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,AU?OR 3 ,OCTAVE ,MIRBEAU 

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,I WI% ,I DID NOT HAVE TO CONT9UE ?IS /ORY4 ,I WI% ,I C\LD /OP H]E4444 ,AH1 H[ ,I WI% ,I C\LD DO ?AT6 ,AT ! ?\<T ?AT ,I AM AB\T TO DISCLOSE SO MU* IGNOM9Y1 MY C\RAGE FAILS ME1 ,I BLU% = %AME1 A FEEL+ ( C[>DICE 9/ANTLY SEIZES ME & AGITATES ! P5 9 MY H&4444 ,& ,I SUE = M]CY FROM MYSELF4444 ,ALAS6 ,I MU/ CLAMB] TO ! TOP ( ?IS ASC5D+1 SORR[FUL ,GOLGO?A1 EV5 ?\< MY FLE% BE TORN TO BLE$+ PIECES1 EV5 ?\< MY LIV+ BODY BE BROK5 AGA9/ ! ROCKS & /ONES6 ,S9S LIKE M9E1 :I* ,I AM NOT TRY+ TO JU/IFY BY H]$IT>Y DEFECTS OR BY ! P]NICI\S EFFECTS ( AN $UCATION SO CONTR>Y TO MY NATURE1 CALL = T]RIBLE ATONEM5T1 & ! ATONEM5T :I* ,I HAVE *OS5 IS A PUBLIC CONFESSION ( MY LIFE4 

,I SAY TO MYSELF ?AT M]CIFUL & NOBLE HE>TS WILL ?9K K9DLY ( MY SELF-IMPOS$ HUMILIATION & ,I ALSO SAY TO MYSELF ?AT MY EXAMPLE WILL P]HAPS S]VE AS A LESSON TO O!RS4444 ,EV5 IF !RE W]E ONLY ONE Y\NG MAN :O1 ON ! V]GE ( FALL+1 %\LD HAPP5 TO READ !SE PAGES & FEEL SO HORRIFI$ & SO DISGU/$ AS TO BE =EV] SAV$ FROM EVIL1 IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT ! SALVATION ( HIS S\L W\LD SIGNIFY ! BEG9N+ ( ! R$EMPTION ( MY [N4 ,& !N AGA91 ,I HOPE1 AL?\< ,I NO LONG] BELIEVE 9 ,GOD1 ,I HOPE ?AT 9 ! DEP? ( ?OSE SANCTU>IES ( PEACE :]E 9 ! SIL5CE ( S\L-R$EEM+ NI<TS !RE RISES TO HEAV5 ! SAD & SOO?+ *ANT ( ?OSE :O PRAY = ! DEAD1 ,I HOPE ?AT !RE1 TOO1 ,I MAY BE GRANT$ MY %>E ( COMPASSION & ( ,*RI/IAN =GIV5ESS4 

,I HAD AN 9COME ( TW5TY-TWO ?\S& FRANCS2 FUR!RMORE1 ,I WAS C]TA9 ?AT BY DO+ LIT]>Y WORK ,I C\LD E>N AN EQUAL SUM1 AT LEA/4 ,NO?+ SEEM$ DIFFICULT TO ME1 ! PA? LAY /RAI<T BE=E ME )\T A S+LE OB/ACLE1 ,I HAD BUT TO M>* ON4444 ,MY %YNESS1 MY FE>S1 MY D\BTS1 EXHAU/+LY PA9FUL EF=TS1 SPIRITUAL AGONIES OH1 ?OSE ?+S NO LONG] MATT]$6 ,A NOVEL1 TWO NOVELS A YE>1 A FEW PLAYS = ! !AT]4444 ,:AT DID ?AT AM\NT TO = A Y\NG MAN 9 LOVE AS ,I WAS8444 ,W]5'T PEOPLE TALK+ AB\T ,X4444 & ,Z4444 TWO HOPELESS & NOTORI\S IDIOTS :O 9 A FEW YE>S AMASS$ A L>GE =TUNE8444 ,IDEAS = A NOVEL1 A COM$Y1 A DRAMATIC PLAY CAME TO ME 9 DROVES 444 & ,I 9DICAT$ !IR >RIVAL BY A BROAD & HAU<TY GE/URE4444 

,I SAW MYSELF ALREADY MONOPOLIZ+ ALL ! LIBR>IES1 ALL ! !AT]S1 ALL ! MAGAZ9ES1 ! ATT5TION ( ! :OLE WORLD4444 ,9 ! H\RS :5 9SPIRATION %\LD PROVE SL[ & PA9FUL1 ALL ,I W\LD NE$ TO DO W\LD BE TO LOOK AT ,JULIETTE & MA/]PIECES W\LD COME =? FROM H] EYES AS 9 A FAIRY-TALE4 ,I DID NOT HESITATE TO DEM& ,MALT]RE'S DEP>TURE & COMPLETE *>GE ( ,JULIETTE'S AFFAIRS4 ,MALT]RE WROTE HE>T-R5D+ LETT]S1 BEGG$1 ?REAT5$ & F9ALLY DEP>T$4 ,LAT] ON ,JESSEL91 DISPLAY+ HIS USUAL VAUNT$ TACT1 TOLD US ?AT ,MALT]RE1 GRIEF-/RICK51 HAD TAK5 A TRIP TO ,ITALY4 

0,I ACCOMPANI$ HIM AS F> AS ,M>SEILLES10 HE TOLD US4 0,HE WANT$ TO KILL HIMSELF & WAS CRY+ ALL ! TIME4 ,Y\ KN[ ,I AM NOT A GULLIBLE SORT ( A *AP 444 BUT HE ACTUALLY MADE ME FEEL SORRY = HIM4 ,N[ REALLY60 

,& HE ADD$3 

0,Y\ KN[4 ,HE WAS READY TO FI<T Y\4444 ,IT WAS HIS FRI5D1 ,MONSIEUR ,LIRAT1 :O KEPT HIM FROM DO+ ?AT4444 ,I1 TOO1 DISSUAD$ HIM FROM IT BECAUSE ,I BELIEVE ONLY 9 A DUEL TO DEA?40 

,JULIETTE LI/5$ TO ALL !SE DETAILS SIL5TLY & ) APP>5T 9DIFF]5CE4 ,FROM TIME TO TIME %E DREW H] TONGUE ACROSS H] LIPS1 & 9 H] EYES !RE WAS SOME?+ RESEMBL+ A REFLECTION ( 9N] JOY4 ,WAS %E ?9K+ ( ,MALT]RE8 ,WAS %E HAPPY TO LE>N ?AT SOMEONE WAS SUFF]+ ON ACC\NT ( H]8 ,ALAS6 ,I WAS NO LONG] 9 A POSITION TO ASK MYSELF SU* QUE/IONS4 

,A NEW LIFE BEGAN4 

,I DID RIOT LIKE ! AP>TM5T :]E ,JULIETTE LIV$2 !RE W]E 9 H] H\SE NEI<BORS :OM ,I DID NOT LIKE1 & ABOVE ALL ! AP>TM5T CONCEAL$ MEMORIES :I* ,I ?\<T IT MORE CONV5I5T TO =GET4 ,= FE> ?AT MY PLANS MI<T NOT BE AGREEABLE TO ,JULIETTE ,I DID NOT D>E TO REVEAL !M TOO ABRUPTLY1 BUT AT ! V]Y FIR/ WORDS ,I SAID AB\T ! MATT] %E GREW 5?USIA/IC4 

0,YES6 YES60 %E CRI$ \T ) JOY4 0,I HAVE BE5 ?9K+ ( IT MYSELF1 DE>Y4 ,& DO Y\ KN[ ( :AT ELSE ,I HAVE BE5 ?9K+8 ,GUESS1 GUESS QUICKLY1 :AT Y\R LITTLE WIFIE HAS BE5 ?9K+ (80 

,%E PLAC$ BO? H&S ON MY %\LD]S1 & SMIL+3 

0,DON'T Y\ KN[8444 ,REALLY Y\ DON'T8444 ,WELL6 %E HAS BE5 ?9K+ ( HAV+ Y\ COME & LIVE ) H]4444 ,OH6 ,IT'LL BE SO NICE TO HAVE A PRETTY LITTLE AP>TM5T :]E WE %ALL BE ALONE1 JU/ ! TWO ( US1 TO LOVE EA* O!R1 ISN'T ?AT RI<T1 MY ,JEAN8444 ,Y\'LL WORK & ,I'LL SIT RI<T NEXT TO Y\ & DO SOME NE$LE WORK )\T MAK+ A /IR1 & FROM TIME TO TIME1 ,I'LL EMBRACE Y\ TO 9SPIRE Y\ ) GREAT IDEAS4444 ,Y\ %ALL SEE1 MY DE>1 :E!R ,I AM A GOOD H\SEKEEP] OR NOT1 :E!R ,I CAN TAKE C>E ( ALL Y\R LITTLE MATT]S4444 ,9 ! FIR/ PLACE1 ,I'LL >RANGE Y\R ?+S 9 ! BUREAU4 ,EV]Y MORN+ Y\ WILL F9D A FRE% FL[] ON IT4444 ,!N ,SPY WILL ALSO HAVE A NICE LITTLE NI*E1 ALL NEW1 ) R$ TOP-KNOTS4444 ,& !N WE %ALL H>DLY GO \T AT ALL4444 ,& WE'LL SLEEP AS LATE AS WE WI%4444 ,& !N 444 & !N4444 ,OH1 H[ WOND]FUL IT WILL BE64440 

,!N GETT+ S]I\S AGA91 %E SAID 9 A GRAVE VOICE3 

0,NOT TO M5TION ! FACT ?AT IT WILL BE A GOOD DEAL *EAP]4 ,JU/ AB\T HALF60 

,WE R5T$ AN AP>TM5T ON ! ,RUE DE ,BALZAC & WE BUSILY FIX$ IT UP4 ,?AT WAS AN IMPORTANT TASK4 ,WE W]E %OPP+ ! :OLE DAY1 EXAM9+ RUGS1 *OOS+ HANG+S1 DISCUSS+ >RANGEM5TS & E/IMAT+ ?+S4 ,JULIETTE W\LD HAVE LIK$ TO BUY EV]Y?+ %E SAW1 BUT %E PR(ESS$ A PREF]5CE = ELABORATE FURNITURE1 = L\D-COLOR$ DRAP]IES & HEAVY EMBROID]Y4 ,! GLITT] ( NEW GOLD1 ! DAZZL+ EFFECT ( H>% COLORS ATTRACT$1 FASC9AT$ H]4 ,:5EV] ,I V5TUR$ TO REM>K SOME?+ TO H]1 %E W\LD SAY AT ONCE3 

0,H[ DO M5 COME TO KN[ AB\T !SE ?+S8444 ,WOM5 KN[ BETT]40 

,%E WAS OBDURATE 9 H] DESIRE TO BUY A K9D ( ,>ABIAN *E/1 FRI<TFULLY DAUB$ UP1 SET ) MO!R-(-PE>L1 IVORY IMITATION /ONES1 & ( IMM5SE SIZE4 

0,Y\ CAN SEE = Y\RSELF ?AT IT'S TOO L>GE1 ?AT IT WON'T GET 9TO \R H\SE AT ALL10 ,I SAID TO H]4 

0,DO Y\ REALLY ?9K SO8 ,WELL H[ AB\T SAW+ (F ! LEGS1 DE>Y80 

,& MORE ?AN TW5TY TIMES DUR+ ! DAY %E /OPP$ 9 ! MIDDLE ( H] CONV]SATION TO ASK ME3 

0,WELL1 DO Y\ REALLY ?9K IT IS TOO L>GE8444 ,?AT BEAUTIFUL *E/ ,I MEAN40 

,9 ! C>RIAGE1 AS SOON AS %E GOT 91 ,JULIETTE NE/L$ CLOSE TO ME1 (F]$ ME H] LIPS1 SMO!R$ ME ) C>ESSES1 HAPPY1 RADIANT4 

0,OH6 Y\ NAU<TY BOY1 :O NEV] SAID A WORD TO ME1 & :O /OOD JU/ LOOK+ AT ME1 ) HIS SAD EYES 444 YES1 Y\R BEAUTIFUL SAD EYES ?AT ,I LOVE 444 Y\ NAU<TY6444 ,I HAD TO />T IT ALL MYSELF6 444 HADN'T ,I8 444 O!RWISE Y\ W\LD HAVE NEV] D>$1 W\LD Y\8444 ,W]E Y\ AFRAID ( ME1 TELL ME8 ,DO Y\ REMEMB] :5 Y\ TOOK ME 9 Y\R >MS1 ?AT EV5+8 ,I DID NOT KN[ :]E ,I WAS1 ,I C\LD NO LONG] SEE ANY?+4444 ,MY ?ROAT1 MY *E/ FELT AS ?\< ,I HAD SWALL[$ SOME?+ V]Y HOT4444 ISN'T ?AT FUNNY4444 ,I ?\<T ,I WAS GO+ TO DIE 444 BURN$ BY Y\4444 ,IT WAS SO SWEET1 SO SWEET6444 ,:Y1 ,I HAVE LOV$ Y\ S9CE ! FIR/ DAY WE MET4444 ,NO1 ,I WAS 9 LOVE ) Y\ BE=E4444 ,AH1 Y\ >E LAU<+6444 ,Y\ DON'T BELIEVE !N ?AT Y\ CAN LOVE SOMEONE )\T KN[+ OR SEE+ HIM8444 ,WELL ,I DO6444 ,I AM SURE ( IT64440 

,MY HE>T WAS BEAT+ SO FA/1 !SE WORDS W]E SO NEW TO ME1 ?AT ,I C\LD NOT F9D ANY?+ TO SAY 9 REPLY2 ,I WAS *OK+ ) HAPP9ESS4 ,ALL ,I C\LD DO WAS TO CLASP ,JULIETTE 9 MY >MS1 MUTT] SOME 9>TICULATE WORDS & WEEP ) JOY4 ,SUDD5LY %E BECAME ?\<TFUL1 ! FURR[ ON H] =EHEAD DEEP5$1 %E )DREW H] H& FROM M9E4 ,I WAS AFRAID ,I HAD (F5D$ H]3 

0,:AT'S ! MATT]1 MY ,JULIETTE80 ,I ASK$ H]4 0,:Y DO Y\ LOOK SO8444 ,HAVE ,I HURT Y\80 

,& ,JULIETTE1 DISCONSOLATE1 SAID ) A SI<3 

0,! CORN]-BUFFET1 MY DE>6444 ,! CORN]-BUFFET = ! P>LOR :I* WE HAVE 5TIRELY =GOTT540 

,%E QUICKLY PASS$ FROM LAU<T]1 FROM KISSES TO SUDD5 GRAVITY1 M+L$ WORDS ( 5DE>M5T ) CEIL+ MEASUREM5TS1 CONFUS$ LOVE ) TAPE/RY4444 ,IT WAS DELI<TFUL4 

,9 \R ROOM1 9 ! EV5+1 ALL ?IS PRETTY *ILDI%NESS DISAPPE>$4 ,LOVE /AMP$ UPON ! FACE ( ,JULIETTE SOME?+ AU/]E1 DELIB]ATE & F]OCI\S :I* ,I C\LD NOT EXPLA92 IT *ANG$ H] 5TIRELY4 ,%E WAS NOT DEPRAV$2 ON ! CONTR>Y1 H] PASSION %[$ ITSELF TO BE /RONG & NORMAL1 & 9 H] C>ESSES !RE WAS AWE-9SPIR+ NOBILITY & C\RAGE4 ,H] BODY TREMBL$ AS IF 9 T]RIBLE LABOR4 

,MY HAPP9ESS LA/$ BUT A %ORT TIME4444 ,MY HAPP9ESS6444 ,IT IS REALLY REM>KABLE ?AT NEV]1 NEV] HAVE ,I BE5 P]MITT$ TO 5JOY ANY?+ FULLY1 & ?AT 9V>IABLY ANXIETY CAME TO DI/URB ! BRIEF P]IODS ( MY HAPP9ESS4 ,DEF5SELESS & P[]LESS AGA9/ SUFF]+1 NOT SURE ( MYSELF & TIMID 9 ! H\RS ( HAPP9ESS--SU* ,I HAVE BE5 ALL MY LIFE4 ,IS IT A T5D5CY PECULI> TO MY NATURE8 ,A /RANGE P]V]SION ( MY S5SIBILITIES8444 ,OR IS IT RA!R ?AT HAPP9ESS 9 MY [N CASE AS WELL AS 9 ! CASE ( EV]YBODY ELSE IS REALLY DECEPTIVE1 & ?AT IT IS NO?+ BUT A MORE TORM5T+ & MORE REF9$ =M ( UNIV]SAL SUFF]+8444 

,N[ ?IS = EXAMPLE4444 ,! FA9T GLIMM] ( ! NI<T-LAMP FLICK]S FEEBLY UPON ! CURTA9S & ! FURNITURE2 ,JULIETTE IS ASLEEP1 E>LY 9 ! MORN+1 ! MORN+ AFT] \R FIR/ NI<T4 ,ONE ( H] >MS1 B>E1 RE/S UPON ! %EET2 ! O!R1 ALSO B>E1 IS GRACEFULLY COIL$ UP UND] H] NAPE4 ,ALL >\ND H] FACE--:I* REFLECTS ! PALLID LI<T ( ! B$1 A FACE :I* LOOKS LIKE ?AT ( A MURD]$ P]SON1 ) EYES 5CIRCL$ BY D>K R+S--H] LOOSE BLACK HAIR IS SCATT]$1 S9U\S & FL[+ LIKE WAVES6 ,I CONTEMPLATE H] EAG]LY4444 ,%E IS SLEEP+ CLOSE TO ME1 ) A DEEP CALM SLEEP1 LIKE A *ILD4 ,& = ! FIR/ TIME POSSESSION OCCASIONS NO REGRET1 NO DISGU/ 9 ME2 = ! FIR/ TIME ,I AM ABLE TO LOOK AT A WOMAN :O HAS JU/ GIV5 H]SELF TO ME4 ,I CANNOT EXPRESS MY FEEL+S AT ?IS MOM5T4 ,:AT ,I FEEL IS SOME?+ 9DEF9ABLE1 SOME?+ EXCE$+LY SWEET & AT ! SAME TIME V]Y GRAVE & HOLY1 A SORT ( RELIGI\S EC/ASY SIMIL> TO ! ONE :I* ,I EXP]I5C$ AT ! TIME ( MY FIR/ COMMUNION4444 ,I RECOGNIZE ! SAME MY/IC TRANSPORT1 ! SAME GREAT & SACR$ AWE2 IT IS LIKE ANO!R REVELATION ( ,GOD TAK+ PLACE 9 ! TRANSPL5D5T LI<T ( MY S\L4444 ,IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT ,GOD HAS COME D[N TO ME = ! SECOND TIME4444 ,%E SLEEPS1 9 ! SIL5CE ( ! ROOM1 ) H] M\? HALF-OP51 H] NO/RILS MOTIONLESS2 %E SLEEPS ) A SLEEP SO G5TLE ?AT ,I CANNOT EV5 HE> H] BREA?+4444 ,A FL[] ON ! MANTELPIECE IS !RE1 WI!R+1 & A :IFF ( ITS DY+ FRAGRANCE REA*ES ME4 ,I CAN'T HE> ,JULIETTE AT ALL1 %E IS ONLY ASLEEP1 %E IS BREA?+1 %E IS ALIVE & YET ,I CAN'T HE> H]4 ,I MOVE NE>] TO H] & G5TLY B5D OV] H]1 ALMO/ T\*+ H] ) MY LIPS1 & 9 AN ALMO/ 9AUDIBLE VOICE ,I CALL H]4 

0,JULIETTE60 

,JULIETTE DOES NOT /IR4 ,BUT ,I FEEL H] BREA?1 FA9T] ?AN ?AT ( ! FL[]1 H] BREA? ALWAYS SO FRE%1 ) :I* AT ?IS MOM5T !RE IS M+L$1 LIKE A WAFT ( W>M?1 H] FRAGRANT BREA? :I* BL5DS ) AN IMP]CEPTIBLE ODOR ( DECAY4 

0,JULIETTE60 

,JULIETTE DOES NOT /IR4 ,BUT ! %EET :I* FOLL[S ! CURVES ( H] BODY1 %[+ ! %APE ( H] LIMBS1 LOOS5S ITSELF 9TO A RIGID CREASE1 & ! %EET LOOKS TO ME LIKE A %R\D4 ,& ! ?\<T ( DEA? SUDD5LY COMES TO MY M9D & L+]S !RE4 ,I BEG9 TO BE AFRAID ?AT ,JULIETTE IS DEAD4 

0,JULIETTE60 

,JULIETTE DOES NOT /IR4 ,MY :OLE BE+ IS N[ PLUNG$ 9TO A FR5ZY ( FE>1 & :ILE 9 MY E>S ! DI/ANT KNELL RES\NDS1 >\ND ! B$ ,I SEE ! LI<T ( A ?\S& FUN]AL TAP]S TREMBL+ UND] ! VIBRATIONS ( A DE PR(UNDIS PRAY]4 ,MY HAIR /&S ON 5D1 MY TEE? *ATT] & ,I %\T1 ,I %\T3 

0,JULIETTE6 ,JULIETTE60 

,AT LA/ ,JULIETTE MOVES H] HEAD1 HEAVES A SI< & MURMURS1 AS IF 9 A DREAM3 

0,JEAN6444 ,MY ,JEAN60 

,=CEFULLY ,I GRASP H] 9TO MY >MS AS IF TO DEF5D H] AGA9/ SOME ONE2 ,I DRAW H] T[>D ME & TREMBL+1 ) MY BLOOD RUNN+ COLD1 ,I BEG H]3 

0,JULIETTE6444 ,MY [N ,JULIETTE 444 DON'T SLEEP4444 ,OH1 PLEASE DON'T SLEEP6444 ,Y\ FRI<T5 ME6444 ,LET ME SEE Y\R EYES2 TALK TO ME1 TALK TO ME6444 ,& P9* ME1 P9* Y\RSELF1 TOO1 P9* ME H>D4444 ,BUT DON'T SLEEP ANY MORE1 PLEASE44440 

,%E CUDDLES 9TO MY >MS1 :ISP]S SOME UN9TELLIGIBLE WORDS & FALLS ASLEEP AGA91 H] HEAD HANG+ ON MY %\LD]4444 ,BUT ! APP>ITION ( DEA?1 /RONG] ?AN ! AWAK5+ ( LOVE1 P]SI/S1 & AL?\< ,I FEEL ! REGUL> BEAT+ ( ,JULIETTE'S HE>T AGA9/ MY [N1 IT DOES NOT VANI% UNTIL DAY4 

,H[ (T5 S9CE ?AT TIME1 :5 ) H]1 ,I HAVE FELT ! FRIGID T\* ( DEA? 9 H] FI]Y KISSES6444 ,& H[ (T5 9 ! MID/ ( RAPTURE !RE APPE>$ TO ME ! SUDD5 & CAP]+ IMAGE ( ! S+] AT ! ,B\FFES6444 ,H[ MANY TIMES DID HIS LU/FUL LAU< DR[N ! >D5T WORDS ( ,JULIETTE6444 ,H[ (T5 ,I HAVE HE>D HIM SAY TO ME1 :ILE HIS IMAGE KEPT LEAP+ ABOVE ME3 0,GO AHEAD1 GLUT Y\RSELF UPON ?IS IMBECILE BODY1 UPON ?IS UNCLEAN BODY :I* ,I DEFIL$6444 ,GO ON6444 ,GO ON6 444 :]EV] Y\ T\* Y\R LIPS Y\ WILL BREA! ! IMPURE ODOR ( MY [N2 :]EV] Y\R C>ESSES MAY W&] UPON ?IS BODY ( A PRO/ITUTE !Y WILL 5C\NT] ! FIL?Y M>KS ( MY [N MANH&L+4444 ,GO AHEAD1 WA% H]1 Y\R ,JULIETTE1 WA% H] 9 ! LU/RAL WAT] ( Y\R LOVE1 CLEANSE H] ) ! ACID ( Y\R M\?4444 ,/RIP (F H] SK9 ) Y\R TEE?1 IF Y\ WILL2 Y\ WILL EFFACE NO?+1 NEV]1 BECAUSE ! M>K ( 9FAMY ) :I* ,I HAVE BR&$ H] IS 9EFFACEABLE40 

,& ,I (T5 HAD A PASSIONATE DESIRE TO QUE/ION ,JULIETTE AB\T ?IS S+] :OSE VISION HAUNT$ ME SO MU*4 ,BUT ,I HAD NOT ! C\RAGE4 ,I CONT5T$ MYSELF ) TRY+ TO GET AT ! TRU? 9 AN +5I\S1 R\NDAB\T WAY3 (T51 9 ! MID/ ( CONV]SATION ,I W\LD M5TION A NAME UNEXPECT$LY1 HOP+1 YES HOP+ ?AT ,JULIETTE W\LD BE A LITTLE PUT \T BY IT1 ?AT %E W\LD BLU%1 W\LD FEEL EMB>RASS$ & W\LD SAY3 0,YES1 ?AT'S ! ONE40 ,I ?US EXHAU/$ ! LI/ ( NAMES ( ALL ! S+]S 9 ALL ! !AT]S1 )\T GA9+ ! LEA/ EVID5CE ( P]TURBATION 9 ,JULIETTE'S IMP5ETRABLE ATTITUDE4 

,IT TOOK US ALMO/ ?REE MON?S TO 9/ALL \RSELVES COMPLETELY4 ,! UPHOL/]]S C\LD NEV] GET ?R\< ) !IR WORK & ,JULIETTE'S CAPRICES (T5 CALL$ = *ANGES ?AT TOOK A LONG TIME TO ACCOMPLI%4 ,EV]Y DAY %E W\LD COME BACK FROM H] %OPP+ ) NEW IDEAS AB\T ! DECORATION ( ! P>LOR1 OR ! DRESS+ ROOM4 ,! HANG+S 9 ! B$ROOM HAD TO BE 5TIRELY *ANG$ ?REE TIMES BECAUSE %E DID NOT LIKE !M4 

,F9ALLY ONE NICE MORN+ WE TOOK POSSESSION ( \R AP>TM5T ON ! ,RUE DE ,BALZAC4444 ,IT WAS HI< TIME WE DID4444 ,ALL ?IS UNSETTL$ EXI/5CE1 ?IS CONT9U\S HURRY1 !SE OP5 TRUNKS YAWN+ LIKE C(F9S1 ?IS BRUTAL SCATT]+ ( DE> & 9TIMATE ?+S1 !SE HEAPS ( L951 !SE PYRAMIDS ( BOXES TURN$ UPSIDE D[N1 !SE CUT-UP PIECES ( /R+ :I* DRAGG$ ALL OV]1 ALL ?IS DISORD]1 ?IS *AOS1 ?IS TRAMPL+ UND]FOOT ( ?+S ) :I* >E ASSOCIAT$ ! DE>E/ MEMORIES OR MO/ T5D] REGRETS1 & ABOVE ALL ?IS FEEL+ ( UNC]TA9TY1 ( T]ROR1 & ! SAD REFLECTIONS :I* ! ACT ( LEAV+ A PLACE OCCASIONS--ALL ?IS MADE ME UNEASY1 DEJECT$ &1 MU/ ,I SAY IT1 REMORSEFUL4 

,:ILE ,JULIETTE WAS MOV+ AB\T1 BU/L+ AMID BUNDLES1 ,I WAS ASK+ MYSELF :E!R ,I HAD NOT COMMITT$ SOME IRREP>ABLE FOLLY4 ,( C\RSE1 ,I LOV$ H]4444 ,AH6 ,I LOV$ H] ) ALL ! P[] ( MY S\L4 ,SO F>1 NO?+ EXCEPT ?IS PASSION :I* OBSESS$ ME MORE & MORE EV]Y DAY1 9T]E/$ ME AT ALL4 ,/ILL1 ,I REGRETT$ ?AT ,I HAD YIELD$ SO EASILY & QUICKLY TO AN 9FATUATION ?AT WAS P]HAPS FRAU<T ) ! GRAVE/ CONSEQU5CES = H] & MYSELF4 ,I WAS DISSATISFI$ ) MYSELF = NOT HAV+ BE5 ABLE TO RESI/ ,JULIETTE'S WI%1 EXPRESS$ 9 SU* DELICI\S FA%ION1 ?AT ,I LIVE TOGE!R ) H]4444 ,C\LD WE NOT LOVE EA* O!R JU/ AS WELL IF EA* ( US LIV$ SEP>ATELY & AVOID ! POSSIBLE CLA%ES OV] SU* SORDID ?+S AS WALL-PAP]1 = EXAMPLE4 

,& :ILE ! SPL5DOR ( ALL ?IS PLU% & ! 9SOL5CE ( ALL !SE GILT OBJECTS 9 ! MID/ ( :I* WE W]E N[ GO+ TO LIVE FRI<T5$ ME1 ,I FELT A SORR[FUL ATTA*M5T = MY [N SCANTY FURNITURE PLAC$ )\T ORD]1 = MY LITTLE AP>TM5T1 AU/]E YET TRANQUIL1 & N[ EMPTY--AN ATTA*M5T ONE HAS = BELOV$ ?+S ?AT >E DEAD4 ,BUT ,JULIETTE W\LD PASS BY1 BUSY1 AGILE & *>M+1 W\LD EMBRACE & KISS ME ON H] WAY1 & !RE WAS SU* A LIFE-GIV+ JOY 9 H] :OLE BE+1 A JOY SO EASILY M+L$ ) A/ONI%M5T & *ILDI% DESPAIR AT ANY?+ LO/1 ?AT MY MOROSE ?\<TS VANI%$ AS DO ! NI<T [LS AT SUNRISE4 

,AH6 ! HAPPY DAYS ?AT FOLL[$ \R MOV+ FROM ! ,RUE ,SA9T ,PET]SB\RG6444 ,FIR/ WE HAD TO TE/ EV]Y PIECE ( FURNITURE D[N TO ! SMALLE/ DETAILS4 ,JULIETTE SAT ON EV]Y DIVAN1 L\NGE & S(A1 CAUS+ ! SPR+S TO CREAK4 

0,Y\ TRY IT ALSO1 MY DE>10 %E W\LD SAY TO ME4 ,%E EXAM9$ EV]Y PIECE ( FURNITURE1 SCRUT9IZ$ ! HANG+S1 TRI$ ! /R+S ( ! DOOR CURTA91 MOV$ A *AIR TO A DIFF]5T PLACE1 SMOO!D A CREASE 9 ! DRAP]IES4 ,& EV]Y 9/ANT CRIES ( ADMIRATION1 ( EC/ASY W]E HE>D6 

,!N %E WANT$ TO />T ! 9SPECTION ( ! AP>TM5T ALL OV] AGA9 ) ! W9D[S CLOS$ & ! LI<TS BURN+1 9 ORD] TO SEE ! EFFECT PRODUC$ AT NI<T1 NEV] TIR+ ( EXAM9+ A ?+ MORE ?AN ONCE1 RUNN+ FROM ONE ROOM TO ANO!R1 M>K+ D[N EV]Y DEFECT ON A PIECE ( PAP]4 ,!N IT WAS ! W>DROBE :]E %E PUT H] L95 & M9E ) METICUL\S C>E & ELABORATE NICETY & ! CONSUMMATE SKILL ( A /ALL KEEP]4 ,I *ID$ H] = ASSIGN+ TO ME ! BETT] SC5TBAGS4 

0,NO6 NO6 NO6 ,I WANT TO HAVE A LITTLE HUSB& :O USES P]FUME60 

,( H] OLD FURNITURE & OLD KNICK-KNACKS1 ,JULIETTE HAD KEPT ONLY ! T]RA COTTA /ATUE ( ,LOVE :I* AGA9 TOOK ITS PLACE ( HONOR ON ! MANTELPIECE 9 ! P>LOR4 ,I1 ON ! O!R H&1 HAD BR\<T OV] ONLY MY BOOKS & TWO V]Y BEAUTIFUL SKET*ES BY ,LIRAT :I* ,I ?\<T IT A DUTY TO HANG UP 9 MY /UDY4 ,SC&ALIZ$1 ,JULIETTE CRI$ ) 9DIGNATION3 

0,:AT >E Y\ DO+ !RE1 MY DE>8444 ,SU* HORRIBLE ?+S 9 \R NEW AP>TM5T6444 ,PLEASE PUT !SE HORRIBLE ?+S AWAY SOME:]E6 ,OH1 PUT !M AWAY60 

0,MY DE> ,JULIETTE10 ,I ANSW]$ SOME:AT PROVOK$4 0,Y\ HAVE KEPT Y\R T]RA COTTA /ATUE ( ,LOVE1 NOT SO80 

0,C]TA9LY ,I HAVE4444 ,BUT :AT HAS ?AT TO DO ) ?IS8444 ,MY T]RA COTTA /ATUE IS V]Y1 V]Y LOVELY4 ,:]EAS ?AT ?+ !RE 444 :Y REALLY6444 ,& !N IT'S IMPROP]6444 ,BESIDES1 EV]Y TIME ,I LOOK AT ! PA9T+S ( ?AT FOOL ,LIRAT ,I FEEL A PA9 9 MY /OMA*40 

,BE=E ?AT ,I US$ TO HAVE ! C\RAGE ( MY >TI/IC CONVICTIONS & ,I DEF5D$ !M ) FIRE4 ,BUT N[ IT SEEM$ PU]ILE ON MY P>T TO 5GAGE 9 A DISCUSSION ( >T ) ,JULIETTE1 SO ,I CONT5T$ MYSELF ) HID+ ! PICTURES 9SIDE A PRESS )\T MU* REGRET4 

,F9ALLY ! DAY >RIV$ :5 EV]Y?+ WAS 9 ADMIRABLE ORD]2 EV]Y?+ 9 ITS PLACE1 ! SMALLE/ OBJECTS RE/+ SM>TLY ON ! TABLES1 CONSOLE TABLES1 W9D[S2 ! /&S DECORAT$ ) L>GE LEAF$ PLANTS2 ! BOOKS 9 ! LIBR>Y )9 REA*2 ,SPY 9 HIS NEW NI*E & FL[]S EV]Y:]E4444 ,NO?+ WAS MISS+1 NO?+1 NOT EV5 A ROSE1 :OSE /EM BA!D 9 A LONG ?9 GLASS VASE /&+ ON MY DESK4 ,JULIETTE WAS RADIANT1 TRIUMPHANT2 %E REPEAT$ )\T 5D3 

0,LOOK1 LOOK AGA9 H[ WELL Y\R LITTLE WIFE HAS WORK$60 

,& RE/+ H] HEAD ON MY %\LD] ) A T5D] LOOK 9 H] EYES & A G5U9ELY AGITAT$ VOICE1 %E MURMUR$3 

0,OH1 MY ADOR$ ,JEAN1 AT LA/ WE >E 9 \R [N HOME1 \R [N HOME1 JU/ ?9K ( IT6444 ,H[ HAPPY WE %ALL BE H]E1 9 \R PRETTY NE/64440 

,! NEXT MORN+ ,JULIETTE SAID TO ME3 

0,IT HAS BE5 A LONG TIME S9CE Y\ SAW ,MONSIEUR ,LIRAT4 ,I DON'T WANT HIM TO ?9K ?AT ,I KEEP Y\ FROM VISIT+ HIM40 

,IT WAS TRUE1 NEV]!LESS4 ,IT REALLY SEEM$ AS IF = ! LA/ FIVE MON?S1 ,I HAD =GOTT5 ALL AB\T POOR ,LIRAT4 ,BUT HAD ,I REALLY =GOTT5 HIM8 ,ALAS NO6444 ,%AME KEPT ME FROM GO+ TO HIM4444 ,%AME ALONE E/RANG$ ME FROM HIM4444 ,I ASSURE Y\ ?AT ,I W\LD HAVE NEV] HESITAT$ TO ANN\NCE TO ! :OLE WORLD3 0,I AM ,JULIETTE'S LOV]602 BUT ,I HAD NOT ! C\RAGE TO UTT] !SE WORDS 9 ,LIRAT'S PRES5CE4 

,AT FIR/ ,I HAD A NOTION TO CONFESS ALL TO HIM1 NO MATT] :AT HAPP5$ TO \R FRI5D%IP4444 ,I W\LD SAY TO MYSELF3 0ALL RI<T1 TOMORR[ ,I AM GO+ TO SEE ,LIRAT0 444 ,I W\LD MAKE UP MY M9D FIRMLY4444 ,& ! NEXT DAY3 0,NOT N[ 444 !RE IS NO?+ PRESS+4444 TOMORR[64440 ,TOMORR[1 ALWAYS TOMORR[6444 ,& DAYS1 WEEKS1 MON?S PASS$4444 ,TOMORR[6 

,N[ ?AT HE HAD BE5 TOLD ALL AB\T !SE ?+S BY ,MALT]RE1 :O EV5 BE=E MY DEP>TURE US$ TO COME & MAKE HIS S(A GROAN1 H[ C\LD ,I BROA* ! SUBJECT TO HIM8444 ,:AT C\LD ,I SAY TO HIM8444 ,H[ 5DURE HIS LOOK1 HIS CONTEMPT1 HIS ANG]4444 ,HIS ANG]1 P]HAPS6444 ,BUT HIS CONTEMPT1 HIS T]RIBLE SIL5CE1 ! DISCONC]T+ SNE] :I* ,I ALREADY SAW TAK+ %APE AT ! CORN] ( HIS M\?4444 ,NO1 NO1 REALLY ,I DID NOT D>E6444 ,TO TRY TO MOLLIFY HIM1 TO TAKE HIS H&1 TO ASK HIS =GIV5ESS = MY LACK ( CONFID5CE 9 HIM1 TO APPEAL TO ! G5]OSITY ( HIS HE>T6444 ,NO6 ,IT W\LD ILL BECOME ME TO ASSUME SU* A P>T1 & !N ,LIRAT ) JU/ ONE WORD C\LD ?R[ A DAMP] ON ME & /OP MY EFFUSION4444 ,:AT'S ! USE6444 ,EA* DAY ?AT PASS$ SEP>AT$ US FUR!R1 E/RANG$ US FROM EA* O!R MORE & MORE 444 A FEW MORE MON?S & !RE W\LD NO LONG] BE ANY ,LIRAT TO RECKON ) 9 MY LIFE6444 ,I %\LD PREF] ?AT RA!R ?AN CROSS HIS ?RE%OLD & FACE HIM 9 P]SON4444 ,I REPLI$ TO ,JULIETTE3 

0,LIRAT8444 ,OH YES4444 ,I ?9K ,I'LL DO ?AT SOME ( !SE DAYS60 

0,NO1 NO60 9SI/$ ,JULIETTE4444 0,TODAY6 ,Y\ KN[ HIM1 Y\ KN[ H[ MEAN HE IS4 ,GOD KN[S H[ MANY UGLY ?+S HE MU/ HAVE SAID AB\T US60 

,I HAD TO MAKE UP MY M9D TO SEE HIM4 ,FROM ! ,RUE DE ,BALZAC TO ,RODRIGUE ,PLACE IS BUT A %ORT DI/ANCE4 ,TO PO/PONE AS LONG AS POSSIBLE ! MOM5T ( ?IS PA9FUL 9T]VIEW ,I MADE A LONG DET\R ON MY WAY1 WALK+ AS F> AS ! %OP DI/RICT ( ! ,SA9T ,HONORE SUBURB4 ,& ,I WAS ?9K+ TO MYSELF3 0,SUPPOSE ,I DON'T GO TO SEE ,LIRAT AT ALL4 ,I CAN TELL H]1 :5 ,I COME BACK1 ?AT WE HAVE QU>REL$1 & ,I CAN 9V5T SOME SORT ( A /ORY ?AT WILL =EV] RELIEVE ME ( ! NECESSITY ( ?IS VISIT40 ,I FELT A%AM$ ( ?IS BOYI% ?\<T4444 ,!N ,I HOP$ ?AT ,LIRAT WAS NOT AT HOME6 ,) :AT JOY C\LD ,I !N ROLL UP MY C>D 9TO A TUBE & SLIP IT ?R\< ! KEYHOLE6 ,COM=T$ BY ?IS ?\<T ,I AT LA/ TURN$ 9 ! DIRECTION ( ,RODRIGUE ,PLACE & /OPP$ 9 FRONT ( ! DOOR ( ! /UDIO--& ?IS DOOR SEEM$ TO FILL ME ) FE>4 ,/ILL ,I RAPP$ AT IT & PRES5TLY A VOICE1 ,LIRAT'S VOICE1 CALL$3 

0,COME 960 

,MY HE>T BEAT FURI\SLY1 A B> ( FIRE /OPP$ MY ?ROAT--,I WANT$ TO FLEE4444 

0,COME 960 ! VOICE REPEAT$4 

,I TURN$ ! DOOR KNOB4 

0,AH6 ,IS ?AT Y\1 ,M9TIE10 ,LIRAT EXCLAIM$4 0,COME ON 940 

,LIRAT WAS SEAT$ AT HIS TABLE1 WRIT+ A LETT]4 

0,MAY ,I F9I% ?IS80 HE SAID TO ME4 0,JU/ TWO MORE M9UTES & ,I'LL BE ?R\<40 

,HE RESUM$ WRIT+4 ,IT WAS A RELIEF NOT TO FEEL UPON MYSELF ! *ILL ( HIS LOOK4 ,I TOOK ADVANTAGE ( ! FACT ?AT HIS BACK WAS TURN$ TO UNBURD5 MY S\L TO HIM4 

0,I HAVE NOT SE5 Y\ = SU* A LONG TIME1 MY GOOD ,LIRAT40 

0,:Y1 YES1 MY DE> ,M9TIE60 

0,I HAVE MOV$40 

0,AH1 IS ?AT SO60 

0,I LIVE ON ! ,RUE DE ,BALZAC40 

0,NICE PLACE60 

,I WAS SUFFOCAT+4444 ,I MADE A SUPREME EF=T TO GA!R ALL MY /R5G? 444 BUT BY A /RANGE AB]RATION ,I ?\<T ,I W\LD SUCCE$ BETT] BY ADOPT+ A FLIPPANT ME?OD ( APPROA*4 ,UPON MY WORD ( HONOR6 ,I RAIL$1 YES1 RAIL$ AT MYSELF4 

0,I HAVE COME TO TELL Y\ SOME NEWS :I* WILL AMUSE Y\4444 ,HA6444 ,HA6 444 :I* WILL AMUSE Y\ 444 ,I AM SURE 444 ,I 444 ,I 444 LIVE ) ,JULIETTE4444 ,HA6 444 ,HA6 444 ) ,JULIETTE ,R\X 444 ,JULIETTE1 Y\ KN[4444 ,HA6 ,HA60 

0,CONGRATULATIONS60 ,HE UTT]$ ?IS WORD 0CONGRATULATIONS0 9 A P]FECTLY CALM1 9DIFF]5T VOICE4444 ,WAS IT POSSIBLE6 ,NO HISS1 NO ANG]1 NO JUMP+ AT ME6444 ,JU/ 0,CONGRATULATIONS644440 ,AS ONE MI<T SAY3 0H[ DO Y\ EXPECT ?AT TO 9T]E/ ME80 ,& HIS BACK B5T OV] ! TABLE REMA9$ MOTIONLESS )\T /RAI<T5+ UP1 )\T /IRR+6444 ,HIS P5 DID NOT SLIP FROM HIS H&2 HE CONT9U$ TO WRITE6 ,:AT ,I TOLD HIM JU/ N[ HE HAD KN[N LONG AGO4444 ,BUT TO HE> IT \T ( MY [N M\?6444 ,I WAS /UPEFI$--& %ALL ,I CONFESS IT8--,I WAS W\ND$ BY ! FACT ?AT ! MATT] DID NOT SEEM TO AFFECT HIM AT ALL6444 ,LIRAT ROSE & RUBB+ HIS H&S3 

0,WELL6 :AT'S NEW80 HE ASK$4 

,I C\LD NOT /& IT ANY LONG]4 ,I RU%$ T[>D HIM ) TE>S 9 MY EYES4 

0,LI/5 TO ME10 ,I %\T$ SOBB+4 0,LIRAT1 = ,GOD'S SAKE1 LI/5 TO ME4444 ,I DID NOT ACT FAIRLY T[>D Y\4444 ,I KN[ IT 444 & ,I ASK Y\R =GIV5ESS4444 ,I %\LD HAVE TOLD Y\ ALL4444 ,BUT ,I DID NOT HAVE ! C\RAGE TO4444 ,Y\ FRI<T5 ME4444 ,& !N 444 Y\ REMEMB] ,JULIETTE1 ! ONE Y\ TOLD ME AB\T1 RI<T H]E 444 Y\ REMEMB] 444 %E IS ! ONE :O KEPT ME FROM DO+ ?AT4444 ,DO Y\ UND]/&80 

0,MY DE> ,M9TIE10 9T]RUPT$ ,LIRAT1 0,I DID NOT WANT Y\ TO TELL ME ANY?+4 ,I AM NEI!R Y\R FA!R NOR Y\R CONFESSOR4 ,DO :AT Y\ PLEASE1 ?AT DOES NOT CONC]N ME 9 ! LEA/40 

,I BECAME EXCIT$4 

0,Y\ >E NOT MY FA!R1 ?AT IS TRUE 444 BUT Y\ >E MY FRI5D 444 & ,I [E Y\ ALL ! CONFID5CE 9 ! WORLD4444 ,=GIVE ME6444 ,YES1 ,I LIVE ) ,JULIETTE1 & ,I LOVE H] & %E LOVES ME6444 ,IS IT A CRIME TO SEEK A LITTLE HAPP9ESS8444 ,JULIETTE IS NOT ! K9D ( A WOMAN Y\ ?\<T %E WAS 444 %E HAS BE5 CALUMNIAT$ MO/ ODI\SLY1 ,LIRAT4444 ,%E IS K9D & HONE/4444 ,OH1 DON'T SMILE 444 %E IS HONE/6444 ,%E HAS SOME *ILDI% WAYS AB\T H] ?AT W\LD T\* EV5 Y\1 ,LIRAT4 ,Y\ DON'T LIKE H] BECAUSE Y\ DON'T KN[ H]4444 ,IF Y\ ONLY KNEW H[ K9D & CONSID]ATE %E IS TO ME6 ,JULIETTE WANTS ME TO WORK4444 ,%E >D5TLY BELIEVES 9 ME1 9 MY ABILITY TO CREATE4444 ,:Y IT WAS %E :O S5T ME H]E TO SEE Y\4 ,I WAS A%AM$ & AFRAID4444 ,YES %E MADE ME DO ?AT6 ,HAVE A LITTLE CONSID]ATION = H]1 ,LIRAT4 ,LOVE H] A LITTLE1 ,I BEG ( Y\60 

,LIRAT BECAME GRAVE4 ,HE PUT HIS H& ON MY %\LD] &1 LOOK+ AT ME WI/FULLY3 

0,MY DE> *ILD60 HE SAID TO ME 9 A TREMBL+ VOICE1 0:Y DO Y\ TELL ME ALL ?AT80 

0,BECAUSE IT IS ! TRU?1 MY DE> ,LIRAT6 444 BECAUSE ,I LOVE Y\ & ,I WANT TO REMA9 Y\R FRI5D4444 ,%[ ME ?AT Y\ >E MY FRI5D NO MATT] :AT HAPP5S444 ,H]E N[1 COME TO HAVE D9N] ) US ?IS EV5+1 AS WE US$ TO 9 ! PA/1 9 MY [N H\SE4 ,OH1 PLEASE COME60 

0,NO10 HE SAID4 

,& ?IS 0NO0 WAS REL5TLESS1 F9AL1 CURT1 LIKE A GUN%OT4 

,LIRAT ADD$3 

0,BUT Y\ COME (T56444 ,& :5EV] Y\ FEEL LIKE CRY+ 444 ! S(A IS !RE 444 Y\ KN[4444 ,! TE>S ( POOR DEVILS >E QUITE KN[N TO IT40 

,:5 ! DOOR WAS %UT BEH9D ME1 IT SEEM$ ?AT SOME?+ HUGE & HEAVY HAD CLOS$ ITSELF UPON MY PA/1 ?AT WALLS HI<] ?AN ! SKY & D>K] ?AN ! NI<T HAD SEP>AT$ ME =EV] FROM MY DEC5T LIFE1 FROM MY DREAMS ( >T4 ,!RE WAS ANGUI% 9 MY :OLE BE+4444 ,= A M9UTE ,I /OOD !RE1 /UPEFI$1 ) SW++ >MS1 ) EYES 9ORD9ATELY DI/5D$1 />+ AT ?AT PROPHETIC DOOR BEH9D :I* SOME?+ HAD JU/ COME TO A CLOSE1 SOME?+ HAD JU/ DI$4 

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