T 9DIVIDUALS4 ,Y\R =C+ ME TO RECOGNIZE ! LIES ,I'VE TOLD MYSELF = ! PA/ TW5TY YE>S 5RAG$ ME 9F9ITELY MORE ?AN Y\R ADMISSION ( Y\R DESIRE TO %ATT] A PORCELA9 /ATUE 9TO SPL9T]S4 

,ALL MY LIFE ,I'VE BE5 SURR\ND$ BY PEOPLE ,I CONSID]$ 9DEP5D5T1 PEOPLE :O W]E 9 SOME WAY REBELS4 ,I H>DLY KN[ :AT 0NORMAL10 SUBMISSIVE PEOPLE >E LIKE -- YET ,I'M ONE ( !M4 ,! REBEL ,NA*ALO WAS MY LIFE'S H]O1 BUT ,I NEV] REBELL$ AGA9/ HIM4 ,LUISA1 ! 9SURG5T UNIONI/1 WAS MY LIFE'S FIR/ MODEL1 BUT ,I NEV] TURN$ AGA9/ H]2 ,I LEFT H]4 ,! DAY ,T9A TOLD ,SAB9A & ME ?AT WE CRAMP$ H]1 ,I WAS HURT4 ,YET ,T9A DID :AT ,I'VE NEV] DONE3 %E REBELL$ AGA9/ H] 0P>5TS0 & TOOK ! 9DISP5SABLE /EP T[>D 9DEP5D5CE4 ,I TOOK AN EASI] R\TE4 ,A *ILD ( RADICAL P>5TS1 ,I WAS 9 ! PRIVILEG$ POSITION ( BE+ A REBEL BY BIR?2 ALL ,I HAD TO DO WAS CON=M TO MY P>5TS2 MY LIFE'S IDOLS & MY P>5TS NEV] CLA%$2 !Y W]E ! SAME4 ,SAB9A DIDN'T EV] REJECT H] MO!R EI!R4 ,BUT ,SAB9A R$ISCOV]$ ! S\RCE ( ,M>G>ITA'S REBELLION & MADE IT H] [N2 %E REACT$ TO ! WORLD ,M>G>ITA HAD REACT$ TO1 & H] RESPONSE WAS H] [N AU!NTIC RESPONSE TO ?AT WORLD4 ,I NEV] TRI$ TO R$ISCOV] ! S\RCE2 ,I ONLY TRI$ TO COPY MY MODELS' RESPONSES1 ,I TRI$ TO MAKE MY BEHAVIOR CON=M TO ,LUISA'S & ! MY?ICAL ,NA*ALO'S4 ,:AT WAS RADICAL TO ! WORLD AT L>GE WAS ! NORM TO ME4 ,?AT'S :Y Y\ & ,JASNA SAW SU* A NORMAL1 PRIM1 CORRECT Y\NG LADY COME TO ! C>TON PLANT ) ,LUISA4 ,I HAD ANTICIPAT$ ! COM+ ( ! REVOLUTION ! WAY A 0NORMAL0 GIRL MU/ ANTICIPATE ! COM+ ( M>RIAGE4 ,:5 ! REVOLUTION F9ALLY CAME & MY MO!R ACCOMPANI$ ME TO IT1 ,I GAVE MYSELF TO IT AS DUTIFULLY AS TO ! UNAVOIDABLE1 EXPECT$ HUSB&3 0,:ATEV] PLEASES Y\1 ,Y>O/AN 4440 ,IT WASN'T A 0=C$ M>RIAGE02 ,I'M NOT SUGGE/+ ?AT4 ,I HAD SE5 Y\ AT \R H\SE4 ,I HAD LI/5$ TO Y\4 ,I HADN'T KN[N IT W\LD BE ) Y\ ,I'D LEAVE = 0! B>RICADES10 AL?\< ,I HAD WI%$ IT4 ,:5 IT WAS Y\1 NO?+ C\LD HAVE BE5 MORE NATURAL4 ,I /EPP$ 9TO A READY-MADE REVOLUTION ! WAY ! NEW BRIDE /EPS 9TO H] ASSIGN$ HUSB&'S READY-MADE HOME3 %E /EPS 9TO AN ALI5 H\SE1 ANO!R'S H\SE1 EAG] TO LE>N H] TASKS3 0,%[ ME :AT TO DO40 ,DON'T TAKE ALL ! CR$IT = HAV+ US$ ME1 ,Y>O/AN2 SOME ( ! CR$IT IS M9E4 ,I GAVE MYSELF TO Y\ AS SOME?+ TO BE US$1 AS CLAY TO BE %AP$ -- 4 

,C\LDN'T ,I TELL Y\ DIDN'T LOVE ME8 ,OH NO1 ,Y>O/AN1 NOT ,I1 & NOT !N4 ,IT WASN'T LOVE ?AT HAD BR\<T ME TO Y\1 BUT 0DE/9Y40 ,I WAS ,NA*ALO'S DAU<T]2 ,I HAD BE5 BR\<T UP = ! REVOLUTION1 & ,I HAD COME ( AGE4 ,I WAS SIMPLY BE+ TRANSF]R$ FROM ,LUISA'S C>E TO Y\RS4 ,Y\ W]E TO ME :AT ,NA*ALO HAD ALWAYS BE5 TO ME3 MY MODEL1 MY IDOL4 ,IT NEV] OCCURR$ TO ME TO ASK MYSELF :E!R OR NOT Y\ LOV$ ME2 IT WAS MY 0DUTY0 TO LOVE Y\4 

7,LUISA JU/ CAME BACK2 IT'S LONG PA/ MIDNI<T4 ,I %\T$ D[N TO ASK IF %E WANT$ TO TALK1 BUT %E APP>5TLY DOESN'T4 ,:5 ,I ASK$ IF %E'D M9D IF ,I W5T ON TYP+1 %E SLAMM$ ! DOOR ( H] B$ROOM4 ,%E'S 9 A FURY N[4 ,TODAY IT WAS MY TURN TO %ATT] A PORCELA9 /ATUE1 MAYBE EV5 SEV]AL47 

,Y\ PROBABLY ?\<T Y\R 0CONFESSION0 W\LD %OCK ME4 ,IT DIDN'T4 ,Y\R DESCRIPTION WASN'T EXAGG]AT$4 ,I HAPP5 TO REMEMB] ! MORN+ :5 ,I LAY NAK$ ON ! FLOOR ) Y\ RI<T BY ! C>TON PLANT 5TRANCE4 ,! REASON ,I REMEMB] IS ?AT ONLY A YE> LAT]1 BY ! %ORE ( A POND TO :I* ,RON & ,I HAD RIDD5 \R BIKES1 ,I LAY AWAKE ALL NI<T WORRY+2 ,I WAS AFRAID ! F>M] W\LD OP5 A GATE & LET ! SUN %9E 9 ON US ! WAY ,LUISA DID4 ,I WAS AFRAID BECAUSE ,I WAS A%AM$ TO BE SE5 AS A BODY1 AS A NAK$ ANIMAL4 ,A%AM$ BECAUSE ,I ?\<T MYSELF ! V]Y NEGATION ( A BODY3 ,I WAS ALL PR9CIPLE1 REVOLUTION>Y DET]M9ATION1 GOAL4 ,IF Y\R DESIRE WASN'T R\S$ BY ANY PASSION 9 ME EXCEPT MY %AME1 IT'S BECAUSE ?AT %AME WAS ! ONLY PASSION 9 ME4 ,Y\ DON'T EXAGG]ATE 9 ! LEA/ :5 Y\ SAY ,I TURN$ EXACTLY AS ,I ?\<T ,I %\LD2 ! DESIRE TO TURN DIFF]5TLY SIMPLY WASN'T 9 ME4 ,I DIDN'T ONLY TURN )\T PASSION4 ,I ALSO EXP]I5C$ Y\R EMBRACES )\T PASSION1 EXACTLY AS ,I HAD EXPECT$ TO EXP]I5CE !M4 ,NO?+ SURPRIS$ ME1 NO?+ EXCIT$ ME PHYSICALLY4 ,I SAID1 0,I LOVE Y\1 ,Y>O/AN03 ,I'VE SAID IT S9CE2 ,I CAN SAY IT AS EASILY N[1 AFT] Y\R 0CONFESSION10 AS ,I EV] C\LD BE=E4 ,I LOVE Y\1 ,Y>O/AN4 ,?AT'S NOT A DESCRIPTION ( MY PASSION4 ,IT'S SOME?+ LIKE MY LIFE'S PR9CIPLE1 MY MOTTO2 IT'S ALMO/ MY NAME4 ,:5 Y\ HAD Y\R ORGASM ?AT MORN+1 BETWE5 MY LEGS1 ,I WAS V]Y EXCIT$ -- BUT NOT PHYSICALLY4 ,ONLY 9TELLECTUALLY4 ,I WAS PR\D ( MYSELF1 PR\D TO BE FULFILL+ ! TASK ,I HAD BE5 BR\<T UP =4 ,I W\LD HAVE BE5 EQUALLY PR\D IF Y\'D PRAIS$ ME = CO9+ A P]FECTLY APPROPRIATE SLOGAN OR = PR9T+ A BEAUTIFUL PO/]4 ,DUR+ ALL ! DAYS & NI<TS WE SP5T TOGE!R Y\ DIDN'T R\SE ME SEXUALLY ONCE1 EV5 = AN 9/ANT4 ,Y\ W]5'T A BODY TO ME BUT A PR9CIPLE4 ,MY FEEL+S T[>D Y\ W]E EXACT 9V]SIONS ( Y\R FEEL+S T[>D ,LUISA4 ,Y\ EMBRAC$ ! REVOLUTION>Y PR9CIPLE ) SEXUAL PASSION1 AS A BODY2 ,I EMBRAC$ Y\R BODY 9TELLECTUALLY1 AS A PR9CIPLE4 ,I'M NOT SAY+ ANY ( ?IS \T ( SPITE4 ,I'M A%AM$ ( MYSELF4 ,Y\R LETT] =C$ ME TO COME TO T]MS ) A SELF ,I CAN'T /&4 ,ISN'T IT BEYOND BELIEF ?AT SOMEONE C\LD GR[ UP BETWE5 ,LUISA & ,SAB9A ,NA*ALO & REMA9 SEXLESS8 ,I'M A%AM$ TO ADMIT TO ,Y>A & TO ,MIRNA ?AT ,I UND]/OOD P]FECTLY H[ POOR ,VESNA MU/ HAVE FELT 9 ! FACE ( !IR UNB\ND$ ANIMAL PASSION4 ,%IV]S W5T D[N MY BACK :5 ,I LE>N$ ,MIRNA HAD APP>5TLY DESIR$ H] [N FA!R PHYSICALLY1 SEXUALLY1 AS A BODY -- ! SAME %IV]S ,I EXP]I5C$ T5 YE>S AGO :5 ,I LE>N$ ?AT MY CLOSE/ FRI5D & COMRADE DESIR$ H] [N SEX PHYSICALLY1 ! SAME %IV]S ,VESNA MU/ HAVE EXP]I5C$ :5 ! PROSPECT ( PHYSICAL CONTACT ) Y\ WAS ?R[N 9 H] FACE4 ,UNTIL TODAY -- EXCEPT = ONE S+LE P]IOD :I* ,I TRI$ TO ]ASE FROM MY MEMORY -- ,I'VE LIV$ AT ! OPPOSITE 5D ( ! WORLD4 

,TODAY ,I MADE MY GR& 5TRANCE 9TO ,MIRNA'S WORLD4 ,I ?ANK Y\R LETT] = ?AT4 ,I KN[ ,I'M SCABB+ AGA9/ ! PO/AL WORK]S' /RIKE BY HAV+ Y\ S5D Y\R LETT]S ACROSS ! FRONTI]1 BUT ,I AGREE ) ,MIRNA & ,JASNA ?AT IT W\LD BE AWFUL TO /OP COMMUNICAT+ ) Y\ PRECISELY AT ?IS MOM5T :5 EV]Y?+ IS POSSIBLE4 ,Y\R LETT]S >E MY ONLY CONNECTION ) MY 0LIKES0 ELSE:]E1 & !Y'RE EV]Y BIT AS PRECI\S TO ME1 ) ALL Y\R 0CONFESSIONS10 AS M9E CAN POSSIBLY BE TO ANY ( Y\4 

,?IS HAS BE5 AN 9CR$IBLE WEEK4 ,ALMO/ EV]YONE IS ON /RIKE4 ,ALL MAJOR WORK%OPS1 ASSEMBLY PLANTS & FACTORIES >E OCCUPI$ BY WORK]S4 ,= TWO DAYS ,PAT & ,I VISIT$ AN IMM5SE RESE>* C5T] :I* HAS BE5 TRANS=M$ 9TO SOME?+ LIKE A TE*NOLOGICAL PLAYGR\ND4 ,SAB9A & ,TISSIE GAVE US FASC9AT+ T\RS4 ,I W\LD HAVE LOV$ TO /AY1 BUT ,PAT ?\<T WE MI<T BE MORE USEFUL 9 ! C\NCIL (FICE4 ,HE WAS WRONG2 NO?+ MU* WAS HAPP5+ 9 ! C\NCIL (FICE LA/ NI<T OR ?IS MORN+1 BUT ,I'M GLAD WE RETURN$1 S9CE O!RWISE ,I W\LDN'T HAVE GOTT5 Y\R LETT]S4 

,E>LY ?IS MORN+ ,I DECIDE TO CALL ,LUISA4 ,I LE>N$ A WEEK AGO ?AT H] ASSEMBLY PLANT IS ON /RIKE1 BUT ,I DIDN'T LE>N ANY ( ! DETAILS4 ,I WAS CURI\S AB\T H] RESPONSE TO ! /RIKE4 ,! LA/ TIME ,I CALL$ H] ,I'D GOTT5 FURI\S AT H] = TELL+ ME %E WAS WAIT+ = ! UNION TO CALL ! /RIKE4 ,%E'S /ILL ASLEEP :5 ,I CALL4 0,WON'T Y\ BE LATE = WORK80 ,I ASK S>CA/ICALLY4 

0,?IS HAPP5S TO BE ONE ( ! FEW WEEKDAYS 9 MY LIFE :5 ,I HAV5'T SET MY AL>M1 ,SOPHIA4 ,C\LDN'T Y\'VE CALL$ AN H\R LAT]80 

0,I DON'T KN[ :]E ,I'LL BE 9 AN H\R1 & ,I'M DY+ TO TALK TO Y\40 

0,DAMAN & ,I DID 9T5D TO TRY TO GET TOGE!R ) Y\40 

0,:Y DON'T Y\ BO? COME TO ! C\NCIL (FICE80 ,I SUGGE/4 0,PEOPLE H]E W\LD LOVE TO HE> AB\T Y\R /RIKE40 

,LUISA HESITATES = A MOM5T & !N ASKS1 0,W\LD !Y8 ,! UNION CALL$ ! /RIKE4 ,I'VE BE5 ON ! PICKET L9E EV]Y AFT]NOON40 

,IT'S MY TURN TO HESITATE4 ,I DIDN'T KN[ ! UNION HAD CALL$ ANY ( ! /RIKES4 ,I FEEL IRRITAT$1 EV5 ANGRY1 AT ?IS REM9D] ( ! *>ACT] ( ,LUISA'S 9SURG5CY4 ,IT'S NOT ,LUISA :O REBELS2 IT'S H] APP>ATUS -- ?AT TRA9 ,ZD5EK DESCRIB$ SO /RAI<T =W>DLY4 ,EV5 ?AT ROTT5 UNION 9 H] PLANT IS /ILL A UNION1 & A /RIKE NOT CALL$ BY A UNION W\LD BE MEAN+LESS TO H]4 

,I HOLD MY ANG] 92 ,I DON'T WANT YET ANO!R CONV]SATION ) ,LUISA TO 5D ) H] TELL+ ME3 0,CALL ME :5 Y\'RE LESS HY/]ICAL40 ,AFT] MY %OCK$ PAUSE1 ,I *ANGE ! TOPIC4 0,H['S Y\R ROMANCE GO+80 

0,NOT SO HOT4 ,DAMAN IS EV5 MORE ( A PURITAN ?AN Y\ >E4 ,BUT HE DOES JO9 ME AT ! PICKET L9E40 

,SUDD5LY 9SPIR$ BY A PLAN1 ,I ASK H]1 0,W\LD Y\ M9D IF ,I JO9$ Y\80 

0,S]I\SLY1 ,SOPHIA8 ,A UNION PICKET L9E80 

,GIV+ ALL MY PLANS AWAY AT ONCE1 ,I ASK H]1 0,W\LD Y\ M9D IF ,I BR\<T SOME ( MY FRI5DS80 

0,OBVI\SLY NOT60 ,LUISA EXCLAIMS4 0,BR+ Y\R FRI5DS & RAISE ALL ! HELL Y\ WANT ) ! UNION BUREAUCRATS6 ,! FIR/ DAY WAS EXCIT+ BECAUSE SOME WORK]S TRI$ TO GO 9SIDE TO WORK4 ,BUT S9CE !N IT'S BE5 A HORRIBLE BORE4 ,DO Y\ WANT US TO PICK Y\ UP80 

,I TELL H] ! ROOM :]E %E & ,DAMAN CAN F9D US4 ,I BEG H] TO HAVE ,DAMAN DRIVE ACROSS ! BORD] TO MY =EIGN PO/BOX & ALSO TO /OP BY MY H\SE TO SEE IF ANY LETT]S CAME FROM Y\4 

,I F9D ,PAT 9 ! MAKE%IFT CAFET]IA & JO9 HIM = A QUICK BREAKFA/4 ,I TELL HIM -- 9 FACT ,I SORT ( W>N HIM -- ?AT ,I 9VIT$ A UNION ORGANIZ] AS WELL AS A PR(ESSOR TO ! C\NCIL (FICE4 

0,I DON'T *ECK PEOPLE'S CR$5TIALS1 Y\ KN[60 HE SAYS ) SOME ANNOYANCE4 

0,I KN[1 BUT !Y'RE BO? GOOD FRI5DS ( M9E10 ,I EXPLA9 AWKW>DLY2 ,I DON'T WANT HIM TO *ASE !M AWAY ) 9TIMIDAT+ >GUM5TS ! MOM5T !Y WALK 94 0,LUISA IS ! WOMAN ,I TOLD Y\ AB\T1 ! ONE :O TOOK P>T 9 ?AT REVOLUTION ?IRTY-TWO YE>S AGO40 

0,WELL1 ?AT'S A TYPE ( UNION ORGANIZ] ,I W\LD LIKE TO MEET60 

0,I DON'T ?9K Y\'LL F9D H] V]Y DIFF]5T FROM H] COLLEAGUES4 ,H[ W\LD Y\ LIKE TO RAISE HELL AT A UNION-RUN PICKET L9E80 ,I ASK HIM4 

,SEV]AL PEOPLE >E ALREADY 9 ! C\NCIL (FICE :5 ,PAT & ,I GET !RE4 ,! DISCUSSION IS FASC9AT+1 BUT ,I'LL JU/ SUMM>IZE IT4 ,PEOPLE >E TALK+ AB\T ! /RIKES ?AT HAVE BE5 BREAK+ \T 9 O!R CITIES1 & MA9LY AB\T ! FACT ?AT ONE CORPORATION'S PRODUCTIVE FACILITIES ALL OV] ! C\NTRY >E OCCUPI$ BY WORK]S4 ,EV]YONE'S 5?USIASM IS DAMP5$ BY A P]SON :O PO9TS \T ?AT ?IS CORPORATION'S =EIGN PLANTS HAVE BE5 RUNN+ AT FULL CAPACITY4 0,EV5 IF ! MOVEM5T H]E IS VICTORI\S1 SU* CORPORATIONS WILL %IFT !IR OP]ATIONS ABROAD & CONT9UE TO DET]M9E ! CONT5T ( HUMAN ACTIVITY FROM !RE40 ,PEOPLE !N DISCUSS ! PROSPECTS = ! DE/RUCTION ( 9T]NATIONAL CORPORATIONS ON A WORLD-WIDE SCALE4 ,QUE/IONS ( LANGUAGE B>RI]S1 ( =MS ( COMMUNICATION1 ( TRAVEL+ DELEGATIONS >E RAIS$ & DROPP$4 

,AB\T TWO H\RS AFT] MY CALL TO ,LUISA1 !RE'S A KNOCK ON ! DOOR ( ! C\NCIL (FICE4 ,EV]YONE 9 ! ROOM GL>ES ) AMAZEM5T1 & A FEW PEOPLE LAU<4 ,DAMAN & ,LUISA BACK AWAY FROM ! LAU<T]4 ,!Y PROBABLY ?9K ,I TOLD PEOPLE TWO AG5TS ( ! SY/EM W]E COM+ -- :I* IS 9 FACT :AT ,I'D TOLD ,PAT4 ,I RUN \T & %\T1 0,GOOD GRIEF1 ,DAMAN1 H[ MANY CLASSES HAVE Y\ TAU<T 9 ?IS V]Y ROOM8 ,?IS ISN'T A PRIVATE AP>TM5T1 Y\ KN[60 

,POOR ,LUISA6 ,%E LOOKS T]RIBLY 9TIMIDAT$4 ,%E'S NEV] BE5 9 ! 0UNIV]SITY0 BE=E1 AL?\< %E'S ALWAYS REV]$ IT4 ,IT'S AWFUL :AT 9/ITUTIONS DO TO PEOPLE4 ,TO Y\1 TO ME1 TO ALL H] FRI5DS1 ,LUISA IS 0! 9TELLECTUAL10 A VIRTUAL 5CYCLOP$IA ON UNIONISM & REVOLUTION4 ,YET ! M9UTE %E WALKS 9TO ! (FICIAL 09TELLIG5CE BUILD+10 %E SEES H]SELF ?R\< (FICIAL EYES AS A WORK+ WOMAN :O NEV] F9I%$ HI< S*OOL1 !RE=E UNS*OOL$1 NAMELY IGNORANT4 ,I KN[ EXACTLY H[ %E FEELS4 ,I FELT ! SAME WAY ! DAY ,T9A TOOK ME BY ! H& & ACCOMPANI$ ME TO ! COMMUNE2 ,I WASN'T 9TIMIDAT$ BY ! UNIV]SITY1 BUT BY ! 0REVOLUTION0 ,I IMAG9$ TO BE BOIL+ 9SIDE IT4 ,LUISA IS WE>+ ! SAME PRETTY DRESS %E WORE ! DAY WE VISIT$ 0,LEM'S E/ATE40 7,%E HAD EXPECT$ ,DAMAN TO CALL H] ON ?AT DAY1 BUT ,I HAD CALL$ 9/EAD47 ,I TAKE H] H& & PULL H] 9TO ! C\NCIL (FICE4 0,!Y ALL BITE H]E1 BUT NONE ( !M HAS RABIES10 ,I TELL H]1 9TRODUC+ H] TO ,PAT4 

,DAMAN REMA9S \TSIDE4 ,:5 ,I EXT5D MY H& TO HIM1 HE GIVES ME BO? Y\R LETT]S4 ,HE'S NOT EXACTLY FRI5DLY T[>D ME1 & ,I CAN'T SAY ,I DON'T KN[ :Y4 ,! LA/ TIME ,I SAW HIM ,SAB9A HAD 9SI/$ HE HAD A PHONOGRAPH 9SIDE HIS HEAD2 HE'D TRI$ SO DESP]ATELY TO DEF5D HIMSELF FROM ,SAB9A'S ATTACK1 & ALL ,I'D DONE TO HELP HIM WAS TO SUGGE/ HE CALL ! POLICE TO PROTECT HIM FROM H]4 ,MY RESPECT = ,DAMAN HAS BE5 ! MA9 CASUALTY ( MY CORRESPOND5CE ) Y\4 

,TRY+ TO BREAK ! SIL5CE ,I ASK HIM ) UN9T5D$ S>CASM1 0,HAVE Y\ BE5 ON VACATION S9CE Y\ LO/ Y\R JOB80 

,DAMAN IS (F5D$4 0,IT SO HAPP5S ,I'VE BE5 WORK+ MU* H>D] ?IS PA/ TWO WEEKS ?AN ,I WORK :5 S*OOL IS ON40 

0,REALLY8 ,IS ?AT :Y Y\ HAV5'T HAD TIME TO COME H]E1 EV5 = A VISIT8 ,SO MU* HAS BE5 HAPP5+ H]E6 ,:AT HAVE Y\ BE5 DO+80 

0,WE'VE F9ALLY GOTT5 ?AT ORGANIZATION (F ! GR\ND10 ,DAMAN SAYS PR\DLY4 

0,! PEOPLE ,I'VE MET H]E HAVE BE5 GETT+ ALONG P]FECTLY )\T ?AT K9D ( ORGAN --0 

,DAMAN 9T]RUPTS ME2 ! PR(ESSOR REPLACES ! 9TIMIDAT$ T\RI/ AS HE ASS]TS AU?ORITATIVELY1 0,! NEW SOCIETY WILL NOT BE CREAT$ H]E1 BUT AT ! PO9T ( PRODUCTION1 P>TICUL>LY 9 ! BASIC 9DU/RIES4 ,IT ISN'T BORN 9 ! HEADS ( 9TELLECTUALS40 

0,IS ?AT :AT Y\R ORGANIZATION IS ORGANIZ+3 ! NEW SOCIETY80 ,I ASK HIM1 ?IS TIME ) 9T5D$ S>CASM4 

,DAMAN ANSW]S ) A GRAVE TONE1 0,WE'VE ALREADY GOTT5 \T ONE ISSUE ( \R PAP]40 

,UNABLE TO CURB MY S>CASM1 ,I EXCLAIM1 0,NOT ?AT NEWSPAP] = WORK]S $IT$ BY A PR(ESSOR & HIS POLITICAL /UD5TS60 

,DAMAN'S TONE BECOMES CONDESC5D+3 0,IT SO HAPP5S ?AT PRODUCTION WORK]S ACTUALLY WROTE ! 5TIRE ISSUE4 ,IT'S NOT A PAP] = WORK]S BUT A WORK]S' PAP]2 !RE'S A WORLD ( DIFF]5CE4 ,ITS TASK IS NOT TO SPEAK = ! WORK]S1 BUT TO LET ! WORK]S SPEAK = !MSELVES40 

0,ALL ! WORK]S8 ,IT MU/ BE AN IMM5SE NEWSPAP]60 

,DAMAN'S FACE BECOMES CRIMSON1 & ,I REALIZE ,I'M DO+ EXACTLY :AT ,I'D HOP$ ,PAT W\LDN'T DO3 9TIMIDAT+ HIM TO ! PO9T ( DRIV+ HIM AWAY4 ,I REWORD MY QUE/ION4 0,DID MANY WORK]S CONTRIBUTE >TICLES80 

0,Y\ HAVE TO UND]/& !RE >E C]TA9 F9ANCIAL DIFFICULTIES1 AS WELL AS ! PROBLEM ( TIME4 ,?IS ISSUE HAS TWO >TICLES1 BO? WRITT5 BY PRODUCTION WORK]S4 ,LUISA HAPP5S TO HAVE WRITT5 ONE ( !M4 ,I'M N[ 9 CONTACT ) A ?IRD --0 

0,LUISA WROTE AN >TICLE8 ,I'D LIKE TO SEE Y\R PAP]60 

,DAMAN BEAMS4 0,I JU/ HAPP5 TO HAVE SEV]AL COPIES ) ME40 

0,REALLY8 ,WELL LET'S TAKE !M 9SIDE4 ,EV]YONE 9 !RE WILL WANT TO SEE !M60 

,DAMAN PULLS \T HIS H&FUL ( 0WORK]S' NEWSPAP]S0 AS WE WALK 9TO ! ROOM1 & ,I IMM$IATELY FEEL SORRY = HIM4 ,HIS ORGANIZATION'S A*IEVEM5T LOOKS PA!TIC 9 A ROOM FILL$ ) BEAUTIFULLY PR9T$ LEAFLETS & PAMPHLETS4 ,IT'S CALL$ ,! ,WORK]S' ,VOICE & IT'S A DIRTY MIMEOGRAPH$ %EET ) CROOK$ HEADL9ES & B>ELY READABLE TYPEWRITT5 TEXT4 ,BO? >TICLES >E UNSIGN$4 ,ONE IS TITL$1 0,! ,WORK]S ,CAN ,DO ,IT0 & DEALS ) WORK]S :O RAN A TRANSPORTATION SY/EM )\T ANY BOSSES O!R ?AN UNION BOSSES4 ,! O!R LOOKS1 AT A GLANCE1 LIKE AN >TICLE ON ! B5EFICIAL EFFECTS ( HI<] WAGES4 

0,DO Y\ ACTUALLY GIVE !SE \T TO WORK]S OCCUPY+ !IR FACTORIES80 ,I ASK HIM4 

0,!Y'RE GO+ LIKE HOT CAKES60 ,DAMAN TELLS ME4 ,HE SMILES AS HE />TS GIV+ COPIES TO ! PEOPLE 9 ! ROOM4 0,WE'VE BE5 H&+ !M \T AT ,LUISA'S PLANT & WE'RE GETT+ RID ( AT LEA/ FIFTY A DAY4 ,WE ONLY RAN (F FIVE HUNDR$40 

,:5 ,DAMAN H&S A COPY TO ,PAT1 ,LUISA EXCLAIMS1 0,?AT'S \R WORK]S' PAP]60 

,PAT GLANCES AT BO? SIDES BRIEFLY1 /UDIES ! SIDE ON WAGES & LETS \T A GUFFAW4 0,Y\ CALL ?IS A WORK]S' PAP]80 

,DAMAN'S SMILE LEAVES HIS FACE & HIS :OLE BODY GETS RIGID AS HE ANN\NCES1 0,:AT Y\ UND]/& BY WORK]S MAY BE V]Y DIFF]5T FROM :AT ,I UND]/&40 ,) A SWEEP ( HIS >M HE DISMISSES ! ROOMFUL ( PEOPLE AS WELL AS ! /ACKS ( /RIKE ANN\NCEM5TS & FACTORY OCCUPATION ACC\NTS4 0,/UD5TS P>AD+ AS A NEW WORK+ CLASS JU/ DON'T CUT ! ICE4 ,! NEW WORK+ CLASS IS AN 9V5TION ( PETTY B\RGEOIS SOCIOLOGI/S --0 

,I 9T]RUPT HIM ANGRILY4 0,PAT & ,I & Y\ HAPP5 TO BE ! ONLY PEOPLE 9 ?IS ROOM :O DON'T COME \T ( FACTORIES60 

,A Y\NG WORK] %\TS TO ,DAMAN1 0,:AT ! HELL IS ! NEW WORK+ CLASS80 

,LUISA TRIES TO 9T]PRET ,DAMAN'S \TBUR/ TO ! PEOPLE 9 ! ROOM4 0,HE'S REF]R+ TO WORK]S' RELATION TO ! TRADITIONAL WORK]S' MOVEM5T40 

0,I4E444 ! UNION10 ,PAT ADDS4 

,BUT ,DAMAN P]SI/S4 0,I'M TALK+ AB\T ONE'S RELATION TO ! MEANS ( PRODUCTION1 :I* IS ! ONLY TE/ ( CLASS4 ,PEOPLE :OSE FUNCTION IS TO MANIPULATE O!RS >E BE/ DEF9$ AS MIDDLE CLASS40 

,ALL ! PEOPLE 9 ! ROOM EXCEPT ,LUISA & ,PAT MOVE AWAY FROM ,DAMAN4 ,I MOVE TO ! CORN] FUR!/ FROM ,DAMAN & />T LOOK+ AT Y\R FIR/ LETT]1 BUT ,I CONT9UE LI/5+ ) A C]TA9 AM\NT ( 9T]E/4 

,PAT SAYS CALMLY1 0,Y\R CATEGORIES >E BE+ SUP]S$$ BY PRES5T PRACTICE1 ,PRO -- MI/]40 ,PAT REMEMB]S MY 0W>N+10 BUT ONLY TO ! EXT5T ( NOT CALL+ ,DAMAN A PR(ESSOR4 ,PAT PO9TS TO ,! ,WORK]S' ,VOICE >TICLE ON WAGES4 0,:AT Y\ CALL A WORK]S' PAP] IS NO?+ BUT AN 9/RUM5T ( ! UNION BUREAUCRACY2 IT'S AN APP5DAGE TO CAPITAL40 

,DAMAN1 UNRUFFL$ BY ,PAT'S >GUM5T1 OR P]HAPS MISS+ ITS PO9T1 REPEATS HIS ANCI5T >GUM5T ?AT1 0,! MO/ ?OR\<LY UNIONIZ$ & BE/ PAID WORK]S 9 ! BASIC & HEAVY 9DU/RIES >E C5TRAL TO ANY REVOLUTION>Y UPSURGE40 

,PAT RETORTS1 0,ONLY :5 !Y /OP PRODUCTION1 ONLY :5 !Y /OP BE+ UNIONIZ$ & BE/ PAID1 ONLY :5 !Y /OP BE+ WORK]S1 :5 !Y CEASE TO BE SLAVES1 :5 !Y BECOME MA/]S --0 

,BUT ,DAMAN 9SI/S1 0,IT'S ONLY ! FACT ?AT !Y'RE WORK]S1 ! FACT ?AT !Y'RE AT ! PO9T ( PRODUCTION1 ?AT GIVES !M !IR REVOLUTION>Y CAPACITY6 ,IT'S !IR WORK ?AT TEA*ES !M TO RUN PRODUCTION60 

0,!IR WORK REPRODUCES CAPITAL1 & ?AT'S ALL60 ,PAT %\TS4 0,Y\'RE AN APOLOGI/ = CAPITAL1 9 O!R WORDS A %I!AD60 ,SEV]AL PEOPLE APPLAUD4 

0,& Y\ OBVI\SLY DON'T KN[ :AT CAPITAL IS10 ,DAMAN SAYS ) A PR(ESSORIAL CONTEMPT ?AT 9FURIATES ME4 0,BY CONC5TRAT+ WORK]S 9 ! BASIC 9DU/RIES1 CAPITALISM ITSELF CREATES ! ORGANIZATION & DISCIPL9E ( ! NEW SOCIETY --0 

,?IS IS GREET$ BY CATCALLS1 :I/LES1 & V>I\S %\TS LIKE1 0,H]E COMES ! BOSS60 & 0,! NEW SOCIETY LOOKS JU/ LIKE ! OLD40 ,SOMEONE ASKS1 0,Y\ A FACTORY [N]1 MI/]80 

,I CAN'T RESI/ ANSW]+1 0,NO1 HE'S A PR(ESSOR60 

,V>I\S PEOPLE EXCLAIM1 0,OH60 

,DAMAN1 LE]+ ) HO/ILITY AT EV]YONE 9 ! ROOM1 EXPRESSES HIS UND]/&+ ( ! SITUATION3 0,IT'S OBVI\S ?AT ,I'VE WALK$ 9TO A MEET+ ( A POLITICAL SECT ?AT ADH]ES TO ! !ORY ( ! BACKW>DNESS ( ! WORK+ CLASS4 ,?OSE UNIONIZ$ & WELL PAID WORK]S Y\ SNE] AT --0 

,I CAN'T /& ?AT CONDESC5D+1 SELF-EFFAC+ PO/URE2 ,I 9T]RUPT HIM4 0,WE W]E SNE]+ AT Y\60 

,HE IGNORES ME4 0,?OSE UNIONIZ$ WORK]S Y\ CONSID] SO BACKW>D >E ! ONES :O CONT9UALLY DEVELOP ! CAPACITY TO CREATE ! NEW SOCIETY2 !IR WORK IS 9H]5TLY REVOLUTION>Y40 

0,9 O!R WORDS1 WORK H>D & OBEY ! RULES60 ,PAT %\TS4 0,KISS ! BOSS'S ASS1 FOLL[ ! LEAD]1 ?AT'S ! REVOLUTION40 

0,LEAD]S DON'T SIMPLY IMPOSE !MSELVES ON ! CLASS1 !Y'RE PRODUCTS ( ! CLASS4 ,WORK]S PRODUCE !IR /RONGE/ LEAD]S :5 !Y'RE !MSELVES /RONGE/ --0 

,& ON & ON4 ,I'VE HE>D ALL ( IT BE=E4 ,DAMAN REALLY DOES HAVE A PHONOGRAPH 9 HIS HEAD 9/EAD ( A BRA94 ,PAT & OCCASIONALLY SOME ( ! O!R PEOPLE TRY 9 VA9 TO COMMUNICATE ) HIM4 ,P]IODICALLY ,LUISA TRIES TO 0TRANSLATE0 HIS MO/ UNPALATABLE OBS]VATIONS4 

,I F9ALLY LOSE 9T]E/ 9 ! >GUM5T & />T READ+ ! LETT] ,DAMAN PICK$ UP AT MY H\SE2 IT MU/ HAVE >RIV$ A FEW DAYS AFT] ,SAB9A & ,I LEFT ) ,T9A1 JU/ BE=E ! PO/AL /RIKE BEGAN4 ,DAMAN1 ,LUISA1 ! >GUM5T & ! C\NCIL (FICE VANI% AS ,I LOSE MYSELF 9 ! WORLD Y\ DESCRIBE4 ,E>LI] ,I CAME CLOSE TO SUGGE/+ ?AT Y\R 0CONFESSION0 WAS ! ONLY P>T ( Y\R LETT] ,I RESPOND$ TO4 ,?AT ISN'T ! CASE AT ALL4 ,I'M AMAZ$ TO DISCOV] ! ,JASNA :O SPEAKS ?R\< Y\R LETT]1 PRAIS+ ,SAB9A = HAV+ ! C\RAGE TO REALIZE H] DESIRES -- DESIRES :I* ,JASNA NEV] ALL[$ H]SELF TO REALIZE4 ,I'M EV5 MORE AMAZ$ BY ,MIRNA2 Y\R E>LI] LETT]S HAD GIV5 ME A SIGNIFICANTLY DIFF]5T PICTURE4 ,I'M SURPRIS$ TO DISCOV] A ,MIRNA :O HAS A LOT 9 COMMON ) ,SAB9A1 & EV5 MORE SURPRIS$ TO LE>N !Y KNEW EA* O!R4 ,MIRNA IS P]FECTLY RI<T AB\T MY FAILURE TO FACE ANY ( ! CONSEQU5CES CAUS$ BY ?AT LETT] ,I S5T Y\ TWELVE YE>S AGO4 ,I DIDN'T EV5 KN[ !RE HAD BE5 ANY CONSEQU5CES UNTIL ,I LE>N$ AB\T !M FROM Y\R LETT]S & FROM ,LEM4 ,( C\RSE ,I REALIZE IT WAS ! POLICE1 & NOT MY LETT]1 ?AT DID ! JAIL+ & ! KILL+1 BUT ,I /ILL FEEL AWFUL4 ,OBVI\SLY NO?+ ,I CAN SAY N[ CAN BR+ BACK ,MIRNA'S FA!R OR ,JAN OR ,VESNA4 ,I'M SURPRIS$ Y\ DIDN'T LE>N AB\T ?AT LETT] = SU* A LONG TIME AFT] Y\R >RE/4 ,I'M ALSO PUZZL$ BY SOME?+ 9 Y\R SECOND LETT]4 ,NEI!R Y\ NOR ,JASNA NOR1 APP>5TLY1 ANYONE ELSE HAD KN[N ?AT ,LUISA1 ,SAB9A & ,I W]E RELEAS$ SOON AFT] \R >RE/ AT ! C>TON PLANT4 ,YET ,I VAGUELY REMEMB] ?AT ,TITUS ,ZABRAN WAS ) US :5 WE W]E RELEAS$1 SO AT LEA/ HE MU/ HAVE KN[N AB\T IT4 ,I ALSO VAGUELY REMEMB] ,LUISA TELL+ ME YE>S AGO ?AT ,TITUS DIDN'T EMIGRATE ) US BECAUSE HE WANT$ TO /AY BEH9D TO TRY TO HAVE ! RE/ ( Y\ RELEAS$4 

,Y\R CONFESSION ISN'T ! ONLY P>T ,I RESPOND TO1 BUT ,I ADMIT IT'S ! P>T ,I CONT9UE RESPOND+ TO = ! RE/ ( ! DAY4 ,AS ,I READ AB\T Y\R LOVE = ,LUISA1 ! C\NCIL (FICE COMES BACK 9TO FOCUS1 & SO DOES ,LUISA -- NE>LY A QU>T] ( A C5TURY OLD] ?AN ! WOMAN 9 Y\R LETT]1 BUT JU/ AS VIGOR\S1 JU/ AS Y\?FUL1 & JU/ AS 0S$UCTIVE40 ,H] S$UCTIV5ESS IS NOVEL TO ME4 ,EI!R ,I'M V]Y D5SE1 OR ELSE %E KEPT IT FROM ME3 ! TRU? LIES SOME:]E 9 BETWE54 ,Y\'RE RI<T3 ,I DIDN'T KN[ Y\ HAD SLEPT ) ,LUISA AT \R H\SE4 ,:ILE ,I 9=M MYSELF ( ?AT FACT1 ,I NOTICE ?AT ,DAMAN IS NO LONG] >GU+ ) ,PAT3 HE'S 9 A CORN] ( ! ROOM1 *ATT+ ) A WOMAN2 %E PROBABLY EXPRESS$ 9T]E/ 9 HIS ORGANIZATION4 ,PAT & MO/ ( ! WORK]S HOV] >\ND ,LUISA2 APP>5TLY !Y ALL KN[ H] TO BE ! COAU?OR ( ,! ,WORK]S' ,VOICE4 ,SOMEONE PO9TS \T ?AT ! >TICLE ON WAGES FLATLY CONTRADICTS H] >TICLE4 ,BUT NO >GUM5T FOLL[S4 ,LUISA IS AN ORGANIZ]1 A POLITICIAN1 A *>M] -- AS WELL AS A DIPLOMAT4 ,%E AGREES ?AT ! PO9T IS NOT TO HAVE HI<] WAGES = SLAVE LABOR1 BUT TO APPROPRIATE ! PRODUCTIVE =CES & BE FREE4 ,YET 9 ! SAME BREA? %E MANAGES TO DEF5D ,DAMAN AS WELL AS ! WRIT] ( ! O!R >TICLE3 ! MA9 PO9T IS TO ACT1 & EV5 SOMEONE FI<T+ = HI<] WAGES IS MORE ( A REVOLUTION>Y ?AN PEOPLE :O M]ELY SIT 9 A ROOM & TALK4 

,PAT />TS TO ASK1 0,>E Y\ GO+ TO TELL US ?AT WORK]S PRODUC+ WEAPONS = ! POLICE >E DO+ MORE ?AN --0 

0,OBVI\SLY NOT60 ,LUISA EXCLAIMS1 LOOK+ UNEASILY T[>D ,DAMAN4 0,BUT ,I AM SAY+ ?AT WORK]S ON A PICKET L9E !Y !MSELVES ORGANIZE1 DEF5D+ !IR JOBS FROM SCABS1 >E DO+ 9F9ITELY MORE ?AN :AT ,I SEE BE+ DONE H]E40 

0,:AT IF SOME ( US W5T TO Y\R PICKET L9E TO F9D \T IF IT REALLY IS ORGANIZ$ BY ! WORK]S !MSELVES80 ,PAT ASKS4 

0,! MORE ! M]RI]40 ,LUISA EXCLAIMS4 0,H[ MANY WANT TO *ECK \T & IF NE$ BE *ALL5GE ! ORGANIZATION ( ?AT PICKET L9E80 ,%E'S 9 H] MILIEU4 

,SOMEONE ASKS1 0,WILL ! UNION GOONS ACTUALLY LET US TALK TO ANY WORK]S80 

0,ALL Y\ HAVE TO DO IS \T-%\T ! L\DSPEAK]S10 %E ANSW]S4 

,PAT MAKES ANO!R SUGGE/ION4 0,:AT IF WE GO ) A LEAFLET EXPLA9+ :O WE >E8 ,IT CAN />T ) ! QUE/ION3 ,:Y DO Y\ LET ! L\DSPEAK]S SPEAK = Y\80 

,%\T+ 0,?AT'S MAGNIFIC5T2 IT'S :AT ,I'VE ALWAYS ASK$ MYSELF10 ,LUISA ?R[S H] >MS >\ND ,PAT & ,I ALMO/ FALL (F MY *AIR1 ALMO/ SCATT]+ Y\R LETT] ALL OV] ! ROOM4 ,I1 ,SOPHIA ,NA*ALO1 ,QUE5 ( ! ,PEASANTS1 PRIM1 CORRECT & WELL-MANN]$1 P]FECT = %ATT]+1 AFRAID TO HOLD ,PAT'S H& BECAUSE HE'S ONLY EI<TE51 />T TO BOIL1 & ,I GO ON BOIL+ UNTIL ,I MAKE MYSELF ! ONE :O C>RIES ! REVOLUTION TO ! PEASANTS1 UNTIL ,I'M ! ONE :O %ATT]S PORCELA9 /ATUES4 

,! LEAFLET ON L\DSPEAK]S IS COMPOS$ 9 LESS ?AN FIFTE5 M9UTES2 IT CONSI/S ( A SEQU5CE ( SLOGANS2 ALMO/ EV]YONE1 9CLUD+ ,LUISA1 CONTRIBUTES ONE4 ,:5 IT'S DONE ,LUISA SUGGE/S ?AT IT BE PR9T$ ON ! MIMEOGRAPH 9 ! BASEM5T ( ,DAMAN'S H\SE1 BUT ,PAT OBJECTS3 0,WE HAVE ACCESS TO PR9T+ EQUIPM5T ONLY A FEW M9UTES AWAY FROM H]E1 & ,I KN[ H[ TO PR9T2 SOMEONE ELSE ) ! NAME ( ,NA*ALO TAU<T ME40 

,LUISA LOOKS QUIZZICALLY AT ME4 0,I DIDN'T KN[ Y\ C\LD PR9T40 

0,IT'S ,T9A10 ,I TELL H]4 

,DAMAN EXPRESSES SUDD5 9T]E/4 0,T9A IS H]E8 ,& %E PR9TS80 ,HE DOESN'T SEEM AT ALL EAG] TO HAVE ANO!R RUN-9 ) H]4 

,EV]YONE EXCEPT ! TWO PEOPLE :O VOLUNTE]$ TO SP5D ! DAY 9 ! C\NCIL (FICE SETS \T T[>D ,T$'S COOP]ATIVE PR9T %OP4 ,PAT & ,LUISA1 H] >M LOCK$ 9 HIS1 LEAD ! PROCESSION ( F\RTE5 OR SO PEOPLE4 ,DAMAN & HIS NEW FRI5D CONT9UE !IR CONV]SATION SEV]AL FEET BEH9D EV]YONE ELSE2 ,I LE>N ?AT HIS NEWE/ 0RECRUIT0 IS A WORK] FROM ! (FICE MA*9E PLANT ,PAT & ,I VISIT$ DUR+ MY FIR/ WEEK H]E4 ,I WALK RI<T BEH9D ,PAT & ,LUISA1 ) BO? Y\R LETT]S 9 MY H&BAG4 

,ON ! WAY TO ! PR9T %OP1 ,LUISA TELLS ,PAT1 0,I AGREE ) Y\ AB\T ! O!R >TICLE 9 ,! ,WORK]S' ,VOICE4 ,ITS AU?OR IS A UNION MAN1 & ,I OBJECT$ TO ,DAMAN'S 9CLUD+ IT ,! UNION ,I F\<T ) WAS A G5U9E WORK]S' UNION :I* HAD NO?+ 9 COMMON ) ?IS COMPANY UNION4 ,IT HAD NO PAID FUNCTION>IES --0 

,PAT OBJECTS1 0,YET AFT] ! VICTORY1 SOME ( ! UNPAID FUNCTION>IES BECAME GOV]NM5T M9I/]S & FACTORY MANAG]S60 ,I'M CONT9UALLY AMAZ$ BY H[ WE'LL READ HE IS4 

0,Y\ HAVE TO UND]/& ! CIRCUM/ANCES10 ,LUISA PLEADS4 0,IT WAS W>1 & W> ALWAYS DE/ROYS EV]Y?+ PEOPLE FI<T =40 

,PAT DOESN'T PURSUE HIS >GUM5T4 ,EV] S9CE WE W5T TO TALK TO ! (FICE MA*9E WORK]S ,I'VE BE5 AW>E ?AT ,PAT ISN'T NE>LY AS >GUM5TATIVE ) WOM5 AS HE IS ) M54 

,ONLY ,PAT1 ,LUISA & ,I GO 9TO ! PR9T %OP2 ! O!RS WAIT \TSIDE4 ,PAT IMM$IATELY SITS D[N AT AN ELECTRIC TYPEWRIT]4 

,AS SOON AS ,T9A SEES ,LUISA1 %E EXCLAIMS1 0,WELL ,I'LL BE DAMN$6 ,H[ MANY YE>S IS IT S9CE Y\'VE TAK5 A DAY (F WORK80 

0,I TAKE IT ?AT Y\ ,NA*ALOS KN[ EA* O!R10 ,PAT ASC]TA9S4 0,MAY ,I ASK IF Y\'RE RELAT$80 

,T9A1 M\NT+ AN 5ORM\S PLATE ONTO ! METAL CYL9D] ( A PRESS1 %\TS1 0,CAN'T Y\ SEE ! FAMILY RESEMBLANCE8 ,SOPHIA & ,LUISA >E SI/]S2 ,I'M !IR MO!R4 ,:AT ELSE DO Y\ WANT TO KN[80 

,PAT MUTT]S1 0,?AT'LL TEA* ME TO SNOOP40 ,HE PRO(READS ! LEAFLET BE=E M\NT+ IT 9 ! CAM]A COPYBO>D4 ,!N HE TAKES ,LUISA'S H& & PULLS H] T[>D ! D>KROOM 5TRANCE4 0,COME ON2 ,I'LL %[ Y\ H[ PRODUCTION CAN TAKE PLACE )\T MANAG]S OR UNION BUREAUCRATS40 

,I'M ON ! V]GE ( ASK+1 0,CAN ,I COME TOO80 ,I'VE NEV] SE5 ?AT TYPE ( PHOTOGRAPHY1 & ! ?\<T ( ,LUISA :ISK+ Y\ (F TO ! /OCKROOM ( ! C>TON PLANT FLA%ES ?R\< MY M9D4 ,BUT ,I WALK T[>D ! L>GE PRESS ,T9A IS ADJU/+4 

0,BACK SO SOON80 ,T9A ASKS ME4 CONC5TRAT+ ON ! PRESS4 

0,FROM ! RESE>* C5T]80 ,I ASK4 

,T9A TURNS ! PRESS ON4 0,I C\LDN'T GET MY FILL ( IT10 %E %\TS ABOVE ! NOISE ( ! PRESS4 0,I C\LD HAVE SP5T MY :OLE LIFE PLAY+ ) ALL ?OSE TOOLS & GADGETS40 

,I BACK AWAY FROM ,T9A AS %E PULLS A PR9T$ %EET FROM ! PRESS & ,I ALMO/ TRIP OV] A BOX4 ,I FEEL 9TIMIDAT$ BY H] COMM5TS4 ,I /AY$ AT ! RESE>* C5T] = TWO DAYS1 BUT IT DIDN'T EV] OCCUR TO ME ?AT ,I MI<T WANT TO PLAY ) ! TOOLS & GADGETS4 ,! ONLY TIME ,I EXP]I5C$ SU* A DESIRE WAS 9 ! G>AGE1 :5 ,I WAS ,T9A'S APPR5TICE4 ,IT'S NOT A CO9CID5CE ?AT 9 ! G>AGE ,I ALSO P]=M$ MY LIFE'S S+LE 9DEP5D5T ACT1 ! NI<T ,I ?REW MYSELF ON ,JOSE BECAUSE ,I HAD DECID$ TO DEMON/RATE ! EXACT NATURE ( MY 9N]MO/ DESIRES4 ,BUT MY 9DEP5D5CE BEGAN & 5D$ ) ?AT ACT4 ,?AT NI<T ,I ACT$ 9 ! SPIRIT ( ,T9A1 9 ! SPIRIT ( :AT ! G>AGE /OOD =4 ,I WAS MY [N P]SON2 ,I MADE MYSELF :AT ,I MO/ WANT$ TO BE4 ,:AT ,I MADE MYSELF1 9DEP5D5TLY1 ON MY [N -- :AT ,I MO/ WANT$ TO BE -- WAS DEP5D5T6 ,I WANT$ TO BE Y\R %AD[1 ,RON'S %AD[1 ,JOSE'S %AD[1 EV5 ,T9A'S %AD[4 ,BY ?AT 9DEP5D5T ACT ,I ANNIHILAT$ MY 9DEP5D5CE4 ,! G>AGE WAS MY ONE 0COMMUNITY0 :]E MY ROLE WASN'T PR$EF9$1 :]E ,I HAD TO DEF9E ! NATURE ( MY LIFE & ! CONT5T ( MY ACTIVITY ON MY [N4 ,UNLIKE SEV5-YE> OLD ,T9A1 ,I WAS ONLY ABLE TO DEF9E MYSELF ! SAME WAY ,I HAD ALWAYS DEF9$ MYSELF3 AS P>T ( SOMEONE ELSE'S PROJECT1 AS ,T9A'S APPR5TICE & ,JOSE'S WOMAN4 

0,I'D GIVE Y\ A T\R10 ,T9A %\TS1 0BUT !SE PAMPHLETS HAVE TO BE DONE BY NOON40 

0,H[ DID Y\ LE>N TO USE ALL !SE ?+S SO FA/80 ,I ASK H]4 

0,I DIDN'T LE>N FA/10 %E %\TS4 0,N[ ?AT Y\ KN[ ,T$ ISN'T ! BEA/ Y\ ?\<T HIM1 ,I MI<T AS WELL TELL Y\ ,I'VE BE5 H]E S9CE ! PR9T %OP />T$1 OV] TWO YE>S AGO40 

0,Y\'VE BE5 SEE+ ,T$ = ! PA/ TWO YE>S8 ,DID ,SAB9A KN[80 

0,Y\'RE ! ONLY ONE :O DIDN'T KN[60 %E %\TS4 

,MY HEAD />TS TO SP94 ,DIDN'T ,I KN[ AB\T Y\R AFFAIR ) ,LUISA1 UND] MY V]Y NOSE1 9 MY [N H\SE8 ,I WAS ! ONLY ONE :O DIDN'T KN[6 

0,I'VE BE5 SEE+ ,T$ EV] S9CE ,SAB9A & ,I LEFT ! G>AGE4 ,DON'T LOOK SO GLUM6 ,Y\ MADE IT P]FECTLY OBVI\S Y\ DIDN'T WANT TO HE> A WORD AB\T HIM60 ,T9A TURNS ! PRESS (F & />TS TO DISM\NT ! PLATE4 

,I TURN TO ANO!R TOPIC4 0,HAVE Y\ KN[N ,PAT LONG80 

0,HE SURE IS A BIRD1 ISN'T HE8 ,I'VE NEV] KN[N ANYONE QUITE LIKE HIM10 %E SAYS1 LAU<+ & SITT+ D[N ON A BOX4 0,I MET HIM A FEW DAYS BE=E ,I MOV$ \T ( \R H\SE4 ,I WAS H]E :5 ,PAT & HIS :OLE GR\P ( FRI5DS CAME 94 ,!Y SAID !Y'D HE>D ,T$ & ,I (T5 HELP$ /UD5TS ) !IR PR9T-+ PROJECTS4 ,& !N !Y SAID !Y W]E ANTI-/UD5TS2 !Y DIDN'T WANT EI!R TO CONTRACT A JOB OR TO HIRE A PROLET>IAN2 !Y HAD COME TO CREATE A NEW SITUATION4 ,T$ DIDN'T KN[ :AT TO MAKE ( !M4 ,!Y TALK$ AB\T NUM]\S PROJECTS1 SU* AS LEAFLETS1 PAMPHLETS1 EV5 BOOKS4 ,!Y %[$ ME SOME ( ! ?+S !Y'D WRITT53 ATTACKS ON EV]Y IMAG9ABLE AU?ORITY1 ESPECIALLY REVOLUTION>Y ONES4 ,I LOV$ IT4 ,!Y TOLD ME NONE ( !M C\LD DRAW1 BUT :5 ,I VOLUNTE]$ TO DO SOME ( ! DRAW+ = !M ,PAT GOT MAD4 ,?AT'S NOT ! PO9T1 HE SAID4 ,WE WANT TO BREAK D[N ALL ?OSE DIVISIONS2 WE ALL WANT TO DRAW1 WRITE1 PR9T40 

,I BEGG$ ,T9A NOT TO SPOIL H] S*$ULE BECAUSE ( ME4 

0,! PRESS IS RUNN+ P]FECTLY1 SO ,I'M WAY AHEAD ( MY DEADL9E4 ,ANYWAY1 ,PAT ASK$ ME IF ,T$ W\LD BE WILL+ TO TAKE P>T 9 !IR PROJECTS AS AN EQUAL4 ,I ASK$ IF ,T$ W\LD HAVE TO 5ROLL 9 COLLEGE TO BE !IR EQUAL1 & ,PAT SCOLD$ ME SAY+ HE HADN'T COME TO BE RIDICUL$1 BUT TO E/ABLI% A DIRECT1 TRANSP>5T1 NON-CAPITALI/ RELATION%IP4 ,I UND]/OOD :AT HE MEANT1 & IT APPEAL$ TO ME A LOT4 ,I TOLD !M ,I'D TAKE P>T4 ',Y\8' ,PAT ASK$ ) DISBELIEF4 ',N[ :O'S DO+ ! RIDICUL+8' ,I ASK$ HIM4 ,HE TRI$ TO GET \T ( IT BY ASK+ IF ,I WAS ! PR9T]'S DAU<T]4 ,!Y 9VIT$ ME TO !IR NEXT MEET+ & ,I W5T4 ,I'M ONE ( !M N[4 ,BUT S9CE ?AT DAY ,I HAV5'T LET ,PAT =GET ?AT HE DIDN'T WANT TO BE ! EQUAL ( AN EI<TE5-YE> OLD GIRL :O'D NEV] BE5 TO S*OOL4 ,EXCEPT = ?AT ,I ?9K HE'S NICE -- !Y ALL >E2 ,I'M ! ONLY WOMAN 9 ! GR\P1 & AFT] ?AT DAY !Y'VE ALL GONE \T ( !IR WAY TO TREAT ME AS AN EQUAL40 

,T$ WALKS T[>D US FROM ! BACK ( ! %OP4 ,HE LIVES UP/AIRS4 ,T9A %\TS TO HIM1 0,W\LD Y\ M9D GIV+ ,SOPHIA A T\R8 ,I'D LIKE TO F9I% RUNN+ ?IS PAMPHLET40 

,I JU/ SAW ,T$ ! PREVI\S EV5+1 BUT ,I RU% T[>D HIM AS IF HE W]E AN OLD FRI5D4 ,! PREVI\S DAY HE HAD DRIV5 ,PAT & ME BACK FROM ! RESE>* C5T]4 ,I %AKE HIS H& EAG]LY4 0,I'M REALLY IMPRESS$ BY ! SIZE ( ?IS PLACE4 ,IT'S IMM5SE1 EV5 :5 ,I ?9K ( ! PLACE WE W]E 9 YE/]DAY4 ,AFT] ALL1 ?IS IS ! WORK ( A S+LE 9DIVIDUAL40 

0,TWO1 NOT ONE10 HE 9SI/S4 0,T9A DID MORE ?AN HALF ! WORK40 ,ACCOMPANY+ ME FROM ! PRESS BACK T[>D ! D>KROOM1 HE ADDS1 0,%E'S ! ONE :O BUILT ! D>KROOM & %E GOT ! L>GE PRESS RUNN+40 

0,REALLY80 ,I EXCLAIM4 0,:]E 9 ! WORLD DID %E LE>N TO DO ?AT80 

0,Y\ DIDN'T KN[8 ,T9A HAD JOBS 9 EV]Y MAJOR PR9T %OP 9 ?IS CITY4 ,%E DIDN'T ONLY LE>N TO RUN ! MA*9ES1 %E ALSO WALK$ (F ) A BAG FULL ( SUPPLIES EV]Y TIME %E LEFT H] JOB40 

,IT SUDD5LY OCCURS TO ME ?AT ! FEW TIMES ,I ASK$ H] :AT K9D ( JOB %E HAD1 %E'D TOLD ME %E WAS PR9T+4 ,I HAD R>ELY ASK$ BECAUSE TO ME ALL JOBS W]E WAGE LABOR & !RE=E ! SAME4 0,T9A ACTUALLY /OLE ! SUPPLIES Y\ USE H]E80 

0,EV]Y?+ EXCEPT ! MA*9]Y & ! PAP]4 ,UNTIL A C\PLE ( WEEKS AGO40 

0,:AT HAPP5$ !N80 ,I ASK4 

,HE LEADS ME TO A CORN] ( ! %OP & PR\DLY PO9TS TO SEV]AL /ACKS ( PAP]1 M\NDS ( UNSORT$ 9KS1 FILM BOXES & V>I\S OBJECTS ,I CAN'T ID5TIFY4 0,EV]Y?+ />T$ TO *ANGE4 ,A GR\P ( KIDS CAME 9 TO LE>N TO PR9T4 ,!N O!R GR\PS CAME -- LOTS ( !M FACTORY WORK]S1 SOME ACTUAL PR9T]S4 ,!Y />T$ TEA*+ EA* O!R4 ,! PRESSES />T$ RUNN+ DAY & NI<T4 ,LEAFLETS1 PO/]S1 PICTURE BOOKS -- BEAUTIFUL ?+S TOO4 ,& !Y ALL BR\<T ?+S FROM PLACES ON /RIKE3 9KS1 PAP]1 PLATES2 TWO GR\PS EV5 SET UP SILKSCRE5+ 9 ! BACK4 ,SOME ( !M CAN PR9T AS WELL AS ,T9A4 ,I ?\<T ,I MI<T BE NE$$ H]E1 BUT ,I'M NOT4 ,I'LL BE GO+ BACK TO ,SAB9A & ,TISSIE TOMORR[4 ,!Y'D BO? BE HAPPY IF ,I TOOK Y\ ALONG40 

,I TELL ,T$ ,I'LL TRY TO COME4 ,BUT IT LOOKS LIKE ,I WON'T MAKE IT4 ,TOMORR[ IS RI<T N[1 & ,I'D RA!R F9I% ?IS LETT] BE=E ACCUMULAT+ YET MORE EXP]I5CES TO DESCRIBE TO Y\4 

,PAT & ,LUISA >E NO LONG] 9 ! D>KROOM4 ,PAT IS RUNN+ ! LEAFLET (F ON A SMALL PRESS1 & ,LUISA IS \TSIDE1 PR\DLY %[+ A COPY TO ,DAMAN4 ,I RUN \T TO HAVE A LOOK4 ,DAMAN HOLDS ! COPY 9 HIS H& & FR[NS4 

0,ISN'T IT BEAUTIFUL80 ,LUISA ASKS ,DAMAN4 0,& IT ALL TOOK LESS ?AN HALF AN H\R1 = TWO ?\S& COPIES6 ,\RS TOOK US ALL ( TWO WEEKS60 

0,>E WE READY TO GO80 ,DAMAN ASKS4 

0,WELL WAIT = ,PAT TO BR+ ! RE/ ( ! LEAFLETS1 WON'T Y\8 ,OH1 DON'T BE SU* A S\RPUSS1 ,DAMAN4 ,IT MAKES ! SAME PO9T \RS DOES3 :Y LET ! L\DSPEAK]S SPEAK = Y\8 ,WELL1 DOESN'T IT80 

,BE=E ,DAMAN ANSW]S1 ,PAT COMES \T ) ! /ACK ( LEAFLETS4 ,SOMEONE OBS]VES1 0,!RE >E ELEV5 ( US4 ,WE'LL HAVE TO GO 9 TWO C>S40 ,PAT GIVES HALF ! LEAFLETS TO ! SIX PEOPLE :O >E TO GO 9 ! O!R C>2 ,LUISA GIVES ! O!R DRIV] DIRECTIONS4 ,ON ! WAY TO ! C>1 ,DAMAN CONT9UES TALK+ TO ! WOMAN FROM ! (FICE MA*9E PLANT1 & ?IS SEEMS TO IRK ,LUISA4 ,:5 WE REA* ! C>1 ! WOMAN GETS 9TO ! FRONT SEAT NEXT TO ,DAMAN4 ,%E LOOKS SLI<TLY OLD] ?AN ,LUISA1 AL?\< ,LUISA1 9 H] GIRLI% SKIRT & ) H] HAIR HANG+ LOOSE OV] H] %\LD]S1 LOOKS MU* Y\NG] ?AN H] AGE4 ,I SLIDE 9TO ! BACK SEAT NEXT TO ,PAT2 ,LUISA GETS 9 NEXT TO HIM FROM ! O!R SIDE4 

,DAMAN1 APP>5TLY CONT9U+ HIS CONV]SATION ) ! WOMAN1 MAKES A COMM5T ?AT SEEMS TO BE AIM$ AT ,PAT4 0,IT'S NOT TO BECOME A PAP] 9 :I* PR(ESSIONAL WRIT]S EXPRESS !MSELVES4 ,!Y CAN CONF9E !MSELVES TO !IR USUAL \TLETS4 ,?IS PAP] IS = WORK]S :O'VE NEV] WRITT5 BE=E40 

,PAT IS AB\T TO RESPOND TO ! COMM5T1 BUT ,LUISA PREV5TS ! RESUMPTION ( ! >GUM5T 9 ! C\NCIL (FICE BY RESUM+ H] [N >GUM5T 9/EAD4 ,%E TELLS ,PAT1 0,MAYBE A LEAFLET CAN BE PR9T$ )\T ANY TYPE ( ORGANIZATION4 ,BUT ,I /ILL ?9K ! NEW SOCIETY IS GO+ TO NE$ AN ORGANIZATION4 ,( C\RSE IT HAS TO BE ! WORK]S' [N ORGANIZATION40 

,PAT RESPONDS ANGRILY1 0,9 MO/ PEOPLE'S M\?S ORGANIZATION & OB$I5CE >E SYNONYM\S4 ,DO Y\ ?9K ?IS LEAFLET WAS PR9T$ )\T ORGANIZATION8 ,MY PO9T WAS ?AT ORGANIZ$ ACTIVITY IS POSSIBLE )\T ORD] GIV]S & ORD] TAK]S4 ,Y\R NEW SOCIETY S\NDS LIKE A PLACE :]E MO/ PEOPLE WORK & OBEY ORD]S1 :ILE A FEW MANAGE & MAKE DECISIONS4 ,!RE'S NO?+ NEW AB\T ?AT40 

0,EV]Y?+ W\LD BE DIFF]5T IF ! WORK]S !MSELVES MANAG$ --0 

0,:Y80 ,PAT ASKS4 

,LUISA PAUSES & !N ANSW]S1 0,BECAUSE PRES5T-DAY MANAG]S S]VE ! 9T]E/S ( CAPITAL & ! /ATE1 :]EAS WORK]S W\LD S]VE ! 9T]E/S ( !IR FELL[ WORK]S4 ,?AT W\LD TRANS=M ! NATURE ( ALL ACTIVITY & ALL RELATIONS40 

,! WOMAN 9 ! FRONT SEAT TURNS T[>D ,LUISA4 0,GET (F IT1 DE>Y6 ,EV]Y UNION REP ,I KN[ IS A =M] WORK]1 & EV]Y ONE ( !M S]VES ! 9T]E/S ( CAPITAL & ! /ATE4 ,!Y'LL S]VE :OEV] PAYS !IR SAL>IES1 AS !Y ALWAYS HAVE40 

,LUISA OBJECTS1 0,?AT'S BECAUSE !SE UNIONS >E ALL COMPANY UNIONS40 

0,OH YEA80 ! WOMAN ASKS4 0,WELL ,I'M ONE ( ?OSE :O WAS >\ND DUR+ ?OSE GOOD OLD DAYS :5 Y\ GOT BU/$ = TALK+ UNION1 & ,I KN[ ?AT ! /ORIES AB\T UNION ORGANIZ]S S]V+ ! WORK]S' 9T]E/S >E ALL BULL%IT4 ,!Y W]E ON ! MAKE !N2 ?AT'S :Y !Y SEEM$ SO GUTSY4 ,TODAY !Y'VE MADE IT2 !Y'VE GOT NO MORE REASON TO BE GUTSY4 ,& :AT DO Y\ ?9K !Y W]E ON ! MAKE =8 ,= WORK]S' 9T]E/S8 ,=GET IT6 ,!Y W]E ON ! MAKE = PRECISELY :AT !Y'VE GOT TODAY60 

0,!N Y\ DON'T BELIEVE *ANGE IS POSSIBLE10 ,LUISA CONCLUDES4 

0,IS ?AT :AT ,I SAID80 ! WOMAN ASKS4 0,:Y DO Y\ ?9K ,I'M H]E1 OR 9 ?AT COMMUNE8 ,I ?9K IT'S POSSIBLE1 BUT NOT ) UNIONS4 ,I AGREE ) ! KID3 IF Y\'VE GOT MANAG]S1 !Y'RE GO+ TO MANAGE1 NO MATT] :O OR :AT !Y W]E BE=E40 

,AL?\< ,PAT SQUIRMS :5 %E REF]S TO HIM AS 0! KID10 ,DAMAN SW]VES ! C> & ALMO/ SIDE-SWIPES A C> 9 ! NEXT LANE :5 %E EXPRESSES H] AGREEM5T ) 0! KID03 ,DAMAN JU/ LO/ HIS NEWE/ RECRUIT TO 0! KID40 

,! WOMAN CONT9UES1 UNAW>E ( ! M9OR UPRO> %E JU/ CAUS$1 0,SOME PEOPLE ?9K EV]Y?+ W\LD *ANGE IF ALL SUP]VISORS W]E WOM54 ,?AT'S ! SAME BALONEY4 ,I'VE GOT A WOMAN SUP]VISOR4 ,%E US$ TO BE AN ORD9>Y WORK]4 ,& LET ME TELL Y\ SOME?+1 DE>Y3 ,I W\LDN'T GO \T ( MY WAY TO GIVE H] MORE P[] ?AN %E'S GOT ALREADY40 

0,IF Y\ REJECT ! V]Y POSSIBILITY ( A G5U9E WORK]S' ORGANIZATION1 :AT >E Y\ LEFT )80 ,LUISA ASKS4 

,! WOMAN HESITATES = A MOM5T4 ,F9ALLY %E SAYS1 0,JU/ PEOPLE1 ,I GUESS4 ,?AT'S :AT ,I HOP$ TO F9D \T 9 ! SO-CALL$ COMMUNE4 ,I ?\<T ,I'D F9D PEOPLE ASK+ ! SAME QUE/IONS40 ,%E TURNS TO ,PAT & ASKS1 0,:AT DO Y\ ?9K1 KID8 ,:AT'S ON ! AG5DA AFT] ! UNIONS1 ACCORD+ TO ! Y\NG] G5]ATION80 

,PAT />ES AT H] BUT DOESN'T ANSW]2 HE'S OBVI\SLY IRK$4 ,I POKE HIM G5TLY & :ISP]1 0,TELL US1 ,PAT2 ,I'D LIKE TO KN[ TOO40 

,BUT ,DAMAN %\TS1 0,H[ W\LD HE KN[8 ,HAS HE EV] WORK$ 9 A FACTORY80 

,?AT DOES IT = ,PAT4 ,HE TI<T5S HIS LIPS & />ES \T ! W9D[1 A VICTIM ( AGE-ISM4 ,I L[] MY H& TO ! SEAT & REA* = MY HUMILIAT$ COMRADE'S H&4 ,HIS FI/ IS CL5*$4 ,I WRAP MY H& >\ND IT & TRY TO =MULATE AN APPROPRIATE ANSW] TO ! WOMAN'S UN9T5D$ 9SULTS4 0,I CAN'T SPEAK = MY :OLE G5]ATION -- WE KIDS >E ALL DIFF]5T1 Y\ KN[ -- BUT ,I CAN TELL Y\ :AT AT LEA/ ONE KID ?9KS40 ,PAT SMILES ) GRATITUDE & OP5S HIS H& 9TO M9E4 ,I GO ON1 0,I ?9K ! PR9T+ ( ?IS LEAFLET WAS A GOOD EXAMPLE ( :AT ,I'D CONSID] FREE ACTIVITY4 ,IT WASN'T BOSS$ BY CAPITALI/ OR UNION OR P>TY MANAG]S4 ,! PEOPLE MO/ 9T]E/$ 9 IT MADE ALL !IR [N DECISIONS & DID !IR [N WORK4 ,!Y ORGANIZ$ !IR ACTIVITY !MSELVES4 ,ISN'T ?AT TRUE1 ,LUISA80 

,LUISA HESITANTLY ADMITS1 0,?AT'S TRUE4 ,BUT PR9T+ A LEAFLET IS A SIMPLE MATT] COMP>$ TO RUNN+ A TRANSPORTATION SY/EM1 PROVISION+ A CITY ) FOOD --0 

0,LUISA60 ,I %\T1 0,:Y CAN'T Y\ IMAG9E ?OSE ?+S BE+ DONE ANY O!R WAY ?AN !Y'RE DONE N[8 ,AT ?IS V]Y MOM5T1 9 ?IS V]Y CITY1 ALL K9DS ( ?+S >E BE+ DONE FREELY1 NO LONG] AS WAGE LABOR1 BUT AS PROJECTS1 EXACTLY ! WAY ?IS LEAFLET WAS DONE4 ,COMPLEX ?+S1 TOO4 ,I CONSID] /REET !AT] AN EXTREMELY COMPLEX >T4 ,! 5TIRE =M] UNIV]SITY IS ORGANIZ$ BY ITS PRES5T OCCUPANTS4 ,SOME NEI<BORHOODS >E />T+ TO ORGANIZE FOOD DI/RIBUTION ON !IR [N4 ,I C\LD HAVE %[N Y\ ANY NUMB] ( PAMPHLETS DESCRIB+ --0 

,PAT'S 5?USIASM SUDD5LY RETURNS2 SO DOES HIS POMPOSITY4 0,?AT'S :AT ,I CALL ! REVOLUTION>Y PROJECT3 ! CONSCI\S DOM9ATION ( HI/ORY BY ! M5 :O MAKE IT60 

,I LET GO ( HIS H& ABRUPTLY4 0,! M58 ,Y\ MEAN ! KIDS60 

,! RE/ ( ! TRIP TO ! ASSEMBLY PLANT TAKES PLACE 9 SIL5CE4 ,LUISA DIRECTS ,DAMAN TO P>K ! C> RI<T ACROSS ! /REET FROM ! PICKET L9E & S\ND TRUCK4 ,M5 WE>+ P]FECTLY CLEAN OV]ALLS WALK 9 A CIRCLE C>RY+ SIGNS ) ! NAME ( ! UNION4 

0,?IS IS A /RIKE80 ,PAT ASKS4 

0,IT'S NOT V]Y EXCIT+1 BUT IT IS A /RIKE10 ,LUISA ANSW]S4 

,PAT OBJECTS1 0,BUT ?IS IS NO?+ BUT A RITUAL6 ,UNION BUREAUCRATS >E GETT+ FRE% AIR & BE+ PAID = IT6 ,DID WE PR9T !SE LEAFLETS = !M80 

0,( C\RSE NOT10 ,LUISA ASSURES HIM4 ,PULL+ HIM \T ( ! C>1 %E SAYS1 0,COME ON1 ,I'LL %[ Y\ :]E ! WORK]S >E40 

,DAMAN GETS \T ( ! C> & ANN\NCES1 0,I'LL /ICK TO ! PICKET L9E40 ,HE H&S ! (FICE MA*9E WORK] A H&FUL ( ,! ,WORK]S' ,VOICE & ASKS1 0,Y\'LL JO9 ME80 

,%E GIVES ! COPIES BACK TO ,DAMAN & ASKS ,LUISA1 0,:]E DID Y\ SAY !Y W]E80 

,DAMAN WALKS QUIETLY AWAY FROM US & />TS TO GIVE \T HIS PAP] TO ! PICKET+ 0WORK]S10 & ALSO TO PASS]SBY1 9 A POLITE1 BUS9ESSLIKE MANN]4 ,HE SEEMS TO HAVE BR\<T AB\T FIFTY COPIES1 PROBABLY ! DAY'S 0RATION40 

,LUISA TELLS ! RE/ ( US1 0,! MA9 HANG\TS >E ! B> & ! B[L+ ALLEY NEXT TO IT4 ,!RE >E ALSO LOTS ( PEOPLE 9 ! P9BALL MA*9E P>LOR ACROSS ! /REET4 ,BASICALLY ALL ! PEOPLE H]E1 EXCEPT ! BUREAUCRATS1 >E WAIT+ = SOME?+ TO HAPP54 ,?IS IS ONE ( ! DIRTIE/ & MO/ DANG]\S PLANTS 9 ! CITY1 & PEOPLE WILL BE RECEPTIVE TO JU/ AB\T ANY?+4 ,I ?9K ! B> IS ! BE/ PLACE TO />T A CONV]SATION40 

0,I US$ TO KN[ ?AT TOO1 DE>Y1 9 ! GOOD OLD DAYS4 ,BUT %\LDN'T WE WAIT = ! O!RS80 ! WOMAN ASKS1 REF]R+ TO H] SIX FRI5DS COM+ 9 ! O!R C>4 

,PAT SUGGE/S1 0,!Y PROBABLY GOT H]E FIR/1 SAW :AT K9D ( A /RIKE IT WAS1 & DIDN'T BO!R TO /OP40 

,! WOMAN AGREES4 0,Y\'RE PROBABLY RI<T1 KID -- ,I MEAN PAL2 PEOPLE SURE >E ?9 SK9N$ N[ADAYS4 ,I'M = ! B[L+ ALLEY40 

0,I'LL TRY ! B>4 ,H[ AB\T Y\80 ,PAT ASKS ME4 

,I HESITATE = A SECOND & !N DECIDE1 0,I'VE NEV] BE5 TO A B[L+ ALLEY40 

,! WOMAN GRABS HALF ! LEAFLETS AS WELL AS MY >M4 0,NEV] BE5 B[L+8 ,WELL COME ON4 HONEY1 Y\ DON'T KN[ :AT Y\'VE MISS$60 

,LUISA GLANCES ACROSS ! /REET &4 WAVES TO ,DAMAN4 ,!N %E %OVES H] >M ?R\< ,PAT'S & %\TS1 0,LET'S GO RAISE HELL 9 ! B>60 ,Y\ KNEW ,LUISA4 ,I NEV] DID4 ,I'VE NEV] BE=E SE5 ! WOMAN :O MADE LOVE TO Y\ DUR+ WORK H\RS AT ! C>TON PLANT1 NOR ! WOMAN Y\ SAW LEAV+ ! C>TON PLANT ) H] >M ?R\< ,M>C ,GLAVNI'S4 ,%E DIDN'T LET ME SEE H]4 ,I US$ TO BE H] CONSCI5CE2 %E REC5TLY PROCLAIM$ H] 9DEP5D5CE FROM H] CONSCI5CE4 

,I %OVE MY >M 9TO ! >M ( ! WOMAN :O CALLS ME 0,HONEY0 & ,I %\T1 0,LET'S US GO RAISE HELL 9 ! B[L+ ALLEY60 

,AS SOON AS WE GO 91 WE NOTICE A /ACK ( ! 0L\DSPEAK]0 LEAFLETS BY ! 5TRANCE2 WE ALSO SEE !M 9 PEOPLE'S H&S4 ,! SIX :O CAME 9 ! O!R C> >E B[L+4 ,! WOMAN PULLS ME T[>D !M4 ,NONE ( !M BELIEVE ME :5 ,I TELL !M ,I DON'T EV5 KN[ ! PO9T ( ! GAME4 ,APP>5TLY Y\'RE SUPPOS$ TO KNOCK D[N WOOD5 BOTTLES AT ! 5D ( A *ANNEL BY ROLL+ A L>GE BALL 9TO !M4 ,! BALL HAS HOLES 9 IT & IS HELD LIKE A GLOVE4 ,I DON'T SUCCE$ 9 KNOCK+ D[N A S+LE BOTTLE4 ,ON MY LA/ TRY1 ! HEAVY BALL-%AP$ GLOVE REFUSES TO LEAVE MY H&1 & ,I GO FLY+ D[N ! ALLEY ) IT4 ,MY COMRADES SEEM TO 5JOY ?AT MORE ?AN ! GAME ITSELF4 

,LUISA & ,PAT 5T] ! B[L+ ALLEY4 ,I ASK !M IF !Y LO/ AN >GUM5T4 0,WE DIDN'T EV5 HAVE A *ANCE TO />T ONE10 ,LUISA SAYS2 %E SEEMS SLI<TLY TIPSY4 0,!RE'S A BALL GAME ON & EV]YONE IS WAT*+ ! ,T4,V4 ,WE EV5 W5T ACROSS ! /REET1 BUT ONE ( Y\ ALREADY GAVE LEAFLETS \T !RE4 ,& IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO HE> ANY?+ ABOVE ?OSE MA*9ES4 ,WE %\LD HAVE TITL$ ! LEAFLET1 ,:Y DO Y\ ALL[ P9BALL MA*9ES TO PLAY = Y\80 

,PAT SAYS1 0,AT LEA/ ,LUISA & ,I HAD A /IMULAT+ CONV]SATION40 

0,A V]Y /IMULAT+ CONV]SATION10 ,LUISA ADDS4 0,!RE'S NO?+ LIKE A FEW DR9KS TO LOOS5 TONGUES & S(T5 TEMP]S4 ,PAT TOLD ME ALL AB\T ! REAL REVOLUTION4 ,IT'S A FE/IVAL :]E EV]YONE DOES NO?+ BUT PLAY1 NOT !SE CAPITALI/ PSEUDO-GAMES1 BUT LIV+ GAMES4 ,IT'S ! GRATIFICATION ( ALL DESIRES1 A NEV]-5D+ CELEBRATION4 ,DO ,I HAVE IT RI<T80 

0,P]FECTLY10 ,PAT SAYS1 OGL+ H]2 APP>5TLY HE CAN'T HOLD HIS ALCOHOL AS WELL AS %E CAN4 

0,H[ AB\T ALL ( US GO+ TO MY H\SE & HAV+ SU* A CELEBRATION60 ,LUISA SUGGE/S4 

,! WOMAN TURNS D[N ,LUISA'S 9VITATION1 SO ! ?REE ( US CROSS ! /REET & F9D ,DAMAN TRY+ TO 9T]E/ A UNION BUREAUCRAT 9 ,! ,WORK]S' ,VOICE4 ,LUISA PULLS HIM T[>D ! C> & 9VITES HIM TO H] CELEBRATION4 

0,I'D LOVE TO COME1 BUT ,I'VE GOT SOME WORK ,I C\LD DO40 

,TUGG+ AT ,DAMAN'S >M1 ,LUISA HISSES1 0,ONLY SCABS WORK DUR+ A /RIKE40 ,9SIDE ! C>1 %E SLIPS 9TO ! FRONT SEAT & HUDDLES TO HIM1 BEGG+1 0,PLEASE1 ,DAMAN2 WE CAN DISCUSS ! NEXT ISSUE ( ! PAP]4 ,!RE >E NUM]\S ?+S ,I WANT TO SUGGE/40 

,I SLIDE 9TO ! BACK SEAT -- & WOND] IF ,PAT WILL GET 9TO ! FRONT SEAT NEXT TO ,LUISA4 ,BUT HE SLIPS 9 NEXT TO ME4 ,! C> />TS4 ,PAT'S H& REA*ES = M9E4 ,I DON'T MOVE AWAY4 ,HIS H& SLIPS OV] M9E & SQUEEZES IT4 ,MY HE>T P\NDS2 A DISORGANIZ$ >RAY ( CONTRADICTORY FEEL+S SURGES ?R\< ME4 ,CONTEMPT & RES5TM5T T[>D ,PAT COMB9E ) PITY1 & ) GR[+ DESIRE -- ! DESIRE TO \TDO ,LUISA1 ! DESIRE TO UNDO Y\R HUMILIATION ( ME4 ,IF REVOLUTION IS A FE/IVAL1 !N ,I W>M UP = IT 9 ! BACK SEAT ( ,DAMAN'S C>1 ,I GET READY TO CELEBRATE1 TO GRATIFY MY [N DESIRES1 TO SC&ALIZE ! UNION ORGANIZ]1 ! PR(ESSOR & ! EI<TE5-YE> OLD PHILOSOPH] :O CONSID]S M5 ! ONLY HI/ORY-MAK]S4 ,I PULL MY H& FROM UND] ,PAT'S & PLACE IT OV] HIS1 SLID+ MY F+]S SL[LY BETWE5 HIS4 ,! >RIVAL ( Y\R LETT] C\LDN'T HAVE BE5 TIM$ BETT]4 ,I'VE BE5 LONG+ TO CONSUMMATE ?IS ACT1 BUT ,I LACK$ ! JU/IFICATION1 ! C\RAGE1 ! SETT+4 ,Y\R 0CONFESSION0 PROVIDES ! P]FECT JU/IFICATION2 ,MIRNA'S /UBBORN DET]M9ATION GIVES ME A MODEL ( C\RAGE2 ,LUISA'S 0CELEBRATION0 PROMISES TO PROVIDE A P]FECT SETT+4 ,NO ONE TALKS ON ! WAY TO ,LUISA'S1 BUT IF ANYONE DID ,I W\LDN'T HE> A S\ND2 ,I'M DEAF5$ BY ! PROSPECT ( DE?RON+ ! ,QUE5 ( ,PEASANTS1 ! PROSPECT ( %ATT]+ SEV]AL PORCELA9 /ATUES4 ,IF REVOLUTION IS ! GRATIFICATION ( DESIRES1 !N ONE ( ITS FIRES IS BLAZ+ 9 ! BACK SEAT ( ,DAMAN'S C>4 

,I DIDN'T UND]/& ! P]V]SE *>ACT] ( MY DESIRE = ,PAT UNTIL ,I DESCRIB$ IT TO Y\ 9 MY PREVI\S LETT]1 ,IF MY DESIRE WAS P]V]SE !N1 IT'S EV5 MORE SO :5 ,I DIG MY F+]S 9TO ! PALM ( HIS H& 9 ,DAMAN'S C>2 ,I'VE LO/ ALMO/ ALL ! ADMIRATION ,I 9ITIALLY FELT T[>D HIM2 ! PURE G5IUS ,:O HAD SIMULTANE\SLY ATTRACT$1 9TIMIDAT$ & REPELL$ ME IS NO LONG] SU* A G5IUS NOR SO PURE TO ME4 ,BUT IF MY DESIRE IS EV5 MORE P]V]SE ?AN IT WAS !N1 MY MORAL SELF-RE/RA9T IS GONE N[ -- IT'S BE5 DRIV5 AWAY BY Y\R LETT]2 BY Y\R DESCRIPTION ( ,LUISA1 BY ,LUISA'S 9SI/5T CONFIRMATION ( EV]Y ONE ( ! TRAITS Y\ DESCRIB$4  
  

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,/ILL A PRISON] ( ! RE/RA9TS IMPOS$ BY MY ECLECTIC MORALITY AFT] ,I S5T Y\ MY PREVI\S LETT]1 ,I /AY$ AWAY FROM ,PAT = OV] A WEEK4 ,TWICE ,I VISIT$ ! OCCUPI$ (FICE MA*9E PLANT A FEW BLOCKS FROM ! COMMUNE4 ,I /AY$ AWAY FROM ! C\NCIL (FICE EXCEPT ON DAYS :5 ,I KNEW ,PAT W\LDN'T BE !RE4 ,DUR+ ?AT WEEK ,I ATT5D$ MEET+S ( /RIK+ PO/AL WORK]S1 NEWSPAP] PR9T]S1 TAXI DRIV]S4 ,! DISCUSSIONS 9 :I* ,I TOOK P>T W]E ! MO/ /IMULAT+ DISCUSSIONS ,I'VE EXP]I5C$4 ,9 A HI/ORICAL FRACTION ( A SECOND1 PEOPLE H]E HAVE APPROPRIAT$ ! 5TIRE HI/ORY ( REVOLUTION4 ,EV]Y?+ HUMAN BE+S 9 /RUGGLE EV] REA*$ = IS BE+ S\<T H]E & N[4 

,I RAN 9TO ,PAT 9 ! C\NCIL (FICE1 MORE OR LESS BY *ANCE1 A WEEK AGO4 ,I DESCRIB$ TO HIM :AT ,I'D BE5 DO+4 ,HE DESCRIB$ MEET+S HE'D BE5 ATT5D+2 HE SPOKE ) CONTAGI\S 5?USIASM4 

0,IT'S JU/ FANTA/IC2 ! 5TIRE SO-CALL$ 9TELLECTUAL COMMUNITY IS COMMITT+ SUICIDE60 HE EXCLAIM$4 0,9 ONE AFT] ANO!R SESSION1 ! EXP]TS !MSELVES >E D5\NC+ !IR [N SPECIAL FIELDS AS ILLEGITIMATE1 AS CUT (F FROM ! RE/ ( SOCIAL LIFE3 PHILOSOPH]S1 TEA*]S1 EV5 M$ICAL /UD5TS1 ?\< ,I HAV5'T HE>D ANY DOCTORS YET40 

,I WAS FASC9AT$ & ASK$ :5 ! NEXT SU* MEET+ W\LD BE HELD4 ,PAT TOLD ME >*ITECTS W]E TO MEET ?AT NI<T4 ,HIS 5?USIASM WASN'T EXAGG]AT$4 ,AT ?AT MEET+1 HELD 9 A L>GE AUDITORIUM1 ONE AFT] ANO!R >*ITECT1 NOT M]ELY /UD5TS BUT PRACTIC+ >*ITECTS1 DESCRIB$ !MSELVES AS USURP]S & !IR PR(ESSION AS AN ILLEGITIMATE MONOPOLY OV] ! 9DIVIDUAL'S & ! COMMUNITY'S LIFE ACTIVITY3 ! CREATION ( ONE'S PHYSICAL SURR\ND+S1 ! %AP+ ( ONE'S 5VIRONM5T4 

,AT ! 5D ( ! MEET+1 ) AN 5?USIASM EQUAL+ ,PAT'S1 ,I NUDG$ HIM & SAID1 0,IMAG9E ! EXP]TS !MSELVES D5\NC+ !IR [N EXP]TIZE AS A USURPATION60 

,PAT'S RESPONSE WAS3 0,Y\ REALLY AMAZE ME1 ,SOPHIA6 ,V]Y FEW PEOPLE GRASP ! IMPLICATIONS ( :AT WE'VE JU/ HE>D40 

,MY IMM$IATE REACTION WAS TO SMILE2 ,I FELT FLATT]$6 ,BUT !N SOME?+ LIKE AN ELECTRIC %OCK W5T ?R\< ME4 ,I REMEMB]$ HIS HAV+ SAID1 0,Y\'RE REALLY GOOD10 ! DAY WE HAD TALK$ TO SEV]AL (FICE MA*9E WORK]S 9 ! RE/AURANT ACROSS ! /REET FROM !IR PLANT4 ,HE WAS IMPRESS$ BY ! APP>5T PRES5CE ( WIT & 9TELLIG5CE COMP>ABLE TO HIS [N 9 A P]SON ) BREA/S6 ,& ,I WAS FLATT]$6 ,I SWALL[$ MY SMILE & TRI$ TO />E ?R\< HIM1 BUT HE WAS TOTALLY UNCONSCI\S ( HIS >ROGANCE4 ,DUR+ ! NEXT FEW DAYS HE CONFIRM$ MY NEW VIEW ( HIM2 HE DEMON/RAT$ BEYOND A D\BT ?AT HE'S ABSOLUTELY CONV9C$ HE & HIS FRI5DS1 ALL Y\NG M5 UNTIL ,T9A JO9$ !M 0AS AN EQUAL10 :I* ,I SUPPOSE MEANS AS A Y\NG MAN1 HAVE AN ABSOLUTE MONOPOLY OV] ALL HUMAN KN[L$GE1 WIT & 9SI<T4 

,AT ! 5D ( ! >*ITECTS' MEET+ ,I LIMIT$ MYSELF TO />+ AT HIM4 ,WE LEFT \R SEATS TOGE!R & FOLL[$ ! CR[D \T ( ! AUDITORIUM4 ,! HALL \TSIDE WAS L9$ ) LIT]ATURE TABLES4 ,EV]Y CONCEIVABLE POLITICAL SECT WAS DISPLAY+ ALL ITS W>ES TO ! 9TELLECTUAL COMMUNITY ON ! EVE ( ITS SELF-DE/RUCTION4 

,BEH9D ONE ( ! TABLES ,I RECOGNIZ$ A P]SON ,I HADN'T SE5 9 AGES4 ,I RAN T[>D H] %\T+1 0,RHEA ,MORPH560 ,WE EMBRAC$ AS IF WE HAD BE5 BE/ FRI5DS4 ,PAT RAN AFT] ME4 ,I 9TRODUC$ ,RHEA AS MY ROOMMATE DUR+ MY FIR/ YE> 9 COLLEGE4 

,PAT PICK$ UP ONE ( ! BOOKS ON H] TABLE & ASK$1 0,H[ MU* DO !Y PAY Y\ TO P$DLE ?IS /UFF80 ,ONLY !N DID ,I GLANCE AT ! PUBLICATIONS ON4 ! TABLE3 CELEBRATIONS ( /ATE-WOR%IP & GLORIFICATIONS ( ! MO/ TYRANNICAL DICTATOR%IPS 9 HI/ORY4 

,RHEA ANSW]$ POLITELY1 0,NO ONE PAYS ME1 ,I VOLUNTE] MY TIME40 

,) A SWEEP+ GLANCE AT ! TABLE'S CONT5TS1 ,PAT ASK$1 0,H[ AB\T ! ,POLITICAL ,?\<T ( ,ADOLPH ,HITL]8 ,IS IT SOLD \T80 

0,:AT DO Y\ MEAN BY ?AT80 ,RHEA ASK$1 GR[+ HO/ILE4 

0,Y\'VE GOT ! COLLECT$ & SELECT$ WORKS ( ALL ! O!R ,FUEHR]S6 ,H[ AB\T --0 

,RHEA TURN$ H] BACK TO ,PAT & ASK$ ME CONTEMPTU\SLY1 0,IS ?AT ! TYPE ( POLITICS Y\'RE 9TO N[1 ,SOPHIE80 

0,?AT'S ! POLITICS ,I'VE ALWAYS BE5 9TO1 ,RHEA4 ,HAVE Y\ =GOTT5 WE DIDN'T P>T ON ! BE/ ( T]MS80 

0,>E Y\ REF]R+ TO Y\R CLIQUE'S EXCLUD+ ME FROM ?AT UND]GR\ND PAP]80 

0,NO1 ,RHEA1 ,I'M REF]R+ TO Y\R VOT+ TO EVICT ME FROM ! CO-OP --0 

,A CU/OM] :O LOOK$ LIKE A PR(ESSOR 9T]RUPT$ \R CONV]SATION4 ,HE PICK$ \T TWO BOOKS3 A COMPILATION ( ! 0ESS5TIAL ?\<TS0 ( A DICTATOR1 & A DIATRIBE ON 0PETTY B\RGEOIS DEVIATIONS 9 ! WORK]S' MOVEM5T40 

,PAT COMM5T$1 0,ANTICIPATION 5DS BOR$OM = SOME4 ,IT CREATES FE> 9 O!RS40 

0,>E Y\ TALK+ TO ME80 ! CU/OM] ASK$4 

,PAT PICK$ UP COPIES ( ! SAME TWO BOOKS1 LEAF$ ?R\< ONE1 & SAID1 0,WE MU/ SEE :AT ! AU?ORITIES SAY BE=E WE TAKE ANY FALSE /EPS40 

0,DO Y\ HAVE SOME?+ AGA9/ !SE BOOKS80 ! CU/OM] ASK$4 

0,I DON'T HAVE ANY?+ AGA9/ ! BOOKS10 ,PAT SAID1 0,I'M JU/ CURI\S AB\T ! M5TALITY ( ?OSE :O READ !M40 

,! CU/OM] SLAMM$ HIS MONEY D[N ON ! TABLE & WALK$ AWAY SAY+1 0,!SE1 WORKS >E COND5SATIONS ( ! HI/ORICAL EXP]I5CE ( ! 9T]NATIONAL WORK]S' MOVEM5T40 

0,!Y'RE ! RAV+S ( MEGALOMANIACS60 ,PAT %\T$ AFT] HIM4 

,RHEA TURN$ TO ME ANGRILY4 0,W\LD Y\ M9D TAK+ Y\R BOYFRI5D SOME:]E ELSE80 

,:ISP]+1 0,LET'S GO1 ,PAT10 ,I WRAPP$ MY >M >\ND MY 0BOYFRI5D10 PR\DLY DISPLAY+ TO ,RHEA NOT ONLY MY 0TYPE ( POLITICS0 BUT ALSO MY 0DECAD5T IMMORALITY0 -- IT'S IRONIC ?AT ,I WANT$ TO DISPLAY ! LATT] QUALITY A WEEK BE=E ,I GOT Y\R LETT]4 

,BUT ,RHEA DIDN'T LET US GET AWAY2 %E %\T$ AFT] US1 0,:5EV] WORK]S REGA9 CONSCI\SNESS & AGA9 TURN TO !IR ORGANIZATION1 PETTY B\RGEOIS 9TELLECTUALS TRY TO POISON !M ) !IR PHILOSOPHY ( DESPAIR40 

,I RU%$ BACK TO ! TABLE & HISS$1 0,! ?\<T ( Y\R P>TY'S GOONS RUNN+ ! >MY & ! POLICE MAKES ME DESPAIR ALL RI<T6 ,IT S5DS %IV]S D[N MY BACK6 ,IT GIVES ME ! CREEPS6 ,DON'T Y\ KN[ :AT !Y DID TO ,LEM80 

,IT TURN$ \T ?AT ,RHEA DID 0KN[02 H] ORGANIZATION APP>5TLY HAD A :OLE 0L9E0 AB\T :AT HAD HAPP5$ TO H] ONE-TIME COMRADE4 0,DON'T TELL ME Y\R LIES AB\T ,LEM60 %E %\T$4 0,I KN[ Y\R /EPFA!R ,ALB]TS & HIS FRI5DS TORTUR$ HIM & !N PAID HIM TO SPY ON & POISON HIS =M] COMRADES4 ,HE TURN$ ,DEBBIE ,MA!WS 9TO AN ALCOHOLIC --0 ,RHEA />T$ :ISP]+ BECAUSE ANO!R CU/OM] WAS BUY+ ! COND5S$ ?\<TS ( ANO!R DICTATOR4 

,I DECID$ TO TRY MY TURN4 0,MAY ,I ASK :Y Y\'RE BUY+ ?IS BOOK80 

0,I ?9K WE'RE LIV+ 9 A REVOLUTION>Y P]IOD10 %E ANSW]$1 0& ,I WANT TO LE>N :AT SOMEONE EXP]I5C$ 9 REVOLUTION HAD TO SAY40 

,IT WAS FUN TO GO ON4 0,Y\ MEAN AN EXP]T ON REVOLUTION1 ON H[ TO FI<T Y\R [N BATTLES & LIVE Y\R [N LIFE8 ,DID Y\ ATT5D ! MEET+80 

0,YES1 & ,I AGREE ) MO/ ( :AT WAS SAID4 ,WE >*ITECTS HAVE DONE NO?+ BUT S]VE ! 9T]E/S ( ! CAPITALI/ CLASS1 & ?AT RAISES ! QUE/ION ( ! LEGITIMACY --0 

0,H[ AB\T ! >*ITECTS :O S]V$ ! 9T]E/S ( ! DICTATOR :OSE WORK Y\ JU/ PICK$ UP8 ,IS ?AT S]VICE LEGITIMATE80 ,I %\T$4 

,RHEA TOLD ! CU/OM]1 0,%E'S BE+ PAID TO HECKLE AT MY TABLE40 ,! WOMAN PAID = ! BOOK & WALK$ AWAY4 

,I TURN$ FURI\SLY AT ,RHEA4 0,ALL Y\'RE EXP]T 9 IS LY+6 ,! RULE ( Y\R ORGANIZATION IS ! RULE ( LI>S1 ! REIGN ( ! BIG LIES6 ,BUT ! DAY ( Y\R GLORI\S VICTORIES IS GONE6 ,EV]YONE EXCEPT A FEW IDIOTS IS ON TO Y\ N[6 ,Y\'RE NO?+ BUT A C>CASS60 

,RHEA SMIL$ VICI\SLY4 0,DON'T C\NT US \T TOO SOON1 ,SOPHIE4 ,HALF A C5TURY AGO EV]YONE SAID WE'D NEV] W91 & WE WON6 ,TODAY WE'VE GOT NE>LY HALF ! WORLD ON \R SIDE1 & \R P[] IS /ILL GR[+4 ,WE SOLD MORE LIT]ATURE DUR+ ! PA/ WEEK ?AN DUR+ ! PREVI\S T5 YE>S60 

,PAT %\T$1 0,Y\'RE GR[+ ALL RI<T -- LIKE A CANC]6 ,ALL ! LIFE-DE/ROY+ POLITICAL SECTS >E GR[+4 ,Y\'RE NOT GR[+ BECAUSE Y\ C>RY LIFE1 BUT BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE HAVE BE5 DEAD SO LONG !Y'RE AFRAID ( LIFE4 ,Y\ (F] !M DEA?1 ?AT'S :Y !Y TURN TO Y\6 ,Y\ RESCUE !M FROM A VOID ?AT CALLS = CREATIVITY & IMAG9ATION & Y\ GIVE !M BACK !IR LO/ BOR$OM & R\T9E2 Y\ SAVE !M FROM ! LEAP 9TO ! UNKN[N & *ANNEL !M BACK TO ! KN[N4 ,Y\'RE GRAV$IGG]S ( REVOLUTIONS & MURD]]S ( REVOLUTION>IES4 ,Y\'RE ! CANC] ( A REVOLUTION>Y P]IOD60 

,RHEA'S GR9 DIDN'T LEAVE H] FACE1 0,DO Y\ ?9K Y\'LL EV] GET WORK]S TO FOLL[ Y\R PETTY-B\RGEOIS PHILOSOPHY ( DESPAIR80 

,I %\T$1 0,Y\ CAN'T EV5 IMAG9E PEOPLE DO+ ANY?+ O!R ?AN FOLL[6 ,FREE HUMAN BE+S >E 9CONCEIVABLE TO Y\60 

,RHEA /ILL REMA9$ CALM4 0,WORK]S WILL BE FREE :5 !Y BECOME CONSCI\S ( !IR NE$ = !IR ORGANIZATION & !IR LEAD]S40 

0,SAID ,HITL]60 ,PAT %\T$4 

0,:O HIR$ Y\ TO COME H]E & HECKLE80 ,RHEA ASK$ ME4 

,I SMIL$ & ANSW]$ POLITELY1 0,NO ONE HIR$ US1 ,RHEA4 ,WE VOLUNTE]$ \R TIME40 ,I TOOK ,PAT'S H& & WE WALK$ AWAY FROM H]4 ,AS SOON AS WE W]E \T ( ! BUILD+1 ,I LET GO ( ,PAT'S H&4 ,I WAS DEPRESS$4 ,I RECOGNIZ$ SOME?+ ( MYSELF 9 ,RHEA4 ,NOT ! COMMITM5T TO ! ORGANIZATION OR TO ! /ATE4 ,! LIFE-DE/ROY+ FUNCTION ( ! PUPPETE]S & MANIPULATORS IS P]FECTLY CLE> TO ME N[4 ,MAYBE IT WASN'T ?AT CLE> TO ME TW5TY YE>S AGO2 ,I WAS ONLY FIFTE54 ,Y\R LETT]S HAVE MADE ME EXTREMELY S5SITIVE TO ! SELF-ELECT$ 0VANGU>DS10 ! PETTY DESPOTS P>AD+ AS ! WORLD'S GREATE/ REBELS1 SUCK+ BLOOD \T ( BE+S :O'VE JU/ COME TO LIFE1 ! ORGANIZ]S & POLITICIANS WAIT+ TO P\NCE ON ! SLAVES ONLY JU/ FRE$ FROM MA/]S4 ,TO ALL ( !M ! M]E SUGGE/ION ?AT HUMAN BE+S MI<T BE FREE & CREATIVE ?R\< !IR [N EF=TS IS AN EXPRESSION ( DESPAIR4 ,IT'S ,RHEA H]SELF :O IS DRIV5 TO DESPAIR4 ,! POSSIBILITY ?AT PEOPLE MI<T DO )\T H] BUREAUCRATIC ORGANIZATION & ITS DESPOTIC C5TRAL COMMITTEE IS :AT MAKES H] DESPAIR1 JU/ AS ! POSSIBILITY ?AT PEOPLE MI<T DO )\T UNIONS MAKES ,LUISA DESPAIR3 0,:AT >E WE LEFT )80 

,?ANK+ ,PAT = TELL+ ME AB\T ! >*ITECTS' MEET+1 ,I RAN (F TO MY B$ 9 ! 0DORMITORY40 ,I WAS DEPRESS$ BY ,RHEA'S LIFELONG DEP5D5CE ON AU?ORITY TO GUIDE H] LIFE'S ACTIVITY BECAUSE ,I RECOGNIZ$ A SIMIL> DEP5D5CE 9 MYSELF4 ,ONLY 9/EAD ( TAK+ A RUL]1 A MEGALOMANIAC1 TO BORR[ ,PAT'S WORD1 AS MY LIFE'S GUIDE1 ,I TOOK ,NA*ALO1 ,LUISA1 Y\4 ,I WAS WRONG SOME TIME AGO :5 ,I WROTE Y\ ?AT MY ACTIVITY ON ! UNIV]SITY NEWSPAP] /AFF HAD NO?+ 9 COMMON ) ,RHEA'S4 ,IF H] >TICLES REFLECT$1 NOT H] [N PRACTICE & ?\<T BUT H] AU?ORITY'S1 SO DID M9E4 ,:ATEV] ,I WROTE1 ,I KEPT MY 0COMMUNITY0 & MY 0MODELS0 9 FRONT ( ME AS MY GUIDES4 ,IF ,RHEA DIDN'T COMMUNICATE ?\<TS BUT M]ELY TRANSMITT$ !M1 ,I DID NO MORE4 ,I TRANSMITT$ ,LUISA'S ?\<TS & :AT ,I TOOK TO BE Y\R ?\<TS4 ,I DIDN'T LEAVE ANY MORE ROOM = ! MUTUAL 9V5TION ( PROJECTS ?AN ,RHEA DID4 ,ONLY MY AU?ORITIES W]5'T AMONG ! WORLD'S GREAT RUL]S1 & !RE=E RAY DEP5D5CE WASN'T NOTIC$1 EV5 BY ME4 

,I REMA9$ DEPRESS$ = TWO OR ?REE DAYS1 AL?\< ,I CONT9U$ TO BE /IMULAT$ BY ! ACTIVITIES & UN5D+ DEBATES TAK+ PLACE >\ND ME4 ,I C\LDN'T GET ,RHEA \T ( MY M9D -- NOR ,PAT -- & ,I AGA9 AVOID$ CONTACTS ) HIM4 ,IT WAS ,T9A :O KNOCK$ ME \T ( MY S\R MOOD4 ,ONE MORN+ %E WOKE ME AT SUNRISE & LIT]ALLY PULL$ ME \T ( B$4 

0,NO?+ H]E CAN POSSIBLY BE MORE EXCIT+ ?AN ! PLACE ,HEFT LA/ NI<T1 & ,I'D FEEL LIKE A CRIM9AL IF ,I DIDN'T PU% Y\ TO GO !RE10 ,T9A TOLD ME4 0,LA/ NI<T ,I RETURN$ FROM ! OCCUPI$ RESE>* C5T]4 ,SAB9A & ,TISSIE >E BO? P>T ( ! NEW CREW1 & !Y'RE JU/ DY+ TO %[ ! PLACE (F TO Y\4 ,T$ IS GO+ BACK !RE TODAY & HE'LL BE GLAD TO TAKE Y\ ALONG40 

,I HADN'T SE5 ,T$ S9CE ,I'D LEFT ! G>AGE2 ,I HAD EV5 AVOID$ GO+ 9TO ! PR9T %OP ! DAY ,I CAME TO ! COMMUNE2 MY FIR/ RESPONSE TO ! PROSPECT ( SEE+ HIM AGA9 WAS FRI<T4 ,T$'S NI<TLY VISITS TO ,T9A'S ROOM1 MY DESP]ATELY VIOL5T ATTEMPT TO PULL HIM \T ( MY B$1 HIS CONVICTION ?AT ,I HAD 9T5D$ TO RAVAGE ,T9A1 ALL FLA%$ ?R\< MY M9D4 ,I TOLD ,T9A1 0,I'D LOVE TO GO -- BUT C\LDN'T ,I GO :5EV] Y\ GO BACK !RE80 

0,I JU/ SP5T A WEEK !RE2 IT WAS FABUL\S & ,I 9T5D TO GO BACK4 ,BUT ,I WANT TO HELP CLEAN UP SOME ( ! MESS 9 ! PR9T %OP1 & ,I'D LIKE TO LE>N TO USE SOME ( ! ?+S PEOPLE BR\<T4 ,I KN[ :AT Y\'RE ?9K+1 ,SOPHIA4 ,BE=E Y\ EV] LEFT ! G>AGE ,T$ FIGUR$ \T HE'D BE5 WRONG AB\T Y\4 ,Y\ W]E JU/ AS WRONG AB\T ,T$4 ,HE'S WILL+ TO =GET2 :Y >5'T Y\8 ,:Y >E Y\ SO UNFAIR80 

0,IS ?AT :Y Y\ WOKE ME1 ,T9A8 ,TO CONV9CE ME TO MAKE UP ) ,T$80 

0,GO%1 ,SOPHIA1 Y\'RE JU/ LIKE A BABY6 ,NO1 ,I'M NOT TRY+ TO =CE Y\ 9TO ANY?+4 ,I G5U9ELY ?\<T Y\'D WANT TO SEE ?AT PLACE & TO SEE :AT ,SAB9A IS DO+60 ,T9A />T$ TO WALK AWAY FROM ME4 

0,WAIT60 ,I %\T$2 0,I'LL GO IF ,PAT AGREES TO GO ) ME40 

,9 LESS ?AN HALF AN H\R ,T9A RETURN$ TO MY DORM ROOM ) ,PAT4 0,IF ,T9A ?9KS NO ONE %\LD MISS IT1 !N IT MU/ REALLY BE WOR? VISIT+10 ,PAT SAID TO ME4 0,& ON ! WAY !RE ,I'LL BE ABLE TO ASK ! PR9T] AB\T SOME PROBLEMS ,I'VE BE5 HAV+ ) ! CAM]A40 

,PAT & ,I W5T TO HAVE A QUICK BREAKFA/ :ILE ,T9A RETURN$ TO ! PR9T %OP TO TELL ,T$ TO MEET US AT ! CORN] ( ! CAMPUS4 ,AFT] BREAKFA/ ,I RAN UP = MY PURSE & TOO?BRU%1 & WE W]E (F4 ,PAT RECOGNIZ$ ,T$ :5 HE HONK$ ! C> HORN2 ,I DIDN'T4 ,I RAN TO ! BACK SEAT2 ,PAT SAT 9 FRONT4 ,T$ GREET$ ,PAT1 & !N EXT5D$ HIS H& TO ME1 LOOK+ SADLY 9TO MY EYES4 ,I PUT MY H& 9 HIS1 BUT C\LD ?9K ( NO?+ TO SAY TO HIM4 ,I FELT RELIEV$ :51 SOON AFT] WE />T$1 ,PAT ASK$ ,T$ SOME TE*NICAL QUE/IONS AB\T PR9T+4 

,T$ TOOK US TO A FANTASY WORLD ,I DIDN'T KN[ EXI/$31 AN IMM5SE FACTORY BUILD+ SET 9 L&SCAP$ G>D5S & SURR\ND$ BY A P>K4 ,! 5TRANCE WALLS W]E COV]$ BY SLOGANS1 SIMIL> TO ?OSE AT ! =M] UNIV]SITY1 BUT ! RE/ ( ! 5VIRONM5T WAS AN ELECTRONIC WOND]L&4 ,T$ TOLD US ,TISSIE & ,SAB9A W]E WORK+ ) A CREW DEVELOP+1 A VEHICLE ?AT W\LD TRANSPORT A P]SON TO ANY P>T ( ! WORLD 9 A FEW M9UTES4 ,HE L$ US TO A L>GE ROOM1 FULL ( COMPUT]S & ELECTRONICALLY OP]AT$ MA*9E TOOLS2 ! WALLS W]E COV]$ ) DIAGRAMS & PHOTOGRAPHS ( VEHICLES4 ,I IMM$IATELY1 SAW ,SAB9A ) A GR\P ( PEOPLE /UDY+ A COMPLEX WIR+ *>T4 ,SAB9A TURN$1 GR9N$1 & NUDG$ ! Y\NG WOMAN NEXT TO H]4 

,I C\LDN'T BELIEVE MY EYES :5 ,TISSIE JUMP$ & RAN T[>D ME4 0,HI1 SIS6 ,I ?\<T ,I'D NEV] SEE Y\ AGA910 %E %\T$ AS %E ?REW H] >MS >\ND ME4 0,Y\ LOOK GREAT6 ,ISN'T ?IS PLACE SOME?+80 

0,TISSIE6 ,Y\ LOOK SO HAPPY1 SO HEAL?Y6 ,I1 DIDN'T RECOGNIZE Y\60 

,DANC+ PR\DLY 9 FRONT ( ME1 ,TISSIE TOLD ME1 0,?REE WEEKS ) ,SAB9A PLUS SOME NEW CLO!S WAS ALL IT TOOK1 SIS60 

0,LET ME LOOK AT Y\1 ,TISSIE6 ,Y\ LOOK Y\NG] ?AN Y\ DID T5 YE>S AGO6 ,Y\'RE BEAUTIFUL60 ,I C\LDN'T GET OV] H] VIGOR2 %E WASN'T AT ALL ! P]SON ,I HAD KN[N 9 ! G>AGE4 

,TISSIE HUGG$ ,SAB9A & %\T$ PR\DLY1 0,HEY1 LI/5 TO ! COMPLIM5TS ,I'M GETT+1 & LI/5 TO :O'S GIV+ !M60 ,!N %E RAN TO ME1 TURN$ ME >\ND1 & EXCLAIM$1 0,HOLY ,M>Y MO!R ( GOD1 ,SAB9A1 DO Y\ ACTUALLY KEEP ?IS JEWEL ALL TO Y\RSELF ALL YE> R\ND80 

,I BLU%$ & />T$ TO CRY4 0,?ANK Y\ = BE+ SO NICE TO ME1 ,TISSIE2 ,I WASN'T V]Y NICE TO Y\40 

,TISSIE RETURN$ TO ME1 PRESS$ ME TI<TLY AGA9/ H] & :ISP]$1 0,Y\ W]E A GEM1 SIS40 

,I PECK$ H] LIPS & :ISP]$1 0,Y\'RE LY+4 ,Y\'RE ! GEM40 

,TISSIE PULL$ ,SAB9A T[>D ME4 0,H[ AB\T GIV+ SIS A T\R ( ! PLACE8 ,?IS VEHICLE WON'T GO ANY:]E = A :ILE YET4 ,HEY ,T$1 COME ON60 

,I REMEMB]$ ,PAT4 0,WAIT1 ,TISSIE1 ,I HAV5'T 9TRODUC$ MY FRI5D40 

0,DID HE COME ) Y\80 ,TISSIE ASK$1 TURN+ TO ,PAT4 0,SORRY !RE1 ,I DIDN'T SEE Y\40 

,I PULL$ ,PAT'S H& T[>D ,TISSIE'S4 0,?IS IS ,PAT ,CLESEC4 ,HE'S HELP$ ME UND]/& A GREAT DEAL ( :AT'S BE5 HAPP5+40 ,!N ,I 9TRODUC$ ,PAT TO 0MY TWO BE/ FRI5DS1 ,SAB9A ,NA*ALO & ,TISSIE ,AVIS40 

,PAT %OOK ,TISSIE'S H&1 !N ,SAB9A'S1 & ASK$1 0,ANO!R ,NA*ALO8 ,IS IT ! NAME ( A SECT1 AN ORD] OR SOME K9D ( SORORITY80 

,TISSIE TRI$ TO HELP HIM4 0,ONE ( !M IS ! O!R'S AUNT1 ?\< ,I CAN'T REMEMB] :I*4 ,>E Y\ ! AUNT1 ,SAB9A80 

,SAB9A ANSW]$1 0,I'M MY [N MO!R1 ,TISSIE1 SO ,I CAN'T V]Y WELL BE ! AUNT1 CAN ,I80 

,TISSIE TOLD ,PAT1 0,JU/ ACT AS IF !Y'RE SI/]S2 HAVE Y\ EV] SE5 TWO MORE GORGE\S SI/]S80 

,DISPLAY+ ,TISSIE TO ,PAT1 ,SAB9A SAID1 0,LOOK AT :O'S TALK+4 ,W\LD Y\ BELIEVE %E WAS RELEAS$ FROM A PRISON HOSPITAL ONLY ?REE WEEKS AGO80 

,T$ ADD$1 0,:5 %E CAME \T %E LOOK$ LIKE A CORPSE4 ,9CURABLE DOPE ADDICT1 !Y CALL$ H]4 ,A WEEK AFT] %E WAS \T %E WAS JU/ LIKE A KID1 ALL CUR$40 

,TISSIE PULL$ ,T$'S BE>D4 0,SURE ,I GOT CUR$1 'CAUSE ,I HAD AN OLD MAN LIKE Y\ TO TAKE C>E ( ME40 

,I WAS HYPNOTIZ$ BY ,TISSIE4 ,%E REALLY WAS LIKE A *ILD4 ,H] 5?USIASM1 H] 5]GY1 H] REBIR? W]E EV]Y BIT AS FANTA/IC TO ME AS ! /RIKES & OCCUPATIONS4 ,MAYBE :AT'S HAPP5+ IS ?AT WE'RE ALL BECOM+ *ILDR5 AGA94 ,\R RIGID ROLES & *>ACT]S >E DROPP+ (F LIKE DRI$ SK94 ,WE'RE FASC9AT+ TO EA* O!R BECAUSE EA* ONE ( \R ACTS MI<T BE A TOTAL SURPRISE1 AT ANY 9/ANT \R P]SONALITIES MI<T *ANGE COMPLETELY4 ,LIKE *ILDR51 WE'RE NOT EXHAU/$ BY :AT WE'VE BE5 & >E2 LIFE IS AHEAD ( US2 WE'RE NO LONG] DEAD4 

,TISSIE ANN\NC$1 0,IF NO ONE'S GOT ANY MORE COMPLIM5TS1 LET'S />T61 ,BUT IF ANYONE HAS MORE NICE ?+S TO SAY AB\T ME1 ,I'LL /AY ALL DAY6 ,I LOVE IT60 

,SAB9A KNEEL$ 9 FRONT ( ,TISSIE1 KISS$ ,TISSIE'S H& & QUOT$1 0,%ALL ,I COMP>E !E TO A SUMM]'S DAY8 ,?\ >T MORE LOVELY & MORE TEMP]ATE --0 

,TISSIE DANC$ >\ND ,SAB9A & LAU<$4 0,OH1 BUT MY EYES >E NO?+ LIKE ! SUN13 MUSIC MAKES1 A MU* MORE PLEAS+ S\ND1 & :5 ,I WALK ,I ALWAYS /AY ON !3 GR\ND40 ,RAIS+ ,SAB9A (F ! GR\ND1 %E ASK$ H] GYPSY TUTOR 0IF ,I GET IT RI<T80 

0,WORD = WORD1 ,TISSIE4 ,NEXT WEEK1 :5 ! :OLE WORLD BECOMES \R TOY1 EV]YONE WILL SPEAK 9 V]SE -- !IR [N V]SE40 

,TISSIE S&WI*$ H]SELF BETWE5 ,SAB9A & ME1 ,PAT & ,T$ TRAIL$ BEH9D1 & ! T\R BEGAN4 ,SAB9A WAS LIKE A GUIDE TO A =EIGN DELEGATION1 & ,I WAS AS MU* ( A T\RI/ AS ,I HAD BE5 & HAD CONT9U$ TO BE 9 ! G>AGE4 ,YET ,I WASN'T AS MU* ( A T\RI/ AS ,PAT4 ,SAB9A1 ,TISSIE1 & ! PLACE ITSELF W]E MORE ?AN HIS ALL-5COMPASS+ 9TELLECT C\LD ABSORB4 ,HE WAS COMPLETELY AT SEA4 

,! T\R BEGAN 9 ! ROOM 9 :I* WE /OOD4 ,SAB9A PO9T$ AT PICTURES & DIAGRAMS & SPOKE ( VEHICLES ?AT W\LD TRANS=M HUMAN BE+S 9TO BIRDS4 ,%E DESCRIB$ ! GR\P'S CURR5T PROJECT3 A VEHICLE1 NOT MU* L>G] ?AN AN 9DIVIDUAL1 :I* W\LD RESPOND TO V]BAL 9/RUCTIONS1 /& /ILL 9 ! AIR OR FLY SEV]AL TIMES FA/] ?AN S\ND4 ,%E SPOKE ( H\SES ) 5TRANCES ON !IR RO(S1 ALL4 GR\ND BE+ US$ UP BY G>D5S & FIELDS 9 :I* TO WALK & PLAY4 ,%E SAID SU* VEHICLES C\LD ALMO/ BE BUILT N[1 BUT ALL RESE>* ON !M WAS BE+ SUPPRESS$4 0,! WAY !Y SUPPRESS ! ?+ IS TO HIRE ALL SO-CALL$ G5IUSES ON ! V]GE ( DESIGN+ IT & BURY !M 9 ?IS ROOM4 ,H]E !Y'RE ALL[$ TO PLAY \T !IR S*EMES ON PAP]4 ,:Y >E !Y SUPPRESS+ IT8 ,BECAUSE ?IS LITTLE VEHICLE LA/S A LIFETIME1 USES NO /EEL & LITTLE PLA/IC1 BURNS NO GAS1 & CAN BE BUILT BY ANYONE ONCE ! PR9CIPLES >E KN[N4 ,IT W\LD MEAN ! VIRTUAL 5D ( ASSEMBLY L9ES1 ROAD BUILD+1 OIL PRODUCTION40 ,!N1 AS IF ANTICIPAT+ OBJECTIONS ,I DIDN'T DREAM ( MAK+1 %E EXPLA9$1 0,A C5TRAL COMPUT] KEEPS TRACK ( EV]Y /&+ & MOV+ VEHICLE4 ,AT ANY 9/ANT AN 9F9ITY ( POSITIONS & PA?S IS AVAILABLE1 SO !RE'S NEV] A CRA% OR A BOTTL5ECK4 ,C5TRAL COMPUT] BREAKD[NS >E MONITOR$ BY ANY NUMB] ( COMPUT]S LOCAT$ ELSE:]E & READY TO TAKE OV]4 ,! SOLE FUNCTION ( ! COMPUT]S IS TO PREV5T CRA%ES & BOTTL5ECKS4 ,NO ONE CONTROLS ! COMPUT]S4 ,9 CIRCUM/ANCES :]E SU* VEHICLES W\LD BE POSSIBLE1 P[] OV] ! TRANSPORTATION COMPUT]S W\LD BE AS \TL&I% AS P[] OV] ! WORLD'S SUPPLY ( AIR40 

,ON ! WAY TO \R NEXT M>VEL1 ,SAB9A WALK$ BETWE5 ,TISSIE & ME4 ,SQUEEZ+ ME1 %E SAID1 0,Y\ LOOK SO LO/1 ,SOPHIA1 & SO FRI<T5$6 ,Y\'RE REALLY SOME?+6 ,Y\ HAVE NO FACADE6 ,ALL Y\R FEEL+S %[ ON Y\R FACE4 ,I'M ALL FACADE4 ,I'M PRET5D+ ?AT ,I LOVE EV]Y?+ ?AT'S HAPP5+ H]E4 ,NO D\BTS OR RES]VATIONS WILL EV] %[ ON MY FACE6 ,BUT HALF ! ?+S ?AT CAN BE DONE H]E SC>E ! HELL \T ( ME60 ,WE 5T]$ A ROOM ) SUBDU$ LI<T1 D>K CURTA9S & V>I\S /RANGE PLA/IC OBJECTS4 ,SAB9A CONT9U$1 0,I CAN UND]/& VEHICLES1 BUT WAT* ?IS60 ,%E OP]AT$ A SWIT* & A CUP APPE>$ ON A TABLE4 0,GRAB IT6 ,Y\R H& WILL GO RI<T ?R\< IT4 ,!RE'S NO?+ !RE4 ,?IS IS A WAY = SOMEONE TO GO ANY:]E NOT 9 M9UTES1 BUT 9/ANTLY4 ,ONLY ! P]SON :O GOES IS NO MORE REAL ?AN ?IS CUP4 ,IT'S CALL$ A HOLOGRAM4 ,Y\ CAN /AY 9 Y\R B$ :ILE Y\R HOLOGRAM TRAVELS ALL OV] ! WORLD4 ,Y\ C\LD BE /&+ 9 FRONT ( ME LOOK+ AS REAL AS LIFE UNTIL ,I TRI$ TO EMBRACE Y\ -- MY >MS W\LD GO ?R\< AIR3 Y\'D BE NO?+ BUT A PROJECTION ( LI<T4 ,ISN'T ?AT AWFUL8 ,IT'S P>T ( ! SAME PACKAGE AS ! VEHICLES4 ,:5 Y\ WRITE ,Y>O/AN TELL HIM ,I'M NOT AS SURE ( MYSELF AS ,I ONCE WAS40 

,TISSIE OBS]V$1 0,!SE ?+S W\LD SURE MAKE LIFE 9 PRISON MORE BE>ABLE6 ,I C\LD AT LEA/ ?9K Y\ W]E RI<T !RE ) ME40 

,PAT OP5$ HIS M\? = ! FIR/ TIME4 0,I'D ?\<T !Y W]E ONLY 9TO TRANSPORTATION RESE>* AT2 ?IS PLACE40 

0,!Y'RE 9TO EV]Y?+ !Y CAN TURN 9TO M]*&ISE10 ,SAB9A TOLD HIM4 0,!Y'D HAVE AN ORGASM DEP>TM5T IF SOMEONE 9V5T$ AN ORGASM MA*9E ?AT CONTA9$ A TON ( /EEL & US$ A B>REL ( OIL EV]Y TIME IT GOT Y\ EXCIT$4 ,NEXT !Y'D HAVE TWO SU* MA*9ES GETT+ EA* O!R EXCIT$ :ILE !4 RE/ ( US LAY 9 PRISON HOSPITALS *ATT+ ) HOLOGRAMS4 ,I REJECT$ ,JAN ,S$LAK'S ATTITUDE ( TE*NOLOGY ALL MY LIFE1 ,SOPHIA1 BUT ,I CAN NO LONG] CONV9CE MYSELF --0 

0,HEY :AT'S ALL ?IS80 ,TISSIE %\T$4 0,= ?REE WEEKS Y\'VE BE5 TEA*+ ME AB\T IT1 TELL+ ME H[ GREAT IT ALL IS60 

,SAB9A SWUNG ,TISSIE & ME >\ND & PULL$ US \T ( ! HOLOGRAM ROOM4 0,Y\'RE RI<T1 ,TISSIE4 ,IT IS GREAT4 ,I WAS ONLY RAIS+ 9T]E/+ QUE/IONS4 ,T$1 LET'S %[ (F Y\R HANG\T40 

,WE 5T]$ ANO!R COMPUT]-FILL$ ROOM4 ,SAB9A HAD ME SIT4 AT A DESK-& PRESS ONE ( ! BUTTONS BEL[ ! WORD 0,QUANTITY10'& !N TOLD ME TO SPEAK 9TO A MICROPHONE4 ,AS SOON AS ,I'D SPOK5 ?REE WORDS ,T$ H&$ ME FIVE SLIPS ( PAP] ) ! WORDS 0,I'M COMPLETELY LO/0 PR9T$ ON !M4 ,?IS TIME4 ,I WAS ! ONE ) D\BTS & RES]VATIONS4 0,I'M 5\< ( AN 5VIRONM5TALI/ TO KN[ ?AT ) SU* A GADGET EV]Y MEGALOMANIAC W\LD MAKE MILLIONS ( COPIES ( HIS RAV+S1 S9CE HE'D NO LONG] HAVE TO BO!R WRIT+ !M D[N1 & =E/S W\LD ALL BE DEPLET$ 9 A DAY40 

0,9 ?IS DEP>TM5T !Y'VE ALREADY MOV$ F> BEYOND ?AT OBJECTION1 PROBABLY BECAUSE ! =E/S >E ALREADY DEPLET$10 ,SAB9A TOLD ME4 0,ALL ! WORLD'S WRIT+S W\LD EXI/ NO:]E EXCEPT 9 A COMPUT] LIBR>Y4 ,!RE'D BE NO MORE BOOK COLLECTIONS1 LIBR>IES1 BOOK/ORES OR FILES4 ,EV]YONE W\LD HAVE A FAIRLY SMALL COMPUT]4 ,:5EV] %E WANTS A BOOK OR A WORK ( >T1 ! COMPUT] PRODUCES IT = H]1 9 A FEW SECONDS4 ,%E CAN /UDY IT1 TAKE NOTES ON IT1 KEEP IT >\ND4 ,:5 %E'S ?R\< ) IT1 %E DEPOSITS IT 9TO A PAP] DISPOSAL UNIT 9/EAD ( A %ELF OR A DRAW]4 ,! SAME SMALL QUANTITY ( PAP] CIRCULATES AMONG ALL ! US]S ( ALL PR9T$ WORKS4 ,IF %E'S DEVOT$ TO BOOK%ELVES1 %E CAN HAVE HOLOGRAMS ( !M ALONG EV]Y WALL -- IT'S ! ONLY POSITIVE USE ,I CAN ?9K ( = HOLOGRAMS -- BUT :5 %E WANTS A BOOK1 %E DOESN'T REA* 9TO ! %ELF BUT 9TO ! COMPUT]4 ,:5 %E'S ?R\< %E DEPOSITS ! BOOK 9 ! DISPOSAL & ITS HOLOGRAM 9TO ! %ELF4 ,!RE'S NO?+ WRONG ) ?IS DEP>TM5T2 !Y W\LD EV5 9TRODUCE IT 9TO ! PRES5T SY/EM IF /EEL OR CONCRETE OR OIL OR SOME O!R L>GE 9T]E/S W]E 9VOLV$10 

0,BUT IT TAKES ALL ! FUN \T ( PR9T+10 ,T$ COMM5T$2 0! COMPUT] DOES IT ALL40 

0,?AT'S ! PO9T ( ! :OLE PLACE10 ,SAB9A ADD$4 0,! COMPUT] DOES IT ALL4 ,BUT LET'S GO EAT6 ,!RE'S A GOOD RE/AURANT1 & !RE >E NO COMPUT]S TO DO ! EAT+ = Y\40 

,:5 WE SAT D[N TO EAT ,I ASK$ ,PAT :AT HIS IMPRESSIONS W]E4 ,HE ANN\NC$1 0,! SLOGANS ON ! WALLS >E FANTA/IC3 ,!Y REFLECT ! MO/ REVOLUTION>Y ACQUISITIONS ( ! PROLET>IAT TO DATE1 ANY:]E40 

0,SLOGANS80 ,TISSIE ASK$4 0,I NEV] NOTIC$ !M40 

0,?AT'S BECAUSE Y\'RE NOT A PR(ESSOR1 ,TISSIE10 ,SAB9A TOLD H]4 0,PR(ESSORS DON'T NOTICE ANY?+ ELSE40 

,PAT WAS (F5D$4 0,SLOGANS >E (T5 A CONCISE EXPRESSION ( ! !ORY ?AT 9=MS ! PROLET>IAT'S PRACTICE40 

0,Y\ MU/ HAVE BE5 P>T ( ! /UD5T DEMON/RATION ?AT CAME H]E ! DAY AFT] ! OCCUPATION10 ,SAB9A SAID TO HIM4 

,PAT GREW 9CREAS+LY (F5D$4 0,I /AY AWAY FROM DEMON/RATIONS1 ?AT PSEUDO-ACTIVITY ORGANIZ$ BY POLITICIANS40 

,I ASK$ ,SAB9A AB\T ! DEMON/RATION4 ,%E TOLD ME ?\S&S ( PEOPLE HAD M>*$ T[>D ! NEWLY-OCCUPI$ RESE>* C5T] ) FLAGS & PLAC>DS2 0,! GATES W]E WIDE OP51 & EV]YONE H]E ?\<T !Y'D ALL COME 9SIDE & TURN ?IS PLACE 9TO A POPUL> PLAYGR\ND4 ,BUT W\LD Y\ BELIEVE IT8 ,ALL ?OSE ?\S&S /OPP$ 9 FRONT ( A S\ND TRUCK & LI/5$ TO SLOGANS BROADCA/ TO !M OV] L\DSPEAK]S4 ,NO ONE & NO?+ HELD !M !RE4 ,:5 ! SLOGANE]+ 5D$ !Y ALL DISP]S$2 ! OP5 GATE REMA9$ AN IMPASSABLE B>RI] TO !M40 

0,AFRAID TO T\* :AT !Y SAID !Y WANT$10 ,TISSIE ADD$4 

,PAT TRI$ TO EXPLA91 0,?OSE PEOPLE W]E V5DORS ( POLITICAL IDEOLOGIES & !IR CU/OM]S4 ,! SLOGANS ,I LIK$ H]E >5'T EXPRESSIONS ( IDEOLOGY1 BUT ( !ORY2 !Y SUBJECT REVOLUTION>Y PRACTICE TO DEMY/IFY+ SCRUT9Y-0 

,BUT ,SAB9A 9SI/$1 0,SLOGANS1 PR(ESSOR1 >E :AT ?AT DEMON/RATION WAS AB\T2 ! R5UNCIATION ( ! WORLD = ! SAKE ( ! WORD40 

,PAT /UCK TO HIS PO9T4 0,IF ! PROLET>IAT DOESN'T REGA9 ITS REVOLUTION>Y P]SPECTIVE ! REVOLUTION WILL BE /ILLBORN & PRACTICAL NE$S WILL F9D NO G5U9E REVOLUTION>Y =M60 

0,PR(ESSOR --0 ,SAB9A BEGAN4 

0,I'M NOT A PR(ESSOR & ,I DON'T ASPIRE TO BE ONE60 ,PAT %\T$4 

0,DON'T BE SORE10 ,TISSIE TOLD ,PAT4 0,:5EV] ANYONE USES WORDS AS BIG AS %E DOES1 %E CALLS !M A PR(ESSOR40 

,BUT ,PAT REMA9$ SORE ?R\< ! RE/ ( ! MEAL & = ! REMA9D] ( ! EV5+4 ,I WAS V]Y TIR$ SOON AFT] SUPP]4 & ,SAB9A %[$ ,PAT & ME TO 0\R B$ROOM10 TELL+ US %E & ,TISSIE SLEPT ACROSS ! HALL1 9 CASE WE NE$$ ANY?+4 ,\R ROOM WAS A =M] EXECUTIVE SUITE2 ITS S(T C>PET MADE ME ?9K ( A ROOM ,SAB9A HAD ONCE DESCRIB$ TO ME1 A ROOM ) A WALL-TO-WALL MATTRESS4 ,! C>PET SEEM$ CLEAN 5\<1 BUT ,I DIDN'T AVAIL MYSELF ( ?IS LUXURY2 ,I FELL ON A L>GE C\* NEXT TO ! WALL4 ,PAT SULK$ 9 A CORN] ( ! ROOM1 NEXT TO A LAMP1 & READ A BOOK HE HAD BR\<T ALONG4 ,I HAD NO?+ TO SAY TO HIM4 ,HE HAD BE5 \T->GU$ BY A WOMAN1 & HE C\LDN'T ACCEPT ?AT4 ,9 ! MORN+ HE TOLD ME HE WANT$ TO RETURN TO ! OCCUPI$ UNIV]SITY4 ,:5 ,I 9SI/$ ON SP5D+ AT LEA/ ONE MORE DAY 9 ! RESE>* C5T]1 HE TOLD ME HE W\LDN'T ACCOMPANY ME OR MY 0KN[-NO?+ FRI5DS10 BUT W\LD T\R ! PLACE ON HIS [N1 OR ) 0! PR9T]40 

,TISSIE KNOCK$ :5 WE W]E AB\T TO LEAVE \R ROOM4 0,IT'S MY TURN TO GIVE Y\ TWO A T\R40 ,I TOLD H] ,PAT WAS 9TIMIDAT$ BY WOM5 & W\LD T\R BY HIMSELF4 ,TISSIE EXCIT$LY SQUEEZ$ MY H& & :ISP]$1 0,GOOD1 ,I WANT Y\ ALL TO MYSELF1 SIS4 ,I WANT$ Y\ = YE>S4 ,SC>$80 

,AS WE WALK$ AWAY FROM ,PAT'S & MY B$ROOM1 ,I PUT MY >M TI<TLY >\ND ,TISSIE'S WAI/ & TOLD H]1 0,I'M FRI<T5$ \T ( MY WITS60 

0,BUT Y\'LL COME ANYWAY80 

0,TO ! 5D ( ! WORLD1 ,TISSIE4 ,I'M ALL Y\RS1 ALL DAY LONG40 

,IT WAS AN UNIMAG9ABLY BEAUTIFUL SUMM] DAY4 ,! SKY WAS CLE>1 ! AIR WAS CLEAN1 !RE WAS A SLI<T BREEZE4 ,TISSIE1 ! 09CURABLE DOPE ADDICT10 L$ ME TO ,T$'S C>4 ,AFT] A FIVE-M9UTE DRIVE1 %E P>K$ BY ! 5TRANCE ( :AT LOOK$ LIKE A VA/ E/ATE4 0,I WANT$ TO %[ Y\ :AT ! O!R HALF US$ TO DO DUR+ !IR BREAKS & LUN* H\RS10 %E TOLD ME4 ,WE WALK$ 9TO A FABUL\S P>K ) COV]$ WALKS SURR\ND$ BY ?ICK =E/2 ! MORN+ SUN ONLY REA*$ ! TOPS ( ! TREES4 0,!RE >E SEV]AL /REAMS1 A POOL1 A L>GE LAKE4 ,I W5T WILD ! FIR/ TIME ,SAB9A & ,I CAME H]E4 ,IMAG9E ME1 AFT] SP5D+ ALL ?OSE YE>S 9 PRISON1 & !N 9 ?AT W>D60 ,SUDD5LY %\T+1 0,WAT* ?IS60 %E DOVE RI<T ?R\< A SEEM+LY SOLID H$GE4 0,COME ON ?R\<60 %E %\T$4 ,I FOLL[$ H] ?R\< ! H$GE & F\ND MYSELF 9 A GRASS-C>PET$ 0ROOM0 COMPLETELY SURR\ND$ BY TREES4 ,LY+ ON ! GRASS 9 A SUNLIT CORN] ( ! 0ROOM10 ,TISSIE TOLD ME1 0,SAB9A & ,I F\ND ?IS PLACE BY ACCID5T4 ,ISN'T IT GREAT8 ,I'D COME H]E ) H] EV]Y SUNNY DAY IF %E WASN'T SO BUSY ) H] VEHICLE40 ,I LAY D[N ALONGSIDE H]4 ,TISSIE RE/$ H] HEAD ON MY /OMA* & ASK$1 0,Y\ M9D80 

0,NO1 ,TISSIE4 ,I DON'T M9D40 ,TE>S CAME TO MY EYES AS ,I RAN MY F+]S ?R\< H] HAIR4 0,I'M SORRY AB\T :AT ,I DID TO Y\1 ,TISSIE40 

,TISSIE PULL$ MY H& TO H] M\?4 0,Y\'RE NOT ! ONE ?AT %\LD BE SORRY1 ,SOPHIE40 ,IT WAS ! FIR/ TIME %E'D CALL$ ME BY MY NAME4 0,I'M ! ONE ?AT'S SORRY40 

0,Y\ MEAN AB\T GETT+ ME TO Y\R ROOM BY TELL+ ME Y\ W]E SC>$8 ,Y\ KNEW ,I W\LDN'T HAVE GONE IF Y\'D TOLD ME :AT Y\ WANT$40 

0,AB\T ?AT TOO BUT ,I'M A LOT SORRI] AB\T O!R ?+S4 ,I HAD Y\ ALL WRONG4 ,I HAD EV]Y?+ ALL WRONG4 ,I ?\<T Y\ W]E JU/ LIKE ,SAB9A & ME4 ,SE? WANT$ Y\ & ,T9A 9 ! B>1 & ,I WANT$ ?OSE %OTS MORE ?AN ,I WANT$ ANYONE OR ANY?+4 ,I TRI$ TO GET Y\ = MYSELF & = ,SE? AT ! SAME TIME1 & ,I ?\<T Y\ W]E JU/ PRET5D+ Y\ DIDN'T WANT ME4 ,I WAG SURE ,JOSE & ,T$ HAD TOLD Y\ ,I JU/ WANT$ Y\ = ,SE?1 & ,I HAT$ BO? ( !M2 ,JOSE KEPT ME FROM Y\ & ,T$ KEPT ME FROM ,T9A --0 

,A %OCK W5T ?R\< ME2 WE BO? SAT UP4 0,T$ KEPT Y\ FROM ,T9A180 

0,DON'T TELL ME Y\ /ILL ?9K HE WANT$ ,T9A = HIMSELF60 ,TISSIE EXCLAIM$4 0,T$ WAS JU/ LIKE H] FA!R60 

0,T9A'S FA!R80 ,I ASK$ /UPIDLY4 

0,M9E TOO60 %E ADD$4 0,Y\ SURE HAD HIM FIGUR$ \T ALL WRONG4 ,T$'S ! ONLY FA!R ,I EV] HAD2 ,I C\LDN'T EV] /& HIM BUT ,I ALWAYS LOV$ HIM EV] S9CE ,I WAS LITTLE4 ,I NEV] HAD A REAL FA!R2 ,I H>DLY EV5 HAD A MO!R4 ,! WOMAN :O BORE ME WAS A DRUNK>D & A PRO/ITUTE4 ,I ,WAS EI<T :5 ,I HAD MY FIR/ SEX2 IT WAS ) ONE ( MY MO!R'S GIRLFRI5DS4 ,I SP5T MO/ DAYS & NI<TS ON ! /REET4 ,?AT'S :]E ,I MET ,T$4 ,HE WAS ! BE/ C> ?IEF 9 ! NEI<BORHOOD4 ,HE LET ME MOVE 9TO ! G>AGE :]E HE LIV$4 ,ONE DAY WE W]E BO? CAU<T 9 A /OL5 C> & S5T TO RE=M S*OOL4 ,?AT WAS :]E ,I GOT ! RE/ ( MY SEXUAL $UCATION4 ,ONE ( ! GIRLS ,I MET WAS A PRO/ITUTE TO RI* WOM54 ,?AT'S :AT ,I DID :5 ,I CAME \T4 ,BUT ,I MISS$ ,T$4 ,HE WAS ! ONLY P]SON ,I KNEW :O DIDN'T TREAT ME AS A MONKEY OR A RUBB] DOLL4 ,HE'D ALWAYS TALK$ TO ME AS IF ,I UND]/OOD2 HE'D TRI$ TO TEA* ME ?+S4 ,SOME NEI<BORHOOD KIDS TOLD ME HE WAS \T ( RE=M S*OOL & WAS RUNN+ ! G>AGE BY HIMSELF4 ,I ASK$ HIM IF HE /ILL HAD ROOM = ME4 ,HE C\LDN'T BELIEVE ,I ACTUALLY WANT$ TO /AY ) HIM4 ',WELL ,I A9'T GOT NO O!R HOME1' ,I TOLD HIM4 ,HE SOON FIGUR$ \T H[ ,I MADE MY MONEY1 BUT HE DIDN'T M9D4 ,T$ DIDN'T M9D ANY?+ UNTIL ,I />T$ TAK+ H]O94 ,?AT ONLY HAPP5$ AFT] ,SE? B\<T ! G>AGE & ,SAB9A & ,JOSE MOV$ 9 ) US & />T$ FIX+ UP ! H\SE4 ,I W5T WILD OV] ,SAB9A ! FIR/ TIME ,I SAW H]4 ,I KN[ Y\ CAN'T UND]/& ?AT1 SIS4 ,BE+ 9 ! SAME H\SE ) H]1 DAY AFT] DAY1 DROVE ME CRAZY4 ,I WASN'T A MONKEY TO H] BUT A P]SON1 ! WAY ,I WAS = ,T$1 BUT ,I WANT$ TO BE MORE ?AN ?AT TO H]4 ,%E BECAME MY GODDESS4 ,ALL ,I WANT$ 9 ! WORLD WAS TO BECOME H] SLAVE4 ,%E WANT$ ! H\SE FIR/1 & !N ALL ! MA*9ES4 ,& ABOVE ALL ELSE %E WANT$ H] PRECI\S 9DEP5D5CE4 ,?AT WAS :Y ,I />T$ TAK+ H]O94 ,?AT WAS :Y ,I />T$ DO+ ,SE?'S BIDD+4 ,I ?\<T ,I WAS %[+ ,SAB9A :AT K9D ( 9DEP5D5CE ,I WANT$1 BUT ,I DIDN'T %[ ANYONE ANY?+4 ,I JU/ GOT ALL MESS$ UP4 ,I />T$ HAT+ EV]YONE4 ,I TRI$ TO DRAG ,T9A TO ! B> & ONCE ,I EV5 TRI$ TO GET H] ON H]O92 ?AT WAS ! ONLY TIME ,T$ EV] HIT ME4 ,:5 Y\ CAME ,I WANT$ TO DO ! SAME ?+ TO Y\40 ,TISSIE WAS CRY+4 0,I WANT$ Y\ BAD1 SIS1 REAL BAD4 ,BUT ,I WANT$ ?AT H]O9 WORSE1 & !RE WAS NO?+ ,I WASN'T WILL+ TO DO = ,SE?2 ,I ?\<T HE WAS SO GOOD TOME6 ,I DRAGG$ Y\ TO ! B>2 ,I W\LD HAVE LET !M TAKE ?AT PRETTY BODY ( Y\RS & --0 

,I PLAC$ MY H& OV] H] M\? & PLEAD$1 0,DON'T1 ,TISSIE4 ,?AT'S ALL OV]1 & WE'RE BO? SO DIFF]5T N[40 

,TISSIE PU%$ ME D[N TO ! GR\ND1 PLAC$ H] LIPS RI<T ABOVE M9E & :ISP]$1 0,I HAV5'T *ANG$ ANY1 ,SOPHIE4 ,I /ILL WANT Y\ AS BAD AS ,I DID !N40 ,SUDD5LY %E BUR/ \T LAU<+4 0,Y\ HAV5'T *ANG$ EI!R1 SIS'6 ,Y\'RE %AK+60 

0,I'M SORRY1 ,TISSIE60 

0,DON'T BE SORRY6 ,Y\'RE JU/ HUNGRY1 ?AT'S ALL60 ,%E HAD BR\<T A BAG ALONG1 & />T$ UNPACK+ S&WI*ES1 A BOTTLE ( W9E1 CAKE4 0,AFT] LUN* ,I'LL TAKE Y\ TO ANO!R GORGE\S SPOT40 

,%E TOOK ME TO A S&Y BEA* AT A CRY/AL CLE> LAKE4 ,%E RAN 9TO ! WAT] NAK$1 P]FECTLY UNSELFCONSCI\S4 ,I FOLL[$ H]4 ,! ONLY PREVI\S TIME ,I SWAM 9 ! NUDE WAS N9ETE5 YE>S AGO1 :5 ,RON TOOK ME TO A LAKE BY A F>M4 ,TISSIE & ,I RAC$1 SPLA%$ EA* O!R1 & !N LAY ON ! GRASS 9 ! SUN1 \R BODIES T\*+4 ,TISSIE FELL ASLEEP4 ,I F\ND MYSELF LOOK+ AT H] AS IF ,I W]E LOOK+ 9TO A MIRROR4 ,B5EA? ! SEEM+ 5]GY & DET]M9ATION LAY ! SAME PASSIVITY1 ! SAME LONG+ = DEP5D5CE4 ,%E WANT$ TO BE ,SAB9A'S SLAVE4 ,:AT DID ,I WANT TO BE TO Y\1 TO ,JOSE1 TO ,HU<8 ,:5 %E FELT REJECT$ & ALONE1 %E TOOK H]O92 ,I DRIFT$ & />$ AT BLANK WALLS4 

,IT WAS NE>LY D>K :5 ,TISSIE DROVE ME BACK TO ! RESE>* C5T]4 ,WE HAD SUPP] BY \RSELVES 9 ! RE/AURANT4 0,IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY1 ,TISSIE1 EV]Y M9UTE ( IT4 ,I DON'T DES]VE TO BE TREAT$ SO GR&LY1 NOT BY Y\40 

0,DON'T BE SO H>D ON Y\RSELF1 ,SOPHIE1 OR ON ,T$ EI!R4 ,I'M ! ONE ?AT MESS$ EV]Y?+ UP 9 ! G>AGE4 ,I HAV5'T TOLD Y\ EV]Y?+4 ,I DON'T EV5 D>E TELL ,SAB9A2 ,I W\LDN'T HAVE ANY FRI5DS LEFT40 

0,I'LL BE Y\R FRI5D1 ,TISSIE1 ALWAYS1 EV5 IF Y\ DON'T EV] TELL ME ANY?+40 

0,:5 Y\ TALK LIKE ?AT1 SIS1 Y\ MAKE MY 9SIDES JUMP >\ND4 ,IF Y\ & ,SAB9A & ,I W]E ON AN ISL& F> AWAY FROM EV]Y?+ 444 ,COME ON1 ,I'LL WALK Y\ TO Y\R ROOM40 

,PAT WAS ALREADY 9 ! ROOM1 READ+4 ,I FELT HAPPY 4 ,I KISS$ HIS =EHEAD & ASK$ IF HE'D SP5T ! DAY 5JOYABLY4 ,ALL HE TOLD ME WAS1 0,I ASK$ ! PR9T] IF HE C\LD GIVE US A RIDE BACK TOMORR[4 ,HE SAID HE'D BE GLAD TO40 

,I LAY D[N ON ! C\* & FELL ASLEEP IMM$IATELY4 ,I WOKE UP ) A WEI<T ON MY *E/4 ,I PU%$ ,PAT'S HEAD AWAY FROM ME & SAT UP4 ,HE />T$ TO CRY4 0,I'M SORRY1 ,SOPHIA4 ,I DIDN'T WANT TO TAKE ADVANTAGE ( Y\ LIKE ?IS4 ,I -- ,I ?9K ,I'M 9 LOVE ) Y\4 ,EV] S9CE WE W5T TO TALK TO ! (FICE MA*9E WORK]S4 ,! SECOND TIME WE W5T1 MY H& ALMO/ T\*$ Y\RS1 ,I FELT SOME?+ FUNNY1 ,I WANT$ TO BE CLOSE TO Y\4 ,!N Y\ /AY$ AWAY FROM ME1 ,I ?\<T Y\ KNEW ,I WANT$ TO MAKE ADVANCES1 & Y\ DIDN'T WANT ME TO4 ,BUT A FEW NI<TS AGO1 AFT] ! >GUM5T ) Y\R =M] ROOMMATE1 Y\ SQUEEZ$ MY H& & --0 

,I FELT SORRY = HIM & HELD HIS HEAD 9 MY H&S2 ,I />T$ TO KISS HIM1 BUT HE W5T ON1 0,!N Y\ WANT$ ME TO COME H]E1 ) Y\1 & WE'RE ALONE 9 ! SAME ROOM AT NI<T4 ,I HE>D Y\ BREA?+4 ,Y\ W]E SO CLOSE1 ,SOPHIA4 ,Y\'RE SO BEAUTIFUL1 SO 9TELLIG5T40 

,I DROPP$ MY H&S FROM HIS FACE & FROZE4 ,I WAS SO 9TELLIG5T -- = A WOMAN4 ,SAB9A WAS F> TOO 9TELLIG5T2 %E 9TIMIDAT$ HIM4 ,BUT ,I WAS JU/ 9TELLIG5T 5\< TO MAKE HIM LOSE HIS HEAD4 ,I LAY BACK D[N & TURN$ MY BACK TO HIM4 ,I HE>D HIM LIE D[N ON ! C>PET NEXT TO ! C\*4 ,I FELT SORRY = HIM AGA91 & TRI$ TO /ROKE HIS *EEK ) MY H&1 BUT QUICKLY REGRETT$ DO+ ?AT ,HE TOOK MY H& 9 BO? ( HIS1 PRESS$ IT TO HIS LIPS1 & APP>5TLY 9T5D$ TO SP5D ! NI<T 9 ?AT POSITION4 ,I QUICKLY GOT A CRAMP 9 MY %\LD] & PULL$ MY H& AWAY4 

,:5 ,I WOKE UP ! NEXT MORN+1 ,PAT WAS PAC+1 IMPATI5T TO LEAVE4 ,I LEFT \R DOOR OP51 & AS SOON AS ,I SAW ,SAB9A COME \T ( H] ROOM ,I TOLD H] ,I'D GO BACK TO ! C\NCIL (FICE ) ,PAT4 

0,RUNN+ \T ON US SO SOON80 ,SAB9A ASK$4 

,I WAS /UNG BY ! WAY %E PUT IT4 0,?AT'S MEAN1 ,SAB9A4 ,I RAN \T ON Y\ & ,RON & W5T TO ! UNIV]SITY4 ,>E Y\ REF]R+ TO ?AT8 ,OR TO ! TIME ,I RAN \T ON ,JOSE80 

0,I'M SORRY1 ,SOPHIA4 ,IT WAS A MEAN WAY TO PUT IT ,I ?\<T Y\'D /AY ) US4 ,TISSIE & ,I BO? WANT Y\ CLOSE TO US4 ,IT WAS MY WAY ( SAY+ ,I'D FEEL EV5 BETT] AB\T BE+ H]E IF Y\ W]E H]E ) ME40 

,I WAS CRY+ ON ,SAB9A'S %\LD]4 0,I CAN'T4 ,MY M9D IS ALL FOGG$4 ,9 ! COMMUNE & ! C\NCIL1 9 ! MID/ ( LEAFLETS & >GUM5TS & NEWS ( /RIKES1 ,I KN[ :O ,I AM4 ,BUT ,I'M LO/ H]E4 ,I DON'T KN[ :O ,I AM OR :AT ,I WANT4 ,TISSIE TOLD ME AB\T ,T$1 AB\T H]SELF4 ,I HAV5'T HAD TIME TO ABSORB IT1 ANY ( IT4 ,I'LL COME BACK1 MAYBE EV5 TOMORR[1 BUT ,I'VE GOT TO KN[ :Y ,I'M COM+ BACK1 :AT ,I WANT40 

,JU/ !N ,TISSIE CAME RUNN+ T[>D US4 0,I'M LEAV+1 ,TISSIE1 BUT ,I PROMISE TO COME BACK40 

0,AW1 SIS1 WE BO? ?\<T Y\ W]E H]E1 TO /AY6 ,IS IT BECAUSE ( ME80 

0,NO1 ,TISSIE1 PLEASE DON'T EV] ?9K ?AT1 ,BE=E ,I CAME H]E1 ,I WAS CONV9C$ ?AT :AT ,I WAS DO+ WAS V]Y IMPORTANT1 V]Y MEAN+FUL TO ME4 ,I'M NO LONG] SURE4 ,I'D LIKE TO F9D \T BE=E ,I COME BACK40 

,SAB9A JUMP$ ON ,PAT AS SOON AS HE CAME \T ( \R ROOM4 0,SO Y\'VE HAD Y\R FILL ( PRACTICE & IT'S TIME = !ORY AGA940 

,PAT SAID CALMLY1 0,I RECOGNIZE ! REVOLUTION>Y *>ACT] ( ! APPROPRIATION ?AT TOOK PLACE H]E1 BUT ! PO9T IS NOT TO APPROPRIATE A S+LE 5T]PRISE BUT ! :OLE WORLD40 

0,IS ?AT :AT Y\'RE GO+ BACK TO DO80 

0,?AT'S :AT ,I'M GO+ TO TAKE P>T 94 ,REVOLUTION WILL BE MADE :5 ALL1 & NOT JU/ SOME ( ! VICTIMS ( ! M>KET'S TYRANNY ?R[ (F !IR %ACKLES40 

0,?AT'S WELL PUT4 ,& JU/ H[ DO Y\ 9T5D TO TAKE P>T 9 ALL ?AT80 ,SAB9A ASK$ HIM4 

0,BY KEEP+ ABREA/ ( REALITY4 ,A RADICAL CRITIQUE ( ! MOD]N WORLD MU/ HAVE ! TOTALITY AS ITS OBJECTIVE40 

,SAB9A WALK$ AWAY FROM HIM & W5T TO LOOK = ,T$4 

,ON ! RETURN TRIP ,I RODE 9 ! FRONT SEAT1 BETWE5 ,T$ & ,PAT4 ,I ?\<T ( :AT ,TISSIE HAD TOLD ME AB\T ,T$4 ,I DIDN'T KN[ H[ TO BEG9 UNDO+ MY GROSS MISUND]/&+1 MY BRUTAL 9JU/ICE4 ,I :ISP]$ TO HIM AWKW>DLY1 0,YE/]DAY ,TISSIE TOLD ME1 AB\T EV]Y?+444 ,I'M SORRY1 ,T$1 T]RIBLY SORRY4 ,I WAS CLOS$-M9D$ & MEAN40 

,HE TURN$ A V]Y SAD FACE T[>D ME4 0,I WASN'T SO OP5 EI!R1 ,SOPHIE1 ,I SAW ,SE?'S H& BEH9D EV]YONE & EV]Y?+4 ,I MADE Y\ SUSPICI\S ( ME4 ,& !N ! DAY ,JOSE WAS RELEAS$ Y\ C\LDN'T1 BE !RE TO SEE HIM BECAUSE HE CAME TO MY H\SE1 & Y\1 W\LDN'T HAVE COME !RE4 ,HE MI<T NOT HAVE GOTT5 KILL$ IF Y\'D BE5 !RE4'6 

0,PLEASE DON'T TELL ME ?AT1 ,T$40 

,I WAS CRY+4 ,I HADN'T RUN \T ON ,JOSE ONLY :5 ,I LEFT ! G>AGE4 ,I HAD RUN \T ON HIM AGA9 :5 HE WAS 9 PRISON4 ,ON MY ?IRD OR F\R? VISIT TO ! PRISON1 ,JOSE HAD TALK$ 5?USIA/ICALLY AB\T ! BOOKS ,I HAD BR\<T HIM4 ,HE TALK$ AB\T LIB]ATION /RUGGLES1 AB\T ! NE$ = ! OPPRESS$ TO >M !MSELVES4 ,I REALIZ$ ?AT :ILE ,I WAS C>RY+ BAGS FULL ( BOOKS TO ,JOSE1 BOOKS DESCRIB+ W>S ( LIB]ATION & REVOLUTION>Y UPRIS+S1 ,I WAS DRAGG+ MYSELF TO A FACTORY JOB EV]Y DAY EXCEPT ,SUNDAY4 ,! CONTRADICTION BETWE5 ! SUBJECTS ( ?OSE BOOKS & MY [N M9DLESS DRIFT BECAME UNBE>ABLE TO ME4 ,I C\LDN'T FACE ANO!R CONV]SATION ) ,JOSE4 ,I LONG$ TO DO SOME?+1 ANY?+ AT ALL1 ?AT W\LD ASSOCIATE ME 9 SOME WAY ) ! SUBJECTS ( ?OSE BOOKS4 ,ON ! DAY ,I HAD ACCOMPANI$ ,SAB9A & ,T9A TO ,DEBBIE ,MAT!WS' H\SE1 ,LEM ,ICEL HAD M5TION$ ! PEACE MOVEM5T1 & ,I HAD ASK$ ,T9A IF %E KNEW ANY?+ AB\T IT4 ,AL?\< ,T9A HAD CONTEMPTU\SLY DISMISS$ ! PEACE MOVEM5T1 %E REMEMB]$ MY QUE/ION & BR\<T ME A LEAFLET AB\T A DEMON/RATION2 ! BOTTOM ( ! LEAFLET SAID 0,VOLUNTE]S ,WELCOME0 & GAVE AN ADDRESS4 ,ON A ,SUNDAY 7MY ONLY DAY (F7 ,I W5T TO ! ADDRESS ON ! LEAFLET1 READY TO 0DO SOME?+40 ,9 ! 0PEACE C5T]0 ,I F\ND A ROOM :]E SEV]AL PEOPLE W]E WORK+ AT A L>GE TABLE4 ,I ASK$ H[ ,I C\LD 0JO9 ! PEACE MOVEM5T40 ,A WOMAN PULL$ AN EMPTY *AIR UP TO ! TABLE1 & ,I SP5T ! RE/ ( ! DAY /UFF+ 5VELOPES4 ,I DIDN'T GET GLASS 9 MY LUNGS1 BUT ! DRUDG]Y WAS ! SAME AS 9 ! FIB]GLASS FACTORY4 ,! ACTIVITY WAS :AT ,I IMAG9$ (FICE WORK TO BE3 NUM]\S WOM5 /UFF+1 SEAL+ & /AMP+ 5VELOPES1 A FEW IMPORTANT-LOOK+ M5 WALK+ 9 & \T ( ! ROOM4 ,BUT ?IS DRUDG]Y HAD A JU/IFICATION3 IT WAS S]VICE & SACRIFICE = O!RS4 ,!RE W]E EI<T OR N9E WOM5 AT ! /UFF+ TABLE1 & ONE BE>D$ MAN4 ,! WOM5 W]E ALL MIDDLE-AG$2 ! MAN WAS MY AGE4 ,I SAT ACROSS ! TABLE FROM HIM4 ,HIS NAME WAS ,>T ,S9I*2 HE 9TRODUC$ HIMSELF TO ME LAT] ?AT DAY2 ,!Y /UFF$ 5VELOPES RI<T ?R\< ! LUN* H\R4 ,NO ONE M5TION$ FOOD4 ,! MAIL+ GOT DONE LATE 9 ! AFT]NOON4 ,NO ONE ?ANK$ ME1 OBVI\SLY2 ,I HADN'T HELP$ !M1 ,I HAD HELP$ ! MOVEM5T4 ,PEOPLE />T$ TO DISP]SE4 ,!Y W]E ALL GO+ TO SEE EA* O!R AGA9 AT A LECTURE :I* ,I C\LDN'T ATT5D BECAUSE ( MY JOB4 ,I ASK$ IF MORE WORK W\LD BE DONE ! FOLL[+ ,SUNDAY4 ,>T TOLD ME HE W\LD BE !RE4 ,I RETURN$ TO ! PEACE C5T] ! FOLL[+ ,SUNDAY4 ,>T & TWO OR ?REE WOM5 W]E /UFF+ PAMPHLETS 9TO BR[N 5VELOPES4 ,! WOM5 W]5'T ! ONES :O HAD BE5 !RE A WEEK E>LI]4 ,>T 9TRODUC$ ME TO !M2 ,I WAS ALREADY A FULL-FL$G$ MEMB] ( ! MOVEM5T4 ,! PAMPHLET /UFF+ DIDN'T TAKE LONG & EV]YONE EXCEPT ,>T & ,I LEFT4 ,I ASK$ HIM :AT WAS DONE 9 ! PEACE C5T] O!R ?AN 5VELOPE /UFF+4 ,HE TOOK ME TO ! LIT]ATURE ROOM4 ,I LEAF$ ABS5TLY ?R\< SOME BOOKS & PAMPHLETS4 ,ALL ( !M DEALT ) ! SAME SUBJECT3 DEA?4 ,DEA? BY NUCLE> HOLOCAU/1 BY *EMICAL W>F>E1 BY RADIATION FROM ATOMIC TE/S4 ,!N ,>T TOOK ME TO ! PEACE C5T]'S PR9T %OP & 9TRODUC$ ME TO ! PR9T]4 ,IT WAS 9 ! BASEM5T4 ,A L>GE MAN MY AGE WAS OP]AT+ A SMALL PR9T+ MA*9E 9 A SPACE L>GE 5\< = ONE SMALL P]SON2 HE LOOK$ LIKE A GIANT TRAPP$ 9 A CAVE4 7,:AT A CONTRA/ TO ,T$'S WELL-LIT & SPACI\S PR9T %OP6 ,?AT BUILD+ %\LD HAVE BE5 CALL$ ! SACRIFICE C5T]67 ,F9ALLY ,>T TOOK ME TO ! 0RECEPTION ROOM40 ,HE %[$ ME PHOTOGRAPHS 9 ! 0MOVEM5T SCRAPBOOK10 PO9T+ TO HIMSELF AT A 0VIGIL10 AT A *EMICAL W>F>E PLANT1 9 A R[BOAT 0RESI/+0 A NUCLE> SUBM>9E1 0SITT+ 90 AT A GOV]NM5T ATOMIC 5]GY BUILD+4 ,HE TOLD ME PR\DLY ?AT HE'D BE5 >RE/$ AT EV]Y ONE ( ?OSE 0ACTIONS40 ,I RETURN$ AGA9 ! FOLL[+ WEEK4 ,ANN\NCEM5TS ( A MAJOR DEMON/RATION SEV]AL WEEKS AWAY W]E BE+ S5T \T4 ,! DEMON/RATORS W]E TO BLOCK ! 5TRANCE GATE ( A MILIT>Y BASE AB\T TO RECEIVE MISSILES ?AT C\LD DEPOPULATE HALF ! WORLD4 ,I TOLD ,>T ,I W\LDN'T BE ABLE TO ATT5D ! DEMON/RATION BECAUSE ( MY JOB4 ,HE LOOK$ AT ME AS IF ,I W]E ONE ( 0!M10 ! WRONGDO]S1 ! W>MONG]S4 ,I ALREADY KNEW ?AT BEH9D ! MODE/1 SELF-SACRIFIC+ S]VANT ( HUMANITY /OOD A H>D5$ HOLY MAN :O T[]$ ABOVE ORD9>Y MORTALS4 ,I DIDN'T HAVE ! N]VE TO TELL HIM ,I ONLY SUPPORT$ MYSELF2 ,I FELT GUILTY = PUTT+ MY 0SELFI% MAT]IAL 9T]E/S0 ABOVE GOODNESS & PEACE4 ,= ,>T ?AT SELFI%NESS WAS AT ! ROOT ( ALL W>1 ALL DE/RUCTION4 ,I /AY$ AWAY FROM ! 5VELOPE /UFF+ = A WEEK1 9TIMIDAT$ BY ! RI<TE\SNESS4 ,BUT ?AT ONLY PUT ME BACK 9TO ! SITUATION ,I HAD TRI$ TO LEAVE BEH9D4 ,I DECID$ TO TAKE P>T 9 ! DEMON/RATION & TO SKIP WORK4 ,I WAS EXTREMELY N]V\S ON ! DAY ( ! DEMON/RATION4 ,I RODE ) FIVE OR SIX O!R PEOPLE TO A MILIT>Y SIGN ?AT SAID1 0,NO PUBLIC ACCESS BEYOND ?IS PO9T40 ,SEV]AL O!R C>S W]E ALREADY P>K$ BY ! SIGN4 ,PEOPLE BEGAN TO SIT ACROSS ! ROADWAY1 AB\T TW5TY 9 ALL1 ) V>I\S HOME-MADE SIGNS4 ,IT WAS SPR+1 BUT ! TEMP]ATURE WAS FREEZ+4 ,I C\LDN'T /OP %IV]+4 ,AT LA/ A HUGE TRUCK APPROA*$4 ,I WAS /UPEFI$ BY FE>2 ,I WAS SURE WE'D ALL BE RUN OV]4 ,BUT ! TRUCK /OPP$ & ONE ( ! DEMON/RATORS TOLD ! DRIV] HE WAS TRANSPORT+ DEA? 9 ! BACK ( HIS TRUCK4 ,O!R TRUCKS CAME1 & DRIV]S GA!R$ AT ! SIDE ( ! ROAD & MADE V>I\S COMM5TS TO ! 0NUTS0 SITT+ 9 ! ROADWAY4 ,I KNEW AT ! TIME ?AT ALL ! HATR$ ( ! PEOPLE SITT+ 9 ?AT ROADWAY WAS CONC5TRAT$ ON ! DRIV]S ( ! TRUCKS4 ,TW5TY RI<TE\S PEOPLE W]E MAK+ !MSELVES AN EXAMPLE TO ! MURD]]S :O DROVE TRUCKS & WORK$ 9 FACTORIES4 ,I ALSO KNEW ?AT ALL ! 0PEACE LIT]ATURE0 APPEAL$ TO ! 0MORAL S5SE0 ( GOV]NM5T (FICIALS & ! 0HUMANITY0 ( ! RI*4 ,:5 ,I HE>D SIR5S ,I CLUNG TO ,>T ) MORTAL FE>4 7,AT ! TRIAL ,I WAS *>G$ ) L9K+ >MS TO RESI/ >RE/47 ,I WAS NE>LY UNCONSCI\S ) FE> :5 ,I WAS C>RI$ TO ! POLICE WAGON4 ,I HAD BE5 >RE/$ ONLY ONCE BE=E3 AT ! C>TON PLANT4 ,AFT] A DAY & A HALF 9 JAIL ,I WAS RELEAS$ ON BAIL PUT UP BY ! PEACE ORGANIZATION4 ,! DATE ( ! TRIAL WAS SET4 ,:5 ,I GOT HOME ,I CALL$ ! FIB]GLASS FACTORY & TOLD ! =EMAN ,I'D BE5 >RE/$ AT A PEACE DEMON/RATION4 ,HE TOLD ME NOT TO BO!R RETURN+ TO WORK4 ,I HAD SUCCE$$ 9 TRANS=M+ MY SITUATION3 ,I WAS A FULL-TIME POLITICAL ACTIVI/4 ,I DESCRIB$ MY ACT TO ,SAB9A & TRI$ TO TELL H] H[ 0WOR?:ILE0 IT HAD BE54 ,I DESCRIB$ ,>T TO H] & TRI$ TO TELL H] H[ 0WOND]FUL & GOOD0 HE WAS4 ,SAB9A MADE NO EF=T TO HIDE H] DISGU/4 ,WE %>$ ! H\SE1 BUT WE NO LONG] %>$ ANY?+ ELSE4 ,I WAS JOBLESS & ALONE4 ,I WASN'T ABLE TO DEF5D MYSELF FROM ,SAB9A'S & ,T9A'S HO/ILITY4 ,I C\LDN'T BE> TO FACE ,JOSE'S QUE/IONS AB\T LIB]ATION1 >M$ /RUGGLE1 REVOLUTION>Y W>S4 ,I KNEW ?AT MY 0ACT0 HAD NO?+ TO DO ) ! SUBJECTS ( ! BOOKS ,I HAD TAK5 TO ,JOSE4 ,I KNEW ?AT ,I HAD JO9$ A T9Y GR\P ( 0,GOD'S WITNESSES ON E>?10 S5T FROM HEAV5 TO /IMULATE GUILT 9 WORK]S & MOVE ! HE>TS ( RUL]S4 ,I KNEW ,I HAD JO9$ ! M>TYRS ( ! AGE1 ! SA9TS :O /OOD WITNESS TO HUMANITY'S F9AL CANNIBALI/IC ACT & KEPT !IR S\LS PURE4 ,:5 ,I SAW ,>T AGA9 HE %[$ ME NEWSPAP] CLIPP+S AB\T \R >RE/1 & HE WAS PR\D2 ! >RE/ WAS A SIGN ( HIS P]SONAL WOR?1 IF NOT 9 ! EYES ( ! 0RABBLE0 = :OM HE ONLY FELT CONTEMPT1 !N 9 ! EYES ( ,GOD & 0GOOD0 MEMB]S ( ! RUL+ CLASS4 ,I KNEW ?AT MY 0ACT0 HAD NO RELATION TO ,HU<'S 0PROJECT H\SE0 :]E ! OPPRESS$ W]E TO BECOME 9DEP5D5T BY !IR [N EF=TS2 MY NEW FRI5DS F\ND ONLY ONE QUALITY 9 ! OPPRESS$3 GUILT4 ,ALL 9ITIATIVE1 ALL *ANGE1 HAD TO COME FROM ! TOP1 FROM ?OSE :O RULE4 ,BUT 9/EAD ( TURN+ MY BACK ON ,>T & HIS FRI5DS1 ,I TURN$ AGA9/ ,SAB9A1 ,T9A & ,JOSE4 ,I LOOK$ =W>D TO ! TRIAL ALONGSIDE MY MODE/1 BE>D$ CODEF5DANT4 ,ON ! FIR/ DAY ( ! TRIAL ,I TOLD ,T9A NOT TO EXPECT ME HOME ?AT NI<T4 ,! TRIAL WASN'T AB\T MISSILES OR NUCLE> WEAPONS OR WAX4 ,IT WAS AB\T :E!R OR NOT WE HAD LOCK$ >MS :5 ! POLICE HAD ANN\NC$ WE W\LD BE >RE/$ 7:I* !Y HADN'T ACTUALLY ANN\NC$74 ,AFT]W>DS ,I DRIFT$ TO ,>T'S AP>TM5T H\SE4 ,HE 9VIT$ ME UP TO HIS T9Y ROOM1 P>T ( A SUBDIVID$ AP>TM5T ) A COMMON KIT*54 ,! ROOM CONTA9$ EV]Y BOOK & PAMPHLET ,I HAD SE5 9 ! PEACE C5T]2 ,HE HAD APP>5TLY READ !M ALL2 !RE W]E NOTES 9 ALL ! M>G9S4 ,9 ADDITION TO ! PAMPHLETS !RE WAS A S+LE B$1 & ?AT WAS ALL4 ,HE ASK$ IF ,I WANT$ TO /AY4 ,I HAD NO?+ BETT] TO DO ) MYSELF4 ,= A FEW NI<TS WE BO? SLEPT 9 HIS S+LE B$2 !N ,I B\<T A COT4 ,HE 9SI/$ ON SLEEP+ ON ! COT2 HE WAS DET]M9$ TO BE> ! GREAT] SACRIFICE4 ,! TRIAL DRAGG$ ON = TWO & A HALF MON?S4 ,EV]Y SESSION WAS ! SAME3 HAD WE LOCK$ >MS BE=E ! ANN\NCEM5T8 ,HAD !RE BE5 AN ANN\NCEM5T8 ,:5 ,>T WASN'T /UFF+ 5VELOPES OR DEMON/RAT+1 HE READ4 ,I READ F\R OR FIVE ( HIS BOOKS & PAMPHLETS2 EA* ONE ( !M MADE ! SAME PO9TS 9 EXACTLY ! SAME WAY2 ONLY ! NAMES & DATES W]E DIFF]5T4 ,AFT] A FEW WEEKS4 ,I /OPP$ ACCOMPANY+ HIM TO ! /UFF+ SESSIONS4 ,I TIDI$ & SWEPT HIS ROOM1 GOT BOOK 5DS = HIS LIT]ATURE4 ,>T DIDN'T SEE ! DIFF]5CE2 HE WAS NEI!R PLEAS$ NOR ANNOY$2 IT DIDN'T MATT] TO HIM3 ,I WAS A CRASS MAT]IALI/ = OCCUPY+ MYSELF ) SU* ?+S4 ,I MADE UP ! B$S1 %OPP$1 COOK$1 WA%$ ! DI%ES4 ,HE DIDN'T ONCE TELL ME HE'D LIK$ ONE ( ! MEALS ,I'D PREP>$4 ,HE WAS A VEGET>IAN2 BE=E ,I HAD COME HE HAD EAT5 MA9LY BOIL$ EGGS4 ,I LE>N$ ?AT HE HAD NEV] WORK$ BECAUSE HIS FA!R1 :O [N$ A CLO?+ /ORE & :OM ,>T CONSID]$ A CRASS MAT]IALI/1 GAVE HIM A MON?LY ALL[ANCE4 ,:5 ! TRIAL F9ALLY 5D$ 7WE W]E ALL LET (F ON 0PROBATION10 :ATEV] ?AT MEANT2 ,I NEV] REPORT$ TO ANYONE71 ,I B\<T A BOTTLE ( W9E TO CELEBRATE4 ,WEEKS E>LI] ,I HAD B\<T A VEGET>IAN COOKBOOK1 & ,I SP5T SEV]AL H\RS PREP>+ A DELICACY4 ,I SET A CLO? ON ! FLOOR & PUT C&LES ON IT4 ,>T SAT D[N AS USUAL1 GULP$ D[N MY MEAL AS IF IT W]E A BOIL$ EGG1 & TURN$ BACK TO ! PAMPHLET HE HAD BE5 READ+4 ,LATE ?AT NI<T ,I TIPTO$ \T ( HIS ROOM4 ,I LEFT HIM ! COT1 SO AS TO DECREASE ! DISCOM=T ( HIS NEXT GUE/4 ,9 ! KIT*5 ,I LOOK$ 9TO ! PHONE BOOK & SCRIBBL$ HIM A NOTE3 0,GET Y\RSELF A MAID4 ,MAID ,S]VICE PHONE NUMB]3 -- 0 ,I SLIPP$ ! NOTE UND] HIS DOOR & CALL$ A TAXI4 ,I DIDN'T HE> FROM ,>T AGA9 UNTIL ,I SAW HIM1 AS ,WELL AS ,LUISA1 AFT] ! RIOT LA/ YE>1 5GAG$ 9 5VELOPE /UFF+4 ,I WAS BACK HOME ) ,SAB9A & ,T9A -- JOBLESS1 PROJECTLESS1 AIMLESS4 ,!Y DIDN'T ASK QUE/IONS2 ,I C\LDN'T HAVE ANSW]$ ANY4 ,GRADUALLY ONE ( MY =M] 9T]E/S REVIV$3 MY 9T]E/ 9 READ+4 ,I MADE FREQU5T TRIPS TO ! LIBR>Y & RUMMAG$ ?R\< BOOK/ORES4 ,I HADN'T READ2 ANY?+ O!R ?AN A FEW PEACE PAMPHLETS S9CE ,I'D LEFT-! G>AGE4 ,N[ ,I SP5T MO/ ( MY DAYS READ+4 ,SUBJECTS ?AT HAD R>ELY BE5 TREAT$ :5 ,I WAS A /UD5T W]E N[ EXPLOR$ 9 ONE /UDY AFT] ANO!R4 ,9 ! BOOK/ORES !RE W]E 5TIRE SECTIONS ( LIT]ATURE DEVOT$ TO REVOLUTION>Y !ORY1 LIB]ATION /RUGGLES1 EV5 PHILOSOPHICAL ANALYZES ( SOCIAL & PSY*OLOGICAL REPRESSION4 ,! MORE ,I READ1 ! MORE 9DIGNANT ,I BECAME AB\T ! N>R[NESS ( ,>T'S 9T]E/S4 ,:5EV] ,I F\ND A BOOK P>TICUL>LY EXCIT+1 ,I SET IT ON ! LIV+ ROOM TABLE4 ,T9A READ !M4 ,I HOP$ %E'D TAKE !M TO ,JOSE1 BUT %E ONLY RETURN$ !M TO ! TABLE4 ,ONE DAY %E TOLD ME %E WAS GO+ TO VISIT ,JOSE1 BUT DIDN'T WANT TO GO ALONE & ,SAB9A DIDN'T WANT TO ACCOMPANY H]4 ,%E TRAPP$ ME 9TO VISIT+ ,JOSE AGA94 I PACK$ ALL ! BOOKS ,I'D SET ASIDE &0 W5T ) H]4 9 ! VISIT+ ROOM %E /OOD SOME DI/ANCE AWAY FROM ,JOSE & ME4 ,HE HAD PROBABLY BEGG$ H] TO BR+ ME1 ONE WAY OR ANO!R4 ,I GAVE HIM ! BOOKS1 BUT ,I DIDN'T HAVE ! N]VE TO TELL HIM AB\T MY PEACE MOVEM5T 0ACTIONS0 OR 0FRI5DS40 ,I VISIT$ ,JOSE ONE MORE TIME BE=E HIS RELEASE1 BY MYSELF4 ,IT WAS ON ?AT VISIT ,I NOTIC$ JU/ H[ MU* HE HAD BE5 AFFECT$ BY ! BOOKS ,I HAD BR\<T HIM4 ,I DON'T WANT TO EXAGG]ATE MY %>E4 ,PROBABLY ! SOLITUDE 9 :I* HE READ ! BOOKS1 AS WELL AS CONV]SATIONS HE MU/ HAVE HAD ) FELL[ PRISON]S1 HAD ALSO CONTRIBUT$ !IR %>E4 ,I DID KN[ ?AT ! 9T5TIONS HE EXPRESS$1 AS WELL AS ! WORDS HE US$1 CAME \T ( ! BOOKS1 S9CE ,I HAD JU/ READ !M4 ,HE TALK$ AB\T HIS 9T5TION TO TAKE P>T 9 ! UPRIS+ ( ! OPPRESS$4 ,I WAS EXCIT$ AT FIR/2 ,I ?\<T HE WAS DESCRIB+ SOME?+ LIKE ,HU<'S 0PROJECT H\SE40 ,BUT ! MORE HE TALK$1 ! MORE FRI<T5$ ,I GREW4 ,! PROJECT H\SE TURN$ 9TO A B& ( >M$ GU]RILLAS4 ,JOSE LECTUR$ TO ME AB\T ! NE$ ( ! OPPRESS$ TO >M !MSELVES1 TO DEF5D !MSELVES ) KNIVES1 RIFLES1 EV5 MA*9E GUNS4 ,:5 ,I HAD READ ! ACC\NTS ( ! GU]RILLA MOVEM5TS1 ,I HAD BE5 EXCIT$ BY ! KN[L$GE ?AT LAW & ORD] W]E COLLAPS+ EV]Y:]E1 ?AT PEOPLE W]E RESPOND+ TO >MS ) >MS -- ELSE:]E1 F> AWAY FROM ME4 ,I HADN'T = A SECOND IMAG9$ MYSELF /EAL+ A TRUCK FULL ( WEAPONS1 %OOT+ AT POLICE1 OR PULL+ ! R+ ( A H& GR5ADE4 ,BE=E LEAV+ ,JOSE ,I TRI$ TO TELL HIM ,I ?\<T ACTIVITIES APPROPRIATE ELSE:]E MI<T NOT BE SO APPROPRIATE H]E1 BUT ,I DON'T ?9K HE HE>D ME4 ,I NEV] SAW HIM AGA94 ,AS ! DAY ( HIS RELEASE APPROA*$ MY FE>S GREW4 ,IT HAD BE5 SO EASY TO C>RY BOOKS TO HIM4 ,I WASN'T ABLE TO LIVE UP TO ?OSE BOOKS1 TO ,JOSE1 TO HIS NEW COMMITM5T4 ,ON ! DAY ( HIS RELEASE ,SAB9A TOLD ME HE DIDN'T WANT US TO MEET HIM AT ! PRISON4 ,SEV]AL DAYS LAT] ,SAB9A BUR/ 9TO MY ROOM CRY+4 ,JOSE HAD BE5 %OT 9 ! BACK4 0,! POLICE PICK$ HIM UP JU/ LIKE A DOG -- DEAD1 9 ! /REET10 %E TOLD ME4 0,IF !Y HADN'T >RE/$ ,T$ AS A SUSPECT1 ,I W\LDN'T EV5 HAVE KN[N60 ,!N %E ADD$1 0,HE HAD WANT$ TO BE SOMEONE Y\ C\LD ADMIRE40 ,I FELL ON ,SAB9A WAIL+4 0,HE WAS MY :OLE LIFE1 EV]Y?+ ,I LOV$6 ,I'M NO?+ COMP>$ TO HIM1 ,SAB9A2 ,I C\LDN'T HAVE GIV5 HIM ANY?+1 ,I'D ONLY HAVE DRAGG$ HIM D[N & MADE HIS LIFE UGLY6 ,HE C\LDN'T HAVE DI$ BECAUSE HE WANT$ TO LIVE UP TO ME1 ,SAB9A4 ,Y\'RE WRONG4 ,Y\ HAVE TO BE WRONG60 

,I CRI$ DUR+ ! RE/ ( ! TRIP FROM ! RESE>* C5T] TO ! COMMUNE4 ,T$ CONFIRM$ :AT ,SAB9A HAD TOLD ME ?REE YE>S E>LI]1 :AT ,I /ILL DIDN'T WANT TO BELIEVE4 ,JOSE HAD WANT$ TO BE READY = ME1 HE HAD WANT$ TO LIVE UP TO ME1 HE HAD MI/AK5LY ASSOCIAT$ ME ) ! FE>LESS REVOLUTION>IES DESCRIB$ 9 ! BOOKS ,I HAD TAK5 HIM4 ,I WAS COMPLETELY OBLIVI\S TO ,PAT1 SITT+ SIL5TLY ON MY RI<T1 HUMILIAT$ BY HIS TWO 5C\NT]S ) ,SAB9A4 ,ALL ,I SAW WAS ,T$1 ! P]SON :OSE H\SE ,I W\LDN'T HAVE 5T]$1 EV5 TO BE ) ,JOSE1 BECAUSE ( MY 0SUSPICIONS40 ,:5 WE REA*$ ! CORN] :]E ,T$ HAD PICK$ US UP1 HE /RET*$ HIS H& T[>D ME AGA9 & SAID1 ALMO/ PLEAD+1 0,:5 ,JOSE TOLD ME Y\ HAD NO?+ TO DO ) ,SE?1 ,I TRI$ TO BECOME Y\R ,M5D1 ,SOPHIE4 ,BUT IT WAS TOO LATE !N4 ,I'D LIKE TO TRY AGA940 ,I SQUEEZ$ HIS H& & TOLD HIM1 0,I'D LIKE TO TRY TOO1 ,T$40 

,I SAW ,T$ AGA9 ! FOLL[+ DAY1 :5 ,PAT & ,LUISA US$ ! PR9T %OP TO PR9T ,PAT'S LEAFLET ON ! L\DSPEAK]S2 ?AT WAS ! FIR/ TIME ,I 5T]$ ,T$'S H\SE4 ,I TOLD HIM ,I MI<T ACCOMPANY HIM BACK TO ! RESE>* C5T] :5 HE RETURN$ !RE4 ,BUT FIR/ ,I HAD TO DO :AT ,I'D TOLD ,SAB9A & ,TISSIE ,I WANT$ TO DO3 ,I HAD TO F9D \T :O ,I WAS & :AT ,I WANT$4 ,Y\R LETT] GAVE ME AN 5ORM\S CLUE4 ,IT CONV9C$ ME ?AT ,I NO LONG] WANT$ TO BE :AT ,I HAD BE52 IT FILL$ ME ) A DESIRE TO %ATT] MY PA/ SELF4 ,LUISA1 ,PAT & ,DAMAN PROVID$ ME ) A P]FECT SETT+4 ,I =MULAT$ MY /RATEGY :ILE RID+ NEXT TO ,PAT 9 ! BACK SEAT ( ,DAMAN'S C>1 ON R\TE FROM ! PICKET1 L9E AT ,LUISA'S ASSEMBLY PLANT TO ! 0REVOLUTION>Y FE/IVAL0 AT ,LUISA'S H\SE4  
  

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,I'M AW>E ?AT ,LUISA HAS A 0/RATEGY0 TOO4 ,! :OLE PURPOSE ( H] 0FE/IVAL0 IS TO CELEBRATE H] 9DEP5D5CE FROM ME = ! SECOND TIME1 TO CONQU] ,DAMAN RI<T 9 FRONT ( H] =M] CONSCI5CE1 & TO USE ME AS WELL AS ,PAT 9 H] CONQUE/4 ,%E'S SLI<TLY TIPSY FROM ! DR9KS %E'D HAD ) ,PAT 9 ! B> ACROSS FROM H] PLANT1 BUT H] DET]M9ATION %[S 9 EV]Y MOVE %E MAKES4 ,DAMAN & ,I ACCOMPANY H] TO ! KIT*5 TO HELP ) ! D9N]4 ,PAT1 :O HAD SEEM$ FAIRLY DRUNK :5 WE'D 5T]$ ! H\SE1 SITS ON ! LIV+ ROOM S(A &2 WAITS1 GLANC+ AT ! 0REVOLUTION>Y ACQUISITIONS ( ! PROLET>IAT0 9 ,LUISA'S BOOK%ELF2 M5 DOM9ATE HI/ORY FROM LIV+ ROOMS :ILE 0SO BEAUTIFUL & SO 9TELLIG5T0 WOM5 COOK4 ,TO ,DAMAN'S CR$IT1 HE'S TOTALLY UNLIKE ,>T OR ,PAT 9 ?IS RESPECT4 ,DESPITE HIS RIGID \TLOOKS1 :5 IT COMES TO *ORES HE'S A P]FECT EGALIT>IAN2 HE DOESN'T EXPECT A 0COMRADE0 TO BE HIS MAID4 ,I'M NOT ! ONLY ONE :O APPRECIATES ?IS QUALITY 9 ,DAMAN4 

0,V]Y FEW M5 ,I'VE KN[N HAVE FOLL[$ ME 9TO ! KIT*510 ,LUISA TELLS HIM4 

,DAMAN BLU%ES & SAYS1 0,I WAS EMB>RASS$ :5 Y\ HAD EV]Y?+ READY LA/ TIME1 ,LUISA2 ,I WANT$ TO HELP40 

0,OH1 HAVE Y\ TWO CELEBRAT$ H]E BE=E80 ,I ASK4 

0,WE C]TA9LY HAVE60 ,LUISA ANSW]S VIVACI\SLY1 0,DAMAN TRI$ TO CALL Y\ MORE ?AN TWO WEEKS AGO1 :5 Y\ HAD ALREADY MOV$ 9TO ! UNIV]SITY COMMUNE4 ,HE C\LDN'T REA* Y\ & ?\<T Y\ MI<T HAVE BE5 KIDNAPP$ AGA91 SO HE CALL$ ME4 ,I TOLD HIM :]E Y\ W]E2 Y\ HAD CALL$ ME TWO DAYS BE=E HE DID4 ,& ,I ASK$ HIM TO EXPLA9 TO ME :AT WAS HAPP5+ AT ! UNIV]SITY4 ,Y\ HADN'T BE5 V]Y 9=MATIVE4 ,HE />T$ TO EXPLA9 ON ! PHONE1 BUT ,I 9SI/$ HE COME TO D9N]4 ,IT W5T (F M>VEL\SLY4 ,DAMAN TOLD ME AB\T ! NEW WORK+ CLASS1 & ,I AGRE$ TO WRITE MY >TICLE = ,! ,WORK]S ,VOICE4 ,I WANT$ TO HELP 9 O!R WAYS TOO1 BUT S9CE ,I CAN'T TYPE !RE WASN'T MU* = ME TO DO4 ,I DID GO TO ,DAMAN'S H\SE ONCE & LE>N$ TO OP]ATE ! MIMEOGRAPH MA*9E 9 HIS BASEM5T40 

,DAMAN REM9DS H]1 0,9 ! C> Y\ TOLD ME Y\ HAD SOME SUGGE/IONS = ! NEXT ISSUE ( ! PAP]40 

0,DID ,I80 ,LUISA ASKS ABS5TM9D$LY1 BUT !N %E APP>5TLY REMEMB]S H[ %E GOT ,DAMAN 9TO H] H\SE4 0,AS A MATT] ( FACT1 ,I HAVE SEV]AL SUGGE/IONS10 BUT %E DOESN'T MAKE ANY4 

,DAMAN DOESN'T PURSUE ! SUBJECT2 HE DOESN'T WANT TO ANTAGONIZE HIS PROLET>IAN RECRUIT4 ,I DECIDE TO LEAVE !M TO !IR GAME4 ,I ASK ,LUISA IF MY ROOM IS FREE4 

0,YES10 %E TELLS ME4 0,IT'S AS EMPTY AS :5 Y\ LEFT IT4 ,:Y80 

0,BECAUSE ,I WANT TO SEE IT BE=E TAK+ ANYONE UP !RE60 ,I TELL H]1 RUNN+ 9TO ! LIV+ ROOM4 ,PAT LOOKS HALF ASLEEP4 ,I PULL HIM (F ! S(A4 0,SO ,I'M BEAUTIFUL & 9TELLIG5T TOO1 AM ,I80 

0,YES1 ,SOPHIA1 EXTREMELY10 HE SAYS SLEEPILY4 

0,ALMO/ AS 9TELLIG5T AS Y\80 

,HE WAKES UP & BLU%ES4 ,I PULL HIM T[>D ! /AIRWAY4 0,COME ON1 WE'RE GO+ TO OCCUPY ?IS PLACE4 ,I'LL GIVE Y\ A T\R40 ,I PULL HIM ALL ! WAY UP TO MY ROOM4 0,?IS IS :]E ,I SP5T MY TIME DREAM+ :5 ,I WAS 9 HI< S*OOL -- 9 ?IS V]Y B$40 

0,Y\ MEAN ?IS IS Y\R H\SE1 & ,LUISA REALLY IS Y\R SI/]80 

0,C\LDN'T Y\ GUESS ?AT FROM LOOK+ AT US80 

0,NO1 ,I C\LDN'T1 ,SOPHIA4 ,%E LOOKS SO MU* OLD] ?AN Y\4 ,I ?\<T Y\ & ,T9A W]E SI/]S40 

,I PU% ,PAT ON ! B$1 SLIDE ALONGSIDE HIM1 & KISS HIS LIPS LONG & H>D4 0,?AT'S ! NICE/ ?+1 Y\'VE SAID TO ME1 ,PAT40 ,MY HE>T P\NDS1 MY LIMBS >E SORE FROM HUNG]4 ,BUT ,I GET UP4 ,I LE>N$ SOME?+ FROM ,MIRNA3 TO WAIT = ! P]FECT MOM5T1 TO FAN ! FIRE TO ITS HI<E/ HEAT4 

,PAT BEGS1 0,COME BACK1 ,SOPHIA1 PLEASE4 ,I LOVE Y\4 ,I NEV] LOV$ ANYONE BE=E40 

,I TAKE HIS H&S1 PULL HIM TO ME1 & KISS HIM AGA94 0,!Y'RE WAIT+ = US D[N/AIRS40 

0,LET !M WAIT1 ,SOPHIA4 ,I CAN'T40 

,I SCOLD HIM3 0,H[ WILL MAN DOM9ATE HI/ORY IF HE CAN'T EV5 DOM9ATE HIMSELF8 ,TELL ME ?AT40 

,HE /IFF5S AS IF ,I'D PULL$ A SWIT*4 ,A WOMAN IS DOM9AT+ ! MAN :O W\LD DOM9ATE HI/ORY1 TURN+ HIM ON & (F LIKE A WAT] TAP4 ,I DESC5D VICTORI\SLY4 ,PAT FOLL[S ME4 ,I SET ! TABLE4 ,DAMAN & ,LUISA BR+ \T A DELICI\S LOOK+ MEAL1 & W9E4 ,WE />T TO EAT4 

,PAT RETURNS TO ! TOPIC HE HAD />T$ DISCUSS+ ) ,LUISA :5 WE LEFT ! C\NCIL (FICE4 ,HE BECOMES SOB] & AL]T4 ,HIS PASSION VANI%ES4 ,HE'S PURE 9TELLECT AGA93 ALL !ORY & HI/ORY4 0,:AT DID Y\ Y\RSELF DO AFT] ?AT UPRIS+1 ,LUISA8 ,E>LI] Y\ TOLD ME PEOPLE RAN EV]Y?+ ON !IR [N4 ,:AT DID Y\ RUN80 

0,I OP]AT$ A TRAM10 ,LUISA TELLS HIM4 

0,I GA!R$ ?AT MU* FROM Y\R >TICLE10 ,PAT SAYS4 0,BUT Y\R >TICLE IS FULL ( PLATITUDES4 ,I DIDN'T GET ANY IDEA ( :AT DAILY LIFE WAS LIKE AFT] A SO-CALL$ TAKEOV] BY ! WORK]S4 ,WAS IT DIFF]5T ?AN IT HAD BE5 BE=E8 ,DID Y\ DRIVE ! TRAM ANY DIFF]5TLY8 ,DO Y\ UND]/& :AT ,I'M ASK+80 

0,YES1 ,PAT1 ,I UND]/& :AT Y\'RE ASK+10 ,LUISA SAYS1 SOME:AT PEEV$4 0,BUT ,I'M CONV9C$ Y\ DON'T REALLY WANT TO KN[2 Y\ JU/ WANT TO />T ANO!R >GUM5T :I* PROVES ?AT ! UNION IS ALWAYS WRONG40 

0,I'D REALLY LIKE TO KN[1 ,LUISA -- NOT = AN >GUM5T1 BUT = ! SAKE ( HI/ORICAL UND]/&+10 ,PAT 9SI/S4 

,DAMAN SAYS1 0,I SECOND ,PAT'S REQUE/4 ,I F9D Y\R EXP]I5CE EXTREMELY 9T]E/+40 

,LUISA PRET5DS TO BE RETIC5T4 0,I DON'T WANT TO />T \R EV5+ (F BY TALK+ AB\T MYSELF4 ,& 9 ANY CASE1 ,SOPHIA HAS ALREADY HE>D EV]Y?+ ,I HAVE TO TELL AB\T MY EXP]I5CES40 

0,I'D LIKE TO GA9 SOME HI/ORICAL UND]/&+ TOO1 ,LUISA40 ,I LOOK AT ,PAT :ILE SAY+ ?IS4 

,LUISA BEG9S ! /ORY Y\ & ,JASNA MU/ HAVE HE>D C\NTLESS TIMES4 0,9 ORD] TO UND]/& :AT IT WAS LIKE TO DRIVE A TRAM 9 ?OSE DAYS1 Y\ HAVE TO UND]/& :AT ! :OLE /RUGGLE WAS AB\T4 ,! WORK+ PEOPLE1 TOGE!R ) !IR ORGANIZATIONS --0 

0,Y\ MEAN ! UNIONS60 ,I 9T]RUPT4 ,IT'S ! FIR/ TIME 9 MY LIFE ?AT ,I'VE BE5 SO S5SITIVE TO ,LUISA'S UNIONISM4 ,I FEEL AS IF ,I W]E 9 ! PRES5CE ( ! TRA9 ,ZD5EK DESCRIB$ TO Y\4 ,9 ! PA/1 ,LUISA'S /ORY ALWAYS 9SPIR$ ME2 N[ ,I REALIZE ?AT ,LUISA'S LIFE PROJECT HAD NEV] BE5 H] [N1 ANY MORE ?AN M9E EV] WAS4 ,LUISA TOOK P>T 9 A PROJECT :I* ! UNION DEF9$4 

0,I MEAN ! UNION10 %E SAYS CALMLY4 0,IT WAS ONLY ?ANKS TO ! UNION ?AT ! WORK+ POPULATION WAS ABLE TO DEFEAT ! 9SURG5T G5]ALS & ! 5TIRE REBEL >MY40 

,I'VE HE>D ?OSE T]MS BE=E TOO -- %E ALWAYS US$ !M BE=E1 BUT ,I SUDD5LY HE> !M = ! FIR/ TIME1 PROBABLY BECAUSE WE'RE 9 ! MIDDLE ( REBELLION & 9SURRECTION RI<T N[4 0,W]E Y\ ON ! SIDE ( ! CONS]VATIVES FI<T+ AGA9/ ! 9SURG5TS80 

0,DON'T BE RIDICUL\S1 ,SOPHIA40 

0,Y\R T]MS >E RIDICUL\S1 ,LUISA4 ,:AT >E 9SURG5TS8 ,!Y'RE PEOPLE OPPOS$ TO AU?ORITY1 TO ! /ATE1 ! RUL+ CLASS1 ! /ATUS QUO4 ,H[ CAN Y\ CALL A G5]AL AN 9SURG5T8 ,A G5]AL IS ! HI<E/ (FICIAL 9 ! S]VICE ( ! E/ABLI%$ ORD]4 ,A REBEL1 AN 9SURG5T1 IS SOMEONE :O RISES AGA9/ ! RUL+ ORD]4 ,A G5]AL :O SUPPRESSES AN 9SURRECTION SO AS TO RE/ORE ! RUL+ ORD] IS NO 9SURG5T6 ,AS = A REBEL >MY -- ?AT'S LIKE SAY+ DRY WAT] OR FULL VACUUM4 ,!RE'S NO SU* ?+ AS A REBEL >MY60 

,LUISA W9S ! >GUM5T BY EXCLAIM+1 0,H[ EASY IT IS TO PLAY GAMES ( LOGIC ) ! DEAD6 ,?\S&S ( WORK+ PEOPLE1 9CLUD+ Y\R FA!R1 LO/ !IR LIVES DEF5D+ ! CAUSE ( ! WORK]S --0 

0,Y\'RE CONFUS+ ,NA*ALO ) ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS10 ,I %\T4 0,NA*ALO DIDN'T DIE FI<T+ AGA9/ 9SURG5TS & REBELS1 BUT FI<T+ ALONGSIDE !M1 AGA9/ ! RUL+ ORD]1 AGA9/ DISCIPL9E --0 

0,:ATEV] G>BAGE Y\'VE PICK$ UP FROM ,Y>O/AN1 ,I WON'T HAVE Y\ SL&]+ PEOPLE :O F\<T ONE ( ! PURE/ /RUGGLES 9 ! 5TIRE HI/ORY ( ! WORK+ CLASS4 ,:AT DO Y\ KN[ AB\T IT8 ,WAS ,Y>O/AN !RE8 ,:AT W\LD HE HAVE DONE8 ,:AT AB\T Y\1 ,SOPHIA8 ,:AT W\LD Y\ HAVE DONE8 ,I'VE SE5 ! TYPE ( 9SURG5CY Y\ EXHIBIT DUR+ REVOLUTION>Y SITUATIONS2 Y\ C\LDN'T CAT* MICE ) IT6 ,ONLY ! RI* HAD TIME TO PLAY GAMES ) LOGIC4 ,SU* LOGICAL CONTRADICTIONS W]E :AT ! 5EMY ?REW 9TO ! WORK+ CLASS TO DIVIDE IT AGA9/ ITSELF4 ,=TUNATELY WORK]S1 RECOGNIZ$ EA* O!R & !Y RECOGNIZ$ ! 5EMY 9 SPITE ( ?OSE :O ?REW S& 9 !IR EYES BY ASK+ :O ! 9SURG5TS & REBELS W]E4 ,NA*ALO KNEW P]FECTLY WELL :O HIS COMRADES & :O HIS 5EMIES W]E4 ,HE HAT$ ! /ATUS QUO PASSIONATELY4 ,HE SLEPT ) HIS RIFLE4 ,! ONLY BONDS HE RECOGNIZ$ W]E BONDS ( SOLID>ITY ) HIS COMRADES -- UNION COMRADES1 ,SOPHIA6 ,HE WAS AMONG ! FIR/ ON ! B>RICADES1 AMONG ! FIR/ TO JO9 ! /RUGGLE TO DEFEAT ! FASCI/ >MY1 AMONG ! FIR/ KILL$ 9 ?AT /RUGGLE40 ,LUISA TURNS TO ,PAT2 ALL H] RETIC5CE HAS VANI%$4 0,I'LL TELL Y\ :AT DAILY LIFE WAS LIKE DUR+ ?OSE DAYS4 ,I WAS ON ! B>RICADES ALONGSIDE ,NA*ALO & HIS DAU<T]4 ,%E WAS HIT 9 ! >M4 ,%E DI$ TWO DAYS LAT]4 ,! DAY AFT] %E DI$1 ,NA*ALO W5T TO ! FRONT TO DEFEAT ! LA/ \TPO/S ( ! 5EMY >MY4 ,I WAS READY TO GO ) HIM4 ,NUM]\S WOM5 JO9$ ! MILITIA2 9 ?AT REVOLUTION !Y W]E TREAT$ AS EQUALS TO M54 ,BUT ,I W\LD HAVE HAD TO LEAVE TWO-YE> OLD ,SOPHIA AS WELL AS ! NEWBORN ,SAB9A --0 

0,! SAME ,SAB9A ,I MET YE/]DAY80 ,PAT ASKS4 

,DAMAN COMM5TS1 0,?AT'S V]Y 9T]E/+40 

0,I DECID$ TO /AY AWAY FROM ! FRONT10 ,LUISA CONT9UES4 0,:5 ,I'D FIR/ MET ,NA*ALO HE HAD BELIEV$ M5 W]E MADE TO DO ! %OOT+ & WOM5 ! COOK+4 ,AFT] ! YE>S HE SP5T ) ME1 HE NO LONG] BELIEV$ ?AT WOM5'S PLACE WAS 9 ! RE>4 ,HE DIDN'T 9FLU5CE MY DECISION2 IT WAS MY [N4 ,! DAY HE LEFT = ! FRONT1 ,I W5T TO UNION HEADQU>T]S TO VOLUNTE] TO DO ! WORK ?AT HAD TO BE DONE 9 ! RE>4 ,I HAD DRIV5 A TRAM E>LI]4 ,I WAS URG$ TO JO9 COMRADES REE/ABLI%+ ! TRANSPORTATION NETWORK4 ,! /REET FI<T+ HAD COMPLETELY P>ALYZ$ ! CITY'S TRANSIT SY/EM4 ,!RE W]E B>RICADES EV]Y:]E1 & 9 MANY ( !M TRAMS & BUSSES HAD S]V$ AS ! BASIC CON/RUCTION MAT]IAL4 ,?IS HAD TO BE /RAI<T5$ \T BE=E LIFE C\LD RESUME --0 

0,RESUME8 ,WASN'T EV]Y?+ BE+ TRANS=M$80 ,I ASK4 ,I />T FEEL+ LIKE ! HECKL] ,RHEA ACCUS$ ME ( BE+4 

,LUISA DISREG>DS MY 9T]RUPTION4 0,AS SOON AS ,I REA*$ ! DEP>TM5T :]E ,I HAD WORK$ BE=E1 ,I BECAME A UNION DELEGATE & JO9$ A COMMISSION *>G$ ) 9SPECT+ ! ROADB$S & LI/+ ! JOBS ?AT HAD TO BE DONE BE=E ! TRAMS C\LD RUN AGA94 ,! FOLL[+ DAY1 ! RADIO CALL$ ALL ! MANUAL & TE*NICAL TRANSPORT WORK]S TO A MEET+S ,! VA/ MAJORITY TURN$ UP11 EXCEPT = A FEW FASCI/S4 ,EV]YONE1 )\T EXCEPTION1 PLAC$ HIMSELF UND] ! ORD]S ( ! UNION4 ,& FIVE DAYS AFT] ! /REET COMBATS1 MORE TRA9S W]E CIRCULAT+ ?AN HAD EV] BE5 ON ?OSE /REETS BE=E4 ,TO GET ! ADDITIONAL VEHICLES1 WE HAD TO WORK DAY & NI<T1 9 ! MID/ ( UNIV]SAL 5?USIASM1 REPAIR+ VEHICLES :I* AC-CORD+ TO ! PREVI\S MANAG]S W]E BEYOND REPAIR4 ,AFT] ONLY FIVE DAYS !RE W]E MORE VEHICLES1 EA* ( :I* WAS MORE EFFICI5TLY OP]AT$ --0 

0,?ANKS TO :I* WORK]S C\LD AGA9 BE TRANSPORT$ DAILY TO ! FACTORIES :]E !Y PRODUC$ !-WEAPONS --0 ,I BEG9 ) S>CASM4 

,BUT ,LUISA MISSES MY S>CASM4 0,! WEAPONS W]E NE$$ = ! VICTORY OV] ! 5EMY4 ,! SPONTANE\S DISCIPL9E & ORGANIZATION :I* MADE POSSIBLE ! RESUMPTION ( TRANSPORTATION AS WELL AS PRODUCTION W\LD HAVE BE5 IMPOSSIBLE )\T ! UNION40 

0,?AT'S PRECISELY ,SOPHIA'S PO9T10 ,PAT TELLS H]4 0,Y\'VE JU/ SAID IT Y\RSELF4 ,! UNION PLAY$ EXACTLY ! SAME ROLE ! MANAG]S HAD PLAY$ BE=E40 

,I ADD1 0,I CAN'T ACTUALLY BELIEVE ,NA*ALO W\LD HAVE PUT UP ) ! WORK DISCIPL9E & ORGANIZATION Y\'VE BE5 DESCRIB+4 ,EV]Y?+ Y\'VE TOLD ME AB\T HIM MAKES ME VISUALIZE HIM AS TOO MU* ( A REBEL --0 

0,I'VE NEV] HE>D SU* COMM5TS FROM Y\4 ,SOPHIA4 ,WE W]E ALL REBELS4 ,WE W]E TOO POOR TO BE ANY?+ ELSE4 ,MY [N MO!R DI$ ( DISEASE & POV]TY :5 ,I WAS TWELVE4 ,MY FA!R WORK$ ON A ROAD-REPAIR CREW2 IT WAS ?ANKS TO HIM ?AT ,I MET UNIONIZ$ WORK]S1 ATT5D$ ! UNION S*OOL2 IT WAS ?R\< ! UNION ?AT ,I GOT MY FIR/ JOB4 ,IT'S WELL AS GOOD TO REBEL AGA9/ EV]Y?+1 BUT ,I FRANKLY DON'T UND]/& Y\R HO/ILITY TO ! UNION2 IT HAD NO?+ 9 COMMON ) ! SO-CALL$ UNION H]E4 ,:5 ,I WAS SIXTE5 MY FA!R WAS %OT BY ! POLICE2 HE WAS TAK+ P>T 9 A DEMON/RATION PROTE/+ ! IMPRISONM5T ( UNION MILITANTS4 ,?AT HAPP5$ DUR+ MY SECOND YE> AT ! UNION FREE S*OOL4 ,MY FA!R'S FRI5DS TOOK ME 9TO !IR H\SE1 BUT !Y W]E TOO POOR TO SUPPORT ME4 ,I WANT$ TO SUPPORT MYSELF2 ! UNION F\ND ME A JOB AS TICKET PUN*] ON A TRAM4 ,ON MY FIR/ DAY AT WORK ,I WAS TRA9$ BY A MAN ,I ?\<T V]Y OLD1 AL?\< HE WAS NO OLD] ?AN ,SOPHIA OR ,DAMAN >E RI<T N[2 HE HAD A =EIGN ACC5T & SEEM$ TO BE A DRUNK>D4 ,HE PRAIS$ ME = OV]LOOK+ PASS5G]S :O HAD NO TICKETS4 ,HE TOLD ME ! AU?ORITIES W\LD %OOT ME4 ,I LE>N$ HE DID ! SAME ?+1 & HE DIDN'T PUN* ! TICKETS ( PEOPLE :O LOOK$ POOR4 ,HE REMA9$ MY TRA9] = A WEEK4 ,HE RAG$ AGA9/ ! RI*4 ,:5 ,I TOLD HIM H[ MY FA!R HAD DI$1 HE TOLD ME HE KEPT A RIFLE 9 HIS ROOM TO AV5GE ALL ! WORK]S KILL$ BY CAPITALI/S4 ,I WAS FASC9AT$ BY ! RAW VIOL5CE ! MAN EXHIBIT$ :5EV] HE SPOKE AB\T ! EXPLOIT]S4 ,YET HE WASN'T 9 ! UNION4 ,& ONE ( ! ?+S HE HELD AGA9/ ! EXPLOIT]S WAS :AT HE CALL$ ! %AMEFUL FACT ?AT WOM5 HAD TO WORK LIKE M54 ,I DECID$ TO GIVE MYSELF MY FIR/ ASSIGNM5T AS UNION ORGANIZ]3 TO *ANNEL ?IS MAN'S 5]GY :]E IT BELONG$1 & TO TEA* HIM ?AT HIS VIEW ( WOM5 WAS 9CONSI/5T ) HIS REVOLUTION>Y ATTITUDES40 

0,EXACTLY :AT ,I ?\<T6 ,IT WAS Y\ :O GOT ,NA*ALO 9TO ! UNION60 ,I EXCLAIM4 

0,?AT'S RI<T4 ,MY FIR/ ASSIGNM5T WAS A SUCCESS4 ,BUT NOT RI<T AWAY4 ,AFT] MY WEEK ( TRA9+ ,I GOT ASSIGN$ TO A DIFF]5T TRAM4 ,I LOOK$ = HIM AFT] WORK4 ,I F\ND HIM SEV]AL TIMES & FOLL[$ HIM TO A B>4 ,HE HELD ME 9 A TRANCE ) HIS /ORIES ( A VA/ PEASANT UPRIS+ 9 :I* HE HAD TAK5 P>T4 ,I TALK$ TO HIM AB\T ! UNION4 ,BUT AFT] A FEW BRIEF 5C\NT]S1 HE DISAPPE>$4 ,SEV]AL WEEKS PASS$1 DUR+ :I* ,I MOV$ \T ( ! H\SE ( MY FA!R'S FRI5DS1 & R5T$ A ROOM ( MY [N4 ,I WAS 9DEP5D5T = ! FIR/ TIME1 AS ,I'VE BE5 EV] S9CE4 ,BUT ,I C\LDN'T GET ,NA*ALO \T ( MY M9D4 ,AT UNION MEET+S ,I ASK$ CONT9UALLY IF ANYONE KNEW ! :]EAB\TS ( A =EIGN WORK] :O DIDN'T PUN* POOR WORK]S' TICKETS4 ,AT ONE MEET+ ,I LE>N$ ?AT PRECISELY SU* A MAN HAD />T$ A BRAWL ) AN 9SPECTOR :O W5T ?R\< ! TRAM & DISCOV]$ ?REE QU>T]S ( ! TICKETS UNPUN*$4 ,NA*ALO HAD F\<T ) ! 9SPECTOR1 BUT HADN'T 9JUR$ HIM4 ,POLICE HAD >RIV$ & >RE/$ HIM ALONG ) HALF ! PASS5G]S4 ,HE BECAME A M9OR H]O1 BUT WAS FIR$ FROM HIS JOB4 ,I WAS ONE ( A DELEGATION ?AT GREET$ HIM :5 HE WAS RELEAS$4 ,HE RECOGNIZ$ ME4 ,I TOLD HIM ,I WAS N[ AN 9DEP5D5T WORK] LIKE HIMSELF4 ,HE WAS BITT]4 ,HE TOLD ME HE WAS UNSUITABLE COMPANY = ME2 HE SPOKE ( HIMSELF AS A BROK5 MAN2 HE EV5 CALL$ HIMSELF AN ANIMAL4 ,!N HE %\T$2 ',M5 >5'T ANIMALS6 ,!Y CAN'T ALL[ !MSELVES TO BE CONT9UALLY H>NESS$ & DRIV56' ,I FOLL[$ HIM TO ! BASEM5T HOVEL 9 :I* HE & HIS DAU<T] SLEPT4 ,ALL ! WAY TO HIS BUILD+ ,I >GU$ ?AT AN 9DIVIDUAL CAN'T OV]?R[ ! EXPLOIT]S ) HIS [N PHYSICAL P[]S1 NO MATT] H[ GREAT !Y >E2 HE CAN ONLY DO ?IS ?R\< UNION ) HIS FELL[ WORK]S1 ?R\< SOLID>ITY4 ,NA*ALO TOLD ME HE KNEW HE C\LDN'T FI<T ALONE1 BUT ?AT ! UNION GOT ON ITS KNEES & BEGG$ LIKE A C[>DLY S]F 9/EAD ( ! WORK]S' SIMPLY TAK+ :AT WAS RI<TFULLY !IR [N4 ',MY KNEES DON'T B5D6' HE %\T$ :5 WE REA*$ HIS ROOM4 ,I FOLL[$ HIM 9 & CONT9U$ >GU+4 ,BE=E LONG A GYPSY GIRL >RIV$1 A WILD ?+ 9 RAGS1 QUICK AS A CAT1 IMM$IATELY SUSPICI\S ( ME4 ,KEEP+ H] EYES ON ME AS IF %E ?\<T ,I'D /EAL SOME?+ FROM H]1 %E />T$ PULL+ VEGETABLES1 MEAT1 LIQUOR & A WAD ( MONEY \T ( H] L>GE COAT4 ,NA*ALO :ISP]$ TO H] 9 !IR LANGUAGE1 BUT %E /ILL DIDN'T TAKE H] EYES (F ME4 ,I ASK$ H] IF %E HAD A JOB2 %E DIDN'T LOOK OLD] ?AN T54 ,%E TOLD ME FURI\SLY %E C\LDN'T GET A JOB ?AT W\LD SUPPORT TWO PEOPLE1 :I* WAS :AT %E HAD TO DO N[ ?AT ,NA*ALO WAS FIR$4 ,!N %E TOLD ME1 ) %AMELESS PRIDE1 ?AT %E'D BE5 A PICKPOCKET S9CE SIX & A PRO/ITUTE S9CE ELEV52 %E WAS TWELVE4 ,I TURN$ 9DIGNANTLY T[>D ,NA*ALO & CALL$ HIM A HYPOCRITE = HIS TELL+ ME M5 \<T TO WORK :ILE WOM5 /AY$ AT HOME2 A F9E PR9CIPLE = A MAN :OSE [N DAU<T] /OOP$ TO ! WOR/ =M ( SLAV]Y1 PRO/ITUTION4 ,I CALL$ HIM A P>ASITE & A PIMP4 ,! GYPSY LEAP$ AT ME LIKE AN 5RAG$ ANIMAL4 ,%E BIT MY >M & %RIEK$1 ',Y\ COME FROM ! *UR*6 ,WE DON'T WANT ! *UR* 9 ?IS ROOM6 ,GET \T1 PRIE/ESS6' ,AS %E PU%$ ME \T ( ! ROOM1 ,I />T$ CRY+4 ,NA*ALO REA*$ = H] >M & %\T$ AT H] UNTIL %E RELEAS$ ME4 ,!N HE TOLD ME1 ',Y\'RE RI<T4 ,I'M WORSE ?AN AN ANIMAL4' ,HE FELL ON HIS KNEES & BEGG$ ME1 ',/AY & TELL ME AB\T Y\R UNION4' ,?AT P[]FUL1 VIOL5T MAN WAS ON HIS KNEES BEGG+ TO LE>N FROM ME6 ,! GYPSY PU%$ ME T[>D HIM4 ,I FELL ON MY KNEES BESIDE HIM4 ,I TOLD HIM1 0,I HAV5'T COME AS A JUDGE1 BUT AS Y\R COMRADE4' ,TE>S FL[$ D[N ! MAN'S *EEKS4 ,IT WAS ! MO/ MOV+ SI<T 9 MY LIFE4 ,?IS MAN :O HAD SURVIV$ A REVOLUTION 9 :I* ALL HIS COMRADES HAD BE5 WIP$ \T1 ?IS VIOL5T MAN1 EV] READY TO REA* = HIS RIFLE1 WAS CRY+ ) %AME BE=E ME4 ,FROM ?AT MOM5T TO ?IS ,I'VE LOV$ ?AT MAN MORE ?AN ,I'VE LOV$ ANYONE -- S9CE4 ,I PRESS$ HIS HEAD TO MY BOSOM & LET HIM CRY4 ,I WANT$ HIS COMRADE%IP1 ,I WANT$ HIM1 ,I WANT$ HIS *ILD4 ,I SP5T ?AT NI<T ) HIM1 SLEEP+ ON ! RAGS ON HIS FLOOR4 ,I WOKE E>LY ! NEXT MORN+1 B\<T BREAKFA/ = ALL ?REE ( US1 & :ILE ,I WAS SETT+ !IR TABLE1 ! GIRL WALK$ %YLY T[>D ME4 ,%E KISS$ ! SPOT ON MY >M :]E %E HAD BITT5 ME1 PUT H] HEAD 9 MY BOSOM JU/ AS ,NA*ALO HAD1 & BEGG$1 ',I WANT TO BE Y\R COMRADE TOO4'0 

,MO/ ( ! DETAILS >E FAMILI> TO ME2 ,I'VE ALWAYS BE5 MOV$ BY !M4 ,BUT N[ ,I HE> SOME?+ ,I'VE NEV] HE>D BE=E4 ,! LITTLE GYPSY'S 9ITIAL REACTION TO ,LUISA HAD BE5 ID5TICAL TO ?AT ( ! O!R LITTLE GYPSY -- ONLY ,SAB9A DIDN'T EV] *ANGE H] M9D AB\T ,LUISA4 ,! TWELVE-YE> OLD GIRL HAD CALL$ ,LUISA A PRIE/ESS6 ,! PRIE/ESS ( ! TRA9 ?AT W\LD TAKE HUMANITY TO ITS SALVATION3 ! UNION4 ,! L9K BETWE5 ,LUISA'S PASSION & H] CALL+ IS SUDD5LY SO CLE> TO ME4 ,%E GAVE H]SELF TO ! L[E/ SOCIAL /RATUM SO AS TO ELEVATE IT TO ! SALVATION TRA94 ,ISN'T ?AT EXACTLY :AT %E DID TO Y\8 ,GIVE TO HIM :O HA? NO?+1 LIKE A NUN GIV+ A KISS TO A LEP]2 SAVE ! WRET*$ FROM EXCLUSION2 PULL !M 9TO ! ,LORD'S TRA91 ONLY ?US WILL ! WORLD BE SAV$4 ,M>G>ITA WAS MORE P]CEPTIVE AT TWELVE ?AN ,I AM AT ?IRTY-F\R4 

0,I CONV9C$ !M TO AB&ON !IR HOVEL & MOVE TO MY ROOM10 ,LUISA CONT9UES4 0,IT WAS L>G]1 SUN%9E & FRE% AIR REA*$ IT1 & IT WAS CLEAN4 ,! GYPSY1 LIKE ,I1 REMA9$ 9DEP5D5T4 ,%E PAID = H] [N BO>D & KEEP4 ,BUT ,I 9SI/$ %E NOT PAY = ,NA*ALO ) H] PRO/ITUTION MONEY4 ,I HAD />T$ DRIV+ A TRAM & C\LD AF=D TO SUPPORT HIM AS WELL AS MYSELF4 ,%E /UCK TO H] TRADE1 WILLFULLY1 PR\DLY2 %E ALWAYS HAD A KNIFE ON H] & WAS ! EQUAL ( ANY MAN1 IF NOT 9 PHYSICAL /R5G? !N 9 SPE$4 ,NA*ALO QUICKLY LE>N$ TO RESPECT MY 9DEP5D5CE4 ,HE BECAME DEEPLY 9VOLV$ 9 UNION ACTIVITIES4 ,IT WAS 9 ! UNION ?AT HE MET O!RS LIKE HIMSELF1 WORK]S :O DIDN'T BELIEVE 9 WAIT+ OR 9 BEGG+4 ,HIS SELF-RESPECT & EV5 HIS PRIDE RETURN$ -- PRIDE 9 HIMSELF & 9 HIS FELL[ WORK]S1 AMONG :OM HE N[ 9CLUD$ WOM5 AS EQUALS4 ,HE & HIS FRI5DS C>RI$ \T NI<TTIME =AYS AGA9/ TORTUR]S & KILL]S ( WORK+ PEOPLE3 POLICE1 SUP]VISORS1 9=M]S4 ,! GYPSY FREQU5TLY TOOK P>T 9 ?OSE =AYS -- BUT %E DIDN'T GO ) A VIEW ( A BETT] WORLD2 %E W5T SOLELY TO DRAW ! BLOOD ( ! CLASS ?AT EXPLOIT$ H]4 ,:5 ,SOPHIA WAS BORN ! ?REE ( US MOV$ \T ( MY ROOM & R5T$ A SMALL AP>TM5T4 ,IT WAS L>GE 5\< = WEEKLY MEET+S1 EV5 :5 ! NUMB] ( WORK]S :O AGRE$ ) ,NA*ALO 9CREAS$4 ,IT WAS AT ONE ( ?OSE MEET+S ?AT ,I MET MY SECOND LOV] --0 

,?IS IS NEW TO ME4 ,I ASK H]1 0,BE=E ! UPRIS+8 ,I DIDN'T' KN[4 ,I ?\<T ,NA*ALO --0 

0,( C\RSE Y\ DIDN'T KN[6 ,?9K ( ! SC5E Y\'D HAVE MADE IF ,I'D TOLD Y\4 ,HE WAS A Y\NG PHYSICS /UD5T FROM ABROAD1 EAG] TO PUT HIS KN[L$GE AT ! S]VICE ( ! MO/ REVOLUTION>Y WORK]S4 ,UNION ,COMRADES GUID$ HIM TO ! MEET+S HELD AT \R AP>TM5T --0 

0,GEORGE ,ALB]TS8 ,Y\ MEAN Y\ TOOK UP ) HIM BE=E ,NA*ALO LEFT = ! FRONT80 

,LUISA LAU<TS AT ME1 ACT+ AS IF BO? ,DAMAN & ,PAT W]E 9 ON H] JOKE4 ,BUT %E MISGAGES !M4 ,DAMAN SEEMS %OCK$4 ,TO ,PAT IT'S ALL EQUALLY EXOTIC4 0,Y\ >E REALLY A PH5OM5ON10 %E TELLS ME4 0,ONE W\LD ?9K Y\'D BE5 BR\<T UP 9 A CONV5T4 ,DID ,I TAKE UP ) ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS1 WAS ,I HIS MI/RESS :ILE MY HUSB& WAS /ILL ALIVE8 ,IS ?AT Y\R QUE/ION8 ,& Y\ HAVE ! N]VE TO LECTURE TO ME AB\T 9SURG5TS & REBELS8 ,9 ?OSE DAYS A REBEL WAS FIR/ ( ALL A FREE P]SON1 NOT JU/ SOMEONE :O ATT5D$ POLITICAL MEET+S & V]BALLY ATTACK$ ! /ATE & CAPITAL4 ,A REBEL WAS A P]SON :OSE POLITICAL BELIEFS & P]SONAL BEHAVIOR W]E CONSI/5T4 ,I REJECT$ ! FAMILY1 M>RIAGE1 P>5TAL & M>ITAL OBLIGATIONS 9 !ORY1 LIKE Y\1 & ALSO 9 PRACTICE1 UNLIKE Y\4 ,LOVEMAK+ WAS AN 9TEGRAL P>T ( \R REBELLION1 \R DEVELOPM5T AS FREE 9DIVIDUALS4 ,I SUCCE$$ 9 TEA*+ ?AT TO ,NA*ALO4 ,:O W\LD HAVE EXPECT$ Y\ TO GR[ UP ) CONV5TIONAL NOTIONS ( FAMILY OBLIGATIONS & HYPOCRITICAL FAI?FULNESS80 

0,I DIDN'T MEAN MY QUE/ION ?AT WAY10 ,I 9SI/1 AL?\< ?AT'S ONLY P>TLY TRUE4 0,I MEANT ?AT ,ALB]TS WAS SO DIFF]5T FROM ,NA*ALO40 

0,HE WASN'T SO DIFF]5T !N4 ,AT ! FIR/ MEET+ HE ATT5D$ HE 5UM]AT$ ! BOMBS & EXPLOSIVES HIS UNIV]SITY KN[L$GE 5ABL$ HIM TO PRODUCE ) ! *EAPE/ ( MAT]IALS4 ,EV]YONE LOV$ HIM2 HE WAS WITTY & HE SPOKE \R LANGUAGE P]FECTLY40 ,LOOK+ AT ,DAMAN1 %E CONT9UES1 0,I'VE ALWAYS BE5 PR(\NDLY IMPRESS$1 ,I %\LD SAY MOV$1 :5 A UNIV]SITY P]SON1 A MEMB] ( ! 9TELLIG5TSIA1 SACRIFICES ! PRIVILEGES AVAILABLE TO HIM & DEVOTES HIMSELF TO ! WORK]S' CAUSE4 ,( C\RSE ,I TOOK UP ) HIM4 ,HE BECAME A REGUL> P>TICIPANT AT \R MEET+S4 ,ALL \R FRI5DS RESPECT$ HIM = HIS KN[L$GE & HIS EVID5T WILL+NESS TO %>E IT4 ,I HAD ANO!R REASON = TAK+ UP ) HIM1 AS Y\ PUT IT4 ,I WANT$ TO LE>N IF ,NA*ALO HAD REALLY UND]/OOD :AT ,I MEANT BY 9DEP5D5CE2 ,I WANT$ TO TE/ ! DEP? ( HIS UND]/&+ ( MUTUAL RESPECT4 ,ONE NI<T AFT] A MEET+1 :5 ,NA*ALO & ! GYPSY BO? LEFT ) ! O!RS ON ONE ( !IR =AYS1 ,I ASK$ ,GEORGE TO /AY & TELL ME AB\T HIS PA/40 ,LUISA />ES AT ,DAMAN2 %E VIRTUALLY UNDRESSES HIM ) H] EYES4 0,I TOOK UP ) HIM AS SOON AS !Y LEFT4 ,I %[$ HIM EXACTLY H[ GRATEFUL ,I WAS = HIS COM+ FROM AF> TO %>E HIS KN[L$GE ) US4 ,GEORGE RU%$ AWAY BE=E ,NA*ALO RETURN$4 ,I TOLD ,NA*ALO ,I HAD GONE TO B$ ) ,GEORGE ,ALB]TS4 ,HIS RESPONSE WAS3 ',Y\'RE AN 9DEP5D5T WOMAN1 ,LUISA2 Y\ CAN MAKE LOVE ) :OMEV] Y\ PLEASE2 IF MY PRES5CE EV] H9D]S Y\ --4' ,I ?REW MYSELF AT HIM2 ,I MADE LOVE = ! SECOND TIME ?AT NI<T4 ,I LOV$ ,NA*ALO MORE ?AN ,I W\LD EV] LOVE ,GEORGE OR ANYONE ELSE4 ,GEORGE /AY$ AWAY FROM \R NEXT MEET+1 ,I F\ND \T :]E HE LIV$ & W5T TO LOOK = HIM AFT] WORK4 ,POOR ,GEORGE WASN'T ONLY AFRAID ( ,NA*ALO2 HE ?\<T HE HAD WRONG$ ME AS WELL4 ,HE AWKW>DLY TOLD ME HE HAD FALL5 9 LOVE ) ! LITTLE GYPSY1 & ?AT HE ?\<T HE \<T TO HAVE TOLD ME ?AT BE=E HAV+ AN AFFAIR ) ME4 ,HE REALLY WAS 9 LOVE ) H]2 HE SAID HE'D NEV] MET ANYONE SO UN9HIBIT$1 SO VIVACI\S1 SO COMPLETELY UNTAM$4 ,& HE TOLD ME HE DIDN'T KN[ :AT TO DO ) HIS PASSION1 S9CE A TW5TY-TWO YE> OLD /UD5T C\LD OBVI\SLY NOT MAKE LOVE TO AN 9NOC5T ?IRTE5-YE> OLD GIRL4 ',9NOC5T6' ,I %\T$4 ,I CALL$ HIM A BL9D IDIOT & TOLD HIM EV]Y MAN 9 ! UNION WAS MORE 9NOC5T ?AN ?AT GYPSY60 

0,Y\ HAT$ H]1 DIDN'T Y\80 ,I ASK4 ,I'VE KN[N ?AT TOO1 BUT ,I NEV] UND]/OOD :Y4 0,NA*ALO WAS A D[N-&-\T :OM Y\ W]E ABLE TO PULL UP TO Y\R UNION TRA94 ,ALB]TS1 ! EXP]T ) Y\R IDEAS1 WAS SOME?+ LIKE A CONDUCTOR ( ! TRA94 ,BUT ,M>G>ITA WAS NEI!R FI% NOR F[L TO Y\1 WAS %E8 ,%E CONT9U$ TO C>RY ON H] TRADE4 ,Y\ W]E UNABLE TO PULL H] UP TO :]E Y\ WANT$ H] --0 

0,BE ?AT AS IT MAY1 ,SOPHIA1 ,I ACCEPT$ ,GEORGE'S ADMISSION ) ,NA*ALO'S OP5 SPIRIT1 )\T A TRACE ( JEAL\SY OR RES5TM5T4 ,9 FACT1 ,I 9VIT$ HIM TO D9N] ! DAY AFT] ,I VISIT$ HIM4 ,HE CAME4 ,AFT] D9N] ,I >RANG$ TO LEAVE ) ,NA*ALO2 WE /AY$ \T V]Y LATE4 ,GEORGE & ! GYPSY W]E WAIT+ = US2 %E HAD ASK$ HIM TO MOVE 9 ) US4 ,HE GR9N$ & TOLD US HE HAD LE>N$ MORE FROM ,M>G>ITA 9 A FEW H\RS ?AN 9 ALL HIS YE>S AT ! UNIV]SITY4 ,OBVI\SLY4 ,AFT] TWO YE>S 9 H] TRADE %E WAS AN EXP]T 9 LOVEMAK+4 ,GEORGE W5T ON WOR%IP+ H] AL?\< %E CONT9U$ TO SELL H]SELF 9 ! /REET1 TO M5 AS WELL AS WOM5 --0 

0,TALK ( N>R[M9D$NESS60 

0,IT WAS P]FECTLY CLE> TO ME ?AT AN ILLIT]ATE GIRL 9 H] POSITION DIDN'T HAVE MU* *OICE6 ,%E DIDN'T DO IT AS A SPORT BUT \T ( NE$4 ,& %E DID *ANGE A LITTLE AS A RESULT ( H] CONTACT ) ,GEORGE4 ,MAYBE %E EV5 />T$ TO DREAM ( A DAY :5 %E C\LD MAKE LOVE BECAUSE %E WANT$ TO1 NOT BECAUSE %E WAS PAID4 ,IF ,GEORGE 9SPIR$ SU* DREAMS 9 H]1 !N HE SUCCE$$ :]E ,I HAD FAIL$4 ,:5 ?AT DAY F9ALLY CAME1 :5 ! CITY'S WORK]S ROSE LIKE A GIANT TO /OP ! ATTACK+ >MY1 ! GYPSY WAS ! FIR/ ONE TO RUN TO ! B>RICADES ) ,NA*ALO'S RIFLE1 N9E MON?S PREGNANT ) ,SAB9A4 ,NA*ALO RAN TO A COMRADE'S BASEM5T & RETURN$ ) RIFLES2 ALL ( US JO9$ H] EXCEPT ,GEORGE4 ,HE KNEW H[ TO PRODUCE EXPLOSIVES1 BUT HE HAD NEV] HELD A GUN 9 HIS H&2 HE /AY$ BEH9D TO M9D TWO-YE> OLD ,SOPHIA4 ,AFT] ! FIR/ EX*ANGE ( %OTS ,M>G>ITA WAS HIT 9 ! >M4 ,NA*ALO & ,I C>RI$ H] HOME1 B&AG$ H] >M1 & RETURN$ TO ! B>RICADE4 ,I D\BT IF ,GEORGE SLEPT = FIVE M9UTES DUR+ ! TWO DAYS BE=E ,M>G>ITA DI$ GIV+ BIR? TO ,SAB9A -- AN UNBELIEVABLE REPLICA ( H]SELF1 A M9IATURE GYPSY BORN ) BLACK HAIR & BLACK EYES4 ,NA*ALO LEFT = ! FRONT ! DAY AFT] ! GYPSY DI$4 ,& ,I TOOK UP ) ,GEORGE AGA94 ,ISN'T ?AT %OCK+1 ,SOPHIA8 ,AT NI<T ,GEORGE & ,I W]E ALONE 9 ! AP>TM5T ) TWO BABY GIRLS4 ,%\LD WE HAVE SLEPT AT OPPOSITE 5DS ( ! ROOM8 ,BUT HE WAS HE>TBROK51 & ,I WASN'T ABLE TO CONSOLE HIM4 ,HIS 5?USIASM = ! REVOLUTION WAN$4 ,HE WAS CONSUM$ BY RAGE & SELF-HATR$ = NOT HAV+ BE5 ON ! B>RICADE 9/EAD ( H]4 ,HE />T$ TALK+ AB\T REV5GE -- NOT ! WORK]S' REV5GE BUT HIS [N4 ,IT WAS ALREADY !N ?AT HE />T$ TO SLIP AWAY FROM HIS ORIG9AL COMMITM5T4 ,HE WAS TEMPOR>ILY SAV$ = ! MOVEM5T BY A Y\NG MAN HE MET1 ANO!R =EIGN] :O HAD COME TO DEF5D ! WORK]S FROM !IR 5EMIES4 ,GEORGE BR\<T HIM HOME4 ,HE WAS 9 UNI=M4 ,HE HAD SOME?+ 9 COMMON ) ,PAT --0 

0,>E Y\ TALK+ AB\T ,TITUS ,ZABRAN80 ,I ASK H]4 0,HE HAD SOME?+ 9 COMMON ) ,PAT8 ,>E Y\ KIDD+80 

,LUISA IS PLAY+ ) ,DAMAN4 0,TITUS WAS Y\NG] ?AN ,GEORGE4 ,HE WAS A !ORI/ DEVOT$ TO :AT HE CALL$ ! HI/ORICAL PROJECT ( ! PROLET>IAT4 ,HE WAS COMPLETELY S+LE-M9D$4 ,HE SEEM$ TO KN[ EXACTLY :AT WAS REVOLUTION>Y 9 EV]Y SITUATION1 :AT /EPS HAD TO BE TAK51 :AT /RATEGY WAS APPROPRIATE4 ,GEORGE WAS MORE PHILOSOPHICAL2 HIS 9T]E/S W]E MORE UNIV]SAL40 

,! SUGGE/ION ?AT ,DAMAN'S 9T]E/S >E UNIV]SAL /RIKES ME AS LUDICR\S1 BUT ,I REPRESS MY OBJECTION4 

0,HIS MA9 /RATEGIC 9SI<T WAS ?AT ALL \R ACCOMPLI%M5TS 9 ! RE> W]E MEAN+LESS IF ! 5EMY WAS NOT DEFEAT$ AT ! FRONT4 ,HE CONV9C$ ,GEORGE4 ,!Y BO? JO9$ ,NA*ALO AT ! FRONT4 ,I LONG$ TO GO ) !M1 BUT ,I /AY$ BEH9D ) MY JOB & ! TWO BABIES4 ,A MON? AFT] !Y LEFT1 ,GEORGE RETURN$ ALONE4 ,NA*ALO WAS DEAD4 ,TITUS WAS S]I\SLY 9JUR$ & 9 ! HOSPITAL4 ,GEORGE HIMSELF WAS COMPLETELY TRANS=M$2 HE SEEM$ %ELL %OCK$4 ,HE TOLD HORRIFY+ /ORIES AB\T :AT HAD HAPP5$ AT ! FRONT4 ,HE TURN$ HIS BACK ON ! REVOLUTION4 ,I W5T TO VISIT ,TITUS 9 ! HOSPITAL --0 

,DAMAN & ,PAT SEEM TO BE 9 A TRANCE4 ,! MAGNETISM ,LUISA RADIATES IS OV]:ELM+4 ,ALL MY LIFE ,I'VE BE5 9 ! SAME TRANCE1 HYPNOTIZ$ BY H]1 UNCRITICALLY ADMIR+ H] C\RAGE1 H] DEVOTION1 H] DET]M9ATION4 ,ALL MY LIFE ,I NEGAT$ MY [N DESIRES = ! SAKE ( ,LUISA'S REVOLUTION4 ,IF ,I HAD BECOME AW>E ( MY DEP5D5CE ON ,LUISA YE>S AGO1 Y\ W\LD HAVE HAD A COMRADE1 ,Y>O/AN1 NOT JU/ A PASSIVE ADMIR]1 A FRAIL1 PRETTY ?+ AT Y\R REVOLUTION>Y BECK & CALL4 ,IF ,I HAD ONLY FELT JEAL\SY T[>D ,LUISA !N1 IT W\LD HAVE BE5 Y\ :O RAN TO ! /OCKROOM ) ! %EET WRAPP$ >\ND Y\4 ,I W\LD HAVE C>RI$ ,NA*ALO'S PROJECT 9/EAD ( WOR%IP+ IT4 ,MY LOVE = Y\ W\LD HAVE BE5 AN ACTIVITY 9/EAD ( A VOCATION4 ,BUT ,I HAD TO EXP]I5CE ,JOSE BE=E ,I EXP]I5C$ MYSELF AS A BODY1 & ,L HAD TO WAIT YET ANO!R DECADE TO ABSORB :AT ,I LE>N$ FROM ,JOSE4 

,I GET UP FROM MY *AIR1 DIZZY FROM ALL ! W9E ,I DRANK4 & WALK T[>D ,PAT2 ,I TAKE HIS HEAD 9 MY H&S & PRESS IT AGA9/ ME4 ,I'M TOO GIDDY TO LI/51 BUT NOT TOO GIDDY TO PROCE$ ) ! /RATEGY ,I DREAM$ UP4 9 ! C> ON \R WAY H]E4 0,ALB]TS TURN$ HIS BACK ON ! REVOLUTION1 SO Y\ GAVE Y\RSELF TO ,TITUS ,ZABRAN1 ! SOLDI] ( ! REVOLUTION1 ITS !ORI/1 ! Y\NG] ( ! TWO40 ,I'M BURN+ ) DESIRE -- JEAL\S1 RES5TFUL DESIRE4 0,& :Y NOT80 ,I ASK4 0,! REVOLUTION IS A FE/IVAL1 ! SATISFACTION ( ALL DESIRES4 ,ISN'T ?AT :AT WE'RE SUPPOS$ TO BE CELEBRAT+80 

,DAMAN SNAPS \T ( HIS TRANCE4 0,LUISA'S ACC\NT MAKES IT P]FECTLY CLE> ?AT C]TA9 MATT]S1 SU* AS SOCIAL PRODUCTION1 TRANSPORTATION1 PREC$E ! SATISFACTION ( P]SONAL DESIRES40 

,PAT1 ALMO/ COMPLETELY DRUNK1 SAYS WEAKLY1 0,IF PRODUCTION TAKES PREC$5CE OV] ! REAL DESIRES ( CONCRETE 9DIVIDUALS1 !N ! ORGANIZ]S ( PRODUCTION TAKE PREC$5CE OV]1 LIV+ 9DIVIDUALS & REPRESSION TAKES PREC$5CE1 OV] LIFE40 

,DAMAN OBJECTS1 0,I ?9K Y\ BO?1 MISS$ ,I ! PO9T ( :AT ,LUISA HAS BE5 TELL+ US4 ,IF REVOLUTION IS NO?+ BUT ! REALIZATION ( :AT Y\ CALL DESIRES --0 

0,:AT DO Y\ CALL !M1 ,DAMAN80 ,I SNAP AT HIM1 />T+ TO PULL ,PAT \T ( HIS *AIR4 0,>E Y\ SURE Y\ DIDN'T MISS ! PO9T ( :AT ,LUISA HAS BE5 TELL+ Y\1 ,DAMAN8 ,%E WANTS Y\ TO GIVE H] AN ORGASM1 ,DAMAN1 RI<T H]E1 RI<T N[4 ,%E'S TRY+ TO TELL Y\ :Y %E WANTS IT FROM Y\4 ,BECAUSE Y\'RE A PR(ESSOR ) \R IDEAS1 BECAUSE Y\'RE A DRIV] ( ! TRAM %E ,S]VES1 BECAUSE ( Y\R UNIV]SAL IDEAS1 BECAUSE Y\'RE ! ONE = :OSE S]VICE %E PULL$ ,NA*ALO \T ( HIS HOVEL1 & ,Y>O/AN --0 

,IF ONLY ,I HAD BE5 GIDDY ?AT MORN+ ,I WAS ) Y\ ON ! FLOOR ( ! C>TON PLANT & IF ,I'D KN[N ,LUISA WAS GO+ TO OP5 ?AT GATE1 ,I W\LD HAVE PULL$ Y\ 9TO ME :ILE %E WAT*$6 ,IF ,I HAD DONE ?AT1 ,Y>O/AN1 ,I W\LD NEV] HAVE DREAM$ ( EMIGRAT+4 ,I W\LD HAVE WAIT$ = Y\ AT ! PRISON GATE :5 Y\ W]E RELEAS$1 Y\ W\LD NEV] HAVE1M>RI$ ,MIRNA1 AL?\< Y\ W\LD HAVE SP5T Y\R LIFE ) A P]SON MU* MORE LIKE H] ?AN ,I'VE BE54 ,IF ,I HAD NEV]!LESS EMIGRAT$1 DUR+ MY FIR/ BIKE TRIP ) ,RON ,I W\LD HAVE SP5T HALF ! NI<T MAK+ LOVE TO HIM BY ! SIDE ( ! POND1 & ,I'D HAVE SLEPT ! O!R HALF1 CONT5T & HAPPY & UNAFRAID4 ,I'D NEV] HAVE LEFT ,RON1 HE W\LD BE ALIVE TODAY1 & ,I MI<T BE A SUCCESSFUL ?IEF OR PRO/ITUTE4 ,I MI<T HAVE BE5 ! ONE :O />T$ ! G>AGE2 ,I MI<T HAVE BE5 ,RON'S GIRL & ,JOSE'S & ,T$'S1 PROBABLY ,TISSIE'S & ,SAB9A'S TOO1 EA* 9 TURN1 P]HAPS ALL AT ONCE4 ,I KN[ ,I'D NEV] HAVE GONE NE> A UNIV]SITY1 & ,I'D NEV] HAVE MET ,RHEA1 OR ,LEM1 ,HU< OR ,ALEC1 ,DAMAN OR ,M9NIE4 ,NOR W\LD ,I'VE WRITT5 Y\ A LETT] AT ! TIME ( ! ,MAG>NA UPRIS+2 ,I W\LDN'T HAVE NE$$ TO2 Y\ W\LDN'T HAVE BE5 >RE/$ BECAUSE ( IT2 ,JAN W\LD /ILL BE ALIVE1 AS WELL AS ,MIRNA'S FA!R1 & ,VESNA W\LD HAVE HAD NO REASON TO PLAY H] GAME- 

,DO ,I WI%1 ,Y>O/AN8 ,YES4 ,DON'T Y\8 ,I OPT = ?AT O!R LIFE 9 ,LUISA'S D9+ ROOM4 ,I REPLAY MY SC5E 9 ! C>TON PLANT -- UN=TUNATELY TW5TY YE>S TOO LATE TO UNDO ! CONSEQU5CES ( ! LIFE ,I'VE LIV$1 BUT NOT TOO LATE TO PUT AN 5D TO ! ,SOPHIA ,I RECOGNIZ$ 9 Y\R LETT]1 A ,SOPHIA T[>D :OM ,I C\LD FEEL NO ADMIRATION1 NOR EV5 PITY1 JU/ CONTEMPT4 ,WRAPP+ MY >MS >\ND ,PAT'S BODY ,I ASK ,DAMAN1 0,:AT DOES COMRADE%IP MEAN TO Y\1 ,DAMAN8 ,:AT DO Y\ UND]/& BY SOLID>ITY80 ,!N ,I ASK ,LUISA1 0,DO Y\ REMEMB] ,CLAUDE ,TAMNI*80 

,LUISA PUTS H] H& ON ,DAMAN'S %\LD] & CLAIMS1 0,Y\ KN[ P]FECTLY WELL ,DAMAN MEANS EXACTLY ! SAME ?+ ,I DO1 ,SOPHIA40 ,TO PROVE IT1 & TO DISSOCIATE ,DAMAN FROM ,CLAUDE1 %E LIFTS HIS H& TO H] M\?1 KISSES IT1 & TELLS HIM1 0,?IS IS :AT ,I MEAN BY SOLID>ITY & FRI5D%IP1 ,DAMAN2 IT'S MORE2 ?AN >TICLES & MEET+S & PICKET L9ES & >GUM5TS --0 

,I P]SI/4 ,I'M OBSESS$ ) MY PROJECT4 0,%[ ,LUISA1 %[ ALL ( US :AT Y\ MEAN BY DESIRE1 ,DAMAN40 ,I TURN TO ,PAT4 0,& Y\6 ,%[ US :AT Y\ MEAN BY ! REAL DESIRES ( CONCRETE 9DIVIDUALS1 ! UNITY BETWE5 !ORY & PRACTICE4 ,%[ US H[ M5 DOM9ATE HI/ORY60 .- 4 

,PAT TRIES TO PULL AWAY FROM ME1 0,I DON'T UND]/&1 ,SOPHIA4 ,I JU/ TOLD ,DAMAN --0 

0,NEV] M9D :AT Y\ TOLD HIM6 ,%[ ,DAMAN :AT Y\ WANT$ TO %[ ME BE=E D9N]4 ,NOT ) WORDS1 ,PAT6 ,) Y\R >MS1 LEGS1HIPS1 ) Y\R BODY6 ,LET ME REM9D Y\40 ,I'M BREA?+ FA/4 ,I FEEL MY HE>TBEATS 9 MY HEAD4 ,I'M BURN+ ! WAY ,MIRNA MU/ HAVE BURN$ ! DAY %E TOOK H] BRO!R ! DEVIL TO H] CLE>+4 ,& :Y NOT8 ,! WORLD IS *ANG+ ALL >\ND ME4 ,:Y W\LDN'T ,I *ANGE8 ,I'VE AB&ON$ MYSELF TOTALLY ONLY ONCE BE=E 9 MY LIFE -- TO ,JOSE1 9 ORD] TO %[ ,I WASN'T P]V]SE1 TO %[ HIM ! NATURE ( MY MO/ REPRESS$ DESIRES1 TO %[ ,I DIDN'T WANT TO BE ,T9A'S S$UC] BUT ,JOSE'S WOMAN4 ,MY DET]M9ATION TO PROVE ! EXI/5CE ( MY DESIRE ITSELF GAVE BIR? TO MY DESIRE4 ,?AT WAS ! FIR/ TIME ,I EXP]I5C$ ! AB&ON ( TOTAL ORGASM4 ,! IRONY IS ?AT 9 TRY+ TO D5Y MY P]V]SITY ,I PROV$ MYSELF UNIMAG9ABLY P]V]SE1 BA?+ MY 5TIRE BODY 9 ,JOSE1 WRI?+ 9 SEM54 ,BUT ,I HAD BE5 REPRESS$ TOO LONG TO UND]/& :AT ,I HAD DONE4 ,\T ( A %AME & D5IAL ( SEXUALITY ID5TICAL TO ,VESNA'S1 ,I COMMITT$ SUICIDE 9 A FIB]GLASS FACTORY & CONT9U$ MURD]+ MY DESIRES UNTIL BO? Y\ & ,LUISA HELD UP A MIRROR ?AT REFLECT$ A HORRIBLY RIGID1 SEXLESS PORCELA9 /ATUE1 TAUNT+ ME1 PROVOK+ ME UNTIL ,I CAN'T /& TO LOOK AT ! REFLECTION A SECOND LONG]4 ,I PRESS MY :OLE BODY AGA9/ ,PAT'S SIDE1 SLID+ SL[LY AGA9/ HIS >M1 HIS HIPS4 0,DON'T LOOK AWAY1 ,DAMAN60 ,I %\T4 0,TELL HIM1 ,LUISA6 ,TELL HIM ?IS IS :AT Y\ MEAN BY COMRADE%IP & SOLID>ITY60 

,LUISA HOLDS ON TO ,DAMAN'S H& & />TS TO CRY4 0,DID ,Y>O/AN TELL Y\ AB\T ?AT TOO80 

0,DO Y\ REMEMB] :AT COMES NEXT80 ,I ASK H]4 ,I PULL ,PAT'S %IRT OV] HIS HEAD & />T UNDO+ HIS BELT BUCKLE4 

,PAT BEGS1 0,PLEASE1 ,SOPHIA1 NOT H]E40 

,DAMAN GETS UP & MOVES T[>D ! DOOR1 ANN\NC+1 0,?IS IS RIDICUL\S40 

,LUISA1 CRY+1 FALLS TO H] KNEES 9 FRONT ( ,DAMAN & EMBRACES HIS LEG2 %E LOOKS UP TO HIM LIKE A BEGG+ DOG4 0,DON'T LEAVE ME N[4 ,DAMAN40 

,PULL+ (F MY [N CLO!S1 ,I PU% ,PAT D[N TO ! FLOOR4 0,DESIRE IS RIDICUL\S1 ,DAMAN4 ,ORGANIZATION HAS NO?+ TO DO ) PASSION4 ,SOLID>ITY MEANS OB$I5CE TO ! LEAD]'S DECISIONS4 ,COMRADE%IP IS NO?+ BUT A SYNONYM ( MEMB]%IP4 ,= Y\ !RE'S NO CONTRADICTION BETWE5 ORGANIZATION & DESIRE BECAUSE DESIRE DOESN'T EXI/4 ,IT'S EXPURGAT$ FROM ! REVOLUTION>Y SOCIETY4 ,LUISA1 DO Y\ REMEMB] ,CLAUDE ,TAMNI*80 

,LUISA FALLS TO ! GR\ND AS ,DAMAN TRIES TO WALK AWAY FROM H]4 ,HE %\TS TO ME1 0,Y\ BELONG 9 A M5TAL HOSPITAL60 ,?AT MU/ BE :AT HIS FRI5D1 ! DEAN :O FIR$ ME1 TOLD HIM4 

,LUISA HOLDS ON TO HIM & BEGS1 0,PLEASE DON'T PROVE H] RI<T1 ,DAMAN60 

,PAT & ,I ROLL NAK$ ON ,LUISA'S LIV+ ROOM C>PET AS IF IT W]E ,SAB9A'S WALL-TO-WALL MATTRESS4 ,PAT1 PANT+ ) DESIRE1 TRIES TO PULL ME T[>D ! /AIRWAY4 ,I LAU< AT HIM & REM9D HIM1 0,ALL ! VICTIMS ( REPRESSION HAVE TO SATISFY !IR DESIRES1 ,PAT1 NOT JU/ SOME4 ,M5 WILL NEV] DOM9ATE HI/ORY FROM B$-ROOMS4 ,?AT'S DONE 9 LIV+ ROOMS60 

,DAMAN REA*ES ! DOOR1 DRAGG+ ,LUISA AFT] HIM4 0,AT LEA/ SIT ) ME 9 ! KIT*54 ,DON'T LEAVE ME LIKE ?IS10 %E BEGS4 

,& !N1 EXACTLY AS ,JAN EXPECT$1 ALL MORALITY BUR/S 9TO ! OP5 & %ATT]S4 ,PAT P5ETRATES & WAILS1 0,OH1 NO1 ,I DIDN'T WANT IT TO HAPP5 LIKE ?IS40 

,DAMAN SLAPS ,LUISA & RUNS \T ( ! H\SE1 LEAV+ H] LY+ BY ! OP5 DOOR EXACTLY AS ,I HAD ONCE LEFT ,TISSIE1 CRY+ HY/]ICALLY4 ,LUISA COMES TO H]SELF1 LOOKS >\ND FURI\SLY1 & RUNS TO H] ROOM %\T+ AT ME1 0,I'LL NEV] =GIVE Y\ = ?IS6 ,I DON'T KN[ :AT Y\'RE TRY+ TO PROVE1 BUT Y\'RE DO+ IT LIKE A SICK1 WILD ANIMAL60 

0,LIKE A GYPSY60 ,I %\T BACK4 

,PAT RUNS FROM ! OP5 DOOR & GRABS ! CLO!S /REWN >\ND ! LIV+ ROOM1 EXACTLY AS ,I RAN FROM ! /REET 5TRANCE ( ! C>TON PLANT4 ,A PORCELA9 /ATUE IS %ATT]$4 ,PAT DRESSES 9 A CORN] ( ! ROOM & BOLTS ?R\< ! DOOR4 ,I BA! 9 ! FRE% NI<T AIR BL[+ 9 FROM ! /REET1 IMMORAL TO ! PO9T ( P]V]SITY1 UNA%AM$1 9DEP5D5T4 ,LUISA RUNS PA/ ME )\T LOOK+ AT ME & SLAMS ! DOOR %UT4 ,I GO UP TO MY ROOM1 FEEL+ VICTORI\S & FREE4 ,I WANT$1 & ,I TOOK 9 CONDITIONS DET]M9$ BY ME4 ,TELL ,MIRNA ,I'M READY N[ TO FACE ALL ! CONSEQU5CES1 ,I'M READY TO FACE ! WORLD4 

,I'VE BE5 TYP+ = ! PA/ TWELVE H\RS4 ,LUISA DIDN'T 9VITE ME TO BREAKFA/ BE=E %E LEFT ?IS MORN+4 ,I REC5TLY F9I%$ ! BOTTLE ( W9E ,I E>N$ UP ) ME4 ,& YES1 ,I READ Y\R SECOND LETT] AS SOON AS ,I />T$ WRIT+ ?IS ONE4 ,I LO/ SOME ( MY RAGE1 BUT NOT MY DESIRE TO DESCRIBE MY 0REVOLUTION0 TO Y\4 ,\TSIDE !RE'S A G5]AL /RIKE4 ,EV]Y?+ IS \T ( COMMISSION4 ,TOMORR[ ,I'LL BE P>T ( IT AGA91 ?\< ,I DON'T YET KN[ :I* P>T4 ,I MAY GO BACK TO ,SAB9A & ,TISSIE4 ,I'LL TRY TO TAKE ,PAT ) ME4 

,I /ILL LOVE Y\1 ,Y>O/AN1 & ,I'LL GO ON LOV+ Y\ --  
  

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