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,AU?OR 3 ,OCTAVE ,MIRBEAU 

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0,LIRAT6 ,AH1 AT LA/ IT IS Y\6 ,= A WEEK ,I HAVE BE5 LOOK+ = Y\1 HAVE BE5 WRIT+ TO Y\1 HAVE BE5 CALL+ Y\1 HAVE BE5 WAIT+ = Y\4444 ,LIRAT1 MY DE> ,LIRAT1 SAVE ME60 

0,:AT8 ,MY ,GOD6 ,:AT'S WRONG80 

0,I WANT TO KILL MYSELF40 

0,KILL Y\RSELF6 ,WELL1 ?AT'S AN OLD /ORY4 ,COME1 !RE IS NO DANG]40 

0,I WANT TO KILL MYSELF6 ,I WANT TO KILL MYSELF64440 

,LIRAT LOOK$ AT ME1 BL9K$ HIS EYES & PAC$ UP & D[N ! /UDY ) LONG /RIDES4 

0,MY POOR ,M9TIE60 HE SAID1 0IF Y\ W]E A /ATESMAN1 A /OCKBROK] OR4444 ,WELL1 ,I DON'T KN[ 444 SAY A GROC]1 AN >T CRITIC1 OR A J\RNALI/1 ,I W\LD SAY TO Y\3 ',Y\ >E UNHAPPY & Y\ HAVE HAD 5\< ( LIFE1 MY BOY6 ,GO AHEAD1 KILL Y\RSELF6' ,& ) !SE WORDS ,I W\LD LEAVE Y\4 ,BUT H]E Y\ HAVE ?AT R>E OPPORTUNITY ( BE+ AN >TI/1 Y\ POSSESS ?AT DIV9E GIFT ( SEE+1 UND]/&+1 FEEL+ ?+S :I* O!RS CAN'T SEE1 CAN'T UND]/& & CAN'T FEEL6 ,!RE >E H>MONIES 9 NATURE :I* EXI/ ONLY = Y\ & :I* O!RS WILL NEV] HE> 444 Y\ HAVE ALL ! REAL JOYS ( LIFE1 ! ONLY JOYS1 ! NOBLE1 GR& & PURE ONES1 ! JOYS :I* MAKE Y\ =GET M5 & :I* R5D] Y\ ALMO/ ,GODLIKE4 ,& BECAUSE SOME WOMAN HAS DECEIV$ Y\1 Y\ WANT TO R5\NCE ALL ?AT8 ,%E HAS DECEIV$ Y\2 IT IS EVID5T ?AT %E HAS DECEIV$ Y\4444 ,WELL1 :AT ELSE DID Y\ EXPECT H] TO DO8 ,& :AT CONC]N IS IT ( Y\RS1 EV5 IF %E HAS84440 

0,PLEASE DON'T JE] AT ME4 ,Y\ DON'T KN[ ANY?+1 ,LIRAT4 ,Y\ DON'T SUSPECT ANY?+4 ,I AM LO/1 DI%ONOR$60 

0,DI%ONOR$1 MY FRI5D8 ,>E Y\ SURE ( IT8 ,DO Y\ HAVE UNCLEAN DEBTS8 ,Y\'LL PAY !M (F60 

0,IT IS NOT A QUE/ION ( ?AT6 ,I AM DI%ONOR$6 DI%ONOR$1 DO Y\ UND]/&8 ,IT HAS BE5 F\R MON?S S9CE ,I HAVE GIV5 ,JULIETTE ANY MONEY 444 F\R MON?S6 ,& H]E ,I LIVE1 ,I EAT1 HAVE MY AMUSEM5TS4 ,EV]Y EV5+ 444 BE=E D9N] 444 LATE AT NI<T4444 ,JULIETTE RE5T]S ! H\SE4 ,%E IS WORN-\T1 PALE1 H] HAIR DI%EVEL$4 ,FROM :AT D5S1 :AT ALCOVES1 :AT >MS IS %E RETURN+8 ,UPON :AT PILL[S HAS H] HEAD RECL9$6 ,SOMETIMES ,I SEE PIECES ( B$ CLO!S 9SOL5TLY HANG+ ON ! TOP ( H] HAIR4444 ,%E NO LONG] FEELS A%AM$ ( IT1 %E DOES NOT EV5 TAKE ! TR\BLE TO LIE AB\T IT 444 ONE MI<T ?9K IT HAD BE5 >RANG$ BETWE5 US4 ,%E UNDRESSES1 & ,I BELIEVE %E TAKES A P]V]SE DELI<T 9 %[+ ME H] ILL-FA/5$ SKIRTS1 H] UNLAC$ CORSET1 ALL ! DISORD] ( H] RUMPL$ CLO!S1 ( H] LOOS5$ G>M5TS :I* COME (F1 FALL+ TO ! GR\ND AB\T H]1 & LIE CONSPICU\SLY ON ! FLOOR1 FILL+ ! B$ROOM ) ! BREA? ( O!R PEOPLE6 

0,I TREMBLE ) RAGE & WANT TO S9K MY TEE? 9TO H] BODY2 MY WRA? IS K9DL$ TO A FR5ZY & BOILS )9 ME--,I FEEL LIKE KILL+ H]4 ,& ,I SAY NO?+6 ,(T5 ,I EV5 COME UP TO H] TO EMBRACE H] 444 BUT %E PU%ES ME AWAY3 ',NO1 LEAVE ME ALONE1 ,I AM TIR$6' ,AT FIR/1 :5 ?IS ABOM9ABLE LIFE />T$1 ,I US$ TO BEAT H] 444 = Y\ MU/ KN[1 ,LIRAT1 !RE ISN'T A DISGRACEFUL ACT ?AT ,I HAVE NOT COMMITT$4 ,I HAVE EXHAU/$ EV]Y =M ( 9DEC5CY--YES1 ,I BEAT H]6 ,%E B5T H] BACK 444 & H>DLY UTT]$ A COMPLA9T4 ,ONE EV5+ ,I SEIZ$ H] BY ! ?ROAT1 ,I ?REW H] TO ! GR\ND4 ,OH6 ,I HAD QUITE MADE UP MY M9D TO F9I% H]4 ,:ILE ,I WAS /RANGL+ H]1 ,I TURN$ MY HEAD AWAY = FE> ?AT ,I MI<T BE MOV$ TO PITY1 FIX$ MY GAZE UPON A FL[] DESIGN ON ! C>PET1 & 9 ORD] TO HE> NO?+1 NEI!R H] WAIL+ NOR RATTL+1 ,I %RIEK$ \T 9>TICULATE WORDS1 LIKE A POSSESS$ ONE4 ,H[ LONG DID IT LA/8 ,SOON %E CEAS$ /RUGGL+ 444 H] MUSCLES RELAX$4444 ,I FELT H] VITALITY GIV+ \T UND] MY F+]S 444 A FEW MORE CONVULSIONS 444 & ?AT WAS ! 5D4444 ,%E DID NOT /IR ANY MORE4 ,& SUDD5LY ,I SAW H] BLACK-BLUE FACE1 H] CONTRACT$ EYES1 H] M\?1 L>GE & WIDE OP51 H] RIGID BODY1 H] MOTIONLESS >MS4 ,& LIKE A MADMAN ,I RU%$ 9TO EV]Y ROOM ( ! AP>TM5T1 CALL+ ! S]VANTS3 ',HELP1 HELP1 ,I HAVE KILL$ ,MADAME6 ,I HAVE KILL$ ,MADAME6' 

0,I FL$1 TUMBL+ D[N ! /AIRWAY1 )\T A HAT1 DA%$ 9TO ! C>ETAK]S3 ',GO UP/AIRS QUICKLY1 ,I HAVE KILL$ ,MADAME6' ,!N ,I D>T$ \T ON ! /REET1 9 A FR5ZY4 ,! :OLE NI<T ,I WAS RUNN+ )\T KN[+ :I!R1 RU%+ ALONG ! B\LEV>DS1 CROSS+ BRIDGES1 DA%+ AGA9/ B5*ES 9 ! P>KS & ME*ANICALLY TURN+ BACK T[>D ! H\SE4 ,IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ?R\< ITS CLOS$ %UTT]S !RE P5ETRAT$ ! LI<T ( WAX TAP]S2 PRIE/S' VE/M5TS1 SURPLICES1 EU*>I/S PASS$ BE=E ME 9 CONFUSION2 IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ,I C\LD HE> FUN]AL *ANTS1 ! RUMBLE ( ORGANS1 ! NOISE ( ROPES RUBB+ AGA9/ ! WOOD ( ! C(F94 ,I PICTUR$ ,JULIETTE /RET*$ \T ON ! B$1 DRESS$ 9 A :ITE ROBE1 H] H&S CLASP$1 A CRUCIFIX ON H] BREA/ & FL[]S AB\T H]4 ,& ,I WAS SURPRIS$ NOT TO SEE BLACK DRAP]IES ON ! DOOR1 OR A HE>SE ) FL[]S & WREA?S AT ! 5TRANCE \TSIDE1 OR PEOPLE 9 M\RN+ FI<T+ = A *ANCE TO BE SPR9KL$ ) HOLY WAT]4 

0,OH1 ,LIRAT1 :AT A NI<T ?AT WAS6 ,H[ DID ,I EV] MANAGE NOT TO ?R[ MYSELF UND] ! :EELS ( ! C>RIAGES1 CRA% MY HEAD AGA9/ ! H\SEWALL1 OR PLUNGE 9TO ! ,SE9E4 ,I DON'T KN[6444 ,DAY CAME4444 ,I HAD A NOTION TO SURR5D] TO ! POLICE4 ,I WANT$ TO GO UP TO A POLICEMAN ON ! /REET & SAY TO HIM3 ',I HAVE KILL$ ,JULIETTE4444 ,>RE/ ME6' ,BUT ?\<TS1 EA* WILD] ?AN ! O!R1 CAME TO MY M9D1 CLA%$ & YIELD$ TO O!RS4 ,& ,I RAN & RAN AS IF PURSU$ BY A PACK ( B>K+ H\NDS4444 ,IT WAS ,SUNDAY1 ,I REMEMB]4 ,!RE W]E MANY PEOPLE ON ! /REETS FLOOD$ ) SUN%9E4 ,I WAS SURE ?AT ALL LOOK$ AT ME1 ?AT !SE PEOPLE1 SEE+ ME RUN1 CRI$ \T 9 HORROR3 ',H]E IS ,JULIETTE'S MURD]]6' 

0,T[>D EV5+1 WORN \T1 ON ! V]GE ( COLLAPS+ ON ! SIDEWALK1 ,I MET ,JESSEL96 ',I SAY1' HE EXCLAIM$1 'Y\ HAVE DONE A NICE ?+1 Y\ HAVE6' ',DO Y\ ALREADY KN[ IT8' ',:Y1 ALL ,P>IS KN[S IT1 DE> FRI5D4 ,A LITTLE :ILE AGO1 AT ! RACES1 ,JULIETTE %[$ US H] NECK & ! M>KS :I* Y\R F+]S HAD LEFT ON IT4 ,%E SAID3 0,JEAN DID ?IS TO ME40 ,:Y1 MAN Y\ >E GETT+ ON F9E6' ,& :ILE P>T+1 HE ADD$3 ',= ! RE/1 %E HAS NEV] BE5 MORE BEAUTIFUL4 ,& SU* A SUCCESS6' ,& SO Y\ SEE ?AT :ILE ,I BELIEV$ H] TO BE DEAD1 %E WAS PROM5AD+ AT ! RACETRACK4 ,I HAD LEFT ! H\SE & %E C\LD HAVE ?\<T ?AT ,I W\LD NEV] COME BACK AGA91 & YET %E W5T TO ! RACES 444 PRETTI] ?AN EV]60 

,LIRAT GRAVELY LI/5$ TO ME4 ,HE WAS NOT PAC+ AB\T ANY MORE2 HE SEAT$ HIMSELF & %OOK HIS HEAD4 

0,:AT DO Y\ WANT ME TO TELL Y\8 ,Y\ MU/ GO AWAY40 

0,GO AWAY80 ,I REJO9$4 0,I %\LD GO AWAY8 ,BUT ,I DON'T WANT TO6 ,AN ADHESIVE =CE LIKE GLUE :I* IS GETT+ ?ICK] EV]Y DAY HOLDS ME FA/ TO H] C>PETS1 A *A9 GR[+ HEAVI] EV]Y DAY HOLDS ME RIVET$ TO H] WALLS4 ,I CAN'T LEAVE H]6 ,LOOK1 AT ?IS V]Y MOM5T ,I AM DREAM+ ( COMMITT+ ALL SORTS ( MAD1 H]OIC ACTS4 ,TO CLEANSE MYSELF ( ALL ?IS BAS5ESS1 ,I AM READY TO ?R[ MYSELF 9 FRONT ( ! FIRE-SPITT+ MUZZLES ( A HUNDR$ CANNONS4 ,I FEEL MYSELF /RONG 5\< TO CRU% :OLE =MIDABLE >MIES S+LE H&$4 ,:5 ,I WALK ON ! /REET ,I LOOK = RUNAWAY HORSES1 FIRES OR ANY O!R DANG]\S ADV5TURE :]E ,I CAN SACRIFICE MY LIFE4 ,!RE IS NOT A P]IL\S OR SUP]HUMAN DE$ ?AT ,I HAVE NOT ! C\RAGE TO P]=M4 ,BUT1 ?AT6 ,I CAN NOT DO6 

0,AT FIR/ ,I (F]$ MYSELF ! MO/ RIDICUL\S EXCUSES1 ,I GAVE MYSELF ! MO/ ILLOGICAL REASONS = NOT LEAV+ H]4 ,I SAID TO MYSELF ?AT IF ,I LEFT H]1 ,JULIETTE W\LD S9K TO EV5 L[] DEP?S2 ?AT MY LOVE = H] HAD 9 SOME MANN] BE5 H] LA/ VE/IGE ( DEC5CY :I* ,I %\LD F9ALLY SUCCE$ 9 RE/OR+ BY SAV+ H] FROM ! MIRE 9 :I* %E WALL[$4 ,TRULY ,I HAD BE5 REPAID BY ! LUXURY ( PITY & SELF SACRIFICE4 ,BUT ,I WAS LY+6 ,I SIMPLY CAN'T LEAVE H]6 ,I CAN'T BECAUSE ,I LOVE H]1 BECAUSE ! MORE DEPRAV$ %E IS ! MORE ,I LOVE H]4 ,BECAUSE ,I WANT H]1 DO Y\ HE>1 ,LIRAT8 ,& IF Y\ ONLY KNEW :AT IT MEANS TO ME1 ?IS LOVE1 :AT FR5ZIES1 :AT %AME1 :AT TORTURES8 ,IF Y\ ONLY KNEW TO :AT DEP?S ( ,HELL PASSION CAN S9K1 Y\ W\LD BE HORRIFI$6 ,AT NI<T :5 %E IS ASLEEP1 ,I PR[L AB\T 9 H] DRESS+ ROOM1 OP5+ DRAW]S1 DIGG+ AMONG ! C9D]S ( ! FIRE PLACE1 PUTT+ TOGE!R PIECES ( TORN LETT]S1 SMELL+ ! L95S :I* %E HAS JU/ REMOV$1 DEVOT+ MYSELF TO ! VILE/ SPY+1 TO ! MO/ %AMEFUL SE>*+6 ,IT WAS NOT 5\< = ME TO KN[2 ,I HAD TO SEE AS WELL6 ,I HAVE NO LONG] A M9D1 A HE>T1 OR ANY?+4 ,I AM JU/ ! EMBODIM5T ( DISORD]$1 RAV+1 FAMI%$ SEX1 :I* DEM&S ITS %>E ( LIV+ FLE%1 LIKE ! FALL[-DE] ?AT H[L 9 !IR FR5ZY ON RUTT+ NI<TS40 

,I WAS EXHAU/$ 444 ! WORDS CAME \T ( MY ?ROAT ) A HISS+ S\ND 444 /ILL ,I CONT9U$4 

0,AH6 ,IT IS BEYOND ALL COMPREH5SION6 ,SOMETIMES IT HAPP5S ?AT ,JULIETTE IS SICK4 ,H] MEMB]S1 OV]/RA9$ BY PLEASURE1 REFUSE TO OBEY H]2 H] CON/ITUTION1 WORN \T BY N]V\S %OCKS1 REVOLTS4 ,%E TAKES TO H] B$4 ,IF Y\ C\LD ONLY SEE H] !N8 ,A *ILD1 ,LIRAT1 A SWEET & T\*+ *ILD6 ,%E DREAMS ONLY ( ! C\NTRY1 LITTLE BROOKS1 GRE5 PRAIRIES1 SIMPLE JOYS3 ',OH1 MY DE>1 %E EXCLAIMS1 ') T5 ?\S& FRANCS ( 9COME1 H[ HAPPY WE %\LD BE6' ,%E MAKES ALL SORTS ( ,VIRGILIAN & *>M+ PLANS4 ',WE \<T TO GO F>1 F> AWAY1 TO LIVE 9 A H\SE SURR\ND$ BY TALL TREES4 ,%E WILL RAISE *ICK5S :I* WILL LAY EGGS %E H]SELF WILL TAKE \T ( ! HAT*+ PLACE EV]Y MORN+2 %E WILL MAKE CREAM1 *EESE2 & %E WILL WE> APRONS LIKE ?IS & /RAW HATS LIKE ?AT1 JOGG+ ALONG PA?WAYS A/RIDE A DONKEY ?AT %E WILL CALL ,JOSEPH4 ,GEEHO6 ,JOSEPH1 ,GEEHO6 ,AH1 H[ NICE IT WILL BE6' 

0,:5 ,I HE> H] SAY ?AT1 ,I FEEL HOPE RETURN+ & ,I LET MYSELF BE TAK5 9 BY ?AT IMPOSSIBLE DREAM ( A RU/IC LIFE ) ,JULIETTE DISGUIS$ AS A %EPH]DESS4 ,QUIET L&SCAPES LIKE PLACES ( REFUGE1 5*ANT+ LIKE A P>ADISE1 UNROLL BE=E US 444 & WE GR[ EXALT$ & 5?USIA/IC4 ,JULIETTE CRIES3 ',MY POOR LITTLE ?+1 ,I HAVE CAUS$ Y\ SUFF]+1 BUT N[ IT'S ALL OV]4 ,I PROMISE Y\4 ,& !N ,I AM GO+ TO HAVE A TRA9$ RAM1 AM ,I NOT8 ,A BEAUTIFUL RAM1 V]Y BIG1 ALL :ITE1 >\ND :OM ,I %ALL TIE A B[ ( R$ RIBBON1 & :O WILL FOLL[ ME EV]Y:]E TOGE!R ) ,SPY1 NOT SO1 DE>8' ,%E 9SI/S ?AT ,I HAVE MY D9N] 9 FRONT ( H] B$1 ON A LITTLE TABLE1 & %E CODDLES ME LIKE A NURSE & C>ESSES ME LIKE A MO!R2 %E MAKES ME EAT AS ONE DOES A *ILD1 REPEAT+ )\T 5D & ) AGITATION 9 H] VOICE3 ',MY POOR LITTLE ?+6' 

0,AT O!R MOM5TS %E BECOMES ?\<TFUL & GRAVE3 ',MY DE>1 ,I W\LD LIKE TO ASK Y\ SOME?+ ?AT HAS BE5 WORRY+ ME = A LONG TIME2 PROMISE ?AT Y\'LL TELL ME4' ,I PROMISE4 ',WELL1 :5 ONE IS DEAD1 9 ! C(F91 IS IT TRUE ?AT ONE'S FEET RE/ AGA9/ ! BO>D8' ',:AT AN IDEA6 ,:Y DO Y\ SPEAK ( IT8' ',TELL ME1 PLEASE TELL ME6' ',BUT ,I DON'T KN[1 MY DE> ,JULIETTE6' ',DON'T Y\ KN[8 ,AL?\< IT IS TRUE ?AT Y\ NEV] KN[ ANY?+ :5 ,I AM S]I\S 444 BECAUSE 444 Y\ SEE8444 ,I DON'T WANT MY FEET TO RE/ AGA9/ ! BO>D4 ,:5 ,I AM DEAD 444 Y\ %ALL PUT A CU%ION 9SIDE & MY :ITE DRESS 444 Y\ KN[ ! ONE ) P9K FL[]S 444 ! DRESS = :I* ,I WON ! FIR/ PRIZE6 ,Y\'LL BE V]Y SORRY1 MY POOR LITTLE ?+1 WON'T Y\8 ,EMBRACE ME6 ,COME OV] H]E1 CLOS] TO ME1 /ILL CLOS]4 ,I ADORE Y\6' 

0,& ,I US$ TO WI% ?AT ,JULIETTE W]E SICK ALL ! TIME6 ,BUT AS SOON AS %E RECOV]S %E DOES NOT REMEMB] ANY?+2 H] PROMISES1 H] RESOLUTIONS >E GONE & \R LIFE ( HELL BEG9S AGA91 MORE VIOL5T & EXASP]AT+ ?AN EV]4 ,& FROM ?AT LITTLE BIT ( HEAV5 TO :I* ,I HAVE HELD ON = A :ILE1 ,I TUMBLE D[N AGA9 9TO ! FIL? & CRIME ( ?IS LOVE EV5 MORE FRI<TFULLY MAIM$ 9 SPIRIT6 ,AH6 ?AT IS NOT ALL1 ,LIRAT6 ,I %\LD HAVE /AY$ 9 ?AT AP>TM5T TO BROOD OV] MY %AME1 DON'T Y\ ?9K6 ,I %\LD HAVE )DRAWN 9TO OBSCURITY & OBLIVION SUFFICI5T TO MAKE PEOPLE BELIEVE ?AT ,I AM DEAD4 ,& 9/EAD ( ?AT6 ,WELL6 ,GO TO ! ,BOIS & Y\ SEE ME !RE EV]Y DAY4 ,AT ! !AT] IT IS ,I :OM Y\ WILL F9D 9 ! /AGE BOX1 9 A DRESS SUIT1 ) A FL[] 9 MY BUTTONHOLE1 ALWAYS ,I6 ,JULIETTE IS RESPL5D5T AMID FL[]S1 PLUMES & GEMS4 ,%E IS EXQUISITE1 %E HAS A NEW DRESS :I* EV]YONE ADMIRES1 A /OCK ( SMILES EA* MORE MODE/ ?AN ! O!R1 & ! /R+ ( PE>LS1 = :I* ,I HAVE NOT PAID1 :I* %E TOYS GRACEFULLY ) ! TIPS ( H] F+]S & )\T ! LEA/ REMORSE4 ,& H]E ,I HAVE NOT A S\1 NOT A S\6 ,& ,I AM AT ! 5D ( MY ROPE1 HAV+ EXHAU/$ ALL MY SW9DL+ TRICKS & CROOK$ S*EMES6 ,(T5 ,I TREMBLE4 ,IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT ! HEAVY H& ( A G5D>ME IS BE>+ D[N UPON ME4 ,ALREADY ,I HE> ! PA9FUL :ISP]1 ,I CAT* ! /EAL?Y LOOKS ( CONTEMPT4 

0,LITTLE BY LITTLE EMPT9ESS BROAD5S & REC$ES ALL >\ND ME AS >\ND A PE/IF]\S P]SON4 ,OLD FRI5DS PASS BY1 TURN !IR HEADS AWAY1 AVOID ME 9 ORD] NOT TO GREET ME4444 ,& UNWILL+LY ,I ASSUME ! SLY & S]VILE MANN] ( DISREPUTABLE PEOPLE :O WALK ) EYES ASQU9T & CR++ BACK 9 SE>* ( AN \T/RET*$ H&6 ,! HORRIBLE ?+ AB\T IT1 Y\ SEE1 IS ?AT ,I AM P]FECTLY CONSCI\S ( ! FACT ?AT IT IS ,JULIETTE'S BEAUTY ?AT PROTECTS ME4 ,IT IS ! DESIRE :I* %E AWAK5S1 IT IS H] M\?1 IT IS ! MY/]Y ( H] NUDE & DEFIL$ BODY :I* 9 ?IS PLEASURE-SEEK+ WORLD %IELDS ME ) A FALSE E/EEM1 ) A LY+ SEMBLANCE ( RESPECT4 ,A H&%AKE1 A GRATEFUL LOOK SEEMS TO SAY3 ',I HAVE BE5 ) Y\R ,JULIETTE1 & ,I [E ?AT TO Y\4 ,P]HAPS Y\ PREF] MONEY8 ,DO Y\ WANT IT8' ,YES1 JU/ LET ME QUIT ,JULIETTE & ) ONE KICK ,I %ALL EV5 BE ?R[N \T ( ?IS CR[D1 ?IS FACILE1 FAWN+ & P]V]T$ CR[D & %ALL BE R$UC$ TO SORDID ASSOCIATION ) GAMBL]S & PIMPS60 

,I BUR/ \T SOBB+4 ,LIRAT DID NOT /IR1 DID NOT RAISE HIS HEAD4 ,MOTIONLESS1 ) CLASP$ H&S HE WAS LOOK+ AT SOME?+ ,I KNEW NOT :AT 444 NO?+1 ,I SUPPOSE4 ,AFT] A FEW MOM5TS ( SIL5CE ,I CONT9U$3 

0,MY GOOD ,LIRAT1 DO Y\ REMEMB] \R TALKS 9 Y\R /UDIO6 ,I US$ TO LI/5 TO Y\1 & :AT Y\ TOLD ME WAS SO BEAUTIFUL6 ,)\T SUSPECT+ IT1 P]HAPS1 Y\ AWOKE NOBLE DESIRES & SUBLIME RAPTURES 9 ME4 ,Y\ BREA!D 9TO ME A LITTLE ( ! BELIEF1 AMBITION & L(TY FLI<TS ( Y\R S\L4 ,Y\ TAU<T ME H[ TO READ NATURE1 TO UND]/& H] PASSIONATE TONGUE1 TO FEEL ! EMOTIONS LAT5T 9 ?+S4 ,Y\ PROV$ TO ME ! EXI/5CE ( IMMORTAL BEAUTY4 ,Y\ SAID TO ME3 ',LOVE1 :Y IT IS 9 ! E>!NW>E PIT*]1 IT IS 9 ! V]M9\S RAGS :I* ,I PA9T4 ,TO TAKE A FEEL+1 A JOY1 A MOM5T ( SUFF]+1 ( PALPITATION1 A VISION1 A %UDD]--ANY?+1 NO MATT] H[ FUGITIVE AN EXP]I5CE ( LIFE IT MAY BE--& RECREATE IT1 FIX IT 9 COLORS1 9 WORDS OR S\NDS1 MEANS TO LOVE6 ,LOVE IS A MAN'S YE>N+ TO CREATE6' 

0,& ,I DREAM$ ( BECOM+ A GREAT >TI/6 ,AH6 MY DREAMS1 MY DELI<TS 9 BE+ ABLE TO P]CEIVE ?+S1 MY D\BTS1 MY SACR$ AGONIES1 DO Y\ REMEMB] !M8 ,LOOK :AT ,I HAVE DONE ) ALL ?AT6 ,I WANT$ TO LOVE & ,I W5T TO A WOMAN :O KILLS LOVE4 ,I />T$ ) W+S1 DRUNK ) ! AIR1 ) ! AZURE1 ) LI<T6 ,& N[ ,I AM NO?+ BUT A DIRTY HOG1 SUNK 9 ITS FIL?1 ) GRE$Y SN\T & SIDES %AK+ ) IMPURE RUTT+4 ,Y\ CAN SEE = Y\RSELF1 ,LIRAT1 ?AT ,I AM LO/1 LO/1 LO/6 444 & ?AT ,I MU/ KILL MYSELF40 

,!N ,LIRAT APPROA*$ & PUT BO? H&S ON MY %\LD]S3 

0,Y\ SAY Y\ >E LO/6 ,LET US SEE N[2 :5 ONE IS ( Y\R /OCK1 CAN ONE SAY ?AT A MAN'S LIFE IS LO/8 ,Y\ SAY Y\ MU/ KILL Y\RSELF8 ,DOES A MAN :O HAS TYPHOID FEV] SAY3 ',I MU/ KILL MYSELF8' ,HE SAYS3 ',I MU/ CURE MYSELF6' ,Y\ HAVE TYPHOID FEV]1 MY POOR *ILD 444 CURE Y\RSELF4 ,LO/6 ,:Y1 !RE IS NOT A CRIME1 DO Y\ HE> ME1 !RE IS NOT A CRIME1 NO MATT] H[ MON/R\S & VILE1 ?AT CAN NOT BE R$EEM$ BY =GIV5ESS4 ,I DON'T MEAN ,GOD'S =GIV5ESS OR MAN'S =GIV5ESS1 BUT ONE'S [N =GIV5ESS1 :I* IS MU* MORE DIFFICULT & MORE WOR? :ILE TO OBTA94 ,LO/6 ,I WAS LI/5+ TO Y\1 MY DE> ,M9TIE1 & DO Y\ KN[ :AT ,I WAS ?9K+8 ,I WAS ?9K+ ?AT Y\ HAD ! NOBLE/ & MO/ BEAUTIFUL S\L ?AT ,I EV] KNEW4 ,NO1 NO 444 A MAN :O ACCUSES HIMSELF AS Y\ DO 444 :O PUTS 9TO HIS CONFESSION ( S9 ! HE>T-R5D+ ACC5TS :I* Y\ HAVE PUT 9 Y\RS JU/ N[ 444 :Y NO--?AT MAN IS NEV] LO/4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 HE F9DS HIMSELF AGA9 & HE IS NE> R$EMPTION4 ,LOVE HAS PASS$ OV] Y\ & HAS LEFT ALL ! MORE FIL? 9 ITS WAKE BECAUSE ( Y\R EXTREMELY DELICATE NATURE4 ,WELL6 ,Y\ MU/ WA% ?IS FIL? (F--& ,I KN[ :]E ! WAT] IS ?AT WILL WA% IT (F4 ,Y\ >E GO+ TO LEAVE ?IS PLACE 444 LEAVE ,P>IS40 

0,LIRAT60 ,I 5TREAT$1 0DON'T ASK ME TO LEAVE6 ,I HAVE TRI$ IT TW5TY TIMES & ,I CANNOT DO IT40 

0,Y\ >E GO+ AWAY10 REPEAT$ ,LIRAT1 :OSE FACE SUDD5LY D>K5$4 0,OR ELSE ,I AM MI/AK5 AB\T Y\1 & Y\ >E A SCAMP60 

,HE RESUM$3 

0,9 ! HE>T ( ,BRITTANY !RE IS A FI%+ VILLAGE1 :I* IS CALL$ ,LE ,PLO*4 ,! AIR !RE IS PURE1 NATURE IS SUP]B1 MAN RUGG$ & K9D4 ,IT IS !RE ?AT Y\ >E GO+ TO LIVE ?REE MON?S1 SIX MON?S1 A YE> IF NECESS>Y4 ,Y\ WILL WALK ALONG ! S&Y %ORE1 ACROSS ! HEA?1 ?R\< P9E =E/S1 OV] ROCKS2 Y\ WILL DIG ! SOIL1 Y\ WILL CAT* SEA WRACK1 Y\ WILL LIFT LOGS1 Y\ WILL %\T 9 ! W9D4 ,!RE1 AT LA/1 Y\ WILL SUBDUE ?IS POISON$ BODY 9SANE ) LOVE4 ,9 ! BEG9N+ IT WILL BE H>D = Y\ & Y\ WILL P]HAPS FEEL HOMESICK 444 Y\ WILL REBEL1 Y\ WILL BE SEIZ$ ) PASSIONATE DESIRES TO RETURN4 ,DON'T BE DISC\RAG$1 ,I BESEE* Y\4 ,ON DAYS ESPECIALLY H>D TO BE>1 WALK ALL ! MORE 444 SP5D NI<TS \T ON ! SEA ) ! BRAVE PEOPLE ( ! PLACE 444 & :5 Y\R HE>T IS HEAVY1 WEEP1 WEEP4 ,ABOVE ALL1 KEEP FROM LEAD+ AN 9DOL5T LIFE1 FROM DREAM+1 FROM READ+1 FROM C>V+ Y\R NAME ON ! ROCKS & TRAC+ IT ON ! S&4 ,DON'T ?9K ( ANY?+1 DON'T ?9K AT ALL6 ,ON SU* OCCASIONS1 LIT]ATURE & >T >E POOR C\NSELORS1 !Y >E APT TO BR+ Y\ BACK TO LOVE AGA94 ,9CESSANT ACTIVITY ( Y\R BODY1 H>D PHYSICAL LABOR1 Y\R FLE% WORN \T BY CRU%+ FATIGUE1 Y\R HEAD LA%$ & MADE GIDDY BY ! W9D1 BY ! RA91 BY /ORMS6 ,I TELL Y\1 Y\ WILL COME BACK FROM ?AT PLACE NOT ONLY CUR$ BUT /RONG] ?AN EV] & BETT] >M$ = /RUGGLE4 ,& Y\ %ALL HAVE PAID Y\R DEBT TO ?AT MON/]4 ,Y\ SAY1 Y\ %ALL HAVE PAID IT ) Y\R =TUNE8 ,WELL :AT ( IT1 ?AT'S NO?+4 ,:Y1 ,I 5VY Y\ & WI% ,I C\LD GO ) Y\4 ,COME1 MY DE> ,M9TIE1 A LITTLE C\RAGE6 ,GO60 

0,YES1 ,LIRAT1 Y\ >E RI<T4 ,I MU/ GO AWAY40 

0,WELL GO !N60 

0,I AM GO+ AWAY TOMORR[1 ,I SWE>60 

0,TOMORR[8 ,AH1 TOMORR[6 ,%E IS GO+ TO COME BACK1 ISN'T ?AT ! IDEA8 ,& Y\ WILL ?R[ Y\RSELF 9 H] >MS AGA94 ,NO1 GO N[60 

0,LET ME WRITE TO H]4 ,I CAN'T LEAVE H] LIKE ?IS1 )\T A WORD1 )\T SAY+ GOOD BYE TO H]4 ,LIRAT JU/ ?9K6 ,9 SPITE ( ALL ?IS SUFF]+1 9 SPITE ( ALL ?IS %AME1 !RE /ILL >E HAPPY MEMORIES1 BLISSFUL H\RS4 ,%E IS NOT WICK$ 444 %E SIMPLY DOES NOT KN[ 444 ?AT'S ALL 444 BUT %E LOVES ME4 ,I %ALL GO AWAY1 ,I PROMISE Y\ ,I %ALL4 ,BUT GIVE ME JU/ ONE MORE DAY6 ,ONE MORE DAY6 ,ONE DAY IS NOT MU*1 ESPECIALLY S9CE ,I %ALL NOT SEE H] ANY MORE6 ,AH1 ONE MORE DAY60 

0,NO1 GO N[60 

0,LIRAT6 ,MY GOOD ,LIRAT60 

0,NO60 

0,BUT ,I HAVE NO MONEY6 ,H[ DO Y\ EXPECT ME TO GO )\T MONEY80 

0,I HAVE 5\< LEFT TO LA/ Y\ OV] ! TRIP2 ,I'LL S5D IT TO Y\ !RE4 ,GO60 

0,AT LEA/ LET ME GET MY ?+S READY60 

0,I HAVE SOME WOOL /OCK+S & CAPS2 ?AT'S :AT Y\ NE$4 ,GO60 

,HE HURRI$ ME AWAY4 ,)\T SEE+ ANY?+1 )\T REALIZ+ ANY?+1 ,I W5T ?R\< ! AP>TM5T1 BUMP+ 9TO PIECES ( FURNITURE4 ,I DID NOT FEEL ANY PA91 = ,I WAS 9S5SIBLE TO EV]Y?+2 ,I WAS WALK+ BEH9D ,LIRAT ) ! HEAVY /EP & ! PASSIVE GAIT ( A BEA/ L$ TO SLAU<T]4 

0,WELL :]E IS Y\R HAT80 

0,?AT'S RI<T6 ,I W5T \T )\T A HAT4 ,I DID NOT ?9K ?AT ,I WAS AB&ON+1 ?AT ,I WAS LEAV+ BEH9D ANY?+ ?AT WAS A P>T ( ME2 ?AT ! ?+S :I* ,I SAW1 9 ! MID/ ( :I* ,I LIV$1 W]E DY+ ONE AFT] ANO!R AS SOON AS ,I PASS$ BY !M40 

,! TRA9 LEFT AT EI<T O'CLOCK 9 ! EV5+4 ,LIRAT DID NOT LEAVE ME ALL DAY4 ,WI%+1 NO D\BT1 TO OCCUPY MY M9D & TO KEEP MY WILL P[] AT ITS HI<E/ PIT*1 HE SPOKE TO ME ) BROAD GE/URES2 BUT ,I DID NOT HE> ANY?+ EXCEPT A CONFUS$ NOISE1 ANNOY+ ME & BUZZ+ AB\T MY E>S LIKE PE/]+ FLIES4 ,WE D9$ 9 A RE/AURANT NE> ! ,MONT ,P>NASSE RAILROAD /ATION4 ,LIRAT CONT9U$ TO TALK1 /UPEFY+ ME ) GE/URES & WORDS1 TRAC+ /RANGE GEOGRAPHIC L9ES ) HIS KNIFE ON ! TABLE4 

0,LOOK1 !RE'S :]E IT IS6 ,!N Y\ WILL FOLL[ ?IS SIDE 444 & 4440 

,I BELIEVE HE WAS GIV+ ME 9/RUCTIONS AB\T MY TRIP TO ! PLACE ( EXILE ,I WAS B\ND = 444 TOLD ME ! NAMES ( VILLAGES1 P]SONS4 ,! WORD 'SEA' RECURR$ AGA9 & AGA9 ) ! RUMBLE ( PEBBLES1 WA%$ BY ! WAVES & RUBB+ AGA9/ ONE ANO!R4 

0,WILL Y\ REMEMB]80 

,& )\T KN[+ EXACTLY :AT HE REF]R$ TO1 ,I ANSW]$3 

0,YES1 YES1 ,I'LL REMEMB]40 

,IT WAS ONLY AT ! /ATION1 ?IS VA/ BUILD+1 FILL$ ) NOISE & BU/LE1 ?AT ,I REALIZ$ MY SITUATION4 ,I FELT T]RIBLY D[NHE>T$4 ,& SO ,I WAS GO+ AWAY6 ,IT'S ALL OV] !N6 ,NEV] AGA9 %ALL ,I SEE ,JULIETTE1 NEV] AGA96 ,AT ?IS MOM5T ,I =GOT ALL MY SUFF]+1 MY %AME1 MY RU91 ! IRREP>ABLE CONDUCT ( ,JULIETTE & REMEMB]$ ONLY \R BRIEF MOM5TS ( HAPP9ESS1 & ,I REBELL$ AGA9/ ! 9JU/ICE ( BE+ SEP>AT$ FROM MY WELL-BELOV$4 ,LIRAT MEANTIME WAS SAY+3 

0,& !N1 IF Y\ ONLY KNEW :AT A BLISS IT IS TO LIVE AMONG ! L[LY1 TO /UDY !IR POOR BUT WOR?Y LIFE1 !IR RESIGNATION ( M>TYRS1 !IR44440 

,I HAD A NOTION TO ESCAPE HIS SURVEILLANCE1 TO FLEE !N & !RE4 ,A FOOLI% HOPE KEPT ME FROM DO+ ?AT4 ,I SAID TO MYSELF3 ',CELE/9E WILL NO D\BT BR+ WORD TO ,JULIETTE ?AT ,LIRAT HAS BE5 AT ! H\SE1 ?AT HE HAS L$ ME AWAY BY =CE2 %E WILL UND]/& AT ONCE ?AT SOME?+ HORRIBLE IS HAPP5+1 ?AT ,I AM AT ?IS /ATION1 ?AT ,I AM GO+ TO LEAVE4 ,& %E WILL COME RUNN+4' ,I REALLY BELIEV$ %E W\LD4 ,SO /RONG WAS MY FAI? ?AT ?R\< ! L>GE OP5 W9D[S1 ,I WAT*$ ! PEOPLE :O W]E 5T]+2 ,I SE>*$ AMONG ! V>I\S GR\PS1 EXAM9$ CLOSELY ! D5SE CR[D ( PASS5G]S /&+ 9 FRONT ( ! TRACK GATE4 ,& :5EV] SOME ELEGANT LADY APPE>$ ,I GAVE A />T1 READY TO D>T T[>D H]4 ,LIRAT W5T ON3 

0,& TO ?9K ?AT !RE >E SOME PEOPLE :O CONSID] !M BRUTES1 !SE H]OES6 ,AH6 Y\ WILL SEE ?OSE MAGNIFIC5T BRUTES ) !IR HORNY H&S1 !IR EYES FULL ( 9F9ITUDE1 & !IR BACKS :I* MAKE ONE WEEP40 

,EV5 ON ! PLAT=M ,I WAS /ILL HOP+ = ,JULIETTE'S >RIVAL4 ,SURELY 9 A SECOND %E WILL BE H]E1 PALE1 VANQUI%$1 SUPPLIANT1 ) \T/RET*$ >MS3 0,MY ,JEAN1 MY ,JEAN1 ,I WAS A BAD WOMAN1 =GIVE ME6 ,DON'T BE> ME ILL-WILL ON ACC\NT ( ?AT1 DON'T =SAKE ME4 ,:AT DO Y\ EXPECT ME TO BECOME1 )\T Y\8 ,OH1 COME BACK1 MY ,JEAN1 OR ELSE TAKE ME ALONG60 ,& SILH\ETTES FLITT$ & DISAPPE>$ 9 ! C>S2 FANTA/IC %AD[S CREPT ALONG & SPLIT AGA9/ ! WALLS2 LONG :ITI% COLUMNS ( SMOKE SPREAD \T UND] ! VAULT$ RO(4444 

0,EMBRACE ME1 MY DE> ,M9TIE4 ,EMBRACE ME60 

,LIRAT DREW ME CLOSE TO HIS BREA/4 ,HE WAS CRY+4 0,WRITE TO ME AS SOON AS Y\ GET !RE4 ,GOOD BYE60 

,HE PU%$ ME 9TO A C> & DREW ! DOOR CURTA94 

0,GOOD BYE60 

,A :I/LE1 !N A DULL ROLL+ 444 !N LI<TS *AS+ ONE ANO!R 444 ?+S REC$+ SOME:]E 444 !N NO?+ 444 EXCEPT BLACK NI<T4 ,:Y DID ,JULIETTE NOT COME8 ,:Y8 ,& 9 ! MID/ ( RUMPL$ SKIRTS ON ! C>PETS1 9 H] DRESS+ ROOM1 9 FRONT ( H] LOOK+ GLASS1 ,I CLE>LY SEE H]1 B>E-%\LD]$1 APPLY+ RICE P[D] TO H] FACE4 ,CELE/9E ) H] S(T FLACCID F+]S IS SEW+ ON A B& ( CREPE AT ! BOTTOM ( ! L[ CUT WAI/1 & A MAN :OM ,I DON'T KN[1 RECL9+ ON ! S(A1 ) CROSS$ LEGS1 WAT*ES ,JULIETTE ) EYES 9 :I* DESIRE IS GLEAM+4 ,! GAS IS BURN+1 C&LE LI<TS >E BLAZ+1 A B\QUET ( ROSES :I* SOMEONE HAS JU/ BR\<T1 M+LES ITS MORE DELICATE P]FUME ) ! VIOL5T ODORS ( DRESSES6 ,& ,JULIETTE TAKES A ROSE1 TWI/S ITS /EM1 /RAI<T5S \T ITS PETALS & /ICKS IT 9 ! BUTTONHOLE ( ! MAN ) A T5D] SMILE4 ,A BONNET ) HANG+ /R+S IS P]*$ ON TOP ( A *&ELI]4444 

,& ! TRA9 IS MOV+ ON1 PUFF+1 PANT+4 ,! NI<T IS EV] BLACK1 & ,I AM PLUNG+ 9TO NO?+NESS4444 

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