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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TEXT 3 

,ONE DAY1 DUR+ ! GRA9 H>VE/1 ,MA*A1 ,SONIA1 & ,I1 W5T 9TO ! G>D5 AFT] D9N]1 TO \R FAVORITE B5* UND] ! %ADE ( ! L9D5-TREES AT ! HEAD ( ! RAV9E1 :5CE WE C\LD SEE ! FIELDS & ! WOODS4 ,= ?REE DAYS ,S]GIUS ,MIKAILOVIT* HAD NOT BE5 TO SEE US1 & WE LOOK$ = HIM ALL ! MORE CONFID5TLY TO-DAY1 AS HE HAD PROMIS$ \R 9T5DANT TO VISIT ! H>VE/ FIELDS4 

,AB\T TWO O'CLOCK WE SAW HIM COM+ OV] ! RIS+ GR\ND 9 ! MIDDLE ( A RYE FIELD4 ,MA*A1 GIV+ ME A SMILE1 ORD]$ A S]VANT TO BR+ \T SOME PEA*ES & *]RIES1 :I* HE WAS V]Y FOND (1 !N /RET*$ H]SELF UPON ! B5* & WAS SOON FA/ ASLEEP4 ,I BROKE (F A LITTLE L9D5 B\<1 ITS LEAVES & B>K FRE% ) Y\NG SAP1 &1 :ILE ,I FANN$ ,MA*A1 W5T ON ) MY READ+1 NOT )\T TURN+ EV]Y 9/ANT TO WAT* ! FIELD-PA? BY :I* HE MU/ COME TO US4 ,SONIA HAD E/ABLI%$ H]SELF ON A L9D5 ROOT1 & WAS BUSY PUTT+ UP A GRE5 >BOR = H] DOLLS4 

,! DAY WAS V]Y W>M1 )\T W9D1 IT SEEM$ AS IF WE W]E 9 A HOT-H\SE2 ! CL\DS1 LY+ 9 A L[ CIRCLE UPON ! HORIZON1 HAD LOOK$ ANGRY 9 ! MORN+1 & !RE HAD BE5 A ?REAT ( /ORM1 :I*1 AS WAS ALWAYS ! CASE1 HAD EXCIT$ & AGITAT$ ME4 ,BUT S9CE MID-DAY ! CL\DS HAD DISP]S$1 ! SUN WAS FREE 9 A CLE> SKY1 ! ?UND] WAS ONLY MUTT]+ AT A S+LE PO9T1 ROLL+ SL[LY ?R\< ! DEP?S ( A HEAVY CL\D :I*1 SEEM+ TO UNITE E>? & HEAV51 BL5D$ ) ! DU/ ( ! FIELDS1 & WAS FURR[$ BY PALE ZIG-ZAGS ( DI/ANT LI<TN+4 ,IT WAS EVID5T ?AT = US AT LEA/ !RE WAS NO MORE TO BE DREAD$ = ?AT DAY4 ,9 ! P>T ( ! ROAD RUNN+ BEH9D ! G>D5 !RE WAS CONT9UAL S\ND & MOTION1 N[ ! SL[1 LONG GR9D ( A WAGON LOAD$ ) %EAVES1 N[ ! QUICK JOLT ( ! EMPTY TELEGAS.<#b.> AS !Y PASS$ EA* O!R1 OR ! RAPID /EPS ( ! DRIV]S1 :OSE :ITE SMOCKS WE C\LD SEE FLUTT]+ AS !Y HURRI$ ALONG4 ,! ?ICK DU/ NEI!R BLEW AWAY NOR FELL1 IT REMA9$ SUSP5D$ ABOVE ! H$GES1 A HAZY BACKGR\ND = ! CLE> GRE5 LEAVES ( ! G>D5 TREES4 ,F>!R (F1 AB\T ! B>N1 RES\ND$ MORE VOICES1 MORE GR9D+ :EELS2 & ,I C\LD SEE ! YELL[ %EAVES1 BR\<T 9 ! C>TS TO ! 5CLOSURE1 BE+ TOSS$ (F 9TO ! AIR1 & HEAP$ UP1 UNTIL AT L5G? ,I C\LD DI/+UI% ! /ACKS1 RIS+ LIKE OVAL %>P-RO($ BUILD+S1 & ! SILH\ETTES ( ! PEASANTS SW>M+ AB\T !M4 ,PRES5TLY1 !RE W]E NEW TELEGAS MOV+ 9 ! DU/Y FIELDS1 NEW PILES ( YELL[ %EAVES1 & 9 ! DI/ANCE ! :EELS1 ! VOICES1 ! *ANT$ SONGS4 

,! DU/ & HEAT 9VAD$ EV]Y?+1 EXCEPT \R LITTLE FAVORITE NOOK ( ! G>D54 ,YET ON ALL SIDES1 9 ! DU/ & HEAT1 ! BLAZE ( ! BURN+ SUN1 ! ?RONG ( LABOR]S *ATT]$1 MADE M]RY1 & KEPT 9 CONT9UAL MOVEM5T4 ,AS = ME1 ,I LOOK$ AT ,MA*A1 SLEEP+ SO SWEETLY ON \R B5*1 H] FACE %AD$ BY H] CAMBRIC H&K]*IEF2 ! BLACK JUICY *]RIES ON ! PLATE2 \R LI<T1 DAZZL+LY CLEAN DRESSES1 ! C>AFE ( CLE> WAT]1 :]E ! SUN'S RAYS W]E PLAY+ 9 A LITTLE RA9B[2 & ,I FELT A S5SE ( R>E COM=T4 0,:AT MU/ ,I DO80 ?\<T ,I2 0P]HAPS IT IS WICK$ TO BE SO HAPPY8 ,BUT CAN WE DIFFUSE \R HAPP9ESS >\ND US8 ,H[1 & TO :OM1 CAN WE :OLLY CONSECRATE \RSELVES--\RSELVES & ?IS V]Y HAPP9ESS80 

,! SUN HAD DISAPPE>$ BEH9D ! TOPS ( ! OLD BIR*-TREES BORD]+ ! PA?1 ! DU/ HAD SUBSID$2 ! DI/ANCES ( ! L&SCAPE /OOD \T1 CLE> & LUM9\S1 UND] ! SLANT+ RAYS2 ! CL\DS HAD DISP]S$ 5TIRELY1 LONG AGO2 ON ! O!R SIDE ( ! TREES ,I C\LD SEE1 NE> ! B>N1 ! PO9T$ TOPS RISE UPON ?REE NEW /ACKS ( GRA91 & ! PEASANTS DESC5D FROM !M2 F9ALLY1 = ! LA/ TIME ?AT DAY1 ! TELEGAS PASS$ RAPIDLY1 MAK+ ! AIR RES\ND ) !IR NOISY JOLTS2 ! WOM5 W]E GO+ HOMEW>D1 S++1 !IR RAKES ON !IR %\LD]S1 & !IR B9D+ WI!S HANG+ AT !IR GIRDLES2 & /ILL ,S]GIUS ,MIKAILOVIT* DID NOT COME1 AL?\< LONG AGO ,I HAD SE5 HIM AT ! FOOT ( ! M\NTA94 ,SUDD5LY HE APPE>$ AT ! 5D ( ! PA?1 FROM A DIRECTION :]E ,I HAD NOT BE5 LOOK+ = HIM AT ALL1 = HE HAD TO SKIRT ! RAV9E TO REA* IT4 ,RAIS+ HIS HAT HE CAME T[>DS ME1 HIS FACE LI<T$ UP ) SUDD5 JOY4 ,AT ! SI<T ( ,MA*A1 /ILL ASLEEP1 HIS EYES TW9KL$1 HE BIT HIS LIP1 & BEGAN TIP-TOE+ ELABORATELY4 ,I SAW AT ONCE ?AT HE WAS 9 ONE ( ?OSE FITS ( CAUSELESS GAIETY :I* ,I LIK$ SO MU* 9 HIM1 & :I*1 BETWE5 \RSELVES1 WE CALL$ 0LE TRANSPORT SAUVAGE40 ,AT SU* TIMES HE WAS LIKE A BOY JU/ LET \T ( S*OOL1 HIS :OLE SELF FROM HEAD TO FOOT 9/9CT ) DELI<T & HAPP9ESS4 

0,H[ DO Y\ DO1 LITTLE VIOLET1 H[ GOES ! DAY ) Y\8 ,WELL80 SAID HE1 9 A L[ VOICE1 COM+ NE> & PRESS+ MY H&4444 0,& ) ME8 OH1 *>M+LY1 ALSO60 HE REPLI$ TO MY SIMIL> QUE/ION1 0TO-DAY ,I AM REALLY NOT OV] ?IRTE5 YE>S OLD2 ,I W\LD LIKE TO RIDE A /ICK-HORSE1--,I WANT TO CLIMB ! TREES60 

0,LE TRANSPORT SAUVAGE60 ,I COMM5T$1 LOOK+ 9TO HIS LAU<+ EYES1 & FEEL+ ?IS TRANSPORT SAUVAGE TAKE POSSESSION ( ME ALSO4 

0,YES10 HE MURMUR$1 AT ! SAME TIME RAIS+ HIS EYEBR[S ) AN 9QUIR+ GLANCE1 & KEEP+ BACK A SMILE4 0,BUT :Y >E Y\ SO FURI\S ) \R POOR ,MA*A ,K>LOVNA80 

,9 FACT ,I !N BECAME CONSCI\S ?AT1 :ILE ,I WAS GAZ+ UP AT HIM & CONT9U+ TO BR&I% MY L9D5 B\<1 ,I HAD :IPP$ (F ,MA*A'S H&K]*IEF1 & WAS SWEEP+ H] FACE ) ! LEAVES4 ,I C\LD NOT HELP LAU<+4 

0,& %E WILL SAY %E HAS NOT BE5 ASLEEP10 ,I SAID1 :ISP]+1 AS IF AFRAID ( WAK+ H]2 BUT ,I DID NOT DO IT ALTOGE!R = ?AT1--IT WAS SO DELI<TFUL TO :ISP] :5 ,I SPOKE TO HIM6 

,HE MOV$ HIS LIPS 9 ALMO/ DUMB %[1 IMITAT+ ME1 & AS IF HE1 ON HIS SIDE1 WAS SAY+ SOME?+ ?AT NO ONE ELSE MU/ HE>4 ,!N1 SPY+ ! PLATE ( *]RIES1 HE PRET5D$ TO SEIZE IT & C>RY IT (F BY /EAL?1 RUNN+ AWAY T[>DS ,SONIA1 & DROPP+ ON ! GRASS UND] ! L9D5-TREE 9 ! MID/ ( H] ACCUMULATION ( DOLLS4 ,SONIA WAS AB\T TO FLY 9TO A LITTLE RAGE1 BUT HE MADE PEACE ) H] BY PROPOS+ A NEW GAME1 ! PO9T ( :I* LAY 9 SEE+ :I* ( ! TWO C\LD DEV\R ! MO/ *]RIES4 

0,%ALL ,I ORD] SOME MORE80 ,I ASK$1 0OR %ALL WE GO GA!R !M = \RSELVES80 

,HE PICK$ UP ! PLATE1 PIL$ ,SONIA'S DOLLS 9 IT1 & WE ALL ?REE />T$ = ! *]RY OR*>D4 ,SONIA1 %\T+ ) LAU<T]1 TROTT$ AFT] HIM1 TUGG+ AT HIS COAT TO MAKE HIM GIVE H] BACK H] FAMILY4 ,HE DID SO2 & TURN+ GRAVELY TO ME3 

0,COME1 H[ CAN Y\ CONV9CE ME ?AT Y\ >E NOT A VIOLET80 HE SAID1 /ILL SPEAK+ V]Y L[1 ?\< !RE WAS N[ NO ONE = HIM TO BE AFRAID ( WAK+2 0AS SOON AS ,I CAME NE> Y\1 AFT] HAV+ BE5 ?R\< SO MU* DU/ & HEAT & FATIGUE1 ,I SEEM$ TO P]CEIVE ! FRAGRANCE ( A VIOLET1 NOT1 IT IS TRUE1 ?AT VIOLET ) ! P[]FUL P]FUME1 BUT ! LITTLE E>LY ONE1 Y\ KN[1 :I* /EALS \T FIR/1 /ILL MODE/1 TO BREA! AT ONCE ! EXPIR+ SN[ & ! SPR++ GRASS44440 

0,BUT1 TELL ME1 IS ! H>VE/ COM+ ON WELL80 ,I PUT 9 HA/ILY1 TO COV] ! HAPPY CONFUSION HIS WORDS CAUS$ ME4 

0,WOND]FULLY6 :AT EXCELL5T PEOPLE !SE ALL >E1--! MORE ONE KN[S !M1 ! MORE ONE LOVES !M40 

0,OH1 YES6--,A LITTLE :ILE AGO1 BE=E Y\ CAME1 ,I SAT WAT*+ !IR WORK1 & IT REALLY W5T TO MY CONSCI5CE TO SEE !M TOIL+ SO FAI?FULLY1 :ILE ,I WAS JU/ IDLY TAK+ MY EASE1 &44440 

0,DO NOT PLAY ) !SE S5TIM5TS1 ,KATIA10 HE 9T]RUPT$1 ) A S]I\S MANN]1 GIV+ ME AT ! SAME TIME A C>ESS+ GLANCE1 0!RE IS HOLY WORK !RE4 ,MAY ,GOD GU>D Y\ FROM POS+ 9 SU* MATT]S60 

0,BUT IT WAS ONLY TO Y\ ?AT ,I SAID ?AT60 

0,I KN[ IT4--,WELL1 & \R *]RIES80 

,! *]RY OR*>D WAS LOCK$1 NOT A S+LE G>D5] WAS TO BE F\ND 7HE HAD S5T !M ALL TO ! H>VE/ FIELDS74 ,SONIA RAN (F TO LOOK = ! KEY2 BUT1 )\T WAIT+ = H] RETURN1 HE CLIMB$ UP AT A CORN] BY CAT*+ HOLD ( ! ME%ES ( ! NET1 & JUMP$ D[N 9SIDE ! WALL4 

0,WILL Y\ GIVE ME ! PLATE80 HE ASK$ ME1 FROM )94 

0,NO1 ,I WANT TO GA!R SOME1 MYSELF2 ,I WILL GO GET ! KEY1 ,I D\BT IF ,SONIA CAN F9D IT40 

,BUT AT ?AT MOM5T A SUDD5 FANCY SEIZ$ ME1 TO F9D \T :AT HE WAS DO+ !RE1 H[ HE LOOK$1 9 %ORT HIS DEMEANOR :5 HE SUPPOS$ NO ONE C\LD SEE HIM4 ,OR RA!R1 HONE/LY1 P]HAPS JU/ !N ,I DID NOT FEEL LIKE LOS+ SI<T ( HIM = A S+LE 9/ANT4 ,SO ON MY TIP-TOES1 ?R\< ! NETTLES1 ,I MADE A CIRCUIT >\ND ! LITTLE OR*>D & GA9$ ! OPPOSITE SIDE1 :]E ! 5CLOSURE WAS L[]2 !RE1 /EPP+ UP ON AN EMPTY TUB1 ,I F\ND ! WALL BUT BREA/-HI<1 & LEAN$ OV]4 ,I MADE A SURVEY ( EV]Y?+ )92 LOOK$ AT ! CROOK$ OLD TREES1 ! L>GE S]RAT$ LEAVES1 ! BLACK1 V]TICAL CLU/]S ( JUICY FRUIT2 &1 SLIPP+ MY HEAD UND] ! NET1 ,I C\LD OBS]VE ,S]GIUS ,MIKAILOVIT* ?R\< ! TWI/$ B\<S ( AN OLD *]RY-TREE4 ,HE WAS C]TA9LY CONFID5T ?AT ,I HAD GONE1 & ?AT NO ONE C\LD SEE HIM4 

,) B>$ HEAD & CLOS$ EYES HE WAS SITT+ ON ! MOLD]+ TRUNK ( AN OLD TREE1 ABS5TLY ROLL+ BETWE5 HIS F+]S A BIT ( *]RY-GUM4 ,ALL AT ONCE1 HE OP5$ HIS EYES1 & MURMUR$ SOME?+1 ) A SMILE4 ,! WORD & SMILE W]E SO LITTLE 9 KEEP+ ) :AT ,I KNEW ( HIM ?AT ,I WAS A%AM$ ( HAV+ WAT*$ HIM4 ,IT REALLY SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ! WORD WAS3 ,KATIA6 0,?AT CANNOT BE60 ,I SAID TO MYSELF4 0,DE> ,KATIA60 HE REPEAT$ L[]1 & /ILL MORE T5D]LY4 ,& ?IS TIME ,I HE>D ! TWO WORDS DI/9CTLY4 ,MY HE>T BEGAN TO BEAT SO FA/1 ,I WAS SO FILL$ ) JOYFUL EMOTION1 ,I EV5 FELT1 AS IT W]E1 SU* A K9D ( %OCK1 ?AT ,I HAD TO HOLD ON TO ! WALL ) BO? H&S1 TO KEEP MYSELF FROM FALL+1 & SO BETRAY+ MYSELF4 ,HE HE>D MY MOVEM5T1 & GLANC$ BEH9D HIM1 />TL$2 !N SUDD5LY CA/+ D[N HIS EYES HE BLU%$1 R$D5+ LIKE A *ILD4 ,HE MADE AN EF=T TO SPEAK TO ME1 BUT C\LD NOT1 & ?IS FAILURE MADE HIS FACE GR[ DEEP] & DEEP] SC>LET4 ,YET HE SMIL$ AS HE LOOK$ AT ME4 ,I SMIL$ AT HIM TOO4 ,HE LOOK$ ALL ALIVE ) HAPP9ESS2 ?IS WAS NO LONG]1 !N1--OH1 NO1 ?IS WAS NO LONG] AN OLD UNCLE LAVI%+ C>ES & C>ESSES UPON ME2 ,I HAD !RE BE=E MY EYES A MAN ON MY [N LEVEL1 LOV+ ME & FE>+ ME2 A MAN :OM ,I MYSELF FE>$1 & LOV$4 ,WE DID NOT SPEAK1 WE ONLY LOOK$ AT EA* O!R4 ,BUT SUDD5LY HE B5T HIS BR[S D>KLY2 SMILE & GL[ W5T \T ( HIS EYES SIMULTANE\SLY1 & HIS BE>+ BECAME AGA9 COLD & FA!RLY1 AS IF WE HAD BE5 DO+ SOME?+ WRONG1 AS IF HE HAD REGA9$ CONTROL ( HIMSELF & WAS C\NSEL+ ME TO DO ! SAME4 

0,GET D[N FROM !RE1 Y\ WILL HURT Y\RSELF10 SAID HE4 0,& >RANGE Y\R HAIR2 Y\ \<T TO SEE :AT Y\ LOOK LIKE60 

0,:Y DOES HE DISSEMBLE SO8 ,:Y DOES HE WI% TO W\ND ME80 ,I ?\<T1 9DIGNANTLY4 ,& AT ! MOM5T CAME AN IRRESI/IBLE DESIRE TO MOVE HIM AGA91 & TO TRY MY P[] OV] HIM4 

0,NO1 ,I WANT TO GA!R SOME *]RIES1 MYSELF10 ,I SAID2 & GRASP+ A NEI<BOR+ B\< ) MY H&S1 ,I SWUNG MYSELF OV] ! WALL4 ,HE HAD NO TIME TO CAT* ME1 ,I DROPP$ TO ! GR\ND 9 ! MIDDLE ( ! LITTLE SPACE4 

0,:AT FOLLY IS ?IS80 HE EXCLAIM$1 FLU%+ AGA91 & 5DEAVOR+ TO CONCEAL HIS AL>M UND] A SEMBLANCE ( ANG]4 0,Y\ MI<T 9JURE Y\RSELF6 ,& H[ >E Y\ GO+ TO GET \T80 

,HE WAS MU* MORE P]TURB$ ?AN :5 HE FIR/ CAU<T SI<T ( ME2 BUT N[ ?IS AGITATION NO LONG] GLADD5$ ME1 ON ! CONTR>Y IT MADE ME AFRAID4 ,I WAS ATTACK$ BY IT 9 MY TURN2 ,I BLU%$1 MOV$ AWAY1 NO LONG] KN[+ :AT TO SAY TO HIM1 & BEGAN TO PICK *]RIES V]Y FA/1 )\T HAV+ ANY?+ TO PUT !M 94 ,I REPROA*$ MYSELF1 ,I REP5T$1 ,I WAS FRI<T5$1 IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT BY ?IS /EP ,I HAD RU9$ MYSELF =EV] 9 HIS EYES4 ,WE BO? REMA9$ SPEE*LESS1 & ! SIL5CE WEI<$ HEAVILY UPON BO?4 ,SONIA1 RUNN+ BACK ) ! KEY1 FRE$ US FROM \R EMB>RASS+ SITUATION4 ,H[EV]1 WE /ILL P]SI/5TLY AVOID$ SPEAK+ TO EA* O!R1 BO? PREF]R+ TO ADDRESS LITTLE ,SONIA 9/EAD4 ,:5 WE W]E AGA9 ) ,MA*A1 7:O V[$ %E HAD NOT BE5 ASLEEP1 & HAD HE>D EV]Y?+ ?AT HAD GONE ON17 MY CALMNESS RETURN$1 :ILE HE1 ON HIS SIDE1 MADE ANO!R EF=T TO RESUME HIS TONE ( PAT]NAL K9DNESS4 ,BUT ! EF=T WAS NOT SUCCESSFUL1 & DID NOT DECEIVE ME AT ALL4 ,A C]TA9 CONV]SATION ?AT HAD TAK5 PLACE TWO DAYS BE=E /ILL LIV$ 9 MY MEMORY4 

,MA*A HAD ANN\NC$ H] OP9ION ?AT A MAN LOVES MORE EASILY ?AN A WOMAN1 & ALSO MORE EASILY EXPRESSES HIS LOVE4 ,%E ADD$3 

0,A MAN CAN SAY ?AT HE LOVES1 & A WOMAN CANNOT40 

0,N[ IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT A MAN NEI!R \<T NOR CAN SAY ?AT HE LOVES10 WAS HIS REPLY4 

,I ASK$ HIM :Y4 

0,BECAUSE IT W\LD ALWAYS BE A LIE4 ,:AT IS ?IS DISCOV]Y ?AT A MAN LOVES8 ,AS IF HE HAD ONLY TO PRON\NCE ! WORD1 & !RE MU/ IMM$IATELY SPR+ FROM IT SOME?+ EXTRAORD9>Y1 SOME PH5OM5ON OR O!R1 EXPLOD+ ALL AT ONCE6 ,IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT ?OSE PEOPLE :O SAY TO Y\ SOLEMNLY3 ',I LOVE Y\1' EI!R DECEIVE !MSELVES1 OR1 :I* IS WORSE1 DECEIVE O!RS40 

0,!N Y\ ?9K A WOMAN IS TO KN[ ?AT %E IS LOV$1 )\T BE+ TOLD80 ASK$ ,MA*A4 

0,?AT ,I DO NOT KN[2 EV]Y MAN HAS HIS [N FA%ION ( SPEE*4 ,BUT SU* FEEL+S MAKE !MSELVES UND]/OOD4 ,:5 ,I READ A NOVEL1 ,I ALWAYS TRY TO IMAG9E ! EMB>RASS$ AIR ( ,LIEUT5ANT ,CRELSKI OR ,ALFR$1 AS HE DECL>ES3 ',ELEONORE1 ,I LOVE !E6' :I* SPEE* HE FANCIES IS GO+ TO PRODUCE SOME?+ A/\ND+1 ALL ( A SUDD51--:ILE 9 REALITY IT CAUSES NO?+ AT ALL1 NEI!R 9 H] NOR 9 HIM3 FEATURES1 LOOK1 EV]Y?+1 REMA9 PRECISELY ! SAME60 

,HE SPOKE JE/+LY1 BUT ,I ?\<T ,I DETECT$ AN UND]TONE ( S]I\S MEAN+1 :I* MI<T HAVE SOME REF]5CE TO ME2 & ,MA*A NEV] ALL[$ EV5 PLAYFUL ASP]SIONS UPON H] H]OES ( ROMANCE4 

0,ALWAYS P>ADOXES60 %E EXCLAIM$4 0,COME N[1 BE HONE/1 HAVE Y\ Y\RSELF NEV] SAID TO A WOMAN ?AT Y\ LOV$ H]80 

0,NEV] HAVE ,I SAID SO1 NEV] HAVE ,I B[$ A KNEE10 HE REPLI$ LAU<+1 0& NEV] WILL ,I60 

0,YES1 HE NE$ NOT TELL ME ?AT HE LOVES ME60 ,I ?\<T1 N[ VIVIDLY RECALL+ ?IS CONV]SATION4 0,HE DOES LOVE ME1 & ,I KN[ IT4 ,& ALL HIS EF=TS TO SEEM 9DIFF]5T CANNOT TAKE AWAY ?IS CONVICTION60 

,DUR+ ! :OLE EV5+ HE SAID V]Y LITTLE TO ME1 BUT 9 EV]Y WORD1 9 EV]Y LOOK & MOTION1 ,I FELT LOVE1 & NO LONG] HAD ANY D\BTS4 ,! ONLY ?+ ?AT VEX$ & TR\BL$ ME WAS ?AT HE %\LD /ILL JUDGE IT NECESS>Y TO CONCEAL ?IS FEEL+1 & TO FEIGN COLDNESS1 :5 ALREADY ALL WAS SO CLE>1 & WE MI<T HAVE BE5 SO EASILY & SO FRANKLY HAPPY ALMO/ BEYOND ! V]GE ( POSSIBILITY4 ,!N1 TOO1 ,I WAS TORM5T+ MYSELF AS ?\< ,I HAD COMMITT$ A CRIME1 = HAV+ JUMP$ D[N 9TO ! *]RY OR*>D TO JO9 HIM1 & IT SEEM$ AS IF HE MU/ HAVE CEAS$ TO E/EEM ME1 & MU/ FEEL RES5TM5T AGA9/ ME4 

,AFT] TEA1 ,I W5T TO ! PIANO1 & HE FOLL[$4 

0,PLAY SOME?+1 ,KATIA1 ,I HAVE NOT HE>D Y\ = A LONG TIME10 HE SAID1 JO9+ ME 9 ! DRAW+-ROOM4 0,I WI%$ 444 ,S]GIUS ,MIKAILOVIT*60 ,& SUDD5LY ,I LOOK$ RI<T 9TO HIS EYES4 0,Y\ >E NOT ANGRY ) ME80 

0,:Y %\LD ,I BE80 

0,BECAUSE ,I DID NOT OBEY Y\ ?IS AFT]NOON10 SAID ,I1 BLU%+4 

,HE UND]/OOD ME1 %OOK HIS HEAD1 & SMIL$4 ,& ?IS SMILE SAID ?AT P]HAPS HE W\LD WILL+LY HAVE SCOLD$ ME A LITTLE1 BUT HAD NO LONG] ! /R5G? TO DO SO4 

0,?AT IS DONE )1 !N1 ISN'T IT8 ,& WE >E GOOD FRI5DS AGA980 ,I ASK$1 SEAT+ MYSELF AT ! PIANO4 

0,I ?9K SO1 9DE$60 

,! L>GE1 L(TY AP>TM5T WAS LI<T$1 ONLY BY ! TWO C&LES UPON ! PIANO1 & ! GREAT] PORTION ( IT WAS 9 SEMI-D>KNESS2 ?R\< ! OP5 W9D[S WE BEHELD ! LUM9\S /ILLNESS ( ! SUMM] NI<T4 ,! MO/ P]FECT CALM REIGN$1 ONLY BROK5 AT 9T]VALS BY ,MA*A'S FOOTFALL 9 ! ADJO9+ ROOM1 :I* WAS NOT YET LI<T$1 OR BY AN OCCASIONAL RE/LESS SNORT OR /AMP FROM \R VISITOR'S HORSE1 :I* WAS TI$ UND] ONE ( ! CASEM5TS4 ,S]GIUS ,MIKAILOVIT* WAS SEAT$ BEH9D ME1 SO ?AT ,I C\LD NOT SEE HIM1 BUT 9 ! IMP]FECT D>KNESS ( ! ROOM1 9 ! S(T NOTES ?AT FILL$ IT1 9 ! V]Y DEP?S ( MY BE+1 ,I SEEM$ TO FEEL HIS PRES5CE4 ,EV]Y LOOK1 EV]Y MOVEM5T1 ?\< ,I C\LD NOT DI/+UI% !M1 SEEM$ TO 5T] & E*O 9 MY HE>T4 ,I WAS PLAY+ ,MOZ>T'S ,CAPRICE-SONATA1 :I* HE HAD BR\<T ME1 & :I* ,I HAD LE>N$ BE=E HIM & = HIM4 ,I WAS NOT ?9K+ AT ALL ( :AT ,I PLAY$1 BUT ,I F\ND ?AT ,I WAS PLAY+ WELL & ?\<T HE WAS PLEAS$4 ,I %>$ HIS 5JOYM5T1 & )\T SEE+ HIM1 ,I KNEW ?AT FROM HIS PLACE HIS EYES W]E FIX$ ON ME4 ,BY A QUITE 9VOLUNT>Y MOVEM5T1 :ILE MY F+]S CONT9U$ TO RUN OV] ! KEYS1 UNCONSCI\S ( :AT !Y W]E DO+1 ,I TURN$ & LOOK$ AT HIM2 HIS HEAD /OOD \T 9 D>K RELIEF AGA9/ ! LUM9\S BACKGR\ND ( ! NI<T4 ,HE WAS SITT+ ) HIS BR[ RE/+ ON HIS H&1 WAT*+ ME ATT5TIVELY ) SP>KL+ EYES4 ,AS M9E MET !M1 ,I SMIL$1 & /OPP$ PLAY+4 ,HE SMIL$ ALSO1 & MADE A MOTION ) HIS HEAD T[>DS MY NOTES1 AS IF REPROA*+ ME & BEGG+ ME TO KEEP ON4 ,JU/ !N ! MOON1 MIDWAY 9 H] C\RSE1 SO>$ 9 FULL SPL5DOR FROM A LI<T CL\D1 P\R+ 9TO ! ROOM WAVES ( SILV]Y RADIANCE :I* OV]CAME ! FEEBLE GLEAM ( \R WAX C&LES1 & SWEPT 9 A SEA ( GLORY OV] ! 9LAID FLOOR4 ,MA*A SAID ?AT :AT ,I HAD DONE WAS LIKE NO?+ AT ALL1 ?AT ,I HAD /OPP$ AT ! V]Y LOVELIE/ P>T1 & ?AT1 BESIDES1 ,I HAD PLAY$ MIS]ABLY2 HE1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 9SI/$ ?AT ,I HAD NEV] SUCCE$$ BETT] ?AN ?IS EV5+1 & BEGAN PAC+ AB\T RE/LESSLY1 FROM ! DIM DRAW+-ROOM 9TO ! HALL1 FROM ! HALL BACK AGA9 9TO ! DRAW+-ROOM1 & EV]Y TIME HE PASS$ HE LOOK$ AT ME & SMIL$4 ,I SMIL$ TOO ?\< )\T ANY REASON2 ,I WANT$ TO LAU<1 SO HAPPY WAS ,I AT :AT HAD TAK5 PLACE ?AT DAY1 AT ?AT MOM5T EV54 ,:ILE ! DOOR HID HIM FROM ME = AN 9/ANT ,I P\NC$ UPON ,MA*A & BEGAN TO KISS H] 9 MY PET PLACE ON H] S(T ?ROAT UND] H] *91 BUT :5 HE REAPPE>$ ,I WAS P]FECTLY GRAVE1 AL?\< IT WAS H>D WORK TO KEEP FROM LAU<+4 

0,:AT HAS HAPP5$ TO H]1 TO-DAY80 ,MA*A SAID4 

,HE MADE NO ANSW]1 BUT BEGAN TO TEASE & MAKE LAU<+ CONJECTURES4 ,HE KNEW WELL 5\< :AT HAD HAPP5$ TO ME6 

0,JU/ SEE :AT A NI<T60 HE SAID PRES5TLY1 FROM ! DOOR ( ! DRAW+-ROOM1 OP5+ ON ! G>D5 BALCONY4 

,WE W5T & /OOD BY HIM1 & 9DE$ ,I NEV] REMEMB] SU* A NI<T4 ,! FULL MOON %ONE D[N UPON US FROM ABOVE ! H\SE ) A GLORY ,I HAVE NEV] SE5 9 H] S9CE2 ! LONG %AD[S ( ! RO(1 ( ! SL5D] COLUMNS & T5T-%AP$ AWN+ ( ! T]RACE /RET*$ \T 9 OBLIQUE =E%ORT5+1 OV] ! GRAVEL WALK & P>T ( ! L>GE OVAL ( TURF4 ,! RE/ LAY 9 BRILLIANT LI<T1 GLI/5+ ) DEW-DROPS TURN$ BY ! MOON'S RAYS TO LIQUID SILV]4 ,A WIDE PA?1 BORD]$ ) FL[]S1 WAS DIAGONALLY CUT 9TO AT ONE $GE BY ! %AD[S ( TALL DAHLIAS & !IR SUPPORT+ /AKES1 & !N RAN ON1 AN UNBROK5 B& ( :ITE LI<T & GLEAM+ PEBBLES UNTIL IT WAS LO/ 9 ! MI/ ( DI/ANCE4 ,! GLASS RO( ( ! ORANG]Y SP>KL$ ?R\< ! TREES1 & A S(T VAPOR /EAL+ UP ! SIDES ( ! RAV9E GREW D5S] EV]Y MOM5T4 ,! TUFTS ( LILAC1 N[ P>TIALLY FAD$1 W]E PI]C$ ?R\< & ?R\< BY ! LI<T2 EV]Y SL5D] FOOT-/ALK WAS VISIBLE1 & ! T9Y FL[]S1 FRE%5$ BY ! DEW1 C\LD EASILY BE DI/+UI%$ FROM EA* O!R4 ,9 ! PA?S LI<T & %AD[ W]E SO BL5D$ ?AT ONE W\LD NO LONG] HAVE SAID !RE W]E TREES & PA?S1 BUT TRANSP>5T $IFICES %AK5 ) S(T VIBRATIONS4 ,ON ! RI<T ( ! H\SE ALL WAS OBSCURE1 9DI/9CT1 ALMO/ A HORROR ( D>KNESS4 ,BUT \T ( IT SPRANG1 MORE RESPL5D5T FROM ! BLACK 5VIRONM5T1 ! FANTA/IC HEAD ( A POPL> :I*1 BY SOME /RANGE FREAK1 5D$ ABRUPTLY CLOSE ABOVE ! H\SE 9 AN AUREOLE ( CLE> LI<T1 9/EAD ( RIS+ TO LOSE ITSELF 9 ! DI/ANT DEP?S ( D>K BLUE SKY4 

0,LET US GO TO WALK10 SAID ,I4 

,MA*A CONS5T$1 BUT ADD$ ?AT ,I MU/ PUT ON MY GALO%ES4 

0,IT IS NOT NECESS>Y10 ,I SAID2 0,S]GIUS ,MIKAILOVIT* WILL GIVE ME HIS >M40 

,AS IF ?AT C\LD KEEP ME FROM GETT+ MY FEET WET6 ,BUT AT ?AT MOM5T1 TO EA* ( US ?REE1 SU* ABSURDITY WAS ADMISSIBLE1 & CAUS$ NO A/ONI%M5T4 ,HE HAD NEV] GIV5 ME HIS >M1 & N[ ,I TOOK IT ( MY [N ACCORD1 & HE DID NOT SEEM SURPRIS$4 ,WE ALL ?REE DESC5D$ TO ! T]RACE4 ,! :OLE UNIV]SE1 ! SKY1 ! G>D51 ! AIR WE BREA!D1 NO LONG] APPE>$ TO ME :AT ,I HAD ALWAYS KN[N4 

,AS ,I LOOK$ AHEAD ( ME 9 ! PA? WE W]E PURSU+1 ,I BEGAN TO FANCY ?AT ONE C\LD NOT GO BEYOND1 ?AT !RE ! POSSIBLE WORLD 5D$1 & ?AT ALL !RE W\LD ABIDE =EV] 9 ITS PRES5T LOVEL9ESS4 

,H[EV]1 AS WE W5T ON1 ?IS 5*ANT$ WALL1 ?IS B>RI] BUILT ( PURE BEAUTY1 REC$$ BE=E US & YIELD$ US PASSAGE1 & ,I F\ND MYSELF 9 ! MID/ ( FAMILI> OBJECTS1 G>D51 TREES1 PA?S1 DRY LEAVES4 ,!SE W]E C]TA9LY REAL PA?S ?AT WE W]E PURSU+1 :]E WE CROSS$ ALT]NATE SPACES ( LI<T & SPH]ES ( D>KNESS1 :]E ! DRY LEAVES RU/L$ B5EA? \R FEET1 & ! DEWY SPRAYS S(TLY T\*$ MY *EEK AS WE PASS$4 ,IT WAS REALLY HE1 :O WALK$ BY MY SIDE ) SL[1 /EADY /EPS & ) DI/ANT =MALITY1 ALL[$ MY >M TO RE/ UPON HIS [N4 ,IT WAS ! REAL MOON1 HI< 9 ! HEAV5S1 :OSE LI<T CAME D[N TO US ?R\< ! MOTIONLESS BRAN*ES4 

,ONCE ,I LOOK$ AT HIM4 ,!RE WAS ONLY A S+LE L9D5 9 ! P>T ( ! PA? WE W]E !N FOLL[+1 & ,I C\LD SEE HIS FACE CLE>LY4 ,HE WAS SO H&SOME2 HE LOOK$ SO HAPPY4444 

,HE WAS SAY+3 0,>E Y\ NOT AFRAID80 ,BUT ! WORDS ,I HE>D1 W]E3 0,I LOVE !E1 DE> *ILD6 ,I LOVE !E6 ,I LOVE !E60 ,HIS LOOK SAID IT1 & HIS >M SAID IT2 ! LI<T1 ! %AD[1 ! AIR1 & ALL ?+S REPEAT$ IT4 

,WE W5T ?R\< ! :OLE G>D51 ,MA*A WALK$ NE> US1 TAK+ %ORT /EPS1 & PANT+ A LITTLE1 %E WAS SO TIR$4 ,%E SAID IT WAS TIME TO GO 91 & ,I WAS SO SORRY = ! POOR CREATURE4 0,:Y DOES NOT %E FEEL LIKE US80 ,I ?\<T4 0,:Y IS NOT EV]YBODY ALWAYS Y\NG & HAPPY8 ,H[ FULL ?IS NI<T IS ( Y\? & HAPP9ESS1--& WE TOO60 

,WE RETURN$ TO ! H\SE1 BUT IT WAS A LONG TIME BE=E ,S]GIUS ,MIKAILOVIT* W5T AWAY4 ,MA*A =GOT TO REM9D US ?AT IT WAS LATE2 WE TALK$ ( ALL SORTS ( ?+S1 P]HAPS TRIVIAL 5\<1 SITT+ SIDE BY SIDE )\T ! LEA/ SUSPICION ?AT IT WAS ?REE O'CLOCK 9 ! MORN+4 ,! COCKS HAD CR[$ = ! ?IRD TIME1 BE=E HE W5T4 ,HE TOOK LEAVE ( US AS USUAL1 NOT SAY+ ANY?+ P>TICUL>4 ,BUT ,I C\LD NOT D\BT ?AT FROM ?IS DAY HE WAS M9E1 & ,I C\LD NO LONG] LOSE HIM4 ,N[ ?AT ,I RECOGNIZ$ ?AT ,I LOV$ HIM1 ,I TOLD ,MA*A ALL4 ,%E WAS DELI<T$ & T\*$1 BUT ! POOR WOMAN GOT NO SLEEP ?AT NI<T2 & AS = ME1 AFT] WALK+ A LONG1 LONG TIME UP & D[N ! T]RACE1 ,I W5T TO ! G>D5 AGA91 SEEK+ TO RECALL EV]Y WORD1 EV]Y 9CID5T1 AS ,I W&]$ ?R\< ! PA?S :]E WE HAD SO LATELY PASS$ TOGE!R4 ,I DID NOT GO TO B$1 ?AT NI<T1 &1 = ! FIR/ TIME 9 MY LIFE1 ,I SAW ! SUN RISE & KNEW :AT ! DAWN ( DAY IS4 ,NEV] AGA9 HAVE ,I SE5 SU* A NI<T & SU* A MORN+4 ,BUT ,I /ILL KEPT ASK+ MYSELF :Y HE DID NOT TELL ME FRANKLY ?AT HE LOV$ ME4 0,:Y10 ?\<T ,I1 0DOES HE 9V5T SU* OR SU* DIFFICULTIES1 :Y DOES HE CONSID] HIMSELF OLD1 :5 EV]Y?+ IS SO SIMPLE & SO BEAUTIFUL8 ,:Y LOSE ?US A PRECI\S TIME :I* P]HAPS WILL NEV] RETURN8 ,LET HIM SAY ?AT HE LOVES1 LET HIM SAY IT 9 WORDS1 LET HIM TAKE MY H& 9 HIS1 B5D D[N HIS HEAD & SAY3 0,I LOVE40 ,LET HIS FACE FLU%1 & HIS EYES FALL BE=E ME1 & !N ,I WILL TELL HIM ALL4 ,OR1 RA!R1 ,I WILL TELL HIM NO?+1 ,I WILL ONLY HOLD HIM FA/ 9 MY >MS & LET MY TE>S FL[4 ,BUT IF ,I AM MI/AK58--IF HE DOES NOT LOVE ME80 ,?IS ?\<T SUDD5LY CROSS$ MY M9D4 

,I WAS T]RIFI$ BY MY [N FEEL+4 ,HEAV5 KN[S :]E IT MI<T HAVE L$ ME2 ALREADY ! MEMORY ( HIS CONFUSION & MY [N :5 ,I SUDD5LY DROPP$ D[N 9TO ! *]RY OR*>D BESIDE HIM1 WEI<$ UPON ME1 OPPRESS$ MY HE>T4 ,! TE>S FILL$ MY EYES1 & ,I BEGAN TO PRAY4 ,!N A ?\<T1 A /RANGE ?\<T1 CAME TO ME1 :I* BR\<T ME A GREAT QUIETNESS1 & REK9DL$ MY HOPE4 ,?IS WAS1 ! RESOLUTION TO COMM5CE MY DEVOTIONS1 & TO *OOSE MY BIR?DAY AS MY BETRO?AL DAY4 

,H[ & :Y8 ,H[ C\LD IT COME TO PASS8 ,?AT ,I KNEW NO?+ AB\T1--BUT FROM ?IS MOM5T ,I BELIEV$ ?AT IT W\LD BE SO4 ,9 ! MEANTIME1 BROAD DAY HAD COME1 & EV]Y ONE WAS RIS+ AS ,I RETURN$ TO MY *AMB]4 

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