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,AU?OR 3 ,OCTAVE ,MIRBEAU 

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,& AT ! SAME TIME A SMALL DRAWN OTT] SK9 BONNET APPE>$ 9 ! SLI<T OP5+ ( ! DOOR1 FOLL[$ BY TWO SMIL+ EYES UND] A VEIL1 !N A LONG FUR CAPE :I* \TL9$ ! SL5D] BODY ( A Y\NG WOMAN4 

0,I AM NOT DI/URB+ Y\8444 ,MAY ,I COME 980 

,LIRAT1 ! PA9T]1 RAIS$ HIS HEAD4 

0,AH6 IT'S Y\1 ,MADAME60 HE SAID 9 A CURT TONE1 ALMO/ IRRITAT$1 :ILE %AK+ HIS H&S SOIL$ ) PA/EL4 0,:Y1 YES1 C]TA9LY4444 ,COME RI<T 960 

,HE LEFT HIS EASEL & (F]$ A SEAT4 

0,H[ IS ,*>LES80 HE ASK$4 

0,HE IS ALL RI<T1 ?ANK Y\40 

,%E SAT D[N1 SMIL+1 & H] SMILE WAS REALLY *>M+ AS WELL AS SAD4 ,AL?\< COV]$ ) A VEIL1 H] CLE> EYES ( P9KI% BLUE1 H] V]Y L>GE EYES :I* ILLUM9AT$ H] :OLE FIGURE1 SEEM$ TO BE RADIAT+ 9F9ITE K9DNESS4444 ,%E WAS DRESS$ V]Y ELEGANTLY1 )\T /RIV+ TO BE PRET5TI\S4 ,A LITTLE OV]-P]FUM$1 H[EV]4444 ,!RE WAS A MOM5T ( SIL5CE4 

,! /UDIO ( ! PA9T] ,LIRAT1 SITUAT$ 9 A PEACEFUL SECTION ( ! ,FAUB\RG ,SA9T ,HONORE1 ON ,RODRIGUES ,SQU>E1 WAS A VA/1 B>E PLACE ) GRAY WALLS1 ) R\< C>P5TRY WORK & )\T FURNITURE4 ,LIRAT CALL$ IT FAMILI>LY 0HIS HANG>40 ,A HANG> IT WAS1 9DE$1 :]E ! NOR? W9DS BLEW & ! RA9 5T]$ ! ROOM ?R\< ! SMALL CREVICES 9 ! RO(4 ,TWO LONG TABLES ( PLA9 WOOD SUPPORT$ BOXES ( PA9T1 SCRAP BOOKS1 BLOCKS1 H&LES ( FANS1 ,JAPANESE ALBUMS1 CA/S1 A MESS ( ODD & USELESS ?+S4 ,NE> A BOOK CASE FILL$ ) OLD MAGAZ9ES 9 A CORN] !RE WAS A PILE ( PA/EBO>D1 CANVAS1 TORN SKET*ES ) ! /RET*]S /ICK+ ?R\<4 ,A %ATT]$ S(A CREAK+ ) A S\ND LIKE ?AT ( A PIANO \T ( TUNE1 :5EV] ONE TRI$ TO SIT ON IT1 TWO RICKETY >M *AIRS1 A LOOK+ GLASS )\T A FRAME--CON/ITUT$ ! ONLY LUXURY ( ! /UDIO ILLUM9$ BY TREMBL+ SUNLI<T4 ,9 ! W9T]1 ON DAYS :5 ,LIRAT HAD A MODEL POS+ = HIM 9 ! /UDIO1 HE US$ TO LI<T HIS LITTLE CA/ IRON /OVE :OSE *IMNEY1 CROOK$ 9TO SEV]AL L>GE B5DS1 SUPPORT$ BY IRON WIRE & COV]$ ) RU/1 ROSE 9 A S]P5T9E FA%ION 9 ! MIDDLE ( ! ROOM1 BE=E LOS+ ITSELF 9 ! RO( ?R\< AN OP5+1 ALL TOO L>GE4 ,ON O!R DAYS1 EV5 DUR+ ! COLDE/ NI<TS1 HE SUB/ITUT$ = ! HEAT ( ! /OVE AN OLD COAT ( A/RACAN FUR1 WORN \T1 BALD & SCABBY1 :I* HE PUT ON ) REAL PLEASURE4 

,LIRAT TOOK A *ILDI% PRIDE 9 ?IS DILAPIDAT$ /UDIO1 & HE BOA/$ ( ITS B>5ESS AS O!R PA9T]S DO ( !IR EMBROID]$ PLU% & TAPE/RIES1 9V>IABLY HI/ORICAL 9 ORIG94 ,NAY1 HE EV5 WANT$ IT TO BE /ILL LESS ATTRACTIVE1 HE WANT$ ITS FLOOR TO BE ! B>E GR\ND4 0,IT IS 9 MY /UDIO ?AT ,I LE>N :O MY BE/ FRI5DS >E10 HE W\LD (T5 SAY1 0!Y ALWAYS COME AGA91 ! O!RS /AY AWAY4 ,?AT'S V]Y CONV5I5T40 ,V]Y FEW CAME MORE ?AN ONCE4 

,! Y\NG WOMAN WAS ATTRACTIVELY SEAT$ 9 H] *AIR1 H] BU/ SLI<TLY B5T =W>D1 H] H&S BURI$ 9 H] MUFF2 FROM TIME TO TIME %E W\LD TAKE \T AN EMBROID]$ H&K]*IEF & BR+ IT SL[LY TO H] M\? :I* ,I C\LD NOT SEE BECAUSE ( ! ?ICK BORD] ( ! VEIL :I* HID IT1 BUT :I* ,I SURMIS$ WAS V]Y BEAUTIFUL1 V]Y R$ & EXQUISITELY %AP$4 ,9 H] :OLE FIGURE1 ELEGANT & REF9$1 AB\T :I*1 9 SPITE ( ! SMILE :I* R5D]$ IT SO ALLUR+1 !RE WAS AN AIR ( MODE/Y & EV5 HAU<T9ESS1 ,I C\LD DI/+UI% ONLY !SE BEAUTIFUL EYES :I* RE/$ ON OBJECTS LIKE ! RAYS ( SOME HEAV5LY />1 & ,I FOLL[$ H] GAZE :I* PASS$ FROM ! FLOOR TO ! FRAME WORK1 SO VIBRANT ) LUM9OSITY & C>ESSES4 ,! EMB>RASS+ SIL5CE CONT9U$4 ,I ?\<T ,I ALONE WAS ! CAUSE ( ?IS EMB>RASSM5T & ,I WAS GETT+ READY TO LEAVE1 :5 ,LIRAT EXCLAIM$3 

0,AH6 ,P>DON6 444 ,I HAVE =GOTT54444 ,DE> ,MADAME1 ALL[ ME TO 9TRODUCE TO Y\ MY FRI5D ,JEAN ,M9TIE40 

,%E GREET$ ME ) A GRACI\S & AT ! SAME TIME COAX+ NOD ( H] HEAD & 9 A V]Y SWEET VOICE1 :I* ?RILL$ ME DELICI\SLY1 %E SAID3 

0,I AM DELI<T$ TO MEET Y\1 ,MONSIEUR1 BUT ,I KN[ Y\ WELL40 

,:ILE V]Y MU* FLU%$1 ,I WAS /AMM]+ \T A FEW CONFUS$ & SILLY WORDS1 ,LIRAT BROKE 9 MOCK+LY3 

0,I HOPE Y\ >E NOT GO+ TO MAKE HIM BELIEVE ?AT Y\ HAVE READ HIS BOOK80 

0,I BEG Y\R P>DON1 ,MONSIEUR ,LIRAT4444 ,I HAVE READ IT4444 ,IT IS V]Y GOOD40 

0,YES1 LIKE MY /UDIO & MY PA9T+1 ISN'T ?AT RI<T80 

0,OH1 NO6 :AT A COMP>ISON60 

,%E SAID IT FRANKLY1 ) A LAU<1 :I* ROLL$ ?R\< ! ROOM LIKE ! *IRP+ ( A BIRD4 

,I DID NOT LIKE ?IS LAU<T]4 ,AL?\< IT HAD A H>D1 SONOR\S QUALITY1 IT NEV]!LESS RANG FALSE4 ,IT SEEM$ TO ME \T ( H>MONY ) ! EXPRESSION ( H] FACE1 SO DELICATELY SAD1 & !N1 9 MY ADMIRATION = ,LIRAT'S G5IUS IT HURT ME ALMO/ LIKE AN 9SULT4 ,I DO NOT KN[ :Y1 BUT IT W\LD HAVE BE5 MORE PLEAS+ TO ME IF %E HAD EXPRESS$ H] ADMIRATION = ?IS GREAT UNRECOGNIZ$ >TI/1 IF %E HAD %[N AT ?IS MOM5T A L(TI] JUDGM5T1 IF %E HAD EV9C$ A S5TIM5T SUP]IOR TO ?OSE ( O!R WOM54 ,ON ! O!R H& ! CONTEMPTU\S MANN] ( ,LIRAT1 HIS TONE ( BITT] HO/ILITY1 %OCK$ ME DEEPLY6 ,I HAD A GRUDGE AGA9/ HIM = ?IS AFFECT$ RUD5ESS1 = ?IS ATTITUDE ( BOYI% 9SOL5CE :I* L[]$ HIM 9 MY E/EEM1 ,I ?\<T4 ,I WAS DISPLEAS$ & V]Y MU* EMB>RASS$4 ,I TRI$ TO SPEAK ( 9DIFF]5T ?+S1 BUT NOT A S+LE OBJECT ( CONV]SATION CAME TO MY M9D4 

,! Y\NG WOMAN GOT UP4 ,%E WALK$ A FEW /EPS 9 ! /UDIO1 /OPP$ BE=E ! SKET*ES LY+ 9 A HEAP1 EXAM9$ ONE OR TWO ( !M ) AN AIR ( DISGU/4 

0,MY ,GOD6 ,MONSIEUR ,LIRAT10 %E SAID1 0:Y DO Y\ P]SI/ 9 PA9T+ SU* UGLY WOM51 SO COMICALLY %AP$80 

0,IF ,I %\LD TELL Y\10 ,LIRAT REPLI$1 0Y\ W\LD NOT UND]/& IT40 

0,?ANKS6444 ,& :5 WILL Y\ PA9T MY PORTRAIT80 

0,Y\ %\LD ASK ,MONSIEUR ,JACKET OR1 BETT] /ILL1 A PHOTOGRAPH] AB\T ?AT40 

0,MONSIEUR ,LIRAT80 

0,MADAME60 

0,DO Y\ KN[ :Y ,I CAME80 

0,TO OBLIGE ME ) Y\R K9DNESS1 ,I SUPPOSE40 

0,?AT'S 9 ! FIR/ PLACE6444 ,& !N80 

0,WE SEEM TO BE PLAY+ AN 9NOC5T LITTLE GAME8 ,?AT'S V]Y NICE40 

0,TO ASK Y\ TO COME TO D9E ) ME ON ,FRIDAY8 ,DO Y\ C>E TO80 

0,Y\ >E V]Y K9D1 DE> ,MADAME1 BUT ON ,FRIDAY ?AT IS JU/ :5 IT WILL BE UTT]LY IMPOSSIBLE4 ,?AT'S MY DAY AT ! ,9/ITUTE40 

0,WELL1 ( ALL ?+S6444 ,*>LES WILL BE HURT BY Y\R REFUSAL40 

0,Y\ WILL EXPRESS MY REGRETS TO HIM1 WILL Y\ NOT80 

0,WELL1 GOOD BYE1 ,MONSIEUR ,LIRAT6 ,A P]SON CAN FREEZE TO DEA? H]E40 

,& WALK+ OV] TO ME1 %E GAVE ME H] H&4 

0,MONSIEUR ,M9TIE4 ,I AM HOME EV]Y DAY1 FROM FIVE TO SEV56444 ,I %ALL BE DELI<T$ TO SEE Y\ 444 DELI<T$44440 

,I B[$ & ?ANK$ H]1 & %E W5T \T LEAV+ 9 MY E>S SOME ( ! MUSIC ( H] VOICE1 9 MY EYES SOME ( ! K9DL9ESS ( H] LOOK & 9 ! /UDIO ! /RONG P]FUME ( H] HAIR1 ( H] CAPE1 ( H] MUFF1 ( H] SMALL H&K]*IEF4 

,LIRAT RESUM$ HIS WORK )\T SAY+ A WORD2 ,I WAS TURN+ OV] ! PAGES ( A BOOK :I* ,I WAS NOT READ+ AT ALL1 & UPON ! MOV+ PAGES !RE WAS FLITT+ 9CESSANTLY BACK & =? ! IMAGE ( ! Y\NG VISITOR4 ,I C]TA9LY WAS NOT ASK+ MYSELF :AT K9D ( AN IMPRESSION ,I HAD RETA9$ ( H]1 NOR :E!R ,I HAD RETA9$ ANY IMPRESSION AT ALL2 BUT AL?\< %E W5T \T1 %E WAS NOT GONE 5TIRELY4 ,!RE WAS LEFT ) ME AN 9DEF9ITE SOME?+ ( ?IS %ORT-LIV$ APP>ITION1 SOME?+ LIKE A HAZE :I* ASSUM$ H] =M 9 :I* ,I C\LD MAKE \T ! %APE ( H] HEAD1 ! TURN ( ! BACK ( H] NECK1 ! MOVEM5T ( H] %\LD]S1 ! GRACEFUL CURVE ( H] WAI/L9E1 & ?AT SOME?+ HAUNT$ ME4444 ,I /ILL BEHELD H] 9 ?AT *AIR :I* %E HAD JU/ LEFT1 UNFA?OMABLE & MORE *>M+ ?AN EV]1 ) H] T5D] & LUM9\S SMILE :I* RADIAT$ FROM H] & CREAT$ A HALO ( LOVE AB\T H]4 

0,:O IS ?AT WOMAN80 ,I SUDD5LY ASK$1 9 A TONE :I* ,I =C$ MYSELF TO R5D] 9DIFF]5T4 

0,:AT WOMAN80 SAID ,LIRAT4 

0,:Y1 ! ONE ?AT HAS JU/ LEFT40 

0,AH6 ,YES 444MY ,GOD6 ,A WOMAN JU/ LIKE O!RS40 

0,I %\LD ?9K SO4444 ,?IS DOES NOT TELL ME H] NAME1 H[EV]1 NOR :O %E IS40 

,LIRAT WAS RUMMAG+ 9 HIS PA9T BOX4 ,HE ANSW]$ C>ELESSLY3 

0,& SO Y\ WANT TO KN[ ! NAME ( ?AT WOMAN4444 ,/RANGE CURIOSITY6444 ,H] NAME IS ,JULIETTE ,R\X4444 ,AS = BIOGRAPHICAL 9=MATION1 ! POLICE CAN FURNI% Y\ ALL Y\ WANT1 ,I IMAG9E4444 ,I PRESUME ?AT ,JULIETTE ,R\X GETS UP LATE1 ?AT %E HAS H] =TUNE TOLD BY C>DS1 ?AT %E IS DECEIV+ & RU9+ AS WELL AS %E CAN ?AT POOR ,*>LES ,MALT]RE1 AN EXCELL5T *AP :OM Y\ MET H]E SOMETIME AGO1 & :OSE MI/RESS %E IS1 = ! TIME BE+4444 ,LA/LY1 %E IS LIKE O!R WOM51 ONLY ) ?IS DIFF]5CE1 :I* MAKES H] CASE WORSE3 %E IS MORE BEAUTIFUL ?AN MO/ ( !M & CONSEQU5TLY MORE FOOLI% & MORE MALICI\S4444 ,?AT S(A !RE1 ?AT Y\ >E SITT+ ON 444 IT WAS ,*>LES :O BROKE IT BY LY+ & CRY+ ON IT = 5TIRE DAYS1 :ILE TELL+ ME HIS TR\BLES1 Y\ UND]/&8 ,ONE DAY HE CAU<T H] ) A CR\PI] ( A GAMBL+ CLUB1 ON ANO!R DAY ) A BUFFOON AT ! ,B\FFES !AT]4 

0,!RE WAS ALSO AN AFFAIR ) ! WRE/L] ( ,NEUILLY1 TO :OM %E GAVE TW5TY FRANCS & ,*>LES' OLD TR\S]S4 ,AS Y\ SEE1 IT'S FULL ( IDYLS4444 ,I LIKE ,MALT]RE V]Y MU* 444 BECAUSE HE IS GOOD-NATUR$ & HIS LACK ( S5SE EVOKES MY PITY4444 ,HE REALLY HAS MY SYMPA?Y4444 ,BUT :AT CAN ONE SAY TO SU* M51 TO :OM LOVE IS ! GREATE/ ?+ 9 LIFE & :O CAN'T SEE A WOMAN'S BACK )\T TACK+ ON TO IT W+S ( DREAMS & S5D+ IT FLY+ TO ! />S4444 ,NO?+1 ISN'T ?AT TRUE8444 ,SO MU* SO ?AT ! UN=TUNATE FELL[1 9 ! MID/ ( HIS RAGE & SOBS1 C\LD BRAG AB\T ! FACT ?AT ,JULIETTE HAD RECEIV$ A GOOD $UCATION4 ,HE US$ TO TAKE PRIDE 9 ! FACT ?AT %E CAME FROM ! WOMB ( A PHYSICIAN'S WIFE & NOT FROM ?AT ( ! WIFE ( A JANITOR1 & HE W\LD %[ ME H] LETT]S1 EMPHASIZ+ ! CORRECT SPELL+ & ! ELEGANT TURN ( PHRASES6444 ,HE SEEM$ TO SAY3 ',H[ ,I SUFF]1 BUT H[ WELL WRITT5 ?IS IS6'444 ,:AT A PITY60 

0,AH6 ,Y\1 TOO1 LOVE ! WOMAN60 ,I EXCLAIM$1 :5 HE F9I%$ HIS TIRADE4 

,& FOOLI%LY1 ,I ADD$3 

0,!Y SAY Y\ HAVE SUFF]$ MU*40 

,LIRAT %RUGG$ HIS %\LD]S & SMIL$3 

0,Y\ TALK LIKE ,DELAUNEY1 ( ! ,COM$IE-,FRANCAISE4 ,NO1 NO1 MY K9D FRI5D1 ,I HAVE NOT SUFF]$2 ,I HAVE SE5 O!RS SUFF]1 & ?AT WAS 5\< = ME 444 DO Y\ UND]/&80 

,SUDD5LY HIS VOICE BECAME %RILL1 AN ALMO/ CRUEL LI<T %ONE 9 HIS EYES4 ,HE RESUM$3 

0,ORD9>Y PEOPLE1 POOR DEVILS LIKE ,*>LES ,MALT]RE1 :5 /EPP$ UPON1 >E CRU%$1 !Y DISAPPE> 9 ! BLOOD1 9 ! MIRE1 9 ! ATROCI\S FIL? /IRR$ UP BY WOMAN'S H&S 444 ?AT'S UN=TUNATE ( C\RSE4444 ,HUMANITY1 H[EV]1 DOES NOT CLAIM !M BACK2 = NO?+ HAS BE5 /OL5 FROM IT4444 ,BUT >TI/S1 M5 ( \R CALIB] ) BIG HE>TS & BIG BRA9S1--:5 !SE >E LO/1 /RANGL$1 KILL$6444 ,Y\ UND]/&80 

,HIS H& TREMBL$1 HE CRU%$ HIS CRAYON ON ! CANVAS4 

0,I HAVE KN[N ?REE ( !M1 ?REE WOND]FUL1 DIV9E ONES2 TWO DI$ BY HANG+ !MSELVES2 ! ?IRD ONE1 MY TEA*]1 IS 9 A PADD$ D>K ROOM AT ,BICETRE6444 ,( ?IS PURE G5IUS !RE HAS BE5 LEFT ONLY A LUMP ( WAN FLE%1 A SORT ( RAV+ BEA/ :O GRIMACES & HURLS HIMSELF AT Y\ ) FRO? AT HIS M\?6444 ,& 9 ?IS CR[D ( CA/(FS1 H[ MANY Y\NG HOPES HAVE P]I%$ 9 ! GRASP ( ! BEA/ ( PREY6 ,C\NT !M UP1 ALL !SE LAM5TABLE1 BEWILD]$1 MAIM$ PEOPLE2 ?OSE :O HAD W+S & :O >E N[ CRAWL+ ON ALL F\RS2 ?OSE :O SCRAPE ! E>? ) !IR NAILS & FE$ ON !IR [N EXCREM5TS6 ,:Y1 Y\ Y\RSELF 444 A M9UTE AGO LOOK$ AT ,JULIETTE ) EC/ASY 444 Y\ W]E READY TO DO ANY?+ = A KISS FROM H]4444 ,DON'T D5Y IT1 ,I SAW Y\4444 ,OH6 WELL1 LET'S GO \T2 ?AT'S 5\<1 ,I CAN'T WORK ANY MORE40 

,HE >OSE & PAC$ ACROSS ! /UDIO 9 AGITATION4 ,GE/ICULAT+ & ANGRY1 HE UPSET ! *AIRS & PA/E-BO>DS1 RIPP$ SOME ( HIS SKET*ES ) A KICK4 ,I ?\<T HE WAS GO+ MAD4 ,HIS BLOOD%OT EYES ROLL$ WILDLY2 HE WAS PALE1 & ! WORDS W]E COM+ \T ( HIS DRAWN-UP M\? 9 A VIOL5T JUMBLE4 

0,= M5 TO BE BORN ( WOMAN 444 M56444 ,H[ IRRATIONAL6 ,= M5 TO BE CONCEIV$ 9 AN IMPURE WOMB6444 ,= M5 TO GORGE !MSELVES ) WOMAN'S VICES1 ) H] IMBECILE1 F]OCI\S APPETITES1 TO HAVE SUCK$ ! SAP ( LIFE FROM H] NEF>I\S BREA/S6 ,MO!R6444 ,AH6 YES1 MO!R6444 ,DIV9IZ$ MO!R1 EH8 ,MO!R :O CREATES US1 SICK & WA/$ RACE ?AT WE >E1 :O /IFLES ! MAN 9 ! *ILD & HURLS US NAILLESS & TOO?LESS1 /UPID & TAM$1 UPON ! B$/EAD ( A MI/RESS & ! NUPTIAL B$64440 

,LIRAT /OPP$ = A MOM5T2 HE WAS *OK+4 ,!N1 BR++ HIS H&S TOGE!R & KNOTT+ HIS CRISP F+]S 9 ! AIR1 AS IF GRIPP+ AN IMAG9>Y NECK1 HE %\T$ MADLY1 T]RIBLY3 

0,?IS IS :AT %\LD BE DONE ) !M1 ALL ( !M1 ALL ( !M6444,DO Y\ UND]/&8 444 EH 444 TELL ME8444 ,ALL ( !M64440 

,& HE BEGAN PAC+ BACK & =? AGA91 SWE>+1 /AMP+ HIS FEET4 ,BUT ! LA/ %\T ( ANG] HAD EVID5TLY RELIEV$ HIM4 

0,COME N[1 MY DE> ,LIRAT1 CALM Y\RSELF10 ,I SAID TO HIM4 0,:AT'S ! USE ( GETT+ EXCIT$1 & OV] :AT1 ,I ASK Y\8 ,COME N[1 Y\ >E NOT A WOMAN40 

0,?AT'S TRUE1 TOO1 BUT Y\ PROVOK$ ME ) ?IS ,JULIETTE4444 ,H[ DOES ?IS ,JULIETTE CONC]N Y\ ANYWAY80 

0,WAS IT NOT NATURAL ON MY P>T TO WANT TO KN[ ! NAME ( ! P]SON TO :OM Y\ HAD 9TRODUC$ ME8444 ,& !N1 FRANKLY1 P5D+ ! 9V5TION ( SOME O!R MA*9E ?AN WOMAN = BRE$+ *ILDR5 4440 

0,P5D+ ?AT444 ,I AM A BRUTE10 9T]RUPT$ ,LIRAT1 :O AGA9 SEAT$ HIMSELF BE=E HIS EASEL1 A LITTLE A%AM$ ( HIMSELF1 & 9 A QUIET VOICE ASK$3 

0,DE> LITTLE ,M9TIE1 W\LD Y\ M9D SITT+ = ME A LITTLE4 ,?AT WON'T BORE Y\1 WILL IT8 ,= ONLY T5 M9UTES40 

,JOSEPH ,LIRAT WAS =TY-TWO YE>S OLD4 ,I MADE HIS ACQUA9TANCE CASUALLY ONE EV5+2 ,I NO LONG] REMEMB] :]E IT WAS1 & ?\< HE HAD ! REPUTATION ( BE+ A MISAN?ROPE1 UNSOCIABLE & SPITEFUL1 ,I 9/ANTLY TOOK A FANCY TO HIM4 ,IS IT NOT PA9FUL TO ?9K ?AT \R DEEPE/ FRI5D%IPS1 :I* \<T TO BE ! RESULT ( A LONG PROCESS ( SELECTION1 ?AT ! GRAVE/ EV5TS 9 \R LIFE :I* %\LD BE BR\<T AB\T BY A LOGICAL *A9 ( CAUSES1 >E = ! MO/ P>T1 ! 9/ANT RESULT ( *ANCE8444 ,Y\ >E AT HOME 9 Y\R /UDY1 TRANQUILLY ABSORB$ 9 A BOOK4 ,\TSIDE ! SKY IS GRAY1 ! AIR IS COLD3 IT IS RA9+1 ! W9D IS BL[+1 ! /REET IS GLOOMY & DIRTY1 !RE=E Y\ HAVE EV]Y GOOD REASON 9 ! WORLD NOT TO /IR FROM Y\R *AIR4444 ,YET Y\ GO \T1 DRIV5 BY WE>9ESS1 BY IDL5ESS1 BY SOME?+ Y\ Y\RSELF DON'T KN[--BY NO?+1 444 & !N AT ! 5D ( A HUNDR$ /EPS1 Y\ MEET ! MAN1 ! WOMAN1 ! C>RIAGE1 ! /ONE1 ! ORANGE PEEL1 ! MUD PUDDLE :I* UPSETS Y\R :OLE EXI/5CE FROM TOP TO BOTTOM4 

,9 ! MID/ ( ! MO/ SORR[FUL ( MY EXP]I5CES ,I US$ TO ?9K ( !SE ?+S1 & (T5 ,I W\LD SAY TO MYSELF--) :AT BITT] REGRETS6--0,IF ON ! EV5+ :5 ,I MET ,LIRAT1 9 ! =GOTT5 PLACE :]E ,I C]TA9LY HAD NO?+ TO DO1 ,I HAD BUT /AY$ AT HOME & WORK$ OR DREAM$ OR SLEPT1 ,I W\LD HAVE BE5 TODAY ! HAPPIE/ MAN ON E>? & !RE W\LD HAVE HAPP5$ TO ME NONE ( ! ?+S :I* DID HAPP5 TO ME40 ,& ?AT MOM5T ( TRIVIAL HESITANCY1 ! MOM5T :5 ,I WAS ASK+ MYSELF3 0,%ALL ,I GO \T OR %ALL ,I NOT810 ?AT MOM5T EMBRAC$ ! MO/ IMPORTANT ACT 9 MY LIFE2 MY :OLE DE/9Y WAS DET]M9$ 9 ! BRIEF SPACE ( TIME :I* 9 MY MEMORY LEFT NO MORE TRACE ?AN A GU/ ( W9D1 :I* BL[S D[N A H\SE OR UPROOTS AN OAK TREE1 LEAVES UPON ! SKIES6 ,I RECALL ! MO/ 9SIGNIFICANT DETAILS ( MY LIFE4 ,= EXAMPLE1 ,I REMEMB] ! BLUE VELVET SUIT1 LAC$ 9 FRONT1 :I* ,I WORE ON ,SUNDAY1 :5 ,I WAS V]Y LITTLE4 ,I CAN SWE>1 YES ,I CAN SWE>1 ?AT ,I C\LD C\NT ! GREASE SPOTS ON ! HABIT ( CURE ,BLAN*ETI]E OR EV5 ! NUMB] ( TOBACCO GRA9S HE US$ TO DROP :ILE SNUFF+ UP HIS P9* ( SNUFF4 

,IT SEEMS A S5SELESS & YET DISQUIET+ ?+3 V]Y (T5 :5 ,I CRY1 OR LOOK AT ! SEA OR EV5 WAT* ! SUNSET UPON AN 5*ANT$ FIELD--,I CAN /ILL SEE BY ?AT ODI\S FREAK ( IRONY :I* IS AT ! BOTTOM ( \R IDEALS1 \R DREAMS & \R SUFF]+S--,I CAN /ILL SEE UPON ! NOSE ( AN OLD GU>D WE HAD1 FA!R ,LEJ>S1 A BIG TUMOR1 GRUM\S & FUNNY ) ITS F\R HAIR FILAM5TS :I* PROV$ AN EXCELL5T ATTRACTION = FLIES4444 ,:]EAS ! MOM5T :I* DECID$ MY LIFE1 :I* CO/ ME MY PEACE1 MY HONOR1 & R$UC$ ME TO ! POSITION ( A SCABBY DOG2 ?IS MOM5T :I* ,I PASSIONATELY WI% TO RECON/RUCT1 TO BR+ BACK AGA9 TO MEMORY ) ! AID ( PHYSICAL REM9D]S & M5TAL ASSOCIATIONS--?IS MOM5T ,I CANNOT RECALL4 ,?US IT IS ?AT 9 ! C\RSE ( MY LIFE !RE HAPP5$ A TREM5D\S1 A S+UL> EV5T1 S9CE ALL ! SUBSEQU5T OCCURR5CES FL[ FROM IT1 & YET ! RECOLLECTION ( IT ESCAPES ME 5TIRELY6444 ,I REMEMB] NEI!R ! OCCASION1 NOR ! PLACE1 NOR ! CIRCUM/ANCES1 NOR ! IMM$IATE CAUSE ( ?AT EV5T4444 ,:AT DO ,I KN[ !N AB\T MYSELF8444 ,:AT DO PEOPLE 9 G5]AL KN[ AB\T !MSELVES1 :5 !Y >E HOPELESSLY UNABLE TO TRACE ! S\RCES ( !IR ACTIONS8 ,NO?+1 NO?+1 NO?+6 ,& MU/ ONE EXPLA9 ! 5IGMAS :I* \R M5TAL PH5OM5A & ! MANIFE/ATION ( \R SO-CALL$ WILL REPRES5T1 BY ! PROMPT+S ( ?IS BL9D MY/]I\S =CE1 ! FATALITY ( HUMAN NATURE8444 ,?AT IS NOT SPEAK+ TO ! PO9T1 H[EV]4 

,I SAID ?AT ,I HAD MET ,LIRAT ONE EV5+ BY ACCID5T1 9 A PLACE ,I DON'T REMEMB] & ?AT 9/ANTLY ,I TOOK A FANCY TO HIM4444 ,HE WAS ! MO/ ORIG9AL ( M54444 ,) HIS =BIDD+ APPE>ANCE1 HIS MA*9E-LIKE & MAGI/]IAL /IFFNESS & HIS AIR ( A PETTY (FICIAL1 HE AT FIR/ MADE ! IMPRESSION ( A TYPICAL FUNCTION>Y1 ( SOME ORLEANI/ PUPPET SU* AS >E MANUFACTUR$ 9 ! POLITICIANS' CLUBS & DRAW+ ROOMS = ! PUN* & JUDY %[ ( P>LIAM5TS & ACADEMIES4 ,FROM A DI/ANCE1 HE POSITIVELY LOOK$ LIKE ONE :O IS 9 ! HABIT ( DI/RIBUT+ DECORATIONS1 EXCIZE (FICES & PRIZES = VALOR6 ,?IS IMPRESSION1 H[EV]1 QUICKLY DISAPPE>$2 = ?IS IT WAS SUFFICI5T TO LI/51 IF ONLY = FIVE M9UTES1 TO HIS CONV]SATION1 LUCID1 COLORFUL1 BRI/L+ ) ORIG9AL IDEAS1 & ABOVE ALL TO FEEL ! P[] ( HIS GLANCE1 HIS EXTRAORD9>Y GLANCE1 EXHIL>AT$ & COLD AT ! SAME TIME1 A GLANCE TO :I* ALL ?+S SEEM$ FAMILI>1 :I* W5T ?R\< Y\ LIKE A GIMLET AGA9/ Y\R WILL4 

,I LIK$ HIM V]Y MU*1 ONLY 9 MY LIK+ = HIM !RE WAS LACK+ ! ELEM5T ( T5D]NESS1 ( K9DL9ESS2 ,I LIK$ HIM ) A SORT ( FE> & UNEAS9ESS1 ) A PA9FUL FEEL+ ?AT 9 HIS PRES5CE ,I DID NOT AM\NT TO MU* & ?AT ,I WAS ECLIPS$1 SO TO SPEAK1 BY ! GR&EUR ( HIS G5IUS4444 ,I LIK$ HIM AS ONE LIKES ! SEA1 ! TEMPE/1 AS ONE LIKES SOME IMM5SE =CE ( NATURE4 ,LIRAT 9SPIR$ ME ) FE>1 HIS PRES5CE P>ALYZ$ :AT LITTLE 9TELLECTUAL P[]S !RE W]E 9 ME1 = ,I WAS ALWAYS AFRAID ?AT ,I MI<T SAY SOME?+ FOOLI% AT :I* HE W\LD JE]4 ,HE WAS SO SEV]E1 SO REL5TLESS TO EV]YBODY2 HE KNEW SO WELL H[ TO DISCOV]1 TO REVEAL ! RIDICUL\S SIDE 9 >TI/S1 9 WRIT]S :OM ,I CONSID]$ SUP]IOR TO MYSELF1 & TO *>ACT]IZE !M BY SOME APT REM>K UN=GETTABLE & FI]CE1 ?AT 9 HIS PRES5CE ,I F\ND MYSELF 9 A /ATE ( CON/ANT MI/RU/1 ( EV] PRES5T DISQUIETUDE4 ,I ALWAYS ASK$ MYSELF3 0,:AT DOES HE ?9K ( ME8 ,:AT SCORNFUL ?\<TS DO ,I 9SPIRE 9 HIM80 

,I HAD ?AT FEM99E CURIOSITY :I* OBSESS$ ME TO KN[ :AT OP9ION HE HAD ( ME4 ,BY MEANS ( DI/ANT ALLUSIONS1 ABSURD AFFECTIONS OR HYPOCRITICAL CIRCUMLOCUTIONS1 ,I W\LD SOMETIMES TRY TO SURPRISE OR PROVOKE HIM 9TO FRANKNESS1 & ,I SUFF]$ EV5 MORE :5 HE DEIGN$ TO PAY ME A CURT COMPLIM5T1 AS ONE :O ?R[S A FEW P5NIES TO A PAUP] :OM ONE WI%ES TO BE RID (2 AT LEA/1 ?AT IS :AT ,I IMAG9$4 ,9 A WORD1 ,I LIK$ HIM V]Y MU*1 ,I ASSURE Y\2 ,I WAS V]Y MU* DEVOT$ TO HIM1 BUT 9 ?IS AFFECTION & 9 ?IS DEVOTION !RE WAS AN ELEM5T ( UNC]TA9TY1 :I* DE/ROY$ ! *>M ( ?OSE FEEL+S2 !RE WAS ALSO A C]TA9 GRUDGE :I* R5D]$ ?OSE FEEL+S ALMO/ PA9FUL1 A GRUDGE CAUS$ BY ! S5SE ( MY 9F]IORITY4 ,NEV]1 NOT EV5 :5 ,I WAS MO/ 9TIMATE ) HIM1 WAS ,I ABLE TO CONQU] ?AT FEEL+ ( BASE & TIMID PRIDE1 NEV] C\LD ,I 5JOY A FRI5D%IP :I* ,I PRIZ$ V]Y HI<LY4 ,LIRAT1 ON ! O!R H&1 WAS SIMPLE 9 HIS RELATIONS ) ME1 (T5 AFFECTIONATE1 SOMETIMES 0FA!RLY0 9 HIS ATT5TIONS1 & ( ALL HIS FRI5DS1 :O W]E V]Y FEW 9 NUMB]1 ,I WAS ! ONLY ONE :OSE COMPANION%IP HE S\<T4 

,LIKE ALL ?OSE :O HOLD TRADITION 9 CONTEMPT1 LIKE ALL :O REBEL AGA9/ ! PREJUDICES ( CONV5TIONAL $UCATION1 AGA9/ ! IDIOTIC =MULAS ( ! ,S*OOL1 ,LIRAT WAS V]Y MU* DISCUSS$2 SPOK5 ( ) CONTEMPT--,I %\LD RA!R SAY4 ,IT MU/ BE /AT$ ALSO ?AT HIS CONCEPTION ( FREE & L(TY >T CONFLICT$ ) ALL ! PR(ESS$ CONV5TIONS & ACCEPT$ IDEAS1 & ?AT BY !IR =CEFUL SYN!SIS & PRODIGI\S KN[L$GE ( LIFE :I* OBSCUR$ HIS CRAFTSMAN%IP1 HIS WORKS ( >T DISCONC]T$ ! LOV]S ( PRETT9ESS & GRACE & ( ! FRIGID CORRECTNESS ( ACADEMIC UNITY4 ,! RETURN ( MOD]N PA9T+ TO ! GREAT GO?IC >T--?IS !Y C\LD NEV] =GIVE HIM4 

,HE FA%ION$ ! MAN ( TODAY 9 HIS CRAV+ = 5JOYM5T1 A FRI<TFULLY TORTUR$ S\L ) A BODY SAPP$ BY NEUROSIS1 ) FLE% TORM5T$ BY LU/1 :I* QUIV]S UND] ! 9FLU5CE ( PASSION ?AT LURES MAN ON & S9KS ITS CLAWS 9TO HIS SK94 ,9 HIS REPRES5TATIONS ( ! HUMAN BODY WR\<T 9 AV5G+ PO/URES1 ) MON/R\S APOPHYSES GUESS$ AT UND] ! G>M5TS1 !RE WAS SU* HUMAN EMPHASIS1 SU* GRIEF OV] 9F]NAL VOLUPTU\SNESS1 SU* TRAGIC P[]1 ?AT A %UDD] PASS$ ?R\< ONE'S FRAME :5 LOOK+ AT !M4 ,IT WAS NO LONG] CURLY HEAD$1 POMAD$ LOVE1 ADORN$ ) RIBBONS & FA9T+ ) YE>N+1 ROSE 9 M\?1 BY ! LI<T ( ! MOON1 OR /RUMM+ ON A GUIT> UND] ! BALCONY2 IT WAS ,LOVE BESMIR*$ ) BLOOD1 DRUNK ) ! FIL? ( VICE1 ,LOVE ) ITS ONANI/IC FURIES1 WRET*$ ,LOVE :I* FA/5S UPON MAN ITS M\? LIKE A CUPP+ GLASS & DRA9S HIS VE9S1 SUCKS ! M>R[ ( HIS BONES & EMACIATES HIS FRAME4 ,& 9 ORD] TO GIVE !SE REPRES5TATIONS A /ILL GREAT] 9T5SITY ( HORROR1 TO WEI< !M D[N ) ! BURD5 ( EV5 GREAT] AFFLICTION1 HE CA/ !M 9 ! MID/ ( PEACEFUL1 SMIL+ SURR\ND+S ( SURPASS+ CLE>NESS1 AMONG P9K & BLUE L&SCAPES ) S(T5$ VI/AS1 AMID GLORI\S SUN%9E1 ) ! RADIANT SEA 9 ! BACKGR\ND4 ,ALL >\ND !M NATURE WAS RESPL5D5T ) ALL ! MAGIC ( H] DELICATE & *ANG+ COLORS4 

,:5 = ! FIR/ TIME HE CONS5T$ TO PLACE HIS WORKS ON A FREE EXHIBIT1 TOGE!R ) A GR\P ( FRI5DS1 ! CRITICS & ! MOB1 :I* 9FLU5CES ! CRITICS1 %\T$ ) 9DIGNATION4 ,BUT ! ANG] DID NOT LA/ V]Y LONG--= !RE IS A SORT ( NOBILITY1 OR G5]OSITY 9 ANG]--& !Y M]ELY CONT5T$ !MSELVES ) LAU<+4 ,!N ! HUMBUG :I* IS ALWAYS REPRES5T$ BY M$IOCRE OP9ION ) ITS F\L SPITTLE1 ?IS HUMBUG CAME TO REPLACE ! M5ACE ( RAIS$ FI/S4 ,& VIEW+ ! SUP]B >TI/RY ( ,LIRAT1 !Y W]E CONVULS$ ) LAU<T]1 HOLD+ !IR SIDES ) BO? H&S4 ,CLEV]1 M]RY-MAK+ PEOPLE DEPOSIT$ P5NIES ON ! $GE ( ! FRAMES AS ONE DOES = A ,JACK-9-!-BOX1 & ?IS WAS CONSID]$ EXCELL5T SPORT--= IT ACTUALLY BECAME A SPORT = PEOPLE ( ! BETT] SORT1 ) PURSES4 

,9 ! MAGAZ9ES1 9 ! /UDIOS1 9 ! SALONS1 9 ! CLUBS & ! CAFES ! NAME ( ,LIRAT S]V$ AS A T]M ( COMP>ISON1 AS AN 9DISP5SABLE /&>D :5EV] ONE WANT$ TO DESIGNATE SOME?+ DEVOID ( S5SE OR SOME SORT ( OBSC5ITY2 IT EV5 SEEM$ AS IF WOM5--& GIRLS TOO--C\LD NOT PRON\NCE ?AT REPROBATE NAME )\T BLU%+4 ,! YE>-5D REVIEWS DRAGG$ IT 9TO !IR REVOLT+ LAMPOONS1 PEOPLE SANG IT AT ! CAB>ETS4 ,!N FROM !SE 0C5T]S ( ,P>ISIAN CULTURE0 IT SPREAD TO ! /REET--:]E ONE SAW IT BLOSSOM =? AGA9 9TO A VULG> BUD1 UPON ! SLOPPY LIPS ( DRIV]S1 9 ! %RIVEL$ M\?S ( /REET BOYS1 0,IT'S A GO1 EH6 ,LIRAT60 ,= A FEW YE>S POOR ,LIRAT REALLY 5JOY$ AN UPRO>I\S POPUL>ITY4444 ,BUT ONE GETS TIR$ ( EV]Y?+1 EV5 ( ABUS+ A P]SON4 ,P>IS AB&ONS ITS PUPPETS :I* IT RAISES TO ! ?RONE AS QUICKLY AS IT DOES ITS M>TYRS :OM IT HOI/S ON ! GIBBET2 9 ITS P]PETUAL HUNG] = NEW PLAY?+S1 IT NEV] GETS ITSELF EXCIT$ OV]LY MU* BE=E ! /ATUES ( ITS H]OES OR AT ! SI<T ( ! BLOOD ( ITS VICTIMS4 

,N[ !RE WAS ONLY SIL5CE = ,LIRAT'S PORTION4 ,IT WAS V]Y SELDOM 9DE$ ?AT 9 SOME ( ! MAGAZ9ES !RE WAS AGA9 HE>D AN E*O ( ! PA/1 9 ! =M ( SOME ANNOY+ ANECDOTE4 ,BESIDES1 HE DECID$ NOT TO EXHIBIT ANY MORE1 SAY+3 

0,LEAVE ME ALONE 9 PEACE6444 ,IS PA9T+ DONE TO BE SE5 444 TELL ME 444 PA9T+ 444 DO Y\ UND]/&8444 ,ONE WORKS = HIMSELF1 = TWO OR ?REE LIV+ FRI5DS & = O!RS :OM ONE HAS NEV] KN[N & :O >E DEAD 444 ,PE1 ,BAUDELAIRE1 ,DO/OIEWSKY1 ,%AKESPE>E4444 ,%AKESPE>E6 444 DO Y\ UND]/&84444 ,& ! RE/8444 ,! RE/ DON'T AM\NT TO ANY?+40 

,HAV+ R$UC$ HIS NE$S TO A M9IMUM1 HE LIV$ ON LITTLE ) ADMIRABLE & T\*+ DIGNITY4 ,PROVID$ HE E>N$ 5\< ) :I* TO BUY HIS BRU%ES1 PA9TS1 CANVAS1 PAY HIS MODELS & HIS L&LORD1 MAKE A /UDY+ TRIP EA* YE>1 HE DID NOT WI% = MORE4 ,MONEY DID NOT TEMPT HIM AT ALL1 & ,I AM SURE ?AT HE NEV] S\<T SUCCESS4 ,BUT IF SUCCESS HAD COME TO HIM1 ,I AM ALSO SURE ?AT ,LIRAT W\LD NOT HAVE RESI/$ ! JOY1 SO HUMAN1 ( RELI%+ FACTITI\S DELI<TS4 ,?\< HE DID NOT WANT TO ADMIT IT1 ?\< HE AFFECT$ TO DEFY 9JU/ICE GAILY1 HE FELT IT MORE KE5LY ?AN ANYONE ELSE1 & AT HE>T SUFF]$ FROM IT CRUELLY4 ,HE SUFF]$ FROM ! PRES5T NEGLECT %[N TO HIM AS MU* AS HE HAD SUFF]$ FROM ! =M] 9SULTS4 ,ONLY ONCE DID A Y\NG CRITIC PUBLI% AN 5?USIA/IC & HI<-S\ND+ >TICLE AB\T HIM 9 A MAGAZ9E4 ,! >TICLE WAS WELL-MEANT BUT FULL ( BANALITIES & ]RORS2 ONE C\LD SEE ?AT ITS AU?OR WAS NOT SUFFICI5TLY FAMILI> ) >T & ?AT HE DID NOT UND]/& ANY?+ AB\T ! TAL5T ( ! GREAT >TI/4 

0,HAVE Y\ READ IT80 ,LIRAT %\T$1 0HAVE Y\ READ IT1 EH1 TELL ME8444 ,:AT IDIOTS !SE CRITICS >E6444 ,IF !Y KEEP ON TALK+ AB\T ME1 !Y WILL F9ALLY =CE ME TO PA9T 9 A CAVE1 UND]/&8444 ,:AT DO !Y TAKE ME = ANYWAY--A VULG>IZ]8444 ,& !N :AT BUS9ESS IS IT ( ?IS FELL[ H]E--:E!R ,I MAKE PA9T+S1 BOOTS OR SLIPP]S8444 ,?AT'S MY PRIVATE AFFAIR60 

,NEV]!LESS HE HAD PUT IT AWAY 9 A DRAW] AS A ?+ ( GREAT VALUE1 & SEV]AL TIMES ,I SURPRIS$ HIM READ+ IT4 ,IT WAS V]Y WELL = HIM TO SAY ) SUPREME DETA*M5T1 :5 WE W]E 9VEI<+ AGA9/ ! /UPIDITY ( ! PUBLIC3 0,WELL1 :AT W\LD Y\ WANT !M TO DO8444 ,DO Y\ EXPECT ! PEOPLE TO />T A REVOLUTION BECAUSE ,I PA9T MY CANVASES PLA9LY80 ,BUT 9 REALITY ?IS CONTEMPT = NOTORIETY1 ?IS APP>5T RESIGNATION CONCEAL$ DEEP BUT SECRET S5TIM5T4 ,DEEP 9 HIS V]Y S5SITIVE & V]Y G5]\S S\L !RE ACCUMULAT$ PR(\ND AV]SIONS1 :I* W]E V5T$ ) T]RIBLE & MALIGNANT F]VOR ON ! :OLE WORLD4 ,IF1 ON ! ONE H&1 HIS TAL5T HAD GA9$ 9 /R5G? & RUGG$NESS ON ACC\NT ( ?IS1 HIS *>ACT]1 ON ! O!R H&1 HAD LO/ SOME?+ ( ITS 9H]5T NOBILITY1 & HIS CRITICAL SPIRIT HAD BE5 DEPRIV$ ( SOME ( ITS P5ETRAT+ QUALITY & BRILLIANCE4 

,HE 5D$ BY GIV+ HIMSELF OV] 5TIRELY TO DECRY+ EV]YBODY & EV]Y?+1 ! EXCESS ( :I* ?REAT5$ TO R5D] HIM ODI\S2 AT TIMES IT BORE EVID5CE ( NO?+ BUT A *ILDI%NESS :I* MADE HIM RIDICUL\S4 ,GREAT S\LS NE>LY ALWAYS HAVE PETTY WEAKNESSES--?AT IS A MY/]I\S LAW ( NATURE1 & ,LIRAT DID NOT ESCAPE ! EFFECTS ( ?IS LAW4 ,ABOVE EV]Y?+ ELSE1 HE HELD FA/ TO HIS WELL-E/ABLI%$ REPUTATION ( AN ILL-NATUR$ MAN4 ,HE BORE V]Y WELL ) ! OP9ION :I* D5I$ HIM TAL5T1 BUT :AT HE C\LD NOT TOL]ATE WAS ?AT !Y CALL$ 9 QUE/ION ! PROPRIETY ( HIS 9SULT+ HUMANITY ) HIS S>CA/IC JIBES4 

,TO AV5GE ! SC\R+ WORDS ) :I* HE *>ACT]IZ$ !M1 SOME ( ! 5EMIES ( ,LIRAT ATTRIBUT$ TO HIM UNNATURAL VICES2 O!RS SIMPLY CALL$ HIM AN EPILEPTIC1 & !SE CO>SE & C[>DLY CALUMNIES1 /R5G!N$ EV]Y DAY BY +5I\S COMM5TS1 BAS$ ON 0C]TA90 /ORIES :I* MADE ! R\NDS ( ! /UDIOS--!SE CALUMNIES F\ND READY LI/5]S WILL+1 SOME [+ TO HIS ACTUAL MALICE1 O!RS PROMPT$ SOLELY BY ! 9TEMP]ANCE ( ! PA9T]'S TONGUE1 TO RECEIVE & SPREAD !M4 

0,Y\ KN[ ,LIRAT8444 ,HE HAD ANO!R ATTACK YE/]DAY1 ?IS TIME ON ! /REET40 

,& NAMES ( IMPORTANT P]SONAGES W]E M5TION$ :O HAD ASSI/$ 9 ! SC5E & :O HAD SE5 HIM ROLL+ 9 ! MUD1 LY+1 ) FOAM AT HIS M\?4 

,I MU/ CONFESS ?AT ,I MYSELF AT ! BEG9N+ ( \R FRI5D%IP WAS GREATLY TR\BL$ BY !SE /ORIES4 ,I C\LD NOT ?9K ( ,LIRAT )\T AT ! SAME TIME PICTUR+ TO MYSELF HORRIBLE FITS 9 :I*1 ,I WAS TOLD1 HE WAS WRI?+4 ,VICTIM ( A DELUSION BORN ( AN OBSESSION ) ?IS IDEA1 ,I SEEM$ TO DISCOV] 9 HIM SYMPTOMS ( HORRIBLE DISEASES2 ,I (T5 IMAG9$ ?AT HE SUDD5LY BECAME LIVID1 ?AT HIS M\? WAS DI/ORT$1 ?AT HIS BODY WAS CONVULS$ 9 HORRIBLE SPASMS1 ?AT HIS EYES1 WILD & /REAK$ ) R$1 W]E %UNN+ ! LI<T & SEEK+ ! %AD[ ( DEEP VACU\S SPACE1 LIKE ! EYES ( TRAPP$ BEA/S ?AT >E AB\T TO DIE4 ,& ,I REGRETT$ ?AT ,I DID NOT SEE HIM FALL1 %RIEK1 WRI! H]E 9 HIS /UDIO FILL$ ) HIS G5IUS1 UND] MY AVID GLANCE ?AT WAT*$ HIM & HOP$ = ! WOR/6444 ,POOR ,LIRAT6444 ,& /ILL ,I LOV$ HIM6444 

,! DAY WAS DRAW+ TO A CLOSE4 ,ALL OV] ,RODRIGUES PLACE ONE HE>D ! SLAMM+ ( DOORS2 ! NOISE ( /EPS UPON ! /REET WAS RAPIDLY DY+ AWAY1 & 9 ! %OPS VOICES W]E HE>D RIS+ 9 SONG AT ! 5D ( ! DAY'S WORK4 ,LIRAT HAD NOT UTT]$ A WORD S9CE RESUM+ HIS WORK1 EXCEPT TO FIX MY PO/URE1 :I* ,I DID NOT KEEP JU/ ! WAY HE WANT$4 

0,! LEG A LITTLE ?IS WAY6444 ,A LITTLE MORE N[6444 ,Y\R *E/ NOT QUITE SO DRAWN 96444 ,Y\'LL EXCUSE ME1 MY DE> ,M9TIE1 BUT Y\ POSE LIKE A PIG60 

,HE WORK$ N[ FEV]I%LY1 N[ HALT+LY1 MUMBL+ 9 HIS MU/A*E1 SWE>+ FROM TIME TO TIME4 ,HIS CRAYON SNAPP$ AT ! CANVAS ) A SORT ( UNEASY HA/E ( ANGRY N]V\SNESS4 

0,AH1 %UCKS60 HE CRI$ \T1 PU%+ AWAY ! EASEL ) A KICK4444 0,I CAN DO NO?+ BUT BOT*-WORK TODAY6444 ,! DEVIL TAKE ME1 ONE MI<T ?9K ,I WAS COMPET+ = A PRIZE40 

,MOV+ BACK HIS *AIR HE EXAM9$ HIS SKET* ) A FRIGID AIR & MUTT]$3 

0,:5EV] WOM5 COME H]E IT'S ! SAME OLD /ORY4444 ,:5 !Y GO AWAY ! WOM5 LEAVE Y\ ! S\L ( A ,B\LANG] 9 ! PRETTY CLAWS ( A ,H5N]4444 ,H5N]1 DO Y\ UND]/&8444 ,LET'S GO \T40 

,:5 WE W]E AT ! 5D ( ! /REET3 

0,>E Y\ COM+ TO D9E ) ME1 ,LIRAT80 ,I ASK$ HIM4 

0,NO10 HE REPLI$ 9 A DRY TONE1 REA*+ \T HIS H&4 

,& HE WALK$ AWAY1 /IFF1 =MAL1 SOLEMN1 ) ! BUS9ESS AIR ( A DEPUTY :O HAS JU/ DISCUSS$ ! BUDGET4 

,?AT EV5+ ,I DID NOT GO \T & REMA9$ AT HOME TO MUSE 9 SOLITUDE4 ,/RET*$ ON A S(A1 ) HALF-CLOS$ EYES1 & BODY MADE TORPID BY ! HEAT1 ALMO/ SLUMB]+1 ,I LIK$ TO GO BACK TO MY PA/1 TO BR+ TO LIFE ?+S DEAD & TO RECALL MEMORIES :I* ESCAP$ ME4 ,FIVE YE>S HAD PASS$ S9CE ! W>--! W> 9 :I* ,I BEGAN MY APPR5TICE%IP 9 LIFE BY 5T]+ ! TORM5T+ PR(ESSION ( A MAN-KILL]4444 ,FIVE YE>S ALREADY6444,/ILL IT SEEM$ LIKE YE/]DAY 444 ! SMOKE1 ! FIELDS COV]$ ) SN[1 /A9$ ) BLOOD & RU9S1 !SE FIELDS :]E1 LIKE <O/S1 WE W&]$ AB\T PITE\SLY1 WORN \T ) FATIGUE4444 ,ONLY FIVE YE>S6444 ,& :5 ,I CAME BACK TO ! ,PRIORY1 ! H\SE WAS EMPTY1 MY FA!R DEAD6444 ,MY LETT]S HAD COME TO HIM ONLY R>ELY1 AT LONG 9T]VALS & !Y HAD ALWAYS BE5 %ORT1 DRY1 WRITT5 9 HA/E ON ! BACK ( MY KNAPSACK4 ,ONLY ONCE1 AFT] A NI<T ( T]RIBLE ANGUI% HAD ,I BECOME T5D]1 AFFECTIONATE2 ONLY ONCE HAD ,I P\R$ \T MY HE>T TO HIM1 & ?IS LETT] :I* %\LD HAVE BR\<T HIM SWEETNESS1 HOPE & CONSOLATION HE HAD NOT RECEIV$6444 ,EV]Y MORN+1 ,M>IE TOLD ME1 HE US$ TO COME \T TO ! GATE AN H\R BE=E ! >RIVAL ( ! MAILMAN & WAT* ! TURN ( ! ROAD1 A PREY TO MORTAL FE>4 ,OLD WOOD CUTT]S W\LD PASS ON !IR WAY TO ! WOODS2 MY FA!R US$ TO QUE/ION !M3 

0,HEY !RE1 UNCLE ,RIBOT1 Y\ HAVE NOT SE5 ! MAILMAN1 BY ANY *ANCE80 

0,:Y NO1 ,MONSIEUR ,M9TIE--IT'S A LITTLE E>LY YET40 

0,OH1 NO1 UNCLE ,RIBOT1 HE IS RA!R LATE40 

0,?AT MI<T BE1 ,MONSIEUR ,M9TIE1 ?AT MI<T BE40 

,:5 HE NOTIC$ ! KEPI & R$ COLL> ( ! MAILMAN HE BECAME PALE1 TREMBL+ ) ! FE> ( BAD NEWS4 ,AS ! MAILMAN APPROA*$1 ! HE>T ( MY FA!R BEAT FURI\SLY1 ALMO/ BUR/+4 

0,NO?+ BUT MAGAZ9ES TODAY1 ,MONSIEUR ,M9TIE40 

0,H[ IS ?AT6444 ,NO LETT]S AT ALL6 ,Y\ MU/ BE MI/AK51 MY BOY4 ,LOOK 444 LOOK AGA944440 

,HE MADE ! MAILMAN SE>* 9 HIS LETT] BAG1 UNTIE ! BUNDLES & GO ?R\< !M AGA94444 

0,NO?+6444 ,:Y IT'S IMPOSSIBLE60 

,& HE W\LD RETURN TO ! KIT*51 SEAT HIMSELF 9 ! ROCK+ *AIR HEAV+ A SI<3 

0,JU/ ?9K ( IT10 HE W\LD SAY TO ,M>IE :O GAVE HIM A B[L ( MILK1 0JU/ ?9K ( IT1 ,M>IE1 IF HIS POOR MO!R HAD BE5 ALIVE60 

,DUR+ ! DAY1 :5 9 T[N1 HE US$ TO VISIT PEOPLE :O HAD SONS 9 ! >MY2 ! CONV]SATION WAS ALWAYS ! SAME4 

0,WELL1 HAVE Y\ HE>D FROM Y\R BOYS40 

0,:Y1 NO1 ,M'SIEUR ,M9TIE4 ,H[ AB\T Y\1 HAVE Y\ HE>D ANY?+ FROM ,JEAN80 

0,I HAV5'T EI!R40 

0,?AT'S V]Y /RANGE4 ,H[ IS IT POSSIBLE8444 ,CAN Y\ EXPLA9 IT84440 

,?AT !Y !MSELVES DID NOT GET ANY LETT]S ONLY HALF SURPRIS$ !M1 BUT ?AT ,M9TIE1 ! MAYOR1 HAD NOT RECEIV$ ANY EI!R1 SURPRIS$ !M V]Y MU*4 ,MO/ UNUSUAL CONJECTURES W]E MADE2 !Y TURN$ TO ! CONFUS+ /ATEM5TS ( ! PAP]S1 !Y QUE/ION$ OLD SOLDI]S :O TOLD !M !IR W> EXP]I5CES ) ! MO/ EXTRAVAGANT & LAVI% DETAILS2 AT ! 5D ( A C\PLE ( H\RS1 !Y W\LD P>T ) LI<T] HE>TS4 

0,DON'T WORRY ,M'SIEUR ,MAYOR4 ,Y\'LL SEE HIM BACK A COLONEL1 SURE40 

0,COLONEL1 COLONEL60 MY FA!R W\LD SAY1 %AK+ HIS HEAD4444 0,I DON'T ASK ?AT MU*4444 ,JU/ SO HE COMES BACK64440 

,ONE DAY--NOBODY KNEW H[ ?AT HAPP5$--,SA9T-,MI*EL F\ND ITSELF FULL ( ,PRUSSIAN SOLDI]S4 ,! ,PRIORY WAS OCCUPI$4 ,LONG SAB]S W]E F\ND 9 \R OLD H\SE4 ,FROM ?IS MOM5T1 MY FA!R BECAME MORE ILL ?AN EV]1 HE TOOK FEV] & WAS CONF9$ TO HIS B$1 & 9 HIS DELIRIUM HE REPEAT$ )\T 5D3 0,PUT ! HORSES TO1 ,FELIX1 PUT ! HORSES TO1 = ,I WANT TO GO TO ,AL5CON TO GET SOME NEWS ( ,JEAN60 ,HE IMAG9$ HIMSELF />T+ \T ON ! ROAD4 0,GID UP1 GID UP1 ,BI*ETTE1 GID UP1 COME ON6444 ,WE >E GO+ TO HAVE SOME NEWS ( ,JEAN ?IS EV5+4444 ,GID UP1 GID UP1 COME ON6444 ,& MY POOR FA!R G5TLY BREA!D HIS LA/ 9 ! >MS ( ! CURE ,BLAN*ETI]E1 SURR\ND$ BY ,FELIX & ,M>IE :O W]E SOBB+6444 ,AFT] A SIX MON?S' /AY AT ! ,PRIORY1 N[ SADD] ?AN EV]1 ,I WAS WE>Y TO DEA?444 ,OLD ,M>IE1 ACCU/OM$ TO MANAGE ! H\SE ACCORD+ TO H] [N NOTIONS1 WAS UNBE>ABLE TO ME2 9 SPITE ( H] DEVOTION1 H] :IMS EXASP]AT$ ME1 & !RE ALWAYS W]E LONG ALT]CATIONS 9 :I* ,I NEV] HAD ! LA/ WORD4 ,= MY ONLY COMPANY ,I HAD ! GOOD CURE TO :OM NO?+ APPEAL$ AS MU* AS ! PR(ESSION ( A NOT>Y4 ,FROM MORN+ TILL NI<T HE US$ TO LECTURE TO ME ?US3 

0,Y\R GR&FA!R WAS A NOT>Y1 SO WAS Y\R FA!R1 Y\R UNCLES1 Y\R C\S9S1 9 FACT Y\R :OLE FAMILY4444 ,Y\ [E IT TO Y\RSELF1 MY DE> *ILD1 NOT TO DES]T Y\R PO/4 ,Y\ %ALL BE ,MAYOR ( ,SA9T-,MI*EL1 Y\ MAY EV5 HOPE TO REPLACE Y\R POOR FA!R AT ! G5]AL C\NCIL1 9 A FEW YE>S4444 ,:Y MAN ALIVE1 ?AT'S SOME?+6 ,& !N--TAKE MY WORD = IT--TIMES >E GO+ TO BE PRETTY H>D = DEC5T PEOPLE :O LOVE ! GOOD ,LORD4444 ,Y\ SEE ?AT RASCAL ,LEBECQ1 HE IS MUNICIPAL C\NSELOR4 ,ALL HE ?9KS ( IS H[ TO ROB & KILL PEOPLE1 ?AT BRIG& !RE4444 ,WE NE$ AT ! HEAD ( \R C\NTRY A RI<T-M9D$ MAN TO UPHOLD RELIGION & DEF5D ! PR9CIPLES ( RI<TE\SNESS4444 ,P>IS1 ,P>IS6444 ,OH6 !SE SILLY HEADS1 ?OSE Y\NG/]S6444 ,BUT WILL Y\ PLEASE TELL ME :AT GOOD Y\ HAVE ACCOMPLI%$ AT ,P>IS8444,:Y1 ! V]Y AIR !RE IS 9FECT$6 ,LOOK AT BIG ,MANGE1 HE COMES FROM A GOOD FAMILY1 BUT ?AT DID NOT PREV5T HIM FROM COM+ BACK FROM ,P>IS ) A R$ CAP ON4 ,ISN'T ?AT A PRETTY AFFAIR80 

,& HE W\LD CONT9UE 9 ?IS VE9 = H\RS1 TAK+ HIS SNUFF1 EVOK+ ! VISION ( ! R$ CAP ( BIG ,MANGE :I* APPE>$ TO HIM MORE ABOM9ABLE ?AN ! HORNS ( ! DEVIL4 

,:AT WAS !RE TO DO AT ,SA9T-,MI*EL8 ,!RE WAS NO ONE TO :OM ,I C\LD COMMUNICATE MY ?\<TS1 MY DREAMS2 !RE WAS NO \TLET = ! >DOR ( LIFE :]E ,I C\LD EXP5D ?AT 9TELLECTUAL 5]GY1 ?AT PASSION = KN[L$GE & = CREATIVE WORK :I* ! W>1 9 DEVELOP+ MY MUSCLES1 9 /R5G!N+ MY BODY1 HAD AWAK5$ 9 ME1 & :I* OMNIVOR\S READ+ OV]/IMULAT$ 9 ME MORE & MORE EV]Y DAY4 ,I REALIZ$ ?AT ,P>IS ALONE1 :I* =M]LY HAD FRI<T5$ ME SO MU*1 ?AT ,P>IS ALONE C\LD FURNI% N\RI%M5T = AMBITIONS1 AS YET 9DEF9ITE1 :I* SPURR$ ME ON1 & ) ! E/ATE SETTL$1 & ! LIBR>Y SOLD ,I LEFT SUDD5LY1 LEAV+ ! ,PRIORY TO ! C>E ( ,FELIX & ,M>IE4444 ,& H]E ,I AM BACK 9 ,P>IS6444 

,:AT HAVE ,I ACCOMPLI%$ DUR+ !SE FIVE YE>S1 TO USE ! WORDS ( ! CURE8444 ,C>RI$ AWAY BY VAGUE >DORS1 BY CONFUS$ 5?USIASM :I* BL5D$ TOGE!R SOME SORT ( A *IM]IC IDEAL ) A K9D ( IMPRACTICABLE APO/LE%IP1 H[ F> DID ,I GET8444 ,I AM NO LONG] ! TIMID *ILD :OM ! FOOTM51 9 ! VE/IBULE FLOOD$ ) LI<T1 US$ TO PUT TO FLI<T4 ,IF ,I HAVE NOT ACQUIR$ MU* SELF-ASSURANCE1 ,I AT LEA/ KN[ H[ TO BEHAVE 9 SOCIETY )\T APPE>+ TOO RIDICUL\S4 ,I PASS PRETTY MU* UNNOTIC$1 A CONDITION :I* IS ! BE/ ?AT C\LD BE WI%$ = A MAN ( MY CALIB] :O POSSESSES NONE ( ! GRACES & QUALITIES :I* >E NECESS>Y TO %9E !RE4 

,V]Y (T5 ,I ASK MYSELF3 :AT AM ,I DO+ H]E 9 ?IS SOCIETY TO :I* ,I DO NOT BELONG1 :]E !Y RESPECT ONLY SUCCESS H[EV] FRAUDUL5TLY OBTA9$1 ONLY MONEY1 NO MATT] FROM :AT FIL?Y PLACE IT COMES2 :]E EV]Y SPOK5 WORD ACTS AS A W\ND 9FLICT$ ON EV]Y?+ ,I LOVE BE/ & EV]Y?+ ,I ADMIRE MO/8444 ,BESIDES1 IS NOT MAN ) ALL HIS DIFF]5CES ( $UCATION :I* >E BETRAY$ ONLY 9 HIS GE/URES1 9 HIS MANN] ( GREET+1 9 HIS MORE OR LESS GRACEFUL BE>+1 PRETTY MU* ! SAME NO MATT] :]E HE IS8444 ,:AT6 W]E !SE ! HI<-SPIRIT$ >TI/S1 ! MU* ADMIR$ WRIT]S :OSE GLORY IS SUNG1 :OSE G5IUS IS ACCLAIM$ 444 !SE PETTY1 VULG>1 FRI<TFULLY P$ANTIC BE+S1 SLAVI%LY AP+ ! MANN]S ( ! SOCIETY !Y RAIL AT1 LUDICR\SLY VA91 FI]CELY JEAL\S1 LY+ PRO/RATE BE=E WEAL?1 & KNEEL+ 9 ! DU/1 WOR%IP+ PUBLICITY--?AT OLD BLACKGU>D1 :I* !Y C>RY AB\T ON VELVET CU%IONS4444 ,OH1 H[ MU* BETT] ,I LOVE ! H]DSM5 & !IR OX51 ! PIG DRIV]S & !IR PIGS1 YES ! PIGS1 R\ND & P9K1 DIGG+ ! E>? ) !IR SN\TS & :OSE FAT SMOO? BACKS REFLECT ! CL\DS ?AT FLOAT ABOVE6 

,I READ EXCESSIVELY1 )\T DISCRIM9ATION1 )\T SY/EM1 & FROM ?IS FAULTY READ+ !RE WAS LEFT 9 MY M9D NO?+ BUT A *AOS ( DISJO9T$ FACTS & 9COMPLETE IDEAS1 FROM ! TANGLE ( :I* ,I DID NOT KN[ H[ TO EXTRICATE MYSELF4444 ,I TRI$ TO ACQUIRE KN[L$GE 9 EV]Y WAY1 BUT ,I REALIZ$ ?AT ,I WAS JU/ AS IGNORANT TODAY AS ,I HAD BE5 9 ! PA/4444 ,I HAD HAD MI/RESSES :OM ,I LOV$ = A WEEK1 S5TIM5TAL & ROMANTIC BLONDS1 FI]CE BRUNETS1 IMPATI5T TO BE C>ESS$1 & LOVE %[$ ME ONLY ! FRI<TFUL EMPT9ESS ( ! HUMAN HE>T1 ! DECEPTIV5ESS ( AFFECTION1 ! LIE ( ! IDEAL1 ! NO?+NESS ( PLEASURE4444 

,BELIEV+ MYSELF CONV]T$ TO ! =MULAE ( DESCRIPTIVE >T BY MEANS ( :I* ,I WAS GO+ TO H>NESS MY AMBITION & FIX MY %IFT+ & ?RILL+ DREAMS UPON ! P9ION ( WORDS1 ,I HAD PUBLI%$ A BOOK :I* WAS PRAIS$ & :I* PROV$ TO BE 0A BE/ SELL]40 ,( C\RSE1 ,I WAS FLATT]$ BY ?IS LITTLE SUCCESS2 ,I1 TOO1 SPOKE ( MYSELF ) PRIDE AS ( A R>E TAL5T2 ,I1 TOO1 GAVE MYSELF SUP]IOR AIRS 9 ORD] TO DECEIVE O!RS ALL ! BETT]4 ,& WI%+ TO DECEIVE MYSELF AS WELL1 ,I (T5 LOOK$ UPON MYSELF 9 ! MIRROR ) ! COMPLAC5CY ( A COM$IAN1 9 ORD] ?AT ,I MI<T DISCOV] C]TA9 M>KS ( G5IUS 9 MY EYES1 ON MY =EHEAD1 9 ! MAJE/IC BE>+ ( MY HEAD4 

,ALAS6 ,SUCCESS R5D]$ YET MORE PA9FUL ! 9N] KN[L$GE ( MY IMPOT5CE4 ,MY BOOK DID NOT AM\NT TO MU*2 ITS /YLE WAS =C$1 ITS CONCEPTION 9FANTILE3 A PASSIONATE H>ANGUE1 AN ABSURD PHRASEOLOGY TOOK ! PLACE ( IDEAS 9 IT4 ,AT TIMES ,I W\LD READ OV] ! PASSAGES PRAIS$ BY ! CRITICS1 & 9 ?OSE PASSAGES DISCOV] SOME?+ ( EV]YBODY3 ,H]B]T ,SP5C] & ,SCRIBE1 ,JEAN ,JACQUES ,R\SSEAU & ,COMM]SON1 ,VICTOR ,HUGO1 ,PE & ,EUG5E ,*AVETTE4 ,( MY [N CONTRIBUTION1 ,I1 :OSE NAME WAS DISPLAY$ ON ! TITLE PAGE1 ON ! YELL[ COV] ( ! VOLUME1 F\ND NO?+4 ,FOLL[+ ! CAPRICES ( MY MEMORIES1 >\S$ BY ! 9T]MITT5T LI<T ( MY RECOLLECTIONS1 ,I EXPRESS$ ! ?\<TS ( ONE & US$ ! /YLE ( ANO!R2 NONE ( ! IDEAS OR /YLE BELONG$ TO ME4 ,& IMPORTANT LOOK+ P]SONS :OSE TA/ES >E 9FALLIBLE & :OSE JUDGM5T IS LAW PRAIS$ MY P]SONALITY1 MY ORIG9ALITY1 ! UNEXPECT$ NATURE & SUBTL5ESS ( MY IMPRESSIONS6444 

,H[ SAD IT WAS6444 ,:I!R WAS ,I GO+8 ,I KNEW NO MORE AB\T IT TODAY ?AN ,I DID YE/]DAY4 ,I HAD ! CONVICTION ?AT ,I C\LD NOT BE A WRIT]1 BECAUSE ALL ! EF=T ( :I* ,I WAS CAPABLE HAD BE5 SP5T 9 WRIT+ ?AT MIS]ABLE & 9COH]5T BOOK4 ,HAD ,I HAD A MORE HUMBLE & COMPROMIS+ AMBITION1 W]E ,I ONLY PROMPT$ BY DESIRES LESS NOBLE1 BY ?OSE :I* NEV] CAUSE REMORSE--SU* AS LOVE ( MONEY1 (FICIAL TITLES1 DISSOLUT5ESS6444 ,BUT1 NO6 ,ONLY ONE ?+ :I* ,I C\LD NEV] ATTA9 LUR$ ME1 & ?AT WAS TAL5T4444 ,TO BE ABLE TO SAY TO MYSELF1 YES 444 TO SAY TO MYSELF3 0,?IS BOOK1 ?IS SONNET1 ?IS PHRASE IS Y\RS1 Y\ WRUNG IT FROM Y\R BRA9S SWOLL5 ) PASSION2 IT IS Y\R ?\<T ?AT QUIV]S H]E2 IT IS PIECES ( Y\R FLE% & DROPS ( Y\R BLOOD1 ?AT IT SCATT]S OV] ! SORR[FUL PAGES2 IT IS Y\R N]VES ?AT VIBRATE 9 IT LIKE ! /R+S ( A VIOL9 UND] ! B[ ( A DIV9E MUSICIAN4 ,:AT Y\ HAVE ACCOMPLI%$ H]E IS BEAUTIFUL & GR&60 ,= ?IS MOM5T ( SUPREME JOY ,I W\LD BE WILL+ TO SACRIFICE MY FUTURE1 MY WEAL?1 MY LIFE2 ,I W\LD BE WILL+ EV5 TO KILL6444 

,& NEV]1 NEV] WILL ,I BE ABLE TO SAY ?AT TO MYSELF6444 ,AH H[ ,I 5VI$ ! ET]NAL SELF-CONT5TM5T ( ! M$IOCRE6444 ,N[ ,I AGA9 FELT A PASSIONATE DESIRE TO RETURN TO ,SA9T-,MI*EL4 ,I WI%$ ,I C\LD DRIVE ! PL[ 9 ! BR[N FURR[1 ROLL 9 ! FIELDS ( YELL[ CLOV]1 SMELL ! :OLESOME ODOR ( ! /ABLES1 &1 ABOVE ALL1 LOSE MYSELF 9 ! ?ICK ( ! COPPICE WOOD1 P5ETRAT+ 9TO IT F>!R & F>!R4444 

,! LI<T W5T \T & MY LAMP WAS SMOK+4 ,A COLD LIKE A G5TLE C>ESS FILL$ MY LEGS & S5T A CURR5T ( PLEASURABLE *ILLS ?R\< MY BACK4 ,\TSIDE NOT A S\ND WAS HE>D2 ! /REET GREW SIL5T4 ,IT HAD BE5 LONG S9CE ,I HE>D ! DULL TRUNDLE ( ! OMNIBUS ROLL+ ON ! CAUSEWAY4 ,! CLOCK /RUCK SIX4 ,BUT A SORT ( LAZ9ESS KEPT ME GLU$ TO MY S(A3 :ILE ?US /RET*$ \T ,I FELT A PHYSICAL PLEASURE AMID A GREAT M5TAL DEPRESSION4 ,I HAD TO MAKE A /R5U\S EF=T TO FREE MYSELF FROM ?IS LANGUOR & TO GO 9TO MY B$ROOM4 ,I F\ND IT IMPOSSIBLE TO FALL ASLEEP4 ,NO SOON] DID ,I CLOSE MY EYES ?AN IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ,I HAD BE5 ?R[N 9TO A BLACK & V]Y DEEP PIT1 & SUDD5LY ,I AWOKE1 PANT+ & P]SPIR+4 ,I AGA9 LIT MY LAMP1 TRI$ TO READ4444 ,I C\LD NOT CONC5TRATE MY M9D ON ! L9ES ( ! TEXT :I* SEEM$ TO SW]VE1 TO CROSS ONE ANO!R1 TO AB&ON !MSELVES TO A FANTA/IC DANCE UND] MY V]Y EYES4 

,:AT A /UPID LIFE M9E IS6444 ,:Y AM ,I SO DIFF]5T1 PREY$ UPON BY OBNOXI\S *IM]AS8 ,:O HAS P\R$ 9TO MY S\L ?IS DEADLY POISON ( WE>9ESS & DISC\RAGEM5T8 ,BE=E O!RS !RE /RET*ES A VA/ HORIZON ILLUM9$ BY ! SUN6 ,BUT ,I AM WALK+ 9 ! D>KNESS1 /OPP$ ON EV]Y SIDE BY WALLS :I* OB/RUCT MY WAY & AGA9/ :I* ,I VA9LY BEAT MY HEAD & KNEES4444 ,P]HAPS IT IS BECAUSE !Y POSSESS LOVE6 ,LOVE1 AH YES6 ,IF ,I C\LD ONLY LOVE6 

,& AGA9 ,I SAW ! BEAUTIFUL VIRG9 ( ,SA9T-,MI*EL1 ! RADIANT VIRG9 ( PLA/] ( P>IS ) ITS ROBE ADORN$ ) />S & ITS GOLD5 NIMBUS DESC5D+ FROM HEAV54 ,ALL >\ND H] SUNS W]E REVOLV+1 9CL9+ !MSELVES LIKE CELE/IAL FL[]S1 & DOVES 9 ! EXALTATION ( PRAY]S W]E FLY+ AB\T1 BRU%+ H] ) !IR W+S4444 ,I RECALL$ ! EC/ASIES1 ! FITS ( MY/IC ADORATION :I* %E EVOK$ 9 ME2 ALL ! SWEET JOYS :I* ,I HAD EXP]I5C$ CAME BACK TO ME AT ! M]E CONTEMPLATION ( H]4 ,DID %E NOT ALSO SPEAK TO ME1 !N1 AT ! *APEL8 ,& ?OSE UNUTT]$ WORDS :I* P\R$ 9TO MY *ILDI% S\L SU* 9EFFABLE T5D]NESS1 ?IS LANGUAGE MORE H>MONI\S ?AN ANGELS' VOICES & ! MUSIC ( GOLD5 H>PS1 ?IS LANGUAGE MORE FRAGRANT ?AN ! P]FUME ( ROSES1--WAS IT NOT ! DIV9E LANGUAGE ( LOVE8 

,AS ,I LI/5$ ) ALL MY S5SES TO ?IS LANGUAGE :I* WAS MUSIC TO ME1 ,I WAS LIFT$ 9TO A WORLD UNKN[N & WONDR\S2 A NEW 5*ANT$ LIFE SPR\T$1 BUR/ 9TO BUD & FL\RI%$ ALL >\ND ME4 ,! HORIZON REC$$ 9TO MY/]I\S 9F9ITY3 SPACE %ONE BRI<T LIKE ! 9T]IOR ( ! SUN1 & ,I FELT MYSELF GR[+ SO TALL & /RONG ?AT 9 ONE EMBRACE ,I WAS PRESS+ TO MY BREA/ ALL ! BE+S1 ALL ! FL[]S1 ALL ! SW>MS ( CREATURES BORN ( ! GLANCE ( LOVE EX*ANG$ BETWE5 ! ,HOLY ,VIRG9 ( PLA/] & A LITTLE *ILD4 

0,HOLY ,VIRG91 K9DLY ,VIRG960 ,I CRI$4 0,SPEAK TO ME1 SPEAK TO ME AGA91--AS Y\ US$ TO 9 ! PA/1 9 ! *APEL4444 ,& GIVE ME LOVE ONCE MORE1 = LOVE IS LIFE & ,I AM DY+ BECAUSE ,I AM NO LONG] ABLE TO LOVE40 

,BUT ! ,VIRG9 WAS NOT LI/5+ TO ME ANY LONG]4 ,%E GLID$ 9TO ! *AMB] & CURTSY+1 M\NT$ ! *AIRS1 PRI$ 9TO ! FURNITURE PIECES1 S++ /RANGE AIRS ALL ! TIME4 ,A DRAWN BONNET ( OTT] SK9 N[ REPLAC$ H] NIMBUS ( GOLD1 H] EYES BECAME LIKE ?OSE ( ,JULIETTE ,R\X1 V]Y L>GE1 V]Y SWEET1 :I* SMIL$ AT ME FROM A PLA/] FACE UND] A VEIL ( V]Y F9E GAUZE4 ,FROM TIME TO TIME %E APPROA*$ MY B$1 WAV+ ABOVE ME H] EMBROID]$ H&K]*IEF :I* EXHAL$ A VIOL5T P]FUME4 

0,MONSIEUR ,M9TIE10 %E SAID1 0,I AM AT HOME EV]Y DAY FROM FIVE TO SEV54 ,& ,I %ALL BE DELI<T$ TO SEE Y\1 DELI<T$60 

0,VIRG91 K9DLY ,VIRG960 ,I IMPLOR$ AGA94 0,SPEAK TO ME1 PLEASE4 ,SPEAK TO ME AS Y\ DID =M]LY 9 ! *APEL40 

0,TU1 TU1 TU1 TU60 HUMM$ ! ,VIRG9 :O1 CAUS+ H] LILAC ROBE TO SWELL \T & REMOV+ H] CLOAK1 ADORN$ ) GOLD5 />S ) ! TIPS ( H] LONG1 ?9 F+]S1 BEGAN TO TURN >\ND SL[LY AS IF DANC+ A WALTZ1 H] HEAD SWAY+ FROM ONE SIDE TO ! O!R4 

0,GOOD ,VIRG960 ,I REPEAT$ 9 A RA!R IRRITAT$ VOICE1 0:Y DON'T Y\ SPEAK TO ME60 

,%E /OPP$1 PO/$ H]SELF 9 FRONT ( ME1 /RIPP$ (F H] PLA/] G>M5TS ONE AFT] ANO!R1 & 5TIRELY NUDE1 LU/FUL & MAGNIFIC5T1 H] BOSOM %OOK ) CLE>1 SONOR\S1 PRECIPIT\S LAU<T]3 

0,MONSIEUR ,M9TIE10 %E SAID1 0,I AM AT HOME EV]Y DAY FROM FIVE TO SEV54 ,& ,I'LL GIVE Y\ ,*>LES' OLD TR\S]S40 ,& %E ?REW H] OTT] SK9 BONNET AT ME4 

,I SAT UP ON MY B$4444 ,) A /UPID GAZE & BREA?+ ) DIFFICULTY1 ,I LOOK$ AB\T ME4 ,BUT ! ROOM WAS QUIET1 ! LAMP CONT9U$ TO BURN SADLY & MY OP5 BOOK WAS LY+ ON ! C>PET4 

,! NEXT MORN+ ,I GOT UP LATE1 HAV+ SLEPT BADLY1 PURSU$ BY ! ?\<T ( ,JULIETTE 9 MY SLEEP DI/URB$ BY NI<TM>ES4 ,DUR+ ! REMA9D] ( ?AT TR\BL$1 FEV]I% NI<T %E DID NOT LEAVE ME = AN 9/ANT1 ASSUM+ ! MO/ EXTRAVAGANT =MS1 AB&ON+ H]SELF TO ! MO/ WRET*$ PRANKS1 & LO6 ,I AGA9 BEHELD H] 9 ! MORN+1 & ?IS TIME %E WAS ! SAME AS :5 ,I MET H] BE=E AT ,LIRAT'S1 ) H] AIR ( MODE/Y1 H] DISCREET & *>M+ MANN]S4 

,I FELT A K9D ( SADNESS--NOT EXACTLY SADNESS1 BUT REGRET1 ! REGRET ONE FEELS AT ! SI<T ( A ROSE-BU% :OSE ROSES HAVE WILT$ & :OSE PETALS >E SCATT]$ OV] ! MUDDY GR\ND4 ,= ,I C\LD NOT ?9K ( ,JULIETTE )\T ?9K+ AT ! SAME TIME ( ,LIRAT'S MALIGNANT WORDS3 0,!RE WAS ALSO AN AFFAIR ) A WRE/L] ( ,NEUILLY :OM %E GAVE TW5TY FRANCS40 ,:AT A PITY6444 ,:5 %E 5T]$ ! /UDIO ,I C\LD SWE> ?AT %E WAS ! MO/ VIRTU\S ( WOM54444 ,H] V]Y MANN] ( WALK+1 GREET+1 SMIL+1 SEAT+ H]SELF BESPOKE GOOD BRE$+1 A PEACEFUL1 HAPPY LIFE )\T HA/Y ACTS ( 9DISCRETION1 )\T DEGRAD+ REMORSE4 ,H] HAT1 H] CLOAK1 H] DRESS1 H] :OLE APPE>ANCE WAS ( A REF9$ & *>M+ ELEGANCE1 MEANT = ! 5JOYM5T ( JU/ ONE1 = ! *E]FULNESS ( A SECLUD$ H\SE1 CLOS$ TO ! SEEK]S ( UNCLEAN SPOILS4444 ,& H] EYES1 RADIAT+ A P]FECTLY LEGITIMATE T5D]NESS1 H] EYES FROM :I* %ONE SU* C&OR1 SO MU* S9C]ITY1 :I* SEEM$ TO HAVE NO KN[L$GE ( LIES1 H] EYES MORE BEAUTIFUL ?AN ! LAKES HAUNT$ BY ! MOON6444 

0,IS ,*>LES ALL RI<T80 ,LIRAT HAD ASK$4 

,*>LES8444 ,H] HUSB&1 TO BE SURE6444 ,& NAIVELY ,I PICTUR$ TO MYSELF A RESPECTABLE 9T]IOR ( A ROOM1 ) JOLLY *ILDR5 PLAY+ ON ! C>PET1 A FAMILY LAMP1 GR\P+ K9D & SIMPLE BE+S >\ND ITS G5TLE %IMM]2 A *A/E B$1 PROTECT$ BY A CRUCIFIX & A HALL[$ BRAN* ( BOXTREE6444 ,!N SUDD5LY1 CRA%+ 9TO ?IS PEACE1 ! BULLHEAD FROM ! ,B\FFES1 ! CR\PI] ( ! GAMBL+ CLUB1 & ,*>LES ,MALT]RE :O BROKE ,LIRAT'S L\NGE BY ROLL+ ON IT1 :ILE CRY+ 9 RAGE6444 ,I CONJUR$ ! IMAGE ( ! COM$IAN--A PALLID FACE1 WR9KL$1 GLABR\S1 ) IMPUD5T BLOOD%OT EYES1 ) S5SUAL LIPS1 WE>+ AN OP5 COLL>1 A P9K CRAVAT1 A L[-PLAIT$ %ORT JACKET6 

,I WAS UNN]V$ & IRRITAT$4444 ,:AT DID IT MATT] TO ME1 AFT] ALL8 ,DID ! LIFE ( ?IS WOMAN CONC]N ME1 WAS IT RELAT$ TO ME 9 ANY WAY8444 ,WAS IT MY BUS9ESS TO 9T]E/ MYSELF 9 ! FATE ( WOM5 :OM *ANCE ?REW 9 MY PA?8444 ,I DON'T C>E :AT %E IS1 ?IS ,MLLE4 ,JULIETTE ,R\X6444 ,%E IS NEI!R MY SI/] NOR MY FIANCEE1 NOR MY FRI5D2 !RE IS NOT A S+LE BOND ( K9%IP BETWE5 US4444 ,IF ,I HAD SE5 H] YE/]DAY WALK+ ON ! /REET1 LIKE ONE ( ! ?\S&S ( P]SONS :OM ONE BRU%ES AGA9/ EV]Y DAY & :O PASS ON & VANI%1 %E W\LD HAVE ALREADY BE5 DRAWN 9TO ! VORTEX ( OBLIVION & NEV] AGA9 W\LD ,I BE LIKELY TO SEE H]4 

0,MAYBE ,LIRAT IS MI/AK580 ,I REPEAT$1 :ILE BREAKFA/+4 ,I KNEW HIS EXAGG]ATIONS1 HIS PASSION = RIDICULE1 HIS HORROR ( & CONTEMPT = WOMAN4 ,:AT HE SAID ( ,JULIETTE HE WAS SAY+ ( ALL O!R WOM54 ,:O KN[S1--P]HAPS ?IS COM$IAN1 ?IS CR\PI]1 ALL ! DETAILS ( ?IS IGNOM9I\S AFFAIR 9 ! EXPOSURE ( :I* HIS SPITEFUL SPIRIT F\ND GRATIFICATION1 EXI/$ ONLY 9 HIS IMAG9ATION8 ,& ,*>LES ,MALT]RE8 

,UND\BT$LY ,I %\LD HAVE PREF]R$ TO SEE H] M>RI$4 ,I %\LD HAVE BE5 PLEAS$ TO SEE H] LEAN+ OP5LY ON ! >M ( A MAN1 RESPECT$1 5VI$ BY ! MO/ HONE/6 ,BUT %E LOV$ ?IS ,MALT]RE1 %E LIV$ DEC5TLY ) HIM1 %E WAS DEVOT$ TO HIM3 0,*>LES WILL BE SORRY TO LE>N ( Y\R REFUSAL40 ,! ALMO/ 5TREAT+ VOICE 9 :I* %E SAID ?OSE WORDS WAS /ILL 9 MY E>S4 ,?IS MEANS ?AT %E WAS M9DFUL ( ! ?+S ?AT MI<T OR MI<T NOT PLEASE ,MALT]RE4 

,& AT ! ?\<T ?AT ,LIRAT1 9 MAK+ IMPROP] USE ( A FALSE SITUATION1 WAS CALUMNIAT+ H] 9 AN ODI\S MANN]1 MY HE>T GREW HEAVY1 A FEEL+ ( GREAT PITY SWEPT OV] ME & ,I CAU<T MYSELF SAY+ AL\D3 0,POOR GIRL60 ,/ILL ?IS ,MALT]RE HAD BE5 WRI?+ ON ! L\NGE1 HE HAD CRI$1 HE HAD LAID B>E HIS HE>T TO ,LIRAT1 HAD %[N HIM H] LETT]S4 ,WELL1 :AT ( IT8 ,:AT HAVE ,I TO DO ) ?IS WOMAN8 ,LET H] HAVE ALL ! S+]S1 ALL ! CR\PI]S1 ALL ! WRE/L]S %E WANTS6 ,TO HELL ) H]6 ,& ,I W5T \T HUMM+ A GAY AIR1 ) ! FREE BE>+ ( A G5TLEMAN :OSE SPIRIT IS NOT 9 ! LEA/ TR\BL$ BY ANY?+4 ,& :Y %\LD IT BE1 ,I ASK Y\8444 

,I W5T D[N ! B\LEV>DS1 /OPP+ 9 FRONT ( ! BOO?S1 /ROLL+ 9 SPITE ( ! SUN1 :I* WAS LIKE A NIGG>DLY & PALLID SMILE ( ,DECEMB] /ILL P]MEAT$ ) FOG2 ! AIR WAS COLD & PI]C+4 ,ON ! SIDEWALK WOM5 W]E PASS+1 %IV]+ ) COLD1 WRAPP$ 9 LONG CLOAKS ( OTT] SK91 SOME ( !M DRESS$ 9 SMALL DRAWN BONNETS ( FUR LIKE ,JULIETTE'S1 & EV]Y TIME !SE CLOAKS & BONNETS ATTRACT$ MY ATT5TION ,I OBS]V$ !M ) G5U9E PLEASURE4 ,I LIK$ TO FOLL[ !M ) MY GLANCE UNTIL !Y W]E LO/ 9 ! CR[D4 ,AT ! CORN] ( ! ,RUE ,TAITB\T1 ,I REMEMB]1 ,I CAME UPON A TALL SL5D] WOMAN1 PRETTY & RESEMBL+ ,JULIETTE SO CLOSELY ?AT ,I BR\<T MY H& TO MY HAT READY TO GREET H]4 ,I WAS EXCIT$--OH1 IT WAS NOT ! VIOL5T BEAT+ ( ! HE>T :I* HALTS Y\R BREA?+1 WEAK5S ! FL[ ( BLOOD 9 Y\R VE9S & /UNS Y\2 IT WAS A LI<T T\*1 A C>ESS1 SOME?+ V]Y SWEET1 :I* BR+S A SMILE UPON ! LIPS & A *E]FUL SURPRISE TO ! EYES4 

,BUT ?IS WOMAN WAS NOT ,JULIETTE4 ,I FELT SOME:AT PEEV$ & AV5G$ MYSELF BY ?9K+ H] V]Y UGLY4 ,TWO O'CLOCK ALREADY6444 ,%ALL ,I GO TO SEE ,LIRAT8 ,:Y8 ,TO MAKE HIM TALK AB\T ,JULIETTE1 TO COMPEL HIM TO ADMIT ?AT HE HAD LI$ TO ME1 TO MAKE HIM TELL ME ( H] TRAITS ( *>ACT]1 SUBLIME & POIGNANT1 TELL ME SOME T\*+ /ORIES ( H] DEVOTION1 SACRIFICE--?AT TEMPT$ ME4 ,I ?\<T ! MATT] OV]1 H[EV]1 KN[+ ?AT ,LIRAT W\LD BE ANGRY1 ?AT HE W\LD MOCK AT ME1 AT H]1 & ,I HAD A HORROR ( HIS S>CASMS2 ,I ALREADY HE>D S9I/] WORDS1 ABOM9ABLE PHRASES COM+ \T ( A TWI/$ CORN] ( HIS M\? ) A HISS+ S\ND4 

,AT ! ,*AMPS-,ELYSEES1 ,I CALL$ A HACKNEY-COA* & PROCE$$ T[>D ! ,BOIS4 ,:Y DISSEMBLE8 ,!RE ,I HOP$ TO MEET ,JULIETTE4 ,YES1 C]TA9LY ,I HOP$ IT1 BUT AT ! SAME TIME ,I FE>$ IT4 ,NOT TO SEE H] AT ALL1 ,I FELT1 W\LD PROVE A DISAPPO9TM5T TO ME4 ,ON ! O!R H&1 W]E %E 9 ! HABIT ( EXHIBIT+ H]SELF 9 ?IS M>KET PLACE ( GALLANTRY REGUL>LY LIKE ! O!R LADIES1 ,I %\LD AGA9 FEEL HURT1 & 9 ! 5D ,I DID NOT KN[ :AT IT WAS ?AT /IRR$ ME MORE3 ! HOPE ( SEE+ H] OR ! FE> ( MEET+ H]4 

,!RE W]E FEW PEOPLE 9 ! ,BOIS4 ,ON ! GR& LAKE DRIVE1 C>RIAGES W]E PASS+ SL[LY AT A CONSID]ABLE DI/ANCE FROM ONE ANO!R1 ! DRIV]S P]*$ HI< UPON !IR SEATS4 ,SOMETIMES A BR\<AM W\LD LEAVE ! /RUNG-\T L9E1 TURN & DISAPPE> TO ! TROT ( ITS HORSES1 C>RY+ AWAY ,GOD KN[S :]E ! PR(ILE ( A WOMAN1 OR SOME :ITE & PALLID FACES1 OR ! 5D ( A RUFFL$ DRESS SE5 = A MOM5T ?R\< ! W9D[ ( ! COA* DOOR4444 ,MY HE>T & ! BLOOD 9 MY TEMPLES W]E BEAT+ FA/]1 IMPATI5CE CAUS$ ! TIPS ( MY F+]S TO TWIT*2 MY NECK WAS TIR$ FROM TURN+ 9 ! SAME DIRECTION 9 AN EF=T TO P5ETRATE ! %AD[ ( ! C>RIAGES & BEGAN TO HURT2 ANXI\SLY ,I WAS *EW+ ! 5D ( A CIG> :I* ,I C\LD NOT MAKE UP MY M9D TO LI<T1 = FE> ( MISS+ H] C>RIAGE 9 ! ACT4 ,ONCE ,I ?\<T ,I SAW H] 9SIDE A BR\<AM1 :I* WAS GO+ 9 ! OPPOSITE DIRECTION4 

0,TURN1 TURN10 ,I %\T$ TO ! DRIV]1 0& FOLL[ ?AT BR\<AM40 

,I DID NOT AT ALL REFLECT :E!R OR NOT ,I WAS ACT+ PROP]LY T[>DS A WOMAN TO :OM ,I HAD BE5 9TRODUC$ ONLY ! DAY BE=E1 & CASUALLY AT ?AT1 ONE :OSE REPUTATION ,I WANT$ TO SEE REHABILITAT$ AT ALL CO/S4 ,HALF LEAN+ AGA9/ ! L[]$ W9D[ ( ! COA* DOOR1 ,I NEV] LO/ SI<T ( ! BR\<AM4 ,& ,I WAS SAY+ TO MYSELF3 0,P]HAPS %E RECOGNIZ$ ME6 ,P]HAPS %E IS GO+ TO /OP1 GET \T ( ! C>RIAGE1 APPE> 9 ! /REET40 ,9DE$1 ,I WAS SAY+ ?IS TO MYSELF )\T ! SLI<TE/ NOTION ( ATTEMPT+ A GALLANT CONQUE/4 ,I WAS SAY+ ?AT AS IF IT W]E ! SIMPLE/ & MO/ NATURAL ?+ 9 ! WORLD4 ,! BR\<AM ROLL$ ON SPE$ILY1 LI<TLY1 B\ND+ ON ITS SPR+S1 & MY HACKNEY COA* FOLL[$ IT ) DIFFICULTY4 

0,FA/]60 ,I GAVE ! ORD]1 0FA/]1 & GET AHEAD ( IT60 

,! DRIV] LA%$ HIS HORSE1 :I* />T$ 9TO A GALLOP1 & 9 A FEW SECONDS ! :EELS ( ! TWO C>RIAGES T\*$ EA* O!R4 ,!N A WOMAN'S HEAD1 ) DI%EVEL$ HAIR UND] A V]Y L>GE HAT1 ) A NOSE COMICALLY TURN$ UP1 ) LIPS CRACK$ FROM ! EXCESSIVE USE ( PA9T & CRIMSON LIKE A LIV+ FLE% W\ND1 APPE>$ 9 ! FRAME ( ! COA* DOOR4 ,) A SCORNFUL GLANCE1 %E TOOK 9 ! DRIV]1 ! CAB1 ! HORSE & MYSELF1 PUT \T H] TONGUE & !N )DREW 9TO A CORN] ( H] C>RIAGE4 ,IT WAS NOT ,JULIETTE6 ,I DID NOT COME HOME UNTIL NI<T1 V]Y MU* DISAPPO9T$ & YET DELI<T$ ) MY USELESS DRIVE6 

,I HAD NO PLANS = ! EV5+4 ,/ILL ,I SP5T MORE ?AN ! USUAL TIME 9 DRESS+ MYSELF4 ,I DID IT ) ! GREATE/ C>E1 &1 = ! FIR/ TIME1 ! KNOT ( MY CRAVAT SEEM$ TO ME A MATT] ( GREAT IMPORTANCE1 & ,I WAS V]Y MU* ABSORB$ 9 ! PROCESS ( TY+ IT C>EFULLY4 ,?IS UNEXPECT$ DISCOV]Y BR\<T 9 ITS TRA9 O!RS EQUALLY IMPORTANT4 ,= EXAMPLE1 ,I NOTIC$ ?AT MY %IRT WAS ILL CUT1 ?AT ! %IRT FRONT WR9KL$ DISGRACEFULLY AT ! OP5+ ( ! VE/2 ?AT MY DRESS COAT LOOK$ V]Y OLD & CURI\SLY \T ( /YLE4 ,9 A WORD1 ,I ?\<T ,I LOOK$ V]Y RIDICUL\S & PROMIS$ MYSELF TO *ANGE ALL ?AT 9 ! FUTURE4 ,)\T MAK+ ELEGANT APPE>ANCE AN EXACT+ & TYRANNICAL LAW ( MY LIFE1 IT WAS QUITE P]MISSIBLE1 ,I ?\<T1 TO LOOK LIKE ! RE/ ( ! PEOPLE4 ,SIMPLY BECAUSE ONE DRESS$ WELL1 ONE WAS NOT NECESS>ILY A FOOL4 

,!SE PREOCCUPATIONS CONSUM$ MY TIME TILL ! D9N] H\R4 ,USUALLY ,I ATE AT HOME1 BUT ?IS EV5+ MY AP>TM5T APPE>$ TO ME SO SMALL1 SO DISMAL2 IT SUFFOCAT$ ME1 & ,I FELT ! NE$ ( SPACE1 ( NOISE1 ( M]RIM5T4 

,AT ! RE/AURANT ,I TOOK AN 9T]E/ 9 EV]Y?+3 ! COM+ & GO+ ( PEOPLE1 ! GILD+ ON ! CEIL+1 ! L>GE MIRRORS :I* MULTIPLI$ TO 9F9ITY ! P>LORS1 WAIT]S1 ELECTRIC GLOBES1 ! FL[]S ON LADIES HATS1 ! C\NT]S ON :I* W]E SPREAD DRESS$ MEATS ( ALL K9DS1 :]E PYRAMIDS ( FRUIT1 R$ & GOLD COLOR$1 ROSE AMID SALADS & SP>KL+ GLASSW>E4 ,I WAT*$ ! WOM5 ABOVE ALL1 ,I /UDI$ !IR SOME:AT AIRY MANN] ( EAT+1 ! JOY 9 !IR EYES1 ! MOVEM5T ( !IR UNGLOV$ >MS 5CIRCL$ BY HEAVY BRACELETS ( GLITT]+ GOLD1 ! EXPOS$ L9ES ( !IR NECKS SO DELICATE & T5D]1 :I* GRADUALLY REC$$ 9TO ! BOSOM1 UND] ! ROSEATE LACE NAPK94 ,?IS FASC9AT$ ME1 IT AFFECT$ ME LIKE SOME?+ ALTOGE!R NEW1 LIKE A L&SCAPE ( SOME DI/ANT C\NTRY SUDD5LY GLIMPS$4 ,I WAS WOND]-/RUCK1 LIKE A BOY4 

,ORD9>ILY1 IMPELL$ BY ! BROOD+ DISPOSITION ( MY NATURE1 ,I W\LD FA/5 MY ATT5TION ON ! 9TIMATE MORAL LIFE ( A HUMAN BE+1 ?AT IS TO SAY1 ,I W\LD PO9T \T ITS UGL9ESS OR SUFF]+2 AT ?IS MOM5T1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 ,I AB&ON$ MYSELF TO ! JOY ( SOLELY P]CEIV+ ITS PHYSICAL *>M3 ,I WAS DELI<T$ TO OBS]VE ! MAGIC SPELL CA/ BY ! WOM52 EV5 9 ! UGLIE/ ONE ,I F\ND SOME LITTLE DETAIL SU* AS A CURVE 9 ! BACK ( A NECK1 A LANGUOR 9 EYES1 A SUPPL5ESS ( H&S--ALWAYS SOME?+ OR O!R--:I* MADE ME HAPPY1 & ,I REPROA*$ MYSELF = HAV+ UNTIL N[ >RANG$ MY LIFE SO BADLY1 = HAV+ ISOLAT$ MYSELF LIKE A B>B>IAN 9 A D>K MELAN*OLY *AMB]1 = NOT HAV+ LIV$1 :ILE ALL ?IS TIME ,P>IS WAS (F]+ ME1 AT EV]Y /EP1 JOYS SO EASILY ATTA9$ & SO SWEET TO RELI%4 

0,IS ,MONSIEUR P]HAPS WAIT+ = SOMEONE80 ! WAIT] ASK$ ME4 

,SOME ONE8 ,:Y NO1 ,I WAS NOT WAIT+ = ANYONE4 ,! DOOR ( ! RE/AURANT OP5$ & ,I QUICKLY TURN$ >\ND4 ,!N ,I UND]/OOD :Y ! WAIT] HAD ASK$ ?AT QUE/ION4 ,EA* TIME ! DOOR OP5$ ,I W\LD HA/ILY TURN >\ND AS ,I DID JU/ N[ & W\LD />E ANXI\SLY AT ! PEOPLE 5T]+ AS IF ,I KNEW ?AT SOMEONE WAS AB\T TO 5T]1 SOMEONE ,I WAS WAIT+ =4444 ,SOME ONE6 ,WELL1 = :OM C\LD ,I BE WAIT+8 

,I V]Y SELDOM W5T TO ! !AT]2 TO =CE ME !RE1 A SPECIAL OCCASION OR OBLIGATION OR 9DUCEM5T WAS REQUIR$4 ,I QUITE BELIEVE ?AT ( MY [N ACCORD ,I W\LD NEV] ?9K ( GO+ !RE4 ,I EV5 AFFECT$ A SUPREME CONTEMPT = ! K9D ( LIT]>Y /UFF (F]$ = SALE 9 !SE PU%C>T M>KETS ( M$IOCRITY4 ,CONCEIV+1 AS ,I DID1 ! !AT] AS A PLACE NOT ( IDLE DI/RACTION BUT ( S]I\S >T1 IT WAS REPUGNANT TO ME TO SEE HUMAN PASSION W>BL+ ONE & ! SAME S5TIM5TAL TUNE AMID ! ME*ANISM ( ALWAYS ID5TICAL SC5ES1 TO SEE GAIETY1 B$ECK$ ) T9SEL1 TUMBL+ 9TO ! SAME PIT ( TOMFOOL]Y4 ,A MANUFACTUR] ( SU* PLAYS1 BE !Y EV] SO APPLAUD$1 SEEM$ TO ME AN >TI/ GONE A/RAY2 HE BORE ! SAME RELATION TO ! POET ?AT AN UNFROCK$ CL]GYMAN BE>S TO A PRIE/1 OR A DES]T] DOES TO A SOLDI]6 

,& ,I ALWAYS REMEMB]$ ,LIRAT'S REM>K1 SO P[]FULLY CONCISE1 SO PR(\NDLY DISC]N+4 ,WE HAD BE5 ATT5D+ ! FUN]AL ( ! PA9T] ,M----4 ,! CELEBRAT$ DRAMATI/ ,D---- WAS ! *IEF M\RN]4 ,AT ! CEMET]Y HE DELIV]$ AN ADDRESS4 ,?IS DID NOT SURPRISE ANYONE1 = DID NOT ,H---- & ,D---- 5JOY A REPUTATION ( EQUAL GREATNESS8 ,AT ! 5D ( ! C]EMONY ,LIRAT TOOK MY >M & WE WALK$ BACK TO ,P>IS V]Y SAD4 ,LIRAT1 :O SEEM$ LO/ 9 PA9FUL M$ITATION1 WAS SIL5T4 ,SUDD5LY HE /OPP$1 CROSS$ HIS >MS &1 SWAY+ HIS HEAD ) AN IRRESI/IBLY COMICAL AIR BECAUSE IT WAS 9T5D$ TO BE GRAVE1 EXCLAIM$3 0,BUT :Y DID ?AT FELL[ ,D---- 9T]F]E1 TELL ME80 ,& HE WAS RI<T4 ,:Y DID HE 9T]F]E1 REALLY8 ,DID !Y COME FROM ! SAME /OCK & W]E !Y HEAD$ = ! SAME GLORY--! ONE AN >D5T >TI/ ) GR&IOSE ?\<TS & IMMORTAL WORKS1 & ! O!R1 :OSE SOLE IDEAL WAS TO 5T]TA9 ) SILLY NONS5SE AN ASSEMBLY ( WEAL?Y & REPUTABLE B\RGEOIS EA* EV5+4 ,YES1 REALLY1 :Y DID HE 9T]F]E8 

,H[ REMOV$ ,I WAS FROM SU* MOROSE S5TIM5TS :51 AFT] D9N]1 HAV+ SAUNT]$ ALONG ! B\LEV>DS1 5JOY+ ! FEEL+ ( PHYSICAL WELL-BE+ :I* GAVE TO MY MOVEM5T A SPECIAL LI<TNESS & ELA/ICITY1 ,I SEAT$ MYSELF 9 A *AIR AT ! ,V>IETE1 :]E A SUCCESSFUL MUSICAL COM$Y WAS BE+ PLAY$6 ,) MY FACE DELICI\SLY FRE%5$ BY ! COLD AIR \TSIDE1 MY HE>T 5TIRELY WON OV] TO A SORT ( UNIV]SAL =EBE>ANCE1 ,I WAS REALLY 5JOY+ MYSELF4 ,) :AT8 ,I DID NOT KN[ & LITTLE C>$ TO KN[1 NOT BE+ 9 ! MOOD = PSY*OLOGICAL SELF-ANALYSIS4 

,AS WAS PROP]1 ,I >RIV$ DUR+ ! 9T]MISSION1 :5 ! CR[D1 V]Y ELEGANT 9 APPE>ANCE1 WAS FILL+ ! LOBBIES4 ,AFT] HAV+ LEFT MY OV]COAT AT ! *ECK ROOM1 ,I PASS$ ?R\< ! P>T]RE BOXES ) ?AT SAME SWEET IMPATI5CE1 ?AT SAME DELICI\S ANGUI%1 :I* ,I HAD ALREADY EXP]I5C$ AT ! ,BOIS2 ON REA*+ ! FIR/ BALCONY ,I CONT9U$ ! SAME C>EFUL 9SPECTION ( ! LOGES4 0,:Y IS %E NOT H]E80 ,I ASK$ MYSELF4 ,EA* TIME ,I FAIL$ TO DI/+UI% CLE>LY A WOMAN'S FACE1 :E!R IT WAS BECAUSE ! FACE WAS SLI<TLY B5T1 9 %AD[1 OR CUT (F FROM VIEW BY A FAN1 ,I W\LD SAY TO MYSELF3 0,?AT'S ,JULIETTE60 ,& EA* TIME IT WAS NOT ,JULIETTE AT ALL4 ,! PLAY AMUS$ ME2 ,I LAU<$ HE>TILY AT ! FLAT JOKES :I* CON/ITUT$ ! ESS5CE ( ! PIECE3 ,I 5JOY$ ALL ?IS P]V]SE 9EPTITUDE1 ?IS VULG> CO>S5ESS & REALLY F\ND 9 IT A QUALITY ( IRONY :I* DID NOT LACK LIT]>Y M]IT4 ,AT ! LOVE SC5ES ,I GREW S5TIM5TAL4 ,DUR+ ! LA/ 9T]MISSION ,I MET A Y\NG MAN :OM ,I SC>CELY KNEW4 ,GLAD ( ! OPPORTUNITY TO P\R \T ! BANALITIES :I* HAD ACCUMULAT$ 9 ME & W]E PRESS+ = AN \TLET1 ,I CLUNG TO HIM4 

0,AN AMAZ+ ?+1 ISN'T IT80 HE SAID TO ME4 0,IT IS /UNN+1 EH80 

0,YES1 IT ISN'T BAD60 

0,NOT BAD6 ,NOT BAD6444 ,:Y ?AT IS A MA/]PIECE1 AN A/\ND+ MA/]PIECE6 ,:AT ,I ESPECIALLY LIKE IS ! SECOND ACT4 ,!RE IS A SITUATION = Y\1 NOT ?AT 444 A T5SE SITUATION6 ,:Y IT IS HI< COM$Y1 Y\ KN[6 ,& ! G[NS6 ,& ?AT ,JUDIC1 AH6 ?AT ,JUDIC64440 

,HE /RUCK HIS ?I< & CLICK$ HIS TONGUE3 

0,IT GOT ME ALL EXCIT$1 MY DE>6 ,IT'S A/ONI%+60 

,WE ?US DISCUSS$ ! M]ITS ( ! V>I\S ACTS1 SC5ES & ACTORS4 

,:5 WE W]E P>T+3 

0,TELL ME10 ,I ASK$ HIM1 0DO Y\ HAPP5 TO KN[ A C]TA9 ,JULIETTE ,R\X80 

0,WAIT N[6 ,OH1 P]FECTLY WELL6 ,A LITTLE BRUNET1 V]Y '*IC'8 ,NO1 ,I GOT MIX$ UP4 ,WAIT N[6 ,JULIETTE ,R\X6 ,DON'T KN[ H]40 

,AN H\R LAT] ,I WAS SEAT$ AT A TABLE ) A GLASS ( SODA WAT] 9 FRONT ( ME1 9 ! CAFE DE LA ,PAIX :]E1 AFT] ! !AT]1 US$ TO ASSEMBLE ! MO/ BEAUTIFUL REPRES5TATIVES ( ! FA%IONABLE WORLD4 ,A GREAT MANY WOM5 CAME 9 & \T1 9SOL5T1 L\D-M\!D1 !IR FACES COV]$ ) FRE% LAY]S ( RICE P[D]1 !IR LIPS NEWLY PA9T$ ) R\GE6 ,AT ! ADJO9+ TABLE A LITTLE BLOND LADY1 ALREADY AG$ BUT V]Y ANIMAT$1 WAS SPEAK+ 9 A NASAL VOICE2 A BRUNET1 F>!R AWAY1 WAS SIMP]+ ) A TURKEY'S LUDICR\S MAJE/Y1 & ) ! SAME H& :I* HAD RAK$ MANURE ON ! F>M %E HELD A FAN1 :ILE H] ESCORT1 LEAN+ AGA9/ HIS *AIR1 HIS HAT PU%$ BACK1 HIS LEGS SPREAD AP>T1 WAS OBDURATELY SUCK+ HIS CANE'S HEAD4 

,AN UNCONTROLLABLE FEEL+ ( DISGU/ ROSE )9 ME2 ,I WAS A%AM$ ( BE+ H]E1 & ,I COMP>$ ! RIDICUL\S & NOISY MANN]S ( !SE WOM5 ) ! RES]V$ DEPORTM5T ( ! G5TLE ,JULIETTE AT ,LIRAT'S /UDIO4 ,!SE RAUC\S & PI]C+ VOICES R5D]$ EV5 MORE SUAVE ! FRE%NESS ( H] VOICE1 ! VOICE :I* ,I /ILL HE>D SAY+ TO ME3 0,DELI<T$1 ,MONSIEUR6 ,BUT ,I KN[ Y\ WELL40 ,I >OSE4 

0,:AT A SC\NDREL ?IS ,LIRAT IS1 ALL ! SAME10 ,I EXCLAIM$ :ILE GETT+ 9TO B$1 FURI\S AT ! FACT ?AT HE HAD SO TREAT$ A Y\NG WOMAN :OM ,I HAD MET NEI!R ON ! /REET1 AT ! ,BOIS1 9 ! RE/AURANT1 AT ! !AT]1 NOR AT ! NI<T CAB>ET4 

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