,VOLUME #a1 ,*APT] #c 

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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,WILLIAM ,GODW9 

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BY ,W,I,L,L,I,A,M ,G,O,D,W,94 

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     ,A,T ! USUAL AGE ,I 5T]$ MYSELF ( ! UNIV]SITY ( ,OX=D4 ,I FELT NO /RONG PROP5SITY TO ?IS *ANGE2 BUT ,I SUBMITT$ TO IT1 AS TO A ?+ 9 ! REGUL> ORD] ( PROCE$+1 & TO :I* IT W\LD BE USELESS TO OBJECT4 ,I WAS SO MU* ACCU/OM$ TO SELF-CONV]SATION AS TO HAVE LITTLE 9CL9ATION TO MIX 9 ! WORLD2 & WAS TO SU* A DEGREE SATISFI$ ) MY ABILITIES1 & PROGRESS1 & CAPACITY ( DIRECT+ MY [N /UDIES & CONDUCT1 AS NOT TO LOOK ) ANY EAG] CRAV+ = ! ADVICE & ASSI/ANCE ( PR(ESSORS & DOCTORS4 

     ,9 SETT+ \T = ! UNIV]SITY1 ,I WAS TO P>T ) MY FA!R & MY PRECEPTOR4 ,! FIR/ ( !SE WAS A BITT] PANG TO ME3 ,I HAD SC>CELY1 FROM ! E>LIE/ ( MY REMEMBRANCE1 EV] BE5 A WEEK REMOV$ FROM ! SI<T ( ! AU?OR ( MY BE+4 ,HE WAS ! WISE/ & ! BE/ MAN ,I KNEW4 ,HE HAD ALL ?OSE ADVANTAGES FROM NATURE1 & FROM ! EXT]NAL 5D[M5TS ( =TUNE1 :I* W]E CALCULAT$ TO MA9TA9 MY REV]5CE4 ,WE HAD GRADUALLY BECOME MORE QUALIFI$ = EA* O!R'S SOCIETY & CONFID5CE4 ,\R *>ACT]S HAD MANY PO9TS ( RESEMBLANCE3 WE W]E BO? S]I\S1 BO? CONTEMPLATIVE1 BO? AV]SE TO ! COMM]CE ( ! WORLD4 ,MY TEMP]1 AS ,I HAVE SAID1 WAS TO AN UNCOMMON DEGREE IMPATI5T ( CONTRADICTION2 & A C]TA9 DEGREE ( HE>T-BURN+ HAD NOT FAIL$ OCCASIONALLY TO 9VADE MY BREA/ ON ?IS SCORE1 EV5 T[>D ?IS EXCELL5T P>5T4 ,BUT MY RES5TM5T & 9DIGNATION 9 !SE 9/ANCES HAD BE5 %ORT-LIV$4 ,AS ! ONLY REPRES5TATIVE ( HIS P]SON 9 EXI/5CE1 MY FA!R WAS >D5TLY ATTA*$ TO ME1 & ! OCCASIONS HE ADM9I/]$ TO MY IMPATI5CE & DISPLEASURE W]E EXCE$+LY FEW4 ,ON ! O!R H&1 :ATEV] FAULTS ( *>ACT] MI<T JU/LY BE IMPUT$ TO ME1 ,I HAD YET BETRAY$ NO TOK5S ( AN UNMANAGEABLE BOI/]\SNESS2 MY PROP5SITIES W]E 9NOC5T2 & MY PURSUITS1 MO/ ( !M1 SU* AS SEEM$ TO CONDUCE TO ! IMPROVEM5T ( MY UND]/&+ & MY HE>T4 ,9 A WORD1 MY FA!R & ,I1 ALL[+ = ?OSE FAIL+S :I* 9 SOME =M OR O!R >E 9SEP>ABLE FROM ! HUMAN *>ACT]1 W]E EXCELL5T FRI5DS2 & IT WAS NOT )\T MANY TE>S %$ ON BO? SIDES1 ?AT WE P>T$1 :5 ,I M\NT$ ! *AISE 9 :I* ,I SET BUT = ,OX=D4 

     ,! SEP>ATION BETWE5 ME & MY TUTOR1 :I* TOOK PLACE AT ! SAME TIME1 WAS PRODUCTIVE ( A MIX$ S5SATION4 ,I HAD LONG N\RI%$ 9 MY M9D1 A SUP]CILI\S DISREG>D ( HIS M5TAL DISC]NM5T1 & FELT AS IF IT W]E A DEGRADATION TO ME TO LI/5 TO HIS 9/RUCTIONS4 ,! LESSONS HE GAVE ME APPE>$ AS A SORT ( %ACKLES1 ! SYMBOLS ( 9FANT9E IMBECILITY4 ,I WAS CONFID5T ( MY VIRTUE & MY P]SEV]ANCE1 & LONG$ TO %AKE (F !SE TOK5S ( MY NONAGE4 ,BUT1 BESIDES !SE 9TELLECTUAL S\RCES ( WE>9ESS & IMPATI5CE1 !RE WAS AN ANIMAL S5SATION1 :I* MADE ME REG>D ! DAY ( MY SEP>ATION FROM MY TUTOR AS ! EPO* ( MY LIB]TY4 ,HIS VOICE WAS SICKLY & UNPLEAS+ TO MY E>4 ,HE HAD CULTIVAT$ ! >T ( BE+ AMIABLE2 & HIS CAD5CES W]E =M$ BY HABIT TO A K9D ( TUNE ( C&OR1 & G5TL5ESS1 & HUMANITY4 ,HIS G5TL5ESS WAS1 UN=TUNATELY1 TW9-BRO!R TO ! S(TNESS ( HIS UND]/&+1 & EXPRESS$ NO?+ SO PLA9LY AS HIS IGNORANCE ( ALL ! AV5UES ( P]SUASION1 & ALL ! SECRET SPR+S ( HOPE1 & FE>1 & PASSION1 & WILL4 ,9 ADDITION TO ?IS1 ! GOOD G5TLEMAN LOV$ TO HE> HIMSELF TALK2 & HIS EXPLANATIONS & EXHORTATIONS W]E AS LONG AS ! HOMILIES ( ,>*BI%OP ,CRANM]4 ,AT MY AGE1--! AGE ( RE/LESSNESS1 & ACTIVITY1 & 5T]PRISE1--!SE DISC\RSES1 UNHAPPILY1 DID NOT G5]ATE A PROP5SITY TO SLEEP1 & !RE=E PRODUC$ 9 ME AN 9SUPPORTABLE LI/LESSNESS & 5NUI4 

     ,YET ,I DID NOT F9ALLY P>T ) MY OLD FRI5D )\T PA94 ,IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE A MORE 9NOC5T CREATURE %\LD LIVE4 ,IF ,I DID NOT HI<LY RESPECT HIM1 ,I C\LD NOT HELP APPROV+ & LOV+ HIM4 ,HAD IT BE5 O!RWISE1 !RE IS SOME?+ 9 ! NATURE ( HABIT :I* WILL = EV] PREV5T US FROM P>T+ ) ?AT TO :I* WE HAVE BE5 LONG ACCU/OM$1 ) 9DIFF]5CE4 ,I HAD BE5 US$ TO SEE MY PRECEPTOR EV]Y MORN+4 ,HE WAS P>T ( ! FURNITURE ( \R EAT+-ROOM4 ,AS WE HAD V]Y UNFREQU5T OPPORTUNITIES ( V>I\S SOCIETY1 ,I (T5 F\ND RELIEF 9 5T]+ 9TO CONV]SATION ) HIM4 ,IF HE C\LD TELL ME NO?+ ?AT APPE>$ TO ME HI<LY WOR?Y ( ATT5TION1 9 ! WAY ( FANCY OR D$UCTION1 HE WAS AT LEA/ WELL QUALIFI$ TO 9=M ME ( :AT HE HAD READ 9 BOOKS1 RELATIVELY EI!R TO *RONOLOGY1 GEOGRAPHY1 OR SCI5CE4 ,I AM P]SUAD$ ?AT IF1 :5 MY TUTOR LEFT ME1 ,I HAD REMA9$ AMONG ! SAME SC5ES1 ! CRISIS W\LD HAVE BE5 A SEV]E ONE4 ,AS IT WAS1 MY UND]/&+ APPROV$ ( ! SEP>ATION3 ,I RECOLLECT$ ?AT IT WAS AN EV5T = :I* ,I HAD (T5 & ANXI\SLY SI<$2 YET TO P>T ) A GOOD MAN1--A MAN TO :OSE C>ES & PATI5CE ,I [$ MU*1 :O HAD BE/[$ ON ME A ?\S& B5EFITS1 & BETWE5 :OM & MYSELF !RE HAD1 FROM FAMILI>ITY1 GR[N UP A CONSID]ABLE AFFECTION1 WAS NO DESIRABLE TASK4 ,I KISS$ HIS H&2 ,I ?ANK$ HIM A HUNDR$ TIMES = HIS CON/ANT EX]TIONS2 ) BITT] SELF-REPROA*1 ,I 5TREAT$ HIM TO =GIVE EV]Y ACT ( RUD5ESS1 IMPETU\SNESS1 & DISRESPECT1 ,I HAD BE5 GUILTY ( T[>D HIM3 AT ?IS MOM5T1 !SE ?+S /RUCK UPON MY CONSCI5CE LIKE CRIMES4 

     ,MY FA!R WAS ANXI\S ?AT A DEC5T PROVISION %\LD BE MADE = HIS DECL9+ YE>S4 ,!RE WAS AN ECCLESIA/ICAL LIV+ ( CONSID]ABLE VALUE VACANT 9 MY FA!R'S GIFT1 & HE 5TREAT$ MY TUTOR TO 5T] 9TO HOLY ORD]S1 & ACCEPT ( IT2 BUT ?IS MY OLD FRI5D /R5U\SLY DECL9$4 ,HIS CRE$ DID NOT EXACTLY ACCORD ) ! PR9CIPLES ( OR?ODOXY CONTA9$ 9 ! CODE ( ! ,*UR* ( ,5GL&2 & HE DISDA9$ TO COMPROMISE ) HIS CONSCI5CE4 ,BESIDES1 REG>D+ HIMSELF1 AS BE UND\BT$LY DID1 AS ! FIR/ LUM9>Y ( HIS AGE1 HE C\LD NOT ?9K ) P]FECT TEMP] ( DEVOT+ ! LA/ MATURITY ( HIS M9D TO ! SOCIETY ( FOXHUNT+ SQUIRES1 & ! READ+ PRAY]S & S]MONS TO RU/ICS & OLD WOM54 ,HE RETIR$1 UPON A SMALL ANNUITY :I* MY FA!R SETTL$ UPON HIM1 TO A N>R[ LODG+ 9 AN OBSCURE /REET ( ! METROPOLIS1 & PUBLI%$ FROM TIME TO TIME POCKET VOLUMES ( POETRY1 & SKET*ES ( A SYNOPSIS ( HIS MY?OLOGICAL DISCOV]IES1 :I* SOME P]SONS B\<T \T ( RESPECT TO ! GOOD QUALITIES ( !IR AU?OR1 BUT :I* NO P]SON READ4 

     ,A ?IRD SEP>ATION :I* TOOK PLACE ON ?IS OCCASION1 & :I*1 ,I HOPE1 ! READ] WILL NOT ?9K IT B5EA? ! DIGNITY ( HI/ORY TO RECORD1 WAS BETWE5 ME & MY DOG4 ,HE WAS MY OLD & AFFECTIONATE FRI5D1 & ! H\RS ,I HAD SP5T TETE-A-TETE 9 HIS SOCIETY W]E SC>CELY LESS NUM]\S ?AN ?OSE ,I HAD SP5T ) MY TUTOR4 ,HE HAD (T5 BE5 ! CONFIDANT ( MY SORR[S2 & ,I HAD NOT F\ND IT LESS NATURAL TO COMPLA9 TO HIM1 ?AN ! H]O9ES ( FABLE OR ROMANCE TO ! WOODS & ! WILDS1 ! ROCKS & ! OCEAN1 ( ! CRUELTIES !Y EXP]I5C$1 OR ! CALAMITIES ?AT WEI<$ !M D[N TO ! E>?4 ,ONE 9/ANCE 9 P>TICUL> ,I REMEMB] 9 V]Y E>LY Y\?1 :5 MY FA!R HAD SPOK5 TO ME ) UNUSUAL %>PNESS AB\T SOME FAULT ?AT1 9 MY EYES1 BY NO MEANS M]IT$ GREAT SEV]ITY ( C5SURE4 ,I RETIR$ TO ! T]RACE 9 ! G>D5 :I* HAS ALREADY BE5 M5TION$1 ?REW MYSELF AT MY L5G? UPON ! TURF1 & 9DULG$ A %ORT FIT ( MUT9Y & MISAN?ROPY4 ,AS ,I LAY1 POOR ,*ILO 7?AT WAS ! DOG'S NAME7 DISCOV]$ ME1 & LEAP$ T[>D ME ) HIS USUAL DEMON/RATIONS ( JOY4 ,I WAS 9 TOO ILL A HUMOR TO NOTICE HIM 2 & HE1 :O SEEM$ TO HAVE AT LEA/ AS MU* SKILL AS MY TUTOR 9 DISC]N+ :AT PASS$ 9 MY M9D1 CREPT ALONG ! TURF T[>D ! SPOT :I* SUPPORT$ MY HEAD1 ) PLEAD+ & MO/ DIFFID5T ADVANCES4 ,AT L5G? ,I SUFF]$ MY EYE TO FALL ON HIM4 ,?IS BR\<T HIM CLOSE TO ME 9 A MOM5T4 ,HE LICK$ MY H&S & FACE1 ) EV]Y TOK5 ( GRATITUDE1 AFFECTION1 & DELI<T4 ,I ?REW MY >MS R\ND HIM4 0,FOND FOOL60 SAID ,I1 0EV]Y ONE ELSE TREATS ME ) UNK9DNESS & 9JU/ICE2 BUT Y\ WILL LOVE ME /ILL60 

     ,IT WAS JUDG$ PROP] ?AT ?IS ANIMAL1 :O HAD PASS$ ! M]IDIAN ( HIS LIFE1 %\LD NOT ACCOMPANY ME 9 MY 5TRANCE 9TO ! WORLD1 BUT %\LD REMA9 AT HOME4 ,I ACCORD+LY LEFT HIM 9 ,M]IONE?%IRE4 ,:AT WAS MY SURPRISE1 !N1 ONE DAY1 AS ,I CAME D[N ! /EPS ( ! *APEL FROM MORN+ PRAY]S1 AFT] HAV+ BE5 A WEEK AT ,OX=D1 AT MEET+ MY DOG6 ,HE FAWN$ UPON ME1 PLAY$ A ?\S& EXTRAVAGANT ANTICS1 & WAS TRANSPORT$ \T ( HIMSELF AT ! JOY ( F9D+ ME4 ,I AFT]W>DS LE>N$ ?AT HE BAD BE5 AT MY ROOMS1 HAD BE5 REPULS$ !RE1 & F9ALLY F\ND HIS WAY TO ! *APEL4 ,BY :AT SORT ( 9/9CT AN ANIMAL IS ?US 5ABL$1 = A DI/ANCE ( ONE HUNDR$ & SEV5TY MILES1 TO DISCOV] ! TRACE ( HIS MA/]1 ,I AM UNABLE TO SAY4 ,! ?+ ITSELF1 ,I AM TOLD1 IS NOT UNCOMMON4 ,BUT EV]Y +5U\S M9D TO :OM SU* AN 9CID5T HAS OCCURR$1 FEELS1 NO D\BT1 AS ,I DID1 A MO/ P[]FUL IMPULSE ( AFFECTION T[>D ! BRUTE :O HAS %[N SO DI/+UI%$ AN ATTA*M5T4 

     ,:AT IS ! NATURE ( ?IS ATTA*M5T8 ,A DOG1 ,I BELIEVE1 IS NOT LESS ATTA*$ TO A FOOL ?AN TO A WISE MAN1 TO A PEASANT ?AN TO A LORD1 TO A BEGG> 9HABIT+ ! POORE/ HUT1 ?AN TO A PR9CE SWAY+ ! SCEPT] ( NATIONS & DWELL+ 9 A PALACE4 ,ILL USAGE SC>CELY MAKES A DIFF]5CE4 ,AT LEA/1 ! MO/ SP>+LY DEALT K9DNESS ( ! SURLIE/ GROOM AF=DS A SUFFICI5T BASIS ( ATTA*M5T4 ,! CASE IS CONSID]ABLY P>ALLEL TO ?AT ( A NOBLEMAN ,I HAVE SOME:]E READ (1 :O 9SI/$ ?AT HIS MI/RESS %\LD NOT LOVE HIM = HIS WEAL? NOR HIS RANK1 ! GRACES ( HIS P]SON NOR ! ACCOMPLI%M5TS ( HIS M9D2 BUT = HIMSELF4 ,I AM 9CL9$ TO BLAME ! MAN :O %\LD ?US SUBTLY REF9E1 & WANTONLY 5DEAVOR AT A SEP>ATION BETWE5 HIM & ALL ?AT IS MO/ TRULY HIS2 BUT1 :]E ! C\RSE ( NATURE PRODUCES ?IS SEP>ATION1 !RE IS A PR9CIPLE 9 ! HUMAN M9D :I* COMPELS US TO F9D GRATIFICATION 9 ?IS UNM]IT$ & METAPHYSICAL LOVE4 

     ,AT ,OX=D1 ! :OLE TONE ( MY M9D BECAME SPE$ILY *ANG$4 ,! SITUATION WAS ALTOGE!R NEW1 & ! EFFECTS PRODUC$ W]E /RIK+LY OPPOS$ TO ?OSE :I* ,I HAD HI!RTO SU/A9$4 ,9 ,M]IONE?%IRE1 ,I HAD BE5 A SOLIT>Y SAVAGE4 ,I HAD NO COMPANIONS1 & ,I DESIR$ NONE4 ,! COMM]CE ( MY BOOKS & ( MY ?\<TS WAS 5\< = ME4 ,I LIV$ 9 AN IDEAL WORLD ( MY [N CREATION4 ,! ACTUAL WORLD B5EA? ME ,I 9TUITIVELY %UNN$4 ,I FELT ?AT EV]Y MAN ,I %\LD MEET W\LD BE EI!R TOO IGNORANT1 TOO CO>SE1 OR TOO SUP]CILI\S1 TO AF=D ME PLEASURE4 ,! /R+S ( MY M9D1 SO TO EXPRESS IT1 W]E TUN$ TO TOO DELICATE & S5SITIVE A PIT*3 IT WAS AN ,EOLIAN H>P1 UPON :I* ! W9DS ( HEAV5 MI<T 0DISC\RSE EXCELL5T MUSIC20 BUT ! T\* ( A HUMAN H& C\LD DRAW FROM IT NO?+ BUT DISCORD & DISSONANCE4 

     ,AT ! UNIV]SITY ALL ?AT ,I EXP]I5C$ = SOME WEEKS WAS PA94 ,NATURE SPOILS US = RELI%+ ! BEAUTIES ( NATURE4 ,=M$ AS MY M9D HAD BE51 ALMO/ FROM 9FANCY1 TO DELI<T ITSELF ) ! GR&1 ! ROMANTIC1 ! PREGNANT1 ! SURPRIS+1 & ! /UP5D\S1 AS !Y DISPLAY !MSELVES 9 ,NOR? ,WALES1 IT IS 9CONCEIVABLE ) :AT CONTEMPT1 :AT S5SATIONS ( LOA?+1 ,I LOOK$ UPON ! FACE ( NATURE AS IT %[S ITSELF 9 ,OX=D%IRE4 ,ALL H]E WAS FLAT1 & TAME1 & T$I\S4 ,WALES WAS NATURE 9 ! VIGOR & ANIMATION ( Y\?3 %E SPORT$ 9 A ?\S& WILD & ADMIRABLE FREAKS2 %E DISPLAY$ A MA/]-H&2 EV]Y /ROKE ( H] MAJE/IC P5CIL WAS CLE>1 & BOLD1 & FREE4 ,BUT1 9 ! C\NTRY TO :I* ,I HAD N[ REMOV$1 NATURE TO MY EYES SEEM$ TO BE 9 H] DOTAGE2 IF %E ATTEMPT$ ANY ?+1 IT WAS ! ATTEMPT ( A DRIVEL]2 %E APPE>$ LIKE A TOO?LESS & PALSI$ BELDAME1 :O CALLS UPON H] VISITORS TO ATT5D1 :O MUMBLES SL[LY A SET ( 9>TICULATE & UN9TELLIGIBLE S\NDS1 & TO :OM IT EXCE$S ! =CE ( HUMAN RESOLUTION TO KEEP UP ! =MS ( CIVILITY4 ,:Y DOES ! WORLD WE LIVE 9 ?US TEA* US TO DESPISE ! WORLD8 

     ,MY FA!R'S H\SE HAD BE5 BUILT 9 A /YLE ( ANTIQUE MAGNIFIC5CE4 ,! AP>TM5TS W]E SPACI\S1 ! GALL]IES LONG & WIDE1 & ! HALL 9 :I* ,I WAS ACCU/OM$ TO WALK 9 UNFAVORABLE WEA!R WAS ( AMPLE DIM5SIONS4 ,! ROOMS APPROPRIAT$ TO MY USE AT ,OX=D APPE>$ COMP>ATIVELY N>R[1 SQUALID1 & UN:OLESOME4 ,MY V]Y S\L WAS CAB9$ 9 !M4 ,!RE W]E SPACI\S BUILD+S 9 ,OX=D2 !RE W]E OP5 & *E]FUL WALKS3 BUT H[ CONTRA/$ ) ?OSE TO :I* ,I HAD BE5 ACCU/OM$6 ,!RE ,I EXPATIAT$ FREE2 ,I POSSESS$ !M ALONE2 ,NATURE WAS MY FRI5D1 & MY S\L FAMILI>LY DISC\RS$ ) H]1 UNBROK5 9 UPON BY ! 9TRUSION ( ! VULG> & ! PR(ANE4 ,H]E ,I HAD NO GRE5 & HEAV5-=M$ RETREAT 9 :I* ,I C\LD HIDE MYSELF2 MY PA? WAS CROSS$ BY BOYS2 ,I WAS ELB[$ BY G[NM52 !IR VULG> GABBLE & LI<T LAU<T] P]PETUALLY BESET MY E>S1 & WAK$ UP CURSES 9 MY S\L4 ,I C\LD PURSUE NO TRA9 ( ?\<T2 ! *]I%$ VISIONS ( MY =M] YE>S W]E BROK5 & SCATT]$ 9 A ?\S& FRAGM5TS4 ,I KN[ ?AT !RE >E M5 :O C\LD PURSUE AN UNDIVID$ OCCUPATION ( ?\<T AMID ALL ! CONFUSION ( ,BABEL2 BUT MY HABITS HAD NOT FITT$ ME = ?IS4 ,I HAD HAD NO DIFFICULTIES TO /RUGGLE )2 & ,I WAS PREP>$ TO SURM\NT NONE4 

     ,! MORN+ ( LIFE IS PLIABLE & DOCILE4 ,I SPE$ILY ADAPT$ MYSELF TO MY SITUATION4 ,AS ,I C\LD NOT ESCAPE FROM ! COXCOMBS ( ! UNIV]SITY1 ,I SURR5D]$ MYSELF ) ! BE/ GRACE ,I C\LD 9TO !IR H&S4 ,IT IS ! FIR/ /EP ONLY ?AT CO/S A /RUGGLE4 ,AT ! COMM5CEM5T1 ! SAVAGE ( ,M]IONE?%IRE MADE BUT AN UNC\? & LUDICR\S FIGURE AMONG ! P]T Y\NG/]S ( ,OX=D4 ,!IR SPEE* & GE/URES W]E NEW TO ME4 ,I HAD HI!RTO SP5T MORE WORDS1 ! REPETITION ( LESSONS ONLY EXCEPT$1 9 SOLILOQUY ?AN 9 CONV]SATION4 ,MY PHRASES W]E ?OSE ( 5?USIASM & ! HE>T4 ,!Y HAD ! FULL & PREGNANT =M :I* WAS GIV5 !M BY A M9D CR[D$ ) IDEAS & IMPELL$ TO UNLOAD ITSELF1 NOT ! %>P1 %ORT1 PO9T$ TURN ( A SPEAK] :OSE HABITUAL OBJECT IS A JE/4 ,MY MUSCLES W]E NOT =M$ TO A SMILE2 OR1 IF AT ANY TIME !Y HAD ASSUM$ ?AT EXPRESSION1 IT WAS ! SMILE ( ELEVAT$ S5TIM5T1 NOT ?AT ( SUP]CILI\S CONTEMPT1 ( PETTY TRIUMPH1 OR CONVIVIAL JOLLITY4 

     ,AS SOON1 H[EV]1 AS ,I HAD *OS5 MY P>T 9 ! DILEMMA BE=E ME1 ,I BECAME 9/9CT ) A PR9CIPLE1 FROM :I* ! M9D ( +5U\S Y\? IS NEV] TOTALLY FREE1--! PR9CIPLE ( CURIOSITY4 ,I WAS PROMPT$ TO OBS]VE !SE ANIMALS1 SO DIFF]5T FROM ANY ?AT HAD BE5 BE=E PRES5T$ TO MY VIEW1 TO /UDY !IR MOTIVES1 !IR PROP5SITIES1 & !IR TEMP]S1 ! PASSIONS ( !IR S\LS1 & ! OCCUPATIONS ( !IR 9TELLECT4 ,TO DO ?IS EFFECTUALLY1 IT WAS NECESS>Y ?AT ,I %\LD BECOME FAMILI> ) MANY1 & 9TIMATE ) A FEW4 ,I 5T]$ MYSELF AN ASSOCIATE ( !IR MIDNI<T ORGIES1 & SELECT$ ONE Y\NG P]SON = A FRI5D1 :O K9DLY UND]TOOK MY 9TRODUCTION 9TO ! WORLD4 

     ,IT HAPP5$ 9 ?IS1 AS 9 ALL CASES ( A SIMIL> NATURE1 ?AT FAMILI>ITY ANNIHILAT$ WOND]4 ,AS ! H]O IS NO H]O TO HIS VALET-DE-*AMBRE1 SO ! MON/] IS NO MON/] TO HIS FRI5D4 ,?R\< ALL ! V>IETIES ( ! HUMAN RACE1 H[EV] UNLIKE 9 !IR PROM95T FEATURES1 !RE >E SUFFICI5T *ORDS ( SYMPA?Y1 & EVID5CES ( A COMMON NATURE1 TO 5ABLE US TO UND]/& EA* O!R1 & F9D \T ! CLUE TO EV]Y SEEM+ IRREGUL>ITY4 ,I SOON FELT ?AT MY NEW ASSOCIATES W]E ( ! SAME SPECIES AS MYSELF1 & ?AT ! PASSIONS :I* /IMULAT$ !M1 HAD SE$S ( A RESPONSIVE CLASS1 H[EV] HI!RTO UNADV]T$ TO & UNDEVELOP$ 9 MY [N BOSOM4 

     ,IT IS SURPRIS+ H[ SOON ,I BECAME LIKE TO ! P]SONS ,I HAD SO LATELY WOND]$ AT & DESPIS$4 ,NO?+ C\LD BE MORE OPPOSITE1 9 V>I\S LEAD+ RESPECTS1 ?AN ! ,FLEETWOOD ( ,M]IONE?%IRE & ! ,FLEETWOOD ( ! UNIV]SITY4 ,! =M] HAD BE5 SIL5T & APP>5TLY %EEPI%1 NOT1 P]HAPS1 MORE FROM AWKW>DNESS ?AN PRIDE4 ,HE WAS CONTEMPLATIVE1 ABS5T1 5?USIA/ICAL1 A WOR%IP] ( NATURE4 ,HIS ?\<TS W]E FULL ( RAPTURE1 ELEVATION1 & POETRY4 ,HIS EYES N[ HELD COMM]CE ) ! PH5OM5A ( ! HEAV5S1 & N[ W]E B5T TO E>? 9 SIL5T CONTEMPLATION & MUS+4 ,!RE WAS NO?+ 9 !M ( ! LEVEL & HORIZONTAL4 ,HIS BOSOM BEAT ) ! FLATT]+ CONSCI\SNESS ?AT HE WAS ( A CLASS SUP]IOR TO ! ORD9>Y RACE ( MAN4 ,IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO BE ( A PUR] NATURE1 OR TO HAVE A S\L MORE FREE FROM EV]Y ?+ GROSS1 SORDID1 & GROVEL+4 ,! ,FLEETWOOD ( ! UNIV]SITY HAD LO/ MU* ( ?IS1 & HAD EX*ANG$ ! G5]\S & UNSULLI$ PRIDE ( ! W&]]1 = A PRIDE ( A HUMBL] CA/4 ,ONCE ,I FE>$ NOT ! EYE ( MAN1 EXCEPT AS ,I WAS RELUCTANT TO GIVE HIM PA92 N[ ,I WAS AFRAID ( RIDICULE4 ,?IS V]Y FE> MADE ME IMPUD5T4 ,I HID ! QUALMS & APPREH5SIV5ESS ( MY NATURE UND] 0A SWA%+ & A M>TIAL \TSIDE40 ,MY JE/ WAS ALWAYS READY4 ,I WILL+LY 5GAG$ 9 EV]Y S*EME ( A GAY & AN UNLUCKY NATURE4 ,I LE>N$ TO SWALL[ MY GLASS FREELY1 & TO DESPISE ! *>ACT] ( A FL9*]4 ,I C>EFULLY /OR$ MY MEMORY ) CONVIVIAL & LIC5TI\S SONGS1 & LE>N$ TO S+ !M 9 A MANN] ?AT CAUS$ ! WALLS ( \R SUPP]-ROOM TO E*O ) ?UND]S ( APPLAUSE4 ,H]E1 AS 9 ,WALES1 ,I ADVANC$ T[>D ! SUMMIT ( ! CLASS ( *>ACT] TO :I* ,I DEVOT$ MY AMBITION1 & WAS ACKN[L$G$ BY ALL MY RIOT\S COMPANIONS = AN ACCOMPLI%$ PICKLE4 ,9 ! CONTRA/ ( ! TWO P]SONAGES ,I HAVE DESCRIB$1 ,I CONFESS1 MY MEMORY HAS NO HESITATION ON :I* SIDE TO DET]M9E H] PREF]5CE4 ,OH1 ,CAD] ,IDRIS6 OH1 G5IUS ( ! M\NTA9S6 OH1 DIV9ITY1 ?AT PRESID5T OV] ! CON/ELLATIONS1 ! METEORS1 & ! OCEAN6 H[ WAS Y\R PUPIL FALL56 H[ ! AWE/RUCK & >D5T WOR%IP] ( ! ,GOD :O %R\DS HIMSELF 9 D>KNESS1 *ANG$ 9TO ! DR9K] & ! DEBAU*EE1 ! MANUFACTUR] ( 0A FOOL-BORN JE/10 & ! %AMELESS RO>] ( A LIC5TI\S CAT*6 

     ,I DID NOT1 H[EV]1 5TIRELY DEP>T FROM ! DISPOSITIONS :I* HAD *>ACT]IZ$ ME 9 ,WALES4 ,MY POETICAL & CONTEMPLATIVE *>ACT] WAS GONE2 ALL ?AT REF9EM5T :I* DI/+UI%$ ME FROM ! GROSS] SONS ( E>?4 ,MY UND]/&+ WAS BRUTIFI$2 ,I NO LONG] GAVE FREE SCOPE TO ! WORK+S ( MY [N M9D1 BUT BECAME AN >TIFICIAL P]SONAGE1 =M$ AFT] A WRET*$ & CONTEMPTIBLE MODEL4 ,BUT MY B5EVOL5CE & HUMANITY W]E /ILL ! SAME4 ,AMONG ! V>I\S FEATS ( A COLLEGE-BUCK ,I ATTEMPT$1 !RE WAS NONE 9 :I* ,I CAME (F ) SO LITTLE BRILLIANCY1 AS ?AT ( 0QUIZZ+ A FRE%-MAN10 & MAK+ A FELL[-CREATURE MIS]ABLE BY A SPORTIVE & 9TEMP]ATE BRUTALITY4 ,:AT SC5ES ( ?IS SORT ,I HAVE WITNESS$6 ,!RE IS NO FEATURE ( MAN1 BY :I* \R COMMON NATURE IS PLAC$ 9 SO ODI\S & DESPICABLE A LI<T1 AS ! PROP5SITY WE FEEL TO LAU< AT & ACCUMULATE ! DI/RESSES ( \R FELL[-CREATURES1 :5 ?OSE DI/RESSES DISPLAY !MSELVES ) TOK5S ( ! UNGA9LY & UNC\?4 ,I 5GAG$ 9 A PROJECT ( ?IS SORT ONCE OR TWICE1 & !N ABJUR$ ! AMBITION = EV]4 ,!NCE=W>D IT WAS MY PRACTICE TO 9T]F]E 9 BEHALF ( ! SUFF]]S BY SU* HO/ILITIES2 & MY MANN] C>RI$ ) IT ?AT AIR ( DECISION1 ?AT1 ?\< ! 9T]F]5CE WAS UNWELCOME1 IT WAS SUCCESSFUL2 & ! DOGS ( ! CAU/IC HUNT LET GO !IR HOLD ( ! BLE$+ GAME4 ,ANO!R MOTIVE ACTUAT$ ME 9 ?IS PLAN ( PROCE$+4 ,?\< ,I HAD ASSUM$ AN IMPUD5T & LIC5TI\S *>ACT]1 ,I DESPIS$ IT2 & ,I MADE CONSCI5CE ( DEBAU*+ NEW CONV]TS 9TO ! +LORI\S S*OOL1 :I* WAS USUALLY ! OBJECT & 5D ( !SE BRUTAL JE/S4 ,I WAS CONT5T$ TO ASSOCIATE ) ?OSE :OSE *>ACT]S ,I JUDG$ TO BE F9I%$ ALREADY1 & :OM ,I P]SUAD$ MYSELF MY 5C\RAGEM5T W\LD NOT MAKE WORSE2 & ?US ) WRET*$ SOPHI/RY ,I WORK$ MY M9D 9TO ! BELIEF ?AT1 :ILE ,I YIELD$ TO A VICI\S C\RSE1 ,I WAS DO+ NO H>M4 ,9 ! MID/ ( ALL ?IS1 MY HE>T 5T]$ ) PROMPT LIB]ALITY 9TO ! DIFFICULTIES & DI/RESSES ( O!RS2 & AS 9 ,WALES ,I WAS ASSIDU\S TO RELIEVE ! WANTS ( ! 9DU/RI\S & ! POOR1 SO 9 ,OX=D1 ! EMB>RASSM5TS ( ?OSE Y\NG M51 :OSE FUNDS D]IV$ FROM !IR FAMILIES DID NOT KEEP PACE ) ! DEM&S ( !IR SITUATION1 EXCIT$ 9 ME P>TICUL> SYMPA?Y1 & RECEIV$ FREQU5T & SOMETIMES SECRET RELIEF FROM ! RES\RCES ) :I* MY FA!R'S B\NTY SUPPLI$ ME4 

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