,VOLUME #b1 ,LETT] #ag ,! ,ANSW]1 ,COS5ZA ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,WILLIAM ,GODW9 ,TEXT 3 ,LETT] ,X,V,I,I4 ,! ,ANSW]1 ,COS5ZA ,MY LORD1 ,Y\ W]E NOT MI/AK5 :5 Y\ SUPPOS$ ?AT ! SUBJECT ( Y\R LETT] W\LD BO? AFFLICT & SURPRIZE ME 9 ! EXTREME/ DEGREE4 ,! UN=TUNATE EV5T TO :I* IT PR9CIPALLY RELATES1 IS SU* AS CANNOT BUT AFFECT ME NE>LY4 ,& SEP>ATE FROM ?IS1 !RE IS A VEIL ( MY/]Y ?AT HANGS OV] ! HORRID TALE1 BEH9D :I* ,I D>E NOT PRY1 BUT ) ! MO/ TREMBL+ ANXIETY1 BUT :I* WILL PROBABLY 9 A V]Y %ORT TIME BE TOTALLY REMOV$4 ,Y\R LORD%IP1 ,I AM AFRAID1 IS BUT TOO WELL ACQUA9T$ ) ! HI/ORY ( ! CORRESPOND5CE BETWE5 MYSELF & MY DECEAS$ LORD4 ,I WAS GIV5 TO UND]/& ?AT ! C\NT DE ,/4 ,JULIAN WAS M>RI$ TO ! DAU&A4 ,I ?\ACT] & REPUTATION1 & TO COMM5CE A QU>REL SO UNJU/ & ABSURD1 ) ! MAN TO :OM HE WAS B\ND BY SO NUM]\S OBLIGATIONS8 ,MY LORD1 ,I HAVE REVOLV$ ALL ! CIRCUM/ANCES ?AT >E COMMUNICAT$ TO ME 9 Y\R AL>M+ LETT]4 ,! (T5] ,I P]USE IT1 & ! MORE MATURELY ,I CONSID] !M1 ! MORE DOES IT APPE> ?AT ! C\NT DE ,/4 ,JULIAN HAS ALL ! MANN]S ( CONSCI\S 9NOC5CE & 9JUR$ TRU?4 ,IT IS IMPOSSIBLE = AN IMPO/OR TO HAVE ACT$ ?R\<\T ) AN AIR SO 9TREPID & SUP]IOR4 ,Y\R LORD%IP'S ACC\NT1 SO F> AS IT RELATES TO ! M>QUIS1 IS PROBABLY ! ACC\NT ( A FRI5D1 BUT IT IS IMPOSSIBLE NOT TO P]CEIVE1 ?AT HIS BEHAVIOR D]IVES NO ADVANTAGE FROM BE+ CONTRA/$ ) ?AT ( HIS ANTAGONI/4 ,Y\ WILL READILY BELIEVE1 ?AT IT HAS CO/ ME MANY EF=TS TO ASSEMBLE ALL !SE ?\D$ ! :OLE AS A DREAM2 ,I CONSID]$ EV]Y CIRCUM/ANCE AS BEYOND ! COGNIZANCE ( REASON1 & F\ND$ 5TIRELY 9 MADNESS & FR5ZY4 ,I PA9T$ TO MYSELF ! C\NT DE ,/4 ,JULIAN1 :OM ,I HAD KN[N = A *>ACT] SO T5D] & S9C]E1 AS URG$ ALONG ) ALL ! /+S ( GUILT1 & AGITAT$ ) ALL ! FURIES ( REMORSE4 ,I AT ONCE PITI$ HIS SUFF]+S1 & LAM5T$ !IR MORTAL & DE/RUCTIVE CONSEQU5CES4 ,I REG>D$ Y\RSELF & EV]Y P]SON CONC]N$ 9 ! MELAN*OLY AFFAIR1 AS ACTUAT$ BY ! SAME IRRATIONAL SPIRIT1 & UNIT$ TO OV]:ELM ONE POOR1 TREMBL+1 & DEF5SELESS WOMAN4 ,BUT ! DELUSION WAS ( NO LONG CONT9UANCE4 ,I SOON P]CEIV$ ?AT IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE = A MANIAC TO BE SUFF]$ TO PROCE$ TO SO HORRID EXTREMITIES4 ,I P]CEIV$ 9 EV]Y ?+ ?AT RELAT$ TO ! C\NT1 A SPIRIT V]Y DIFF]5T FROM ?AT ( FR5ZY4 ,IT IS ?US ?AT ,I HAVE PLUNG$ FROM UNC]TA9TY TO UNC]TA9TY4 ,FROM ADOPT+ A SOLUTION WILD & ABSURD1 ,I AM ?R[N BACK UPON A D>KNESS /ILL MORE FE>FUL1 & AM LO/ 9 CONJECTURES ( ! MO/ TREM5D\S NATURE4 ,& :]E IS IT ?AT ,I AM OBLIG$ TO REF] MY TIMID 9QUIRIES8 ,ALAS1 ,I HAVE NO FRI5D UPON :OSE BOSOM TO SUPPORT MYSELF1 ,I HAVE NO RELATION TO 9T]E/ 9 MY CAUSE4 ,I AM =LORN1 =SAK5 & DESOLATE4 ,BY NATURE NOT =M$ = DEF5SE1 NOT BRAC$ TO 5C\NT] ! /ORMS ( CALAMITY1 :]E %ALL ,I HIDE MY UNPROTECT$ HEAD8 ,=GIVE ME1 MY LORD1 IF ,I AM MI/AK52 P>DON ! RAV+S ( A DI/RACT$ M9D4 ,IT IS POSSIBLE ,I AM OBLIG$ TO RECUR TO HIM FROM :OM ALL MY MIS=TUNES TOOK !IR S\RCE1 :O HAS GUID$ UNSE5 ALL ?OSE MOVEM5TS TO :I* ?IS POOR & BROK5 HE>T IS ! SACRIFICE4 ,P]HAPS ! WORDS ?AT N[ FL[ FROM MY P51 >E DIRECT$ TO ! DI/URB] ( MY PEACE1 ! 9T]CEPTOR ( ALL ?AT HAPP9ESS MO/ CONG5IAL TO MY HE>T1 ! MURD]] ( MY HUSB&6 ,:]E1 9 ! MEAN TIME1 :]E IS ?IS C\NTESS1 ?IS DREAD$ RIVAL8 ,Y\1 MY LORD1 HAVE P]HAPS ]E ?IS TIME SE5 H]4 ,TELL ME1 :AT >E ?OSE 9EFFABLE *>MS ?AT S$UC$ A HE>T :I* WAS ONCE SO CON/ANT8 ,/4 ,JULIAN WAS NEV] M]C5>Y1 & ,I HAVE A =TUNE ?AT MIACT] SO GLORI\S1 ?AT LIB]T9ES V5]AT$1 & ! FRI5DS ( VIRTUE ADOR$1 TO A DEP? SO L[ & IRRETRIEVABLE8 ,I HAVE ?\EFULLY SUPPRESS$1 OV] :I* ,I SO L\DLY TRIUMPH$1 ?AT N[ BUR/S ITS LIMITS8 ,H[ FATAL & DEPLORABLE IS ?AT TRA9 ( CIRCUM/ANCES1 ?AT BR+S A NAME1 ?AT WAS ONCE 9SCRIB$ ON MY HE>T1 TO MY REMEMBRANCE1 ACCOMPANI$ ) ATT5DANTS1 ?AT AWAK5 ALL MY T5D]NESS1 & BREA! NEW LIFE 9TO EA* =GOTT5 5DE>M5T6 ,IS IT = ME1 A WIFE1 A MO!R1 TO 5T]TA9 !SE GUILTY ?\T IS NOT MADE ( IMP5ETRABLE /UFF4 ,I ?9K ,I CANNOT LONG SURVIVE AFFLICTIONS ?US COMPLICAT$1 & TRIALS ?US SEV]E4 ,BUT SO LONG AS ,I REMA9 9 ?IS WORLD ( CALAMITY1 ,I WILL 5DEAVOR TO ACT 9 A MANN] NOT UNWOR?Y ( MYSELF4 ,I WILL NOT DISGRACE ! RACE FROM :I* ,I SPRUNG4 ,:ATEV] O!RS MAY DO1 ,I WILL NOT DI%ONOR ! FAMILY TO :I* ,I AM UNIT$4 ,I MAY BE MIS]ABLE1 BUT ,I WILL NOT BE GUILTY4 ,I MAY BE A MONUM5T ( ANGUI%1 BUT ,I WILL NOT BE AN EXAMPLE ( DEG5]ACY4 ,GRACI\S HEAV56 IF ,I HAVE BE5 DECEIV$1 :AT A TRA9 ( >TIFICE & FRAUD RU%ES UPON MY T]RIFI$ RECOLLECTION8 ,H[ C>EFULLY HAVE ALL MY PASSIONS1 9 ! UNGU>D$ H\R ( ANGUI% & MIS]Y1 BE5 WR\TS BACK ) HORROR1 :I* 9TEGRITY BLU%ES TO LOOK ON6 ,& HAVE ,I BE5 ?IS POOR & ABJECT TOOL 9 ! H& ( VILLA9S8 ,& >E !RE HE>TS COOL & OBDURATE 5\<1 TO WAT* ALL ! TREMBL+ />TS ( WRET*$NESS1 TO S$UCE ! HE>T ?AT HAS GIV5 ITSELF UP TO DESPAIR8 ,CAN !Y LOOK ON ) FRIGID 9S5SIBILITY1 CAN !Y BEHOLD DI/RESS ) NO O!R EYE BUT ?AT ( 9T]E/1 ) NO O!R WAT* BUT ?AT :I* DISCOV]S H[ IT MAY BE DISGRAC$ = EV]8 ,OH1 WRET*$ ,MATILDA6 :I!R1 :I!R HA/ ?\ BE5 PLUNG$6 ,MY MEMORY IS UP 9 >MS4 ,I CANNOT N[ IMAG9E H[ ,I WAS 9DUC$ TO SO DECISIVE & ADV5TUR\S A /EP4 ,BUT ,I WAS FULL ( ! ANGUI% ( DISAPPO9TM5T1 & ! RES5TM5T ( DESPAIR4 ,H[ ASSIDU\SLY WAS ,I COM=T$8 ,:AT SYMPA?Y1 :AT ANGELIC T5D]NESS SEEM$ TO FL[ FROM ! LIPS ( HIM1 9 :OSE HE>T P]HAPS !RE DWELT EV]Y DI%ONORABLE & UNSAT$ PASSION8 ,IT WAS ALL A *AOS4 ,MY HE>T WAS TUMULTU\S HURRY1 )\T LEISURE = RETROSPECT1 )\T A MOM5T = DELIB]ATION4 ,& DO ,I D>E TO EXCUSE MYSELF8 ,WAS ,I NOT GUILTY1 UNP>DONABLY GUILTY8 ,OH1 A M9D ?AT KNEW ,/4 ,JULIAN %\LD HAVE WAIT$ = AGES1 %\LD HAVE REVOLV$ EV]Y CIRCUM/ANCE A ?\S& TIMES1 %\LD HAVE DISBELIEV$ EV5 ! EVID5CE ( S5SE1 & ! DEMON/RATION ( ET]NAL TRU?6 ,ACCURS$ PRECIPITATION6 ,MO/ WICK$ SPE$6 ,NO1 ,I HAVE NOT SUFF]$ HALF :AT ,I HAVE DES]V$4 ,HEAP HORRORS ON ME1 ?\ DREADFUL DISP5S] ( AV5G+ PROVID5CE6 ,I WILL NOT COMPLA94 ,I WILL EXPIRE 9 ! MID/ ( AGONIES )\T A GROAN6 ,BUT !SE ?\T = EV]4 ,WRET*$ AS ,I AM1 ,I AM NOT P]MITT$ ! CONSOLATION ( P5IT5CE1 ,I AM NOT FREE TO ACCUSE & TORM5T MYSELF4 ,NO1 ?AT /EP HAS BE5 TAK5 :I* CAN NEV] BE REPEAL$4 ,! M>QUIS ( ,PESC>A WAS MY HUSB&1 & :ATEV] W]E HIS TRUE *>ACT]1 ,I WILL NOT CRU% HIS MEMORY & HIS FAME4 ,I HAVE1 ,I FE>1 UNADVIS$LY 5T]$ 9TO CONNECTIONS1 & 5TAIL$ UPON MYSELF DUTIES4 ,BUT !SE CONNECTIONS %ALL N[ BE SACR$2 !SE DUTIES %ALL BE DIS*>G$ TO ! M9UTE/ TITTLE4 ,OH1 POOR & UNPROTECT$ ORPHAN1 ?\ >T CA/ UPON ! WORLD )\T A FRI5D6 ,BUT ?\ %ALT NEV] WANT ! ASSIDUITY ( A MO!R4 ,?\1 AT LEA/1 >E GUILELESS & 9NOC5T4 ,?\ %ALT BE MY ONLY COMPANION4 ,TO WAT* OV] !E %ALL BE ! SOLE AMUSEM5T ?AT ,MATILDA WILL H5CE=? 9DULGE H]SELF4 ,?AT ?\ WILT REM9D ME ( MY ]RORS1 ?AT ,I %ALL TRACE 9 !E GRADUALLY AS ?Y YE>S ADVANCE1 ! FEATURES ( HIM TO :OM MY UN=TUNATE LIFE [$ ALL ITS COLOR1 WILL BUT MAKE !E A MORE PROP] COMPANION1 AN OBJECT MORE CONG5IAL TO ! SORR[S ( MY S\L4 ,FROM 3 ,!,AN>*I/,LIBR>Y4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,JANU>Y #e1 #bba 3 ,VOLUME #b1 ,LETT] #ag -- ,ADD$4 ,JANU>Y #a#g1 #bbb 3 ,VOLUME #b1 ,LETT] #ag -- ,UPDAT$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/